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What is dead may never die
⚠️⚠️Slight Robot gore & Blood⚠️⚠️FIR
#transformers#idw megatron#idw tarn#megatron#maccadams#happy halloween 2024#October 2024 prompt#TF creatives#tf fanarts#fanarts#arts#my arts#digital arts#kairukitsuneOart#what is dead may never die#slight robot gore#the horror in megatron face wwww#probably not very scary#i hate doing details lmao#first challenge to properly draw robot gore#I tried#spooky season#happy halloween#FIRST ATTEMPT TO DRAW TARN#TARN CONFUSES ME HOW DO I COLOR HIM
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Mostly Hiring manager, but HR manager and PR manager too
#elden ring#elden ring varre#white mask varre#varre#white faced varre#tarnished#tarnished oc#varre x tarnished#tw; blood#suggestive#no jokes or humor this time sorry#just Varre being Varre#I know I usually stick to humor stuff but this clawed through my brain like an eldritch horror#I actually hate 5/11 Varre faces I drew here but I did my best#sometimes homeboy is gonna look like a lil gremlin and there’s nothing I can do about it#but also those other 6 /11 faces are the best I’ve ever done so I’ll take it#never been more clear to me how I unconsciously push myself to do harder things#like we got crazy hand angles with defined knuckles and fingernails#we got the upward angle face that doesn’t look like shit#we got form fitting lighting that is passable#semi accurate fabric physics#did I not give a fuck about the BG#yes#but I’m here for Varre sex appeal not rendering bricks#also misericorde magically changes scale throughout the whole comic#lmao oops#most detailed environmental lighting I’ve done too#Christ the lengths I go to for deranged fictional men#at the very least I feel like the dialogue isn’t ooc#me fighting for my life to make sure Varre looks like the same damn character between each panel
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OC INTRODUCTION ❣ ELIOTT EMBERS
BASIC INFORMATION
full name ✒️ Eliott Embers nicknames ✒️ ― species ✒️ human height ✒️ 182 cm age ✒️ 17 y/o birthday ✒️ 30.06 gender ✒️ cis male (he/him) sexuality ✒️ gay hometown ✒️ Queendom of Roses dorm ✒️ Cendrea (my Cinderella fandorm) class ✒️ N/A club ✒️ Home Economics favorite subject ✒️ animal linguistics dominant hand ✒️ left talent ✒️ doing house chores quickly hobby ✒️ watching tv shows, writing, collecting rocks favorite food ✒️ pumpkin soup least favorite food ✒️ anything made out of eggs pet peeve ✒️ people making a mess after he cleaned twisted from ✒️ Cinderella
PERSONALITY
Eliott is, first and foremost, good at finding the good side in almost every situation. His family treating him like a servant? Well, at least he's gaining a lot of skills that may be useful to him in adult life! His step-brother is fighting with him again? Maybe he can use their fights as an inspiration for dialogue in his next fanfic! Hope is the only thing he has, and he holds onto it as tightly as he can.
At home, where making himself be too noticed would probably do him more harm than good, Eliott is quiet and obedient ― he knows when to put his head down and bite his tongue, keeping the complaining to himself, and when to exit the scene. Away from home, though, he transforms completely. He's cheerful and full of energy. Even if he can sometimes be a bit awkward when talking to others, he's still very friendly (sometimes to the point of not knowing when to stop talking) and loves meeting new people. To make up for having to be quiet and calm at home, he often indulges in a bit of harmless chaos. He jokes around a lot, tends to pull little harmless pranks on people, and is not above a little rule breaking if he knows he won't get into too much trouble for it.
Amongst other Royal Sword Academy he has a reputation of being always willing to help others, though Eliott himself is not exactly proud of it ― he's not sure how much of it is the natural goodness of his heart, and how much is just a habit of agreeing to other people's demands without even thinking.
A dreamer at heart; he spends most of his time fantasising about the life he will lead once he moves out of his house or, better yet, completely strange worlds. Often times, he gets lost in his own fantasies, making him seem a little airheaded.
Signature Spell -> A Dream, A Wish ; It allows him to bring to life things he had written about, within certain limitations. For the thing to came out looking good and actually function as intended, he needs to describe it in as much detail as possible, and the bigger, more complicated the thing, the more magic it requires. Most of the things disappear after a some amount of time.
BACKSTORY
A leftover child ― that's what Eliott calls himself, usually when trying to make a joke about his situation. He never knew his mother; she died in childbirth. His father, trying to give his son a good life, remarried quickly, not noticing that his new wife seemed to be more concerned with his money than his son.
After Eliott's father died too while Eliott was still a young boy, his step-mother sold their house and their family moved into a more prestigious part of the town. His step-mother didn't hold too much affection for the son of her late husband, either leaving Eliott to take care of himself, or pushing him around to do whatever needed to be done at the house, and clearly favouring her biological child.
Growing up, Eliott quickly found ways to escape his situation. Sometimes ― quite literary, as he would start to spend more and more time at his friends' houses, his absence often unnoticed by his step-mother. Other times, he would escape into the world of fiction, devouring one tv show after another or, even better yet, discussing his favorite shows with people online.
RELATIONSHIPS
Grace Celestique [OC] ― Eliott's vice-housewarden and his senior, they basically adopted Eliott the moment they saw him. Eliot can see that despite Grace's usual silliness, they can often be pretty mature and he trusts them with helping him run the dorm well. He often comes to Grace for advice, and even without that, the two of them hang out a lot ― they simply compliment each other's chaotic energy quite well. Duncan Lawerence [OC] ― Eliott's freshman year roommate. At first Eliott was afraid that the two of them wouldn't get along, considering how cold and aloof Duncan was acting. Luckily, the two of them quickly bonded over their favorite tv show and now not only is Duncan a part of Eliott's closest friend group, the two of them have also co-authored a few fanfiction together. Allan Embers [OC] ― Eliott's younger step-brother. To say that the two of them never got along would be an understatement. Eliott was always jealous of Allan getting all the attention and support, while Allan, being the spoiled child, would often treat Eliott horribly just for the sake of it. Growing up, the two of them would either constantly fight or ignore each other for days. Now, with Eliott going to RSA and Allan going to NRC, their relationship seems more strained than ever. They simply don't talk to eachother at all, and during every interschool event, Allan seems to be avoiding his brother like the plague. Eliott isn't sure why Allan suddenly stopped picking on him and started to just ignore him the whole time, but he chooses to think of it as a blessing. That way, he can have some peace. Trey Clover ― Growing up in the same neighbourgood, the two of them quickly became friends. Not only did they spend hours playing together, Eliott would spend most of his free time at the Clover's house, adoring the atmosphere there. He very much sees Trey as an older brother figure, and even if they can't spend as much time together now, they still keep in contact and meet up as often, as they can. Che'nya ― The two of them are childhood friends as well, and they grew even closer after they both got into RSA and if Eliott is not spending time with the friends from his dorm, he's usually always with Che'nya. Separately, Eliott is almost a model student, but together with Che'nya, they're the staff's biggest headache, as Che'nya often happily enables Eliott's mischief seeking behaviours. ♡ Riddle Rosehearts ― They're both childhood friends and neighbours, as the new house Eliott's family moved into was next to the Rosehearts' house, with the windows to the boys' bedrooms being opposite eachother. Eliott would often see Riddle through the window and grew curious about the boy, readily taking the first chance to befriend him. Despite how different their temperaments were, they quickly grew close ― when they couldn't see each other anymore, they would exchange letters through their windows. Eliott didn't understand why after some time their friendship suddenly stopped altogether, with Riddle ignoring his letters, but he assumed he must have done something to make the boy upset. He missed his friend, but there was nothing he could've done about it, and with enough of his own problems, he didn't have the time to dwell on it. They only rekindled their friendship after Riddle's overblot; they slowly learn how to be friends again, often meeting up on the weekends or after school, if Riddle has the time.
TRIVIA
he's the housewarden of Cendrea. he took the position at the beginning of his sophomore year, after being chosen by a popular vote by his dorm mates at the end of the previous school year
Eliott is a passionate ― and a quite prolific ― fanfiction writer. he specialises in writing long-winded modern AUs for fantasy shows that may be bittersweet, but still always have a happy ending. he's not particularly shy about this interest of his and will happily show his works to whoever asks about it
his dream career is becoming a children's books author
while he is good at doing all the various house chores, he doesn't especially enjoy them
not only does he feed the mice living in his house, he also gives them names and talks to them as if they are his friends ― he's been doing it since he was a child
he has an old shoebox that he keeps under his desk, full of the rocks he collected on his walks
most of the time he stays at RSA during the winter and summer breaks
he doesn't like eggs because when he was younger, he often had to cook for himself and eggs were the easiest thing he could cook in different ways, so now he says after eating them so often, he got bored of them
he likes to wear baggy/oversized clothes
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#twisted wonderland#twst#twisted wonderland oc#twst oc#royal sword academy#royal sword academy oc#rsa oc#oc x canon#💌 lore#✒️ eliott#woooooo!!! i finished all of this ealier than i expected!!! congrats me!!!#its funny because eliott and his ship with riddle live in my head a lot actually#and i have a whole backlog of writing for them#i just never post about them or about just eliott#mostly because i just really didnt like eliott's design#it was just so??? random????#past me had NO idea what i was doing#but i really like this one#ive decided to move some of the more overt cinderella references to his dorm uniform#which i'll post sometime soon#i just gave him the little pins on his sweater#also i decided to just. not give him the rsa uniform coat as i fucking /hate/ drawing it#so im just not going to do it <3#also ive ironed out some of the details about his character in general#not many major changes just kinda shuffled the importance of some stuff and changed some details a little#and now i really happy with him :D#also ive decided to make him even more tall#just to annoy riddle lmao#and YES i do love sad childhood best friends to lovers what about it
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Some PASWG based art bcs I can't be fucked to do anything more complex rn lmao
Dw I'll get back to drawing phycological horrors soon, I just need to torment Alfred first because it's funny, also expect more PASWG esque art
#the boys#homelander#the boys homelander#hetalia#hetalia america#crossover#i love physiologically tormenting characters#i fucking hated trying to simplify the details on Homelander's boots#the belt too I hated doing that one so much#because the entire time i was trying to come up with something that looked good out of simplifying such a complicated design#i think i did ok#aph america#i wasn't listening to femtanyl while drawing this time i was listening to Virgo by kiiiiichi it's a good song despite the fact#the entire song is just Japanese gibberish#I might do something with it soon tho idk lmao#despite the fact I wasn't listening to femtanyl i did use colors from a femtanyl cover for this art#paswg artstyle#paswg
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i feel like i need a transfem sensitivity reader at this point but i have nothing to offer as compensation lmfao
#the second problem is that im skittish and hate showing rough drafts im not sure about to people i don't already trust a lot#but none of the transfem friends i have are actively involved in my fandom bullshit and i'd be mortified to ask. esp with no compensation#it's just like. god.#doing research on something i don't know much about and then incorporating it into a story to humanize/romanticize/eroticize the details#is like. one of my favourite writing activities. however#its kind of scary when the research is about real people with experiences i don't and never will have#also hi#sorry for the silence. i keep getting overwhelmed by the pileup of unanswered asks and like#not logging in here at all lmao#trying to have a relaxed attitude about it just so i don't avoid this account entirely#i'll answer when i can and when i feel like it slkfjvd sorry guys
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sorry im just thinking about bcs but like. why not add a few smaller scenes of gus interacting with his own men? why does it seem like, in comparison, mike is almost immediately elevated to a higher status than those two in bcs purely because we actually get to see him having normal conversations with gus? like i understand they might not keep the plot moving as well because of the fact obviously if victor is currently doing something it’s because gus told him to etc. but for the most part all of the smaller interactions gus does have with those two ends up being in a somewhat high stress situation where it feels very tense between everyone. and it’s just like damn! is it always like that?? why do those two even care that much about their jobs if their boss is a bit of a dick? etc. i think even an additional scene or two with those guys (either alone or the both of them) talking with gus in a more normal situation could’ve both added a bit more depth into how gus treats his employees (we got a lot with how he treats lyle and co., but not a whole lot with the illegal side of things), how comfortable vic and tyrus feel around him in a calmer setting, and exactly why they both feel the need to be as loyal as they are to the guy.
and also on the other side of this i don't think it'd hurt to maybe elaborate on their pay just a bit..? i'm not saying to randomly put a number out into the atmosphere but i just mean some smaller things like. do they buy nicer things for themselves? what's their housing situation? what's their car situation? are the escalade / yukon their own vehicles or does gus just use those two for business situations? do they use them when they're doing their own stuff off the clock or do they have their own cars? etc. that can also help with understanding their motivations a bit. don't get me wrong i don't think they should be visibly rich or something because that's not what gus would want but just smaller things! cause it's easy to write their loyalty off as Well they probably get paid super well, which i'm sure is true, but if they don't show a single hint of that then what's the point. even something as simple as giving tyrus a nice watch, or maybe victor having a nicer looking gun, etc. something small like that. because as it stands right now the average 41 year old viewer who watched the show once only knows and will only ever know victor and tyrus as those two guys in the background who do random stuff for gus with no clear motivation. just the personification of "On it boss (salute emoji)". and to be honest this is true for a whole lot of fans who do watch the show multiple times and enjoy thinking about it more in depth, because on screen we barely have anything about the two.
and to be clear i'm not trying to say we should have an episode just for them or something like no i understand they're side characters. i understand we don't need all that. and i understand this is also primarily Jimmy's show. but it's not like these two are on the same level as like, arlo or paige and kevin etc. these guys have been around since brba. victor was literally introduced in the same episode gus was. and they are a huge part of gus's story, especially in brba. s4 wouldn't have been what it was without victor and tyrus. and in bcs, ignacio's situation wouldn't have been the same if it weren't for victor and tyrus as well. and i just personally believe that if their goal with gus in bcs was to go back and elaborate on how everything came to be and show what he was like a few years younger, they could've dragged victor and tyrus into that. and i think his character would've benefited from taking that extra step with those two.
#gray.txt#and you know. obviously i personally have my own clear ideas of everything. and i'm content with what i got. this isn't coming from a place#of Well victor is my favorite guy so everything should be about him LOL. i know what he is.#but thats only because i spent like what? 2 years now watching random interviews and analyzing the smallest details within the show that#genuinely meant nothing while they were writing the scripts. and then throwing some random ideas at the wall to see if they stick.#and i just dont think everybody should have to do that LOL. and i think gus's character gets a lot more interesting#when do you do have this clear idea of victor and tyrus in your head and how he interacts with them. but 99% of people dont have that!#nobody fucking knows everything giancarlo and vince ever said about box cutter. nobody knows about the interview where giancarlo referred t#his entire business (meth and restaurant) as his 'family'. and they'd never think of that in those terms#because with the exception of his restaurant workers and mike#it feels like he HATES them LMAO.#tldr all i'm saying is i think we could've benefited from at least one 1 minute long scene of victor and gus exchanging words#where it doesn't end in gus snapping the phone in half out of anger. and also let tyrus speak his mind and have gus agree with him once#also yeah sorry this is all over the place but it is somehow the most coherent i have felt in months so this is as good as its getting sorr#sorry .#also to be clear about my earlier statement that’s a lie my idea of those two is not clear in my head whatsoever i just meant in comparison#to literally the average viewer. and my own personal thoughts about them aren’t even true it’s just opinions and guesses.#and i love a character that i can just say shit about but at the same time i think it’s fun to have idk something in the source material#that you can actually use while thinking and not have to dig around 11 year old reddit AMAs#and that money paragraph sort of came out of order what i meant by saying all that is like#i feel those two could benefit from a clear motivation for why they do all the things they do#and if we have neither personal reasons nor monetary reasons then it just makes them feel like one dimensional henchmen or something#came out of no where* not order you dumb fuck (< me)#also it doesn’t have to be clear in our faces or anything whatever you know what i’m saying . this is too long i can’t keep elaborating
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random firewatch au detail that has basically no impact on the story unless you want to psychoanalyze fw!grian even further than i did as the author, but it's very intentional that i always refer to both of mumbo's parents but only grian's mom. did i give him daddy issues? i guess so, but not in a way where i really deeply examined the implications as meaningful to the story. it was just a detail i stuck with from the beginning as a way to keep fleshing out the story's background subtly. the idea behind grian's dual citizenship was always that he was born in america to an american dad and british mom, and that his mom moved back to the UK when he was very young since she wanted to be closer to her family. perhaps his dad didn't go with them? or perhaps his dad did, and then later they split and he went back to america? whatever the cause, grian never even mentions his dad in the story, and it wasn't because i intended him to be dead (because that would have come up in a story about grief) if you get me
#i have no idea why but i normally HATE thinking about cubitos' parents in like. normal mcyt settings sjlfjslkfjs#if i'm writing a hermitcraft-setting fic i'd rather have them all just spawn into the world fully formed than dealing with their parents LO#but in a real-world au it made more sense for the characters to mention their parents occasionally#i just similarly didn't spend TOO much time worrying about it because it was not really the focus#everybody's relationships with their family is a bit less important here than their relationships with their Friends here you know?#i also think that ivi inspired this a little because somewhere early in the fic she was like hey what Made grian react to things like this?#like what experiences in his life primed him to react like This to the story events?#i was like. oh yeah.#cause i normally approach writing grian from the perspective of watcher!grian#but normally him on hermitcraft or life series AFTER he escaped them and it's more of an old trauma that informs his present actions#with firewatch au there is like....none of that pretext. there's no context that he might have had other trauma in life?#but i WAS writing him like that. out of habit. and i'm not saying he DID have prexisting trauma in firewatch au#that's very much something i haven't bothered to flesh out because it's in the zone of things where my time was better spent elsewhere#but i will say i think i only starting doing the one parent detail AFTER ivi mentioned this lmao#i mean. if the guy's got abandonment issues it probably explains a lotttt of his fear of giving up on Mumbo. just sayin'#hc_firewatch_au
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why is fatal throne saur bad...
#maybe if jennifer donnelly had written AB's chapter...?#i love her style and i've noticed tudor-like motifs in her newer fairytale stuff#i can't even decide what i hate most#her relationship with cranmer being cold and distant#the 'tea' or the pre-elevation cromwell being elevated...#it's not a snobbery about titles; it's more that i think that's a detail that's best to keep accurate for narrative sake#bcus it's significant he didn't become lord cromwell til after the events of may 1536#also lmao why do so many tudor novels write that he was lord chancellor...specfically.#make an effort.jpeg#'it's just YA' i don't care!! make an effort
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sometimes my sketches are better than the finished drawings lmao
#i fucking love like. giving a sketch only some of a character's features (just enough that you can tell who it's meant to be)#and masumii's design is SO perfect for that#angy cjnvjkcv-#shook wips#oc shiz#masumii (oc)#do i even tag takoshi. he literally only has a face lmao#also yes this is literally all i do for sketches#i hate lineart so if i'm gonna draw all the details i'm only doing it once lmao#anyways we're starting to get to comedic levels of me coping that i'll get the takoshi post done tomorrow#it's for real this time guys i promise (i have multiple doodles to do and i need to convert my rough outline into an actual bio + add the#non-backstory stuff)#it'll be worth it though i promise#these guys mean a lot to me and i want to be able to properly express that#in reality i know that like. people probably don't care about/mind me pushing it back (again) but like. idk i feel bad bc i said it would b#ready and it just isn't cjnckv#idk. i should be drawing instead of writing this tho lmao#anyways deltaru- ahem. i mean takoshi post. takoshi post tomorrow
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i just realised how stupid my deranged bad brain posts look with aroace flag gort above them love and peace i may be a terrible freak loner but i will always find silly and whimsy everywhere 🙏
#i am cry laughing#not crying because it’s so funny it’s just a horrible mix#imagining gort in my brain judging me rn#gort voice this one needs a lobotomy.#and y’know what maybe i do hate to admit it but maybe i do. lmao#remembering that as an answer for an ask i detailed how he would mentally break me. good times
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Hi hello!!! Sorry for the lack of posts recently, I've just been dealing with some pretty bad depression
And uhhh! I am currently unable to afford meds rn so I'm just gonna...
points at my $5 headshot commissions again
and even link my cashapp. Only $3 extra for a tiny on your shoulder now for my commissions! No charge for having a big hand patting your head or something cause it's actually easier to add than a tiny for me lol
https://ko-fi.com/mocha_latte/commissions
https://cash.app/$Astakoi
So uh.. if any of you want anything/just want to help me out, yeah I'd appreciate it a bunch!
Gonna try to get back into posting more art :> and do a few artfight things before the month ends
#hate to promo commissions or even ask for anything but uh... i am not super good without my meds and will not be paid until august 5th#some irl issues (one being my health lmao) + needing gas has me very broke rn though#commissions#donations#self promo#g/t#giant/tiny#g/t community#<- i still love drawing g/t stuff!#ooo i should draw tiny honkai star rail stuff-#anyway please feel free to commission g/t stuff! idm throwing a hand in the headshot somewhere or something to show size difference#wont get into detail on irl stuff so i understand if you guys dont want to donate anything!! and if you cant commission reblogging helps#not forced though#i do hate guilt trips a lot so im not gonna do that shit#my situation isnt life or death... worst comes to worst ill just get my meds when paid!#oh also going through some gender crisis stuff lol#anyway lol sorry for the tag ramble these posts make me nervous
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Can you tell me all about your favorite blorbo, LU or otherwise? Why do you love them? I have a guess, but maybe I’m wrong, and the WHY is the best part.
WILD BEST BLORBO, as I'm sure anyone that has even glanced at my stuff could guess that.
I've already said it on here, but in the context of my own story, I love the struggle of him trying to figure out who he is, wanting independence and wanting someone to watch out for him (ie. Twilight), how much of his past defines him, how much of his future is actually his own to decide, y'know that sort of coming-of-age story and all that jazz with a spritz of Fate and a slight sprinkle of Hylia is a mean mfer.
The why? Gah I'm trying to figure out how to answer this in a way that doesn't spoil all of BDOR. But basically, I find it really fun and challenging--and also quite self-reflective, cuz y'know therapy isn't free but fanfiction sure is--to write like five emotionally stunted beings in a trench coat resembling one semi-functioning edgelord of a human without A) also making it SUPER obvious that I am doing so, at least for arc 1 and B) not coming off as "inconsistent characterization," at least so much so that people stop reading XD
So now my question to you, dear SkipBreaker, is the same--who is your favorite blorbo (I think I know who lol, at least for LU but you don't have to answer that way) and why?
#I may delete this later#I've already said too much#Gah I say that as if anyone is paying as close attention to the story details as I am#Ya'll gonna hate me with how long this story is going to take to come out#I'm taking like a month's break to make sure that everything is together for arc 1#And I'll be updating a lot of prologue stuff#so at least ya'll have something to eat#but this will literally be a story that goes on for years if I do my once a week updates like I've been doing#Oh well#bdor#blooddropsonroses#cheetoanswers#not gonna tag this linked universe#I feel like sometimes I clog up ya'lls tag with my rambling lmao
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I'm kind of tired of seeing posts about loneliness being caused by sitting alone in your room or not going out on daily walks because I never feel more lonely than in the middle of the crowd, when I am surrounded by all the "normal" people that look at me the weird way, that could have been my friends or lovers if only I was more like them. When I don't see them, I don't even think of such things and they remind me of all these things. When I'm alone I have the best company – me.
#i start feeling the worst when i leave the house and its not social anxiety i used to think so but no i dont mind talking to people like ofc#it is stressful but i can even talk to strangers when i have to and such things and i quite enjoy it sometimes#so its not social anxiety im just not a part of humanity sorry#i feel so out of place like im behind a glass wall and like im copying normal people's behaviors#i even get stressed about the way i sit on the tram... do i look normal do people stare at me do i sit straight do i sit like a boy#should i close my legs should i move a little do i look like an alien? lmao i hate overthinking every singe detail#of my performance and i hate that it is a performance to me#posted by me
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I can’t believe people assign Kaveh the yandere trope sometimes like that is SO ooc he literally wouldn’t ?! I mean I personally don’t care if he is or isn’t but canonically speaking bro let his own mother whom he loved so dearly to leave FOR HER SAKE even though he was so hurt by her going … he would not trap somebody like he would probably end up killing himself from guilt like are you serious 😭
#dora daily#☹️#pls why am I making myself so sad in the early morning …#I joke abt me being yandere for him but omg yall i would notttttt 😭#we’re both of too weak of a character to impose ourselves onto someone#the moment I feel like I’m not liked enough no matter if this person is an extra organ to me idc I’m distancing for their sake#this is why it annoys me when ppl say Kaveh would do this Kaveh would do that#HE WOULDNT ?!! like you need to know his personality SUPER well and usually the way to be that knowledgeable is by experiencing it first han#hand* like istg not to sound weird BUT NOBODY GETS HIM LIKE I DO 😭 it’s almost disturbing how similar we are like srsly#from the thesis between him and alhaitham to the fallouts to the all consuming guilt and shame ALL THE TIME#I always feel guilty like at a certain point the fact I existed made me sick with guilt and shame#there’s actually sooo many more similarities that are way more intricate rather than these generic details#my mum would hate his gutsssss btw icl she would be one of those prolific Kaveh haters#honestly I wouldn’t be surprised if she was one of those ppl who say he has stds ….#like ik how my mum would react to him bc she reacts that way to me she mocks me for how I think of other ppl before myself 🫠#not that I think I’m great not at all I promise nobody hates me more than I do myself ☠️#but yeah#POINT IS : kaveh isn’t a yandere and never would be#ty for coming to my ted talk#all these fics abt him killing ur best friend or him locking you imprisoning you in the house#Etc etc … NAH if I wanted somebody like my mum I could literally stay under my mums care forever#but if you wanna know idc if he hypothetically snapped and became a yandere and started acting like my mum ? 🙈 ID HAPPILY OBLIGE !!!#like idm technically being stuck here in this house as much anymore and having everything monitored for me#bc I’m just so miserable abt this condition that I’ve accepted it#at least I’d have him with me 😆👍#perfect victim forreal 😭 LMAO SORRY I’m just coping with how sick / neg this life of mine is ☠️
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If you read my old stuff and saw that I put Y/N, you didn’t

#bc why do I hate it now#and I’ll always read it as ‘your name’ and not my actual name lmao#I feel like it details me from the story
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how tf do people put in the actual detail from johnny's cybernetic arm, i literally just drew in vaguely similar shapes in the shittiest way possible.
#i was staring at my shitty reference like ???#i was like... whaty am i suppose to do#and some mfers draw in EVERY DETAIL OF IT#you all are insane#i hate being into cyberpunk i really suck at drawing robotic stuff LMAO#and i used to draw overwatch stuff#especially genji#i wont draw takemura or i might actually cry like AUFGU#also my drawings of johnny are so bad idek who this man is#thats not my man but i cant draw people who are based on real people or looks like a person that could exist irl#basically i cant draw people who are realistically drawn or modelled lol#kwyoz.txt#johnny silverhand#cyberpunk#cyberpunk 2077
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