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msookyspooky · 3 years ago

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im seeing more and more fan accounts of IRL killers on tiktok and I really don't understand it, it's so fucked and disrespectful. + there's so many fictional ones they could be fans of yk? sorry for the little rant!

Anyways how're ya doing spookmeister? -🍜

Ttly agree!!! Like, I puke in my mouth a lil whenever dumb bitches have fan accounts of Richard Ratface or Ted Bunyan.

I'm talking about murder and SA so fair warning before continuing

They were rapist, tortured their victims, disrespected their victims in every way and viciously murdered them. Richard raped a 9 year old girl and then grandmothers it doesn't get too much more fucked than that. They're families have to live with that forever and the idea that some incel/femcels have fan accounts of these sick fucks is insane. Honestly, Slashers are so over the top and really are tame when you research irl serial killers and besides Slashers are....FICTIONAL. I feel like I have to drill this into ppls heads. If Billy and Stu were irl serial killers; I wouldn't even think of looking at them let alone root for them. I don't even condone what they do in Scream and their fictional characters!

Hear me out;

The only murderers I've ever felt sorry for were the Menendez Brothers and Aileen Warnos. Alieen is back and forth bc first she claimed they all raped her then she claimed only the first one did then I think I read somewhere that she claims the authorities pressured her while on death row to make her say that. It's hard to tell but considering she was a face to face sex worker and the abuse I know so many f2f swers I've talked to deal with John's every time they work (I was an online swer and dealt with enough shit) killing that small number of men was microscopic compared to the number of men she could have which makes me feel like her first statement that it was self defense was true. These men were seeking out a prostitute on the side of the road while they had families at home and they knew a woman like Allieen would never be believed or have justice on her side so it's not insane to me if she was telling the truth and they did hurt her.

But she was mentally unwell and had severe paranoia and it wouldn't shock me if she lied and just hated men either.

Either way, it may not be right especially if she did kill for money but I still can't put her in the same category as Jeffrey Dahmer or Richard Ramirez or John Wayne Gacy or Ted Bundy. Those monsters tortured and stalked and raped their victims before killing them. Alieen was still wrong but the victims came to her as a prostitute and either it really was self defense or it was money and she killed them. No stalking or rape or torture or sadistic joy that Ted or Richard got off on. If she killed men for money that is still awful but I still sympathize for her more than the others. The woman was failed and tortured by men her entire life. The system usually fails all of these killers but she was an especially sad case. I'm not condoning what she did (Unless they really did rape her then nevermind go off) but out of all the serial killers irl I can understand her pov even if I don't condone it.

And the Menendez brothers shouldn't even be in prison imo. Those poor boys were raped daily by their father and their mom molested them. They aren't a danger to society and killed two ppl that were horrible human beings after having enough.

But even if I can sympathize with a tiny amount; to make a simping fan account? Especially towards rapist murderers? It's sick and ppl with those accounts are either pussy ass edgelords or need actual help.

#tw rape mention #im doing great btw! Don't mind my rant but I love true crime and I have a lot to say 😅

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kojinnie · 4 years ago

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AOT Characters’ Modern Jobs Headcanon; The Vets Edition!

The jobs that The Vets would have in modern!au, their workplace antics and their back story. There might be some inaccuracies when describing the job as obviously I don’t work at these industries to know its intricacies. Most of the jobs are office jobs. Enjoyyyy!

My Masterlist .::. Pt. II: Zeke Yeager’s Modern Jobs Headcanon

Most recent work: Dream Me Home (Before Shiganshina) | reader x erwin smith

A/N: I really need to finish a presentation deck due tonight for an early morning meeting tomorrow but of course, this comes first hahaha

erwin!

A/N: Basically lawyer!erwin is the way to go, innit?

He's in his 40s, so he may have a settled career

He came from a white-collar, middle-class family. So he wasn’t silverspoon-fed, but his parents had enough money to put him through good school

Got a scholarship to go to one of the nation’s finest law schools

Kept it lowkey in college’s social circle, graduated with summa cum laude, developed a strong academic relation with his professor, and got recommended for an internship at top law firm at the capital city

Starting his career as a corporate lawyer, but then built his expertise as white-collar crime attorney

In his early 30s, he represented a union suing against conglomerate corporation in a big case that had national coverage, from then on he began to know his calling

Expanding his portfolio and became well-known for defending workers, consumers and civilians against corporate fraud scheme

Currently doing a lot of pro-bono cases for deprived victims of big corporate fraud. You would see him frequently gracing your local newspaper we love us some socialist king

On the side, he often writes for law journal and fills in as guest professor at local universities for summer courses

Established his own law firm with some of his partners, specializing in white collar crime and labor & employment law

He’s damn accomplished, but never really had any time for self-indulgence. Even after he becomes a household name in the country, with tens of attorneys working under him, his employees would still see him working on New Year’s Eve

He was always attentive to his employees, though. Although he has a very strict, borderline no-life work ethics, he never forces his employees to follow his habit, in fact he despises when his employees works on holidays and can be seen blaming himself for it a bit of a hypocrite but thats ok

He still takes metro to work. He prefers a very lowkey, ordinary lifestyle because he fears if he shows any knack for indulgence, he will be susceptible to gratification from potential enemies or crooked politicians

Definitely a sight to see at the workplace, for he's tall and always oozes a sense of authority in the way he speaks and carries himself generally

His emotional intelligence is top-notch, you would never meet someone who is able to be very objective and calculating, while being kind and compassionate at the same time

His fellow attorneys put a lot for respect for him, and hundreds of applicants come to his considerably small firm every week, because a lot of aspiring attorney find him inspiring to work with

He wasn’t oblivious to his shiny reputation, but he’s trying his hardest to not let the compliments get to his head. Sometimes he doesn’t give himself enough credit for it

Was approached by one of the political party’s committee to run for local senate, but turned it down

basically he’s perfect if you like a man who’s never home for christmas

Hange!

A/N: Ok ok, I really wanna see Paleontologist!Hange because it has always been my fave dream job, but I want Hange to be out and about with people so here it is

Hange is the type to be incredibly good at one thing, that she will dedicate her whole life for that pursuit, but will be awfully oblivious to a whole lot of things (not intentional of course, they just have a very limited attention span) (they wouldn’t know who kanye west is or what tiktok is)

Like Erwin, they came from a middle-class family. While Erwin’s parents might have been teachers, accountants or other common profession, Hange came from a family of academician and researchers

Hange studied Human Geography at uni, but later found passion specifically in its relation to industrialization and urban development

Hange aims to advocate for a better living condition for workforce, and nearby inhabitants of industrialized city detroit would be a beautiful city if only they let hange designed it

Hange is a professor at university, where they also led a non-profit research think-thank that also serves as pressure group for better government policy.

The university that Hange teaches in, is also the uni where Erwin teaches in summer. They’re close-knitted colleagues as they share similar passion. Erwin relies on Hange a lot for some intellectual insights to help his cases

Hange is relentless in their cause, you may find Hange everywhere! From street protest to a hearing in the government court. They are passionate and will do anything for the cause they believe in

Hange was once hired by the government as an independent consultant for a new housing project, but left because they grew to be frustrated by the government’s bureaucracy and their outward reluctance to follow Hange's recommendation

Hange spends a lot of time overseas, consulting and advocating development in newly industrialized countries

On Hange’s birthday, her fellow researchers surprised them with a ‘pampering day’ where they took them to an optometrist because Hange had been complaining about their eyesight for a YEAR that gave them a lot of migraines, but was always either too busy or too lazy to go

Hange never really considers themselves as working, because they enjoy their job very much. Hange likes to spend months observing a community, talking to people for hours, and trying their best in understanding their problem

Out of so many great qualities that Hange has as a researcher that meets different set of people everyday, prejudice or preconceived judgment is completely absent in Hange’s demeanor and perspective

Hange doesn’t get a lot of free-time, even if they do, they’d wander around the city to do a little observation. But when the weather’s bad and they’re stuck at home with their pet lizard, they would logged into Quora to answer random internet questions

They’re an avid writer for National Geographic, and one time Hange won a pitch to make a documentary about an industrial city project they were working on

After the docu-series got broadcasted, Hange gained a small but passionate and loyal fans on the internet. You could even find a subreddit dedicated for Hange’s works

for real I want to be Hange. I want to have that kind of passion in life

levi!

A/N: I spent a lot of times thinking about Levi’s job in modern!au. Because here’s the thing, either we adopt his unfortunate childhood into its modern!au equivalent, or let’s just recreate his whole upbringing. But I think his personality stems from a specific things he experienced during childhood, so let’s not dismiss that.

Levi came from a struggling working class family. I reckon his parents might have had worked multiple jobs to sustain their living expense. Unfortunately they both passed away when Levi was very little, and left little to no inheritance

Levi’s parents were not close to their extended family, so when they died, Levi was admitted to the system and had to brace several foster families who didn’t really pay attention to him

Little Levi had come to realize that life’s all about survival and so he had been able to fend on for himself since very young age, he never asked for things

His uncle, Kenny, finally won custody over Levi when he was in elementary. Kenny made money from small-scale racketeering here and there. Levi never asked what he did for living, as long as he got food to eat and tuition paid off

Kenny was emotionally absent, but he loved spending time with the oddly quiet little child, teaching him a lot of crafts, from carpentering to how to flay pig’s skin

Levi didn’t really care about getting into college, and thought that he’d probably end up working for his uncle, so he put his bare minimum throughout school, although he was really good with numbers, especially in math, accounting and finance

One time in high school, Levi’s teacher asked him to sign up for the olympiad team, Levi turned it down because he thought that was a rich kid thing

He didn’t even apply for college, and worked odd jobs after high school. Probably working as cashiers or assistant to retail shop’s owner for couple of years, enough for him to afford a cheap studio apartment on his own

One of his bosses came to acknowledge Levi’s talent, and trusted him to handle the company’s accounting

By sheer luck, the company hit it big, and Levi found himself running the day-to-day accounting of mid-sized business with over 300 employees

He made good money already without a college degree, but with a new-found confidence Levi applied for uni, where he chose to study accounting (of course)

Although he was confident with his skills, he understood he needed to widen his horizon and network -- thus uni

Levi was one of the oldest members of his cohort in uni, but graduated with highest distinction

After graduating, with his skills and experience, it wasn’t hard for Levi to score a job at top accounting firm

There, he discovered an interest for forensic accounting, where through audits, analysis and investigation, he basically finds out if a company is doing fraud and embezzlement or not

This is where he came to know and get acquainted with Erwin and Hange (yippie they’re together again)

The firm he works for was assigned to investigate the finances of a troublesome company that had been sued by its workers for a jeopardizing working condition. Erwin was on the case, and Levi helped him with evidences for legal proceeding.

By chance, Erwin introduced Levi to Hange. At first, Levi would find Hange annoying and overtly energized, but after learning the things they have done, Levi grew to appreciate Hange’s passion (and secretly wants to have more of his positive outlook)

Levi is fucking good his job. In short amount of time, he could get a really ideal position in the office. He was almost foolproof, finding even the tiniest bit of discrepancy in his audit. He’d get assigned to the big league case/project.

Although really good at his job, he’s not a social person, especially in his office. He couldn’t understand the lavish lifestyle that finance and banking people often lead. He will only show up to office party if it is really necessary for him to show up (usually to receive some kind of informal awards for, again, being so fucking good)

He leads a no-bullshit attitude at the office, largely because of his background. He is a self-made man, and is not easy to impress by some young executives from posh school that talk bigger than they can chew

His cold, seemingly dismissive attitude gained him a reputation of being scary, when actually he is very considerate

One of the things he enjoys doing is to actually teach, he really likes when a new kid at the office come to him with none of that pretentious, big talk, and really asks for his guidance. He would love to teach you a thing or two

He would frequently check on his mentee, just to keep up with their development

And he doesn’t take credit too. When his mentee makes a milestone, he believes it’s 100% your work

If you’re his mentee, he probably doesn’t give a crap about your personal life, so don’t expect him to make small talk about that (and don’t ask him about his personal life either). But he really cares about your skill and career development

Same with Erwin, he leads a very ordinary lifestyle. He doesn’t go out often and would rather reading detective novel with his cat on the couch

He likes to spend Sunday at Uncle Kenny’s house, because he finds himself worried about the old man very often. They became close as Levi grew

Overall, Levi is a really kind and caring person if you know how not to push his button

#aot #snk #aot headcanons #snk headcanons #aot modern au #levi ackerman #hange zoë #erwin smith #modern headcanon #lawyer erwin smith #professor hange zoe #accountant levi ackerman #attack on titan #shingeki no kyojin #kojin writes

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plumskies · 5 years ago

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Junior Quartet + A-Qing as That Squad in High School

Jin Ling

everyone is scared to mess with him because they know his father is jin zixuan, ceo of the jin industries

little do they know that jiang yanli, with her sweet smile and her trays of cookies for their bakesales, is the bigger threat

casually goes to school in designer everything wearing airpods and carrying around the latest iPhone version

physically unable to throw it back; jingyi likes to bring this up because it annoys him and there's no greater joy than seeing young mistress jin upset

a massive tsundere; he gives his friends presents by throwing them right in their faces and says he loves them by threatening to break their legs

"oh my, chengcheng, it seems like jin ling has taken too much after you :)" "jiejie, there is no way i act like that-"

is an actual monster in group projects - has made people go through several stages of grief in his insistence to get things done as soon as possible

no matter how much status he has, his friends do not care. they will shit on him given any opportunity

except sizhui, because he's an angel. the most he can be is passive aggressive

gets his uncle to fight his battles for him. it does not matter if said uncle is jiang cheng or jin guangyao - either way gets the job done

has once insisted that he be allowed to bring fairy to school

"MY FAIRY IS A SERVICE DOG" "a-ling, be reasonable, please"

his dad tells his chauffeur to bring him food for lunch without his mom's knowledge as she is against him spoiling him

too late jin ling is now fully aware of his power

Lan Sizhui

brings lunchboxes to school filled with carrot sticks and apple slices that wangji apparently prepared for him

no one has the heart to tease him about it, because he seems genuinely happy with them

aces all of his tests; a favorite of all his teachers

uniform and tie is always impeccable; shoes polished to a shine; no signs of blemishes or marks on his complexion

brings along sunscreen, moisturizer and lipbalm, because "aging is your enemy in this weather :)"

"how did you grow up like that with wei wuxian as one of your dads?"

everyone turns to him to make all the important decisions

has highly organized notes - has a set of colourful highlighters and markers and genuinely enjoys keeping up a bullet journal

has several succelents that he's named after his friends - "this cactus," he says, smilingly, "this one is named a-ling."

texts in perfect grammar

emails his teachers for extra credit work

is actually kind of blind - uses prescription glasses whenever he's using his laptop. other times, he floats through life, walking into poles and bumping into traffic signs

actually has a monstrous sneeze that doesn't match the highly delicate "excuse me" that follows after

wears only white; rainy season is the absolute bane of his existence

Lan Jingyi

is failing several of his classes and proud of it

"i am the most unlan lan to ever lan, ayy!"

has a meme account where he posts outdated 2013 memes

mentions being a flat earther just to stir shit up

donald trump has him blocked on twitter

talks back to teachers - sizhui often has to apologize for him

actually tiktok famous

sends voice recordings of himself singing very bad renditions of famous pop songs to their gc

has actually recreated the one titanic scene with ouyang and edited it into a really sentimental music video; "this is," i quote, "the peak of my career. nothing will ever top this."

everyone has had a crush on him. everyone.

of course this was immediately followed by a sudden realisation and rising disgust at themselves for succumbing to such weak thoughts - but you know, it's the thought that counts

"i am just a simple wei wuxian - except fresher and prettier - looking for my own lan wangji to sweep me off my feet. and marry me into his disgustingly rich family."

sizhui, who was listening in: please don't say that about my parents

has a notebook with badly written poems about hanguang-jun; he had a pretty embarrassing crush on him as a kid - like all lan kids

Ouyang Zizhen

a simp

he's cool though

in love with a-qing, like "you could step on me and i'd thank you" kind of deal

scared of his father still, but is now coming to terms with teenage rebellion

brings banana milk to school because it's his favorite drink

has fallen in love more times than anyone can keep track of

struggles with his self image; feels pressured because he's surrounded by such notable personalities

often hides behind either jin ling or lan sizhui in times of great duress

he is very good at making PowerPoints; often he causes fights to break out when it comes to projects that let you pick your partners

has a curfew and abides by it very strictly

a good boy that tries very hard to be seen as bad because that's what tv is advertising as attractive

does not have a single mean bone in his body

gets nervous around authority figures - often ends up raising his voice or disrespecting them, though it's never on purpose

gets guilty afterwards - often cries into a-qing's shoulder as she buys him ice cream

A-Qing

the oldest, and the scariest

has inherited jiang yanli's "don't mess with my younger brothers" vibe through osmosis alone

has a lot of temper tantrums

raised by the terrifying parenting trio xianchen, zinchen and xue yang; urban myths have erupted due to her dads dropping her off at school

"it's either an angel, a forest deity, or this scary underworld demon that accompanies a-qing to the gate" "oi, who are you calling a demon?!"

wears outfits that get her dresscoded on purpose bc fuck the patriarchy

"that's my girl" "xue yang, you are possibly the worst possible influence on our child, please do not take credit for this"

often buys her little brothers snacks and nags at them to do their homework

nicknamed "mother"

smart, but doesn't like paying attention in school; her grades are decent, but nothing to write home about

has jin ling do her eyeliner for her because that kid is a prodigy dammit

has a pretty funky fashion sense - you can blame her dads for that because she hates going to the mall and she lets them buy whatever they want for her to wear

(this gives her more amusement than she'd like to admit)

"no way am i letting my daughter wear fishnets, xue yang" "please, should we just pick something white?" "oi, pick this! it's chaotic and sexy" "OUR DAUGHTER WILL NOT BE TAKING AFTER YOU XUE YANG"

#mdzs live action #mdzs donghua #jin ling #lan jingyi #lan sizhui #ouyang zizhen #a qing #grandmaster of demonic cultivation #lan juniors #the untamed #mdzs

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nothorses · 2 years ago

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Yeah, the above definitely isn't happening in a vacuum- nor is child abuse or lack of privacy particularly new.

It's a new kind of violation of privacy, and definitely a wider-scale one, too; I remember my mom recording me when I was upset as a way of shaming me into silence, and I cannot imagine how much more traumatic that would be if it actually had been posted somewhere public.

But what's different here isn't just increased forms of surveillance, or increased public involvement in surveillance and humiliation. Radical feminism utilizes cult-like recruiting tactics, and that adds to this as well: the insistence that they are In Danger, that they are The Most Victimized, that they Cannot Trust Anyone- Especially Adults (except, of course, the adults telling them this. Those adults are special and uniquely trustworthy.)

This instills a paranoia and distrust of authority that also fosters isolation, forcing the victims of this rhetoric to cut off all potential help in favor of leaning on The Group, and exclusively The Group. If they feel as if they can't trust anyone else, no one else will be able to recognize what's going on or, if they do, help them.

Radical feminism is probably also rising in part because of the phenomena @glossyfeathers is describing, i.e., people who are already feeling paranoid and distrustful see radfem rhetoric and find it resonates with that mental state.

It makes them feel validated: here is an explanation for why they're so afraid, here is validation that someone is hurting them (men, adults, society), here is a path to safety. All you have to do is cut off all support systems, isolate yourself entirely from society and everyone who loves you, and rely only on people who think exactly like you.

And more appealing, too, is the feeling of moral superiority: not only are you valid in your pain, but you are better than them because of it. Not only are you valid in your discomfort with queerness and sexuality, but you are purer because of it. You are the Most Victim, the one everyone should be focusing on and listening to. And because you are the Most Victim, because you are a child who Cannot Be Held Accountable, you are therefore inherently correct and inherently incapable of really doing any wrong.

It's not just validating; it's a promise of power. It's the white witch with a tin of Turkish delights.

And all the shame they feel, all the self-loathing they internalized, keeps their lips firmly sealed and their self-confidence firmly in question. They aren't actually pure- they're just listening to the people who are. Their shame makes them superior to Outsiders, but their own impurities makes them inferior to the people who claim not to have any of those "deviant" impulses or thoughts in the first place.

The white witch is giving you power, but you still have to do as she says in order to keep it.

They cling to radical feminism, empowered and entrapped by it, and radical feminism is in turn empowered: now capable of recruiting in higher and higher numbers.

Not only that; radical feminism gains the power to take over so much of certain social media platforms and online communities that dissenting voices become outliers, pressured into silence and small corners of these spaces. (TikTok in particular- which also just so happens to skew the youngest of any popular social media platform).

weird anti ideology finally leaking out into the mainstream

#not taking away from that above point either #those resources are incredibly helpful and you are extremely correct #just adding because I think it's interesting to talk about

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felicia-cat-hardy · 3 years ago

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Maddie & Kenzie Ziegler On Their 'Dance Moms' Childhood, TikTok, & Becoming Best Friends

The world first met Maddie and Kenzie Ziegler in 2011, as the 8- and 6-year-old sisters at the heart of the new unscripted series Dance Moms, a Lifetime reality juggernaut that would make them household names. The series chronicled their travails in competitive dance and revealed their indisputable talent, but it also served as a very public time capsule of their childhood. Every win, loss, and memeable ugly-cry was recorded and available to fans to replay over and over... and over again.

Since they took their last bow on Dance Moms in 2016, the Zieglers’ professional lives have evolved in refreshingly different ways. Maddie, now 18, has appeared in several of Sia’s music videos, and her acting credits already include this year’s Music, opposite Kate Hudson, plus Steven Spielberg’s upcoming West Side Story remake. Kenzie, 16, has embarked on a solo career in pop music (she, too, has collaborated with Sia) and emerged as a certifiable social media star, “the best TikToker,” if you ask Maddie. Both sisters have authored books and released clothing and beauty lines. Any move they make on social media immediately garners millions of likes and comments.

Looking back on their hugely successful but often stressful first decade of fame, both Ziegler sisters cite one important constant: their friendship. Yes, they often fought and were pitted against each other on the show, but according to them, the experience of growing up on screen while navigating almost constant pressure to perform actually strengthened their bond. For Elite Daily’s BFF issue, Maddie and Kenzie interview each other about life in the public eye, finding their individual strengths, how they approach relationships (ahem: boys), and why they’ll always have each other’s back.

Our teacher, the environment we were in — it was all very stressful as a kid.

Kenzie Ziegler: When did you realize we had an unusual childhood?

Maddie Ziegler: We got pulled out of school every day to go to dance and film a TV show, so that was not normal at all. We ended up not even finishing [at our] elementary school, because we got pulled out so much for work. And then once we started traveling, people started recognizing us. I remember we were in an ice cream store and someone called our names, and we were so freaked out. Like, how did these people know us? And then we realized, Oh, there’s a lot of attention around our show.

Kenzie: Yeah. It was so unusual, but I don’t even remember a time before.

Maddie: I don’t think we processed how unusual it was for a 6- and 8-year-old. Luckily, me and you had each other.

What’s a time growing up [when] you were glad to have a sister?

Kenzie: When I was younger, I was going through a lot of hate, so I’m glad that I had you. Our teacher, the environment we were in — it was all very stressful as a kid. I’m glad we were doing the same thing so I could have a shoulder to lean on.

Maddie: I feel the same way, even though we fought a lot. And what’s funny is that even though I’m older, most of the time you were the one sticking up for me. We’re so different in the sense that I’m a people-pleaser. I’m super scared to voice my opinion, or at least I used to be. I didn’t want to start any drama. I didn’t want to get in the way. You, on the other hand, speak your opinion. Whenever something’s not right, you’re like, “I’m not going to let this slide.” I admire that about you so much.

Kenzie: I’m the type of person that if I’m in a fight with someone, I don’t really stick up for myself. But when it comes to my friends or you, I will not have it.

Maddie: How did you deal with all the comparisons between us when we were kids?

Kenzie: I handled it pretty badly. I was a bratty kid. We’d be doing interviews, and I’d just be like, “I’m not Maddie,” yelling at you, and you had nothing to do with it. You’re just a good dancer, and we’re sisters, and that was it. But we still get compared to this day. Every sister gets compared, no matter who you are.

Maddie: It broke my heart that you got compared to me so much as a dancer. Like, if you didn’t win, why weren’t you as good as Maddie? That is so heartbreaking. Everyone should be allowed to shine in their own ways. That’s why I was so happy you took [up] singing, because I can’t sing for the life of me. It’s good that we have our own things. We’re allowed to be different.

Kenzie: When’s a time you felt competitive with me, and how did you get over it?

Maddie: Well, literally our whole lives, we competed. And I was absolutely the competitive one in the family.

Kenzie: You still are.

Maddie: I still am, but I’m not as crazy as I used to be. I thought that if I didn’t win a trophy, then I was terrible, I was useless. Now I don’t know where any of my trophies are. They’re so boring.

There was that time we competed in the same category for solos, and you beat me — you got first place, and I got second. I was like, “I cannot believe this. She beat me. She’s younger than me.” It was really hard for me to get over. Now looking back, I’m like, “That is amazing. She deserved that. Her dance was better.”

I thought that if I didn’t win a trophy, then I was terrible, I was useless. Now I don’t know where any of my trophies are. They’re so boring.

Kenzie: I did rub it in your face, but I had every right to because it would never happen again. I remember writing on my trophy, “I beat Maddie with this trophy,” and you were so mad, and I was like, “You’re going to beat me next week.”

Maddie: We could not be more different when it comes to dance and our strengths.

Kenzie: You love contemporary. You would die for contemporary, I’m pretty sure. And you look so beautiful doing it. I’m more into hip-hop now.

Maddie: I feel like our strengths in dance [match] our personalities. I’m so sensitive and emotional, so that’s what I gravitate toward, the emotional contemporary dancing. And you can be super sassy. You were always so powerful, so strong when you danced, and hard-hitting. That’s why you’re so good at hip-hop, jazz, gymnastics. That was always your forte.

Kenzie: Not anymore.

Maddie: I’m sure if I asked you to do a standing back tuck right now, you could do it.

Kenzie: Maybe, but I can’t touch my toes. So that’s probably done.

Let’s talk about how I got you into TikTok, because I did, and I’m the only person you follow, which is so nice.

Maddie: It took a very long time for you to convince me to join. I had a fake account just to watch your TikToks. I would also try the dances, but I would just put them in my drafts.

Kenzie: You were telling me, “I will never tell you my TikTok,” [then] you followed my account, and I was like “Why is BonjoviLover...”

But I remember you called me a few months ago, and you were like, “I’ve made a TikTok,” and I was like, “There’s no way.” When I film a TikTok, I film it once, then I post it. I don’t really care what I look like. You did it 10 times and were like, “What do I say? What do I do?” And I was like, “It’s just fun. You can do whatever you want on it.”

Maddie: I didn’t understand. Now I’m better at it. A little bit. But I do love the app, and that is because of you. You are the best TikTokker, without a doubt.

Kenzie: No.

Maddie: You do the best transitions. You do the best dances, but also, like you said, you’ll learn a dance and film it once. You don’t even watch it back; you just post it. You have such a carefree mentality about it, like, “This is me, whether you like it or not.” It’s so amazing.

You’ve definitely helped me realize, in relationships, that I can’t let guys walk all over me.

Kenzie: You’re just hyping me up.

I like the app because you can be very real. On Instagram, everyone has to look perfect, and we worry about what we post. But on TikTok, you can post a video with no makeup, straight out of bed, or doing the craziest, stupid stuff, and everyone will think it’s funny or be like, “Oh, I love how authentic you are.” It’s more of a drama-free zone. The other day, you and I filmed that TikTok of us just shimmying in a car, and it was just fun and everyone loved it.

Maddie: People have started to comment way more positive things.

Kenzie: Before you joined, when we would learn dances together on my account, the comments would be like, “Maddie’s better.” And I was like, “OK, we know.” I stopped posting with you because I was like, “This is just so stressful and annoying.” And then I was like, “Whatever, I’m going to post with her again.” And I did, and it was way worse. So then I posted a video and said, “Hey, I know you all think it’s cool to compare us, but I’ve been compared to her my whole life. So if you’re going to comment, just comment something positive.” Now it’s more like, “They dance so well together. They look like they’re having so much fun.” I think people understand now that we don’t do it to compete.

Maddie: Exactly. We do it for fun.

Is there any good advice I’ve given you over the years, as an older sister?

Kenzie: You’ve definitely helped me realize, in relationships, that I can’t let guys walk all over me. Now I don’t do that at all, but you saw it firsthand, and you were so angry about it, and I totally shut you out. I was like, “I don’t know what you’re talking about.” Then I really thought about it, and I was like, she’s right. Every time you’ve been right.

Maddie: I was like, “I think he’s using you,” but you’re blinded when you’re in the middle of a relationship. Eventually you understood. I knew you would. It’s one of those things where even if I told you a million times, you had to figure it out yourself.

I think as much as I’m a people-pleaser and you stand up for yourself, in relationships you’re a people-pleaser, too. We both want to make everyone happy around us. We don’t want to stir the pot. That’s how Mom is, too. Our whole family.

Kenzie: It’s a blessing and a curse.

Maddie: It is. But I’m really happy we’ve both gotten to a point in relationships where we’re comfortable voicing our opinion without worrying we’re going to hurt someone’s feelings.

Kenzie: And we can talk to each other. When I was younger, I wouldn’t tell you a lot of things, because I thought you would either tattle on me or tell me I was doing something wrong. I’m glad we’re older and more mature. We don’t live together anymore, which is sad, but now we’re best friends.

Maddie: I was thinking about that the other day, when we were in the car together crying-laughing. Usually we’d be screaming at each other, and now we’re having so much fun.

Kenzie: What’s your least favorite thing about me? I’m just curious.

Maddie: I can’t think of anything.

Kenzie: There’s something.

Maddie: How impatient you are. If I don’t do something you asked for straight away, you’re so mad.

Kenzie: My answer ties in with that.

Maddie: What is it? I take too long?

Kenzie: No, it’s how you zone out. I’ll be like, “Hey, Maddie, can you take pictures of me for this?” And you’re just not answering. I’ll be like, “Maddie.” And you’ll be like, “What?” And I’ll say, “What did I ask you?” And you’re like, “I don’t know. I wasn’t listening.”

Maddie: It’s not personal. I do it to everyone. I’m very distracted.

Oh, I have a question. I moved into this apartment and have a guest room all nice for Kenzie, and she never comes over. Why?

Kenzie: You know why I don’t come over.

Maddie: Because you can’t drive. Get an Uber.

Kenzie: I’m not allowed to Uber anymore. Mom just says, “Don’t Uber. It’s scary.” But another reason is, “Hmm, do I want to go over to Maddie’s and she’s going to fall asleep at nine o’clock?”

Maddie: Remember when we had a sleepover and started watching TV, and you were like, “You’re not going to fall asleep now, right?” And I was like, “Definitely not.” And I was out.

Kenzie: You’re a grandma, fully.

Maddie: Sorry, this is so random, but do I have to pick you up today?

Kenzie: Yes.

Maddie: I have to take this girl everywhere.

Kenzie: Getting my license in a week. Just wait.

Top Image Credits: On Kenzie: Louis Vuitton clothing and shoes, Jennifer Fisher earrings, Talent’s own earrings; On Maddie: Chanel clothing, bracelet, and belt, Lizzie Fortunato earrings, Mejuri rings, Free People socks, Dr. Martens boots

Photographer: Paley Fairman

Stylist: Tiffany Reid

Hair: Danielle Priano

Makeup: Tonya Brewer

Manicure: Emi Kudo & Thuy Nguyen

Set Designer: Bette Adams

Bookings: Special Projects

Videographer: Sam Miron

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Maddie & Kenzie Ziegler On Their 'Dance Moms' Childhood, TikTok, & Becoming Best Friends