#i guess im kind of lost in like

[demimachia]

more and more lately for some reason ive been considering getting a job w the national parks service or at some kind of state park like a forest ranger

[eddiegettingshot]

“i guess so” was so insane of buck to say. what do you mean you guess so. there was no reason to respond like that. why not just say yeah. YEAH. YOUR ATTENTION. what was the point of i guess so. he looks soooo relieved to have an answer for his feelings but he’s saying i guess so. girl what. what! you’re guessing? you still don’t know for sure? he’s standing in front of you and you still can’t conjure up an emphatic yes? you’re acting in ways so strange your sister is baffled? you don’t even know why your father figure would approve of your relationship? you don’t know what you’re ready for? you don’t know why you lied to your best friend or why you hurt him? you’re just not certain of anything? “i guess so” WHAT DO YOU ACTUALLY KNOW!!!

[sporesgalaxy]

in my dream last night they released a bill cipher themed soda called Decipher and I tried to go get some but insane wacky nonsense kept interrupting me before I could. I mean the nonsense had to do with the plot of the rest of the dream but it just kept showing up at the exact moment that I was about to get my soda. Ive just remembered the plot of the rest of the dream was that all of the straw hat piratds were there at tbis theme park we were in and some other group of pirates were trying to bully nico robin. the other pirate group was goth btw. their captain almost died from getting splashed with acid (by nico robin) (it was justified). But I didnt see that happen bc really I was mostly focused on getting my dumb soda.

[algrenion]

me: im depressed and i have art block for drawing i guess i will try to write instead

the writing: bro this is just your own severe traumas portrayed through fictional characters you relate to & love at a distance

me:

[batfossil-fr]

I’ve been really thinking of reopening my art shop soon… I’ve been taking some practice doodles (hence all the posting lately) while I shake off my rust and I’m finding things I enjoy working on again. I miss trying my hand at more dragons/OCs and colors. my shop’s so broken rn lmao but that’s a problem for a later date it’s just nice getting back into art

[mamawasatesttube]

thought abt sotmverse kon & clark things too hard and put myself in the soup. im in the sauce. im floating face down

[sundial-bee-scribbles]

silly guys that make me lose followers on tumblr dot com

[the-fidgety-fiddler]

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[doomfestival]

it me

[muirneach]

allow me to get yaoiful about the canadian tennis curse real quick. anyways. possible correlation between the downfall of denis’ career and whatever messy breakup he and felix had. when was the last time we had proof of them being besties. back when denis was doing well. coincidence?? also, what even happened there. because felix in those atp youtube videos always says ‘MY GOOD FRIEND denis shapovalov’ etc etc. he always always says my good friend. even like a month ago or whenever the last time he was in atp video was. but then, denis does not give him the time of day it seems. like what is that about. anyways, if they played doubles together again (rogers cup pleaseeee for the home crowd 🙏) i think denis would be back on the rise. and post

[sometimesiwanna-disappear]

im gonna tbh with yall, listening to magnus archives again without the constant fanon bleed and regular discussion etc.... definitely colors it a different way lol! i have more criticisms than i did when i listened to it the first time and it makes me a bit sad because i love it so so soso much. just coming up on the unknowing arc and i'm mentally strapping myself in because i'm realizing things [I dont like jmart very much / would like it MUCH BETTER if martin was actually a twist villain and web aligned i keep seeing the wires johnny i am shaking you by the shoulders DID YOU TAKE WEB ALIGNED EVIL MARTIN FROM US TO APPEASE THE FOUND FAMILY FANFICTION SOFT TEENAGE FANS ..... tell me why jonelias is so much more appealing to me now relistening to it as a grown ass woman . PAIN].

[anxiously-sidequesting]

To me personally malistaire is the funniest and most pathetic villain wizard101 has ever had AND I MEAN THAT SINCERELY!!! Between doomed children who have been manipulated, groomed, and isolated into becoming products of their environments, someone scorned who has been punished unfairly by having your biological heart torn out your chest and turning your children and all of reality against you to satiate their own ego, a nonhuman entity so powerful and so clueless they unintentionally threaten the lives of everyone around them, Malistaire FELL DOWN BRO. Like yeah you're bitchless now. You and me both. Get in line. Everyone in this room is bitchless. We are ALL living that ✨💅🏾💃🕺 Single Life™. You are a middle-aged man. Cope

[spacespore]

HI TUMBLRR it’s me

[selectivechaos]

be patient.

we say “be patient with people with x disability”. but want to clarify what that means for my sm.

i want you to be patient with selectively mute people. even when you’re tired, even when you’re angry, even when you’re stressed or in a hurry.

i want you to be patient with aac users, even when you’re desperate for an answer, even when you’re carrying a lot of things, even when you’re right behind them and it is just so easy to look over their shoulder at their half-done sentence. (to clarify: do Not do this. too many times people look over the shoulders of aac users, or at their aac, when really we should get to choose what we communicate to you). i want you to instead be patient.

i want you to fucking respect us.

i want you to help me, even if i can’t communicate through speech, even if i can’t look up from the floor.

(example: many times i’ve stood at the front of the line, or at the front desk, which clearly is a sign that i need help with something, but i’ve been unable to communicate that in any other way. and people often wait for me to make eye contact or even look up, and i just can’t. but i still need help. )

i want you to work with me. even if it takes more time. i want not to be lost. i want to find where i’m going. 🌹🌹

[bugswarm]

Welp. Tumblr has shown me that yeah. This entire country is fucked. I make a post about a mental health crisis where I can't disagree with the intrusive thoughts that we should all deserve to die and need to step back, and everyone decides that that means I should get suicide baited and attacked over and over again and called a liberal and also a nazi and a republican and then told to delete the post because apparently its such a fucking crime to think that we're all so far gone that we no longer have any hope of redeeming any shred of anyone here, and then lash out and agree with that thought when that happens. For hours. All fucking day. I tried logging off multiple times but i had email notifications turned on and came back to hundreds of messages attacking me. I couldn't figure out how to turn them off even. Eventually i figured out how to turn off reblogs at least and finally how to turn off replies. But my ask box refuses to turn off. Every time i click the slider, it just slides back and i don't know why. So i can't escape these people. So i guess tomorrow or sometime later ill go and screenshot all of the asks and expose all of the people suicide baiting me and unmask them. Since tumblr seems to have decided that im not allowed to block that avenue.

Anyways, people who think its okay to attack people for having a mental health crisis and making a post about that mental health crisis, y'all are not leftists. And i hope you have a better day than you deserve because you do not deserve to have a good day but I will not wish you to have a bad one because some of us are not terrible people

[starlooove]

And on another note despite what I’m focusing on I do think it’s abhorrent to assume everyone who voted for or supported Harris is chill with genocide like yeah that’s like. What blew up online that tori maya shit was stupid as fuck but due to the disorganization and lateness of this campaign there was REAL misinformation being spread especially to our elders by ppl misconstruing info and a large number of ppl genuinely RIGHT NOW believe she’s pro Palestine called for a ceasefire etc. Like that’s a big chunk of the issue happening rn - where ppl literally made up policies for her or suddenly fell for “neutral” talking points bc it’s on someone they like and spread that. Like idk I feel like until everyone can be honest and humble nobody’s getting anywhere