FINALLY got these scribbles from last session of the Cthulhu game scanned in lmao, THINGS HAVE BEEN SO BUSY but cthulhu has been very exciting!!
While looking for some Alan Leroy guy to figure out why the Phantom is following(?) him(?), we asked around with (a) his book club friends and (b) the mob, as one does. Sammy managed to avoid seeing the yellow sign when he realised very quickly what Cool Obscure Book this book club pal might be describing (unlike Jack, a polite boy who does not RAPIDLY AVERT HIS EYES FROM HIS CONVERSATIONAL PARTNER), but did not manage to avoid being hustled off by the mob to talk to The Boss when Henry asked just a few too many questions. it went fine but Sammy was SO STRESSED, HES ALREADY BEEN KIDNAPPED BY GANGSTERS ONCE HE DOESNT WANT TO DO IT AGAIN
also hes still cute in this hat. you should wear hats more often sammy.
ANYWAY if you're here for Out of Context quotes from this session, I GOT EM RIGHT HERE UNDER THE CUT:
[Sammy is played by me, Joey is played by Boo (inkyvendingmachine), Henry is played by Maf (inkcryptid), Jack is played by Mochi (whatyouwantedmetosee) and Thren (haunted-hijinxer) is our GM!]
[Sammy] He will mention to Henry, something about "Oh boy, dreams are starting up again" kind of thing.
[Henry] Yyyyup.
[Henry] Don't get possessed again.
[Sammy]
[Sammy] i dON'T THINK SAMMY KNOWS WHAT TO DO WITH THAT!! The last time he got possessed was BY PROPHET, whom he still shares a body with!!
[Henry] Prophet doesn't count! Don't get possessed by anyone else.
[Sammy] .... I'LL DO MY BEST,
[Sammy] I just like the idea of Henry being like 'don't get possessed' and Sammy just LOOKS at him, like............ I'm already possessed, what are you talking about
[Sammy] Given how these things like to happen on auspicious days, I'm a little worried about New Years,
[Joey] That's exactly the spin he's going to put on it -- Some time off for New Years, and a bonus day off to recover from the celebrations!
[Jack] Gotta account for those, now that drinking's back!
[Henry] Oh good, I was really worried Joey would call Norman and get a "who are you?"
[Jack] Norman DOES do that, but just because he thinks it's funny.
[GM] That's possible, yeah,
[Sammy] Oh my gosh. I believe it, is the thing.
[GM] I do too, honestly... this might just be a thing that happens.
[GM] And the studio seems normal, and nobody got kidnapped in the night, not even Norman, and Henry's family is safe -- things are doing so good!
[Jack] Nobody that we're currently in contact with got kidnapped in the night!
[GM] That's true.
[Jack] I'm not ruling out Bertrum getting kidnapped.
[Jack] ...unrelated to the Carcosa nonsense, he just got kidnapped.
[GM] That's what he gets for hanging out with the mob.
[Jack] Sorry, I mean, "The Great Bertrum Piedmont." Have to use his full and official title.
[GM] That's how you get him un-kidnapped, he just breaks through a wall to correct you.
[Jack] *laughing* The Kool-Aid Bert................
[GM] The Great Kool-Aid Piedmont,
[Jack] Now that's fanart I don't want to see.
[GM] Welcome back! We've been talking about the Great Bertrum Piedmont Kool-Aid-ing through a wall to correct you about his name.
[Sammy] *startled wheezing* Okay, well it sounds like I've missed some really important developments!
[Jack] I think Jack would lean in the direction of like, they wanted to get in touch with him at the charity thing-- aaagh, that's technically not true. He's not the fast talk boy, he's not allowed to,
[Sammy] I mean, he CAN fast talk, Henry does it all the time!
[Jack] But does he succeed--
[Sammy] Henry's not the Fast Talk Boy but he keeps LYING anyway!!!
[Sammy] I feel like Jack is good at looking worried, and, caring about his fellow man,
[Jack] I don't think he has to TRY to look worried???
[Sammy] I don't think Sammy contains these qualities. Sammy looks like he's here to arrest you.
[GM] She's actually giving Sammy a concerned look,
[Sammy] Sammy is HERE FOR THE PROTECTION MONEY.
[Jack] Well, this was lovely! Time to leave, because Sammy's already... vibrating against the door trying to clip through it.
[Sammy] Sammy's IMMEDIATELY going to tell him about this clarinet with the missing E flat extension.
[Sammy] ....and then ALSO mention that he thinks maybe he's seen this guy before.
[Joey] Joey slightly fixes Henry's hair before they head in.
[Sammy] (That's a little bit gay, but alright,)
[Jack] (I think it's more than a little bit)
[Joey] LISTEN, listen, Joey recognises--
[Jack] Linda's out of town!
[Joey] --Joey recognises the neighbourhood,
[GM] The door gets opened pretty quickly, but the guy inside actually looks a little like he's suddenly out of his depth, because whatever he was expecting to happen is not what is happening.
[Sammy] That's a common reaction to Joey Drew.
[Joey] I feel like it's not going to be a fast talk roll, actually, to make this guy feel like this is NOT a dangerous ask? So I'm gonna go with persuade instead.
[GM] Are you going with the tack that you were concerned parties from the event?
[Joey] I think, concerned party, perhaps leaning towards the notion that they hit it off well at the party, and -- I'm just turning it into a fast talk,
[Joey] *trying again* I think Joey is leaning more into an idea that they are freshly met, but have similar interests? Or... possibly leaning into he's ...a friend of a friend and we're looking into it for that friend?
[Sammy] Joey trying NOT to lie is really funny. "Oh well obviously I'll just say -- oh, I guess that's not true; I'll just -- WELL, that's not technically true either,"
[Joey] ADMITTEDLY, if this does turn into a fast talk roll, using the same roll it's now a BETTER SUCCESS, so,
[Sammy] Just really funny how hard it is for Joey to just, HONESTLY REASSURE someone without inventing a whole narrative
[Joey] I'M GOOD AT COMING UP WITH STORIES!! I'm not good at... fact-checking them first...
[Joey] Please, if you hear from him, or get any more information, please reach out to us as soon as possible, because the sooner we can prevent this, the better off he'll be -- y'know, that whole thing!
[Joey] Do the most heartfelt, emotional connection he can... it's a little gay, but...
[Sammy] I fully believe in Joey's ability to extoll the virtues of this man he's never met.
[Sammy] We can just check with Norman, have him peek out the window and see if it looks weird,
[Joey] "Hey Norman, is your house in the right location?"
[Jack] "Dunno why you called me outside just to tell me that you moved my house!"
[GM] Norman answers the door, and gives you guys a quizzical look.
[Henry, out of character] :D Hey, did your house move?
[Sammy, in-character] >:/ Did your house move?
[Sammy] Sammy will point out things Jack noticed as being different, as if he also noticed them.
[GM] He'll turn back to you, and just kind of observe in a blase sort of way that he's apparently moved.
[Jack] I love Norman,,,,
[Joey] I love Norman's 89% Sanity score that never gets hit, apparently!
[Jack] His sense of humour is actually an indefinite insanity.
[Sammy] A constant coping mechanism,
[Jack] Can't go insane when you already are!!
[Jack] Jack is, not happy about this,
[GM, as Norman] He wonders if you'd like to come in for a housewarming, then.
[Sammy] Sammy's going to just catch her up on, the guy we're looking for read the play,
[Sammy] Also, might be a guy that Sammy saw in New Orleans, and that might be why he knew the music??
[Sammy] ALSO, WEIRD THING with his clarinet, he doesn't have the E flat extension that you'd EXPECT HIM TO HAVE?
[GM] I think Susie knows enough that she would say that's weird if he's playing seriously.
[Jack] I was about to ask if this meant anything to these two--
[Joey] Norman is regaining sanity by watching Sammy rattle on about all this.
[GM] He's probably chiming in opinions, too, that are completely not based in any actual musical knowledge --
[Henry] Norman just like "He's missing the E extension? Next he's gonna lose the, the F Shortener!"
[GM] "What's the world coming to!"
[Sammy] Sammy's giving him the most unamused look, and this is all Norman wanted.
[GM] Yeah, yeah, this is how he keeps his sanity high.
[Sammy] Just annoy Sammy Lawrence. That's the secret.
[Jack] Good to make sure things aren't going weirder over here-- which, uhhh,
[Sammy] Which they are!!
[Sammy] That's smart, but that's also really spooky. Like okay, cool! The whole world has re-written this! Cool cool cool cool cool.
[GM] He doesn't seem PLEASED about it, but he seems about normal.
[Henry] He seems Norman about it.
[Jack] Yeah, Normal Polk.
[Jack] *cracking up* He shows up at work the next day and he's called "Normal Ponk." That's his name now.
[Jack] Reality's rewriting itself, wanna kiss about it?
[Henry] Ah, Jack's okay again.
[Jack] If this was Fowler, then WHO WAS PHONE????
[GM] Well, okay, first things first, does Joey have Peter's number memorised?
[Joey] HM.
[Joey] ...I feel like he wouldn't admit it, but yes.
[Joey] Joey says he's going to call Peter back in a minute. And hangs up.
[GM] You cut him off in the middle of some sort of response--
[Joey] Cool.
[Joey] He managed to break into a safe once by doing this!
[Henry] "Break into" is... a bit of a strong phrasing.
[GM] *mumbling* "Get locked inside of,"
[Joey] The main thing is, Do Not Go Alone, because if something happens to Peter... we have no way of tracking down the information that he has! We, we lose, all of his evidence!
[Jack] .....and that's the ONLY thing,
[Joey] Yup!
[Henry] We ALSO lose his, HIM,
[Joey] *mumbling* No, no that doesn't matter as much, as evidence,
[Joey] It's clearly just, the fact that they lose all the benefits of having a reporter with ghost powers on their side, and NOT Peter himself, that is the issue!
[Jack] iTS NOT LIKE HE CARES ABOUT YOU OR ANYTHING!!!
[Jack] *spongebob meme* You like Peter Sunstram, don't you, Joey?
[Joey] Both Henry and Sammy are the best able to get themselves out of a tough, fight-y situation,
[Sammy] We can both punch, and Henry has magical power if something supernatural happens...
[Joey] Also! Also, neither Joey nor Jack are there to be taken hostage and used against them!
[Sammy] ... I think you're actually right. I hate to admit it, but I think you're right.
[Jack] I can't wait for Jack to be kidnapped at the magic shop, you guys!
[Henry] I can't believe we're sending the two least talky boys off together to talk to the mob,
[Joey] LISTEN. Henry and Sammy can go to the restaurant! Henry likes food! There we go!
[GM] I can't believe Joey's just making sure Henry gets a nice meal after his shake-up earlier...
[Sammy] I dunno, maybe Peter should come with us, just in ghost form. Henry can see him, potentially,
[Jack] So Pete's body can... Not be where he left it when he gets back to it!
[Sammy] ....hm,
[Joey] *startled laughter*
[Sammy] ....okay, nevermind,...
[Jack] Just leave him in the car, what could go wrong! That's not disappeared MULITPLE TIMES!
[GM] Johnny Nero is of average height and build, with dark, slicked back hair, and a neatly trimmed moustache -- so not like any of the other people that you know!
[GM] Wears expensive tailored suits, though.
[Jack & Joey] *snickering* So, not like, any of the people you know--
[GM] It narrows it down a bit!!
[Sammy] Alright, alright; bargain bin Joey Drew, got it.
[GM] You guys do get an offer to have food, while you're waiting.
[Sammy] Yeah.... why not.....
[Henry] Henry will, not,,,
[Joey] *shocked* NO?????
[Joey] *absolutely flabbergasted* FOOD!!!!!
[Sammy] Gangsters don't usually poison you, they usually give you nice food and then they knock you out and throw you in the river.
[Henry] WELL HENRY DOESNT KNOW THAT!
[GM] He hasn't done speakeasies like Sammy has!!
[Sammy] I'm noticing that this guy actually looks really nervous, and isn't taking charge of the situation,
[GM] He DOES have something that's probably a firearm in his pocket.
[Sammy] Yeah, yeah, but,
[Jack] It's his emotional support firearm!
[Sammy] Actually... Sammy WILL ask him if he saw it.
[GM] Uh,
[Sammy] Because he was RIGHT THERE looking at him. And I feel like, once you've seen it, and it does the weird thing where it gets in your head, you're not going to be confused what somebody's talking about if they ask you if you saw the yellow sign. You're going to know what that means.
[GM]
[GM] Are you going to say the thing...?
[Sammy] Have You Seen The Yellow Sign?
[Henry] Henry is half-considering...
[Sammy] *manically excited* DO YOU WANT TO TAKE THE THORN OUT OF THIS LION'S PAW, HENRY???
[Henry] You haven't been able to think straight since, have you?
[GM] He kind of squints at you, because he's a gangster and he doesn't want to be like "D: YEAH, ITS BEEN REALLY ROUGH :("
[Joey] *laughs* Henry IMMEDIATELY knows this look, because Joey does this as well!
[Sammy] Push the roll!! Push push push!
[Henry] *nervous* I DON'T KNOW IF I WANT TO PUSH IT,,,
[Sammy] WE'RE ALREADY KIDNAPPED! WHAT ELSE CAN GO WRONG!
[Henry] We didn't get kidnapped, so it's you guys' turn!
[Joey] We have the kidnapping charm with us, also known as "Jack Fain"!
[Sammy] Oh I thought it was Peter Sunstram.
[Sammy]
[Sammy] DO THEY STACK?
[Jack] I can't wait for us to get to these spooky occult magic shops, and it's just like, "here's a bunch of overpriced tumbled gemstones and some incense!"
[GM] The first one you go to is kind of that style.
[Jack] Ideal! I hope they have a really tacky fake skull.
[Joey] Joey is judging the whole place.
[Joey] WAIT, wait, they took you from the bar to the restaurant, and then you got the heckin' sign out of Nero's head, and he's not even gonna offer you a ride back to the bar?!?
[Henry] I think what we got out of it is "not being kidnapped".
[GM] JOEY is the one with the history of talking kidnappers into giving him rides,
[Sammy] I do think it would be classier if he gave us a ride. I'm with Boo on this, it would be a classy gangster move.
[Sammy] With that guy they kidnapped to do music for whoever's birthday party, they dropped him back off later, but, you know, it's fine,
[Joey] Show your heckin' appreciation! *exasperated* THIS IS HOW WE CAN TELL HE'S AVERAGE!!
[GM] Uh, lemme roll a quick like............. etiquette roll,
[Sammy] Gangster Classiness,
[GM] *rolls terribly* Yeah, I think he's frazzled enough -- this is gonna reflect poorly on him later.
[Joey] Wow.
[Jack] Normal success for Jack! How many terrible tacky skulls do I see?
[GM] Just SO many.
[Sammy] This place won't help you, buddy.
[Jack] I dunno, if you buy enough tacky skulls, maybe the guy won't wanna get near you.
[Henry] Just throw tacky skulls at him!
[Jack] A tacky skull a day keeps the pallid mask away!!
[GM] A more discerning occult collection than the other one.
[Jack] The kind of place that has the more occult things like, in a locked cabinet instead of in a heap on the counter.
[Sammy] In the bargain bin,
[Jack] "Box of assorted random magic junk"? Yeah, I wanna rummage my hand in that, I'm not gonna get five curses,
[Jack] *laughs* I'm not even AT the other place anymore and I'm still dunking on it!
[Sammy] Jack's just saying these things to Joey to like, keep his spirits up.
[Joey] It would be working,
[Sammy] I am curious if the restaurant is at the same address that we remember it being on.
[GM] It is the same address! The name is different.
[Jack] What's the new name?
[GM] Lombardi's! It was Leon's.
[Henry] ... some dude got his whole name changed,
[Jack] Oh man, when do they do that to me, I want a legal name change!
[Jack] Bringing the Yellow King into the world to get a free transition,
[Sammy] No! Don't do it! He won't transition you into a human, it'll be..... something else,
[Henry] We're gonna run over the Pallid Mask. Vroom vroom motherfucker.
[GM] You do bump into something that is unyielding.
[Jack] Oh no, Jack's car!
[Jack] ... and also, whatever he hit, I guess!
[Joey] Joey is immediately flipping around to grab his cane; if the guy tries to get in the car, he's going to bash him in the face! and say GET OUT!!
[Sammy] Well, it worked really well for Nero, so
[Henry] The guy just got hit by a car and didn't move! I don't think the cane's gonna do much!
[Jack] Especially not with Joey's weak noodle arms!
[Joey] Yeah but he's upset!! That this guy is trying to get in the car! He was not invited in!
[GM] ...make a CON roll.
[Joey]
[Joey] oKEY DOKEY,,,
[Sammy] Peter now is NOT the time to astral project
[GM] Luckily he doesn't have that insanity currently, or he'd already be gone!
[Jack] The car stops and Pete's ghost just flies through the windshield,
[Jack] I'm losing my mind...
[GM] You are! 1d6 of it!
[GM] This is kind of wild magic zone, so you get some creative license.
[Joey] Hmm. Hmm! Hmmmmmm...
[Sammy] Oh no, you've given Joey Drew creative license,
[Joey] But when I picked out Jack's car, it's the first car that has full safety glass in it!!
[Jack]
[Jack] SO EVEN MORE EXPENSIVE TO REPLACE!!!
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What are your favorite DCA fics? Some of mine are Solar Lunacy, LDR, and Sleuth Jesters! :D
OKAY!! so I don’t think I have a favorite? I have fanfics I’m currently excited to see update though!! (Which is.. almost every fic I read but I’ll try to include some I’m ESPECIALLY excited about!!)
Enjoy some silly notes about each Fic Below!! ・・・★
Flaring Rays and Ivory Crescents
By @surrealkunstlerin
- Moon has a silly stupid laugh but let him have it..! he deserves it!
- How y/n spending isn’t giving them anxiety is beyond me- I think you gotta trust the robots to be financially intelligent
- I would just sort of lay in moons arm all day before they both got mad at me for not doing anything 😞
- Self indulgent.. my dream: sun and moon would be helpers that help me live a better life )::
Red sky
By Kettle_fish
- “I want two boyfriends, and I want by boyfriends to be boyfriends”
- 257k my beloved
- I really enjoyed the moments of y/n bonding with sun and moon in the cell ::3c
An Introvert Meets the Devil at the End of the World
By Kassykins
- post apocalyptic time!!
- sun is so traumatized
- Should of listended to y/n smh
- interactions between the bots and y/n … 12/10… the other humans though make me question humanity- I think however that’s is the point to be off put and disgusted by them
- I enjoy moon protecting y/n as their source of life and is trying to get sun not to FUCK IT UP
He’s a little confused but he got the spirit
By @midnight-mourning
- I can’t wait to see sun stare in the mirror and realize “oh god, I like them, oh god, oh no.. THAT THING IS WHAT I FALL FOR? You got to be kidding me!!”
- The Sun is burning out and is stressed )::
- Beloved moon in this fic, I hope he gets everything he wants and more
- Fanart MIGHT be in progress.. I am excited to draw these goobers
There Are Many Benefits (To Rethinking This Career Path)
By @moonliched
- Nessa x Chica was not on my 2024 bingo
- I need to see sun and moon get jealous more often
- Author please, please, let them have a sleep over someway somehow
- “I need to go into the ocean, I need to be in there” - y/n probably
- the little extra bits at the end of each chapter DO make me smile and brighten up my day immensely
If ongoing fics aren’t your style !! And you prefer completed stories I also have: Claw at the Stars by @vivisols !!
- NON HUMAN Y/N BELOVED !!
- more mermaids.. ::3
- I love all their fics sm.. ‹𝟹
> I have so many more fics to share (to ramble about).. so..so many but I’ll leave it here for now!! Thank you for asking!! Please be mindful of tags before reading! ::)
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A late night, slight retrospective on the tiny amount of Tumblr fame I've gathered that also might be slightly annoying for my audience to read so feel free to skip it if you want.
I started sharing Transformers fanart on here back in 2022, around October. I had been posting art on here for a while before actually but people really started following me and asking about my work and actually reblogging my stuff when I started posting Transformers fanart in 2022. I was in a really low place then, and I really welcomed the attention. My art was and still is something I take a lot of pride in. It's my own. There's quite a few years of my life where the fact I could still draw was the only thing stopping me from attempting suicide. It's something that has always meant a lot to me, so the attention on one of the only things I really liked about myself was nice. It was nice for a while.
But I've gotta say the slight Tumblr fame (and I do mean slight, I've only got around 3k followers which is a lot of people and more than I ever thought I'd have following me and more than a lot of folks will ever have but not like A Ton Of Fame) has wreaked havoc on my mental health. Which is already pretty rough as is. Suddenly I wasn't just some guy making Transformers fanart while desperately saving up to get out of my parents' house. Suddenly I was some people's FAVORITE Transformers artist. Suddenly I was a role model to people and I had people in my DMs clambering for my attention and I had an audience that would cheer or boo or go awkwardly silent at my every post depending on how much they liked it. And it was Not Good For Me. I had and still do have people all over my inbox, excited about how I drew fat and disabled and trans characters asking me over and over to draw some specific representation that I don't want to draw right away. I had and still have people begging me to draw their favorite Transformers character who I happen to not really care about and not want to draw at all. And I am painfully aware how often people take personal offense to my polite "no I'm not drawing that unless it's a commission" and my not answering their ask because I'm not in the mood. I've had people send in asks asking for a specific drawing and then follow up asks when I don't answer in a timely manner. And it's really uncomfortable! And it's almost more uncomfortable that it feels like a lot of people don't even notice that they're making me uncomfortable.
And I like learning how to draw bodies I've never drawn before. I like looking at a character who I think is meh and being like "well actually how can I make them interesting to me...". But it really felt and still feels like my art was getting away from me, like I was drawing more what people were asking me to make instead of what I wanted to because people would take it so badly when I'd say no. I was getting commissions though and I was saving up money to move out so I ignored that bad feeling of getting distanced from my own craft because I was trying so hard to save money and I was actually making some. And I still wanted the attention. Plenty of people were still kind to me despite everything.
Things got weirder for me after I released my Good Bi Gender comic. Which I do still recommend people read I think it's some of my best work. But that comic became a huge hit. And it made things really complicated for a while. I got anon hate. I was told to kill myself by strangers online more than once while I was already deeply suicidal. Something I thought I stated very clearly in the comic itself, that I didn't want strangers calling me "she" though I did and do let my close trusted people call me "she", was immediately ignored by my regular audience and people reading the comic. I got a lot of "you go girl!" kind of messages in response to my comic, and I didn't say anything at the time but it made me deeply uncomfortable. The comic was partly about how the she/her part of my identity is off limits to strangers. How I don't let just anyone she/her me because I work so hard to have the he/him aspect identity acknowledged at all. And it was like what Tumblr decided for me was to go against my wishes. Was to be like "we'll accept your identity for you!" when that's not what I wanted. I did NOT want to be she/her'd by thousands of strangers at the time. And though I'm grateful to have heard the understanding stories of other folks with nonbinary gender identities in the notes, it was deeply humiliating and invalidating to watch as others decided for me to accept the Girl part of my identity. The opening lines of the comic are explicitly a plea to the reader to listen and understand why they're not allowed to use she/her for me even though I'm opening up about the complexities of my identity.
And like. I don't care anymore if people online she/her me. At least I don't care right now that's why she/her is in my bio right now maybe I'll change that. But at the time it was awful. It was something I asked people not to do. And between that and the constant clambering for my attention from people I didn't want to talk to (because I was severely depressed and wasn't looking to make a ton of new friends) and the alienation from my own work I felt like shit. I felt like garbage. I still do. I hate my art sometimes. I really hate it. And for a while, I considered breaking my own fingers just so people would stop acting so entitled to my art and I would have a reason not to post. And honestly the only thing that stopped me was just trying to get by financially. Just watching my follower count and regular notes steadily trend upward so I could do more commissions so I could move out.
And doing things for the numbers, even for a relatively short time, only made things worse. It sounds a little silly even to me, but I get so stressed out when my posts flop, especially if it's art I was really proud of. I'm struggling to detangle my sense of worth in my art from the online numbers game. And I'm proud of the progress I'm making, but it does really suck and it's really hard. And I really wish I was still the same person back in early 2022 who could say "I don't care about the numbers!" and actually mean it because god I WISH I didn't care about the numbers now. Especially now. I dunno if it's me posting more art people don't wanna see or people leaving Tumblr or a shift in the culture of Tumblr but fewer and fewer people interact with my posts despite my follower count ticking up slowly but surely and it kind of bums me the fuck out. But. I am very proud of myself for still drawing the ocs that I want to draw even if they get less notes every time. And even if I'm slightly frustrated they get less notes every time.
I don't really have a neat bow to tie on my personal story right now. I'm still healing and sometimes I backslide and it's hard and it sucks. I don't want to sound ungrateful or to sound like I'm trying to shoo people off my blog because I'm not. I'm really grateful for the attention and interest and I'm not trying to turn people off my art blog. But it's been a rough few years on here. And don't be surprised if you see me take more and more breaks from this website. I do sincerely hope y'all will stick around and watch me continue to post whatever art and say kind things because I do appreciate that a lot. I'm trying really hard to mend my relationship with my own art. To not be so hard on myself. And for the record I don't want any asks telling me to take breaks when necessary or reminding me to draw for me. I appreciate the sentiment, but I already know all that and I personally don't find it helpful to be reminded of things I already know. But anyway. I hope that I will draw more and more of whatever I want to, even if that means I fade back into obscurity.
If you stuck around to read me reflect on the stresses and occasional humiliation of my small amount of online notoriety, then thank you. I appreciate that. And really I do like people looking at my art on here and sharing it and sending asks about my work. And the person I expect to be responsible for my mental health and how much social media is impacting it is Me first and foremost. But sometimes I think that it's important to remember there's a person behind your favorite art blog. And sometimes when you get swept up in parasocial attachment and hype, you kind of treat that person really fucking weirdly. And no that doesn't make you a bad person or a monster. But it does mean you have to learn to deal with it when someone who you might even idolize is like "back off me you're making me uncomfortable".
Anyway. I shouldn't be up as late as I am. A headache has been keeping me up all night. I'm gonna try to rest though. Goodnight.
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