#i got pretty much everything spoiled for me beforehand but it's still so freaking good

[cagesings]

i  finished  season  one  of  the  spooky  monster  show  and  WOW

[missdawnandherdusk]

Ravenclaw Extensive Dating a Malfoy Headcanons:

Okay, so other than Ravenclaw and Slytherin I have two series with Draco and the other houses but they don’t always get the little moments so here I am adding them in as well as beginning the remaining houses. (Of course you all know how I feel about sorting but for the sake of Draco Malfoy being happy I’ll set that aside). Yes this has been done before but come on, you’re gonna read it anyway. I’ll do one for each house promise.

So being ravenclaw comes with the name calling “nerd” “four eyes” “freak” “weirdo” ya know real high brow stuff

Mostly it comes from Draco and his Slytherin classmates they feel threatened, you’re smart, go figure

It’s not that you’re “smart” it’s that you want to learn especially if you’re Muggle born because WHAT DO YOU MEAN MAGIC EXISTS

So you get good. Very good. At everything. Which infuriates Draco because you surpass him in Potions

He fails a Transfiguration quiz and McGonagall asks you to help him because you’re probably the only one who won’t punch him a-la-muggle

You protest but it’s no use, and McGonagall said she’ll give you extra credit and house points so, ya know what bring it

He hates it of course, sulking the entire time, muttering about “if my father knew about this” which just makes you smile because good lord he’s ridiculous

Your tutoring sessions give you time with Draco alone and though the first few times you’re terrified and stumble over your words, you get more comfortable with him and he’s less snappy at you

He has an ambition for knowledge, you have the means to give it to him

Soon he’ll start sitting next to you in class because you’re notes make more sense to him than the professor’s do

You come to realize that “oh my stars Draco might be dyslexic like you” you don’t mention it to him because you know he’d just shut down and get aggressive but it explains why he likes your notes so much: he can actually read them

People still make fun of your for your brains and knowledge, but it starts to fade over time and unbeknownst to you, Draco began to threaten anyone who bullied you; which accidentally put you on edge because you’re waiting for the other shoe to drop

You’re reading up on the American Revolution and Wizards involvement in the war when Draco comes to you, grinning

You look up at him, nervous and expecting

He hands you his latest Charms exam

He got full marks

You’re so excited you forget yourself and hug him which leads to blushing and awkward “good job” and “thanks”

One day Harry is being Harry with Draco and “she’s only helping you because she’s getting extra credit and house points” Draco knew that but hearing it from Harry is different

You go straight to McGonagall and tell her you don’t want the credit or points anymore you don’t tell draco this, because well... you don’t know

Your study session become less laughter filled and fun... Draco seems almost too distracted to focus on anything he’s moping

You reach over one time in class and draw a smiley face on his notes while he’s sulking. When he glares at you, you offer a smile and maybe he smiles back

“Are you okay?” You write under the smiley face. “Fine.” He scrawls. “I don’t believe you”

He stares at you like you have two heads. No ones ever pressed past his “I’m fine” charade before

That night you’re studying and he comes to you and starts to talk. It starts with school but it goes on to how his family is doing and the looming war and then he finally admits that he’s not as put together as he looks and that the only friend he has is being “paid” to be with him

“Draco, I stopped getting extra credit months ago,” You finally explain what you did after what Harry said that one day and he’s just dumbfounded so maybe his only friend wasn’t being paid to be with him

You introduce him to Muggle Coffee Monsters for late night studying and occasional all nighters theyre “really really really really good” he’s practically bouncing in his seat. You wonder if he’s ever had caffeine before...

You fail a potions test. Badly. Not that you meant to but you don’t know what happened. You try everything to hold back tears because you’ve never failed before. Draco gets perfect marks and you’re just dying inside and so ashamed because you’re supposed to be smart

Draco finds out even though you try to keep it from him and he chases after you in the hall not before pleading with Snape to have you redo the exam. Snape allows it

“Just leave me alone Draco,” you snap. “Just wait!” He calls. “Leave me alone!” You pull out your wand against him and he just freezes. You realize what you’ve done and run, tears streaming down your face

You don’t talk to him in class because you’re just so confused and ashamed and sorry. He slides a note over. “You’re more than a grade,” is written in his careful script. There’s a smiley face too.

You finally peek over at him and he offers you a smile now you’re really confused

You keep that note and whenever you’re stressed or get a grade less than you wanted you read it until the paper is faded and worn from its wear.

You retake the exam you take after Draco spends the week beforehand making sure you know exactly what you’re doing

“You can do this,” He insists. “No I can’t,” you groan, hopeless. “You’re being ridiculous, come on wise girl, if I can do it so can you.” The nickname started as a taunt but now it was something that only Draco was allowed to call you

You get full marks on your retake and run to find Draco and hug him in the middle of the Great Hall with everyone watching and maybe you kiss him because he believed in you when he leads to awkward blushing and stammering apologies before he pulls you back and really kisses you

There’s a chorus of “finally”s from the surrounding students and a few cheers the whole school shipped you two and it was just frustrated to watch you two pine for another

Draco leads you to a quiet corner of the castle, your exam still in your hand as he really asks you if you want this—to be with him. He knows he’s not the best person and goes on listing why he’s a bad person and yadda yadda yadda

You tell him if you’re more than a grade he’s more than a Slytherin

You start dating

Cue blushing and nervous Draco because “I’ve never had a girlfriend what am I supposed to do? Flowers? Chocolate? Dates? Handholding?” The poor boy is a mess

“Draco, sweetheart. Calm down you’re doing fine,” you laugh one afternoon as he fumbles over asking you to hogsmeade with him. “It’s just me,” he just feels so pressured to be perfect you constantly remind him that he doesn’t have to be, not for you

You still study together but sometimes you just end up cuddling. Except on the nights you have an exam the next day or an essay due “Draco I will hex you to next week if you don’t focus”

You both aren’t sure how to be affectionate towards another. Sure you’ve read books and he’s seen other do it but you two are so bad at just talking without stammering or blushing

So you start writing down how you feel and what you want to do and what you’re comfortable with, and he’ll respond and you two actually get somewhere because you’re communicating it’s not “the norm” but at least you’re communicating

Reading books under trees; late nights in the library; sitting together in class; holding hands in the halls; “wise girl” and “pretty boy”

Your friends are happy to see that your happy and can appreciate Dracos ambition for knowledge and that you both are a bit competitive when it comes to grades

His friends are a bit cold and distant and snappy sometimes, but you don’t mind much, you know it’s not a commonality for Slytherin to date outside of House

Draco spoils you at every turn. “You looked at this book in the shop so I got it signed by the author for you” / “you said you wanted this quill once... so here” / “I will never understand Muggle stores but I picked up more Oreos and Monsters” / “I saw this necklace and it reminded me of you so I bought it” / “you lost your other scarf so I got you this new one. It’s unicorn silk” / “here, this bag is enchanted so you can carry all of the books you want and not have to carry the weight”

You love him a little more with each thing he gets you because they’re the most bizarre things that you didn’t know you wanted but somehow he did. He’s like a bird “I saw this shiny rock and wanted you to have it”

Your parents adore him. They were a bit wary about you dating a Malfoy/Slytherin but he spends one afternoon and dinner with your family and they’re completely smitten and tell him to come back any time especially when they hear about getting you that retake exam

His parents are a bit more reserved towards you. Until Narcissa sees Draco smiling at you as you talk about the history of something he really couldn’t care less about but you’re so excited he can’t help but stare and she sees your wisdom and ambition and wonders if the Sorting Hat made the right call about you

Lucius doesn’t talk down to you not that he talked much at all to you but when you ask him more about his job at the ministry/his peacock/family history/possible Veela descent he’s absolutely taken with you because you remind him of a young Narcissa especially when you snip right back at Draco. Lucius chokes on his drink when he hears you call Draco “pretty boy” and Narcissa grins at him because that’s her nickname for him

When Draco takes the Dark Mark you can bet your Galleons your spending every night looking into Dark Magic and how it works to truly understand what’s happening. You feel less panicked when you know what’s going on good or bad and you help Draco understand too

Which means you’re talking to Snape a bit more. Not to use the magic, but you want to know. You don’t want Draco to feel like he’s alone in all of it. You find spells that make the Mark burn less and affect his thoughts/mood less

When Draco starts to slip behind on grades again during Sixth Year, you go back to tutoring him, with gentle encouraging words and soft promises that he can do it

After the war you encourage him to come back to school and finish and though he’s terrified to face anyone his ambition for knowledge is still there and you’ve become a lot more terrifying since learning dark magic that people back off when they see you

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[theghostisametaphor]

Got up to episode 25 of Untamed and viewing’s been kind of sporadic and piecemeal for the last week or so but let me just make another bullet list because that’s the best way to convey my thoughts apparently.

Wen Chao’s Evil School for Hostages seems so long ago. those were the good times. so many people weren’t dead. also my god he was so bad at his job. let’s uhhhhh drag all the hostages along to a random cave. things got bad? uhhhhh yeah let’s block all the hostages up in the cave and let them die or whatever. i mean, it’s not like we needed them for anything.

Wen Zhuliu was not paid enough. actually i’m not sure if he was paid at all, but whatever it was it wasn’t enough. i don’t think it’s possible to be paid enough to babysit Wen Chao. 

still delighted abt how fanficcy the whole ‘oh no we’re trapped in a cave for several days, there’s nothing for it but to wallow in sexual and emotional tension’ thing with LWJ and WWX was. also i appreciate that the show was like ‘you may feel the need to watch an amv at this point, but don’t worry, we already put one together for you.’ just an entire fucking music video for the two of them smack dab in the middle of the episode.

he sang him a song

killing a tortoise monster together! just fun couple things.

in all seriousness it’s been so - emotional in a way i didn’t expect to see Lan Wanji getting to be The Love Interest and treated as desirable when he’s low verbal/nonverbal pretty much 24/7, and touch averse, ‘i don’t like people touching me when i don’t know them well’ was such a mood, and usually if there is a character like that, the message is that you have to stop being that way in order to have a relationship or be loved. so yeah. important. 

so the family situation at Lotus Pier was - tense. good to know where all the kids got their Issues from.

Madame Yu was such. an asshole. cool whip though. 

so the show just really tried to break my heart into pieces in the aftermath of losing Lotus Pier, huh. Jiang Cheng is my son and he is not allowed to cry like that, it’s not okay! none of them are supposed to be that sad! 

Wei Wuxian sort of managing to hold it together until Jiang Cheng disappears again and then finally starting to lose it. Freaking out over not knowing whether to trust Wen Ning or not, decision-making ability going to shit, visibly being unable to control his emotions, paranoia etc. 

was really painful, but also really good? idk, it’s just really cathartic to see so many nd-coded characters going through Bad Stuff in ways i can relate to and understand. 

poor Jiang Yanli being like ‘WWX, i already have one brother who can’t get out of bed bc he’s melting down so badly, please do not put yourself in the same state because of hyperfocusing on ‘I Can Fix Everything If I Just Read Enough Books And Also Never Sleep Again’.

(yeah i have some feelings about Jiang Cheng maybe being autistic, which i’m kind of nervous about bc it’s not something i’ve seen other people mention like adhd WWX, or autistic LWJ, but. it’s something i keep coming back to).

Wei Wuxian having that moment where he forgets that Cloud Recesses burned and then being like ‘oh i know! i just need to find Lan Zhan, he’ll help me fix this!’ was just - ouch. 

Wen Qing + Wei Wuxian friendship! research pals!

ditto Wen Ning + Wei Wuxian they’re both so good.

i’d been spoiled for the golden core thing beforehand, so i knew what was going on when WWX was like ‘hm, maybe i know how to fix this’, and that just made it more emotional, honestly. i cried a lot. 

Xue Yang cameo! 

i feel so bad for Jiang Yanli, like ‘yes dear sister we will absolutely always stay together and nothing shall come between us’ i say as i knock you out with sleeping powder so i can send you off in a carriage without involving you in this decision At All. 

i know why you do it, Wei Wuxian, but my god. i would develop severe trust issues. 

Jiang Cheng’s face when he gets a golden core back. tears.

i find it incredibly funny how we just take a brief moment to say ‘oh yes, anyway, there was also this entire military campaign going on while the Yunmeng kids were missing from the main plot. it had a cool name. lots of badass weapon waving. would you like to see Lan Wanji looking very attractive while stepping on a Wen flag? of course you would. anyway back to the important stuff.’

have a lot more ground to cover but i’m getting tired and also have some chores to do so just gonna leave this here for now, and finish catching up to 25 in another post.

(when will the rabbits reappear though, i was sort of disappointed that they didn’t show up in their little rabbit headbands to fight the Wen during the Cloud Recesses battle).

[saventhhaven]

Fright Night - Part 1

Pairing: none

Tags: Halloween, mystery

Word Count: 1,663

A/N: I realize the tags are very vague, but I’m trying hard not to spoil anything xD

(Gif not mine)

You dug your hand into the bowl of popcorn again, stuffing the buttery goodness in your mouth with an obnoxious crunch as you binged your favorite show. After spending all day rushing around the house taking care of odds and ends, you were ready to fully enjoy the glorious fact that you didn't have to do a damn thing for the rest of the night. Actually, you didn't have a single thing to do over the next couple of days - you had made sure of that. Work had finally approved your request off, so you had the next week to yourself. You smiled giddily. You knew your wallet was going to be hurting when you got the paycheck, but still, a week off was a feeling unlike any other. It was a feeling of knowing that you could stay up as unreasonably late as you wanted without having to drag your ass out of bed the next morning. And that was exactly what you planned to do.

The eerie glow of your television was the only source of light in the living room - just how you liked it on nights like these. Currently, you were buried under a pile of blankets, and a pint of ice cream was within your reach. Oh yeah. This was the life. Just as your favorite episode started up, something triggered the motion-sensor light in your back yard, causing bright light to stream through the nearest window. You frowned, leaning over the arm of the couch to peer outside. Moving across the grass like a tumbleweed was your culprit - a small branch with leaves that rattled as a result of the strong breeze. You snorted. Talk about a classic case of "just the wind." After a few minutes passed, the light went on again, and this time, you caught a flash of movement that was gone almost as quickly as it came.

"What the hell?" You placed the bowl of popcorn on the coffee table as you stood, the pile of blankets abandoned, and the tv forgotten. Squinting intently into the yard, you scanned the area for any sign of more movement until the light automatically turned off. That light went up without any problems almost a year ago, and it had worked perfectly up until now. "Friggin' weird," you muttered to yourself, shaking your head as you made your way back over to the couch. Maybe it needed a new set of batteries or something. Before you could even sit back down, the light clicked on again, catching the same blur of movement as before. "All right, that's it." You knew exactly what this was. Halloween was just under a week away, and neighbors had been complaining about kids starting to pull their mischief night pranks. If one of those little assholes was doing something in your yard, there was gonna be hell to pay. "Hey!" you shouted, leaving the comfort of your warm home and moving out onto your back porch. Of course, this would happen as soon as you finally got comfortable. You were pissed. "You little twerps better get out of here!" twerps was not a word you usually used, but you figured it was probably socially frowned upon to call minors fuckers. 

When no one came forward at your screeching, you stepped off of the porch, the dewy grass dampening your feet as you stomped into the middle of the yard. "You're trespassing!" you continued, waiting for a response. Nothing. The light turned itself off. You let loose a sigh as you stood in the total darkness, feeling like an idiot. Maybe you were finally losing your mind. Turning back around, the light switched on in response, and your heart almost stopped beating. Standing directly in your path back into the house was something unexplainable and terrifying. A human figure with yellow, almost-green eyes, sharp claws where fingernails should have been, and pointed fangs. You stood there, frozen. This couldn't be happening. There was no way this was real. It had to be some freak in a costume, right? The creature's lips pulled back in an aggressive snarl, showing off its fangs as a guttural growl erupted from its throat. Oh, fuck. You let out a petrified scream as the creature launched itself at you. Running was useless - it was too fast. You had barely taken a step back when the creature tackled you to the ground, still shrieking bloody murder, and everything went dark.

"Hey." Sam looked up from his book as Dean leaned over to look at him through the drivers-side window. "I'm gonna get some beer for later. You want anything from inside?"

"No, I'm good."

"All right, but when you decide you want a snack an hour from now, I don't want to hear it." Sam rolled his eyes at his brother. Some things never changed. The boys had spent the past couple of days at Jody's house. It had been a while since they had seen her, and it was her birthday, so it was the perfect excuse to take a few days off and catch up. The Winchesters lived and breathed crazy, but it was the small, normal things like that that made their lives feel just a little less crazy.

A few minutes later, Dean came back out with a six-pack and... a huge bag of candy? "Catch." He tossed the candy through the open car window to his brother, who frowned.

"Dude." Dean climbed into the car, looking over at Sam.

"What? Tomorrow's Halloween, Sam."

"Yeah, but that doesn't mean you have to-" The older Winchester ripped open a mini candy bar, stuffing it into his mouth and chewing it with a satisfying crunch.

"Sorry, I can't hear you over the Halloween spirit." Sam let out a sigh of displeasure, but he couldn't say he was surprised. His older brother had always loved Halloween, though he never really understood why. After all, their whole life was pretty much a horror movie. "Oh, check this out." Dean handed his phone to Sam, who set aside his book on Egyptian mythology to read the article he had pulled up.

"'Body found?' Is this from today?"

"Uh-huh," Dean answered. "It was on the local news inside. I was thinking we could check it out since we're already in town."

"Really? Why?"

"Why not? We already have everything we'd need in the trunk. Fake badges, emergency suits." Sam shook his head as he gave the phone back to his brother.

"No, Dean, I mean, why? They're calling it an animal attack. Maybe it's not our thing this time." Dean frowned.

"Yeah, okay, an 'animal attack.' Sam, the body was found in the middle of a smalltown neighborhood, and the closest set of woods is like twenty minutes from here. C'mon, let's at least look into it." Sam glanced longingly over at his book. He had been trying to finish it for weeks. And besides, he had just gotten to the chapter on Horus losing his eye in battle, and how he used it to bring Osiris back to life after- "Sam?" He sighed.

"Yeah, all right."

It was mid-afternoon by the time the boys finally got to the morgue. They had stopped at the sheriff's office beforehand to gather information, and went through the whole, "why is the FBI interested in an animal attack?" spiel. But after that, the sheriff was more than happy to comply with the standard routine questions. As it turned out, the body had been found by a woman in her own back yard.

"Right through here, agents." The pathologist led Sam and Dean into the morgue, where she gestured to the body, covered by a white sheet on an examination table in the middle of the room. "I'll be right outside if you need anything." Sam shot the woman a charming smile.

"Thanks." As soon as she left the room, though, his smile faded away, and he was all business. "All right." He pulled on a pair of rubber gloves as he moved over to the table. "Let's see what we've got here." Sam pulled the sheet away, and the two boys stepped closer to examine the young girl's body. At the sight of her wounds, Dean sucked in a lungful of air through his teeth. The Winchesters had seen their share of horrifying things over the years, but this was bad.

"God," Dean breathed. "Whatever did this ripped her to shreds. Sure as hell looks like our kind of thing. I'd say it's pretty safe to put our money on a werewolf." Sam gingerly moved small ribbons of torn flesh out of the way and frowned.

"Last I checked, werewolves don't leave the heart intact."

"What?" Dean went over to his brother's side of the table in disbelief. "Okay, what the hell?" The younger Winchester shook his head.

"I don't know." Mimicking a clawing motion, Dean's hand hovered over the girl's body. He sighed in exasperation and pulled off the rubber gloves with a snap.

"Those are definitely werewolf claws," he determined. "The wounds match up right." Sam moved the sheet back over the girl again as he nodded thoughtfully.

"Maybe."

"Nuh-uh," Dean argued. "There's no 'maybe' about it." He pointed back at the table to emphasize his point. "I know what a werewolf victim looks like, Sam, and that's it. Sure, it's a lot worse than usual, but that's friggin' textbook!" Holding his hands up in a placating manner, Sam glanced over his shoulder to make sure his brother's volume level hadn't attracted any unwanted attention.

"Look, I'm not saying you're wrong, but the heart's still there. Taking the heart is trademark werewolf, Dean, what else do you want me to say?" Dean let out a huff of air as he paced, lost in thought. Finally, he stopped, nodding to himself as the answer popped into his head.

"We gotta talk to the lady who found the body."

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[kachinnate]

these are a few of my faaavorite fics ✨

not that anyone asked for my opinion BUT these are a couple of my… fav deh fics of all time!* they’re all linked to ao3 and i think i have all the authors tagged that i know of that has a tumblr so

*i made this list especially for fics that aren’t, like.. as well known as some of the Popular Fandom Fics, partially bc everyone’s already read them and knows how awesome they are and partially bc otherwise this list would be ten pages long hehe,,, also sorry if you’re seeing this twice, i had to repost bc the links were all broken ?? 

throwing under a readmore bc this is a chunky boy!!!!! keep in mind that these aren’t in any particular order:

in the in-between - chchchchcherrybomb, vinegar-and-glitter (x) [tree bros] – Connor’s turning 27. Evan’s sitting the bar exam. Over and over again. – itsa timeloop au!! i’m not sure if this is a common au or not, but i’ve never read anything else like this before, and ohhhh my god. each chapter is a switch-off from connor’s pov to evan’s pov, and i assume the authors each wrote for one character (?), but oh my god their writing works so well together?? they both have distinct styles and ways of writing but it flows together perfectly,, without spoiling anything, ev and connor’s dynamic in this universe is a lot different to anything else i’ve personally read before, partially because they’re quite a bit older here than in canon (which, while is obviously portrayed, they still are easily recognizable as the characters they are in the musical), and partially because it strays away from the common ‘they’re both misfits/not doing great, but connor is worse for wear and evan has to save him’, which i think is rlly nice.. (also, like, never have i ever considered that evan would want to be a lawyer, but after reading this fic not only am i sold on it but i’m convinced 100% that him being a lawyer could genuinely be fuckin canon) (also also, the evan characterization in this? hands down my favorite out of any fic i’ve ever read tbh) the world building is really incredible too - like, i don’t even want to consider this one a fuckin fic bro because it’s like highkey just this incredible novel?? it also has a completed sequel called it’s always been you (x) that i haven’t finished that takes place after the events of this fic, and so far?? also fucking incredible 15/10 i definitely recommend

lapse - cecropia / @wildflowermonet (x) [tree bros] – “For what it’s worth,” Connor says casually, “I don’t think you should die tonight.” – welcome to another installment of ‘kayla read this and immediately couldn’t think about anything else for a solid consecutive 12 hours’!! evan and connor have really wonderful characterizations in this one too - i’m pretty sure i’ve elaborated on it before but literally my favorite thing is when people actually write evan as more than an anxious kid, and omg this author did that perfectly asfjkdsg - you can see the subtle Growth as he gets more comfortable with connor and jared (and all the other deh characters too bc this fic has a lovely fOUND FAMILY FINISH AT THE END EEE) and it’s just. aaaah. *heart eyes emoji*. it’s set in their senior year, and they form an unsteady friendship and learn to lean on each other and figure out the whole ‘having friends’ thing, midway through evan realizes he’s a-pinin’, it’s just. Great. this fic is relatively new too i think so u def def def should go give it a read and give the author some love!!!!!!!!!!!

to have a friend - demistories / @transanabeth (x) [tree bros] – Pretend to be friends with Connor Murphy, who yells at people and skips class to smoke and pushes people and threw a printer in the second grade, for twenty dollars a week.

Evan closes his hand around the bill and then stuffs it into his pocket.

“I-I’ll do it.” – ok this is one of, if not, the first fic i’ve ever read coming into the fandom, so it of course has a rlly special place in my heart!! it’s a classic ‘fake dating au’, also with switching povs between chapters. connor offers evan 20$ a week to be his fake friend, almost follows through with the events of the musical but doesn’t, finds out about evan’s own attempt, and they just sorta… cope together. it’s a lot of second guessing bc neither of them knows if the other considers the other a friend or not, and ofc when the fake dating part comes in that gets amplified by 10 asdfghj. honestly i think it’s a cooler approach to the fake dating au troupe (the chapter titles are increments of 20$, which honestly is equally cruel as is creative) and is so!! heartwrenching!!! it’s been a while since i’ve read it but i’m pretty sure that i bawled at the twist so >’D

the only thing is that this fic isn’t finished and there isn’t an intention for it to be finished from what i know of(?) - the author included a brief synopsis of the ending to tie loose ends and give a sort of closure to the fic, but that absolutely doesn’t take away from how freaking incredibly written it is and doesn’t mean you shouldn’t give it a read anyway !! i kept up with it while it was a WIP and honestly every time i got the email notification that it updated i dropped everything to fuckin read that shit 😤😤 when i think of deh fics, this is honestly just one of the first that comes to mind for me just bc it was one of the first ones i’ve read, and it just… was so good that i still think about it months after i read the last chapter safkjasf

no comfort in the truth - @nothingunrealistic (x) [kleinsen] – Like everyone in the world, Evan has the last words his soulmate will ever say to him on his skin.

Evan hears a lot of last words during his senior year. – okay if this were an accurate list i’d literally have every drabble soph has ever written down on here but that is entirely beside the point

literally knowing beforehand that this is a kleinsen fic and then reading the summary, u kno this shit is going to be painful ,, honestly this style is one of my fave fic formats (especially when it comes to writing in the canon deh universe) because like ,, it’s simplistic but works really well as a story-telling method?? not everything has to be perfectly strung together and every day doesn’t have to be written out for it to still convey the same like.. impact as a super long fic would, and honestly writing it in like flashes or snippets makes the build up that much more anticipating? bc again when u write within the events of the musical it’s not like u don’t know what’s going to happen,, u can focus less on worldbuilding bc hey, it’s already done for u, and instead write more indepthly about the topic of the soulmate au!! but uhhh REGARDLESS soph is literally the kleinsen matriarch in my eyes, they always write evan and jared w/ Perfect characterization and dynamics and just Ah! this one is angsty, but it has a v nice and hopeful ending, and i *clutches heart* love,,,

nowhere else i’d rather be:  nosecoffee / @nose-coffee​​ (x) [tree bros] – A fake dating au where they’re next door neighbours, Evan bakes, and Connor’s already a little in love with Evan anyway – this one is a series - the first fic kinda Establishes stuff and the second one gets into the whole fake dating thing!! they live in apartments next to each other, evan bakes for connor, they go campin with connor’s family, it’s just….. rlly sweet and i love it

also, it contains this hilarious bit that i haven’t been able to forget about despite finding this fic months ago:

do me a favour - can your heart rate rise a little? - nosecoffee / @nose-coffee​ (x) [treebros]

an au where the hansen family owns an arcade….. honestly what more can i say?? it’s slowburn and treebros and i p much love everything that nosecoffee has written ever so this is no exception obviously

jared and connor vs. the mortifying ordeal of being known - caswell @techconsigliere , puglebug @puglebug (x) [kleinphy] – Jared is admitted to group therapy following the divorce of his mother from his asshole father. What he doesn’t anticipate is that Connor would be there, too. – THE KLEINPHY CONTENT WE ALL DESERVE BEING PROVIDED TO US BY CJ AND EZRA!!! it’s a one-shot with just enough slowburn to keep you 👀 , jared is working through some stuff and after some fumbling connor is w/ him to help him thru it, the end of this fic has my heart aching the entire way through every time i read it and it’s just… *chefs kiss* (i even drew some fanart for it if you’re ever so inclined)

forever going with the flow, but you’re friction - lizzy_stardust_18 @delightfullyanachronistic​ (x) [band trees] – Zoe knew that of all of the things that her mother had expected from the evening, Evan Hansen showing up at her door with his arms full of her drunken daughter was not one of them. – big bet i wasn’t getting through this list without including fiona’s fics, are u crazy??? BUT this one is set a year (?) after the events of canon, zoe’s at a party and evan finds her, and they talk about stuff n’ things - there’s also a sweet moment in there between zoe and cynthia (in which cynthia is Rightfully Skeptical of evan) which is v wholesome and Refreshing because honestly the murphy parents never get written in a good light and fiona does it ~ perfectly ~. lotsa metaphors. evan and zoe are big dorks. evan is a taylor swift stan. what isn’t there to love

i can’t call you a stranger, but i can’t call you up - lizzy_stardust_18 - @delightfullyanachronistic (x) [kleinsen] – Jared fiddled his thumbs. He wished more than anything that he could move to a different seat, but causing a scene at Heidi Hansen’s wedding reception wasn’t exactly high on his to-do list. Besides, he was an adult. He had a job. He ate ramen only three times a week. He could handle a simple social interaction like a real human being. He was lucky that no one else had found their seats at his table yet. It gave him time to gather his wits about him. He drummed his fingers on the table nervously. – jared and evan are forced to talk after the events of canon via sitting next to each other at heidi’s wedding. they argue a bunch bc jared is still rightfully hurt, they discuss TCP and jared’s treatment of evan over the past couple years, they fight it out and then we learn some jared backstory and then there are tears and it ends on a fluffy + hopeful note!! good shit !!!!

[mayfuji]

Oneus Twilight full comeback review

When I say full comeback review it’s because it’s a FULL comeback review. From the concept films to the Japanese verison, were gonna cover a lot so get a cup of something to drink cause this will be hella long aka Bible (I’m a nice person I’m telling you this beforehand).(You should do a Youtube video review then… nya… BORING)

So let’s begin. This is not the first time I follow a group comeback in real time… You know… Checking everyday the performances, so I kinda know how it works. We have gone through a lot of stuff… KARD You in Me, GFriend Fingertip, Red Velvet Peak a Boo, Dreamcacther as whole, BTS Fake Love, F(x) Dracula, BTS Wings album as a whole and last but far from least BTS Blood Sweat and Tears. I wouldn’t call some of them dark concept, I also wouldn’t call some of the sexy concept. By these examples you can see I have my standards pretty high. I’m that annoying perfectionist old uncle and declare myself guilty. For years Blood Sweat and Tears was the top song for me. (I’m a sane person ok… That doesn’t mean I listen to it 24/7). The MV had very beautiful aesthetics and I liked the lyrics and the song. Clothes were cool and the coreography too. F(x) Dracula would come in second and I never thought something could also join these two. Until… It happened. I knew RBW was releasing a new group but I just waited. Turns out I found out the group some months later then the actual debut. Oneus debuted with Valkyrie. The way they changed the coreography every stage, the amazing fashion sense, song was good quality. They had vocal thecnique, they had dancing it caught my attention and Valkyrie was straight to my playlist. Then… it happened. The group’s first comeback. I don’t know how, when or even who am I but I found out about the comeback EXACTLY AT THE RIGHT TIME (Technically not because I was 16 hours late). I know you know we know, we are not going retro like 80’s or 90’s. We are not going retro like acient Corea like BTS Idol. We are going retro 1500/1700 not Japan, not China, not Corea, EUROPE. Welcome to the renaissance. The MV was shot in Italy, the amazing fashion sense strikes again (I swear to God stylist min is communicating with me), the song, the lyrics, the coreography, the cool colored camera filters, I need to mention the vocal technique again, the rest of the album being consistently good (BingBing), I dare say nothing is perfect… But man… This gets 99,99% of what I call perfection. It’s a shame they didn’t win any music show… Because they are a newer group and still don’t have a large fandom? WHO CARES. Let me tell you something BTS sucess should have been in 2017 Wings… The high point of their artistity…  Ateez was also a newer group AND THEY DID WIN. I give congratulations to them but Oneus needed to win and it had to be with Twilight nothing changes my mind. (Don’t come to me saying we can give them their win next comeback, it won’t do it) This type of thing only happens once in a lifetime, why? Repeat and it gets boring, they can do the same concept again but it won’t be the same, same for BTS wings. It’s not about quantity is quality. Veiws never mattered to me and now I can say with all my mighty that wins do not make art. (I was never a fan of streaming but you count my ass off this mess cause YES I did some small streaming of the MV, I did my homework) (Take in account they did this comeback with BLOOD IN THEIR EYES) (Please give Dreamcather and KARD their first win too. Did you know that with You and I Dreamcatcher also had comeback with blood in their eyes??). Let’s start with the song name… Twilight. Remember 2009 movie sensation Twilight? Yup that’s it… I know you know we know, we are going deep in the vampire/ werewolf style in here and why I said I know you know we know? Xion posted about it on Twitter… 

THEY ARE AWARE therefore I know you know we know. JUST IMAGINE THEIR LIGHTSTICK AND FANDOM COLOR AND END OF YEAR PERFORMANCES. CHECK OUT ONEWE TOO.(I took the liberty of making a playlist with extra post promotion content (with English sub) - cause I know you all love content - linked below, you don’t need to thank me, not I’m not putting english girl, focus on Twilight)

https://www.youtube.com/playlist?list=PLTiTzw8HrCfxRiB1DyD77ktE9UQm6sBeQ

Just in case you haven’t watched this beautiful MV here it is.

Song, yes. Lyrics, yes, coreo yes, key point of coreo YES, Keonhee vocals YES (I trust this legend vocal thecnique more then I trust myself). Aesthetics? YES. Italy? I need to sneakly and illegally go there RIGHT NOW. This is a whole YES. ( Sir... If you think I haven't noticed the moon changed from previous album you are wrong cause I noticed. Sir are your albums going to complete the moon please say yes... Also... Have you noticed Woongie used the wet hair effect? + his brown eyeshadow is stunning.

Also line and center distribution is on the playlist for in deepth study... Twilight is basically Seoho eating up all the line AND center distribution and detail... the only thing he does is SING THE CHORUS. Also thanks Keone Madrid for making this coreo for Oneus (he also did BTS Blood Sweat and Tears -  DO YOU SEE THE PATTERN). Also rumors that Oneus actually created about 40-50% of the coreo so also thank you Oneus hehe.

Bitch it's me we are taking about do you really think I would miss a possible plotline?? Xion is with a red diamond and later he breaks it into dust (I'm scared). Keonhee is with a ring. Ravn is looking at his own reflection in the water and Seoho is looking at his own reflection through a broken mirror. Woongie is with a necklace. I guess the high point in Leedo's individual shots is the wolf (question mark)... Woongie and Keonhee are the only members that change the eye color. Seoho and Woongie are the only members that simulate super powers (question mark). Summary they all lost someone.... Silence is also a way of communication... I'm not a huge fan of theories or the fanfics I know ya'll write later in wattpad but fell yourself served, you're welcome, no need to thank me.

Now some highlights.

Ok this goes straight up to the hall of iconic earnings… (Man... But his walk was so POWERFUL)

How ASIA did not notice two SKULLS in here and how they are not SHOCK??? The ring is small… BUT POWERFUL.

Question time, if they had money to do the CGI then why didn’t they erase this little hairs in Leedo’s eyebrow?????? We’ll never know...

MV behind (english sub cause I love you all ~~ plays english girl in reverse in the background ~~)

Humanity mystery here. They recorded a version of the coreography when the sun was actually falling down in real life and we see those scenes in the MV. But if the whole staff was SHOCK about the key part of the coreography being extremely perfect and beautiful then why not use it on the MV? Sure the version they used outdoors was pretty too but this was ALSO awesome and I think I need as many version of the MV as I can.

Album review

Of course I would listen to the whole album.

Intro - What can I say... it fells so chill out, kinda minimalistic I just loved it. Twilight - Just amazing... I liked the dumbstep, the music is confusing witch I find extreamly cool. English Girl - Let em tell you not my type of song... but the lyrics are extreamly funny and relatable... so I forgive (I’m waiting crazy ho now Oneus, do not disappoint me) BingBing- YOU DON'T FREAKING START A SONG IN FRENCH IF NOT AIMING FOR TITTLE TRACK LEVEL. Ok and can we talk about the coreography???? BEAUTIFUL and I want to know the mastermind behind it. I just don't know why this was not above English Girl on the tracklist... White Night - Ok a more slow song but as always Oneus always delivers. (low key Red Thread sequel??) Now - This gives me Calvin Harris vibes. More dance eletronic standard pop but it's good...

PACKING-

Look... the CD case is very unique but think about it... if you take your album from above there is a risk everything wil fall... (1theK unboxing on the playlist, cause they were the cover for 1theK youtube chanel so 1thek is Oneus bitch)

1theK Suit dance and Dance cover contest

Please give Seoho something that WILL NOT FALL FROM HIS SHOULDERS cause clothes are made to be comfortable. What is the point to take off the jackets when the night is COLDER??? (Wait.. let me answer that one… cause you can’t see black in black… I get it… BUT REGARDLESS) one of the mysteries we’ll never know. (Poor ties must have suffered a lot in the middle of the harnesses)

Now before we jump into the important stuff let me tell you a secret… Keonhee is the most difficult member to dress… why? He’s 1,81 cm tall… anything you give him to wear can make him look even taller and his face is more projected (did you know he uses braces?) so you really need to pay attention to his hair. We’ll use this information latter.

So the first performance ever was… Guess what… Before the MV was released and where? JAPAN (My half japanese ass is shaking). So people there kinda received a spoiler (clothes too) and Mnet uploaded it in the same day of the MV release so other people that weren’t at the kcon wouldn’t receive a spoiler. No complains here except Ravn chocker being TOO BIG and Keonhee clothes making him look taller. (Nice expensive microphones you got in here)

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=VaxWHKRm9xo

Now the actual comeback in Corea begins. (Images cause tumblr won’t let me upload the videos) (I’ll upload the links below the image) (No… before you ask I’m not uploading english girl, too much work… focus on twilight) ( As I spoiled above English girl was the chosen B side. Look... I know it's us international fans unofficial anthem but c'mon... BING BING) (I know I'll miss camerawork in here but I'll eventually get the hang of it) (Don't ask me about make up cause unfortunately I don't have 4k 360° to get THAT close up. But from other close up photos I trust their make up artist) 

WEEK 1

31/05/19

https://youtu.be/qe2p_nKZ7uo

First choice was the ACDC Black in Black 1.0 clothing set from the MV, Keonhee clothes making him look taller as usual… Pretty clothes but… YELLOW LIGHTS??? with red?? is this ketchup and mustard? The lighting did not appeal to me and shout out to the physics mystery.

2:03 (Time stamp cause I love you all) HOW ON EARTH DID HIS EARPIECE END UP THERE? I guess we’ll never know.

01/06/19

https://youtu.be/adhuo5pMVbw

Keonhee clothes making him look taller as usual… but oh his hair was NICE… Fight me I’m the last person in the world to advocate in favor of coconut hair but it looks nice on him. No yellow lights so it’s a win situation, I like to call this the GLOVES set of the MV.

02/06/19

https://youtu.be/j7DhdicaV9I

Kudos for the physical scenario and Woongie earings (same as the MV). Keonhee clothes making him look taller as usual… no yellow lights… and this comeplete all the clothes they wore in the MV. Please… save Leedo from his chocker… too large.

04/06/19

https://youtu.be/Rl1f0vSxP14

THE SUITS a whole YES. Keonhee clothes were good but we got yellow in here and this is a NO, Woongie coconut hair was also a no but Seoho red highlights? YES. Also… Woongie… the harnesses should go UNDER the jacket not ABOVE it…

05/06/19

https://youtu.be/xmLNWuAyc9Q

Repeating clothes… but this doesn’t bother me. Ketchup and mustard lights is a no. Woongie earing yes and in case you haven’t noticed Seoho gold huge ass rings… blame the yellow lights. Keonhee hair was actually nice.

06/06/19

https://youtu.be/LcRe_SUL7Ok

Physical scenario yes, yellow lights no, clothing NO, Seoho huge ass rings YES. That’s the summary.

07/06/19 v1

https://youtu.be/hlrKa9b_P60

Uniforms? Approved, Leedo earing approved, Physical scenario approved. Orange? NO. Keonhee harmonizing with himself 1.0? YES

07/06/19 v2

https://youtu.be/3bI3GY4nALE

So… they blessed Japan with that set of clothes now it’s Corea time. Ketchup and mustard lights is a no. No earings or rings today… but  Keonhee harmonizing with himself 2.0? YES

08/06/19

https://youtu.be/0K1bhbuvYYU

You know what this SMELLS like? PERFECTION. Purple, black and red the holly trinity of colors. Keonhee clothes finally making justice to him, his hair was also nice. A LOT of light in the scenario to get THAT CLEAR LOOK cause I want to SEE things. Not a single yellow light… Woongie earings? YES. Please save Ravn from his chocker. Seoho dear… what is the point of wearing a black waistcoat… WITH A BLACK SHIRT? (But it’s approved regardless).

09/06/19

https://youtu.be/kf_C_GaCeGA

I present you Michael Jackson Black or White 1.0 clothing set. Woongie earing? YES. The light was a bit tricky. Chorus was beautifully black and white. We also had blue/green. In the red one we had yellow lights but it didn’t bother me at all. Overall it’s approved to me.

WEEK 2

11/06/19

https://youtu.be/eQcu7UH3354

They repeated clothes, but it didn’t bother me. Seoho rings? YES. No yellow lights. This is also super good and I can’t choose between the two times they wore this clothes.

12/06/19

https://youtu.be/DdI37HMWAJk

They repeated Michael Jackson Black or White 1.0 set. Ketchup and mustard? Purple? Lighting was a no. Seoho ring was a yes.

13/06/19

https://youtu.be/hBGhwPXRVec

New clothes yay. Keonhee hair and clothes were nice, I don’t know what to think about this set of clothes because I was never a fan of prints or this variations of cream and brown. The way the lights were positioned was tricky but the small amout of yellow lights didn’t bother me at all. No rings or earings today unfortunately.

14/06/19 v1

https://youtu.be/8jyzbTMMUgw

Clothes were repeated witch is a no. Do not think that instead of wearing silver or gold wearing black jewelry will make me forgive the clothes. No rings or earings today unfortunately. Ketchup and mustard lights is also a no. Keonhee clothes making him look taller as usual… This whole performance was a whole no.

14/06/19 v2

https://youtu.be/7fIFwRPK9tk

I present you Michael Jackson Black or White 2.0 set. IT’S HIGH END JEWELRY YOU WANT? IT’S HIGH END JEWELRY YOU’LL GET. Seoho rings (in both hands), Woongie earings, Keonhee double necklace, Leedo earings and TRIPLE necklace, do you know how powerful you have to be to use a triple necklace? The only things that killed it were the hand microphones and the yellow lights…

14/06/2019… I will never forget this day… How do they DARE to arrive at the recording… like THIS?

and when it’s performance time they step down the clothing? Well the clothes they were using ARE pretty but the ones they arrived? STUNNING ( aka ACDC Black in Black 2.0). Stylist min there are occasions you need to save the outfit to use… just arriving at the recording with those clothes is a waste of fashion. It could easily replace one of the times you repeated clothes. (I may say make up and contact lenses were on point too)

15/06/19

https://youtu.be/4LticXTZC8U

(Thank you music core for the low definition)

Yay new clothes, the hairs and clothes look SO FLUFFY. Seoho rings yes, Woongie earings yes, Leedo rings YES, lighting was good, no complains here.

16/06/19

https://youtu.be/z1A7pgFJMVE

First of all I’m really mad because they cutted the song. Second I’m really mad because they didn’t upload on YouTube. It’s seems like this is was pre calculated beucase it was EXACTLY WHEN THEY CHANGED THE COREOGRAPHY. I don’t know if they changed because they knew the song would be cut or if it was really a coincidence… humanity mistery again. Lighting was so beautiful until they came with the yellow… Woongie hair was so fluffy and earings was a yes. Clothes were Michael Jackson Black or White 3.0 and that’s it… That day I learned my lesson… you either are team rings or team gloves… there is no in between.

WEEK 3

18/06/19

https://youtu.be/xGnQRWIejOc

They repeated Michael Jackson Black or White 2.0 set. Yellow lights? This is a no.

19/06/19

SKIPPED CAUSE WEEKLY IDOL

20/06/19

https://youtu.be/uDQhH1X6SCk

I present you the new year eve set… Happy new year everyone, white and gold. From the same writers of black waistcoat with black shirt we have white waistcoat with white shirt. Ketchup and mustard lights? No. Seoho rings, YES. Woongie earing? YES. Shout out Ravn looks super good and Leedo chocker was middle term. Xion was not present and they had to do small changes (I SEE YOU SEOHO THANK YOU SIR)

21/06/19 V1

https://youtu.be/OOdS62gRMOg

Suits YES. Seoho rings, YES, we didn’t have earings… I’m sad. Ketchup and mustard lights? No.

21/06/19 V2

https://youtu.be/gU8cdpbEK0k

I’m sorry… WHAT????? Clothes are a no… Grey? With black purple and red? No. Noodle hair Woongie? NO. Woongie earing? Yes. Hand microphones? No. Yellow lights? Like…

SERIOUSLY??? NO.

22/06/19

SKIPPED

23/06/19

https://youtu.be/dBDRVdC9ntQ

(I’m so sorry for the low definition here)

Same old story. I’m mad they cutted the song, didn’t upload on youtube and exactly when they changed the coreography. On the other side we have new clothes yay. It’s not only black and gold powerful match. It’s black and gold with snake print cause I’m a bad bitch. It’s the only place where they NEEDED to use the yellow lights and I’m actually mad they used black and white. Someone save Seoho from his chocker. Color scheme was great but it’s not like the clothes desing are bad. I just feel it could have been better. We didn’t have earings or rings today BUT HEY, FANSING, BING BING HAS A COREO AND ITS AWSOME. 23/06/19 will be in my heart (even though it was just a sneak peak).

4 WEEKS BICTHES

Ya’ll misbelievers will hear this song untill your ears BLEED

25/06/19

https://youtu.be/rg_x8oKwibs

Woongie you really fooled me here I was scared. He only did the fingerheart cause it was their last performace at that specific program. Repeating clothes… Lighting was good, no earings or rings… Well really tricky. I don’t see roots so you all did a touch up on the hairs and Woongie got a little bit blonder… I don’t like it, it don’t think the color suits him. Keonhee hair got a little darker but no problems… That’s it.

26/06/19 

https://youtu.be/dMUSRroP1K0

Repeated the new year eve set. Seoho had to repeat the clothes for me to understand the clothes. Seoho ring yes, Woongie earing yes. Lighting was huge no, all crazy combinations like blue and yellow and purple and etc. But in the ending even though it was yellow the lighting was pretty.

27/06/19 ~~FINALE~~

https://youtu.be/TfEpkKwGQuA

We going Marilyn Monroe Woongie? His earings as always YES, Lithing... well… very tricky since we almost couldn’t see it but it didn’t look promissing. White and cream with black look more promissing then grey with black and red and purple… but not my favorite clothes, they have better weapons… Well… that’s it.

I wish they would go the whole week but they didn’t…

SUPRISE BITCH, YOU THINK 27/06/19 WAS OVER? THINK AGAIN

Oneus first photobook in Milano was announced. I won’t go into detail cause this is not the goal here... but we get it... YOU WEREN’T JOKING AROUND IN ITALY. Usually it takes a lot of time for a group to come up with a photobook so I’m proud and that was pretty smartass way to finish promotions if I may say...

Now… you have seen me against the yellow light for the whole post and you must be asking yourself WHY? Well… when you have the work to color correct the entire MV to cool colors YOU MUST AS WELL DO IT ON THE PERFORMANCES… that’s it… it’s called color pallet and you should respect it. Or in other cases like when they used black and gold respect the color palette of the specific performance.

Now let’s go to 05/07/19 Oneus is a newer group so I wasn’t even dreaming about this cause again... It takes a while for this to happened. My spider senses told me something was off when they announced they would be attending breakout in Japan and SURPRISE. Twilight japanese version was announced. Versions A/B/C and CD+DVD. Some questions were raised. There will be another version of the MV and new clothes? If yes I WANT SOMETHING ON THE SAME LEVEL. Will there be a instrumental version? Will they put Valkyrie japanese version too? They would all be answered later... AND MORE. They had the audacity to show BingBing complete coreo for the first time. They must really love Japan. Legends also say that they already performed the japanese version in this festival.

I was getting uneasy with the release date coming closer and no photos of the covers of the CD’s... then 25/07 they released a schedule... I wasn’t really expecting a schedule but I was happy cause next day we would have a teaser of the MV and surprise, it was basiclly the same thing. Good because is quality stuff but bad cause I was waiting somehing new... 29/07/19 We got tracklist and GUESS WHO WAS THERE?? EXACTLY, VALKYRIE JAPANESE VERSION +++++ TWO new songs.... We are blessed.. until 30/07/19 where we got what actually was happening...

IS THIS WHAT YOU CALL LIMITED CD+DVD? It follows Raise US desing but I wanted something more... It fells like it’s missing something...

Version A (Clearly Valkyrie) IT’S INSTRUMENTAL YOU WANT? IT’S INTRUMENTAL YOU’LL GET. But I’m sad... where are the other two new songs you may ask?

Verson B OOONNEEEE of the new songs (ok we also have it’s instrumental too and cover is ok)

Version C THE OTHER SONG (we have it’s instrumental too and I didn’t know people had silver skin...)

Do you see the strategy? Each version has one of the songs so you have to buy all the versions... And I didn’t like this...

07/08 The MV was released. They don’t have official youtube chanel so they uploaded in the company that represents them in japan.

The major changes were the individual shots as they had to sing in japanese. Nothing to complain in here, their pronunciation was good but the lyrics timing didn’t seem to match the song. Valkyrie had a better japanese version then Twilight... I loved the two new songs we got too.

(Bless the person who putted Korean and Japenese side to side, I saved the video on that huge playlist)

Also, can we appreciate how well Oneus and Twilight was received in Japan? They went to national television, topped Oricon AND Billboard Japan. Tower Records was EMPTY on the first day and they promoted for almost a whole month with shows. Japan basically adoped Oneus.

But nothing is flowers. It’s was extreamly difficult to buy this single online outside japan.LET ME TELL YOU. CD japan? Nothing, Amazon japan? Nothing, Yahoo Japan? Nothing. Rakuten? Nothing, YesAsia? NOTHING. THE ONLY PLACE I COULD FIND TO BUY THIS ONLINE IS TOWER RECORDS OFFICIAL WEBSITE WITCH GUESS WHAT IT IS IN JAPANESE. AND TO BUY OUTSIDE JAPAN YOU DON’T BUY FROM THEIR WEBSITE. IT’S FROM ANOTHER WEBSITE WITCH TOWER RECORDS THEMSELFS PUTED THE LINK IN THOSE HUGE ASS BANNERS IN THEIR WEBSITE. Summary it was  literally giving birth to buy this online.

I tought I could rest BUT NOT. They would attend Soribada Music Awards... THEIR FIRST AWARD SHOW. Look I love Valkyrie... but I want Twilight to be performed and I WANT FASHION OK. I’m full of expetations, do not disappoint me Oneus. The day of the award show came and well... I was actually disappointed. Simple suits and the performance clothes? They repeated one of the worst weapons in their closets. C’mon... if you are going to repeat you have better choices IT’S NO EXCUSE... that’s the summary...

Well, from now I have covered everything... Don’t sleep in Keonhee vocals, Oneus has TWO MAIN VOCALS, appreciate Woongie vocals, that’s it.

If y’all want in my research I have build a really small database of Woongie earings in this comeback, maybe in the future I can do a compilation.

And that’s the end… if you got here congratulations you are a warrior and me too for the hours of links, print screens and editions… Byeee

[mindblowndoeships]

Hii, I finally came to give you more work (╭☞◕ ³◕) ╭☞

 I would like to ask for a ship with Stray Kids and iKON.

I’m 18, almost 19, and I aspire to become a laboratory diagnostician. I’m also a runner, so I have quite an athletic build. I’m around 168 cm tall and I have short, blond hair with bangs and pastel pink ends. My eyes are bright blue and I’m really pale. People tend to call me a squirrel or a hamster because of my big cheeks. I’m a little shy when I meet new people in real life, but I quickly open up. It’s hard for me to talk about my problems with my close friends, because I feel like I’m burdening them too much. That’s why it’s often easier for me to rant to people on the internet. When I’m with my friends I’m very bright and cheerful, I often joke and play around with them. People say my sense of humor is pretty bad, but my laugh is so funny that it makes them laugh as well lmao. They also pointed out on multiple occasions that I’m really talkative and careless around them. Sometimes I come off as a little childish because I’m quite playful. I always do things that other people are too afraid or well-behaved to do, but often I end up regretting it later on. I’m always late, I still don’t know how to move around my city in the buses or trams (I always have to check it beforehand). My apartment is also pretty messy because I’m very sentimental and it’s hard for me to throw out stuff I got used to. I often buy useless things, like cute plants or stuffed animals and pillows. The only thing that is clean in my environment is my body. I shower up to six times a day, which isn’t very good for my bills and skin, but I just can’t stop doing it. I’m also obsessed with skincare, so I invest a lot of money and time into it. Honestly, I spend most of my money on beauty products and my cat. He is so spoiled that his food costs more than mine. I’m pretty much in love with him, and I can say that I would choose my kitty over almost all of my friends. I don’t really need people unless I become really attached to them. I like spending my time alone, as it is easier to organize it. I absolutely hate when something doesn’t go the way I planned. I’m a control freak and a perfectionist, so every mistake I make gives me a lot of anxiety. I’m very caring. I always try to be nice to people because I know how my words can affect them. I get really invested in other people’s problems and I do my best to help them. It’s often easier for me to cheer up others than myself. When something bad happens because of me, I beat myself up over it constantly. I also tend to worry about what people think of me as I’m quite self-conscious. It’s easy to make me feel bad. I pretend to not care about what others say, but in reality I’m really sensitive and I have a tendency to overthink. Other than that I’m always honest and I really hate liars. I’m also addicted to caffeine, as I pretty much fuel myself with coffee and energy drinks. I often pull all-nighters working. I’m really serious about my studies and I invest most of my time into them. Once I set myself a goal, I do everything in my power to achieve it. I either overwork myself or sleep on the couch all day. In free time I love to go out hiking or running, I also have a weak spot for swimming. I easily fall in love, and it’s also quite easy for me to get over someone. Aand I love listening to music. My taste is really various, but I just can’t imagine living without it.

Hey love 🌸 @venkawrites I'm so sorry for making you wait for so long, hope you like it!

From Stray Kids I ship you with Jisung!

I thought of him immediately when I read your description. I think you'll be able to easily attract his attention. Your cute appearance would definitely make him turn around for a double take to look at you 👀 In fact he'd probably stare at you a lot when you first meet, not in a creepy way of course. But more so with an admiration of your beauty, he would have a smile on his face whenever he's around. You'd often catch him randomly staring at you throughout your relationship, if you point it out he might get a little shy. Jisung just loves your blue eyes so much, he can't help but look at them for a little longer. He would be very affectionate towards you. I don't see him as being clingy, so when you need your space and alone time he won't have a problem with it. But when you guys are together he would shower you with kisses and make you feel loved. I don't see you guys staying indoors too much, unless you're both tired or haven't seen each other in a long time. Jisung would love going out with you and traveling together on your vacations. He'd want to take you to places that he's never been to before, just so you guys could share these special moments with each other and make memories. On a day to day basis he'd love to go for a run or a swim with you as long as he's free. He'd be able to keep up with your interests more than well, as long as he gets to spend more time with you he'd be down for anything. And in my opinion Jisung is very passionate about the things and the people that he loves, which makes him quite loyal. When you need help or reassurance he'd always be there for you. He might be able to help you loosen up and express your feelings better. That'll happen naturally as he would never push you to say or do something that you don't want to. He'd make sure to let you know that he's by your side no matter what and that you can trust him. Jisung would also have a special way of making you feel confident and good about yourself, he'd always remind you how beautiful and appreciated you are. It will be an easy going relationship, you guys would be the squirrel couple 😁🐿 Also, what I think he'd love the most about you is your cheerful personality and how talkative you are, it'll make him feel secure and accepted in your company, he won't be afraid to be himself with you.

And from iKON I ship you with Hanbin!

Oh boy...how much he would relate to you omg. Be prepared for having long ass deep convos with him every night. Especially when you guys first meet. I can see him approaching you, because he's just nice and I guess you look cute and approachable. So he'd go for it and you guys would warm up pretty quickly. Then you'd probably get lost in a conversation, rapidly switching the subjects, just getting to know each other. He'd realize how much you guys have and common and he'd definitely want to see you again and spend more time with you. Hanbin will develop a soft spot for you. He'd love how nice and bubbly you are not just with him, but with other people too. You guys will take things slow and most likely become friends first, before going any further. He'd want to make sure that you really are comfortable with him and there is some sort of a mutual feeling so that he can make a move. Hanbin will be able to keep up with your life style very well. Just like you he is hardworking, very driven and a perfectionist. He's the one who would understand you best and also give advice and so much support when something that you've been working on doesn't go as planned. He'd be the best at reassuring you that your effort never goes to waste. He'd really admire your passion, but he would also take good care of you and insist on you to catch a break when you need it. Hanbin is one of the most chill and down to earth kpop idols that I can think of, and he's so so sweet and caring. He's always got your back. Whenever you're feeling down he'd shower you with affection and do his best to cheer you up. No doubt he'd give you a lot of compliments and just words of love to make you feel like you're the most important person to him. Hanbin would very much appreciate your honesty and how caring you are to him and in general. He also needs a shoulder to lean on when things are not going well, so he'll be very thankful that you're there for him, trying to help with all you've got. You guys will be able to understand each other quite well and your love and support would be stonger than anything that could possibly stand between you two.

Thank you for requesting! ❤

SHIPS ARE CLOSED!

My main account ➡ @mind666blown

[scithemodestmermaid]

Thoughts on Detective Pikachu (SPOILERS VERSION)

So in this post, I will be discussing (in this order) background Pokemon, the Greninjas, that scene from the trailers where the ground is going crazy, Bulbasaur march, Bill Nighy, Mewtwo, a huge plot twist, a spoiler character, and another huge plot twist.

So if you don’t want to go into the movie knowing anything about any of this, which i highly recommend, then DO NOT READ PAST THIS PAGE BREAK.  IF YOU ARE ON A WEB BROWSER THAT DOES NOT DO PAGE BREAKS, SCROLL AS FAST AS YOU CAN UNTIL YOU GET TO WHATEVER THE NET POST ON YOUR DASH IS.

I’d keep all this to myself until the movie’s been out longer, but I have to talk about it now or else I will explode.

Also keep in mind, I haven’t played the actual Detective Pikachu game, so if this stuff was in that game already and I’m talking about it like its so original and its annoying you, then I apologize beforehand.

Background Pokemon: basically, what you see in the trailers and promo spots is what there is.  I mean, there’s photos of others (like Totodile, who’s lookin reeeeally weird) and artistic representations (Geodude and Natu show up on an Ancient Egyptian-styled mural) and such.  But other than that, it’s just the same few critters over and over and over.  It gets ridiculous near the end of the movie, when there’s just, like, twenty Sneasels in one shot.  But you know what, the quality of the individual models more than makes up for the quantity, I suppose.

The Greninjas: these guys in the first trailer were what sold the movie concept for me, and I am so proud of my creepy drugged-up assassin frogs.  They were genuinely disturbing and threatening, and made for great minor antagonists.  Except...they’re barely in it.  Maybe for, like, five minutes.  They’re introduced (via jump scare), they’re released, they kidnap the news girl, they chase the main characters into the forest, they get beat up by Psyduck.  Not counting all their background scene appearances (yes, there’s good frogs in the movie as well, its just the bad frogs were the advertised ones), they’re barely there.  I feel cheated slightly.  Still, my fave starter made quite an impression and were friggin astounding.  Also, one of the best models in the movie.

Crazy Ground: so my prediction was that it would be one giant Torterra doing all that, ever since that one trailer that revealed Torterras model was revealed.  I was wrong.  It is seven giant Torterras in one of the most awe-inspiring visual sequences I have ever experienced in a movie theater.  I’m not exactly a fan of Sinnoh, but oh my gosh you guys are on to something them turtles are astounding.  And it took me a very long time to figure out how Pikachu got knocked out, basically he gets bumped in the chest by a rock and almost dies.  Makes no sense, until you remember Pikachus are weak to Ground.  Anyway, that leads to the Bulbasaurs.

Bulbasaur March: those angels.  Those beautiful puppies.  Those precious little creatures.  Were working for Mewtwo the whole time, which completely took me off guard cuz I was expecting the healer to be a Venusaur.

Bill Nighy and the Huge Plot Twist, Part 1: fitting that his Eevee evolved into a Flareon, which is now pretty much associated with being a False Prophet.  The kindly fellow turned out to be the bad guy, seeing Pokemon as the final evolution of human beings and wanting to heal not only his own frail body but everyone else’s.  Which then starts the third act, which is basically “Bill Nighy’s Pokemon Mystery Dungeon Self-Insert Fanfiction.”  Starring Bill Nighy as Mewtwo.  And you realize this when he transfers his brain to Mewtwo, who then grins.  Like, full-on slasher smile.  And then he talks.  Like, not psychically, he moves his friggin mouth and its the first time i have ever seen Mewtwo lip-synced and its honesty kind of uncanny and disturbing, but also very well animated and Bill Nighy’s power-trip voice acting is so good.  Bill Nighy just did so good as the main antagonist.

Huge Plot Twist, Part 2: but you know what, this might be one of my favorite plot twists ever put to family cinema.  In this current attitude of needing to subvert expectations, most directors miss the part where you need to replace that expectation with something better (not looking at anyone in particular, Rian Johnson, anyway).  The movie sets up the twist as Bill Nighy is the kindly old mentor who needs to stop his arrogant son from ruining everything.  Any normal family movie would just run with that.  But here, they subvert that twist by making the twist be that the kindly old mentor is actually a crazed power-mad furry megalomaniac.  THAT IS HOW YOU SUBVERT EXPECTATIONS.  YOU LOOK AT THE CONTEXT OF YOUR FILM AND YOUR AUDIENCE, AND YOU WRITE SOMETHING THAT THEY EXPECT, AND REPLACE IT WITH A MORE SATISFYING TWIST.

Mewtwo: he’s voiced by two people I had not heard of previously (Kotaro Watanabe, who apparently voiced him in XY according to IMDB?, and Rina Hoshiro).  Their voices are layered on each other, but mostly masculine, but also predominately aetherial, and its like ASMR just listening to him talk.  And the trailers and vectors do not do him justice, he is so friggin handsome in this film.  He is intimidating and mysterious, but patient and kind as well.  And he smiles.  Not Billtwo’s creepy slasher smile, no that’s not what I’m talking about here.  He smiles, so small but so sweetly.  And basically, my confused childhood crush on him is back but its not confusing any longer, I can’t deny it, I-frigin-fuc-I just-no-yes I-FRAG I fell in love with Mewtwo.  Thanks, Rob Letterman.  Also, my mom’s wise words sum him up here as well: “I always knew he was a good boy.”  Anyway, that rumor I heard about them considering making a Mewtwo movie better be true, I need that in my life.  Although he IS the same Mewtwo from the very first Pokemon movie, so I guess the remake that’s coming out is technically his movie?  But still, I want one with his design HERE.

The Spoiler Character: is Miss Norman, the dominatrix Ditto (also maybe Missingno, that’s a theory I read and I like it).  Now, Ditto technically was already spoiled in the TCG, but still.  It’s a creepy little brat, it can turn into any human or Pokemon whether said human or Pokemon is in its line of sight, and its a freak of nature even amongst Dittos.  And the Ditto eyes on humans?  Oh gosh get that away from meeeee.  The biggest downside is that she’s going to kick off a whole slew of fanart that I don’t know if I want to see, and considering I’m stating that after stating my crush on Mewtwo then that’s something.

The Other Big Plot Twist: You all called it.  Detective Pikachu is Tim’s dad.  And Ryan Reynolds just shows up at the end of the movie, he and Tim have rekindled their father/son relationship, but he doesn’t remember what all happened and the Pikachu can no longer speak.  So I have no idea how a Detective Pikachu 2 would even work at this point, but the ending was so sweet that I will just let this go.

AAAAAAND THATS IT FROM ME.  whew.  glad i didn’t explode.

[fearlesslyenchantedinwonderland]

Reputation Tour - Minneapolis Night 2 - The Show

I am so extra when it comes to these types of posts so I am going to start with the concert itself (nothing before or after)

Well ok, we can start with the pre-show setlist because it was lit. 

I knew that she played Tequila and Bad Reputation but I didn’t know the rest 

*** disclaimer: I’ve low key been following the concerts, but I’ve mostly been following the B-stage song (and fans reactions and experiences ofc). I’ve looked at the full setlist before but I only knew the first and last song. I had a phase where I would follow along to a lot of an artist on tour and see how each show went but I actually prefer this because it’s more of a surprise, I’ll likely follow more now that I’ve had my show. 

Babe, Selena, Roman Holiday, Curious. I loved when My My My came on and in my head, I was like I’d love to hear strawberries and cigarettes, and what does she do? Play it right after.

This past spring, during my last semester I had both songs on a short playlist that I would play on repeat when I was studying for tests, it got me through. The only thing about listening to them in the stadium is I realized as a college student I listened to a lot of music but I don’t necessarily know all the lyrics to songs I listened to at the time bc I was multitasking. Rip.

I loved that she played Obsessed, I thought that was hilarious, I was into that song during junior high. 

Anyways now on to the concert.

I don’t even know how much I’ll have to say because I was just DANCING AND SCREAMING LYRICS most of the time, like there were certain points where I had to bring myself back to reality because I was so lost in the music that I forgot to focus on Taylor  - Like that tells you that it was a D*** good show. 

ok lets go song by song. 

…Ready for it? 

I wasn’t sure where she was going to come out but WOW WHAT AN ENTRANCE. I loved the fog and ahhhhh

I Did Something Bad

THIS SONG IS POWERFUL

I felt bad bc one of my friends really wanted to come to the show but it didn’t work out and this was the song she wanted to see the most.

Like this song DESERVES to be heard live. Like honestly this entire album the live versions bring it up another level. 

THE FIRE THE FIREWORK 

I can’t

you could literally FEEL the heat from the flames. I wow. 

During the bridge when all of the dancers were lying on the floor as burning witches - it reminded me of the thing Taylor does best, the theatrics. SHE PUTS ON A SHOW. Like idc what people say about Taylor's music, you don’t have to like it, but you can’t say that she can’t put on a show.

This song is such a BA and makes me feel powerful. It doesn’t take any sh**

Gorgeous

We love transitions. SOme of them are cheesy but I am such a sucker for them. I love that the screens show pictures of the Olivia and Meredith. 

Ok so this song took a while for me to get into when it first came out. Now i love it ofc. but like this son also deserves to be heard in concert because it’s fun to be over the top with it. 

Style / Love Story / You Belong With Me

Have I mentioned that I love this woman with my entire heart? One thing that I love about concerts, is how the artist changes the arrangement, and this mashup exhibits that well. 

Like as a fan who has been here for 10 years I appreciate her singing old songs so much. Also Style is wow one of my fav songs off of 1989. 

Ugh IM GETTING SO EMO WRITING THIS SHE MEANS SO MUCH TO ME HER MUSIC MEANS SO MUCH TO ME AND EVERYTHING JUST BRINGS BACK SUCH AMAZING MEMORIES.

She acknowledges the band during this mashup, and bjwailvuke,hrgoiuelakrj,nfwleiaksjbvn IM SO EMO ACTUALLY GOING TO CCRY that was one of my favorite parts of the show when Taylor was leaning against Paul and Amos while they were playing. They’ve been there with her through it all. They’ve stuck around. They could get any job in the world and they stay (my eyes are watering up so much I can’t see). I clapped so hard for them. I appreciate them so much and they deserve all the love in the world. I can’t imagine how emo they get over long live because I get emo over long live referring to them more than anyone else wow. 

AND WOW you belong with me. That gave me Speak Now flashbacks in how the screens looked (she played that song going back to the stage from the b-stage during that tour).

Look What You Made Me Do

I feel like seeing rep in concert just made me appreciate the album 10000 more than before it is so POWERFUL & SEXY. The sound of this song live mixed with the power of the music video wow. This woman OWNS THE WORLD

I didn’t realize that they actually did the phone call during the show but I LOVED being able to scream she’s dead. 

Lol I was so focused on the screen or in my head at some point that I DIDN”T NOTICE THE SNAKE COMING OUT OF THE STAGE. My friend was FREAKING OUT as was half of the audience. I knew about the snake pre show but it was still like wow hi hello. 

End Game 

I guess if there is anything that I was ??????? mildly disappointed with was that this song was so short, I mean like I didn’t know what to expect either because I didn’t expect her to do the rap or ed’s part. This is just one of my favorite songs so I would’ve loved to hear the song for longer. 

King of My Heart

I guess out of the entire show this one stood out the least, but like that means very little because I was still screaming the lyrics and dancing the entire time.

I love the harmonies in this song and it was*sounds of heaven above* to hear it live 

A good transition to the slower songs. 

Delicate

For her speech - I was surprised by how many people hadn’t seen her before but I was just smiling because I was so happy for them.

Also, I don’t remember if this was during this same part or when it was but when she was asking who was from MN and who was from elsewhere - can I just say that I met someone who was from KOREA attending the show. And she had seen it the night before and if that doesn’t tell you the power of music there’s nothing else. 

Ok actual disappointment of the concert. NO ONE BY ME SCREAM 1, 2, 3, LETS GO BITCH I was so sad. And I forgot to tell the friend I was going with about it. The other friend I was hoping to go to the other night did know tho and wanted to do that. But I was like I’m not going to scream profanities is no one by me is so I kinda mumbled off at the end of the phrase. (more like it made me self conscious that I was saying it at the wrong time, but I wasn’t) It sounded like other sections were louder like it was loud enough to be recognized in the venue. But idk if ppl who aren’t part of stan twitter would understand what was being said unless they were by a fan who said it. 

Lol I’ve probably watched more videos of people saying this that of the rep songs pre my show. 

Ok I didn’t realize that this was the song that she goes over to the b-stage with and awwww. I knew it was pretty but it was gorgeous. My friend (who is more of a casual fan but was still hype and singing during the show to everything besides the expected (long live, TTWAS, and should’ve said no) was so appreciative of that part, she was like it felt like she was looking at me. I was just so happy during that moment she makes me so happy. I was one of the few people not waving because I was just taking it all in, the beauty of it all. 

Shake it off

lol the one song I completely forgot was on the setlist I was so surprised. I didn’t realize that the openers were on the stage until they had been on the stage for like 45 seconds. Before my show, I didn’t see many people post videos of this song. And the visuals were so fun and colorful and the confetti.

Also like after the song confetti was flying through the air during the acoustic show and PRETTTY.

After this song was over my heart was beating so fast because I couldn’t wait to hear what the secret song was.

So it goes… 

Ok so this is the part of the show were I got very confused.

So, the one downside of looking at the setlist was that I KNEW that this song wasn’t on the setlist. So I thought this song was the secret song, so ngl I got low key sad even though  ITS MY FAV song off the album (not including singles) (ranking to be posted sooon, idk my order yet, still).

I was still happy to hear it, but I wasn’t able to appreciate as much as I would’ve. I did later tho. 

THE SECRET SONG

The morning of the show, or the night before, someone who had met her night 1 had posted that she had talked to taylor and knew the two options taylor was thinking of for tonight. And I was like ugh I wish she could givea vague hint, that no one would be able to guess, but would make so much sense after the fact. I didn’t want to be spoiled but iwkjbsvk still the part that I was most excited about. (fun fact it didn’t end up being either song that the girl had discussed with taylor)

Taylor talked about people saying she’s been listening to people from all platforms asking her to play old songs. At one point she even said 13 years, and in my head I was like is she actually going to play I’d Lie (DO IT). But once she started describing the song I knew it right away. Lol I recorded the speech beforehand and you can just hear me muttering tied together with a smile over and over again.

I was correct

Tied Together With A Smile

This song has always been beautiful. From 2007 I have always liked it because sonically it’s soothing (I know I’ve been through other stuff with this song but not enough to be remembered). But honestly, doing my album rank the other week made me REALLY REALLY appreciate this song, in a way that 6th grade me wouldn’t have been able to comprehend. I know I’ve cried to this song before, but not in memory of the way I realized it.

This song is me during the end of high school. I always did well in school but suddenly I was struggling and I fell apart. I put so much pressure on myself and I felt like such a failure. It would lead to bad anxiety, breaking down, and later being depressed. And then during my first year of college, I was in a depressed mood state still and I just felt so numb I couldn’t feel anything. 

I SCREAMED THIS SONG. I probably shouldn’t have during the verses. BUT IT DESERVES THAT. This song is one of those songs that you sob to, and honestly, at one point I looked like a wreck during this song because I almost cried. 

I am so happy she sang this song. Like she reminded us to be kind to ourselves. ANd can I cry again? I love her so much. Like honestly this is something we all need to remind ourselves at times. 

ugh what beauty.

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When the show was over I thought we had heard every song from rep, but after research, I realized that she switched dancing with my hands tied with so it goes… Like wow am I happy that I got lucky enough to get to hear one of my fav songs and I got a DEBUT ALBUM song what even. Like rip for 1989 the secret song was mean. for red both songs were really good, but the night that I wasn’t there was just a little bit better. I still love begin again it is gorgeous. But like tied together is a song that SO many fans haven’t heard live before 

(I’m listening to each song while writing this post and Carrie Underwood came on shuffle after this song and I got so distracted, I never realized that I know almost all of her music except her most recent album and few singles)

(now I remembered that I need to listen to troye new album, but back on track. Troye’s album can wait, memories on the other hand only last so long)

Blank Space 

This happened a few times during the show where I just started singing the lyrics but I didn’t know what I was singing. That’s what happens when you know the entire discovery of someone who has more than 2 albums out. 

This was another song that I completely forgot that she was performing. It was fun. The arrangement felt different which I appreciated because it freshens up the song, and for people who went to 1989 it’s not an exact repeat. 

Dress

I

this song has the best visuals and dancing with it.

Everyone was looking at the back screen to get to unedited close up of her but I was staring at the main stage. 

It was enchanting and that’s all I have to say. Beautiful. A Masterpiece. 

Bad Blood/Should've Said No

Lol the snake bring her back to the stage went so fast. Low key felt bad for the people on the other side because I feel like they didn’t get as much time as she went past. 

Based on how hard I went during the concert this was my favorite song. I WENT SO HARD during should’ve said no. 

Boy go home.

This song was such a tease tho bc the music of shoul’ve said no kept playing in the background while she was still singing bad blood. I liked the visuals of this version of bad blood better than the 1989 tour. But I will say that it is one of the songs that stood out during the 1989 tour. During 1989 tour I got that out of this world chance to sit front row middle catwalk during that tour and the next night I won ticket in the lower level. And during the second night the visuals stood out (same goes to ootw).

Wow I want to hear should’ve said no live again.

I heard it during speak now, but wow it went so HARD>

Also I kept thinking of the CMT performance. 

Don’t Blame Me

This song was all about the hand gestures. I love the gospel choir feel of this song. 

Long Live/New Years Day

Lol this is probs the only part of the show I was relatively chill. Because I was just so happy so many memories, so proud of taylor, so happy for her crew band and dancer, and everything was right. Still screamed some of the lyrics of long live when I probs should’ve been quieter (or at least been trying to sing like a normal person)

Why She Disappeared

Ok I was excited for this. This is one of the things I purposefully didn’t watch bc I wanted to save it for the concert. But I must’ve blacked out or something because I remember trying to film it. Then my space filled up. But I barely processed half of it. So I am going to have to go back to that. But I do like the transition - and the story she tells. 

Getaway Car

after so it goes… this is my next fav song off the album. The visuals were very entrancing during this song as well.

She was so cute during this song. She did a little slide. And wow now that I’m watching a video from last night I didn’t realize that this is the only song shes alone on the main stage?? 

Also, I love this outfit. 

wow I love her so much

(now I’m just thinkng of how powerful it is for her to be on stage ALONE in a room over 66 thousand people.)

Call It What You Want

This is the point where I don’t have much to say

this song is also a fav and the confetti she’s so pretty the song’s pretty, she’s in love and I’m so happy for her. The fountain was out and suddenly it was bittersweet. I didn’t want the night to end. 

She laughed during the song. ugh I love those small moments when she smiles or reacts to something. 

We Are Never Ever Getting Back Together / This Is Why We Can't Have Nice Things

GOES AS HARD AS POSSIBLE

This moment is so beautiful. While it’s talking about people that we don’t want to be friends with and we need to let go (doesn’t mean we don’t get upset about it) but we were in a room fill of people all there to have a good time and all there for the same reason

To have the times of their life and to share their love for Taylor and her music

---

One thing that really stood out about this concert was how nice everyone was, the warmth felt through out the stadium there was so much love. And wow.

It was such a great night.

I’ve been to speak now, red, 2 nights of 1989, and now one of reputation and this was by far her best tour ever.

Thank you for coming to Minneapolis. I hope you had an amazing night I sure did. 

[symphonyinsea]

It’s been a while since I last posted here, and for good reason. Musical took up most of my free time over the last couple of months, and then we had four fantastic shows - so many people have told us it was the best show in years. That was two weeks ago now. I’m only just about coming out from the post-show blues - it was worst the week after when I still had some medicine to do, but now I’ve had a week off uni (plus a spontaneous adventure on a Scottish island), I’ve been able to process all that’s happened.

My last long post was after weekend away in February. Since then, the intensity ramped up significantly. As well as having all-day rehearsals every Sunday, we had more arranging to do (I had to learn how to write drum and guitar parts, as well as doing scene-change music), as well as band rehearsals starting on top of everything else. It was hectic and stressful for a while, but it was honestly so, so worth it. We managed to make a great show, and we definitely pulled off what we were trying to achieve.

One of the most special moments was collaborating on the overture with MD. We decided to use music from the film of our show rather than a classic overture which would spoil all our tunes. I wrote the first part, which was a ‘straighter’, more classical version, and MD wrote the second part which was a jazz version of the same themes. It was a lot of work, but incredibly satisfying when it came together. We’re both so proud of it - it was a true collaboration and each of us had creative input into the other’s work: he gave me advice about the style of my parts while I helped him with the strings and some harmonies in his part. I’ll always cherish that score, with both our names side by side as the composers/arrangers. 

MD and I got really close over the past few weeks. In the run-up to the show, we were seeing each other 3-4 times per week, and then every day in the last two weeks. We relied on each other, and we made such a brilliant team. I feel truly lucky to have worked with him. It’s rare that a creative partnership works so well - none of the previous MD teams in the time since we’ve been here has functioned quite as well as we did. Our strengths and weaknesses balance each other out, and we’re able to communicate so well, and give and receive constructive criticism and encouragement in a way the other person can hear. It’s been pretty special.

And, musically, we complemented each other so well. With him coming from a jazz background and me from a more classical one, we managed to get a great balance of tunes in the show: he was great at writing the jazzy tunes, and I made a decent effort at the more musical-y ones and the bits of film music we used for scene changes. We can confidently say that all instruments had their chance to shine and play interesting parts. Plus, with our contacts from both jazz and classical circles, we managed to assemble an epic set of people for our band. All our brass and rhythm played in the uni jazz band, and most of our string players played in the uni orchestras. We sounded so freaking good.

I know I mostly talk about music here (because that’s where I was involved), but I’ve got to give full credit to our directors, choreographers, writers, editors, stage managers, tech managers, producers, set design, and amazing cast for all their work. It was truly a team effort, and everyone brought their best to the project. I am so in awe of how talented my year is. Just the fact that we have so many strong singers - we had a great ensemble cast - blows my mind, and I don’t think there’s been a year while I’ve been here with so many great voices. Our script was also spot on and hilarious - our editors were ruthless, and it meant that each scene was paced right, and each joke landed. Our plot actually made sense. And, the dances were incredible. MD and I worked closest with the choreographers during rehearsals, and we saw how much effort they put into teaching and drilling chorus with their moves. But it looked so professional and fun by the end - hats off to them.

And now we have to return to real life. My next rotation is Urology. But we have a screening of the show next week to look forward to, at least. I think the thing I’ll miss most is regularly seeing all these wonderful people from my year, who I wouldn’t necessarily interact with otherwise. The musical really brought us all together.

As for MD and I, it’s been interesting, and I’m not quite sure what to think at this stage. We’ve built up a lot of mutual trust and respect over the past few weeks and months. He’s more open and vulnerable with me than he used to be, and I feel safe being myself with him. He encouraged and complimented my work regularly, and said how much he admired and appreciated me. I was able to be his rock and provide the support he needed over the last few weeks, picking up his slack and letting him do his thing. So, there’s definitely a deep friendship there and I hope that, at least, continues. 

Is there anything more? It’s so hard to tell. There are certain things he’s said and done which gave me hope, but still nothing is concrete - he hasn’t explicitly asked me out yet.

- We’ve had lots of coffee together, and often had lunch together during rehearsals. Sometimes he would ask me to join him, sometimes I would ask him. Sometimes he would pay for me when I didn’t have cash and sometimes I paid for him (although he was always a bit uncomfortable with that, and said he would pay me back).

- One time when we went to get lunch together, a friend invited himself along. He had bought food at a different place, and so when MD and I went to pay, when the cashier asked if it was together or separately and I said separately, the other friend said ‘Oooh, is this the first date or second date?’ jokingly - and MD said ‘more like 500′.

- He always checked my opinion about things, whether it was on his song arrangements, or his conducting, or how best to plan rehearsals. Even during the shows, he would sometimes look at me to confirm that we weren’t supposed to play that song yet, or if he was going too slow etc. During the intervals, he would ask me for my comments on how it was going, or if there was anything he could do better.

- On the second night, his parents were there, and his mum came up to me and told me well done for all my work - when he saw me talking to his mother, he introduced me to both his mum and dad, saying that I wrote more of the music than he did, and anything beautiful/technically difficult was written by me. 

- He started hugging me a lot. In all our time working together, the only time he hugged me was after he was on a high from his final jazz concert of the year. But, from the second show night onwards, he’s hugged me every time I saw him. Most of those were understandable in context - after our fabulous second show, after hugging his other (guy) friend to say goodbye when he was leaving, after the last show, after get-out when our time as an MD team had ended. But our final hug is what makes me feel like something changed - it was just after a casual lunch (I’ll elaborate later) and it was on a street corner where we had parted ways many times previously without hugging. Although maybe it was because we wouldn’t see each other for a couple weeks. But still - I had more hugs from him in the last week or so than in the entire previous year.

- One of my best friends (the only one who knows I like him) saw us interact together after the third show and texted me later ‘He definitely likes you! I can tell’.

- He always introduces me by my name and ‘position’, as in this is [symphony] who co-MD’d the musical. He’s never explicitly referred to me as just his ‘friend’. I think that’s a good thing?

- But perhaps the thing that gives me the most hope/is the most confusing is the gift he gave me on the last night. For context, my instrument case has slowly been falling apart over the last few months, but I didn’t have time to replace it. Now, at the final show, we were in a bit of a rush to get ready because we had a band meal beforehand. I went to get changed after warm-up and when I got back, my case had disappeared - one of the band members said MD had put it away backstage. Bit strange, because cases usually went in the cupboard under the seats in the auditorium, but I didn’t think too much of it. At the end of the final show, I had to put my instrument away. After saying bye to my family who had come, I went to find MD and asked where he had put my case. He said he would take me there. It took a while because we both kept being waylaid by cast/friends who wanted to say congratulations and how much they had enjoyed the show. All the while I was awkwardly holding my instrument, but praise is always nice and we were all on such a high so it was okay. Eventually MD and I reached the place where my case was. It was on some chairs, and I was about to grab it and put my instrument in, when he stopped me. Then, he reached under the chairs and pulled out a brand new case, much nicer than my old one. He told me, ‘someone as good as you shouldn’t have to carry that old thing’. I didn’t know how to react, and there was this odd look in his eyes. He was so serious, and it felt like a goodbye. I thought it was over at that point. I shoved down the feels for a while, and took the cases downstairs, but when I was putting my instrument away, I just had waves of emotion coming over me, thinking, ‘it’s over, it’s really over’. My feelings about the musical and MD were so intermingled, and I was overwhelmed. Some people from the cast/crew spotted me, and I told them that MD had just given me a new case. I don’t think they quite understood what it meant - they said he was very kind, but I deserved it after all the work I’d put in. But I was still processing it. I opened the case and it was so beautiful inside - I was still staring at it in a state of shock when MD returned. He asked if I liked it, and I said yeah, it was so much better than my old one. He could see the look on my face, and said ‘Come here...’ - I rather unceremoniously dumped the case on the ground and stood up, and he gave me a big hug. It just felt so final. From the way he was looking at me, he seemed to feel the same. I sat back down, slowly putting my instrument away, still overwhelmed, and he left me alone, to go talk to his family, and so I could gather myself. Later, I looked up the cost of the case, to see if I could get him a present (I hadn’t got him anything, to my embarrassment - it just didn’t cross my mind, with everything else going on). The case cost him £60, and this from a guy who chooses the cheaper lunch to save money. It is the most expensive present anyone who’s not family has ever given me. And, it was so thoughtful - it’s exactly what I needed, and so practical - he knows what I would appreciate. And now every time I play my violin it will remind me of him.

But, it did feel so final. It felt like a goodbye. Even at the afterparty, we didn’t spend much time talking one-on-one. There was sadness in his eyes when he looked at me, whenever we were on the brink of talking, but there were so many other people there, and music for dancing, and a mood of celebration with everyone else. Plus, his ex was there. And, one of the choreos who had a crush on him was always there when I was near him, so I didn’t get a chance to say much. But it did feel like he was more closed off than previously. I saw him glance at me a few times while I was dancing and he was talking to his best female friend (who’s good friends with his ex, so nothing can happen there). He looked kinda sad, and she was comforting him. But still, when I left the afterparty at 6am, it was with a heavy heart, feeling like it was over - both the musical, and my hopes with MD.

At get-out the next day, I tried to stay light. I was with my other friends - MD didn’t arrive until fairly late. When he did arrive, we finally got a chance to chat, briefly. We divided the scores - he had printed 2 copies of the overture we had collaborated on, then we each took the songs we had arranged. We had a little time to reflect on our time as the MD team, but his friends arrived too soon and it was over. He helped me put some of the lighting equipment into my car. There were a lot of emotions bubbling under the surface. But, his friends were there, so we couldn’t be as open as we had been. Finally, it was time to say goodbye. His best friend was standing by us at the time - we had a quick hug, and his friend commented that goodbyes were always a bit underwhelming. We were both feeling down and weary - I could see the sadness in his eyes again. But we were already a bit distant. I got into my car and left.

That evening, I had serious post-show blues, and I spent about an hour bed, crying. Emotional messages were flooding my phone from the production/rehearsal team and cast. I contributed one of my own. Eventually, I got up, and decided to give MD a proper thanks and goodbye, if only to give myself some closure. I sent him a very long message, saying how much I enjoyed working with him, how great a job we had done, how much fun I’d had, how great a team we were, and how much I’d miss it, and him specifically. He replied later that night, saying he agreed, and he didn’t know how to express how much he admired and appreciated me, commenting on my musicianship, commitment and enthusiasm. But it still felt weirdly formal. The one thing which kept a spark of hope for me was the last line - he said that we should make sure to keep in touch, beyond the screening and rehearsal team reunion dinner - he said we both liked coffee and talking about music so we should do that too. I still don’t quite know what to make of that. He clearly still wants to stay friends, at least, beyond the friendships formed with the other people on the team, which is something.

But he was about to leave to stay with his family, and then on a holiday abroad for a week, so I didn’t expect to see him for almost 3 weeks - a big shift from seeing each other almost every day previously. I was prepared to shut myself down again. Back at class with other people from the show, we all reminisced about how great it was, all processing together. When my friend asked ‘There wasn’t anything between you and MD, was there?’, I replied, ‘I don’t think so...’, and he said ‘...Just ‘cause you spent a lot of time together’. I think I was honest at the moment. There was what I was hoping, but also what I feared I was projecting. I’ve always been wrong about this sort of stuff in the past, so it’s safer for me to always assume there’s nothing there. But I couldn’t help but hold onto a tiny shred of hope. There was a photo of us as the MD team uploaded to Facebook, and it got more likes than any of the other photos of MD with other people, and it felt as though it validated who MD and I were with each other - someone commented ‘#dreamteam’. And that we certainly were. We always have that. And we’ll aways have those memories. Even if nothing more comes of it.

But.

But. On Friday, the last day before the holidays, MD put up a post saying that he was in the library for people to collect band shirts, if they were around. He had returned from his few days at home, and was in town just for the day before heading off on his holiday. Now, I happened to be on placement 5 minutes walk from the library, and it was on the way to my bus stop. We finished before lunch, and I found myself walking to the library. I needed an excuse to go in - then suddenly I remembered, of course, I need holiday reading! That’s something I had not done for a while because of musical - just reading books for fun. So I decided to grab some books, and it also gave me an excuse to go into the library. I gathered the courage (after 15 minutes of arguing with myself) to ask if he was still there, and he replied and said which floor he was on. So, I went and found him, and asked him if he wanted to come for lunch. I was weirdly nervous, and fumbled my words a bit, but he was gracious enough to let me recover my pride and explain my excuse for why I was in the library. Once we were outside, he asked where I wanted to go, and I realised I hadn’t thought that far ahead. But he was quick to suggest a place, and I let him take it from there. 

And the funny thing is, we were so chill. After the first couple minutes, I relaxed. Conversation flowed easily between us, and he spoke openly to me again. He spoke about the work he was doing, about his relaxing time back home, and about what he wanted to do musically in the future. We did indeed have that music chat. (Now all we need is coffee...). And we barely even spoke about the musical. It did inevitably come up, but I think both of us were still a bit raw. But it was a relief that we still had stuff to talk about even when we weren’t talking about the musical. We spent about 45 minutes together, and it was relaxed. It settled my heart again. We felt open with each other again, which was what I was most worried about - in the past, people have cut me off suddenly. I was worried that once we didn’t have musical in common, our friendship/whatever this is would dissolve. But now, it looks like it won’t have to. I guess we’ll see, and that lunch replenished my hope. I could feel the undercurrent of caring had returned - we are two people who’ve gone through a lot together and built something great, and that’s a bond that’s not easily broken, wherever this thing goes. And I could feel that had returned. Perhaps it was the time he had spent at home, or perhaps he had made a decision about where he wants us to go, but whatever it is, we felt more settled. The sadness in his eyes had gone.

So, when we parted for a final time before the holiday week, it was with a sense of hope and new beginnings. We wished each other a good break, and knew we would see each other in 2 weeks. It didn’t have the sense of finality and loss of our last departure. It was more ‘til we meet again. There was a moment when we looked at each other before parting, unsure whether to hug, but then he stepped closer and went for it. Seems like we’re huggers now. Which I’m fine with. I hug like I mean it. 

And then we parted.

And he looked back over his shoulder as he was walking away. He smiled at me, and I waved at him. It’s funny how the smallest of things keep the candle of hope burning. 

I’ll see if he follows through on that coffee.

I hope he does.

[mini-min-yoongi]

September AO3 Yoonmin readings:

This are all the fics I read this month. There are many because the majority are oneshots and because i had a lot of free time :p

1) No place in between (*)

Prompt: Yoonmin and sign language

I’m in love with stories where one of the characters is deaf. In this one it’s Yoongi and I loved taking a look at his insecurities and his strength. The way in which he confesses is the best thing in the world, i loved that so much as well as when he gets mad at Jhope for not telling Jimin beforehand about his condition.

2) Calling your bluff (*)

Jimin's gotten himself into plenty of awkward situations when he bluffs his hearing, but this one really takes the prize.

(“I’m hoh and brilliant at bluffing, you’re my best friend who insisted on meeting me in the middle of a loud cafe. I can’t hear a word you’re saying but I’m smiling and nodding like I can hear and suddenly you seem really happy — Wait, what do you mean I just agreed to be your boyfriend??” au)

In this story Jimin is the one who has hearing problems. My favourite part was when Yoongi realises that there’s being a misunderstanding but Jimin keeps denying it. I thought that it was quite realistic and i really liked that.

3) Every day and all at once

There are things you said that i really wish you hadn't.

Not a happy short fic: unrequited love.

4) Staring at the stars

"I've seen the way you look at me when you think i won't notice."

Yoongi doesn’t know how to be subtle.

5) Look it up

“Are you serious? Your top result is a yoonmin video?” Hoseok asked.

“Yeah, but I don’t know what that even is."

“Okay, let’s go,” Namjoon declared, swinging his bag onto his shoulder as he lifted himself from the couch. Everyone made an effort to move themselves toward the front door.

“Hey, hyung?” Namjoon said quietly beside Yoongi.

“Yeah?”

“Look it up.”

Yoongi glanced away from the manga he planned to finish during downtime at the recording. “Huh?”

“Yoonmin. Just look it up.”

-- Yoongi stumbles on a "yoonmin" video while trying to find his most viewed fancam. Upon realizing the fans have noticed he tends to stare at Jimin, Yoongi becomes hyperaware of their interactions. Did the fans realize something he himself didn't even know?

BTS universe

6) Playground

Jimin’s daughter’s favorite place is the playground opposite Yoongi’s apartment. 

Single parent Jimin au.

7) Swimming pool

Jimin jumps into Yoongi's swimming pool at 3 in the morning. 

8) Body language

Yoongi really liked to touch Jimin, for no special reason.

9) Before the cold seeps in

"Kiss me before we get frostbite, asshole." 

10) Pick me up

"yoongi-hyung?"

"what is it, jimin?"

jimin tilts his head to the side, one side of his mouth quirking up in a smirk. "did the sun come out, or did you just smile at me?"

(five times jimin tries a pick-up line on his hyung and one time yoongi finally gives in.)

BTS universe

11) You’re jealous (is it an inferiority complex?)

The five times that Yoongi got jealous, and the one time that the tables turn. 

College/University au

12) Love is not a coincidence (it’s fate) (*)

Thirteen years into their friendship, and Yoongi finally realizes that he's in love with his best friend.

I’m a sucker for fics where they are childhood friends and we can see how they don’t only grow up physically but also how their relationship and their feelings develop for each other along the years. It was very well-written and I liked the Namjoon/Hoseok/Yoongi friendship, for me that’s always a plus. Also, i felt in love at seeing how even though Yoongi and Jimin were in different schools because of their age, Yoongi still went to pick up Jimin so that he didn’t have to go home alone. My heart melted a little bit at that, protective Yoongi has that effect on me.

13) Make a move (before I make a move) (contains smut)

Yoongi thought that taking Jimin down into Gyeonggi-do for spring break was a great idea. Jimin thought talking Yoongi into staying in a love motel for the night was a great idea.

A.K.A. - the Road Trip!AU that nobody asked for.

Sequel to So Kiss Me (which I read in July)

14) It’s your birthday but you’re my gift (*)

Yoongi celebrates 5 birthdays with Jimin over the course of 20 years. (aka Yoongi growing up with Jimin only to realise he's falling for his childhood friend).

Another childhood friends yoonmin fic. I don’t know what to say guys, I just really like these fics and every time I see one which is lengthy, well-written and where Yoongi and Jimin are in my opinion well portrayed I just have to recommend it.

Special mention to chapter 4 (I’m in love with that chapter, their conversation, Yoongi’s thoughts and insecurities EVERYTHING IS PERFECT ABOUT THAT CHAPTER) and chapter 5 (hey, it turns out that i’m also a sucker for long distance relationship yoonmin fics. SEND HELP I’M DROWNING).

15) Math Tutor (*)

Min Yoongi is the school's resident Bad Boy™. He's covered in tattoos, is pierced, curses like a sailor, smokes like crazy, doesn't give a shit about anything, possesses a hot temper that has people steering clear of him, and is desperately in love with Park Jimin, the adorable math nerd. When Jimin is tasked with tutoring Yoongi in math, who is in danger of failing the class and being held back a year, both boys are hesitant. Yoongi because he can't think straight around the boy with startling red hair, and Jimin because Yoongi is scary as hell and looks like he can easily kill someone. Gradually, though, the two grow closer, and Jimin finds that Yoongi is nothing like how he'd imagined.

BAD BOY YOONGI WHO HAS PIERCINGS AND TATTOOS AND NERD JIMIN. WHAT ELSE DO I HAVE TO SAY?? No but seriously, this was such a great read. It is so well written and Yoongi is so whipped for Jimin. I love it when Yoongi is a tough cookie with other people but immediately turns soft when he’s with Jimin. Namjoon and Hoseok are Yoongi’s friends and you already know that i’m totally down with that. Also, bad boy yoongi playing the piano. Summing up: Good stuff.

16) Home is where the (kittens) are

Calico Hybrid Jimin can't stop bringing in strays off the streets and into he and Boyfriend Yoongi's apartment.

Alt: More of whipped Yoongi; only now he's got a spoiled cat hybrid to deal with.

17) I’ll be a gentleman (’cause I’ll be your boyfriend) (contains smut) (*) 

Yoongi isn’t an easy man to surprise, but kisses out of the blue and sudden boyfriend proposals can do the job.

College au + Fake relationship. Yoongi and Jimin are roommates and there’s a boy who is kind of obsessed with Jimin so that’s why he asks Yoongi to be his fake boyfriend, to see if the other boy leaves him alone. Basically, as the story continues you can see both of them pinning and both are kinda oblivious to the other’s feelings. There’s also some smut which is also a plus. It was a great read, I really liked this long oneshot.

18) 13 Iconic Yoonmin Moments (Yoongi/Jimin & Taheyung/Jungkook)

"Taetae

https://youtu.be/jESuM-NRS9k 23:59 I feel like you might want to watch this, hyung ;) 23:59"

Or, the one where Taehyung sends Yoongi a video that shows the top 13 Iconic Yoonmin Moments, and suddenly Yoongi is way too aware of the way Jimin acts around him.

BTS universe

19) Dear santa

“Please? Just once? And it’ll be really quick, hyungie, I promise,” Jimin tries again, plump lips curled up into a cute pout—the pout which they both know Yoongi can never say no to.

And, well—

“Ah, fuck. Fine, fine, baby, I’ll do it.”

(or: Yoongi dresses up as Santa under Jimin's request. Jungkook takes it the hard way.)

Jimin and Yoongi are baby Jungkookie’s parents. Very sweet.

20) Honey’s Secret (contains smut) (*)

“Me: So, are you going to send me a selca now or not?

Jimin is getting a little impatient now. He needs that picture, and he needs it now.

Me: hyung hyung hyung

Me: pretty please?

Yoongi hyung: Later, Jimin. I’m still at work and I really want to continue earning money by talking about sex toys on the phone with you

Yoongi hyung: And I have a feeling you enjoy those conversations as well.”

Yoongi is working for an online sex toy shop hotline. Jimin is calling said hotline. Many many times.

This story was awesome from start to finish and not only because THE SMUT IS FREAKING AWESOME. Because let me tell you: there’s not only phone sex but Yoongi is the one controlling the vibrator that Jimin is using while he’s at work and Jimin is at home and WOW. I didn’t know how much i needed that in my life but i did. If you want to read a strangers to lovers au with great smut this is your fic.

21) You’ll be okay

Yoongi and Jimin meet for the first time in an emergency room for two very different kinds of injuries.

Bad boy Yoongi.

22) Light me up (I’ll keep you warm) (*)

He’s already taking a deep breath when he hears someone twisting the doorknob. “Jung Hoseok, I have a bone to pick with you, you absolute asshole,” he starts.

It is not Jung Hoseok.

Definitely not.

Min Yoongi.

Jimin coughs awkwardly into his fist. “Hello,” he finishes.

(In which Jimin has a crush, yells a lot, and maybe falls into like.)

Another college au. It was lovely seeing Jimin being so protective of his best friend Taehyung and how that’s Yoongi’s first impression of him. I loved seeing how even though Jimin is the one who has a crush on Yoongi first, it’s Yoongi who takes the initiative to get to know Jimin once he meets him. JIMIN IS AWARE OF YOONGI’S FEELINGS WITHOUT HIM TELLING HIM WHICH IS AWESOME AND RARE TO SEE. Yoongi still doesn’t say anything so it’s Jimin’s job to take the initiative this time. There’s side vhope which was very sweet.

23) Bring on the sunshine (*)

With the help of their five year old "matchmaker" Taehyung, Yoongi and Jimin stumble into each other's lives. Cue the awkward, messy pining and dating adventures with a noisy kid in their way.

Single parent Yoongi with tragic backstory and kindergarten teacher Jimin. WHAT ELSE CAN I SAY? This story was the sweetest story in the world please read it. I loved it so much. Everything about it was so good and kid Taehyung is the cutest and best matchmaker in the whole wide world. I think this is the best single parent au I’ve read yet. I will for sure reread it in the future.

24) You wish I was yours (and I hope that you’re mine)

Jimin is getting ready to sleep his summer away now that all his friends have left for college except for him. That is, though, until he meets Yoongi. A boy two years older than him from the city, who has been kicked out by his parents and is now living with his aunt.

Because of Yoongi Jimin learns more about himself in one summer than he has his entire life.

25) The weight of everything (*)

When Jimin enters his life, Yoongi discovers how it feels like to be flying, but also realises how it feels like to fall...desperately in love.

Childhood friends au (seriously i just realised that i read a lot of childhood friends aus this month lol). What I liked the most about this fic was Yoongi’s struggles to accept his sexuality and his parents reaction at the end. It was great. There’s angst but it has a happy ending. The cliff scenes are also very memorable imo.

Special mention:

~Celebrity Crush (Namjoon/Seokjin)

Right now Namjoon was exhausted and he'd been saying rude shit and he kept snapping at Taehyung and then they'd had to sit through that interview ("Who's your celebrity crush?") and Seokjin had tried making a joke ("Rap Monster," he'd said, thinking he was being clever) and even as everyone around them cracked up the look that had flashed through Namjoon's eyes belied something that looked almost brittle.

The kiss scenes will kill you. Both Namjoon and Seokjin are so well portrayed in my opinion. A good namjin story right here. BTS universe btw which is always great.

* my favourite fics

[kyluxtrashpit]

Okay so now for the real post. I was prepared to write this whole big thing about the kylux fandom and why I’m staying despite some things and such but honestly the movie was pretty good? As some of you know, I was fucking TERRIFIED I’d have to leave the ship (also shoutout to those who helped calm me down; you know who you are <3). I have some quibbles, which I’ll get into below, but overall it was pleasantly surprising. FYI this post of full of spoilers and please remember I spoiled myself on a good amount of it before going in. I’m also very happy I did

And also… this was all 100% in line with the headcanons I already had for kylux? I’ve seen a lot of people freaking out and jumping ship and saying we need to completely reimagine the characters, which, sure, if you want to, go nuts, but idk I didn’t personally get anything like that? Snoke pitting them against each other, because you know if he talked shit about Hux to Kylo, he’s definitely doing it the other way around too. And yes, Kylo does attack Hux, but Hux was also about to kill him before he woke up, even if Kylo doesn’t know that, so we’re in exactly the same place as before. I could talk a lot about why their characterizations are exactly in line with the way I saw and wrote them before and why Kylo taking on the mantle of Supreme Leader does not mean Hux is inferior to him in practice in any way, shape, or form, but this post is way too fucking long already so I’ll save it for another day

Instead, here’s a list of Thoughts in no particular order:

Kylo was fucking PHENOMENAL. This. This is what I wanted. My boy being unstable as fuck and making terrible split-second impulse decisions and getting himself in way over his head. He’s going to regret taking the throne in like 3 days. Guaranteed. He’s made the biggest mistake of his life and he doesn’t even know it yet because he has no idea what he actually wants, just saw an opportunity and went ‘oh shit… the throne is empty… wait. I know how to sit?? I could sit on it??? YES THIS IS A GREAT IDEA I’M THE NEW LEADER FUCK YES’. I fucking love my disaster boy. I love him so much I can’t even articulate it

Also like… Rey shows him one small moment of kindness and he’s immediately like ‘someone was nice to me??? okay cool this is all it took to convince me to kill my abusive mentor for the last better part of a decade who’s been in my head for almost my entire life just because of that’ and like… that is both the most Kylo thing I’ve ever seen and the biggest mood I’ve ever had. This is why we always wrote Hux capable of manipulating him and why Snoke was able to manipulate him; Kylo aches for positive attention from literally anyone

“I want every gun we have to fire on that man” JFC HONEY NO. But on a more serious note, the second the mask comes off, all of his control is gone. He’s trying so hard to assert his dominance and power over everyone he encounters because he thinks that will make him feel better, that it’s what he wants, but he’s so fucking out of control and out of his depth that it just utterly falls flat, just like in tfa after the mask came off. He can Force choke and throw people all he wants, literally no one is fooled. He has no idea what he’s doing and it’s staggeringly obvious

I also really liked seeing baby Ben, even for just like 10 seconds

Literally the only Kylo thing I did not like were his pants. Like goddamn boy, that waist is way too high. No wonder your temper is so finicky. I’d be angry too if I was wearing uncomfortable, excessively high-waisted pants all the time

I, too, did not like the dumb humour with Hux (see: the entire opening bit. Like literally all of it; Poe should not have been able to pull that off and Hux is not that stupid) but I also still see the Hux I’ve come to love in there. The snark, pulling a gun without hesitation on Kylo for the double tap but being smart enough to hide it when he wakes up, the entire command shuttle bit (except the Force throw – that was unnecessary), and especially that glare of absolute rage and hatred at Kylo once he turns away inside the base on Crait. I’m okay with tired disaster Hux and you can tell he’s already planning a coup. The army seems to still be under his control anyway; he just needs to wait until Kylo finishes digging his own grave and then give him that extra push into it

That said, I’m really glad we got to see Hux bitch slap someone, even if I wish it hadn’t been Finn

Rose was the other highlight of the movie right up until the kiss with Finn. I loved their interactions but the unnecessary heterosexuality was just… no. And then the bit at the end that definitely looked towards a love triangle? *loud gagging noises* no, fuck that shit. Literally everything else with her was absolutely amazing though, especially the Canto Bight stuff

Finn felt… off somehow? I can’t explain why, but he just felt like a weaker character here. Finn was really compelling in tfa and I really wanted more with him and to learn more about him, but I feel like he didn’t do much? The fight with Phasma was a little underwhelming (also she deserved to go out more impressively than that) and most of the other stuff was someone else instigating and him just going along. He seemed… too passive, maybe? I can’t put my finger on what was off, but I didn’t like it and I’m a little let down there. I also really wanted him to be Force-sensitive and really felt he was built up to be. How else was he the only person to ever break FO conditioning?

Poe was also… not how I imagined? I always saw him as the ‘calm pal’ kinda guy but I guess he’s a little more jumped up than I expected. Not a gripe, per se, but just surprising. They also very much did demote him from main character status, which is kinda sad

Admiral Holdo was a fucking boss and I love her. So was Leia for most of it (expect what was with that space scene?). Fuck yeah powerful older women. I need so much more immediately. However, I also wish Leia had gotten more time and it also saddens me that she’s now lost her entire family. Yes, she has the Resistance, and Poe and Rey and Finn, but she has no one from her past. Literally no one. Leia had already lost so much coming into this trilogy and it’s absolutely tragic that all she did was lose more. Leia deserved better, but with Carrie gone, we know Leia won’t be getting it in 9

DJ WAS FANTASTIC. I did not see that coming. And I hope we never see him again because it would ruin the purpose of his character

I liked most of Rey’s arc. I wasn’t sure about the Force bond (I knew about it beforehand) but it ended up working for me and was actually really cool. I still do not ship r*ylo at all (it’s just not for me, ship what you want), but their interactions are intriguing and I can understand why things played out how they did. Rey wanted help for the rebellion and a teacher. She thought that was Luke, but it wasn’t, and then she thought that was Kylo, but it wasn’t. I think she just needs to realize that maybe it’s up to her to be the one to help the rebellion. She’s figured out most of the Force on her own already; I don’t think she needs a teacher. Although the jealous look towards Finn and Rose was just awful. I’m also very concerned for her arc in 9 because I swear if they make it all about trying to save Kylo, I’d be fucking pissed. She’s her own character. She doesn’t exist to help him

I’m also… not sure I buy Rey being a nobody? It’s either a lie or just bad writing to lead up to it. Because in tfa, it’s always ‘who’s the girl?’, ‘what girl?’, etc. I also always got the feeling that Kylo knew who she was, somehow? And why did the Skywalker family lightsaber choose her over Kylo? Why does she have the same amount of power as Kylo if there’s no relation whatsoever? How are her parents buried on Jakku if she saw a ship flying away? I just feel like it was built up to lead elsewhere and then it didn’t. Then again, it is possible Kylo is lying or only thinks he knows, but idk. It’s not that I hate the idea of her being a nobody, but the execution of it was tremendously clumsy

As for Luke… I don’t know. Luke has never been the kind of person to attack first. He is a gentle flower. The entire point of him is his idealism, his hope, his kindness. Even if it was in a moment of instinct, of fear, I don’t think he’d pull a lightsaber first on anyone, especially a family member, no matter how much Dark was in him. Luke saw the Light in Darth Vader, of all people. That it was stressed to be an accident and for Luke to realize he’d fucked up big helped, but I still don’t know if I buy it. I understand bringing flaws to Luke, but I don’t think these were the right flaws to bring. I… don’t know. I haven’t decided how I feel about this yet. And also his death was just odd? What killed him? Was the implication that Force-projecting that far is too hard? Idk, it was really strange and I didn’t get it. I need to think on how I feel about it. Also ‘see you around, kid’ was a pretty dumb last line. Even though I’m pretty sure it was more a promise/threat than anything else. He’s going to be haunting the shit out of everyone

I really liked the crystal foxes. I want 10 of them immediately. However, I have no strong feelings one way or the other on the porgs

THE FUCKING IRON. Jfc I was like ‘omfg that ship looks like an iron, that’s so ridiculous’ AND THEN IT WASN’T A SHIP, IT WAS JUST AN IRON. It was inordinately funny to me. I lost my shit and my friend gave me a dubious look

I wish we’d seen the KOR and I really, really hope we do in 9. Come on, JJ, I believe in you. Let me see the rest of the disaster children in action

Yoda’s cameo was kinda dumb and unnecessary. I know that was supposed to be the moment that changed Luke’s mind but… ehhh. I could’ve done without

The bit at the end with the random kid was also stupid and I wish they’d cut it

Now the biggest thing is… where the fuck are they going with 9? The Resistance is 10 people in the Falcon, the Order is being run by a guy who has absolutely no fucking clue what he’s doing and a second in command that is ready to murder the shit out of him the second he gets the chance. Leia probably won’t be there, so the OT trio is gone. This movie was also weird because it was like… the span of a day and a half? At most? It’s a really strange timeline to go with imo and it’s going to make 9 hard. I’m scared Rey will become an accessory to Kylo’s story (which is most likely going to end up as an even more ham-fisted redemption arc than it would’ve been if it had started in 8). Like no one is in a powerful place. If there were 2 more movies coming, I think it would work, but with only 1? Ehhhh, idk. I have faith in JJ but in some ways he’s been written into a corner, I think. We’ll have to see, I guess

[jacquelineshyde]

Kelso and Brooke for the meme :)

big spoon/little spoon: Brooke is the little spoon, who wouldn’t want to spoon with a man like Kelso? I mean, it’s Ashton Kutcher, he big af, he could cover me whole and I would be happy. And this is the guy she loves, so yeah, little spoon right there.

favorite non-sexual activity: Aside from going to the park with their kid(s), they couple thing to do is reading. He used to be bad at books, but she was patient enough to find ones he would like and with her voice as the narrator, everything’s perfect. They take turns to read, so one day she does and the next it’s him, and so on.

who uses all the hot water: Brooke, but Kelso doesn’t mind. It was part of his academy experience and even before that, it was part of his every day with his assholes brothers, so he has become inmune to cold water... Except in winter, in winter it’s nice to have hot water.

most trivial thing they fight over: mICHAEL GET THE FREAKING TOILET LID DOW, GOD!

who does most of the cleaning: Brooke, he messy af tho.

what has a season pass on their dvr/who controls the netflix queue: There’s a lot of Gilmore Girls and Buffy the Vampire Slayer in there because Brooke always has control over everything. Kelso spends most his time too invested in Rory’s romantic life and the Willow/Tara romance to care.

who calls up the super/landlord when the heat’s not working: Brooke, Kelso would end up fighting them.

who steals the blankets: Betsy and Kelso, Brooke just stares at them.

who leaves their stuff around: KELSO, he’s messy as hell.

who remembers to buy the milk: Brooke, but always sends Kelso for it.

who remembers anniversaries: Brooke and lowkey leaves notes for Kelso to find with a week beforehand, so he won’t forget. She doesn’t know that he actually doesn’t forget.

Who cooks normally? Brooke, and when Kelso tries, it may be a mess, but isn’t so bad.

How often do they fight? Not as much as one may think, their fights are more like little outbrusts of “don’t be this messy!” “don’t be so bossy!” “GET THE LIN DOWN!”.

What do they do when they’re away from each other? Both takes the time for themselves. Kelso would probably call his other buddies and go out with them or go to one of them’s house. If he has the chance and time, he would drive to Point Place and hang out with his old friends. He usually crashes the Hyde’s, the place that is officially the ‘crash port’ as they call it. If he has Betsy for the day, he takes her to the park or to play dates, sometimes they go for a movie and he tries his best not to fall asleep in kiddy movies. When they go to Point Place, they always go to his parents and he always takes her to Eric and Donna’s so she can play with their kid, they often stay at Hyde and Jackie’s, and ends up making forts with the kids and Hyde.Brooke would go out with her friends, too. Or maybe go see her mother. Sometimes, she would take the time to go book shopping or do other shopping for herself. If she has Betsy, she would take the day to spend time with her daughter, probably reading and going to the park, or see her grandmother.

Nicknames for each other? She’s ‘baby’ and ‘babe’ all the time, and he also calls her ‘wifey’ but mostly with other people; he also uses ‘sugar’. He knows she calls him her ‘hubby’ and ‘baby’ and ‘honey’. She starts calling him ‘Captain’ after they got married, and it now has become ‘cap’ and ‘capi’. He does become a sargent one day, and ever since he’s mostly ‘sarge’. 

Who is more likely to pay for dinner? Both. None can’t remember when was the last time the money wasn’t ‘theirs’.

Who steals the covers at night? Kelso, but it doesn’t happen often.

What would they get each other for gifts? Boy, Kelso is bad a t gifts. So he spends most his time listening for things she may want. If he has nothing, he calls her friends and then buys three things. At least ONE may be something she likes! She’s more good at it. She usually buys him nice things. A watch, a too expensive keychin, a nice wallet, things like that. Things he likes to call “adult gifts”.

Who kissed who first? She kissed him, almost nasty.

Who made the first move? Kelso, he went to talk to her both times, when they first met and when he asked for a second chance.

Who remembers things? Brooke, mostly. But she’s been surprised in the good sense by him remembering stuff pretty well.

Who started the relationship? Both.

Who cusses more?

What would they do if the other was hurt? Okay, here’s the thing, Kelso was sure he was in love with Brooke when he realized she was big pregnant with messy hair, hormones at 100, humor changes, fat feet and so, but he still saw her as the prettiest woman he has ever seen. This is why he doesn’t mind her sick, he even finds her cute. Because she does gets cuddly and cute while sick. He and Betsy are the best nurses ever. Brooke’s mom gen is amazing, and she would move dirt, water and air to make Kelso happy when he’s sick. Both get kinda crazy when their kid(s) is/are sick, though. When she’s upset, he would try His Best(tm) to not be an annoyance. Most times, when this happens, she only wants him to hold her and she does. He being upset is him being almost child-like. He would want and need some cuddling, but also being spoiled a little. She would give him all of this, make him talk, and advice him after making sure he’s listening.

send me a ship!

[faith-in-dean]

Broken Trust - Part Seven (END)

Summary: From what you’ve been told the British Men of Letters weren’t people you would really like. Though you didn’t expect to get that caught up with one of them, breaking the Winchester’s trust with your actions.

Words: 2496

Pairing: Arthur (Mr.) Ketch x Reader

Warnings: Angst, I’ll put another warning at the end of the tags. I just don’t want to spoil the story for ya. If you think you could possibly be triggered by something please go check.

A/N: So This is the very last part of this series and it kinda saddens me, to be honest, BUT I can tell you that I could write a one-part sequel if you guys want me to, just let me know! Feedback Is Appreciated!

Masterpost

You were surprised when Dean had opened the garage to the bunker for you and let you inside. He had called Sam over before the three of you sat together in the library.

At first, neither one of you had said anything. You didn’t know where to start and you knew Dean, he wouldn’t start the conversation either, so Sam did it.

“I’m glad to see you again,” he smiled slightly, trying to ease the situation a little.

“I’m glad, too,” you nodded and took a deep breath, “I’m sorry I haven’t told you the very first moment I started meeting with Ketch. I know you have your history with the British Men of Letters but honestly… Arthur is different than that. I’ve got to know him so well. I wish you could only give him that chance. But I’m not here to talk about them but about us. I miss you both. You are like the brothers I never had and the past weeks have been stressing me out. You had every right to be mad at me but please I’m begging now… forgive me,” you begged them.

“You still have something with Ketch, do you?” Dean had asked.

“Yes… yes, I do. But I swear he is not forcing me to recruit you or anything. He doesn’t have anything to do with this at all. I just want you to forgive me and maybe let me stay here again for a couple of days. Maybe to talk this out from time to time… I just really want my brothers back,” you did your best to hold back your tears and Dean seemed to have noticed as he got up and walked over to you, pulling you up and into a hug.

“Alright kiddo. But no lies anymore from now on, okay?” he gently said.

“Okay,” you nodded and were happy you had your brothers back. At least that would let your mind rest for now.

“But tell me… the colt… did you give it back to them?” Dean asked and you remembered why. The first night you had met the British Men of Letters Sam had given you the colt, knowing you didn’t have anything to do with them anyways and therefore it would’ve been the safest with you.

“No. It’s in my room. That’s the only thing I left here when I left,” you answered and Dean nodded before hugging you once again.

~~~

At first, you thought your nausea only came from the thought of Mary and Ketch being together before you, but as time went by and it wouldn’t go away you already knew your situation could go very wrong if it was what you expected.

That was the reason you found yourself locked in the bathroom, staring down at the test as you were waiting for a result. You haven’t told anyone about your presumptions. You just didn’t want to drive them crazy for no reason. But even if this test turned out positive, you didn’t know how you would tell them all or if you would tell them in the first place.

The whole situation has been nerve wrecking like hell and you wished for nothing more than to have somebody with you, but it was for the best to be alone for now.

You noticed how the test stopped blinking and you were almost afraid to look but you did it anyways. Though you wished you didn’t.

It was positive, meaning you were pregnant. It felt like a world was shattering for you. You didn’t even know Ketch for two months, how could you have been so stupid and not wrap it up during sex?!

Now you were caught in a very shitty situation and you didn’t know how to get out. Of course, you could run away but either way, Ketch would find you anyway or you couldn’t even cope with raising a baby on your own.

Though how long were you going to keep it a secret from him? You didn’t know. What you knew though was that you needed to get it off your chest, so you went looking for Mary. Despite her past with Ketch.

“Mary can I talk to you for a moment?” you asked as you quietly knocked on her bedroom door.

“Of course, come in,” she replied and you entered, closing the door behind you and sighing a little. Just what the hell have you gotten yourself into.

“Please don’t freak out because I sure am freaking out and I need someone to be calm about this, but I’m pregnant with Arthur’s baby,” you said and sounded so desperate. This was your own fault so you shouldn’t even feel bad about it.

“Well, first breathe. Second, does he know?” Mary asked and got up to rub your back a little.

“No… and please don’t tell him or anyone. I will do so when the time is right,” you sighed a little.

“Okay, I won’t. Try to rest a bit and empty your mind, maybe it will be easier for you to think about it afterwards,” Mary had said and promised. Little did you know that she would break that promise again.

~~~

You were woken up with a call from Ketch. It must have been way too early but you had seen that he had called you a couple of times already.

“What’s wrong?” you murmured once you finally picked up and rubbed your eyes a little. You were still tired and wanted nothing more than your sleep.

“Can you please come over? There is something I have to show you,” he said in his normal voice, yet there was something telling you not everything seemed to be okay.

“You just woke me up… can’t it wait for a few more hours,” you grumbled a little.

“I need you to be here as soon as possible,” Arthur replied without any further explanations.

“Fine,” you sighed a little and then hung up before you slowly dragged yourself out of your bed.

~~~

It has still taken you a good hour until you finally arrived at the base of the Brits. The guard let you go through, though he gave you some weird looks. You could already see Arthur standing at the entrance of the garage, practically waiting for you.

He had opened your door and helped you out of the car, but the way he looked at you told you no good at all.

“Why didn’t you tell me?” he asked and you were confused as to what he meant at first.

“Come on, don’t act like you don’t know what I’m talking about,” he sighed a little. That’s when you knew he was talking about your pregnancy. But how did he… Mary. She must’ve told either way him or Mitch but that didn’t matter. He knew after all and that was what mattered.

“I just found out yesterday… I only told Mary…” you shook your head a little.

“You should have told me and only me. Now come on. The old men have ordered a meeting,” Ketch said before he held his hand out to you, for the very first time since the two of you have been a thing.

Who were the old men and why did you have to be in a meeting with them? You didn’t understand anything and surely did not want to.

You had listened to them talk business for some minutes before the pretty much interesting part for you started.

“We have sent you to America to recruit the Winchesters. We have not sent you there to find a lover and make a baby. You disappointed us, Ketch,” one of the old men said.

“A helicopter will come pick you and her up and bring you over to London so we can take care of you and the mess you’ve made,” another one said before the line on the internet call broke.

“Go to London? I can’t go to London!” you exclaimed and looked at the team in disbelief.

“You should have thought about that beforehand,” Mick simply said before leaving the room as well as the rest of the team so now it was only Ketch and you.

“What are they going to do?” you asked with slight fear in your eyes.

“They’re not going to do anything to you, darling,” he kissed the top of your head gently.

“And what about you?” you were terrified of not knowing what was going to happen to any of you.

“Well, the British Men of Letters have their ways of dealing with people who haven’t gone exactly like plan. I will not be any different. But don’t you worry about me,” he tried to sound calming, but how were you not going to worry about him? After all, he was the one you loved, he was the father of your unborn child and he was going to be the only one you know if they were serious about bringing you to London.

And they were. As soon as the helicopter had arrived, they had loaded you and Ketch in and took off. You felt nauseous, you wanted to cry and just wanted this nightmare to stop. Why couldn’t they just let you and him be? After all, it is his own decision if he wants to get with someone. Yet you also couldn’t forget how Mary betrayed you once again. How have you ever wronged her? What have you ever done that made her want to destroy you so much? You didn’t know.

You didn’t even get to say goodbye to Sam and Dean and it broke you, considering you were just starting to get along again.

The flight has been horrifically long. At one time you had just passed out sleeping and didn’t wake up until you arrived in London. Though it wasn’t that kind of London you had always expected when you thought about it.

Well, when you thought about ever going there you had thought about happier circumstances. Now you were just brought into a base and got separated from Ketch. You protested, did your best to fight against the men that were carrying you away but they were much stronger than you.

“Just let them do it,” Ketch had told you before they had shoved him into a different room.

You couldn’t believe it. All of this simply because of a baby? What kind of organization were they?

“Now, Y/N. You are probably wondering why we had you escorted to our base out here in London,” you remembered that voice from the internet call. It was one of the old men, though he had not revealed his identity.

“Normally, we welcome babies in our community with a big heart. Yet, you are different. Not only are you American, but you are also not a part of the British Men of Letters. And we can’t accept this. We can’t have a baby that doesn’t belong to our community and I hope you understand that,” he said.

“And we will never be part of your stupid community,” you hissed at them. You were upset. They had Ketch and you didn’t know what they were doing to him, they would probably force you into being a part of them and there was nothing you could do about it. You couldn’t tell the Winchester’s because even this would be too much for them. Hopefully, Mary was happy with what she has done.

“Well, that is just very unfortunate. You know where to bring her. We’ll check in on her tomorrow,” another voice said before you were dragged off and pushed into a room that had not much in it except for a bed, a sink, a toilet and a desk with a chair. And here you were supposed to stay forever? Cause there was no way you would ever become one of them. Not after what they have done now and in the past.

Hours and hours have passed but you weren’t tired. Through a very tiny window, you could see that it was dark outside, but it must’ve been the jetlag that left you awake. You hadn’t even moved from your bed, not until you heard a slight rustle on your door.

You stood up and when the door opened you saw Ketch. He had a black eye and bruises all over him, he even had cuts on his face. What have they done to him? Just by the thought of it tears clouded your eyes. “Sh, you need to be quiet and we need to get out of here now. I’ve got a man who can get us out of town. But we need to hurry, those people won’t stay unconscious for long. Come on now, let’s run away. You and me and our unborn child, let’s start over,” Ketch said and you nodded. You have never experienced him like this but you didn’t mind. You took him by the hand and started to run with him until you were as far away from their base as possible for now.

“If you have your phone with you write one last message. We have to burn everything they could possibly track. We’re going to start all over, new names, new identities so hopefully they will never find us,” Arthur explained as he dropped everything they could possibly track to the ground.

One last message? You had to leave everything behind? You guessed that was what was necessary for you to be safe. And you knew who you owed a message to explain all of this.

Hello, Dean.

I’m sorry I have to reach you like this but it’s for the best. You’re probably wondering where I have gone again and I can tell you yes, I have gone to Ketch. Though I didn’t know what would expect me there. I don’t have the time to explain this, so please ask Mary. She knows what’s up and she knows what he has done. Don’t let her fool you into making you think this was my choice. Whatever you do, don’t come looking for me. Do it to keep me safe. I wish that I could see you again someday but for now, I don’t think we will. You’ve always been the brother I never had and I will love you til the day I die. Thank you for everything.

“We need to go now,” Ketch said gently as a car parked in front of you just after he lit up the pile of electricities. You nodded and threw the phone into the pit of fire along with everything else the British Men of Letters could possibly track after you had sent off the message.

“Let’s go start our new lives now,” you whispered gently and together with Ketch you got into the stranger’s car. But for some reason, you felt safe.

You knew that no matter what came, Arthur and you were going to get through it.

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[b0blegum]

R A H A S I A

Author: b0blegum

Pairing: Lee Jooheon x Reader

Rating: 17+ (language, violence, alcohol, sexual activity)

Genre: Gang, Action, Romance

Status: COMPLETED.

Part: part 1 // part 2 // part 3 (end)

Words: 2976

Summary: RAHASIA

/ra·ha·sia /

Origin: Indonesia

Meaning: Something that is kept or meant to be kept unknown or unseen by others.

Summer 2013

“Stop following me around.” A girl stopped walking suddenly, making the shadow behind her stopped as well. “Do you really think I don’t realized you’ve been following me for a week?” She turned around to nothing but a scoff.

“You haven’t changed a bit, huh? Always aware of your surrounding.” A raspy voice greeted her from afar.

“What do you want.” She asked bluntly.

“Boss misses you.” He answered, this time he made an appearance, as a silhouette he came closer to her. His hand hiding inside his pants pocket while a cigarette kept his other hand occupied. “Do you not miss her?” He inhaled the smoke than let it all out, making a perfect show of smoke with a ray of light shooting exactly to where his smoke traveled.

“I don’t.” She answered shortly.

“Don’t lie to me. I’m sure you do miss Boss, us.” He chuckled. “Don’t you miss killing those bastards with your pretty hands?”

She bit the edge of his lower lips.

“Shut your filthy mouth.” She hissed. She seemed ready to throw punches anytime she wanted but she kept holding it in, trying not to make any mess.

“Filthy? Ah… Look who’s talking.” He chuckled. He threw his cigarette to the ground and stepped on it.

“Look, whatever your intention is, I am not going with you.” The guy sighed.

“Ah… don’t make this harder for me.” He wiped his face. “Boss wanted to see you. She has some serious stuff for you to take care of.”

“I told you, I’m not coming. I’m done with those things.” The guy was getting more frustrated that he swore in his whisper.

“She told you not to worry about the money.”

“I don’t care about the money.”

“Sh-… Yah! You think you could run away like that from us?”

“Just told her I’m not coming back.” She turned around and walked away.

“Yah! You b-!”

           You piled up all the papers and put those aside at the very edge of your desk before you shoved everything into your purse.

           “(y/n),” Ji Yeon, your office-bestfriend tapped your shoulder from behind. “Your boyfriend is here.” She pointed her finger to the glass door at the end of the floor.

           “Ah…” You turned around to see him and smiled at him. “I’m going now, Ji Yeon-a.”

           “Wait, (y/n),” She pulled your hand. “Be careful.” You looked at her in confused.    

           “He’s my boyfriend for a year. What do you mean by that?” You narrowed your eyes. Ji Yeon kept quiet. “Look, it’s just his appearance that makes him looks like he’s a bad guy, but trust me he’s really a nice guy inside, okay?”

           “But (y/n)-ah… I hear-,”

           “Ji Yeon. He’s my boyrfriend okay. He’s been very nice to me since… we haven’t dated yet, he’s… nothing to worry about. Okay? I’m really going now. See you tomorrow!” You ran to your boyfriend in your heels. Ji Yeon called you again but you decided to ignore her.

           You noticed something weird at her these past days. She has been bringing up topics about a group of cold blooded killer, that is currently being the talk of the town and that you have to be careful of your boyfriend. You know your boyfriend dress up like a bad guy but that doesn’t mean he’s a bad guy. You know for sure it’s just his taste in fashion.

           “Hey, baby.” The guy with a pair of deep dimples greeted you as he snaked his arm around your waist and gestured you to give him your purse.

           “How could you go up to this floor? You don’t have the card, do you?” You gave him your purse and let him carried it for you.

           “I told the security I am here to meet you.” He smiled as he pushed the elevator button. You looked at him, not really sure if he was telling the truth. “Anyway, what do you want to eat?” You hummed as you rested your heavy head on Jooheon’s chest.

           “I’m too tired to eat outside. How about order a delivery food?” You suggested. He looked down, puted.

           “I actually wanted to treated you in a nice restaurant, but if you’re that tired…”

           “I’m sorry, Joohoney but I really want to just chill at home.” He nooded. “How about this weekend?” He smiled immediately.

           “Call! I’ll treat you at the most expensive restaurant in this country. Where do you want? Pierre Gagnaire? You’ve been talking about that restaurant, right? And… do you need new dress for the dinner? Or shoes? Bag? Just tell me! We could go shopping beforehand.” He counted with his fingers.

           “Did you just get paid?” You smiled, inside trying to recall what date is it today, how come he got paid but you haven’t received yours but then you remembered he doesn’t get paid at fixed date. He just smiled at your questions. “I’m sure it’s a lot this time.”

           He opened the car door for you before he got himself in and started to drive home.

           “I got 50 thousand bucks this time.” He answered as he drove past the traffic light. You immediately gasped in shock by hearing that amount.

           “Are you freaking serious? What did you do to make your client willing to pay you that much?” Your eyes were glued to him while were focused on the road.

           “I… you know, I gave the company couple of advices and turned out it made them gained more profit, so they decided to gave me a bonus.” He explained.

           “I… can’t believe you. I sit everyday at the office and only got paid not more than two thousand bucks while you only have to work for two or three days but got paid that much?” You laughed at yourself. “I don’t know what to feel.”

           “Babe, you only have one job now, just think of what you want to spend the money at—no, don’t think, just go shopping and buy everything that you see.” You both laughed.

           “Joohoney… You know I’m not that kind of person. I am thankful that my boyfriend spoiled me a lot, but you know that I don’t spend money at unnecessary things.”

           The car drove through the night for almost an hour just to get into you and Jooheon’s apartment due to the high traffic jam tonight but thank God both of you still made it before nine.

           “Go wash yourself, I’ll order the food.” Jooheon brushed your hair as you both made your way into your apartment.

           Suddenly your bestfriend’s warning echoed in your head. Why should you be worried while Jooheon is basically the nicest boyfriend you could ever find. Should you dress him with a cardigan over a flannel instead of all black and lots of earrings and necklace to make him look like a decent boyfriend?

           “Ah… whatever.” You shook your head, throwing the thoughts away.

           The food was already on the small table at the living room when you walked out from your room. You were already on your lounge outfit with a still wet hair.

           “You bought so many Sojus? You know that I passed out just after a bottle, don’t you?” You asked as you saw four bottles of Soju on the table.

           “At least we should celebrate, babe. I could call your workplace if you can’t make it tomorrow, don’t worry.” He tapped the empty spot beside him, gesturing you to sit beside him.

           “According to Jooheon’s logic, I can pass some work days since he makes fifty thousands dollars in just a day.” You teased him, lead him to kissed your head.

           “Anyway, what did your friend say at the office? It looked important.” He said as he poured you a glass of Soju before he poured one for himself.

           “Nothing.” You shook your head then gulped down the Soju in one shot.

           “Really? She called you again when you ran to me.” He said with a mouth already full of black bean noodles.

           “Uhm-hmmh.” You nodded after you shoved yourself the same food. “She has been saying nonsense to me, so I ignored her.”

           “Nonsense?” He poured you again a shotful of Soju and offered you to drink it.

           “Hmmh. She was saying things about the killer… you watched the news right? She was talking about that…” Jooheon looked more serious. “She told me to be careful with you.” Now you poured the Soju by yourself and drank it bottom up.

           “Me?” You nodded.

           “It’s because you dress up like this.” You pointed him from head to toe. “That earrings, necklace, all black.” He chuckled “But I told her, you’re not like that at all. Look at you, if you were one of those killers, why would you date me and spoiled me and be all nice like this? Right?” Jooheon took another shot of Soju before he gave you another one.

           “Right.”

           “Joohoneey,” your face started to get red because of the alcohol. “You really not one of them, right?” You smiled at him with your eyes fully closed.

           “No, babe.” He curled you in and gave you a small kiss on your forehead. “By the way…”

           “Hmmm?” You hummed as you tried to feed yourself but the alcohol made it harder for you to even hold your chopstick.    

           “Do you love me?” He put his plate aside while pouring you another shot of Soju.

           “I do love you but I cannot take any more Soju, Joohoney…” Even though you refused the glass, Jooheon still had his way to make you drink it.

           “If you love me… Will you help me with something?” Jooheon put the strain of your hair behind your ear. You nodded as you faced the floor. It’s already too heavy for you to lift your head.

           “Jooheon-ah… Of course I will help you with anything!” You drew a big circle in the air with your arms.

           “(y/n)… Do you know… Belle?” He mentioned a foreign name. You squinted your eyes and repeated the name, thinking for a good five seconds before you shook your head. “You sure don’t know her?”

           “No… Jooheon-ah. Who is she? I don’t know anyone. I only know you~ I only want to be with you, Jooheon-aah.” He chuckled.

           “The Boss,” he asked again after taking another shot of Soju. Your smile immediately faded when that name came out from Jooheon’s mouth. “You know her, don’t you?”

           “Joohoneey. You can’t say that naame~” You put your index finger on his lips. “Ssshh…” Gently, he took your finger and held your hand.

           “Where is she?”

           “Who? Me? I’m here, in front of you.” You rested your head on his chest.

           “The Boss. Belle. Where is she?” He repeated.

           “Shhhh. She’s dangerous, don’t call her name!” You tried to shut his mouth with your finger again but this time, Jooheon was fast enough to catch your finger before it landed on his lips.

           “You love me right? Now help me. I need to find her.” You sighed.

           “Why… why do you want to find her?”

           “(y/n)… I can’t tell you.”

           “She’s dangerous, Jooheon-ah… Don’t ever go near her…”

           “(y/n), I really need your help. Where is she?”

           “Where is she, where is she… She’s up there!” You pointed at the air.

           “Up there, where?” Jooheon immediately got excited as you tried to give him clue of her whereabout.

           “In his apartment. It’s so high, you can see everything from up there~”

           “Where?”

           “Hmmmmmm…. Gangnam?”

           “What’s her password?”

           “42… Don’t know. She changed it times to times.” You shook your head slowly. “Why Jooheon-ah~”

           “I’ll put you to bed.” He got up immediately and picked you with both his hands. He put you carefully to bed and tucked you inside the blanket. “I’m sorry, (y/n), but I have to go.” He kissed you on your forehead while you were mumbling random things.

           A smoke climbed up the air, slowly fading as it became closer to the ceiling. She let out smoke every now and then while looking at Seoul night view through the big clear window before her.

           “You’re telling me, he’s coming for me?” She turned her chair around. Now she had three guys in front of her.

           “Yes.” The three guys answered in unison.

           “That bastard.” She smiled. “How did he know I live here…” She stubbed out her cigarette and stood up, walked closer to the window and folded her arms on her stomach. “I want more security in this floor and don’t let him passed the lobby.” She ordered the three. “Get out.”

           A guy in all black parked his car a few hundreds meter from the tall building behind. Carefully parked it in CCTV’s blind spot. He put on his jacket and cap on before turned off the engine and got out of the car.

           He walked carefully, not avoiding the crowded place because it’s better to look normal than walked in a quiet place looking suspicious but as soon as he was steps away to the apartment, he turned himself, made his way to the back of apartment, planning to use the emergency staircase.

           His phone suddenly vibrated, he took it without hesitation. “I’m on site. No, I don’t need backup. Yes. We’ve planned this for a long time, I’ll kill her—no, I’m going to kill her.”

           It took him quite some times to reach the floor she was in. Once he got out from the staircase, he made his way to the left, already knowing that there are more CCTVs on the right side than the left.

           “Ah… Why do you give me a lot of work, Belle.” He cursed as he spotted five men standing before the alleyway to her room. All of them have guns and ready to shoot him anytime he’s exposed.

           He scanned the entire situation, looking for the spot he could probably made his way into the room without causing too much mess. “Ah… seriously.” He tilted his head a bit before walking calmly towards those men.

           “Yah!” The first guy realized his appearance and immediately running towards him but he stopped him with a clean gunshot. The same goes to the second and the third.

           “Stop right there, you jerk!” The fourth and fifth pointed the gun at him but unfortunately they got shot first, making them lose their aims and shot him on his thigh and stomach instead.

           “Fu-…” He cussed after he realized he got shot.

��          He limped through the short alleyway and immediately shot the door lock and the door a couple times, enough to make it easier for him to smashed the door open.

           Just a second before he smashed the door, another men released another shot at him from behind, unfortunately he missed the target. He turned immediately to that men and shot him dead twice.

           “You wasted my time.” He hissed before he finally smashed the thick door open.

           Surprisingly, an empty room greeted him. “Where the fuck is this bitch.” He whispered to himself as he scanned the room.

           “Long time no see, Jooheon.” A feminine voice shocked him, making him to turn his back. “What are you here for this time?” She walked closer to her desk and sit on it. She crossed her legs so that her high side cut skirt exposed her thighs.

           Jooheon lowered his guns and walked closer to her. “I thought you already know why I am here, looking at you putting so many men outside.”

           “I put them so that no one would interrupt our… private time.” She smiled as she pulled Jooheon closer to her, trying to seduce him buy touching his chest with her slender fingers. “Ouch... You’re hurt.” She commented as she shed a bit of blood that’s on Jooheon’s tee.

           “Cut the crap.” He put the gun on her temple.

           “I know that you know I like to play it rough, but don’t you think using gun is a bit too risky, babe?” She snaked her hand to his nape. “Or do you miss me that much?” She snapped him by circling him with her legs, pulling him even closer. “Put that gun down, baby.” She started to kiss Jooheon but the guy didn’t bother moving his gun.

           “I’m not here to sleep with you.”

           “Come on… I miss you. I miss your taste.” She smiled as she tried to kiss him again. “Why don’t… we make love first before you kill me?” Jooheon slowly lowered his gun. He let his guard down, allowed her to kiss him. She led him to her room in-between the kiss and pushed him onto the bed. Jooheon hissed in pain from the gun shot on his stomach.

           “Don’t you want to put that gun for awhile?” She whispered into Jooheon’s ear as she tried to unbuckle his belt. Jooheon hissed every now and then, trying to hold back his pain.

           The guy didn’t answer, instead he pulled her closer and began kissing her neck, planting bites here and there. The girl moaned in pleasure.

           “You do miss me, huh?” She pulled Jooheon’s hair, leading the play like she always did.

           “I’m just doing what you want before I do what I have to do.” Jooheon whispered, while slowly juxtaposed the gun to her. He kissed her again, making it more aggressive that she forgot what was she currently facing.

           “Joohe-“ A thud sound stopped her midsentence. She fell on Jooheon in no time. Blood flowed from her head to Jooheon’s. He sighed as he took the gun away from her and flipped her dead body over.

           He got up and wiped the blood from his face. “You filthy bitch.” He then pushed the bleeding from his stomach while trying to make a phone call.

           “She’s dead.” He said, immediately cut off the phone call without waiting for an answer.

           “Ahh… Sh…” He limped as he made his way back to his car. He entered the car and spent a good two hours there, stopping the bleeding by stitching it himself and just spent another hours, waiting to lessen the pain before he could drove back home.

to be continued...

[thea-polis]

Just got back from Split!

I think from now on out if there’s a movie I really want to see I’m just going to stay the fuck off Tumblr. All this is behind a cut, as you can see, because I got spoiled on a part by someone I follow who had gone to an early screening and posted a spoiler in their tags. It wasn’t a major part of the movie, but still when I got there I was like “Oh, I guess I know what this is about :-///////////////////////////////////////////////////////////////////////////////////////////////////////////////” and it took me out of the movie because I was so fucking irked, all because they decided I shouldn’t have the same fresh viewing experience they had. I’m still annoyed about that. PUT YOUR SPOILERS UNDER CUTS AND KEEP THEM OUT OF TAGS FFS. 

But!! As to the movie itself. Apart from the :-/////////////, and a couple of general nonspoilery things I caught from other people on Tumblr, I haven’t read any reviews, professional or amateur, so these are my fresh thoughts straight from the viewing.

I thought it was a very good, solid movie. I didn’t think it was a horror movie. It really should have been marketed as a suspense film. 

James was transcendent. I think I read a review of him in XMA that said “It’s a joy to watch McAvoy act” and that’s dead on. He is so fucking GOOD at what he does. It was impossible to see him as anything but a conflicted, tormented person - or, more accurately, several fully realized people. Even the tiny glimpses we saw of someone like Jade, who barely had any screen time, made them feel like a Real Person. 

I liked Anya Taylor-Joy as Casey, though she doesn’t act much besides big eyes and a set face. But Casey was an intriguing character. All the characters were fantastic. I thought it was an interesting, poignant, and heartbreaking choice that the thing that saved her in this situation - “playing along” - was also the thing that caged her into torment with her uncle. On one hand, I wished the ending had had somehow liberated her from that situation (BY GOD), but on the other, it felt fitting with her character that it didn’t. I’m really torn on this (SPLIT on this?!!?). It would have shown how much she’d grown from the child who couldn’t fire the gun at the man after her to the one who could, but at the same time…. Like i said, it seemed almost like too much for her character to be able to do. Could such a scared, repressed, antisocial girl just reach out to the cop next to the door and say, “I need help to get away from my uncle”? I think a more traditional, feel good movie would have ended her story with her taking a deep breath and saying “I need to talk to you” while she’s in the cop car, and I rather appreciate that this one didn’t. It’s not an easy, suddenly “alls well” end for her.

BETTY BUCKLEY!! I am now in the Betty Buckley fanclub. I loved her and everything she did with the role. And early on she’s sitting with her neighbor on the couch and all I could think was LEGS!!! LEGS!!! FUCKING BEAUTIFUL FANTASTIC LEGS!! Seriously, hnng.

Some thoughts about the plot and movie itself: One of the general things I had read beforehand had been about a “twist” at the end? But honestly, I thought it was all pretty straightforward and plain. I have no idea what the twist could be, unless it was about the pure/impure sacrifice thing, but even that I thought had been clearly set up or discussed earlier in the movie to make the ending obvious.

I like all the themes that tied it together as a movie: abuse, beasts/animals, hunting, cages, scars, “fitting in.” Kevin+, Casey, and Dr. Fletcher are all outcasts in their own ways. 

On the horror aspect: At no time was I frightened. I wasn’t even that tense. To contrast this with another film, (also starring Anya Taylor-Joy, incidentally), I watched The Witch because of the acclaim it got and OH. MY. GOD. THAT MOVIE FREAKED ME THE FUCK OUT. I’m STILL scared by it. That is a horror film. It’s terrifying. Split is interesting. It made me think of that comment James had made, about being scared of Michael in 12 Years A Slave, and, as much as I love James, I never felt SCARED of him, or what he was going to do, and I’m not sure if that is just because I am a stan of him, or if he can’t really play someone who is truly scary. Even during the more gruesome bits at the end, I wasn’t really disturbed - and I think that’s saying something, since being eaten alive is one of my MAJOR MAJOR NIGHTMARES. Seriously, I find it so disturbing as to get really upset by the very thought of it in stories. Jaws? That guy who got eaten by the bears he was living with? The guy at the end of The Hunger Games? These all really, really upset me. Split didn’t. 

On James’s performance. Wow. Just fucking WOW. Each character really felt like a new person. The tensest the theater I was watching ever got was when Patricia came out. Some teen girls were in a couple of rows behind me and they LOVED Hedwig. When Casey punched him, they went “Aww!! :(((”, which shows how good James was at differentiating between persons. He’s also still charming as FUCK. And funny. It’s a joy to watch him act.