#i got distracted by oitnb

[adeles]

The LEGO Batman Movie (2017)

[sunflowerhoney]

Can you answer all 100 of the questions? I know it’s a lot but I figured it would be a fun relaxing distraction 🥺🥺💕💕

-🍓

Of course!! thank you so much for asking darling, youre the best 🥺 <3

1. What is you middle name?

Kathleen

2. How old are you?

26

3. When is your birthday?

March 19th

4. What is your zodiac sign?

Pisces

5. What is your favorite color?

Light blue

6. What’s your lucky number?

319

7. Do you have any pets?

2 cats!

8. Where are you from?

USA

9. How tall are you?

5’6”

10. What shoe size are you?

9 or 9.5

11. How many pairs of shoes do you own?

Maybe 7 or 8 I think?

12. What was your last dream about?

Good question 😅 i have weird dreams but I tend to forget them quickly

13. What talents do you have?

Ah I’m not sure that I have many haha, I used to be able to play viola but I haven’t in ages and I write a little bit but not well

14. Are you psychic in any way?

Not that I know of :o

15. Favorite song?

Sunflower by Rex Orange County

16. Favorite movie?

Carol

17. Who would be your ideal partner?

Gwendolyn Briggs 😂

18. Do you want children?

I honestly don’t know tbh

19. Do you want a church wedding?

No definitely not lol

20. Are you religious?

Nope

21. Have you ever been to the hospital?

Not like as a patient but I’ve been to hospitals to visit family members

22. Have you ever got in trouble with the law?

I got a ticket once if that counts lol

23. Have you ever met any celebrities?

I met Lea DeLaria (from OITNB) at an event at my college once!

24. Baths or showers?

Showers

25. What color socks are you wearing?

Pink

26. Have you ever been famous?

Nope

27. Would you like to be a big celebrity?

No, I’m way too shy 😅 I think it would be very stressful

28. What type of music do you like?

Lots of different types tbh: indie, alternative, pop, ska, pop punk, I tend to just listen to any random song I like regardless of the type

29. Have you ever been skinny dipping?

Yes once 🙈 with a friend when I was in college

30. How many pillows do you sleep with?

3

31. What position do you usually sleep in?

Usually curled up on my side

32. How big is your house?

I live in a one bedroom apartment so not very big haha

33. What do you typically have for breakfast?

I don’t typically eat breakfast, eating early in the day makes me feel gross :(

34. Have you ever fired a gun?

No

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35. Have you ever tried archery?

Yes!! At summer camp when I was a kid, it was actually so fun! :o

36. Favorite clean word?

Purring (because cats!)

37. Favorite swear word?

Fuck! Lol

38. What’s the longest you’ve ever gone without sleep?

A little less than 24 hours

39. Do you have any scars?

Yes

40. Have you ever had a secret admirer?

You before you came off anon? 👀 hehe

41. Are you a good liar?

Depends on the situation, I tend to get too nervous haha

42. Are you a good judge of character?

More so than I used to be I think

43. Can you do any other accents other than your own?

Not really, at least not well at least lol

44. Do you have a strong accent?

I don’t think so! I say some words with an accent though

45. What is your favorite accent?

I’m not sure if I have a favorite :o

46. What is your personality type?

INFJ

47. What is your most expensive piece of clothing?

I honestly have no idea tbh

48. Can you curl your tongue?

Only a little tiny bit haha

49. Are you an innie or an outie?

Innie

50. Left or right handed?

Right handed (except for when I play softball, I bat left handed)

51. Are you scared of spiders?

Not if they’re small, big spiders freak me out though

52. Favorite food?

Onion Rings

53. Favorite foreign food?

Sushi

54. Are you a clean or messy person?

Somewhere in the middle

55. Most used phrased?

I’m not sure :o (maybe thats my most used phrase lol)

56. Most used word?

Probably “hi” or something like that 😅

57. How long does it take for you to get ready?

Depends where I’m going, usually like 30-40 minutes

58. Do you have much of an ego?

No I don’t think so, I’m wildly insecure

59. Do you suck or bite lollipops?

Uhm both I think? Like I bite them but not until they’re really small haha

60. Do you talk to yourself?

Yes lol

61. Do you sing to yourself?

Yes, especially in the car

62. Are you a good singer?

Not really 😅

63. Biggest Fear?

This is probably weird but I have emetophobia so throwing up lol

64. Are you a gossip?

Honestly a bit lmao but not in a malicious way I’m just really nosy

65. Best dramatic movie you’ve seen?

Carol? If that counts haha

66. Do you like long or short hair?

On myself, long hair (I hate the way my hair looks short lol)

67. Can you name all 50 states of America?

Yes lol only because I learned a song about it as a kid and never forgot it 😂

68. Favorite school subject?

English

69. Extrovert or Introvert?

Introvert

70. Have you ever been scuba diving?

I have not

71. What makes you nervous?

Driving on really big highways/in bad traffic, interviews, feeling like I’m trapped, being in the middle of a row of seats (like in a movie theater)

72. Are you scared of the dark?

Only if I’m somewhere unfamiliar

73. Do you correct people when they make mistakes?

Not usually unless its going to benefit them to be corrected, I wouldn’t just correct someone to embarrass them or anything like that

74. Are you ticklish?

Yeah a bit

75. Have you ever started a rumor?

Not that I can think of

76. Have you ever been in a position of authority?

Kind of at work?

77. Have you ever drank underage?

Yes

78. Have you ever done drugs?

If weed counts as a drug then yes, if not then no lol

79. Who was your first real crush?

Some random person I went to school with lol

80. How many piercings do you have?

Just one on each ear

81. Can you roll your Rs?“

A little bit

82. How fast can you type?

Actually pretty fast!

83. How fast can you run?

A lot slower than I can type 😂

84. What color is your hair?

Brown

85. What color is your eyes?

Brown

86. What are you allergic to?

Nothing really I don’t think, I was allergic to pollen when I was a kid but I haven’t had any allergy symptoms in years so I guess I’m not anymore?? Lol

87. Do you keep a journal?

I don’t but I keep meaning to start

88. What do your parents do?

My mom works for a non profit, my stepdad works in a grocery store

89. Do you like your age?

Mostly, I’m happy to have the independence that I didn’t have when I was younger but sometimes I’m like ah adult life scary

90. What makes you angry?

Rude people, close minded people, getting taken advantage of, people who are mean to people I care about

91. Do you like your own name?

Not really, I wish I had a less common name

92. Have you already thought of baby names, and if so what are they?

Nope, I can’t even decide if I want kids or not lol

93. Do you want a boy a girl for a child?

I don’t really have a preference

94. What are you strengths?

I’m a good listener, I try to be understanding, I’m usually pretty organized

95. What are your weaknesses?

Procrastinating, second guessing myself, being majorly insecure

96. How did you get your name?

It was the only girl name my Mom and Dad could agree on 😂

97. Were your ancestors royalty?

Not that I’m aware of haha

98. Do you have any scars?

Yes

99. Color of your bedspread?

Dark red

100. Color of your room?

White

[villainever]

Eve and the Performance of Morality

The "descent into darkness" as a format for a character arc is relatively common these days, especially in prestige television, and while it's more often played out with men than women, it's not unheard of as a trajectory for female characters. What's so interesting about Eve's development is how FAST it is happening. On a poorly-written show, this would be because the writers were rushing, too caught up in Point B to plot a satisfying journey there from Point A. But Killing Eve is basically a masterclass in good screenwriting, and it leaves us with the unshakeable feeling that this is the only way it COULD happen for Eve.

Other "descending" characters are so often ordinary, but transformed by their remarkable circumstances. They are pushed by the people around them and unfortunate events into compromising on their ideals and values, slowly shifting inch by inch until they've lost sight of who they were. And often, this is where they're killed off, or a redemption begins.

But even though she changes, Eve isn't transformed. She's REVEALED. And not just to us, but to herself. She isn't surrounded by people pushing her to darkness -- in fact, Elena, Hugo, Kenny, Jess and Niko are all trying to hold her back from it. Instead, she chases darkness. She follows Villanelle further and further, around a dozen corners in the gloom, and when the light's gone entirely, Eve realises that she can still SEE. Eve is made for the darkness, and Villanelle knows it from the beginning, but Eve is still working it out.

While I don't think Eve has the same compulsion towards violence that Villanelle does, I do believe they are an example of the nature/nurture conflict. Eve was raised by good people in a good place and got a good education, then married a good man and got a good job. "Nice and normal". At every turn, she was socialised and conditioned to mimic morality and empathy, and while Villanelle often acts this out as well, for Eve, the acting is still subconscious. She believes it comes from an innate impulse, rather than years of being told what to do and how to react. Neither Villanelle nor Eve really connect with people effortlessly on an emotional level, but Villanelle accepts that about herself, while Eve can almost pretend it's been bred out of her.

Eve's stable life and her moral framework are dependent on one another, so they implode at the same time. Staying in the realm of 'normal' with Niko necessitates a certain performance of conventional morality, but when Villanelle not only doesn't demand that performance but actually demonstrates an existence without it, Eve finds it harder and harder to maintain her home life.

Once the door has been opened, it can't be closed again. Eve is realising who she is, and more importantly, who she ISN'T. In 205, Martin says, "Don't add. Take away." And this is how we're experiencing Eve's arc. We take away outside pressure to be normal. We take away moral influences. We take away the expectation of goodness. And this leaves Eve looking a lot more similar to Villanelle than she's perhaps ready to admit yet to herself.

It's worth noting how Niko has identified Eve as self-obsessed, because she definitely is. But a lot of that self-obsession manifests in her fascination with Villanelle -- not only because Eve really likes Villanelle and stops caring about what distracts her from wholeheartedly pursuing her, but because Eve RECOGNISES some part of herself in Villanelle, and almost uses her as a mechanism for self-discovery. She watches what Villanelle does, and enjoys it, while being able to maintain the distance that comes from not having physically done it herself.

As I mentioned earlier, we've seen the "descent" arc before in modern television. One that springs to mind in Piper on OITNB. In S1, Piper commits increasingly selfish acts, but still considers herself a good person -- indeed, nothing she does can be really that bad, because she's a Good Person. Over S2 and S3, she continues downwards, until by S4, she's no longer able to reconcile the two versions of herself, so she decides she must be a Bad Person. Because of her pathological need to be liked, this doesn't work for her either, and ultimately, Piper ends up trying to do good things to become a genuinely Good Person.

Eve, I think, originally believed that she would hit some point like this, and bounce up from the bottom. But she won't. Why? Because at first, Eve thinks she needs people to like her, but she actually doesn't. She fires Kenny -- the last of their original team, the last person who knew Old Eve (not counting Carolyn, who has layers I won't get into here) -- and doesn't really miss him, or notice he's gone (eg. calling Hugo "Kenny"; they're interchangeable and missable). She wants Villanelle's attention, but Villanelle 'liking' her is different to the way other people might -- Villanelle wants her, is attracted to the best of the worst in her, is enjoying Eve's emergence from her crucible (or cocoon, depending on how you want to frame it). Eve's primary drive is Villanelle's interest in her, and that's certainly not holding her back in her journey.

Secondly, Eve doesn't actually care about being good. She's had numerous potential "wake-up call" moments -- stabbing Villanelle, facilitating the torture of the Ghost, nearly pushing the guy at the train station, Niko leaving, Villanelle killing someone right in front of her, etc. Yes, she had a minor breakdown over knifing Villanelle, but that was more the idea of Villanelle being gone than the stabbing itself, because the way Eve later says she thinks of it "all the time" doesn't sound as black and white as regretting it in its entirety; like Villanelle, she views it as a point of significsnt connection between them and I don't believe she'd let that go. Regardless, the point is that if she had a real gut connection to her moral compass, she would've bailed. Because really, her original mission is over. She caught Villanelle. She chased her and drew level and she's done.

But Eve's not done, because she's chasing not just Villanelle, but the Eve who can keep pace with her. She's chasing what Villanelle represents -- freedom from a system that doesn't fit Eve, not really.

What we have to remember, though, is that Eve has been socially and ideologically programmed for forty-five years. Most sociopaths lead typical lives and have long-term relationships and never really dig too deep into their psychology. It's doable. This is why Eve is slipping fast but not faster -- she's had a taste of liberation from her constraints, but her skin has long since grown over those shackles, so it's hard not to see them as a part of herself, and difficult to get them off.

But they'll come off, because Eve isn't a quiet woman with an average husband and a respectable government job. Eve is a chameleon, the way Villanelle is, only she's less deliberate and has been playing her character for far longer.

Which leads me to Villanelle's speech on life being boring and why it was so important for Eve to hear it. If we look at classic "chaotic" characters like Eve and Villanelle, they're often motivated by boredom, or rather, the desire to escape it. Villanelle and Eve are stuck in a world designed for other people.

The fact is, Eve has been bored forever. Eve was bored long before the pilot, when she was stuck in a holding pattern with Niko and imagining how she'd kill him, not because she wanted him gone but because it was INTERESTING. When she started keeping track of a female assassin but not even trying to report her, because she wasn't aiming for justice but ENTERTAINMENT.

Another fascinating element of their dynamic is that we as an audience are usually positioned to root for a redemption, but with Eve, we can't imagine anything more disappointing. We don't need her to turn it all around, we need her to dive in. Not only because it makes for a fresh storyline, but because great arcs are about characters finding who they are, and we have already grasped who Eve is. Along with Villanelle, we're waiting on her to realise it and act on it. Eve returning to her normal life would be a wolf among sheep, and I think Eve has gone too far. Not in that she's committed serious crimes she'd always be guilty of -- although she's getting close -- but because Eve is coming to understand she's not who she imagined she was, and any performance after this will be a conscious one. A decision to pretend. And guess what? That'll get boring, too. We root for a darkening Eve because we want her and Villanelle to escape that boredom, and escape it together, and forgetting this ever happened is not a way to do that.

I've smashed this out on my phone because I had a lot of thoughts and I'm not going to proofread because no one will actually read this. But essentially, I think we can expect Eve to continue using Villanelle as a proxy for a little while longer, until she's ready to cut loose her parachute. She hasn't committed to this yet because she doesn't want to forfeit the possibility of her old life to go back to (which is why she was upset over splitting from Niko even though she couldn't care less when he's actually around), but once she is reminded how horribly BORING it was, there'll be nothing to hold her back anymore. Because better to flame and implode than be smothered in a kitschy kitchen with a man you imagine blending up and pouring into a thermos. Better to be true and horrible than be nothing.

If you did read this thank you and I promise I'll stop writing mini essays and go back to regularly scheduled memes in a moment. I don't really do these because they don't interest anybody, but lmao, these two always get me thinking. hmu if you wanna trade theories lol.

[milkymay]

attention !

I need new seasons to watch ! Pls send me recommendations, the Gayer the Better tm

[exchangewritingsandramblings]

Colorblind (Var 1)

I have feelings about s7 of oitnb; this is the product of that. I wrote 2 variations of this story- they are largely comprised of the same prose, but with two VERY different endings. If you want to read a happy ending for Nicky/Shani, this is not the story for you, but you may want to check out Colorblind (Var 2).  This is a soulmate AU that operates in a universe where people are born colorblind until they meet their soulmate; upon touching, both parties suddenly start to experience the world in color. Once one half of the bonded pair dies, the surviving person returns to only being able to see in monochrome black and white.

For Nicky Nichols, the world had always been monochrome; black, white, and (50, her perverted mind would like to insert) shades of grey. It had never changed. Not when she was in hebrew school, middle school, or high school, not with any of her junkie friends; hell, not even heroin caused her world to burst into color, and heroin was the best damn girlfriend she had ever had. And, as a perk, it distracted her from the whole not finding her soulmate thing, especially when her two junkie friends had bonded, and she was still alone.

When she was sentenced to prison, well really, she was too high to care. In the 3rd day of withdrawal hell, an idle thought passed her mind, what if her soulmate was on the outside, and by the time she's released they're gone? On the 6th day if withdrawal hell, when things were looking less bleak and she wasn’t constantly puking, a different thought flitted across her mind, what if her soulmate was in this prison?

Once she was through the worst of the withdrawal, she started to look a little more closely at the world around her. This place was full of lesbians; maybe, just maybe, she'd find her soulmate here.

When she met Lorna Morello, she hoped that was that. But Lorna kept going on and on about her soulmate, a man named Christopher (she later learned that Lorna was just deluding herself about this). Nicky was still sort of hoping Lorna could be the one for her, after all, she knew some people had more than one soul mate. Even if she wasn't her soul mate, she was still pretty and willing to sleep with her, no question about it. Somehow, they had never even bumped hands before they attempted sex. And while Nicky thought the sex was a success, her world stayed monochrome. Same with every other woman she hooked up with.

Then, they were moved to Max. There was a whole new host of faces, but still Nicky's world remained colorless. Then the news came, they were going to give her 70 more years of her sentence. A rock settled in her gut; at that point, so many people would have passed her by if she was on the outside, maybe she'd miss them. Or, 70 years from now, hell, she'd probably be dead. After all, she wasn't in peak condition after years of heavy drug use. Or her soulmate would be dead, Regardless, she wasn't going to screw over Red, not without her permission. The older inmate was clearly not Nicky's soulmate, but up until that moment was the only person who loved Nicky unconditionally; the one who had gotten her through detox, mourning, heartbreak. Red was Nicky's mom, and soulmates were overrated anyways. At least that's what she kept trying to tell herself.

Nicky's life was going to shit. She was clean, sure, but her mother... well, something was off with Red. She was more forgetful than normal after coming back from SHU, and it terrified Nicky. She tried to ignore it, to pretend everything was just like it was pre-riot, but it wasn't working. Lorna was Lorna, so lost in her own world and obsessing over baby Sterling. Cause she hadn't seen for a while, Piper was released, and the rest of their makeshift family had been transferred to another prison in the wake of the riot. For the first time in Nicky's life, she didn't even bother to think about soulmates, or her lack thereof. She was too busy trying to corral Red and Lorna before she lost them too.

She always thought Shani was cute, who wouldn't? She was perky, her eyes sparkled despite the shittiest of situations, and her accent was like music for Nicky. And yet, she was so wrapped up in worrying about her family that she didn't even stop to think, hey, maybe she's my soulmate. Which is why, when she was washing dishes with the other woman, she did not expect for life to burst into color when their hands accidentally brushed. She staggered back from the sink, trying not to make a scene, and saw Shani doing the same, giving her a conspiratorial smile.

Nicky's days after that were filled with the same concerns, still, but life seemed a little less bleak in color. Shani made her really see that something was wrong with Red, but when she tried to bring it up... well, that rejection stung. But then Red cut her hand, and was taken to medical, and asked for Nicky as the person she trusted to be with her to hear the diagnosis. She wasn't okay, not by a long stretch, but she felt a little bit more whole knowing that there was someone she could talk to about it, someone who had gone through similar, and was her soulmate to boot.

She had been losing Red slowly, but losing Lorna felt like it hit all at once. Realistically, she should have seen the signs. She was doing real well lately at caring for her people, she thought bitterly. Really, she had lost Morello a while ago. She was just too blind to see it.

She skipped work that day, to take care of Lorna. In retrospect, she isn't sure if she'd change her actions that day, even knowing what she knows now. But when Flaca showed up at her door, passed a note to her, and whispered her apologies, Nicky didn't even have to open the letter to know what it said. She did, anyways, just to confirm that she had missed out on the last opportunity she had, possibly ever, to see her soulmate again.

Shani had told her that her family wanted to murder her; that's why she escaped in the first place, that's why she was scared of going back. But as the days dragged on after her deportation, and Nicky could still see color, she started to hope. Maybe Shani had found a way out, had escaped again. Nicky allowed herself brief daydreams of being released, and going to find Shani again. Living together happily.

Ironically, she was washing dishes again when all of a sudden, her world became devoid of color. Gone were the vibrant hues, well, as vibrant as you get inside a prison (and Nicky would always be pissed that she never really got to see the world in all its colorful glory). Her world was back to monochrome; she had lost her shot at happiness with a soulmate. She blamed herself; maybe she could have met Shani when they were both outside Litchfield walls. She blamed the government, for sending Shani to her death.

"Is there someone?" Red would later ask her in a moment of rare clarity.

"There could have been."

"And?"

"She's gone."

Nicky wept.

Prison had taken her mother, her best friend, and her soulmate, what would it take next? On second thought, she'd rather not know.

[sgxena16]

Thoughts on OITNB S6

I gotta say those last 15 minutes were a roller coaster. Good and bad things happened so I had many conflicting feelings which I’m sure is what they wanted. Overall I enjoyed the season so here are some thoughts I have about the season 6. Spoilers ahead!

Gotta say this first: VAUSEMAN WEDDING. They’re married and I’m so happy about that. They love each other so much and I’m confident that they will make it.

Still confused as to why Fig hired guards with PTSD from war and from the riot. That just screams bad idea. I feel bad for McCollough but she needs to take responsibility for herself and take herself out of a situation that could trigger her which could result in her or someone else getting hurt. Her saying that she would’ve shot the women if she had a gun on her should’ve been the push she needed to take leave from the prison.

Speaking of guards, I’m glad Pennsatucky left Donuts. I could never have accepted her being with him and I don’t think the show did their storyline well at all. I get trying to be complex, but there’s nothing complex about a guard raping a prisoner and the prisoner not just forgiving the guard, but falling for him and running away with him.

Love Pennsatucky and Suzanne’s friendship. They should get a buddy cop movie

I hope Frieda learns how to have friends. 

The first episode was very enlightening since we got to see how Suzanne views the world. It was sweet, funny, and heartbreaking. 

Healy basically choosing to absolve himself of all the fucked up things he did in Litchfield is crappy and unsurprising 

I’m here for Alex calling Piper “babe”

Cindy testifying against Taystee was awful, but she is a victim of the justice system which made her turn against her friend. If she didn’t, she’d get more time. The AUSAs and FBI were basically extorting testimony

 Flaca didn’t really get much to do this season but her words of wisdom to Cindy in the last episode were wonderful

Loved seeing the gang (Piper, Alex, Nicky, Lorna) back together for the wedding. Nicky and Lorna have been with vauseman since the beginning. It’s only fitting that they’re there for the wedding.

I rewatched the last few eps of season 5 in preparation for this. In the last ep, Alex asked Red if the riot was worth it. I think this s6 answered that question. They were separated. They were sent to max. Some of them were given 10 more years and some got life. Blanca was thrown to ICE. MCC is thriving. The guards are still dicks. No justice was gotten for Poussey. In my opinion, the riot was not worth it.

At the end of last season, some of us were worried that Kubra saw the video of Alex and would try to kill her again. Apparently Kubra doesn’t watch the news, isn’t on social media, or notices when one of his people disappears. 

We’re all in agreement that Madison aka Badison is the worst, right?

It was nice of the show to let Alex/Piper and Nicky/Lorna be in the same block.

Piper really does need Alex. Alex was her rock all season. Always calm, collected, and reassuring. I don’t think Piper would’ve survived prison without her. It’d be nice to get the chance to see her try to survive the outside world without Alex. 

Alex being so protective of Piper was super sweet.

Lorna going all gangster was weird, disturbing, and amusing. I guess it’s possible to rationalize that joining a gang would give her people that’d protect her.

Nicky stayed sober! In Max! Where drugs are everywhere! I’m so proud of her. She was there for everyone who needed her. Blanca, Lorna, Red, Barb. Nicky is one of the most reliable people on the show. Her struggle with turning on Red was hard to watch because you knew she’d feel bad no matter what choice she made. 

Nicky protecting Lorna by leaving her in the closet was amazing. She knew that she could possibly die during kickball, but protecting Lorna was more important. 

Any yet something goes wrong. It seems like Lorna is going into labor even though she’s only 7 months pregnant. And there was blood on her uniform as she was taken to medical. As if the end of this season didn’t need more drama and tragedy.

Red is her own worst enemy. It;s like she needs someone to hate so she had something to do. Everyone needs something to do in prison to bid their time but Red’s distraction ruins her connection to the people she loves. I’m so pissed at her for choosing to attack Frieda over seeing her grandchildren. I hope to see her forgive her prison family in s7 and work towards making amends to her family on the outside. She needs to stop focusing on power and vengeance and start focusing on family.

Lorna’s disregard of Red was awful. She said something about how Red wasn’t useful anymore. In season 2, Red was on the outs with her prison family and she figured that it was because she wasn’t useful anymore. It sucks that people in her family (at least Lorna) only care about Red when they can get something out of her.

I have no idea what the deal with Gloria and Luschek is. Didn’t really like it but I didn’t dislike it.

Part of me is annoyed with Daya for joining the gang, dealing drugs, and acting like a jerk. Part of me has no problem with it. Girl’s got life in prison. She’s gotta survive it however she can. I just want her to survive it without being an asshole. 

I’m not sure how I feel about Daya being the one used to showcase the opioid crisis. I also really don’t like her relationship with Daddy. It’s completely based on sex, drugs, and power. And while Daddy cares, she doesn’t care enough to stop dealing drugs even though it’s hurting Daya.  

I respect Aledia for choosing to continue sending drugs into the prison even though her daughter is a junkie. It’s weird that we’re in a place where something like this is respectable. Aleida has to get her other kids. She can’t risk her shot at getting custody back on Daya. Especially when Daya has no problem with how things are going. It was heartbreaking to see her come to decision to basically give up on Daya, but it showed how strong she was.

I just found out the Cindy’s Secret Agent song is from the Backyardigans. I’d love to know how the writers came up with the idea of sing that song. 

I loved that Maria made the choice to be good at the end. It seemed like she lost all hope of getting out in season 4 because she thought she had more time added to her sentence.

I really hope Taystee can forgive Cindy eventually. Not right away cause getting convicted for something you didn’t do and being sentenced to life is probably not gonna put her in a forgiving mood. 

I’m gonna need Taystee to appeal her conviction and win so there can be some justice. The show owes us that. If Poussey can’t get justice then Taystee needs to

I do hope that Piper writes the memoir but it’d be interesting to see how she frames the kickball game since she never knew about the bloodbath that almost happened. I also want to see her become an advocate from prisoner rights 

The show needs to follow Blanca and not drop this immigration detention centers story line they’ve started. Since the show is trying to demonstrate real life issues and their results, I doubt they’re gonna let Blanca have a happy ending but I’m still going to hold out hope. She and Diablo deserve to have their family.

A highlight at the end was seeing Sophia be released early with 300K. I don’t think the show ever really finished her story since she just dropped off the show and came back every now and then. She deserved this happy ending and I hope we don’t see her again. I’m afraid they’ll add drama to her life. 

I saw an article talk about how this show makes freedom seem relative to each person’s situation. With Pennsatucky, she was free but not free. She had to wear a disguise and was beholden to what Donuts wanted. Aleida is free but she can’t do the things she wants to. She can’t afford a place to live for her and her kids and she can’t get a job. She has to resort to dealing drugs to have a chance at getting what she wants. She’s back to doing what landed her in prison while Pennsatucky actually ends up back in prison and seems happier for it.

The show really made the point that Taystee and Piper are the co-leads of the show, especially with their scene in the salon. They both dealth with crap this season, but Piper got early release while Taystee was convicted of a murder she didn’t commit. And even if Taystee got out, she would have a harder time than Piper at having a good life. I hope the show  makes a point to show the contrast between Piper and Aleida as they try to have a life on the outside.

Overall, this season was really good. It wasn’t as cluttered as season 5 and that was partially thanks to writing off some characters. The last 15-20 minutes had a lot going on which left me with conflicting feelings. I’m really excited for next season. It seems like the show is winding down but I’m not sure they can resolve everyone’s story in just season 7 but I shall not doubt this show. I know they want to be realistic, but I’m gonna need most of these characters to get as happy an ending as possible.

I hope we get to see the characters that weren’t in this season again just so we can have a proper goodbye with them.

Just remembered something else. A great moment this season was seeing Boo and seeing Linda get her head shaved. Couldn’t have happened to a better person. Not surprised that her time in prison didn’t change her views on how to treat inmates.

Thanks for reading all this. I’m here to talk about the show if anyone wants to. And you can check out my season 6 Vauseman rant here. I had a lot to say about them and didn’t want to clog this too much. I wish everyone luck on surviving this hiatus. 

[ancient-mystical-features]

the busy series (e-journal, again)

February 5, 2022

Busy Ep. 1

This probably won't be my last time of using that as a title, so I put an Ep. 1 so I can use it as an excuse to resuse the title. I'm not a fan of adding a title to these entries, but oh well. We're pretty busy with filling out the content plans with student's names for our class project. The project proposal is due on Monday. RIP us.

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February 22, 2022

✉️

BU is so much work. Like why do I even bother going through all this process? Why do I even bother applying? I'm not even planning to go? As a lot of my friends say: "For clout lang." 🤡

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March 11, 2022

7 days before my funeral

Due on March 18:

JECS Essay Exam

JECS Spoken Word PC

HMSS116 Poster (DONE)

HMSS116 Reaction Paper

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March 12, 2022

Busy Ep. 2

I surprisingly did well with spontaneously interviewing someone for our project, especially that it had been my first time. It wasn't necessarily a comfortable experience but I mostly felt well. I am currently in another meeting and really busy with a lot.

Do not be deceived with the title. This is not just my second time being busy. I just use the title when I can't think of anything else and too busy to write a bunch.

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March 13, 2022

5000 characters in one sitting

I got to write an entire essay in one sitting on a SUNDAY. I don't do stuff on Sundays intentionally. I dedicate Sundays and after-dinners for myself with no school nor org-related stuff to do unless if it's urgent. Since a lot are due next week on Friday, I figured I'd compromise last night and use that time to do one of the major stuff I needed to do. I uhh wasn't able to do that. But hey don't bite my ear off, I compromised Sunday anyways instead and I was able to finish my draft in one afternoon.

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March 14, 2022

Busy Ep. 3

I can't write a lot right now but I'm working on something good!!

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March 16, 2022

Busy Ep. 4

I finished all four major stuff to be submitted on Friday. Seems like I don't have to bury myself six feet below the ground after all.

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March 25, 2022

Busy Ep. 5

I wrote another letter to myself last night, to be opened two years from now. I'm a little busy today prepping for tomorrow and finishing stuff and also attending a meeting and another after this one.

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April 6, 2022

Busy Ep. 6

I remember typing that title yesterday, but something might have came up that got me distracted and I was unable to continue writing. Yesterday (or, well, the date in this entry) was quite a lot. We had to finish our project proposal and brainstorm on specifics so we could submit the proposal for approval in the morning so it wouldn't be pending until the end of the holy week. I was drained out yesterday but our late night call to brainstorm the rest of the stuff was fun and you could hear us either crying or laughing, we weren't sure. We even got to invite really great speakers (ONE OF THEM WHO I'M A FAN OF AND I CAN'T SPILL DETAILS BUT SINCE I BET THERE'S A GOOD CHANCE THAT NOBODY'S GONNA SEE THIS BUT HE WAS IN AHEB THE MUSICAL WOO). This event is a big one. And I hope we'll be able to keep our sanity by the end of it.

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April 21, 2022

lots on my plate

One more move and I'll be experiencing another major burnout. I still have a PT due tomorrow and ALD and our culminating activity on my plate. I'm gonna take an hour break with an episode of OITNB before I fall apart.

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April 23, 2022

work

We went to the vet this afternoon so work starts a little later than usual. I knew ALD was gonna be heavy but you never really realize just how heavy it is until a few days before the event when you're all in shambles.

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April 24, 2022

prep

I am currently preparing the stuff to be donated for our Community Engagement Outreach.

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April 26, 2022

Busy Ep. 7

It's been a while since I've watched OITNB. I don't even have a minute these days. It's reasonable though, and I kind of expected that. I just didn't expect myself to be mentally all over the place and not as organized as I was in my first project.

[messifangirl]

Please when will you update OITNB I miss it so much 😭

Sorry it’s been a bit since I updated! The WC happened so I got a bit distracted. Plus I’ve been working a lot and had some family issues going on. I hope it won’t be too much longer til I post a new chapter.

[countcockulaaa]

so despite today being The Actual Worst™️ mentally, I managed to keep from doing anything harmful to myself until T came home (his presence is enough to knock the urges down a few pegs).

Looking back, I was actually pretty productive

- applied to an actual fuckton of jobs. not even kidding, it must’ve been at least 20-25 jobs that I applied for today

- got all the trash together

- got reapproved for insurance. now I just have to find out when it’s effective so I can go back to therapy immediately and not have to miss my physical soon (and hopefully get referrals for a neuro and other specialists) or my psych appointment at the end of the month for meds

- did like three loads of dishes with only one round left

- cleaned up T’s side of the bed

- made dinner

- drank ~120oz of water,

- decided to apply for the associates program for entrepreneurship (a business degree program) at the community college by my place. I WILL finish my forensics degree but the entrepreneur program is gunna be hella useful, not only for the job market but bc I ultimately want to have my own training business and this will be an incredibly useful tool to have in my arsenal

- got thru a big chunk of my OITNB season 4 rewatch so I can watch the newer stuff finally

I didn’t do much for self care aside from showering and letting myself sleep in, but I was surprisingly good about subsonsciously keeping myself busy and distracted to avoid acting on my impulses, which I can’t even do when I’m consciously putting in the effort. So that’s a big win.

[its-a-queer-thing]

Dear Shameless writers, Please don’t turn Shameless into ANOTHER disappointment for the LGBTQIA community. What I mean by that, is I can probably count the number of gay couples with a happy ending on one hand (I mean solidly happy not “ahhh well… THIS could have happened and it didn’t so it’s happy FOR an LGBTQIA storyline. I mean fucking walking off into the sunset happily fucking ever after endings that give us cavities). Meanwhile it’s a treat to see straight films and shows where the couple DOESN’T have a happy ending. Why? Because it’s realistic and refreshing after seeing a million examples where everything suddenly works out in the end. But you know which characters seldom have these kinds of endings? Basically any LGBTQIA couple in media ever. Please give Ian and Mickey happily ever after endings (with each other if I’m not asking too much). So by that I mean not Trevor in Ian’s case. It’s not that I dislike Trevor, it’s that there is NO chemistry. Think Ruby Rose in season 3 of OITNB. Literally only there to cause conflict but without the chemistry goodies to back it up. Trevor is a Mickey distraction gone wrong. Though he has certainly opened discussions about Trans issues and gender identity as a whole, and I’ll forever appreciate that, the fact is to have Ian end up with Trevor would be a lie because Trevor is not the love of Ian’s life… Mickey is. Mickey deserves better for reasons I could rattle off in another post, but the bottom line is they both deserve to be with the man who makes them strive to be better, do more, be more–to be with the one who makes them happy beyond anyone else ever could, who makes even the rainiest of days only partly cloudy if not completely sunny. Please, please, please Shameless writers; do Noel Fisher and Cameron Monaghan justice, do Gallavich justice, give Ian and Mickey the ending they deserve, and finally, do the LGBTQIA community a huge solid and let us have ONE more happy ending to add to the painfully short list. Lots of gay people watched this show with hope after Mickey came out… and look where it got him. We need to see these happy endings especially now because they ARE POSSIBLE in real life, but there are still so many closeted gay people (like Mickey) who need to see that everything CAN turn out okay, if only for some comfort if not for a little encouragement to be open with who they are. I am not demanding, but requesting and pleading to PLEASE not do the LGBTQIA dirty and give us another fallen through pairing. Please give Gallavich the ending they deserve and let them walk off into their south side sunset. Oh, and please go ahead and tell us soon (like, now, please!) Whether or not Noel is coming back so we can finally prepare ourselves for full heartbreak if it turns out he isn't. I know I'd still watch the show, and if Mickey is truly gone even just for the season, I would like some preparation.

Sincerely, A hopeful Gallavich fan losing hope day by day without news.

[rememberingnayarivera]

I think we can all agree then that Naya needs to be OITNB as a sassy Latina Lesbian who tried robbing a bank and failed miserably cause she thought the bank teller was a cutie and got distracted flirting with her.

[fascinationfics]

Steve Rodgers x Reader prompt

Prompt: 46+60+72 fluff with Steve (I've never asked things like this from writers lol)

Warnings: Swear words

46. “It was a joke, baby. I swear.” 60. “Are you going to talk to me?” 72. “Just smile, I really need to see you smile right now.”

GIF is NOT mine.

The door was slightly open when you exited the shower. You thought nothing of it when you remembered that Steve came in earlier to get something, he probably forgot to close it all the way when he exited the bathroom.

“Hey Y/N get in here!” Steve yelled from the bedroom you two shared in the new Avengers facility.

“Coming! I’m just finishing drying my hair.” You said from the bathroom connected to the shared bedroom.

“You won’t need to do that when you come in here.”

“What do yo-” You were about to ask before she was meet with a small bucket on her head full of flour when she slightly opened the door a little more.

“OH MY GOSH! I CAN’T BELIEVE THAT WORKED!” Steve roared with laughter.

“WHAT THE FUCK STEVE!? I JUST TOOK A SHOWER! UGH YOU’RE UNBELIEVEABLE! PETER WOULDN’T HAVE DONE THIS AND HE’S JUST SIXTEEN!” You turned around to slam the door to take another shower. He knew you didn’t liked being surprised, especially if it involved having something in your face or hair.

When you got out the shower and got ready for the day, you decided that you’d ignore Steve.

“It was a joke, baby. I swear.” Steve pleaded with you when you walked away from him with a scowl on your face. You couldn’t believe it, Steve Rodgers of all people pulled a horrible joke on you. I mean it’s 2017 for fuck sakes!

You went about your business, doing what you do everyday when you didn’t have a mission to go to. You were eating cereal on the kitchen island when Steve came in getting his own bowl of cereal. When he sat next to you is when you got up and sat one seat away from him.

Steve knew you were still mad about the joke earlier but he didn’t think you’d be this mad. The last time you ignored him was when he watched the whole 5th season of OITNB. But even then you got over it in less than an hour. So what was wrong now?

Steve thought of trying to talk to you to see if you’re actually ignoring him.

“So I was thinking of starting the second season of Black Mirror, wanna join me?” Steve looked over at the couch where you were seated after you ate your cereal. Nope, not one movment from you acknowledging him. He’ll try again later.

He sat on the couch near you once he was done eating cereal, but you got up and moved to the other couch. By the time the first episode of Black Mirror was half way done he tried asking again. “Are you sure? It’s a pretty good episode, you’re missing out.” Steve tried once again to get you to talk to him. Still nothing. You were to ‘busy’ looking at your phone with headphones in.

Sure you weren’t talking to him, but were weren't going to start Black Mirror without him. So you opted out on using your phone to watch it while Steve watched on the TV.

“Are you going to talk to me?” Steve pleaded when he didn’t get a respond from you when he asked if you wanted to go walking after the episode ended. What? You too busy watching Black Mirror. But you just got up and left the room exiting the facility to go walk. Steve followed taking that as a yes.

By now you were playing a joke on him by pretending that you were still ignoring him. Yea sure you knowledged his pleas but you still didn’t answer him when he talked to him.

Steve was getting frustrated when you wouldn’t answer him. He was tired of your little ‘game.’ While you guys were still walking he tried making you smile with his compliments of his.

“Did I ever tell you how beautiful you looked when you smiled?” Nothing, not even a smirk. This usually works when he wanted to see your beautiful smile. Compliment after compliment and nothing was making you laugh or smile.

“Did you hear the joke about the German sausage?” This was his last chance to make you smile. If this didn’t work then he doesn’t know what will.

You raised your eyebrows pretty much telling him, “What?” without actually saying it of course.

“It was the wurst.” Steve looked at you trying to see any reaction from you, nothing. He knew you liked terrible puns, so why weren’t you laughing? You really wanted to burst out laughing though, you were dying a little outside when you couldn’t laugh just to keep your joke running.

He was livid now, if he couldn’t make you laugh now then he didn’t no what will. So he walked back to the facility not knowing what to do to make it up to you.

~Later that night~

You were getting ready for bed when Steve walked into the bedroom also getting ready for bed. You were just settling into your shared bed when you heard Steve mumbling to himself. You quizzically looked at him when he was also settling into the bed under the covers with you.

“Y/N, i’m so sorry for what I did this morning, I shouldn’t have done that. That wasn’t even a joke, it was a horrible prank so please just smile, I really need to see you smile right now” Steve pleaded with you, just wanting to see that beautiful smile of yours.

“Whenever I see you smile at least once a day, my day gets a whole better. Today I couldn’t even concentrate when Sam and I were training, I kept thinking of how I didn’t see your beautiful smile today. So please just smile.”

Oh jeez you couldn’t keep this up, you never liked seeing Steve liked this. You just wanted a little revenge, but you didn’t know it’d get this bad.

“What kind of overalls does Mario wear?” You asked Steve trying to avoid the topic because of how bad you felt.

“What kind does he we-” Steve was cut off when you went in for a kiss without warning. You pulled away before it got any more heated. Still confused, Steve didn’t move from his position he was in when you kissed him.

(in the song theme of Mario) “Denim denim denim.” You giggled. Wait, was that just a giggle he heard from you? He turned his head to see that beautiful smile of yours. Oh, how much he missed that smile.

“Okay wow that was horrible but i’ll give it to you Y/N. But also know you aren’t getting away with that so called kiss of yours.” Steve chuckled as he got closer to you.

“Oh? And what kind of kisses do yo- mmpphh.” You didn’t finish your sentence when Steve attacked your mouth with his lips pretty much telling you to shut up.

That night you both slept like babies snuggling each other, knowing your minds are clear of any distractions.

Fin~

Well there it is guys, my first request. I hope you guys liked it! ♥♥ Keep the feedback coming, i’m loving them :D Also sorry for any mistakes. ^^

[cherryvibez-blog]

Thank you for making Asia Kate icons! They need more resources. Your tagging is a little odd though and if I don't think I would have found them if I hadn't checked the rph tag.

You’re welcome! I didn’t know about them until I got this request to be honest, but I also stopped watching OITNB after the second season because I got distracted by others shows. LOL. So, thank you for letting me know about them! I’ve been seeing quite a few requests for them around the rph tag, so hopefully more resources will start popping up!

But yeah you’re right I did tag it weird, but I fixed it, and just tagged their name and then their name with ‘icons’ after it, so hopefully people can find it better now. :’) Usually I tag things like that but idk what was going through my mind when I tagged it initially.

[mickey-milkovichs]

and it’ll come together - nicky/morello and faith/buffy (oitnb and btvs crossover)

also on ao3

“Bullshit!” Faith slams her jello container down onto her plastic tray so hard a little clump of green goo sails out and lands on a strand of Nicky’s wild hair, dangling. She pretends not to notice. “Don’t be telling my girl such crap!”

Nicky chuckles wickedly. “Man, it’s not crap and you know it! Admit it, you couldn’t handle your hooch and you came on to every person with a hint of estrogen on the premises. But hey,” she shrugs, “I’ve done the same. No shame in it.”

Buffy giggles and leans up to kiss Faith’s cheek as Faith glowers murderously at her friend. The brunette, momentarily distracted from her rage, turns her head and kisses Buffy back, then murmurs into her hair, “Ignore her, B. Never happened.”

Buffy widens her eyes, the image of innocence. “Then why can I picture it in my head? I see it so clearly…,” she furrows her brow thoughtfully, “and it does seem like something you’d do...”. Buffy gives up the charade and cracks up as Nicky high fives her, Faith muttering about everyone ganging up on me...my own girlfriend doesn’t have my back the whole time.

Faith glances around the cafeteria, desperate for a subject change to stop the teasing, and spots a group of new inmates being given a tour by Gina.

“Hey, Nicky. Fresh meat,” Faith says, ignoring Buffy’s scoff and grumbled comparing women to meat now...nice. Faith knows what will get her friends attention. Sure enough, at Faith’s declaration Nicky stops laughing and swings her head around to check out the women being added to the pussy smorgasbord that is Litchfield. She nods her head, a skeevy smile on her face, says “Niiice,” but turns around just as quickly and continues eating her lunch of hard-as-rock dehydrated turkey chips. At Faith’s inquisitively raised eyebrow she shrugs.

“I’ll see what I can make happen later. The tall one with the tits’s got my name written all over her. But I’m fuckin’ hungry right now.”

“Uh huh,” Faith drawls skeptically, knowing what Nicky’s hesitance is all about. Morello. Or, more specifically, Nicky’s lack of having Morello anymore. Who, speak of the devil, has just popped up right behind Nicky’s back.

“What did I just hear?” Lorna asks, cocking her head and resting a hand on Nicky’s shoulder as she settles down next to Nicky on the bench. “I hope you two weren’t being vulgar when there’s a lady present.” She tilts her chin, indicating Buffy. “And you definitely gotta stop now that I’m here. It’s rude to talk about sexy things around someone who’s not involved, you know.”

“You could be involved,” Nicky states archly, smirking and raising a brow to hide her serious intention.

“No, no, no, we’ve been over this. I have to focus on me right now. I have a lot on my mind, okay?”

Nicky just barely rolls her eyes. “Sure. Now if you don’t mind I’m gonna head over to McBoobs and see if I can convince her to let me show her a good time, aight?” She slaps her hands down on the table and starts to stand, turning her body away from the group.

“Sit down!” Red commands, rushing over with a fierce look on her face. “You girls, I swear. Always so...horny. Is that something they put in the water for you lesbians to drink?” She glances at Buffy and Lorna. “No, I must be wrong. You two are not like that.”

Lorna’s eyes widen comically. “I’m not a lesbian, Red!” She pats her chest nervously. “Why, I don’t know what would make you say that...”. Nicky rolls her eyes again, more obviously this time.

Buffy smirks at the scene. “Actually, neither am I.”

Red frowns thoughtfully. “Then my theory could be correct.” She shakes herself out of her thoughts. “But no matter, that is not what I came over to discuss. I want to thank my good daughters,” the Russian places her hands on Buffy and Lorna’s heads, “for helping me to clean the kitchen yesterday while you two were busy with a pissing contest over a make shift game of darts!” She glares, first into Faith’s eyes, and then Nicky’s. Both girls lower their heads, cowed slightly even by her faux anger.

“Here you are, girls.” Red places a container of yogurt in front of the two lipstick wearing inmates (well, more clear lip gloss made out of frozen chicken fat in Buffy’s case). She tries not to smile as they echo their thanks.

“And one more thing. I do not know what your arrangements are, but you must stop talking about sleeping with other girls in front of girls you have slept with! Or are sleeping with. It’s rude. I’m teaching my daughters to treat these women with respect.”

Lorna gasps and leans forward, smiling brightly. “You know, I told her the same thing Red--.”

“Or maybe the old lady could piss off about things she doesn’t know anything about!” Nicky interrupts loudly.

Red narrows her eyes dangerously. “You are a very disrespectful child.”

“Yeah, well, whatever. I’m out of here.” Nicky stands up and storms out, throwing her lunch tray onto the huge pile of trays, sending a few crashing down to the ground.

To be continued...

[hufflepuffhummingbird]

Some Thoughts On OITNB Season 5

So there will be a lot of spoilers so be warned.

In general this season felt pretty disorganized and I felt like it took on way too many characters and plots than they could handle. I think the tone has been pretty off too. When I watched the trailer I was so excited because it looked like the show had taken the step to get darker and more focused. But the show didn’t, they tried to fit in just as much comedy as last season which didn't fit the tone given how dire of a situation a prison riot is.  I think a lot of issues also came from trying to dig themselves out of the hole of season 4. First of all, I think they handled Poussey’s death badly. (I mean I’m upset she died in the first place) I felt a lot of the way it was handled was more of an insult to the Black Lives Matter movement instead of a tribute, mostly because of the way the world of OITNB’s media reacted to it. In the show the media was going to try to make Bailey look dangerous and the villain in the story, which NEVER happens to the police officers who kill innocent people. The media never portrays these murders as monsters, the victim is almost always vilified. I find it not a reflection of our realty for them to make a statement about Bailey being unjustly vilified. What also makes this harder is the fact that Bailey actually didn't try to kill her and spends all of season 5 moping around about it. These scenes are repetitive and uncomfortable, and don't seem to find any reasonable conclusion. It makes it doubly frustrating when Taystee risks so much of the entire prisons future on this one request. I don’t blame Taystee as a character for this and I personally feel that her character and her arc was the most compelling of the entire season, I understand why she feels this way and fights for it. It’s just hard as an audience member to root for her cause with the show constantly trying to guilt us about how Bailey feels all the time. This makes the final negotiation loss because of her one request as much more unnecessarily frustrating than tragic. This was the major plot line I had issues with but here are some others.

- ALL OF THE RAPE JOKES

As a progressive show OITNB should NOT constantly allude to rape being funny if it’s to a man. Look at a situation OITNB supposedly finds funny if the gender roles are switched.

Imagine a male inmate getting the tip of his finger cut off and then threatens a female guard held hostage to cut off her finger tip to replace it. The female guard in hopes of somehow escaping this mutilation offers to give him a hand-job in hopes of distracting him to find an escape. What ensures is a *hilarious* scene where she’s jerking him off and one of the inmates friends mocks him for having his first orgasm. After this, the two men are talking and the one getting the hand job asks the other if the female officer was actually into it or was just trying to escape. The male prisoner responds with, “Nah, I’ve raped woman before and she seemed into it”. This line is played off as a laugh. 

This is one specific example, but there are sooo many more. The entire season many female characters were harassing the male guards and threatening to rape or sexually assault them and these were played as laughs.

- TRYING TO MAKE DOGGETT  BE “CUTE” WITH HER RAPIST

This is so awful to watch and just horrifying that the writers have taken this path. I can’t look at these two being cute without thinking about the brutal scene last season where he rapes her. I don’t know why the writers keep pushing this but it needs to stop.

- PISCATELLA’S PLOT LINE AND BACKROUND

Okay so I felt the writers wanted to make him a psychopath so they can do the torture scene, but it doesn't make any sense. He was an asshole before this season but never this bad, and this insane plan to capture Red’s closest friends and torture them and her seemed out of nowhere. I thought that his flashbacks would make more sense out of this but it actually made it more confusing. I don’t think it makes Piscatella a psychopath to murder his lover’s rapist. I mean yeah that scene was fucked up, but I mean how many times have we seen a flashback to an inmate murdering someone for raping or wronging someone they loved, or for wronging themselves? Just a few examples,

- Miss Claudette murdering a man for sexually assaulting one of her girls who worked for her.

- Norma murdering her abusive husband

- Frieda also presumingly murdering her husband

- Chang straight up murdering a dude for calling her ugly

I mean heres the thing, none of these women are portrayed as psychopaths so I don’t think this is a good enough justification for Piscatella being one. 

(Another sidetone about his death that annoyed me, it’s super small but like, they literally shot him in the head and then one of the guards announced he’s not breathing, like duh)

- MY OPINION ON PIPER

I know it’s a thing that everyone hates Piper or whatever, and she can be annoying but after this season I think I figured out why her presence is so off on the show. I think it’s because we don’t need her anymore. Piper was useful as a character in the beginning of the show because she is in a lot of ways a catalyst for the audience, and this role is outgrown and not necessary anymore for the audience watching the show. I mean I’m gonna assume the majority of OITNB’s audience has not been to prison before and has no idea what it’s actually like to be in one. Piper is in some ways us, a newcomer into Litchfield that has no idea who anyone is or how anything works. She was the gate for the audience to enter Litchfield, and get to know the characters and surroundings. As the seasons go on however, the audience knows every character and the usual dynamics of the prison. Thus Piper’s role is now unnecessary and awkward in dynamics with the other prisoners, she doesn’t really have a place. Her story isn’t really compelling anymore since it already got explored, I think the only thing left to keep going with her is Alex, which I think the creators understood this season, pretty much all of her plot was about her and Alex’s relationship. Although their arguing is pretty petty and repetitive, their ending was cute and it reminded me why I liked them together in the first place. I don’t really know how they’re gonna move forward with her character but we’ll see. 

-LEAVE SUZANNE ALONE

Seriously, can they give her a break??? How much more abuse does she have to go through?? I also am getting annoyed that they’ve been using her condition to conveniently have her freak out to complicate situations for plot purposes. I think it’s getting old, and just give the poor girl a break. 

- SEEING SO MUCH OF THE NAZIS

Okay this season had way too many characters to juggle and the first ones to go should of been the Nazis, it was extremely uncomfortable to see the writers try to make them likable and funny. Especially since it was off of jokes about things like poisoning jews. There are so many better characters to see, my last point being... 

- SOPHIA BEING WRITTEN OUT SO EARLY

Can I say anymore? I really wanted to see more of her this season.

This season did have it’s good moments tho

-The video vlogs, amazing

- Litchfield Idol was hilarious

- Red on speed was great

-The doctor was so refreshingly nice and funny

- The makeovers were fantastic

-TAYSTEE, JUST WOW. Danielle Brooks gave an amazing performance. Everytime she speaks is with so much passion and heart, her moments and speeches always made me cry. I hope the writers do her so much justice. She is so incredibly smart, charismatic, and brave, I will be thoroughly disappointed if she doesn't succeed. I hope these riots weren't for nothing because she deserves so much better than that. I hope her character eventually gets into politics once she gets out of prison, I believe she has a real potential to change the world.

[5hfanfiction]

Wicked Games (Chapter 12)

I started to regret my decision only a couple hours later.

Don’t get me wrong, I was proud of myself for not giving in to her like I normally did, but it didn’t take long before I started feeling lonely. I had gotten used to having the group of girls around. Being back in my townhome also meant that I didn’t have an excuse to see Lauren everyday. In the grand scheme of things, it’s better this way, but that annoying part of me, that has a soft spot for the raven-haired emerald-eyed girl, is not happy.

I was thankful to be back in my lovely queen-sized mattress, but after last night I wrestled with myself for about an hour until I finally went to sleep. It was nothing like what I had experienced with Lauren the night before. The way her body seemed to fit just right to mine, and how soft her amazingly toned legs were..

Nope, nope. ‘We really have got to stop thinking about her’ I kept trying to tell myself. I spent most of the day watching “One Tree Hill” on Netflix or studying Neuroanatomy, but there was one topic no amount of distractions could force from my mind. Lauren, and my intense desire for her.

It got worse the next day. I went to practice, anxious to see her. The only time I was acknowledged by Lauren was if she was subbing on for me during a drill or if she was passing me the ball or if she was calling for us to switch who we were guarding on a screen. Otherwise, nada. Nothing at all.

It was a little pathetic, but I kept trying to gain her attention. I warmed up on the same basket as her, I went to the same basket as her for a freethrow drill, I stood next to her during a time when we were both subbed off, and I even tried to join a conversation going on between her, Dinah, and Normani. I ended up only talking to Dinah and Normani because assistant Coach G, or CG as we call her, called Lauren over to talk to her about something.

I hated it. I also hated how much it bothered me. As much as I don’t want to admit it, I definitely want to be the center of Lauren’s attention most of the time, and when I’m not, it drives me crazy. It’s kind of an issue that started happening about a year ago.

I couldn’t figure out what her deal was. Was she mad at me? Was she not in a good mood? Was she just trying to be extra focused today to make up for the bad game?

After practice at weightroom, I decided to discreetly broach the subject with Dinah. I was supposed to be spotting for Dinah’s bench-press set, but instead, I was staring at the dark-haired girl as she was finishing up her squat set. The girl still hadn’t looked in my direction once. It was like I didn’t even exist anymore. Was she doing this on purpose to drive me crazy? Did she even know that she was driving me crazy?

Dinah finished her set and returned the bar to the rack without any help from me. She stood up and I went to the side of the bar to adjust the weights to get to my weight. I started off freshman year being the scrawniest person on the team. With hard work and determination (and a little better diet), I became one of the strongest on the team. Not too far off from Dinah, who was, without a doubt, the strongest. Not too far off as in thirtyish pounds, but everybody was at least that or even weaker than her so I didn’t feel too bad about it. I wasn’t super macho or anything, but I wasn’t scrawny anymore, which was all I wanted. Being scrawny gave me all kinds of problems freshman year. I was pushed around and had trouble keeping hold of the ball on my drives as stronger defenders swiped and beat at my arms. It became a crutch. My weakness was my weakness. I made it my mission to change that, and I was proud to say that I did. I still wasn’t nearly as strong as Dinah, but I wanted Dinah as my weightroom partner to push me harder and to make sure I continued to progress and not regress.

As Dinah went to the back of the rack to get ready to spot me, I decided to speak up. I nodded in Lauren’s direction, “What’s her deal?”

“Who?”

“Lo, she’s acting weird,” I said, gazing longingly at Lauren’s ass as she squatted. I had no shame at the moment.

“She seems fine to me,” Dinah shrugged.

“Really?” I turned my head to look at Dinah, starting to wonder if it was all in my head.

Dinah creased her eyebrows in thought and looked at me then at Lauren and then back at me. A knowing smirk spread across her face. “Awww, are you two having a lovers’ feud?”

“What?!” My mouth popped open in shock. What the hell does that even mean?

“It’s gonna be ok Mila,” Dinah teased, while patting my shoulder sympathetically.

I knocked her hand away, “We’re not lovers,” I growled, “It was one time!” I affirmed a little too loud.

Dinah cocked her head to the side, “Really? Just once?” Then she started laughing. “Oh come on Mila, you finally got some, and you’re not trying to get more while you can?”

I shook my head in disbelief, “Dinah Jane, if you don’t shut your ass up right now..” I threatened.

Dinah put her hands up in defense, still laughing, “Alright, alright. Stop stalling and do your set then.”

I laid down on the bench. 'Guess she is mad at me then.. or just specifically ignoring me’.

We finished up the workout, and Lauren still didn’t approach me or look at me for that matter. I tried to smile at her once, but she continued walking past me, not paying me any mind.

If she wasn’t going to talk to me, fine, I’ll just talk to Emma.

I got home and called her up after I took a shower. Patting my hair with the towel, Emma’s familiar voice came over the line, “Hey! I was going to call you later.”

“I beat you to it then,” I smiled. “You wanna have a skype date?”

“I would love to,” she chirped.

We ended the line and I grabbed my laptop from the desk, bringing it back to my bed.

When I opened my Skype app, I was already receiving a call. After a few moments of blurriness while my internet adjusted, Emma’s kind face appeared in the screen. She beamed once I came into focus. She was still gorgeous to me. Bright teeth were the first thing I noticed. Light brown hair surrounded her light face. I looked into blue eyes like the sky. Faint freckles trailed across her cheeks. Everything about her features emphasized light and comfort. 'Hm, I guess I have a thing for brunettes with pale skin and colorful eyes’ I thought to myself, realizing it for the first time.

“I’m so excited,” she cheered. “I have been dying to see what happens next!”

Currently Emma and I were in the process of watching “Orange is the New Black” season 4 together. We didn’t get a chance to watch it over the summer since.. we were having issues then.

I chuckled at the look on her face because Emma wasn’t exactly the most patient person and it took a great deal of effort for her to wait for the next time we could skype together to watch the next episodes. I made her promise though and so far she had been keeping her promise which meant a lot to me. Slowly, but surely she had been regaining my trust over the past couple months.

As soon as the show’s theme song started to play, we both broke out into ridiculous dancing. The song wasn’t even that good, but I always wanted to dance to it and it made us both laugh like crazy. I moved my arms like imaginary drums to the beat, while Emma feigned like she was holding a microphone, singing along extremely dramatically. When the song finally ended and you heard the sound of a jail cell closing, me and Emma both broke out into uncontrollable giggles. I kid you not, we do that every single time we watch this show. It’s basically tradition at this point.

“I am so ready,” I commented, leaning back into the headboard of my bed, as the episode started.

I cupped my mouth with my hands and shouted “Ballin’!” when a character named Luschek shot a piece of trash like he was shooting a basketball, making Emma giggle.

A little further into the episode, the camera panned to reveal a character we hadn’t seen in awhile. “NICKY!” we both shouted at the same time.

“She’s alive!” I yelled.

“It’s a Christmas miracle!” Emma rejoiced.

“..it’s not Christmas doe..” I mumbled.

“Fine! It’s just a regular miracle!”

We both chuckled and regained our focus on the show.

It sucked not actually having Emma next to me, but the best part about watching these shows was the commentary between us. We could do that no matter if we were across the country from eachother or not.

I spent the rest of the night watching OITNB with her, laughing endlessly. With Emma, things were easy. We had a very similar sense of humor so we not only got eachother’s jokes, but could easily add onto them, making everything ten times funnier.

It was around midnight when we both started yawning, and had to put an end to the date. I sighed once I had closed my Netflix and smiled softly at Emma. “Thanks for tonight,” I spoke sincerely.

“You are more than welcome. I’ll talk to you later, ok?”

“Ok..” I said, hesitating. I wanted to say something else, but I wasn’t sure if I could or if I should.

Emma beat me to the punch. “I love you,” she said quietly, but genuinely.

I slowly exhaled the breath I had been holding in. My heart thumped in my chest. It had been awhile since we shared that three-word phrase. “I love you too,” I replied.

Emma gave me a small smile before she waved and ended the call.

I went to sleep with a smile on my face that night.

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