#i get why theyre a lot of effort and i would know that is my other hobby
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The Princess of Wales attends a special industry showcase event hosted by the British Fashion Council (BFC) at 180 Studios, where Her Royal Highness presented the Queen Elizabeth II Award for British Design | 13 MAY 2025
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smocked shirts are just my fave i wish they showed up more in fantasy
#i get why theyre a lot of effort and i would know that is my other hobby#art#sketch#drawing#myart#hjart#digital art#astarion#covert fanart#bg3#historical fashion#smocked shirt#english smock
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Pre drinking a lil to go to an expectedly awkward farewell dinner with my ex-bosses/landlords/friends.... and now the dudes dad is coming which tbh makes it even weirder? We used to be close and had lots of fun drinking together (maybe too much fun to be Appropriate btw bosses and employee but ... hey! I liked it) and now I don't know what has been said behind closed doors, but they're both so awkward with me now and barely drink and don't say too much and it's like fucking crickets when we hang?? I wanna know
#theyre a couple but both my bosses and i live on the farm where we all work#im moving tmr though like off the farm and i quit my job so this is gonna be a really weird goodbye dinner#if it was just me and the woman honestly i would probably get emotional i really like her and i am sad to leave in some ways#but the dude is so awkward and like when hes around she barely says anything?? and he is the worst at conversation#and then im like why tf would i make an effort?? so there are lots of silences lmao#and like shes definitely crossed a line with me a few times last year when drunk like flirting w me in front of her man?? 🙃#and she has anger issues and snapped multiple times at me while at work and like had breakdowns that i tried to help diffuse#but definitely not normal or appropriate workplace behavior towards me?? and now its just STOPPED and she barely interacts with me??#so im like WHAT DID THEY TALK ABT CAUSE SOMETHING FUCKING CHANGED#anyways not a healthy or normal relationship with a BOSS??? BUT tbh it was fun and BAD so u know i was into it for a bit#but the excitement gets old and getting yelled at and snapped at and ignored by someone you respect and like and work really hard for....?#ya not especially awesome#so im also looking forward to leaving?? but this dinner is gonna be.... brutal and weird#mommys musings#!!!!
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ive seen you say terusai is implied a lot but i dont remember ever seeing you explain why you think that
yeah now that you say it, i dont think ive ever gone into depth about it 😭 its really hard to put my thoughts into words because its sooo much, i started writing a long analysis recently on their relationship, why i believe they have feelings for each other, and why they would work but itll probably sit unfinished in my drafts for a while
for now, i'll give you a few of my most noteworthy thoughts...



the mixer scene has teruhashi unknowingly proving to saiki that her feelings are true, and he accepts that and stops trying to get her to stop pursuing him. i dont believe he ever actually makes any REAL effort to try to stop her from liking him ever again after this. he genuinely hadnt acknowledged her feelings as true or at least not as deep yet, which is why he thinks hes succeeding at getting her to move on until she proves that not only is she still thinking of him, but shes NOT thinking of a fake version of him... shes thinking of HIM... she genuinely enjoys his company even when hes doing nothing but sitting there (which is factually and obviously what he wouldve been doing in this situation, people deny that for some odd reason but like. thats what he does. with ANYONE. even his own family and everyone else who knows of his powers.) and wants him around... i think some part of him stopped because he felt guilty for not believing her feelings were true and trying to control her heart despite her genuine intentions, and another part of him was realizing that he doesnt WANT her to stop having feelings for him... otherwise, why would he drag the other guys away WHILE acknowledging that she wouldnt have gone with them anyway??? after inserting himself into a rock paper scissors game for who gets to be the one to be with her???? HELLO?

and the offu, although i dont believe it was a direct declaration of him being in love with her or whatever, has obvious canon romantic connotations... teruhashis determination is something saiki has admired about her since the very beginning, but it isnt until THIS moment that he thinks in depth about what that entails... she makes him realize all at once that she truly IS the type of person he admires most... and his "offu" is exactly what teruhashi needs, she would have a straight up epiphany if she knew about it, because he DIDNT gasp at how beautiful she is, or anything she forced herself to do, or when she forced herself to CHANGE, he ONLY gasped when she let herself embrace a part of herself that was REAL and TRUE, her unwavering dedication and pride.



THIS chapter is where they both have huge realizations about themselves and each other, and they both prove that theyre more than willing to meet in the middle for the other...
saiki lives his life forcing himself to blend into the background, not because he genuinely wants to but because hes afraid to be SEEN.
teruhashi lives her life forcing herself to be perfect and the center of attention, not because she genuinely enjoys it but because she believes she wont get the validation she feels she needs if she doesnt give everyone exactly what they want from her.
and yet, here saiki is, allowing himself to jump into the spotlight and be seen catching teruhashi out of nowhere and carrying her to the nurse. and here teruhashi is, allowing herself to be seen being imperfect, forgetting something, and not caring about her conversation with these men. FOR EACH OTHER. they both let themselves break down a wall because they care more about the other than about the fake selves they dedicate their entire lives to, THEIR GENUINE CARE FOR EACH OTHER GIVES THEM THE COURAGE TO DO THAT.

and this is probably the number one reason why i think their feelings for each other are implied... this alternate timeline is quite clearly one where saiki is more open with his friends, and he and teruhashi ARE DATING in this universe. theres absolutely no other explanation for the author writing that. he spelled out "IF SAIKI WERE MORE OPEN WITH HIS FRIENDS, HE WOULD BE DATING TERUHASHI"
the saiki of that timeline isnt exactly the same as the saiki we know of course, and their relationship will not develop in the same way, but theres clearly intention behind this and it wouldnt be written and called attention to if there was no significance, youd have to jump through hoops to deny that 😭
overall, i think they both have a lot of work to do on themselves before they can be in a relationship, but not only do i believe they WILL eventually get there but also that they both need each other on their personal journey to get to that point, or at least that they are and will continue to be important in the others journey there, and their romantic feelings for each other are so clear... these two are so important to one another...
#:33#thanks for the opportunity to spread my terusai agenda#also thank u guys for actually sending me asks i was gonna be kinda embarrassed if no one did after that post LOLLLL#saiki k#tdlosk#the disastrous life of saiki k.#saiki kusuo#teruhashi kokomi#terusai#saiteru#meows post#meownalysis
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i dont know if this is controversial...but im obsessed with dratchet in the way that im more obsessed with why ratchet is in love with drift. like its very obvious and clear why drift loves ratchet, and in general drift is very easy to love. he's popular for a reason. but for ratchet-it's more interesting to see his angle and what makes him tick. especially when you look back at how they started and how much ratchet was annoyed by him. and so much dratchet content is in drift's pov, i feel like screaming WHAT ABOUT RATCHET
what made him say that drift was special when they first met? it doesn't seem like something he'd say to every patient in the clinic, i mean there's a reason he's called the hatchet and why people say his bedside manner is atrocious. it can't just be because drift is hot. his belief system directly goes against ratchet's and drift is pretty loud about it. and yet. ratchet is the only one who went out to find drift after his exile from the lost light. he made the effort to compromise on all the primus talk from drift.
i feel like part of it is that drift is hard to dislike. he is a pretty genuine person whose trying his best. and he can match ratchet's energy pretty effortlessly so that's a solid plus. and the attractiveness obviously. in general, i feel like drift is disarming. like he's not as stupid as people see him as and i feel like a lot of his behavior is purposeful to be less threatening as the ex decepticon (can't remember if that's said in canon or not bear with me this is word vomit) but because of that purposeful choice to portray himself that way, i think it works to lower people's guard. i dont remember ratchet ever being all that up in arms about drift being ex con so i wouldn't say that it works for ratchet, but either way he did get through his defenses. probably because he's willing to argue in a way that others arent.
drift is pretty devoted to throwing himself into danger for ratchet too which i think ratchet has a love/hate relationship with. he's always telling drift to stop, but he's also like. the only person willing to go that far for ratchet specifically. like ratchet is depended on heavily, but at the same time he doesn't seem all that close to anyone after getting on the lost light. feels like a swerve situation honestly like how well were they functioning without him? and if they were fine, i feel it proves the point even more that while ratchet was depended on, he wasn't really needed. and then enter drift who makes it clear that ratchet's safety and by proxy ratchet as a person outside of his skill as a medic is important to him, at the risk of drifts own safety even. so i think that would mean something to ratchet.
and they do play off each other well, theyre very comfortable. i feel like ratchet has more time to relax or seems less stressed when drifts around as he offers a distraction from his work. which ratchet arguably needs desperately. it is all he does. and he has to have a life outside of work and drift can give him that. he can have fun. not take things so seriously. i feel like even their banter back and forth and arguing was something new added to ratchets life and he kind of appreciates it as time goes on.
i have forgotten the point of this post, i ended up just rambling about dratchet. but anyway those are my dratchet vibes or headcanons or thoughts or whatever from ratchet's pov
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This is a comment I just saw in the wild, and I need to know the real factualness/lack thereof of this from those who are more familiar with internet fandom history.
the evangelical prudishness of the early internet is completely separate from pro/anti ship dynamics. the idea of an anti was popularized in voltron fandom by teenagers who were uncomfortable being attacked by adults in "ship wars" for not liking a prominent ship between an adult and child. evangelicals are still being prudish and nasty online to this day and theyre not doing it with "anti, proshippers dni" in their bios
and to be clear i dont identify as pro or anti ship because im an adult with a job and a social life but i leaned so hard into the anti label as a teen as an effort to protect myself from harassment and grooming (and yes. adults were using proship dynamics to try to groom me. i experienced this from multiple people in multiple fandoms. it was not and is not an uncommon occurrence). if you think teen antis are prudish maybe consider why a child would feel the need to close themselves off and loudly proclaim their hatred of any complicated shipping dynamic. these kids don't stay this way forever, they grow up into adults with more complex viewpoints on sex and relationships because that's what happens to everyone as they age. the fact that most self proclaimed proshippers care more about prudishness (as though every teenager isn't a little bit of a fucking prude anyways) than they do about actual pedophilia and grooming. most proshippers arent trying to use it as an outlet to groom children but a considerable amount of them are and you have no fucking clue how terrifying it is to be a young teen and have adults falling all over themselves trying to convince you that it would actually be really normal for you to have phone sex with them
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"Ooh, I'm a secret third thing!"
You can just about always assume someone is a jackass if they start with this bilge.
Voltron fandom was a major spreader of antis, sure. The objection was to the two characters with the "I'm the hot one" anime eyes being shipped together instead of one of the hot ones and the one with the "I'm the douchey womanizer" anime eyes.
All of these characters look about the same age, just with different eye shape tropes. All are soldiers. Ages weren't confirmed for a while. When they eventually were, hot eyes and hot eyes were 18 or over and womanizer eyes was under or something. Not that it matters.
It's a bunch of crybabies with a juggernaut shitty ship bawwwwing that a better ship was fairly popular but not as juggernaut despite them sending many, many death threats.
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Most teens, in my experience, are drawn to cheesy Darker and Edgier extreme shit and get tamer as they age. No, they aren't all prudes. That's bugfuck insane to think. This person is a dumbass.
Adults trying to have phone sex with teens isn't actually that common, from what I've seen, and is clearly creepy in any era. This has nothing to do with fandom shipping.
I'm sorry they've had a shitty time, but this is either someone with a lot of trauma projecting or yet another attempt to drag irrelevant shit into the constant whining about other people's harmless fictional hobbies.
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Jakehal is very fun. But why dirkkri? I dont understand what's appealing about it :? confused
theres a lot of things i like about dirkri and honestly i dont even know where to start lmfao
first of all, and its mostly a funny reason - davekat on crack. like some traces of davekat are still there - the arguing about shit, stoic facade vs emotional mess, all the good stuff, but its also so much more exaggerated it makes it this much more ridiculous. gets even better when you consider them under the lense of swap aus like alphaswitch or tbau, where they land on the meteor together. theyre most likely hunting each other for sports by the year two
second of all, the funney. theyd be so fucking funny together. their smallest arguments would take like twenty pages of non-stop flow of red-orange text to resolve, and not because they came to a consensus but because some third party physically dragged them away from their electronics. it doesnt do any good, since it only gives them both time to think over new arguments to use, and theyre back at it as soon as they get their phones back. like if we had a tournament about which ship would do the most collateral damage to the overall group, i think these two would be Up There. karkat would gauge his eyes out from frustration, because now not only does he have to deal with his piece of shit, know-it-all other self, but now theres also Fucking Dirk thrown into the mix. their home life is absolute insanity, a small jab about the other forgetting to buy sugar once again devolves into a screaming match about the merits and flaws of communism or some other inane shit. and theyre doing it for fun, they enjoy debating with each other, because often times they have vastly different opinions, and comparing their beliefs challenges them intelectually and morally. from the outside perspective theyre one of the most dysfunctional pair in the paradox space, when in fact thats simply how they want their relationship to be, and it makes them better people overall.
third reason is that theyre thematically delicious. dirk is a control freak, micromanaging his and his friends constantly. hes terrified of losing control, but hes also desperate for someone to just tell him what the fuck he should do. dirk doesnt think he should be in control of others, because he believes hes a naturally evil person capable of horrible acts, at the same time he doesnt trust anyone else to get things done but himself. hes a whole collection of contradictions.
kankri desperately needs to be in control as well. hes constantly injecting himself into conversations he has no business being in, trying to find someone thatd listen to what he has to say. hes wants to guide others, but his efforts are flawed, because he doesnt listen to other perspectives - hes got tunnel vision, as he thinks hes the one in the right while everyone else is wrong or ignorant (cringefail seer literally). he doesnt trust anyone else to make decisions for him, and becomes defensive when he thinks others are attempting to coddle him. his ass was definitely culled on beforus.
theyre also both so fucking lonely. dirk conciously tries to put difference between himself and his friends, worrying hell "corrupt" them. kankri tries to connect to his friends, but his behavior alienates him from them to the point of no one except maybe porrim want to have anything to do with him.
my point is, kankri wants to guide people but has to learn to listen to others and reflect on his own flawed opinions. dirk has to learn to trust that people closest to him can get shit done on their own and loosen up, as well as realise hes not evil at the core. them helping each other out - dirk teaching kankri about different perspectives, kankri teaching dirk about letting others do their thing - is something i think about a lot.
also i like to think theyd spar for fun a lot as well. its not really a reason and wholly my own personal headcanon but i wanna mention it as well bc its so funny to me. i like the idea of kankris behaviour being a complete reverse of karkat - where karkat is all bark no bite and doesnt like fighting or violence, kankri puts up a front of the beacon of love and peace and tolerance, but in his free time he gets his rifle and goes shooting at the fucking squirrels or some shit. i think he wouldnt have the same qualms about strifing as karkat. like dirk would try to jokingly jab his finger at kankris side and he would just fucking flip him over his shoulder and onto the table breaking it in half, because he doesnt like being touched unexpectedly and by gods dirk when will you fucking learn. he goes from 0 to 100 real fast. its such a hysterical concept for me.
#homestuck#dirk strider#kankri vantas#dirkri#dirkkri#turnabout au#homestuck turnabout#alphaswitch#tagging it as well bc well. dirkri#is it dirkri manifesto? its dirkri manifesto#wally where are you i need your words tell em tell em why dirkri is so fucking good
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Okay lets analyse this one for realsies. Im gonna go through each character in this tweet and go through reasons why i think they either would or would not be crying first, then im gonna put them in order of who survives the roast sesh.... join me on this wonderous journey.
Let's start with Atsumu.... where to even fucking begin. sorry to the Atsumu haters but i truly believe he would not be crying first. First of all he has known Osamu since he was born and while Osamu is the "nice twin" the bar is truly in hell and that motherfucker is mean to one person and one person only and that person is his twin brother Atsumu. This mfer has been conditioned since birth to roast and be roasted. Not only that but this guy was CANONICALLY hated by everyone in his middle school, and his only reaction to that information was "So?" HE DOES NOT CARREEEE. And, I will say, while the other characters shown here are bitchy, they usually target people in petty ways that make fun of their skills (with the exception of Daisho who would probs call Atsumu a single loser but he'd likely just get annoyed by that not cry) and Atsumu knows that his skills are too good for anything they say to hold weight., He has the ego the size of the fucking gym. he's fine.
TSUKISHIMA on the other hand.... dare i say it not the strongest contender ... I dont think FIRST. but this guy is wayyyy more sensitive to criticism than people generally give him credit for. LIKE YES BEFORE YOU JUMP DOWN MY THROAT, he absolutely has the whole "keep booing me it only makes me stronger" thing going on in the Inarizaki game BUT YOU FORGET SO QUICKLY how absolutely insecure this guy is. until yamaguchi kicked his ass into gear in the training camp, he was of the impression that trying to get better at something he enjoyed was fruitless because there was always going to be someone better than him. Someone insightful like Oikawa or Atsumu would def be able to pick up on that insecurity and target him for it. I think his strongest talent is of course provoking people so much that they cant see how much they're affecting him, so he gets a lot of points for pettiness that would keep him from crying first because theres no way he's gonna LOSEEEE to someone like Daisho or Oikawa. BONUS POINTS on his behalf though is he was the only one on the team at the end of season one who WASNT CRYING about their loss. And i think the only one on karasuno who we havent seen cry (as far as i can remember).
Now listen.... fanon Oikawa is for sure crying first because for some bizzare reason people characterise him as a pushover twink. Canon Oikawa told USHIJIMA to remember his worthless pride so he could crush him in the future. like... he's kind of taking names a little. i'll allow him a small slay for his efforts of being a bitch to Ushijima. Oikawa is SMARTTTT and has a lot of emotional intelligence, so can for sure target people's insecurities with pinpoint accuracy. He doesnt get SUPER easily riled up when he's "in the zone" and only lashes out when he's backed into a corner. he hangs out with what is probably a team of people scientifically designed in a lab to HUMBLE HIM DAILY, so he has built up somewhat immunity to being insulted and targeted for bully behaviour. LOSES TREMENDOUS AMOUNTS OF POINTS for being kind of a sore loser and someone who FOR SURE cries when angry or frustrated.
Daisho.... why is he even here (sorry to those who love him). Listen... this guy is petty, and he lowkey cheats, and he takes immense joy in riling people up for shits and gigs... BUT WHYYY IS HE HERE LMAOOOO. to be honest, i dont think he would cry first purely for the fact that he doesnt know these other guys well enough to really gaf about what theyre saying to him. on the other hand, that makes him kind of an easy target because he's so irrelevant to these other guys lives that they could probably make him feel like shit for that reason only. he gets bonus points for being the only one in a canonical relationship (oikawas girlfriend we never meet that he broke up with doesnt count, in fact it loses him points).
WITH ALL THAT BEING SAID. the final order i think is, Oikawa goes out crying first, not because he's upset but because he got sooo fucking mad at Atsumu's unbothered behaviour he had to leave and he was angry crying while doing it. Daisho is next because Tsukishima said some shit like "bro who even are you lmaooo irrelevant ass" and he remembered he sucks at volleyball and got upset, he's okay tho bc his gf is there to comfort him. Atsumu cries next but not because of anything Tsukishima says, he just gets so fucking bored of Tsukishima not giving him interesting reactions to his jabs that he starts doing weird shit like standing on his head and he ends up hurting himself and crying because he is a big baby. Tsukishima is the last one standing .
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That is of course assuming that Oikawa doesnt kill them all first with his Super Triple Homo Spin Serve that killed all of Karasuno. People forget so quickly that he is the most diabolical anime villain of all time...
#haikyuu#suguru daishou#tsukishima kei#miya atsumu#oikawa tooru#SORRY SORRY I JUST WANTED TO DO THIS BC I FOUND IT FUNNY
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I see these everywhere. and i mean EVERYWHERE. and also i need motivation so lets go ig
10 notes- i'll drink on weekends too(i forget cos on weekends im just at home and not at school lugging around my frank green in my tote bag)
20 notes- i will(try to) pay attention in class
30 notes- i'll watch my whole watch later playlist on yt
50 notes- i'll actually do the techniques im learning in ✨therapy✨ to help with my anxiety and shitty social skills
75 notes- i'll take my iron tablets every day
100 notes- i'll start my assessments when i get them(i have one due tomorrow which i was gonna finish now but i'm doing this apparently)
125 notes- i'll ask my crush to hangout alone during spring holidays
150 notes- i'll try to go for a run or at least a walk every day
500 notes- i'll write another chapter of my fanfiction
1k notes- i will actually make an effort to get clean
2k notes- if i see someone pretty that i want to go out w in public i'll ask for their number cos holy fuck i need to put myself out there. even if we js end up being friends cos holy shit im lonely
3k notes- i will actually finished the dress i started making
4k notes- i will try to get over my crush cos its ✨never gonna happen✨(she so pretty and masc tho its gonna be hard)
5k notes- (this is so far up here cos idk how to do this so im gonnna need a lot of time to figure out how) im gonna try to demolish the rumour that im gay thats going around a bit.**
6k notes- i will finish all my crochet projects and not start any new ones until im done.
**context. i go to an all girls school and theres a lot of people so its not like everyone knows everyone, even in my year(theres approx. 174 in my year alone, and theres 6 year groups at my school cos high school is 7-12 where i live) but some people know me ig cos i know a few girl who are more notable, im in the top class and i recdntly started sitting with a group that the popular girls call furries.
(theyre a pretty big group and popular girls hate them cos one or two of them are trans - ftm, ftnb etc, no mtf cos my lovely/s catholic school wouldnt let trans girls in- several of them are gay, a few of them are emo, most of them are poc's and a few of them dont have english as their first language. overall they are seen as the "weird kids" in my year)
so this rumour apparently is going around that i like a girl in my class(i absolutely do but if you havent noticed my school is hella hoomophobic and i could very well get beat) which js isnt ideal and is gonna lead to a lot of issues, especially if a lot of people start believing it so if you guys have any advice pls lmk. and its not like i can js get a fake bf and show him off cos its a GIRLS SCHOOL. if i reconnect with a friend from primary school tho we could pretend to be dating and like make a post on social media. but then kids at his school would find out and hed either have to tell them its fake(which would eventually find its way back to my school, and when i say eventually i mean immediately) or he couldnt get a girlfriend so that probs wouldnt work.
i know it sounds like im making a mountain out of a molehill but ive got years to go here and i dont want to spend all my high school years getting bullied bc even if i went to a teacher about it or smthing id have to like analyse them first and try to figure out which ones are homophobic or not.
like learning about why "being gay is a sin"(pretend im saying that really mockingly) is literally in our curriculum.
holy shit that was longer than expected.
no pressure tags: @wishiwereheather13 @loserboyfriendrjl @fracturedsunsets @chasingthemoony @stars-and-leather @starsofleo
thats all im doing idk how you guys can stand js copy and pasting moots over and over i cant do this i did the first six that came up and that seems like enough 🤷♀️
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obsessing over a dust sans in the omega timeline GRRRR
just. hes chill. mostly. sorta elderly neighbour who hates the world vibes. very resigned, snappy, goes to pick up his newspaper from the front stoop in his slippers and boxers and a crusty shirt
he's mostly a hermit, no one knows much about him. he doesn't want to get too close to anyone. he doesn't like the other versions of him, his brother, his friends.
he's got hella survivors guilt, mostly because if his world wasn't destroyed, would they be alive? would there have been a reset, a time, eventually, where he didn't have to kill everyone in a screwed up show of justice? where they could live?
he'll never know, and it bothers him. but he tries to pretend it doesn't.
he's sorta half forced to do therapy because yeah he's actually clinically insane and bro needs to be medicated and it helps a bit ig.
he gets a little better. he Is Not Normal but hes better. somewhat.
i kinda like the idea that he adopts a dog, somewhat an emotional support animal??? or like a straight service dog that helps him with panic attacks GRAAHHH THATS SO CUTE GRRRR RHRGRG RRRGGGGRRR
ok normal again
unlike him LMAOO
anyway yeah he probably eventually comes around to hanging out with some others. he's very picky about who he hangs with but..
hear me out okay
cross and dust as besties ❤️❤️
he prob finds epic annoying tho so he doesnt really hang around him
sorry ik im talking abt cross and epic now but theyre my bfs i love them i cant not mention them 😭🙏 me and epic and cross and also dust ultimate power quadruple or wtv
he def wouldnt like CORE at first cuz like. thats frisk. Trauma. but he'll probably come around to them when he realizes they aren't, y'know, a fucking freak. they're probably the reason he got therapy in the first place 😭
whoever his poor therapist is... needs a raise fr 💔
i dont really think he and killer would be friends. maybe hesitant acquaintances..? idk i just dont think theyd vibe when theyre both reformed crazies (affectionate)
i could see him and dream going either way idk like they could be friends or dust couldn't give a gaf about him
he'd probably think dream is kind of annoying with all his hopefulness and joy and whimsey but he's also a certified hater so (so me coded)
"what's there to be happy about" my guy i PROMISE if you stop your edgelord shtick you can be happy too go frolic through a field
he's got hella one-sided beef with error ofc for destroying his world. he doesn't care if it was "falling apart" or if "his story was finished" maybe he could have found a way to bring everyone back
(no he couldnt but dont tell him that)
anyway yea he likes sitting on his porch with a cup of coffee in the morning and he likes yelling "GET OFF MY LAWN!!" at children and he probably plays poker at the bar like every thursday night and hes really fucking good at it.. suspiciously good
his crankiness captivates me...
walking thru the OT and you bump into this fuckass guy who's emotionally attached to wearing his hood up all the time and you always see him smoking whenever you catch a glimpse of him and sometimes you get to see his cute puppy
love at first sight... (you just wanted to pet his puppy)
guys with dogs get all the huzz trust (god why did i type that im cringing)
ok off topic. epic would def say huzz
"rizzing up the huzz 🤓👆" just take ur pants off bro.
OK SORRY i need to log off. (not going to) back to dust
HIS DOG IS SO CUTEEEEEE RHRGGGR sorry i cant stop thinking of him with a dog. it bowls him over when it senses an oncoming panic attack and just kinda lays on his chest and licks his face and digs in his pocket to pull put the tennis ball he keeps in there to distract him
its not actually like a fully trained service dog im ngl but its good at diverting his attention from the panic so. it works ig. man idk
uhm but yea good luck trying to romance him like i said he's hater and itll take a lot of effort
VERY slow burn
idk why im writing this as a little x reader
maybe because in my nonstop thoughts its all been self insert befriending/romancing this fucking loser
dude needs to work on himself before he can even think of romance. im so serious he'll have absolutely zero desire for a relationship until he's mentally stable enough.
he cant go getting attached to someone, especially a partner, if hes just going to go batshit again (his therapist is trying to convince him that wont happen. hes in a safe world. he isnt in danger. he can RELAX)
itll take YEARSSSSS before he's like actually feeling like a normal monster again. his sins weigh heavily on him, but he knows he cant change the past. he wouldn't be alive if he didsnt do what was necessary.
anyway hes real bad at romance when hes finally ready for that stage
like HORRIBLE
he has no fucking clue what the hell he should do. you'll have to hold his hand every damn step of the way.
hes probably freaky tho idk
he likes cuddling you tho. youre all warm and soft and when you lay on him its like a weighted blanket and very very soothing
his bones ache, a lot. so it feels nice.
run that man a nice warm bath with some nice smelling candles or smth and hell make out with you
man idk im literally jst yappin its 4:20 and jm fighting to keep my eyes open 😭😭 ill prob hate this jn the morning but idrc rn ok !!! desire toctalk about omega tlcdust is stranger thanxthe call of sleep
#undertale headcanons#dust#dust sans#dust sans headcanons#dust headcanons#dust sans x reader#jester writes#like im feral over a grandpa-coded reformed dust#i need him guys#😭🙏🙏 let me slobber on him or smth <- says the dogboy#im his service dog btw#woof :3#sorry thoughts are all over the place im scatter brained#im insane actually LMFAOO cant have coherent linear train of thoughts#writing these is all projections and personal fantasies and Hes Literally Me
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SDV Highschool AU
A/N - in celebration of my graduation today!!
Very rushed and not formatted properly cause I’m at prom rn and writing this on my phone I’ll fix it later but like i wanted to post sth for the occassion
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Summary: sdv highschool au, the ones under the +++ are x reader
Characters: Harvey, Shane, Elliot, Haley (cause theyre my favs to write for)
Warnings: drug mention
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HARVEY
- Big nerd
- He’s planning to study medicine so of course he puts accordingly much effort
- Awkward as fuck icl
- Everyone lowkey loves him cause he’s always really helpful
- Aka almost the entire class just copies his homework
- Lives off coffee in every life and scenario
- (One of the) best in class and beloved by the teachers but not annoying about it
- If y’all wanna act like there wasn’t any homework in front of the teacher cause no one did it (except him ofc bcs NERD) he’ll totally play along
- Which is probably why the whole reason it worked
- Some ppl def have a crush on him
- But he’s just so awkward and oblivious… I love him
- Also not rlly into the kind of dating that’s most common among teens? Does that make sense??
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- So for you, let’s say you’ve been his friend since forever, best friends perhaps
- He’s had a crush on you so long but has like no idea how to go about it
- And you think he’s not interested cause he has friendzoned you so hard multiple times before
- It was a panic reaction don’t blame him
- I can picture you coming together at sone school dance and it’s like really cliche
- I’ll make these longer later I’m sorry
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SHANE
- stoner
- Like sorry but
- Maybe it’s my Connor Murphy obsession or maybe I’m right
- I’m basing this v much on mentally ill Shane ik that backstory only semi much works with a highschool setting but we dont rlly know abt pre mental illness shane so
- Generally not bad at school he just has intense down phases where he completely falls behind (relatable)
- Works at some fast food chain and hates it but yk money is money
- No one ever shows up for parent teacher talks bcs he doesnt want the school to know about his family and his family about school yk
- Quiet most of the time
- Mean when talked to
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- But also like he doesn’t rlly mean it with some people you just gotta po ker if he does for you and talk to him
- Good news: you’re very much an exception
- Phew
- I’m thinking forced project or something
- No actually I’m thinking one of you is the others dealer
- Probs starting as a kinda fwb thing that becomes serious
- There’s sm potential here icl
- I’m gonna rewrite all of this next week and get more into it
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ELLIOT
- The weirdest kid in the grade but beloved by all
- Writes a lot, probably started a club that’s related to that somehow
- Wins a lot of those lil writing competitions schools do
- A romantic, hands out flowers or something to people on Valentine’s
- Like super mysterious and no one can tell if he does it on purpose or if it just kinda is like that
- Def has some ppl crushing on him
- Has been ppls secret admirer before
- Except it’s not rlly secret bcs who else would do allat
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- So when he falls for you it’s like that too
- You get mysterious letters and flowers from an admirer
- Except it’s not mysterious bcs Elliot everyone knows no one else does that!!!
- You pretend not to realize a while tho cause it’s sweet
- And then after a but you just give him a secret admirer letter back
- Even if it’s not quite as poetic as his
- He appreciates it sm cause it’s so rare people match his energy
- You’re couple goals but also lowkey make ppl sick with all your sap
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HALEY
- Pretty popular
- She’s very confident and can be a bit brash so you might get the idea she’s a typical mean girl but she’s actually pretty sweet
- Especially with the girls
- You might get a comment about your messy makeup but best believe she’s fixing it up for you
- Girl in trouble? She’s right there without hesitation
- Has told so many of the guys off before for harassing girls or not taking a hint
- She’s a guardian angle ngl
- A whole bunch of people having a crush on her and it’s getting kinda rough
- If the person is respectful she’s really nice in rejecting them (or at least tries), she was mean about it like once and felt so bad after
- She knows she comes off as pretty harsh and it’s not always intentional yk
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- You probably meet through extra activities i forgot the name
- She gets a crush p quickly but like y’all wait till you rlly know you work as a duo before you dare ask her out
- Like you wanna have sth behind your question and what you say yk
- Okay i gotta stop writing but !!!!!! will fix this up and write more next week
- Also send requests or fandom talk please and thank you
#sdv x reader#sdv shane x reader#sdv elliott#sdv elliot x reader#sdv haley#sdv haley x reader#sdv shane#sdv harvey#sdv harvey x reader#stardew valley
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hi idk if this has been said but . pls hear my vision… lindsay and noah platonic duo. brains and the beauty. noahs the brains. lindsays the beauty. noahs like “jeez this girl is dumb i cn manipulate her or smth” but then he starts warming up to her and they like paint eachothers nails and talk about boys or somthing idk please theyre besties trust 🤞
(also noah finally gets a makeover courtesy of lindsay)
I think I might've mentioned this exact duo before, though I may be wrong about that. Regardless, I've had Many A Thought about the potential dynamic between Lindsay "reclaiming bimbo as a term of empowerment" and Noah "could be god's biggest hater but was nerfed with an inability to GAF", to the point where I have a few drafts exploring this exact concept.
Through the lens of my eyes (blurry as it would be, my prescription fairly strong), I don't think Noah would ever consider manipulating Lindsay- at least, not in a similar manner to the likes of Heather or Alejandro. He's shown in canon to be pretty adverse to the idea. Why else would he make those comments about Alejandro in "I See London..."?
Not that he doesn't think about how easy it would be to use her. But his morality wins out over his scheming thoughts pretty quickly- no one wants to be New Heather, after all.
However, he's also shown a capacity to explore sneakier options of deception and trickery; pretending to pass out during the 20k run in The Big Sleep, trying to excuse his comment about Alejandro under the guise of it "being a compliment where he's from", tricking the Sasquatch with his fake ball throwing, getting himself eliminated on purpose in Dodgebrawl. I'm trying to think of other examples In Canon off the top of my head, but I'm coming up short since most of his actual speaking lines in the show are 'zingers' and 'witty one-liners' instead of actual character moments.
And we also know, from the way he treats Owen, that he's a lot more patient and indulgent towards the... 'slower' or 'simpler' contestants. He very rarely gets mad at Owen's mistakes- see how he gently chastises him in "Super Happy Crazy Fun Time Japan" when he's disturbing their set, he'd pretty much gentle parenting him, or how he doesn't even raise his voice against Owen after being blasted by nose-shake in "I See London...". You could argue that Owen just has best friend privileges, but given the way he also talks about his dog I think Noah just has a soft spot for happy-go-lucky, heart-of-gold, kind of stupid people (and blondes). Sound familiar?
Lindsay would fall under this umbrella of 'treat with kindness' because of this, but that doesn't mean he wouldn't try to subtly nudge her in the 'right direction'- out of Heather's and/or Alejandro's influence and into his own. For her own safety, of course.
Not that I think he'd even like Lindsay at first. The two of them are opposite ends of the social spectrum; I'd take a while for Lindsay to break through his snarky exterior, but I think eventually Noah would realise that she isn't the 'two-faced airhead popular girl' he'd assumed her to be and quickly warm up to her (she's airheaded, sure, but there's nothing two-faced or nefarious/mean-spirited about Lindsay). It's a classic case of "extrovert adopts introvert".
Meanwhile, Lindsay would be dead-set on breaking Noah out of his sour little shell. Either because she overhears Owen/Izzy/Eva explaining how Noah struggles to make friends because he's "very shy" and "mixes up his insults and his compliments", thus she assumes that, hey, Noah's made fun of her a few times, maybe that was just him trying to be friendly? So she makes it her mission to reciprocate his efforts and befriend him (much to Noah's initial suspicion, and begrudging appreciation).
Or she gets the concept of a 'gay best friend' stuck in her head (an impressive feat, getting anything stuck in such a vacant space /j) probably from watching too many high school teen dramas, and sees Noah as the ideal candidate since he pretty much embodies most of the stereotypical GBF traits; a sassy twink who's defining characteristic is making snarky comments. If Noah ever caught wind of this, he'd either be mortified by the concept and avoid Lindsay like the plague until she'd eventually hunt him down, or he'd think the whole concept is too funny to pass up and gladly play the part- if only for his own amusement. (Personally I headcanon him as bi, but he's so canonically queer coded that he fits the stereotype anyway.)
Which is all just a long-winded way of me saying I think Lindsay would kindle the friendship without giving Noah much of a choice (again, extrovert adopting introvert) and Noah would just go along with it, being the lazy guy he is, and quickly grow fond/protective over her.
If he and Owen are the golden retriever and black cat dynamic, Noah and Lindsay are an afghan hound and a black cat; Noah has a lot of black cat energy (that's just a given) and you cannot tell me that Lindsay isn't an afghan hound- they're pretty, gentle-natured and renown for their low intelligence.
Plus, Lindsay's capacity for meanness (as unintentional as it may be) would be comedy gold to Noah. He'd encourage her to keep that sharp tongue and steel spine, if not for his own entertainment, then to ensure she doesn't become someone else's doormat again. In return, Lindsay would bring out a softer side of Noah, likely a result of her reminding him of his several older sisters.
She'd absolutely abuse her 'soft Noah' privileges too by roping him in on sleepovers where the two of them gossip and paint each other's nails (Noah's against the idea at first but Lindsay hits him with the puppy eyes and he folds like a lawn chair), eventually leading to Lindsay giving Noah a much needed glow up. He finds himself enjoying the pampering- though he'd never admit it- and Lindsay's just ecstatic that she has someone to use as a dress-up doll (Tyler wouldn't let her give him another makeover after Paris).
#i have a lot of thoughts about the beauty&brains duo#this would also be why lindsay calls tyler 'noah' in wt btw. she's mixing up her bf and her gbf. doesn't help that they both--#have long-ish brown hair and wear red (she's face blind give my girl a break 😭)#this ended up longer than i anticipated. again. at this point i should stop assuming i'll give short responses.#the brainrot cannot be contained. i am patient zero.#anyway THANK YOU FOR THE ASK please feed me more b&b content. it fuels me.#total drama#td lindsay#td noah#silly headcanons#character analysis#⬅ kind of? a little bit#replies#long post
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All the anon hate/dabates ur getting for those posts but I just wanna say I appreciate them. I’m someone who went through CSA and has developed unfortunate trauma responses and reading those posts were nice. Um I’m bad with words but they made me feel better because you spoke about the issue without inherently demonizing the survivors who may be experiencing those thoughts, and instead focused on their negative actions. If that makes sense? As someone who has a very bad habit of seeking reassurance for everything (that I’m trying to work on) I understand how they feel but I also feel like they need to reign in those urges and realize what they’re doing is bad and that there are other ways to deal with those thoughts/feelings.
im very very happy to hear that, i tend to really worry that im being too aggressive and sometimes i do get very snarky or rude on posts like that. and i think thats a major reason why i end up getting asks as well. i relate a lot, i also have had to work on a lot my reassurance seeking from other people, and honestly thats also half of the problem too. i think a lot of these posts that are like "if you learn your friend is into xyz paraphillia it literally doesnt change anything! if you hate them youre just a puritan bigot!" aren't even written from the perspective of a 'predator' or whatever people would label them, but as a victim/someone with POCD whos essentially forgiveness seeking. like reassurance seeking on a wider scale, the more reblogs it gets the more it means its ok for them to be this way, the more it means theyre still a good safe loveable person. but what they need to know is theyre loveable regardless, that comes with being human. but you do have to put effort into making good choices, and making choices that are safe for you and those around you. and its ok if you're too sick to be able to, but that means you need (and deserve) help.
there is a quote from one of the anons i'll put here.
"you could toss a dart and have a good chance to hit someone with a daddy, stepsis/stepbro or rape kink that they engage with in fantasy. I don’t see those people as less than or broken in the vast majority they are not harming anyone like any other person"
i find this so interesting specifically because i didn't say any of this. literally none of this came out of my mouth. i never implied any of the people i'm talking about are less than, or broken at all. im very clear and direct about the fact that i am someone who is a CSA survivor myself, and while im sure i could've made my own experience with parahilias and intrusive thoughts clear, i dont think it wouldve changed anything. this person is putting a lot of words in my mouth where they didn't come from and it just stands out to me as such a projection and such a mental tell of the type of people these are. to them, me saying that its trauma based is me saying theyre broken. they think they are one in the same. the fact that i'm a survivor myself going through recovery and trying to advocate for others to do the same thing, they think that i am criticizing, that i am insulting them. it makes me sad. its exactly what i'm talking about how peoples reactions to survivors make people feel forced back into their paraphiles because they get stuck in the split mindset of "i must be innocent always" or "im the devil and scum and should accept it" and both answers are wrong. there needs to be space for victims to be able to experience and express these things in a healthy way, but also sharing them on social media where children are and where genuine pedophiles and predators also are is not the right way to do it, and that's my point exactly.
i just really hope they learn there is recovery for them. there is good, genuine, non harmful sex and love and intimacy waiting for them. it just requires self work, in the same way anything does, especially for traumatized people.
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Honestly, the post game komahina scenario I've been lately fixating on is them taking long walks on the beach. I figure that whether they stay on the island or not, beaches and tropical climates in general are filled with a lot of complicated emotions and memories but it's also the first place where they (technically) met as they are now! And of course i believe that hinata especially is holding onto the "this is the future, it doesn't matter what happened in the past" line of thinking extra hard, half actually meaning it and reclaiming his experiences, half trying to use it on komaeda and his troubled past further than being a remnant, half using it to commemorate chiaki, but i figure he might also use it as a way to ignore his more complicated feelings towards the past and avoid addressing the negativity and trauma, because hey, it's the future now! It doesn't matter! (And also he's the ultimate everything and he has to take responsibility for everyone oh god oh god, he can't deal with his emotional bullshit now).
Also, re:komahina and cooking, i figure it'd be really funny if lets say, one day they sit down to watch Ratatouille and by the end of it komaeda is like "hey, I'd really like a ratatouille right now ^_^" (he really meant it as a joke) which hinata rushes to make because it's the first food request he didn't have to pull out of komaeda like a loose tooth, and he spends the rest of the evening making it. It would be funny if komaeda ends up not liking it after all, but it would also be more touching if he does, or at least makes an effort to just to make hajime happy. (Also add obligatory "no matter what, a small rat can never learn how to cook" joke)
AAAGHHHHH !!!!!!! EXPLODES U WITH MY MIND BEAM
komahina long walks on the beach INCREDIBLY TRUE. something ive never really seen people explore too often is the effect the simulation has on you after you wake up, how everything feels disorienting and how you might question your own reality (everything feels real, but everything felt this real when i was in the simulation too so how will i ever know if i just woke up to another simulation and none of this is real either etc etc). i think a lot of 77b would avoid exploring the island too extensively for this reason, because looking at anything outside of the few buildings they frequent gives them that surreal feeling. and so long walks on the beach is also their way of making peace with that i think. defining this island as home through the time you spend with your loved ones etc
also i think long walks on the beach could help komaeda regain some strength. on the days his fatigue gets bad theyll sit by the shore and chat, but on the days its not bad they try walking more and more distance, and hajime will always be there if an emergency happens and he needs to be carried back (and part of the reason why komaeda doesnt try walking on his own is because thered be no one to help out). actually in island mode if you ask komaeda to walk a lap around the island with you he reacts negatively lol. i think it could be a nice way to make being outside the house + being a little bit active into sth fun, even if he won’t always be able to, and thats alright too.
THE RATATOUILLE THING IS SO CUTE ☹️ 🙁 THEY ARE SO SILLY. hajime immediately rushing to the kitchen …. maybe he asks komaeda to help cut the veggies …. he alters the recipe to be to komaedss taste since hes learned what seasonings and textures komaeda enjoys… komaeda cant refuse if its handcrafted for him…. UGHHHH THEYRE SO . [ONE MILLION EXPLOSIONS]
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I know the mike initiating a kiss or making the first move is a popular thing among bylers but i dont think that would be/should be the case AND HERES WHY 🤓☝ *mcyter with lists voice* (i get sidetracked so bear with me)
For starters; we've come to a conclusion that mike has internalized homophobia and there's plenty of evidence to back this up, he wants to be "normal" and in the 80s being gay was abnormal, this is a commonly known thing that's mentioned a lot amongst bylers and its precisely the reason i dont think mike would be the one to make the first move
Mike does everything in his power to be a normal person which is why i think he was willing to lie to el so easily in season 3
This is where i get sidetracked but really its just backup analyzing for this
Before gay marriage was legal, lavender marriages were everywhere or at least a fairly common thing, in case you dont know lavender marriages are marriages that were used to cover the sexuality of one or both of the people getting married, which i think ties in with mike and els dynamic (will get to that later)
Mike uses el as a cover or a way to be normal, its what he grew up around and its what he saw on tv gay relationships just werent considered normal
In season 3 mike lies to el so he can continue to see her, to continue to have a cover or something that convinces him hes "normal", and all they really did was make-out because "thats what couples do"
You have the season 3 rain fight which ive seen multiple people mention that mike was blatantly reflecting but ive never seen anyone explain it more - will says something about mike and el (seemingly) constantly kissing, referring to el as "a stupid girl" and while mike did defend el, he couldve just left it at "els not stupid", "its not my fault you dont like girls" did not need to be there. He felt like will was seeing through the amount of effort he had been putting into normal and panicked, saying something he didnt mean and we can visibly see he didnt mean it
In season 4 theres the rollerrink fight, another instance where mike says something he didnt mean or like to say - will complains about mike not sending him letters whereas el has "a whole book of them", mike tells him "thats because shes my girlfriend" to which will asks "and us?" Which mike once again saw as will seeing through mike and he panicked, feeling the need to clarify that theyre just friends and wont be more, wills follow up shows hes more upset mike doesnt treat him like theyre best friends than the idea of them dating, wills already accepted the idea that mike doesnt like him the way he likes mike
The letters isnt because mike didnt want to talk to will, he most definitely tried (sitting by the phone and whining about joyce being on the phone all the time making it busy) but its because EVERYONE in hawkins knows who will is and theyll hear about it him growing up, hes the boy who was dead for a week and came back literally all over the newspapers as "zombie boy"
Mike would not be able to get away with being seen as "normal" while writing and receiving letters from another boy, especially if someone found out because for all he knows they could be the wrong person and suddenly all the work he puts into being "normal" has been washed away
With all that said; mike and will both have internalized homophobia on different ends, will knows and accepts it knowing he cant change it but he also hates it, and mike knows but denies it - i dont think mike would be the one to make the first move, i think it would be will
Idk thats it thats all i got
Will byers making the first move 🙏🙏
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That "there's no such thing toxic positivity" from your blog post has wormed its way into my brain and gave me an epiphany; the behavior that gets labeled as "toxic positivity" (at least when people are using the label on soneone actually being toxic rather than trying to put soneone positive down) is actually a paradoxical form of toxic negativity where target of said negativity is towards negativity itself
I’M SO GLAD IT RESONATED!!! exactly!!!!! “toxic positivity” is one of my most loathed terms. and i understand why it’s used, it’s a shorthand, it gets a point across, but it’s oxymoronic. if any positivity is toxic, it’s not positivity. someone encouraging you to just be grateful or just smile or bootstrap it or whatever else and dismissing your concerns is not positivity—it is a voluntary ignorance that understandably makes the other party feel guilty and worse. nothing is positive about that!
optimism and positivity really mean a lot to me and are integral to me, and i probably get more defensive than necessary over it. but i’m so defensive because i used to know what the other side of the coin was like! i know what it’s like to be jaded and cynical and even hateful and i can owe that to a lot of bad influences in my formative years. and it’s WHY it’s so important for me to dispel the notions about what positivity and optimism and hope are
i’m not saying you should react to every situation with a smile. there are some scenarios where that’s not possible, especially now. doing so and pulling a “well, it could be worse, you could x y z so don’t complain!” is a statement of ignorance and dismissal and, again, that is not positivity. but what is positivity is the drive to incite change. to band together with your allies. to take action. that is making a positive change. to strive for a better world is positivity. and often, to do that, you have to BE aware of the negative. positivity is not sticking your head in a hole in the ground. it’s confronting what needs to be changed, analyzing it, and using that to help inform your next course of action
positivity is patience and understanding and encouragement, not dismissal and ignorance in the vein of manufactured happiness which is actually just a flimsy mask hoping to hide your fear and ignorance. listen to yourself, listen to your friends and neighbors. listen to their problems and offer a safe space. acknowledge their problems and don’t belittle them for it. even if there isn’t much you can do in the moment, depending on the issue, at least take comfort in knowing that you’re one more person giving someone an outlet to feel safe and be listened to. that is more positive and loving and indicative of a positive future than any sort of hasty dismissal with a smile painted on top.
and obviously this is easier for some to do than others. it is much more easy to be dismissive, nihilistic, negative, and so on and so forth. and, again, some situations demand that—contrary to what most “positive” people say (hint: theyre not truly positive), feeling a Bad Emotion does not mean you are unlovable and in some situations, forcing “positivity” would BE the negativity. but it takes more effort to be courageous and optimistic and a champion of positive change.
this is why it is so so so important for me to stress the importance of positivity and love and solidarity. the more people that do it, the easier it will be for others. it’s amazing how basic principles such as “being nice” are dissuaded on the internet because it’s cool to be rude and dismissive to random strangers for internet clout! cynicism breeds more cynicism, and, conversely, optimism breeds more optimism. it’s harder to do the latter, but so much more worth it, and you can take solace in knowing that you may inspire others to do the same. i speak from experience
there is a bright side to most situations and that bright side is worth striving for, even if that bright side is as simple as “i’m offering an extra shoulder to lean on”. this shouldn’t have to be some grand act of charity. if more people decide to be more optimistic and loving and positive, if we learn to drop these stupid false notions about what positivity is and forget about labels and instead just prioritize being a decent human being, this won’t have to be seen as a grand act of charity. it’s a domino reaction. be a domino.
TLDR: don’t be a dick.
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