#i get thats very cynical

[areslikestodraw]

*look I ran out of room in the tags and don't like talking in actual post form in reblogs but I will continue with my rant if asked. because I just like making people (fictional characters) into horrible monsters with strawman arguments

Take me to Solla Sollew.

[rearranging-deck-chairs]

laura heard "when is a monster not a monster? oh when you love it" and took that a little too literally

[cl0ckworkpuppet]

btw enstarries it's totally fine if you don't care about a character enough to read every single story involving them, or understand everything about them in deep complex ways, or rabidly search for every piece of information about their character in order to characterize them perfectly: thats totally okay

but if you then start talking as if you completely know the character based on your very barebones knowledge then do not be surprised if producers of that character correct you

[gibbearish]

inside you are two wolves. one is deeply paranoid about accidentally getting parasocial at people and also about trusting any internet personality anyways because so many of them turn out to be shitbags. the other is deeply paranoid about supressing its interests when it don't need to because it might have ocd and can't tell if its behavior is actually parasocial and it's just noticing it now or if this is just normal looking-up-to-someone-who-inspires-you behavior and it's just obsessing the compulsings, and furthermore thinks that with every shitbag it can think of, there's always been a trail of signs leading up to the breaking point that either got ignored or justified or forgotten, and it has yet to see a single sign or red flag despite being on high alert for them the whole time its been watching. you are a mentally ill hbomberguy fan.

[sciderman]

pokes you with a stick…what do you think of valpool

oh bless you - uh, not a lot. i don't think the comics gave me a lot to work with, on that front. i think when i was reading it i kept thinking "how long is this one gonna last before inevitable double cross / untimely death / off screen break-up" and turns out the latter happened. sorry val.

so my own cynicism meant i never got too attached to val. because i knew we weren't going to be seeing them for very long. nothing in a deadpool series endures. and i'm so frustrated that wong's deadpool run was a 10 issue thing. because it was over and done before i even started enjoying it.

for me it takes a long time to get attached to a deadpool - because every wade wilson is different. they have their own thing going on. wong's wade is softer. more childlike. very childlike. actually, almost irritatingly childlike. like thats his whole thing. he's s child.

that was off-putting for me. he didn't feel like the kind of deadpool i'm interested in reading. he felt like the softer, cuter fanon-interpretation of deadpool. which i guess goes over well with fans who love their baby girl. but i... eeh. i can't bear it. he's not a baby. and i'm not a baby either. stop feeding me baby food.

i think - in my head - when wade acts like a baby, there's an angle to it. i don't think he's sincere. he does it so enemies will undermine him, or to win favour with the audience - there's an angle. he's not sincerely that naive. he's smart. so - when i see him acting like that - sincerely - i can't feel like he's being sincere at all. he's smarter than that. he's doing it on purpose. so - so... i don't know, i never felt like we were getting a sincere wade, in this series. he never turns the baby act off. we don't get a peek behind the curtain. i think that's the thing with wade lately - i keep expecting an eventual peek behind the curtain so i can say "oh. there he is. there's the deadpool i know. he was doing it on purpose. he was acting shallow and cutesy just to sell books and the real deadpool was lurking behind there all the time," but it hasn't happened with any deadpool media at all, lately, save for the recent kelly dp/w wiiii book - (once again, thank you kelly, owe you my life, only man pulling his WEIGHT around here) - maybe my expectations are just too high for wade, in that i'm doomed to be disappointed by like, 90% of deadpool media.

i feel like maybe wong could've done something if they'd had more time with it. but for me, man, i didn't get anything out of it, or any kind of attachment to it. and i felt so disappointed. especially with it being a nonbinary author, and a nonbinary love interest for a character i've so long headcanoned as nonbinary. i just - i wanted more from it. i always write from a nonbinary angle - because i don't know how to write from any other perspective. it comes out in everything i write. so i was expecting something more like that. i was expecting it to come through - not in some overt way - but in small ways that i could read and appreciate. like the matrix. that's a trans story. there are no overtly trans characters in it but it's a trans story with lots of trans allegory to digest and the authors are trans. but - you know, not being trans, it's not immediately obvious. but it's there. food to eat. and chew. and digest.

i know marvel definitely wouldn't let wong get away with much - but, god almighty. i was hoping even for something subtle. some little crumbs of food that brought some new dimension to wade that i could sink my teeth into. or something interesting about val that i could get attached to, in spite of the relationship being rushed and quick and abrupt.

i'm not saying it had to be a nonbinary story but - like, man. it feels like, conceptually, i should get excited, and i should sing more praises to this series, but what it feels like more, to me, is a wasted opportunity, and val is another love interest that readers failed to get attached to, and another in a consistent line of deadpool's love interests that marvel rushes to forget and move on from. and... sighs. sighs.

i do want more from valentine. because i feel like they're such a wasted opportunity, and i don't want to throw away one of marvel's only non-binary characters. that's too much food to waste. i think - for me, at least, i think wade deserves healthy relationships. ones that aren't always necessarily romantic - and - well, him having someone to go on cute zoo dates and hang out and be unapologetically gender with - well, i'm all about that.

[dansevilpianotea]

who do you think is more Crowley coded and who is more Azira coded out of dnp?

i set myself hourly notifications ever since you send the ask and it still took me this long to answer, im so sorry 😭

to answer your question:

It might seem like obvious that dan is crowley coded and phil is azira coded because of their aesthetics and personality but stating that as that is too simple for me. lets break it down:

dan is like crowley in the obvious sense of having that edgy aesthetic and always needing to question things while phil is the one with the light aesthetic who enjoys what is happening despite the problems it has. just watch them play the game of life.

this reminds me of this quote from a book ive read for uni which really stuck with me:

so yea, dan is the social scientist who points out what most people miss and phil is the one who tells us that we shouldn't wallow in defeat of it but make our own meaning out of it. and we need both! they are like ying and yang, like crowley and aziraphale in that way.

crowley who questions heaven and thusly falls, but then doesnt stop questioning hell because he doesnt see the world in black and white, good actions and bad actions.

i think dan for a long time was not like that. i say this with the utmost respect but if you look back, his branding was usually self deprecating jokes and at least to me personally it felt like his perspective was pessimistic. he always made sure to leave a positive message but to me it felt like a wish for a better future, not a feeling of certainty that it will be better.

Phil on the other hand is very much like that:

Phil is like aziraphale and me in the sense that he gets irrationally worried about things,

but it is dan who literally did a tour about his worries of the world ending, with branding and all:

and yet:

phil and crowley both have that rational optimism, the sense that things will be okay. but aziraphale does not give up in-spite of the odds being against them. in s1 he refuses to run away to alpha centauri because he believes that they should stay and fight. that there is still hope. he does not accept that the world will end. but its crowley who sparks the idea of aziraphale raising the antichrist with him. its aziraphale who tells angel crowley of armageddon , and its why crowley gets upset and questions the almighty.

so my point is that phil has aziraphale's light aesthetic vibes and his fear of near doom but crowley's certainty that everything will be okay in the end despite it.

dan on the other hand has crowley's edgy dark aesthetic, his cynicism and sense of questioning belief systems, but also aziraphale's determinism to fight what he is sure is a losing battle/the end of the world because he wants to believe that it is possible that everything will be okay (that being the message of wad/ywgttn/big/etc...)

i want to talk a bit about 'dark/light polarity'. what we mean by that is two sides of the same coin. yin and yang:

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they depend on each other, they interconnect and intertwine. be it real people or fictional characters, it is never a clear black and white binary, because what the characters have something that the other lacks and when they come together they become a whole. plato said humans once had 4 legs and feet, and then got split in half by zeus to punish us to live our lives yearning to be connected with the other half of our soul/coin, our soulmate. they carry sth of each other within them because there are shards that got broken in the middle when the being was split and were forced to choose sides.

so even tho it might seem like dan is more like crowley coded and phil is more aziraphale coded because of their light/dark aesthetic, there's many things of both in each of them and thats what makes it interesting and real to us.

[johannestevans]

The thing that's so funny about geralt and dandelion is that dandelion likes to straddle that man and go "why are you feeling sorry for yourself?"

And geralt, feeling sorry for himself, is like "I'm NOT feeling sorry for myself!"

And then dandelion sucks him off ♥️

I love how nenneke is like "i don't know why you're friends with him, you have nothing in common" and then seconds later geralt and dandelion are bonding over how they have similar taste in booze and studies

The thing about geralt that's funny and tragic in turn is that he's got so many scruples even though he tries so hard to be neutral and hard the way he was taught and obviously he feels very deeply

And a lot of the time he's actually surprisingly straightforward about the beauty or hope he sees in the world? People get distracted by how grumpy he seems or how flat and disaffected his face and voice seem

But he TELLS people a lot of this outright

He wants to kiss yennefer in front of everyone at the party. He turns into pretty women and admires fine clothing even though he doesn't want to wear it. He loves his horse and he loves food and drink and he loves good company - and despite his cynicism he carries hope in him

And he doesn't actually hide that from most people… EXCEPT dandelion. Dandelion he often puts on this pretense of being a lot grumpier than he is. Dandelion has to lecture him about learning about the world or seeing the beauty in it even tho geralt normally DOES that

and the reason is twofold

Partly is because geralt enjoys dandelion making a fool of himself trying to teach geralt things and getting corrected by passers by

But also like. If they were BOTH sincere, it would get Too Intense Very Quickly

And i think it's delightful that like. People have this idea of dandelion as extremely fake because he's a fop or because he talks a lot or because he's obsessed with himself, but he genuinely is tremendously sincere - he genuinely does love everything, especially himself

But with geralt dandelion is at his MOST cynical, because it's not really a performance of a particular act, it's more a specific performance of his own personality for someone who knows and loves him well, rather than performing songs or stories or bardic tradition

And in contrast, geralt, who is generally a quite straightforward and honestly emotive man - albeit in the (cough autistic cough) Mutant way he is, abstracts a lot of his feelings and feigns more ignorance and cynicism than he has in dandelion's company

With yen geralt is honestly agonisingly sincere in a way that yen often has no idea what to do with, and the tragedy w them both is that they both feel with such immensity that both of them struggle to put the depth of their feelings for one another into words

It's not that his intimacy with dandelion is free of that struggle, but like. Yen strips right through his attempts to play it cool, whereas dandelion normally plays into them.

And thats why their threesomes are so good

[deimosatellite]

no something thats so interesting to me is the role of the father in dostoyevsky's works mainly in devils and brothers karamazov of course , especially interesting with those being two of his later works and having very similar themes of broken families and absent fathers .

in devils, in my opinion many , if not all, of petrusha's deepest issues stem from his father's absence in one way or another--his main issues being with his fear of god / higher power + his need for absolute control. we can see in the few insights we get on him from his childhood that he was very nervous and AFRAID when its mentioned how he would cross his pillow before sleeping / be worried and pray that he wouldnt die in the night bc again thats his fear of a power outside of his control, being that of religion/god which he then grows to resent / attempt to reject--however this could also be read as stemming from his animosity toward his own father as having been absent as an almost god figure to him--abandoned by his father he was left to find ways to mitigate these fears by himself which led to his incredibly self-destructive control issues with him feeling that no one had ever looked out for him, not his father nor a god, so he had to become fully self-sufficient and in control of the world around him to cope. and petrusha fcking HATES stepan god he takes every chance he can get to absolutely eviscerate him god bless.

on the other hand, brothers karamazov has , WHOA, FOUR SONS !!!!!! in which to analyze on the role of fyodor pavlovich's role in their lives but for sake of brevity i'll not go too into it but its just really interesting to see it in a context related to petrusha's relationship with stepan. (also its been a while since i read karamazov so) but first of all ofc getting out of the way that smerdyakov mirrors petrusha in many ways in his lacking of morals and almost blase attitude toward life and death. ivan as well is incredibly cynical and questioning of religion as his main character arc which contrasts alyosha greatly, who actually turned TO religion as a way to fill in the absence of his father--something interesting to me is that petrusha as a child sounded soo similar to alyosha as a child BUT. in contrast alyosha was able to find people around him to guide him in his life rather than being left to fester in a fear created by loneliness and rejection.

SO . yeah just interesting to me that main drivers of conflict / character in both devils and brothers karamazov are related to parents/especially fathers and since i just finished humiliated and insulted im going to now read the adolescent for the first time, which i hear has themes about fathers as well and is actually in between devils and brothers karamazov so i will DEFO BE PAYING ATTENTION THERE. anyways bye 9U0PSOFDJK

[sleepsentry]

Hey man, I just wanted to say, I adore how you portray Fiddleford and Standford's friendship. As some with autism, seeing this friendship portrayed like this was so refreshing. Especially since I'm on the Arospectrum, so seeing Standford just enjoying Fiddleford's touch and just wanting to be with him while he does stuf is just???, just fucking great portrayal man, I love this. Thank you so much for that

Thank you! :D

There friendship means a lot to me too! I like the idea that they can sit next to eachother doing their hobbies comfortably without a word for hours. ^^

And ford finally had a friend besides Stanley good for him.

It's also partially based on a few of the classmates who where kind to me during my awful school years.

I did get jokingly adopted by older girls. Haha

Also fidds seems like such a friendly character (besides the death robots)

I'm a little saddned by the more "sassy?" or cynical takes on his character, there isn't enough variety I guess. He's not sylvia from wander over yonder to me.

I can absolutely see why fidd suggesting ford abandon the portal and "settle down" would break Ford's heart. He's asking ford to be normal like fidd was able to be.

But considering fidds experiences you'd think he'd have quit earlier.

But he didn't because he wanted to trust his friend (and was getting paid haha)

I totally get what you mean by the "refreshing" part

I've grumbled about too much in the past but I get where you're coming from I think.

I felt obligated to describe it as brotherly and people still mistagged and ignored my interpretation for the more popular romantic ones.

I'd like to feel comfortable seeing fanart of them again without getting a pit of "You're wrong everyone says they're either kissing or quietly resentful or both" in my stomach ^^'

Also ford being a homewrecker isn't funny and leaves a bad taste in my mouth (serious or joking i don't like it at all)

I'm happy my take makes others happy though its soothing. :^]

Whilst I don't think they're "smiles while sighing softly and fondly" at eachother i do think they love eachother lots

They're very good friends unironically

I am also suspecting aro and autism in myself so who knows maybe thats a small influence

[ms-all-sunday]

please give us your Nami thoughts, I love your takes on her. It can be about anything you're currently thinking about but if I could pick then could you talk in depth about what you think about the Nami & Ussop dynamic ? Like yeah it doesn't need explanation about why they're my favorite duo among the strawhats but some of the things you've said about Nami and Ussop individually were not things I had thoughts about before so I want to know what you think of Usopp & Nami

i love nami forever thank you anon this is so sweet and i feel so appreciated. i hope i dont let you down. i'll do both!

i think i havent talked formally on this blog about how nami is written in most fanfiction to other people, but i try to emphasize in my fanfiction the fact she's an abuse victim since I feel that's one of her most apparent traits. the way that she deals with trauma is very reliant on exclusively herself, something i don't think is talked about a lot is that her expectation of what she is told is true is not only reflective of how pirates are known to the god fearing public (indicative of propaganda) but that she exclusively sees herself as the exception to a lot of rules, there's this inherent close-mindedness she has but won't ever really get rid of, that naunce and the room for things to go positively can't fit within her self perception.

this is because she believes she is the only thing in life she can control, and it's a necessary self-perception to maintain the inner worldview she has.

this of course is a survival instinct inherited from her childhood. but what it speaks to i think is that in real life and one piece the anime, that abuse victims (children and teens especially) can come out with a cynical view of the world and externalize that onto others (advocating for the current dysfunctional societal systems for example like nami does in repeating wg propaganda) simply because of how much we alienate them and how that continues to give no hope to people looking for community and understanding.

i like usopp and nami. theyre my favourite dynamic as well! i think something nami is able to do with usopp and nobody else (even with women) is give him the benefit of the doubt. i think this is because she relates to him

(i think she has bpd as well but i cant decide whether thats my legitmate reading of the text or me projecting. i write her like she has bpd. you decide.)

if we look at water 7 i think she's the most sympathetic of the usopp apologists because she was very obviously coming at it from a place of understanding from usopps emotional perspective (because she relates to him and loves him) in a way that nobody else really was articulating. because she's been in that situation where she's successfully alienated herself from everybody she loves in a way nobody else on that crew related to usopp (and by extension robin) on that crew during water 7.

nami doesnt just have a relationship to usopp she could have with no other man she has a relationship to usopp she couldn't have with anybody. i think. usopp is the only one who can cross the invisible boundary of the fact she expects you to be a kiss ass towards her lest you get consequences but usopp isnt a kiss ass to her and there are no consequences. (in fact usopp is quite snarky/mean to her, which is how he is when he isn't masking and completely confident in himself: see end of enies lobby) she apologizes to him when he's snarky to her in thriller bark.

since this is a nami themed post i won't talk about usopp as much. but have you noticed? usopp is mean when he's comfortable with people. he has this attitude at the end of enies lobby as they're escaping on the merry, i think i registered it subconsciously but i only did register it consciously a few weeks ago, but if usopp is truly comfortable he's not a kiss-ass whatsoever. and he's never a kiss ass with nami.

we don't really think about it like this because people are so prone to dismiss usopp is one of those characters that have a facade of palatability when he feels he's not on the same level as someone, coming from his insecurity, but in regards to his genuine attitude we see in enies lobby and with nami that admiration is not the true breath of how he thinks about zoro or sanji or luffy. he thinks they're fucking stupid as well. and he's right. (this exact thing is another reason nami is able to emphasize with him. she thinks similarly)

this ties into both nami and usopps implementation as shonen characters. they're smart and witty and have big personalities to differentiate them from the more powerful characters, i feel this juxtaposition with more traditional shonen characters has made oda feel like he has to justify both usopp and namis existences in the story in a way he doesn't with the other characters. i think it's this element that makes them the most consistently well written throughout every arc they appear in as opposed to the other 7.

[batboyblog]

Seeing the post about Jasmine, I can literally feel an ulcer grow within me. Are people actually this fucking stupid? Spreading VERY blatant and easily debunakable misinformation? Are they MALICIOUSLY trying to sabotage shit? Also the antisemitism only grows stronger. You literally have spoken in support of Palestine multiple times and yet these people start to froth at the mouth when they find out you're Jewish, these people have the reading comprehension of a fucking brick!!! And seeing the quote by Malcom X... Literally that's the most disgusting shit to act like you're a white liberal when Jews are not seen as white, are seen as lesser than white, the lack of self-awareness this person has is stunning. Sorry to make such a long post but what the fuck, seriously what the fuck is people's problem.

what the fuck is people's problem is a great question that I really wish I had an answer for.

I mean on the antisemitism front I suspect that the thrill of bullying transcends ideological views, just because you say you're a socialist doesn't mean you're also a good person. Just means you have justify your behavior through a new lens, so its fine to accuse Pete Buttigieg of being a sexual pervert like some conservative Catholic, if you're doing it as a "joke" because he's "Neo-liberal" or whatever, or post snakes at Elizabeth Warren, or or etc etc as long as you come up with an excuse its fine to be horrible as long as you do in the name of leftism! or whatever.

as to the wider question? why blow up chances to make progressive change by supporting nonsense candidates who are just unfunny versions of Vermin Supreme? hm I don't know, but I suspect that for a lot of them, politics aren't really real to them. It's like ideological football for them, the most important thing is to "be right" and "win the argument" over in reality, we have to sometimes work with people we loath, sometimes we have to put up with shitty things to get what we really want, and always always always its slow work. Listen, in 1912 Teddy Roosevelt put forward the idea of a national health service, over 100 years later we're still fighting for universal health care. Now we've made important steps, everyone over 65 those who need it most, have health coverage through Medicare, others have been added to Medicare, we have Obamacare which regulates the health markets and helps people get affordable coverage and more people are covered now than every before. But people like we're talking about would rather than was Nothing for anyone, that everyone was not covered at all, than take an answer that helps people but isn't perfect.

Just isn't my style really, idk I just can't help but think about all the people whose lives got saved by Obamacare and just, what we should have let them die? progress builds it doesn't just appear nothing just happens, so each term you move closer, but each time a Republican gets it, they undermine, undo, go backward. I mean for example, Trump literally wants to get rid of the job in government that advices all the many federal departs on how to be greener and replace it with a guy who's job it'll be to push departments to use more oil and gas.... literally thats a thing, what a perfect example of what a Republican Presidency is about, going backward. Then when we have a Democrat rather than making progress they have to undo all the damage to get to baseline and then start improving.

I also think there's a small group of cynical grifters, when Democrats/liberals/people on the left whatever we want to call them, are scared and frustrated and upset, ie when a Republican is in power and elections are years away, they invest, money, time, energy into things to try to feel like they're making a difference or that they're heard, or validated. Left wing podcasts boom, left wing groups that are good at social media boom, people can become kinda stars and make money. Now many of those people drift off to normal life when there's a safe Democrat not doing horrifying shit every day, the money dries up. So the cynical crowd 1. tries to undermine Democrats to keep that feeling of frustrated hopelessness alive in listeners so they keep toning in and 2. they want Republicans to win! of course! its good for them!

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[just-antithings]

not really an anti thing but something that kind of pulled me to the "huh, it's probably why kids can easily be antis" thought:

was watching "teens react to i'm not racist" and its both funny and fascinating watching their reactions which is like:

- i'm uncomfortable

- i'm angry

- i'm uncomfortable and this shouldn't have been made

- i'm angry and happy the black guy is "winning"

- i'm angry and uncomfortable and this should have been more

- i don't get why the two men hugged in the end (the music video ends with a racist white guy and a black guy hugging, there isn't an actual solid conclusion on the conflict. kinda open ending)

- i'm (understandably) too cynical, too angry, too hurt, etc to fully believe talking it out will help

very funnily they all were all "yeah, i understood the video" despite the fact that most of them didn't like the two guys hugging at the end

and me watching it made me reflect. kids are still learning how to process emotions, both positive and negative. and they're rarely satisfied with a gray kind of answer. they want a definitive, binary, black-and-white conclusion.

and theoretically they'll learn how to process that as they get older, and be more inquisitive and reflect and blah blah blah. but sometimes they don't, and they grow up relying on their knee jerk first reactions and thinking that's the only right thought.

(which i find ironic because im p sure part of the message of that song is warning against that lmao, but i digress. thats just my interpretation of it)

and like. yknow. people should be a lil uncomfy with media. should be a lil dissatisfied with open endings. even non-endings. should be a lil frustrated that there's no hard "good wins, evil loses" happily ever after. should understand that while stories and songs are powerful tools, there's a limit to what they can do and it's weird to elevate an artist's work to high moral levels and think it can "do more" (i still don't understand what that kid meant, did they want joyner lucas to materialize from the screen like sadako and punch a white dude???? what did that mean?????????).

it's enrichment, apparently. keeps the anti thoughts from growing

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[disco-tea]

Okay so obviously in Lover’s Walk, the point of Spike’s dislike and commentary on Buffy and Angel and saying it “makes him want to heave” is because in that episode he’s playing the somewhat cynical but brutally honest voice of reason. The voice of the narrative. BUT because Fool for Love recontextualizes literally everything after Becoming ii it means that from a Watsonian point of view Spike gets told he’s deep down in love with Buffy, digs his heels in and says “NOPE. Absolutely not. I’m so not in love with Buffy that im gonna go back to Sunnydale. Because im angry! Obviously. Not because its suddenly like the center of the whole world and thats where Buffy is. That would be stupid!” And then he gets there only to find Angel is very much still around and ensouled and Buffy still likes him and he’s like everything is Awful. I’m going to BARF. I hate it here. I’m going to kill myself.

[ofgoldiies]

[  fiona  palomo,  cis  woman,  she/her,  muse  04,  n/a  ] welcome  to  excesstv,  ELENA  LUZ  PEREZ  —  or  should  i  say  the  PRODIGY  ?  …  a  quick  google  search  tells  me  you’re  a  TWENTY  FIVE  year  old  OLYMPIC  FIGURE  SKATER who’s worth $65M.  you've  called  avalon  home  for  SEVEN  MONTHS  however  something  tells  me  there’s  more  to  you  than  a  flashy  resume  and  penthouse  21B  on  your  door  ?  it  seems  you’ve  managed  to  earn  a  reputation  around  the   city   for  being  UNAPPROACHABLE,  yet,  upon  further  investigation  it  seems  you're  also  quite  DRIVEN.  but  hey,  thats  the  kind  of  mix  that  keeps  people  guessing.  i'm  sure  as  a  CAPRICORN  you're  used  to  people  commenting  on  your  DIAMOND  SOLITAIRE  NECKLACE  /  DANCING  BAREFOOT  IN  FRONT  OF  FLOOR  TO  CEILING  WINDOWS,  A  VISION  BOARD  PLASTERED  WITH  MAGAZINE  CLIPPINGS,  MOTIVATIONAL  QUOTES,  AND  SNAPSHOTS  OF  HER  GOALS,  A  CLUTTERED  WORKSPACE  FILLED  WITH  TROPHIES  AND  MEDALS,  THE  SCENT  OF  FRESH  FLOWERS  AND  EXPENSIVE  PERFUME  LINGERING  IN  THE  AIR  AND  A  SOFT  SMILE  OVERSHADOWED  BY  DARK  EMPTY  EYES .  but  still  we  can't  wait  to  watch  you  flourish  (  or  fail  )  these  next  few  weeks  …

L I N K S .

wanted(tba).

playlist (tba).

pinterest.

B A S I C S .

birth name : elena luz perez

nickname(s) : el, lane

date of birth : janurary 2, 1998

age : 25

gender : cis woman

pronouns : she/her

sexuality : bisexual

relationship status : single

birthplace : san francisco , california

currently : manhattan , new york

languages : spanish ( fluent ), english ( fluent )

education : bachelors in philosophy from stanford

occupation : professional figure skater ( olympic gold medalist )

pets : stray cat hector, she feeds outside the avalon

H E A L T H .

preferred hand : left

blood type : a+

allergies : pollen

physical :  very healthy, follows a semi-strict pescatarian diet. has chronic ankle pain, that she refuses to acknowledge or get medicated because she doesn't want to defer a season.

mental : diagnosed acute anxiety

social : has a few close friends but prefers to be left alone most of the time, her schedule consists of eat, practice, and sleep - there's not much room for anything else

P E R S O N A L I T Y .

capricorn sun. intj ( the architect), phlegmatic, patience, envy, ravenclaw, chaotic good, 3w4 (the expert)

positive traits : driven, ambitious, innovative

neutral traits : competitive, outspoken

negative traits : unapproachable, insecure, cynical

habits : biting her lips when she's nervous

likes: ong nails, lipgloss, halloween, flower scented perfume, butter noodles, shopping, early morning walks, stargazing, green tea, and writing poetry.

dislikes : pineapple flavored drinks, dust, sweating, candy corn, creature movies, flip flops, people who yell and vodka.

fears : disappointing her family

label : the prodigy

tropes : brainy brunette, perfectionist, unfavorite

inspiration : hermione granger ( harry potter ), paris geller ( gilmore girls ), monica geller ( friends ) 

A P P E A R A N C E .

faceclaim : fiona palomo

face : high cheekbones, slightly upturned lips. wide, almond-shaped eyes, hidden behind long lashes and freckles are scattered across her nose and cheeks.

hair : Shoulder length, dark brown hair that she styles in soft waves or pulled back into a bun.

body :  slender and petite, surprising perfect posture

style : typically found in athleisure, but loves simple outfits layered with oversized blazers, cardigans, and cropped jackets. ribbed knit tops, cropped camisoles, and high-waisted jeans that are typically neutral tones like beige, white, brown.

misc : elena has double lobe piercings on each ear, usually adorned with small hoops or mismatched studs. she has a tattoo on her forearm that reads, "i want to be great or nothing"

B I O G R A P H Y .

elena pérez grew up with a sense of authority over her life. she had been told from a young age that she could do anything as long as she set her mind to it.

her parents, high school sweethearts from guadalajara, risked everything to move to the united states just before she was born, settling in san francisco.

elena was their pride and joy, the embodiment of all they hoped for, the future they had imagined for themselves. every step she took, every dream she chased, was for them. and from the very beginning, they knew she was meant for greatness.

as a child, elena was quiet ... more comfortable alone than surrounded by classmates she struggled to connect with.

it wasn’t that she was lonely; she simply had no desire to play along with the other children.

sensing her restless energy, her father signed her up for figure skating lessons at a small rink nearby, thinking it would be a place where she could branch out and meet people her age.

however, and from the very first glide, elena's life changed. she was hooked.

nine months later, she caught the attention of a retired olympian turned coach, who saw her potential and knew she was something rare.

they offered to train her personally, sensing the her raw talent, mixed with the spark in her eyes.

with every practice, elena grew stronger and better, transforming into a young woman who understood that greatness was within her reach.

by fifteen, she was setting records, her name on the lips of every commentator, and her routines circulating across social media.

her parents were her biggest supporters, proud beyond measure, always there at the rink or waiting with a bouquet of roses after a competition, telling her that she was their dream come true.

at twenty three, elena reached the pinnacle of her career. she won olympic gold, etching her name into figure skating history with an unforgettable routine.

however, shortly after her triumph, her beloved trainer passed away unexpectedly.

the loss sent elena into a quiet spiral, unraveling her typically composed demeanor. and for the first time, her once unbreakable focus was shaken by grief.

desperate to find her footing, elena made a drastic decision: she moved to manhattan, hoping to reinvigorate her career by training under a renowned coach with a reputation for turning champions around.

recently, elena greed to appear on excesstv’s reality show, hoping it might bolster her exposure during her off period.

H E A D C A N O N S .

her manager had advised her against signing on for excesstv, cautioning that the show might undermine her pristine public image. but the allure of the risk, and perhaps the thrill of doing exactly what she was told not to, caused her to say yes.

she’s on a strict pescatarian diet after a disastrous attempt at veganism. started after she watched a documentary about factory farming and decided she couldn’t eat meat anymore. but her resolve crumbled after two weeks when she was caught eating a blt during a moment of weakness. she compromised by allowing herself to eat fish because, “they don’t have faces you can feel guilty about”

before every major performance, elena has a "pickle sandwich" – thick slices of dill pickles on toasted rye with mustard and a hint of pepper. it started as a quirky snack but soon became her good luck charm.

her training bag is always stocked with lavender scented bags because she insists it helps keep her calm before big competitions. it’s almost become her “signature” scent at the rink.

she’s never had a real relationship … a hook up here and there, sure. but her schedule has kept her so busy she hasn’t had the time.

elena loves her coffee strong and bitter – she’s been known to start her mornings with a triple shot of espresso, calling it her “power potion.”

before bed, she writes detailed lists of what she wants to achieve the next day. from specific jump goals to remembering to stretch.

E S T A B L I S H E D .

tba !

[lizardboy66]

im deeply bored so here are all of my gay 911 thoughts for your entertainment.

OKAY SO

Idk about 911 being queerbait guys...i dont think it ever was. I think we have entered a new era of fanservice. Usually with queerbait, the creators and people involved in the show are quite vicious to shippers and queer fans generally, and any easter egg or "moment" feels like crumbs to keep us hooked enough.

911 acknowledged the shipping very very early. Like second half of season 2, and there has never ONCE been a joke at the expense of the concept of being gay, or about buck or eddie being queer. It was simply a nod, like "hey, we get it, you want it, thats all good."

Its not 2010 anymore, gay people are accepted and visible in a way that has never been a reality in the past. In fact, gay people, especially gay men, have come to be understood as a fantastic marketing tool.

This is where i get jaded and cynical, but listen the outcome is the same so stick with me here. Gay pairings and relationships = money is not a groundbreaking concept. It's why they did queerbait. But with stuff like supernatural, it seemed like a far greater risk to make the repressed men kiss than to piss of the queer fanbase. But times have changed. But since the age of queerbait, there has been a rise in gay romance content being made, and being made FOR the fangirls, boys and theys. Think Red, White and Royal Blue, or Heartstopper, or Young Royals, or Our Flag Means Death, or Good Omens. Gay isn't a risk anymore, its a marketing category with a level of guaranteed success. And not just in the global north, Boys Love content has been booming in places like Japan, Thailand, Korea for decades, but never more than now. TV companies in these places figured out very quickly that producing fluffy, comforting gay love stories earns them billions, and have not hesitated to seize this opportunity. My point being, gay dudes sell as fuck.

911 got cancelled and had to move networks. The budget is too high and they need to pull viewership and quick. I think their answer is canonise that ship! I couldn't tell you if that was there original intent, but i do believe that it would be far less lucrative to fuck over their viewer base. I could be wrong, this could be a crazy long game to make the fans trust the show, then pull the rug from under them. But i truly think we are past that point with shows like this.

911 is pure fluff! No one ever dies, if someone is hurt they recover quickly and with no complications, conflict is tame and easily resolvable, and everyone is a sickeningly good person. And the show is also about family, found family, unconventional families. I think originally, the unconventionality of the eddie, buck and chris family dynamic was that it is two men who are not together or married raising a child as coparents and friends. Which is a great story, but even better fanfiction fodder.

I think they are going to do it like the fanfiction. It's the easiest way to bridge the epistemic gap between the current cannon and the reality of both buck and eddie being queer and having feelings for each other. they could try and explain it in their own way, but the fans have already done it, and have clearly agreed on some elements of how this love story plays out, so i think that will be the route they go down. Currently my evidence is that Buck is now canonically bisexual. For some reason a lot of the ships people have have one bisexual and one gay, so the trope is being realised. My next piece of evidence is the catholic thing for eddie. This has literally never come up, its a fan invention, and its in the show now. The eddie and marisol plot line is slightly bizzare, but i think the reason for that is that it is eddie making sense of why he struggles so much to commit to the women he dates. Or its just a bad storyline and isnt very coherent. I guess we will see. My next evidence is the whole set up of Tommy. He is so clearly a way to push eddie and buck together in my opinion. From his introduction, he acts as a wedge between the two that neither of them can make sense of. Very love triangle energy. And my last evidence is all of those goddamn interviews. It seems no one can shut up about these fire fighters getting it on with each other. I feel if they weren't doing it, there would be more effort to shut down the clowning gently, as they have done previously.

In conclusion, i too am a clown. My theory has rocky foundations, a rocky middle and an equally rocky conclusion. I am so tired and delulu right now. I'm with you girlies, this is stressful.