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ughgoaway · 4 months ago

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incredibly and inexplicably horny over matty healy today.

#i genuinely cant function about it #i flip between sobbing aggressively about my life and reading jaw dropping unhinged smut #is this mental wellness???#ace rambles

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freakygoofball · 5 months ago

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ALEX! Make a book from fiddleford's perspective/just make something that features my boy a bit more and goes more into his character, AND MY LIFE IS YOURS

#legit if he makes some goofy journal from fidds's pov in the form of some low quality college notebook i would genuinely lose it #i probably wouldnt be able to function for WEEKS #i know he canonically cant draw for shit but PLEASEEE ALEX PLEASEE #it would be so fun not only would we know more about fiddleford (and lets be fr we already know very little about him)#but we would also probably get more of his and stanfords relationship and it would be so interesting #also maybe JUST MAYBE we could even get a bit about his family #as much as i absolutely ADORE everyone's headcannons of emma-may #could you imagine how cool it would be if we just got one just one small thing about her?#fiddleford hadron mcgucket #fiddleford mcgucket #gravity falls #gf #gravity falls fiddleford #alex hirsch

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svnflowermoon · 1 year ago

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why can i literally not function at school like i swear i'm trying i just can't focus????

#luc posts #like i take notes but then i get bored and the doodle on the side of my page thst was meant to take 5 seconds took 10 minutes :(#and then im lost and bc im lost i get all fidgety and i keep doodling and then jts just a cycle #if i work for 20 minutes i feel like ive ran a marathon and i have to take a 40 minutes drawing/staring into the distance break #and im gonna fail maths but theres literally nothing i can do no matter what i do I can't focus for over 20 minutes at a time #and then its the end of class and i feel guilty bc oh i didnt do any work :( like i feel bad and i want to fix it but idk whats wrong so ho #can i fix it if i dont know whats wrong with meeeee #ugh #it literally makes me want to cry am i just lazy is that what it is am i literally useless why cant i work #like i was so ahead kf the average grades and i never learnt to study and now ugh i dont know how to function so i just dont #and it doesn't help that my friends are all geniuses #like they complain about their one mark away from full marks and im just like OH MY GOD if i could just focus then i coukd do so well #likr ok i guess i wont mention tjst i failed that test bc yall sre complaining about getting one mark off fukl makrs #likr fuckkkk okay i have so mucb potential why di i waste jt :(((((#i hate school so mucb #i genuinely consider dropping out sometimes like I CANT DO THIS hiw do these peiole di ut how hiw how someone tell me how to function #like these peiole getting top marks withiut eben truijgn and i tyr and i cant fishcis so i fail snd then ufh i want to die #bc its so embarassing i eas like top 10% of the class a few years ago and now i just cant function like how do these peiple do itso #someone explain ot me how oieolem focus and dony get distracted and ginish things kike ugh

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discoidal · 2 years ago

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socmed is making me paranoid again... is it always cycles?? is the only solution to fully deactivate?? why is my outermost layer made of thin onionskins? and other questions etc etc

#i feel like someone vagueblogged me but i didnt–and still don't!–have the courage to confront them and now im just so paranoidddddd i !!!#cant function like this... when ppl just confront or block me i dont react like this why is a two sentence might-not-even-be-about-me vague #enough to genuinely trigger physical reactions? and goddd now what am i doing. vagueing abt vagues? what if i just deactivate chrissakes #<- i wont

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bunkernine · 2 years ago

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society if hoo had them at uni age and the lost trio went to chb and chiron is like "how tf are ANY of u alive and unclaimed". wilderness was just community college.

#on a serious note this changes a lot actually. annabeth and percy would not be in chb anymore so when percy goes missing #its like. a genuine possibility and fear because demigods don't make it that old. there is also some added time between tlo and tlh as well #further adding to jasons isolation as being even WEIRDER than everyone else. he also would've been praetor for longer so maybe the romans #wouldve cared more. this also does away with the plot hole of ppl not giving a shit that jason piper and leo (and dylan) straight up #dipped. introducing piper especially to a summer camp makes chb less appealing because they're too old for that and thus makes their #departure from chb make more sense in toa. yet also it opens up the possibility of new rome uni.... which i cannot see any reason as to why #leo would not go there!!!!! outside of being banned cuz he bombed new rome lol. but pipers sexuality arc works for college too!!! ur never #too old to find urself. but also this is the question of if you are able to relatively function in society (this is more for piper leo fran #and i guess percy) then why would you even fight this prophecy??? anyway lol them being college aged is perfect cuz percy is literally #going to a new place and having a new transition with new ppl... like u do in college LOL. now the question is would hazel still be 13. nic #is a lot older at this point and perhaps has the same age gap as bianca and him did 🤔 cant remember. but also don't know why hazel was 13 #in the first place lol. idk. in my college hoo she is just a senior in hs about to graduate from spqr and thinking about staying there or #possibly going to newru after seeing frank make the decision the previous year! SAD!#anyway in hoo. percy and annabeth are sophomores. frank and the lost trio are freshman.#but then in toa. percy annie frank and the lost trio are all graduating cuz percy got held back and Annabeth failed after tartarus fr.#but then also know that piper never went to newru and is adamant about going to mortal uni. and leo kills in newru but is bored. nvm i #forgot he died 🧍‍♂️ ummmmmm ok. ignore leo. and jason actually. so um. ok that really threw me off but are u getting it. that's when apollo #is like 'heeyyyyy i need help pwease 🥺' and they're all like 'dude.'#OK!#but also i ackowedge that this is a children's book and i am not its demographic so god be with you.

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milfygerard · 1 year ago

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sometimes i go thru the gaylor tag to see updates or reactions or something and its so funny everytime. You people are insane i respect literally none of you etc etc

#barry.txt #taylor swift #NOTE: THIS IS COMING FROM AN RPF FREAK WHO COULD FEASIBLY IMAGINE TAYLOR SWIFT EATING PUSSY #HATERS IM SORRY BUT THIS ISNT FOR YOU. YOU WILL NOT EARN MY SYMPATHY. anyway #i think i just get really frustrated when a fanbase gets so caught up in itself it cant remember how like....people work #or how relationships function even celebrity ones #i have spent lots of time and energy watching how people react and listening to people talk about relationships and so im annoying abt it #kaylors bless ur hearts im glad ur having fun but posts about their secret relationship make me autism angry #i was THERE for the kaylor divorce. ive listened to evermore more time than id like to admit. theyve at most made an effort to mend a bridg #that baby is a kushner and to imply otherwise is either short sighted or genuinely concerning depending on how deep and intense #the theory is #i think part of the problem is that it forces me to interact w the wider swiftie fandom at large which is a no go zone #i have my circle of blogs i respect even if i find all discussion of travis kind of boring and whenever i try to step out of it #i just end up frustrated #stop trying to prove things! you will never prove things! we dont know her!#i also disagree w lots of the general lyrical analysis but thats not anger i respect the readings they just arent mine #but yeah whatever. script doctoring a niche subset of one of the biggest fandoms on earth. i cant help myself!#none of this applies to you if ur 15 or whatever but i do implore that you not waste all ur time on dumb celebrity theories #and go do anything else

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orcelito · 2 years ago

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BEATING TUMBLR WITH A STICK BC EVEN MY REBLOG ISNT SHOWING UP ON THE DASHBOARD

KILL BITE MAIM ONE MILLION STABS AND YOURE DEAD

#speculation nation #whats the fucking point of making posts about things i care about if theyre not even gonna show up on the dashboard lmao #im genuinely pretty pissed off about this.#it's not the first time ive dealt with this & when it happened previously it did eventually show up #but it makes it so it doesnt show up on the most recent things in the tags & reduces the amount of engagement as a result #like lmfao do i gotta just remake the whole damn post bc ur sorry state of a website cant do its basic function?#in the face of Everything on this stupid website im just so goddamned pissed off.

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acediscowlng · 9 days ago

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i tire of fanfic discourse on twitter because it's always just normies discovering and getting ridiculously offended at the fact that people actually really like reading and writing fanfic

#ara rambles #also people who are just functionally incapable of thinking of fic as its own genre #like its a genre with a form and literary history and dare i say tradition!!!#its genuinely distinct from trad publishing!!!#and isnt that great?? isnt it great that we have this whole other form and genre we can learn and study??#people who keep trying to compare it to trad publishing are absurd #thats not how it works #every genre should be judged by its own merit and conventions and fics are no different #and people missing out on the magic of it just because you already dismissed it as lesser is maddening #i love learning about all of literature it genuinely breaks my heart i cant read every piece of writing just to see what humanity has to say #and we get fuckers like this who are so dull and close minded and it makes me so angry!!!

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catfishofoldin99colours · 6 months ago

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having a very 'whats the point of it all' day which is made worse by the fact that I'm exhausted and the house badly needs cleaning

#catfish speaks #catfish complains #im in pain and groggy and mad about it #everyone seems to want me to Do things and Be places and im tired of it!! holy shit im tired!!!#i need to put a fucking halt on 'hanging out' with people who cant adequately meet me halfway #im so FUCKING tired and everyone still wants stuff from me #yeah ok i should have said no #but also: stop seeing me as someone who can do everything! fucking do something yourself for once! holy shit!!!#now the house is a disaster and everything needs to be cleaned and nothing is right and im in too much pain to handle any of it #i hate this #i also have like 853892 things coming up and i genuinely cannot function at all #there is too fucking much to do and everyone keeps needing me like holy shit FUCK OFF #clair this is not about you dont worry you're an angel

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5-htagonist · 9 months ago

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l@imari has a place in my heart fr

#m/f ways? Extremely Bisexual. f/f ways? smirks...#cannot help but project my autism gender/sexuality onto laios due to woke #1. gender is extremely constructed and not directly correlated to personality all the time. though i generally find gnc people more #attractive regardless of gender but it depends. 2. i despise the social expecation of sex and gender and i think no matter my sex assigned #would probably be trans because i dont feel specifically Male but i refuse and reject being defined by my body and social rules regarding i #social rules chafe my assssssssssss i get ittttt pretty feathers cute little dance watever courting is weird #Why do people suppress themselves?their interests? why is fun childish? these are things that play into our gender perception too #i have genuinely come to believe autistic people and other NDs serve just as important a social function as things like social cohesion and #that is not having the same instinct to fit in as is appropriate #because sometimes fitting in isnt appropriate whether youre conscious of it or not i think its just stupid we cant play tuoys #once were too old or its weird #SIGHS. this became more about me than l@imari.#anyways. thats why i like tfem laios i dont think shed even bother thinking about who specifically she likes genderwise shed be distracted #with other stuff whether the Gender the King stuff or a romantic exploit #no matter how much i think on it i cant define my sexuality #i like droopy or unique eye shapes #i like muscles and fat #i like long hair i like larger lips i like gentleness and conscientiousness and openness and it always goes like this lol #i prefer my men feminine and my women masculine but not always #umm oh body hair <3 <3 <3 <3 and tits. not of any particular size but they gotta be good.#i know genitals that look more pleasing to the eye from ones that are less. they arent all just weird and ugly to me or anything but #other than that stuff i dont think i can call myself bi or pan because its not just about personality and gender does matter in ways but #IDK im nonbinary and gay so whatever its no matter... i think i would get a weird sense of euphoria if a nb/gnc lesbian was attracted to m

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orcelito · 2 years ago

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The ear jack converter doesn't let my mic work or let me use the clicky button to skip songs 😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭

Forced assimilation to what the tech giants decide for us all.

#speculation nation #without those two functions my earbuds are working at like. a third functionality. and im so angry about it.#i dont WANT to switch to bluetooth!!!!!!!!!!#but if i cant skip songs without getting my phone out then it's just. it just doesnt work with my listening style.#im so genuinely pissed about this. this isnt fair.

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odietamox · 9 months ago

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comme les rats, les chats et les monstres

#(ranty tags incoming)#and lots of me feeling sorry for myself #this quote is from a book an home qui dort/a man who sleeps by george perec #its about a college student that one day (seemingly) randomly doesnt take an exam #from that point onwards he stops going to college altogether and stops seeing his friends. hes completely alone #ive seen people mention idk sartre and stuff when talking about this book #some kind of conscious refusal of like yk #but to me its about a guy whos depression and anxiety and who know what other mental illness(es) have gone so bad he cant function anymore #and although i whouldnt put it in these words hes kinda like me #some parts of them book felt like they were genuinely talking about me #(it even ends on a positive note without feeling sappy)#anyway all this started because i think i overheard a family member talking to a friend about me #and its like #what do people think about me?#whateber it is im sure its not very flattering #fuck even i catch myself judging on a first impression wjen i reallly really shouldnt #so yeah i walk alone. i talk to my reflection. im awake at night and i sleep during the day. like the rats the cats and the monsters #and then it keeps going. something like 'the monsters recognize each other on the streets. they never look each other in the eye the avert #they avert their gaze they bow their heads and walk past them. but they know who they are

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saintfrenetic · 1 year ago

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having a normal one tonight boys <- me when i'm lying

#thinking about that post about how loneliness begets lonely #because whouhh. yeahg. it do indeed be doing that #genuinely ive just never been Great at social interaction as the world expects you to be #but im beginning to realize that ive never? not be lonely?#and for a while that was okay because i didnt know any better #and then i did know better #and then i wasnt good enough #and i didnt communicate enough #and i used to try a lot harder but after covid homelessness and moving like 6 times in a year #and being alone in a new city with no connections but my deeply codependent ex #i just. i dont know.#sometimes i genuinely feel like i dont know how to be a person anymore #its not even that i don't want to talk to people i just....?#cant? forget you can do that? gaslight myself into thinking what i have to say is unnecessary and worthless?#took to long to respond and its awkward now? cant think of a functional response?#how do i forget to care about things that i care about.#how does that happen.#why does that happen.#in so many ways i am doing the best i ever #in arguably more ways i am doing fucking horrendous #but i think this is probably the biggest one

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yunamaocaro · 2 years ago

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i literally think im too stupid for c++

#like i just dont get how to put the problems from paper into code idgi #i did alright with c amd i actually enjoyed it too but c++ is incomprehensible #i think i just have a very basic lack of comprehension that im not sure i can do something about #classes and dynamic memory are a whole another world i do not get it #like. sure i can make u a class if you tell me u want this function and that variable but i cant get a problem and solve it by myself #and its annoying bc i genuinely liked programming in c but this is. so frustrating #it makes me feel so stupid #which i guess i am #im gonna kay em es

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etls · 2 years ago

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so fucking angry. why. why did my mum KNOWINGLY treat me worse because she knew some of what I had been through and knew she couldn't fix it. so she minimised everything I felt. ridiculed me for showing any emotion. still does so to this day. but she ADMITTED. that she fucking abused me my entire LIFE, because I was going through so much that my mental health wasn't fixable by her. so she chose to add to my issues? and now she gets fucking upset when I tell her I will never be her fucking friend? that we will never get along? you fucking CAUSED this jo-anne you did this to your fucking SELF.

#want to put this on main but I complain too much there so #aaron #hi my names aaron and ive been here ages but had the most non solid identity ever and I have So Much Trauma hows it fucking going #I'm so fucking exhausted and angry all the time and we can't even get a break now we are 24 this MONTH #cant get over her telling me her reasons for this. her APOLOGISING. then continuing just the same a week later #business as fucking usual.#but if my fucking brothers ~depression~ gets a bit bad she makes sure we All treat him as gentle as fucking possible #she made sure he has never faced adversity. she was the model parent to him his entire life.#she told me I was a lost cause by the time he was born. I was 3 when he was born. so what does she fucking know about that she wont let on #because not many 3 year olds have enough trauma and bad enough mental health to be written off by their mum as a lost fucking cause.#it's funny. me and my brother are both fucked in the real world. him because he's never had to do anything difficult in his life #and me because I'm too messed up to even function anymore. I'd say I'd rather be like him but at least I'm not genuinely fucking stupid #she never pushed him to learn things if it got too hard. just set us both up for failure in different ways really #at least if I ever get out I have the drive to do something with my life. eventually.

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mbbmz · 6 months ago

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tr boys hc with reader who stays up night and wakes up early (basically never sleeps but is up and running fine)

Hehe I kinda like that, did it with Ran, Rindou and Kazutora (hope that’s okay)

Ran

- Cant talk about sleeping without talking about him

- Genuinely doesn’t understand how you function in life, bro needs his 14 hours of sleep to function properly.

- Every time you guys spend time together he ends up falling asleep on you while you stay up reading or just looking at your phone.

- Sometimes he’ll be upset at you if you do too much noise while he’s sleeping.

- Gave up on the idea of nap dates with you.

- If you do end up falling asleep before him (which almost never happens) you can bet he wont let you get out of bed.

- Rindou genuinely doesnt understand how your relationship works out.

Rindou

- He doesn’t really care at first, like he’s not your mom.

- Until he sees you pulling up all nighters a few times in a row

- If you put up with it, he’ll just grab you in bed, he doesn’t give a single fuck

- Probably calls you Batman

- If he wakes up in the middle of the night and see you’re not sleeping he’ll grab whatever you’re focusing on and put it away (doesn’t give a single fuck pt2)

- If it’s not affecting your health he’ll eventually let go and let you do whatever you want

- Would still pull you to bed sometimes, "for your health" while in reality he just enjoys feeling your presence when he falls asleep.

Kazutora

- He’s a night owl too, you two put on all nighters together.

- Would probably play video games while you do you, before asking if you want to join him

- If you do you’ll probably end up playing all night until he falls asleep on your lap at dawn

- Has a lot of nightmares so enjoys sleeping next to you, it soothes him.

- Sometimes if you two are together at night and you’re bored he’ll take you on a ride on his bike.

- Might end up in late night talks if he’s in an open mood

- Sometimes he’d just let his head on your lap while you’re on your phone and just look at you, ending up falling asleep most of the time.

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