#i forgot what all my normal tags are

[heartorbit]

the star you've longed for

[deivorous]

He's going to explode from the inside out. Or pop. Or be crushed. Or, or, or something something. He doesn't know. He's never felt anything like this before. This complete. This full. He wants to laugh. He wants to puke. He's vision is a smear of color and he squints but none of it comes back into focus.

Kisuke's somewhere. Can't see him. Can't feel him. Might be able to smell him, but the whole place reeks of him, when the cat-bitch isn't stinking it out. Makes him nervy - all of him is nervy right now. Live wire. Lit up. Buzzing, buzzing, buzzed. Is this how Kurosaki lives? Every day?

How does he do anything. Grimmjow's pretty sure he can't feel his feet on the ground except that when Kurosaki yanks, he steps and there's gotta be something solid under there, cuz he doesn't fall.

He blinks hard. Orange somewhere in front of him - exactly where he knows every inch of Kurosaki's flesh is. Vision a blur, hearing a high pitched whine the same frequency as Kurosaki's reiatsu vibrates at, an icepick on the inside of his skull, scraping against the bone, if he opens his mouth he thinks the same sound might come from his throat. Or something worse.

There is a sound there now. A low grade snarl that revs like an engine, in and out with every breath and between everything else, he can't quite clamp the noise into submission.

The only thing he knows is that Kurosaki is in front of him. Smeared orange. Buzzing reiatsu. Pulling yanking, split lip, sore ribs (Grimmjow's doing, he got a shin in there hard and fast) angry angry - Grimmjow can feel that through the - in the pit of his hole, he can feel that. Not as angry as Kurosaki can get - not as angry as Grimmjow's seen others - but the sensation is the most potent emotion Grimmjow's every felt. All the way human. All the way real.

And in his mouth. He can taste the blood. But he can taste Kurosaki too. Like he sunk his teeth in real good and took a huge bite. Bit from the moon itself. Fuck, fuck. He feels sick. He feels high. Fuck - his claws bite into his palms and his teeth find the fat wet of his tongue and the giggle dies there with a burst of fresher blood. Almost distracted by the taste, but not really, cuz Kurosaki feels him bite too, and he feels Kurosaki feel him bite and the sensation echoes back and forth and back and forth in the space between them. Too wide.

Kisuke's still here somewhere, he tries to remind himself but the thought dies under the sensory overload.

The whole floor rolls under him and the tugging sensation drags him another step forward until he's nearly right on top of Kurosaki. As close as he'll let himself get. He doesn't want to be any closer. Any closer, any more, and he really might disintegrate or something awful.

Kurosaki is so much bigger that he should be. So much bigger than Grimmjow, or Aizen, or anyone else. His bones are fucking vibrating.

He can barely string a thought together. He's following instructions on auto-pilot. Go there. Walk there. Whenever he does that it hurts. Kurosaki is full of stupid ideas. Stupid, painful ideas. Why the fuck does he want to do that when instead he could just sit here and buzz and float and laugh, what the shit Kurosaki. What the actual shit.

Ooooh hoh he is not okay. Kisuke is such a cunt. He should definitely kill him, when he can see straight again. When he comes down off the fucking heroin that is Kurosaki's unfiltered, unrestricted, unrestrained pumping through his veins. He has a fucking pulse.

"We tried your way, fuckhead." Too many words. He's pretty sure he says them all right though.

Kurosaki's hand is down to the right. Right hand. Right wrist. Doesn't need to see or smell or feel to know it's right there. He grabs it - left hand, left wrist. Matching black ribbon around the skinny bit.

Sucks to be Kurosaki, but Grimmjow's lost the left hand before and it was fine. Still beat Kurosaki into the ground about it. If cutting the ribbon doesn't work, they'll just have to sacrifice the whole arm.

He draws Pantera.

@deivorous

This was, undeniably, the worst thing Urahara had ever done to him.

Ichigo already knew the man was an unhinged lunatic. That had been clear since the day the bastard threw him into a pit and told him to climb out before he turned into a Hollow. But this? 

This was next-level bullshit.

Urahara’s apparent idea of conflict resolution was to slap a metaphysical leash and muzzle on them and call it a day. A leash that, apparently, also links their goddamn souls together.

He glares down at the thick, black band cinched around his wrist, resisting the urge to gnaw it off like a trapped animal. It’s simple at first glance—just stitched, leathery fabric infused with kido—but the moment it’s touched, he can feel it. Like something alive, like it’s watching, breathing against his skin.

Removing it hadn’t gone well the first time he’d tried slicing it off. Not because the fabric wouldn’t cut—it did. The moment Zangetsu’s edge touched it, the band split clean through. But before he could breathe a sigh of relief, they were both on the ground. The second it tore, a sharp, crushing force squeezed his chest—hard enough to throw him to his knees, hard enough that for a split second he thought his goddamn heart was stopping.

The next thing he saw as his eyes blinked open was wooden sandals. Then the band was back on. 

Ichigo hadn’t realized what happened at first, but then he saw the blood at the corner of Grimmjow’s mouth—blood that he felt in his own throat—and it clicked.

What hurt one of them, hurt both of them. 

Ichigo tongues his fat lip. That one is his own fault. He’d thrown the first punch, and the fist that should’ve done nothing more than bust Grimmjow in the jaw, had sent pain spiking through his own mouth. 

Worth it though. Grimmjow had deserved that one. 

Ichigo exhales sharply, like it’ll do anything to lessen the weight of the arrancar’s reiatsu that curls under his skin. Grimmjow’s energy shouldn’t feel like this—shouldn’t sit in his bones like hot steel, shouldn’t thrum against his pulse like something trying to sync up.

Then there was the time they’d tried just walking away. 

Pain.

Immediate, brutal, bone-deep pressure.

Like something pressing down on his chest with the weight of a fucking building, squeezing his lungs until his ribs threatened to splinter. That was what happened if they got too far apart. A dull pressure that built into agony if either of them so much as dared to leave shouting distance from the other. 

A city block was difficult. Two was impossible. 

Ichigo doesn’t have to look to know exactly where Grimmjow is behind him, because his reiatsu is too goddamn close, crawling through Ichigo’s veins like a second pulse.

He knows because when Grimmjow twitches, Ichigo twitches.

He knows because if Grimmjow gets too far, the bands will try to drag them back together.

And if they resist?

It will fucking hurt.

The rules, as explained by that smug, sandal-wearing menace of a shopkeeper, were simple: The bands keep them linked. No matter how much they fight, they can’t be more than a certain distance apart without the bands reacting.

If one of them dies, the other follows. No tricks, no loopholes. If Grimmjow keels over in a ditch somewhere, Ichigo drops too.

If they try to remove the bands? Their souls get crushed from the inside out.

The more they resist the bond, the worse the punishment.

So, essentially?

Their souls were tied together—with a dose of the corporeal just for fun. Or, as Urahara so casually put it, “A happy little exercise in cooperation!”

Ichigo has never wanted to throttle him more.

And the worst part?

It was entirely their fault.

Because they wouldn’t stop fighting.

The final straw started as an argument. Which, with Grimmjow, meant a barely-contained brawl waiting to happen.

Ichigo didn’t even remember what the hell set them off. Probably something stupid. But next thing he knew, fists were flying, walls were breaking, and at some point Grimmjow might have tried to throw a cero at his head.

And then Urahara got involved.

With this.

Ichigo exhales sharply, rolling his shoulders, feeling the pull of the band, the way it tugs not-even-subtly toward Grimmjow.

His eye twitches.

No. Fuck that.

If he’s going to be on a goddamn supernatural leash with a feral, territorial menace for the foreseeable future, he’s going to be able to use his own damn hand when he wants.

So he shakes the tingle out of his arm and yanks.

“You’re cutting off my circulation.”

[fairyroses]

He was about to kill you, Lex. Or divulge something you didn't want me to know.

— SMALLVILLE, "Forever" (4.21)

+ bonus from "Arctic" (7.20):

[valhallavalgrace]

How have your interactions with your floormates been? Do any of them seem particularly friendly?

I think this might be your guy to talk to, Leo, just a hunch...

prev ask

[kinokoshoujoart]

CORRECT TAGS‼️‼️‼️‼️ @rn0na-lizard you are so so so correct….. my favorite ‘Normal Girl’ in hmds…….i almost never see anyone talk about these aspects of her let alone also love her for them as they should.

i feel like Leona/ DS lumina gets mischaracterized super often which is understandable bc out of all the DS candidates leona is the least like her ancestor (who i also love, for different reasons).

in AWL lumina was the only kid in the valley for a very long time, but many of the DS residents have lived in the valley their whole lives. while lumina had accepted her role as a proper young heiress by chapter 3 of AWL— and when DS begins Leona already at this point of her life— lumina still had a lingering sense of uncertainty and angst and loneliness and doubt, and unresolved worries about her parents. absolutely none of this is present with leona

in this world leona starts with Lumina’s 22 year old appearance, she’s just rich as hell and living her best life (as she deserves), she’s unabashedly shallow, puts herself first always, speaks so politely and affably yet she can be so casually cruel in the most genuine cute way and out of touch with reality and and i fucking love her and i’d die for her. my beloved girlboss girlkeep girlypop

more iconic Leona Moments

when muu/muffy asks for beauty advice leona’s recommendation is “this brand of mail order beauty cream is simply divine! and it was quite inexpensive too, just 100,000 G 🥰” everyone else looks uncomfortable and muu is like “you’re as frivolous as always….”

aside from the 3 who take literally half your money (Witch💖, moi, and thomas) leona and panama (romana) take the most money from you if they carry you home when you faint. just a couple of girl bosses holding on to their girlpire (btw shout out to sebastian, the only resident in the entire valley who carries you home for free)

neither panama nor leona attend the harvest festival, they send sebastian there by himself to test the food first lmao (if you poison it like the witch they’re harboring on their property requires you to do, sebastian is just like “i can’t serve this to Mistress Panama…”)

once again sebastian attacks mukumuku for her sake, this time not to make her a paintbrush but she told him to get her the best slippers and this was apparently the easiest way. sebastian gets fucking mauled btw

leona has hands down the best romance route in hmds. all her scenes are incredible but god the slow burn friends to lovers with your DVD player….

in her purple heart event she shows up at your house because she heard you have a DVD player, asks you to show her how it works, and then just leaves after she’s done playing with it

in her yellow heart event she has sebastian fetch van so she can buy a DVD player for herself but van’s like “i’m so sorry …. Pete… bought the last one….”

leona is so unable to stomach the idea of other people having things she doesn’t that she starts to cry and the only way to placate her is to tell her she can go to your house anytime she wants just so she can use your DVD player. that’s not a setup to a budding romance that’s her final heart event

it’s the most incredible romance arc in the world like girl you have infinite money you can just. buy a DVD player somewhere else?? “i want to watch DVDs at my house just like you!” leona you have three entire bedrooms

“rich girl love interest who has everything except love, win her heart by having genuine conversation with her”: done to death, tired, i don’t have time for that

“rich girl love interest who has everything except a fucking DVD player, win her heart by giving her expensive stuff and ‘relax tea’ and access to your DVD player”: audacious, intriguing, never been done before, innovative

if you deny her god-given right to access your DVD player she is like “Is that so……………Just let me be alone for a little bit.” incredible tragedy i understand. take as much time as you need to grieve darling

oh but her first heart event asks you to pick a side in an argument she’s having with panama and the correct answer is to say “sebastian is the one who’s wrong” (sebastian has said nothing wrong this whole time and yet both of them have just been yelling at him to shut up)

and her blue heart event is “help me find this heirloom necklace… boohoo…” and when you find it she’s like “perfect! now grandma won’t get mad at me. hmm, you seem pretty dependable…♡” augh she’s way too good at this…….!!! i’ll do anything for you!

when you propose she says “of course, i always dreamed of having a romance and a wedding♡” and says nothing abt how she feels about you <3

also if you marry her, once a week she goes to hang out at her ex love interest’s place for 6 hours straight and comes home saying “whew… i had so much fun that i must have lost track of time… i’ll hurry on home”

if you marry another girl she starts flirting with you like “I’m so envious of your wife, having such a fine husband… Pete.” (or whatever your name is)

i’ve become obsessed with her and romeo’s horrible trainwreck soap opera marriage since replaying cute in jp… it’s SO… i have so much to say about them that it should be its own post but i’ll just give the cliffnotes

shotgun wedding vibes. romeo is surprised by his own wedding. they’re childhood friends but he himself has never considered marrying her. her words to him at their wedding are “Make me happy♡” (command)

she understandably can’t stand his terrible table manners or his clothes or anything about him (except that she wants to watch him surf and have his child. but he instead walks in circles all day. coward) and he’s both really good at accidentally stepping on landmines and just ever so slightly majorly terrified of her after marriage (“but surely her angry outbursts are just her way of showing love hahahahaha” you’re going to die. she’s going to kill you). the only positive things they say about their marriage are extremely shallow. they can’t communicate with each other because romeo always says the Dumbest Shit obliviously and leona always responds by cutting him out of her life forever!!!!!! (for 5 seconds) while he has no idea what happened

they are both so melodramatic and they both just do nothing except make each other worse and run away from each other and push each other away but they can’t escape each other. neither of them ever has to grow or change if they marry each other because an elderly overworked man is sustaining both of their existences and neither of them can take care of themselves and i love them your honor

also romeo’s first crush as a kid was apparently her mom, and if leona falls for YOU she flirts by mentioning that sebastian says you look like the spitting image of her dead father. dear fucking god

they’re the epitome of “You're both just enabling each other's mental illnesses. You're both perfect for each other. Never change. Just never involve anybody else in what you've got going on.”

romeo really does feel like her stupid lackey. like the karen to her regina. they even had this dynamic in the games they played as kids… she was the Harvest Goddess and he was Servant A/Minion A (they might still be playing this game as adults…he calls her lady/mistress sometimes after marriage…)

btw leona’s best friend (wife) marivia is also just as… there’s an event where they just gossip about all the mineral town ppl and marivia says ann would win a gluttony contest and they both giggle

there’s also an event where marivia casually walks into Witch’s hut and just interviews her so she can write her into a novel. witch is left completely drained by this exchange. leona and marivia both are so chill about the horrible cruel villainess living in leona’s shed who wants the town poisoned and rewards you for killing animals and hurting yourself and is putting curses on everyone (and they’re right. she’s never done anything wrong in her life)

[mcyt-cats]

do you ever have to like. check references to remember cat names. or do you just have a mental database of every cc cat ever

Great question! For like the first two years of running this blog it was basically just a mental database. Like genuinely I just knew them. There's a few cats that I've always had trouble telling apart (like Minx's cats or Martyn's cats) but I used to be able to ID most of them off a photo without you even telling me which CC owned them.

These days it's a bit more to keep track of, I update this blog less often, and I spend less time stalking CCs on social media for cat photos. It is much more difficult for me to remember all their names. So right now, if I forget a cat name, I normally just search this blog for the CC name. My tagging over the years has benefitted me because it allows me to double check things very easily!

[xxplastic-cubexx]

thank yoy for drawing erik so big . He is a big man. HUGE EVEN. thank you.

Big man……….. i love me big man…..

[twoa-plus]

sorry if ur one of my mutuals who still has any respect for me im abt to shatter it like glass

ttmy yuri. i will not explain myself

bonus peeled version:

[antimony-medusa]

Okay so inspired by nothing in particular (it's inspired by reading the notes on the ace swag final poll, fun stuff in there), I have been thinking about being Cringe. Cause like, you enter a fandom, and usually, you find out shortly that somebody else hates that fandom. There is no fandom niche enough that it's not Weird to somebody, and there's no fandom mainstream enough that it's not Annoying to somebody else. And given the fact that some people do hatred recreationally, there's often going to be somebody mad enough about your fandom that they're going to go on diatribes about how your fandom is bad and actually harmful and destroying the fabric of civilization, etc. They're gonna pull out anything negative and blow it up until it's the size of the skyline and attack you for liking this negative thing.

Fun times, we've all seen it.

And the thing is, there's an impulse to have this happen and immediately find somebody else to point to and say, yeah, well, I might be weird, but at least I'm not THAT guy. I might read YA, but at least I'm not a Furry— those guys are sexual deviants! I might be into actual play podcasts, but at least I'm not into mcyt— those guys are all harmful and my guy is fine. I might be into danmei, but at least I'm not into bandom— rpf is so gross. I might be a furry, but at least I'm not into mainstream romance novels— senseless drivel aimed at middle class white women. Y'know. Immediately find someone to punch down on.

And boy do I understand why you want to do that, when people are pointing at you, but I don't actually think that it's helpful.

Cause like, every fandom has a logical train of thought and reasonable human impulses behind it. You might not share those impulses— I'm not a furry I don't think, I don't really get true crime— but that doesn't mean I can't have it explained to me by a very patient person in in the writer's workshop common room and go "oh, yeah, kinda pretending to be an animal, but you're gay about it, yeah, makes sense", or "oh yeah, morbid curiosity from the safety of your headphones, it's like a horror movie but real" and nod. Like there isn't a fandom or group out there that doesn't look weird from the outside, and there isn't a fandom or group that can't be explained if someone has thought about the human psyche enough.

And that isn't to say that there isn't sometimes salient critiques for what fandoms are doing or not doing— to grab the two examples above, I have heard people talking about issues with true crime reinforcing the current fucked up justice system, or bigotry at furry cons. But a) most of the time, there is already somebody inside that community that's fighting against those issues, and you just threw them under the bus with the problem they're trying to fix b) you don't usually know the nuances of the actual conversation and problems, you saw a couple callout posts. You saying "Yeah I'm a board game nerd but at least I don't play competitive trading card cames, those guys are doing nothing but feeding the capitalist machine" is not usually helpful towards fixing the ctg scene. It's just a cheap way to score points.

Like, I assure you that the YA scene is aware of the calcification of the genre into a tighter and tighter romantic form and their dependence on going big on tik-tok to sell enough to keep publishing. They know.

You specifically saying that your fandom is better cause it's not [problems you heard about other fandom having] is not actually going to make the person who's hating on you stop hating. They already decided that you're the person they're better than and that they're punching down on, you passing the punching down on to another fandom just makes more people sad on the internet, and potentially starts yet another chain of someone punching down at someone else. The wheel grinds on, everybody gets punched.

I guess this is just kinda turning into a "why hate on the internet, what good does that do" post, which is broader than I meant it to be. But like, there's a difference between thoughtful critique of problems (complicated to do fairly but very necessary) and finding someone new to curbstomp to make yourself feel better/morally superior (look, I'm writing this on a mcyt blog, we've all seen this happen, it does not increase the joy in the world).

Like in MCYT, we all decide to punch down on [other server we hate], or RPF, or people who write kidfic, or people who write e-rated fic/art, or people doing the popular trope of the moment, and sure, it lets you feel morally superior for the moment, at the cost of slapping the guy next to you. Haven't we had enough slapping the guy next to you? There but for the grace of god (got a fun idea/watched the wrong stream/ended up in the wrong brainstorming circle/got fixated on the wrong funny guy) goes I. You're not better than another group just because you saw a couple more callout posts (usually from people inside the community trying to fix things) about them.

We are all Cringe. There is nobody who's not Cringe. Don't say that you're not Cringe because someone else is more Cringe. Stop that.

[james-spooky]

this is a test

[daemon-in-my-head]

WIP Whenever

Thank you for the tag @jashonja

Finally got smth that isn't just stick figures, ik the hair nd sht is weird, trust the process skdhsksksms (knowing me, this is by no means an indication of the final product)

Dunno if I'll keep the flower or if I'll just throw gore in there or not... I kinda wanna but also kinda hmmmmm subtlety is fun.

Tagging @aleksxo @defira85 @beecreeper @quacaserous nd anyone else who wants to

Somebody remind me to do the accessories I forgot em... Earings nd rings my beloved

[hailsatanacab]

new chap new chap new chap 👻🎉

[mythtiide]

i havent actually been much recently! (this is because ive been writing nonstop for the past like 5 days...) but i have gotten some stuff doodled from today n a bit from yesterday (+ some bonus older ones under the cut)

[goblin-enjoyer]

Been binging some new frogger vids at the moment (i heard 6v6 is coming back soon and am sadly getting hyped) and I had a horrifying realization about two of the characters in the series. behold my madness and weep at my lack of knowledge on both troll quadrants and character interactions. I'm not a fishmonger, I wouldn't know that stuff.

[waywardsalt]

deciding (and realizing based on the way i write and think abt it) that no matter what bellum is not making it out of swabbie rank. he’s put at the lowest rank of whatever hierarchy linebeck decides to adhere to no matter what, no matter the au. bellum can be practically a stowaway or romantically involved with the captain but he is swabbie while link made it to first mate in a handful of months and while being like twelve. bellum gets the mop. to humble him.

[opal-gardenias-secretaskblogwoah]

you’re very blue.

“Hm? Oh, I suppose I am- ♪”

“It’s my favorite color… or, was… now I like lavender…”