#i fell asleep in the middle of writing this :')

[layaispunk]

closer than ever

pairing: joel miller x reader

summary: In the midst of a quiet, cold night in the woods, old feelings resurface between you and Joel.

warnings: bit of angst, mentions of loss, depictions of grief, established relationship (sort of), Ellie being a smart-ass, pet-names (sweetheart, darlin)

wc: 1.7k

note: I was making food for my dogs and I dropped everything to write this bdw.

The smell hit you first. Salty, metallic, and slightly rancid. Your stomach churned as you stared at the open can of dog food in your hands. It was the only thing Joel had managed to scavenge. "Best I could do, sweetheart," and you knew he meant well. He always did.

You tried not to gag, pressing the back of your hand to your mouth, shaking your head. "I can't do it, Joel," you muttered, pushing the can away. "I'll just throw it up, and that's even worse. I'd be dehydrated."

Joel's brow furrowed, his gaze flicking between you and the can. "You gotta eat somethin'. You're lookin' too pale."

Ellie, seated nearby and chewing on what little jerky was left, leaned over and made a face at the can. "Don't make her eat that, dude. That's disgusting," she said, her voice half-amused, half-horrified.

"It's all I could find. We're in the middle of fuckin' nowhere," Joel muttered defensively, shooting her a look.

"Yeah, well, it's dog food," Ellie retorted, stretching out the words like they were meant to gross him out. "She's not a dog, Joel."

Joel let out a long sigh, rubbing a hand over his face. "Ain't like i'm feedin' it to her by force."

You couldn't help the small laugh that escaped despite the situation. The woods were eerily still, the only sound coming from the crackle of the fire Joel had started for warmth. The air had a sharp chill to it - not enough to freeze you, but enough to remind you that the seasons were shifting. The three of you were on the move, searching for Tommy, hoping he'd have answers.

"Thank you, Joel, but I'm not eating that." you said, shaking your head. "Help yourself, though! Looks like its all yours," you added with a teasing smirk.

The teasing faded as the fire crackled low. The stars were unusually bright, their glow filling the sky. There were only two sleeping bags between the three of you. Joel must've noticed the worry crossing your face. "You can take mine. I'll be fine."

You blinked at him, incredulous. "Are you out of your mind? You're no good to us if you're frozen solid."

Joel chuckled softly, the sound low and warm in the cold night air. “I ain’t gonna freeze, darlin’,” he muttered, clearly amused by your concern.

You hesitated for a moment, then whispered, careful not to disturb Ellie, who was already deep in her sleeping bag. “We can just share. It’s big enough for the two of us.”

He stayed silent.

Joel and you had been together before everything fell apart. It was the best thing that’s ever happened to both of you. After he lost Sarah, things changed. The grief consumed him, and the man who once held you close became distant, shutting himself off from the world, including you. It had been a long time since he'd shown any affection, and it stung - but you'd never push it. A piece of him died with Sarah, and you knew how deeply he adored her.

You still remember it all too well. Two decades ago. The way he held Sarah’s lifeless body in his arms after she was shot, refusing to let go until you were lucky enough to find a cabin, a rare moment of luck amidst the chaos that day - the day hell broke loose on Earth.

He held her so tightly, like he was trying to stop time. With a slow, reluctant tenderness, he laid her on the unmade bed that once belonged to someone else, covered her as though she were still asleep, and left without saying a word to you or Tommy. And in that moment, a piece of him stayed behind, lingering in the stillness of that room.

Lately, though, things felt different. The more time you spent away from the QZ, trying to take Ellie to the fireflies ... he became softer around you, even more so around Ellie.

You could see how she was healing a part of him, the cracks in his heart starting to close, even if none of them were aware of it. But you were.

You've spent most of your life around Joel Miller. You knew him from the inside out. You never talked about how he's not affectionate with you anymore, not in the way he used to be before the outbreak.

You know he needs time and space, and you're ready to give him that, even if it meant slowly going crazy over it. You knew he hadn't fallen out of love with you; he made sure you knew that - whether it was giving you most of the food, making sure you had the warmest layer of clothes even if it meant him going without, or offering you what was left of his coffee grounds; and you know how much he loved coffee.

Even when words weren't there, his actions spoke louder, and you could feel the love in every small gesture, even if it was unspoken.

Your thoughts returned to Joel, as they often did, and how much he’d changed. How the man you’d once known - the one who had loved you so fiercely, despite the world falling apart - was slowly starting to resurface, little by little.

The crackling fire snapped, pulling you out of your thoughts. You glanced over at Joel, now starting to arrange the sleeping bag, his eyes distant yet soft, and his movements slow and deliberate as he gestured for you to get in. He gave you a nod, his eyes dark in the dim light.

You shook your head. “No, you go first,” you said with a small smirk. “You take up a lot more space than I do.”

He didn't argue. He nodded, listening to you without protest, and started climbing in, settling quickly. You followed, slipping in front of him, feeling the warmth of his body just behind you. You couldn't help but smile to yourself; it felt like nothing had changed, the familiar comfort of being close to him bringing back memories of the past. You shifted slightly, reminding yourself of how, more often than not, you used to be the little spoon.

"You alright?" his words bringing you back to the present. "Yeah," you replied softly. With that, he draped an arm over your hips, his hand gently resting against yours; the warmth of his touch grounding you.

It took you by surprise. His calloused hands were gentle, warm, reassuring you that he was still here, still the man who once held you close without hesitation.

You turned around to face him, your heart skipping a beat as you took in the soft glow of his face, illuminated by the faint light of the moon and the dying embers of the fire.

His features were more beautiful than ever; and without thinking, you leaned closer, your warm hands cupping his face gently. As your fingers brushed his skin, he closed his eyes, a quiet sigh escaping him.

Teary-eyed, your voice barely a whisper, the words coming out before you could stop them; "I missed you."

Joel’s gaze softened as he looked at you, his eyes lingering on your lips, the weight of unspoken words hanging in the air between you. His heart raced, matching the rhythm of yours, as the distance between you both seemed to shrink. Slowly, ever so gently, his forehead touched yours, the warmth of his skin grounding you both. Closer than ever- physically, emotionally - like a puzzle piece fitting into place.

Your finger traced the outline of his lips, soft and tentative, as if asking for permission. It was all so delicate.

Then, with a breath that seemed to suspend time, you kissed him. Softly at first, gently, testing the waters, wondering how he would respond.

And then, he kissed you back. Not the tentative kiss you expected, but one full of depth, of yearning. It was slow, deliberate, as if he were pouring everything he had into that one moment—every ounce of love, every regret, every unspoken word. It was a kiss that spoke louder than any conversation ever could. This was enough. For you, it was enough.

When you finally pulled away, your eyes fluttered closed, both of you breathing in the silence, your hearts still racing but in sync.

Without a single word, without a need for more, you settled into each other’s arms, the unspoken understanding between you clear. And with that, you fell asleep, a quiet peace settling over you both.

[blond3ang3l]

❄️Snowy day with Batkids❄️

(Male reader)

Dick- 17 Jason- 16 Tim-12 Duke & Cass- 10 Steph- 7 Damian-5

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“Get your cold ass hands off me you son of a bitch!”

“No way, not after you had us outside for two hours because you lost the key.”

You shook your head listening to your two step children go back and forth. You had came home to see them in nothing but pajamas outside to your confusion. What made it worse was that it was snowing heavy, at least 4 inches now. You had just came back from food shopping and Bruce was out grabbing other stuff. You two left the oldest two to watch their younger siblings so just how did they end up out here? You unlocked the door and pushed them into the house to warm up.

“Cmon boys. I’m gonna go check on your brothers and sisters. You two try not to kill each other please.”

Your hand went to the back of their heads rubbing it softly before going upstairs to check on the younger five kids. It was the middle of the days so the youngest two Damian and Steph were in their rooms napping. You stepped into the room and your heart practically melted. The two tended to argue about literally nothing but they looked so adorable. The two fell asleep on the floor next to each other after they seemed to have finished painting. They were covered in it and their finished products were on the floor. Steph’s was a picture of the family and Damian’s seemed to be of you, Bruce, and Talia. A small smile came on your face and you picked the two up and laid them in their beds. You’d have to bathe them later but it was so worth it.

Duke was playing quietly with Cass in their shared room. As you stepped in the two kids practically lit up. You were ambushed and tackled to the floor making you groan but chuckle as well.

“I’m glad you guys are happy to see me.”

“Daddy! Is papa Bruce with you? He said he was gonna train me when he got back from the store!”

You smiled at Cass’s eagerness to see and be like her other father. It was adorable how much you guys children adored him.

“No, but he is on his way. Why don’t you get dressed so you’ll be ready when he comes.”

She practically squealed with excitement at your words. Duke was holding on to your leg. You looked down to him and he was smiling up at you. It was damn cute, while bruce had Cass, Damian, Dick and Stephanie you had Duke and Jason who were total daddy boys for you. You pressed your lips to his forehead before letting go back to playing.

That was four now only one was missing. When you heard a sudden crash from the bathroom you knew it was the last one.

“Tim, what are you doing this time?”

He turned around and all you see is him messing with your hair and skin care. The twelve year olds face was covered in your charcoal mask making you shake your head to keep from laughing.

“I uh- I didn’t know you’d be home so soon dad.”

“Uh huh, and you seem to be havin a real good time with my stuff kid.

You wet a rag to wipe the excess away from his eyes to keep it from getting inside them.

“Need to be careful boy. Next time wait for me to help you. Or ask Dick, he knows how to do it without getting messy. And ask before you just touch my stuff, you could have been allergic to something in this”

“My bad dad.”

You hummed in response until you hand sudden thought.

“Wait a minute did you not hear your brothers knocking on the door?”

“Oh no I did. But they wouldn’t let me play the game with them so I ignored it.”

You deadpanned at your son’s words and got ready to scold him when you heard Stephanie’s small voice calling out to you.

“Dada!”

You had a long day ahead of you..

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I’m gonna make a part two probably next week

My Christmas sucked so writing what I want my future to be<3

[svt-aurora]

Can you do like a background of Aurora and Joshua's relationship like a timeline and how did the members react to them being together, obviously 1 to 11 members from seungcheol to dino these men are all nosy like they would find out accidentally and tell others lol, btw love your writings please post more 🥰🥰 HAHAHA

“They Don’t Know That We Know”

⊱ timeline: march 2017

⊱ summary: aurora and joshua finally decided that it was time to tell their members about their relationship, but little did they know, all 12 members had secretly found out in their own.

⊱ a/n: hi anon! ty for the request! this writing is just how the members found out abt aurora and josh, but i’m planning to post one abt how they met and fell in love. stay tuned for that, and i hope this satisfied ur request!

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it was the day after their one month anniversary, and the couple had been snuggling up to each other on the couch watching a movie. it was a good thing that aurora had her own apartment because they would’ve been easily caught by the other members if they were living in the dorms.

“when are we gonna tell the boys we’re dating?” aurora thought out loud.

“whenever you want to,” joshua answered nonchalantly, eyes still focused on the tv.

she turned her head to look at the boy, “well i think i want to. i mean we’ve been together for a month now, and we can’t keep it a secret forever.”

finally, joshua turned to make eye contact with areum. “how about we tell them tomorrow after practice? does that sound like a good idea?”

“it does,” she smiled.

so, the next day once practice was over, aurora stopped everyone from leaving to tell them their secret.

“guys wait don’t leave yet. i um need to tell you something.” areum said, glancing at joshua who was already staring at her.

the boys all stopped their actions, turning their attention to the girl, “hurry up and spit it out bro. i have places to be.” seungkwan urged.

“i- we are dating. joshua and i are dating,” aurora blurted.

“bitch, we know.” jeonghan bluntly confessed.

“wait what?” shua furrowed his eyebrows, looking between the group of boys and areum, who was equally confused.

“well…”

a couple weeks ago, aurora and joshua were in the middle of being all lovey dovey in the dorm kitchen, thinking they were slick (they weren’t). it had been 12 am in the morning, so all of the members must have been asleep. and they were, all 12 boys fast asleep in their room, all except hoshi. he had forgotten to eat dinner, so hoshi decided to go to the kitchen to make a late night snack.

just before entering the kitchen, he heard the voices of his shua hyung and areum. though soonyoung didn’t think much of it because the two had always been super close. but when he moved to actually enter the room, he was stunned by the scene in front of him. they were kissing. like on the lips. he had her leaning against the counter, hands tangled in her dark hair. he was shocked to say the least. hoshi covered his mouth to prevent any sound of disbelief from escaping and hurried back to his room.

the next day, soonyoung chose not to confront the couple, but instead chose to tell the 11 other boys. he didn’t even try to keep it to himself. so moving on from then, the members just kept to themselves the fact that two of their members were dating.

“wait. so you guys knew this entire time and didn’t say anything?” aurora stared at the boys in disbelief.

“um yea, we wanted to see how long it would take for you to tell us yourselves.” jun spoke as if it was already obvious.

“you guys weren’t exactly good at hiding it either. i mean we can see it in your eyes,” minghao added.

“it’s okay noona and hyung, we’re happy for you guys.” dino smiled at the two. the members all nodded in agreement, reassuring the couple that they were indeed not upset.

“we’ll just have to get used to you guys being so,” mingyu paused, “so in love.”

joshua stared into her eyes, face filled with joy as he grabbed ahold of her hand. “i love you,” he spoke causing her to blush. “i love you too.”

half of the boys made gagging noises, and the other half oohed and awwed. but in the end, none of their weird sounds mattered, because either way the couple knew that deep down their members fully supported their relationship.

[adhdtsukasa]

good morning everyone, rise and shine, have you thought about the world hasn't even started yet today? nope? then now you do! because with full emukasa and ruinene sekahaji alts finally releasing, it's time for me to (over)analyze my favorite and definitely one of the most underrated wonderlands x showtime's songs that is still haunting the narrative to this day. (haunting the narrative is actually a bit of a dramatic way to call it, but i like to be dramatic and so do wxs.)

in full seriousness, i just really, really like sekahaji's lyrics and it's such a shame it's not getting talked about that much anymore only because that's an old song, especially since pinocchiop is a lyrics genius. so if you're interested in my personal interpretation of sekahaji, including analyzing the foreshadowing of the future events included in the lyrics and analyzing the line distribution not only in the original ver, but in the alt vocals as well, then tune in! because i have a lot to say.

will be using the screenshots from vocaloid lyrics wiki, but i'm going to say who's singing the line anyways, so it's not that much of a problem. i think. (also the alts line distribution is not really that important, it's mostly ruikasa and emunene singing each other's lines with two exceptions. but some lines hurt more when it's the other who sings it, so who am i not to mention it?)

"sekahaji is such a fun song" and then the first lines of the song after the bunch of hey heys and it's showtimes are already giving me a bunch of an emotional damage. oh, man. being a wxs fan sureee is so fun.

while we're at the topic of the first lyrics, it's kinda interesting that rui's the one who says "let's go!" instead of tsukasa, as this is expected from the latter with his position as the troupe leader — but i'm not going to read too much into it, because i doubt it matters lol. if i have to somehow explain it, then i'd say it's because rui's a stage director, so he's in charge of being the one to start the show. sort of. it's not really important.

"with a cast who can use magic and monsters who are burdened with trauma" is such a tsukasa line, honestly. it may seem more rui-like at first, but it fits tsukasa a lot, too. personally, i always interpret it as a spark contrast between who wxs were and who wxs are now — their pasts weren't the most pleasant thing ever (with exception of maybe emu, but even she is still haunted by the grief from her grandpa's death), they indeed were pretty traumatized (especially rui, but you cannot just ignore the rest). they were monsters, because they weren't perfect. and tsukasa is the type of person who strives for perfection.

they're not monsters anymore, however. (they never were, but try to explain it to four traumatized teenagers) now, it's their turn to be the magic-using cast! and the mentioned magic is them putting on shows and spreading shows, obviously. if you read into it a bit more, you can even say that the former cast, the one from when wxs were still these so-called monsters, was their idols, the people who sparked the dream of performing in them — seiichi amami, rakunosuke otori, yuka kazamatsuri and tom gray. (such an insane april fools unit)

in the ruinene alt, rui's the one who sings this line. and this stings a bit, because obviously... he'd think of himself as a monster burdened with trauma. rui...

nene is the one who sings this line in original, and this makes sense. that's a rather logical line, and so is nene. "disappear" isn't meaning death here, as it often means in the proseka terms — "disappear" is just the another word of something passing, something ending. vanitas vanitatum et omnia vanitas, you can say. i'm sorry that was stronger than me.

the disband arc (i'm so sorry, i know we're way past it. but it is an important part of the wxs lore. i'm not going to shut up about it) had it very beginning in nene, after all. its first mentions appeared in mermaid admiration, which was just a mere start of both the second arc and the second rotation (wxs has only just started getting better, after all!), and then island panic started the domino that was curtain call, amidst a dream and so on, and so on. nene knew that everyone's destined to disappear — to part ways — someday. this was creeping up to her from behind almost from the very start.

in the emukasa anabo, it's emu who got this line. it makes it even worse, because it's what emu's perspective of the disband arc was about. she wanted to stay at wonder stage, nene, rui and tsukasa wanted to go further than it. everyone's destined to disappear someday, because her dream is just too simple for them to share it.

okay, i'm gonna be honest here — i have no clue what to do with this line. i didn't want to skip it, as it's rui's solo line and is surrounded by such impactful words, it surely makes sense, i just don't really see it at this moment. sorry rui. the best i can do is to say that "heartbeat fading over time" may symbolize rui's deteriorating mental state in middle school, but, like... that's an awful reaching.

it makes a bit more sense when you look at it from tsukasa's pov, both because he has this line in the emukasa alt and because it's a song formed from his feelings — the heartbeat here is his real ambition, his want to make everyone smile and the way he forgot it in the main story. still don't know what to do with the ticket that's long past expired. my thoughts are kinda going in the direction of it being wonderland sekai, but i don't have any argument to actually explain it.

finally coming to an end of this part, (not because it's bad, but because it hurts), at this point you can guess that it's a line sung by emu and oh god, it made me suffer so much when i was waiting for our happy ending to release. yep, it's the foreshadowing of the disband arc again, who would've think, right? looking back at it now where the disband arc is finally resolved (for now. it's going to come back one day, surely), it's one of my favorite lines in the song, as it touches emu's internal struggle during these days perfectly.

i'm assuming the "let's come" means "let's come here" as in: come to a certain place (in my interpretation, wonder stage) because i have no idea why the "here" isn't here, as i was pretty much convinced that it was. but whatever. the way i see this line is how emu was always happily inviting the rest of wxs to visit wonder stage, wanting to spend time with them and make everyone smile, yet deep down in herself still knowing that she shouldn't take it as granted. she would want to spend yet another year with wxs by her side, but, back then, it was not a promise. there was always this possibility that next year, she'll be alone once again — because wonder stage is their place to go, but it's not going to be this way for forever.

in the ruinene anabo, nene got this line. i'm not going to say a lot about it, as i've already covered this topic before — it's a mermaid admiration reference, once again. even more so in this very line, because when i think about associating this line with nene, the first thing i see is her mermaid admiration untrained.

i think it's also pretty interesting that while tsukasa and rui got the lines that are more similiar to main story/first arc, emu and nene got the lines about the second arc!

i don't have much to say about it, it's just that rui sings this line and it makes me think about main story — to the wxs fall-out, specifically. the troupe didn't even properly start yet, just like the world!, and yet there are already bad things happening — tsukasa screamed at nene for messing up the show, rui got mad at tsukasa and decided not to come here again, emu is blaming herself for everything, for being unable to make them smile. it's definitely already no-good... just like most of rui's experiences.

as you can probably guess by the way the line distribution is arranged in the alts, tsukasa got this line in emukasa anabo. and this makes a lot of sense after all too, because, well... it was him who messed up. maybe it's about the moment when he finally realizes his true feelings?

the only explanation for this line is that tsukasa's feelings are currently all over the place because he's experiencing overstimulation. the conclusion is that tenma tsukasa has ADHD, thank you, time to pack it up, analysis over, everyone go home

i'm just kidding, but this line has been permanently noted in my brain as "the ADHD tsukasa line" ("why not autism tsukasa line" take a good look at my url. the sole reason is that i'm a bit insane) so it's hard for me to see it as anything else. we're not discussing tsukasa's obvious neurodivergence today, though, so let's move on to me trying to actually make something out of it—

"there's too much noise" part belongs to nene, while the rest of the line is sung by emu. nene (more in the early game than nowadays, but still) is often seen complaining and flinching at loud noises, and this was my first thought, however! emu got this line as well, and she doesn't really have any issue with loud noises as she's a very energetic and cheerful person, right? (and so is tsukasa and yet for some reason he has this line in his very own song. but i'm not going to repeat myself) here comes my second thought — it's referencing the main story fight. it would make sense both for nene (she's the one who is screamed at) and emu (she thinks it's her fault for being "selfish") to have it. this is also one of the two exceptions where it's not just rks emnn singing each other lines — rui and tsukasa in their respective anabos got the "there's too much noise" part. if it was about the fight, it'd make sense for rui as well — after all, he's the one who has to look at his childhood friend getting blamed for something that is partially his fault.

on a slightly unrelated note, i'm a big fan of the way how in emukasa alt tsukasa sings "there's too much noise" in a voice that's close to breaking, while emu is happily going "so much noise! and it keeps getting worse!!" with sparkles and flowers all around her. i love her so much. never change emu.

besides "just as i always have" that's sung by nene, this whole line belongs completely to emu — and i think this says a lot. the "deteriorating, abandoned room" is yet another metaphor for wonder stage, because that's how wonder stage was like when tsukasa sees it for the first time; deteriorated and abandoned, with emu as its only visitor. but emu doesn't give up. emu keeps on dreaming, keeps on wishing for it to return to its former glory.

i didn't say anything about the first line, because, uh. despite being sung by emu, i think it correlates to tsukasa and his ambitions more, etc, etc... but i also don't have a clear enough thought to elaborate on it. sorry!

the deeper we are in the song, the more cheerful the melody and the vibe of it gets, while the lyrics are starting to go in a slightly... different direction. the lyrics are inviting you to a never-ending party, a way to cope with all the bad things that happen to you. it fits wxs a lot, doesn't it? they're the group that is sharing childlike wonder with everyone and wishes to make people smile, while themselves are being often paralleled with niigo and aren't really the happiest and healthiest people in the universe (and they have a habit of not talking about their feelings as well). it would make sense for them to want to cut the negativity in their lives off, not only for their own sake, but also for the sake of the others around them (after all, this was the whole point of smile of a dreamer). wonderland sekai is their place to go, a place where they can drown themselves in the never-ending fun and fight off the negativity. because... they still can do it, right? because the world hasn't even started yet.

at this point, they're much better, obviously. because we're almost four years in the game and now wxs isn't only their escapism anymore, it's the place filled with the people they all love so much. but when we were still at main story, it'd make sense for them to be just like that, as their bond still wasn't as strong as it is now back then.

this part came out a bit too angsty than i wanted and i'm not proud of it, but i don't really know how to express what i mean with it in words. if you actually understood my intention, then you deserve a gold star. i'll have to rewrite it a few months later probably eh

while a lot of people think of this line as of a really dark one, i don't think that's the case! actually, it's a rather positive and optimistic one. the mention of hell can make someone flinch, that's for sure, but it's the same case as the mentioned earlier "monsters burdened with trauma" — it's just wxs self-deprecating themselves because of their past. for most of them, their past experiences surely could be called "hell", because everyone experiences trauma differently. but they're not in this hell anymore. their past is over, they're not alone anymore, they have each other now — this is their happy ending that plays out... from their phones, in form of the untitled.

after all, rui was right! the ending for sure will be a happy one, as long as they are together!

i've noticed that a lot of the sekahaji lyrics are matching with the latter ones, and this is no expection: once again, the first line talks about the first arc events, while the second is leaning more onto the second arc, just like in the first verse.

i'm not a native english speaker, so i have to admit, i had to look up what does thick-skinned mean lol i'm a bit surprised that's actually a rather positive thing? with how tsukasa was acting in the main story, i was expecting it to be more on the negative side. i can't say that it doesn't fit, though. tsukasa's most famous (?) depiction as a king is his wonder magical showtime card, while wonder magical showtime itself is an event focusing on how tsukasa is not going to let go of emu's dream that easily, that even the criticism of the phenniland members that didn't want to help them at first is not going to stop him (although it's been a long time since i watched wms, so correct me if i'm wrong!) — and that's what i understood that thick-skinned means.

meanwhile, rui is the alchemist. he's often described as such and is even depicted as one in his revival my dream card (...but we don't talk about revival my dream). and while "full of desires" doesn't neccesarily mean greedy — it's normal to have wishes and desires, after all — rui is not only called that by himself, but by the game as well, since he, too, has his own desires. and... having too much desires is a dangerous thing. (it kind of sounds like i'm demonizing rui i'm going to cry. that is NOT my intention i swear.)

and as i said earlier, the second line is corresponding to disband arc again. presented as the happy, unbothered group on the surface, wxs is some kind of an utopia, a perfect world, and so is their sekai — but they're always being followed by this feeling of uncertainty, of impending goodbye. or rather, were followed. whether you think disband arc is going to come back one day or not, i think it's safe to assume that sekahaji's references are not going further than our happy ending. at the point of the wxs story where we are now, the disband arc is resolved. of course, one day their utopia will cease to exist and they'll truly be forced to leave their attachments behind, returning to the real world. but this day is not today. today, they can still be happy. because the world hasn't even started yet. (or has it, it's just more pleasant that they were expecting?)

i didn't mention who's singing these lines earlier, but... i've already covered this topic many times. tsukasa (rui in ruinene anabo) is singing the first, nene (emu in emukasa anabo) is singing the second. and my explanation for it is pretty much similiar to the verses from the very beginning, so... yeah, let's just move on to something more interesting, shall we?

this fragment is matching the fragment starting with "there is too much noise", so that's my yet another argument for it referencing the main story fight — and this part is way more transparent in doing so. "there's too much conflict" is sung only by nene, but the latter part is sung by both her and emu. and as we already know, nene was the one who suffered the most in it, while emu was the one blaming herself the most (interestingly though, nene sings the "i couldn't help but worry" in the full group version!). the boys got "there's too much conflict" in their respective alts as well, so rui singing this line applies to his reaction to the fight, too.

"it's like when our arms are all tangled together" could be the failed show, because that's what happens when you mess up. it's also emu who sings this, and it's a very emu-like way of describing things.

and even though tsukasa is not singing the last line (it's still either emu or nene, depending on the version) it's still his untitled, so i can boldly say that it's about him. he brushed off the dust of his memories and rebooted himself, remembering his true feelings and entering his path to become a better person. the fight has ended and we're nearing the end of the song, just like we're nearing the end of the main story.

you can also say that it's about rebooting robonene. that... would work as well, i guess.

haha, hey, do you know what's happening on nene's mermaid admiration untrained? wxs are playing with fireworks, together. and do you know what they also want to do together? stay like that for forever. it truly was out firework show that lasts a lifespan!

the motif of a firework show appears also in wonder magical showtime, where it's an ending for the show the phenniland cast put on to save phoenix wonderland from being turned into a place that doesn't resemble the old phoenix wonderland at all. it's no wonder wxs would want it to last a lifespan. after all, it's emu's dream for phenniland to never change and always be the place that she remembers from her childhood.

and this is just a description of wonderland sekai, honestly. it has roller coaster in it + they are often seen in the background of various wxs cards. the starry skies are often present as well. it's not like we got two (2) songs with "starry sky" in their name for nothing.

i feel like "the best of the worst of crappy plays" is the show that sparked the main story argument in the first place — it was messed up, so it was crappy and horrible, no doubt for that. but it's also the best — why? because if not its failure, tsukasa wouldn't find his true feelings and wxs wouldn't even form. when such a crappy play made you get closer to your best friends and turned your life for the better, how can you not feel at least slightly grateful for its existence?

the second line is included here as well, because i don't really have an idea what to do with it. it's such a great line, however, so it would be a shame to just leave it out. the only thing i'm going to mention is that it's interesting that the prospect of an ending was there with them from the very, very beginning.

this one i see as a nod to smile of a dreamer and wonder magical showtime — because emu's family already had their own plans about what to do with phoenix wonderland. these were the plans that'd make them a lot of money, so it was their "harmonius future", even though emu didn't agree with it.

emu alone wasn't able to do much, but then she met wxs... and then the entirety of phenniland stood by her side. together, they were able to break the plans for a harmonious future. together, they were able to made her dream come true.

and, finally, the last line i'm going to talk about today! the bell is a symbol for new beginnings, just like this lyric itself says, so the act of ringing it is a new era in tsukasa's, emu's, nene's and rui's lives beginning — the formation of wonderlands x showtime! especially since it's the last line in the song aside of the last the world hasn't even started yet (not counting the hey heys and it's showtimes once again).

this is not the only time the bell is referenced in a wxs song, though — because it made an appearance also in the 2DMV for sekai wo terasu tetrad, once again symbolizing a new beginning, a new era, although this time it's a sekai expansion. and because i mentioned sekai wo terasu tetrad, i can now swiftly go to the conclusion of this post:

sekahaji is such a great song, because despite being the first wxs comm, it's foreshadowing the events way up to the third anni and this is not talked about enough. is this still applying to the events after the third anni? nope! not because they cannot be easily altered so they could still fit the lyrics, but because sekahaji has simply fulfilled its purpose already. i haven't studied sekai wo terasu tetrad's lyrics that much in-depth yet and i don't think it has the same 100% lore value that sekahaji has, as i don't think there's anything that hints tetrad being a canon second untitled, but it's the song released by the occasion of a sekai expansion — and if there are going to be future events foreshadowed, then it's going to happen in tetrad. not going to think about it too much for now, as three events (world link not included) isn't enough to say it for sure imo (unless it's going to be as short as the first arc was), but that's definitely a possibility.

that would be all! there's too much of my rambling in here anyways. i haven't really checked it, so i'm sorry if i ended up saying nonsense — after all, as i always say, i'm a overthinker, not an analyst! everything i said here is just my personal interpretation either way. i hope that you at least enjoyed listening to me babbling about sekahaji for way too much words straight!

and i hope that my main goal has been accomplished and you've just went to listen to the world hasn't even started yet because now you, too, have thought about it. right? <3

[nnnn99999]

I finished watching ep 1 and 2 of bad buddy series and I love it already. I really want to watch more but it's already super late and I need to go sleep. Here are my thoughts on this series so far.

The production is really good so far.

The music really stands out to me. It is used a lot but doesn't feel overdone. I need to rewatch to be sure if it's as intentional as I think it is, but the music adds context to the scenes which is fun.

This show is so funny. Not in a cringey way either. More like a lighthearted and natural way. Like I found myself genuinely laughing out loud at times.

Pat, Pran and Pa are so adorable.

The baby versions of the characters are so cute oh my motherly heart.

I am really digging the PatPran frenemy dynamics. I need to see more before I elaborate why I like their dynamics so much. I just adore them already.

When I look at Pat I just see a husky.

Pran seems to be the most self aware character so far. I want to see if he will be the first one to notice the dynamic shift as their relationship changes.

Seeing the PatPa sibling dynamic made me appreciate my sister so much. Sure, she often uses the older sister card to make me do stuff, but at least she is not gross. Also she gives me tasks, not chores. Yes Pat I am telling you to stop making Pa do your chores. Justice for younger siblings who have to do chores for their older siblings!

The PatPran fake fighting is so funny. Baby PatPran falling over when their hands are a mile away from each other was so hilarious. The adult version of the fake fighting is actually one of my favorite scenes so far. I need to revisit this when I am done watching the whole thing because I know there's a lot I missed here.

I hate when parents try to indoctrinate their children. Just let them breathe okay? Have your feuds and friends and whatever without dragging your children into it. Also stop putting pressure on your children and let them do what they want. Just give them the freedom to grow. They are their own person, so let them explore themselves on their own. Ugh I'll leave it at that for now but I already have so much more to say about both sets of parents and I can tell its probably going to get worse. Like I know they love their children a lot but ugh. I just know these parents are going to piss me off later on in this show. I just know it.

That one scene where Pat touches Pran's face without washing his hands after peeing was so gross. I know Pat is gross in general but that was too much.

The number of times I went 'boys being idiots' in just 2 eps is astounding. This is the brand of idiocy I have only ever seen within a group of boys. These boys sent me back to my school days. I have seen these exact scenes and conversations happen. Especially the one where Pran's friends tease him about being hit on. I will never forget that tone of voice. Even the getting ready to fight at the drop of a hat is so familiar. The number of times I have seen boys getting all up in each others' faces for the stupidest reasons imaginable are countless. I have never seen boys actually fight in school but I had a guy friend tell me all about their fights outside of school. Then these same boys who were punching each other because one hit the other with a paper bullet launched from a rubber band slingshot(they were having a war in class and I almost got hit multiple times) would hug each other and jump around when the school team won a sports match. Also, their collective IQ seems to magically disappear when they are together and they are left with half a braincell to be shared by the whole group. That's why they become boys being idiots.

OhmNanon are undoubtedly the stars of this show and not just because they are the main characters. They are doing such a great job of selling me their characters. Their scenes together are so fun to watch.

I am going to write a separate post about Ohm Pawat specifically because I already have so much to say about him.

Yeah I think that's about it. Actually there is more but I want to see how some things develop before I comment on those. @airenyah I am so glad I can share this with you. I love it so much already. I totally understand the obsession, I am quickly getting there too. Like I want to rewatch it already. I knew I was going to like bbs considering our mutual love for simm and ha but I really didn't expect to like it so much already. I didn't even watch the trailer, I just jumped into the 1st ep directly. And well I am having a blast!

[tklpilled]

APPLE TART OR AZUJAMI PERHAPS?? u may pick which one 🤭🤭 someone needs to tickle them BAD.

- anzynai anon (im not anon.)

the thing about overblotting that no one tells you is that you become very, very tired afterwards.

riddle lays in bed, groans as he pulls the blanket further around himself. the aching has faded, at least, but all he wants to do anymore is sleep. he hates it; it's hard enough struggling not to close his eyes throughout the day, even worse with the irritating looks of pity that the other students give him. he squeezes his eyes shut and tightens his grip. at least it's nighttime now.

there's a tiny squeak beside him. "ow. you're crushin' me."

riddle hums, letting his hold loosen up, giving epel the chance to squirm and get comfortable. the other boy stretches a little, then cuddles right back into riddle's side. riddle puts his arms around epel's waist, hiding his face in the soft mess of lavender hair.

riddle's not much of a hugger, but he finds he welcomes touch anyway. especially with epel, it seems; it's as if his stress melts away instantly. epel is warm and soft and comfortable and riddle never wants to leave.

"cut it out," mumbles epel, tone higher-pitched than usual. riddle finally blinks open his eyes, snapping out of his thoughts. he rubs his thumb along epel's side, making him shiver. "hey."

it hits riddle, suddenly, that he's a stranger to tickling. no one's ever tried to tickle him before, and he's never been close enough to anyone to try it. but there's something about epel that makes him feel giddy, playful, and he can't resist the urge to dance his fingers across epel's stomach.

epel gasps and covers his mouth with one hand, muffling his sudden torrent of giggles. "wait, cohohome on—!" he whines, his free hand uselessly fighting riddle's.

riddle feels himself smile. "please, be quiet. the queen of hearts strictly forbids laughter after ten pm." it's a lie, of course, but who is epel to argue?

so the pomefiore boy laughs and hiccups into his sleeve, kicking weakly in protest. there's no other word for it but cute, despite however much he tries to deny it. it makes riddle's heart swell almost painfully, in a way he hasn't felt in a long time.

(epel tells him later that he's not allowed to cuddle him anymore—but that's a lie, too.)

[anothermonikan]

the eeperssss

[daily-airimomoi-vitamins]

[tap tap tap]

[creak]

[slam!]

[footsteps running away. Disoranganized and fast..desperate, the word you're looking for is desperate]

[The room had been left with an eerie silence, more uncommon than the first time you arrived here. No one spoke]

[no one moved]

[You were staring at her]

[it was like a mirror]

[what? a mirror. But when was the last time you had seen you're own reflection? You didn't want to. No.]

[..no.]

[..still, no one spoke. this was too quiet]

"..you're sick."

...I know.

"Poor girl, who-who even was she?"

Brat who ruined eveverything.

"..you can't even speak properly. how pathetic"

[another second of silence]

"Why did you-"

Did you recognize those keychains?

"What? Stop getting off topi-"

I said, did you recognize those keychains?

"..I guess? I'm not sure where from."

Ah, I see. Can you describe yourself to me, please?

"..stop that"

stop wha-

"I know what you're doing just stop, okay?"

[another silence. it was silent. silent. silent in the back. silent in your mind. but it wasn't. there was a voice, calling out a name. Calling out for a chance to reach the surface]

Have you ever really seen yourself? Have you ever looked into a mirror?

Are you too ashamed of the person staring back?

"..."

...of course, you don't even know who's looking back at you.

"..what are you going to do to me? The same thing you did to that girl? Or will you just kill me?"

Kill you? No. No no. I could never kill you. I'm protecting you. Protecting. I'm..

Im protecting you, peachy.

"peachy? wh-"

[you felt your stomach drop..but why? it felt like your own body was keeping secrets from you]

[a look of discomfort spread across the pharmacist's face, and she started to approach you, your stance, albeit unwavering, still shaking]

What's your favorite flower? Mine's the Higanbana.

[you wanted to move on, so you played her game]

"...I dont-I don't really have one. I like clovers, though"

...

seems logical.

..look down for me, will ya?

[and so you did. She could be planning your mutilation right now, but you couldn't stand a chance...or maybe you could? You were good at fights...You think. you felt as if you were somehow.]

"What am I supposed to be looking at?"

[The only thing there was a slowly drying pool of blood]

...look closer. the surface won't do.

[you knelt down, staring into this pool of blood. You felt sick knowing the origins of it, and you hated seeing yourse-]

[wait.]

[you inspected the pool once more. Inside reside a girl with untamed pink hair. Her eyes were big but worn and dim. Her face was bloodied and scratched and her nose was red. Who is this? Who is this reflection in the blood? Is this you? Has this been you all this time?]

[as you looked back to the pharmacist, your faces merged. Suddenly, the reflection of that girl and the face of the pharmacist were no longer different, keep aside for the two keys to the soul]

"We-"

hmgh.

[She leaned over you, looking into the pool as well.]

[inside of her reflection was someone unfamiliar to the both of them. A young woman with dark hair and glasses. she followed the pharmacist's movements, copying them piece for piece. The two people staring back each other contained the same expression, and the same eyes]

[But..they were not the same person]

"what the hell...wha.."

[you felt your face with your hands, your head speeding into a rush of-

M̵̥̊I̸̥͗Ń̷͇O̵̤͂R̵̻̃Ị̷̊!̸̣͌!̵̙́ ̵̞͝N̸̬̿Ó̶̥N̶͎̑Ỏ̵̞ ̶͖̿P̸̨͂L̷͉̿É̴̜Á̷͚S̴̭̅Ȅ̸̻ ̵̧͂ȏ̶̰h̴̬̀ ̶̉ͅm̸̩͝y̵̯͑ ̷̝̎g̶̭͋o̶͕̓d̴̬̒ ̷̨͘o̵͉̒h̵̹̽ ̷̗͒m̴͓̈́ÿ̶̨́ ̴̥͛g̴͇͝ō̶̡d̵͍̈́ ̵̝̽h̵̢̀e̵͚͝ľ̶̢p̵̹̒ ̸̚ͅh̶̲̿e̶̪͝l̴̺̈́p̸̬̀ ̷̩̽h̴͉͠ê̴͈l̴̼̿p̴̎͜ ̷̲̃w̵͇̍ḣ̶̦y̸̙̾ ̷͉̆a̴̙͂r̶̨̓e̸̖͝ṉ̷̚'̷̫̿t̵͙̓ ̴̹̏y̵̙͑ỏ̴̮ǘ̴̢ ̴͙͑d̶̚͜o̶̭̾i̸͔̕n̴̫̿ğ̷̝ ̶͇̑a̴̝̍n̷̲̎y̷̬͋ṫ̴̖h̸̳͘i̷̥̎n̸̹̚ġ̸̯?̴̡̓ ̴͉͗h̶̼̎e̴̱͘ļ̶͒p̴̩͝ ̷͔̀ḧ̸ͅe̵̟̐ḻ̵́p̷̤̈́ ̴̝́m̶͕͝ĩ̸̻n̴̛͜ö̶͍́ŕ̵̗i̷̼͌?̸̮̈́ ̸̧͝a̴͖͒ȓ̶͔e̵̺̅ ̵͍͂y̵̢̾ȏ̷̮u̵͓͂ ̵̬͠t̵̮̃h̶͍́e̴͚͘r̴̜̅e̸̥̐?̶̼̽ ̷̨̌m̵̮̄i̷̜̋ǹ̶̳o̶̗͒r̴̙͑i̶͖͑?̸̳̈́ ̵̩͛t̷̲̂ḫ̴̉e̵̯͘y̴̙̾'̸͕͌r̷̬̓e̸͂ͅ ̷̗̚g̸̳̈́o̷̺͊i̸̮͋n̷̺̊g̵͒ͅ ̸͍̌t̸̻͆o̴̖͆ ̶̱̚h̸̠͂ą̸͠ṭ̷̎e̷͍̍ ̴̬̃y̴̟͛o̴̥͝u̴̦͠.̷̼͘ ̵̘͠t̸̠̓h̴̜̕ỉ̷̭s̶͙͊ ̶̭̑i̶̙̊s̶̜̏n̶͚̒'̸̼͝t̶̘̂ ̴̩̃m̸̬͘y̷̫͠ ̸͔̉f̷͚̑a̶̮̓ụ̶͐l̵̈́͜t̵͇͝ ̷̘͗Ț̷͝H̶̝͝Ĭ̵̟S��̟̂ ̵̀͜Ì̶͓S̴̓͜ ̸̫̉A̵̲͑L̸̞̾L̸̰͂ ̷͇͠Ÿ̵͙O̵͆͜Ù̸̢R̸̾͜ ̶̫͑F̸̮̌A̶̤̓U̶͍̇L̶̫̇T̵͍͘ ̷̝̀t̷̩̒h̶͖̔i̶͇͛s̵͇̏ ̵̇͜ḯ̷̦s̷̬̈ṇ̸̇'̴̙̉t̴̙͑ ̵̡̋m̵̨̐ỷ̴͈ ̶͔͋f̶͔͆a̵̱͝u̴̝͗l̶̺͑t̵̋ͅ ̴̰̌p̷͇̽l̴͂͜ě̶̫ả̶̪s̷̈́ͅe̸̗̎ ̶̪͌s̸̼̓ḩ̴̀ư̷̱t̶̠̋ ̷̖͆i̸̬̋t̴͈̑ ̴̻̊s̷̗̆h̸̠́u̸͉̅t̶̟͑ ̶͔̈́i̵͍͝t̴͓̑ ̷̹͌S̶̙̄H̸͉͒Ǔ̵͈T̵̠̆ ̴̖̑I̷̱͝T̶͈̊ ̸̰̆Ī̴̗ ̴͉́n̵̹͊e̴̟̔ë̷ͅd̸͔̊ ̸͔̔ẗ̵̰́ọ̵͘ ̸̰̓g̶̪̀ẽ̴̗t̶̻̋ ̸̢͆o̴̺͒u̸̔͜t̶̨͌ ̶͎͛o̶̗͗f̷̟̑ ̴͉͒h̶̗̋é̴͕r̶͖͒e̷̩̋ ̵͚͑ȃ̴̘n̶̘̓d̵͓̆ ̴̝͗l̸̤̾è̴̝a̸̮̒v̸͉̽è̶̩ ̷͓͠t̶̟͂h̷͎̽e̵̢̛m̷̩͝?̶͔̀ ̵̳͒ȳ̵̢ě̵̪ŝ̷͜ ̸̼̽n̵̢͠o̶̖̒ ̵̜̓y̷̠̓ẹ̴͗ś̸̡ ̸̜̀ň̷̟o̴̮̐ ̴̼͐y̵̟͝ē̵̫s̴͉͊ ̵͎̈́n̷͎͠o̵̡̿ ̵̱͌y̶̖̅ö̸̺u̶̮͛ ̴̢̿m̶̞͝ụ̴̐ş̸́t̶͕͗ ̶̪̊f̵͓̒ơ̵̝r̶̬̋ ̵̨͂T̶̮̍H̸͎̾E̵͓̐I̴̯͌Ṙ̵͉ ̴̣͛G̴̙͊O̶̭̽Ö̵́͜D̷͕̈ ̵̱͛f̶͎̌ȍ̶̘ë̸́ͅ ̶̯̀Ỵ̷͐Ó̷̝Ȕ̵̖R̵̨͋ ̵͚͂y̷̫̋ò̵͎u̴͈͒ ̸̡͗a̸͍̿r̴̥̔ë̶͙ ̷͉̐n̷̗̈́o̴̻͝ ̶̤͒l̸̠̈́ö̴͉ṉ̶̏g̶͓̀e̸̹̿ŕ̸̫ ̵̤̚a̶͈̐į̴̇ṙ̴͇ỉ̴̮ ̶͕̈́ṁ̷̱o̷̢͝m̶̺̅o̷̫̽i̵͖͠.̶̞̾ ̸̰̀w̷̠͊e̵̯͗l̷͖̂c̵̫̍õ̷͓m̸̮͂e̴̯͆ ̴͓̍p̷̨͛e̵̢͝á̶͙c̶͎͆h̵̳̆ẙ̶̪.̸̻̇ ̵̘͂w̴̻̆e̷̦̒l̶̘̐c̴̥͘o̷͋͜m̴̝͘ë̶͔́.̶̻̆ ̴̬̐J̸͎͗u̴̠͊s̶̹̀ț̴͝ ̶̼́l̶̪͝î̵̗k̵̂͜e̶͓̍ ̵̠̊a̶͔̔ ̴̙͠f̸̢̃r̸͉̒i̶̻̽ȩ̶͑ṅ̸͜d̴̪͐ ̸͔͊j̵̖͝u̵̬̇s̷̼̈́t̵̻̂ ̸̪͂l̴͎̈́i̶̖͘k̶̠͛ẹ̴̈́ ̶̦͊ả̴͕ ̸̠͝l̵̜̊o̶̰͝v̶̻͐é̴͎ŕ̵͍ ̶̥̿ḋ̴̹e̶̝͊ȧ̵̮d̸̟͘ ̴̩̏d̸̙̓ȩ̵̀a̸̱͒d̴͈̎ ̴͇̐d̶̨̛ḛ̴́a̷̮̔d̶͍͐ ̸̹̈l̴̖̒ó̶̻v̸̖͋e̷̠͋r̶̬̈ ̸̧̈j̴̺̏u̴̩̽s̷̨͂t̴̞̔ ̷̫͊á̸͖ ̵͍̇p̸̫̈́l̷͈͊a̴͇̒c̴̯̚ẹ̶̍ḧ̶̖ö̴̖l̴͍̓d̸͙̎é̸̠r̷͙̅?̴̖̈́ ̵̠͘Ḯ̵̳ ̶̺̑c̴̞͐a̴̧̿r̷̎ͅê̸̖ ̶̦͊ý̶͓o̶͔͐u̸̖̎ ̷̦̚c̶͙̚a̸̢͝ŗ̷̒ẽ̸̼ ̴̧͠ṣ̵̄h̵̪̓ë̵̝ ̶̬͗c̸̘̈́a̴̤̓r̷̪̈́e̷̻̕s̸̡͗ ̵̰͋I̵̺̓ ̶̻̉c̸͓͘a̶̻̔n̴̨̋'̶͖͘t̷̳̾ ̶̜͒I̷̢͒ ̵͓͒n̴̥͘ẽ̵ͅe̵̖̚d̶̲̑ ̷͔́t̵̛͖ö̴̲́ ̶̣̓d̷̬̔i̴͙̋e̴͖̿ ̷͔̀d̵̖̉i̴̘̓ė̶̡ ̷̪͝ď̷̰ī̷͇ḙ̴̀ ̴̝̇d̴͚͛i̶̭̋e̷͉̊ ̶̠͐I̴̗͂ ̵̨̋n̸̬̾e̷̹͒e̵͉͝d̷͕͝ ̶̹̇ṯ̷̀o̷͚͆.̸̣͝

f̵̛̯̗̈́̓͊̔̕̚ȯ̵̺̬̰̠̳̬̙̗̱̈́̎̄͗̈̓̈́̕ṛ̸̡̼̞̭͈͈͌͌͝ͅg̶̻̰̽̓͝e̶̛̗̝̖̳͎̝̹̖̭͗́̏̌̒̇̚͝͝t̶̢̜͎̠̅̑̂

f̴̦̝͒̾̋o̵̫̻̗͛͗͊ŗ̷͉͙̓̑͝g̶̗͍͔̫̏̄͛͛̀ȅ̶͈̻͂̈t̷̤̓̀

f̴o̷r̴g̵e̷t̸

forget.

...

[I. forgot.]

[what did you forget?]

Don't give me that look.

[..I forgot to say goodbye]

..

[ipsens-castle]

I really wish Nagato had been the major villain, or at least someone who lived longer as a major proponent in the war.

Before his death, we witnessed his ideals superimposed with Naruto's - obvious foils between orphans; one ostracized in the privileged Konoha, the other cocooned with their found family in Amegakure, a small town of refugees wedged between warring powerhouses. But I think that he had further contrast to provide with other characters too. He would have made a fascinating mentor to Sasuke as a beacon of revenge; and as someone who annihilated entire family trees in the name of "peace," a peculiar brother-in-arms to Itachi.

[officialdaydreamer00]

TWST spotlight!!

thank you to all the people who tagged me in their twst spotlight :o yguys are such darlings and i love how my circle expanded in just a month or two! ily mwah <3 /pla

i can't remember my early mutuals' order but anyways look at my friends!!

@azulashengrottospiano aka aubbie 🐙!! my first mutual on tumblr and THE author who singlehandedly fuel my love for twst in my earlier days in the fandom :D azul's legal wife and writes characters x reader oneshots SO HONKING WELL i am blushing giggling kicking my feet ESPECIALLY HER OCTAVINELLE FICS :000

@shyhaya aka hayami 🌺!! oh so shy but she's such a darling to talk to <3 has beautiful fics for so many fandoms HOW ARE YOU SO TALENTED?? i am in love with your writings shaking you hard

@hisui-dreamer aka rinna 🌟!! one of my fellow jade kissers and writes VERY DELISH fics (i am in shambles over this one in particular) eating your writings om nom nom

@identity-theft-101 aka denti 🪓!! a menace, he's just like me fr fr :D one of my fellow eel kissers and the enabler of my ever growing obsession for the tweels AND I AM LOSING IT OVER HIS DOODLES OF THE TWEELS AND HIS OC REMY

@aqua-beam aka calira 🎉!! my platonic soulmate and fellow jade kisser 🫵🏻 (/aff) brings me so so much serotonin whenever we interact, her reblogs on my posts always succeed to make my day :D

@siren-serenity aka rennie 🌙!! one of the writers i look up to the most in the twst community :D i don't think she's usually active, but whenever she does, it never fails to bring a smile on my face c: absolutely beautiful writings and a super cool oc named melody striker whom i love a lot!

@shinysparklesapphires aka sapphy 🎀!! she's so passionate about precure :D has a cute artstyle and very cool ocs, i think navi is the first one xe introduced to me through my earrings event :o phrog prince my beloved c:

@ceruleancattail aka ceru 🔷 another one of the writers i look up to the most bc their writings have me in a chokehold ACK their twst aus are so very creative and bantering with mooties about cater diamond is very entertaining ^^

@cecilebutcher aka cece 🪩!! fellow floyd kisser and has a great masterlist :D they write for twst and obey me and i adore their ocs! also AESTHETIC MOODBOARD FOR EACH OF THEIR OC I EAT!! :O

@moonlit-midnight aka hannah 🌸!! beautiful writings that makes me cry randomly when im in the mood to read at night c: the fellow jade kisser and writes TWO octavinelle masterlists + twst hcs in which my heart go brrrrrrrrr

@leonistic aka soru 🍞!! number one leona kisser on my blog lmao c: HER WRITINGS IS SO BEAUTIFUL I AM SHAKING YOU BACK AND FORTH :0

@nem0-nee aka nem 🃏!! my newest mootie and THE artist whose art had me in a chokehold for weeks now c: her art is so srcumptious i want to put it on a pedestal and stare at it in awe :D also AESTHETIC *om nom nom p2*

any of my other mooties who are not on here are also very amazing c:

[darkmoonravewolf]

Ruby and Weiss's first date is them going clothes shopping because Weiss realized that Ruby didn't really pack much before she came to beacon.

Ruby is a bit hesitant at first because she doesn't have enough money. But eventually warms up to the idea after Weiss insists that she can pay for it and if she really wants, she can just pay her back later. The first thing Ruby does is drag Weiss to Grimm Hot Topic and Weiss is both flabbergasted and a bit lovestruck seeing Ruby so happy and picking out new accessories for herself, "She's such a dorky little goth, I love her."

Bonus: Ruby manages to get Weiss to try on something and nearly squeals when Weiss picks out a matching chocker.

[nocturnalnewsiestrash]

I am very tired but I've yet to get my brain to agree to sleeping. And it's apparently bad enough that my slightly less focused than usual eyes thought I was gazing at art of Charles Rowland and Crystal Palace when it was actually Jane Su and August Landry art. How I managed to do that I have no idea but I feel like I have to apologize to all four of them I am so sorry I confused you my beloveds

[shirogane-oushirou]

keep thinking about (platonically, pre-dating) hanging out in ren's apartment until he gets home from work. he's exhausted, we're clearly doing one of our takeout-and-a-movie nights. he flops down on the couch next to me, limp like a fucking wet noodle, and i like. pat my lap and offer it to him.

he's in DEEP yearning territory -- very "god i want to so so badly but every relationship i've been in has crashed and burned and i don't want to fuck this up" -- so getting physically close is like a double-edged sword for him... but he takes one long look at my lap, goes "that's free real estate", and flops his head down. i start scritching his scalp. and after a few minutes of quiet chit-chat, his voice trails off and he starts kitten-snoring.

he wakes up later, and i've nodded off in the meantime. he should probably get up to order food, but he doesn't want to leave this comfy little situation we have going on. so instead of getting up, he just re-adjusts himself, reaches up, and slides my hand back onto his scalp to rest there. he slowly falls back asleep, basking in the comfort he feels around me, knowing he'd normally only feel this safe falling asleep around his sister and niece. <3

i'm also thinking about that tag-ramble i did forever ago of him, pre-dating, having some kind of dental work done and getting The Good Stuff™. and when i go to pick him up he's all loopy and flirty, and when he asks for a hug he uses the opportunity to pull me onto the hospital bed with him to snuggle and flirt even more, and i just OUHGGHHH i still. need. to make that a comic.

[chilapis]

hiii lapis 🫶 what would a quiet / lazy / no work day off with you and tartaglia look like? does one of you try to work and has to be dragged back to bed for more rest ? i hope ur doing welll yayy 🙇‍♀️

Hiiiii, hi Clara!! It’s genuinely so sweet of you to drop by with the end of the semester weighing down on you like so. I know I say it enough for it to becoming irritatingly redundant but please make sure you’re taking time for yourself — Dimitri would want you giving yourself breaks, whether they be social, or academic.

Two people who are both most “comfortable” with themselves when overworking themselves to death, have had maybe a single drink in two days (despite one of us literally having a hydro vision), and running on perhaps 6 hours of sleep combined being expected to let go completely. A battle in itself, truly.

I think the two of us would somehow fit in both of the roles, the person trying to crawl out of bed and the one trying to drag them in. That said . I do have a tendency to, um. collapse unexpectedly? I don’t take naps, not willingly at-least; but suddenly finding myself passed out is not. entirely uncommon, so I definitely feel like the idea of a lazy day in would be his idea rather than mine; probably carries me to bed and tucks me in before I pull him in myself. but also. I’m the one who absolutely doesn’t let him leave <- Might have been somewhat reluctant to spend the day in bed, but absolutely OPPOSED to the idea of him getting out.

I absolutely loathe how cold I run maturally and I reckon he’s much warmer due to having to adapt to the harsh weather conditions of Shneznaya so, he’s not. leaving after that. He tries to plead his way out and I just look at him like this.

Sopping wet cat born in a cardboard box flooded with rainwater. How dare you abandon her. Jail for the Ajax. Jail for one thousand years (for the. third time in his life? How does he keep doing it)

I feel like it’d literally just be more or less a day in that’s just spent cuddling though. Maybe we can worm our way out of the bed at some point and cook something together though — I always find domesticity to be my Achilles heel, unfortunately. The idea of cooking with him, helping each other in the kitchen in casual clothing, clearly disheveled and vulnerable… arms wrapped around my waist while I work the stove…. Lowering a wooden casket for me will be futile, use titanium. I’m going to claw my way out and live forever

But also aside from cuddling him… I know those muscles are tense, I know he hasn’t had an actual moment of relief in absolute ages, so the idea of just kneading his back, massaging his shoulders, stroking hair and lightly rubbing his scalp while making sure not to tug on his hair, massaging his temples. Spending a portion of the day just actually getting him to physically and mentally relax instead of being in fight-mode would be sufficient to get me to relax as well honestly. That said, I think I’d actually sob if he turned down the offer and tried to return to his work

[sea-of-souls1100]

Returning the favor - tell me something about your interest(s), you seem fun :)

Oh- thank you! Um. Sorry LOL

The guys in my brain are alllll pokemon (except for Ethoslab, who lives here year-round and rent-free), so we're gonna talk about Pokemon HeartGold/SoulSilver >:)

First off all, I love these games. Love em to pieces. I've had HeartGold since I was like 7, although I kept taking long breaks, forgot the story, and had to start the game over several times >:'D I finally stuck with a save file I started last year, and made it through the whole thing in about 80 hours. I do play a little slower than most, but we'll talk more about the reason for the stupid amount of time it took me now.

First of all, it's very important to understand that I play on a console, not an emulator. No hacks for me. Second of all, grinding in HG/SS is SHIT. It's so bad. It takes SO LONG to level your mons, especially in the postgame. The highest level wild pokemon you can find are ~lvl 50, and they are found only on Mt. Silver. For context: Red's team, who are supposed to be your final-final big battle of the game and located on top of Mt. Silver, are upwards of lvl 80.

This game's actual content, on the other hand, is my second favorite only to the original Unova storyline. These games have a relatively basic storyline, but a LOT of postgame content. You get two whole regions, a callback to the previous protagonists, and quick references to the Hoenn and Sinnoh games, which came out between the original Gold/Silver/Crystal and the HG/SS games. I also adore this game's rival, Silver. (Different from the mountain.) He's mean at first, but only because he's hurting, and he gets a very nice bettering-himself arc (adoptive after figure included)! Said father figure is Lance, the champion of the Indigo League, who I also adore. Back then, dragon types only had one weakness—ice types—and there were only a select few you could get. Unfortunately for him, I caught a Lapras pretty early on and swept his team with her, twice, but still. Dragon types are my favorites, next to dark, ghost, and grass types. (I'm very indecisive.

One last fun fact about me: I love the Chikorita line. The Chikorita line is objectively the worst Johto starter. I kick ass with my Meganium anyways <3

[nnnn99999]

Finally getting to my thoughts on the heart killers episode 1 and honestly it was better than I expected. Maybe it's because I didn't have many expectations to begin with. As long as I have my beloved joongdunk on my screen together I am a happy woman. But this episode was so fun and interesting and I am so excited for what's to come. I have so much I want to talk about so I think I'm going to make separate posts about each of them. Yes I am writing 10 different essays at the same time just like I did with bbs and that is a good thing. It means I am excited about the show itself and not just the actors. It was more than an hour long episode (I love that it was so long) and I enjoyed every moment of it.

I love the pacing of this episode too. It's not rushed at all, yet it's jam packed and doesn't waste time on unnecessary things. Except the burger mukbangs by First. Why was there an asmr burger mukbang not once but twice in this episode? I mean I don't mind but the question remains. This was the one thing that totally threw me off guard. Again I am not upset about it at all but I can't stop thinking why this decision was made? Is it because everyone in that production team loves watching First eat? Actually, that is quite a reasonable speculation. Yes I dedicated an entire paragraph to First's mukbangs because I really can't stop thinking about it.

I am so so glad my beloved joongdunk got the opportunity to be part of a production like this. This is so different from their previous projects and I can already see that they got the chance to explore as actors in ways they couldn't before. And I love that for them. My joongdunk heart is happy and content.

Also have to mention I love firstkhao in this too. I may focus more on joongdunk because I am a hardcore joongdunk simp but I really do appreciate all the other people involved in this project as well. Everyone put a lot of love and effort into this show and I appreciate that.

I don't know how this series will turn out in the future. But I already know I am going to love it. It has everything I enjoy- a fun story, interesting characters and character dynamics, fun lighting choices that contribute to the storytelling, music that sets the tone of the scenes, my favorite kind of pacing, good actors, good production and most importantly my beloved joongdunk. Thank you so much Jojo for bringing this show to life. I am eagerly anticipating what's to come and I am having a blast along the way.

The fact that we are going to get most of the scenes from the trailer and the bts photos in the first 2 episodes already is so exciting to me as well. This means we have no idea what will happen after ep 3. And that is so fun and exciting. I love that they did that. It makes me anticipate what's to come even more. Jojo, I love you, I really do. This show of yours is right up my alley.

Fun fact about me that nobody asked for: I have not seen 10 things I hate about you. Which is actually pretty weird because I have seen most romcoms from that time period, some even less popular than this one. I don't know why or how I missed it. I also refuse to read Shakespeare for very petty reasons. So yeah, I really have no idea what to expect from thk. But that makes it extra fun for me.