#i feel. so awful. and i really hope i get better Soon bc idk what ny job functions gonna be today bc its smth new so :)) pray 4 me

[possum-tooth]

good god. i should not have taken this shift this morning.

[whyse7vn]

SEVEN -

[ ot7 x reader ]

sevendaysafreak

8 participants - 8 online

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tae: we are watching jungkook slowly become alpha

namjoon: can you be normal today

jk: do you really mean that bro…

tae: with all my heart..

oh my god i’m tearing up

this is what being a real man is about

jimin: begging for pussy??

jk: I DID NOT BEG??

hobi: you harassed that poor woman for a whole week

yoongi: all for a hand hold

y/n: crazy!

tae: okay??

but it was literally real as fuck so does it matter??

jimin: it was real fucking sad

jin: personally if i was her i would of called the police like sexual harassment hello???

yoongi: right

namjoon: it was a great song jungkook

jk: > //// <

i’m blushing

that was me blushing

and i giggled a little

smiling rn

hehehehehe

namjoon: a thank you would of done it

jk: thank u >.<

jimin: she should of punched him

jin: was there need for an explicit version like??

we got the point the first time

i didn’t need to hear how horny you were for a second time

hobi: he just wanted to swear

tae: no he’s just real as fuck you wouldn’t get it

jk: real as fuck

yoongi: ig it was real as fuck for jungkook

he begs for pussy on a daily

jk: proof?

hobi: by bts

y/n: i’ll leak our dms

jk: DON’T DON’T DON’T

i’m sowyy 😣

jimin: i’m gonna punch him

hobi: fucking seven days a week doesn’t seem right

is that not how you get an std?

jk: no?

yoongi: is that not when you fuck multiple people?

y/n: you fuck multiple people jk?

jk: NO?????

jimin: why is ur no a question

hobi: suspicious

jin: jungkook has crabs

tae: that’s a real man disease

y/n: that’s gross

jk: i’m real

jimin: real itchy

namjoon: can we not talk about stds pls

y/n: i bet jay park has a couple of those

jk: ???

jimin: REALLLL

jin: that’s why him and jk are friends bonded over the burn

jk: i’m not his friend anymore

y/n: character development okay!!!

yoongi: was that bcs he stole from you?

jk: stop talking to me rn

jimin: OMG GUYS

yk i had the worst dream ever yesterday tae was in it

tae: and?

jimin: wdym and

tae: i hope you die

namjoon: pls don’t wish death upon people tae

jimin: yeah tae

tae: all of you can fucking die idc!!!

not jungkook tho he real as fuck

y/n: say real as fuck one more time and i’ll snap ur neck

jin: hot asf

yoongi: ew?

tae: nobody wants to see us winning jk it’s sad 😞

jk: i’m sobbing 💔💔😞😞💔💔

tae: they literally told us to kill ourselves

namjoon: literally no one said that

jimin: in fact YOU said you hope i die

jk: he could of meant by natural causes

tae: right i would never tell you to kill ur self that’s sick and evil

yoongi: kys

tae: ur not going to heaven

yoongi: aw man 🙁

hobi: what if we put tae in the electric chair

jin: what if we put tae and jungkook in the electric chair

jk: wtf ☹️

tae: i could easily survive the electric chair it would feel good to me actually

y/n: i’ve been telling you guys for years we need to lock them up

do you actually read the bullshit they say on a daily it’s actually insane they need help

like professional help

jk: i didn’t even say anything

jimin: you don’t need to

we just know

namjoon: i agree

we could send them to a camp

or something

tae: why are you talking about us like we’re not RIGHT here

jungkook get them omg

jk: i can’t go to camp

too much raw air exposure is bad for my skin

and i have a dentist appointment soon

yoongi: raw air?

jin: how soon is ur appointment?

jk: so soon that i can’t go to camp

tae: JUNGKOOK STAND UR GROUND

WE WILL NOT BE PUSHED AROUND

REPEAT AFTER ME

WE WILL NOT BE PUSHED AROUND

namjoon: tae shut up

y/n: right

tae: i liked it better when you guys just ignored me in this gc

now all you do is be mean

jimin: maybe u deserve it

*you definitely deserve it

hobi: stop talking then idk

yoongi: i will gladly ignore you again

jk: i love you tae i’ll listen to you talk

jin: jungkook the biggest dick rider ever

tae: he’s my little dick rider 🥰😍❤️

hobi: yeah definitely stop talking

namjoon: okay!

y/n: oh my god

jimin: ???

yoongi: um

jin: this is what seven was really about

jk: bro..

tae: lol

jimin: you're really gorgeous i would deadass fight 3 mountain lions in a mcdonald's handicap bathroom stall with my hands tied behind my back and my only weapon is a shake weight glued to my forehead just to get a chance to get to know you and take u out tbh

jin: nurse he’s out again

jimin: wrong chat lol

tae: and you wanna put ME in the electric chair

ur all out of ur minds

namjoon: you were gonna send that to someone????

jimin: is it bad?

y/n: so unbelievably bad

jk: blushing

yoongi: wow

tae: yikes

hobi: bts never beating the rizzless allegations

y/n: who were you gonna send that too?

jk: was it me?

yoongi: that was flirting?

jin: probably the notes app

jimin: no one

jin: told you

notes app.

jk: it wasn’t me?

tae: i’ll be nice and give you some better lines jimin dw

jimin: the only lines you have are of coke

tae: nvm fuck you stay bitchless

namjoon: leave jimin alone

jimin: right leave me alone

namjoon: he’ll open up in his own time

jimin: i fucking won’t

you guys deserve to know NOTHING about me

yoongi: okay don’t care kys

jimin: i have a crush

jin: i’m hungry

hobi: is this the same crush you talked about like 4 weeks ago??

jk: on me?

sorry jimin i’m already in love with someone else

yoongi: didn’t ask

jk: i won’t tell you who it is it’s a secret

namjoon: a secret from who??

jk: what does that mean…

namjoon: don’t we all know…

jin: i SAID i’m hungry

jimin: all you do is eat like omg??

get a job or something??????

jin: i have a job

i serve face for a living i would suggest you look into it since you have so much free time to BULLY and HARASS others but with a face like urs idk if you’ll make the cut

y/n: wow

jimin: i’m not reading all that 💀

y/n: never use that emoji again ew

jimin: 💀💀💀💀💀

y/n: this is why whoever ur trying to rizz up probably thinks ur a loser

yoongi: is it taemin again?

tae: ew you run back to taemin every 4 months it’s kinda embarrassing

jimin: taehyung you actually need to shut ur mouth

breathing the same air as you is embarrassing

and at least i have someone to run back to you are actually genuinely bitchless

tae: u are taemin’s bitch

so technically ur as bitchless

yoongi: gay

jk: don’t be a homocrome

namjoon: stop talking

jimin: it’s not even taemin so shut the hell up

i’m not talking about this anymore

moving on

hobi: what is your mbti guys

jk: physical touch

namjoon: that wasn’t the question

y/n: just say ur horny and go omg

jin: don’t

seven was actually enough

i will hear NO more about jungkooks sex life

everything i have learnt has been without my consent

my lawyers will be in touch

jk: my lawyers are ur lawyers

jin: not anymore

jk: omg…

hobi: oh my oh my god

namjoon: jin stop facetiming me i’m not answering

jin: pls joon pleaseeeeeeeeeeeee

namjoon: i’m not sitting there for you to look at urself in the camera for an hour

i have things to do

jimin: that sounds like very jobless behaviour to me tbh

jin: you can’t be ugly and jealous pls pick a struggle

tae: and rizzless

hobi: i know ur not talking…

tae: ????

hobi: tae i need you to do some self reflection

tae: okay?

i’m hot as fuck

cool as fuck

and real as fuck

i feel well reflected ty for suggesting that hoseok

y/n: i told you i’m gonna snap ur neck if you said that again

start running

jin: coming to watch 🥰

[my-castles-crumbling]

Anon Advice Asks - March 12

normalize anon (new), jensi anon, coffee shop anon (new), game anon (new), pg anon

normalize anon

around 2 years ago, my older brother told me...

I think it's really normal and natural to have some resentment for this! It wasn;t okay at all for him to put you in this position, and I can't imagine how that felt. I hope you know that if anyone ever does that again, it's okay to tell someone.

Are you able to see a therapist? I really think it might be helpful to work through some of this, you know? You don't deserve to have this affecting your whole life <3

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coffee shop anon

Hi, I’ve been following you for a while and you seem to give great advice so I was if you could help me out. I’m 18y, female, and a lesbian but I’ve never had like a single romantic or sexual experience like ever. I met this really cute girl at a coffee shop and we’re going ice skating on a date soon. I really want it to go well bc I like her. I’m also autistic so I’m not very good with social cues. Idk like what to expect and idk if I should try to kiss her at the end or something. Sorry for rambling 🫶🫶 thank u for any advice or like anything. In any case thank u for listening. ✨✨

Hi!

Ugh this is a hard one because kissing at the end really depends on vibes which are harder to feel out when you struggle with social cues. And we are also 99 percent sure I am autistic so like...I am not the best person to help with this lol.

I think you need to look for physical contact. If she's making a lot of excuses to touch you, then that's usually a good sign. Also if she's looking at your lips, she probably wants a kiss.

But I think since it's your first date, you should mostly pay attention to how YOU feel. It's okay to just keep it casual and not kiss her if you don't want to. It's okay to let her make the first move. And it's okay to tell her you're nervous and you're not sure what you're doing, too. If it makes you feel any better, my wife and I didn't kiss on our first date.

I'm wishing you so much luck and please update me if you think of it!

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game anon

Let me introduce to you a question I didn't understand why was wrong at the moment.

There is a 'game' in middle school or elementary school.

'You can't make your elbows touch' the boys say.

They said to me when I was a child.

And I can't get mad, because god, we were 12 and they weren't even aware what they were asking. But like, it's disgusting. It's disgusting how those little boys could think of that. How sucked up is this.

If you don't know, the elbows can't touch thing is so the girls will try, and they can absolutely. But while on it their chests get squished by their arms and make them more 'seeable'. That's disgusting, btw, I think, but it's literally a thing, and I didn't know for a long time.

ugh that's horrible. Yeah middle school boys can be awful. I'm sorry this happened to you </3 I'm glad you at least know now that it was wrong.

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PG anon

God, you really can't catch a break, huh? I'm so sorry </3. I'm glad this friend at least has a good prognosis.

No, I didn't get the last ask...according to my lovely spreadsheet, the last time I answered something for you was february 28th. But I'm glad you had some positive things to share! And of course, rant away!

As for your friend who you're worried about, could you call or texts them to check on them? I know it;s not the same, but any reassurance is something, right? I hope your dance thing goes well!

I'm sending hugs to you too <3

[sotc]

it's been a few days since the last vet checkup and today is just hitting harder emotionally for me with shaxx ): his whole head is covered in crusts and flakes and he's balding really bad at the top of his head ): i can tell it hurts for him to walk because the pads of his paws are dry and flakey and have some crusts at the nailbed too. he almost slipped today going down the stairs so now i def have to just make sure im carrying him. he's going into day 5 of atopica and my vet said he could see improvements from anywhere up to 1-2 weeks. but lots of places online it says it can take up to a month?? vet didn't give him a steroid shot (which i think is best bc i think this atopica route is better long term from what i've read) but i asked if there's anything i could do to alleviate his itching in the meantime. he doesn't do it often but he does aggressively paw at his head here and there that i think he makes himself bleed and that concerns me. my only solution right now is putting him in the donut zone and gently putting a cool damp cloth on his ears. the vet recommended Amitriptyline but it's apparently a sedative and i really don't feel comfortable with that. he's already going through so much idk idk :/ i guess i can't expect miracles to happen with skin infections likely taking longer to clear up. it just feels like it's maybe one of those things where it's gonna get worse before it gets better until the atopica is fully in his system. he just has to shed of all that hair i guess? i honestly can't tell if im fucking coping dude and i want to cry. lol. i feel like he's very slowly? getting better? there was a day i saw the edges of his ear crusting up really bad but i don't see it anymore. the hair on his paws look 'newer' but his head concerns me most he's just straight bald there and im hoping to see hair coming in soon.... he's still eating 3 times a day and im making sure he's drinking water. i trimmed the hair on his head very carefully because it's all mangled and full of flakey skin and im trying to brush him when he lets me but i can tell it hurts him. there's just *a lot* of flakey skin. aghhh

im checking up on him literally every couple of hours, i hangout with him a little bit and sometimes he tries to cuddle me. it's just so awful seeing him in pain and i really hope we see more results in the coming days. pics below (graphic warning of my cat dealing with injuries/skin infections)

first pic was jan 24th, the day before we went back to the vet and he got prescribed atopica. you can tell the hair looks clumpy on his head and it was, it was like hard to the touch. now it's just coming straight off as you can see with the picture on the right from today (jan 29th).

again i feel like im coping but im just hoping that he had to shed all of that fur because it was already 'compromised' / no longer healthy by that point.

[theshoesofatiredman]

hey! it's been a few months but i was the anon back in May that needed advice for that youth retreat. ik it's been a while (meant to follow up, but forgot) but thanks for the kind words, the strategies did help. still forced to go to church and whatnot but i'm expecting it to be better in a few years. something that really stood out to me during the retreat was how intentionally vague all the phrasing was. it's one of the bigger christian retreats out there, happens annually at multiple locations for multiple sessions, all that stuff; and yet, there were absolutely no specifics on the actual bigotry the church perpetuates. only blanket statements about being upright in a 'fallen' world, do not imitate the masculine/feminine, blah. and i feel like that ties into the recent asks about the passive homophobia. a lot of churches have done a rebrand of coming off more vaguely but just as intense with the bigoted sentiments. it lets people fill in the gaps of what they wanted to get from the experience (and worked? people were sobbing so much and exclaiming they saw 'the face of god'). it's definitely less off putting for early believers / youth. saying awful shit but re framing it in a positive way still makes it awful shit... and at least in my church tricks you into thinking it's not that bad until you get the string of sermons where the priest compares lgbt stuff to alcoholism & a kid confessing to me they think they're same sex attracted but believe they're called to live a celibate life. idk where i'm going with this but the reframing of it all just. seems like a shitty attempt to become more palpable to the masses. lets people live in denial a little longer that they're the good ones, and fuels the persecution complex more if they get called out...

Thanks for reaching back out!!! I'm so glad to hear that my advice was helpful.

Yeah I think the reality is that the modern church is facing a civil rights crisis as LGBTQ+ equality gains ground across the world. More and more people will find their oppressive theology impossible to swallow, so they repackage it to make it palatable. I want to believe that a hundred years from now the Christians then will find LGBTQ exclusion as reprehensible as current Christians do chattel slavery. Obviously there will be exceptions, as there are now, but I think we will get there.

Right now what I would tell Christians is that they have the opportunity to be like the abolitionist Christians, the people who fought against the entrenched theological regimes that used to Bible to back their slave brand. There's a revolution happening and people's lives are on the line. Don't miss it.

I hope that the person who said they had to be celibate because they're gay finds happiness. I hope the life they lead is always one they freely choose, not one under duress, not a choice made while their soul hangs above the pits of hell. I hope they don't sit in condemnation of the gay people who choose differently.

I don't know if I would handle that kind of coming out well if it happened to me now. It's hard to say bc it would be so immediately triggering. I'm sorry you are in this position and I hope things get easier soon. Good luck out there and thanks for following up!

[rouge-fauna]

tbh what You Say about a safer place starting to feel less safe is something that has happened to me before. Idk a exact solution but something that might help is maybe taking a step back from this app for a bit. Also just make what You like about the dsmp and other interest like art, writting etc. It won't make You forget why were You feeling that way, but can help to mitigate it's streght. Also it can help just see another things for a while, it doesn't havee to be another fandoms relate necessarily, it can idk watch differents movies for a week. Also accepting what the feeling is it's a good way to reduce it's streght bc the more You fight a feeling the more strong it is. At the end of the day there's not a only one solution and i think it's worth You try the ones that Will help You the most to avoid things You love to get bitter.

One thing that can help is finding people to talk to, it doesn't have to be about anything specific. It can be about lore, how are You feeling, the weather, random topics, etc.

I hope things get better for You soon 🫂🫂

-Cleo

Aw this is very sweet, I really appreciate it. <3 <3 I will say, that I am doing better now. Not gonna lie Monday and Tuesday had me barely eating barely sleeping, but the end of this week it has all kinda died down. I was really worried it would ruin it entirely for me for a bit, but as you can tell from my posting, that luckily hasn't happened. Apparently, internet drama is not enough to kick c!dream out of my head lol, though I guess that shouldn't really be surprising given what all he had to go through. Anyways, yeah while it was recommended by quite a few people to stay away from tumblr I couldn't manage to stay away, it's just habitual at this point. And I'm glad I didn't, because I think all the support from y'all has definitely helped to heal what was broken earlier in the weak. <3 <3 <3 So thank y'all for that, I can't express to you how impactful it was to have people stand up for me and have my side. While this type of nastiness is hardly new to me, this was really the first time I ever had active support, so truly thank you. <3

I am happy to report, I started a new art project, reworked Musical Chairs outline, and somehow even thought about and posted about c!Tommy, who for a bit just the mention of was triggering me. So we on the mend, thanks in part to y'all and years of therapy making this much less triggering than it could have been. :) <3

[jemmo]

My predictions for the rest of His Man are that Junseong and Sungho continue to be disgustingly in love and (hopefully) are still in a relationship, I truly think they fit each other really well. I think Seonwoo will eventually give in to Yeonghee and end up with him at the end of the show bc he’s said before Yeonghee is his type and I feel like while he’s worried how others will view their age difference and while I’m not totally convinced he has feelings for Yeonghee, he likes being liked and Yeonghee is gonna continue to like him. I feel like Seonwoo might be someone who develops stronger feelings in a relationship than before it. As for Minsung, I think he wants to choose Hyungjun, but the love triangle and Hyungjun’s lifestyle are stressing him out so badly I would not be surprised if he ends up choosing neither of them. He clearly does not like being put in the middle of drama and obviously he could end the drama by just telling Hyungjjn he chooses Hyungjun, but I think then he’s gonna be focused on how Hyungjun’s lifestyle is everything Minsung thinks he wouldn’t want in a partner. I feel like he might be the kind of person that would be hung up on that and not even want to try for risk of it hurting more if it doesn’t work out. And for Jeongwook I think he’ll be on his own, but I hope he’s gained some awesome friends, I feel like everyone really adores him. I hope he finds someone soon bc he deserves to be loved so much he’s such an amazing and strong person, I’ve loved watching him during this show.

oh dear anon i think you could be right but i also don’t want you to be??? idk it’s hard to share my predictions bc they’re so mixed up with my bias as to how i want it to end, not just how I objectively think it will end.

i think you’re right when it comes to 2sung and jungwook. the couple will be coupling till the end at this point and i just wanna squeeze every bit of screen time I can out of them and enjoy it while I can. and the same for jungwook, even though he hasn’t made a pairing, i just love watching him and love him, he’s so soft and gentle and i feel like he’s had a very necessary and very rewarding healing experience in the house that has better prepared him for finding his dream romance after the show, I have all my fingers crossed for him. the only thing I’ll say for jungwook is I do want some clearance with him and yonghee bc whenever we’ve seen him try to share those feelings they’ve never come across how he wanted, so I hope he gets that chance for his sake, and even if I think yonghee won’t reciprocate, I think it’ll be great for him to hear and for them to form a solid friendship bc yonghee just deserves to hear how great he is and be the one that’s loved for a change, instead of just chasing seonwoo.

speaking of, I really REALLLYYYYYYY hope he doesn’t end up with yonghee. and that’s not even bc I don’t like him at this point, I’ve been happy to see him post love triangle really just having fun and enjoying himself. and i think that’s what he needs to learn from this show, that he’s allowed to have fun. he’s post coming out with a lot on his mind and I think a lot of his initial behaviour was the stress of wanting to be liked, but now he knows people like him for him, and can like him as a friend, not as a romantic pursuit, which I think he needed to see. he needed to let loose and be more him, and i don’t think that’s the person he is with yonghee. they just have no romantic spark to me and I can’t get over how awful their eventual date was, I just think they could both find what they’re looking for in other people, and it’s only this attraction at first sight that has kept yonghee so seonwoo focused, and that’s not to say it’s just a shallow attraction, I think they do have some kind of connection and have learnt a lot from each other, but I think much like with sungho, it’s not meant to be. there isn’t the spark, there isn’t the butterflies, and I don’t see any genuine attraction on seonwoo’s end. I just hope they clear things up between them and can keep a good relationship.

and as for the last remaining love triangle… yes while I think all that you said is going through minsung’s head, and he is thinking a lot about the clash of their lifestyles, i just think from a narrative perspective, like the storyline the show has been trying to tell us, the natural ending for minsung would be to not focus on that and instead focus on his actual feelings and attraction and who he has that spark with, which for me is clearly hyungjun. like come on, if 2sung didn’t make it obvious enough, this show is selling us true love, pure romance, that being the important thing, and that’s what I think this will end up as. and I can’t see it as satisfying for hyungjin to launch this late attack to then be the one he chooses, not just for the narrative but i feel like minsung isn’t exactly responding to his advances, right?? he just looks uncomfortable, they haven’t had a real moment together, maybe bc they haven’t gotten the chance but again, when it comes to these things, if you have to try this hard to get in with someone just so you can have a sweet moment and try that hard, maybe it just isn’t meant to be, bc those moments should come naturally and they have with hyungjun. idk, while the whole compatible lifestyles thing is a legit thing to be concerned about, i feels to me more like an issue the show is stressing so they have something to overcome in the name of love, yknow??? like how 2sung were talking about the fear of it being different for them outside the house, and then outside the show, but they still got together regardless. like if a dating show isn’t going to leave me with the message that love is the most important, love conquers all, love is worth the risk, then where else??

so yeah, tl;dr, 2sung endgame, minsung and hyungjun making it through the great love triangle war, and the rest coming out the other end learning about themselves and making some great friendships. if I were to make a plight for anyone else, I’d say I lean towards jungwook and yonghee bc they’re cute together, and seonwoo and hyungjin bc I truly think these two creatures of chaos are the only ones that can keep each other in check. as for actual, non-biased predictions, no clue, just gotta brace myself for the rollercoaster ride to the finish

[mithliya]

idk which ex ur talking about in that "insane things my ex has done" but i relate bcuz i am currently in a relationship with a gendie who has started saying recently that my aversion to male genitalia is incredibly transphobic even though she knows i have been sexually assaulted many times by men (and am and always have been a lesbian lol) (also sorry if this is inappropriate but i feel like i have no one else to confide in.)

im not sure where i talked about her but i can tell from what u said which ex i was talking about lool its my 1st gf and i never rly talked fully about this bc my ex has since transitioned (only socially tho afaik) & continued to be questionable as fuck in various ways and went from friendly w me to shit talking me bc how dare i share my opinions on my blog which she decided to keep regularly checking for years after our break up despite her having a gf and us hardly ever talking (partially bc of me bc frankly in hindsight i was far too forgiving n despite that she demonised me at the end of our relationship n was weird in various moments after we remained friends)

but she was (& is) also a gendie, which is fine bc when we were together she wasnt like irrational about it. she was the one who told me that SRS doesnt work the way i thought it did, like the genitals didnt magically change and there arent like no differences like i thought, instead she said the differences were obvious. but near the end of our relationship she insisted to me that the way to fix her issues was to make our relationship an open relationship, said that my body made her insecure about her own body n she should sleep w people with a similar body to gain confidence in it. prior to that i was not for an open relationship at all but those comments made me feel like saying no would make me selfish and that if thats what she needs to accept herself then fine yanno. then ofc not soon after she starts e-dating this trans woman who is an abusive creep & rapist (like not even exaggerating here. but ofc those accusations were dismissed for a while bc the trans woman called the woman who came out about the abuse a terf n ppl believed that until trans women also began to call this out). i was like um hows dating someone with a diff body than u and even a diff sex going to make u feel better about ur body when thats the entire reason for the open relationship? never rly got a proper answer but whatever i let it be. then that trans woman wanted to be in a throuple with us basically like wanted to get with me and my ex and would openly fantasise about me to my ex. my ex said "oh she wouldnt be into that, shes not into penises" and the trans woman was like omg why.. :( and my ex was like oh shes penis-repulsed etc and the trans woman was like aw how sad i hope she gets help for that!! n my ex agreed. then my ex told me about this n i was like... what the fuck? it took me a bit but after a few days i was like hey this comment really pissed me off wtf do u mean gets help for that.. and my ex was saying that i should seek therapy to stop being penis-repulsed and should see trans women as women and be open to trans women in a romantic & sexual way basically and i was clearly upset by that n i was like. ur telling me to seek conversion therapy. n she was like nooo and i was like what so u mean some kind of exposure therapy against the "phobia" of penises? and she was like yeah just like that! n i said... thats literally a form of conversion therapy that was done in the past to other gay ppl.. exposing gay ppl to the opposite sex's genitals to try to change their feelings towards it is literally a conversion therapy tactic.

anyways my ex n i ultimately broke up bc it turned out the open relationship was meant to be one-sided somehow and her doing things was ok but if i did things it made me a cheater somehow and my comfort was repeatedly disregarded, i didnt like that trans woman at all at that point n my ex would still keep dating them n it was just all too many bad things at once so i was like fuck it im done w this. ultimately my ex realised that this trans woman is indeed an abuser and i also realised the my 2nd gf who i got with soon after i broke up w my ex is also an abuser. but then when my ex began to transition she started to show more of that homophobia she showed during our relationship like saying the f-slur (calling ppl that) and saying its ok bc "im a bisexual man" which was just.........erm... anyways in the end our last form of communication was her getting her friends to gang up on me for ~ruining the fun~ of a game of among us and then she talked shit about me to one of my close friends (been friends for 14 years) who she never even met and was like ~omg shes so problematic im sorry i just cant handle it anymore~ ......

anyways i feel u lmao. its not inappropriate dont worry and im sorry u went thru that too bc its painful to love someone as they are and yet they basically tell u that ur lesbianism means something is wrong w u bc ur truly not into males at all. honestly i think its best for u to end it asap instead of making the mistake i did, nothing good came out of it for me and i shouldve left for good at the first red flag which was my ex's compulsive lying about serious issues like rape & fgm, or immediately ended it when she was saying that i should go thru conversion therapy otherwise im transphobic

[sungbeam]

Okay i'm sorry this took me so long to get back to- but omg- incantations was so good!!! I love that every dino bias is just !!! over this too! (would have bawled my eyes out worse if it was jun tbh but god you captured dino so well 😭😭))- God I love reading your fics- it's like a little treat after hardwork!! That murder line is just still 🫠🤭 it's so good- I loveddddd the catalyst chapter sm!! And I loved how each thing was slowly solved- sure there are things that are more up in the air- but it was like connecting puzzle pieces and I loved it sm!!! And god you made such a good balance between info & immersion- I think platonic friendships are vv undervalued and underutilized- a good friend group could bring sm more value!! I love that you included it here too!! A sequel would be everything! But that is totally up to you!! You don't have to- but like god that would be cool to read about- ohhhh indigo was so cool! I loved that Juyo is just so oblivious 🤭🥺 he prolly would take forever to catch on- and it's so cute to think about- this fic made me crave matcha btw- need to get me some soon... bhebhea- I'm so glad you have a thought-out character of Indigo!! That's so good! Dino is a tragedy 😭💔💔 I guess it could be a little rushed- but it felt fine!! I may have wished for more but I did realize you were under time constraint! And I was happy with it!! Even if I bawled to it 😭🫶 I feel like it may break dino's sister sm- bc her bro did everything he could for her- and yet he's gone now 😭💔 oh gosh- You writing is always so compelling!! It's so good! Aw heck yeah!!! Aunt jenna!!! I like her as a mentor figure sm! And I love their little family sm!! You're so good at character building and developing!! You continuing to improve them just leaves me more and more speechless 🫠😭🫶

HOW DID HE DO THIS TO US- 😭😭😭 WE ARE JUMPING OFF THE DEEP END- (I fear... we may be too far gone... as long as we don't purchase it- we'll be okay!!) Heheh it was so fun to read, reblog, and talk about this fic!! cause my username here is from an icecream place? maybe an icecream cone or a snowman? up to you honestly- I'm fine with wtv 🙂‍↕️ (is there anyone in particular you'd like? 👀)

KATE HIHI!! and dw abt it, def take ur time replying and stuff! omggg ur jun biased?? i've been so ksbfkdjfj over him lately cuz of the pics from his new drama UGH 😩 like WHAT is in the svt air lately (there's always something in the air) but tbh jun would make an interesting villain bahahha ... things to think abt ^^

im so glad u enjoy my fics and think of them as a little treat for urself!! :')) i hope they always feel as indulgent to u as they make me feel 😌 for sure, im glad u liked how things slowly came to light and u also don't mind that some things r still left untied for the time being 😅 i have answers to everything tho, trust!! but what matters is that it feels cohesive and immersive as you've said!!

i feel that i lately have been more interested in platonic relationships than romantic ones but it's always so hard to find those kinds of aus on tumblr 💔 OMG PLS UR ACTUALLY RIGHT THO WITH JUYO 😭 i feel so bad for low-key always making him himbro-coded/baby boy-esque but that's just how he vibes in my head 😭 heart of gold,, but sometimes misses the plot skfnkenfkfnf which is why his witch gf adores him 😆 speaking of indigo tho, i kind of based her off an irl friend of mine who biases juyo and it made it easier to make her character in my head skcnkrnf idk if people ever find it weird if authors/writers base their characters off real life people 💀 she'll never know tho heh

omg ur so right as long as we don't buy a chucky doll we'll be in the safe zone 😭😭 the bar is LOW.....

and ooh!! i shall grant thee 🍨!! the snowmen emojis were also super cute but i thought the pink of this one matched your blog a little better :')) (at least it's pink on my samsung 💀) as for me, i don't really have a preference for emojis, just wtv u vibe w best!! <3

[nathank77]

10/1/24

7:22 p.m

So. I'll talk about my mother soon. Probably at the end of this post. I haven't been able to schedule my mri for my ears yet...

I actually called them and I had it on speaker phone and my right ear. The problem ear....it got really weird.. I don't know how to describe it but I'm going to try.... it was like a loud speaker in my right ear. Like a radio frequency... not a hallucination.... like the speaker phone volume got all sorts of loud.... and echoy.. it could be a number of things. It was the first time it happened....but yea I'm nervous I really got to get it scheduled but they couldn't bc the scheduler was out of the office...

So about my mother, her GI dr found out what was happening and offered this alternative procedure... where they go in with a camera and drain the abssess... and I showed up. Canceled therapy. And the fucking scope broke.... we were in the OR... and all ready and the scope broke.

They offered her to do it tomorrow IF it came in fast enough but they didn't know if It could... they offered to transfer her to another hospital to get it done tomorrow by the same dr... but she was in so much pain she couldn't think and she didn't want to go to another hospital bc of the pain of transport... so she agreed to the bag surgery..... I even talked to the nurses and said she isn't thinking clearly bc you said there would be no bed and she would be out in the hallway... and she doesn't realize how depressed she's going to be as well as all of us.

So they were willing to transport her but the pain was so unbearable she decided to go with the stoma bag.... and I did everything i could but I heard the nurse behind me sorta cry.

I was there from like 1 p.m to almost 5 p.m... I talked to skye. They gave my mom a benzodiazepine... and her pain got much better and skye is trying to get her to agree to it and she did.. but now they might not be able to transport her bc it's later...

Idk what to do. I'm so emotional. And I got Riley who had been crated all day basically. I finally showered and I haven't had any time for myself.

I really don't want my mother to end up with a bag. She's going to be so depressed. I'm going to cry. I hope they can get her to this other hospital for tomorrow.... she would still need another surgery in a month or so but she would be able to poop normally. She's been in so much pain and crying so much and it's just fucking awful watching her go through it and not being able to help minus just being there.

Riley knocked the closet door down... when I was in the shower... idk how. It wasn't attached bc we are poor and ghetto.... but it was leaned in a way that wasnt easy to knock down watch the video below... for a further explanation..

I haven't had any time to cope with what's going on with my mom. I haven't had anytime to cope with my own shit. Tomorrow is the surgery. Whatever surgery she gets. Riley has to be crated all day again. I feel so bad.

I cleaned the stove when I got home and the toilet bowl again. I washed my pan and Spatula bc I had eggs before I saw my mother.

I'm waiting for liv to finally take out the remainder of my mother blankets... so I can finally wash the fucking rugs and do my clothes bc they are piling up..... I got so many clothes to wash.

We can't keep Riley out of the bathroom which is another problem but since the closet door fell she hasn't followed me in the bathroom since.... but I doubt it'll last. I'd love for her to never come to the bathroom again.

I have so much to do. And I haven't had therapy in over a week and I need someone to talk to.

[baekhvuns]

hi, sunbae. how have u been? how has baekhvuns villagers been?

im kinda off tbh. my mental health hasnt been the greatest (im getting professional help tho, dw), and now besides gaza there's a massive flooding in one brazilian state, rio grande do sul, and it has made me feel so bad. im not from there so im not at risk, but as a brazilian it has made me feel so angry. people lost their whole houses. there are thousands of people missing. the situation is awful, all due to climate change and a state governor who is a fucking asshole.

sorry to rant, im very pissed. i dont know if people outside brazil know ab whats happening in rio grande do sul, but please donate if you can. things are really serious.

but! talking ab nice things, i just came back from a trip with my sibiling and it has helped me to relax somehow. im writing a bit and taking care of my health, so... yeah.

(and idk if this is still as fun as it used to be bc now u know who i am and im not even half as funny as i used to be when i started sending u asks, but thats what i have to offer for now lol)

see yall soon :)

-hoobae anon

hello!! i’ve been good, just extremely busy w uni 😀, hope you’ve been well as well!!!

im kinda off tbh. my mental health hasnt been the greatest (im getting professional help tho, dw), and now besides gaza there's a massive flooding in one brazilian state, rio grande do sul, and it has made me feel so bad. im not from there so im not at risk, but as a brazilian it has made me feel so angry. people lost their whole houses. there are thousands of people missing. the situation is awful, all due to climate change and a state governor who is a fucking asshole.

sorry to rant, im very pissed. i dont know if people outside brazil know ab whats happening in rio grande do sul, but please donate if you can. things are really serious.

omg i’m glad you’re getting help! pls do pop in whenever you want if ur wanting to talk!!!

stop i heard of that, it was all over my TL and my brazillian friends were informing me of it, what an absolutely terrifying situation to be in. fUCK that governor, there’s atp literally no good governor there ???? 😭😭😭 i hope the situation is a little better than before (unfort i do not know how it’s been now as my TL’s the same as when it first happened!!) no please rant, blabber all u want!

this one has a good donation site link if i remember!

but! talking ab nice things, i just came back from a trip with my sibiling and it has helped me to relax somehow. im writing a bit and taking care of my health, so... yeah.

oooo, where did you go??? i’m glad it did helped you, writing a bit, 👀 do give us some hint because i loved your last one, i was wondering if u got the ask! i was worried it never reached so ihave it saved as a draft on my notes in case it didn’t 😭😭😭

what writing 👀 idk if it helps u with ur writing but a webtoon by the name the mafia nanny might help with some inspo ☺️

(and idk if this is still as fun as it used to be be now u know who i am and im not even half as funny as used to be when i started sending u asks, but thats what i have to offer for now lol)

IT IS DON’T YOU WORRY 🫡 NO IT DOESNT MATTER UR FUNNY AF PLS DONT STOP 😭😭‼️

[mangoisms]

hi it’s dc anon :D my summer internship killed what was left of my mental health but i finally got some free time to read more of ur stuff and omg ck is so good !!! to be completely honest i’ve never read any tim fics before so this is definitely An Experience for me but i’m really enjoying this one, i think the way u write his dynamic with steph is perfect and i adore everything about wally and readers friendship it’s so sweet. can’t wait to read the next chapter !! (i am also reading frmb but idk when i’ll be able to catch up to the current updates but shit how do u never miss with ur writing it’s always so good <3)

u really are an amazing writer moss ❤️‍🩹

dc anon!!!! omg hi!!! it is so good to hear from you <33 aw :( i’m sorry to hear that!! i hope you feel better soon <3 i’m rooting for you <3

^_^ thank you so much!!! i am honored that you’re giving it a chance!!! i hope i can make it a fun experience <3 he and steph are definitely fun, if not a bit scary to write, mostly because i want to get that dynamic right! so thank you sm :* reader and wally are also so much fun <3 can’t wait for linda to be introduced bc then the three of them will just be <3 (and thank you so much again <3 you are too sweet, take your time! i just hope you enjoy everything ^_^)

<3 thank you sm again it was so lovely to hear from you! good luck with your internship and i hope you feel better too!! your local moss is cheering for you ^_^ :*

[jebewonmorelike]

[ anon 💎 ] KARAAA congo for 400 followers 🫨🫨 we really appreciate your hard work (ESPECIALLY ME!!) your hard work and perseverance really have paid off >< congratulations (again) i'm in awe of your skill in writing and many much more :')

i also hope you'll feel much better soon 🫶🫶 anon 💎 wish u 2 be happy and healthy :D take care of yourself and stay hydrated too!! i'll be waiting for the day you'll hit 500 followers 😈 giving u an epic gold star rnn

BUT YEAHH that's all tbh.. idk what i'm saying bc i just wanna congratulate my fav author and saying only congrats seems boring soo💓 (i prob said the most randomest words in my mind but idc) mailing you flowers right now to celebrate!! you deserve that 400 followers more than ever for being such a great and amazing writter!! kara deserve all da love in the world 🌏💐 HUGSSS

I ADORE YOU 💎 ANON

thank you so so much for being my pal and checking in on me and sharing your thoughts <3 it makes me so happy!!

i'm hard at work getting the matthew fic out to you (yes you specifically lmao) so i'm marathon writing that until it's done tonight. i think it should be done in a couple hours. it's shaping up quite nicely i think 😭

THANK U SO MUCH FRIEND 💕🥹 love you long time!!!

[luveline]

hey!

idk if you’re still doing your james requests but im currently about to drive to the airport and it’s bringing it up a lot of sad memories for personal reasons - i was wondering if u could write a drabble in which a similar thing happens w james x reader? maybe she’s a little folorn and weepy and he doesn’t realise at first bc he’s excited to go on holiday but then he realises and comfort ensues?

i understand if this is too niche or if u cant write it for whatever reason of course!

thank you 💌

p.s ur most recent drabbles have been giving me LIFE - i love every single one!

tysm for requesting ily <3 hope this is ok <333

James is a ball of energy, has been all the way here. Luckily you’d been spared from having to try and match his enthusiasm while driving by early morning traffic. Now, though, you’re failing to but up a good front.

He’s so pretty, rambling away about the sights they’re going to see, and you feel the gap between you like a yawning maw of loneliness and long nights. You feel awful: James is a great boyfriend and has been so excited for this trip, a bachelor party with old school friends, you really can’t stand to ruin it with your own feelings.

You catch a tear before it can fall and sniffle weakly, furious with yourself. James flinches, head coming up from the little brochure in his hands to look at you.

You flinch yourself and turn your back to him, trying to wipe away any evidence before he can see it.

Firm hands on your shoulders, turning you to the side. “Hey, hey… what’s wrong?”

“Nothing,” you say, smiling sunnily despite how much your chest hurts.

“Angel,” he says, skeptical. The sunshine is leaking in through the airport's big glass windows, bouncing off of his skin in a way that makes him glow, almost ethereal. His eyebrows have pinched together into a dark brown, almost black line above his eyes.

You smile wider and the action of it pushes another tear from your eye. You wipe it away with spiteful fingers. He makes a grab for your hand and pulls it from your face so you can't be cruel to yourself.

“Y/N,” he says.

This finally makes you frown. James never uses your name, it’s always angel or baby or angelbaby. Names varying in ridiculousness depending on how lovelorn he’s feeling.

“Sorry,” you mutter, dropping the act. You should've known your upset would cut through his excitement eventually.

“Why are you crying? Are you hurting?”

"No," you say quickly. "I'm fine."

"You're not fine, baby, you're crying your eyes out."

An over exaggeration and a fulfilling prophecy; you bite your lip determined to make no sound as the first sob courses through you.

James pushes his hands under your arms to cross over your back, pulling your chest against his chest, hugging you with enough force to lift your feet off the ground for a split second before he remembers to lean down.

"What's wrong?" he asks, sounding sad. "Have I done something?”

"I'm going to miss you so much," you confess. As soon as you've said it you're ashamed of yourself, trying to take it back.

"I'm going to miss you too," he says into the top of your head, hand on a looping course over your back. His touch is comforting and the desperate quality of your emotion begins to wane. "I'm gonna call you every single day, angel. Ten days and I'll be back. We've spent longer than that apart before."

"I know. I'm sorry, I didn't want to cry and mess up your trip before you've even gone," you say forlornly.

"You haven't messed up anything," he murmurs, tightening his arms around you. "You hear me? You've got nothing to worry about, nothing to be sorry for."

You clasp his shirt in your hands. "I'm okay, James, really. Sorry. It just hit me all at once."

"It's fine," he says, syllables dragging. "It's okay. Stop being sorry on me."

You sniffle.

"You better not be getting snot on my shirt."

"I'm not," you say quickly, laughing weakly, though maybe you are. If not snot then definitely tears.

"I'm gonna miss you so much, I hope you know that. And," he says, weaving his hand in your hair to pull your head back gently, meeting your eyes, "I'm sorry for not noticing that you're upset."

"You're excited, Jamie. Plus, I didn't really want you to notice."

He taps under your chin with his knuckle, two quick raps to get you to lift your head properly.

"I'm excited to go. But you know what else? I'm excited to come home to you."

You feel a weight come off your chest. Your smile is genuine this time as you reply, "Come back fast, handsome."

"You think I'm handsome?" he asks coyly.

You burst into laughter.

[leviiattacks]

Hi, you're a very talented writer and your works are very beautiful. Can I request one where Levi's fem s/o does the ignore your boyfriend prank? Thank you so much and take care of yourself ❤️

author note :: thank youuu i’m glad you think that anon !! this isn’t good at all bc i’m just very sick and yeah,,, i’m sorry if this doesn’t live up to your expectations but i needed something to do and ended up finishing this. hmmm what is this is it fluff?? idk it’s captain levi and survey corps member reader though :-) requests are open so feel free to drop by if you’d like :D word count :: 3.4k 

you should NOT be bothering levi as much as you are because he understands you need your own space to relax sometimes

but come on... you’ve been ignoring him for an unreasonable amount of time now??

and he’s not talking about groggy ignoring, it’s not the type you do when you’ve just awoken from a restless night’s sleep

no. you’re talking to everyone apart from him.

and it’s driving him up a literal wall

did he do something wrong???

has he made a mistake so large that you’re too scared to bring it up???

are you finally sick of him??

will you break up with him?

levi winces when thinking of that specific question

but he’s the type to silently keep his worries to himself as soon as he sees any indication of a bad omen

currently, he’s mentally preparing himself for you to break the news to him any day now

but little does he know you’ve just pulled a prank hoping for him to whine and complain a little

the point of this all is to elicit an out of character reaction

;-)

the idea came from historia at first

her playing such a foul trick on ymir didn’t go unnoticed and little by little ymir’s resolve crumbled away throughout the day

she went quite literally ballistic trying to get historia’s attention

and watching it all play out made you want to try it out with levi

you’d be a FOOL not to

WELL!!!! the fun part about this is that you’re a bit actually, no. a lot, more stubborn than historia!!!

and instead of committing to the prank for a day you’ve chosen to see how far you can stretch this out

if you have to drag it out for two days so be it

you have good reason to

levi isn’t the most affectionate man, your relationship is kept a total secret from all of the cadets

meaning pda never happens

and,,, listen you would love to kiss him before expeditions without having to drag him behind your horse for cover

to be frank the back of a horse does smell rather unpleasant and it’s not as romantic as you’d like for it to be

honestly you’d rather have everyone stare and gawk in awe watching the two of you make out

seeing them put two and two together realizing what it is that’s going on between you and the captain would be hilarious

especially since reiner said last week he could never picture levi dating anyone

AND!! he even had the audacity to say he thinks someone like him would never date someone on the team

is it really not that obvious to them?

do you and levi lack chemistry?

silently fuming you walk away and even then none of the cadets get the hint

but you do think mikasa has known for a while. her senses are sharp and whenever she sees you and levi together she makes a u-turn heading in the opposite direction away from the both of you

but even if she does she isn’t going to tell anyone about it unless she’s directly asked so it’s not like the cat will be out of the bag any time soon

it’s silly getting worked up over reiner’s comments but it’s kinda disheartening having the relationship be kept a secret

and you thought even if it was there would be at least a hint of a rumour, like it should be decently obvious it’s been months since the two of you began to see each other

ESSENTIALLY, this is your plan to “accidentally” let the cadets figure it out

eventually levi will have to get restless enough to do something bold

that’s what you think will happen

but then the reality of the situation hits you at the end of the first day

he seems to be dealing with it just fine ?????

after giving him the cold shoulder he shows no signs of returning at all

...

WHY IS IT NOT WORKING???

mayday mayday mayday....?!??

red alert....?!??

you are about to bang your head against a wall he’s the one who’s meant to be suffering over this not you

but again, you’re stubborn and won’t give in easily

by the end of day one levi has approached you two times

two...

each time you’ve given him completely blunt responses

it’s frustrating you that he’s just dealing with it as it comes

and when he does speak to you it’s not to ask what’s wrong

the first time he approaches you is to ask if you’ve seen petra around which makes your blood boil a little because everyone knows petra has a big, fat, MASSIVE crush on him

you know he won’t ever reciprocate or anything for a number of reasons but you can’t help but feel annoyed

the second time he speaks to you is to ask if you’re willing to help hange out with some paperwork

??????

he doesn’t even look interested in asking you what’s wrong

honestly you would drop this plan but you’re in too deep now

may as well keep it up.

the second day rolls around and it’s not your best day

you burn breakfast

trip over a broom and hit your leg rather hard against the dining table

spill an ENTIRE cup of tea over hange’s important documents

and you haven’t slept a wink after overthinking your relationship status for hours on end

maybe this prank wasn’t a great idea

you’re hunched over the documents close to tears not knowing how you can save them now

there’s nothing you can do and even though you know hange will be okay with it, (they’ve never cared much for paperwork) you just don’t want to inconvenience them with this mess

“y/n?”

looking up you see eren standing by the doorway of the kitchen watching with a humored expression as you place paper towels over the disaster you’ve created

“captain’s looking for you.”

perking up a little internally you make sure to remain as disinterested as possible on the surface

“what does he need?”

“i don’t know he didn’t say.”

“tell him i’m busy.”

and that’s all that occurs during day two

you pass by levi and occasionally his gaze flicks to you but he doesn’t take any action to address you in public or in private

you end up going to bed even more disappointed than you were the first night

the prank definitely isn’t going the way you want and instead of it leading to levi cornering you in front of everyone and dipping you into a dreamy swoon worthy kiss it’s led to you developing doubts.

many doubts.

but you aren’t giving up any time soon, now more than ever you want to be reassured levi even wants this relationship because he’s not acting like it

it’s admittedly a bitch move on your part for pulling this prank in the first place but you expected him to ask how you were doing it has been forty-eight hours after all

if the roles were reversed you’d force him into a room until he would tell you

so you can’t explain his weird behaviour at all

maybe he doesn’t like you as much as you think

that thought makes your eyes sting at the corners

he’s always been reserved and a little lost when it comes to opening up but you’re beginning to lose hope if he finds it this hard to ask if you’re okay

drifting off to sleep before you can wallow in your thoughts any more you wish tomorrow is better

it’s the third day and to say you’re exhausted is an understatement

midday and you’re training in the sweltering heat

the lack of sleep you’ve had recently paired with your stress isn’t doing you any good

a little dizzy you attempt to hold onto a nearby tree for stability but end up somehow missing the mark by a MILE??

tumbling to the floor painfully you hiss at the collision and rub the back of your head which is now sore

footsteps approach you in a hurry and for the first time in days you’re face to face with levi

“you okay?” concern is very much evident in his voice and that eases your nerves

without you even responding he’s turning you around just to check in case

nodding wordlessly you try to get to your feet when you feel a shift.

your ankle without warning gives out on you and you’re sent crashing back down to the ground

closing your eyes and bracing for impact you’re pleasantly surprised when levi catches you by the waist

your weight is leaning onto him and you’re looking down to the floor

hange is yelling from across the courtyard telling levi to drop you off at the infirmary but he doesn’t need to be told that

his instincts do the talking for him and he’s already slung you over his shoulder and begins carrying you towards the base

“levi. put. me. down. this position’s embarrassing.”

he doesn’t respond and you can hear sasha and connie cackling at the compromising situation

swatting his back you’re huffing and puffing yet he’s still ignoring you

you’re being given the silent treatment but you suppose you do deserve it

sighing you deal with the stares you receive on the way there

this is levi and at this point nothing is seen as abnormal when he does it

you can’t really look behind you to see levi’s expression either but when a cadet walks past and mouths “y/n, what the hell did you do??” you know you’re in for it

eventually he reaches the infirmary and without even letting you get a word in he plops you onto the bed albeit a little rough

“what’s with the cold shoulder?” he places both his arms by your sides leaving you trapped

“i-”

“if you want to break up you can just say that instead of beating around the bush.”

you’re stunned by the harsh tone of his voice, he doesn’t have his usual soft timbre and your eyes glaze over in defense

“you want to break up?” your question hangs in the air

chewing at your lip anxiously you know if you bite any harder you’ll draw blood

“i don’t care. if that’s what you want, sure.”

oh.

oh no.

this isn’t going how you planned

nails digging into the flesh of your palms you hang your head low

he doesn’t care at all

if that’s what you want????? really???? that’s his response??? he won’t even fight for you???

it’s silent as he bandages your ankle and you’re burning in a mix of embarrassment and fury.

“i was just pull-” choking up in the middle of your sentence you feel yourself automatically frown

“i was just pulling a prank on you. you know how historia did with ym-“

really you’ve always been terrible at holding back your tears and a few spill over the edge and you sob

why are you like this why why why why why?????

yeah,, you get why everyone calls you overly emotional from time to time but really you swear you feel your heart shatter a little at how levi’s acting

shielding your eyes with your sleeve you cower away from him

lord have mercy.

levi wants to curl up into a ball and die from the wave of embarrassment that hits him

a prank.

a trick.

and he didn’t catch on.

and now you’re crying.

because he thought acting tough and cold in case you wanted to break up with him made perfectly logical sense???

spoiler : it didn’t make any sense...

but now it’s made him look like he hates you??

but he doesn’t hate you

no, no, no. not at all.

he could never hate you.

you’re always willing to help anyone out, you’re genuine, always say sorry even when you don’t need to, unapologetically yourself at any moment, you’re fearful yet push it all aside to be courageous and most of all he loves your little hobbies because who in their right mind actually enjoys gardening??

he’s convinced people who say they like gardening are looking for something unique to make themselves stand out but really you enjoy it and it’s quite cute

ok, ok no more getting side tracked whilst talking about your love for plants

he could name so much more he admires about you but he’d be here all day

“i tried to talk to you yesterday but after you refused i thought you hated me and wanted to break up. that’s why i was acting like that just now.” he slowly tries to explain his point to you

“i know i’m hard to love so when you began to ignore me out of the blue i figured you didn’t want to-”

cutting him off without giving him the option of finishing his sentence you’re wide eyed in horror. he was NOT meant to interpret the prank this way.

“levi?? for as long as i’m alive i’ll never get tired of you. i promise.” his heart rate shoots and the intense magnetism between the two of you becomes stronger by the second

you pause for a second gathering yourself.

“and i’m sorry i should’ve thought about how you’d feel. the reason i did it was stupid.”

levi kneels by the bed and takes your hand in his, he graciously lifts the sleeve of your uniform and ducks down to press a soft kiss onto your wrist.

your heart flutters seeing him be so careful and gentle with you and bashfully you look away

guilt overwhelms you at that moment because you really are horrible for putting him through all of that.

levi cares for you he does

he may be silent about it and not the best at being public with it but you know how he feels.

you feel it in the way he looks at you

you feel it when he helps you mount your horse

you feel it when he double checks your harnesses before expeditions

you feel it when he tends to your injuries

and, you definitely feel it right now when it sinks in that he was acting like he hated you just so you wouldn’t feel bad if you really did want to break up with him.

he’s always been bad at picking up on hints and cues so you now understand why he interpreted it as you wanting nothing to do with him

of course he wouldn’t ask how you were if it looked like you wanted to skin him alive

“what was the reason for the prank?” he inquisitively asks genuinely wanting to know what it is he can do for you

“i...” you’re wandering off and suddenly don’t want to tell him

“i wanted you to kiss me.” you whisper in a rush

he cocks an eyebrow up even more lost. “i kiss you all the time?”

“i mean, in front of everyone else.”

he blinks and his mouth forms into an “O” shape

it’s a little awkward now

he doesn’t bring it up again so you assume he doesn’t like the idea of letting everyone know just yet

and that’s okay!! you respect that!!

after all, you can’t get mad at him for it, it’s the best choice.

you don’t want people to accuse him of having bias towards you and it’ll probably upset petra and hinder her performance if her crush just suddenly starts dating out of nowhere

your gaze is back on levi and he’s now double checking the bandage on your ankle after tending to it

“you can’t walk for a few weeks.” he tsks

“be careful next time.” he’s always been blunt when he does show he cares and you warmly smile after not talking to him in days.

you feel the need to apologize again

“to make it clear i really am sorry, i should have thought more about you.”

he scoffs and rolls his eyes

“i’m overjoyed that my beautiful girlfriend doesn’t want to break up with me. now, stop moping around about it i’m over it.”

he scoops you up effortlessly and you wrap your arms around his neck.

“y/n, for the record, i’ll work on not jumping to the worst case scenario first.”

you love this aspect of your relationship

being able to understand how your flaws impact the other and choosing to make changes or adjustments

it’s sweet and you must be smiling like an idiot when thinking of it because levi blows a puff of air onto your forehead knocking you out of your daydream

feeling a little less light headed than before you notice he’s walking back out towards the courtyard

why is he doing that...?

“you’re walking in the wrong direction?”

“no i’m not.” he replies with a smug grin

oh my god

no he isn’t

oh my god

is he???

you’re bright pink in the face as you turn to look at him panicking when you hear hange’s group returning

eren can be heard arguing with jean as per usual and now you’re smacking levi’s chest even harder

“you don’t have to do this no, no, no. it’s okay really.” it’s funny how you’re begging him not to do what you’ve been waiting on for three days

but you really don’t want him to feel like he has to do this

as if he’s read your mind he replies. “i’m doing this with my own free will.”

he gives you one last grin and pushes you up against the wall, your back is against the cold yet solid surface and you tense up

oh god. it’s happening he’s diving down and it’s as if everything is moving in slow motion.

gradually you feel the familiar feeling of your heart jumping out of your chest

both of your lips mould together, he’s hoisting you up again preventing you from slipping away. hungry hands grip at your thighs and a knowing smile twitches across his mouth.

nipping at his bottom lip he groans and you nearly forget why it is he’s kissing you

that is until you hear a SCREAM from your right

“eren what the fuck are you yelling at?” jean’s voice can be heard scowling in the distance but you’re too distracted by levi’s mouth to care

eren must be speechless because nothing is heard until jean reaches the scene

“OH. MY. GOD.”

“WHERE IS REINER??? HE’S NOT GONNA BELIEVE THIS.”

“you’re both overreacting.” mikasa makes her appearance and you’re not sure if she’s seen you and levi yet because your eyes fluttered shut long ago

“Y/N AND THE CAPTAIN????? WHY ARE YOU JUST STANDING THERE MIKASA??” eren’s voice sounds so distressed you guess you’re right for assuming he may have had a crush on you at some point

“it was obvious, i don’t know how no one else knew.”

finally levi pulls away and you’re panting practically gasping for any traces of air

“what you looking at brats?” levi snaps in their direction and mikasa nonchalantly shrugs and walks away

jean and eren however, dash away at LIGHTENING speed probably on their way to let everyone else know of the shocking new development

levi pecks your forehead and you nudge your nose against his.

since that day you and levi have been able to get away with a lot more pda

you can hold his hand and stare at how pretty your hands look laced together

you can nuzzle your face into his neck without any questions 

you can loop arms with him and even if he acts like he doesn’t enjoy it he genuinely does like walking around with you latching onto his bicep

although he still prefers the privacy of his office he’s more than happy to give in once in a while

and at the end of the day you’re ecstatic because there’s no more kissing behind your horse!!!

GONE ARE THOSE DAYS

wooHOO

honestly, you’re over the moon about it 

and so is levi

:-)

[pascalpanic]

Fixer Upper PART ONE (Frankie Morales x f!Reader)

Summary: Nothing seems to go right in your new house. When yet another thing breaks, a certain handyman comes to your rescue.

W/C: 2k ish

Warnings: language, joking mentions of a house being cursed (it isn’t), reader has dirty thoughts bc it’s Frankie and he’s hot

A/N: this one goes out to my anons who’ve been sending me stuff about frankie as a repairman! I loved the idea and I thought it would be super fun to write! This will be part ONE of three-ish! ps idk if any references to reader’s gender are in this part but there certainly will be some in the future so.

It’s been a while that you’ve lived in this house. Since that day you hauled in the cardboard boxes, you’ve been feeling that your life is the epitome of Murphy’s law. Or rather, this damned house is.

Nothing ever goes right. The heat breaks in the winter and the air conditioning breaks in the summer. The plumbing needs work when you need it to work, and the oven only ever breaks halfway through cooking something. Seriously, you swear this place is cursed by some hex determined to pester you out of living here.

You’ve never exactly been the handy type. You don’t know much about mechanics, heating or cooling, the electricity and wiring in your house, any of it. By now, you wish you’d taken the time to learn it at some point rather than hiring someone every time.

The first sign was that the June heat seemed inescapable. You’d been outside all day, and you figured it was just your body taking its time to adjust to the cooler, indoor temperature. Then you never cooled down. When you stepped out of the bathroom after a shower and found the air to be nearly as muggy as that of the steamed bathroom, you realized that the air conditioning must be off.

Well, it was on. The problem was that it wasn’t working. You opened all the windows, and figured the night breeze would cool you, then you became worried about serial killers and crimes and promptly shut and locked all of them again. With the fan in your bedroom on, the air at least moved, but was still thick and heavy.

In the morning, when you wake with no blankets on and sweaty sheets, you dial the repair company as fast as you can. You inform them of the situation, and they tell you they’ll send someone out your way in the next hour or two.

The air is still somewhat cool outside, so you give the front porch a shot once you get changed out of your pajamas and take yet another cool shower. The heavy dew is an indicator of just how humid the air is, and you relish every little breeze that passes by and cools you down. You conduct your morning business outside, hoping to have this problem fixed before the sun reaches a height where the temperatures will rise exponentially.

About an hour after the call, the repair van rolls up into your driveway and parks. “Thank God,” you murmur to yourself.

Your focus returns to your computer, but you hear the door slam shut and look up to find the repairman there. He wears khaki cargo pants and a gray t-shirt, complete with a ball cap on top, with dark brown curls peeking out from the bottom. He fastens his tool belt around his waist as he walks up to the porch. “Hey there. I’m Frankie. I’ll be taking care of you today,” he informs you, a kind smile on his face. You already like him. “I got the basics from the boss, but can you tell me more about the problem?”

Looking up at him from the seated position you’re in, you give an awkward smile. Suddenly, you wish you’re better dressed, fixed up and looking nice. Even in work clothes, this man is beautiful. It makes you a little nervous, you in your pajamas and him looking like a god even in cargo pants. “I wish I could, but I don’t know anything about the air conditioner and how it works other than how to change the settings. All I know is that it isn’t working.”

He gives a good-natured chuckle, a soft bounce of his chest beneath the shirt. He looks down at his tool belt and his scruff brushes against the collar of the gray. “Well, let’s go give it a shot. I’ll need you to show me around, show me the control panel and the main system.” God, he’s handsome.

“Oh, of course,” you nod and stand, leaving your laptop on the small table. “Well, right this way. And please, you don’t need to take your boots off. Those look complicated,” you laugh as you look at the heavy tan boots at the bottom of his body.

Frankie nods and looks around as you lead him through the house. He doesn’t take his boots off, since you insisted, but he does give them a generous wipe on the doormat, careful not to track anything in. “It’s a beautiful place,” he tells you honestly, with a half-smile that just tugs at one of the corners of his ridiculously soft-looking lips.

“Thanks,” you shrug and show him to the control panel. “I try. Okay, here’s the button thingy.”

“The button thingy?” he teases, which leads to laughter from the both of you.

“If I knew what it was called, you wouldn’t be here,” you tease him back and shake your head.

Frankie uses the tools from his belt to take off the casing. You lean against the wall as he works, admiring the way his hands nimbly check the wires and paneling behind it. He holds a small flashlight between his teeth to look into the wall cavity.

“I can hold that for you,” you offer, and he moves his mouth for you to take it from him.

“Thanks,” he says, popping his jaw slightly to adjust from the awkward angle of holding it between his teeth. “You don’t have to. I’m just here to fix it.”

You point it at the same spot. “I might as well be some help, considering I don’t know shit about my own house.”

Frankie laughs at that, stealing a glance your way that makes your face warm before his gaze returns to the electrical situation. “Well,” he declares after a few seconds. “The wiring must not be the problem here. This all is working fine, so it must be with the actual system.”

“Great,” you groan. “The part I know even less about.”

“That’s what I’m here for,” he chuckles and screws the panel back into place on your wall, making sure everything works properly and he didn’t mess with any functions.

Leading Frankie to your basement, you show him the cluttered laundry room and the central air conditioning unit. He’s already analyzing the system, and you back off to let him work. He looks focused. “Holler if you need me,” you tell him as he gets on his knees to look at something, daring to gently pat his shoulder. It’s strong, muscular beneath your palm.

Heading back to the kitchen, you open the fridge and sigh. For a moment, you allow yourself to close your eyes and just enjoy the cold air it produces. Hopefully, your house will be the same soon enough. Grabbing two tall glasses, you fill each with ice before pouring half sweet tea and half lemonade into the glasses.

You stand in the kitchen with the freezer open, sighing at the cool air it provides. Not sure how long he’ll take, you scroll through your phone. It’s surprisingly quick, you find.

“Hey, I found it!” Frankie calls from the basement.

Carrying the two glasses, you return to the laundry room to find him reorganizing his tool belt. “Here,” you tell him with a smile as you hold out the drink. “Least I could do. It’s unbearable in here.”

“Thanks,” he smiles and lifts the glass to you in a miniature salute before taking a sip. Frankie then launches into a detailed explanation of the issue with the A/C unit, using all kinds of terms you don’t understand and mentioning parts you didn’t even know were included in the machine. “I got it all fixed up, though, and it shouldn’t take long before it’s working just as good as normal.”

You sigh in relief, swallowing the sweet drink and smiling at him. “God, thank you so much. You don’t even know how awful it was in here.”

“If it’s anything like right now, I do,” he chuckles. The man takes the hem of his t-shirt and lifts it to wipe his face, revealing a muscular but soft body beneath it, with a beautiful little trail of dark hair leading to beneath his belt. Is it terrible that your first thought is that you want to lick it?

You force the image from your mind with another swig of the drink. “Yeah, just about. Well, how much do I owe you?” You ask the man, leading him out of the laundry room and into the basement that’s already feeling cooler.

“Oh, nothing right now,” he shakes his head as you lead him upstairs and to the kitchen. “I just tweaked some things for you, didn’t need any parts or anything, so it’s just gonna be labor.” He seems to remember something. “Ah, shit. I gotta have you sign something. I’ll grab the paper from the van and be right back,” he tells you and leaves his drink on the counter, half-jogging outside.

While he’s outside, you lean against the cool kitchen counter and let yourself daydream. This Frankie guy certainly is attractive, and his personality is definitely something you’re interested in. What if the situation right now played out like a porno, and he fucked you on the countertop? You certainly wouldn’t complain. You noticed his hands and feet are large. Certainly he must be big somewhere else too. “Oh Jesus Christ,” you murmur to yourself. Why did my mind have to go there? And why is the thought so hot? He’s a sweet man too, clearly goofy and sweet. Why is your mind going there then? Really, upon further pondering, you just want to hug the man, admire his strong body pressed to yours in an intimate but innocent gesture.

“Sorry, what was that?” Frankie calls out as he walks into the house again.

His voice snaps you from your daydreaming. “Oh, just talking to myself,” you say quickly and cheerfully, taking the paper from him. The top is printed with repairman name: Francisco Morales. Francisco. That makes you smile. What a cute name. The rest is filled with the details of what he did to the machine to fix it, and you sign and date at the bottom. “Here you go, Francisco.”

His tanned skin turns a little pinker on the cheeks. “Great,” Frankie smiles and takes it back.

“Before you leave,” you tell him quickly, darting to grab your purse from the entryway, “here.”

Frankie walks to you and you hand him a generous cash tip, with a stupid smile stuck to your face. “Thank you, wow,” he says, voice honest in its surprise as he notices the total of the money.

“Of course. I really can’t thank you enough. God, it’s been painfully hot in here and I really just can’t stand the heat,” you ramble, your voice speeding up. “And… yeah. Thank you. For your company, too.”

“Just doing my job,” he tells you with a smile, putting his hands in his pockets. “Oh, here.”

From his pocket, he pulls a little rectangle of paper with his name and company on it. “The shop number is on here; if anything changes, just call and ask for Catfish.”

“Catfish?” You ask with a smile, puzzled.

“My old military nickname. It’s what the guys around there call me,” he shrugs, shy at the nickname.

It makes you laugh a little, and you tuck the card in your purse. “Well, Catfish, thank you. I’ll be sure to use this next time I have some stupid thing I can’t repair myself.”

“Please do,” he chuckles, a shy smile on his face. “I’ll see you around.”

“Thanks!” You call again and cringe. That’s, what, the ninth time you’ve said that now? He walks to the van and you give him a wave before retreating back inside. God, now you can’t wait for this shitty house to need another repair. You’ll certainly be asking for Catfish.

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