#i feel super lonely

[heartfucksmouth]

need somewhere to vent this quickly

but I just cried for 40 minutes while trying to put Aidan to sleep. and then i stayed up for 2 hours afterwards making him a playlist on spotify (while still holding him sleeping)

I've been bleeding/menstruating for over 2 weeks ever since I got an IUD but it's HEAVY and I think I don't have a shred of iron in my body I'm so exhausted and nauseous and dizzy. it's hard caring for a baby like this. I wish people ... understood. I wish I didn't feel like everyone is looking at me like "lol told you so idiot you're a terrible mom bc you're sick"

anyways Marsha moved my shoes from the kitchen shoe rack thing to my room and she moved my reusable grocery bags from next to the door to aidans room (????) and I'm lkke... what the actual fuck. I need the bags near the door so I'll remember to take them to my car. she moves my shit all the time and I feel foolish for getting so upset but it triggers me or something and I obsess over it for the rest of the day and get angrier and angrier until I have a meltdown.

I just want to move out. I've been grieving a lot about my missed potential and all the people I never got to be and I feel like I'm being stifled living here. I'll never get aidans nursery finished the way I want, I'll never be allowed to put my.things anywhere except.our room. I mean we can't even keep an extra tube of toothpaste jn the bathroom cabinet. I can't keep my skincare stuff in the bathroom. I had to go buy shower racks just to keep my own shampoo on and that's only cuz I didn't ask.flr permission to do that. there is so many micro ... things! that make me feel unwelcome and make me feel like I have to be smaller and smaller. and that's what I swore I'd never do again! it's not fuckjng fair that I'll never reach my potential bc I'm fucking sick and poor. I can't even be the mom I want to be

I'm feeling really depressed about it all. I love my son, and I love myles and I love our little family including zazu...but it's really tough to think about this kind of shit. I feel constantly cockblocked by life. I just wanna realize one dream of my own ffs

[formulanni]

Lance Stroll as the Nine of Cups:

An environment of luxury and emotional stability, where all available comforts await you. Indulging in all the joys that life has to offer you is signaled by this card, though at times there is a sense of smugness that comes from taking your situation for granted.

This card also symbolizes having your wish fulfilled. Achieving what you desire. Obtaining your goal. Getting what you think you want.

The nine of cups is directly related to the Hermit, card 9 of the Major Arcana. It therefore has an element of solitude about it. It's a card of emotional happiness and fulfilment which is enjoyed alone.

Tag list: @st-leclerc @rubywingsracing @saviour-of-lord @three-days-time @the-wall-is-my-goal @albonoooo @ch3rubd0lls

[somnimagus]

My page for @destinytriofanzine! I drew something about kids always dreaming of far off places

[id in alt!]

[deoidesign]

"I'm the dog they put with cheetahs to keep them from going crazy in captivity" x "I'm the cheetah that is threatening to go crazy" 4 ever

(I make a webcomic about them)

[charlieconwayy]

Top 50 OTPs of All Time ☆ #44. Naomi Campbell & Emily Fitch

"I’ve loved you since the first time I saw you. I think I was twelve. It took me three years to pluck up the courage to speak to you. And I was so scared about the way I felt, you know, loving a girl, so I learned how to become a sarcastic bitch to kind of feel normal. I screwed guys to make it go away, but it didn’t work. When we got together it scared the shit out of me. Because you were the one person who could ruin my life. I pushed you away. I made you think things were your fault. But really I was just terrified of pain. I screwed that girl, Sophia, to kind of spite you for having that hold on me, and I’m a total fucking coward because I got these… these tickets to Goa for us three months ago, but I, I couldn’t stand… I didn’t want to be a slave to the way I feel about you. Can you understand? You were trying to punish me back and it’s horrible. It’s so horrible, because really, I’d die for you. I love you. I love you so much it’s killing me."

[magicdragonoid01]

i like this one, its silly >p<

[fumifooms]

I am so sick of Kui. We see Hien’s younger sister in ONE panel in an extra on her blog that didn’t even get published and she’s in Toshizane’s retainer group.

And from other details we know it makes sense too, because both of Hien’s parents work for the Nakamotos and Hien herself grew up alongside Toshiro. Hien and Toshiro were childhood friends, so maybe this unnamed sister and Toshizane (Toshiro’s youngest brother) would parallel them. I’m hopeful that maybe they can stay friends as they grow up, instead of becoming distant and professional like Hien with Toshiro…

Kui really tought through every cm3 of her world I’m crying

[forestgreenlesbian]

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[borderlinereminders]

I just spent a good few weeks feeling so energetic and motivated. I was getting so much done and feeling on top of the world.

I think it’s over though. Suddenly I’m feeling so heart broken. I feel so sad and want to cry. And I don’t want to do anything.

This is a constant cycle and it’s exhausting.

What honestly gets me through is remembering this will pass like it always does. But dang, it really sucks to feel the good parts fading (the energy and excitement and motivation) and I try so hard to hang onto them and I can’t.

[dan-whoell]

i keep thinking about a phandom book club, but i have no idea how to go about organizing it or if anyone would be interested or even where to host it

alternatively is there already a phandom book club i could join? because i would love that

[guardian-angle22]

Thanks to @paperstorm & @lemonlyman-dotcom for tagging me in Music Monday!

My brain is mush today due to work so I don't have the brainpower to think this one through super deeply...

BUT the song I've been listening to on repeat recently is a new release from Kris Allen called Too Good for Too Long and the lyrics give me major breakup era TK vibes.

Everything was going perfect But living right below the surface Was the feeling I don't deserve this

So maybe my momma was right This is why we can't have anything nice

Cos every time we're too good for too long I find a way to make it go wrong Turning waterfalls into rust And anytime it's going our way I can see the turn it shouldn't take Don't know why I fuck with our love Cos the truth is all I want for us is to be Too good for too long

[thatrandomlemononyourcounter1]

Aren't best friends supposed to listen?

[uncanny-tranny]

I think as we grow up, we have to be really conscious of romanticizing the world we grew up in in order to scorn how the next generations are growing up.

Nostalgia isn't inherently bad, but especially in political spaces, be very wary of this idea that there is an Ideal Past we must Harken Back To.

It sucks to feel left behind, but such is the human condition. It isn't bad to feel nostalgic, but that doesn't mean that these new generations are inherently "lost" and "need to be saved (by you)", and I think that is very important to remember and try to be conscious of.

[purplebass]

As an introvert person who has a hard time making friends anywhere, socials are a blessing because I met a lot of nice people online and I consider them closer friends than the few people I know in person. It sucks that you don't always have the chance to meet your online friends in person. Why can't I have coffee with userxyz and chat about our favorite fictional characters?! I feel gutted when I think about this because I love being around people I like and distance doesn't always make it possible

[thesuntookgoodcareofme]

Touga kyriuu......................... *Inspects him under a ringlight like a surgeon*

[bywandandsword]

This is the third Halloween in a row that I don't have anywhere to go or anything to do but wait on my porch for kids who aren't going to come, cause they all go down to the neighborhood down the road

It's just really depressing. This is my favorite holiday but it's hard to get excited for it. I'm going to try and make it special for myself, but it's just not the same when you have no one to celebrate with