#i feel super lonely

[heartfucksmouth]

need somewhere to vent this quickly

but I just cried for 40 minutes while trying to put Aidan to sleep. and then i stayed up for 2 hours afterwards making him a playlist on spotify (while still holding him sleeping)

I've been bleeding/menstruating for over 2 weeks ever since I got an IUD but it's HEAVY and I think I don't have a shred of iron in my body I'm so exhausted and nauseous and dizzy. it's hard caring for a baby like this. I wish people ... understood. I wish I didn't feel like everyone is looking at me like "lol told you so idiot you're a terrible mom bc you're sick"

anyways Marsha moved my shoes from the kitchen shoe rack thing to my room and she moved my reusable grocery bags from next to the door to aidans room (????) and I'm lkke... what the actual fuck. I need the bags near the door so I'll remember to take them to my car. she moves my shit all the time and I feel foolish for getting so upset but it triggers me or something and I obsess over it for the rest of the day and get angrier and angrier until I have a meltdown.

I just want to move out. I've been grieving a lot about my missed potential and all the people I never got to be and I feel like I'm being stifled living here. I'll never get aidans nursery finished the way I want, I'll never be allowed to put my.things anywhere except.our room. I mean we can't even keep an extra tube of toothpaste jn the bathroom cabinet. I can't keep my skincare stuff in the bathroom. I had to go buy shower racks just to keep my own shampoo on and that's only cuz I didn't ask.flr permission to do that. there is so many micro ... things! that make me feel unwelcome and make me feel like I have to be smaller and smaller. and that's what I swore I'd never do again! it's not fuckjng fair that I'll never reach my potential bc I'm fucking sick and poor. I can't even be the mom I want to be

I'm feeling really depressed about it all. I love my son, and I love myles and I love our little family including zazu...but it's really tough to think about this kind of shit. I feel constantly cockblocked by life. I just wanna realize one dream of my own ffs

[formulanni]

Lance Stroll as the Nine of Cups:

An environment of luxury and emotional stability, where all available comforts await you. Indulging in all the joys that life has to offer you is signaled by this card, though at times there is a sense of smugness that comes from taking your situation for granted.

This card also symbolizes having your wish fulfilled. Achieving what you desire. Obtaining your goal. Getting what you think you want.

The nine of cups is directly related to the Hermit, card 9 of the Major Arcana. It therefore has an element of solitude about it. It's a card of emotional happiness and fulfilment which is enjoyed alone.

Tag list: @st-leclerc @rubywingsracing @saviour-of-lord @three-days-time @the-wall-is-my-goal @albonoooo @ch3rubd0lls

[somnimagus]

My page for @destinytriofanzine! I drew something about kids always dreaming of far off places

[id in alt!]

[deoidesign]

"I'm the dog they put with cheetahs to keep them from going crazy in captivity" x "I'm the cheetah that is threatening to go crazy" 4 ever

(I make a webcomic about them)

[charlieconwayy]

Top 50 OTPs of All Time ☆ #44. Naomi Campbell & Emily Fitch

"I’ve loved you since the first time I saw you. I think I was twelve. It took me three years to pluck up the courage to speak to you. And I was so scared about the way I felt, you know, loving a girl, so I learned how to become a sarcastic bitch to kind of feel normal. I screwed guys to make it go away, but it didn’t work. When we got together it scared the shit out of me. Because you were the one person who could ruin my life. I pushed you away. I made you think things were your fault. But really I was just terrified of pain. I screwed that girl, Sophia, to kind of spite you for having that hold on me, and I’m a total fucking coward because I got these… these tickets to Goa for us three months ago, but I, I couldn’t stand… I didn’t want to be a slave to the way I feel about you. Can you understand? You were trying to punish me back and it’s horrible. It’s so horrible, because really, I’d die for you. I love you. I love you so much it’s killing me."

[magicdragonoid01]

i like this one, its silly >p<

[guardian-angle22]

WIP Wednesday

@lemonlyman-dotcom & @annoyingcloudearthquake thank you for tagging me! I don't usually post WIP stuff cause it's less common for gifmakers to do, but I've had zero time or focus to work on many gifs in the past few weeks. and at this point I've practically lost the plot on what I'm even working on. Figured I would take the opportunity to wade into my WIP folder and see what's going on in there...

First, I found these two gifs. which are part of a ~super secret fancy set~ I'm planning for later in 2025... 👀👀

there was also this... which had a note that the dialogue needed to be added onto it. and is for a compilation set of some kind that I might need someone to refresh my memory on ngl.

and then for some reason I have one singular gif completed in the next outfit set for both paul and marjan. which is odd cause I usually do all 4 gifs at once. so idk what past!Heather was doing...

I'm tagging any gifmakers in the fandom!! join the wip wednesday fun!

[fumifooms]

I am so sick of Kui. We see Hien’s younger sister in ONE panel in an extra on her blog that didn’t even get published and she’s in Toshizane’s retainer group.

And from other details we know it makes sense too, because both of Hien’s parents work for the Nakamotos and Hien herself grew up alongside Toshiro. Hien and Toshiro were childhood friends, so maybe this unnamed sister and Toshizane (Toshiro’s youngest brother) would parallel them. I’m hopeful that maybe they can stay friends as they grow up, instead of becoming distant and professional like Hien with Toshiro…

Kui really tought through every cm3 of her world I’m crying

[forestgreenlesbian]

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[rangersoup]

Ranger Soup and Mrs. Soup love being parents 😌 and love having all of their little souplings running around 😌 and they have absolutely zero regrets whatsoever 😌 and this is very important to me.

[borderlinereminders]

I just spent a good few weeks feeling so energetic and motivated. I was getting so much done and feeling on top of the world.

I think it’s over though. Suddenly I’m feeling so heart broken. I feel so sad and want to cry. And I don’t want to do anything.

This is a constant cycle and it’s exhausting.

What honestly gets me through is remembering this will pass like it always does. But dang, it really sucks to feel the good parts fading (the energy and excitement and motivation) and I try so hard to hang onto them and I can’t.

[dan-whoell]

i keep thinking about a phandom book club, but i have no idea how to go about organizing it or if anyone would be interested or even where to host it

alternatively is there already a phandom book club i could join? because i would love that

[spiritshaydra]

Not to be mopey on main but like,, man I’m looking forward to being back on campus despite there not really being much to do around town compared to my home city :,D

it’s just that,, I don’t have any friends to hang out with besides my younger brother, who’s leaving the country for a week next week :,) it’s also just,, not the same as hanging out with friends since he’s family.

it sucks that Texas has piss poor public transport because I’m not close enough to the city to utilize it, and my town just

Doesn’t have public transit besides maaaaaaybe those bikes. So just going out and doing things to make friends is not an option for me- well,,,

I have a driver’s license, but no car and I’m terrified of driving on the highways. 😭 (I-35 is a circle of hell) I also haven’t driven since August 😬

[le-velo-pour-dru]

I'm feeling weird and lonely. I'm just hoping in 2025 I can get closer with the friends I have right now :3 🩷

[thatrandomlemononyourcounter1]

Aren't best friends supposed to listen?

[uncanny-tranny]

I think as we grow up, we have to be really conscious of romanticizing the world we grew up in in order to scorn how the next generations are growing up.

Nostalgia isn't inherently bad, but especially in political spaces, be very wary of this idea that there is an Ideal Past we must Harken Back To.

It sucks to feel left behind, but such is the human condition. It isn't bad to feel nostalgic, but that doesn't mean that these new generations are inherently "lost" and "need to be saved (by you)", and I think that is very important to remember and try to be conscious of.