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OH MY FUCKING GOD BRIAN'S CHEAT IS CASTLING ITS A FUCKING CHESS REFERENCE HOW DID I NOT REALISE THAT UNTIL NOW
#like i kept reading it as cast listing#then i realised it wasn't that and started reading it as cast-ling#its castle-ing#i feel so goddamn stupid#that makes so much more sense now
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sinking into my desk chair
#lunar bunny chatter#hi im fighting the urge to curl up and rot away by listening to maynard ferguson. these last few weeks have been just. terrible.#i journaled for the first time in 5 months and at some point my writing got so erratic i had to stop and then come back. i've been irritate#for most of the day and it fucking sucks. i just want to feel okay#i feel so goddamn stupid#i hope everything is at least alright this week i dont think i can handle any more stress than i have#i just want to be okay! i want everything and everyone around me to be alright!! i want to be comforted!! i want to be told it's okay!!!#that's all i want because no one's told me that genuinely! just to brush me off but never to comfort me and it makes me so stressed!!!#how can i be okay if im three steps away from losing someone i love dearly! if im 2 really bad steps from losing a home and one step from#spiraling into despair!! but if i was comforted then maybe. MAYBE i would feel like everything is okay! i know im bad at speaking up becaus#i brush it off and im sorry for doing that! im sorry for not talking about my feelings! i do want to talk about them but i clam up#and im sorry! i really am sorry!! i want to be held and be able to cry but it's not available to me and i just. i don't know. i don't know.
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Hate /heɪt/ verb -> Enduring anger focused on a particular person or group of persons. Over time hatred may generate the personality trait of hostility. Surprise /sɚˈpraɪz/ noun -> The briefest emotion, surprise is triggered by the sudden occurrence of an unexpected event. It is often a way station that leads, after more appraisal, to any of the other emotions. Fondness /ˈfɑnd·nəs/ noun -> A liking. Guilt /ɡɪlt/ noun -> Regret about a past action [...], a feeling of worry or unhappiness that you have because you have done something wrong, such as causing harm to another person.
Atlas of emotions + Cambridge dictionary
4MINUTES (2024) EP. 6
#4 minutes#4 minutes the series#greattyme#thaidrama#uservix#userrlaura#raeblr#userbon#mjtag#rinblr#esmetracks#userrlana#tusersilence#vishingwell#userspring#dramasource#dailyasiandramas#fyeahthaidramas#tansgifs#gifs:fourm#the amount of fucking emotions tyme goes through in the spam of one goddamn night is insane like this isn't even all of it#again masterfull acting from jes because even lil ol stupid me can see all of this#like the way they showed all of this in a few scenes is fcking crazy man#wish people made metas about tyme's emotions in ep 6-7-8 because truly it's just so well written and acted#instead you guys get a 22 gifs gifset from me that's all I know how to do#also take that emotion website with a grain of salt. like it's fun to apply to blorbos#and to get a first level of understanding emotions and putting words on what you are feeling when you have no words at all#like it's better than nothing but it's not the bible some people seems to think it is#jes i'm sueing your babygirl eyes for emotional damage
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Ever After High, but make it a PIDW AU.
Imagine how fucked up it would be if Shen Jiu is up there doing the book signing ceremony that seals his destiny of becoming the next 'Shen Qingqiu', and the mirrors display him getting thrown away by his martial siblings at the trial, and his limbs being torn off and other despicable tortures, and being brought down so low that your humanity is stripped away from you, all for an audience to see. And they cheer. The crowd is ecstatic, perhaps even more so than when his father, Shen Qingqiu, was put on trial.
#and sj is barely 15 when this happens#and every goddamn person is reveling in watching this child get tortured#and he's done ntg to warrent this yet bc he HASNT signed the stupid destiny book and he DOESNT want to be the scum villian#dont ask me how the logic of this au works#i dont fucking know#its just that some of the eah characters DO have fucked up stories#and the grimm brother stories were dark as hell#so im like what if pidw???? what if shen jiu??? shen jiu and pain???? yes.#shen jiu#svsss#mxtx svsss#original shen qingqiu#og shen qingqiu#scumbag self saving system#svsss crossover#scum villain#ever after high au#the scum villain's self saving system#scum villain self saving system#and the only person that's NOT advocating for his death is lbg's SON!! the very person that's supposed to kill him!#he (lbm) also happens to be smn who rllyyyy hates his dad and is not signing no book of destiny either#when he sees the same hopelessness that he feels in sj's eyes#he decides at that moment that he's going to be sj's no. 1 defender everything else be damned#so when sj announces that he's not signing#lbm gets up on the stage and makes it clear that he won't either#and they kith#bingjiu#pidw#proud immortal demon way
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gay people are so fucking useless, they will literally quit their well-paid, secure job for some guy, go to that guy's boss and offer to write a book about their football club, pretend to be "observing" the guy's coaching methods or some shit for MONTHS and actually write a whole ass book about it, all just to have an excuse to spend every single day with him instead of simply saying something like "hey I'm really into you, would you like to go out sometime"
#ted lasso#trent crimm#he was so real for this#but also so goddamn stupid#like dude get it TOGETHER#anyway I still firmly believe trent confessing his feelings would've DRASTICALLY altered the season finale's outcome#which is of course why he never could... fucking.. the narrative and all
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Do I find Damian incredible annoying? Yes Will I fight every single motherfucker who resumes his entire character to violent and 'bad'? Also Yes.
#I don't know how many times I'm going to repeat myself but this is a goddamn child soldier getting repeatedly traumatize#in a family that has so many chaos that he always feels the need to prove himself in the terms he was taught#i didn't give a fuck what Damian does thats the responsibility of his father until he actually becomes responsible to his actions#and dc comics literally bought him out of nowhere just to shit on him and then repeatedly try to get rid of him for no fucking reason#Damian goin off as a way of getting Batman emotional damage it's actually very stupid dc you tried the same shit with jason in this last#ten years and not even then anybody liked#few things makes me more unreasonable piss off than batman letting his kids get away from him and then act like they don't need him#he did te same shit with dick but at least dick had the titans#this whole shit with Damian is making me read with my eyes while my hands are dialing the cps#Batman come get your fucking children your useless middle age man#bruce hate hours#damian wayne#damian al ghul#damian al ghul wayne
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Just *sobs* finished Squid game *sobs* 2 and all I'm going to *sobs* say is
#Shdijgdjsiifjeosmefiwhfskujrgjekgjsjfjwjfkek#*crying noises*#im going to explode#squid game 2#squid game 2 spoilers????#idk at this point#the cliff rlly left me hanging with this#i want to know waht happen to 120#hyun-ju is my best gurl 😭#f u 001#WITH THE UTMOST DISRESPECT THE WORLD HAS TO GODDAMN GIVE#u psychopathic traitor#i swear to god if they all die bc of 001-#fine whatever if that's the case i'm just going to pretend they're living their best lives#and they never joined that stupid game#my feels are all over the place#AGHHHHHHHHHHH#so yeah-#ima be delusional 😀
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I'm really just Feeling Things tonight about the conversation with Gale after Elminster's visit and like. Gale is So Insistent that if Mystra says he needs to blow himself up, then it must be the best option. The only option. And of course he is! Because what's the alternative? If there's another way, any other way, that means either
1. Mystra doesn't care enough to consider whether there might be another option. Gale blowing himself up is the easiest solution, so that's what she goes with. Or, even worse,
2. She does know there's other options, but tells him to sacrifice himself anyways, because it gets rid of two of her problems at once.
Gale doesn't just assume she's right because she's a goddess. He goes along with it because of what it implies about him, and her, and how she sees him if there is another way. He has to believe that this is the only option. Because the alternative? That he's disposable at best and actively unwanted at worst? That's just too much to bear.
#bg3#gale dekarios#gale of waterdeep#meta#i'm sure this is nothing that hasn't been said before but like. goddamn i've just been thinking about it and it hurts my soul#and tbh i feel like the fact that everyone else in camp is like 'that's a stupid idea we're not doing that' really drives the point home#even elminster has that line about how 'even the waves of fate can break upon the shores of will'#which is as close as you can reasonably expect him to get to outright agreeing that yeah this is shit and you should look for other options#but at that point gale is the one person who can't imagine that there's another way. can't stomach the thought#because it would mean some things he's really not ready to face yet#i'm like. banging my head against a wall the writing is So Good and it makes me So Sad
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POV: Will Wood has an asthma attack while trying to talk about to many things at once and then skadoodles (?)
my mum bugged me into posting this
(it’ll probably rot in my drafts for ages)
(also i’m not sending the live stream to anyone so don’t ask. find it on youtube or tiktok or something idk i bet those guys probably have it somewhere)
#pov:will wood breathes#bro be inhaling#save some air for the rest of us#< /j#this is just a bunch of random screen recordings i had of his instagram stories#this video was originally shorter but i got bored earlier and added to it#idk how long this video will stay up if it even gets posted#i just need you all to know that my mother told me i should post this (?)#she thinks it’s hilarious for some reason#idek why i showed it to her#yes i do bug my mum with ww shit#she had me so she’s gotta put up with me#i feel like i should have more to say about this video#but i really dont#i made this when i was bored out of my goddamn mind#this is why i shouldn’t be allowed editing apps#can’t trust me not to make something stupid as hell#why couldn’t my personality revolve around something useful like math or science or something?#but noOo instead i make random edits of some guy breathing a lot#jfc#i’m gonna go walk into the ocean now#bye#will wood#will wood and the tapeworms#wwattw#will wood memes
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new suicide squad anime got me thinking about the genderbend batman au i made when i was 16 again.
extra (nsfw??? body horror + shirtless doodle lol) art under the cut + drabble.
A mysterious actress appears in Gotham!
Production for the long-anticipated remake of the 1930s classic horror film, "The Clay", is saved in part thanks to the audition of one woman with no credits to her name, just a face and demeanor identical of the late leading actress of the original film.
However, the cast and crew have bigger worries than their limited budget and endless demands from their producers -- everyone involved seems to be disappearing one by one!
While the average gothammite worries that the cult classic's "cursed" reputation might be a little more than an urban legend, The Batman refuses to entertain such unfounded silliness and aims to get to the bottom of this crime against cinema!
presenting BATMAN '63 - THE RISE OF CLAYFACE coming not actually ever lmao
(her hair is brown now because I like the idea of her appearance never being fully consistent lol. shapeshifters gotta do their thing)
#batman au#gotham rogues#genderbend#clayface#dc comics au#i have no idea how to tag this. hi guys.#anyway i rlly do like how silly they made clayface in the isekai anime. i definitely took some inspiration from that iteration but#this version of fem clayface has been. in the back of my mind for literally years. i like the film actor angle for him too much#might do more of these might not. depends on how indulgent i feel ig.#anyway some misc headcanons for this clayface:#she was a struggling actor who was incredibly insecure about her appearance.#before she became clayface she would undergo plastic surgery for every new role she landed. her over the top passion for getting into (cont#(cont) character frightened directors. she gained a moniker for herself as “the woman with 1000 faces”#in this story specifically she's working under the penguin to get rid of some loose ends in a sensationalized way because the targets (cont#(cont) are famous. and she's more than happy to comply because a good chunk of the cast on set have been bad to her in the past.#her shapeshifting abilities have some limitations. she can morph into anything she has had skin to skin contact with however (cont)#(cont) she cannot change her total mass. which is why she has so much hair lol#she also can't copy powers cus that's whack. also only living things she can't turn into a car.#i probably forgot something important but yeah. goddamn you au i made as a teenager#goddamn you stupid ass suicide squad anime for making me think about this au again#cw horror#body horror#oh yeah she's also probably got a weird gender but she doesn't know that#she also can't maintain her not-clay-monster form for long or she starts to literally melt away.#my art
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Well, at least Fukuzawa got his wish granted, I guess.... he's finally inside Fukuchi <3
#bungou stray dogs#bsd spoilers#bsd 120.5#please laugh i know i made myself laugh.... if only to keep from crying lol#the oocification of Fukuzawa will be studied in the history books for years to come#that's not my fukuzawa...... that's his discount twin fucksack#because his dick is so far up the ass of his dead pathetic dumbass crusty ex boyfriend it's not even funny#he is dickriding that fucker HARD#and here i thought the FANDOM woobified fukuchi out the wazoo. but oh my god no fukuzawa himself has them all beat this chapter#man is coco for cocopuffs and babying that grown-ass man like he's 5#it's truly pathetic and depressing to see i'm just beyond words#'you deceived him by keeping quiet the issues that would plague a union of mankind' NO??? LITERALLY ANYONE WITH A BRAIN WOULD KNOW#THAT THAT WOULD NEVER FUCKING WORK???? THAT IT'S THE STUPIDEST MOST NAIVE PLAN AND VIEW OF THE WORLD IMAGINABLE????#WHY ARE YOU ACTING LIKE THIS IS A TODDLER INSTEAD OF A GROWN-ASS SOLDIER WITH YEARS OF MILITARY EXPERIENCE#Fyodor feels like the only one at this point that hasn't truly lost the plot in all this...... the only one with a goddamn brain#I HATE THAT I HAVE TO AGREE WITH HIM!!!!!!!!! I HATE THAT IT FELT SO CATHARTIC!!!!!!!!!!!!#and i hate even more that the series clearly doesn't want us to agree with him and instead believe that fukuzawa is still right#even though he was spouting the most naive braindead bullshit imaginable that early series Fukuzawa would NEVER SAY#WHAT ABOUT YOUR CHILDREN BRO??? WHY DO YOU CARE MORE ABOUT DEFENDING THE HONOR OF THAT CRUSTY MF THAN#THE SAFETY OF YOUR KIDS????#WHERE DID ALL YOUR INTELLIGENCE GO#i fucking hated the writing ever since fukuchi's plan/motives were first revealed and it was played completely straight (and gay lol)#but to hear fukuzawa actually come out and defend that ridiculous bs is just.......... again i have no words#it's insane. what happened. what happened to you fukuzawa. all i can do is laugh it's so sad it's so stupid. I WAS CRINGING SO BAD.#and was so glad when he finally died so he finally SHUT THE FUCK UP. i hate it here. i miss when BSD was good so bad man 😭😭😭#it would be one thing if it felt like he's so deep in grief that he's completely deluded himself that fukuchi was right and had pure motive#and wasn't an idiotic piece of shit himself just like fyodor#but nah again it just feels like we're supposed to side with him lmao even though fyodor was exactly right in everything he said#when your villain sounds more intelligent/correct than your hero and that's not an intentional writing choice..... that's not good bros!!!#anyway may your stupidity be purified in the soul of your dead bf fukuzawa 🙏 and we get the true you back
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seriously though ... how on earth do i get my motivation/focus back???????
its been so long that i have been struggeling with art and i just .... i want to stop wasting time, day after day i just sit around and mindlessly play stardew valley (wasted 800 hours into the darn game, its a good game but thats way too many hours!!!)
i was listening to the arcane songs bc some of the new ones were rly good but now after the disappointing finale i cant do that, and neither have the show in the background, the hurt is too fresh and im bitter, i cant find anything to put on for the background noise
i keep thinking about all the things i could achieve if i could just ... if i could just DO it, but no i sit around feeling like im about to cry and nothing seems appealing/fun, its not quite that strong depression ... but it feels alot like it, time moves so fast and years go by and i get nothing done
i dont know what to do .. or what to try anymore, im so tired of everything and just want to be able to do something
#ganondoodles talks#personal#sorry i know its annoying to just see these kinds of posts over and over#on top of feeling the pressure to post literally anything bc the loss of twitter still hurts deeply#im so goddamn tired of being constantly on the edge of the worst versions of depression#i just want it to stop#but i cant GET IT TO STOP#and once again i lock at the time and its past 9pm and all i have done is fucking nothing NOTHING again#i want out of this so badly ... but i guess not enough since i cant get myself out of it#its so stupid!!!!!!!!!!!!!#its times like these that i just wish i was “normal”#go away garbage useless brain of not letting me do anything but feeling shitty 24 hours a day
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Jay not being able to make up his mind on whether he wants Alex to be nice to him or whether he wants to antagonize him into hitting him hard, is making this chapter and absolute rollercoaster to write.
#Everyone's getting whiplash here. me. Jay. Alex. None of us know what Jay's gonna do next. and whatever it is god knows its a shit decision#I swear. Jay sits there and goes “ill be good to get this over with and get the aftercare quicker” and then he's like “no no im gonna do#do whatever it is Alex told me NOT to do so that he'll use me like a human punching bag" and he keeps fucking flipping from one to#the other. like BRO make up your mind. And also please talk to Alex??? He's trying to be nice. like YOU wanted. but you don't know how to#actually deal with that so you just keep antagonizing him to make him go back to being mean to you. AND THEN THAT MAKES JAY FEEL BAD#toxic jaylex#fucking dumbasses. stupid fucking moron bitches i hate them so much go to fucking therapy you stupid fucks#i feel like the jurgen leitner rant about them. “Jaylex? Stupid idiot mother fucking Jaylex? Goddamn fools---” and so on and so forth#mildly nsft#marble hornets#jay merrick#alex kralie#marble hornets fanfic#jaylex#mh sorry its locked
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I'm very tired of hearing the "why doesn't Kingdom Hearts cater to ME, a person who doesn't want to have to care about it. Kingdom Hearts should stop rewarding the people who are deeply emotionally invested in it and should instead care only about Me, Casual Fan who only wants to give a shit every 5-10 years or so, what about MY feelings" argument. Jesus fucking Christ. It's been 22 years. Suck it up and go play a Halo then.
#Christ Almighty#i almost had a physical fight with someone at a convention over this topic TEN ENTIRE YEARS AGO#I could not go ten feet in my Saix cosplay at a convention from like 2009-2019 without encountering like#MULTIPLE smug grinning chucklefucks making comments about the 'side games' all goddamn day everywhere i went#literally came this close to throwing down with the final one at like 10 pm on my way back to my hotel room#(I'm exaggerating about the physical fight thing but my friends did wrestle me off the elevator because i was about to tear that guy-#-absolutely a new asshole about 'haha every game since kh2 was stupid and bad I'm so smart for thinking so'#*)#they're always the SMUGGEST about how smart they are for being 'above' caring about the handheld games#sorry they feature women actually doing things and make you feel stupid but skill issue#God forbid you should have to care about Xion and Aqua and Namine and also use your brain
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Son letting his dad rape his mouth after a long day. Sitting on his knees for him, boxers around his thighs as he needily jerks off and lets his throat constrict around his dad’s cock. Getting gripped by the hair as he pulls out just so he can cum all over his boy’s face and watch it drip. <3
#fauxcest#fauxc3st#rough cnc#father/son#oldermen#rough nsft#sacred things#bottomposting#rough kink#You better believe I’m not a spitter or a swallower#I’m a goddamn painter I want a masterpiece on my face#Anyways I saw too many dad x daughter posts today so I had to make one to offset it#Maybe one day there will be an equal balance 😭#Anyways uhhhhh yeahahg blowjobs areh uhnnhhhh they’re good#Aight I feel stupid now don’t read these stop reading
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guys WHAT this might be old news but I’m just now realizing why 3x17 basic lupine urology (the detective & boiled yam episode) is called that. “lupine” comes from the latin word “lupus,” which means wolf. “urology” is the study of medicine & physiology regarding the urinary system.
the creator of the tv show law and order (aka the show that inspired this episode) is named dick wolf. dick (urology) wolf (lupine). then they frame it as a course title (obviously) so the solve: basic lupine urology.
WHAT
#I feel so STUPID for not putting this together#please tell me I’m not the last one to realize this because goddamn#they even credit dick wolf at the end of the ep and I just. never realized#that’s such a good joke like who came up with that I need to speak with them#anyway#community#nbc community#community nbc#basic lupine urology#law and order
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