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deadallover · 5 months ago

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Even on days when I have plans with friends I spend the entire night alone sitting in bed miserable waiting for my friends to be ready without any idea of when they will be. And then they're always ready once I get tired at like midnight for me and I wasted the whole fucking day waiting. fucking timezones. Shitty fucking life.

#i just sit around waiting aimlessly bored of everything #even after i ask for a timeframe.#im just so fucking sick of being alone and depressed #i feel so awful and i cant tell my friends bevause itll ruin the small amount of time i get with them #and if i ruin it ill get no time with anyone #depressed as shit man i fucking hate my life #i fucking hate being sober #just leaves me even more bored and miserable #vent #talky #literally nothing #sometimes by the time theyre ready im so fucking depressed from spending the whole day like this that i dont wanna hang out anymore #but i cant just not hang out because its like my one time a week I get to do anything i like #having to be uo so late every time has ruined my life. i sacrificed so much for this and i have nothing to show for it #everyone in my family thinks im inconsiderate for talking and keeping them all up so late #and they think im lazy because my sleep pattern forces me to sleep in #i seriously fucking hate my life

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