#i feel like sox is something i would really like. it has a lot of stuff that i'm super into so i'm ngl i have high expectations for that on

[celticwoman]

btw. next week is my last one before winter break starts so after that's done i'll get to answering everyone on discord <3333

[shelbgrey]

Next to me(Emmett Cullen)

Chapter 18: chess and suspicious minds

Requested by: @magical-spit

Table of contents

I tossed and turned in Emmett's bed. He was gone hunting with Jasper and we all knew he needed to blow off some steam. It didn't help the fact I sat there with millions of thoughts running threw my head.

After about ten minutes I claimed out of bed and walked down the flight of stairs that lead to the main room of the house. The house really was gorgeous, I've never seen a design quite like it.

I was quite as I traved through the house, not wanting to disturb anyone. I went to the unused kitchen and got a glass of water in hopes to calm my brain down.

“are you okay?” I soft voice said suddenly. I flinched and carlisle put his hands up with a soft smile. “sorry, I didn't mean to scare you”

He set his book down on the counter as I rinsed my cup out. “where is everyone?” I asked. “out hunting and my wife left to send some disings in for work”

I nodded softly, still slightly out of it. Carlisle titled his head as he studied my troubled face. “something on your mind?”

I didn't know what to say. Dr. Cullen was still a stranger to me but at the sametime I felt like I could trust him, but I shrugged. Carlisle nodded and set infront of me.

“perhaps would could play a game? It might take your mind off things”

“okay” I nodded. Carlisle smiled softly and grabbed a red and white chess board. We played in silence for a while, it was a comforting silence but enough was enough.

“I just got a little freaked out by Emmett's driving tonight is all... He was angry at some guys that tried to jump me and Rose” I said moving my queen towrds one of his pawns.

“Emmett told me... He was afraid he was gonna kill them... Fall off the wagon and drink human blood.” carlisle said.

“my parents died in a car crash... Me and Owen almost didn't make it our selves” I said, Carlisle's gold eyes traveled to me giving me soft expression. “I'm tired of feeling so crappy everytime I think about them... I try to think of the good stuff but it doesn't help”

“it will hurt for a while... That's a given, but after a while it'll hurt less when you think about them” Carlisle said.

“my mom passed away giving birth to me, so I can't really tell you I know how you feel” carlisle sighed. “as terrible as it sounds I gotten used to loss during my 200+ years of living”

“I'm sorry” I whispered. Carlisle smiled softly. “nothing to be sorry about... And you win” he said folding his hands on the table. Staring the the board that held my victory.

I chuckled. “yeah...thanks for the talk Dr. Cullen”

“please... Call me carlisle” he smiled. “and you have a lot of people still looking out for you including us.

~~~~~~~~(.......)~~~~~~~~

It was Saturday so I spent most of the day with the cullens. We didn't do much, mostly watched movies and talked. The best thing about today was when Edward showed me the song he wrote for Bella, Edward was a hopeless romantic and its adorable.

Later that night I came home to Charlie and owen watching the Red Soxs game “hey, how was the sleepover with the Cullen girls?” Charlie asked.

“it was nice” I said setting my bag by the door. “Bella's looking for you” Charlie said taking a sip of his beer.

Before I could move Bella called out from her room. “Y/n!” I rolled my eye and went up stairs to Bella's room.

“you bellowed?” I asked opening the door after entering. “I think Emmett and Edward are vampires... Or at least Edward” my eyes widened and I quickly latched the door.

“keep your voice down... And why would you think that?” I asked setting on her bed. She grabed her Labtop pushed in my face. “Edward has done all of this or he has one of theses traits”

“Bella this is insane” I said not wanting to out my boyfriend and best friend. Bella sighed and snapped her Labtop shut.

“Edward is your best friend and Emmett's your boyfriend, your telling me you haven't noticed anything out of the ordinary?”

“Edward is just out of the ordinary, we all know that” I joked. Bella sighed and grabbed a hared back book about the mine and Sam's tribe leadgens. “I'm being serious!”

“Bella, there are no such thing as vampires” Bella rolled her eyes. “I thought you of all people would believe me”

I couldn’t tell her she was right, I didn't even know if she would keep it a secret. She couldn't know about the creatures that roam our world.

I stood up with a sigh. “I'm going to bed Bella”

When got to my room I saw Emmett lying on my bed reading one of my Harry Potter books. I smiled closing my door. “making ourselves at home, are we?”

He smirked and snapped the book cosed. “I missed you” he said holding his arms out. I rolled my eyes and cuddled into his chest. “you saw me all day today”

“it wasn't long enough” he said wrapping his arms around me. “your such a sap”

“only for you” he said kissing the top of my head. “Bella knows” Emmett sighed.

“she's suspicious” I said into his chest. “we'll let Eddie deal with this one”

“agreed” Emmett said running his fingers through my hair. Before I knew it I was fast asleep on his chest with the thoughts of Bella knowing the truth running through my head.

A/n: sorry this was so short, but I promised I'd have a new chapter out.

[darkmagyk]

Ask game: 1, 2, 3, 5, 8, 13, 21

choose violence ask game (send me more pls!)

the character everyone gets wrong

Annabeth, Annabeth, Annabeth. In SO MANY ways. Right down to her name, where people decide randomly that Annabeth is a nickname for Anna Elizabeth.

But mostly it's the school thing. Annabeth is always going to be the smartest person in the room, but she would (literally) rather die then demean herself to prove it. She also has ADHD, Dyslexia, and missed grades 2-6. I don't know how you can read about her being unwilling to play the Sphinxes game and then think that she'd be a good sport about school? I don't necessarily think she'd do badly. She is 100% in the "smart enough to coast" category. But she's not going to study, she's not going to apply herself. And I suspect when she finds herself disagreeing, she's not going to be open to listening to most teachers. She'll talk back, she'll argue, she'll get detention. She reads books in greek, she probably doesn't have special affection for her school libraries full of books she can't read. Free yourself from the Hermione Industrial Complex and embrace smart girl characters who's only life goal isn't getting As on tests.

Other things, Annabeth did live in Virginia some as a child. But given that it was in Richmond, her father is from Boston, and they moved at least a little (in TLT her family lives in New York State), the idea that her upbringing would be particularly southern, or that she'd have a southern accent is silly.

Also, she thinks Percy is funny. She enjoys his company. They have a lot of similarities. And she knows he's not as smart at she is (no one is) but she doesn't think he's the dumbest person alive. She doesn't hate him. About 80% of all PJO Incorrect quotes can be summed up as Percy: says something dumb, Annabeth: You're an idiot, and I hate you. And that's just...not what's going on with them.

2. a compelling argument for why your fave would never top or bottom

It's a sexual position they don't enjoy? Let us not confuse sexual positions with gender or rolls in power dynamics.

Now, if you want to discuss power dynamics, Annabeth is a sub and Percy is a dom. Because Annabeth has a long history of feeling unloved, unwanted, and abandoned and wants to feel desired. And Percy has been dismissed and untrusted and wants to feel competent and trustworthy.

3. screenshot or description of the worst take you've seen on tumblr

Recently saw a post that said Frederick had fucked Athena. You know, Athena, the famously virgin goddess.

(The funniest part was that it was part of a very anti-Frederick post, and yet...by saying Athena, the goddess of wisdom, broke her millennia long, life defining desire to not sleep with men, to sleep with Frederick Chase, they were saying he was a giant Chad and extra extra special. And that Athena saw so much in him, loved him so much, she developed sexual feelings for him and was willing to throw away one of her defining characteristics for him. And that...that was kind of hilarious)

5. worst discord server and why

Um, the Taylor Swift one I joined to trade tips for my show is really pretty bad. Everyone is so mean and bitchy and, I say this as someone who is weird about how much I love Taylor Swift, Swifties are the worst.

Otherwise, I can't keep up with servers, or really any chat with more then like 3 people them. So I can't really tell if they are good or bad.

8. common fandom opinion that everyone is wrong about

See previous comments about Annabeth. But, also, Jesus Christ Frederick Chase. Who is super interesting, and also dealt a bad hand he then played badly. Dude is a Norse Legacy who fell in love with a Hellenic Goddess. He went out of town and his wife ran off his daughter while he was gone. He can see through the mist. He dive bombed a Titan to save said daughter. He's a Red Sox fan and has a daughter who's a Yankees fan. He managed to enchant Athena. Favorite minor character.

Also, everyone is wrong about Poseidon. He's an ass, he's a bad dad (Hades is the best big three dad. And possibly the best godly parents. And that's being graded on the scale that calculates that time he told Nico he wished he'd died and bianca hadn't. That's how bad everyone else is.) And Sally has moved on to bigger and better things.

Combining those two things: Fredthena > PoSally. Fredthena is more interesting, and during the canon of the stories, it's actually still interesting instead of Poseidon just being Sally's loser ex.

Other things: in fic, Luke is Annabeth's looser older brother, not abusive ex. Annabeth is the punk and Percy is the good boy, Jercy wants what Frankercy has.

13. worst blorboficiation

Connor Stoll. He's literally just half a character. And that's fine.

Also Octavian. Who is allowed to just be power mad.

Also...I love Nico a lot, but the way fandom acts about him is...so much.

21. part of canon you think is overhyped

Nico. I love Nico, I think he's an awesome character and have written multiple fics about him. But people are so weird about him. And there is an extent to which I get it. He's one of the first incidentally queer characters in middle grade literature (as opposed to a character who is gay in a book all about being gay). He's got the emo vibes we love. And he definitely went through it.

But everyone is kind of going through it. And yet, people will unironically make posts about how Percy promised to protect Bianca and then let her die when...When Bianca set off a monster and Percy literally was like "I have a plan to get rid of it" and then Bianca said "I'll do it" and Percy was like "No, I will" and then Bianca just did it anyway. That isn't on Percy. Similarly "Percy choked Nico, its inexcusable." You know, that time that Nico helped his father trap Percy in a room in the underworld with no ways out or windows or anything. Nico didn't know, and he felt bad and tried to make it right, but it wasn't unreasonable for Percy to be pissed and attack the dude who behaved like an enemy.

[boqvistsbabe]

Update!!!!!!!!

Hey Y’all!!

Here is the start of hopefully monthly updates. I know in my last update I said I was going to be more consistently here and active. Obviously, that didn’t happen lol. Trying to hold myself to that rn. So this is probably going to be the format for all of my update posts, just so they are easier to follow.

Refresh:

So I am almost completely done with the blog refresh. I think all that is left is updating links and getting some other posts (ex: theme days) made/redone. Most of that got put on the back burner due to how long they were going to take lol. But hopefully, over Spring Break, I’ll be able to get those done (no promises, another thing I’m trying to do, is be more realistic about what I want to get done by when so). 

Writing/Other Content:

Ik I said I’d write more. Once again didn’t really happen. Well, I have written a decent bit, but never finished anything. There is one fic that I am going to try and work on after this week (midterms lol) and have someone look over it (the first time I’ve had a beta reader, look at me go lol). Like the blog as a whole, I am trying to organize my writing, like requests and my ideas and what is going out when etc. (@ any of the other writers if you have any suggestions of what to/where to organize my stuff so it doesn’t get all confusing and mixed up you should def let me know). Speaking of requests, I am going to try and do at least two requests a month. That doesn’t sound like a lot but for me, that feels like something I can realistically do. I will be doing old requests first because even though they are years old at this point, I liked the ideas so I genuinely want to write them. I am still going to be accepting new requests (esp because sometimes that helps spark creativity/help with writer’s block so feel free to send in any ideas!!) but I will try to get those older ones done first. As for any other content (playlists, moodboards, IG edits, drawings, etc.) I am also taking requests for those so feel free to send in any of those requests too. 

Another Blog?!

As of rn the second hockey blog has not been “released”. I want to catch up on things for this blog before I throw that into the mix and try to grow that as well. I am hoping to add that sometime this summer. Also, I do technically have a sideblog already (@samistheman) which is normally where I reblog random things, and I don’t really have tags for that blog I just kinda willy-nilly reblog there (it used to be mostly PJO stuff but now that’s kind of here because of how much of it there is lol).

Life Update:

College is a lot rn. I’m doing 17 credit hours and tbh do not know what possessed me to do that. At first, I was doing pretty good, but now not so much. Like I said earlier I have midterms this week. If y’all didn’t know this, I’m shit at taking tests so not doing great rn. Thankfully one of my classes ends on Sunday so at least I don’t have to worry about that. I’ve had a lot going on in my personal life recently that is impacting a lot so trying to navigate that as well. I am moving out in May, which is yes months from now but there is still a lot that I need to do beforehand. Anyway, I’m going to a college hockey game on Thursday and I am super excited. I haven’t been able to go to a game since October. Also little fun update, I’m going on a weekend (work) trip to Boston. Super excited for that. I’ll be getting to go to a Celtics game and a Red Sox game (I’m a Royals girlie tho). I’ve never been to an NBA game so that’s for sure gonna be really cool. I’ve been to many MLB games before but this will be my first at a different stadium. Anyway, I think that is it for this update. Hope y’all are doing well!!

As usual, if y’all ever want to talk dms/inbox are open <3

I am going to tag some moots, I am totally forgetting some people so I am sorry for that (if y'all could reblog that would be amazing)

@2manytabsopen @krugstrash @jimmystrudel @andreburakozy @sidneycrosbyhoe @fallinallincurls @timstuetzle @typical-simplelove @ilyasorokinn @drei-mrssvechii

[sayheykid]

WAIT CHARLIES BOSTONIAN!! i need to know more bro what neighborhood did he grow up in! did he have an idol on the red sox growing up?

YES i'm so pumped to answer this, thank you for asking!! you're gonna get more than you bargained for, hang on

it's extremely integral that you know he's from boston. even though he spent a few years in california for college he is an east coast guy through and through and it's obvious from everything about him. he's from charlestown, which i know has changed a lot in recent years, but still has a very rich blue-collar/working class background, and that in and of itself is important to charlie's story and personality.

i also thought charlestown was a good choice for charlie's family because while it is actually part of the city, a theme that i liked playing with a lot, especially earlier in the storyline, is that of class divide. Charlie's family is unabashedly working class - his mom is an ER nurse and his dad is a longshoreman, and there's a ton of union connection as well. This contrasts with Ellie's family - her parents are both successful professionals, her dad went to harvard, and they live in Cambridge - so even though geographically it's quite close, i wanted to emphasize that the backgrounds ellie and charlie come from are very different (and how even though ellie was never wanting for anything material or resource wise, she never got the love from her own family the way she did with charlie's as they were growing up together)

with that said, charlie's very very proud of who he is and where he comes from, and makes it a point to specify that he's from charlestown in particular, as opposed to just leaving it at boston. because he's so proud of where he's from and the city that raised him, it's especially sweet that he gets to represent his town on such a big platform, and he does not take that lightly. here's an excerpt from his character sheet but i have many more thoughts on the topic:

Because he’s a hometown kid there’s a really unique sense of familiarity. The city raised him, they’re all as proud of him as if he were their own. What i'm saying is that everyone is on a first name basis with him, and that’s more fulfilling than any title he’s won

All the old guys in dunks wearing their scally caps like ‘yeah chahlie, that’s a good kid right theah’

“A combination of he loves the city the city loves him and also a the city sees the best parts of itself in him” like i think there's so much fondness and familiarity there, someone transcends sports idolhood to become an icon of a city itself

it's about being so beloved and so respected that a city adopts you and it's even sweeter when it was your city to begin with

One of the most emotional moments of his career was the first time that he saw a stranger wearing his jersey because even though he knows he worked hard, it’s different to see proof that other people care about him and are proud

(also. he does occasionally get charlie from charlestown jokes and it's just something he has to live with.)

As for who he idolized as a kid, I don't even know where to start. I staunchly refuse to assign specific years to this story, but you can safely assume that he was most likely in elementary/middle school for most if not all of the red sox's 2000s run, and i feel that what you're into at that era really does shape you forever, to a certain extent. charlie's always been a scholar of the game, so there were a lot of different guys that he really looked up to for a variety of reasons.

he really admired tek for his leadership ability and respect that he built, as well as for the fact that he spent his whole career with one team, which is becoming harder and harder to do.

similarly, tim wakefield's longevity made him a legend in the game, and he set/came close to a lot of records that charlie aspired to reach, because while i would never say that charlie is egotistical, he's nothing if not extremely driven and understands his own ability pretty well.

i made a joke a few days ago about charlie being jonathan papelbon junior, but i don't think they're particularly similar - notably, charlie has been a starter his entire career and i think papelbon has a more out-there personality than charlie, but just the idea of being so ingrained in the culture of a city is something charlie really admired.

as a bonus! patrice bergeron is also someone he looked up to significantly, not only as a supremely talented athlete but as a person who engendered so much genuine respect, both amongst his teammates and opponents and with fans at large. it's hard to break into an atmosphere that takes sports as seriously as boston does, but if you do, they'll love you forever (if i think too hard i'll get emotional over the saint patrice narrative). charlie never set out to be that person, and is honestly pretty shy about accepting praise, but it means a lot to him that the city he loves so much loves him back.

[oh-phineas]

Monday, November 11 — The Comment Section: Write ten comments your character has left around the Internet— perhaps a YouTube video of a song that means something to them, a TikTok that they got into a fight in the comments of, a recipe that they tested from FoodNetwork.com… the sky’s the limit! Can be from the same site or different ones.

Uploaded October 2008

flynneas 14 years ago

Thank You for posting this. It is a truly AMAZING moment of White Sox history. I watch it any time I am feeling down and it puts me in a great mood. GO SOX!!!!!!!!!

flynneas 12 years ago

@.cubsrule07 WHY ARE YOU BEING A HATER??? This video freaking rules. Yes 2012 was not their best year but just wait until spring. They will blow the cubs out of the water. But most of all why would you come over here and be a hater when this video speaks for itself?! The Sox are a great team no matter their record. It's not just about winning and losing. You however will always be a loser if you keep acting like this!!!

flynneas 10 years ago

fun fact: my dad was at this game lol. saw this happen in real life.

flynneas 8 years ago

obviously the catch is epic but can we talk about the celebration? that's the best part of this whole thing imo, the pure joy like nothing bad could happen. you can tell these guys worked their asses off for this, maybe some of them were cheering on the team when they won the ws back in 05 and now they were excited to be a part of the magic. and to me it doesn't even matter that they went on to lose after this. it's one perfect moment and no one can ever take that away from them

flynneas 8 years ago

i guess the other reason this is my favorite white sox moment (over the 2005 ws win) is because it's the one i remember. i was too young to remember 2005 but this was like the first season i remember ever really paying attention to baseball. so yeah it's not the most perfect moment in sox history but it's important to me

flynneas 6 years ago

lol every time i look this video up i see the graveyard of old comments i've left. look i just really love this clip lol don't judge me

flynneas 5 years ago

watching this the night before i move out of illinois probably forever. weird to think i might never see the grate again (what? that's what it's called)

flynneas 2 years ago

you know i'm pretty sure my dad lied about a lot of things he always told me he was at this game but like. he could never prove it lol. anyway i guess it doesn't really matter anymore.

flynneas 1 year ago

you know what i really fucking love about this clip? it's a fucking outfielder. brian anderson had a mid batting average and he only hit like 8 runs that season, and he eventually got sent down to triple a (oh yeah, and the sox are kind of shit now, hello from 2023). i think he coaches college baseball. you have to really dig to even find his wikipedia page. but for a minute he gets to be a hero.

and you can see in that celebration just how much it means to him. how much it means to all of them.

i think that's what i love about baseball. 90% of the work is totally invisible to the average person but your teammates see it and when it finally pays off everyone goes fucking crazy. all those practices. all those years grinding away. and you get one perfect gift from the sky and you leap for all your worth and it's all you and now you're the guy. you're the fucking guy.

i mean, what's that thing they say? you can't help but be romantic about baseball?

flynneas 4 months ago

i miss when watching this team was not an exercise in torture lmfao

[littlewalken]

sep 9

I don't think I ever really know how to end my stories but it feels like the Smallville smut is in the home stretch to get to somewhere. The least I like to do is have a resting place. There might still be unresolved I wonder what the characters are going to do next things but I want to have major plot points either resolved or somewhere that if there is no next season the fans won't be tearing their hair out.

So while there will still be consequences from the planned OMG it's Clark! ending there will be resolve between the key players. Hell, I didn't even confirm what will be the giveaway until yesterday.

When I started with the first round of free writing I had a couple of ideas and a slight idea where to take them. A huge part of the time I will start writing without an ending, just some ideas to flesh out. Get them out of your head and put pen to paper.

Seriously, Walmart brand composition books are cheap, Bic sticks come by the barrel full, and you don't need grammar software or AI scraping to tell a good story. Reusable notebooks come in spiral but you can also get reusable 3 ring binder paper.

One of my best Grease 2 ideas came to me at the junk store and poured out on to the pages of a pocket reusable notebook. Had to wash off three pages front and back after it got tidied up and put in the story notes.

If you say you can't write without ___ (unless it's something to literally write with) then why are you even writing at all.

And I would never use grammar software, which must be training AI, to write my fiction. It would destroy the prose and cadence. I want the pre teen member of a fictional boy band to have completely different thoughts than the oldest member realizing he has sox older than this kid.

Worldly Lex Luthor is going to have a completely different reaction to farm boy Clark Kent over the meaning of hog tie.

And for someone else who pointed out that Tom Welling, especially in the first season, had a default 'me so handsome' face he'd revert to, Tom himself admitted to not really having any acting lessons until between the first and second season because no one thought the show would take off.

But we also have to remember Clark is supposed to be sheltered and probably naive to a lot of the world and hasn't socialized much outside of school because he isn't on any sporting teams and probably not in any clubs or scouts because the Kents are worried he hasn't learned to control his powers enough yet.

[the-good-projxct]

June 13th, 2024

11.38pm listening to Inauma by Bien. Weuh, this a chuuunnneee. I wonder if I have repeated some songs. Hmmm, oh well if I have then plis plis plis ENJOY!! I feel like anything serious I do in life must have music in it. It’s like my ideal state to get work done. Anyway, yoh! I went to katika class again today. I didn’t do Tabata last week because that class tried to kill me. Frank, what is you doing in that class fam? I am glad I went to katika. I can feel my body vibrating from Gøod hormones. I got home and the switch to turn on hot water was broken so I took a cold shower in this COLD AF June weather. Last night was cold, I slept in a hoodie and sox. When I get my own crib I will invest in a huge down comforter so my man and I can sleep freely during the cooler months. Heheheh my man, my man, my man. I never ever thought I would be one of these niggas but here I am screaming my man, my man, my man. I am soo annoying and I LOVE it. The last few days have been interesting. I am struggling with focus for the Gøod manifesto. So I am doing what is tried, tested and true…getting bored. I need to get so bored and sleep so much that I get over those things. Then I will want to do something else and writing will be it. I know I am neurodivergent and I have mastered the ways that work for me. That’s what masking for long has done, I figured out what works for me so I can function well in society. I also don’t want a diagnosis because I worry what that will do for my self-image and relationship with self. So I know, I know. But like, there is no proof so I don’t need to know know. Ya know? I also decided to look at job postings in Kenya since I was bored and weuhhh weuhhh. Overwhelm kicked my ass. I literally almost cried. Wow!! I want a career of my choosing and self-directed. I don’t think I can be employed and micromanaged. Like I left that in 2019. Everything else has been self-directed. I am freaking out at the possibility of being an employee. Some days it takes minutes to write this. Some days…hours. I am eating a whole lot of fruit especially bananas and papaya. I am eating a lot of yogurt. Drinking lots of water too. I am honestly realizing that I have to take care of myself. Like, I feel like I am those people that engage with my body as my body needs. Instead of being proactive. Last week I got soo constipated my belly swelled and hurt SOOO bad. That’s when I decided to take some things on, like I need to be my own parent. And it’s step by step. I spent the last few years parenting myself via emotional regulation, emotional and mental needs, spiritual growth etc. Listen, this Auntie didn’t have the capacity for physical as well. Yes, I used to go to the gym but I fell off because it wasn’t a priority. Now I have the internal figured out, I can deal with the physical. So here I am eating better, drinking water and moving my body. I try to walk everyday. But I still eat cake. As I am writing this I have cake and fanta near me. Why? Because I am a well rounded individual. Okaayyyy?!?!?!? I could really go for a massage right about now. All in all, life feels Gøod. I am thriving. Honestly, what a wonderful life I am leading. Like, its such a wholesome, beautiful, Love-filled Life. Two things can be true, as summer arrives in PEI, I am missing my pals deadly. Like I had/have such Gøod pals. Seeing them looking GøodT in the sun with their gay umbrellas and laughing smiles is giving me all the feels. I know I did what was best for me and I am living the life of my dreams but DAMN, I miss them pippo. I miss them with all of my being. And I am beyond grateful to the Universe for the gang, the goonies, the squad. Like they made that goofy little sandbar tolerable. So yeah, Life is Gøod and I miss my pals. All in all, I am Gøod. Love is Gøod. Community care is Gøod. Freedom is Gøod. Ase. Ase. Ase.

[cande-dooder]

Since I’m here I might as well rant, since I don’t have any irls here or a character limit

The living situation with my mom hasn’t really improved through the move, to say the least. During the move it was like I’d just BREATHE wrong and she’d get so mad… it’s calmed down a little bit but not much. It still feels like walking on eggshells around her a lot. I try to do something the way I want it (sometimes even in my own room, mind you) and she gets mad I didn’t do it her way! Like what the actual fuck is your problem?? I still accomplished a similar result get over it!! I know she’s frustrated with her job and such but so am I, and I don’t blow up at every little thing like she does. I still think she has something deeper going on that she is simply refusing to get help for and it’s honestly driving me away from her. Like I need to for real get some money saved so I can leave when the lease is up in July.

Speaking of money…. I’m scared to even go get my hair done because she’s gonna say it’s too expensive. I also wanna get a 2025 aurora tour in Alaska booked soon while there’s availability and I know she’s gonna have a cow because it’s not cheap.

She still has her awful road rage (is probably a part of her issues she has) and when we went to my uncles house in Orlando for new year’s she was getting mad at other people on EVERYTHING they were doing. When we went to look at Christmas lights she got mad and started screaming when there’d be a car behind us or meeting on a narrow street. Like it’s just not that serious please calm down.

One night I had heard noises while I was in the shower and was scared someone broke in so I locked my bedroom door the next night before I got in the shower and she got mad she couldn’t get in my room to be mad I didn’t get the list of stuff done (which, I had no idea there was a list, she didn’t leave it where I would easily see it).

She blares the tv and stupid TikTok instagram reels on her phone and gets REALLY mad when I NICELY ask her to lower the volume or turn it off because I’m trying to sleep. The sound echoes really bad into my room because there’s no carpet in the living room. It’s like if I disrupt her even one bit it’s like I killed somebody.

When I ordered my new bed (I needed something with a headboard because my bed is against a window, only way it would nicely fit) she got mad that the bed I liked came with the frame, then was annoyed that I paid about $100 extra to have it put together when it was delivered, I did that because the bed was on sale and also because I knew she’d gripe about having to help me put it together.

During the actual moving day she got mad at me for standing up for myself when I was tired of my (other) uncles dumb jokes at my expense. She legit made me feel guilty for standing my ground and not taking it. He was making my day worse and I decided I had enough.

She still gets mad at the cats, especially stingray, for just being cats, and I’m considering taking Sam AND stingray when I leave. She clearly has her favorite (sox) and the other two annoy her so why should I leave them?

I’m not sure myself if what I experience with my mom is classed as emotional abuse but whatever is going on she’s doubled down, especially since the move. That I know for sure.

And I just know it, when I’m getting ready to leave and like my dad is about to come, like flight booked and Uhaul rented, my mom is gonna pull some “talk” like she did in 2016 to get me to stay. It’s not gonna work this time. I’m not gonna stay somewhere I don’t feel appreciated and welcome. I’m not the same person I was in 2016, I do have more “adult” type of life experience, and you know what? I’m going to be 30, I want to get out and freely be the adult I am.

[criticalbennifer]

At home with Ben and Jen

Lopez and Affleck sit down for their first-ever primetime interview together, an exclusive from Pat O’Brien of “Access Hollywood.”

July 18, 2003, 8:12 AM EDT / Source: NBC News

Audiences have always been captivated by the great Hollywood romances, the classic couples whose chemistry on the wide screen and in real life is electric and enduring. And who could forget Bogey and Bacall, Humphrey Bogart and Lauren Bacall, or Richard Burton and Elizabeth Taylor? This summer, another charismatic couple is in the spotlight — Jennifer Lopez and Ben Affleck, two big stars who met on the set and made headlines worldwide after a whirlwind romance. Do they have the stuff and the staying power to become another classic couple? Lopez and Affleck sit down for their first-ever primetime interview together, an exclusive from Pat O’Brien of “Access Hollywood.”

Forget what your astronomy teacher told you. This is what happens when stars collide. In this case when Ben met Jen. Ben Affleck and Jennifer Lopez were of course famous in their own right before the film “Gigli” brought them together on-screen and off. He, the leading man with brawn and brains, only 25 when he won an Oscar for writing the script “Goodwill Hunting” along with childhood buddy Matt Damon; she, the triple threat known as J. Lo., a singer, dancer, and actress with a personal life as Technicolor as her movies.

But their romance has propelled them to a whole new level of fame. Every move they make, from the red carpet to a Red Sox game is photographed and talked about again and again. And all that buzz has made Ben and Jen a very formidable duo.

Pat O’Brien: “So you are dating, huh?”

Jennifer Lopez: “Uh, uh.”

Ben Affleck: “I guess we just found out, it seems.”

O’Brien: “This is your first interview together. What does it feel like? You’re finally doing this.”

Affleck: “Good, pretty good, I gather. It is like being stoned apparently. [laughter] No!”

The future Mr. and Mrs. Affleck invited us into a rental house he’s staying in, in Vancouver. It’s more modest than one might expect. Both are shooting films in Canada. And this is where they’ve spent most of their summer weekends — a waterfront haven, away from the relentless attention they’ve received since becoming a couple.

O’Brien: “Do you realize how fascinated America is by you? I mean, do you ever say, ‘What happened here?’”

Lopez: “It’s so weird to even hear you say that.”

Affleck: “Yeah.”

Lopez: “It’s like such a strange thing. No we don’t sit around here and think about that.”

Affleck: “I don’t know what’s the fascination. It seems strange to me. I don’t know what to tell you. I think you can really make yourself crazy if you start thinking about who is paying attention to me, who is interested in me.”

Okay, so another couple may have briefly stolen their thunder.

O’Brien: “How happy were you when Ashton Kutcher and Demi started dating?”

Affleck: “Elated. I tried to drum that up. I’m constantly calling the tabloids, like have you guys heard about Kirk Douglas and Mandy Moore? You know I sort of anticipated that, like, there would be a certain amount of attention this would get and then something else would come along that would be more tabloid fodder.”

Wishful thinking Ben. Expect a whole new round of buzz when the two walk the red carpet as co-stars for the first time, when “Gigli” has its world premiere next week. Since becoming what some have labeled, “The Bennifer Show,” Ben Affleck and Jennifer Lopez have seen their already impressive status and earning power rise even more.

This year, both cracked the top ten list of Forbes celebrity hottest 100. Ben was at number seven and Jennifer was ahead at number five. Although, according to the magazine he out earned his fiancé last year, $36 million to her $29 million — and that can buy a lot of bling-bling.

But Ben says don’t believe those stories you’ve read about his lavish spending habits, though there’s no denying he went all out on that 6.1 carat, pink diamond engagement ring.

O’Brien: “What’s the most extravagant thing you bought her? You bought the ring?”

Affleck: “I would say engagement ring’s probably a thing that men spend the most money on and they’re right.”

O’Brien: “What about car rumors that you’re like —”

Affleck: “Yeah, because I somehow have like 8,000 cars. I wish. Where are all of these cars? [laughter] I want the cars. I’m sure I’m number one carjack target. Carjackers are so disappointed. They’re staking out my house like, where are all the cars?”

In fact, these two super-rich superstars say it’s their middle class background that brought them together. At heart, he’s just a kid from bean town and she’s, well, you know.

O’Brien: “You and Ben are kind of from the same background. Does that work for you?”

Lopez: “We really connect on that level. You know I could say this is how we spent Christmas or this is how we did New Year’s and blah blah, and he’s like yeah, that’s exactly what we did, too.”

Their drive is another thing they have in common. Both have put in years of hard work to get to where they are now. Affleck grew up in a working-class neighborhood outside of Boston. His father was a part-time actor who worked odd jobs to make ends meet. His mother was a school teacher. They split up when he was 11.

By then he was already in show business, landing a role at age eight in the PBS series, “The Voyage of the Mimi.” The child actor eventually graduated to adult parts in independent films like “Dazed and Confused” and “Chasing Amy.”

And then, in 1998, came the big break that’s become legend in Hollywood: that Oscar for “Good Will Hunting” and the clout that goes with it. Within a few years, Ben Affleck was one of Hollywood’s highest-paid actors. The former Indy guy was now the heroic leading man in films like “Armageddon,” “Pearl Harbor,” and “Daredevil.” And the 30-year-old actor says it’s those blockbuster movies that allow him to do other films like “Gigli,” for which he is earning a cool $12.5 million.

Affleck: “The pattern in terms of doing one kind of movie to afford myself the opportunity to do another more interesting, sort of less obvious kind of move, the kind of movie people typically don’t want to take chances on unless they feel like they have some one who was just in a hit movie, you know what I mean?”

Jennifer Lopez entered show business a little later in life than her fiancé. She grew up middle class, one of three sisters. Her dad is a computer programmer and her mom, just like her fiancé’s, is a schoolteacher. Jennifer trained as a dancer and was a Bronx girl barely out of her teens when she got her first big break in 1990, selected to be one of the Fly Girls on the television show, “In Living Color.”

She broke into the movies at age 25, with a luminous debut in “Mi Familia.” But it was the lead role in the 1997 film, “Selena,” that really got her noticed. She’s been working steadily in films ever since, proving she can play everything from an abused wife in “Enough,” to a real-life Cinderella in “Maid in Manhattan.”

Movies, it seems, were just part of the plan. Lopez, who says she always wanted a career like Barbra Streisand’s, is also a top-selling recording artist.

Lopez: “Barbara Streisand. I don’t know if I would like my career just to be just like anybody’s. I want to, you know, make my own way and make my own path.”

O’Brien: “I think you’re doing that.”

Lopez: “You know, blaze my own trail.”

This girl from the Bronx accomplished something that girl from Brooklyn never did. Lopez is the only woman to have a number one movie, “The Wedding Planner,” and a number one record, “J. Lo,” all in the same week. And it was that drive and talent that got Ben Affleck’s attention, long before they even met.

Affleck: “One of the things I was most struck by was how she was able to do the sort of rock star thing and be an actress as well. A lot of people have tried to do it and it’s a really hard thing to both at a high level.”

It would take one of those Hollywood twists of fate to bring them together on the set of “Gigli.” Jennifer Lopez was in only after another famous actress bowed out.

O’Brien: “Have you thanked Halle Berry for dropping out of the movie?”

Lopez: “I should. I could write a little note now that I think about it.”

O’Brien: “That was a twist of fate, right?”

Lopez “Yeah, that was, you know, a funny thing, how things happen.”

A MATCH MADE ON THE SET

It’s a bit of movie history, when Affleck and Lopez are on screen together for the first time. The film is called “Gigli,” and Ben plays the title character, Larry Gigli. He’s a mobster wanna-be — with a soft side. Jennifer is Ricky, a tough, take-no-prisoners female enforcer — who also happens to be a lesbian. Believe it or not, it’s a love story.

Before “Gigli,” these two superstars were virtual strangers to each other.

O’Brien: “When did you meet?”

Lopez: “We met at a couple of the parties. You know we barely paid any attention to each other at all...”

Affleck: “Yeah. [laughter] That’s a nice way of saying, so you iced me?

Lopez: “No. You iced me.”

But both stars came to the set with their own expectations about the movie and about each other.

O’Brien: “When you found out that you were going to work with her on this movie, what were your first thoughts?”

Lopez: “For real...

Affleck: “I thought, I actually wanted Jen to do the movie. l thought that it was important. I wanted to have somebody who was well-known, a big star, and then I was a little bit kind of thinking, well is she going to be, you know, what’s that going to be like? You know, I’m sure it’s the same for you, that you go in, you kind of want to see what people are going to be like.”

Lopez: [makes a face]

Affleck: “No, not the same for you?”

Lopez: “I go into a movie with an open mind.”

Affleck: “Do you really?”

Lopez: “I wasn’t worried. I wasn’t worried at all. I worry more that the people are going to like me!”

O’Brien: “So did you call your girlfriends and say, I’m working with Ben Affleck, he’s the sexiest man alive.”

Lopez: “He wasn’t the sexiest man alive then, no.”

Affleck: “He wasn’t even remotely appealing, really, to tell you the truth, he was so far from the sexiest man alive I thought he was kind of homely.”

Lopez: “No, I didn’t mention it. Actually I was excited to work—”

Affleck: “Don’t lie, you called your girlfriends up and were like, hey I’ve been working with Ben Affleck.”

Lopez: “He’s so fine... No, I didn’t... It felt like we had good chemistry. You know what I mean? He likes to improv. I could improv back. He’s the best person to improv in the whole entire business, he’s so funny.”

Affleck: “Don’t be like my mom. [laughter]

Lopez: “I’m your mom now!”

Affleck: “Don’t do that thing where you’re like, he’s the best.”

Lopez: “He is though. I’m not the only one who says it.”

One Gigli scene that’s sure to get talked about has Jennifer striking yoga poses. With some not-ready-for-primetime dialogue, the studio is keeping it tightly under wraps.

O’Brien: “The yoga scene, which is sensational, — you’re smiling! We can’t even say that word here.”

Lopez: “You can’t say yoga? No, no, I know what you’re talking about, but you have to go see the movie to know what we’re talking about.”

O’Brien: “When people see this movie, they’re going to see that first time when you see each other in the movie...and it looks like you’ve fallen in love right there when that door opens.”

Affleck: “Acting. We should get Academy Awards for that right there, is all I can tell you. Golden Globes at least.”

Lopez: “For chrissake.”

Affleck: “Sag. People’s Choice. Blockbuster.”

Lopez: “Ha, Blockbuster!”

Remember, when Ben and Jen were filming “Gigli,” she was a newlywed, married to her backup dancer Chris Judd. And she was, in Ben’s words, “off-limits.”

Lopez: “I think people will inevitably wonder. The truth is that when we did start working together we got along great. I mean, we really did become friends, really good friends.”

O’Brien: “How good?”

Lopez: “Really good friends. You know what I mean. We talked a lot and that’s the thing. There was no kind of idea that we would be together in the future, so it was one of those things where you kind of like say too much.”

O’Brien: “What did you tell him that you don’t want him to know?”

Lopez: “We talked about past relationships and how you are and...we gave out too much real quick, you know, but it was fun.”

And with hours and hours of filming together, the costars say the intimate details flowed.

Affleck: “Because you know when you aren’t trying to impress someone cause you don’t think that you’re going to be dating them its like, oh this doesn’t matter, I don’t have to impress her. You’ll kind of admit to things.”

Lopez: “He told me all about his ex-girlfriends.”

Affleck: “Ah, turn the volume down on that. So anyways, you know how you like put out a representative, like Chris Rock says, and the representatives meet.”

Lopez: “He wasn’t trying to impress me.”

Affleck: “We could get to know the real person.”

Lopez: “He’s real person, he wasn’t trying to rap to me.”

Affleck: “I haven’t forgotten all that sh*t either.”

Lopez: “Ha, luckily I had nothing bad to tell. Him, on the other hand.” [rolls eyes]

O’Brien: “And when did you realize something was happening here? When did you fall in love?”

Lopez: “You keep asking that. I told you.”

O’Brien: “America needs to know this.”

Lopez: “You can’t pinpoint it. It was like we became friends first, that is the honest-to-god truth.”

The two remained friends after the movie wrapped. Ben even joined Mr. and Mrs. Judd at the opening of her Pasadena restaurant “Madre’s” in April 2002. Just three months later, Jennifer and Judd split, her second divorce. Within another three months, she and Ben were engaged.

O’Brien: “How did you pop the question to her? Traditional way?”

Affleck: “You know there’s some of it that I would like that the details of it are private.”

Lopez: “It’s not private anymore because I told everybody.”

Affleck: “No you didn’t.”

Lopez: “I know I’m terrible. I’m a girl. What do you want from me? I like to talk about these things.”

O’Brien: “I want to know.”

Affleck: “You know, we took the ring out and I asked her to marry, I took the traditional approach.”

It was the proposal heard round the world. And neither Ben nor Jen was ready for the fallout, even though both had been down the road of high profile romances before.

Three years ago, she had Versace draped on her body and Sean “Puffy” Combs on her arm. Their romance was a match made in tabloid heaven, complete with that now infamous nightclub shooting, his arrest, acquittal and their breakup on of all days, Valentine’s Day. But even all that didn’t prepare her for “The Bennifer Show” hype

O’Brien: “Boy you’d think you had enough rehearsal for that with Puffy.”

Lopez: “Well, me and Puffy were in the paper a lot and there was a kind of fascination with that relationship, too, but this was a different level. I felt like I had been in the press enough that I could handle it, but even I felt a little uncomfortable with so many eyes on you watching all your steps and wondering if you’re going to break up or stay and you’ve only been together a few weeks and you’re like whoa!”

And Ben also had his own dress rehearsal five years ago when he dated an Oscar-winner Gwyneth Paltrow.

Affleck: “I went through a lot, a similar type of thing with Gwyneth, not to this degree, but it was something I was the first time, like news about a relationship I was in was on CNN. I thought this world has gone mad now.”

But Ben says his relationship with Jennifer has earned him some major props, not only with his school teacher mom’s sixth graders, but with some old buddies from his hometown.

O’Brien: “What did they say when you started dating Jennifer? Who was the first to call?”

Affleck: [in Boston accent] “‘I got you bro. Listen I don’t mean to get in your business or nothing, but are you really with J.Lo? Tell the truth? Did you have sex with her? Did you tell me the truth? Don’t lie to me.’ I got a couple of guys that haven’t heard from, you know, 10 years from Boston. You were never impressed with anything I’ve ever done in my life until they were like, no sir, Affleck. It can’t be true.”

O’Brien: “Did you have sex with her.”

Affleck: “That’s the question, ‘did you have sex with her? You did? No sir, for real? I can’t believe it, man. I love this. Mom remember Affleck, that skinny kid from down the block?’ So I made good in Boston. That was my crowning achievement.”

LONG ROAD FROM ‘THE BLOCK’

Jennifer Lopez has come a long way from that block in the Bronx, surpassing even her own dreams of stardom. Six years ago, when she broke ground with the film “Selena,” her million dollar salary was a record for a Latina actress. Now, a week shy of her thirty-third birthday, Jennifer Lopez is one of Hollywood’s highest paid actresses period, earning $12 million for her role in “Gigli.”

And all this has made her something of an icon in the Latino community. So it was some homecoming when Jenny came back to the block to do a “Today Show” concert for the kids in her old Bronx neighborhood.

Lopez: “I think it’s important for the Latin community and just for people in general to have all different kinds of people to look up to and to be able to see yourself as a little girl and look up at a screen and say, oh that person’s just like me. That means I can do that, too, or I can do anything I want to do.”

She’s the American dream in spandex and stilettos — or as her proud finance puts it, a symbol that you can make something of yourself no matter where you come from.

Affleck: “This is somebody who nobody ever said like, hey kid, you’re going to be a star. You’ve got what it takes. She didn’t look like how people were supposed to look, she didn’t have the body shape that women were supposed to have, and rather than changing herself or trying to be something else, she said, this is who I am and she believed in herself. It’s a real Horatio Alger story.”

Jennifer Lopez: singer, dancer, actress, and she is also an entrepreneur. She has her own clothing line, accessories and even her own perfume. Being the face of J-Lo, Inc. has landed Ms. Lopez a prestigious spot on Crain’s list of the 100 most powerful minority business leaders in New York. But with power and success comes something else: a reputation. Jennifer Lopez has been branded, she says unfairly, with the dreaded big “D” for diva, who reportedly demands white flowers and candles in her dressing room, a certain thread count on her sheets, and a specific water temperature for her Evian. Hey, even Ben admits he was concerned.

Affleck: “I probably secretly thought like, you know, this is going to be a pain in the ass working with this woman. I’ll try to get through this thing and just, you know. And then it still wasn’t that way, and then at a certain point, I thought that’s a shame, you know what I mean? This woman kind of has a bad rap.”

Lopez: “All I do is really you know go to work and try to be professional and be on time and be prepared. And then you hear all this stuff that people say about you, and yeah, it can be hurtful.”

O’Brien: “Because it gets laughable — the white candles, the thread counts on the sheets, the entourage, right?”

Lopez: “And it’s funny the ones that don’t die, like I’m always...yeah, I think people are always surprised. Like when I go work on a movie or do something, when I show up and it’s just me and my cousin, my assistant and the driver, and they’re like, well, where is everybody else? This is it. It’s just me.”

Jennifer’s defenders say it’s Benny Medina who helped create that J.Lo diva image. Medina was more than a manager. In her last album notes she called him her “man on the front lines, her right hand man.” But last month they had an ugly professional breakup. She not only fired Medina, but is suing him for millions in back commissions, claiming Medina unlawfully acted as her agent on certain deals.

O’Brien: “Why did you erase all that part of your life.”

Lopez: “You know that part of my life is being settled right now and I feel like it’s been a hard situation, but I think in the end it will resolve itself in a good way because Benny and I do care about each other.”

Benny Medina issued a statement to the press in response to the lawsuit filed by his former star client, calling the charges “lies” and added: “Jennifer Lopez, by making false allegations against me, is now trying to add me to the long list of people whom she has used and discarded after she took from them all she could get... I look forward to the opportunity to have the world come to know the real Jennifer Lopez.”

O’Brien: “He said some harsh things about you.”

Lopez: “You know it’s not nice.”

O’Brien: “Not a subject you love.”

Lopez: “No I don’t love the subject because I don’t feel like you have to explain or talk about personal things or business even so much. You know what I mean? I think it’s a lot more simple than everybody makes it out to be.”

As for talk that the other Ben, Mr. Affleck, is behind the Medina firing, he insists he and Jennifer keep their professional lives separate.

Affleck: “It’s not as though I say, you should do this, that or the other thing or she says, you should do this that and the other thing, because I think it’s dangerous in any relationship if you let too much of the professional life intrude.”

These two high powered superstars try to leave the business at the office, Jennifer says they’re homebodies at heart.

O’Brien: “I read this quote.”

Lopez: “Uh oh.”

O’Brien: “Curled under Ben’s arm is where you want to be, ‘those are my favorite places,’ That’s great.”

Lopez: “You’re embarrassing me. Why did I say that? That was girl talk.”

O’Brien: “You like that though.”

Lopez: “I do, that’s my favorite place, you know. But at the end of the day, I really enjoy the safety, security, serenity of family and home. That’s what I love and I’m glad I found somebody who appreciates it just as much. And we are able to enjoy together.”

LIFE OF STARS AT HOME

They’re on screen lovers in “Gigli,” larger than life co-stars, who say even love scenes are work.

Affleck: “Even when we were doing a love scene it was about trying to make it work. I hope that once you get in there and start watching the movie that actually we’re playing two people very different from ourselves. We spent a lot of time being in character on the set.”

Ben and Jen insist working together and living together are two very different productions. When they walk through the front door, they leave all the action behind. This is how Ben and Jen say they really live: It’s Sunday afternoon at the Affleck-Lopez house and like a lot of couples, they like hanging out in sweats, just enjoying each other’s company.

You can catch Ben on the court. He’s not only a die hard sport fan. Don’t get him started on his beloved Celtics and Red Sox. But he’s pretty good playing hoops as well. Yes, the sexiest man alive’s got game.

O’Brien: “Who does wear the pants by the way in this house?”

Lopez: “Ben wears the pants. He definitely wears the pants. [laughter] ... We respect each other.”

Affleck: “I don’t think there’s any — I don’t think anybody has any like interchangeable...”

Lopez: “But I’m traditional in the way that.”

Affleck: “Yes.”

Lopez: “I take on the woman roles in certain things.”

Affleck: “She’s much more traditional than I anticipated she would be kind of when I first met her.”

Lopez: “I like to cook. And I like to make sure he has things. I’m a caretaker.”

O’Brien: “You like make him toast in the morning.”

Lopez: “Whatever. Whatever he’d like.”

And I got a treat: a cooking lesson from Jennifer herself. A Lopez family recipe for Puerto Rican fried chicken cutlets, red beans and rice.

Lopez: “I don’t even think Ben likes me to cook as much as I do. [laughter]”

O’Brien: “No, I’m sure he appreciates it.”

Lopez: “No, he does love it actually. That’s a lie. He does love it. He loves it. He really loves it... he likes everything I make.

O’Brien: “Of course he does.”

Lopez: “I don’t know what his favorite is. I’ve never asked him.”

O’Brien: “The week after your marriage, what will your name be?”

Lopez: “What do you think my name will be? Am I going change it professionally you mean? No. I think I’m going stay with Jennifer Lopez. But my name will be Jennifer Affleck obviously.”

O’Brien: “So what will your stationary say?”

Lopez: “Jennifer Affleck.”

O’Brien: “J.A. That’s J-Aff.”

Lopez: “It doesn’t have quite the same ring to it. but you gotta make sacrifices. [laughter]”

O’Brien: “Actually Jennifer Affleck’s a good name.”

Lopez: “It’s not bad. It’s not bad. I’ll take it.”

O’Brien: “where’s Ben?

Lopez: “Where he always is when I’m cooking. Watching the Red Sox, I’m sure. Ben?”

Affleck: “Yeah... is this is the domestic goddess part of the program?”

O’Brien: “We’ve put this little dinner together for you.”

Lopez: “We?”

Affleck: “Pat, I appreciate that.”

O’Brien: “Yes, we have.”

Affleck: “What is this? Fried fish or chicken? Chicken.”

Lopez: “Chicken.”

Affleck: “Well, I couldn’t see.”

Lopez: “It’s always fried. [laughs]”

O’Brien: “You do dishes Ben?”

Affleck: “When duty calls, yeah. It’s not my favorite thing in the world to do. So now I’m happy if I don’t have to do them. I do do them though.”

Lopez: “I’ve never seen you do them though!”

Affleck: “I don’t like to wash dishes. It’s not my favorite thing, no.”

THE BIG EVENT

O’Brien: “When is your wedding?”

Lopez: “Come on, Pat.”

Affleck: “Bring in the priest.”

Lopez: “Well...”

O’Brien: “Is it this summer, next summer?”

Affleck: “What do you think?”

Lopez: “When should we do it?”

Affleck: “Yeah. I’d say...”

O’Brien: “Do you have a date?”

Lopez: “Yeah, kind of.”

Affleck: “We’re working on something. But we’ll let you know when the time is appropriate.”

O’Brien: “Okay.”

Affleck: “We’ll give you a call.”

O’Brien: “One wedding matter.”

Affleck: “I told you, you can’t come, Pat. I’m not going to go through with you. [laughter] It’s a very small list. It’s very narrow. You’re just on the cusp, you’re a bubble.”

O’Brien: “Can I possibly— can I make that list?”

Affleck: “You could crash.”

O’Brien: “Okay.”

Lopez: “It’s not going to be a thing where we’re trying to hide or anything like that. We’re just— we’re not sure. We don’t feel the need to let people in because it’s boring.”

THE DRESS

O’Brien: “You’re famous for your dresses. Obviously one of the most famous dresses ever at the Grammy’s. What about your wedding dress? Do you remember that dress you wore at the Grammys?”

Affleck: “I’m not— this was the titty dress!”

O’Brien: “What’s wrong with you?”

Affleck: “I knew if I said it that way—”

Lopez: “The titty dress?”

Affleck: “—they can’t put that in the show.”

O’Brien: “It’s like you really wanted to say that.”

Lopez: “They’ll bleep it and put it in, baby. Just to have you saying that on TV.”

Affleck: “The green dress. It was a lovely dress. Beautiful dress. Very nice. Very gorgeous.”

Lopez: “Thank you.”

O’Brien: “So you have to outdo that one.”

Affleck: “Oh, no.”

Lopez: ” No. No. No. It’s not that. No, but I’m having something made.:

Affleck: “Is it green?”

Lopez: “It’s not green.”

Affleck: “It’s not green? Is it— is there a lot of cleavage?”

Lopez: “I don’t really have a lot of cleavage, baby.”

Affleck: “you got the green dress. [laughter]”

THE PAPARAZZI

O’Brien: “Well, how are you going do that though? Seriously, I mean, think about you two guys getting married with the helicopters and the paparazzi and the pictures, the scramble?”

Affleck: “Yeah, because it seems like it’d be so loud. I’ve never been to a—”

Lopez: “I think they do the helicopters when you’re trying to hide and nobody can get close or anything. And I think one of the things that we’re not going do — or maybe I should have discussed this with you? [laughter] Is that —”

Affleck: “We’re always this way.”

Lopez: “No, I think a smart thing to do would be to not make it—”

Affleck: “Invite the paparazzi?”

Lopez: “No. Is not to make it the biggest secret in the world, you know what I mean? If people want to be outside and they want to take our picture, then okay. You know, we’re not going to, you know, be with 24 million security guards that are right there. We want to just be like— have a nice wedding. We want to have it be a beautiful day about what it’s about. And if there happen to be cameras outside then that’s fine, you know. We’re not going to obsess over them.”

Affleck: “Well, I guess we’ve established that then. Guess we worked that out. No, I think the truth is to not change your life one way or another, conform to the dictates of other people. And how that’s perceived, what people might say, what good or bad. Whether there are going to be photographers or not. If I want to go to the movies or get a slice of pizza or whatever, we do that. And if somebody takes a picture and we look just ridiculous slightly then, you know, we do... that why Jennifer keeps me around. She always will look good compared to me, you know what I’m saying? She’s always a glamorous thing and I’m —

Lopez: “There are things obviously that we would keep private. We want to keep the day about our family and about us and about what we’re doing and about the commitment we’re making. That’s what it’s about that day.”

Affleck: “A wonderful little window of domestic tranquility. Isn’t it nice?”

Uh, good luck keeping that wedding private. When “Dateline” was filming right there in their own backyard...

Lopez: “Oh, that’s the paparazzi right there.”

Affleck: “That’s the real fu**ing window in the day of our lives.”

Lopez: “This is crazy. This is private property.”

Affleck: “shh...shh....”

Lopez: “Oh my God, I can’t believe this. The paparazzi right here.”

THE TOAST

O’Brien: “Do you think Matt [Damon] will break down when he makes the toast at the rehearsal dinner?”

Affleck: “He’s a very weepy, weepy man. [laughter]”

Lopez: “Well, actually the best man does the toast.”

Affleck: “The best man does do the toast. That’s true. But it’ll probably be my brother as opposed to Matt. Although—”

Lopez: “Matt can make a toast if he likes, though. [laughter]”

Affleck: “He’s welcome. He’s made many.”

THE FUTURE

O’Brien: “And the most important question: Will this be a Red Sox family or New York Yankees family?”

Affleck: “Yankees? Tell me that’s not a Red Sox family. You know what I’m saying?”

Lopez: “You can’t be involved.”

Affleck: ” I draw a line.”

O’Brien: “How are—”

Lopez: “Well, you should go now.”

Affleck: “You know, you’re not even really a Yankees fan.”

Lopez: “What do you mean?”

Affleck: “You’re father’s a Mets fan—”

Lopez: “My father’s a Mets fan.”

Affleck: “The Mets is fine. I could put up with the Mets. The Mets I could live with. I can’t— pinstripes can’t be in the house.”

O’Brien: “Right.”

Affleck: “Can’t abide it. I can’t.”

O’Brien: “But you—”

Lopez: “Our child will pick whether he wants to be a Yankee or a Red Sock.”

Affleck: “I don’t see— not if he wants to have a father he won’t. [laughter]”

So that’s a scoop. They plan on having kids, and that’s one co-production we can’t wait to see. Until then, for Ben and Jen’s short term plans, they’ll be co-stars once again in “Jersey Girl.” And in just two weeks, on July 30, there is the opening of “Gigli,” where it all began. Whether on-screen or off-screen, Jennifer Lopez and Ben Affleck, we’ll be watching. So, will their chemistry on the set morph into magic at the movies? Or end up mixed into the sale bin at Blockbuster? No doubt their fans will be rooting for Jen and Ben and “Gigli,” when it opens later this month. Because as everyone in Hollywood knows, we all love a happy ending.

[shesamreads]

I did like this book much better this time around. The audiobook helped, I'm sure. It was well narrated, and had a lot of elements that I enjoyed. The open-ended way the story treats the monster ("monster"?) was interesting. I didn't hate it, maybe because I knew it was coming. Having more experience with horror, and King's horror in particular, probably helped, too. Also! Having a kid makes the mundane portion of this story much scarier! Your child is lost in the woods, or over a week. Holy shit. It's not the main focus of the story, obviously, but I hope I never had to go through what Trisha's parents went through.

Possibly still my least favorite King book, but I don't think I'm judging it unfairly anymore.

Trisha making up stories in her head, I feel that. Did I do that in High School?

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"How could anyone have such a cold and scary voice inside them?"

oops, it sounds like we both have anxiety.

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I really like that Anne is actually screaming for the parts where Trish screams.

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Castle Rock reference! I do enjoy how basically all of King's books have a refence to all his other books.

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Oh my god, the audio for this is PERFECT. When Anne did the announcer's voice over Trisha's Walkman, they added a radio effect to it. Perfection, chef's kiss. I love when audiobooks that do shit like this.

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"It was just so VC Andrews."

I can guarantee that I didn't get that reference in high school.

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"handsome yet evil shortstop"

some of the writing is spot on for a 9 year old.

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so this is what I needed the first time I read The Girl Who Loved Tom Gordon. Anne Heche reading the book to me.

also, this is the first mention of the 'creature' in the woods. Damn voices in our heads making EVERYTHING scary.

(I mean. there may also be something ACTUALLY in the woods. but voices in heads don't make that any easier, either.)

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It's a different kind of horror, to me now, when kids are involved. Things have changed, and all I can think about is "what would Teacup do if she was in this situation? What would I do if she was in this situation? I'd lose my mind. The main story is about Trisha and her experience in the woods, but I like that King gives us snippets of how her family is dealing with everything, too.

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Fucking tip call. Fucking hypnotist. I'm so heated that resources are getting pulled away from finding Trisha in the woods. I get that they're worried about a kidnapping, especially since the audience actually know what's going on.

As not-a-hiker, and a Midwesterner, is it terribly unusual that a girl could walk that far, from Maine to New Hampshire? Is there a reason why they didn't branch out farther to looks for Trisha?

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I'm still not convinced that Trisha isn't hallucinating. Like, a forest full of deer hanging in the woods sounds horrifying, it does! It also sounds like something a hungry, dehydrated girl with anxiety and an overactive imagination would see when losing a battle against the elements.

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I am not a Baseball Person. I did not grow up in a Baseball Family. I have only JUST NOW looked up a picture of Tom Gordon.

I can see why Trisha likes him. Apparently he was a good player. And was on both the Cubs and the White Sox, too. Neat!

Here's from the Wiki: "His popularity in Boston at this point led New England-based writer and Red Sox fan Stephen King to reference him as the object of infatuation for the young protagonist of the 1999 novel The Girl Who Loved Tom Gordon."

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Over a week! Goddamn, Trisha. What a BAMF.

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So, either it's a bear and she's hallucinating, and it gets startled away. Or it's a monster using a bear as a vessel, and Trisha is no longer lost, so the God of the Lost no longer has dominion over her.

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"I closed."

"I know, honey. You did a good job."

I bet Trisha needed to hear that.

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Poor girl has been alone in the woods for over a week, I'd be pissed if my nurse was pushing my family out. My goodness.

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"Some days you eat the bear, and some days the bear eats you."

How dare you, Stephen. What an awful thing to quote at the end of this book . 🤣🤣🤣

I'm going back to reread The Girl Who Loved Tom Gordon. I originally read this in high school and HATED it. After talking about it last week, I thiught I'd give it another go.

The audiobook is read by Anne Heche. Her voice works really well for Trisha.

[savemefromanepicoftimewasted]

The Baseball Incident

Jake Lockley X Reader summary: You and Jake get into an argument over who your favorite baseball team is, causing a blowout between you two. can Marc, or Steven help repair the damage? Or will things never go back to the way they once were? a/n:my first fic in almost two years! who would've thought lol thank you @gaylemonshark for helping me with the idea and giving advice on how to write this fic, it was super appreciated! I hope everyone who reads this likes it as much as I loved writing it! feedback is much appreciated! gif is not mine! red italics are Jake!

It was no secret how big a fan of baseball Jake was, he made it abundantly clear the moment you two had met. Marc had made it known he wasn’t into baseball as much as he was into football. Steven refused to talk about sports at all, claiming it made men into nothing but morons.

It was another Saturday in the apartment, Steven had fronted while working and let Jake front the moment he stepped inside. You had been cooking dinner when Jake looked around, brow furrowed for a brief moment before he realized where he was.

“Don’t worry, games already on the television, made sure it was set up before you even got home,”

Jake was more than ecstatic, the Yankees were playing the Red Sox and he couldn’t wait to watch them wipe the floor with the Boston team.

“You’re the best darling, what would I do without you?”

Jake knew it was a rhetorical question, something they’d said to one another on occasion. It mainly depended on what was going on that day.

“Well for starters you’d be a lot more miserable without me,”

Your smirk was downright adorable, teasing Jake to the point he was tempted to kiss it off of your face entirely.

“You might just be right, how about we eat and watch the game?”

Jake knew better than to get too rowdy, considering they had neighbors that were far too nosy for their own good.

You nodded, dishing up two plates of food and bringing them over to the coffee table. Jake grabbed a beer for himself, and a seltzer for you. He still couldn’t understand how you’d be able to drink the stuff, it tasted so nasty, but he bought it anyway cause you loved it.

“From what I’ve heard, Pivetta has been pitching really well lately,”

Jake’s hand stopped mid bite, did you just say a Red Sox player was pitching good? What the hell was going on?

“Babe, what are you talking about?”

You kept your eyes on the screen, happily digging into your dinner and ignoring the man beside you. This felt like a worse betrayal than when Marc found out that Khonshu hadn’t let him go.

“What? I’m just watching the game with you,” 

You risked a glance over to the other man, knowing he wouldn’t be too with what you’d said.

“Nuh uh, what did you just say about their pitcher?”

Of course that would be the one thing he focused on, of course.

“Jake, I just want to enjoy dinner and watch the game with you, can we do that?”

You were ready to plead, this was going to turn into a full argument if Jake had his way. Then again, most times he watched baseball it turned into an argument due to the fact he stayed up till nearly three in the morning.

“No, we’re going to discuss the fact that you’re apparently a disgusting Red Sox fan,” 

Jake’s words sounded harsher than he’d hoped, cutting through the air like the knives he’s used to many times on his victims.

“Jake this isn’t necessary, are we really about to argue over who are favorite baseball teams are? That seems stupid, hell it feels childish!” You didn’t really want to get into all of this, fighting over something so trivial but Jake was too hard headed to hear anything except his own mind. Even if that meant ignoring both Steven, and Marc telling him to relax and just watch the goddamn game.

“Childish? You know as well as I do that they have a feud! That isn’t childish at all!” 

Jake couldn’t lower his voice, anger bubbling up inside of him as he stared you down, waiting to hear what else you were going to possibly say.

“Jesus, Jake this is stupid! Why are we arguing over baseball teams? Yes, I know they’ve had a feud for decades but that doesn’t change who my favorite team is. I grew up watching them!” 

This was an argument you’d had with Marc before, he’d mentioned watching football one night(spoiler it was the superbowl)and he was curious to see who would win. His team wasn’t anywhere near good, but you never made fun of him for it. Hell your team hasn’t won in a while either, but once Marc found out he’d ribbed you over who you’d decided was your favorite.

It didn’t turn into a full on outlash fight, throwing insults until one of you finally took a step back and left the apartment. That seemed to be a recurring theme when it came to Jake, he would start arguments and leave when something too harsh was said, leaving Steven, or Marc to pick up the pieces.

“Why can’t you be more like Steven? At least he knows when to drop a fucking argument, it’s just baseball Jake! It doesn’t mean anything to us personally! Why do you make everything so serious?”

You haven’t felt this angry in so long, not since you’d first met Marc by accident due to some asshole at the bar trying to grab your ass.

“You’re acting like I personally insulted your family! All I’d said was I liked the Red Sox, it’s not the end of the world,”

By the time you’d cooled down for a brief second, you noticed how quiet Jake was. As you slowly looked over at him you couldn’t help but notice the tears swimming in his eyes. 

“Jake, I-” 

The sound of his footsteps cut you off, resonating within the apartment as he stormed out, front door slamming harshly. Photo frames shaking on the walls as you tried to slow your breathing, how could you say something so hurtful? You’d never said anything of the sort to Marc, or Steven before, so why say that to Jake?

“Shit,”

You ran over to your shoes, pulling each one on before grabbing your coat to run outside. Marc had convinced both Steven, and Jake to move back to the states, saying that they needed a fresh start. So running outside in the middle of the night in nothing but your pajamas definitely wasn’t the smartest idea.

“Jake!”

There wasn’t anyone outside, which seemed to be a first for the apartment building. Why had Marc even picked New York to move to in the first place? He could have moved anywhere in the US, and yet he picked the place with some of the most insufferable people.

Reaching for your phone you dialed Jake's number, of course it was actually Marc, and Steven’s, but you knew better than to call their contacts. They’d each put a different ringtone for your contact, depending on who was fronting it helped them know who you needed at that moment.

You stood outside for another twenty minutes, waiting for Jake to come home so you could apologize, tell him you hadn’t meant what you’d said to him.

Sighing softly, you went back up to your apartment, shoulders slumped as you soon realized Jake wouldn’t be coming back for the night. You’d wake up to either Marc, or Steven in the morning.

The bed would feel too empty, too cold without your boys to help cuddle you to sleep for the night. Groaning you grabbed a blanket off the bed, reaching for the pillow that laid on the opposite side. Making the couch a little more comfortable, you laid down pulling the blanket overtop of your body before huffing.

Sleep came easier than you’d expected, drifting off into a dreamless sleep as Jake wandered around the dark streets with no destination in mind.

Jake, I doubt she meant anything she said. You know as well as I do that she doesn’t lash out unless she feels cornered.

Shut up Marc! You know damn well she meant every word she said, she doesn’t want someone who murders people for a living, she wants a timid man who will bend at her will.

Steven had been silent the entire time, afraid to speak and upset Jake more than he already seemed to be. What could he even say to begin with? ‘Oh no! She actually likes that you’re nothing like Marc, or I, in fact she prefers it!’ No, that would get him yelled at by both other men.

C’mon, at least go back to the apartment, I’m sure you’re starving right now anyway.Marc knew deep down that Jake was hiding how upset he actually was, the emotions hidden so far down in his psyche that no one would ever see them.

Without questioning Marc, and blatantly ignoring Steven entirely, Jake started the trek back home. You’d surely be asleep, curled up in the queen size bed with one of your plushies tucked safely under your chin. Maybe it’d be the one Steven got for you, that little stuffed hippo he got before you’d all moved back to the states.

Jake hadn’t wanted to get anything for you at first, at least not until he’d properly introduced himself. Marc knew you’d love Jake anyway, confident that things would go smoothly and you’d accept him no matter what.

Jake opened the door slowly, not wanting to wake you in case you had managed to fall asleep in the hours he was away. Once he slipped off his shoes, and dropped his keys into the bowl beside the door did he notice that you were asleep on the couch, his blanket wrapped tight around your body. Wait, his blanket? Surely he was seeing things, you never stole Jake’s blanket, the man was too possessive of it to ever let it leave his grasp.

Steven and I will give you two some privacy, but if I hear her crying I’m coming out and making sure you stay far away.Jake could only nod, kneeling down so he was face to face with you, your expression soft as you slept soundly.

“I’m so sorry,”

Jake pressed a kiss to your hair, sliding his arms underneath you before standing up slowly before making his way to the bedroom. He wasn’t sure when you woke up, eyes looking around before stopping on his face.

“Jake! I’m so sorry, I didn’t mean what I said,”

You wrapped your arms around his neck, your own tears sliding down your face. How hurt was Jake? Would he tell you the truth or keep everything bottled away?

“I know, why don’t we go to bed and talk about everything in the morning?” Sure, this probably wasn’t the best idea he’d had in a while, but bringing up the argument when he was upset wasn’t the smartest thing to do anyway.

You nodded slowly, letting Jake know you’d heard him loud and clear. He laid you down in the bed gently before stripping down to his briefs. How either Marc, or Steven could sleep next to you with clothes on was something he couldn’t understand.

“I’ll be here in the morning, I promise,” Jake pulled the comforter over the two of you, noticing that you were still clutching his personal blanket with a vengeance.

It took him a moment to notice you were already asleep, hand pressed against his chest as you breathed softly.

Things would be alright in the morning, you’d both discuss what happened, and Jake would let Marc take over so he could go to work. 

Everything would be just fine.

[lec743]

A Goodbye Letter

This is for all the Internet people that I’ve had the pleasure of getting to know for the past couple of months. Or who I have enjoyed and will miss even though they don’t know me all that well.

Also for those of you who don’t know, I go by (newblood40) on some other sights.

@rheawritesforfun I hope you keep enjoying your fanfictions and your art and I wish you luck at your job and Uni. You’re the reason why I got kickstarted on writing TMNT fanfiction to begin with so thanks for that.

@digitl-art-monstr You’ve been a blast to talk with. You’re very encouraging and sweet and I wish you the best of luck with your art and writing.

@fluffytriceratops I wish we could have gotten to know each other more. Life hasn’t been easy for you but you’re amazing for standing your ground and trying to find a way to make life more like life to you. I wish you well.

@thelaundrybitch We didn’t get to know each other all that well either, but I can tell you’re a fun and bubble-y person. I still love that little fanfic that you wrote for me. Thank you for your time.

@theitalianratmonkie I’m going to miss our banters. Me calling you cute. You hissing at me for it. It’ll never not make me smile. Thanks for being such a trooper. I wish you luck on your artistic future. (Edit: Thank you so much for the demon fursona! She’s so cute!)

@animemoonprincess Hey. I’m sorry life has been getting you down more than usual. We don’t know each other all that well, but I’m always rooting for you. Your stories always bring a smile to my face and your AMV’s are banger.

@swagginmun I’m going to miss your streams. You always make your streams feel like a second community. Like going to a gay café instead of a gay bar. Gay cafés should really exist. Thanks for all the laughs and your exuberance and your passion and just for being. Good luck with season 4 with out me.

@ninja-knox-ur-sox-off Hey, man. Keep simping for WishfulVixen’s art for me. I won’t be able to watch any of her streams in the future. I also hope you get plenty of rest. It’s hard getting tired of something that you love. I’ll miss your comics and fanfiction man. Stay sane.

@skellebonez We don’t really talk all that much, but just know that I read your fanfictions religiously and I’ve bookmarked a few for easy access and not just to reblog. Your writings give such life to me and I’m going to miss what new works you’ll do in the future. Good luck, guy.

@bones-of-a-rabbit Hey, we don’t talk all that much, but I appreciate the time I’ve gotten to have with you and everyone else on the discord Space Ace. Your art is so sweet and so expressive and sometimes scary. I wish you luck on your fanfic and on your girlfriend’s fanfic. Thank you for your time and for letting me in the community.

@spaciebabie I will miss your crazy ass. You are the Internet gremlin I hope to be one day. Your art is amazing and your humor is top notch. I wish I could keep seeing more of you. Thank you for being another reason why I smile.

@bamsara Yo. You don’t know me. If you do, you probably remember me from me trying to ask if I would use your Chika picture of Chika taking a screen shot of y/n in Sun’s arms. Anyways, thanks for all that you are. You’re the main reason why I even started writing my first FNAF fanfiction. Thanks for the inspiration and I hope you keep enjoying your art and writing.

@paper-lilypie You’re the second reason why I started writing my first FNAF fanfiction. Your art is so good and I love your writing. If your art and writing could be condensed into a candy they’d be lemon drops. My fav type of candy. Anyways, I’ll miss seeing where you’ll go with your story and art. I wish you well.

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I think that’s everyone... Or well, everyone that I feel like has hit me in some way. There’s even more people who I’m going to miss, but a lot of you have inspired me to be me. To just do what makes me happy or you’ve inspired me to create and to enjoy.

Yah, some of you are probably thinking, but we didn’t even talk all that much. Or, I don’t even know who you are. Or, how did I inspire you, we barely know each other.

And that’s what I think is so scary and amazing about the Internet. Sure, since we’re all looking at a screen, it’s easy to think we don’t affect each other all that much, but we’ve put little pieces of ourselves on here.

I liked all your pieces that you all have shown, and they still make me smile. And once I’m back from my two years over sea, I’m sure you’ll have even more people that think the same.

Thank you. All of you.

[my-everything-ao3]

Random Things About “My Everything” That No One Cares About...But I Do lol

Like most fic writers, I actually had to do a bunch of research for this story to make sense and I put a lot of work into it so I thought id come on and point out minor details in the story that where interesting but you may have missed while being enticed by the plot lol. THIS CONTAINS SPOILERS FOR MY EVERYTHING SO DONT READ IF YOU HAVENT FINISHED IT YET!

ok Im not going in order of the chapters so i’ll probably miss a few things but whatever.

lets start with ‘the baseball scene.’ When peters getting whipped, i made him dissociate and the memory he latches onto is the baseball scene. Its actually a thing in the comics that peter loves the mets and ben would always take him. The quote i used between peter and tony is taken straight from the comics. (the one that’s like “maybe nexy year.” Its actually something said between Peter and Ben since he took him to a game every year and thats what the whole scene is based on.) And since im a boston girl and a red sox fan, i decided to include a real life game between the sox and the mets. I followed the actual weather patterns, as well as the time of day, and the things that actually happened during the game. I wanted it to be as realistic as possible. 

And speaking of weather patterns, all of them are real. Every time i described the weather in my fic, it was actually real. Like go look up the weather in new york on some random day in the story and its real. Like every time it rained, i made sure to include that. Same with the temperatures in the different areas. I was really thorough lol

ok next lets go to the scene between tony and wanda at cho’s funeral. wanda says something to him and tony goes “now you sound like steve” and she goes “i think he got it from someone.” Its actually the quote Peggy tells him in winter soldier. 

okay now lets do random little details. When Peter ‘escapes’ during one of the chapters after ned and mj die, he leaves a little hand print on the wall. In chapter 15, steve and tony walk past it without knowing its actually peter’s. 

When young mason and spencer escape outside, i described the surrounding area as being barren with trees off in the distance. And how they came across a little brook that they skipped stones across. In chap 15, the avengers walk past it, but its very dried up since many years have gone by at that point. 

that clock/countdown in the later chapters (00:00:00) went away after peter was activated because it doesnt MATTER if they rescue him anymore. Hes being controlled now.

All the medical stuff and ingredients in the drug are from criminal minds lol. The characters were always talking about random crap the unsubs drugged victims with and id be like “oh shoot thats perfect for my fic lol”

in the chapter where the bomb goes off, steve has a dream that he has to choose which one of his friends gets to live and everyone else will die. Vision ends up exploding, killing two of his friends. Later on once steve is awake, an explosion causes two of his friends to die (fury and hill), and he has to choose between saving wanda or fury.

tw for rape! okay i needed it to be bucky and nat that killed justin. Justin was a disgusting rapist so he obviously needed to go, but i needed it to be nat and bucky that did it. Nat was kidnapped at a young age and put in the red room where they forcibly sterilized her. Its not hard to imagine they also did sexual things to her too. Same with bucky. He was with hydra for years and in falcon in the winter soldier, there is a scene where zemo strokes buckys face and tells the lady “he’ll do whatever you want” and idk about you but it seemed very sexual to me. And it implied that bucky has been raped before. So writing a story that heavily mentions rape, i really wanted it to be them that dealt with justin.

moving on to the may thing, i literally foreshadowed that ish from the very beginning. Every dream/feeling peter had of it being fake/not real or how it all felt wrong was actually his senses telling him that it was fake. Thats why he was always so on edge during all the flashback scenes. He wasn’t just grieving for four months, his senses were literally driving him insane.

also peter has glowing blue eyes now, dont forget. 

this ones hella random, but i mentioned that mj was going to school in england, and before she was kidnapped, there was a scene with ciaran talking to his scouts about “bringing in ned and mj (the pawns or whatever i called them).” I didnt use their actual names because it was a shocking moment later on, but i mentioned that one of the scouts ciaran was talking to had a british accent. That was meant to show you guys like “oh shit this scout is from/in england...who else do we know thats there right now.....MJ”

theres probs more that im forgetting but its 4am lol so ill add on to this if i remember anything else

[fangirl-imagines]

Dating Donny Donowitz Would Include...

A/N: Quentin Tarantino characters just hit differently I guess. Also there is some slightly NSFW stuff in here.  

I would like to preference this by saying that for some reason I always, always picture Donny with a really cute plus size babe so here are some specific DonnyxPlusSize!Reader headcanons to start us off. 

This man practically worships you

Seriously he loves every inch of your body and thinks you look like a fucking goddess. 

He loves every curve on you and thinks they’re hot as hell.

He loves to grip onto your curves when the two of you are getting frisky

Think you’re too heavy for him to pick up or to sit in his lap? Haha! He is the fucking bear jew, he is definitely strong enough to pick his girl up and would love to prove that to you any chance he gets. 

In fact that's one of the things he likes about his strength is how well you fit into his arms and how easily he can make you feel safe and pick you up. 

Donny is a boobs man and my busty plus size gals he would love to lay his head on your chest when you two fall asleep. 

If you want to lose weight he would totally be there to workout with you and pump you up too. 

Some nights the two of you will dance in the living room. Not for any real occasion, just if a soft song comes on the radio, Donny will pull you up off the couch and pull you against him until the song is over. 

Surprisingly, Donny is actually so gentle with you. Especially in the bedroom. He knows that he sometimes forgets his own strength and his worst fear is hurting you so he tries to keep his touches gentle just in case. 

He calls you his princess a lot in that deep voice and Boston accent and just wow it makes me melt to think about. 

I could definitely see Donny being the type to bring you flowers all of the time, just because they were pretty and reminded him of you and because he knows you’re going to light up when you see them. 

He can’t sleep unless he’s flat on his back so when you two spend the night together he is always pulling you on top of his chest to sleep and keeping his arms wrapped around your waist. 

He is also a heavy sleeper and will not let you go until morning so if you need to get up you have to seriously find a way to maneuver yourself out of his grip. 

Also I just fully believe that this man snores in his sleep but he will deny this fact for life. 

He wants to think he’s not the jealous type but holy cow is he the jealous type?! More like possessive really. 

Never with the other basterds really because he trusts them and knows they would never even think of trying something with you. But other men however…

Other men have to have a death wish or something to try something with the Bear Jew’s girl. 

Like he knows you can take care of yourself and everything but he it still bothers him to the point where he thought you were even a little uncomfortable with the way some guy was being towards you he is there and ready to scare the guy off. 

He’s a smart enough guy and all but he isn't great with emotions. Like when you're upset he goes into panic mode and isn’t sure what to do to make it better. 

If you tell him what you need when you’re upset he will try his best but otherwise he just panics and is trying whatever he can to cheer you up. 

If you are sick he would go full on mother hen. Like his mother was always codeling him when he was sick so that's just how he responds. Plus like I said, he goes into panic mode when somethings wrong with you. 

Do I even need to say that Donny’s favorite dates involve going to Fenway Park with you? The Red Socks, his girl, a beautiful day, some cracker jacks? What more could he ever ask for?

If you don't know how to play baseball he would love to teach you! 

Seriously imagine him standing all close to you and trying to show you how to hold the bat right and swing. 

He might give you your own bat to keep at home for when you're alone, instructing you to swing first and ask questions later.

If you ever REALLY want to get him riled up there are two ways to go about this. Flirting with someone or bad mouthing the Red Sox

He is a huge flirt. It does not matter how long the two of you are together he will flirt with you/hit on you every chance he gets. 

Donny would probably move pretty fast in your relationship too. Like he knows he wants to marry you after a couple of months kind of fast. 

He carries around that damn ring in his pocket for almost a month trying to get the nerve to actually ask you too. 

He loves when you come visit him at the barber shop during the day. 

Like sometimes he forgets his lunch on purpose so you'll bring it to him and he has an excuse to see you during the middle of the day. 

His father and the other guys in the barber shop would probably make fun of him for it too. 

Donny definitely has a physical size kink. Like he loves if you're smaller than him, especially like how he can pick you up easily and how small your hands are in comparison to his.

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Lightyear Film Review

Andy’s favorite space hero gets the backstory that Pixar has been wanting to tell for years. Was it worth the wait and the seemingly never-ending hype train? Maybe.

The film stars Chris Evans as Buzz Lightyear. Also starring in Lightyear is Uzo Aduba as Commander Hawthorne, Peter Sohn as robot cat Sox, Keke Palmer as Izzy Hawthorne, Taika Waititi as Mo Morrison, Dale Soules as Darby Steele, James Brolin as Zurg, and Efren Ramirez as Airman Diaz.

Before I go into the pros and cons, I have to point out an obviously stupid thing people are doing. If your main criticism of the film is that “there’s a lesbian couple” in the movie, thank you for sharing your shitty opinion. Now the public knows how dumb you are and can react accordingly. A film should never get a bad review because there are black or LGBTQ+ characters.

If I were to sum up this review in one sentence, I would call it, “a fine movie with some outstanding moments.” Allow me to elaborate. This film is imperfect, and there are quite a few things about it that I would change. The pacing of the film is lightning quick, like Cars 2 quick. You don’t really get a chance to catch your breath. Pixar films in the past have always had good pacing. The general rushed feeling made the film harder to digest as I watched it.

The film’s reliance on nostalgia is ever-present. Buzz says all the important lines, he has his cool suit, and he fights his old arch-nemesis. Nostalgia can only keep a film interesting for so long. When a character’s only traits outside of nostalgia are that they are a brave good guy, something needs to be reworked.

The hard science fiction elements of the film fail to make Lightyear more fun or interesting. If anything, they make the film more depressing. There’s a moment in the middle of the film that I would consider Lightyear’s Up moment. It’s a typical Pixar sad scene that affects the main character for the rest of the movie. It’s the only moment in the film that I felt grabbed me emotionally. The problem is I know that a good Pixar movie has many moments like that in their films, and they only make the movie better. The rest of the sad/important/life-lesson moments felt like checkmarks on a checklist.

It felt like Pixar was trying to do Pixar, which blew my mind. Pixar isn’t supposed to be copying itself. It should be improving on itself. I mean this is based on the Toy Story franchise, for goodness sake. It should be Toy Story good. There are also a lot of changes to the already established Buzz Lightyear lore that I, as an old person, still remember vividly.

At the risk of dogging on this movie too much, I want to go into the positives of the movie. I do like that Pixar is moving forward with the times and showcasing LGBTQ+ characters. They’re out there in the real world, so they should definitely be in movies. Let alone in movies that take place in the far future where people are hopefully less stupid and shitty.

The character and world design are all really cool looking. The suits are good, the spaceships look sick, and the laser guns are the definition of Chef's Kiss. The side characters are good too. Buzz would be completely lost throughout the movie if they weren’t there. Sox was pretty wonderful and stole all the scenes he was in. Basically every side character was good except for Mo Morrison. Sorry Taika, I love Thor: Ragnarok and you as a person, but that guy should’ve been sent out the airlock.

Lightyear was like an experiment on how to make cool shapes move. This is a movie where things happen, and they just kinda leave you wanting more. I shouldn’t feel meh after watching a Pixar movie. I’m a little torn because I hate getting sucked into hype trains and being let down. Things should’ve been different.

SCORE: 7/10

By Julian Hayden

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