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[littlewalken]

Finally got to see In Search of Darkness and... I hope those of y'all who paid for it feel like you got your money's worth. I'm supposing the budget went to paying for the rights to the film clips. By 1985 I was just disassociating until I heard Jeffrey Combs.

This could have been milked as a series by a cable channel or streaming service and been more interesting. This movie came out this year, I like this movie, yay practical effects, maybe a meme joke or acknowledging the one thing people know the most. Nothing new for the people who would actually be searching this movie out.

I learned more about how certain movies changed things just from reading samples of digital books about the genre :/

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dec 22

Not much. All the short ends on the strip quilt are sewn so now it's time to lay them out before sewing the long ends together. That will definitely be pinned so the seams will line up.

In general I'm only allowing myself to sew for a limited amount of time and no more than for two sessions a day to manage the stress to my sewing muscles. That's leaving me feeling a bit bored otherwise because my brain likes to be in Project Mode not only because of the undiagnosed spectrum disorder but I have been training myself to try and finish, if not completely at least the stage, of one project a time.

Writing, watching media, doing artwork are permissible side projects but only one thing with string or a mess at a time. Altho I just remembered that about 20 years ago I was able to manage sculpt a dolly in the morning then while it spent the next 24 hours drying I would sew or something but it was already cut out doll clothes, not a full creative space taking up thing like long quilt strips.

And I haven't really felt like or been able to sculpt dollies in years. Can't say why. Hopefully I will be able to again.

Decided that fuck all the work I put in to the potato purse, it goes to the consignment store. I took it out again to see if it was the purse or me, it's the purse.

The knit and crochet needle roll thing I made years ago is going too. Again, too much time spent dealing with it dumping its contents or hiding them somewhere. There's a beautiful pair of I'm guessing 100 year old metal knitting needles that if I didn't think to feel and crumple the roll would have been lost in the GTFO pile.

The only wooden ones I have are the Knook hooks and those are a screw hook in the ass of an acrylic buy 'em by the bucket load project away from no longer splintering. Or getting covered with sealant.

I have some fabric with knitting needles on it that will make a much more attractive roll, and I have more experience engineering things that I need.

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dec 21

You kids on my internet lawn know that FREAK OUT is a song by Chic, right?, and it's because they couldn't write a song called 'fuck off' that would get played on the radio. Yowza yowza yowza.

And if you fallowed a bit of the news from actual news sources you also would have learned that the other fuck faces kind of told king fuck face elect to fuck off and decided they'd better pay the soldiers and air traffic controllers because they might need them some day. You see, you can contact your senator and congress person and tell them to do their fucking job or fuck off.

Also they haven't been able to pass a budget on time for nearly 30 years no matter who's in charge and that should be the bigger issue.

But in 'Murica where you can arm bears and people might have their ticky tocky taken away I think paying the armed forces who might be the only ones keeping the genders and alters away is a good idea.

Umkay.

look, a cute puppy sploot

Well, as I do need some sort of cloth container to hold the shopping purchases in the seat of my rollator, but a very wide easy to see inside open one because of course I'm the shoplifter, the biggest thing about it should be do I use patterned fabric or do I applique stuff to it?

And by applique I mean the desire I have to make something that looks like an old timey Baltimore album quilt but has modern things like Thou Hath Strucketh Down Kenny and cat memes.

The black and red roses quilt is progressing to more short ends to short ends with the idea now to just be alternating black and patterned bars. Maybe not exactly what I might have wanted but easy, finished, and showing off the fabrics in a pleasing way.

Honestly kids you just need same sized squares of fabric you like, amusing printed cottons are a good start, and just sew them together until you've reached the desired size. It's suppose to be an enjoyable hobby with the end result being a piece of art to keep you warm.

[littlewalken]

Basic layout for the idea of an outer space patch for my milestone birthday memory album quilt.

The pillars of creation, Hubble telescope, Pluto, VOyager space probe, shuttle Endeavour (the one I got to see IRL), and Perseverance Mars probe. An embroidered comet would go above Perseverance as I also got to see Hale-Bopp, was around for a passing of Hailey's comet, and the Jupiter crash. Might embroider tiny probes around Voyager and one by Pluto with Ultima-Thule.

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dec 20

Maybe the van is cold and we shouldn't start it in econ mode when the weather is bad. And we'll give it some fuel cleaner and if that doesn't change things we'll get the fuel system looked at. At least this time around I have the means to make car repairs, not like some tears where I was paying a month's rent to repair a bucket and... Not any more.

Did treat myself to some plastic crack, got two of the Christmas surprise balls, the tree and the baked goods, a kawai with a bento, coffee, and pugtato chips so I never need to buy another one, and another Hello Kitty. Already have the cereal now I have the smoothie, kind of wanting the waffles, kind of not caring. But those were my gifts to myself this year.

Don't get me started on presents and gift exchanges just give me the shittiest thing so I can be done with it. The other poor kids who were forced to watch other kids open presents they knew they would never ever get in a million years and I will be over there talking to the pet.

Did all the sew a short end of a patterned strip to a short end of a black strip without even realizing it for the black and roses quilt. Last night's middle of the night below the wrist pain said no sewing today. Because of the fall that gave me my TBI the thing from my shoulder to my thumb is wonky and I have issues with pinching, which is also why I crochet more than I knit.

Having random bits and pieces of story ideas, did write a few things in the tornado of thought book, but nothing is taking off yet.

Getting an idea for a mini Baltimore album style quilt but pondering do I want to make fake 19th century imagery, like the space shuttle as a sort of hot air balloon, or modern? An explorer in a balloon named Endeavour looking thru a Hubble telescope looking thing at Pluto with its heart would be cool.

I'm also considering making some cat and dog meme patches.

The thought of an album quilt to mark my landmark birthday has crossed my mind but with the sewing machine curse there's not an easy way to make it happen :/

Just trust me that I shouldn't use one and we'll leave it at that.

I can always iron my appliques on for a wall hanging tho...

[littlewalken]

dec 19

Slept under the patchwork quilt I had been working on forever last night, I'll probably call it the purple quilt because the backing is purple, and it's not as warm as it could be, which is a good thing with my hot flashes.

I've slept under the food and space quilts and while being made of the same fabrics both of those felt a bit stuffy. Altho it could also be I'm using t-shirt sheets right now. Still tho it's enough to make me not want to put any batting int he black and roses one.

I have a batting that I bought for the purple one, full I think, that turned out to not be big enough. Maybe if it fits the roses for the sake of using it. But I've got a couple other things that could use it.

I'm suppose to plan out the size of my quilts before I make them?

Usually it's something like the purple quilt being a 'you've been around long enough let's just finish you' idea or the food quilt suddenly realizing what it wants to be. If I had planned them the space quilt especially would have been a bit bigger and the purple quilt would have bene laid out to wonder if it's too long and not wide enough.

The purple quilt is rather rectangle shaped but it covers a twin mattress nicely and that's what I sleep on.

The black and roses will so far be an estimated 1 1/12 strips wide and as long as it ends up being.

Got some nice money letting the consignment shop handle the Life Ruiner's horse shit she left behind. Almost a BJD amount. And I actually don't know what I want to spend it on at the moment aside from like me.

We're thinking of going back out to the museum with the space shuttle again. The shuttle its self isn't ready but as we opted to see the dinosaurs instead of the other air and space museum there's still stuff to see.

I want to tell kids that some day the entry price to the natural history museum will be in your reach and you won't have to just stand around the entrance looking at the oarfish or what little you can glimpse of the philosoraptor fighting the thumpasaurus. You will have the option of buying something at the gift store instead of just "window shopping".

Buy my t-shirts puny humans! They are thick and have quality printing! Tell your parents you can wear them to school and the school can't say no because they are science! The ones with the blueprints rock! I don't know why they show the Hubble in my belly because it launched with Discovery, but I took the crew up to fix it! Get in my nose cone!

And whenever you see someone else wearing something NASA tell them you'll see them at the office.

Adult naughty situations discussed after the photo

Saw a post on this emotional support hellsite about kinks being attached to childhood traumas and I want to tell you that's not always true for everyone.

Personally speaking the extra consenting adult something for me, an aegosexual who wouldn't personally engage in naughties but has a naughty imagination, is actually related to something that was one of the few consistent and happiness providing no strings attached things in my childhood. And it wasn't until puberty that it started working its way in to those thoughts.

As long as everyone involved is a consenting adult, no one is getting hurt, and you aren't forcing it upon people who don't want to be involved, have some shame not everything has to be public or on the internet, it's the business of those involved.

[littlewalken]

No one made Garak and Bashir gay, they've always been gay, they were gay the moment Andy saw Sid and he went with it.

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dec 18

Well, I decided if the fabric store doesn't have all of the fabric I wanted to replace at the same time that I wasn't going to buy any of it because unless it's like a rare licensed thing no more waiting around to get that one missing piece, looking at you mid 2000s Beatles fabric. And it's not the Beatles prints but something I saw in a novelty fat quarter, which I did buy and use, that I spent years looking for more of, and now fuck me if I even remember half the plans I had for that fabric. If I didn't already purge it.

But in going to 3 craft stores I only bought some Christmas themed fat quarter bundles, these are different than the fabric I was looking to replace and thus are for a different eventual project, so I'm pretty proud of myself.

Also helped two different people with their sewing projects so I got to have very positive human contact :)

I cut all the rose and black strips in half and paired them up to sew short ends together, there are some left over black halves and if that turns out to be enough to add to the other units even better.

No regurts in parting ways with the sewing machine, it's still in the house as one was needed, but now anyone can use it and I don't give any shits. No matter what I did, and I spent plenty of time learning what all the settings do, it would fuck up and I spent more time ripping out seams that were nowhere near tensioned right if the machine wasn't showing it into the bobbin hole or just tearing holes in things.

I also know that it's not me (in the sense that of course it's me because I was raised and still have to deal with the inner voice that everything I do is wrong so I can't pick out one particular thing) because it's the most fucking simple sewing machine and I spent proper time practicing and learning, used good thread, the right needle for the fabric, and have just accepted it's a fucking curse and it ruined every sewing project it touched because I don't think I used it on the attic windows because the rest of it was done by hand and didn't want the big difference in seam allowances.

If the universe is giving you a fucking sign it's your job to realize that. You never see me do any sort or anything with plaster of paris, do you? While I do use a similar casting compound I do not use plaster. It knows why.

Hand sewing, ask the people who paper piece tiny hexagons, really doesn't take up that much time. It's down right stimming and an excuse to play some media you've been wanting to observe.

It's the people who do hexagons by machine you have to watch out for.

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dec 17

I mean look up Roman Stripe, Around the World, and the lovely things the Seminole people make and know a lot of that shit was done by hand. Last winter at the crap shack I got started on a hand sewn Around the World because I was bored and all my fabric was in storage because we were moving.

The plans I have for the roses are like 4-5 of 10" rectangles per row so honestly the more annoying thing will be all the tiny seems. I bought Kona cotton for it and I'm not taking a risk on any sewing machine I touch fucking that up.

There's no one thing that seems to embody the sewing machine curse. I hadn't used one for years. I bought a basic mender so no computer or fancy stitches, just a couple of dials. Our first few sessions together involved test drives and getting to know each other. I used good thread. All it had to do was sew strait seems on cotton fabric.

Unless every god damn sewing machine, from one that served other family members well for years to brand new ones out of the box, was a lemon it has to be a curse and the universe telling me not to use one. So I accept.

If I hadn't bought it on sale/with coupons the fabric for the one project would have cost more than the mender, which I bought on sale.

On the other hand if you are considering a sewing machine to do basic stitches but don't want to pay much I would suggest getting a simple little mending machine. For the five minutes it did work it worked well and did exactly what I need.

Might go out today and consider replacing some of the fabric, the machine fucked up two projects beyond saving, but not in strips or for strips. Again last year I bought some of the Joann's standard Xmas fabric, I had put together a nice set with pine trees, cones, gingerbread houses to go with some squirrel fabric I have, but I tried to make strips without a rotary cutter.

And the strip making did work, get y'all some tailor's chalk, and after months putting them in order I felt ready to try and make a bargello.

Making a bargello is something else the universe does not want me doing and I accept.

Hand made feathered Mariner's Compass with flying geese it is.

Just kidding, altho that would be a good use for the "wizard's castle" scraps.

If I feel the need to sew the squares need quilting, the attic windows need the ribbon put on the seems to hide that they're off alignment ever so slightly (thanks sewing machine), and I have roses and kona strips to cut.

I also have the same Timeless Treasures roses, sans the leaves, along with some extra prints and remnants as they turn up to use on something else.

Meanwhile if anyone comes over IRL I'm having a $1 a patch sale for the big ones, figure something out for the small ones, will trade pre cut patches for labor if you put the roses and kona black together for me.

[littlewalken]

Well, since the sewing machine curse remembered it was still enacted and fucked up both strip quilts I was trying, one of which was a test run anyway, the last one will be done by hand.

It's the Timeless Treasures roses from Joann and black Kona, I'm going to cut the strips in to quarters then put them together by hand alternating one pattern and one black, I'm thinking 5 or 6 block's long. It's the idea I had for the purple and black one. When done I'm just going to throw a backing on it, no batting, since I just want a pretty bed cover and don't need it to keep me warm.

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dec 16

Starting the think that the idea of Garak married to a hologram Dr Bashir while the organic one goes off to other things might be what one of my stories needs. But I think there's a moment in the general scheme of things where Bashir would sneak a copy of the hologram to Garak as there is the sense their paths might otherwise never cross again.

Meanwhile in the doing department, of which I overdid yesterday and while it got the task done it also gave me severe tension headache and I had to take a Pain Away, I cut the strips for a bargello quilt and pinned them to guide my putting them together. Going to try and sew on the machine today but I'm waiting until a bit later in the day so I can devote some of to something else.

Yeah, I'm the one getting up at 2 am because my brain thinks it's really 3 am Daylight Savings and otherwise my sleep is pretty good so I'm going to let it happen when it happens. Half a life ago if I were writing there were a few times I'd be ending at 2am because I didn't yet know how to make useful notes for myself and was afraid I'd lose the idea.

And being that Garashir has brought me some new followers just know that my blog my rules within the TOS, I have my opinions, don't ask me for money, and I will scrap a whole story line if kids on my internet lawn have made me sick of something in it. Just ask a character heavily based on an idea I saw on this emotional support hellsite for a Jeffrey Combs character what happened to a plot complication they used to have.

Someone glued themselves to it while pooping in the pool is what happened.

But on the writing side of things that has turned out probably for the better as I recently revisited the last draft, took notes, reordered a few things, and in a good 250 pages we'll have something again.

Plot bun buns roam free around here. Never said they were quality, just that they roam free.

If you're newish to Garashir buy Andy's memoir and a proper copy of him reading A Stitch in Time. The more sold the more he'll be encouraged to give us more, at least in the memoir department. His Liberace movie is free on the internet.

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I am not a bitch

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What ever side of things you're on for what I've seen of Lower Decks and its canon Garashir it looks like the job they did was 'just right'.

That's his husband, that's it, they're married, we're telling you so you know they're committed to each other but not in a Denobulan way, so don't argue with them.

It's weirder that Garak married a hologram. Does that mean he's a self aware hologram? So artificially intelligent beings like androids and holograms can reach a point where they're granted sentience and the rights of any other adult citizen in the Federation?

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dec 15

Maybe today I'll get to the quilting stuff or something else around here. Ended up having to go out because the fish tank needed something then we decided to get some groceries, came back and in between everything else I tired to art but the paper I chose wasn't up to the task.

It's just the clinical depression that has been a part of my life for so long that I don't know what life is like without it combined with the seasonal depression and once again that the actions of someone else that were completely out of your control have caused consequences for you but perhaps not so much them and again I don't know what life would be like without that happening.

Not in a victim mentality way, in that there was literally nothing I could do about the situation, except of course be to blame for it because of course it was my fault I was born first or some other stupid shit like that, and I'm definitely going to have to be "punished" along with everyone else involved.

Or can my found family find me yet? I'm almost 50 and not sure I have grasped the concept of what a friend is yet.

And the only reason I don't take my feelings out on strangers is somehow I also came to the conclusion that other people, or at least those I'm not related to lol, shouldn't have to feel like this too.

Oh well.

Did have odds and ends of creative thoughts. I know I put some ideas and a banana sticker in my tornado of thought book but off the top of my head I couldn't even tell you what they're about which is why I write them down to get back to them later.

The arting was watercolor pencil on a decent mixed media paper, which in theory should work as there are other watercolor and water soluble graphite works on that paper, and I think I was going too wet on it and need to use a regular brush not a water pen.

Point is I was trying to make art.

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Now, tell the fandom which picture(s) made you fall off your chair and prepare your celestial temple for exploration.

[littlewalken]

~discovers Gashir is canon in Star Trek Lower Decks~

~only has access up to s4e2~

~hint hint~