#i feel like i dont have a grip on things

[spiderlegeyelashes]

bruh my head hurts im so busy lately literally not a single fay where i fart around all day its inhumane really. my screen time is so low now

[rassicas]

i have one video i've been wanting to make about a certain splatoon lore topic so badly for some years now and i wanna do it soon. but every time i think about it i can feel myself going insane. there's so much i need to say. how do i structure this in a way that makes sense. does it even make sense at all. to me? god help me

[luck-of-the-drawings]

so REVENGE, HUH? or justice, if that makes you feel better. it tastes the same when cooked just right. 'I REALLY WANTED A BROTHER.' such a shame to burn a bridge you so desperately wanted to keep, especially when it wasnt even you who started the fire. especially when you hope that not a single fragment of that bridge ever washes ashore.[MAY IT ROT FAR FROM MY SIGHTS] an unfortunate loss! atleast he has his friends.

[stellewriites]

really fucking grinds my gears how my dad knows just how to make me feel fucking guilty for putting up boundaries and saying no

[faaun]

pls i need to provide updates

[collgeruledzebra]

could-be-nothing realization of the day that i came to while listening to 99% Invisible: kane and feels is sound designed like a documentary

[anxiously-sidequesting]

To me personally malistaire is the funniest and most pathetic villain wizard101 has ever had AND I MEAN THAT SINCERELY!!! Between doomed children who have been manipulated, groomed, and isolated into becoming products of their environments, someone scorned who has been punished unfairly by having your biological heart torn out your chest and turning your children and all of reality against you to satiate their own ego, a nonhuman entity so powerful and so clueless they unintentionally threaten the lives of everyone around them, Malistaire FELL DOWN BRO. Like yeah you're bitchless now. You and me both. Get in line. Everyone in this room is bitchless. We are ALL living that ✨💅🏾💃🕺 Single Life™. You are a middle-aged man. Cope

[cerealmonster15]

even tho i hadnt watched rvb in a good while, i didnt even get around to watching zero [from what i understand it was unrelated anyway? mostly? idk lol] it still feels so strange that it's over for real. with like all the shit that came out over the years about the company and stuff it's hard to think back on and revisit too, but also rvb was like my main Thing when i was in college!!! college was my Going Through It stage in life and i dont mean 2 be sappy but rvb really was something that carried me through it yknow??? it was even one of those things that got me thinking about what kinds of things i could do in the working world with digital arts studying 3D art and all that. granted i am glad i didnt pursue working at rt lol 😬 but still!!! it got me writing fanfic on ao3... it got me drawing a lot... i made a lotta online buds and mutuals, some that have come and gone, and others that are just floating around different spaces now. like i cant deny the impact it had on me and my life!!!!! and my fondness for that time. those doofy ass halo guys meant everything 2 me!!!

[sodrippy]

trying to explain to my parents how my childhood affected me while also lying that it wasnt their fault is so. what a waste of fucking time. i should be at the club getting railed instead fuck this shit

[xviruserrorx]

I really hate having to depend on people to get very very important things done

[quirinah]

SLAY THE PRINCESS (chewing on drywall)

[girl-bateman]

Feeling a debilitating sense of dread and despair 🤨 Which probably means nothing😍👍

[widevibratobitch]

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[evvlogetarian]

Work today was kinda awful ? Not bc of the family or anything but it's so stressful trying to one man a 100+ person service...I also have to wake up early tomorrow for con & getting ready but I think I've accepted I won't get a lot of sleep because I still need to eat and get prepped for tomorrow so eh... qwq

[bingobongobonko]

clicking my tongue and having thoughts over and over again. how to be a good successful person if the general idea of success involves so much rise and grind to survive. like im not crazy right. to be successful i have to play an unseen social game with so many people, one i dont wanna participate in nor capable of playing along in. or maybe im lazy and making excuses, or is that what ive been taught to think. why is our only choices exploiting everybody to get to the top, killing yourself to get the career you want (and not guaranteed to you), or joining the military. and before somebody says yea no shit dude, i know; been known, but frustrating nonetheless. i do think im a bit lazy. im not a great person but im a person ig. unsure why morality of it is bugging me right now. just funny how intertwined being a good person and having a good productive work ethic is intertwined. maybe its supposed to be, i dont know. dont feel like it sometimes. im working, but when im not, theres a sick feeling in my head that im a bad person. and i do think that is engrained by the people around us, and maybe im lazy, but i would like it gone. sometimes i just wanna live, thats what my existence is for. morality defined by ur usefulness and work ethics is just offputting. but also im no one special so thats my view of it, there are good people who strive for a lot and thats very lovely. i just dont think thats me

[starphobe]

fh fandom back to wishing death on a fictional teenager for being mentally ill and not learning how to cope with that in a healthy way. what else is new