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evvlogetarian · 1 day ago

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I love my job btw and what I do but it's so weird dealing with like. What my job entails and then going home and my family and friends outside of the industry not understanding the grief I feel

#.personal rambles #Completr 180 from last post but today was rough bc I casketed someone who was. well. a baby #and Im.not the biggest fan of kids but...baby was very loved and i was trying not to cry while actually Doing The Casketing #n ofcourse my family was teasing me cjs i got myself a treat after work n its like.#i was talking 2 my buddy recently who works this industry and we basically talked abt how taxing it is #mentally emotionally physically n how its so hard to speak with ojr loved ones bc theyll never understand. yknow

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evvlogetarian · 1 day ago

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I've accepted I'm an ethical incel atp but we talk about sex a LOT at work ; but also when you have weird subpar sexual experiences, a strong disconnect from your own body 0 rizz and hopeless romanticism and oh yeah a fuckass full-time work schedule and no car how am I supposed to even find the energy to get laid !!!

#.personal rambles #need an app where i can meet other trans men where we beat the shit out of eachother and then leave bc the sex is the fighting #i spit blood and saliva in their face and idk they sock me in the gut or press into my bruises from work n then we never say a word #and then we leave never to see eachother again #also this has nothing to do with being on t ive always had a higher sex drive its just like #also re my alcohol poisoning event from a few months ago ive been getting like.#not flashbacks but ive been recalling how a lot of my sexual escapades were more or less supbar and just #idk man trying to navigate sex and derealisation and dysphoria and also not liking being touched SUCKS #idk my coworkers are like wtf you havent had sex in like 2 years and im like well yeah #most of that time ive been devoted to someone i will never have :/#im hopelessly in love with them or rather i have a very strong fondness for them and wish to date them and spend time w them but uh #>_> that will never happen #and im not built for the ho life because im very self conscious and also ugly and idk being dysphoric uh.#any sort of intimacy to that degree warrants some necessity for trust #and i cant do none of that polyamorous shit sorry like i have friends who are and thats gr8 for them #but i would sooner set myself on fire than ever be a third #should i tag this as nsfw...idk i dont give a fuck anymore. this isnt tr

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evvlogetarian · 2 days ago

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this moment in isidor's house really creeped me out

#.pathologic #This was such a fun moment it rly set the tone...#the poor sick ladies reaching out for help n yet all you can do is run lest you get infected too #its so easy to pass by the npcs but these two...

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evvlogetarian · 3 days ago

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#Honestly props to them and i agree w op #like yes theyre using the videogame but can u imagine all the retakes and involvement of people...#this has more love than any ai slop

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evvlogetarian · 4 days ago

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#.fave #oh my god 10 years...

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evvlogetarian · 11 days ago

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#.fave #.video #.funnies #I THINK ABT THIS VIDEO FROM TIME TO TIME BC THE FIRST TIME I SAW IT I LOST MY SHIT #q

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evvlogetarian · 11 days ago

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#.fave #.video

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evvlogetarian · 12 days ago

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Every day I feel like I’m gonna throw up and nothing matters and it’s over it’s always been over. Sorry

#🃏

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evvlogetarian · 12 days ago

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#.pathologic #q

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evvlogetarian · 12 days ago

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“the Pam to my Jim” “flirt to roast ratio” “fluent in sarcasm” “not political” “hobbies: travel” “debate me: the office or friends” “just here for your dog” “like Chandler and Monica” “girls on lexapro” “helen keller wasn’t real” “looking for a goth mommy” “pineapple does not go on pizza” “i’m a slytherin”

#I nwver understood the hype about friends or the office bro #this reminds me of even more reasons to stay off dating apps

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evvlogetarian · 12 days ago

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auto tune "you the sun in my morning babe!"

#.resident evil #CARLOS APPRECIATION POST THANK U OP

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evvlogetarian · 12 days ago

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I tried Realistic Paint Studio on Dankovsky and Burakh. Overall, the program is cool, I like it. Cons: makes you buy it for drawing gay sketches. However... I'm not really against it :). Speedpaint is right here.