#i feel bad for kpoppies sometimes..

[malleablemindrotting]

sometimes i wonder what it would like to be into kpop.. then i see media of kpop lovers spending 20$ for a photocard and i look at my minimum wage job and the fact that i’m already into anime… and start praying and crying to god saying thank you for not getting me into kpop.

[queenhallebe]

https://www.tumblr.com/yoonminschoice/762647549916151808/the-jikookers-choice-why-im-not-a-jikooker-and?source=share

Bro, I get defending your ship and "debating" about who you believe is the real couple but literally why is Jimin & Jk's bond always accused of being fake. I'm tired of this fanservice term. Can people not believe Jimin & Jk are with other members without thinking they play shit up for the camera? Is this really what the fandom has come to?

Unfortunately anon, it is what the fandom has come to. They do it for reasons only they know of. But the obvious thing here is- this is Jimin and Jungkook we're talking about. And that on it's own is enough for them to be crucified.

It has become a norm to hate on anyone who is a part of BTS, or related to BTS in any way...wether as a fan or a coworker, or a family member. So it doesn't help that Jikook, of the famous BTS, and the two biggest soloists of the group are close. Anyone would hate them, and sometimes it be your own people! As much as Armys like to say you aren't an Army if you hate any of the members, but it's true. Sometimes it be the same Armys hating on these two.

I don't know about you Anon, but from what I've seen since I joined the fandom, jikook's biggest haters aren't the kpoppies, or locals.. whatever people prefer to call them.

6.It's the hyung line stans. I think you would know why I'm even saying this. For some reason, the hyungs don't have as much support as the maknaes, and who gets affected at the end of the day? Jikook. Why? Coz they're Jimin, and Jungkook. “ That is how they keep themselves relevant, atleast my fave doesn't have to resolve to fan service to sell, unlike Pigmin and Payolakook 🤢”

5. VMINers... These two are the soulmates of BTS,as we know. And Jungkook, “ separated” them. He “ played” besties. And this came directly from a girl on TikTok, legit..💀

4. KTHs... These are the V lovers. As the most followed on IG, I observed that a lot of people expected him to be the biggest soloist. And also because of his acting career, his model like figure- I mean he's perfect in all ways. And it is a lot of the subgroup that never ever expected Jimin to thrive alone. As time went on, they threw tantrums that V was being mistreated by Armys, BTS and HYBE. And we all know who got the most hate; Jungkook. The one man who was supposed to take care of V,his boyfriend! Did you know, that 99.9 % of taekookers are V biases? Now we all know 😀 and he's blamed for not supporting Taehyung, for not rebelling against HYBE that treated V unfairly.

3. JJKs...these are well known Y/Ns of the fandom; Jungkook stans. Mostly where the homophobia comes from, within the fandom. If I'm not wrong, there's a famous Wattpad story called motorsport..? And the biggest JK story ...I forgot what they call it. Oh yeah, mutual help!! And this is not a hate for the authors in any way. The JJKs love this type of thing, they j*rk of to these things. They write “ Jungkook's the type of boyfriend to-” . And what happens when they see Jimin jumping on JK's back and inhaling him?? “Jungkook is straight, Jimin is just an attention seeker, he loves queerbaiting so bad!” And if you haven't yet noticed, most JJKs love Jungkook as a soloist. They don't give a sh*t about any other member. BTS would be nothing without Jungkook, and the JK validation goes crazy, so Jimin is using him. Jimin is fake, and whatever he does with JK is only to help himself. Poor Jungkook...

2. I don't even know what to call these ones. But there's a certain subgroup within this fandom that believes it is jungkook's duty to end all the delusions in this fandom. They're the gossipers of the fandom. The drama lovers. They think BTS is Hollywood in some way. If Jimin laughs with Jimin today, they run to shipper accounts to find out what their opinion is. Tomorrow he laughs with Jin, they go to the senseless shippers accounts to hear the tea. They get confused in between, feel bad for the poor members whom apparently jungkook's switches like his underwear. They want Jungkook to have a stand. Now they ask themselves, and irritate others on the media,“ why doesn't Jungkook hug V when he knew Jimin was watching?? Why didn't he laugh at Jhope's joke? Why doesn't he just be decisive and love one member?” All because they decided to entertain the shipping drama...Now Jungkook is the enemy

1. I know a lot of people would disagree with this one. I mean no one wants their faves to be treated unfairly, and there is a softness towards one's own bias. But this is a truth that people deny still, to this day. No one gets hate like Jungkook in this fandom. Not outside, WITHIN the fandom... Yes, the hyung line is overlooked, Jimin is hated by KTHs, and V too is hated. But when one person out there finally decides to talk about Jungkook and the hate he's getting, it's all “ it happens to other members too” . It's suddenly, “ he's famous, he should have known” when sasaengs invade his privacy. “ Jungkook shouldn't get anything this time, let's vote for RM, JK will be happy that his hyung won!”

I absolutely agree that all members get hate, and this isn't a competition where one member's pain should be compared with another. But you also know what's not fair? Refusing to acknowledge that Jungkook is at the centre of almost everything here, centre of the BTS ships, centre of his own group, and the maknae. People refuse to just take their eyes off their bias just once, and see that Jungkook is getting hate from all sides of the fandom. He's always the one to throw under the bus, the one who will be “okay” at the end of the day. And I know it's taking forever to say this one thing, but people have resentment towards Jungkook in this fandom, and some don't even know it. It only took one album for people to expose themselves. And no one hates Jungkook in this fandom like a PJM!

“Look at how Jimin invested in his album, nothing was handed to him. He even sang in Korean, and got to the top! He worked so hard. Why should he be no.2 ? Especially to that Jungkook whom the entire fandom got his back, and scooter also? His songs weren't even all that!”

And in case no one here knows, Jikookers are 99.9% PJMs 😹😹. People can say whatever they want, but PJMs be acting like they graduated from Harvard. Like they're the ones who birthed Jimin. Just like KTHs and VMINers, they think their biases are suffering while everyone's got jungkook's back. They don't see that they have Jungkook as a servant who has to kiss the ground Jimin walks on, kiss his feet, compliment him, just be whipped for him. They see themselves as Jimin Park's twin flame. I don't even have to say anything more...just go and see what people are saying about Are You Sure , and recently if you're a Twitter person, a Jikookers GC was exposed... Go and see what all they say about JK (and V)💀💀

Anyways anon, I don't know if you'll agree with me, but I just pointed out what I see everyday. Not everyone in these subgroups is like that, but majority here is overshadowing the good ones🤷. And these are the people who degrade the relationship that Jimin and Jungkook have. They cannot deny that they're an energy, a force, and they're tight like this 🤞. So what will they say?? Fan service. They cannot unsee the cuddles in AYS, so they'll say it's scripted. They cannot comprehend that Jungkook and Jimin are men, and they play rough, so they'll call Jungkook abusive for the same thing their fragile Mimi just did to Jungkook a few minutes ago.

I mean you can't say you don't know what happens when two famous people, with an insane chemistry, and a large following are also close, can you? ��� And coming to your real ask..( I'm so sorry for straying 😭)... There are people who genuinely believe Jikook are dating other members, and they'll do anything to prove it, even if it means calling jikook a script. And some of these Yoonmin shippers are taekookers who want to keep their accessory Jungkook. Some are PJMs who hate Jungkook coz KTHs hate Jimin.

[banghwa]

u guys r so funny tryna start shit w me and make me feel bad for something as mundane as kpop. i force my city to pardon people’s late utilities bills for a living. i have much more important shit going on than “well YOU forget that sometimes kpoppies are mean to armys!!!! so we have every right to take out our pseudo-righteous moral war on each and every one of them!!!!”

[dearweirdme]

https://www.tumblr.com/dearweirdme/727203098446168064/i-sent-you-an-ask-weeks-ago-about-there-not-being?source=share

it seems like you and anon are still yet to figure out that tae has dug this hold for himself. he's not dating jungkook, he's dating jennie, and he messed up when he cared too much about ppl knowing that he's dating her by throwing her under the bus (when he pretended that the insta follow was accidental—which it was, but not bc she showed up in his recommendations, he was lurking on her account shortly after opening his own—and had armys ganging up on her in the comments) and he tried deflecting the fandom by mentioning jk a lot since he knows "armys would like that" (his own words but about him doing fan service with seokjin).

taehyung monitors army and he knows how popular taekook is in the fandom, and since it won't take much to distract tkkrs/army he started name dropping jungkook often when the taennie rumors were at their peak. he REALLY didn't want ppl to know he's been sleeping with the enemy. but alas.

also idk who decided on that paris date because it did look like a pr stunt but the relationship itself is not fake. imo i think it was either jennie who hired the pap bc she wants ppl to know she's dating V of BTS (who could blame her) or she managed to convince tae to soft launch their relationship but he was hesitant and backtracked after he saw the backlash. relationships are not perfect and no offense but jennie seems like a selfish person and a show-off and i hate that tae likes her but this is none of my business anyway. they've some really similar characteristics though (not necessarily bad things just stuff that i've observed over time after the rumors began) so it makes sense that they would date. i really hope they don't last though cause tae deserves someone with a better personality, someone nicer.

now that tae knows what kind of hole he had dug for himself, and he knows that name-dropping jungkook had blinks, kpoppies, and even jkkrs jumping him and calling him a coward he had to stop. he can still hang out with jungkook (and does!) since it doesn't translate badly to most people (except for insecure shippers) because taekook are friends. them hanging out or spending time together will never be the proof tkkrs want it to be, because there's nothing weird or out of the ordinary about their hang outs, especially when they've been consistently hanging within a friend group aka the wooga squad.

yeah yeah, tkkrs might be right about "the woogas adopted jk" thing or whatever, but who cares? it still means nothing romantic-wise for taekook. even all the name-dropping tae did had no romantic undertones to it but that pissed people off because jk was always singled out and constantly mentioned out of the blue on two minute lives for no clear reason AND it wasn't mutual on jk's end. it's the same situation with jk getting hated on by pjms because he keeps mentioning jimin when jimin seemingly doesn't care. but ofc jimin cares about jk, just like jk cares about tae, but the one-sided-ness of it all is causing issues between their groups of solos and shippers because "taehyung is obsessed with jungkook" but "jungkook is obsessed with jimin" and all the bs their solos spew.

taehyung's case is complicated because he now has blinks watching him and one wrong move from him that could potentially set jennie up will get him dragged to hell by her fans, and he doesn't want that especially now that he's promoting his album.

sometimes i feel like a lot of yall are really dense, and have no intuition at all. because what tae's has been up to this year is obvious as hell, he's actually pretty calculated and it showed especially this year and this is why all the jk mentions left a bad taste in my mouth midst the taennie fiasco, but only tkkrs and some armys (mainly army twitter) were in denial about it because they hate blackpink and their fans. but what we want isn't always what goes on in those celebrities lives and yall need to understand that they KNOW their audience and they know how to control it when things get out of control, and tae is no exception. he tried controlling his audience with the way he thought will work but it backfired on him because not all of his audience are gullible tkkrs, and now he's not trying anymore because it's risky when he's promoting (at least for now).

and i hate that people consider anyone who acknowledges that tae did wrong as an anti. we're not fucking antis for acknowledging things when our faves fuck up. they're humans, they make mistakes without thinking sometimes, taehyung fucked up when he ignored all the rumors about him and jennie and even actively tried to divert attention from it thinking that ALL who cared about the rumors were tkkrs who'll eat up his few jk mentions and move on with their lives. but there were armys, blinks, and kpop stans who didn't fall for this shit bc they don't care about some jk mentions, we noticed his pattern of singling out jk and as non-tkkrs it all clicked into place quick and the conclusion wasn't pretty. this is why i hope after his album promo ends he doesn't mess things up again because it will really cause issues.

Hi anon!

Tae singling out Jk isn't exactly new. A lot of people are looking at this like you are, like it was some masterplan Tae formed to hide his relationshi with Jennie. When actually, Tae and Jk just did what they always do. They just see each other a lot, and that shows. Whether it is through mentions in lives, through meeting, through being physically close in official footage... Jk and Tae just have a special bond. What has been new though, is that we are in a different era. Before chapter2, Tae and Jk's 'singling each other out' was obscured by the other members and by them also interacting wih other members a lot. Now though, both Tae and Jk have hung out with each other obviously more than they have with the other members (especcialy during the first part of the year. So for them mentioning each other like they normally would wasn't on purpose, it just was normal. If they'd hung out with Jin, or Jimin, or Hobi just as much, they would have mentioned them as well. You can also see this in with Jimin who kept seeing Hobi and Yoongi most, those were the members mentioned by him most. It's not something they came up with, it's just what they do. Jk isn't obsessed with Jimin. Although they obviously care about each other a lot, the interactions that are magnified atm (like Jk's live dedicated to Jimin, the recent live with Jk in bed) are all more or less sett of by something. It's just Jk spotting something about Jimin and going along with it in the moment. This is also how they have always been. It's banter and friendship.

Mentioning Jk to divert attention from Jennie is also very non-effevtive and management would have known that and advised him otherwise. It only means much to Tkkrs, and we are very much not the whole of army and Blinks. So only if Tae would've wanted just Tkkrs to not know about him and Jennie that might've been a thing, but that just doesn't make sense in any way. If they wanted to keep Tae and Jennie a secret they wouldn't have walked around Paris like that (which yes was obvious pr). Tae posted Jk on his insta right before that, so whas that also still him trying to divert attention right before soft landing his relationship? Please, they have a whole team behind them who advises them about how to deal with situations like this. No company would let things run wild the way they have unless that was the intention. If they were actually together, there would have been a confirmation straight after Paris to calm things down.

I think the things that are considered 'members doing something wrong' are rarely actually members doing something wrong. Things get magnified to an unreasonable extent. Members mentioning each other is never 'doing something wrong' if you think that in any capacity you don't fully realize the respect and love members have for each other. I see people (tkkrs) say that Jimin is showing that pic of him and Jk together is him not asking for consent from Jk... what flip? Those men (all members) know exactly what they can and cannot do regarding the others.

[cinnabargirl]

Sometimes I feel bad for terves then I remember that kpoppie terf that threatened to doxx me on one of my #coses de la terra joak posts after i made fun of her in the tags of a post that had like 500+ notes where she lost her shit at dick shaped waffles then i go back to feeling nothing but disdain.

[sanstropfremir]

you said before that there is more emphasis for 4th gen to do harder dance routines as their performances whereas for 2nd gen they had to be entertaining. and i know brave girls isnt technically 2nd gen but being one of the older groups at mama, gawd was there such a difference in energy. they were so fun!!! this might just be me being old because there was a recent article that pointed out there were a lot of good dancers from 4th gen but no one with star power (as opposed to the previous gens) and netizens were mad, saying that this is something only 2nd gen listeners will say (lol). like i wanna give these newer groups the benefit of the doubt - they're still relatively new and haven't had much experience performing in front of an audience (esp aespa) but idt they will last long enough that they would be able to develop themselves with great (or interesting enough) stage presence. majority of 3rd gen groups didn't make it even though when they disbanded they were at their peaks.

honestly part of it is me being old too, but also it's not like i haven't spent literal years training in performing arts so i'm allowed to have opinions in this instance.

obviously there is a sort of 'golden oldies' rose coloured glasses that second and third gen fans have, because the groups that have stuck around are the ones that had the staying power, and it hasn't been long enough for the fourth gen groups to get whittled down in the same way. i do agree with you that not all of them are gonna be able to hack it because truly, there isn't as much innovation in presence and power as younger fans think there is. and that article is right, fourth gen is lacking in people with real star power. and i know i've said this a lot before too, but star power absolutely requires training. to be good on variety and good at being an entertainer is a skill, and when these companies are running their idols like overworked racehorses just for dance training, who's got the time to teach them how to be good variety guests? and with the whole 'authentic' content thing, groups can just produce their own shows for youtube or for vlive and never actually have to set foot on a studio set where they actually gotta be funny or they'll get cut out of broadcast. vlives and ig lives and company produced youtube contents are great and really fun, but with the way that kpoppies are built nowadays, there's almost NO stakes with this type of content. idols probably still feel the pressure that they have to be entertaining but there's always gonna be that core base that will gas up anything they do regardless of how actually good it is. it's the whole thing i talked about with skz and kingdom; if you don't let things flop, artists have no way of tangibly improving because they don't know that they're doing anything wrong. and improvment comes from failure.

another take that's probably nuclear grade but i don't care at this point: artist and celebrity are mutually exclusive. if someone is deeply dedicated to being an artist, of any kind, they are not interested in being a celebrity. they may be fine with being a celebrity by proxy, but they are never doing the work in pursuit of the fame, they are doing the work for the sake of the art. take dance, for example. there are very few celebrity or famous dancers that are actually considered top of their fields. or contemporary artists; many of them actively balk social media. most truly good actors are deeply weird people and/or 'ugly' and would never make it into the hollywood sphere. i think people have generally forgotten because of his ubiquity and impact on the industy, but taemin was notorious for being horrible on variety shows. and honestly he still is; he's a weird gremlin who does and says weird shit constantly and has a very clear boundary of what people are allowed to see of his life, which is nothing. there are some idols that are good celebrities and good artists, but it's like one of those triangles where you can only pick two; you have to sacrifice on something. key is an excellent artist and a great variety star; is he as good a dancer as taemin is? no, but that's fine. that's not the type of artist he is, he's not interested in pushing the limits of his dance abilties, he keeps them sharp because they are a tool in which to help him achieve his other goals. but with these fourth gens, fans have inflated ideas of what their idols are capable of, because they're expecting them to be master of all trades, when the actual saying is 'jack of all trades, master of none'.

[lunetual]

♡ HAPPY JOOHEON DAY ♡ i am wishing jooheon a really, really nice day. i imagine the monstas are back to being quite busy, but i hope that jooheon can take some time for himself and have some good old fashioned fun, whether that’s a night out on the town or a quiet evening spent relaxing.

quick cc note: HELLO... we’re in meg’s monsta bday graphics era :) who better to kick us off than THE incomparable and incorrigible JOOHONEY ONE HUNNIT? i admit to feeling a little bad because i know i so rarely post him on this blog, but i want you all to know that he lives, of course, in my heart along with like. the rest of the monstas.

to me, honey is like. okay so. i feel like kpoppies as a whole have gotten REAL used to throwing around the word “ace” and “all-rounder.” and like... sometimes... not that any idols in question are NOT extremely talented and probably excellent in several categories... but ARE they lee jooheon. jooheon to me is like, really a true ace in that he does it all and THEN some, and he does it all WELL. he outsings he outdances he outcomposes and outwrites and of COURSE he outraps. and on THAT subject! i have often said that they don’t make idol rappers like they used to and i stand by it. honey is a rapper who is also an (excellent) idol. there’s a reason that the monstas are so looked up to and well thought of in the industry, and honey is a huge, huge, part of it. and the thing is! he knows he’s good, right? and when he was younger, that came out in this brashness, a chip on his shoulder. but he’s mellowed a lot and i think now it’s more of a confidence where he doesn’t need to SHOW that he’s good because he knows and we all know he’s good. and as he’s said, he’s gained perspective through his time in the industry. i just think he’s grown up so well and into himself in such a beautiful way <- embarrassing and sappy.

i think the main thing that. really stands out to me about jooheon is the honesty in his music, especially his solo work. he lives and breathes music (every moment can be music!!!) and it shows. he can be so raw and direct that it’s like a punch in the gut. i don’t think i can explain what it’s like seeing him perform smoky live except to say that afterwards, you feel like you’ve been wrung out emotionally. i will always be so grateful to him for sharing that and laying his own struggles out bare in order to share and shoulder the burden.

i’m also grateful to him for the way he is the engine of monsta x, the way he is the heart of so much of their music, and i’m grateful for the way that even though he’s been through some really hard times and has found the courage to not only keep on walking, but to keep us by his side and let us have a look into his most vulnerable moments through his music.

i hope that he knows that! so many of us appreciate him and love him and really wish for his continued success and happiness. i for one can’t wait to see what’s still to come for honey, and like. not to be sappy but i’ll keep on walking with him wherever he happens to find himself headed.

[97-liners]

faq

why am i blocked/why can’t i see your posts?

i block empty blogs (less than 3 posts) and inactive blogs on sight. i also block people who use my gifs in their fanfic without permission, people who repost gifs, people who fill up the tags with irrelevant stuff (aka mis-tagging content just for more exposure), people who write noncon/dubcon/eating disorder fic, harry potter fans, white kpoppies who are weird about asians, etc, basically if you don’t act right, you get blocked. i also block army/stay/dreamizens sometimes if their url/bio looks like they’re the type to be insane in my inbox.

i also like to curate my tumblr experience so if you post content that i personally find annoying, i’m blocking you on my main blog so i don’t have to scroll past it :( this includes female seventeen member oc blogs. i won’t block you on my sideblogs though, so you can still interact !

can you unblock me?

depends on if you behave yourself. send me an ask on anon with your url and i’ll see if i feel like unblocking you.

can i repost/translate xyz?

no

even with credit?

nope

what’s wrong with using your gifs in my fanfic?

if you use the gif icon in the post editor to find and insert a gif, op gets a notification. essentially what you’re doing is tagging someone on your fanfic completely unprompted. not everybody wants to see that, and not everybody is okay with their content being used for nsfw content, and some gifmakers are minors. you’re essentially just tagging random blogs on your smut fic without consent, which is an insane thing to do.

why are you so mean?

can i be your friend?

if you’re over 18 and not a weirdo (see first question) then yeah

did you get my ask?

probably, im just really bad at staying on top of my inbox :( for better yield, try asking off anon, because then i’m less likely to completely forget about it

can you reblog my fic?

i don’t read much pwp or short (<3k) fics on tumblr. i really don’t read much fic on tumblr at all anymore, unfortunately. i don’t leave critical feedback on public forums either.

what’s up with all the radishes?

wooza-hyung..!!

[chanstopher]

*head in pillow kicking and screaming* i am not worthy of such praise and love dreamy love jfjsjdjs am I smiling like a big ole potato? Yes so if anyone thinks it's me smiling at a kpoppie boy wrong!! I am smiling because of how soft I am for dreamy (and yall should also as well just saying. Instantly makes life better but what do I know? I'm just skz anon from another dimension lolol)

But noo don't feel bad for essay answers! Im sure it would have been lovely to read, you are worthy of an essay ok? But I pass the vibe check!? I have them cool kid vibes!? Yessss (funny enough I wanna share a kinda funny tmi? so you know that reblog game on here where it says "tell me what kpop idol vibes" so I reblogged it from mutual because gotta inform them of the cool vibes and I kid you not they told me I give of bangchan vibes and when I say I cried dreamy, I sobbed. Idk wanted to share this because you mentioned the vibe check and I have two proud moments now and two, chan lol.) Also you are welcome thy duck lord for the title. If you see this then do know I picture you holding a cute duck in your arms (probably has a cool mohawk and its pink colored) while the godfather theme plays as you walk.

But my week is swell! Am I lazy and have no sleep schedule? Yes but am I just bopping along? Yes I am. This reminds me I need to go on a star wars movie marathon after I finish deadpool2 lol ok now I hope this sends!

asdg so i read this yesterday when i was driving aroudn with Duck and i was giggling like a lunatic over it <3 youre so precious and i love you so much i especially loved the smiling over a kpoppie boy wrong!! part hehe

and omg no i totally get the chris vibe from you youre so sweet and comforting and very easy to talk to, and so supportive its very christopher bang of you <3 plus i adore you and we all know that hes .... ok in my book. fine i guess.

Ducky also wholeheartedly accepts your image of them, was pretty flattered i think lol.

omg i feel like tungle specifically doesnt send me your stuff sometimes like it hates us talking specifically :( because i answer all the ones i get so :< this site just doesnt want us to be happy together.

i think sleep schedules are a myth i can not remember having a good one at any point in my life. ppl who get 8 hours every night are just npcs i think lmao. I havent watched a star wars movie in a HOT minute tbh I should probably fix that too soon. the last star wars thing i actually watched was the mandalorian and well that was a while ago too lol

gonna go answer your other ask in thesvtverse now MWAH!

[vyvesvi]

updated top albums list + recommended tracks from each bc im bored lol

*tentatively* in order

unnatural - wjsn | recommended songs: all of them (especially unnatural, supermoon, and yalla) except for rewind | skips: just rewind bc ballad /// im not sure what style to call this album but they really made such a smash, its crazy that it came out so early in the year and no gg is touching it (album wise). literally the only complaints i have are the obligatory ballad (that they always do bc they can all sing lmfao), the album cover/title (dont love the cover design and i dont love when the album name is the tt name, except in certain circumstances (a full album (especially where the title isnt necessarily from the title track) like montero) or when it's a single album (the inverse of this being rsq's prequel which couldve just been called colorfull since that was the only damn song 😐)). i also was disappointed with the outfits for last dance but that's peripheral.

timeabout, - yukika | recommended songs: insomnia & secret | skips: none /// okay to keep it very real im genuinely scared that she'll never surpass soul lady. i love, and i mean LOVE timeabout, but soul lady was on another plane of existence. like she could've held that album a little bit

the other side of the moon - gwsn | recommended songs: like it hot, starry night, i cant breathe | skips: i sing, depending on my mood /// i dont have much commentary tbh,this is just a very solid mini idk. id like to see a fusion of i cant breathe/tweaks/after the bloom/burn, maybe on their next mini. i love their brighter stuff but maybe a darker concept next (halloween cb pls pls pls)

montero - lil nas x | lowkey too soon for me to pick recommended songs but i'll say montero, scoop, lost in the citadel, sun goes down, and am i dreaming for now. will update! | skips: none /// i cant say that this is this year's sawayama bc sawayama was kinda more like a collection of really strong singles? whereas i feel like these songs shine as an album. i dont even know what to say except that im soooo surprised and impressed because i didnt know that this is the type of music he made???? like he raps but theres a lot of singing? not like belting but definitely not rapping. its kinda...alt ish? in some places? if i had to use ine genre to describe the whole album id probably say alt pop? idk but whatever it is it's definitely working

hide & seek - purple kiss | recommended songs: zombie & so why (tbh all of them) | 2am and zzzz depend on my mood but theyre def not full skips /// no bad song on the album this is crazy....i might rerank since i just listened to it for the first time but as of now idk, its good im just super impressed. ponzona wasnt for me but this cb theyre really doing all the things, lovr tht for them

produced by: [myself] - onlyoneof | recommended songs: coy & night flight | question mark depends on my mood /// im still mad at them (read: 8d) sooooo...idk. i can’t really listen to their music rn. but this mini is still good

play game: holiday - weeekly | recommended songs: check it out, weekend, holiday party | i like memories of summer rain and la luna but it depends on my mood /// very cohesive mini, def their best overall imo! not much to say, but i hope jiyoon gets well soon TTTT

enchant - orbit | recommended songs: gokurakuchouka & never gonna get away but also all of them except flor lunar | skips: flor lunar is nice but boring /// i need kpoppies to get into it im tired of being here alone cmon y’all

set - woodz | recommended songs: feel like | skips: none /// i prefer his bright tracks but this mini was solid as usual. where is the full album tho seungyoun hmmm????

guess who - itzy | recommended songs: sorry not sorry, tennis (0:0), kidding me | skips: in the morning, occasionally wild wild west /// i remember being very surprised that i liked this album, especially given that i dont like mitm. not anything groundbreaking but still solid. i think the naming of tennis (0:0) was really clever

intersection: trace - bae173 | recommended songs: green light, loved you | skips: none (sometimes the intro tho) /// honestly their music is really good??? mbk just hasn’t promoted them well, i feel like they make it a little hard to stan...i really appreciate that they’re not doing the stereotypical hard bg concept thing

lilac - iu | recommended songs: coin, flu, ah puh, troll | skips: honestly id have to relisten, some of the songs a lil boring but idr them at the moment

hello future - nct dream | recommended songs: hello future, life is still going on | skips: idr tbh, probably hot sauce though //// was very surprised that i liked this album, but the outro of hello future really got me after a few listens so i had to check it out. very decent!

killa - mirae | recommended songs: killa, sweet dreams, 1 thing | skips: none really but all of the bsides are a little mid tbh /// i will be 1000% honest in saying that the three reasons this allbum made this list are 1.) killa (the tt), 2.) none of the songs are bad, 3.) lien’s vocals. something about lien....he really just sells whatever song he’s on. his belting >>>>>>>>>>>. he makes their music very enjoyable to listen to, next in that department would be junhyuk. based on their most recent cb, siyoung and khael also contribute a lot as well. shame that the rest of the cb album kinda does nothing for me idk. random but i would really like a gg to cover higher and/or killa

& - loona | recommended songs: ur, ptt | skips: a different night, dance on my own /// these r my girls but this is not their best. ur is wonderful though, and ptt is addicting somehow. wow and be honest are fine but really not their best. i like wow’s choreo tho! 

albums im excited to listen to (no particular order):

last year was weird volume 3, tkay maidza (i’ve already listened to a bunch of it but i need to sit and just listen to the whole thing)

troubled paradise, slayyter (same as above, but i didn’t even realize it came out this year, i thought it was old for some reason lol)

jo1, challenger (every song of theirs i hear i like pretty much so i need to take an organized look at them lmfao)

jo1, stranger (same as above)

only lovers left, woodz (duhhh its woodz. not out yet but im excited! i do prefer his brighter concepts and this def isn’t that. he says its not gonna be like what he’s done before but the title and concept photo that’s out rn is giving lift up)

the book of us: negentropy - chaos swallowed up in love, day6 (the title kinda bored me but we’ll see. also sungjin’s gone so.....................we’ll see.)

ancient dreams in a modern land, marina (i barely got past venus fly trap because its soooooo good. i’ve listened to a little after that but the songs i heard didn’t really compare. i have to give it a shot tho)

the chaos chapter: fight or escape, txt (i liked the blue hour mini so i need to give them a chance i suppose)

333, tinashe (i just feel like i should idk)

honorable mentions (no particular order):

blue hour, txt - discovered this year, came out last year. retroactively makes the 2020 albums list bc whew the market research that went into that thing paid off

hula hoop/ starseed ~kakusei~, loona (why tf does the album not have a name) - duhhh loona + synths = a smash. in fact like i said when it dropped i dont even wanna call them loona anymore. this is kongetsu no shoujo!!! this isn’t on my top albums list because im counting as two songs and my limit is 3. i might add it anyways lmfao. we’ll see

ugly beauty, jolin tsai - discovered this year, came out in 2018. i just really like jolin tsai idk. i had only heard that album w play and i’m not yours, both are iconic but the production quality sounds...low? like its older but ik they’re not *that* old. either way, ugly beauty does everything i wanted it to - dramatic, vocals, rapping, boa vibes...jolin tsai is a queen what can i say

also, there are of course a ton of singles that i love as well, this is albums only though lmfao. i have no idea if i could even attempt to organize the singles lol

[k-rising]

This is so cute can I pls get a kpoppy song rec😌

Sag rising

Virgo sun

Scorpio moon

hello, cutie!

I think you like to have fun a lot, but you can also be very responsible. having a good reputation and working hard are your priorities. you're a perfectionist too. you like helping others a lot, but be careful with giving too much of yourself to others. it's okay to be selfish sometimes, tho. try to limit yourself more and don't feel bad for doing it. you're human too and you also matter 💖

my song recommendation is:

send me your big 3 and I'll recommend you a song

[thotantics]

⚤   pairing — reader + Park Chanyeol

✎ word count — 6,502

✦ genre — smut, pwp

✗ warnings  — graphic description of sex, male masturbation (brief), oral sex (male receiving), fingering, unsafe sex (always use protection sluts!!), dirty talk

[requested] Chanyeol A3 × B14 Please! 😀 A3 = “first time” B14 = “hands focus/hand holding”

[A/N] this got way out of hand. i meant for this to be a drabble but here we are, 6.5k words later. hopefully this came out well for u guys as much as i, personally think that it did. we love a soft, slightly awkward, first time fuck w every kpoppies favorite boyfriend yeolie

Your heart is pounding. It’s your third date with Chanyeol and he’s invited you back to his place. He ordered way too much delivery food, unsure what you were in the mood for, and was currently leaning forward to slide a disc into the console propped up on the entertainment center.

The muscles in his back were almost as distracting as the view of his ears from the back. You were trying to stifle a smile, fondness making your heart pick up double time in your chest but the sight of the muscles in his shoulders bunching and his spine curving as he bends down, blowing gently on the disc after he pulls it out of the case and then puts it into the console, is making heat spread from your cheeks.

Sometimes you wonder if he has any idea how attractive he is. No sooner than the thought crossed your mind, did Chanyeol turn back and give you a smile. It’s devastatingly handsome and speaks volumes in that moment - he knows you were checking him out.

There’s a sparkle in his eyes when he straightens back up and holds out his hand to you. For half a second you blanche, unsure what it is he wants and out of instinct, you reach out to him, too. His fingers wrap around your hand, encapsulating them and making you feel incredibly small, even more so when laughter erupts from him.

“Ah,” He cocks his head to the side, smiling wide and fondly down at you, “I was hoping you’d hand me the controller, but this is really nice, too.”

You blush 10 different shades of scarlet, eyes trailing in a snap away from his amused face to the controller sitting on your side of the coffee table, easily within reach. You snatch your hand from Chanyeol’s, muttering something even you aren’t sure had any basis in actual human speech, and offer him the controller without meeting his gaze.

“I thought we’d start with something really cute and fun,” He says, turning the movie on and then placing the controller back on the coffee table. “Have you seen Zootopia?”

“I have!” You smile, thankful for the change in subject and that he wasn’t harping on your little blunder.

“I’ll go get some snacks. What do you wanna drink?” He lists off a few different things and you tell him water is fine, and he rushes out of the room only to hurry back in just as the opening scene of the movie begins to play.

He hands you a bag of chips and a bottle of water and plops down heavily on the couch to your left, long limbs stretching out comfortably. He props a foot up on the coffee table and his right arm ends up tucked along the back of the couch directly behind you. He’s been cautious not to touch you too much since he invited you into his home, which you had been equally thankful for and frustrated by.

This thing between you is new and it feels delicate, but three dates into it your body is practically screaming for physical affection from the tall, handsome man who’d been courting you like a real gentleman. Which is embarrassingly apparent, you muse, after your hand holding incident. You swallow your shame, opening the chips and popping a couple into your mouth just for something else to focus on besides the faint weight of his arm just an inch or so away from your shoulders.

Luckily, you genuinely like the movie he put on. It’s cute and easy to watch, and before long you feel a lot less tense. Chanyeol can tell. He can see your shoulders visibly relax the more you laugh softly, eyes on the screen. He lets his right arm slip more fully around you and can feel you tense back up a little at the touch, so he pulls it away entirely, not wanting to come on too strong too fast.

After your first date, he’d kissed your cheek and hugged you delicately, promising to text you the following day (which he did). The second date ended with a kiss on the lips. It was magnetic, a spark passing between you as his lips smoothed along your own for just a few seconds. There wasn’t any tongue, but the kiss had definitely lingered and felt intense and easy, somehow.

It’s that kiss that’s at the forefront of both of your mind’s at various points of the film, which neither of you are paying much attention to. Chanyeol wants to kiss you again, as soon as possible, but he doesn’t want you to feel pressured or uncomfortable in his house alone with him for the first time, so he waits. He buries that desire down, stuffing a hand full of chips into his mouth and settling down low in his seat. He definitely doesn’t realize that you’re sitting next to him positively buzzing with anxiety because you want the exact same thing so bad.

The first movie comes to an end and you excuse yourself for a bathroom break while he readies the next one. You aren’t sure which Avenger’s flick it is he puts on, but when you come back he’s taken up so much of the couch you feel your stomach tighten into knots and you no longer care.

His legs spread, one knee against the side of the couch and the other knee is way over where you had been sitting. He has both arms draped over the back of the couch, eyes glued to the screen, casual as can be. You steel yourself and sit down next to him.

Being so near to him is new. It’s happened briefly in the last two times you’ve seen him but not so intimately - not tight and snug together on his couch, his knee brushing yours and his hand slipping nonchalantly down from the back of the couch so it was slug around your shoulders the moment you sit down next to him.

Chanyeol points at the tv, and he makes small talk about the movie as it starts up, asking if you’re caught up and which of the movies you’ve seen in the marvel universe. He’s so casual about the whole thing, it eases your mind a ton but you can’t help but to be hyper aware of how closely he has you pressed into his side. That arm that’s slung over your shoulder is heavy and you lean without realizing it until you’re properly snuggled up into his side about a half hour into the film.

Something about him calms your nerves, but at the same time you want him so badly that it’s hard not to feel anxious for what else was to come. Chanyeol was open about his interest in you. He’d complimented you endlessly each time you’d seen him and dropped not-so-subtle hints about tonight. Namely the texts from the day before confirming your plans. Things about having you all to himself finally, how he hoped to spend all night kissing you all over, how he couldn’t stop thinking about your lips..

It made your stomach tight and your throat dry.

You realize half way into the movie that you have absolutely no idea what’s going on. Chanyeol is invested, eyes glued to the screen but he occasionally looks your way to ask if you want anything, or just to check up on you and offer you a cute smile. Your heart is doing flips in your chest when he pulls his arm off of your shoulder and he sits upright on the couch, knee bumping your own as he settles and you do, too. You’re sitting side by side, still tightly wedged together on the center of the sofa, but this time he reaches down and grabs your hand.

It’s such a natural movement for him and you immediately clam up. Your palm is sweaty as he laces your fingers easily with his own, eyes on the screen, a faint smile playing on his lips. You cant focus on the movie at all, eyes glancing down as discreetly as you can manage, staring at how his big hand makes yours look so small and dainty. He’s warm and comfortable in your grip, fingers adjusting occasionally but staying tightly threaded with your own, thumb rubbing softly over the back of your hand. He doesn’t seem to mind the cold sweat on your palm, his thumb smoothing over the back of your knuckles sweetly. 

Chanyeol notices you staring at your intertwined hands pretty quickly but he doesn’t let on for a while. He bides his time, waiting to see if you’ll loosen up and eventually you do, your thumb mimicking the way he strokes against the back of your hand. After a while, he feels like neither of you care about the movie anymore and it’s time to make his move.

You aren’t expecting it at all. You know he caught you staring at his hand in yours by the twinkle in his eyes when he presses the back of your hand, still linked tightly with his own, against his lips. You can feel him smirking before he pulls away, a smile tugging at the corner of his lips.

No words pass between you but the moment stretches on for eternity as you lock eyes and he loosens his grip on your hand. It’s fluid, the way he moves in closer to you and fills the gap that’s between you. His right arm goes back around your shoulders to hold you to him, his left hand reaching out to settle on the top of your thigh as he turns more fully towards you. He hesitates for only a second, eyes flitting from your lips and back to your eyes before he smiles and presses forward.

This kiss feels different than the last right away. Chanyeol doesn’t feel the need to be fleeting with this kiss, taking his time to fit your lips together in such a perfect way that your heart thunders so loud in your chest you’re sure he can hear it.

He’s so tender with his lips but his kiss is still insistent. He wants more and it hits you like a ton of bricks when he slips his left hand from your thigh to caress your cheek, his head ducked to meet your lips to make up for the gap in your height. It’s amazing how he can make you feel so small and so powerful at the same time. There’s no way a man like him would bother kissing you this way if he didn’t want you as much as you wanted him. It feels victorious and the nerves you’d been feeling all evening fade away with every smooth movement of his lips pressing to yours.

Chanyeol’s tasting you as cautiously as he can but he’s struggling to contain himself. You feel so good pressed up against him, your lips plump and silky, and he moans softly into your mouth when he feels your tongue respond to him.

The sound ripples out of him, low and deep, you feel it in your chest as he presses you back, your hand catching yourself behind you on the couch so you don’t topple over and that’s when he pulls back. His eyes are bleary as he blinks at you a couple of times, brows knitted together as he takes a coupe of deep, steadying breaths. He doesn’t pull away from you, though, and you can feel his heart beating in his chest, pressed up against yours.

“Is this ok?” He asks you under his breath. You nod, unable to find your voice right away. The deep timber of his voice is giving you goosebumps, you can feel it vibrating in your chest when he speaks even in a whisper while he’s so close like this. “I don’t want to pressure you. If you wanna wait, we can.”

You clear your throat softly, shaking your head as you peer back up at him, your fingers curling into the material of his shirt at his side, “I don’t wanna wait.”

His smile is spreads clean across his face, bright and heart warming, “Oh yeah?” He tucks your hair behind your ear, “Well, I still wanna go at your pace, ok? I want you to enjoy yourself.”

“Then you should probably keep kissing me.” You tease, biting at your lower lip when he chuckles softly, but Chanyeol dips his head back down to meet your lips with his own. This time, he cups your face in both hands, dwarfing you with the size of his palms tenderly pressed to your cheeks, his mouth smiling softly against yours before he parts your lips with the gentle glide of his tongue.

The way you’re clinging to his shirt is making his cock pulse to life in his jeans. The tightness of your fingers clutching the material at his sides, keeping him close as your breathing begins to pick up. You pant against his mouth for a moment before he kisses a path down your neck, humming against your skin, giving you goosebumps.

“Can we lay down?” He mumbles against your neck in between open mouthed kisses. “I promise I’ll keep my hands to myself.” He adds, pulling back with a mischievous smile on his lips that you can’t help but to lean forward and kiss chastely.

“I definitely don’t want you to keep your hands to yourself.” You admit, pushing on his shoulders until he goes to lean back on the couch. The urge to lay on top of him had been gnawing away at you and you weren’t going to let the opportunity pass you by. Maybe he had meant for you to lay side by side and watch another movie? Maybe he wanted to be on top? Regardless, this is what you needed, so you didn’t hesitate to push him flat on his back and fit yourself easily on top of him.

He’s sturdy and broad, comfortable to rest on top of without worrying about squashing him. He’s strong enough, you can feel it, he can handle your full weight easily. Besides, you don’t have much of a choice in the matter as he crushes his arms around you, pulling you fully on top of him, burying your face in his chest for a moment as he hugs you tight.

You squirm in his grasp, repositioning yourself with a soft grunt as he chuckles, clambering a little higher up his torso, locking one leg up around his waist and planting your knee towards the back of the couch for leverage. As you make your way up, you kiss along his chest and then up his neck. Chanyeol hums in appreciation, enjoying the feel of your lips on his skin like this for the first time, his hands smoothing up and down your back, slipping just barely under the hem of your shirt to feel the bare skin of your lower back.

Instead of making your way to his lips like he assumed you were heading, your lips go up the side of his head, kissing his temple, extending your spine to stretch up the whole length of him, his cock throbbing under you. Your lips meet his earlobe, a tentative kiss there first, waiting for his reaction. He chuckles again, and you feel heat radiating from his cheeks and his ear against your lips as he blushes and you kiss him again, moving your lips just under his ear onto his neck, sucking gently.

“I love your ears.” You tell him in a mumble against his throat, feeling him swallow nervously, but he doesn’t respond. “You’re so cute.” You tell him, “Every bit of you.”

“Ah, I’m more than just cute.” He tells you with a dark chuckle and the way his cock is twitching under you is a telltale indicator of just how true that statement is.

You reach up with both hands, your head lifted back to watch as your fingers latch onto his ears, rubbing and tugging gently at them. His expression doesn’t change, relaxed and mildly amused as he shuts his eyes and smiles fondly at your actions.

“You’ll always be cute to me, with these.” You admit to him with a giggle, “I can’t help it. Every time I see your cute ears and your pretty eyes, I want to die, you’re just so-”

“Aish, you’re giving me a complex. I’m a man, you know?” He’s mostly teasing, you know, but there’s the unmistakable ridge of his erection between you that reminds you exactly which part of his statement is true.

“Mm, I know.” You bite your lip, shifting your left leg down, intentionally grinding along the length of him with your core through all the layers of clothing the both of you still wore. Feeling bold, you worry your lower lip for a moment before releasing it with a devilish smirk and ask him, “Can I see?”

Chanyeol arches a brow. “Wh-” he hesitates, eyes narrowing briefly in thought before he gets lost watching as you lick your lips, then he nods, mirroring your act and licking his own lips, voice a breath above a whisper as he says, “Yeah.”

You sit back, settling in the gap between his knees while Chanyeol, still laying flat under you, works at the button and zipper of his jeans. Your stomach is tightening from excitement, eyes focused on watching as his long, thick fingers plunge into the front of his boxers and he tugs, revealing his impressive erection.

It’s thick and swollen, throbbing even fuller now with your eyes on it. Chanyeol grips the base, the tip leaking and turning a darker shade of pink. He strokes it a couple of times while you admire it, leaning forward, hands perched on his spread thighs. Your fingers grip onto the thickness of his outer thigh, mouth practically watering at the sight of him like this.

“Do you just wanna watch?” Chanyeol asks, the deep timber of his voice making you startle slightly. He strokes himself more firmly, the slick sounds of each stroke amplified by the debauched look he was giving you. “Hm? Is this how you want to play, baby?”

You flush deeply at the nickname. He’s never called you anything other than your name and the pet name sounds so good in his deep baritone, husky with desire as he flexes his hips, pumping his hand around his cock, smirking at you while you watch.

Swallowing in the hopes to lubricate your dry throat, you manage to tell him in a quiet voice, “That’s not really fair...when’s it my turn?”

“Oh?” He laughs, stopping his movements all together, bringing a finger, slick at the edge with precum, to his lips and sucks it clean quickly before he tells you, “Nothing’s stopping you.”

You quirk a brow at him, teeth gripping at your lower lip even as you reach forward and wrap your fingers around his rigid cock. Though he’d invited you to do so, the contact is sudden and he jerks under you, thighs twitching, tailbone snapping back into the couch, a breath hitching in his throat. He’s so thick your fingers can’t meet around the girth of him, the vein running along the underside is pulsing with the racing beat of his heart, and you squeeze him harder.

“Fuck,” Chanyeol’s voice comes our hoarse, desperate as he swallows past a lump forming in his throat, eyes fluttering but he tries to keep them open because he wants to watch you explore him. When you start to jerk him off, it’s a slow rhythm that builds gently, focusing on the softness of his tip against your palm, and he rasps, “Yeah, that’s it, baby..”

Yet you stop as quickly as you start, offering him a quick smile when he frowns at you, muttering in response, “Too dry.” You double over, scooting down the couch some so you can hover over his dick.

Chanyeol can’t take his eyes off of your face. Even with your tongue snaking out to lick gingerly at the head of his cock, you’re blushing and smiling, the corners of your lips curving beautifully, a shaky breath breezing across his nuts and making him groan softly as you gain confidence, licking farther down his shaft, lubricating him with saliva.

“Your mouth looks so pretty on me, baby.” He grunts, watching with intense fascination as your lips part and you take the head of him in to rest comfortably on the flat of your tongue. You hum in response to his praise, his eyes fluttering briefly before you braved a glance up, meeting his stare head on.

Then you pull back, lips on the head of his cock, and spit. Maybe you’re a little shy about holding hands and snuggling up on the couch but a hand job just really isn’t worth it unless it’s nice and wet. You quickly confirm that Chanyeol shares this belief as you stroke the wetness up and down his length, making sure to coat every inch of him, your tongue laving a thick trail of saliva at his frenulum.

He hisses out a cuss, his head cocking back as his hips jerk up into your touch, a breathless laugh escaping him before he groans, “Fuck, if you keep it up you’ll make me cum.”

“Good.” You smile up at him as his head lifts and his eyes meet yours once again.

“Now this is definitely not fair.” He protests weakly, chest heaving as you continue to stroke him firmly in your grasp.

“How can we make it even?” You muse, tilting your head innocently at him, “Any ideas?”

“Oh, baby, I have plenty of ideas for you.” He promises. “But I already told you, I’m going at your pace. So you tell me what you have in mind to even the playing field here a little more.” He sits up, your hand relentless as you jerk him off, pushing him closer to the brink of an orgasm he’s nowhere near ready to have just yet. He grasps your hand, slowing your strokes as his mouth reaches yours and he murmurs against your lips, “Tell me how you want it, baby.”

You don’t answer him right away, instead focusing on his lips and his tongue. He kisses you the way you imagine that he would fuck you - with deep, overpowering thrusts of his tongue, occupying your every sense, no teasing or shyness, just raw and intense passion. Chanyeol kisses you like he wants to consume you entirely and you just lean into it, head tilted back, hand still steadily stroking his thick, rigid cock.

When he releases you, you feel drunk on him, eyes locked, his lips kiss bruised and parted as he breathes in heavy puffs of air across your slick mouth.

“Actually,” You tell him, “I really like this.”

He laughs, “Fuck. Me, too. But I can’t let you make me feel good without me returning the favor. Can I touch you, too?” He studies your face as he asks this, heart blooming in his chest when he sees the way you blush at the suggestion, and he can’t help but to push it further by tucking your hair out of your face and saying, “I bet you’re wet for me, hm? I bet you’d cum really fast all over my fingers.” Then he mirrors your previous request, “Can I see?”

There’s no room for shyness when he’s looking at you like that. His plump lower lip pouting and his eyes tender and sweet. So you finally let him go long enough to stand up in front of the couch, and Chanyeol swings his legs down so he’s seated on the edge of the couch in front of you, his cock bobbing in his lap excitedly as you reach to undo your jeans.

Stepping out of your clothes for him was something you’d been thinking a lot about but now that it’s finally happening, and he’s looking at you like he’s going to eat you alive, you don’t feel nearly as nervous as you’d convinced yourself you would be. It feels exactly like what you need to do, as you step out of your panties and kick them somewhere under the coffee table, Chanyeol’s big hands settling on your hips as he guides you to him.

He presses a kiss to your stomach, tender at first but you feel his tongue snaking out to taste your skin, fingers kneading into your waist. He trails his mouth white hot down your stomach until he’s at the top of your mound, then one hand smooths over the top of your thigh and presses between your legs, spreading them as he locks his eyes with you

“Is this ok?” He whispers up to you, and when you merely nod, he slips his thumb to gently caress your labia, “Sure?”

“Yeah.” You breathe. “Don’t stop.”

You shut your eyes, focusing on his hands - one clutching tightly at your hip, making you feel stable and grounded, the other caressing your inner thigh, grazing your sex with delicate fingers and making your head spin. Then you feel his mouth on the skin of your stomach again. Light, feathery kisses leaving goosebumps in their wake, left there to soothe you and ease your mind. His lips warm, his tongue wet and cooling past the searing blaze of each kiss he graces your skin with.

“Come here.” He mumbles, tugging you into his lap, straddling him so your legs are splayed open wide across his spread thighs, his cock nestled between you as you hunker down and get comfortable, meeting his gaze with one that matches his hunger. You meet in the middle for a kiss that takes your breath away. Or maybe it’s his hand returning between your legs, your sex splayed open due to your wide stance straddling his lap, clit exposed and tingling with need, but he ghosts past it with the pads of his fingers, rubbing your labia in a soothing massage first.

You’re thankful that he clearly knows what he’s doing. Too many times had you been with a man who dove head first into you without preparation or warning, so Chanyeol’s firm, encouraging touches are a welcome change that relaxes you mentally and physically.

Before long, the faint touch of his hand, so close but so far from where you want him to be, is making you ache and whimper into his mouth. He detaches from your lips with a wet pop, a string of saliva connecting your mouths still. His eyes glance down before he dips farther past your labia, spreading your inner lips and pressing the pad of his two middle fingers against where you’re slick with arousal.

“Fuck, you’re so wet.” He groans. He teases at your entrance, circling your hole without dipping inside, dragging your wetness and smearing it across your clit, smiling to you when you jerk and whimper above him. Your left hand grips onto his shirt at his shoulder, bunching the material desperately while you fumble your right hand between you until you’re gripping his cock again.

True to his word, Chanyeol’s expert fingers are sending you flying head first into a leg shaking orgasm within record time. Your body bows forward, head on his shoulder, teeth biting at his skin through his shirt when he rubs more firmly at your clit. He’s paying close attention to your responses and does it at just the right moment, slipping his middle finger into your clenching hole smoothly so that you easily fall over the edge of the abyss.

“Ch-Chan!” You gasp and fall silent, mouth hanging open as your body spasms on top of him, squeezing his cock in your fist and threading your opposite fingers into his hair desperately while the intense waves of a much needed orgasm washes over you. It feels as if this has been building in your lower belly since the moment he first asked you out, and the relief is so enormous you feel like crying.

Your body reacts to the orgasm of it’s own accord, hips working into his hand, rolling languid at first but more insistent as it builds, and at the peak of your orgasm, you move to guide his cock to your entrance.

Chanyeol groans, removing his hand to steady your hips, keeping you poised above him, teasing your cunt with the tip of his dick, pupils blown out as he makes eye contact with you. “I have condoms..” He tells you under his breath.

“It’s ok.” You insist, “I can’t wait...wanna feel you.”

At this, he’s quick to flip you over so you’re under him now on the couch, limbs stretching for half a second before he’s fitting himself between your thighs, cock in hand, staring you down. His mouth is gaping and he’s breathing ragged, and it’s then that you realize you’re both still mostly dressed, especially Chanyeol. He leans into you but finds the constriction of his jeans at his thighs is going to be an issue, so he pulls back with a grunt and shoves them down his legs, kicking them off in a hurry.

“Sorry,” He grumbles, reaching down to untangle a pant leg from his ankle and you can’t help but to giggle in response, thankful that his urgency matches your own. “Fuck, you’re so pretty. Laying there waiting to get fucked and smiling at me like that.”

He moves back over you, covering your upper body with his, both of you still clothed from the waist up, nude from the waist down. He kisses you, lips slow and sweet against your own, teasing you with his tongue before trailing his mouth down your jaw to your neck and that’s when you feel him nudging at your entrance.

Your hips lift to meet him, encouraging him, arms wrapping around his shoulders and keeping him close as he slides into you easily for the first time. He bottoms out in a single thrust, stretching you open so your cunt fits tight around the thick girth of him.

Chanyeol takes a deep, shuddering breath, mouthing at the base of your neck. You hug his shoulders tighter, turning your head to press a kiss to the nearest part of him you can reach, lips connecting to the top of his right ear. He’s so still, letting you adjust, but also giving himself a moment to calm this wild need to pound away into you until he fills you up with cum.

Under him, your hips roll upwards, dragging your wetness along his length to the best of your ability until your clit is nestled snug at the base of his cock. You grind against him, legs locking at the ankle around his lower back, and Chanyeol groans, deep and loud, into the crook of your neck.

His hips shift back, withdrawing himself half way before he drops back in heavy, and he lifts himself from your neck then, planting his hands on the arm of the couch behind your head for leverage. Looking down at you, lips parted and brows knitted, he plants a foot on the floor and bends his opposite knee, wedging it into the back of the couch.

“So pretty,” He whispers breathlessly down to you, sliding one hand up your side, pushing up your shirt in a desperate move to feel more of your skin. He keeps one hand on your ribcage as he starts fucking you in earnest, snapping his hips into you with careful precision. “Fffuck! That pretty pussy feels so fucking good, baby.”

The slick pierce of his cock into your swollen heat is gradually increasing in speed and depth. He starts shallow but he’s unable to control his urges for too long, clambering his way faster and harder, deeper, the wet slap of his balls on your ass and the slick suction of your walls clinging to his thick dick with every withdraw. You’re right there with him, just as needy, just as desperate to have him fuck you deep and hard and sloppy. Hands clinging to the front of his shirt, legs wrapped tight at his lower back, your heels digging into the top of his ass, you’re trying desperately to keep him as close as possible, hips lifting to meet his every thrust.

“Shit,” You exhale sharply, tension coiling in your lower belly at an alarming rate the harder he gives it to you. “Chanyeol!”

“That’s right, baby,” He grunts, “Are you gonna cum again? Cum all over this big dick, baby?”

Your eyes roll back in your head, mouth falling open in a silent moan, a sucker for his deep, raspy voice saying such filthy things to you. Before you can catch a full lungful of air, Chanyeol’s upper body crashes down into yours again, rutting his hips wildly down into you. He lifts your legs, pushing you up by the back of your knees as his mouth claims your own. Gasping and moaning into a sloppy kiss, the last of his resolve snaps.

“Where?” He manages to gasp out as you bite down on his lower lip.

“Don’t stop,” You protest, “I’m cumming.”

“Fuck!” Chanyeol pushes himself away from your upper body, staring down at you while he reaches a hand between you, fingers fumbling until he reaches your swollen, throbbing clit. He rubs insistently, teeth gritting together as he tries not to unload.

You cum hard, soaking his cock in creamy white, your back bowing off the couch and nails biting into his naked thighs as he fucks you through it. He’s red faced and sweating, desperate to finish but he manages to hold back through the rhythmic fluttering of your cunt around his shaft as you keen and writhe, moaning the syllables of his name through rapid fire gasps of air. He focuses on your face more than the coursing need to cum, his balls tight and head spinning, watching the beautiful way your expression contorts as you explode around his dick.

“Where?” He asks you again, a desperate question that he needs an immediate answer to. But you’re too lost in the after shocks of your orgasm, his thrusts still just as powerful, bordering on overstimulation, your thighs shaking. You don’t answer him fast enough so he pulls out, a desperate cry leaving his lips as the moment he withdraws, a spurt of cum flies from his tip, coating your pussy lips and streaming down over the curve of your ass. Chanyeol pumps his tight fist over his cock, slick with your cum, spilling the rest of his load over your lower belly.

Back hunched, he bows his head in relief, groaning, one hand milking his dick while the other absentmindedly massages your inner thigh. You’re a mess, sticky and hot, but you couldn’t be more happy as you watch the tip of him sputter the last droplets of his orgasm, dribbling down and making a mess of his hand. Your pussy clenches at the sight of the mess he made over you, the angry red color of his dick as he squeezes the last remnants of cum out, dripping onto your lower belly while he half groans, half chuckles.

“Holy shit.” Chanyeol laughs, “That was amazing. Thank you.”

You smile brightly back at him, “Yes it was, I should be the one thanking you, though.”

His eyes meet yours, his hand smoothing up your side affectionately, “Yeah? Was that ok for you?”

“It was better than ok.” You assure him with a laugh. “I came twice.”

“Aish,” He shakes his head almost regretfully, “I can do better than that. Next time.” He can’t help but to laugh at the wide eyed look you give him before he stands up, limbs tired, and says he’ll get something to clean you up, stepping awkwardly back into his jeans and pulling them up over his hips, not bothering to do up the buttons or zipper.

You lay there, inner walls still flexing with aftershocks of pleasure, smiling like a fool until he comes back with a damp rag and a few wet wipes. Chanyeol wipes the sticky mess from your stomach with the rag, blushing a little, muttering under his breath about what a mess he made as he gently cleans your slick, swollen folds with the wet wipes.

“Ah, sorry,” He mumbles, offering you a clean wipe, “I didn’t do that great cleaning up. Uh, let me, just..” He offers you a hand, helping you get to your feet, “Do you want something clean to wear? I have some stuff you can sleep in. I mean, or, you know, take home with you, if you wanna go. You don’t have to stay. I’m not-” He stops, lips a tight line as he avoids the way you’re smiling fondly at him. “Shit.”

“I’d love to stay, if you’ll have me.” You tell him. “Some clean clothes would be nice. And maybe a shower?”

“Sure.” He rubs awkwardly at the back of his neck, pushing his messy hair from his forehead. “I’ll get you something, and some fresh towels.”

He goes to hurry off down the hall, but your grasp his hand gingerly, threading your fingers together confidently. Something about how shy he was being after sex was endearing as hell, but it also gave you the strength you needed to pop up on your tip toes and kiss his lips tenderly. As you pull back from him you ask quietly, “Do you wanna join me?”

His eyes light up as he nods his head. “I’ll be right behind you.” He says, so you turn and head down the hall on your own, stripping your clothes and adjusting the water temperature.

Chanyeol meets up with you a few moments later, red faced and sweating but so, so handsome as he smiles sweetly at you, tossing a few freshly laundered towels on the edge of the sink and placing a folded pile of his clothes nearby for you. You step under the spray of the water, wetting your hair and watching with a smile as he tugs his shirt over his head and pulls his undone jeans back down.

You make room for him in the shower, expecting him to come to you right away but he steps under the water first, letting it fall over his face, his eyes shut, so you take a moment to admire his body. Tall and muscular, his dick is still hard against his left thigh, bobbing as he turns and lets the water cascade down his back, hands smoothing over his face to wipe his eyes. He catches you staring at him for the second time that night, and he smiles as you step in closer, sharing the warmth of the water as your body presses into his front, arms encircling one another.

[briarrosescurse]

(dances) 📖 what if, idol au 4 all ur beebs

i may know shit abt idols and how everything works BUT id die on a hill for this au (dances with u)

also pls dont mind my inner kpoppie coming out, my bias for certain styles is rlly shining through... IM ALSO NO EXPERT, SO DONT JUDGE ME

idols au

roza: she is in an unit but occasionally releases single albums due to her astounding popularity! roza follows usually girl crush concepts or concepts focused around love (including heartbreak) but her fans also adore it when she deviates from that and takes another turn - for example, in their latest comebacks (and roza’s solo), their concepts changed more into self-love!

despite that, people are so surprised to find out how much of a playful sweetheart she actually is. due to her clueless but entertaining personality, people love seeing her in interviews or shows.

roza is vocally quite strong and is usually praised for her range. she definitely has room for improvement in the dance apartment, but in her unit, she is the main vocalist. other people would consider her to be the visual alongside with another member.

examples would be; blackpink and mamamoo but as well as heize and iu

xiang: this man works as a solo idol and he is known for his more mature, sensual and sometimes rather explicit concepts. his albums are always a... sight to behold, honestly. let’s just say, they follow rather risque ideas - but hey, the producers and managers can’t complain, he’s bringing in the cash.

xiang is most definitely a more visual and dance heavy idol - his good looks attract attention and not to mention his build allows for some rather unique wardrobe choices. fancams of those love to go viral and they make people’s jaws drop.

other than that, he is actually excelling quite well at demanding dances - people like to praise him for keeping up a great vocal performance despite the difficult dances.

compared to actor au, however, he is viewed with a much more critical eye; xiang’s bold and doesn’t hold back his tongue, after all. not to mention, his fans grow quite jealous of him being possibly involved in love affairs.

if i had to give examples of the type of music he’d have, i’d say... wonho - it’s exactly what i imagine for xiang. other than that, i’d add taemin, nct or vixx

theodor: sweet lil’ theo is in an unit! his height brings him a bit at an disadvantage but his vocal abilities are very outstanding for that. he very much fits in more cheerful and crush themes - people eat that shit up and think his unit’s eras with those concepts is where he shines.

people love to gift him plushies of alpacas or llamas during fanmeets. he keeps every single one of them and the amount of photos that he posts of them with himself is astounding - not to mention during the fanmeets, you can see him hugging them for almost the whole duration.

watching the dance practices is usually pretty fun because you can see theodor making funny faces; he always brings a lot of sunshine with that cute face of his into the room and that makes him a huuuuge fan favorite for the stans of his group.

examples would be: shinee and got7

balgair: ASSUMING balgair would be in stagrove as a sort of. subunit? OR AT LEAST in a group with a similar style. i’d say he is definitely a dance heavy idol. most likely lead dancer AT LEAST. i think of like... very on point and synchronized. definitely also pretty rebellious and bad boy concepts going on.

like i said, i'd deem balgair to be a lead dancer - people would say he is rather underappreciated and deserves a lot more recognition. they also complain about the lack of his lines. but further than that, balgair's got a very charming and charismatic character - he only lets his mischievous side show during shows or interviews. he also appears to be fluent in a few foreign languages, so international fans always joke about him having a secret account to see what content the fans produce for him.

during fanmeets people LOVE talking to him, just because of how extroverted and friendly he is. they also comment on how, close up, you can really notice his unique fox-like face structures.

examples: nct and block b

chloe: she's a rather more 'unknown' idol, if you are not part of the community, but still has a certain reputation. as a solo artist, she goes against the typical girl crush concept and follows something more gender stereotype breaking.

she's very heavy on the vocal parts and also is praised for her pretty face, despite the lack of facial expressions she shows during lives or interviews. however, according to her fans, the longer you follow her and her content, the more you realize she's just a very awkward girl, bad at expressing her feelings - but that's what makes her so loveable.

she isn't the most actice idol, thus comebacks are rather not frequent for her, but you can very often see ads where she participates.

examples: moonbyul

madeline: good ol' maddy is the visual of his group. his vocal range is outstanding, but he is only considered as the lead vocal in his unit. he's another one where people like to say that his dancing leaves room for improvement; it's an inside joke in his fanbase that he is stiff like a log during dance practice.

madeline was formerly just an actor before he switched branches. his fanbase carried over as well, so he already made a name for himself. people did enjoy watching his growth, though; at first, it was hard for him getting used to teamwork, as he appeared to see it all as a competition instead of a group project, thus he was rather hostile in his trainee days. but he grew and developed and his fanbase really enjoys pointing that out about him.

his concepts are often a bit more on the emotional side; showing a rather vulnerable side of love, so to say. other than, his concepts are a lot more 'artsy' and tend to carry a convoluted plotline throughout the album. it's unusual, but certainly unique.

examples: bts and exo

briar: and lastly! our pricky prick himself! briar is one of the unexpectedly older idols but for that he is pretty much a talent in all fields - dancing, singing and even his visuals are nothing to complain about. he is a bit more... controversial, so to say? a lot of multistans think he is rather arrogant and really unfriendly - while they recognize his talent, they are critical of his attitude.

his concepts are varying, but it's usually also more of a bad boy and mature theme. his dance routines are fun to watch. sometimes, behind the scenes, you can see him teaching other members or helping them out. it's not too unusual for people to believe he is the leader of the unit.

examples: nu'est and 2pm

[pseudophan]

as for the discourse earlier i'm sorry for lashing out, i didn't mean to imply that all bts fans are bad, in fact at this point i feel like i know more bts fans than i do other people in my life and they're all lovely. mostly i just regret the choice of words when i said kpoppies always make things about race cause like thats not true. there are kpop fans who do accuse everyone who doesnt like their faves of racism but it's not everyone, i just don't handle stress well and especially when i feel like my words get twisted cause i just don't know how to explain myself and make it okay

in any case i really gotta just stop replying to things sometimes. i mean i do, usually, i delete most rude asks, but yknow.....sometimes i am a dumb cunt

[juanitasupreme]

Have you ever gotten into any fights on here? I’ve gotten into a few confrontations over kpop and I’m struggling to learn how to let things go. I feel like kpop fandoms are prone to fight.

I can't stay I havent been in fights because I actually "fight" mmm stans, suju and zico stans sometimes but its more of an entertainement to me because I know they are wrong lol (i also fight with my mutuals but its just for the fun we know its not that serious). And i don't actually have enough care in me to actualy give a fuck about whatever the freaks i fight with are saying (its like talking to a racist wall).

If any advise i can give you is to remember that kpop is for the fun first and foremost. Yeah unfortunally kpoppies are toxic because they want to show their fave supremacy in their field... If its bothering you too much you may step out of it for some times off (from kpop, fandoms or social media). You got into kpop its for yourself and not anyone else in the first place (go stan your faves and drink some water).

Fights can happen but do you really want to get worked up over some stranger on the internet with a bad tie and dye? Block them, mute some words, if you disagree with things being said don't interract (we don't have to get into discourse all the time..). Tumblr is like a garden and you remove weeds from it to make your experience better.

Fandoms in general are prone to fight because people are fat cunt...

[1112lw]

Every question!!

SDFFSDFG DAM OK SIS

LONG POST AHEAD IF U LITERALLY WANNA KNOW ME PERSONALLY JUST READ THIS LMFAO

1: Name: Arche/Jupiter, my close friends know my real name so!

2: Age: High school has just been done so try to guess

3: Fears: Heights, oral presentations, the dark

4: 3 things I love: Drawing, men- concept art n stuff like that

5: 4 turns on: Oh here we go- uhh thighs, messy hair? when they give u The Look or when they. say things i will not talk about here HHGBDF n uhhh Arms 👀👀

6: 4 turns off: weird macho attitude, overly confident bullshit, being selfish and fuckboys in general

7: My best friend: not sure what this means but my bff is named Daphnée n i love her and ive known her my whole life so 

8: Sexual orientation: homosexuale

9: My best first date: :))))))) as if

10: How tall am I: sigh. I’m 5″4

11: What do I miss: sometimes i miss the feeling loved ig

12: What time were I born: 12:19

13: Favourite color: pink!

14: Do I have a crush

15: Favourite quote: My senior quote!! “if what doesn’t kill us makes us stronger, I’m telling you I’m immortal”

16: Favourite place: well? my room ig? I like my yard too

17: Favourite food: ugh ramen,,,korean dishes are TASTE as fuck but i also like classic ass spaghetti so like lol

18: Do I use sarcasm: does it look like i dont

19: What am I listening to right now: dr.phil LMFAO

20: First thing I notice in new person: Hair and eyes!! also how they laugh

21: Shoe size: Like. a 7-8 in women’s 6 in men’s 

22: Eye color: Hazel/Golden yes bitch let me be special

23: Hair color: it’s either dark brown or golden brown idk

24: Favourite style of clothing: bruv its either kpoppie fuckboy or uwu skirts pastels

25: Ever done a prank call?: no i have anxiety

26: Meaning behind my URL:

27: Favourite movie: rise of the guardians and HTTYD

28: Favourite song: Comeback Home (BTS cover)

29: Favourite band: looks in the camera i dont know nan molla huh

30: How I feel right now: I’m fine im hungry

31: Someone I love: shoutout to my babeys in my server ily

32: My current relationship status: Single(tm)

33: My relationship with my parents: theyre fine ig just a bit tired

34: Favourite holiday:

35: Tattoos and piercing I have: Ear piercings? that’s it

36: Tattoos and piercings I want:

37: The reason I joined Tumblr:

38: Do I and my last ex hate each other? I sure hope not?

39: Do I ever get “good morning” or “good night ” texts? A bit ig?

40: Have I ever kissed the last person you texted? Literally no

41: When did I last hold hands? Like last Friday

42: How long does it take me to get ready in the morning? 20 minutes

43: Have You shaved your legs in the past three days? no i havent shaved in like months

44: Where am I right now? in my room, in quebec, canada

45: If I were drunk & can’t stand, who’s taking care of me? bitch i sure hope my friends would

46: Do I like my music loud or at a reasonable level? fuck my ears 

47: Do I live with my Mom and Dad? yeah

48: Am I excited for anything? yeah? yeah

49: Do I have someone of the opposite sex I can tell everything to? ig? always

50: How often do I wear a fake smile? just at work tbh

51: When was the last time I hugged someone? not long ago i cant tell but my friends r cuddle monsters so 

52: What if the last person I kissed was kissing someone else right in front of me? i havent kissed anyone so 

53: Is there anyone I trust even though I should not? lemme think uhhh no not rlly im not dumb 

54: What is something I disliked about today? i woke up n i thought i had school lol

55: If I could meet anyone on this earth, who would it be? oh john cock i want to be ur best friend

56: What do I think about most? i daydream 24/7

57: What’s my strangest talent? uhhh i can put my thumb behind my hand?

58: Do I have any strange phobias? trypophobia, if thats “weird”

59: Do I prefer to be behind the camera or in front of it? depends on what the video is, mostly behind

60: What was the last lie I told? idk answering to my deadname

61: Do I prefer talking on the phone or video chatting online? online

62: Do I believe in ghosts? How about aliens? I slightly believe in ghosts? also aliens GOTTA exist so 

63: Do I believe in magic? i think!

64: Do I believe in luck? yeah

65: What’s the weather like right now? very pretty i filmed a video outside!!

66: What was the last book I’ve read? L’Étranger d’Albert Camus in french class

67: Do I like the smell of gasoline? yes my dad’s a mechanic

68: Do I have any nicknames? a lot a lot

69: What was the worst injury I’ve ever had? bitch @ my birth #neverforget 

70: Do I spend money or save it? i have 40$ in my name right now

71: Can I touch my nose with a tounge? no

72: Is there anything pink in 10 feet from me? yes highlighter

73: Favourite animal? cats or otters

74: What was I doing last night at 12 AM? FBISDFD NO WE DONT TALK ABOUT IT

75: What do I think is Satan’s last name idk he can have any last name he wants!!!

76: What’s a song that always makes me happy when I hear it? everytime i start hearing “waiting for you anpanman” or “i just wanna go home” 👀👀

77: How can you win my heart? aaahh. be a twink. b fashionable. b funny. cheesy. pls romance me like a npc in the sims 2

78: What would I want to be written on my tombstone? s(he) died smh

79: What is my favorite word? cunt is SUCH a satisfying word

80: My top 5 blogs on tumblr? oh great uh honestly cant be fucked 

81: If the whole world were listening to me right now, what would I say? please have brain. PLEASE

82: Do I have any relatives in jail? i sure hope the fuck not?

83: I accidentally eat some radioactive vegetables. They were good, and what’s even cooler is that they endow me with the super-power of my choice! What is that power? either invisibility or mind reading

84: What would be a question I’d be afraid to tell the truth on? ahaaa “what are your intrusive thoughts”

85: What is my current desktop picture? my lesbian sims getting married LMFAO

86: Had sex? no

87: Bought condoms? no

88: Gotten pregnant? NO

89: Failed a class? i think yeah maths last year

90: Kissed a boy? :(((

91: Kissed a girl? no

92: Have I ever kissed somebody in the rain? no

93: Had job? I have a job rn so 

94: Left the house without my wallet? yeah when i go to school

95: Bullied someone on the internet? define bullying?

96: Had sex in public? virgin squad

97: Played on a sports team? yeah

98: Smoked weed? no ew

99: Did drugs? no ew

100: Smoked cigarettes? NO EW

101: Drank alcohol? yep 

102: Am I a vegetarian/vegan? no i’d die

103: Been overweight? i’m twig

104: Been underweight? i think i was underweight when i was young? i was very Small

105: Been to a wedding? yes very long boring

106: Been on the computer for 5 hours straight? bruh. everyday

107: Watched TV for 5 hours straight? probably?

108: Been outside my home country? ONCE

109: Gotten my heart broken? TWICE !

110: Been to a professional sports game? yesss canadians game!!

111: Broken a bone? no

112: Cut myself? not technically 

113: Been to prom? SOON SOON SOON SOSOSNSBFSHDD

114: Been in airplane? once

115: Fly by helicopter? i am not rich bitch

116: What concerts have I been to? noneeee- WAIT NO MARIE MAI

117: Had a crush on someone of the same sex? not sex but for the purpose of pretending i have a penis yes plenty

118: Learned another language? yeah!! i learned english, i almost learned spanish and i’m trynna learn korean now

119: Wore make up? i try!! but i’m not super good

120: Lost my virginity before I was 18? not 18 yet but it’s goin that way

121: Had oral sex? as if 

122: Dyed my hair? i wishhh

123: Voted in a presidential election? I WISH THE ELECTIONS R ONE MONTH B4 MY BIRTHDAY 

124: Rode in an ambulance? nope

125: Had a surgery? yes at a week old 

126: Met someone famous? i think yes but i was super small

127: Stalked someone on a social network? define stalked?

128: Peed outside? yes

129: Been fishing? YES

130: Helped with charity? i think? we do volunteering so 

131: Been rejected by a crush? not directly

132: Broken a mirror? no 

133: What do I want for birthday? boyf......boy..boyff

134: How many kids do I want and what will be their names? oh man uhh maybe 2-3, i dont know their names yet honestly

135: Was I named after anyone? MY DAD NAMED ME AFTER A FUCKIN CLIENT HE MET. as for my actual name now I named myself after my fav video game character. lit

136: Do I like my handwriting? yeah!!

137: What was my favourite toy as a child? bitch hot wheels

138: Favourite Tv Show? hells kitchen,,,,judge judy,,,anythin like that

139: Where do I want to live when older? honestly i wish i could just live in japan or tokyo, or new york? but i will most likely end up in montreal 

140: Play any musical instrument? i used to play the clarinet last year!!

141: One of my scars, how did I get it? the one on my knee, i scratched my desk with my knee 

142: Favourite pizza toping? my dad makes AMAZING sea food pizzas,,,

143: Am I afraid of the dark? a lot

144: Am I afraid of heights? A LOT

145: Have I ever got caught sneaking out or doing anything bad? idk prolly? im a bit of a goody two shoes or however u spell it

146: Have I ever tried my hardest and then gotten disappointed in the end: dont we all

147: What I’m really bad at: organizing my anxiety n shit i get overwhelmed

148: What my greatest achievments are: finishing high school 

149: The meanest thing somebody has ever said to me: honestly has to be that time someone dug up my vent post about being dysphoric to try to say i hated myself with some dumbass DySphorIa Is SelF HaTRed argument

150: What I’d do if I won in a lottery: pay my parents’ debt off, buy 284223$ of BT21 merch, pay my whole college/uni and transition

151: What do I like about myself: idk i like how i literally do not give a fuck anymore and ive learned to love myself instead of trynna care

152: My closest Tumblr friend: @peptobismol-official​ @ace-landofthesun​ @dorkalisious​ and ana but idk her @ anymore :((( ana pls

153: Something I fantasise about: we dont talk about that

154: Any thoughts on the paranormal?: lit. please stop crawling in my ceiling !

ok now that u know my whole biography. go doxx me ig. bye bye