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these are kind of old now but !! exploration of how I draw Duck and Fakir, based on the official expression sheets
#princess tutu#princess tutu fanart#duck#fakir#expression sheet#sketches#i draw them so different now im ngl#but this was when i was still figuring it out lol
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man, you ever realize you needed to correct a small character detail to make it more accurate and then it peeves you off a lil 💀💀💀
#specifically I just swapped around the eye colors for my splatoon agent 4's heterochromia because APPARENTLY#red is pretty dark when grayscaled . and the reason i wanted to grayscale it in the first place was for whenever#i do a colorless doodle of them (grayscale values are fun)- but now 'm teased over the bday art i made of him cuz its inaccurate#ngl been beefin with his eyecolor a while but 'm just gonna try to stick with what i got- cant go changin it all willy nilly cuz it'll also#affect his brothers' appearances . i think a red and gray eye tho is a nifty color combo but then that makes me beef with hair design .#still not sure how im really gonna go about coloring splatoon OCs' hair cuz i like colored tips but also i tend to like#making it game accurate?? i think i just need to suck it up and do what i want forever (do colored tips even if theyre a lil harder)#i mention colored tips cuz originally they were a light blue . but i dont want TOO many different colors (i already have#yellow/red/gray on him so blue might be much) :( and like I could maybe just change the gray eye to blue but then???#it'll make his brother have the wrong eye color in the trans roblox drawing :( plus theres kind of a reason i made an eye red and the other#something plain (the contrast in colored appearance wise . plus my agent 4 is hella self conscious abt his looks) so its not#like i can really change it . augh im at a loss on what to do !! mm might just make it so that the colored tips go darker#rather than colored. HC that not all cephalopods have colored tips but rather it just fades darker and vice versa??#hhh the misery of character design sometimes#ash chats
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hi snap ^^ your y3 stream inspired me to also do a speedrun of it but instead i got down the rabbit hole of reminiscing about the game and mostly mine and daigo and minedai and- anyways i went back to ur minedai works bc they're still some of my fav minedai stuff ever TM you just draw a specific flavor of minedai that's just the best
related to that (hopefully isnt a weird question but) do you have any fic recs for them 👀 i trust your judgement on having good taste on minedai fics. it's been a while since ive been to the tag lol and i always like reading people's recommendations (btw nsfw or not is fine. I'm Old)
im so sorry ive trapped you into doing y3 speedruns BUT FR THANK YOU I HOPE YOU HAVE FUN !!! it really is a fun run to do once you get the ball rolling lol...
i sometimes look at my old minedai stuff too i wont lie.... im very good at making things for myself to enjoy woah... but yeah do not be fooled... i still love them immensely.... so im glad those works still hold up for other people, it means a lot that theyre still good to an extent :)
as for fic recs not a weird question at all - happy birthday to this old thing i made back in august last year nothings changed LMAO
#snap chats#i need to make my fic rec a part of an faq at this point ive been asked bout it four times now im p sure#but yeah... you and me both anon i dont really read fanfiction anymore#when it comes to making minedai stuff tho its very funny to me#cause i be like 'am i making too much other stuff' when 1.) its not my job to make minedai stuff. i mean it could be--#2.) even with the amount of arakawa family stuff i post its still not even halfway to the amount of minedai and mine/daigo solo stuff i pos#the thing about liking 'less popular' characters and/or pairings is i feel weirdly responsible to draw them#tragic to the people who dont like me but like the pairing like LMAO SORRY. ONLY FOOD'S FROM ME BUSTER#with minedai tho thats not really a problem. i think ??#im ngl im also p particular bout how theyre portrayed and ik my way of doing it's kiiinda different#i mean i dont really see minedai works from western artists its mostly just eastern so if youre not in that scene uhh Oops <3#so its like. im comfortable knowing theres at least a handful of people still showin love to the boys when im not#ive talked about this like ninety times already so i wont go into it any more than i already have#anyway ty for enjoying my stuff whether its my cringe speedruns or my goofy minedai posts <3
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OUGHHHRHGHHHHH MY LITTLE ASSHOLE FUCKS (and bessie little angel bessie)!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! AUGH THEY'RE SO PRETTY IN YOUR STYLE... watch out with cookin fish in a microwave he could explode like an egg
i am putting your little guys in my mental microwave @spotsupstuff
#others' art#rw#favs#oc tag#oc: fish inside a birdcage#oc: old man shawn#oc: the seafarer#oc: the tinkerer#aight. -cocks compliment gun-#STARS above your shading is WONDERFUL you did SHADED PIECES- oh just you wait. i finish this stinkin post thats been hanging in my drafts-#-for a month n ill be comin back for you and FAM again i cannot just let this slide- itd be immoral of me 😔 WHOLE SHADED PIECES GODS ABOVE#the shading on the first one- just- ough ough ough... i ADORE the boldness of the light the strength of it. the way fish looks so holy like#-that... finally ridden of the 'bullied by squidcadas that lame nerd bitch' status... impossible became possible for once#AND DO I SEE CORRECTLY DID YOU MAKE HIS HEAD FIN ANTENNA THING SEE THROUGH????? OH MY FUCKIN GODS!!!!!!!!! OH MY GODS THATS SO BEAUTIFUL#you made him look like an iterator-sona for a wheel/karma flower im going to cry i love that so much my brain is gon explode#that plays SO well into his themes and things imma stim so hard ill fly to the moon. i gotta see if i can pull that off as well now#FUCKIN SHAWN I DIDNT EXPECT SHAWN OF ALL SCAV OCS IVE MADE I DIDNT EXPECT THE BAKED GRANDPA livin his best life with local hatchiegirl...#u drew bessie so wonderfully too lookit that girl shes so Chonky. that lil blep is everything when i think about it actually...#SEAF seaf is so aggressively macho im gonna yell /pos what a man. this is the ideal male body yes. peak performance. he could-#-clock a leviathan. that shit would Evaporate. im such a fan of the fur/hair details on his body that pleases my eyeball so much#AND the last one- tinktink looks like a fuckin Entity.. fishs bomb-crafting sleep paralysis demon friend KLVDJSGLKSDM#you shaped her so cozily i just kinda wanna pick her up spin her around and then hug her ough 🙏 shes like a Plushie.....#AND FISHS FACE IN THE LAST PIC I KEEP LAUGHING ABOUT IT he looks so concerned. 'hm. hrmmn.... i think i sense a disturbance in the force.'#the disturbance in question is the 40% chance of unexplainable explosion just waiting to happen right in their faces#i do also really wanna praise how you drew fishs hands your style of hands and mine for the iterators seems so different but you still did-#-such a great job there more or less mimicking mine! its amazing!!!!!#im very honored that youve decided to draw them! you are an awesome artist n ngl i didnt expect this lsdkgjslkdkjg thank you 💜
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" ITS BRUTAL OUT HERE " - pick a pile
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hey loves, so because i 1, got new tarot decks, and 2 want to call you guys out, im doing this. also - heads up before i even start - spirit said there's gonna be a pile where there are little/no callouts bc they're actually doing great. just some advice/motivation to keep them going
Hello! Welcome to a pick a pile. This is a general reading, everything should be taken with a grain of salt. Hundreds of people may read this, everything I say in your pile(s) may NOT resonate. Today we don't have questions. we're just going callouts. so prepare yourself, i know some of yall are soft.
along with these questions i will give things that may draw you to your pile. the alice in wonderland tarot has different cards but pretty much the same meaning. dont be shocked if instead of the hanged man i say suspention or something like that. i will be using tarot and oracle cards.
now please take everything with a grain of salt!
breathe in, now out, now pick a pile or two.
pile 1 ; pile 2 ; pile 3
hi pile 1!
confirmation for your pile: lowkey funny, life 'falling apart', consequences for your actions, business man/woman, equality, cycles, bakugou, passion, 'im always right, i know what im saying'
oracle: you are good enough - full moon in virgo
tarot: the hierophant, temptation, 7 of flowers, 5 of spears reversed, 9 of flowers
alright bros, the first thing i have to say is 1, you're not always the cause. bad things happen to good people and i know it sucks but it helps you grow. if only good things happened then you'd probably be boring as hell. i hear some of you guys can be because you cant keep a conversation going. the thing is, you may be a victim MOST OF THE TIME but that doesnt mean ALL THE TIME!! you can be wrong in an argument, you can be right in an argument. but it changes. you're a very driven, smart, confident person in most areas but that doesnt mean because you're the right person to be a firefighter but not a baker. 7 of flowers is saying dont back down from the things you KNOW you are right in, but when someone makes a valid point. take it, it can help you. being passionate is a good thing, but dont be ignorant.
temptation is something thats drawing you in, that one day will be negative. maybe its joining the football team but you'll get a serious injury. do not let anyone or anything tempt you that has high risks for pain in the long run. im not saying dont join that football team, but dont put yourself into situations that wont benifit you in the long run. there's a good and bad to everything. do not fall into or back into negative energies/things that didnt help you before. they sure as hell wont help you now
ngl i have no idea what this pile means during the second part
pile 2
alright so confirmation: tired, faking happiness, evolution, "PUT THOSE GRIPPERS AWAY", hawks, manifestation, abuse, Christmas, MHA, movies, memories, nsfw content, love desire, caring heart, makeup, procrastination, seven deadly sins
oracle: a time for healing - balsamic moon, expect powerful chance - new moon eclipse
tarot: 10 of spears, 7 of flowers, 3 of hedgehogs
so this is the pile whos done mostly nothing wrong. when i say mostly, i mean bc everyones made at least one mistake in their life. ofc theres still a callout. STOP BEATING YOURSELF UP! STOP BELITTLING YOUR PAIN, YOUR TRAUMA, THE THINGS THAT HURT YOU MENTALLY AND PHYSICALLY EVERY SINGLE DAY!! let go of the past, its gone. its ending. get over it. that friend isnt coming back, they weren't right for you. let go of the past, accept it, and move forward. thats just some advice.
pile 3
hey pile 3
confirmation: false/negative manifestations, intrusive thoughts, self destructive behavior, gay, peaches (that one song omg), yung gravy, emotions, love, communication or lack of communication, birthdays, parties, celebrations
oracle: believe in the impossible - blue moon
tarot: 2 of cups, 4 of flowers, knight of teacups reversed
okay i got flowers in every pile, anyways this piles energy is of a pair.. two people or two piles? maybe you picked another pile. but its a harmonious pair. you guys may be for a long time, maybe shifting together, maybe you work on a lot of projects together? i heard you guys dont talk much but when you do its fun. you guys are a great pair. hold on to each other. i feel like once this pile overcomes toxic/negative behaviors they will shift. it depends on how fast you get rid of them/start manifesting positively.
change the way you see things, the emotions and reactions you have to things that happen. if you wake up in your cr and not your dr say something like "bro what?? why am i in my cr? thats odd, hasnt been like this before." see everything that happens in a different light. if you think that you saw something that was a sign btw, it was. take it and use it how you think its fit. use your talents, you know you can! practice the fun things you want to do one day. practive makes perfect!! get off your ass and do something. vent through an art form. you dont have to use words. you're doing nothing right now. you NEED to do something, but take a break from stressing yourself. its not helping anything
#abyss .speaks#reality shifting#shiftblr#shifting#desired reality#reality shift#shifting community#black shifters#shifting motivation#shifting realities#tarot pick a card#pick a card#pick a photo#pick a card reading#pick a picture#pick a pile reading#pick a pile#pick an image
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Hii lovely! I'm a very anxious person, so I'm so sorry if I come across as awkward in any way shape or form, I tend to be more of a lurker, but I'm trying to get better at interacting!!
First of all, your Bridgerton fic is??? SO?? GOOD??? The way you portray all the characters, the language, the settings, everything is just absolutely chef's kiss!! When I watched season 3 this spring I was sat there thinking about how good Gojo would be in the setting, so cue my excitement once I found your fic lmfaoo
ALSO?! Spider-man Gojo?? Academic rivals to lovers??? I would literally give my soul for that. Spidey is my all time favourite superhero and it's one of my favourite tropes sob SUPER excited to read it once you get it done!! <3
You write so so so beautifully and you (among a few others) make me actually feel like getting my finger out of my arse and write myself LOL But until then, have some art of Bridgerton Gojo? Just a sketch for now, and I couldn't for the life of me decide on hairstyle, so uhh, have both I guess??(+ two slightly different expressions lmfao)
I also just want to mention, please make sure to not pressure yourself too hard with writing and take everything at your own pace!! I (among others, I'm sure) would wait for however long you need to finish up these lovely works of yours!!
(I'm so sorry if these ever get super long, I'm a big time yapper, which is ironic for an anxious person loool)
Muuuch love<33
OMG HI BB!!!!! thank you so much for interacting with me, even though it's out of your comfort zone :') plsplspls don't worry about being too awkward or anything, i literally was smiling like an idiot while reading ur ask!!
and AHHH thank you so much!!! it's so funny that you say you thought that while watching season three because it was actually that season that made me want to write this series. glad to be of service <3
AHHH i'm also really excited to post it. i'm not done but im sooooo excited to finish it and have really been enjoying the process because spiderman is also one of my fav troupes + i feel like i've been able to write it in my OWN voice. super super excited for that <3
OH MY GOD. YOU DRAW SO BEAUTIFULLY??? I LOVE THIS SKETCH. i honestly really like both hairstyles and expressions you drew them so well 😭 i definitely imagine his hairstyle as the one on the left while im writing. everything from the outfit to pose you drew SO WELL (im in LOVE with the jacket as well as the shoes) he looks so BOUGIE and so TALL im literally going to climb him. and im ngl the expression the right seems so much like his sassy self, especially when he's making fun of someone while his expression on the left i interpret as something a bit more unfiltered, when he's more genuine. god you are so talented, literally captured the vibes.
AND ILY!!! no matter how long these asks are i will read them pls bring forth the yap. literally squealed while reading this, ilysm. thank you SO MUCH for drawing bridgerton!gojo im so honored 🫶🫶🫶
#aashi answers#bridgerton!gojo#ayelindraws#jjk x reader#gojo smut#gojo#satoru gojo#gojo fanart#jjk smut#gojo x reader#gojo satoru x reader#gojo x you#jjk#jjk fanart#bridgerton!gojo fanart#bridgerton
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Hi! I wanted to ask a question and I wasn’t sure if it was too personal or not so just ignore this is you’d rather not answer, but I was wondering if you went to art school or got a degree in it? I really want to start learning and maybe one day start a career in animation and wasn’t sure whether I should spend time and resources getting a degree. I know it’s going to be different for everybody and nothings a guarantee for this field but since I love your style and technical skill I was curious whether you had done that and what were your thoughts on it or if you are self-taught.
Hey anon! No worries it's all good!
Ig I should quickly go through my art journey so you can have an overall look of why I went to art school lol.
So I'm from Vietnam. I think back in 2013 I went to a small art school in Singapore (they were the only one that gave me a scholarship). My major was 3D modeling actually, but during my final year, I realized I only wanted to draw characters for animation. I could already draw decently, so I just read The Silver Way book and built a character design portfolio on my own during this time. I was lucky I got a job as a concept artist at a small animation studio there so I learned a lot from the job. I also did a lot of self-learning and took Woulter Tulp's Expressive Character class on Schoolism.
Then after 3-ish years of working, I got sick of the tiny and dying animation industry in Singapore. I wanna do sth more than just preschool shows and I was severely underpaid lmao. So I quit my job and took the MA VisDev program at AAU. It's a little more affordable cuz u can do 1 year online and the second year on-site. The reason I went to this school even tho i could just take a VisDev class online was cuz i need the visa so i can try to break into the industry in the US.
Now back to your question. Is art school a must? No. Should you still take it? Maybe, depends on your situation. If you can afford it then hell yeah by all means. Art school is great cuz you have professors and peers to help guide you along the way so you won't get lost while trying to figure out your shit. And to have a few years just experimenting and focusing on art is a great experience. Plus you can make a lot of meaningful connections in school and it will help you a long way after you grad. But if you have to go into debt to go to art school, then don't. There are places like Schoolism, CGMA, and Warrior Art Camp where you can pick what class and from whom you wanna learn. If you are not from the US and wanna break into the industry here like me however, then yeah getting a degree is a better bet cuz you can use the student visa and OPT to hopefully get a job here (it's still very very hard tho ngl im struggling rn as we speak lmao). Also, you need a BA to work overseas so there's that too. The hard truth is studios prefer to hire locally than some rando from somewhere else and have to wait for them to relocate and shit, (unless you are exceptionally good and they'd do anything to have you, but that is super rare lol).
Even though I did go to art school, I have to say most of my skills are from self-study. It requires a lot of self-discipline but I'm pretty much obsessed with drawing and I draw everyday so it's not a problem for me. But my friend is not good at that, so she found art school/classes helped her better cuz there are deadlines and instructors to help guide her to reach her goal. So it depends on your learning style tbh.
There is this chart that can help you consider your options. Im sorry it's a very long answer, cuz yes everyone's experience is different. Feel free to drop me another ask if you still have anymore questions tho ^^
Edit: I must also add, though there are online classes and ways to self-learn animation,I do think it only truly benefit you if you know exactly what you wanna do in this industry (for example I already knew i wanna become a character designer for 2d/3D animation specifically so any books/classes i took I tailored it to fit my goal). If you are unsure what you wanna do, then maybe even a cheap animation course will do better, and then you can take extra online classes on the side.
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Just an excuse to mash interests together ngl. Idk what this revelation will bring to the yaoi economy but Do you understand..
Specifics:
Ivan and Yoshida are particularly similar. Theyre both not really expressive unless around Till/Denji, and are “different” from their peers. Also likes to get snarky (? Idk how to describe it but its like what Ivan said to Sua about being a tragic heroine and how Yoshida was talking with Fami)
Kaworu and Ivan sacrificial icons😇
Till and Denji are both rowdy and have had to be constrained like dogs.. and took abuse from higher ups
“Stalker” thing going on in all of them (Kaworu fanon/manga..)
Till and Denji closeted bi. Probably.
Ok now that i think about it manga Kawoshin might fit better here. I didnt get that far in the manga so im going off of what others said about how their dynamic changed there. Theres a few more connections i can draw but 👽
#alnst#alien stage#csm#chainsaw man#nge#neon genesis evangelion#evangelion#ivan alien stage#kaworu nagisa#shinji ikari#till alien stage#yoshida hirofumi#denji hayakawa#my analysis#<- not really but yeah.
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Exhibit D,
TEAM FORTESS 2 IM BACK BABYYYYY
Ahem, sorry.
RED and BLU respectively.
I was gonna have BLU look like RED but with blue accessories instead of red, but I also wanted to see if I could change their fur colors depending on team, y'know, cause they're technically different people and all. That and I wanted to tinker with alternative fur colors, patterns, and eye colors slightly. I might tinker with them more.
I was also drawing Merasmus, Saxxton, and the Administrator, but I couldn't get them right, so I settled with this, for now, at least. I know there's only one Miss P, but I added her to both teams because idk it just felt fair.
That's it on the Warriors run. I will be posting something later today.
Extras:
Regular gray bg just so the other bgs don't distract you.
Transparent because it feels wrong leaving them out.
Backgrounds because they are literally my favorite I've done ever. Especially the blue one.
Ngl this game got me on a chokehold this entire month-
#team fortress 2#tf2#warriors#warrior cats#warriors au#warrior cats au#tf2 warriors au#tf2 warrior cats au#Team Warriors 2#yeah im calling it that#warriors x team fortress 2#warrior cats x team fortress 2#i wasnt gonna do a background for these but after a while of not being able to draw due to my tablet not letting me save#yeah lets just say my creativity was build up so i went the extra mile :/#scout#soldier#pyro#demoman#heavy#engineer#engie#medic#sniper#spy#miss pauling#RED team#BLU team#multifandom warrior cats#no definitive lore except their abilities were givin to them by Starclan or something#fanart
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2000s teen magazine inspired drawing featuring Maya Fey wearing That One Concept Art Outfit!! 🧡💙 (would a kurain master be in the cover of a teen magazine? probably not, but i like this so idc)
(no text version + other stuff under the cut!)
this is such a silly drawing tbh ,,, i had lots of fun coming up with the text overlays lmfao japanifornia teens… 😭💀 anyway! i was looking at that maya official art with the different outfits and felt like drawing them :PP (you can see the outfit i drew in the pic below)
i ended up drawing a portrait so you can’t really see the clothes but … it was fun regardless. i’ve been wanting to draw something 2000s magazine inspired for a while too, so i used this drawing idea for that!! anyway, i swear i want to draw full body pieces of those maya outfits and im actually already working on one of them so! stay tuned if you want to see that :D (also. i’ll try to draw aa characters in their canon outfits… someday …. lol)
this is my first time cleaning a sketch and using it as lineart ,,, and tbh im really happy with how it turned out! it also makes rendering easier ngl ,, i took a bit of inspiration from the infamous “”jelly art style”” because i really like soft rendering, but i swear i won’t start drawing only cute girls from now on lmfao!! though i really like drawing maya. so you can expect even more maya art :D
#jayskai_art#ace attorney#maya fey#gyakuten saiban#mayoi ayasato#ayasato mayoi#ace attorney fanart#gyakuten saiban fanart#ace attorney trilogy#gyakuten saiban 123#maya ace attorney#maya fey fanart#mayoi ayasato fanart#aa trilogy#aa maya#fanart#procreate#my fanart#my illustration#my artwork#my art#2024
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I know you just posted it BUT YOUR NEW PHONECASE LOOKS SO GOOD??? It’s serving massive cunt and I’m all here for it😭 where did your order it from may I ask….👀
AND YOU DESIGNED IT??? HELLO WHAT WHAT WHAT IM JEALOUS😭😭😭 it’s such a cute design with the V and droopy camera thingy
I would kill a man for that phonecase ngl🤷
I used customenvy.com to order the case, where I uploaded the custom art :)
Also I used this screenshot for reference when making it, though later on in a different episode or something you'll see there's a little heart that her hand is covering right now.
(so I didn't draw that oops-- but it's okay, the pop socket can hide the lack of that detail LOL)
A small detail I loved in the show was seeing a bunch of characters having unique phone cases, which is super awesome and I want them all lol! I want official merch of them all! hahaha
#hazbin hotel#hazbin#hazbin hotel velvette#velvette fanart#hazbin velvette#velvette hazbin hotel#velvette hazbin#phone case#ask box#asks#ask#anon ask#thanks anon!#anonymous#hazbin hotel phone case#hazbin hotel fandom
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Misaligned Strings (Jing Yuan/Reader)
A/n: The reader is AMAB at the beginning (nothing angstier than gender norms–) and gn in the time skip. If there are incorrect translations, please comment!!!! I’d be very happy to change it :DD and im very happy with how my drawing turned out ngl-
For the sake of flashbacks: ████████ = prince reader's previous name, ████ = jing yuan's previous name
Synopsis: He held his feelings back once for you were his prince and he was but a knight. But for Jing Yuan, he doesn't care if you're a human prince or a foxian, you are always worth the wait. Even when it literally took a lifetime. He's not so different from Snowmoon, you know?
CW: none. slight angst and fluff so don’t worry. Prolly the cutest and lowkey proudest work I’ve done in a while. I was actively whispering "me when" while writing lmao. This one's for you, 😋 anon.
遠在天邊,近在眼前,千里姻緣一線牽.
From the Most Distant Horizon at the Ends of Where the Heavens Stretch, to Right in Front of One's Eyes, the Single Thread Crosses Unfathomable Distances to Draw in those that are Tethered to it.
In silent whispers and inaudible footsteps, a taizi and his ménkè would stroll about in the crack of dawn. The Crown Prince of the old dynasty seldom ever initiated conversations, but his servant didn't venture to strike up an exchange. Since the prince wasn’t one to like entertaining large sums and enjoyed the comfort of nature, he has a habit of dragging his favorite retainer alongside him when trekking woodlands. The white-haired servant was perfectly content with this as he listened to the sound of the streams of the nearby water bank and the morning birds’ humming.
But most of all, the retainer couldn’t think of spending his mornings better than to be by Prince ████████’s side. Deep down, he knew his calloused hands did not deserve to touch such an expensive fabric. The decorative embellishments embroidered in such as gold-laced threads, jades, and ████████’s birthstones mustn't be soiled by a commoner like him. He thinks his hands, which frequently danced with blood, are cleaner than the stains that mud had left on his prince's long robes.
And yet, the retainer feared he loved his prince too much to stop.
“My Lord…” the white-haired man mutters gently, daring to tug the noble’s robes. The (h/c) haired man peered in his direction.
Atop the prince's head was a mianguan that further accentuates their difference in social status. Despite it being a rare ceremonial headdress only to be worn on sacrificial events, the prince had one custom made by a famous jeweler for his daily use. His fashionable headdress chimed for a brief moment as he turned, but he did not stare him in the eye.
Still, the prince smiled so sweetly.
“Yes, baozi?”
The retainer’s breath hitched.
He knew he shouldn’t harbor such emotions– he knew it shouldn’t make him happy that the prince would call him his treasure. However, there was not a trace of deceit in Prince ████████’s voice.
“Be careful,” the retainer heaved, staring at the ground. “There’s a fallen trunk nearby, you would’ve tripped.”
“O-Oh?”
The prince’s smile faltered before he regained it in a concerningly quick but regal fashion.
“My apologies, it was not my intention to make you worry,” he laughed, but there was no joy to be conveyed. “I’m afraid I will have to depend on you once more.”
The prince's laugh, once filled with warmth and adoration whenever they met, now sounded distant. It was veiled sorrow, yet not to the point where the prince would be willing to sever whatever thread bound their fates together. During their quiet moments, ████ would catch glimpses of that sorrow lingering in the prince's demeanor.
It was as if a shadow loomed over their secret rendezvous. The retainer wondered if his suspicions were true— if the prince's noble lineage would soon bind him to political arrangements. A duty that will tear them both apart.
But he didn’t wish to entertain those thoughts.
The retainer nodded while speaking. “Anything for you, My lord.”
The prince turned back to the lying trunk.
Everyone in Asia knew of Prince ████████’s impaired eyes.
The Emperor’s heir lacked vision in a battle he somberly forbids any to reminisce about. It was the very same battle his beloved retainer first fought in since he was a new hire at the time. This led to several concubines shoving their children to the feet of the emperor, but satisfyingly, none could beat the prince in any aspect. Their attempts to weaken both the prince and the empress’s political hold were grounds for concern. Ultimately, that resulted in nothing.
That does not make the prince any less bitter about it, but he never held ████ accountable. His presence was the royal’s only comfort, even if he never saw his face at least once. The prince never trusted his parents with any of his inner turmoil.
Although, the retainer wished he saw his prince’s eyes at least once. His Highness had always wrapped a red cloth around his eyes like half a mask. This is why, in the humble servant’s prayers, he wished for his master to be more secure with his body
“Prince ████████…” The white-haired retainer starts again, this time, his voice was laced with mischief. “Have I ever told you that you are the most gorgeous man in the land?”
“W-Where is this coming from?” The prince laughed heartily. Prince ████████ knew that his retainer wanted to cheer him up, but he’d rather hear him say it.
“Nothing,” the retainer smiled. “I just wanted you to hear it. You’re incredibly handsome.”
“Stop!” The prince chuckled, hiding his face with his silk clothes. “You are embarrassing, ████.”
The white-haired man chuckled.
“Only for you, my baobei.”
It was silent for a moment. Suddenly, the prince exhaled. The retainer quietly noted that it was not the same sound he’d hear whenever they would peacefully stroll in the woods as they usually do. This one sounded stifled as if he wanted to trap it in his throat.
He may not be able to see, but he still looked away.
“████, I have something I need to discuss with you.”
“What is it?”
Silence again.
Despite being warned that there might be a trunk in his way, the prince took small steps forward. As though he hoped to trip– as though he hoped someone would catch him.
Yet, the words spoken next were delivered unlike a damsel in distress but a man in solitude.
“I am to be wed around the coming months.” He stuttered. “I-I’m afraid I can no longer remain both blind and deaf to my mother and the Emperor’s nagging.”
Time stood still.
The solace of nature faded into insignificance, leaving only the sound of cracks inside ████’s head. In that silence, unspoken words passed between them. Only the sound of their restricted breathing remained. It was a poignant acknowledgment– an unspoken promise of love that fate had cruelly denied them. Swallowing his pain, the retainer fought to maintain a facade of unwavering loyalty. His grip tightened around the hilt of his sword.
The dynasty would burn before their union would ever be accepted.
The retainer stood tall, a pillar of fortitude even as his heart fractured with each beat. As always, Prince ████████ was the image of his unattainable desires. He will always play his role as the prince's retainer, his heart bleeding in silence, forever locked away.
In the depths of his being, ████’s cherished stolen glances and clandestine touches— precious moments of tenderness concealed beneath the weight of their stations— will remain hidden but never forgotten. He will carry their shared memories as he vowed to “only” protect Prince █████████ on the surface.
The prince continued. Tears welled up in his eyes, but as his father has stated, a man cannot cry. Much less the next emperor.
“████—”
“It is alright,” the retainer spoke, voice already jaded. “We both knew that this is how it ends.”
“Would it be selfish of me to ask you a favor?”
The retainer took a deep breath.
“Do not make this harder, Your Highness.”
It pained his heart to hear the prince gulp in anguish. No use of “my”, just an unpossessed “your”. Even the retainer could not forgive himself for calling him by his title so distantly and without so much as using any honorifics that he is his prince.
He was his prince.
But the prince was not deterred.
“Can you promise me that you’ll find me again?”
He cupped his retainer’s hand with his eyes closed peacefully. The retainer paused before also placing his other hand above his prince’s. Prince ████████ quietly sobbed. “Please…”
“Promise me– promise that you’ll find me in the next life.”
The retainer nodded weakly.
“I promise.”
“Soon, I shall take the Imperial Princess Consort as my Empress, but–”
The prince tilted his retainer’s head down and gently kissed him. The white-haired man felt his knees giving in as the prince then kissed his upper left cheek, just below his eye. That had always been his favorite spot to pepper. Even in the end, his highness will always cherish planting feather-like kisses as though it would soothe his troubles. The prince’s smile never left his face yet unbeknownst to him, a couple of his tears had already fallen.
“Why don’t we talk about a life we could’ve had, even for just a small fraction of this ephemeral life?”
The conversation that followed was regrettably sweet. Throughout their exchange, they remained seated on the fallen tree as the prince gingerly ran his fingers through his retainer’s white hair. They both ingrained every detail of this memory in their head for they knew this would be their last intimate moment.
Their conversations lasted as if the outside world never existed. They talked about the places they could’ve been, a kingdom they should’ve had until they reached the topic of their true desires:
A domestic life.
A life where they could say ‘Baobei, I’m home’.
“What about a little lion?”
“Your ideas for a housepet are very peculiar,” the retainer humored him, but his voice echoed how cautious the thought made him. “Had I been in your position, I would’ve been tempted to care for timid endangered animals instead.”
“Well, you sounded disinterested when I brought up carps. So, what about little lions?”
“Are you referring to shih tzus?” The royal has an affinity for trying new things so the white-haired man already knew he’d never refer to a simple dog.
“Perhaps,” the prince laughed. “But not quite.”
“You don’t mean to imply you want a genuine cub now…?”
“What if I do?”
“You have a dangerous habit of giving your retainers more reasons to worry,” his lover muttered.
He pretended not to hear it, “what would you name it?”
“Hmm…how about…”
“Snowmoon.”
Caelus looked up at the General who was focusing on the bustling streets of the Exalting Sanctum.
After the events that unfolded in the Xianzhou Luofu, he and Jing Yuan had grown closer. To him, the general was a good role model and a nice change of pace after being dragged along by Clara’s adventures in the robot settlement and Serval and Natasha’s heartbreaking familial tales. Caelus was appreciative that the general messaged him to ask if he wished to accompany him to buy meat for Mimi. The trailblazer simply wished for something he can sign as a “day off” in Pom-Pom's log book without incurring any physical damages. For now, he doesn’t want to think about how Blade is running loose.
Now that he’s hanging out with Jing Yuan though, it seems as though he miscalculated everything. He didn't expect emotional expenses instead.
“That’s your old lion’s name?”
The trailblazer pretended not to know. It was a rather heavy story and he didn’t want to seem like a person who relied on gossip. Besides, Qingzu wasn’t a reliable storyteller.
As they talked, they walked past both merchants and pedestrians. There must be an event or an ongoing flea market since the ratio between sellers and consumers was staggeringly unequal. There’s a nosier place they haven’t traversed yet; there must be a sale going on. Although Caelus had more than enough money to his name (thanks to his latest deal with Sampo Koski), he did not tempt himself with a glance at any merchandise. His eyes were on the attractive “dozing general” instead.
“Yes, he was a loyal one…” Jing Yuan smiled softly. “I had a special connection to Snowmoon.”
“I heard it waited for 300 years.”
“Ah, so you are aware of what this story is about already.”
Caelus laughed awkwardly.
“Yes. Yes, Snowmoon did wait for me,” Jing Yuan said. “And I will forever understand that undying loyalty. That’s when I knew I’d truly reconnected with the lion.”
“In its final moments, all I thought to myself was how much the little cub and I were so much alike,” he recalled with a sad smile on his face.
“For him to wait for so long to see a loved one return– and to lay in his arms. I wonder what that would be like for me.”
Caelus blinked.
“You’re waiting for someone?” Caelus tilted his head. “I see you doing more sleeping than waiting. But who’s the lucky person?”
“I’m afraid you would not understand,” Jing Yuan said. “It’s rather difficult to explain. My mother and father did not comprehend it– then again, they didn’t understand my decision to be a soldier either.”
“Is this person the reason why you’re a general now?”
He stopped and raised an eyebrow.
“Spot on. How did you figure?”
Caelus shrugged, uncommitted. “Just a guess.”
The general chuckled.
“I’ve been waiting for him since I was reborn.”
Jing Yuan looked at their surroundings again as they resumed their walk. His hands were both behind his back as they took in the atmosphere. For him, the experience was not unlike his strolls with Yanqing– and for Caelus, he had compared him with Mr. Yang.
“There is a Foxian custom wherein very young children would figuratively carve their future career path by choosing between the objects their parents had laid down. Unsurprisingly, I grabbed a toy sword in hopes I can find him.”
The general rambled as though Caelus would understand the context. The trailblazer can only nod along, reminded of how old people do whatever Jing Yuan was doing at present.
“Alas, maybe he didn’t reincarnate as I had hoped,” Jing Yuan breathed in shakily. “I’ve traveled far and still, nothing. I’m afraid at this point they won’t be able to recognize me. While my voice was similar to how it was in my previous life, it had deepened with age. And I won't have any luck with my appearance either.”
Caelus frowned for him.
Jing Yuan was optimistic when Jingliu had taken him in as an apprentice– he thought it was an opportunity to find him again. There were numerous thoughts that maybe he will thread a similar path to his first life. In the realm of Xianzhou Luofu, where long and short-life species coexisted, he thought he glimpsed his baobei several times. With each encounter, his heart would skip a beat, hope blossoming like a new leaf, only to be shattered in the next breath. Jing Yuan had grown weary, not unlike Snowmoon. He's now somber and wiser.
If only he had not died so early. If only he didn't save the Imperial Consort when the palace burned. Would he have lived enough to stand at the prince’s side if he didn't put his duty as a soldier first?
Then again, none of that matters now. Today, he is Jing Yuan, the “Dozing” (and sometimes “Glutton”) General and not ████, the Crown Prince’s retainer. He should not burden himself with the regrets of a failed servant. But the thought of dying without ever seeing ████████'s face again... Jing Yuan hopes it will not happen again in this life. The General would continue searching for he had faith that one day, his prince would find his way. It may not be a popular tale in this realm and era, but he still believes that the red string binds their souls across the ages.
At the mention of reincarnation, Caelus’ ears perked up.
“Reincarnate…?”
“To live again in another form.”
“I know what it means. I wasn’t born yesterday.”
“Based on what Mr. Yang had told me, I’m inclined to believe that your situation is nearly synonymous with that phrase.” Jing Yuan teased.
“Come to think of it,” Jing Yuan looked at his phone. “It is ██/██ today, is it not?”
“Huh? Yeah. Do you have other plans, General?”
Caelus tried to keep up the pace with Jing Yuan. They were nearing the especially crowded and noisy area they saw before and he was worried he wouldn’t hear his response.
“No, none of the sort. On the contrary, I often take a day off on this particular date,” Jing Yuan answered nonchalantly. “Truth is, it’s ████████’s birthday–”
“HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO YOUUUUUU, HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO YOUUUUU!!!”
The crowd roared and the two halted. As it turns out, there was no sale in the area, but a celebration. The both of them stopped specifically at certain familiar voices in the crowd. Caelus was certain that he heard both Qingque and Tingyun,
but Jing Yuan’s intuition spoke for something else.
“Hey, isn’t that Miss Tingyun– woah, why are you running?!”
He left Caelus and immediately dashed to the noise. A couple of restaurant staff glanced over in confusion as the man pushed the door farther open. Some servers had made way upon recognizing the general and others who weren't quick on the uptake tried to stop him from meddling with the event. But when the staff had caught on that he was a man they cannot dismiss, a questionable scene had begun unfolding before anyone could control it.
The song died as soon as everyone saw the general standing near the middle of the tables and seated chairs. There were familiar faces just as Caelus had mentioned— Qingque and Sushang's presence can be felt. He stared, shocked at who sat beside Tingyun.
The Foxian amicassador then guardedly placed a hand on top of the person's shoulders, looking at Jing Yuan as though he was an animal ready to strike. He didn't know what her look meant, but everyone else in the room concurred that it didn't appear as though he was there to make small talk.
"Can we help you, General?"
"... My Lord?"
Jing Yuan whispered weakly.
"Prince ████████... Is that truly you...?" He laughed, sounding nearly defeated. “I have not reached geriatric psychosis so soon, have I?”
The man had both his knees down on the ground, looking up at the birthday celebrant.
You.
Prince ████████– rather— (Y/n) (L/n), a Foxian now aged 250, sat amidst the room wearing robes embroidered with relatively inexpensive jades and gems gifted by friends and family. You were at a loss for what to do and looked to colleagues for advice before gazing back at the strange white-haired person kneeling on the ground.
Before he had made himself known, you appeared slightly uncomfortable. He wagered it had something to do with the crowd. The others must’ve thrown this as a surprise makeover and party, but as much as you wished to understand and be more in touch with your friendships, you likely found this situation rather difficult. And Jing Yuan was not helping.
You’d have to forgive him later. He just can’t help himself.
Your vulpine ears stood up straighter, alert as he reluctantly reached for your hand. If you could postpone this birthday “party” and finish all these tiring exchanges later, you probably would. You were taken aback at how fast his movements were– you swore that in one second he stood by the door and in the next he knelt near your chair.
You still look so wonderful…
“Y-Your Majesty…”
He grabbed your hands.
“████████…” Jing Yuan gasped for a strip of breath. “You have no idea how long I have waited. I-I have waited for you for s-so SO long– I had nearly thrown all hope I had of finding you several times but I knew we’ll find one another again…”
He looked up, hope in his eyes.
“It’s me, My Lord. I have fulfilled my promise.”
The general’s heart raced as he finally laid eyes on his reincarnated lover, sitting before him in all your ethereal beauty. His eyes lingered on your face, speechless at the softness that remained despite the passage of time. Your features held a timeless allure, radiant– and will forever enrapture his poor old heart.
His gaze respectfully traced the lines of your figure, adorned with jades that only accentuated your presence. The vibrant gems seemed to mirror the regalness of your past self– as if the jades themselves will always choose to highlight your inherent grace.
But it was in your eyes that General Jing Yuan found himself lost. The eyes that he never got to see a lifetime before. That calming sense of expression in your (e/c) eyes held a depth that stirred his soul. They sparkled with a familiar light, revealing the person he had loved throughout the centuries. In your stare, he had grasped the solace he had been waiting for– the emotion Snowmoon had felt in his 300-year-long return– the "reconnection" that eased the most troubled of spirits.
Amidst the confusion that surrounded you both, Jing Yuan remained on bended knees, cherishing the sight, grateful for the opportunity to witness your enchanting presence once more.
He finally saw your eyes.
And you finally saw him.
With a heart brimming with emotions, Jing Yuan whispered:
"You are as stunning as ever, My Lord. Even in this new timeline, your beauty is unmatched– the most gorgeous person in the universe." His voice carried the weight of longing.
You jolted. There was something in your expression that made his hopes bubble up more. Was it a glint of remembrance? Did you retain your memories since birth as he did? He was uncertain but his grip on you tightened.
“I missed you so much,” he said almost inaudibly. “It’s overwhelming.”
No one spoke as the general looked at you without any intention to be the first to break eye contact. Everyone invited was too stunned to move or resume the song. Most notably, Qingque was preparing to sneak out in fear of more work while Sushang took out her notebook, scribbling notes on how to "paralyze" onlookers in what she dubbed as "The General Jing Yuan style". Only Tingyun was animated in the sense that she was willing to hand the intruder a phony smile and mouth the words "What are you doing here?" behind your back.
But there's always a true oddball waiting to bounce amongst a sea of people. And in this case, it was the "not born yesterday" trailblazer, Caelus.
Unpredictable as he is, he joined in on the “farce.” He puffed his chest and strode large steps to reach where Tingyun, you, and Jingyuan were. Caelus fixed his sleeves and coughed loudly, which brought nearly everyone's attention to him except for the lovestruck General.
And then, he brazenly declared:
“AND I AM DAN HENG,” he mimicked his crewmate’s voice. “ALSO KNOWN AS COLD DRAGON YOUNG.”
Pause.
People started snorting, no longer stiff. Qingque quietly muttered with a hand slowly letting go of the doorknob that it must’ve been just a “bit” to liven up the party. Eventually, that became everyone's final interpretation.
That… effectively switched the mood.
“W-What?” That flicker in your eyes was gone in an instant.
You shook your head.
“Seriously? What’s going on?! Stop! You’re all being silly!!!”
For a moment, you contemplated throwing a spoon in Caelus’ direction but decided against it. Caelus is a friend of yours and you will not put a strain on that relationship on your birthday. But this guy? Who?
You tore your hands away from Jing Yuan, which effectively broke his heart.
“And WHO are you anyways?!”
Tingyun laughed, hard. Both you and Jing Yuan didn't notice her, so she brought attention to herself. The amicassador, whom you nearly forgot was with you from all the ruckus, tapped your shoulder with a shrewd grin.
“Love, I have a guess as to why he introduced himself like that, but for now, that’s General Jing Yuan.”
“Okay, Mister Jing Yuan–” you started, barely threatening despite your hesitant intentions to make him uneased. “Let’s talk outside– wait.”
Your head snapped back at Tingyun.
“Babygirl, did you just say General Jing Yuan?” You gawked.
“Like, THE Dozing General, Jing Yuan?” You turned your back on him, discreetly whispering and pointing. “The one you sold overpriced photocards of?”
Tingyun hid her mouth behind her fan.
Sure, you’re not a big fan of draining your social battery so much that you’ll remember everyone’s faces, but how come you only remembered who he was based on how Tingyun exploited his looks?
“Pff– Yes, that’s him. That's the one, love. Welcome to (Y/n)’s birthday party, General!”
Caelus stood beside Jing Yuan, shaking his head. “No. That is not General Jing Yuan! That is–... Err– I didn’t get his new name. What did you say your name was, General?”
“No, no way,” Sushang cut in, slightly pushing the trailblazer. “You’re not Dan Heng! And that’s definitely General Jing Yuan, one of the seven Arbiter-Generals!!!”
Sushang then bowed to the general, spouting apologies and greetings in one incoherent jumble. Since it was Sushang who said it, you were 100% convinced this man is an important figure… and you also 100% got yourself a headache.
"Haaaaah…?!"
You brought your attention back to Jing Yuan, who diligently awaited any of your instructions like a pup. You squinted as you tried to make out what a general could possibly want with you on your birthday of all days. Then, you recalled what he called you.
That's... Not your current name.
"Weird..." You muttered.
You took a deep breath, terrified of your next course of action but deemed it necessary for the festivities to resume. The chair squeaked as you stood from your seat, staring nervously at the general. You seriously don’t want to talk to a stranger one-on-one.
"L-Let's talk outside."
Jing Yuan perked up.
"Of course, My Lord."
"Why are you calling me–" Whispers started making rounds as soon as Jing Yuan spoke those words. You shouted, panicking. "I'M NOT HIS LORD OR ANYTHING IMPORTANT, I PROMISE!!!"
That didn't seem to clear any suspicions but at least you made an attempt. You grabbed Jing Yuan's hand and led him outside, failing to see him smile like a dog as he thought about how you were both holding hands.
Outside, it was silent.
The party went on without its birthday celebrant and "heckler." Notably, Tingyun's playing host, and her voice can be heard from your location. Jing Yuan crossed his arms while you leaned on the wall. Both of you were waiting for the other to initiate the conversation. Although you can start the conversation, it’s not something you prefer to do. Eventually, the general couldn't stand the silence any longer.
"████████–"
"Sir–"
You both awkwardly paused. Honestly, you weren't planning on saying anything, you spoke by mere instinct.
Jing Yuan shook his head.
"You go first, My Lord."
"... W-Why are you calling me that?"
For a moment, his lips curled into a frown but he was not quick enough to hide it from you. He smiled politely and bowed with a hand on his chest.
"Because you are my prince–" Jing Yuan added with a mutter. "At least, you were mine for just a small fraction of that ephemeral life."
You swore you heard those words from somewhere.
Did you say them before?
"... Which one?"
He stood up straighter. His posture was enough to indicate that he is indeed a general. "Which what? Would you kindly elucidate me more?"
"Which one of my retainers were you?"
Jing Yuan's face brightened.
"You can recall–!"
"Not much, to be honest," you laughed, strained. "And I'm sorry if that question was rude. Tingyun– well, we both knew her as my Empress– told me that our physical attributes are very similar to the ones we have in our previous lives, but I was blind before. And your voice is unfamiliar."
Tingyun's… the Imperial Court Princess?
The same woman he sacrificed his life to save?
“... I see… So that’s why you called her ‘babygirl’...” Jing Yuan spoke bitterly.
Who is he kidding? Of course, you've moved on.
And he's here. Foolishly awaiting no one. A lion had more luck than him in both lives.
You continued.
"So… forgive me for my lack of– whatever words I used to have back then. I'm just not royal as I used to be. I-I like being casual.” you chuckled nervously. “But w-who are you? A-Are you ██?”
“... I have never heard that name before.”
“W-Welp, I guess you’re not my childhood babysitter huh?” You joked, mildly disappointed. “Poor ██, I hope you’re not dead yet in this world.”
Jing Yuan’s face crumpled in confusion.
“Why would you assume that I’m ██?”
“Same hair, and you reincarnated waaayyy before me and Tingyun s-so I was just trying to figure out who died before we did.”
“████.” Jing Yuan closed his eyes, pained. “████ died before you did.”
Why haven't you mentioned his old name?
“Yes, ████…” Your eyes softened and your next words sounded broken. “Of course, that’s… unfortunately… true…but if you knew him, I guess that just means you’re someone I knew in my late twenties.”
You smiled. “████… I still hope he’s out there. I miss him a lot.”
That smile.
That was the smile he had not seen in his last days. From the last secret meeting they shared, the prince’s smile and laughter seemed rather distant, devoid of life. This time, it was the polar opposite. He felt the same affection the prince once gave to his beloved retainer.
With eyes looking back at the party, your tone has shifted from tender to authoritative, truly deserving of the title once bestowed upon you.
“Jing Yuan, I do not know who you were in my first life, but I will say this–
“Back then, I couldn’t reveal this, but I will tell everyone I will reunite with now. There’s no one else I loved romantically more than ████.” You glared at him. “He has always been there for me– and he will forever be someone dear to me.”
You were no longer nervous. You did not care that he was a stranger– you didn’t care about the prejudice that might follow. You were going to speak your truth. No matter what.
“I don’t give a damn if you’re an Arbiter-General. If you cannot respect that love, then do not call me your prince. That’s all.”
…
…
You were expecting another rant about honor like what another reincarnated nobleman whose name you never bothered to remember had done or a “who cares” and an “I knew since the beginning” like your royal jade specialist, ███ or Qingque, had said.
But his response baffled you more.
“Thank you.”
Seeing Jing Yuan smile proudly with tears forming in his eyes was the last thing you expected.
“A-And I still love you too.”
…
…
…
“Baozi…?” Your eyes widened.
“Baobei…” Jing Yuan reached for your hand again. “As I announced proudly earlier, I fulfilled my promise.
I found you again. In another life.”
You wish you could say you had a brilliant time after that revelation. You wish you could say you went back to Tingyun and giddily told her everything. You wish you could say you returned home with a smile on your face.
But no. You were too mentally and socially spent as a result of the unanticipated events. It brought back vivid memories of how, in a previous life, you would retreat to your room after banquets to avoid further conversations. Realistically, the only course of action that could have been taken after that was for you to ask him for his contact information and request some time to gather your thoughts because despite how wonderful it was to see the person you loved most after 250 years and more, the mechanical hands continue to haunt you.
Jing Yuan has existed and will continue to exist for a very long time. The same cannot be said for you.
But despite delaying all interactions, his invitations never ceased. On the first day, he tried to invite you to the Divine Seat of Foresight using Qingque– but she forgot about that task and only told you about it in the middle of a game. On the second day, he wrote you a letter stating that you were always welcome to visit him and that you have full access to all rooms (his trust for you concerned Yukong.) And yesterday, Tingyun implied that Mimi wanted to see you, joking about how it’s about time you adopt a lion.
And today, he is at your door, holding a bouquet.
You can't delay this anymore.
“I-I’m sorry, baozi, but I don’t think we should talk.”
“How so?” Jing Yuan raised an eyebrow, not irritated but genuinely confused. “We’re finally together– you and I— unless…”
He looked down. In an instant, you knew he was thinking about Tingyun– rather– your past Empress. Who you never had feelings for and never consummated the marriage with. And she’d say the same about you.
“Oh, no, no, no, no,” you shook your head. “We’re not together. Nope. No way.”
“Are you certain?”
“Obviously, duh!” You said. Curiously enough, you sounded very annoyed at that. “If it’s because of that babygirl thing– dude, I swear, that was a joke cause everyone thinks we’re in love so we’re just playing along as a joke like we used to when we were quote-unquote ‘married’ and– man, why am I explaining this? Welp, I’ll try to shut up now.”
You put your head in your hands, which would’ve normally made Jing Yuan laugh, but he was more concerned than anything.
“Then why are you being deterred?”
“It’s just,” you sighed, giving up. “I’m a Foxian.”
“And so?”
“My life… is relatively brief compared to yours.”
You held his hands, slowly tracing his palms.
“I’ve heard of snippets of your life on the streets. I heard you got statues of your deceased lion when it died.”
You looked up, smiling sadly. It reminded him so much of the expression you’d wear when the ministers have shared intel regarding casualties. He never enjoyed gazing at that look.
“Other than the fact I kinda don’t want a statue of me inside the Divine Seat of Foresight,” you joked. “I don’t want to make you feel the same pain or worse.”
“I’m 250 years old. If I’m lucky and if I take care of myself better, add 150 more and that will be the end of it.” You explained. “Just that... You're a human that can live for millennia, and I can only live till 400."
You took a sharp breath. At the time, he could only hear you and your movements, the sounds of your neighborhood were non-existent.
"Wouldn't being with me just make you sad in the end? My life is just like Snowmoon. I don't want to know that being with me will just make your heart break." You laughed cheaply.
"Wouldn't that make me selfish?"
Jing Yuan did not speak. Instead, he grabbed you by the waist and encircled his strong arms around you. In an instant, you felt the urge to cry. You had never been attached to a person quite like him and to know that he feels the same feels painful somehow. Aware of your weakness, you know that emotions can be sometimes hard to understand for you, but that doesn't make you unemotional.
"No. No, you're not. And you never will be for wanting to love again," he spoke, sounding breathy yet low. "It would be more selfish if you to deny this happiness for the both of us."
"Did you fully comprehend how long I've waited for us to reunite? Do you understand how every action I've taken that led us to this point was so that I could see you again? Speak to you again? Touch you again?" Jing Yuan shook his head slowly.
"No. Letting me go on living without you is not only selfish, it is cruel. There is no competition, being with you, even if our time together is but another brief moment like our last rendezvous in the forest, is much more preferable than never seeing you again."
In those excruciating three days of reluctance, those were the words you were hoping to hear from him. And he delivered more.
Your worries were for nothing. You were trying to be “mature”, steeling your resolve for when he’ll “inevitably face the music” and “live to be happy” without pursuing you in this life.
You can’t hold it back any longer. Tears of happiness trickled down your cheeks, and you buried your face in his chest, holding him as tightly as he held you. In that quiet moment of reconnection, your love was reciprocated, and the fear that had held you back was gone, replaced by a profound sense of contentment and belonging.
“Y-You know…”
You had a wet-faced yet wide grin as you slithered a hand on the back of his head, untying his red ribbon. You were kind of proud of yourself for nicknaming him Baozi. With that white hair, he does look like a steamed bun.
Slowly, you cupped his cheek and tilted his face slightly downwards.
“I’ve heard from my fellow Foxians that moles are where your lover from a past life enjoyed kissing you,” you traced his left cheek with your thumb. “What do you think?”
Jing Yuan blushed.
It was unspoken, but it made him happy nonetheless.
You’re letting him love you.
There is no greater joy to be had in his life than to be yours again.
“W-Well, I’d say we proved that myth to be true–” he cleared his throat. “Given how obsessed you were with kissing the spot below my eyelid.”
“So true,” you hummed. “You’re very pretty, Jing Yuan. I wish I could’ve seen how beautiful you are before.”
He was meant to joke about how he would always guide your face to his lips so that you wouldn’t “miss”, but Jing Yuan couldn’t help but melt at your words.
“You’re too wonderful, baobei.”
“I know.”
Jing Yuan chuckled heartily.
“I see your sense of humor is intact.”
You scoffed and quickly stuck your tongue out in a playful quip.
"My humor didn't remain– it evolved– and you got a character arc too didn't you? You went from not liking lions to owning TWO. T-W-O. Way before I got a hand on one as well. Don’t think I forgot about that bet, Mr. ████. You seriously owe me 200 wu zhus."
"I've certainly grown mundane–" Upon realizing what you fully said, he paused and laughed. "–Haha! Sharp as ever. Unfortunately, my lord, finding the old currency would be a tall task. How about 40,000 strales?"
“Hmm… Not a very convincing equivalent exchange.” You shrugged. “You know what? I may not be the brightest math person since I’ve been skipping it for music lessons, but with a bet taking this long, surely we have to consider the interest rate, right? How about adding a wedding ring? ”
His heart skipped a beat.
Jing Yuan pulled you closer.
"... Always with a follow-up argument, but I shall go along with this. After all, I’ve always fantasized about saying…"
The general smiled as he buried his face in the crook of your neck, locking your hands together with his. Jing Yuan, ████— whatever his name is— felt safe and warm in your presence as he kissed your neck.
Finally, a domestic life. A life where they can both say:
“Baobei, I’m home.”
有情人终成眷属
The Lovers are Finally Together; All Shall Be Well.
#ansy-writes#honkai: star rail#honkai: star rail x reader#jing yuan#tag: misaligned strings jing yuan#jing yuan x reader#honkai star rail#jing yuan imagines#hsr#honkai: star rail fanfic#fluff#not yandere lol#honkai star rail x reader#hsr x reader#jing yuan x you#jing yuan hsr#honkai jing yuan#reader insert#x reader#honkai star rail imagines#honkai star rail x you#hsr x you
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Hello! I love your art so much! Your cult of the lamb stuff has really inspired me and has pumped me up and I’m trying to basically re learn how to draw again! Do you have any advice for a fellow artist and how to approach story telling? :D
anon its been like a good while since this message has been sent (I think? based off all the homophobic crown asks this was wedged btwn) and WAHHH im so happy for you, I hope youre enjoying your reentry into art C:
first and foremost, try to enjoy the process rather than the end result. a much wordier explanation in this post (X)
theres also the discipline aspect of it, you need to be pretty concious of balancing learning with enjoyment (and you can absolutley have that balance without thinking about it). but I find a lot of new/learning artists get easily discouraged when a piece doesnt pop out exactly how they imagined it. I have a secret, lets be realistic, none of my pieces do lol. expectation is the killer of art imo, just go with the flow of enjoyment and learn what you can to become better at it. get used to adapting often.
even if you arent always studying (dont make it boring for yourself now), just you constantly drawing will improve your art, but dont expect to notice an improvment with every piece, its an incremental process and youll have bad days. just focus on the journey not the destination is what im getting at.
REFERENCE!!! its a beautiful, beautiful thing, anyone telling you its cheating is a silly billy who needs to learn. look up artists you admire, try to figure out how they tackle a piece, examine photos that you think are beautiful. just collect different pieces of reference, and try making a piece based off of them, a fun excercise. it'll improve your art.
as for the story aspect of this, im ngl, Im still learning myself. my main rule of thumb is "if i want to see this, someone else out there will too." so dont get discouraged by thinking no one will want to see your story idea.
I'm constantly adding story ideas to my notes to save for later, idk bout you, but I WILL forget the idea if I dont write it down immediatley (built worse), and if you have a mental image of it make sure to add very vague stage direction to supplement it, dont get too detailed tho, youll be changing alot. if youre anything like me -pepaw brained- try to keep in the habit of that. some storyboarding tips for staging tips and reference (X)
from there, I'll take a key moment -money shot or emotional moment- of the story, and base the rest of the comic around that image -> how I tackle formatting and making a comic (X).
the best way to learn is by doing, and failing and learning from that. so dont sike yourself out when you get there and it doesnt turn out as expected, it might be something so much better, thats the fun of it (:
I hope this helped, sorry im a yapper!
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im srsly begging for the dialogues to be kinda repeatitive bc i kept misclicking and end up skipping the convo and now their Drama and Dragon or something is being led by Snicklefritz 😭
(spoiler?)
i also want drunk march to repeatedly ask me to sit with him and this time im also gonna join him screaminh AWOO on the top of my lung! AWOO WOO WOOOOOO!!!!
whats that abt rock olric? idgi but lets stare at them tgt all day long! can i romance you
holt, hit me with those puns again, hahaaa im giggling man. nora used to be rough on you as a kid and now you're married and you thought she was cute? fucking adorable man. couple goals.
reina, you can make a pie out of me idk what im saying girl but you make it work
barol, no notes.
eiland, just give me the entire cake actually, i was just being shy.
adaline, would you want me to fetch you another weirdly perfect square rock so you can sit on it and think? i'll do it
valen and juniper, i think you guys should kiss.
dell's right terithia, why havent we catch any shark yet? ..you used to sleep with a spear when you're a soldier, and now you use it to catch fish...,? oh.. um wow,, haha
dozy thank you for understanding me when i backed up from taking that bath :'D
henrietta how abt a day care with me? girls sleepover?
hemlock should've been single ngl he's kinda my type.
jo just kept telling me abt me and my pep steps tbh idk what she meant by that ig im happy to see you happy watching me walk
'lo aunty elsie, whats the goss this afternoon
IS ERROL AND THERATHIA HAVE SOMETHING GOING ON BETWEEN THEM WHAT DID I MISS
i dont think caldarus ever say the same thing ever?? literally his dialogue is different everyday, and if i repeat the day, he repeats it too, its not randomized? oh hey, you like the rainfall in autumn? me too brother. i'll sit with you. oh btw i made you a shrine- wanna hug? please please please ple
ryis haha you're so handsome wow. giving you a rock is going above and beyond? let me scour that mines for you. lets work on mistria tgt for the rest of our life. uncle landen, if you will?
yes, hayden, your tiddis huge. now stay still i need to draw them realistic style
celine, original flavor. i got nothing for her except that she loves flowers
idk how to approach maple im not very into roleplay. BG ROYAL DECREE I DECLARE..... that mayhaps she could run mistria one day
BUT MOST IMPORTANTLY i want luc to tell me facts abt bugs AGAIN. like yes. tell me, how that bug's color is blue and who's it trying to impressed? oh you're impressed? yayyyy! bees have 5 eyes? heck yeah, that kinda freaks me out a little but you made it such a fun fact! i mean he's just so wholesome and little oh my god he's just baby
#sry i didnt mean to geek out#fields of mistria#who do i tag#these tags are long as hell im just gonna go with their names#olric#barol#juniper#march#reina#celine#eiland#adeline#hayden#ryis#valen
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im fangirling over all of your fics ngl.... could you maybe write something fluffy for chaeyoung? like reader meeting her for the first time in an art exhibition and then silly little sapphics falling in love
aesthete
son chaeyoung x fem!reader
summary: meeting you was just a coincidence. or was it fate?
cw: cute lesbians, men dni
wc: 1.9k
a/n: i’m sorry this took so long to get out, buttt here it is! sapphics crushing on each other and falling in loveeee
you always loved coming to the art museum down the street during your lunch break.
it was a slower day than usual that day, so your boss let you have an extra hour off.
the exhibits had new pieces put in every friday and you loved being able to be one of the first few people to see them.
it was a weekly thing for you — coming to the museum to admire the featured works from small upcoming artists.
you always failed to notice the one girl admiring you though.
she had her eyes on you like you were a new art piece, examining your features from afar.
your hands were stuffed into both pockets of your half zipped up hoodie as you strolled across the floor, taking in each detail of every frame in front of you.
she came here just as often as you did, using it as an excuse to catch glimpses of you.
the girl was anxious and fidgety compared to your somber and peaceful demeanor. her antsy energy collided with your tranquil one across the room as she worked up the courage to come up to you and start a conversation.
thoughts of a public rejection and humiliation clouded her mind and filled her ears with responses that haven’t even been uttered yet, but nonetheless, she had a little hope that it could go well.
her hands were clammy as she rubbed them together restlessly, the sound of her heart beating at the speed of light replacing the previous scenarios.
she felt her footsteps grow heavier with every step she took closer to you, approaching you like you were a radioactive substance.
you stopped in front of a piece that intrigued you — it was one the artist left for you to interpret in different ways, just how you liked it.
as you studied the meanings of the painting, you looked to your left and saw a pretty girl standing next to you.
she was shorter, her long hair covering some of her features, and her simple dress outfit with a black coat over it drawing a smile out of you.
the girl turned her head to you and froze seeing your smile, awkwardly smiling back and shying her face away.
you watched her slightly rock back and forth on her heels and glue her eyes to the wood floor below you, wondering what’s got her so worked up.
“i really love this piece. i love the way the artist has multiple things going on to make one big picture. what do you think?”, you blurted out to fill the silence.
the girl shot her head up and flipped her gaze between you and the piece on the wall which she couldn’t care less for right now, hurriedly looking for something she can relate with.
“y-yeah, i really like the.. the details.. and the way you can see a different like scene.. if you just look at it from a different perspective.”, the girl was visibly nervous, her tone further proving it.
“exactly! i think perspective is so important in art. it shapes your view of every work you come across and how it should be interpreted, you know?”
you were glad to have someone you could share your love in art with, even if she’s a little confusingly timid.
the girl cleared her throat and nodded her head excessively, “right yeah, i know, it’s a different meaning for everyone. for me i think the piece represents the beauty of falling in love and how it unfolds.”
you smiled and tilted your head curiously, her response being exactly the one you wanted to hear.
“wow, that’s actually crazy”, you said, laughing slightly.
“what is?”, the girl answered hesitantly.
“i see the piece the exact same way. the way it shows the first stages of falling in love with someone. like here’s the infatuation stage and the euphoria of it. that’s why this part is a little messy”, you slid one hand out of your pocket to point at the area you were talking about, “it represents the blurry feeling you get when you’re in that state.”
you turned to look at the girl and observed her reaction, stuffing your hand back into the pocket it was in.
she was already staring at you when you looked back, probably not even focused on anything you just said.
she smiled and silently agreed with you, nodding her head again and scanning her eyes over your face — almost like she was in some sort of infatuation stage.
“yeah.. i feel the same way.”, her doe eyes locked onto yours, entrancing you.
there was a pause in the air, both of you only focused on each other.
“i’m.. i’m y/n.”
you turned your body to fully face her, holding out your hand to shake hers.
she reached her own hand up to meet with yours, the both of you grasping each other in a firm handshake.
“i’m chaeyoung.”
your eyes didn’t leave hers yet, too scared they might disappear if you looked away.
“it’s nice to meet you, chaeyoung.”
chaeyoung’s hands were soft and warm, but not too warm and not too cold either.
she let her grip on your hand go, ending the handshake, but you wished it didn’t end there.
“it’s nice to meet you too, y/n. would you maybe wanna.. grab a coffee with me? there’s a small cafe just down the street.”, chaeyoung almost regretted asking, mentally punching herself to prepare for your rejection.
“yeah! i would love to.”
she raised her eyebrows slightly in shock, shaking her head to refocus.
“okay.. okay! come on, i’ll lead us there.”, she said, motioning for you to follow her.
as you two walked down the street, you both engaged in light small talk, getting to know each other beyond your shared love for art.
“so.. do you come to the museum often?”
of course chaeyoung knew you came often. every friday at around 12 pm. she just didn’t wanna look like some complete freak who stalked you.
“yeah i do actually, i come during my lunch break since i work not too far from here. what about you?”
“i go sometimes to destress from work and whatnot, it’s a nice way to get my mind off of things i guess.”, she said, shrugging.
you hummed in response, slightly upset that she seemed to have a lot on her shoulders.
the two of you arrived at the entrance of the cafe, chaeyoung speeding up a bit to open the door for you.
you giggled at her kind gesture, thanking her and holding the door for her on your way in.
as you ordered your drink at the counter, she was just as attentive as the barista taking your order, silently telling herself to memorize it and bring it for you the next time you meet.
you two sat down at a table in a far corner, sipping your drinks and continuing your conversation beforehand.
when you got lost in explaining some work drama to chaeyoung, she pulled out a pen and started scribbling on a blank napkin.
after you finished your rambling and looked at chaeyoung, you saw her constantly looking up at you and back down to her napkin, her pen moving skillfully.
“okay, done! sorry, you just looked really pretty, i had to draw this moment before it went away.”
chaeyoung slid the napkin across the table and you finally got to see what she had been working on when you were going off about your dumb coworker.
it was a sketch of you, arm on the table with your chin resting on your palm. she managed to perfectly capture the way your hair was styled, the way your smile shined, even down to the rings you wore on your fingers.
“wow, chaeyoung this is amazing.. how did you even draw this so fast?”, you said, amazed at her skill as you examined the intricate details she put into it.
“it’s pretty easy when your muse is nice to look at.”
you couldn’t control your burning cheeks and forming smile at her flirty remarks anymore, tilting your head down to hide your face.
chaeyoung wasn’t lying either. she thought you were the prettiest girl she had ever laid eyes on, and she was glad she finally took her chance and talked to you.
hearing your passion about art was the cutest thing ever to her. your genuine love for it attracted her to you more than she could imagine.
she wanted to know everything about you.
more than just the way you perceived the world, more than your coffee order, more than what irritated you about incompetent people at work.
she wanted to know what made you feel most loved. what it would be like to come home to you.
“whatever.. my turn to draw you now.”, you said, still giggling like an idiot.
you reached over to grab her pen off the table and took the napkin from under your cup to scribble your own sketch of her.
chaeyoung watched you patiently and noticed the way you hid your “drawing” with your free hand, slightly furrowing her eyebrows in confusion.
“aaand done! do you like it?”
you slid your napkin over to chaeyoung and observed her as she looked over the piece of paper.
the fact is, you didn’t draw anything special at all.
your idea of a sketch of chaeyoung was writing your phone number down and drawing hearts and smiley faces everywhere.
chaeyoung broke out into laughter at your antics, rubbing her thumb over the material.
“i do, i really like it.”
you reached into your pocket to check the time on your phone, realizing you had about 10 minutes to walk back to work.
slightly saddened, you put your phone away and held your face in both of your hands on the table this time, beaming at chaeyoung.
“well i have to get back to work, but make sure you interpret that drawing reeeally carefully, it’s an important one.”, you said, scooting your chair back to stand up and grabbing your drink.
“oh i will, don’t worry. i’ll be sure to consider every single detail.”, chaeyoung said as she watched you grab your things.
you laughed at her playing along, “i’ll see you next friday then?”
chaeyoung smiled and dropped her hands to her lap, still holding onto your art piece.
“next friday it is.”
you nodded and smiled at chaeyoung one last time, walking towards the door and looking back to mouth a “call me” and gesture a phone with your pinky and pointer fingers.
chaeyoung chuckled and watched as you headed back to your regular life.
when you completely disappeared from view out the window, chaeyoung drew her eyes back to the napkin in her lap, inspecting it again and scoffing to herself with a big smile on her face.
moments of your hour together flashed through her mind, making her blush as she pulled out her phone and went to her messages.
she typed your number in, making sure she didn’t miss a single digit.
chaeyoung was twiddling her thumbs over her screen, figuring out the perfect thing to text you.
she tapped the sides of her phone while she attempted to think of something, slowly growing frustrated with herself.
and the best thing she came up with?
hiii it’s chaeyoung :p
#twice imagines#twice x reader#twice fluff#kpop x reader#kpop gg#chaeyoung x reader#chaeyoung fluff#son chaeyoung
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GENLOSS FOUNDERS CUT THOUGHTS
i want to make it so so clear i don’t want to dunk on genloss. this is my braindump and i LOVED genloss. please support young creators as they grow and improve i beg of thee
im putting this under a cut because i expect it to be long 😭
❤️ - negative
💚 - positive
💙 - neutral
💚 once again reminded how much ranboo’s acting has improved since dsmp <3
💚 AND a fantastic reminder of how great the other actors are!!!! all the deaths still hurt and the security officers did SO SO GOOD
💚 i love that hetch is more evil now. hurts even more watching hetch manipulate ran even harder up to his death
💚 ranboo has survivor’s guilt :’[ god him slowly accepting it was his fault (even though it WASNT) broke me
💚❤️ i think redubbing certain parts makes sense, but for some reason it was just really obvious during niki’s intro?? it felt so jarring
💙 ngl i paused the premiere to catch the qr code. in my defence i was about half an hour behind already :’]
❤️ GOD i wish we saw more of the carousel folks. so much time spent on setting up mousetrap, so little on them. is that in of itself a commentary? genuine question i do not know
❤️ also i am so sad we didn’t see more of austin’s “hey what the fuck is happening.” there was plenty of it but i want MORE
❤️💙 and i wish there was a little more time on ethan’s fashion show simply because it is funny
💚 the play on words with austin being the straight man is still fantastic
💚 someone else pointed this out (i’m not sure who i saw it from first but i’ll find them) but hetch near exclusively calling ranboo “hero” is such a good detail. not their name, but their character
💙 i forgot about the charlie stream! but honestly i would fully believe that is something charlie would just Do
❤️ I WANT MORE SNEEGGGGGG WHERE WAS HE
💚 the ART!! the DESIGNS of the devices!! adds so much to the story and i’m so glad they were shared. such fantastic art too!!
❤️ the create-a-creature kinda came out of nowhere, i was so confused and i wish there was a bit more buildup
💙 about hetch saying they aren’t themselves anymore: how many times can the actors get tortured and brainwashed before they stop being themselves? how much of them can be taken and replaced before it stops being them? (theseus’s ranboo)
💚 I LOVED THE SQUIGGLES ANIMATIONS!!!! SO GOOD I NEED TO FIND MORE OF THE CREATOR’S WORK
❤️ i might have missed it so correct me if i’m wrong but i don’t think we had the wide shot of the hero-kill-inator or whatever and i WISH we did because it goes so hard
💚 in terms of ending changes, i loved both endings!! both so good for different reasons, and the “thank you” KILLS ME IM SO SORRY BOO I HOPE YOU CAN JOIN YOUR FRIENDS IN THE CANON AFTERLIFE
💙 actually only hell is canon. maybe heaven just Doesn’t Exist. only suffering
💚❤️ at some points i thought the gore was great and at some points i wanted MORE. all the blood seeping out from under the doors, the room they haven’t “reset” yet, the guts instead of food were all great. but i wanted more of surgery charlie’s suffering to contrast the absurdity and just generally more carnage
❤️ i also wish there was more audio gore with austin & sneeg’s deaths. the wall just kind of Stops with no indication of them being crushed and its not apparently obvious that they died
💚 gen zero preview!!! i’m so excited, wondering who will be brought in for that one
💚 hearing the echos of “just let me die” in the beginning was haunting, fantastic stuff loved it
💚 HOW DID I FORGET THE PHOTOS THAT WAS SO GOOD ARE THOSE REAL BABY RANBOO PHOTOS?? INCREDIBLE
💚 overall i quite enjoyed the founder’s cut! can’t wait to see what comes next and i’m so proud of ranboo!!
💙 what is it with media about content creator self inserts that suffer immensely with little to no comfort that draws me in so? why has this happened so many times??
#lark’s posts#generation loss#genloss#ranboo#i am so open to discussion on this i need to talk about this so bad#also forgot to mention but damn we’ve come a long way from “family friendly
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