#i dotn even know what was going on with me??

[the-kneesbees]

i dont think ive ever cried harder in my life than when i watched marys death in anne with an e and im not even exaggerating

[rusty-gloinks]

Another reason why I think the Pomni sacrifice will become a thing is because I’m 99% certain the show takes inspo from Madoka Magica. Specifically the cycle of humans turning into supernatural beings, then turning into eldritch horrors when they get too stressed. Wanna know what happens at the end of Madoka? The lead sacrifices herself :3

WHAT

[elegyofthemoon]

reading springfest now after everything in nagazora is making me crave more fu hua and mei interactions. i feel like thus far in my go through, i've never actually seen them interact, but it's kinda fun that the person who made the recommended reading order put springfest after nagazora (though of course this is probably in preparation for whatevers going on with senti/fu hua rn in ch 19)

but the way that the empyrea isolates herself so she doesn't have any attachment to those who she will outlive and how she winds up becoming lonely as a result threw me back to mei isolating herself in world serpent so that she can protect kiana and just... idk..... i think the two talk about that isolation would be interesting

also. i love fu hua. she's still at the top of my list for best character so i'm just a happy little guy getting more fu hua content now in the story :> yippee fu hua

[ceolocunt]

[anonymouscheeses]

Bonus under cut vvv

Later that same day:

And... I made an Emily redesign too...... *sniff sob /j* it's not final (like all my redesigns) I'm just trying get better at this design stuff and where better to do it except my current fixation ehhh?????

Long Emily design explanation/rant thing ignore it probably but pls dotn im desperate: I wanted to make her more round and soft cuzzz I love those typa designs I'm just a sucker for circle characters. Made her actually black and not fuckin gray cuz its a transformation to look more human and gentle(for me they go between two forms, their true ones that we see the first time we see them snd their human/softer ones if they ever interact with actual humans which... they usually dont.) Not a demon form tfff. In this version I wanted to put Emily in animal inspired features like... the sheep nose, ears, and hooves. Because she and Sera know that humans and about all beings love animals. Birds have sharp features mostly so they don't look as welcoming as they want to seem. I wanted Emily to look sheep likes and pretty much all the seraphim look more sheep like to make Lucifer stand out as the only one who was symbolized as a snake/goat(still don't know if I'll make him goat or make Lillith goat. I'll decide when I get there lmao). Justtt overalll wanted Emily to look more round, welcoming, and cute. I kept the freckles lighter than her skin color(even tho that's SUPER not accurate to what actually black people look like with freckles but whatevr) because it reminded me of fawns and.... sure Emily is a sheep but I still wanted to incorporate other cute animal traits with her cyz y not.

[suenitos]

let's show each other some love! name one or a couple mutuals who you appreciate and say a nice thing about them and/or name some account you like that you want to say some nice words about!!

pelsae dotn do this to me i always hate that i miss people when i do this 😞 @froggyrights2 one of my first very dear mutuals who has mostly been in greener pastures lately but i love you dearly always @dteamforever we dont talk a ton but i think your art is super underrated and i think you are really cool gensrs @spacemilkbag you basically run theeeee archive everrr to me especially with art and i think you are so awesome you dont even know @purpleglitch my child and fellow cdnf warrior to the end.. @dreamiara i mean come on. you will always be famous but also youre very sweetie and funny

@semiarch i just love seeing you on dash and seeing how your life is going which sounds strange but idk i just mean youre awesome in general @sappymix1 one of the writers everrr and just so so so real always. thank you for being here ily @fujogie my bellogie... despite the rumors you are very kind and i will always appreciate your intelligence and what youve done for the community @404unfortunately one of the golos ever.. love you veri @korogie theeee dnfbaby blog forever. cradling you in my hands every time i see you posting about work srs

@nethermite always very kind and cool especially with your aesthetic on the non fandom blog >_< @georgecunt dreampics. and also i admire how extremely based you are and your sapogieisms @kissuworld my kissituuuu ilyy always very sweet :(( @dnfity also one of theee writers ever and so based im so happy youre still here :( im also cradling you in my hands as well @xomoosexo you are funny and so based thank you for being here and just being cool as hell

@demonstars fork found in kitchen i was going to mention you 🙄 but in all seriousness seriously the kindest person i have ever met and i admire you so much in so many aspects. even if some of our demons dont really align at times i love you and your willingness to hear me out on stuff . great artist, great writer, wonderful friend to all and well i adore youuuu and you are so loved :(

[hotboyfreighttrain]

what if km nonbinary WHAT IF I PIT A FTM STICKER ON MY ED JOURNAL AND NOW THE JOURNAL IS RUIND!!!!!!? I JUST SAW ANOTHER ED PAGE AND ALL THE WKMEN WERE SO BEAUTIFUL I WANT TO LOOK LIKE THAT WGAAAAT!!!! WHAT IF IM DJUST DOING IT TO REBEL NO IM NOTOTTTTT!!!! im not doing it to rebel because i am .iam a man and i always woll be from these past years forward and if tgat is the label then that is ghe label i do NOT FIT IN ANY BOXES ALL THE BOXES ARE NAMED MARLEY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I AM A BOY!!!!!!

but all ive placed my willingness to be a boy is from reading mlm fanfiction sonce i was 12... HARD GAY fanfiction . what if i just grew from that environment th

inking boys love is pure and beautiful it is but what if one day i decide to be an alien then what then what marker would i put on my lisence huh i cant just go out ajd say hey guys im nb now loooollllllll no i am he him .. i am he him and i woll die in this country as a hehim guy do you catch my drift lemel layo

i get so pisy at myself sometkmes i hate on women for NO REASON THATS SO BAD OF ME!!! its all internal of course . what if im trying to deny the little girl in side of me she cant come out.... every time i type a message in third person and mispell he to she i think its a sign from the unievrse saying what i am.... what if one day i dotn want to be a twink.... boy life seems so rigid

.... no i dont want to be some tiktok stereotypical trans man mockery page named frog kai ribbit fucking no i dont want to do any of that!!!!!!! maybe im non binary .. NO OOOO!!!!!!! I DONT WANT TO LOOK LOKE WHATS ON SOCIAL MEDIA yes i do actually because everyone there is so pretty how do they have all that money thats insane .. of course they have begrr jobs than me dont even get me started on that BOYFRIEND reels fhe i feel so insecure about it but now there is a rage in mt hrart that can only be relinquished with the blod of a steait white man with a couple hunneds....

boy life seems so rigid in my head but why does it appear that way to me i dont know maybe its because i live in a christian family yea gods always watching NO idgaf about god i dont care i think that whole relgiion is the downfall of human american society i stand on that rock sorrreyyyyy lolllll but i keep it to myself of course hahaa yes but anwuah i feel like being a boy yes mmasculinity in one neat box but fwmininty in a larger one i just see shit on social media with either big thifhsd women NO I DONT CARE FOR THAT!!!!!!! i gooooooddddfff no i know masuclinity isnt in a box but I CANT HELP TJINKING THAT WAY !!!!!!!! IM TRYING TO STOP and yes i have gotten quite into beinf more acceprivng than what i was in like ninth grade yes i am not perfect yes and living in the reddest most worst GEORGIA ITS FUCKING GEORGIA GEROGIA IS THE WORST STATE TO LIVE IN IF YOU WANT TO BE SLIVHTLY LEFT!!!!! I AM TIRED OF LIVING INT EHS SOUTH yeah hahahaa ohhh country accent YES I HAVE ONE BUT AT WHAT COST!!!!!!

I STILL HAVE INTERNALIZED HOMOPHOBIA IM TRYING TO GET RID OF I FEEL SO ASHAMED ADMITTING THAT

i canthellp feeling worried YES ITS WORRIED NOT HATE ITS JUST A CRINGING WORRY no please men please no ladies dknt kiss in this state please i dont want anyone lookign at you with hate please donntt its becayse these stupid principles they drilled into me. look at me fucking now they literally shamed me for being lgbt since sixth grade get on my fucking level why would you do that to me dad fuck you ughh i love you dad i hate your wife i wish i had really done what you said i was gonna do yeah you know what im fucking talking about you bitch noo no yeah go to the osych ward IT WAS BETTER THAN HOME

i am hidden in this cage uughhhhh heelpopp what if when ig et out i realize i just did it to find sanctuary with the people on my phone THE ONLY REASON I STARTED WANTING TO BE A BOY WAS BECAUSE I THOUGHT MIGUEL OHARA WAS SO PRETTY AND I WANTED TO BE THAT NOT JUST BECAUSE I WANTED TO BE A BOY yes i do want to be a boy but also i feel i am not fit to be 100 percent boy okay iam letting all my thoughts drain out right now so i can not pick them up later do you catch my drift do you catch it catch like the ballwtih the drift ohhhhhhh lolll yes maybe not one hundred percent boy yes but i dont want to yknow actually i think the reason i think this is because of all the we hate men and men do not interact shit on here

because i feel i am predatory following moots and the. posting shit . what. one day i am going to crash kut and do soemthing bad huh twhats gonna happen then NO im not gonna hurt anybody lolllll i dont do that i have self control i hurt myself not others trigger wanrning lollllllll no i do not want to associate with men in my gender identity no yes i actually do so fuck that but i feel bad when i see so many rape statistics i feel so bad i feel gross and sad when women do the whole women empowerment no i just want the attention on me the man not transgender man just me MEEEE JUST ME the man not transgender . i am nto trans im a cis man all along yeah???? no htrickes you but the things id do to be a southern magellan shorts southern row boy ohhh my god my mouth is salivATINGGGGG PLEAAAASEEEEE I NEED T SO BADDDD!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

came to be a boy cause i liekd miguel ohara what the fuck kind of reason is that i mean no it makes sense in the end i always played the boyish role no its because i liked fucking gay fanficiton in a poser lmaooo no im not thats so dumb why am i gaslighting myself its only because i love sabotaging ymself into thinking things km not woaaattt.... go figure...... telling myself repwatedly i hated myself in sixth frade then got a diagnosis woahh yeahp depression isnt a joke lolk where it got you marley look where it got you marley look where it tgot you marley look where it got you marley look where it got you marley

[tojiscrack]

saying this annyoumous bcus like saying I actually rlly like... kamo is scaryy AND I DONT WANNA BETRAY MEGUMI😖😖😖😖 I LOVEE MEGUMII DOTN GET ME WRONGG but likeeeee kamo is just so cute

like him trying to join the school committee (I think that's what's it's called I forgo😭) is just so cutee and im reallyy exicted to see more of them during their tutoring sessions😖💓 but I just KNOWWW I'm gonna be so sad when yk it doesn't work out between them eventually even though im still rooting for megumi😭

ALSO LIKE YN THINKS THAT KAMO LIKES TSUMIKI??? SO IM SCARED CUS LIKE DURING THE SESSION SHE ACKNOWLEDGED THAT BUT WAS STILL KINDA ODD TOWARSS HIM YK

idkkk😭 I'm excited for the next chapter, tho! take careee🐧🐧🐧🐧🐧🐧🐧

GIRL DON’T BE SCARED NO ONE IS GONNA ATTACK YOU FOR THINKING THAT 😟💜

i like to think that the differing views everyone has are just that, differing views. and we’re all a small family (growing day by day — thanks for 400 followers btw!!! 🥳) so no attacking-each-other-because-of-opinions pls 😀

i feel like a mother hen even tho a lot of you are older than me but idc 🙂‍↕️💜

it was the vibe i wanted to go for, like kamo being cute and you being conflicted now ‘cause you want a mercupine endgame 😋 but i underestimated how loyal a lot of you are towards megumi 😀 (like the #kamoisover thing? GUYS 😭)

‘like him trying to join the school committee’ — school committee, student council club, whatever you wanna call it really, but yeah! i initially thought, when writing it, people would be pleased. like i knew who wouldn’t, which is why before the chapter was released, i let everyone know that i think everyone’s gonna hate it, but i didn’t think it’d cause a whole army of militants like damn 😭

‘i’m really excited to see more of them during their tutoring sessions’ — how about OUTSIDE of their tutoring sessions? 👀

jk jk

👀

‘but i just KNOWWW i’m gonna be sad when it doesn’t work between them eventually’

…

just curious, anon, what makes you think mercupine’s endgame? 🌝

i’m not joking around with you guys, the ending has yet to be determined 😀

i have two possible endings i haven’t exactly incorporated into my vision board + plan just yet. i’m still undecided.

if i get a question about it, maybe i’ll elaborate. i’m still unsure, we’ll see :)

BUT YES, SHE ACKNOWLEDGED THE WHOLE TSUMIKI/KAMO THING HAHA 😭 she was a little awkward ‘cause it was one of those ‘ah, he just said smth about him and i when he’s actually seeing one of my family members’, so a little awkward yk?

^ will be addressed soon tho!

i’m excited for the next chapter too! mostly ‘cause you and a few others might like it, and then majority will hate it. we’ll see! <3

TY FOR DROPPING BY! DON’T BE SHY TO USE YOUR URL NEXT TIME, MOTHER HEN WILL DEFEND YOU FROM THE KAMO-HATE-TRAINERS HAHA <333

[mysticalrosemary]

i am really lost regarding manifesting my ex back i broke up with him on 1st august and then we came up with a deal that we'd analyse stuff over us and in a month we'd decide if the break up is permanent or not on 15th of september and for sm reason we didn't get together and since the day we broke up i have been crying, every single day affirming, visualising and doing everything even sats my self concept is pretty good tbh but it' almost been 3 months actually 2.5 or 2.6 months or smtg but yeah i wish to celebrate diwali with him, get back together before 27th of october and end the year with him and do whatever we dreamt of but with each passing day, i feel more and more hopeless, i can't do anything and it's not just him, it's other things too, my dad's promotion and stuff, even that isn't happening even though i have been affirming idk what i am doing, i dont need to tudy, i can get marks wo studying (manifesting) i dread to wake up every single day i wish to talk to him and text him and hug him, but it feels hopeless, it's been so so long, how much longer do i need to suffer?? it's as if, whenever i put uppp a specific dae too, i amm putting muself up for failure now and same goes for meditations where they go ,,he's calling you/ texting you" it's not working lately like, you do all of these things to experience in the 3d right? then why not?? why isn't it happening? ii did give it time i wish to be with him now, right this instant how much longer do i need to wait for everything to shift for my favour? i know everything works for my favour, i do know and it has but when does it change? i do not like this life when? it hurts i want to talk to him, to hug him, now i want us together now before 27th please help please

i dont wish to wake up anymore, sleeping is better than this

and i keep venting about it, which makes me feel better but that's me repeatedly saying the version i dotn like

I would advise you to stop venting about the negative version, as this reinforces the unwanted reality. Instead, I suggest consciously redirecting your focus toward the desired version of your SP. Each time you catch yourself complaining or dwelling on what you don't like, flip it into affirmations that align with what you do want—speak as if the ideal version is already happening. The key is persistence: by consistently affirming the desired outcome, you’ll shift your thoughts and, eventually, your reality to match.

hope this helps love <33

[mayrine]

There is no way the federation doesn’t have some sort of plan for q!bad

Why do they like him so much???

He has done worse things them both Phil and Mike so why not punish him

-Does the federation want bad on their side so that’s why the are playing nice?

That doent make any sense cause first of all it would be much easier to drug him or force him into submission then to just wait for him to join you and second of all Bad is one of the most vocal federation haters and I don’t think the federation is that dumb to hope that he’ll just change him mind

-Is it just an attempt to maybe turn people against bad?

People seeing him not being punished might make them think that he’s an undercover agent for the federation. But that also doesn’t make any sense cause literally everyone one the island trust bad and agin I don’t think think that the federation is dumb enough to think that people will turn on bad

-Maybe bad used to work for the federation and that’s why they’re nice to him?

But they have kidnapped Jaiden before who is also a federation favorite so if that’s true idk why they wouldn’t just also kidnapped bad

Look we know absolutely nothing about the federation. We don’t know any of their plans, we don’t know why they trapped people here, we don’t know what kind of experiments they were/are doing on the eggs, we dotn even know if cucurucho is really the one in control here

But this still is the thing that makes me the most confused

Why do they like bad so much??

Is he really just a “special guest”?

I really want to see if we’re going to get an explanation to why the federation acts so differently to bad then to any other player

[moreofthatdrowse]

JO Survey: What's a favorite JO moment of yours? Could be very small or something big

There were too many good answers in the questions with open answers in my Joker Out Survey, so below the cut are the answers to Question no. 14: What's a favorite JO moment of yours? Could be very small or something big

When bojan exists but also when they sung the boys are back from HSM in an interview in all the languages

Nace & Bojan completing my heart hands thing at a concert :) (& Nace showing the heart on his bass in my direction )

sparklative, the turtle interview, every interaction between jan and nace (it's hard to pick a favourite)

It's so hard to choose! Aside from repeating what I said before, I'll say I love them doing stuff with pride flags during concerts, and them hanging out together during Novi Val. Also them just wearing each others clothes. And the whole thing with Because of You during Eurovision. And Bojan singing Cha Cha Cha. And Tavastia. And Kris during the Katrina video whirling around his jacket. Ok I can't choose and I can go on forever.

When Nace started talking about his turtles

kris being a hater 🫶

how dare you make me pick one smh i guess the performance of novi val in Glasgow with the pride flag i dotn get emotional about artists raising pride flags in general even tho im queer but that specific moment in a CHURCH with THAT song made me sob

I can't choose so I've got 3: 1. WHY THIS HAS BEEN SO HAS BIVEN SPARKLY?! SPARKLING?! SPARKLATIVE?!?!?! 2. the interview where they talk about Nace's turtles ("shiiiit, they don't like to be pet!") 3. every time Bojan and Kris banter with each other 😭 and I saw this irl too when I was at their concert in London and Kris wouldn't stop playing his guitar whilst Bojan was trying to tune his

I've really enjoyed watching the behind the scenes video series' from Eurovision and the tour.

It's a tie between (i) pretty much any interview they've ever done and (ii) the Cvetličarna concert (didn't attend but have watched the footage)

Them comforting Käärijä together after his loss

Bojan's thighs lol

I really like drunk Kris at Barcelona preparty screaming "OH, SSF!" and dancing like the tall tree he is 🤣❤️‍🔥

Their joy in eurovision

"Sparklative"

The moment that Jan signed my jacket

Jan and Nace interacting on stage

Idk i love all the behind the scenes videos?

Them all singing together (see carpe diem series ep 7 amsterdam :D)

The backstage series

The Electric Ballroom gig in London & their reaction when Slovenia entered the grand final at ESC

Jan and Nace playing kazoos in the UK tour ep 2

You expect me to chose?? /j

Every Novi val performance.

anything Jan and Nace get up to tbh

Every moment in that "joker out being bros for 5 min straight" video or wtv or was called. Need friendships like that fr

don't know if it's my favorite moment per se but i do love how they all immeadiately fell in love with jere (käärijä), especially bojan ofc <3

Why has been so sparkling? ✨

Bojan draped in a pride flag in an old church while singing novi val. Top 3 moments to cry about at 3am tbh

The performance of Novi Val in Križanke. Also, this is not a JO moment as such, but a clip where Bojan imitates a german kid telling his mom he wants to jump on the trampoline(?) I'm sorry, but man's funny as fuck, I think about that clip often.

I haven't seen them live yet, so all the best moments are yet to come :)

All of them cuddles

I don’t knoww Maček in a box

kris tilting his head back, eurovision in my city, SEEING THEIR TOUR BUS IN LIVERPOOL WJEN ME AND MY FRIEND WERE OUT IN THE CITY CENTER THE DAY AFTER WE SAW THEM @ MANCHESTER

I don't know yet - there's so many moments! So many smiles and like laying their heads on each others shoulders during concerts and looking out for each other. <3

I liked how promptly they got rid of gregor on a serious level and also on a happy level when they qualified to the Eurovision final

cvetličarna

Bojan and Kaarija’s bromance

I don't know to many options

Love how often TURTOL is brought up. Nace would be proud <3

QUESTIONS 1-11 I QUESTION 12 I QUESTION 13 I QUESTION 14

[permafrown]

🎫🎫 sending gush passes knowing you got 40 more from me. tch if u dotn answer this one ur gay btw

damn I cant believe I was only sent these gush passes 3 minutes ago .. woah .. so glad I'm on time ..

anyway I've been thinking abt banhammer in all his big annoying stupid irritating glory. low-key. on the side

he's so stupiddd

LIKE WHAT IS WRONG WITH HIMMMM .. extremely disrespectful we should kill him .. 40 years old and a momma's boy too.. HE STILL GETS ALLOWANCES !!! grown ass man !!!

ever since a certain someone's post I've thought a few times abt what it might b like to take a bath w/ him .. idk I think he could afford to have a nice big bath like I'm talking whole seperate room sized bath. all that space and he still chooses to sit right next to me like GO AWAYYYYYY

there's no being spatially insecure around this guy. I have one of my weird little moments laying next to him where I'm like ehh maybe i should give him more room and trying to scoot away and with 0 hesitation he's like "where are you going." and pulls me back to hold me tight or even worse MOVES IN AFTER ME so there's like a huge gap in the bed while the two of us look dumb as hell huddled against the wall

god forbid I dont wake him up so I can lay with him and instead choose to lay somewhere else

[kats-kradle]

Hey! Journeying over from rereading your fics to ask you some Poirot questions! : ) Had you already liked Poirot prior to 2017’s Murder on the Orient Express? And did you immediately fall in love with Bouc in the first film or did it take until Death on the Nile?

Hi!! I love talking about Poirot!! Buckle up😂😂

First off I would like to say that it made my day to see that not only did you read my fics but you reread them!! And then you actually came here to talk to me!! You’re the first person who’s actually done that so it really made my day. 

Also: I apologize in advance. When I start talking about Poirot I tend to launch into rants and I… may have done that here so I will say now in case you don’t make it to the end that I would love to hear your thoughts about the movies or anything else Poirot related! Did you know about Poirot before the movie? What are your thoughts about Bouc?

To answer your questions, I guess I could say that technically I liked Poirot before watching the movie. I actually had never heard about Poirot until the movie came out, and one of my sister’s friends took her to see it and then leant her the book. I stole it and read it in almost one night and ever since then have been absolutely enthralled by Agatha Christie! I own almost all of the Poirot books and have been trying to branch out and sample her other writings, but I keep coming back to Poirot. 

By the time Death on the Nile came out I forgot the Bouc was a character who existed because I hadn’t seen MotOE since it came out in 2017. When I saw him, I did remember that he’d been in the last movie, and was absolutely delighted that they were going to turn him into the Hastings of the movies (especially because he was so happy and full of life😭) which of course we all know what happened with that and now that I’ve recovered from my shock and denial I can take a step back and acknowledge it was a FANTASTIC choice to kill him, and to do it in such a shocking way—but also, I’m also not a a fan of how much Kenneth Branagh deviated from the source material by doing that. 

Adding Bouc to the movie was a choice that made sense, if Kenneth Branagh is going for a Poirot Cinematic Universe. People expect a sidekick, and in stories where the cast has to change every movie, it’s nice for the audience to have a familiar face other than the main detective. However, I also think Kenneth Branagh shot himself in the foot by shooting Bouc in the neck, because he went out of his way to add and establish Bouc as a reoccurring character, just to kill him off in the second movie. I think the audience will now have more difficulty connecting with the side characters in the future since they’ve had two movies with the same character, as a opposed to already being used to the characters changing every movie. But then again, I’m still in denial. Along with this, it’s setting up the next movie to have a distinctly dark tone.

Well, now I’ve gotten started on the topic of Poirot and I can’t stop😂😂😂 Enjoy my decent into madness.

Another way that dear Kenny boy shot himself in the foot is with the iconic mustache. His mustaches in MotOE were luscious and beautiful, despite the critic they received. Branagh understood that Poirot has impressive mustaches that are quite a spectacle to behold, even if the rest of the world can only picture the measly little mustache that David Suchet displays in his version of Poirot (don’t get me wrong I love those adaptations but just… the mustache is all wrong. And David Suchet Poirot is a subject for a different time or we’ll be here forever😂😂). In DotN, for some reason he felt the need to give the mustaches a tragic backstory????? Narratively, I guess it’s a nice bookend and theme to the movie as a whole. BUT HE FELT THE NEED TO GIVE THE MUSTACHES A TRAGIC BACKSTORY????????????? Despite the fact that in DotN the mustaches aren’t actually long enough anymore to cover up the scaring shown at the beginning, HAIR DOESNT GROW ON SCAR TISSUE!!!! It just doesn’t make sense😭 Along with that, now he’s destroyed the main characteristic of Poirot, his trademark. Poirot is quite vain about his mustaches and even when he wears a fake one in Curtain (for reasons that I won’t spoil but if you know you know) Hastings only finds out at the end of the book, and Poirot’s manservant treats the subject with delicacy since the mustaches were such a sensitive subject to Poirot. 

While I’m STILL talking about Poirot (forgive my rant I can’t stop) I’m going to take the opportunity to mention the stark difference in quality between MotOE and DotN. I’ve now seen both of these movies multiple times and back to back. Overall, I think MotOE is much better. DotN uses a lot of green screen, and it’s pretty obvious and creates for some flat feeling backgrounds. For MotOE, they took shots of the mountains and overlayed the train on, instead of all CGI. Now, I don’t know for sure how much of each movie and which parts use CGI; it could be that MotOE uses more CGI and I just have a bad eye for spotting it. It was just my impression that the backgrounds in DotN were severely lacking. 

And let’s talk about the music. MotOE delivers and excellent score that makes you feel a wide variety of emotions, and they use the theme of repetition well in The Armstrong Case. For me, it had just reached the point in the movie where the theme could have started to be annoying; but the. they used it magnificently when Poirot was explaining the murder, and the simple and relentless, already melancholy melody turned into something truly heartbreaking, turning a scene of twelve people stabbing a man to death into something poetic. 10/10 one of the best uses of music and one of the best scenes ever, in my opinion. DotN, besides the songs sung by the talented Sophie Okonedo as Salome Otterbourne, has no notable music to take away from the movie, besides the absolutely grating (I don’t know what it’s called but it goes like. DUN DUN. DUUUN! DUN DUN. DUUUN! I think if you search Death on the Nile on YouTube you’ll find the song titled the same by Patrick Doyle). I got tired of hearing that by the third time it played, and my annoyance with it was one of the main things that I took away from the movie. 

AND ANOTHER THING both movies took creative liberties with the stories, but one of the creative liberties I did not like about DotN was how explicit they made it. Between that dance floor scene and the scene at the tomb… when I go to see a movie that’s rated PG-13 I like to feel comfortable seeing it with my father and not feel the need to slam my hands over my little sister’s ears. Especially when I want to slam them over my ears instead😭

All this being said I’m 100% going to go see a Haunting in Venice, but not because I’m expecting it to be good. I’d just like more fuel for my rants. I didn’t even get touch upon what an amazing actor Tom Bateman is and how I’m mad that he only plays serial killer roles outside of Bouc. 

Anyways I hope that answers your questions😅 thank you for your ask, and congratulations if you made it this far. It did truly make my day to see the phrase “rereading” in association with my fics, and I feel as if you were some curious passerby on the street who I started passionately and somewhat aggressively ranting at. I apologize. Also I took a break from ranting to check out your blog and you’ve got a great curation of posts. Good luck getting rid of me now. Prepare to see me in your notifications. Sorry for the essay.

[lsblrconfessions]

i cant dye my hair yellow because my eyes are like super bright blue and it would clash so rn im dreading the day that comes when my next appointment is and i cant even say "actually i want another color" because in the midst of trying to pretend to be normal (autism goes hard) while talking with my hairdresser i brought up wantign to dye my hair purple because wemmbu was bouncing on the walls of my brain. im also terrified that people are gonna start piecing my identity together and then its gonna be over for wemmbu hater anon anonymity. I have to keep so many things hidden because even if none of my close friends use tumblr im kind of infamous so the second i slip in an ask its over for me.

also thanks for the suggestion on buyign 2 of every wemmbu merch i get that would fix me, im probably gonna end up gettinf a wemmbu plushie someday and ill just bite his head off for fun idk why but imagiging that calms me down

someday im gonna get put in a psych ward for how i react towards ls. no media has ever gotten me to react like this , nit even my 1 year old hyperfixation on roblox and its driving me insane. Excuse me now i need to go draw wemmbu with my copic markers over and over again because i dotn know what my life has turned into because of my STUPID GRIMMACE SHAKE LOOKING BITCHASS GOD I NEED HIM DEAD xoxo wemmbu hater anon

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[godsdefect]

9kay take my headconshjm. it's so hot outside. I'm eleting. I'm melting. I feel like an old man how the hell do I do things on this sight without looking like an idiot

ALSO I WRITE FANFICTION. GIVE ME WHUMP IDEAS. GIVE ME ANGST IDEAS. GIVE ME ANY IDEAS. I'LL WRITE THEM. I'LL WRITE THEM FOR YOU!!!!!!!!! I HAVE NOTHING TO DO!!!!!!!!

SORRY FOR PUTTING A THIRD WALL OF TEXT HERE BUT I'M SHAKING IN MY BOOTS WHAT IF THIS DOESN'T COMPRESS AND IT JUST CLOGS UP THE TAGS????? GUYS IM 𝘊𝘏𝘖𝘒𝘌𝘚 𝘖𝘕 𝘛𝘌𝘈𝘙𝘚 I DOTN WANT TO BE ANNOYING 𝘌𝘟𝘗𝘓𝘖𝘋𝘌𝘚 𝘈𝘕𝘋 𝘛𝘌𝘈𝘙-𝘐𝘕𝘍𝘜𝘚𝘌𝘋 𝘎𝘖𝘙𝘌 𝘍𝘓𝘐𝘌𝘚 𝘌𝘝𝘌𝘙𝘠𝘞𝘏𝘌𝘙𝘌

- Trauma. The shit that he went through wasn't going to let him live the rest of his life peacefully, and a constant reminder of his trauma was the tremor he gained in his hands. Along with the tremor, little aches and pains would form in places like his back, legs, hands, just really anywhere and it would bug him to no end. His hand writing would change as well as his art style, but eventually he'd learn to navigate around it. The tremor would obviously worsen with anxiety attacks and nightmares. Speaking of nightmares, he would be embarrassed to admit he still has them pretty regularly, and he'd need about an hour to properly calm down after having one.

- He's a doodler. Usually his surroundings fall victim to being sloppily sketched into his case book or stranger's passing faces, but he takes a particular liking to drawing flowers. He likes the way the petals unfold, and this is totally not giving me an excuse to say that his favorite flower is starfighter lilies.

- Cole has a slight ick for needles. It won't freak him out too much if he has to hold a syringe or look at one, but for him to see one and knows it's going in him always makes his arms go stiff and look the other way. The pinch of it always makes him want to grit his teeth together. Syrettes especially freak him out.

- Malewife. He loves doing tasks around the house, especially doing dishes or doing laundry with his favorite outfits in them. He's found that he enjoys much simpler jobs or assignments outside of work hours due to how complex and stressful his job as a detective can be, along with cleaning and how it helps clear up his head after a long day.

- Favorite food. When people ask him if he has a favorite food he always writes off the question with a “I don't have one” because he doesn't like giving out personal info, he wants a thick emotional wall between most people in his life that he thinks keeps him safe. But I've deemed that this man has to have a simple but interesting choice of favorite food, and I've decided that to be waffles. Connected to his childhood, hard to mess up, and tasty with a few simple ingredients. He appreciates the recognizable flavor with such a humble breakfast meal, also likes them with nearly gross amounts of syrup and strawberries. No other fruit than strawberries or he can't look at them the same when they're on his plate.

- Love language is gift giving and physical touch, if coexisting in the same room doing your own thing can count as a love language, too, then count that in. Explanation on gift giving, he doesn't like directly giving the gift to his partner with the item in his hands, moreover just leaving it somwhere subtle until his partner finds it and gets surprised by something sweet. Even little things like a neat trinket he found he would bring home, maybe leave it on the nightstand of his partner's as a little way to say ‘this reminded me of you’. Explaining the physical touch thing, it has to be a certain degree of it. Touch that just confirms that someone's there, not too attention catching but just there. Also, the thing about just coexisting in the same room, it has to be somewhere he considers a safe space. His office, for example, is very very sacred to him, and when he lets someone in there to dawdle it's more of like a declaration of trust. The presence of the other would definitely soothe him and he'd stay silent, but it's still a huge milestone in the relationship he would have with someone, whether friend or romantic partner.

- How he sleeps. Usually Cole is so wound up tight that half the time if he has the whole day to sleep he'll only take a light nap before trying to do something productive around the house, although he could have the place bleached and scrubbed down twice and he would still clean it again if he had time. He generally loathes feeling lazy or unproductive to the point that he works himself into oblivion, driving to spouts of burnout/autistic burnout and general uninspiration. When things like that come around, his body moreover forces him to do things like sleep in, which is usually the only time he's ever brushed shoulders with REM sleep. Okay moving onto sleeping habits, he would definitely be a light sleeper and find himself drooling onto his pillow obnoxiously often. When he goes into deeper dozes you could throttle him and he wouldn't even feel it in his dreams. It's silly but it's a lighter side to how hellish it is for him to get some real rest.

- Cole's stance on religion. He used to be religious, but that was only when he was a kid. By the time he was a teen he just couldn't grasp that there was some big man in the sky looking down on them, it felt impossible to connect to Christianity in any kind of way. White noise was only ever heard when he asked God about something, and the first and last time he ever went to a priest about something like that he was told that he had done something wrong and that God was punishing him for it. This would obviously break Cole's heart as a young boy, but no matter how hard he tried he'd never be able to force God to acknowledge him. So he'd just give up. Religion after that would be kind of a sensitive topic for him, but he'd still say he was Christian in fear of being berated. His stance on firmly not being religious would further solidify when he was fighting in the war and as a last resort would pray to God to save his men only to see them get killed and think ‘no loving god would do this to his creation’.

- Cole gets really bad homesickness. Ever since he got home from the war leaving home would never be the same for him, especially now that he practically sees his home office as a refuge. Leaving home for work or anything like that wouldn't bother him the slightest, but being away from something he holds so near and dear to his heart for a few days would make him feel like he constantly needs to puke or that the air is unnecassarily suffocating.

- Cole is a silent crier. He will actually just sit on the edge of his bed and stare into nothing until he either wills the tears away or they just fall down his face. He’d probably just scrub them off with his sleeves and sniffle a bit before shaking himself out of it and distracting himself with work or liquor – maybe even a task around the house. He was raised thinking that the “boys don’t cry” stuff was real n all, which is really unfortunate, I feel like he would need to catch a break sooner or later or else he’ll have a breakdown at the slightest inconvenience.

[allsadnshit]

i really feel your post about seeming to inspire so much rage from others when you’re haute dusting as yourself? i’ve tried so fucking hard to hide myself and make myself into what people want. but they still hate me just the same. i dotn want to care, but it’s made my life incredibly difficult especially with employment. the problem is always me. and while i am very much always open to self criticism and owning up to my faults and working for change…it feels impossible that i am ALWAYS the one to blame. i work so hard to change for others but they never even consider how they treat me, and then they blame me for struggling.

I totally feel that, and it's really really hard and demoralizing to go through! I think one of the most important things I've realized in the last few years in reference to that is the classic "even if the harm was not our fault, our healing is our own responsibility". It feels sooo harsh at first like "oh so everyone hurt me and now it's only my problem?! Where's the justice in that?!"

But it's actually not about shifting blame, or focusing on blame at all! It's about seeing you are the one with the most power in your own life, and it's a choice to change for your benefit or stay the same to your detriment! It's tempting to give the world the power to decide if you will be safe and happy and secure but when we give that choice back to ourselves by allowing other peoples anger and judgements to be nothing beyond what they really are: a projection of their own insecurity and self hatred onto us, then we can start to tolerate the painful emotions and sensations that we have become accustomed to feeling in response

And once you can tolerate that discomfort, and be self compassionate but stern through them

Then they don't control you!!!!

I am not perfect at it, and peoples words DO hurt me alllll the time, but I don't let that be where things end in processing it, I do things for myself to comfort and clarify that bitches wish I didn't know how to do but I can now