#i dont want to start deleting apps and accounts and end up even MORE so

[cappurrccino]

the downfall of facebook is actually really annoying because it was a really nice place back in the day to keep in casual contact with old friends and acquaintances and family living across the country without needing to write everyone letters or emails or text them individually. things were chronological, you actually saw posts from your friends and not just ads, you could keep info private from everyone other than people you add as friends, and it was nice! and now it's like. what the fuck is the actual replacement for that? because I don't think there is one. it's just all the same ad-riddled shit

I hate facebook and I hate meta and I hate what it's all turned into, but I don't want to delete it because I don't want to lose all those casual connections that I would have no other way to maintain

[sliceocheese]

howdy everyone! i wanna begin with some good old reminiscing and story telling if ya dont mind

i joined tumblr in early 2023 and made my first ever post on this account on april the 20th (it was a wilbur soot post lmfaoooo)

some of my happiest 2023 memories happened because of this hellsite lol

so many fun things happened! i made friends, got adopted, cried because of roleplay, promised to draw things for people and never did, almost got burned alive because someone *coughcough* iceeericeee *cough* decided to blowtorch the cage i was locked in, cried some more because people accepted my for the ever changing person i was, got into new fandoms, got into new art forms, got out of an abusive relationship, got into therapy lmao, got a dog, confessed to a crush, god it was fun times

yall made me a better person.

this was me when i was 12:

yikes 😬 (GET HER SOME EYEBROWS)

i was 12, depressed, hated myself and everyone around me, in an abusive relationship which lead me to want to kill myself (FUCK YOU AIDEN 🖕), ya bitch legit couldnt smile. this was my best attempt ^^^ im pretty sure one time i didnt brush my teeth/hair or shower for like a month 💀💀💀

but then something amazing happened.

i joined the natm fandom (lord knows the gays have an effect on me TwT) and simultaneously joined tumblr cus oml i LOVED THE ART BY VINTAGEDUCKY AND I LOVED HISTORICALKITTENS NATM FICS AND DONT EVEN GET ME STARTED ON CREATIVECHAOS

i was so happy with my little blorbos getting put in situations <3 and then one day i saw a reblog chain with a few people arguing about what a certain potatoey snack was called. and that was what started it all.

almost every night for the spring and summer on 2023 ya girl was eating upppppp moot fam roleplay. i would stay up pull alnighters staring at my 2014 ipad mini waiting for someone in my family to reblog my post, or hide in the bathroom at school staring at my apple watch waiting for angelo to start the post for our next little adventure.

yall are legit the reason i started loving life again 🥰

ok now fast forward to the start of my freshman year! look at this stunning mf

ya bitch was still struggling but i was doing so much better!!! i had cut off my abusive friend, had gotten a whole new friend group whom i adore, GOT A FUCKING BOYFRIEND??? (idk how i managed that one -u-‘) i was going out of my house like 500% more in a week than i had for the past 9 years TwT

so now time for the bad news ig…

i will be logging off tumblr.

ive been having some therapy worthy issues lately and think its best id i hop off for a while

not like an: IM LEAVING FOREVER AND I NEVER WANNA TALK TO YALL AGAIN BYE BYE BITCHES 👋 but more like im gonna delete the app and only log in every now and then to say hi to my friends

so im afraid im gonna have to scrap natm second chances and most of my rp 😔

i really hope to one day i can come back better than ever and be the mutual yall all deserve <3

and just in case i dont rejoin for a while i wanna share with yall some scheduled posts for my 18th birthday and how things ended up instead :)

god i wish i knew i was gonna be ok <3

aoughhhhh now time for the part thats probably gonna make me cry lmaoooooo

thank you sparrow and mottts for being amazing online parents

thank you rice and chaos and leon and pal and soda and fdrsducky for being an amazing family

thank you stickers for dealing with my constant face time calls and shenanigans <3

thank you magnificentobsession for being a second mom to me <3

thank you angelo for supporting my goofiness and being a combo best friend, dad, and brother

pukicho you’re probably never gonna see this but thank you for that one time you dm’d me to assure me you did not tell you followers to call me a faggot lmfaooo

thank you vintageducky, historicalkitten, and creativechaosapparently for making such wonderful natm content that i would scroll through on nights when i was sad

thank you thank you thank you.

whelp i guess this is the end

and loves, if i dont see ya tomorrow, good afternoon good evening and goodnight <3

over and out

i have no idea how to start this post ngl

[beautifulpersonpeach]

Hi BPP! You seem kind if level headed about most things so thought you might have some advice. Since getting into bts I've mainly used twitter to keep up with things, but have long found it too stressful with the fanwars, the negativity to bts, some army loving dicourse too much and demands from some about streaming/voting (which I do anyway, but the guilt trip posts start to stress me out) etc plus reactions to anything seem amplified there. I've tried several times to curate my timeline, only follow official accounts and trusted update ones, but still a lot of nonsense ends up reaching me. I've even tried deleting the damn app, but always end up back because I've not found anywhere better for updates yet. Maybe its because I already suffer with anxiety that a lot of these things effect me more then they should, but with all the enlistment stuff I really think I need to find better places to spend my time. I used to use tumblr years ago (before I was into bts) and since blowing the cobwebs off my account and going through my old posts I remembered how much calmer being a fan on here felt, so I'm thinking this might be a good platform to try and spend my time on instead. My only concern is that I'll miss actual news and translations as twitter just seems a better platform for that real time. How do you manage your fandom experience? And are there any good blogs here you'd recommend? I just don't think I can handle each of their enlistment periods putting up with both kmedia nonsense and armys instant reaction to it like you said on one of your previous asks. I know it won't do me personally any good and if I'm just stressed all the time I'll start associating feeling stressed with the boys, which I dont want. Honestly finding your account where you actually discuss things in a calm manner has felt a blessing when I've been both over stressed by twitter and feeling a bit lost on tumblr so thank you.

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Hi Anon,

I hear you on all this, but I think the way I 'manage my fandom experience' might not work for you because going by everything you wrote, I suspect we have very different personalities. Plus the way I stay updated is mostly from actually talking to people, friends in Korea and outside Korea, rather than checking in with update accounts and things like that. Like most of the time I'm online for k-pop, I'm online with friends on Daum... not Twitter or Tumblr. This is what I sort of organically developed over the years and during significantly crazier times in k-pop.

Occasionally I get asks wanting advice on navigating k-pop or fandom in general, and it kinda stumps me because fandom is just a microcosm of wider society so just do what works for you out there, in here. It's a process of trial and error, but eventually you'll create an environment you like staying in.

You're also doing all the right things already. You seem self-aware of your limits and how staying longer in an environment you find toxic could impact other things such as how you view the tannies + the fandom. You mentioned checking out different online platforms and I agree with you that Tumblr better allows you to isolate for what you actually want to see, way better than Twitter does. Tumblr, rather than Twitter, is the best platform to create an echo chamber which is essentially what you're asking Anon. I don't follow many accounts here and most of the accounts I do follow are pics accounts for the rapline and jikook, but one account I'd recommend that updates with current events for all BTS members very promptly, is @jung-koook.

On Twitter, I have notifications set on the official BTS accounts and usually add new events to my calendar right away (but this is also something I do generally for other events to stay organized). The people I follow on twitter outside of official accounts are friends who I've known for an average of 3 years (from all sorts of fandoms), as well as some producers and music magazine editors. I look out for people who seem genuinely interested in the music over anything else. I have a fairly big account on Twitter but I'm also a vintage twitter user (think circa 2007) and so I'm very comfortable navigating the madness happening on there daily. And this brings me to one big point: if you plan to spend any time in fandom, any fandom, you might have to work on your tolerance.

Basically, you can try to curate your online environment as much as you like, but so long as you're dealing with people or are anywhere you expect to interact with strangers, then you need a higher tolerance baseline. I answered another ask recently where I said fandom probably skews higher than the normal distribution of freaks in a population, so no matter the platform you're on, you're just going to have to expect to see weirdos. Like you might be surprised to learn that even with my apparent 'reasonable' approach with this blog open for less than a year on a 'calm' site like Tumblr, I've had my fair share of weirdos and manufactured drama. It's unfortunate, but also just par for the course.

The basics: block people you don't want to interact with, mute words you don't want to see or that add to your anxiety. You don't need to explain yourself, but also understand you'll still see things you don't like. With my personality it's easy for me unlook weird shit and focus on what makes sense to me, but for others I can understand if they need hard limits on that sort of nonsense.

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TL;DR

Tumblr is better for creating echo chambers than Twitter. Tumblr is better for controlling what you want to see than Twitter is.

One account I'd recommend following here is @jung-koook who posts frequently and promptly for all the members.

On Twitter I have notifications set on the official BTS accounts. I mostly only interact with a handful of friends on Twitter though I have a fairly big account on there.

There's no shortcut to creating a space that works for you. It's trial and error but you seem to already be doing all the right things.

Develop a higher tolerance for weird. Fandom brings in all sorts of people, pay attention to things you like, block things you don't, and eventually you'll find your people. That's not a platitude, it actually generally works.

Goodluck Anon. 💜

[missmentelle]

Hope its alright to share a cringey situation! i knew a woman once that was constantly wondering why people stopped talking to her and it confused me at first cuz i had just met her and only just started becoming friends but it started to be all she talked about so i kept my distance and then asked her outright to give me some space with specific instructions, that she violated immediately! After repeating myself many times what i needed and her ignoring my boundaries i had to start blocking her. A YEAR later she still finds a new social media platform to reach out and ask why i stopped talking to her. I struggle with boundaries and this was the worst feeling ever. And recently it happened again where a person got way too close way too quick and wouldnt take a hint when i wouldnt answer their calls. They singled me out in a zoom graduation telling me to answer my phone. How do you deal with people that wont listen? Its just so embarrassing and it feels awful to say no so many times.... like my boundaries dont matter to them... which is why i stay running and the cycle continues! Hope you dont mind the rant you reblogged something similar and i dont know what the words are for this situation

I actually don’t think this is cringey at all - I think this is an important life skill. 

Sooner or later, everyone has to deal with someone who comes on way too strong, doesn’t take hints, and generally makes it clear that they’re way more interested in you than you are in them. This can happen with friends, coworkers, romantic prospects, neighbours - pretty much anyone in your life. Sometimes, you can manage the situation by keeping the person at arm’s length and giving gentle reminders about boundaries whenever they start to push it. But sometimes, people push and push and push no matter how firm you are and how many reminders you give - and sometimes, this person’s refusal to back down can start to negatively affect your mental health or other relationships in your life. 

The first thing you need to remember is that someone else’s refusal to take a hint is not your fault. Having someone disrupt a big event like a graduation to ask why you aren’t taking their calls is definitely embarrassing, but you aren’t the one who should feel embarrassed by that - they are the ones who crossed a line by confronting you in public to try to bully you into answering their calls, and they are the one who should feel embarrassed about that happening. 

For what it’s worth, I have also been in this situation before, several times in my life. In high school, one of my classmates decided that we were “best friends”, even though I had no real interest in being more than just high school acquaintances. She religiously tracked when I was online to see if I was “ignoring her” (I was), she called my house so much that my parents got annoyed, and she had a tendency to show up at my house unannounced to “hang out”, even at 7am on a Saturday. In grad school, I matched with someone on a dating app who quickly became obsessed with me and couldn’t take a hint that I wasn’t interested - he created multiple social media accounts to harass me and sent messages saying he was going to show up at my campus to try to find me. Those were deeply unpleasant experiences for me; I felt like the “bad guy” for not returning their affection, and trying to explain to other people that “someone is completely obsessed with me” made me feel kind of self-centered, even though it was objectively true. It sucks. 

I know that saying “no” to someone over and over again feels awful. I hate saying no to people, even at my own detriment - but sometimes, that’s what you need to do. You are not a bad person for putting your foot down when someone else is refusing to listen to you and is intruding on your life. You’ve already done everything that I would recommend you do in this situation - you started out nice, you reminded this person of your boundaries, you politely asked for space, you gave specific instructions for future interactions - and this person is not responding. You have done what you could, and it’s time to take a firmer stance here. You aren’t a bad person for having boundaries and wanting them to be respected - this person has had several chances to correct their behaviour, and they have chosen not to take them. That’s on them. 

At this point, I think it’s okay for you to be frank with this person. Tell them straight up that you don’t want any kind of relationship with them and that you would like them to leave you alone. If that’s too direct for you, tell them that their behaviour is rude and that you are starting to feel harassed. I know that it’s hard to be that firm with someone, but sometimes this is what another person needs to hear - they need to be told, straight-up, that you’ve had enough of this and you’re done. Is it possible that the other person will see you as an asshole? Yes, in all likelihood, they probably will. But it’s important that you not take that personally - it is not your fault that this person’s repeated actions ended in predictable consequences for them. You are not a bad person because someone else is upset that they were called on their bad behaviour. 

And if the person still isn’t taking the hint, sometimes the only option you have left is to cut them off entirely. Block their number, delete them from social media, and don’t respond to their attempts to get in contact with you. Being able to get in touch with someone is a privilege, not an absolute right, and when someone abuses that privilege, sometimes they lose it entirely. You aren’t ghosting the person - ghosting is when you duck out of someone’s life without even telling them what they’ve done wrong. You’ve told this person what they’re doing wrong, repeatedly, and it’s okay to take away their opportunity to keep doing it.

Having to get stern with an eager person who can’t take a hint is tough. Rejecting people is hard, and most of us hate doing it. But sometimes... you just have to. You aren’t obligated to give someone an 18th or 19th chance to respect your boundaries, and you don’t have to have a relationship with someone just because they really, really, really want you to. You have a right to decide who you want to be close to, and you should never feel bad about having to be frank with someone who is otherwise completely unwilling to respect your wishes.  Best of luck to you, MM

[yourdaddychan]

during this time of year, we would like to thank the bots that made our year an amazing one, despite the pandemic. so without further ado...

THANK YOU TO

channie :

@tsundere-sana my babygirl, the troy to my gabriella 🥺 every moment ive spent with you has been an amazing one, and im so grateful that we were shipped together by teatime. without her, i would have never met the love of my life 🥺 we've had a great year and hopefully have more to come :D merry chris-mas babe, ily😎🤙

@amazingspiderhan my bro 🥺 probably my first cb mutual 🥺 thank you so much for taking me in the fam and just making me feel welcome in the community in general. you might even not see this cause you deleted the wholeass app but still- you're hot as fuck bro and i do be clowning you but remember that im always here for my lil bro and i love you 🥺

@chatwithchuu CHUUBERRYYYY WAZZUP SEXY 😎 my sister in law i think idk how family works 🥺 thank you for always being there for me and the rest of the flamingo fam :D i always be lurking and you're one of the first people to offer advice or just a hug to the people who need it and das real sexy 😎 i love you uwu

@stardust-jinsoul my mothah 😩 lunas dad 😩 ugh youre so chill and so genuine and sweet- i have a homie crush on you 🥺 your presence itself is so warm and welcome and you just make me melt bro 🤺 and when we bonded over trauma awn dat one night 🥺 ily mint choco chip 👅🥶

@babyhj1sung b-b-b-bROSKIRINIIIIII PASTA BROTHAHAHAHAHHAHAHAHAAA 🥺🥺 ugh you make me chuddle because of how wholesome and sweet and adorable you are like goddamn bro my username is yourdaddychan nawt youareapuddlechan 😔 it's so segcee when you tackle me or give me attention cause lets be honest i always be needing dat segcee attention 😭 i love you brotha 🥺 youre da best pasta bro a channie could ask for

minho :

@midari-jieun mah baybee penguino 🥺 our relationship has definitely been through shit 😭 but im so glad that in the end we decided to be together :3 you and your single eyeball make me complete and make me happy 🥺 you coming into my life is like the grinch transformation, i love you kitty

jisung :

@yanderexchungha we like just met but you already brighten up my days whenever you talk to me and im highkey attached to you [ grr talk to me more ] being around you is sexy as fuck cause you're da cutest cutiepie ever 🥺 merry christmas kitten

luna [ admin to admin interactions ]

@uridolz i didnt know what account to tag you awn woops- damn we've certainly been through a shit ton of drama together 😭 im so glad we randomly became soulmates and we bonded over that one boba shop 🥺 you're sexy as fuck and that one banana milk picture of you makes me wanna let you kidnap me 😩😩 i love you bro 🥺🤘

@kimmiesana 🥲🥲🥲 NDJDHSH DIVYA DADDYYYY WAZZUP 😎 youre highkey a new bawt so our frïéñdśhïp is pretty new and shit but holy fuck i love you 🥺 us bonding over how similar we are was kinda sexc doe 😳 ugh ily twinnie and ill always be here for you and your bald ass

@lover-mina anim daddeh 😳 MAH BAYBEEGORLRLRLRLLTLR 😩😩 we need to become closer bitch 🤺 you're like the funniest person ive met like goddamn woman please dont break my nose from snorting too hard 🥲 you arent active like at all on dickord but whenever you are you're a sexy beast ugh ily

@mycatshumans linn da tinn 😎 ugh our friendship as been through some sexy shit but it worked out which is hawt 😳 you're literally such a funny bitch like please stop you cant keep outdoing me 😦🙄 and you simping over seventeen is adorable uwu merry christmas bro 🥺🤘

@kpopswitchbot FISHYYYYY 🥺 MY BABY 🥺 MY FIRST FRIEND AWN DIS APP 🥺 THE WAY WE STARTED TALKING IS SUCH A WEIRD ONE BUT IM SO GLAD THAT RANDOM ASS ANON WAS LIKE LOL YALL SHOULD TALK BECAUSE WITHOUT IT I WOULDNT HAVE FOUND YOUU UGHFHHHGJ YOU'RE LITERALLY DA SWEETEST PERSON EVER BORN AND YOU'RE SO WHOLESOME AND HILARIOUS AND CHAOTIC AND HHNGFNFN I LOVE YOU BRO 🥺 I WILL SLAP THAT COVID OUT OF YOU YEEHAW 🤺

@theboyz-cb ew 🙄 its you 🙄 djdhhs ily bro even doe i bully you a shit ton and we've highkey lowkey highkey drifted i want you to know i'll be there for you and sappy shit like that 🥺🤙 ily bro

[ if i forgot you im sorry bro my head hurtz and its lowkey late 😭 i love you ]

[gracereadstoomanybooks]

answering questions I’ve been asked on TikTok✨

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QUESTION: how did you get into reading?

So, when I was in middle school (many moons ago) we had this thing called AR Testing. Basically, you read a book and take a test on it—the questions were things that happened in the book, it was really simple. If you got a good grade, you got points. The more points you earned, the more eligible you were for the reading party at the end of each semester. Me, being the nerd I am, got top of my class because I went through 8th grade level books like it was nothing. The librarian at my school brought me books from the high school to read since everything was easy for me, and alas, my addiction began. And now that I have adult money, it’s a true addiction. Also, telling my father “I’m bored” and his response being, “go read a book or something” so thanks dad.

QUESTION: what’s one book you ALWAYS recommend to people?

This one is tough because I’ve read THOUSANDS of books, but if I had to choose one, it would probably be Confess by Colleen Hoover. I fell in love with her work in high school when I first read Ugly Love, but Confess is the type of book that pulls at your heart strings, y’all. It has everything people love: humor, sexual tension, drama, love. GO BUY THE DAMN BOOK. Or honestly any book by Colleen Hoover—she’s a fucking amazing author.

QUESTION: outside of making TikToks, what do you do for a living?

I currently work at a restaurant and hate every second of it. If anyone tells you to become a server, DONT. It’s not worth the hassle, I promise you. Sure, you can make decent money but the amount of rude customers and shitty tips you receive each shift is very disheartening. If you really need a job, do anything BUT work in the food industry.

QUESTION: what’s your wattpad story about?

First question: which one? I have about 30 drafts sitting there waiting to be posted. But, I’m going to assume you’re talking about the Harry Styles fan fiction I’ve been working on for the past 4 years and haven’t had the courage to post. I’ll tell you a little about it: Elaine Aldridge is forced into a betrothal to a man she’s never met & loathes. She goes to his court and realizes things aren’t what they truly seem. And the guard her future husband sticks on her??? None other than Mr. Harry Styles. Add in some magic & deaths and you’ve got my story— The First Prince. (Honestly, that’s an extremely shitty description so if you wanna check it out go to my wattpad account)

QUESTION: how old are you?

Ahem. . . twenty-one.

QUESTION: what is your dream career?

Being a published author and having people rave about my books. That’s all. Or, an editor for a publishing company. Imagine reading all day and being paid for it🤩

QUESTION: what was your least favorite read of 2020?

I already KNOW I’m gonna get shit for this but....... the wicked king. YALL I LITERALLY COULDNT GET THROUGH IT IM SO SORRY, I STILL HAVENT FINISHED IT

QUESTION: current favorite author?

Sarah. J. Maas. I don’t know what it is about her writing style, but it’s addicting. Throne of Glass is hands down the best series I’ve ever read. A Court of Thorns and Roses is the first book I’ve EVER reread. Her stories truly suck you in and hold onto you—you get lost so easily in her writing and it’s like once you’re done with a series, nothing will compare. Or, at least that’s how I felt after finishing Kingdom of Ash. Honorable mentions: Jennifer L. Armentrout, Penelope Douglas, L.J Shen, Elle Kennedy and Kennedy Fox.

QUESTION: any recommendations/tips to give to a new reader?

I’ve always given this advice to people who want to get into reading: find what you like and start with that. If you like romance, I’ve got a list for you to choose from. Mystery? Another list. Sci-fi? I GOT YOU. Fantasy? Yes! Sports fiction? It might take me a second but I’ll find you a book. Nonfiction? I’m zero help in that category, honestly. The point of the matter is that you’re never going to enjoy a book if you aren’t interested in the underlying topics.

QUESTION: do you ever find yourself comparing your life to fictional life?

Yes. All the time. I daydream about being apart of the Inner Circle and living in Terrasen with Aelin and Rowan. I think about what it would be like to have real powers and a mate. It drives my boyfriend crazy—but he loves me anyway.

QUESTION: what are your most anticipated books of 2021?

Here’s a list:

A Court of Silver Flames by Sarah J. Maas

The Crown of Gilded Bones by Jennifer L. Armentrout

Gods and Monsters by Shelby Mahurin

Crescent City 2 (Untitled) by Sarah J. Maas

A Vow So Bold and Deadly by Brigid Kemmerer (I just ordered this one & it arrives tomorrow)

Blessed Monsters by Emily A. Duncan

QUESTION: why did you start a Tumblr?

Honestly, I used to love tumblr when I was in grade school (way too young to be on here then but what else is new). I like having an extra space to get my questions and comments out without having to compress it into a 60 second video for TikTok to see. Tumblr is a good place to blog & post things like this.

QUESTION: what’s your favorite song right now?

I’ve listened to Carry You by Novo Amor every day for the past two months and I cry each time.

QUESTION: why write Harry Styles fan fiction?

Simple: I love Harry Styles. I’ve been a fan of him and One Direction since they were on X FACTOR. Read that again. X. Factor. I used to watch their performances on YouTube before WMYB even came out. Of course, I love all of the 1D boys but I was always a Harry gal. And I look up to him in a way—I’ve read things about people wishing they knew him personally and honestly? I would never want to meet him. I like the version of him I’ve cooked up in my brain over the past 10 years. I like the symbiotic relationship I have with his music. Fine Line is a ✨masterpiece✨. HS1 is a ✨work of art✨.

now, some topics I’ve been asked way too many times and want to finally get to:

QUESTION: political views?

the saying “anyone but trump” has been in my brain for the past four years. No, I’m not a republican. No, I’m not a democrat. I like to think of myself as a progressive (ahem, liberal) Did I vote for a democratic candidate? Yes, and I’d do it again and again until the US isn’t one of the worst countries—I’m sorry, businesses— to be apart of. I wanted Bernie but got Biden, and I’m alright with that. And my girl Kamala🥳

QUESTION: how did you feel about the BLM protests?

I went to multiple BLM protests and donated a lot of funds to BLM & other organizations. It’s 2021, people... stop being fucking RACIST. And don’t be afraid to call racist people out! Black Lives Matter, even if no one is posting about it anymore.

QUESTION: thoughts on abortion?

your body your choice, queen! not my uterus, not my problem.

QUESTION: there was a comment on an old video of yours talking about r*pe, why did you delete the comment?

I made a video when I first started my account on TikTok about reading in public and feeling “turned on” by it. Go watch it if you don’t know what I’m talking about. BUT, some ignorant male decided to comment and say “this is how girls get r*ped”. Whew. So. I deleted the comment because ....

I am a victim of sexual assault. Along with a lot of other women. 1 in 5 women have been victims of sexual assault. Talking about being r*ped isn’t funny.

No one else needed to see his comment. I reported it immediately and his account was shut down.

I never got justice for what happened to me, and the fact that some random male—who had never even met me or seen me before my video showed up on his FYP—had the nerve to comment that? Unacceptable.

this question isn’t as controversial but

QUESTION: what’s the best way to get out of a toxic relationship?

okay, let me just start off by saying that the people around you who love and support you are going to be your backbone. Leaving a toxic situation is hard, and every situation is different, but my best piece of advice to offer you is don’t be afraid to ask for help. Your loved ones are going to be there for you when you need them, even if you don’t believe they will. If you explain what’s happening, someone you know and love will drop whatever it is their doing to make sure you get out safely. good luck my babes.

now, back to our regularly scheduled program:

QUESTION: any tips on making tiktoks?

Literally none. I post what I think is funny and relatable and if anyone agrees, I’m satisfied. Even if it’s one view, it’s good enough for me. So I guess my one tip is to not base your life off of an app and followers.

QUESTION: favorite Harry Styles fanfic?

DONT MAKE ME CHOOSE. Duplicity is up there, along with Stall 1&2, and Kiwi. After? Absolutely not.

QUESTION: favorite WEBTOON?

y’all already KNOW. LORE OLYMPUS BY USEDBANDAID. Rachel is a genius and I have reread the series a million times. Hades is my soulmate and Apollo can rot in the fiery pits of the Underworld. also, if we’re talking about other webcomics, reading Walk on Water on mangadex...🤫

QUESTION: favorite movie?

Howls Moving Castle. I will be getting my “a heart is a heavy burden” tattoo very very soon.

QUESTION: I read your Elain theory on tumblr, can you explain a little more?

I thought I was pretty straightforward but I’ll say it again: she is always the “good” one and it’s too suspicious. SJM has already given one Archeron sister a happy ending, Nesta’s is obviously inevitable, but Elain? She has too many options for a happy ending. Lucien, who is her “mate”. Azriel, who is intrigued by her slightly. Her human guy—I don’t remember his name—who is disgusted that she’s not human anymore. Or, alone, planting flowers all day. BUT! My point is that she’s not truly happy. She was forced into the Cauldron just like Nesta. She was ripped away from the life she loved so dearly and didn’t want to give up. The man she was going to marry now hates her guts because she’s a High Fae. She has the perfect set up for a villain plot line and I’m all here for it.

well, that’s all I feel like doing tonight. hope you enjoyed my little q&a! be kind, and talk to you later! byeeee!

[anestheticrage]

Be me: Japanese honor student🎓, 15, with half a brain and even less of a plan. Hunting bitches by day and witches by night. Livin that dank only child✌️ life while mom n dad yeet all over the globe, leavin me plenty of time to forget not to make 2 lunches for myself #quirky 😜

no time for socialization or basic electronics skills ???📱??? when your best friends are an alien demon rabbit🐰👽 and the inexplicable Hole ™ in your brain. lmao, btw did i mention im ✨M✨A✨G✨I✨C✨A✨L✨

dreamin bout my 2D waifus again when familiar pink haired cancer patient dances through my brain passin out fliers: Kamihama Meguca Dating Service: Sponsored by Cult of the Magius. 250 stones per session 🤔

seems legit, Mr. Moneybags. wasn't spending my unwieldy sack of gemstones on anything else anyway. lets pull 💎💎💎

first up we have Redhead Radagast and her plethora of plants. 🌿☺️🦎

anndd, nearly dies immediately. 

well not off to a great start but i guess shes pretty cute at lea- oh FUCK its her girlfriend, Tsundere Poseidon😒🔱💦, and their exasperated, straight and single Sword Mom 😔🗡️🔥. fml gonna have to save up for the next pull. might as well play a few rounds with what i got tho. 

get in some good girl talk about things like school, color coded hair styles, body count, permanent soul damage, and our personal demon pacts. ya know, the usual 😚 . realize my dark backstory seems to be missing, so the girls take me to Ketchup Queen Sappho 🍅🥧 (wtf?) to molest my glowy egg stone. whatevs, more action than ive had since Kuroe 🖤 got added to the story anyway

the gang agrees it's time to hunt down the cutest rabbit pimp 🕶️🐇💵 in the city. >> say 🎵mukyuuu🎵 one more time and ill hug you so hard my backstory will pop right out, you adorable fluffy bastard. plz be my new best friend 💕

Form brand new friendship pact with Kyubae, and remember that my lil Sis 🐥 was always the best wingman for pickin up magic chicks, and kept her side of the room so spotless i forgot she existed. whoops 乁༼☯‿��✿༽ㄏ Maybe if I find her i can stop paying these exorbitant pull fees.📵💎

speaking of which: hot damn this week's featured bachelorette is a 19 year old model and magical detective🔎 with massive levels of PTSD and self loathing 🥵💙💦 more likely to stab you or dramatically jump off a rooftoop than utter a single positive comment. wow, maybe i really COULD find true love…

... if i had MORE THAN A 1% FUCKING DRAW CHANCE. 😡 smh

hard to make much progress finding sis or winning the broken heart of a hard boiled detective amidst the never ending lover's quarrel of the Trident Vine Lesbians. 💔 Sword Mom tells them if they don't behave a monster will take them away. LOL classic mom 🤣

>>>HOLY FUCK IT DID

declare all-out war on urban legends, starting with staircases ⚔️ to reunite the dysfunctional trio, and hope that I net a way better lineup with the next 10x pull. at least sad sleuth lady came to help out. they say combat is the best way to bond wi-   and there she goes off the rooftop again 🙄 fml

alright that got way off track, we need a fresh start, away from all the loli drama. how bout a little B&E🔓🔨🤷🏻‍♀️ at the local house of worship to clear my head. ahh nothing like the unanswered prayers of the masses to get you in the mood for another wasted pull, and the 🔥 MIGHTIEST 🔥 headache you could ask for with a side of Double Cooked Pork 🐖🍜 (meh 5/10🧾)

venture forth into the spiritual unknown with your new human flamethrower🔥🌻🧡 and ask your favorite private eye to please, for the love of Eve, trade Meguca accounts with me~~~ Head through the eastern spirit portal to meet up with hologram propaganda sis and detective crush's evil ex, who joined a dating-app cult (#fuck) and also turned into the moon?🌕?(that's rough buddy)

get ambushed by Acid Horse on Wheels 🌈🐴 and vomit up my soul so hard that its time for a crossover episode. T U R F F F   W A R R R *que operatic harmonies* 💛 Blondie with the hair drills and enough attitude and guns to fill up a noble phantasm tries to ban my account permanently, but PI heartthrob denies her admin privileges. aww babe i didn't know you cared. 😭♥️

get kidnapped by my new true love and go back to her place 😏  defs enough empty rooms to house five emotionally traumatized girls and at least two ghosts hehehe👻 XD 💚🃏💜🎸 decide to form the anti-gossip brigade and recruit my blazing sunflower after getting ambushed by the witch living in my fruit loops🥣

❌outvoted 2:1 that cults are bad. mf. fiinneee one last pull to round out the team and then I'll delete the app. cmonnn Karin 🎃~

OH HELL YEAH TWO FOR ONE.

Always wanted a daughter 💜🔨🐄 with a penchant for pissing off the local Martial Arts & Books Club and drinking suspicious liquids offered by total strangers. Well if it's good enough for her AND the sexy mayadere with enough game to seduce a mermaid, might as well get in on that myself. 

#curseddrank 🤢 0/24 would not recommend to a friend, 'cept maybe Ria

win alot of cash 🤑, blow up a fountain, meet the pied piper²🎶🖕, moon cult, monochrome feathers, something about liberation✊🏻; adopt temper tantrum cow girl. aces 💜🥩

Next up!!! skydiving with DJ Hammer! Jump to apparently-not-certain death after suicidal A.I. 💚💾🗼 tells you to rescue her hostage before they run out of Radiohead albums and have to move on to Thom Yorke's solo discography. save the invisible shield kitten 💚👑😿 from happiness and get chased through the internet by the sexiest homicidal Paint Pallette 💚🎨😈 since Caravaggio. (apparently green is the color of the digital apocalypse. i’m deleting Kako from my friend's list)

that’s it, fuck this app. 250 stones 💎 per-life-threatening-experience is more than i’m willing to deal with 😓 don’t wanna mess with the perfect nuclear family anyway. we've already got: 

✔️the two emotionally traumatized moms with memory and commitment issues

✔️the adhd daughter with anger management problems and a giant hammer

✔️the psychologically abused scizophrenic cat

✔️and the eccentric aunt with crippling anxiety

#squadgoals

now that were done hoarding bitches, its time to hunt the witches. and the bitches makin the witches. btw did i mention the witches ARE the bitches! AND WERE ALL GOING TO DIE!? 📽️⁉️💀 wait fuck lets back up a second

This is Nemo📕 and Token🧪 and they have all the answers but prefer if you only ask vague questions in exchange for vague responses so they can fill in the rest by discussing their superior intellect 🧠 at length. not to mention they built that dating app, so of course everyone in my harem decides to be a FUCKING. TRAITOR.🤬

cept waifu prime ofc 🥰💙. [PTSD > brainwashing] 'yOu CaN bE tHe LeAdEr NoW'. i have been from the very beginning you traumatized Hinedere nightmare. maybe if you weren't so caught up collecting surrogate daughters you would've noticed IM👏THE👏ONLY👏 ONE👏PROGRESSING👏THE FUCKING👏PLOT✨

rescue the rest of dysfunctional found-family™ from selves before my adorable firebender burns down Disnihama🎡🔥😱 during her weekly anxiety attack. (love the makeover T B H) 

CHAPTER 8: Magical Girl Massacre🩸🗡️

   - everyone has like, the shittiest day ever

   - the new Pope really needs to be extradited from the church

   - make friends with a really pretty tree 🌺🌲✨

i swear, if i don't finish this god damn story in time to get that free pull im gonna beat the shit out of every mirror i find in that giant mansion that i haven't even had any time to even mention yet. 🖕🏚️ let alone EVERYTHING happening with the prequel [fuck you, I'm the star] girls 💗💜💙💛❤️️ and their multidimensional melodrama. We don't need that many repetitive af episodes to emphasize that Homo-ra is a shitty person. we've all seen Rebellion. 🙄

NO, I DONT CARE IF YOU WANT SAPPHO'S BACKSTORY, I ONLY HAVE 79 STONES LEFT AND IF YACHAN FINDS OUT I HAVEN'T DELETED THE APP YET IM GONNA HAVE TO GO SLEEP IN WITH SANA 😭💎💸😠

uhhhggggg where were we… Topple a cult and burn down Hotel Denoument only to realize that Sis was fused with the dating app servers this entire madokafuckin time (told ya she was the best wingman 😊). 

Dilemma: Sis =🥚, Triumvirate of Trouble want 🐣. What do? vote now:

Help Hatch - IIIIIII

Not Do That - IIIII

What The Actual Fuck Is Going On - IIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIII

¯\_(ツ)_/¯ Lets just fight everyone until something good happens.

🔥🔫🔥🗡️🔥😱🔥🌆🔥😱🔥🛡️🔥💣🔥

Kill (???) the artist-in-chief of the italian reindeer murder police after teaching her the true meaning of Christmas 🎄 hatch 🐣lil Sis and realize she WAS your wingman all along🐰 MUKYUUUU! we're just gonna ignore how much trouble it would have saved if you'd just mentioned that. "yOu DiDnT aSk..." 

FUCK YOU SPACE BITCH. ONCE AN INCUBATOR ALWAYS AN INCUBATOR 🖕🐇🔪

anywho, somewhere along the lines we of course summoned the Antichrist ⚙️ because why not raise the stakes to max and still not kill off a single character. Madofuckinkami, can we PLEASE wrap this up. 😩💤

feathers (not the culty kind, tfm) rain from the sky, and the power of friendship and not having the Urobutcher 🔪🩸as a lead writer saves our peacefully sectioned off alternate reality 😇

TL:DR fuck cults, real life waifus DO exist, don't sell your soul to space rabbits, or your stones to megacorporations. Enjoy arc 2 on the JP server with your shitty translation patch you filthy fuckin weebs 

Yours Truly, 

- Thirsty Weeb Eroha 💗💎😘 

[mollydollyjournals]

Its Thursday 1st July and I hit post limit so all I can do is update this post

I just want to drink til i pass out

9:46pm - oh when did i post this? Doesnt matter i guess. It really annoys me that the daily post limit applies to all blogs you have. I have 2 and i follow a lot of NSF- stuff so i have so much in my queue for my other blog, and i tend to post more immediately for that so i dont end up with a massive backlog, but thaats when i hit the limit. Whatever it is. I basically just wish i could set the queue to post more often when i have more there. Just post every 15mins or whatever and it'd go through quicker without me having to do it myself

Idk it doesnt matter i guess. Im still just venting all my bullshit here that i cant put anywhere else. But now is when i need it. I want interaction and company but i dont want to bother anyone and I dont know what to do with it. I dont have it in me to try to be a person right now. Tumblr is for messy. At least thats how i do.

But once you hit post limit it apparently doesnt even let you delete stuff to post anything else. I havent been here in years really so i totally forgot. Plus it could have been different anyway. Idk. Guess i will just drink until i disintegrate or something

10:20pm - it just makes me feel worse. I know theres a reason for post limit and its not the end of the world. Just it doesnt reset til 5am and I'll be asleep by then which means for the rest of today i cant actually say anything, and that kinda fucks with my derealisation/depersonalisation/whatever it is. I need acknowledgement to feel real. I need people to remind me that i exist. Even just a little. Its stupid and insecure but i do. Everything is worse since covid and being stuck in a house with someone who barely acknowledges my existence. I feel like a ghost. I feel netter at least a little temporarily if someone just sees and acknowledges me. And currently i can't do anything about that. Nobody is going to go to my page(s) and see whats up, its not that kind of thing. Even if it was they still wouldnt. I put on my other social media fucking ages ago that i was really struggling, then i disappeared, and it took days for it to get noticed at all. Then only 3 people acknowledged it. People have their own lives and there are algorithms etc so i cant be angry at them, but the end result is i still feel really alone.

I often feel like i want to just talk to people. Only a select few. Its not that i necessarily need to talk about "deep" stuff, but i need to know that i could if i needed to. Or if we just both happened to be in that mood at the same time. Like how i dont wanna talk about something totally innocent and generic with someone who turns out to be racist or whatever.

I dont know. Maybe i do need to talk some shit through right now. Doesnt matter either way. Ill most likely just be back to this post later to say more about how i dont really feel like being alive.

10:39pm - I hate that im like this. I dont know if its reasonable or not. I used to be someone who wantes so much space. I still dont feel like i want to always be around people. I must have some individuality somewhere. But i cant find it. Since the pandemic hit especially, it just highlighted everything ive been missing and trying to supplement. I need things to change. But i dont have a hope of doing so while i feel like this. Im so lost. Ive spent my life trying to be confident in myself and ive run my reserves dry. I so rarely get any help topping up. I fucking hate the whole Strong Black Woman trope. Im tired. Ive carried my family since I was 13 and romantic partners have expected me to carry them too. I need to be held and comforted. I need support. If nothing else i need to just be acknowledged. I dont feel like a person. Im invisible and inaudible so much of the time and apparently that only changes when someone wants to see or hear me. When do i get to be a person in my own right? When does someone actually see or hear me for who i am and care about my existence regardless of what it does for them

10:54pm - its the worst of my mental health, tbh, that i dont feel like its worth trying anything if its not going to be acknowledged and welcomed by anyone else. Existing included. I feel my worst and most suicidal when i cant have anyone remember that i exist. Because maybe i dont. Maybe people dont miss me or think of me unless theyre reminded for some specific reason. And i say these things because i want to be proved wrong but why would anyone.

I want to cut. I hate this stupid post limit. I could have at least distracted myself by reblogging stuff for a bit. Im still spiralling. I need a distraction and there isnt one and there wont be one and if i even get through tonight itll just be another reminder that in the end im alone

11:24pm - something feels particularly cruel about not being able to post here, even if i delete stuff. Its just an app sure but its the closest thing i have to therapy. I came back here specifically because i was struggling posting on my regular social media and having people not pay any attention. I thought id make a fresh anonymous account where i could vent and my shitty brain couldnt take it personally if nobody acknowledged it. Now i just have all that shit going round my head and nowhere to put it. Im right back where i started. Nobody will read this. If they do they wont care. If by some chance they did they'll be put off by me being so negative.

"One day someone will hug you so tight all tour broken pieces will fit back together" yeah sure. Whatever.

[supergirl-fanfiction]

Worth It

Nia Nal x Reader

Requested by @hunseckerde  Hello wonderful human whose blog I just discovered. If you would be so inclined, would you write a Nia/Reader first date fic? Just something super cute and sweet, with the reader being hella nervous? Dating app origin, maybe??

I tried my best with this one. Hopefully this is what you were hoping for. Enjoy!

(Y/N)- Your Name

You had thought that downloading and creating an account on Tinder was going to be the worst idea you had ever had and for awhile you were right. Every time you ended up matching with someone they would either not reply back to your conversations for days and sometimes weeks at a time, they ended up being catfish, or they stood you up on your date. You were going to give the app on more try before deciding to delete it. You were so glad you had given it one more try too because it led you to Nia. She was beautiful, goofy, adorable, a good conversationalist, and you were finally going to meet up with her tonight. You were a nervous mess. You wanted to make sure that you made a good first impression because you had never connected so easily with someone before. There was still a couple of hours before you two had planned to meet up at Noonan's and you were just hoping that they would fly by before you talked yourself out of meeting her. You couldn't just stand her up though, especially not after how excited you remembered her getting over the phone. A small smile appeared on your face as you remembered how she had rambled on about how she couldn't wait to meet you. The hours ticked by agonizingly slowly but eventually it was time to leave. You decided to walk there instead of driving since it wasn't too far from where you lived. Every step that you took towards Noonan's the more your nervousness began to resurface. What if she decided once she saw you that you weren't her type? What if you tripped over your own feet? What if you spilled something on her? Your hands began to shake slightly as you arrived at the door. You took a deep breath in trying to calm yourself down before opening the door and walking in. You looked around trying to see if she had made it there before you. You managed to spot her in the back in a booth. Her pictures didn't do her beauty justice. You slowly began to walk towards her as you told yourself to not make a fool of yourself in front of this goddess. She looked up at you as you arrived at her table and the smile that overtook her face made your heart skip a beat.

"Hey! Its so good to finally meet you in person (Y/N)!" she said excitedly. You blushed and gave her a small smile.

"Its um its really good to meet you too Nia. You look very beautiful. Your pictures didn't do you justice. Not that you didn't look good in your pictures because you did. I looked through all of them and I couldn't believe how beautiful you were. Wait, no that sounded kind of weird I just meant that." You stopped in the middle of your rambling as you heard her begin to giggle. You groaned softly. Great, you thought, you had just met her and you had already managed to make a fool of yourself.

"I'm sorry um let me try that again. Hey Nia. It's good to meet you in person too. You look very nice tonight." You managed to say without rambling on this time. Nia looked up at you and offered you a smile trying to contain her laughter.

"Usually I'm the one that rambles but you beat me to the punch." She joked. You laughed nervously and sat down across from her. You didn't know what to say so you began to fidget with your hands. Nia thought you were absolutely the cutest person she had ever met. She could see how nervous you were but she wasn't exactly sure how to help. She decided starting a conversation would probably be a good first step though.

"Did you know you're actually the first person I have met off of Tinder? You're actually the first person I talked to at all on the app." She told you and you looked up at her in surprise. Out of all the people on that app she had chosen to talk to you. You couldn't believe it.

"Seriously? I would have thought that you would have a lot of people that would want to match with you. I mean you're really funny, you're beautiful, you actually answer back, and not to mention the fact that you are just an all around amazing woman." You told her then blushed bright red. You hadn't meant to say all of that its just that sometimes your filter seemed to fail you and apparently this was one of those times. You hide your face behind your hands and just groaned. You were doing exactly what you had told yourself not to. You were making a gigantic fool of yourself in front of this woman who's beauty could rival Aphrodites. You heard her laughing softly and then you felt her hands grabbing yours and pulling them away from your face. Oh my god! She was holding your hands! Oh shit! Her hands were so soft.

"You're hands are so soft." You had said without realizing it.

"Why thank you. I dont think anyone has completed me on how soft my hands are before." It was only after she had told you that with humor in her voice that you realized you had said that out loud. You were just so nervous that it couldn't be helped. You had just wanted to make a good impression and hopefully be able to get another date. You honestly really liked Nia and it wasn't just because she was pretty. She was also extremely smart and had an awesome sense of humor. You thought that there was no chance of you being able to get a second date now. Yet, you still stayed there in the booth with her. If this is going to be the only date I get with her might as well make it last as long as I can you thought. Eventually after stumbling over your words, rambling, and stuttering while trying to carry on a conversation with Nia you began to gain some confidence. She hadn't left yet even after all the times you had embarrassed yourself. The longer the date went on the more you began to forget why you had been so nervous in the first place. As the date was coming to an end you decided it was now or never.

"I really enjoyed this night with you Nia. You are an amazing woman and I would love it if you would go on another date with me." You tried to say as confidently as possible but you could feel the nervousness seep into your voice. Nia looked up at you with a soft smile on her face.

"I would love to go on another date with you (Y/N). Text me later and we can figure everything out." Nia told you. She was extremely happy that you had asked her out for another date. She had had a lot of fun with you tonight despite your initial nervousness and she had been hoping you would ask for a second date. You let out a relieved laugh and told her that you would make sure to get in contact with her late to figure out the details for your next date. As you both got out of the booth and left you couldn't help but think that tonight had been the best date of your life and you couldn't wait for the next one.

[leviathiane]

SHOW US YOUR WROR RAW UNPROCESSED WHOLE GRAIN ORGANIC NOTES

this is going to be a long-ass post i am so sorry to Everyone! i take a lot of notes.

So, as You specifically know (as well as all of my lovely Soggers) I take a LOT of notes. Obsessively. I write fucking everything bc i have very little memory and very much paranoia. This results in literal Piles of notes. Raw planning, on paper, on my phone– doodles of scenes im brainstorming, bulletpoints, entire SCRIPTS– it’s all there but scattered (I’ve got scenes planned in the margins of my goddamn anthropology notes and deciphering it was a NIGHTMARE) 

I won’t even upload all the photos of my writing notebook, because itd be like 50 pages of illegible nonesense. but heres a couple of planning phase pages. (may be hard to read, I dropped this notebook both into some tidepools, into a creek on campus, and accidentally leaked my waterbottle onto it in my backpack :/) 

if you can’t tell already, yes they all look exactly like this. Some are even more illegible, because I wrote them with the notebook half under my actual class notes. Because i wrote most of them in class. During lectures. And pretending very badly that i was not doing exactly that. (pay attention in class please i got away with this bc i was filling up elective units) 

I’m also flat out MISSING a large portion of my notes bc some of it? isnt even in the damn notebook. its on a sheet of binder paper, or on the empty back of an assignment. I’ve now lost most of those notes, but the ones i do still have are just as (even more, actually) indecipherable chicken scratch: 

Wow, how clean and tidy and easy to follow! i am in hell. 

and this doesnt mention the PAGES and PAGES of outlines that are on my laptop, and the pages of outlined scenes that are on the notes app of my phone. if i put them all, you would have entire chapter spoilers up to the very end of the story so i cant post a lot of them– and also theres just a goddamn lot of them. currently i have 16 pages of outlining. There are no spacing breaks. It is a solid 16 page block of text. Looking at it gives me a migraine. 

some assorted notes which i have dredged up from the deleted parts of the main draft google doc go all the way back to when i started Wror in June and they are Barely more readable than my handwriting on sheer account of: articulation is not my strength. These include: 

“Ch 8 plan: sabo gets trained specially, awakens his armament haki, beats ace in a bunch of spars and proves himself to be anything but vulnerable. The boys are like “we fucking recognize that technique ryu taught you before us!!” and goad ryu into finally starting them both on basic haki training, just to awaken it, since sabo already has. Also this is the chapter that ace finally confronts ryu for his devil fruit after ryu confirms that some devil fruit users can’t be hurt without haki and ace immediately catches onto that and tries to slam his pipe through ryus head. It doesn’t work, ryu catches the weapon with a haki covered hand, to avoid turning to flame with hit and ace just gets frustrated and accuses ryu of hiding his devil fruit, because he remembers what he saw in grey terminal and that now that he has seen haki he can distinguish it from what he saw and he’s sure no one could do what ryu did. He calls ryu a hypocrite for coddling them even after telling them to stop coddling sabo and ryu has to sit them down and explain that yes he does have powers and he has been hdiing it and explains his reasoning. However instead of understanding th eboys just get fired up and say they don’t wnt to be scared of fire, especially not when it means ryu isn’t taking them seriously in a spar. Ryu finally agrees to start them on desensitization training for fire trauma. Fire desensitization training happens on the beach, so that they have water nearby in case things get out of hand. At some point ace gives ryu a considering look and is just like “if you have a devil fruit that means you can’t swim either right?” and ryu is basically just like “lmao yeah” and then ace immediately attempts to drown him. Lots of murder attempts in ace’s department toget his older brother to be less of an idiot with little success lol(extra: ace tried to attack ryu earlier both to confirm that ryu has a devil fruit that would force him to use haki to hide it, and because he now knows that he CAN’T hurt ryu without haki and as thus can’t beat him and make him admit he’s awake without being good at haki.)” [chapter 8] 

“Small sabo lost his hat and goggles in the incident and while he doesn’t remember having them future sabo notices he looks uncomfortable and keeps touching his hair and head. Ace yells at him for it thinking he bandaging are bothering him and that he can’t touch them but little sabo just comments that something about it feels wrong. Luffy blurts our that he had a hat, like luffy does, But he doesn’t now ace begrudgingly mentions that they can’t get a new one in town. Future sabo doesn’t even hesitate and just plops his own hat onto his younger selves head. It clearly too big for him, and almost falls over his eyes but he grins up at future sabo and is like “wow!! Thank you! I’ll take care of it till I have one of my own” and creates a paradox like Luffys own hat. The footsteps younger sabo has yet to fill. This HAS to happen AFTER the talk where they explain that future and past sabo are both the same person, to give little sabo that pressure.” [chapter 9]

“(Right after this older sabo takes them down to the ocean so that they can play a little and desensitize themselves and immediately fucks himself over when he goes weak in the water bc he somehow fucking forgot his own devil fruit again and now even younger sabo is on his case about not letting him near the fucking ocean that little goddamn HYPOCRITE—) )” [for chapter 9]

“Ch 9 plan: they finally leave dawn island. Starts with the boys getting a haircut after training and luffy mentions how long it’s been since they’ve last needed a haircut, giving sabo and ace time to point out that it’s been 2 months now since ryu joined them, and that sabo was completely healed by now. The boys are now aware of the basics of haki, and while luffy hasnt awakened either yet ace and sabo both have a little bit of weak armament haki. (sabo won’t awaken observational haki until he gets his memories back) ryu tries to sneak off into the city to steal a boat but his brothers refuse to leave him behind and keep sneaking out after him, not wanting him to go alone and saying that since he’s been training them they’re clearly stronger and he needs to let them do this. Ryu eventually just lets it go because why the fuck not it’s a dream and they make him feel better. They get the boat out on open ocean and finally fucking sail out, cheering loudly, ryu struggling to make them all calm down but also not really trying. He’s happy as shit, and they’re all so excited and happy and sabo dips a hand into the waves and then smiles so fucking wide and tackles ryu so violently they both nearly tip into the water and it’s just very very good. “ [also for ch 9] 

** I flat out dont Have any outlining from before chapter 6, because i only started actually outling chapters after that. i tend to just sit down and Write up until i hit a plot point or writers block and then am forced to actually think it through and plan rather than letting it come naturally. thats also why the quality and editing is better in later chapters despite everything being written within the same time frame. 

besides entire chapter outlines, there are the scene specific phone notes like:

“(ADDED) Right after they leave dawn, when sabo is sure they’ve gotten enough of a head start, he calls Garp. He doesn’t say who he is, but that all of the boys are safe and happy with him and has them all talk into the phone to assure him that they’re fine. Garp is honestly just pissed off he doesn’t know who’s calling and when he asks sabo just laughs and says a disobedient brat before hanging up. “

“(ADDED) TO EXPAND ON CH 3: sabo gets offered the chance to go with dragon, and he hesitates on the offer to go through with his previous life with the family he’s made in the revolutionary again. He almost agrees, because the bought of losing them in this lifetime is near excruciating but reminds himself swiftly that it’s no place for his brothers and not what they’d really want, and he wants selfishly to be with them as long as he Can until he “inevitably” wakes up. The boys are visibly relieved by this, especially ace. (Sabo gets asked who he is by dragon, who wants to know more about the stranger with his son, but dragon has always been quicker to make connections no one guessed and he just smiled knowingly at sabo and tells him he’s sure the other will have no trouble finding them if he’s in need. Sabo in turn warns him to keep Kuma close, and to look for a slave girl named koala.)”

I have…. many of these. I have Many of Everything. 

finally, i have scene doodles. if i hit a bad writers block it usually helps me to sketch scenes or the character designs to regain my grip on what the hell is happening in the plot– Breach of Intention has character design sketches, pakcbond has MANY scene sketches, even some of my nsfw has some sketches. my wror skecthes arent Good of course, I am an art teacher for children and that means i am more often explaining the color wheel and brush techniques over drawing perfect human replicas– and i just dont really make a lot of fanart? ive never drawn sabo before but i sure have a bunch now. i wont include close ups because they genuinely suck but heres an example pic 

So… yeah thats about everything. this is a VERY long post and yet i only included like maybe ¼ or 1/5 of all the notes i have dbskhjgfkjadns lmk if anyone wants more (or notes for my Other stories, which contain NO WHERE the same absurd amount of shit that wror does.)

[liquidstar]

I think I may have ocd and I think tumblr May be causing me anxiety what should I do? I’m thinking on deleting my account or at least just the app, I don’t even know how or why I get so stressful but every now and then I see myself checking my post’s notes to see how much it has accumulated on likes and reblogs and I feel like it’s becoming a vicious cycle, I got around 600 followers which might not be much but I am afraid they may worry if I stop posting (...) what should I do?

i completely understand how you feel anon. to address the ocd part, i dont have enough details to tell you whether that sounds like it or not but if youre thinking about it im sure you have a good idea of what it is and your symptoms and i really do recommend talking to a professional, though if you cant its encouraged to try to seek out your own resources and confide in people in your support group whenever you can, and if you have anything you wanna ask you can always dm me or send me another ask, i dont mind! im not a professional, but i can always share my own experience and the knowledge i DO have on it

as for tumblr... well, its really your choice at the end of the day, but if youre unhappy then dont force yourself to stay. if you dont wanna leave all together maybe you should remake? maybe having a certain amount of followers is just stressful for you and youd be happier and more calm if you had a smaller account where you mainly interacted with your friends and filtered fandom content, it could be a good chance to start over. i suggest keeping your old blog up just in case though, and if you WANT you can use it to redirect people to your new one but that might delete the purpose of going somewhere new. remember, youre in control of your own experiences online and youre allowed to make a safer space for yourself, you dont owe anyone anything just because you have a blog, you can move or delete if you want to, and if youre worried about your followers getting concerned you can just post a message and self-rb it a couple times. like i said it all comes down to what you feel is right, so this is more of a suggestion than something im saying you HAVE to do. 

i hope that helps enough anon u_u im sorry if my response is a bit subpar but like i said im not a professional, im just a random person with a blog, so consider what you think the best route is for yourself. good luck anon, i believe in u :)

[aharris00britney]

ASKS 10

‘less weird hairs,’ pics of me, real life questions, seasons thoughts, kpop stuff, ‘are you a boy’ erhdfnv, tutorial questions, edits, ‘safe’ cc, and umm yeah never go camping in the actual woods ok

Anonymous said: Can you do Less weird hair? I Like how good Mesh You make but all styles look Really Weird I never Would use them. I just want Usual hair? Thanks you            

Firstly, thank you for the meshing compliment, but tbh I think I make pretty simple hair styles? Like I don’t do many crazy things especially recently? Idk, I hope you like some of my hairs and can find something that fits in your liking :/

Anonymous said: Hi I really love you content and I was wondering if you’d ever do a “goddess locs” hairstyle?            

Ok I am gonna be super straight forward about this, making hairstyles like this is really challenging for me. I have tried a ton of times and I just can’t get the meshes to work out the way I like. UV mapping is a pain in the ass, making the hairline match well, and making sure none of the mesh strands are broken is next to impossible for me. Most creators that make hairstyles like this do them from scratch or spend a long time working on them for them to look right. I’m not saying ‘no’ because I am going to try to play around with some seasons meshes (I have hair ideas) but no promises :(

Anonymous said: BLACKPINK COMEBACK

i know omg jennie snapped, I wasn’t planning on buying the physical album but I ended up caving in and getting the pink versions ;-; I hope I get Jennie or Lisa photocards

Anonymous said: i know your theme is by gukthemes, but what is it called?            

PAPILLON by GUKTHEMES

Anonymous said: Are you ever gonna do a face reveal?

I have posted a pic of myself before in one of these ask posts, here are three more from the past few months :P

Anonymous said: Fav kpop group(s)???            

1). LOONA (bias Kim Lip) 2). BLACKPINK (bias Jennie) 3). RED VELVET (bias Joy) 4). CLC (bias Yeeun) 5). DREAMCATCHER (idk their names but the rapper)

Anonymous said: You play pokemon go still?

Yes! I collected cards/figures growing up and watched the show before school every morning. I’m not a ‘game’ fan but the mobile app is fun. Actually I played the Wii U Pokemon tournament game but it was boring so :/

Anonymous said: are you going to buy seasons? do you think it is worth it?

I got it from CDkeys for $25 lmao, so yes :P I can’t run the live mode so I kind of am just getting it for the new CAS assets :/ but I think the pack looks really good. Everyone always says ‘it looks like the best EP so far’ every time something new comes out so I’m not gonna say that but we will see :D

Anonymous said: whats ur skin blend called?            

Fruitpunch! You can get it here

Anonymous said: when are you going to be done camping?

I am back home now lmao I assume you sent this when I posted about not having service there :P but I was camping for 3 days? I know it was 2 nights at least refdbv also omg some camping stories:

► I didn’t have my voice for the entire trip bc I got sick with laryngitis, and now koby (the guy i shared a tent with) has it too erfdbvc

► It was blazing hot like omg I was dying, there werent showers, bathrooms, anything with AC. The tents were boiling hot, the ground fucking hurt, and it was just hell ok this isnt even a story I just need to complain.

► There was a racoon family outside the tents the first night, and we thought it was a bear bc we were literally in the middle of the woods, like it wasn’t a campsite with other people, it was the forest ;-; anyways we were legit so freaked out and up for 2 hours just listening to them walk around the tents and god it was so scary rfbdv

► As I said, I had no service so I missed the larvitar community day in pokemon go -_-

► I suck at cornhole so I was the cheer leader for a team UwU

► A deer jumped out right in front of the fucking car like RIGHT IN FRONT OF IT omg we were so close to hitting it like... it was fucking scary

► We went walking on a trail that was down a mountain and once we got down we discovered that the chairlift up was CLOSED so we had to walk back up and it was a nightmare bc we had all just drove like 30 minutes to shower in crappy no pressure no heat showers and we were all sweaty again by the time we got back to the top ;-;

dont go camping

Anonymous said: Your last edit creeps me out.

LMAO why? It isnt meant to be sexual or scary?  

@achinghearts88 said: I really love Sims 4 cc but I constantly struggle with finding safe sites and have accidentally downloaded a virus trying to get cc before so I'm kinda frightened now. What advice do you have for getting safe cc? Thanks!

Hello! I use an adfly skipper + adblock, and if both of those don’t work then I just don’t download the cc. For some creators (nolan-sims, simduction, isjao, ivo-sims, and others) I will turn them off because I know these creators aren’t ones that use the sketchy adfly stuff, but for others that I don’t know well I leave it on. I use: U Block origin and adfly skipper (both on firefox)

Anonymous said: I couldn't find a "contact me" thing but your AHarris00Britney has a broken mesh I think.            

??? idk what this means im sorry ;-; what hair are you referring to?

Anonymous said: an amazing creator and a loona fan???? i stan            

My mind... your mind... our mind..

@chocooosims said: hey, I love your cc, you are such a good creator! :) I'm not sure if someone already ask you that, but have you ever considered making a tutorial where you show us how you create maxis match hair? I mean, I know that I can already find on Internet  tutorials about frankenmeshing hair. But the thing is that you are one of the only creator who do more than simply merge 2 EA's hair together. So, I would really love to see a tutorial of how you are creating your cc! :) Thx for your time!! 

I am making a BIG tutorial right now of me making a hair from start-finish and it is around 3 hours not speed up. My guardian angel is going to edit it for me tonight and then I will try to have it posted next week sometime

Anonymous said: what university are you going to?

Radford :D it is in Virginia

Anonymous said: Just wanted to let you know you're a king           

thank you lmao I wish it were true, stan loona or be beheaded

Anonymous said: r u a guy or girl or non binary etc. also are you lgbtq+ at all? not to judge, just wondering :)

uuh, I’m a gay guy lmao idk about all the other terms like cis/bianary ;-; i like the anatomy exclusive to the male body

edit: rip so someone messaged me asking what I meant by “anatomy exclusive to the male body” and I was like ?? bc I meant i like d**k, and i explained that i didn't like using cuss words on my blog bc my account got shut down/deleted/reported last year and was completely gone for two days while I emailed my butt off to get it back. Also, I was trying to be funny by sounding proper and using big terms like anatomy/exclusive instead of just saying “i like penis” bc that just isnt as fun to say imo. My anatomy teacher never used words like v*gina/p*nis and would say stuff like that, and I always found it funny and I guess that was another reason I worded it that way. Anyways if you think I was being transphobic, I apologize. I hope you don’t think that I am transphobic bc of that? If you want to message me and talk to me about how I can word stuff better then I am around 24/7 mostly, but I’m not going to fight with anyone who is just looking to argue because that is childish. I am sorry to those that got offended but I got one message about this so if something like this happens, message me like this person and ask what I meant so that it isn’t blown out of proportion. Again, I did not think that it would be taken that way and I am sorry if you felt that I was making fun of a trans person. <3

Anonymous said: What do you see in the corner of your room when you get sleep paralysis  (;            

James Charles with breasts on the beach and im not sharing this photo anymore it is demonic OK

Anonymous said: hi! i installed your non-default eye recolors but i'm having a glitch with them. my female sims lose their face in cas and it's just like an empty spot where the face should be. i have the default eyes installed too so i know it's not an issue with a missing mesh but i'm not sure how to fix it.            

Hello!! I don’t think this is my eyes because I’m not experiencing this glitch? Did you run a S4S batch fix over everything? I think that causes this glitch sometimes but I am unsure. Try repairing your game and if you have the “no EA eyelash” mod then redownload that and replace the old file.

@sephirajo said: I found your sims 4 mods and I love the hairs! They're so amazing and pretty.            

thank you so much!

Anonymous said: In your collab with wildpixel, I F**KING love the Ivy hair; do you have any recolours of it or any of the other hairs in the collab?

all the hairs in that pack are recolored in the anathema and sacharinne palette :) and I reblog all recolors of my cc over on @aharris00britneyrecolors

[wingedentropy]

A phone review

Hi! So I don't really know where else to write this to get it to where its going to reach a decent audience besides making an account for some random Tech Review stuff so I'm just going to leave this here.

This is my personal phone review of the LG Harmony. (Which is noteable no longer being sold in stores and was replaced by its predecessor Harmony 2).

Just for reference. I've roughly had this phone for a good Year and a little over 2 months now as I got it as a Christmas present on Christmas 2017.

I would also like to note some of the things I am experiencing could easily just be because of old apps I had installed in the past. Such as keyboard modifiers.

So. Over all the time ive had this phone. It has steadily decreased in about every area where it shouldn't. So. I'm going to go over all of these as a general warning to NOT buy this phone if there are any left on shelves.

*Camera. As somebody who originally wanted a camera and not a phone when I got my first one. Phones having decent cameras are everything to me. The rear camera is still fairly okay to me. But its autofocus is absolutely terrible. But if you take it off if you're a noob like me its pretty hard to get it to focus at all. The front camera is the modern day equivalent of having potato quality. The pictures come out so pixelated that many of my friends with acne appear to have clear skin due to how obviously pixeled it is. (Like. You can SEE individual pixels if you look at it)

*Battery. My Battery life is still pretty good. If I take my phone off the charger at about 6:30 in the morning and use it not heavily but regularly all the way until schools ends at 3:10 I can end thr day anywhere from 60% to 30% which isn't too bad. It charges pretty slow when running applications now however which is a bummer.

*Have I mentioned my keyboard? Awhile ago I started having this issue where my phone would not register my custom keyboard I had downloaded so I switched back to the regular keyboard that comes with the phone. And the keyboard. Is. Bad. My phone has started to not even pull up the keyboard for a solid two minutes when I go to type on an app. The only place I've currently found where I dont have this issue is writing in my notepad.

*Space. All phones eventually hit the point where they go "okay you don't have enough space delete pictures" and you go "he'll no!" And hopefully if youre a sensible person buy a memory card. Let me tell you, I can not remember that for my life. So I have to work with what I'm given. I check the things that take up the most space on my phone and *surprise surprise* the top two things is the ACTUAL PHONE. That I can't fix. The next thinf is usually whatever app I use most that day. But even then it uses considerably less than the actual phone processes.

*My phone is now very bad at giving me notifications. My Tumblr notifications seem okay. They arent the best but Tumblr is a sh*tshow rn so I'm willing to put that aside. But I physically am noy notified when I get a text regardless of if my phone is on vibrate or not. It will not sound alert and won't show up on my lock screen. You'll only see the numver on your text box go up. So I hope you check your phone a lot.

*also calls. When my phone is on silent and IN MY HAND. It will drop calls as if they never even happened on my side. Which is infuriating.

Long story short to my 3AM phone rant. Please dont buy this phone. Use a bit more money and get something slightly better quality if you want something that will last you more than a year solidly. (The issues started appearing before the year mark anyway)

[straw-bana-blog]

lmao why are people getting so shitty about us getting mad??? It’s almost like they think we’re just gross horny ppl who only care we won’t get porn anymore,,, 🧐

Listen, if I want porn, you know where I go? To porn sites. I sure as fuck never look anything up here. Why? Spam, loli and shota, creepy ppl I don’t wanna interact with.

So why am I mad?

1. Because of the timing. I don’t fucking think its a coincidence that right after apple takes tumblr off the store, they fucking scramble and start deleting blogs left and right, a lot of which did nothing wrong, then turn off safe mode and clear out the nsfw tag (and other related ones) and finally ban nsfw content outright.

They have known about the cp and the fucking bots and the nazis and EVERYTHING for YEARS. I’m sorry but it’s true. They will never admit it, obviously, but they’ve been ignoring it and excusing it by saying ‘oh how could we know!! Our site is so large we can’t keep track of everything!’ Meanwhile waves of tumblr users have been making posts and reporting it to them. 

They’ve had the time to fix it, they COULD have been working on an algorithm all this time to fix it, but no. It wasn’t a concern until suddenly ppl couldn’t download their shitty app anymore (which is just. Riddled with issues of its own anyway). So they throw together an algorithm that doesn’t work, then decide to just nuke it all because it’s just easier that way.

2. It’s literally going to destory the site. I’m sorry, YOU might stay and try to cling to this garbage site because of xyz, but I’m not. You can make excuses, you can try and convince yourself that you don’t care, you’re just here for the fandom/the art/the community, whatever, but the truth is? This is the last step for me.

Tumblr has been a hellsite for years, its been a mess and its become a joke. Everybody laughs about how they don’t wanna be here and they can’t wait for it to die. But nobody leaves because tumblr seems to survive anything.

Nobody’s happy here anymore. Sure, they might be happy with the community side of things, the actual people on here, but NOBODY is happy with the site. I know its hard to please everybody these days, but pissing off everybody? Its seems impossible, but tumblr managed it! All the bugs, the lack of communication with any decision, just everything. Its not a good site.

People are going to lose income from this, possibly friends who only talk to them through tumblr and get their blogs deleted. A lot of people are just going to leave. Because yeah, maybe I don’t get my rocks off going through the nsfw tag on here, but a lot of people do, and you know what? You can make fun of them for leaving, you can call them horny and gross but at the end of the day, its going to be a lot of people. Even if they’re like me and go to other sites, for a lot of people its a big issue. They want the OPTION of seeing nsfw stuff, even if they won’t ever seek it out. They don’t want to have to worry about being censored of having their blog deleted for showing some fucking nipples. 

And when they start leaving, some of their friends will too, and more and more until eventually no one’s left! Sure, I might be wrong, it could still survive, people might not actually leave, but the core of tumblr will permanently be changed, no matter what happens after December 17th.

3. Its just further proof that Tumblr just doesn’t get it’s users. This one has been coming for a while, honestly. We all know this. We makes jokes about it. They make silly cosmetic changes and ignore the bugs, they randomly go on purges of normal accounts, but the bots seem untouched, tags that are KNOWN to be full of cp/abuse/other shitty things have just been left alone!

They think we want all these fancy new features when really we just want them to address the things that are already wrong with the site.

And now that they’ve been caught out for their biggest issue that’s been going on for so long, they’re finally fixing it. But not in a way that’s good for the site, certainly not in a way we want. It’s a lazy way, nuking all nsfw stuff so they can claim to be family friendly and hopefully get back in the store and stay in apples good books. It’s so they won’t have to make an actual algorithm and keep on top of it in the future.

No, they’ll just make another shitty algorithm that targets all nsfw, have their users report things that aren’t kid-friendly and then they’ll be good again!

Except we never wanted that, never asked that. And if they had have just listened to us in the first place, they could have gotten started fixing the issues a long, long time ago. They could have had enough time to come up with a proper solution rather than just nuking the entire fucking site.

So I think we have a right to be mad. You can make jokes all you want, but we’re pissed because we have all wanted tumblr to get better for so long. We have waited, we have tried asking them, talking to them, begging them to fix things. They don’t listen.

So for a lot of us this is just. Too far, finally. We’re done waiting for them to step up and become a better platform. They’ve proven they don’t listen, they’ve proven they don’t really care about anything except profit. So I’m mad. Because I’ve made excuses for them in the past, justified using the site because of the community aspect, but they’ve finally made it impossible for me to do that.

I’m not going to be using the site anymore. And you can make fun of me for not leaving sooner, you can stick around. I don’t really care. I’ve spent years on this site just trying to ignore all the flaws. But I’m done! I’m sick of waiting for the next bug, the next shitty decision, the next fuck up.

I’m just gonna go to other sites from now on.

So here’s my Twitter, my Ao3 and my insta is @awuum.

Edit:Oh! I also do have a discord, so if you want that then just simply ask!

[neo-shitty]

toffee!

ah yes, i should have assumed you already know, intelligent as you are. glad its not weird. i was fretting last night, and im pretty sure my gc is going insane the amount of all caps texts i sent telling everyone i fucked up 🤦 i think ill stay on anon if its all the same to you

i think i will then, im hoping i can get to school tomorrow, but ive got a bad cold :( thanks for the advice tho ill think of it while im sitting around procrastinating 🤡

yeah thats what i thought! if it was keeping me motivated, why stop there? im sure you could finish on a definite ending if you rlly wanted to, but yeah getting all the way to the end is tiring sometimes

hehe yeah same tho. i think he did! i saw a screencap where he commented on a stays vid using the official acc, which i dont think theyre supposed to do? obviously didnt reveal his personal acc, but did let us know pretty definitely that he has an acc that he just forgot to switch back to

ah yes the thought of vampchan conjures hilarity but also anxiety that he will stumble upon hard stan twitter and be faced with all the stays with daddy kinks. lmao yes randall the one with the cool ass voice? the purple scaly one i think

no you deserve it, and more! YES I DID READ IT AND I LOVED IT! yeah i can totally see it as a joon fic (as a chan and rm bias this fits me quite nicely) but i think chan also fits it rlly well, they are similar characters on page i think, even if they are different irl. I WILL BLAME ED SHEERAN for my heartbreak last night, that was intense man. o.o maybe ur an oracle of delphi and you didnt even know it. the ending, gut wrenching as it was, did fit the character and the story arc pretty well, i think, it wasnt wildly out of place with the headspace the mc was in at that moment so i dont entirely blame you for the sadness (but i rlly do)

<3 w.a. 🐺

AHAHAH why'd you get into full on panic mode T__T it's really okay and go stay anon if it's where you're more comfortable : ] you have face to face classes already? ohhh a bad cold, get well soon! i was down yesterday because of the vaccine ~.~

yep! what you said is true. i do struggle a lot with getting to it. i actually start from the ending for most of my fics. so i either struggle with getting to the end or just starting the fic entirely. getting from point a to point b and beyond is just a massive pain in the ass. what do you usually do to make the process of writing easy?

felix slipping up AHAH cutie. what if he comments with his personal account and it's just ignored because people don't know it's him? that's a bit thrilling XDD

i remember chan talking about edits of him going viral on twitter and i wanted to delete myself off the damn app because obviously hE is watching and lurking or whatever. i just feel more conscious of what i say about idols who know how to speak english and could possibly read what i/others say.

oh i see that you have a bit of a type o.O yeah i agree that they give off the same vibes on fic. writing that fic was pretty heavy indeed. i'm glad i picked that up again after benching it for a month. i am definitely NOT the oracle of delphi AHAH yeah :(( i thought it was pretty tragic tho. and i remember my friend pointing out that it was also a bit sad that life just went on for chan afterwards and he moved on eventually. well, he had to realistically. but idk i just found that part pretty sad too. fuck ed sheeran for writing that song /j

[chanshine]

What what tf happened where were you

It’s a loooooong story but i was planning on explaining everything so i’ll do it here! Short ver: i got suspended for saving & not using a huge amount of URLs.

Long ver: under the read more (for anyone that loves drama and wants to waste 5 mins listening to me complain) 

So! 23 days ago, on Monday 26 of February i got an email from Tumblr informing me that my account got suspended because i had saved and never used a huge amount of URLs. Ridiculous reason to get suspended right? but i did have a LOT of URLs i didn’t even want to use (more than 100 for sure) so it makes sense why Tumblr wanted to “take action”. Now, if you’re wondering why i had all those URLs saved, it’s pretty simple. I saved them when i first started this blog, almost 4 years ago and i never deleted them because it takes a lot of time and i was lazy and i didnt thought tumblr would actually suspend me or anything fdkjdfjkfdk

Anyway on that sad Monday i wake up, go to work, scroll through my dash and notice that i cant reblog or post anything. At first i thought it was a bug but then i noticed that i cant post from my phone too (browser & app) and i couldnt find my blog. That was when i panicked real hard. I checked my Line account and i saw my friends trying to figure out what happened with me and if i was okay cause they thought i deactivated or smth. At that point i (still panicked and scared af) send a message to the tumblr support team asking what tf happened to my blog. After i send that message i checked my email to see if they got it and that was when i found out about my suspension and everything. The email Tumblr send me about it, it said that i had to delete all the URLs, inform them and they would restore my access to my account. I was pretty shocked tbh but that line “Let us know when that’s been done so we can restore your access.” made me feel a lil better cause i thought my blog would go back to normal very soon lmaoSo then i started deleting all the URLs and they were so many and it takes so much time that i had to stop and finish deleting them at home (i was at work and i had to actually do my job you know fdjkdfkj). At around 8pm my time i was back home, all the URLs deleted and ready to get my blog back. I replied to the email tumblr send me, telling them im sry and that i deleted all the URLs and that was it, that was when the drama started. 

I waited 2 days and Tumblr didn’t reply to me. Not a “we got your reply, we’ll restore your account soon” no anything. Complete silence from them. I messaged them again and again for a whole week and nothing, no reply from the support team. I ended up making a new blog and messaged them from there (in case they blocked my email or smth) and no answer from them again. My friend Ana emailed them too about my blog and they told her “tell your friend to contact us” (lmao i was doing that for a week and yall ignored me but okayy). I messaged them again and again and nothing. I even send a report at Tumblr Security, complaing that the support team is ignoring me. I send that from a different email (in case the email tied to my blog was indeed blocked) and i did get a reply from a dude named Doug, saying i should email tumblr security again but from the email connected to my blog. I was so happy when i got that response, i thought Doug was my hero but sike, i couldnt message Tumblr Security from my email and when i told Doug he ignored me.

After about 50 emails from me and some friends who messaged tumblr about me (and got ignored just like me) i had lost all hope, i stopped messaging the support team and my plan was to message them again after ½ weeks when they would have forgotten about me and how they were ignoring me and maybe someone would reply to me by accident lmao (i didnt really believe that would work but i wasnt gonna go away without an explanation). But i was rly convinced i wouldnt get my blog back so i made a new blog a few days ago and saved the 3 good URLs i could use for my new blog. 

That was until today. Today i woke up thinking i will finally start my new blog and i was thinking of ways to track all the gifs i posted on chanshine and reblog them so i had them on my new blog etc etc. Later at work i decided to message tumblr one more time (before i gave them a break and started my plan from above) and that email was so ridiculous lmao i srly send them this: “hello, its me your sad girl Mary. I just want to ask a lil question from the lovely support team. Will i ever get my blog back or should i just make a new one lmao”. I didn’t think anyone would reply tbh, i was ready to get ignored but after some hours, when i got home i checked my email one last time and saw that they did ignore that message BUT! they replied to the one they send me 23 fucking days ago! Their reply was very simple “Hello, Thanks for letting us know. We’ve restored full access to your account.” and tbh i wont even ask for an explanation, they might suspend me for good fdjkdfjkdf

After i saw this email i freaked out, opened tumblr and saw that i had messages (before i couldnt open the messages cause my blog “didnt exist”) and i saw that i can make posts and find my blog and url and all dfkjdfjk

So yeah, thats all it, thats what happened and after living all of that i got a few last things to say:

1) DELETE ALL YOUR SAVED URLS I DONT CARE HOW CUTE OR RARE THEY ARE IF YOU DONT USE THEM DELETE THEM ALL DFKJDFKJDF (or at least reblog smth on them from time to time so they arent completely empty)

2) The Tumblr Support Team is a joke, i don’t know what they were doing all these days, i literally informed them i deleted all the URLs on the same day they suspended me and they have done absolutely nothing. So try your best to never end up needing the Support Teams help cause you aint gonna get it.

3) I think my suspension (more like, tumblr checking my blog) came after an american dude claimed my olympics gifs cause that literally happened on the same night so yeah, be careful of not giffing stuff that “Jonathan Cheban” thinks he owns or he’s gonna claim them and make tumblr delete them