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I'm so fucking sick of people I'm around having everything I ever could've wanted and then having the nerve to cry about how they have nothing. Your parents love you. You have enough money to spend on toys and games and food. You have tons of friends who care about you and hang out with you. You don't spend every waking moment of your life alone. You have everything I've ever wanted and more.
You fucking know I have none of that. Why do you continue to rub it in my face.
#im so sick of this#at this point id rather be at school than home#but then its like#i dont wanna be there either#its like#i dont belong anywhere#wow guys this social anxiety + depression + possible autism combo is getting craaazzyyyyy#I WANT TO KILL MYSELF I CANT DO THIS SHIT ANYMORE I CANT I JUST CANT#WHY CANT I JUST BE HAPPY WHY CANT I BE LIKE EVERYONE ELSE#WHY CANT I JUST BE NORMAL#my fucking head hurts now#i might just#go to sleep. its better than living my miserable life#ill probably delete this later sorry i need to shut the fuck up about my feelings but if i dont say any for long enough ill have a meltdown#vent#shut up hazel
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let's get ✨vulnerable✨
#this isnt meant to be ship. or suggestive. i dont even wanna tag it as ship tbh#theres something really really lovely about platonically bathing with someone and I think they'd be normal about it#I don't think either of them would wanna spend too much time alone either. after. all that shit#dungeon meshi#dungeon meshi spoilers#chilchuck tims#senshi of izganda#my art#comic
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Drew a bunch of Marinettes in a bunch of different artists styles it was a lot of fun!!
Artists who's styles I mimicked: @buggachat @hamsternamedmarinette @ladybeug @sabertoothwalrus and @anna-scribbles all epic artists 🤟😎
#my art#marinette dupain cheng#miraculous ladybug#miraculous fanart#style mimic#sorry for the @s btw#yall should go follow those artists if you dont already also#this was sort of inspired by a post the three artists on the top row made#i think they all got together and drew with one another#which is really cool#but i was genuinely confused because i mimic styles a lot#and ive seen others do it too so i was just like#wow they really know each others styles really well#until i thought about it and read their posts some more#style mimicking is really freaking fun and i think its really good practice#and a good way to explore other ways of doing things#like you really have to learn new techniques and get out of your comfort zone#also anna scribbles i could not find a recent pic of marinette in her main outfit#so thats the only marinette i drew in different clothes cuz i couldnt find a more recent ref of you drawing it#anna scribble marinette has privileges thats the others dont#but ye#i also threw my own style in there as a frame of reference to what me draw like#ive drawn marinette before just not in a loooong while#sabertooth walrus was the hardest for me to mimic cuz they have a broad range in their style#so its like which sabertooth do i wanna be in this pic#Buggachat has such a distinct style thats very clean and consistent which is amazing so they were easy#being easy or hard arent bad things either it also has to do with like styles meeting up with one another#buggachats and mine arent too too different in some shapes and aspects#so yeah itd be easier plus they drew marinette like 3 sec ago so i have more recent of a ref#as opposed to sabertooth who i have a recent ref of ladybug but not marinette so we got two diff styles in one
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early AT anniversary art
#adventure time#art#fanart#finn the human#finn mertens#marceline the vampire queen#princess bubblegum#flame princess#huntress wizard#lady rainicorn#jake the dog#simon petrikov#bmo#neptr adventure time#my art#fern the human#too many tags.#kimya dawson#dont ask where a specific character is. I either couldn’t fit them or just didn’t wanna put them in okay#ferns my favourite. of course im gonna try and include him in anything adventure time related#also theyre eating apples
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happy pride month. i did not make this up for th ememe
#knight rider#kr#michael knight#kitt#art#doodles#comic#gay#knight rider fanart#mk2000#this has happened in at least.... 2 or 3 episodes i think#that's kinda gay michael#kitt was either going to say he's not an infant or something about how that's a word he only hears directed at attractive women#and michael is not. going to deal with one of those answers. doesn't even wanna know which he was going to ask#im going downtown tonight if i die and this was the last post on my blog it would be so so so so so funny#anyway my mom and my aunt both follow my instagram and watched knight rider in the 80s. so. i embrace whatever happens ;;#im still thinking about ''why dont You ever get me flowers'' or however that line went.#likE YEAH MICHAEL YOUR CAR HAS SAVED YOUR LIFE *NUMEROUS* TIMES. GET HIM SOME FLOWERS.#SCREAMS. why is this show so fruity i feel insane#gio if you see this when you build your kitt you need to take him to pride parades with little rainbow flags stuck off the windows#FLAG is only one letter away from F-
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Chat have we discussed drunk chess with cherik cause i just think. That would be the darnedest silliest thing they could do
#xmen#xmen first class#xmen dofp#cherik#charles xavier#erik lehnsherr#snap chats#sorry still thinking about dofp and i reminded myself of the plane scene#the idea of drunk chess sounds so stupid fun i wish i could play drunk chess#‘snap how do you play drunk chess’ simple !!!! every piece you lose you take a shot#anyway i think itd be silly …….#id like to do something with that idea but i still have to decide on execution#omg xmen fandom hasnt seen my twelve million ‘i wanna draw this so bad’ tags yet#but yeah i sy tht a lot </3 so many things i wanna draw all the time#either that or write …. but i draw more#i love comic makin. and i blame these damned comics for gettin me into it what tha hell !!!#ok im done rambling i wish i had more to say but i dont#i lied i do. this doesnt have to be after erik apologizes on the plane this could be lit any damn time they play#i just live for the progression of them Trying to play semi seriously for a solid twenty minutes before they lose it#and now they wont stop giggling and being stupid asses#theyre still trying to play but ‘trying’ is doing a lot of heavy lifting#imagine it with me chat … itd be so beautiful i could cry frankly#ok my classes are done for today im gonna sit in my room and think of cherik#maybe ill TRY to draw this … if not then def somethin at least
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mmmmmm read a disciple shen yuan/shizun luo binghe fanfic about two days ago where the first chapter was the Immortal Conference arc, and SQQ was the one who had to be pushed into the abyss (he was still the villain) except Luo Binghe was refusing and was like, lowkey losing his mind about SQQ being so close to the edge. SQQ ended up having to be the one to fall in himself because of the system's punishment system. The rest of the fic is leading up to that moment. But like, MMM i've been obsessively thinking about that first chapter for DAYS ever since.
now i've been in svsss for a grand total of *checks watch* a week. but god obsessed with that. I want to write/read a fic where disciple SQQ goes a little nuts down there. Like keep all of the things that make SQQ, SQQ, but just. Throw in a little bit more trauma in there. A little bit of a mental break. Let him go a little nuts as a treat. Just a tad unhinged. I wanna see him go, just a little, "god fuck it, i've tried so hard to change this shitty story's outcome and it feels like everything i've done has been for nothing. I'm going to die in this world no matter what I do, I've been doomed from the start, so might as well die the way I want to." and he just, breaks a little! Under all the stress.
He still retains the traits that makes shen yuan, shen yuan, like his overwhelming kindness. But he's just! yk. A little less patient. Paranoid. Jumpy. Colder. A little more aloof and closed off. A little more Shen Jiu. He's no asshole child abuser, but he was a Number One Hater in his past life and he's leaning into that old habit a little more now.
(On a totally coincidental not-at-all related note, there's not enough SJ-and-SY-are-the-same-people fics out there that i've found. This is totally unrelated...)
The Endless Abyss turns the mind into an over-sharpened blade, and SQQ is both fascinated and perhaps a little excited to explore a place that doesn't have a lot of info on it in the mortal realm, but still terrified out of his mind. And he's no Luo Binghe, he doesn't have the sheer brute strength and power to just bulldoze his way through, so he has to be a lot more sneaky and cunning if he wants to survive.
The fic itself role-swapped LBH and SQQ so that SQQ was the half-demon (which lowkey fucks) and LBH the human, but I'm equally-if-not-more obsessed with the idea that LBH remains the half-heavenly demon and SQQ the human. If only because I keep thinking about SQQ befriending some demons (particularly and specifically a group of succubi) and they grow very attached to this Human Cultivator so through magic plot stuff they create some kind of seal/illusion/talisman that makes SQQ appear as a demon because a human cultivator in the endless abyss may as well be the equivalent of putting a giant neon target on your back.
And iirc Shen Jiu was taught demonic cultivation by that one guy(?? i've only been here a week so im not caught up in ALL of the lore yet) so that could totally happen here.
(On the other end of the realms, poor Shizun Luo Binghe is just. losing his fucking mind over losing his most precious and beloved disciple. About .5 seconds from burning down the peaks himself. somebody sedate him.)
The Endless Abyss sucks and SQQ is having a really terrible time and can feel himself going lowkey mad, but also holy shit look at all this WORLD-BUILDING. look at all this flora and fauna, and oh if he had the equipment for it he'd be writing all of this down. ALL OF IT. He was kinda-sorta-already planning on never leaving the Abyss as some sort of fucked up self-exile and self-preservation thing, but now he might? actually just?? never leave if he can help it, like he lowkey likes it down here.
anyways the next time anyone ever sees SQQ again he's got hair so long its almost touching the ground and he's either in rags and half-feral or he's been completely dolled up by his adoptive succubi sisters and still about three seconds from biting anyone who tries to touch him. (he's also lowkey trying to book it back down to the abyss even if he has desperately missed all of his friends and shizun)
#mxtx svsss#svsss au#scum villian self saving system#shen qingqiu#shen yuan#luo binghe#disciple shen yuan#scum villain#svsss#*points at SQQ/SY* i want him to go nuts. as a treat. let him crumble just a little over the stress of his fate and the stress of survival#and the stress of having a lack of autonomy over a handful of his decisions. starry craves angst and she craves a very specific SQQ angst#he was a number 1 hater back in the day and lbr being a hater takes energyyyy. ive heard that this man was the BIGGEST hater i wanna#see him rip a man to shreds with nothing but his tongue and a voice that could cut marble clean in half. skin a man alive sqq you deserve i#*mortal kombat voice* FINISH HIM#i love without-a-cure but unfortunately i dont think SQQ would be able to have WAC and also survive in the abyss.#the succubi nest that adopted him tried seducing him at first. it didn't work. but he did somehow charm them with his cringefail ways#so now they have a brand new mortal big/little brother to dote on. SQQ is frankly delighted to learn all about succubi culture that doesnt#revolve around sex. he makes quite a few friends/allies in the abyss because of his pure fascination and unbiased desire to learn about#demonic culture and all the different niches and nuances of it across species. he's still going insane tho. like that's not stopping.#there's a single LBH pov chapter in the fic and its frankly so unhinged it was fantastic. he's so possessive. he straight up goes:#'oh SQQ isnt gonna be the next peak lord. he's ascending to heaven with me when i do :)' when Sha Hualing (also peak lord) told him that he#couldn't keep his disciple in the bamboo house all the time. what was SQQ gonna do when LBH ascends and he becomes the new peak lord?#gosh that first chapter is rotating around in my mind so bad. LBH was SO unwell. like losing his actual shit over SQQ near the edge.#i so want to write a oneshot abt this where SQQ is also in hysterics (albeit over slightly diff reasons) and tells LBH on his knees:#'this disciple deeply apologizes to his shizun. for he will not be ascending to the heavens with him.' right before he falls into the abyss#this au being disciple SY is for shits and giggles but i can also see it happening for regular SQQ bc 'fuck it im a dead man either way'#frothing at the mouth at this idea also being a SY-is-SJ au too. for the extra angst of SQQ trying to bear the weight of multiple lives on#his shoulders and trying to figure out what is real and what isn't and if he's meant to suffer in all of his lives no matter what he does.#not once in his life has he ever been free to do what he likes has he? self-hatred to the max. he's going mad. poor boy :]
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Another thing I noticed about this episode. The flashback in the beginning where Touya asks Enji to come to the peak seemed... Off to me, and i couldn't place it at first so I went and found the same frame from the flashback before, when Touya's backstory is presented in Enji's point of view and, well, look at this shit
This is supposed to be the same frame (Enji's pov on the left, Touya's on the right) and it really says something about perspective. Touya looks hysterical and unstable in the right frame. His eyes look so exhausted and sad. His smile looks distraught. His hair seems messier. He has dark circles under his eyes. Overall he just looks extremely unwell. And then the left frame he looks more... Put together, which makes me wonder if Enji was purposely overlooking just how sickly and broken Touya actually looked back then and was remembering him through a sort of filter Because he couldn't handle thinking Touya looked like That on probably the last day he saw him alive. Because side by side the difference is just... Wow
#i havent seen anybody mention this in the dabi or touya tags either and like. pls. can we talk about this?#i dont wanna use his tags im scared of the mainstream fandom
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some uprooted ep 2 doodles
#legends of avantris#uprooted#booker#grumley#peggy#bitsy#hazel#my art#mojo art#its fun to doodle with pens on some nice paper until you realise you cant erase it but if i use a pencil i need to press more#and then after a bit it starts to hurt my wrist because my death grip is apparently hard to control#so i either get thick lines and hand horty or i get the lightest barely visible lines so pen it is but then i cant erase it#and i dont wanna bother sketching with pencil first because its a doodle
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Like I get why human-Bill post canon redemption fics for Billford are common because it's fun to put Bill in that situation where he doesn't know whats going on and its a way to 'break' Bill into not being a huge asshole through learning empathy BUT I feel like also a big part of that is also people being COWARDS and not leaning into the monsterfuckery of Ford falling in love and getting it on freaky style with a triangle LIKE HE ALREADY DID.
#like i get it. thats what people are used to writing etc and thats not to say i dont enjoy those fics either. i do#i really do. but also i wanna see the saem trope but Bill as a triangle.#is this me shamelessly trying to beg for post canon bill-redemption monsterfucking smut. uhhhhh noooooo definitely not.#jokes aside seriously though id love to see that explored more. theres so many fun situations. handyman bill is one of them obviously.#but id love to see more#theres also probably more of them out there then im aware of but the human ones are DEFINITELY more common#hugin rambles#hugin rambles gf#gravity falls#billford#bill cipher#ford pines#stanford pines#big sigh. do i have to write one myself... ive been TRYING to ignore the ideas ping-ponging around but also that could be fun. but also#where the fics attty
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NEW PFP JUMPSCARE!!!! but more importantly i finally made a fanart tag, which is just choccyfanart! ive been wanting to do this for a while so that all of the stuff ppl have made for me isnt lost forever in the trenches of my blog BAHAHA. fanart includes everything btw from screenshots/writing/and then ofc any art with clora/my seb in it🥹 and speaking of fanart thats what my new pfp is, and this entire post was actually just an excuse to show the full pic bc LOOK HOW CUTE!!! ARGHHHH CUTENESS AGGRESSION!!!🩵🩵
(credit to mr_sompip on twitter!! they also did one of lamie go look)
#i rly wanna do clora and seb as animal crossing charas too now...clora would either be a squirrel or a bunny#and seb a dog or a wolf....he got that dawg in him... but id probs do wolf just cuz thats cooler teehee#actually i think id do bunny/wolf to match that art of them i made forever ago#fellas i also hate change and dont like to change my pfp often but i had to and im sure u get it#choccyfanart
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you have to take precautions, i guess?
#fnaf#five nights at freddy's#fnaf ruin#fnaf security breach#fnaf ruin dlc#ruin dlc#fnaf daycare attendant#fnaf eclipse#michael afton#micheal afton#fnaf sun/moon#fnaf sb au#security breach ruin au#daycare attendant#michael and eclipse au#to be fair i wouldn't wanna risk it either michael dont worry
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(for the RQs) You like Transformers, you like Undertale.... what lies at the centre of these 2 things? Mettaton (or Swap!Napsta) as a transformer, of course :3 I just think that's something you might have fun with haha ^^
requests closed!
i DID have fun with this one thank you!!
... i also had to break out the "how to draw planes" book and spent a lot of time squinting at other transformers designs dhfjchsj,, i dont know shit about vehicles or how to design transformers but i did my best :>!!
id usually write my design notes in an image but i am once again out of battery so yall get bullet points (about Mettaton)
the white/pinkish lines on Mettaton's chest and wings are intended to be kinda shaped like an M
his visor is also intended to mimic both the shape of his hair (over his eye) as well as the shape of his wings in NEO form
also, the visor always shines just so, and obscures his eye, but the other eye can generally be seen, unless dramatics call for his visor to be entirely opaque LOL
theres some joke to be made here about Mettaton's box form just being just a G1 styled version of this design lolol
the plane he turns into is a Lear Jet 23! the reason for this is: i saw this page in the book i mentioned and just went YES. METTATON.
(did you think i was joking about the how to draw planes book? i was not. i own this book. i got it for $2 lol)
originally he was going to be a fast car of some sort but then i remembered i also know fuck all about cars, and if hes a plane then i can give him thruster heels.
also his windshield is kinda shaped like a heart <3 that and the white lines being shaped like an M on his chest were incidental and i just leaned into it
... the lines on his head were also slightly inspired by Stealth Bomber!Megatron from the IDW comics because. Mettaton. Megatron. self explanatory.
#velwy.png#undertale#transformers#macaddam#my art#requestlog#mettaton#napstaton#i dont know whether to kiss you or curse you for this one (/lh) but i am shaking u by the shoulders either way shfjfjfbdj#because again!! idk how to design transformers!!!!!#this involved a lot of me staring really intently at various transformers designs and going TELL ME YOUR SECRETS#anyway saying that though i actually rly like mettas design and kinda wanna draw him again sometime ahfjfbfnfnemkbfken#thank u for the request!!#I FORGOT CHARACTER TAGS AGAIN
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arrives 15 min late with a latte
......sup
#yosuke hanamura#persona 4#cool now that its done i can ramble in the tags#fellas im surprised hes here and done#did not think that was gonna happen#fuck i forgot smth#eh ill fix it before i make my print#anywho i might make more i might not who knows not i#yukiko is the next one i have half an idea on but also i have some shining nikki designs rattling around with my sole braincell#i also made a shadow alt for the back but idk if i like the mouth so yall arent gonna see him#also i need to find a gold foil guy that does odd sizes and like moq of 1#bc i wanna do this in gold foil#and its tarot card size bc im dumb as hell#but i want a print for my wall and i know sure as shit no one else will want one hence the moq of 1#my heart wants to make the whole major arcana for p4 but my past completed works says °❀⋆.ೃ࿔*:・ 𝑛𝑜 °❀⋆.ೃ࿔*:・#so whatever gets done will get done#also im gonna reblog this a lot bc i put in too many hours to get a singular note by me so like if you dont wanna see it block me lmfao#if you have any hot takes for future cards please share with the class bc i only have ideas for yukiko and a full cast she does not make fr#so uh yeah yeehaw#idk what else to ramble about but like cannot believe yosuke fucking hanamura is the first chara to get a completed piece in 5 years#im not fucking kidding#the rest were all quick graphite or abandoned#hes not even my fave in p4- thats naoto protag chan kou and nanako#boys lucky to hit top 5#he just kinda crawled into my affection like some kind of sad pathetic creature idk how it happened either#maybe hes overprocessed now that im looking at it#nope i looked too long this is it this is how he is#ill do better by the women i promise
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Luffy & Zoro in Wano || One Piece ep. 897
#dumb and dumber really aksdkdj i love them#luffy having poison resistance since impel down thinking: ah its gonna be okay either way#roronoa zoro#monkey d. luffy#zolu#luzo#one piece#opgraphics#opedit#one piece wano#wano arc#mine#gif:one piece#gif:zolu#gif:op anime#had to make part 2 of the reunion scene#i wanna make more zolu wano gifs.. they just are so good when they have a scene together#or parallels regardless if theyre together#like being the only ones to have that middle of episode break animation. whats up with that#only during the flashbacks in act 3 there were different eyecatchers. but after that back to just luffy and zoro :) i dont mind at all#also something rlly funny that right after wci its zoro who meets luffy and ofc he has food/meat on him for luffy. he really missed him huh
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North and Simon: (shaking hands on killing Simon potentially)
#detroit become human#north wr400#simon pl600#markus rk200#josh pj500#jericho is just... so funny to me as like. how they function (or dont)#like im v glad that i did a Good Job my first run and no one hated me but i also felt like a very distraught parent#in regards to how markus is just able to either hurt them (by suggestions OF THE OTHERS IN THE GROUP)#or help them because hey what the fuck i just dragged simon to safety and now north wants me to kill him#and then simon like oh no north got shot you should leave her BUT ! i saved her and made simon happy#so its like you know what they have to have some animosity but also respect#i feel like i wanna see more of north and simon being buddies ... and i might have to do that myself#but i also apologize if this is ooc for them because i really did only just play through once and got a not good end#i probably missed a lot of lore and stuff so im v sorry if im Messing Them Up#its currently just me liking their designs and vibes and hoping im not ruining other fans lives by being wrong#and i honestly dont know when north would kill simon but hes on her possible victims list#so since both of their victim lists include themselves for suicide it just reminded me of the meme#with im so mad im gonna (remembers suicide jokes are bad for my mental health)#and it was like yeah watch north be like im gonna (well if i cant kill myself because markus said no suicide) murder someone
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