#i dont think im actually gonna do the valentines thing. but it WOULD be a bit funny.

[waterdroid]

Good news about the ⚡powerbanks💀 comic! I finished with my temp job that was leaving me too tired and achy to work on it! Yay! Bad news, I'm starting my "regular job" on Tuesday! NOT yay! Even so, I'm halfway through with page 19 so I'm hoping that it'd be done by mid-January!

...Now that I'm writing that, I just realized that I could be Funny about it and make it a Valentine's Day release, but I've already spent too much time on this thing and I want people to Actually See It so we'll see about that. ANYWAYS.

[dirt-str1der]

That post is still pretty active so i have to scroll past that guys bloated festering corpse every time i want to see someones new reply

[shigayokagayama]

Could you do Teru for the ask game?

oh boy. ok.

Sexuality Headcanon:

gay. specifically. ok. maybe my most strange and specific take. but i feel like teru being into girls would kind of make his character arc... weaker? bizarre sentence i know but. hear me out. of the shots we get of him before mob enters the picture, 2/3 of them involve him flirting with girls. post mob we never ever see him with a girl again aside from one omake where there are a crowd of them trying to ask him out on valentines day who he is turning down. i feel like we are supposed to see these relationships as being a part of his fake, "perfect" persona he sheds rather than anything that came out of general interest. he's dating them because he's the handsome popular guy and that's what he's supposed to do, not because he's actually interested at all.

Gender Headcanon:

i like bigender teru a lot

A ship I have with said character:

terumob GIANT ASTERIX in the very specific context of being post confession arc. i see heart eye panel as the exact moment his false, idolized image of mob fades away and he sees him for what he truly is and still chooses to love him flaws and all. i really do think they are able to understand each other on a much deeper level than most people because they have both seen each other at their lowest and still chosen to continue wanting to be in each others lives. they both coped with their powers by creating these perfect masks to show the world (teru's as the prodigy and mob as the nice guy who will do anything for you and never ask anything in return) and were the first to be able to identify each other's facade because they recognized themselves in them and ���. they mean a lot to me. also i do think the "they dont hang out much post canon" thing is a slight misconception, teru says they dont plan hangouts much and usually just run into each other and hang out from there. that with teru's "you should ask me to hang out more" gives such "im so used to other people making the first move that i havent developed the skills to let people know that i want them in my life" energy it makes me a little insane. anyway.

A BROTP I have with said character:

i need him ritsu and shou to run in circles hitting each other with rocks. i think any two of them on their own hang out normally and if you have the three of them + mob its normal but just the three of them and they start inventing games like "powerline volleyball"

A NOTP I have with said character:

pre confession arc terumob. like mob would never because tsubomi but if they did date it would last one month and they would never speak again itd be so bad (spoken from experience by a person with similar attachment issues who has dated people ive been hyperfixated on before)

A random headcanon:

HES SUCH A FILM BRO I KNOW HES A FILM BRO. this kid's letterboxxed is comprised solely of 1960s horror films made on a budget of 2 dollars and if you watch any of them with him he will provide trivia the entire film. also he has npd source fucking look at him

General Opinion over said character:

hes my favoriteeeeeeee the first time he showed up with the wig i went "alright this is gonna be my favorite character" and i spent the first half of season 2 mournfully going "i miss haystack boy :(" every episode he wasnt in. and then i read the manga and i got crazy insane over him. i really do feel like the anime dumbs him down a lot manga teru is a completely different person and hes so interesting i need to like. tear holes in my drywall. god. teru.

[simplyjake]

Valentines day w Enha Hyungs🫶

summary: what u and ur man do on ur first valentines day tgt<3

a/n: and fuck everyone who got a valentine. let me be a hater but i also had to pump this one out before the day ends for me

Heeseung

Oh hee, my sweet hee

HE WENT ALL OUT

Ofc he did its ur first valentines with each other as a couple

You guys used to do valentines as friends 

Both single and lonely 

But since he finally had the balls to ask u out you can now spend it in a relationship!

He actually got u a reservation to ur fav restaurant months in advance

Bc bro knew that the place does not PLAY w reservations

Its always so busy

So the fact that he did this in advance makes ur heart swell

You bought him his first bouquet of flowers

He sobbed.

Boys deserve their flowers too!

He cherishes the flowers and when they die

He does that thing where he presses dead flowers and shit

Then puts them in a frame above his bed

He got you flowers too with a teddy thats huge as fuck

You end the night with a celebratory minecraft session <3

Jay

Such a romantic ill cry

You were never much of a valentines day celebrator

You thought it was stupid (me too bff)

That was until you finally had ur person to do it with

Im a sucker for jay playing guitar so obviously 

This man learns ur top 3 songs on guitar and plays it for you

You got him a bunch of custom guitar pics and those r all he uses btw

He gets u this big ass bouquet that came with a crown n shit

“Had to go all out for my princess” 

SHUT UP

 We know hes an excellent cook

So of course he cooked a 5 star home cooked meal for the both of you

W niki as ur server

He was promised robux if he did that btw

You got him tickets to see his fav band thats coming to town in a few days

He blew up

Sooo thankful for you

And to think this is only ur first valentines day?

Baby it only goes up from here!!

Jake

Our jakey poo

Hes the best at this shit lemme tell you

You woke up to home cooked breakfast in bed

So sweet of him awww

Hes had this day planned for a while

He saved up so that you can have a shopping spree 

Ur literally in shock bc jake??? You did not have to do all that

A nice set of flowers and movie day in would settle

But not to him nuh uh 

Dont worry you made sure you got ur gift in as well

You even got something for layla!! 

When you mentioned that u got layla a gift too he almost got down on one knee i swear to god

After ur little spree you guys went out to eat for dinner

You begged him to let u pay

He alr spent so much today that you were gonna be upset if he didnt let you pay for this one thing

He reluctantly let u pay the bill

But he HAD to be the tipper

The day couldn't have gone any better

ALSOOOO 

Posts u to “Valentine” by laufey

Sunghoon

Sunghoon is so cutie

He knew you were coming over soon so he set up his room with all of ur  favorite things

Like ur fav drinks in the shape of a heart on his bead

Giant teddy bear sitting in the corner

Rose petals and even balloons everywhere

Do u guys know the tik tok audio

“Victor u actually did this” LMFAOOOOO

You'd recreate that video with him

“Baby are u srs”

“Hoon pls we’d go viral”

And u did btw

You guys would have a cute comfy day in

He'd rather save all the big gestures for ur birthday!

You two are a really lowk couple

He posted u for v day and people slide up like

“Wtf since when did u bag a hottie”

“YOURE DATING Y/N”

And he shows them to u giggling cus like 

Hes the one who gets to show u off and be with you forever

[dr-spectre]

Hey all, tomorrow is Valentine's Day for me. And uh, you can probably guess how I'm gonna spend it...

Alone... Again.

What am i about to say is gonna be going into vent territory and its gonna be quiteeeee long, so if you don't wanna see then move along. Also if you are a minor then don't look at this, I'm gonna be talking about adult topics, so just, go away.

I've been alive on this planet for 21 years and I've never had any sort of romantic relationship and i think Its actually getting to me. Like genuinely i cannot stop fantasising what it would be like. I am tweaking the FUCK out!!!!

And before i continue, no, I don't want a girlfriend just because I want sex. No. That's not the main focus. It's like the cherry or frosting on the cake. I have my own fears and worries about sex that won't be discussed here, it's too personal. I mean sure, I do get those... strong urges but like, I rather not talk about it here.

To give context, my brain has been obsessed with wanting to be in an relationship ever since I hit puberty and I realised "hold on.... women are kinda pretty." My crushes were REAL BAD back in high school and I would always get red faced and sweaty when around a girl that I liked. Didn't ask any of them out because I have as much confidence and social skills as a dead plant. So I never really had a "high school love" that a lot of people have had in their lives. Hell I still remember a girl being next to me on a bus and saying "nah he isn't my type" the he being me. And then i remember another time where a girl was dared to said if she wanted to be my girlfriend when I was at my fucking locker. Like some girls made this girl ask me out as a fucking JOKE! A prank. I still remember it.

I think what I want is to feel comfortable and safe around another human being. I just want a partner you know? Someone who's gonna be patient, caring, ain't gonna fucking yell at me or treat me like a baby. I want someone who's gonna push me and will hold my hand throughout, and i wanna be able to feel important in someone's life, i wanna feel wanted... I think i may have some issues...

I want that physical affection too, I'm talking cuddles, head rubs, brushing hair, kisses, that shit. The cutesy stuff! Not sex, I wanna really stress this, i don't just want sex. I just want affection and a partnership from a woman. That's all. Like when i hug certain friends, i feel this electricity in my body, even if it's just a simple thing like our knees being touched sitting in a car, it just makes me feel happy. Maybe I'm just touched starved in general and maybe a girlfriend would solve that? I don't know.

I haven't even had my first ever kiss.... that stings every fucking day.

And when I tell my friends about this sort of shit they respond in a few ways.

"Just go up to someone and talk to them"

buddy i am not gonna go up to a random girl in a shopping centre or the gym or the middle of the street, and just say hi. First, that's some creepy ass behaviour, imagine being a woman trying to go about your day and some random ass ugly guy tries to talk to you because he finds you kinda hot, im sure women can sense out that shit by a fucking country mile bro.

Second, what do you do after? Say that the weather is nice? There is nothing for us to talk about, we have no common interest to discuss, talking to a random woman you find kinda cute and JUST talking to her based on that isnt gonna make for a long lasting relationship. I don't fucking have charisma or swagger, I stutter around my own fucking family and my brain literally blanks out when im asked a question. YOU THINK I HAVE THAT NEUROTYPICAL CHARM?!?!? I HAVE AUTISM DUMMY!!! THATS NOT GONNA WORK! I ALMOST BROKE DOWN IN A RESTAURANT BECAUSE A FAMILY MEMBER ASKED ME WHAT I'VE BEEN UP TO! I LITERALLY COULDN'T THINK IN THAT MOMENT! I HAD A MELTDOWN BECAUSE MY SUPPORT WORKER CAME BY TOO EARLY AND I SPIRALLED INTO SELF HATRED MINUTES LATER!!

Thirdly, I'm fucking ugly as shit too. I dont have a chiselled jawline, I have baggy eyes, I'm chubby, I'm hairy, It's not gonna be a good idea for me to do what people ALWAYS TELL ME TO DO!!!

"But being single is great."

Is it tho....

I mean, the independence, the freedom, its great, for a while. Until your body starts to crave human connection, until it becomes restless and hungry, until you devolve into daydreaming and fantasy, and then it's still not enough. You become sad and frustrated and pent up, it's like your body is ripping itself from the inside, you spiral out of control and just beg to the skies above "may I PLEASE have a romantic partner FOR THE LOVE OF GOD?!?!?"

Also i don't think people who say being single is great are being truthful.... the people who say that either have been in really bad relationships or are currently in one and wish to be independent. They have their own issues to work out, not downplay others feelings.

I think that's why I'm so angry, my feelings always get downplayed and I'm always lectured on "how to actually find a woman" when their advice is always some creepy stalking behaviour that only good looking neurotypical people can pull off. And then when i try to explain they always go "welp then you won't get one." YEAH SO HELPFUL! YOU'RE MAKING THINGS SOOOOO MUCH BETTER HUH!!!! FUCK OFF! I know that a woman isn't gonna fall into my lap from the sky dumbass, am I not allowed to express my own feelings and pent up emotions?

"Just use a dating app!"

A dating app. You know how many people talk badly about dating apps? How much they suck? I've never heard anything nice about dating apps in my entire life. Hinge has shit reviews, tinder is well, tinder, bumble got this new ceo apparently and they fucked up the app badly and now the old ceo has to come back to fix shit. So, yeah!!!!

Plus remember how i said that I was ugly before? You do realise that on a dating app I have to compete with other men who are gonna look infinitely more attractive and more put together than me right? Men who are gonna be way more confident, more adult, more healthier, have an actual CAREER, know how to communicate and know how to take proper fucking photos. My chances are quite literally so low that I have a better shot at winning a slot machine 3 times in a row than finding a match on any dating app in existence. Plus i fucking hate taking pics of myself because again, low self confidence and a deep hatred for my body!!! So yeah! I'M FUCKED!

Im literally built like Eggman. Including the moustache /hj

"Just practice self love! Love yourself before you love someone else!"

Um, you know loving yourself is fine and all, but it can't really do much against the crushing weight of realising that you feel unlovable and that there is substantial proof of it, such as not having a partner, ever. That tells me my brain "oh no one wants us fr fr." How am I meant to love myself if I can effortlessly point out major flaws within myself that have existed for the entirety of my life and these flaws get in the way of things that millions of others can do without effort? Then what?

The only self love i be doing is what I do at 12am and I'm not gonna elaborate on what I mean by that exactly.

I feel like I'm gonna forever alone until I die. I'll never be able to hold someone at night, go on dates, stay up with someone, spooning, kissing, do all that stuff.... Valentine's Day just reminds me on how lonely I am, I'll never find the Marina to my Pearl, the fucking Cuttlefish to my Octavio lmao. Its just.... is it wrong to wish for a loving beautiful partner that i look forward to seeing? Is it wrong to desire that? To crave it? Is it wrong to say the things that im saying? I feel like a fool saying these things. And kinda embarrassed.

Man I just, i just want some kisses dude. That would be lovely.

I feel this intense jealousy when I see couples. Could be as simple as seeing a couple holding hands at a shopping centre or watching a video about a couple and they are laughing and portraying a healthy happy relationship and I get so, angry, and sad, and sometimes I wanna cry and I get close to crying. Do you know how badly I just want someone to hold my hand and rub it softly? Do you know how badly I want someone to just be there for me and have my back?

Maybe I'm just "too young" and "oh don't worry you got plenty of time!" But here's the thing, my feelings still exist, the desires are there and are fucking going out of control, is me getting older gonna solve anything at all?

Unless I transform into Prince Charming, all of my speech issues go away and I know the right places to find people, i am gonna be forever single until i die. I will become the 40 year old virgin.

[prettyb0ycvnt]

Good evening pretty boy! I know you've had a busy day AND felt sleepy but I hope your day has gone smoothly and nicely! I bet you have done soooo good today! Just being the good boy that you always are 💕

Trying to keep that kind of pace would be dangerous! Better to just have it on as a vibe Y'know? Nothing wrong with having a jam while you get your guts rearranged afterall 😉😋

I need to get into listening to more System of a Down and more music in general! It sounds like you have quite the treasury of CDs that will be growing! Feel free to ramble by the way, hearing about people's passions or interests is awesome! 😁💕

And valentine's is a harsh mistress, I can't believe YOU don't have a valentine! That's absolutely crazy! I thought you'd have people flocking to you to be your valentine! 😲 And yep, I am used to it, but it sucks haha. Better to just carry on my way and hope that I don't encounter too many happy couples 🤣 it's a Friday, so I'm just focusing on the fact that it's shoulder day at the gym! 🤣

Talking to you like this is very fun! 💕 I hope you have a wonderful evening and had a wonderful day! 🥰 I look forward to your reply to the more freaky ask, see how you get back with your shenanigans 😘💕

HI!!! good eveninggg <3 it's night time now actually but whatever... today has been wonderful!! djnfjdjghh yes yeahhh i have been sooo so good ,, as usual :33 !! ♡

you're sooo right ☆ would be the best vibes Ever tbh... if not a little eccentric but who cares about that! it's fun!! i'd just have to hope i dont get distracted by the music 😭 !! like Yeass... that feels so good But can you stop for a second please. My favourite part of the song is coming up 💜 that sounds like something i would do ... whoopsies...!

omg... twirls hair it's my time to Shine!!! i loooove music so much omg my spotify is a heavenly place.... i think my music taste is quite varied too!! in terms of system of a down i really reaaally love the entirety of toxicity... i haven't listened to their other albums fully, just as songs here and there, and personal favourites include violent pornography, kill rock 'n' roll, suite-pee, war?, and holy mountains among others!! i need to fully immerse myself in their discography but they're awesome .... slipknot and avenged sevenfold are in the same vein!!! also getting into megadeth because of my irl... so a lot of metal >_< !! my favourite genres are alt rock, midwest emo, grunge, riot grrrl, stuff like that!!! you can pry radiohead out of my cold dead hands....

lately ive been on a car seat headrest kick i swear to god they're all ive been listening to for the past month i LOVE car seat headrest!!!! ive listened to like 80% of their discography in full and Ouughhhh.... they drive me so so soooo insane... i would choose personal favourites but honestly i love them all soooo ill just list some of my faves from the albums ive listened to !!! this is gonna be a long list i hope you don't mind <33

teens of denial

- fill in the blank

- drunk drivers/killer whales

- 1937 state park

- cosmic hero

- THE BALLAD OF THE COSTA CONCORDIA!!!!!!

how to leave town

- the ending of dramamine (!!!!!) (one of my fave csh songs ever i love it so much especially the bridge)

- i want you to know that im awake/i hope that you're asleep (ALSO ONE OF MY FAVES EVER it drives me so fuckign crazy)

- beast monster thing (love isn't love enough)

- you're in love with me

living while starving

honestly this ep is really short so basically all of it??? but in particular

- it's only sex (i die every time I listen)

- i hate living (OUUGHHH....)

- reuse the cels

monomania

- souls (my no.2 song this month!!!!!)

- anchorite (love you very much)

- overexposed (enjoy)

- sleeping with strangers

- los borrachos (i don't have any hope left but the weather is nice)

making a door less open

- can't cool me down

- deadlines (hostile)

- life worth missing

- hollywood

twin fantasy (face to face)

- beach life-in-death

- nervous young inhumans

- bodys

- high to death

- famous prophets (stars)

there's a lot more...!! i have about 60-something of their songs liked on Spotify but i can't list all 60-something >_< !! i really do love them a lot i hope that if you listen you like them too <3 we haven't even scratched the surface of the other artists i like umm... ill just list my current faves !!

aiden's fave artists (some of them!)

☆ car seat headrest

☆ the smiths

☆ mccafferty

☆ the front bottoms

☆ system of a down

☆ modern baseball

☆ sohodolls (!!! gotten super into them lately their music is SOOO cunty I LOVE IT)

☆ my chemical romance

☆ nirvana

☆ radiohead

☆ hole

☆ bikini kill

☆ jack off jill

☆ angelina mango (my Italian queen i love her sm that i memorised a couple of her songs... in Italian...)

honestly i might be better off linking my spotify helpp ummm!! here... ^_^ !! i have a couple public playlists! the big one is 'do yuo have any ibyprofen' and that's got all my faves in it :3 !!

okay. music ramble Over!! for the time being!!! i love yapping they call me yappatron3000 or something . ♡

aiden update he does have a valentine now! kind of. not really. its my best friend 😭 asked her "heyyy wanna be my valentine" nd she says Of Course Darling! so ya there's that xx she has a girlfriend so she's got an actual proper valentine that isn't just me but it's better than nothing :3 !!! love her to bits so its all good... also YEAS gym woooo 🔥🔥 !! get those gains 💪! for me on fridays i have drama club after school so that's what ill be focusing on...!!

i hope you've had a wonderful day today <33 writing out this message has been rhe highlight for me so far genuinely its soooo fun hehe ^_^ !! about to get even better im about to respond to your other ask.. so you can look forward to that too >_< ☆ !!

[osarina]

hi! for the selfship ask game — I L Y (hehe) <3

MANU MY LOVELY GIRL I ADORE U ilym <33 hehehe

I - Imagine, what do they imagine their future together looks like

as sad as it is, i think the most significant thing for dazai is that he's IMAGINING a future .. like he's struggled so hard with his mental health throughout his whole life, but when he's with me, he's finally looking forward to a future and even though he might not have it all planned out perfectly and might not know what exactly he wants, he DOES finally know that he wants a future, whatever it may be

L - Love, when did they realize they're in love?

okay so i did when dazai realized he was in love, so now i'm gonna do when i realized it. i think i realized and acknowledged it a lot faster than dazai. we're definitely the case of "she fell first, he fell harder" i think i would've also realized it in a fairly casual setting. maybe dazai surprised me with something he knew i would like, or he remembered something i wanted to do and surprised me with a whole date night out. and dazai always portrays himself so like ... careless and lacksadaisal all the time, we're dating but im still half convinced that this is just a casual fling for him but then one random weekend, he pulls this and he's so proud/happy when he sees how happy i am, literally like there's stars in his eyes when he watches me smile. and i'm like "oh... i rlly do love this man" and then i realize "OH i'm in danger..." because dazai is so flighty and so terrible with processing his own emotions, so i just hold it in until he comes to terms with how he feels. i want him to be the one to take the next step bc i dont want to push him too fast too soon

Y - Yes, who would propose? What would proposal be like

dazai would propose and the proposal would be AWFUL. actually fun fact, i wrote about this i think it was my valentine's day fic, but he plans out the most MAGNIFICENT day ever, all of my favorite things but EVERYTHING gets ruined one by one and finally we just end the day at home and he's literally on the verge of tears trying to figure out if he should take this as a sign. and i'm so confused because i don't know why he's so upset so i just tell him that it's okay and we can still make the best of the night with a movie and maybe bake some cupcakes and he's literally like sniffly and gross and he's just like "will u marry me" and then he wants to DIE because he didn't mean to say that but of course i say yes

[blookmallow]

my feelings about fo4 romances thus far

ive done all of them except piper and danse i think. i have both planned but haven't achieved them yet. i know one major thing about danse's development but have no idea what happens after the discovery of the thing comes out and have even less idea why so many people are into him so I'm hoping I will Learn

currently i feel like im just being followed around by a domineering buzz lightyear. he's... nice enough if you do things he likes...? he's supportive. but I have yet to get any personality out of him other than "soldier" and I'm guessing that's probably the point, so maybe there's a side of him I haven't seen yet. i really want him to get the hell out of the power armor though it is so unnerving having him stomping after me in the middle of diamond city. like. boy calm down for one minute we are going shopping. if he stays in the fucking power armor for his "waking up beside you" animation i am going to actually lose it

anyway i dont have a problem with piper (except i hate that she calls you "blue" i really feel like most of my SS's would be offended by that. you're nicknaming me after the vault i was lied to and controlled in. where i was frozen against my will and forced to watch my spouse die in front of me and my son be taken away. it's not cute! ) i just hadn't gotten around to her bc i hadn't figured out a character to make sense with her yet/it didn't feel natural but i think im gonna double her with my preston file. i have like 6 ocs going here dont ask (ive got uhh. my main is curie + hancock, then i have one for maccready, another one with hancock, one with preston + eventually piper, one with cait + gage, one intended for danse)

ive romanced hancock twice and had to talk myself out of doing it again on a third file. this man is my weakness. i would do anything for him. his romance lines are so sweet he makes me cry. perfect. no notes. the way he's threatening and dangerous but only when someone deserves it, and so soft and loving to you? rough and a lil bit fucked up, a lil bit nasty, but so calm and comforting and supportive to you? kills me. destroys me. my comfort character is a fucked up chem addicted radioactive ghoul who wears a 500 year old coat every single day of his life and might've lost a toe somewhere

@ bethesda give me nick valentine

cait's honestly feels so weird to me. it's like her personality just totally changes. she goes from being rough and sarcastic to "anything for you my treasure :) my heart is yours my beloved :)" and it doesn't feel like character development so much as just like. character flattening. it was actively putting me off spending time with her anymore. its like its not her. do you get me. does anyone feel this. i havent seen anyone talking about cait that much honestly so i have no idea

@ bethesda give me nick valentine

curie was my first love and i still cannot believe they gave us a miss nanny robot wife. i wish she was more android after the change though. i know human-passing synths are totally indistinguishable but i want her to be weirder. i want curie with glowing eyes. i want to see circuits on her arms instead of veins. anyway she is so so sweet and such a unique character i love her but also i do not understand her bc i was looking at her likes/dislikes and she apparently likes the brotherhood and doesn't like the railroad which does Not Make Sense To Me At All. girl you're a synth

@ bethesda give me nick valentine

i never really got why people are so into porter gage until i went through his romance and he's still not really my type but like, i get it now. the "man don't make me talk about feelings and shyit. we're... we're great! you know THAT. :/ " is so cute. i wish there was a redemption arc/reformed raider option for him because i feel like he had potential for growth that he just wasn't allowed to realize. underdeveloped but he is a DLC character so i guess that's how it goes

@ bethesda give me nick valentine

maccready is also kinda dangerously close to "personality changed completely when romanced" but it feels at least less jarring than cait's. maccready reads to me as a person who is actually quite sentimental and sweet but has become jaded/has to act tough to fit in/to protect himself and he's taking his walls down for you. he's another one that still isn't really my type but i Get It Now. his little toy soldier thing still gets me every time. speaking my exact love language of "here is a little thing that is important to me and i want you to have it and think of me." i respect maccready enjoyers

@ bethesda give me nick valentine

i haven't spent a lot of time on the file i romanced preston on but i was fully not prepared for the fact that he calls you "babe" once you're dating. it's so cute. preston is so cute. i don't have a lot else to say other than he is So Cute and deserves more attention than he gets.

@ bethesda give me nick valentine

[paincomes]

❤️ What will your OCs do for Valentine’s Day? ❤️

thank youuuu @thewhumpcaretaker

im not sure if empire has a valentine's equivalent tbh? or i guess it would be like Lupercalia which is a celebration of health and fertility. my understanding is that Lupercalia was a lot more bloody as well, more animal sacrifices, and so on. but to answer in the spirit of the question. have some really unhappy answers lmfao. answering from nsfw account just to be safe.

(pre-series)

delta - totally not incredibly resentful /s

the reminder that he is totally forbidden from leading a normal life and will never be able to pursue those relationships on his own terms really fucking bothers him. it's not that he even would necessarily, it's the fact that he can't. in a super bad mood all day but won't admit to why and nobody catches on either.

paris - extremely unfulfilling casual sex. he just does it because he'd feel weird doing nothing but by the end of it he regrets the whole thing immensely and wishes he had just opted out. mild sense of shame and dread for a few days afterwards.

lorelai - will basically go on a date with whoever asks her first as long as she likes them decently enough. doesn't really take the holiday or dating in general to be that serious ! she likes the aesthetics of the holiday a lot and will buy flowers and treats for her friends and different people around the school because she can afford to and its a cute thing to do

(destroyer)

delta - same as usual, pain dulled slightly by the fact he has online friends who can tell him that it's an over-commercialized holiday and that a lot of people don't do anything for it. kitty sends him one of those meme valentines cards that used to be really popular on here. he thinks its very sweet.

paris - not a holiday he's forced to observe, would not have even noticed it passing if lorelai had not texted him. kind of sad about that.

lorelai - also about the same as usual, but makes an effort to reach out to paris as well since she won't see him in person. she's been kind of continuously signaling interest to him and the reception is always kind of lukewarm at this point because of their mutual inability to actually occupy the other's life.

(post-destroyer)

delta - random date with someone he has in rotation. ive said this before but delta has game and is generally widely loved.... he's actually similar to lorelai in that he just likes dating for dating's sake and its not something he takes incredibly seriously. he's kinda just trying to make up for what he's been deprived of. it's going well!

paris and lorelai - actually both totally miss the actual holiday because neither of them have any sense of time passing and spacetime gets all fucky over such long distances. end up at like valentine's day theme rave and dont catch onto what's happening until like midway through??? and by then its too late!!!! lorelai does not care but paris feel really bad about it because it's the first time he was actually with her in person in over two years and he feels like he dropped the ball. next stop on road trip is botanical garden to make it up to her. they need to stop getting wine drunk in public honestly its a safety hazard.

ummmm not gonna tag any of the regular mutuals from this account but if you see this feel free to join

[schattenmagier]

Rabbot butts in before some creep at the bar can hand over their own application to Lilli. He laughs at their grumble (and if he notices a few of the glares from the other, shadier patrons who aren’t too happy about some super paying a visit to this bar— he pretends not to notice)

“You don’t gotta say yes,” he whispered. “Just figured it’d get them off your back, yeah?”

Name: Rabbot! 🐰🥕 Age: 25? 28? i think? it’s complicated Do you like to cuddle?: sure! :) Can we make-out?: the helmet makes it kinda hard haha! A night in or dinner out?: dinner out, I know some real good hole-in-the-walls! Ice cream or chocolate covered strawberries?: maaaan i gotta choose??? why not both! What makes you a good Valentine?: i don’t smell? wait … do i???  Would you cook for me?: if you like things burnt sure! :P Would you let me cook for you?: you dont gotta, im a big eater LOL

[ Valentine's day application // Accepting! ]

Oh no. Oh shit. Oh fuck. Why was HE here?!? A hero in a bar that mostly villains, and their goons, visited? And while some of them tried to get her to go out with them on valentine's day? This could end up in a big fight...

Especially when Rabbot slammed the application in front of her... That was something she hadn't expected. But it wasn't apparently because he actually wanted her to... have her as a valentine. But so the others got off her back. Ah, how cute.

" Oh! Uhm- That's- That's really... sweet of you! I uh... "

The barkeeper stuttered, and scanned over the application. Why is his age complicated? It's kinda adorable actually. But it's not a real one, no? Just something to help her stop getting bothered by the rest of the customers. So Lilli decided to play along.

" I uh.. I would love to...? Though not sure if I'm free on that day... I will... think about it...? "

Lilli finally answers, and tucks the application away... just to feel a hand on her shoulder a second later, and Wesley's tall figure standing beside her to look Rabbot up, and down, before his eyes went to the rest of the customers.

" Hey, I hope you guys ain’t messin’ with my barkeep! "

He laughs, before his face becomes strict.

" So any application’s gonna be passed to me! Can’t have her wastin' her time on your crap! "

Funnily, no one tried to hand in an application after that, while Lilli just rolled her eyes, and gave Rabbot a sheepish smile.

[c-nan]

suicide ideation/attempt? tw under cut (dw it’s not me, just need to vent about what happened today)

i’m really trying to wrap my head around everything that happened and i’m having a hard time bc my brain feels like absolute mush and i just need to throw it down here and if anyone has any advice on how to move on i would greatly appreciate it. so basically this is what happened:

my friend started the convo saying “can i get something off my chest?” i pride myself on my ability to listen and give advice so ofc i said yes. she then told me how she likes me romantically and how she wants to know where we’re going. prior to this, i’ve made it clear 3 different times that i had no romantic feelings for her so i thought we were on the same page. so this time, i told her the same thing i’ve been telling her, figuring it will go how it’s gone every single other time (aka, she’ll get sad, we’ll take a few hours away from talking, then things will go back to normal), but that obviously wasn’t the case this time. again, prior to this, i agreed to go with her (as a FRIEND) for a little valentines lunch on the 13th and we’ve cuddled a bit bc she’s touch deprived and i have trouble saying no. i would like to remind that i have made it clear to her that i haven’t felt any romantic feelings for her.

anyway, so instead of going the way i anticipated it to go, she starts talking about how she’ll need a few days away and how we can’t hangout on monday, which is fine! i get it i understand i dont mind <3 but then she starts talking about how she’s sorry for bothering me and how she hates herself, and im like oh shit, and say “is there anything i can do to ease the pain?” and she comes back with something along the lines of “i’m gonna use a knife to get rid of the pain, I'm tired of life” and of course i start freaking the fuck out because WHAT?? and i’m telling her not to do it and it takes her forever to say “i don’t matter” and then radio silence for a bit until one of her alters (she has osdd) comes on to say that another alter caught her right as she was grabbing a knife (meaning she literally was going to do it) and yeah..

the alter told me that i should still hang out with her on monday bc she needs to know she still matters and i wont leave her and stuff, but honestly i have to put myself first and said i needed time. is that selfish?? im sure she feels a lot more shittier than me but god this has put me through the wringer. she was going to literally kill herself because of ME. i don’t think that’s something someone just gets over. i can’t help but think over and over “what if the alter didn’t take over in time? what if she actually went through with it?” like. that’s a lot and i feel so fucking awful right now. it seems like every single person i get close to i hurt and it makes me wanna not get close to anyone ever again bc i fr cannot go through something like this again

this is probably a selfish and stupid thing to get so upset about bc as i said she’s in a lot more pain than i am but idk, it really affected me bc i caused this and idk what to do going forward :/

[eclipseberrycake]

i just finished drawing a bunch of stuff for some valentine's day ocs and all im gonna say is that im totally gonna have a blast rereading that one Glisten x Valetine!Toon Reader post (i have posted my ocs in the blushcrunch server so if you come across Caleb, Tessa, Patty, and/or Lafayette, that's me, hi)

also i read the MBC Reader tail thing and here are my thoughts on it: personally, i dont really care too much about Reader getting a tail. i do however notice that in part 10.5 where Reader gets their first actual mentions of a tail, that you really emphasised around the start to early mid that Reader has a tail (via actions). that is something that i feel like you could fix in future MBC parts cuz as much as i love these posts of yours, i dont wanna be reading the word "tail" in every other paragraph. just treat the tail like any other limb since that's what it is (imagine instead of tail in part 10.5, it was like the Reader's arm or smth, that wouldnt flow very well would it).

if i came off mean in my critiques, i deeply apologize, i do try my best to offer constructive critism rather than shit talk

i await for the next part of MBC as i giggle over strongman Cosmo being mildly oblivious to his strength

🎀Anon!

🎀 anonnnn! WELCOME BACK

First, the V-day thing RAHHH IM SO GLAD YOU ENJOYED IT I wish i was in that discord server but alas i am not :( I could join but i just have so much else going on that i dont think i could keep up.

Your critiques? Chefs kiss. Perfect. I literally went back to read that part because I was like Whhhhaaa No way, but yeah. Yeah way. Girlie pop was getting EXCESSIVEEE. I think using it as a way to express emotion is good, but like I totally clocked what you were saying because it was literally every other sentence. So thank you for pointing that out. /gen. Idk I'm still on the fence about it really but I'll play it by ear and if there are inconsistencies in my writing, no there is not <3

So thank you 🎀anon!

He's so fun i stg

[polyamorouspunk]

is it wrong that im like. i dunno. sad bc my gf didnt make me anything for christmas.

i love her to death and shes great im so lucky i have her and technically we never discussed gift giving but i kind of assumed? we're long distance so like physical stuff was mostly off the table but i drew her and a bunch of characters she loves and wrote a little letter to her and just sent her pictures of that. and the whole week before today she was talking abt how she was drawing and making stuff for all her friends (i even comforted her bc she was worried people wouldnt like them but i said it was a really sweet gift) and then this morning when i sent it to her she liked it just fine but said "sorry i didnt make u anything" which is fine i shouldnt have assumed but we've been together for nine months now so. and i figured cause i sent my gift pretty early she'd maybe use some of her free time today to even make a little doodle for me but she didn't. and then an hour ago went to bed with just a "im tired. goodnight" which is unusual for her ? i dunno i dont want to sound entitled but im just. sad.

Okay so! I actually had a very similar conversation with my therapist this week about gift giving and feeling entitled.

So, my thing the past few years I’ve had a job and my own real money (aka not what my mom put in my bank account so I could like. Eat while going to school and stuff) my thing has always been I want to be the kind of gift-giver I always wanted in my life.

I do not think it is unreasonable for a child to wish they had better presents, and I’m NOT saying my presents were all bad. I got a scooter for Easter one year, I got an Xbox for I think Christmas, I got an American Girl Doll one year for Easter… so like I’m not saying “boohoo me”, because like I remember someone I was friends with a few years back telling me she had a hard time relating to her peers growing up because they would all talk about video games like you know Wii Sports or Mario Kart, something in theory like everyone had experience with at some point in their lives, kind of cultural moments you know, but she was too poor to ever afford things like that. But at the same time, you know, I remember going over my friends houses as a kid, and they had big houses with pools and big TVs and… you know you could tell that we were lower middle class and they were a bit more medium middle class. Same thing with my family as I got older. When I visit my family in Pittsburgh, they have very large houses and are very middle class. They can afford lots of trips and things, etc. So no, I don’t want to “boohoo me” but I think as a child that’s reasonable. All this to say, I wanted to be the gift giver that I wanted as a child. So I have been SPOILING people. I mean I spend $100+ on my mom for presents the past 3 years. I got my gf enough presents to fit in the box I was sending. I just kept going out and buying more and more until the box was full. I started buying Valentine’s Day presents for my gf while I was Christmas shopping. I always got my younger cousins something for their birthdays.

I talked to my therapist where I was like. I almost feel like shopping for people has become a compulsion. And that’s dangerous. I made a joke in a server I’m in that I said I was done buying my mom presents and then I bought her 5 more and someone was like “do you really love your mom or do you really love presents” and it’s like well of course I love my mom but I just really like buying presents. And my therapist was like hey. If this is really bringing you joy, and you are aware of the dangers of overspending and keeping it in mind, then what’s the harm? If you can afford it and it makes you happy that’s not a bad thing. And I’m like yeah you’re right, I just worry it’s gonna get out of hand, but I’m keeping an eye on it because of that worry.

But another thing I brought up to her too was disappointment in gifts I was getting because it made me feel like people don’t view me the way I want them to, and that ties into my gender. My therapist was like what was one present you got this year that really hit the mark and made you feel seen, and I was like Key got me a Pennywise patch. I’m like I love being the horror person. I love being seen as that. And my therapist was like okay what was a present you got that kind of missed the mark? And I was like. Well my mom got me pumpkin spice pancake mix. Because I like pancakes and also pumpkin spice. Which is true. But like.

My mom has also missed the mark a few times before which has caused tension. Like during Covid she got me a Wii for my birthday and I was like. Why do I want a Wii. And she was like so we can play games. And I was like. So you just wanted a Wii to play games and used my birthday as an excuse to get it even though it’s not something I’m interested in or want whatsoever and I’m not going to touch it. And surprise surprise it just sits there.

My mom got me card games for Christmas too and it’s like. We don’t play card games. I mean she at least made sure to get one that’s 2 player since it’s just us, but like. We don’t really play card games with each other. That’s not something I’m interested in doing with her. She wants to play card games with me so she got my card games for Christmas, just like she wanted to play Wii with me so she got me a Wii for my birthday. These things do not reflect me in any way.

And my therapist told me it’s understandable, especially when it relates to like gender, not feeling like you’re seen and being disappointed in that.

All of this to say, it’s not so much the “I didn’t get the gift I want, sadness” or “I didn’t get a gift, sadness” entitlement as much as it’s an issue that’s much deeper rooted, and something like this brings it to the surface.

You’re not upset because you didn’t get a gift. You’re upset because someone you put a lot of effort into put a lot of effort into other people and none into you, making you feel like you don’t matter as much in their life as other people. Like you are not worth their time and effort. And then as if that wasn’t enough, on top of that, they seemed very blasé about the whole thing.

I do not think it is “entitled” to expect someone to put as much effort into a relationship as you are giving, and it’s reasonable to be disappointed when they seem like they don’t even care that’s the case.

You do not sound entitled. You sound completely reasonable. And I’m really sorry you feel that way and things turned out that way. That honestly sucks.

[dot-png]

What are some of your sodapack post one headcanons? How do you view their relationship after the whole plane thing? (I love your art! It's always very nice to see ^_^)

thank you!! :D

ok here's my really long rant

im not really sure i like to think about them being a happy couple and living together to cope with the ending but i dont think that would work out lol

realistically......

i think liam would grow distant from everyone else due to isolation (like airy) and this would affect their relationship. like a friend you used to talk a lot and now you don't

but this doesn't mean they stopped seeing each other as best friends...like...i think they would still think about each other constantly but be too afraid to make the first move to get closer again. like how you wait for someone to text first and that person thinks the same

but optimistically.

ok i dont actually think they would live together BUT they would visit each other very often. i like to imagine them spending time together like every weekend or so and they just spend the entire day gushing about how they love each other

and they would get closer everyday like how they would get closer everyday on the plane.. but im being too optimistic soo speaking of which they would remember their time on the plane a lot. also their time after airy died

theyre both affected by it and try to comfort each other the best as they can. but theyre both unstable so it doesnt turn out that well. BUT they try! because they love each other and want to see each other happy even if they are terrible at comforting. i think they should just get therapy tbh

anyways back to the fluff...i prefer imagining them as just cute valentines rather than MARRIED and ONE kid and bryce opens a 5 STAR RESTAURANT and liam is now a MULTIMILLIONAIRE or whatever because theyre just guys . i dont know how to explain it. i think they closest they get to being a married couple is being divorced as seen in famous last words. i cant imagine them getting married its too unserious for me. maybe they move in to a nicer apartment together and also pay the rent together. their life is never gonna be the same again but at least they have each other

ok i think thats it

[hall0wedwyrm]

the only actual humans out of my fankids

Heather, Valentine and Victor!!

Val and Heather grew up incredibly close (bcs Mario and Luigi are very close) so they're essentially siblings. They also grew up with Niko and Nina (bcs Sonic is close with the brothers too (the hc that hes their third brother,,,,,, why does no one use it))

Heather technically has 4 parents. Luigi and Daisy thought it would be fun to be parents together, and they thought reaallly long and hard about it, and they went for it. The two of them are like ... super best friends. Daisy is with Rosalina (which Heather represents by the star earring) and Luigi is with Bowser (represented by the spike and also Bowser badge she wears). She's very bubbly and optimistic, like Daisy, and she's not much of a fighter, like Luigi.

Valentine is the youngest son of Peach and Mario. Since he was young, he LOVED the idea of being a ruler like Peach. He's a little bit sassy, and is incredibly capable of becoming a ruler some day (His oldest sister Clementine is happy being the beautiful daughter who's got an uncanny resemblance to Peach, and middle sister Florentine likes doing various business aspects of the kingdom) due to his strong head and determination.

until.

Victor Robotnik is the protege of Eggman, and also his son. As the new local menace, hes incredibly good at leading a Badnik army. Hes just absolutely ass at making robots... hes like a kid with crayons. Eggman officially takes the role of inventor and builder, while Victor is manager and battle field leader. Hes actually rather successful in his duty of... causing as much damage as possible really.

Valentine and Victor develop... an odd relationship. They are weirdly very into eachother??? but Valentine uses the logical part of his brain and thinks 'hey maybe i shouldn't date my uncles arch nemesis's son' and tries to avoid him the best he can. But its really reaaaaally hard to do that when your cousin is up in his business the moment he steps foot in Central City. (Spoiler; this logic does not last long)

deeeets:

Niko and Vic have a very similar dynamic to Eggman and Sonic from the Fandubs. Vic goes on a tangent and Niko basically tells him to shut up and then beats up his new weapons and leaves.

Victor sees the relation Heather has to Bowser, and he thinks he can get her to join him, but she just laughs at him.

Valentine and Niko made a truce, "I wont tell anyone about Victor, and you dont tell anyone about-" "wait who are YOU WITH??"

Victor really looks upto Eggman and Bowser, but when he learns Bowser doesn't do the villain thing anymore he's a bit disappointed

I think the pairing of Heather and another character is oddly sweet and equally hilarious but i think im gonna do a big post probably named Partner Reveal (mainly because i dont have a reference for Heathers partner yet)

When the four were young, Heather and Niko are the cousins that roll around in the mud together, and if any went on Val he would cry. (he still would)

okay thats all I'll be posting more soon teehee

[idkwhatimdoingbutslay]

Ranking My 2023 Fics + hints of a planned 2024 fic (that im hoping to actually get done lmao)

I did this last year so I’m gonna do it again 🏃🏾‍♀️

Side note, before I begin, I would love love love to say a huge thanks to all of my readers, everyone who’s been interacting, enjoying and sparing a glance at anything I’ve written over the year. It tends to get really busy sometimes but I push through for you guys so thanks a ton :)))

ALSO I got a beta reader this year and they are one of the swaggiest people on the planet and I def would not be here without ‘em so an extra special thanks to @justicecaballer (who also has a few fics out) 🫶🏾🫶🏾🫶🏾

OKAY LETS GET STARTED

1. dear, hello, salutations, love, sincerely, from, goodbye (8.99999/10). Im lowkey obsessed with this fic????

Like obviously it’s based off of my favourite movie of all time (DONT GET ME STARTED ON TO ALL THE BOYS-) and it also gives me the chance to explore Caitlyn and Vi’s relationships with their parents. Handling Vi’s grief AND being able to research lacrosse (I’ve been watching gameplay for the upcoming chapter lmao), something I’d never do if it wasn’t for this fic, has just been so fun. I still worry about my characterization of Cait and Vi, but I feel like I’m doing a pretty solid job right now. Also this is officially my longest fic to date and I’m glad I’m getting more and more comfortable with descriptions and getting better at pacing. The slow burn is kind of hitting I can’t lie, they’re so in love it hurts!!!! I’ve also been loving writing Caitlyn’s friendships! I’m SO GLAD I decided to write in Kai’Sa I’m obsessed with her. Jayce appearances have been few and far between, but they’ve been quite nice. I’m super excited to have this fic be finished and to get all of my ideas out!! More of Vi’s family dynamic is coming soon 🤭🤭🤭. ALSO, more scenes from the movie and even the book will be included I’m so excited lemme stop yapping!!!!

2. play stupid games, win gay prizes (8.8/10). SO FUN I CANT

This was my first beta read fic and also just one of my favourite fics of mine in general. It is genuinely so fun. I wish I added more festival/pride month vibes, but Caitlyn and Vi annoying each other did it enough I think LOL. That vibe of them just being the biggest nuisances to each other unfortunately didn’t last super long in the show so exploring it in this fic was exciting! The make out scene most definitely hit………. Like come on they’re soooo obsessed with each other it’s embarrassing. The bingo scene was most definitely iconic!!! The twister scene was too! It was just an entire bundle of fun no one gets it. Maybe I’ll post my notes for this fic. Part two…… is in the works…. Expect it by spring maybe?????

3. fix my galentine (7.5/10). Cutie patooties 🤭

I’m sorry but the whole “lemme just break something in my house so hot lady comes over to fix it” just kind of hits to me???? Like Caitlyn was so disastrously down bad it was the cutest thing ever. The reveal of what Mel (the greatest wing woman of all time) asked Vi was just so fun as well. There was no angst or anything in this one, it was just cute valentine vibes and flowers and love and all of those gross stuff so it was great to get out and enjoy. LET THE GIRLS BE HAPPY! I also thought a lot about Caitlyn’s job in this, weirdly. She was Hextech’s lawyer and something about that is just so fun to me lol. Was also thinking about a scene where some pipe bursts in the company building and Vi’s called to fix it and everyone is drooling over Vi but Vi’s just waiting for her job to be done to see Cait in her office and in a suit 🤭. First person was definitely a choice but I don’t think it hurt the fic all too much. ANYWAY, super cute and super fun.

4. who tf is this girl (6.5/10). Anniversaire 🤞🏾

Honestly nothing too interesting. A short little one shot to pair with the first ever fic I wrote and posted on ao3. It was just a fun little thing. I don’t know if Caitlyn would really be a jealous person…. Protective, most definitely, but jealous just doesn’t fit her too much in my opinion. It was nice little thing tho that I still enjoyed writing and finishing. I think I could see a lot of my improvement from the og fic to my this one. I just love their established relationship shenanigans idk let them be a normal couple fr.

5. hunting prize (6/10). Ooooo suffering.

SORRY THIS IS LAST LMAO. This fic was lowkey just exhausting to get through lol. It most definitely is not the worst thing in the world, but I’m starting to realize how draining it is to just write constant suffering. It’s still technically incomplete lmao. The last chapter is supposed to be about a year or more later. Caitlyn wipes out the enforcers and brings in the Wardens and then asks Vi to be the Undercity lead for them as they dance at a ball for the official announcement. I appreciate everyone who stuck with this fic because it took soooo long to actually finish. Whump is just really not my thing lol. I have yet to truly do the canon verse any justice in one of my fics but next year I’m locking in, I swear.

This year has been so great for my fics and everything, so a massive thanks again for all of you friends :))))

MORE TO COME!!! Count on it :)

Idk when I’m finally gonna get this one done but expect it probably mid year!!!????