#i dont think i am made to have a happy ending

[natandacat]

Theres no words that can describe the complete alienation of having severe long covid. One infection, caused directly by political decisions to remove public measures, and i cant walk. Can't stand except on really good days which are getting rarer. Sitting is a privilege i dont always have. Cognitive work is too much of a risk to consider for the moment. I live in constant fear of going back to being utterly bed ridden in the sense that i cant even feed myself, drink water, speak, move my limbs beyong my fingers and toes. For days and days without relief.

Nothing feels real. Every gain can be lost in a literal second. And on top of this, the fear of reinfection. The very real possibility of death, given how weak a single infection has made me when I was healthy and young. The even more real possibility of a worsened state, where there are no good days. That means death, too. If i am constantly in a state where I cannot move, i am going to have to resort to euthanasia because it is not a bearable existence. I can barely tolerate it when it know it will end. Last time was 14 days and I am still so traumatized by it 2 months later nothing feels real.

And on top of that, i am being told that my life doesnt matter. Covid is not a real concern. Let it fester. Even if the stairs in my building didnt lock me in, all public spaces have become lethal to me. I cant see my friends because they cant avoid exposure when theres a wave. To love me, you must live in a horrific world where no matter how many precautions you take, no matter how much they ostracize you, you might still cause my death.

Covid is a privileged issue they say. Im not even in the room for it bc i cannot be in the room. You can move your body, youre not afraid of death, you havent lost everything that makes you *you*, but im the privileged one. I cant even emote the way i used to. If i get too excited, too happy, i cant move. I talked to countless people who cant work anymore, are losing their jobs their houses their partners their immigration permits but no. Covid doesnt matter. I dont matter. Everyone cheered when i got covid bc they got to party for new years eve. I hope it was a good party. I will never agree that it was worth my life.

For the past 2 years ive had to share classrooms with students and professors who know everything about my story, who have seen how disabled i am by long covid, who ive begged to mask. They all refuse to mask. And i have to sit there and pretend its not a cosmical level farce that theyre talking about social justice and ethics and just what good people they all are. Not to mention that most of them have revealed themselves to be zionists. I have to sit next to an iof soldier and act as if its ok that she gets to sit in this classroom, except im not even sitting in the room because cases are too high and im too weak to be there physically anyway, so im on zoom. At least i get to remove my earbuds when she speaks so i dont have to think about the atrocities she has committed.

[mysticmoon1415]

There are definitely moments in arcane's ending that were ?? but half of tumblr is missing the point of the ending methinks lol

Obviously it's not completely confirmed. But I 100% am sure that Jinx didn't die. I think even if there are decisions that the Arcane writers made in the ending being a little.. questionable, I dont think they would go to the extent of having the character who was suicidal actually dying as a heroic sacrifice. Not to mention who's the face of LoL.

Other users have already pointed out kid Jinx's wish of riding an airship at one point, and the last scene being an airship, and Cait looking over the schematics of the Hex tower with a slight smile on her face.

But what a lot of people seem to missing is the conversation that Jinx was having with Silco while in her cell, about ending cycles of violence. Right before Vi showed up, he said "I think the cycle only ends when you find the will to walk away". That's too much of an impactful line to be thrown away.

After killing Vander/Warwick (for the second time lmao) and finally bringing an end to what she started all those years ago, I think if Jinx had actually stuck around it would have continued to be a cycle like Silco mentioned. Even with Vi reconciling with her. Even if Cait was fine with it and got past her personal grievances. Jinx being the face of undercity rebellion, and before that part of silco's empire, and being one of the nexus points of violence and chaos in Piltover would have continued that cycle. We already saw this begin with Isha, who was the new generation in this cycle. Obviously sucks the hell for Vi, but Jinx "dying" but actually walking away is a mostly new slate for everyone involved. Only after finishing everything that was started by Jinx (unlike if she had actually succeeded in bombing herself at the Last Drop), and leaving, it successfully ends the cycle of killing.

Is it a happy ending? Not really, Arcane was always geared up to be a tragedy, even if they followed it so that the champions ended up as they are in the game. Should maybe the indications of Jinx being alive been a little more clearer? Perhaps, but also Arcane is a show built on little details and callbacks, the ending says it all. But I'm pretty sure that Jinx is still alive and probably going around terrorizing some poor confused vastaya with 'get jinxed' or becoming a pirate in Bilgewater or something of the sort lol.

[privatelyownedsilicagel]

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[surreal-duck]

live drama adaptations part 2 (prev)

cast reveal and girls movie night 🔥

[arom-antix]

Happy birthday to the man, the myth, the legend, trophy husband of Yuuri Katsuki, Viktor Nikiforov!

[astoryofsuchwoe]

i like to hurt my own feelings

[ayyponine]

not to be a milennial but harry potter and the prisoner of azkaban really is that bitch....

[witchofthemidlands]

BAD SISTERS || Chopped Liver

This reads like an incorrect quote but this is, in fact, an actual line from this show in a conversation between the two most serious characters in this series.

[thoughtpeek]

I'VE FINALLY FINISHED BROTHERSHIP IT WAS SOOOOO GOOD!!!!!!!

[vaguehotels]

had the most braindead repetitive conversation/argument with my parents. buzz cuts are too masculine but if you dye a design on it it become effeminate which is bad because then you look weak and if youre weak then society falls apart (all societies ever that have fallen apart for any reason are actually because of feminine men) and we start sacrificing babies. and also all mental illness is invented because only 4 people had anxiety in the 90s and covid was made up so that we would all become gay and trans and then the government can control us better and be joe biden's little sex slaves. and also i need to keep my hair long because my father finds it attractive. what

[softshuji]

Any men out there wanna pretend to be my bf to get my parents off my case about marriage? I am so so serious right now.

[dontfeartherat]

i wish zelda stayed a dragon in totk. it would have been so beautifully tragic

[dhmis-autism]

SORRY. JUST REALIZED I ORIGINALLY SKETCHED THE STUFF FROM THAT LAST WIP POST IN. MARCH.

GODDDD...

[hecksupremechips]

My ass was trying so hard not to jump up and down with glee playing yttd with my sister and getting to the shin reveal I was like MY GUY MY FUNNY LAD MY SILLY RABBIT

[13eyond13]

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[pyrriax]

ANYWHO goodnight tumblr i'll be back on the art grind tomorrow i think 🙏