#i dont ship finn and rose i just want them to be good friends and not have their relationship start with one violently taze the other one

[eldritchmochi]

A N T for that alphabet ask game

A - Ships that you currently like a lot. (They don’t have to be OTPs because not everyone has OTPs.) Friendships, pairings, threesomes, etc. are allowed.

okay uuuuh i mean, obviously shadowgast i have only written like 300k of it in the past few years. im also quite the fan of ashrym/dashrym and callowmore (tho i like my callowmore on the platonic side personally). i will happily make the dirt wizards kiss ANYONE i do have a widomauk fic in the works and i have an idea for a caleb/yussa fic percolating and theres that one porny art by newt with c3 era caleb paired with ashton and orym that im just :lasereyes: yes i will one day write something for it i stg. also fun fact my First Ship for cr was beauyasha like, ep one. i got like 30 seconds into their first interaction and immediately texted cherry at like two am like PLEASE TELL ME THEYRE A SHIP and lo, they were cannon fucking incredible

outside of cr.... stucky, my beloved, especially with skinny steve because i love that sickly twink; big brother hobie creating Situations for gwen and miles (its hard being wingman to two people when you want them to kiss each other and also theyre idiots); kylux, obvs; rey/finn/poe/rose in basically any combination (i wish i didnt have One Hyperfixation Only type adhd because i would LOVE to write my rey/finn/rose idea where rey and rose are mechanics and finn is having car trouble and then they double team him in the office dont ask me why they have straps in the filing cabinet this is pwp); with hs at one point i would literally randomly generate pwp ideas. i didn't often finish them but it was a good exercise especially in characterization but i was mostly read davekat, daverose, any combo of erisolkat, and davejohn because i fukken pavlov'd myself into liking the ship lmao

shit this is gonna get long here is a read more

N - Name three things you wish you saw more or in your main fandom (or a fandom of choice).

hhhh i am so sorry if this sounds mean but the bulk of why i dont read a ton of cr fic when i was constantly devouring kylux fic largely boils down to two things

1. the technical stuff is eeh and 2. there is just not a ton of nuance in characterization or plot

both results in me being perpetually frustrated whenever i try to read most of what i open. theres been some gems!! theres also been a lot of stuff with promise where i can tell in a couple years the writer will knock it out of the park!!! but theres also a god awful amount where i'm just like that is not how dicks work lmao

i am sure a lot of that is because the cr fandom skews a lot younger than kylux (where folks are like 20-30 on average instead of 35-50 kinda younger) plus cr has a LOT of esl speakers compared to kylux whereas a TON of kyluxers have degrees in literature or library science, so like, it makes sense that there's a difference, but it still drive me bonkers that i cant just open a fic and read it without closing it halfway through because its too one note :I

T - Do you have any hard and fast headcanons that you will die defending? 

nope!! i am very ship and let ship in all regards. there are many things i enjoy (like short!essek or the idea that caleb would and probably has made out with all of his friends) that crop up repeatedly across my fic but i'm down for basically any good faith interpretation and i LOVE when someone writes a weird headcannon so well i have to steal it

there are many letters left of this ask meme if anyone else wants to send me a q!! pls enrich the mochi this is fun

[elvesofnoldor]

AGONY AND FEAR

[summahsunlight]

Perhaps It's Fate, Part 23

Rating: T, to be safe

Word Count: 1.5k+

Summary: After joining the Resistance as a mechanic, you were happy to keep to yourself, until a little orange and white bb unit and his master wander into your workshop one day.

Pairings: Poe Dameron x Mechanic!Reader

Start from the beginning!

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You woke up early the next morning with BB-8 still snuggled on the cot with you.

This made you thankful that Poe had refused to listen to you and left the little droid with you while he was away. It made you laugh to think that BB-8 brought you so much comfort, but he did. With a gentle smile, you pulled the covers back and slipped out of the cot. BB-8 immediately woke up and got down, following you towards the shower. Perhaps your boyfriend had asked the droid to keep a little too close of an eye on you.

Gently you turned the droid away, assuring him that you were okay and just needed a hot shower before breakfast. He seemed a little annoyed when you shut the door in his face and locked it, but at least you were able take a quick, hot shower.

Now dressed in a pair of fatigues, your damp hair pulled back, you made your way to the mess with BB-8 behind you. Meals were a little lonely with Poe away, but at least you had Finn, Rose, and Rey to keep your mind off of things. When you entered the mess you were not surprised to find your closest friends already seated at a table, waiting for you.

"You look well rested," Rose pointed out. "Sleep well?"

"Yes," you replied. "You sound surprised."

"It's just that you don't normally sleep well with Poe away."

"I had BeeBee with me last night."

BB-8 affirmed that he had taken care of you for the evening and he'd thought he had done a fine job in the absence of Poe.

Smiling, you leaned down and gently scratched the droid on his round body. "Yes, you did a good job, Bee." And you were sure that BB-8 would continue to take care of you until Poe returned. You hoped that was soon; as much as you loved having BB-8 with you and making sure you were alright, he wasn't Poe. "Any new parts today?" you asked your friends, eager to think about work and not about how far away Poe was at the moment.

Finn nodded. "We got a big shipment of supplies in last night; looks like there might be some salvageable parts in there."

Rose agreed with him. "Hopefully we can use those parts to repair some more of those fighters we acquired. Right now none of them are ready to fly except the x-wings that Black Squadron are using."

It sounded like you were going to have a lot of work to do today, which was good, more work meant less time to think about being trapped on this ship and being away from Poe. You quickly finished your breakfast and still with BB-8 in tow, you made your way to the small corner of the hanger bay that you had set up as a "work shop".

You liked that it was situated away from all the noise and activity of the rest of the hanger; you felt safe in this little corner and you found that you were more focused working back here. You would work until BB-8 reminded you that it was lunch time--while making sure you slept at night, he also made sure that you eat properly. He took his job of taking care of you very seriously.

"Okay, Bee, let's see how much we can get done today."

BB-8 eagerly got to work helping you; with any luck the two of you would have completed half of your tasks by lunch time.

-----

Poe stood on the edge of the cliff, watching the rushing water fall hundreds of feet below him. After searching for three days, Black Squadron believed they had finally found a new planet to set up base. There were existing buildings already here that would need some repairs, but the Resistance would not have to build from the ground up.

He hoped this meant that his squadron could return to the fleet and he would be able to check in on you. Even though Poe had left BB-8 behind to look after you, he was still worried what your anxiety was doing to you while he was away. This planet had plenty of peaceful spots he knew would help ease your anxiety and hopefully chase away some of your panic attacks.

Turning away from the waterfall, Poe made his way back through the jungle towards the spot Black Squadron had landed their fighters. It was odd not having BB-8 by his side; after the first few planets Poe had gotten used to it. The droid that had been sent with him did its job--he knew that BB-8 had a more important job back on the freighter.

"Hey," Snap greeted him when Poe reappeared. "I radioed the General; the Fleet is going to make their way here."

"That's good," Poe said, tensely. "Let's see if we can get some of this equipment up and running before they get here."

"You alright, Poe?"

"Worried about y/n."

"BeeBee is with her; I'm sure she's fine."

"I'm sure she is too--but that doesn't stop me from worrying."

Snap gave him a reassuring pat on the shoulder. "Listen, I know she's been through a lot, things that no one should ever have to go through--but she's a strong kid, Poe. She can handle you being away for a little while."

Poe sighed, heavily, and slightly nodded his head. "It's more complicated than that, Snap. She watched the First Order kill her entire family--the Resistance, Black Squadron--me--we're all she has left."

"Yeah, I get that. She isn't gonna be alone, Poe."

"We don't know that! We don't know what's going to happen!"

"No, we don't know what's going to happen, but Poe--"

"I just want this to be over--for her."

"We all want this to be over, Dameron."

This was true, but no one wanted it to be over more than Poe. He was exhausted. He wanted to go home, he wanted to live a life without fear and danger. And the only way for that to happen would be for the Resistance to win the war. Poe had very little hope left that this was going to happen.

He knew his dimming optimism was having an effect on Black Squadron, on Finn, you--hell it was having an effect on the entire Resistance, but Poe couldn't shake the ever present feeling of dread since their disaster at Crait.

Snap gave him another gentle pat on the shoulder and left him alone for a bit. He knew it had been difficult for Poe the last few months; he wished Poe would stop blaming himself for everything. So many of them had told Poe this already--it wasn't worth Snap's time right now--and honestly, he didn't have time to argue with Poe.

The fleet would be arriving any moment and they needed to be ready to get operations up and running right away. If there was any chance at all, Poe knew that he had to put the past behind him--it was hard--he had caused a lot of deaths. And this was a guilt he'd carry around for the rest of his life, despite you telling him time and time again that he couldn't have prevented it all.

In the end Poe had been the one to save them.

He had been the one to get them off of the Supremacy, he had been the one to get them to the safety of Crait, and he had been the one to track down Black Squadron and rescue them. If it had not been for Poe, even more of them would be dead.

Poe just couldn't see that--yet.

Swallowing all the guilt and self-doubt, Poe joined his squad mates in prepping the base. It took them a total of four hours and when he was done, he went on a search for some flowers to adorn your little workshop he had managed to set up. A nice little nook just for you, where he knew you'd settle in and feel safe.

As he collected the flowers, the chain around his neck slipped out from underneath his collar, his mom's ring glittering in the sun. His little droid companion questioned him about it.

"My necklace?" Poe repeated, straightening his shoulders. He took the ring in his hand. "Huh, I forgot I had it on to be honest. It was my mom's--she was a pilot too."

He was surprised when the droid asked why he wore it. BB-8 had been curious about it too the first time they'd met. "It was given to me so I could eventually give it to the person I'm going to marry," Poe answered, an image of you flashing before his eyes.

Did he find the person yet? the droid inquired.

"Yeah," Poe whispered, smiling softly. "I did. You know, I think it's time I gave it to her."

"Commander!" someone shouted for him, "the fleet is arriving!"

Poe tucked the ring back underneath his collar, heading towards the base to meet the arriving Resistance--and vowing that he was going to give you that ring before this war was over.

[damn-stark]

Time changes

Poe Dameron x stormtrooper!reader

Requested by anon “Can I request a Poe x stormtrooper! Reader? Like, Finn convinces reader to leave the First Order shortly after he did, and Poe is smitten with her when Finn introduces them to each other? -&”

A/N- again if you guys have other Poe requests, send em!!

Warning- small angst, fluff and characters pining against one another.

——

Time is meant to be endless. But as a stormtrooper there is no promise to live another day, hour or minute.

You’re just meant to live without time (unless when it benefits them), you’re just supposed to fight mindlessly, just live like puppets. Only used and aware when they use you.

Nobody wants to live that life. You don’t want to live that life, but you’re...meant to.

Just meant to work and work, fight and—

In a matter of seconds, at the sight of someone familiar you’d thought you would never see again, you lose your train of thought and stop before him completely baffled.

“FN-2189?”

You blink and part your lips to say his number, but at the sight of two strangers next to him you blink again. Only being able to mutter in disbelief after hearing the familiar sound of a droids chirping coming from under a...trash bin? “FN-2187?!”

A smile slowly attempts to tug on your lips, but part of you is still in disbelief that you were seeing your friend.

“It’s uh Finn now actually.” He announces making you express a lighthearted scoff.

“What are you doing back? You’re supposed to be long gone, not back two days later.” You remark in a louder worried tone. “If they see you they’ll kill you.”

“They won’t see me, we—”

“We d-dont have time for this.” The older man that was with FN—with Finn interrupts.

Finn looks over his shoulder to the man and sighs. “Yeah you’re right.” Finn looks back at you and takes a step towards you. “Come with me.”

“Finn.” The girl behind him calls.

“T-talking and w-w-walking.” The man suggests.

Finn nods and grabs your shoulder to turn you around and take you with him as he continues with whatever it was he and his...friends were here for.

“What are you doing here, Finn?” You probe further, “who are they?”

“The girl is my friend Rose and the guy...well he’s Dj. A man who’s going to help us break into the room where the tracker is to stop them from tracking the resistance.”

“Oh,” you mouth, glancing down at the hidden droid. “The droid is yours?”

“A friends. The resistance fighter who I broke out.”

You hum and continue walking with him even if you are still worried about his intentions. “You better not get caught. You got out, I know you wouldn’t want to be back here.”

“I will.” Finn assures you, “but you’re coming with me. I wanted to bring you with me before, but I couldn’t, but now I can. Come with me. You can fight for the right side, have your own name and be free.”

“I—” you pause and sigh. There's nothing you would want more, but to leave, be something more than a puppet for the first order. But you have to wonder, what if they capture you and imprison you again? Get forced to be the same as you are now. Just another nameless soldier.

“What if they take me again?” You finally manage to say, blinking up to look at him.

“I won’t let that happen.” Finn assures you, “nobody will. I promise.” He offers you a small warm smile that you can’t help but mirror and feel assured. “So what do you say? Do you want to get out of here?”

Your smile pulls into a smirk and you nod. “I do.”

Finally. This was going to be your time to finally be free.

——

Okay perhaps leaving and moments after escaping the First Order didn’t go as smoothly as you’d initially thought (too much wishful thinking on your part) but you got out. You were free. No more strings.

Yet you had to wonder.

“Are you sure it’s okay for me to be here?” You ask Finn once you both finally manage to find a peaceful time after the chaos.

“I’m sure,” he assures you with a kind smile, “they took me in didn’t they?”

You suck air through your teeth and feign a cringed look. “Did they though?”

Finn shoots you a pointed glare and fakes his laugh. Just as he’s about to retort a voice interrupts his thoughts. “Hey.”

Both Finn and you turn to notice a man you had seen many times before. Finn’s friend you assume, but can’t be certain of since there was no downtime for introductions when you first arrived. There wasn’t even time to take everyone in, everything was a rush after you left.

But now that you did have the time, you took a good look at the resistance fighter, noticing he was in fact very handsome and even if from the outside he looked intimidating, his eyes told a different story. They were dark and warm. There was something instantaneously captivating about him.

You can’t help but smile as you greet him. “Hello.”

His eyes drift to you and he blinks repeatedly, letting his lips tug into a half smile and uttering the same words he had said before. Only this time his voice sounded softer. “Hi.”

An amused grin grows on your lips and you surpass the need to laugh at his reaction. Something Finn notices too.

“Poe this is one of my oldest and best friends from the order,” Finn pauses for a brief moment to look at you, smiling to himself as an idea comes to his mind. “Y/N.”

Your eyebrows furrow and you tilt your head to meet his gaze. “Really?”

Finn shrugs, “take it or leave it, I’m not choosing anything else.”

You groan, “fine, I’ll take it.”

Finn rolls his eyes and turns back to his friend. “Anyways as I was saying, y/n meet Poe. The resistance fighter that helped me escape. Without him I don’t know where I’d be.”

Poe scoffs and shakes his head. “You got to give yourself some credit. If it wasn’t for your bravery in helping me break out I wouldn’t be alive.”

Finn scoffs too and just shrugs nonchalantly, noticing Poe’s gaze fall on you again and deciding to make an excuse to apparently do something else for a quick moment. Leaving Poe and you alone.

“So,” Poe breaks the silence, “what did you do when you were part of the first order? Were you a pilot? Or a foot soldier just like Finn?”

You shake your head and find yourself unable to break your gaze away from his. “No, I was a mechanic.”

“Ah, you’re in luck then, I need some help, this ship is falling apart by the second. Could you help me?”

You offer a short nod and begin to follow him to where he needs you, ending up below the floor of the ship and instantly seeing a solution for his problem.

“Lucky I got you here, another second and maybe the ship would’ve stopped in the vacuum space.” Poe tells you smugly.

You scoff and shake your head as you hook a last wire in another input. “Don’t say that or I’ll believe your lies.”

Poe chuckles. “Hey, I only compliment people when I see true amazing skill.”

You climb back up to the floor and show him a smirk, “you’re feeding my ego, it’s a dangerous thing.”

Poe shrugs with a faint smirk on his lips, choosing to change the subject shortly thereafter. “You know how to fly?”

You shake your head and sit across from him, letting your legs dangle over the open gap. “I could pull apart any ship and rebuild it without a need for a blueprint, and maybe even with my eyes closed, but I cannot for the life of me fly a ship. I’ve never had the chance.”

Poe quirks a brow at your surprising answer. “Really? I thought you would? I thought you would know how to do everything considering you’re a stormtrooper.”

You chuckle and shake your head. “That’s the stereotype, but no. I can sorta shoot a blaster, might as well have been born with the damn thing,” you explain, “and shooting is the first thing they teach you, but after that you aren’t taught much else. You get dropped into a station and you’re stuck there.” You shrug, “I’d love to learn though, I’ve always liked the concept of flying in space, feeling the adrenaline that comes with flying.”

Poe grins at looks at you with a soft gaze. Having to blink and express a sigh before he replied to you. “Flying is great and fun if you know how it enjoy it and do it properly.”

You smirk and slightly tilt your head. “Well if you know a great pilot that could teach me, please let me know. I’d love to learn.”

Poe smirks and leans his body closer to you. “I might know one or two.”

As if it had been out of instinct you lean in too, having your gaze briefly fall to his lips before you force yourself to look back at his dark eyes and respond. “Is that so?”

He nods and hums, “Mhmm, for starters,” he remarks smugly, letting his eyes fall to your lips for a brief moment. “I can teach you. I’m a great pilot. It wouldn’t cost you anything either.”

You bite the inside of your cheek and bat your eyelashes. “Really? That’s hard to believe. I mean being a great pilot and all, aren’t you busy?”

Poe shrugs and his smug smile spreads wider, “well I’m making an exception. For a pretty face and a new friend.”

You quirk a brow and again look down at his lips as you lean in again. Smirking as you see Poe cockily lick his lips when he leans in too. Leaving only a couple inches left between the both of you.

“well in that case sign me up. Just let me know when.”

“I could now.” He offers.

You stroke your chin and hum as you pretend to be in deep thought. Answering only after you pull away and stand to your feet. “I can’t right now, I’m busy. The ship needs some fixing. But how about in a more private setting? I tend to learn quicker when it’s just a one on one lesson. Crowds,” you roll out slowly, “distract me.”

Poe scoffs at your actions and chooses to stand up as well, taking a step towards you and choosing to quickly add more in the same soft and low voice. “You name the time and day and it’s a date.”

“Well that depends on you,” you shrug, “when are you free?”

“I’m free tomorrow night, how does that sound?”

You walk forward and stop to look over your shoulder to shoot him a sweet smile. “Sounds like a date.”

[my-chemical-friendzone]

Jannah, Rose, and Finnrose

I'm going to talk about this and I'll start by saying that if you like Jannah, overlook this post because it's pretty negative.

I really don't understand what her point was in TROS. I really don't. And I don't understand why JJ would choose to (I mean I DO completely understand why he did it, it's because he's scared and he pandered to the trolls) create a COMPLETELY new character when he could've utilized Rose. Rose couldve literally taken all of Jannah's parts in TROS and spared us from meeting a character I didnt care about for only 10 minutes. I know people felt Rose didnt do much in TLJ (i disagree) but if there was ever a chance to develop her, to give her more substance, it wouldve been in this movie. And he didn't. He sidelined her instead and made a new character that shares her time with Finn, when there's an already established relationship there from the last movie.

KMT was HARASSED by complete psycho fans after TLJ and THAT'S the treatment you're going to give her? THAT'S the message you really want to send out to everyone? That its OK to bully someone off of their own role? Stupid. Completely stupid. ROSE shouldve been the one by Finn's side at the end of the battle, ROSE wouldnt have let him just go off and sacrifice himself without either trying to find another solution or staying by his side, ROSE already risked her life to save his before WHY IN THE HELL would she be like 'ok' when he asks her to leave this time? WHY is Jannah there? WHY should I care? (Also they stood there in the middle of the ship during a huge blaster battle for a good while and NO ONE shot them? OK.) Because she was an ex-trooper? That COULDVE held some weight if Finn gave a damn about killing troopers, but he doesnt! He kills them all the time! And Jannah shares this brief story that goes no where and then it looks like they're gonna have some spin off or something but honestly??? I still dont care.

You REPLACED Rose like she was NOTHING and so many of us LIKED HER and liked FINNROSE and Finn cant even be bothered to kiss Rose goodbye when he thinks he's about to die TWICE? Are they just friends?? Did he friendzone her?? Like just at least give me an ANSWER.

[calsyee]

I'm feeling spicy today so I'm just gonna lay out my star wars the last jedi opinions:

1) I like that Rian Johnson definitely had a theme he wanted to make clear. Movies that know what they're trying to say make my job easier as a viewer and also allow me to create nuanced critique of them

2) literally the only reason people can legitimately have to hate rose tico is racism and frankly I disavow any supposed TLJ critical person who thinks she was a bad character. In my heart Rose will go on to be best friends with Finn and thats just facts.

3) I don't like that Rian Johnson prioritized his "nothing will go the way you think" theme over consistency with previous characterization, as the choices he made, especially for holdo, luke and poe, didn't work for me.

3a) the conflict between holdo and poe reinforced stereotypes about Latino men and also reinforced the white feminist White Women in Positions of Power = Always Good And Correct When In Conflict With Men trope

3a1) poe's characterization in tlj is pretty poorly handled, as the movie forgets that everything about his character in tfa was pure good hero; he was paralleled with Leia from the jump and his priority was always the good of the resistance and his friends.

3a2) with regard to holdo, everything about her characterization implied that she was shady; making her Not Shady for a twist and to punish poe's valid suspicions of her is unsatisfying as far as twists go, because it's obviously being done to further reinforce Rian's intended theme at the expense of reasonable audience expectation and conventional cinematic language.

3a3) he could have done something really compelling with a conflict between poe and holdo instead of this weak-ass twist by giving us viewers a reason to trust holdo; some insight to her side of the story. This way, as viewers, we understand both why she appears super shady to poe and her new crew, but also why she feels she needs to do what she's doing. But he didn't, and I dont like what he did do.

3b) I just don't get the idea of Luke coming anywhere near murdering his own nephew. Like, this is the man who brought his fascist father back to the light side of the force; it seems incongruous that he'd ever think Ben Solo could be irredeemably bad.

3b1) this also means that Kylo Ren's entire motivation for becoming Kylo Ren — the betrayal of knowing his uncle and Master considered (and very nearly carried out) killing him — feels forced and awkward, which is really bad when the narrative is trying to set up the meat of his redemption arc.

4) I really, really like the twist where Kylo Ren kills Snoke. That was fucking baller as a scene and as a plot choice.

4a) That said, I don't like that JJ took this fact and basically tried to replace Snoke with Palpatine in tros, but that's for another post; I think it would've made more sense for the narrative arc for Kylo to become the big bad

5) I was a Rey Kenobi theory stan so like, I was initially disappointed by the reveal that Rey's parents were, at that point, nobodies, but I've since come round to the idea way more than what they eventually went with in TROS

6) I think the third act was messy as hell both structurally and thematically

7) Luke's transcendence into the force was completely perfect and I have no criticisms.

8) Also Rose & Finn wrecking that casino was fucking inspired and was maybe my favorite sequence of the whole movie

9) Reylo is not to my taste as a ship, so the forced Force connection between them annoyed the hell out of me and still kind of does four years later. It just bothers me to see a hetero romance between a villain and a woman he literally tortured getting used as a lever for his redemption arc; I'm not going to fight people about it though because I'm tired and I think that one sentence basically is my whole argument. I don't like that he hurt her and then got set up as her love interest, and thats all.

10) I think the fighting that still goes on online about whether tlj is A Masterpiece of Blockbuster Cinema or The Worst Movie Ever Made is...misguided at best, as its pretty much neither. Its a movie with some really interesting ideas that I think were implemented super badly, and it suffers from that fact quite a lot in my estimation of it. So i'm always kind of confused to see people making hating or defending it uncritically the centerpiece of their discourse, though I do feel for anyone who really loves the movie because it spoke to them and what they wanted/needed and feels as though the mainstream discourse is Set Against Them as a result. I've been there, as a Batman v Superman stan in 2016-2017, and straight-up, I have the legit trauma & triggers to show for it. Y'all deserve to be able to like a movie that means something important to you.

So yeah those are my spicy takes about star wars the last jedi. I'm not looking to spark any discourse or anything, I just wanted to express my take on the internet.

[cometcrystal]

I SAW TROS IT WAS pretty okay i had a nice time for the most part. heres what i liked

the new charas janna and zori were neat i liked them a lot. i just wish they didn’t exist solely to no homo finnpoe. of course the only solution for this is to ship them with each other

dio the new little droid was so fucking cute and i love him so so so much. they made him to sell merch and its going to work

it was a good ol sci fi romp

the part where sheev shoots the lightning up into the air and it hits all the ships was a rly good shot and good villain moment i liked it

i like palpatine because he is so fucking funny like the fact that this person exists in the sw universe is so funny. hes a shriveling old man that goes ehehehehe and thatse all. ik some people didn’t like him coming back but i was ok with it because he amuses me and him coming back from the dead is also amusing. like my dad said “he’s gone for good until the next trilogy” love that for him wats good homeboy

i love the sequel trio and their circle of friends. i have action figures of rey finn and rose and i still need poe and now janna and zori so they can squad up

cool knife which will probably be merch which i will want

the evil guy who we were supposed to think was the spy not being the spy was so fucking funny why did they do that. and hux shouting I’M THE SPY immediately after killing the stormtroopers was also fucking funny. and the evil guy shooting hux dead was also fucking funny. the spy plot as a whole was just really fucking funny on all cylinders 

if kylo being redeemed was an inevitability, i think they did it the best way possible: him giving his own life to help another human. bc this way he still gets to be dead for all the shit he did before but at least he was able to make himself useful once (1nce)

stuff i didnt like which will only be my main complaints and ill try not to go on for long bc other people have already written at length what’s wrong with this movie

poe’s racist backstory

rose not getting screentime

the awesome new girl charas only being there for no homo

this point is from jenny n*cholson’s video (blech) but i agree w her that the movie should have ended w rey’s friends beckoning her onto a ship to go on a new adventure instead of ending the movie with rey alone in the desert just as she started in tfa

reylo happening was so fucking stupid because there was NO buildup to it whatsoever. no, rey and kylo having the connection wasn’t a buildup, not to me. not to a romantic relationship at least. up until the end of this movie, rey is still very adamantly aggressive towards kylo and communicates that she doesn’t like him and doesn’t want him to be near her, and she makes it clear that he upsets her. he consistently pushes her and tries to manipulate her throughout all 3 movies. and them kissing makes NO fucking sense narratively because up to that point there is absolutely no reason for me to believe rey is interested in kylo in a romantic sense. idc if kylo has a crush on rey or not because the way he treats her doesn’t fucking fly i dont give a shit if he has ol palpy in his head telling him to. kylo ren is not countess boochie flagrante. he’s still ben solo. darth vader was not a different character from anakin skywalker. darth sidious was not a different character from palpatine. they were all the same people, they just had sith titles, and the same goes for ben solo. fuck reylo and fuck everyone involved with making that shit canon at the very fucking last moment

palpatine rey is stupid bring back nobody rey

[lactosecarrotsoup]

My thoughts on Sean & Finn’s kiss

This will be long and of course contain spoilers, as if you can’t tell by the title... thingy. So, be warned. This will also contain my opinion(s); which is a very sensitive subject in this fandom. 

We’re all entitled to our own thoughts, opinions, beliefs, etc.

With that said, let’s get started!

For those who are new to this game... I will give you a short summery. Life is Strange is a video game series ran by DontNod. A great company who loves to make players cry. This season has new characters from the other season and DLC. This season takes place in Washington where you play as a 16 year old boy, Sean Diaz, who’s a regular teenager. He loves drawing, skating, and of course stereotypical teen stuff such as drugs and parties. Taking away the partying and drug usage, he’s your typical shy-ish guy. He also has a little brother named Daniel, he’s 9 years old.

Both of them are Hispanic, including their father (Esteban), making this season’s cast more diverse than the first season, where the main characters were mainly white.

Speaking of their father, he dies. Yep. After Sean forces Daniel out of his room, Daniel runs to their hot-headed neighbor and accidentally spills homemade zombie blood on him. Sean over see’s the neighbor about to hurt Daniel and rushes out the house, protecting him. After a few racial slurs/crude remarks to Daniel, Sean decides to fight him. Sean shoves the neighbor onto a small rock (which I still dont understand how that injured him), and he lays on the ground in shock/going unconscious.

A cop shows up and hell breaks loose. The cop only see’s the “blood” on the neighbors shirt and Daniels, thinking nothing but the worst of the situation rather than questioning them. The dad comes out, trying to reason with the officer and he gets trigger happy, shooting Sean & Daniel’s dad, killing him. Daniel screams in shock/anger/horror and Sean blacks out. Whenever he wakes up, the entire street is destroyed and more people are dead/unconscious. He grabs Daniel and they runaway, not wanting to get involved with the crime. It’s later found out that Daniel has powers (similar theme to LIS season 1) and can move objects with his mind.

More shit happens, yada yada yada.

NOW.

Episode 3 just released. In episode two, the brothers meet quite a few people. But most notably for this post, Cassidy and Finn. These two are regular friends (or maybe even “fuck buddies” as Finn and another girl described their relationship), who are a lot like Sean and Daniel. Cassidy left her old home life to live on the road. Finn, I can’t remember if he said anything or not. But I would think it would be for the same reason or something crime related.

Anyways, point is, they all group together and live in the woods. But, they all also work for this dude who runs a farm with nothing but pot.

Yep.

A nine year old and sixteen year old kid are working at a pot farm.

This leads to Finn, Cassidy, and Sean to get high, drunk, etc.

Finn get’s a hair up his ass and decides; “Hey, why don’t we steal all the cash from our boss? Who cares if he may know about Sean & Daniel’s backstory, has security footage evidence of them, and shotguns?!”

Cassidy is against this. But you, the player, have the option to accept or refuse his plan to rob the big dude with the cash.

And in the words of Chloe Price from season one; he’s got some “hella cash”

SORRY I HAD TOO.

But still, you can either rob from the guy or go against it. But HO HO HO! This choice doesn’t matter that much. Finn does it anyways (with a fUCKING NINE YEAR OLD HELPING HIM AND RISKING THAT KID’S LIFE) and Cassidy gets upset and worried. So, if you disagree with Cassidy, you end up meeting with them anyways so you can stop them. You get in trouble either way, btw.

But, let’s back it up.

If you agree to join Finn’s plan, he’s happy and you have the chance to romance him. Which, at first thought (including mine), was great! In the first season, Max was bisexual. You can flirt/romance with Chloe and/or Warren. With Sean romancing Cassidy and Finn, the developers made him bisexual.

But... it’s not all roses. Let me give you my first reaction. I do actually have it recorded.

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=IGJ8lg5clHM

2:29:55 - 2:34:24

If you don’t watch it, basically I was excited and shocked. I didn’t like Finn at first but in that moment, I shipped them. I wanted Sean to be happy and happy enough to open up about his sexuality, if he hadn’t already.

But, I realized something.

Finn is most likely 20+. Sean is still 16. This means Finn is an older guy kissing a minor, which is of course, illegal. Not to mention that earlier in that episode, he was teaching Daniel to throw knifes and such. He smokes and drinks and admits his sexual relationships in front of a kid, too.

Speaking of his sexual relationships, it would be highly toxic if Sean and him dated/had casual sexual intercourse. Just based on Sean’s personality and how he had a crush on that Jen girl in the first episode, and how close him and Cassidy warmed up to each-other, he wears his heart on his sleeve. One thing this season has done WONDERFULLY is not distribute toxic masculinity. Sean and Daniel have both cried several times. Most men don’t like to talk/show their feelings because they feel weak and such, which is horrible. No guy should feel that way and should openly express them-self.

Sean does this, which is amazing. Yet, still can harm him.

Right after you agree to Finn’s plan, you can kiss him. Throughout the episode, he also flirts with Sean. Of course you have the CHOICE to kiss him... but it’s only after you accept his agreement. You can kiss Cassidy (and sleep with her) but she will storm off, angry, without kissing you, if you agree to Finn’s plan. Which is reasonable. Or, you can lie to her, saying you thought his plan was dumb, and she’ll kiss you. Both reasonable (in my opinion) responses to each situations.

But, how come you can’t kiss Finn regardless? Sean can say no and they could still talk about their feelings, leading to a kiss. Instead, they do nothing.

Finn is manipulative. He used Sean’s emotions to get to him. He probably noticed how close him and Cassidy were and how much love he has for Daniel, openly saying it every now and then, and wanting to protect him. Finn noticed how open Sean is and took advantage. 

Imagine if this wasn’t a choice base game and the story automatically follows Sean agreeing with Finn.

He flirts with him throughout the episode and is very charismatic. Since Daniel notices how close Sean and Cassidy are getting, he rants to Finn. Finn takes in this information and uses it against them. He becomes “cool” in Daniel’s eyes by being super chill, rebellious, and showing him how to violently protect himself/hurt others. In a sense, he becomes Daniel’s temporary older and “cooler” brother, making Daniel look up to him. With Finn’s flirting, he admits (once again, if your choices didn’t matter) that he has feelings for some guys.

Finn takes note of this.

The idea pops into his head to steal from the man who runs the pot farm... thing. I’m an innocent bean who hasn’t done anything harder than prescribed drugs for anxiety and stuff. So forgive me if I’m getting these terms wrong, LOL! But, the point still remains, he tells Daniel who is automatically on board. I doubt a 9 year old boy truly cares if they have enough money or not. I bet his main thought was “If I do this, then Finn will think I’m cool! He’ll treat me like an adult and so will others.”

In fact, I bet you that was his exact thoughts, just based on what he said to Sean and how he acted towards others.

If you really look at it, guys... it looks similar to a Mark Jefferson/Nathan Prescott relationship in season 1. I’m not going to go into many details for the people who haven’t played/watched season 1 yet, but I’ll give you guys a basic rundown by what I mean.

Nathan was mentally ill. He suffered from possibly multiple disorders and had an abusive father. His father wanted him to be the best of the best, not for his sake, but for the families sake. This got to Nathan and he hated his father. Mark Jefferson was a teacher who noticed this, befriending Nathan, and becoming a fatherly figure. The two teamed up to do sickening plans and crimes together which ended up getting them caught in the end.

Now, who does that sound like?

Daniel just lost his father and he’s angry. He probably has PTSD and anger management issues, based on how he’s acting and the situations he’s been through. Finn is an older figure and tricks Daniel to follow his plans and crime, as they’re stealing. They end up getting caught by the boss no matter what they, Sean, Cassidy, or the player does.

Sean is in the same boat, minus the anger issues. He probably suffers more from depression and PTSD (since he talks about the past a lot to others and how they know their story). Since he does talk about his feelings, Finn uses to his advantage.

When Sean agrees to the heist, Finn and him (can) kiss as an award. An award for falling into his trap and doing whatever he wanted.

Nathan got fatherly love and praise from Jefferson, resulting in him to continue their disgusting plans in order to feel loved.

Sean (and Daniel) and becoming the Nathan of this season.

We have to watch out who will be our jefferson.

I also have to address another elephant in the room.

We’re the reason this happened.

If you go through old DontNod/Life is Strange official posts (I suggest instagram or facebook, where i saw mine), I saw nothing but comments saying how much they want Chloe and Max back. I assume this is because of how you can romance Chloe. They want their love story/friendship to continue. Even though we did get a comic series based on them, it wasn’t good enough.

DontNod probably got sick of it and forced this to happen. While they were probably writing Cassidy as a love interest in the beginning, and Finn as probably just a random stranger or a brother of hers, the noticed all the hate and said “fuck it!”

As a result, we got the chance to kiss Finn... before you could write him off by injuring or killing him. Which, many people were pissed about.

But if you REALLY think about it, we were the cause of that. They probably didn’t want that, wanting to focus on Cassidy and the actual story. But many people wanted LGBTQ+ moments (which is understandable) but didn’t want Sean and Daniel’s story. Or they did get involved in their story but wanted a LGBTQ+ character.

The story of Life is Strange (both seasons + DLC) is nothing more but teens/young adults finding themselves through very difficult times. This with the responsibility of super powers, which are hurting those around them. It’s not meant to be a romance. It’s meant to be a drama, sci-fi, and angst story. (And thriller bc of Max’s nightmare bc that shit scared me)

While yes, I was happy and excited at first about Sean & Finn kissing. I was happy that there was potential for things to be “normal” and Sean to be happy, there was a lot of red flags. The age differences, the manipulation, the parallel's, and how forced it was.

Thanks for coming to my TEDTalk! Before you leave a hateful response, please know my opinion is valid like yours and others. Not only that, but I’m not the first to point some of this out. :)

[hellxpuppy]

for the character thing again how about finn! :3c

OHHHH FINN !!!!!!!!!

Sexuality Headcanon: bi or gay!! either way is very good!!Gender Headcanon: TRANS!A ship I have with said character: FINNPOE BABEY, and even if i prefer lesbian rey, finnrey is GOOD!!A BROTP I have with said character: finn + rey !!!!!! also finn + chewbacca i want them to interact more especially after what happened in TFA, i think their relationship would be a lot better!A NOTP I have with said character: if you pair him with any of the 3 stooges i will also tear your spine out from your body. also this one isn’t super intense, it’s very minor but i dont really like finn/rose either, but i dont have much of a say in itA random headcanon: he likes to try out new things with his friends! now that he doesnt really have a restriction, i feel like he would love to just go out and do stuff! also he’s force sensitive, i dont give a shit what kathleen kennedy saysGeneral Opinion over said character: I LOVE HIM A LOT !!!! he’s an incredibly unique character and i hope the next movie does him justice!

[nebulawriter]

Star Wars the Last Jedi

I cant think of anything to say in this opening descriptor thats not a spoiler so lets just move onto the review

YOOOOOOOOOOOO That was COOOL!

and conveniently divided into three plots to talk about. 

We start with Poe vs. Vice Admiral. 

I did not know Laura Dern was gonna be in this. and with purple hair! cool! But yeah, I thought this was really good for Poe’s development, having to learn how to be a leader more than a hero, etc. etc. I thought there was a good message in there about focusing on actually helping in times of crisis and not worrying about what ‘feels’ right. It goes along with that one post talking about how people should be caregivers not heroes. so I thought that was cool. 

And I’m glad the Vice Admiral wasn’t a bad guy. They set her up as someone with a reputation so it was good to see her play into that in the end and it turning out well. She was a cool character, with a badass ending to her and I’m sad to see her go. cool character. 

I think this will play a lot more for the next movie when General Leia dies, ( :( ) and I think Poe will probably get to chance to play that leadership role for real. He’s someone who’s always looked up to heroes like Leia, so him now having to play her role (probably?) will be interesting. 

While we’re here though, I swear to god when Leia used the force to bring herself back into the ship....I swear Carrie Fisher came to life for just a moment for me. She was here and she came back because she wasn’t done here yet. 

RIP General

Moving on to Finn and Rose

Finn also got some excellent development jumping off The Force Awakens. He came back, but he came back for Rey, not the Resistance. So him moving more into Poe’s role, full of anger and wanting to stand up and Fight for what’s right is another good message. 

I could have used more of Rose, I don’t know much about her...I was sad about Paige, but I didn’t really know her either. I WILL say I wasn’t overly fond of the ending where she kisses him then passes out ‘cause I thought they killed her and UM I THINK NOT but I think she’s okay. She’s alive anyway. so thats good. Not looking forward to a potential love triangle with those two and Rey (and its not like I’m opposed to the ship, but that kiss kinda came out of nowhere. But I did like the message ‘fight for what you love’ and what not. 

In between stuff, I loved the heist bit, I think that’s a great way for Star Wars to go. wasn’t CRAZY about their crime friend, especially towards the end with the betrayal and everything. It just felt like it didn’t ultimately go...places. but it was cool to see, and it was DEFINITELY cool on the rich people planet. 

I just. of all the ‘hives of scum and villainy’ it was good to have this contrast and to see it all and then...to just wreck it. Ohhhh man did that feel good. and I know the Purgs or whatever they’re called are the ones marketed to be adorable but...those space horses man. Those were good space horses.

Finally, BB8 felt just a LIIIITTLE op but whatever he��s cute and I love him. 

and now....Rey, Luke, and Kylo Ren.

The plot I simultaneously loved the most and had the most issues with. 

Like, I actually did like Kylo and Rey’s playing off against one another, and like, kinda getting sick of the force connecting them. learning about each other and like...kinda trying to pull the other in to their side. 

The weakest part of the whole film to me was the incident with Ben Solo and Luke on the day the temple burned down. It was...I dunno, i need to think about it more, but it felt weird to me. 

Also weird was Reys vision quest on the dark part of the island. didn’t really help much with things. Idk. 

and I LIKE some of Luke’s commentary, and he’s right about the Old Republic but I was kinda waiting for a final punch as to why ‘the jedi had to end’ which never came. *shrug* also, why didn’t Chewie just grab him kicking and screaming onto the Falcon and take off. 

I thought maybe we’d get answers about R2 but no, i guess not. And Chewie was sure...there....i just dont care about the porgs. 

The scene with yoda and Luke at the temple destruction was good (but ya gotta wonder what the caretakers thought about that...) but also, yoda seemed...weird to me. but whatever. 

THAT BATTLE WITH KYLO AND REY VS THE GUARDS THOUGH!!!! LIKE!!! YOOOOOOOOOOOOOO that was so awesome. Snoke’s death was awesome (who even was that guy thought?) and then...they TURNED it.....it wasn’t Kylo turning light, it was him taking POWER!!! which, every sith apprentice has kinda said ‘oh, its okay, I’ll learn from this guy and then take over’ like, including Vader, but none ever did til now and so that was really cool to see. 

Luke and Kylo’s battle was cool and we see Kylo as the whining baby he is, Leia doesn’t believe in him anymore even and just. Yes. Many good parallels with like, current right wing fascism uprising stuff. It’s hard for me NOT to see the parallels, honestly. I think it was really well handled and i just. I liked it. 

Also though, so like...Rey is totally untrained and the last jedi left, really. So. does she get to just make up the rules now? Is that what I’m getting from this? Cause I’m onboard. And now she has the freedom to train new jedi like...the way she wants? Learning from the mistakes of Luke and the Old Republic, and I can be on board with that. But like. Just as long as we don’t forget SHE’S TOTALLY UNTRAINED. 

Anyway. 

So, in summary: Really cool characters, really cool visuals, really cool messages, need to think more about the plot and story, but. Yeah. Good movie, I look forward to when I inevitably see it again. 

[summahsunlight]

Perhaps It’s Fate, Part 19

Rating: T, to be safe

Word Count: 1.5k

Summary: After joining the Resistance as a mechanic, you were happy to keep to yourself, until a little orange and white bb unit and his master wander into your workshop one day.

Pairings: Poe Dameron x Mechanic!Reader

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It’s here! The next part! Hope you enjoy it. I’m excited for you to be able to read it!🥰 Remember if you want to be added to the taglist, just let me know!

Leia could tell you were nervous. You had never left the base before to complete a mission and now you were being asked to sneak on board the Supreme Leader’s ship to crack a code.  

But first the Resistance needed to obtain codes to get through the Supremecy’s defense systems. After procuring the funds to obtained a copy of the codes, you were preparing to depart the Raddus when no one could find Finn. He’d been extremely anxious about Rey when he woke up, and the anxiety only increased the more dire their situation became. You had a pretty good idea where Finn had gone off too.

Rose Tico found him first. She didn’t say anything, but you were pretty smart--Finn had the binary beacon that Leia had given Rey in his hand--he was leaving to find her.  You didn’t say anything, even though Finn was well aware that you knew what he’d been up too, that you knew Rose had stopped him. He was grateful for that because Poe so put so much faith in him. 

So, as you were headed towards Canto Bright to purchase the shield codes, Finn waited until Poe was out of earshot to speak to you. “Thanks.”

“For what?” you asked, innocently.

“For not telling Poe that I tried to ditch the Resistance,” Finn replied. “I know how much this means to him.”

You shrugged your shoulders. “It’s not like you’re really a part of the Resistance; Poe just... wants you to be. To be fair, Finn, he just wants everyone to join us. Sometimes he has hard a time grasping that there are people out there that would rather not get involved.”

He nodded in understanding. Once he’d told Rey that she didn’t know the First Order like he did and that they all needed to run. She was devastated that he had left. Poe would probably be the same way, and for someone that had no friends while he’d been a solider for the First Order, Finn did not want to keep disappointing the people that he did consider his friends. 

Poe stepped back into the cockpit then, BB-8 rolling behind him. “Should be in Canto Bright within the hour.”

“Great. What should we do once we get there?” Finn asked.

“For one, change,” Poe replied, throwing a suit at him.

“Change?”

“Yeah. We need to blend in. Our clothes aren’t loud enough.”

Finn shot you a funny look and you smiled. “We won’t look rich enough if we stay in our regular clothes,” you said. 

Poe chuckled. “I’m not sure we’re ever going to look rich enough even if we put the clothes on.” He shook his head. “Those people drip money, practically wear it on them--meanwhile, people are suffering throughout the galaxy.”

The former Stormtrooper tossed a look at you. “Why didn’t you give Y/N something to change into?”

“Someone has to be here to fly the ship if we need to make a quick escape.”

“And I’m not trained for this kind of mission.”

“I am?”

Poe chuckled. “You do have military training.”

Finn frowned. “Yeah... but not Secret Ops training.”

Shifting in your seat, you glanced at Poe. “It’s Canto Bright--as along as you look fancy and talk fancy, I doubt anyone is going to know the difference. It’s just a playground for the rich.”

Checking the navicomputer, Poe got up, pressed a kiss to the top of your head and announced he was going to change. You looked towards Finn, noticing that he still seemed uncomfortable. “You know, Poe’s been charge of missions like this before--with Black Squadron. Everything is going to be okay.” 

“He’s never run into trouble before?”

“Oh, no, he runs into trouble all the time.”

“Is that supposed to make me feel better?”

“Poe always manages to find his way out of trouble.”

Finn silently agreed with you. He glanced at the fancy clothes that Poe had tossed at him. Once they had the information they had come to Canto Bright for, they were heading to Snoke’s ship--which is where you came in, because you were the smartest mechanic on base according to Poe and you could solve the code to stop the tracker. “Someday that luck is going to run out--I just hope it isn’t today.”

You swallowed the nervous bile in your throat. You were fearing the same things that Finn was--that Poe’s knack for escaping trouble would run out on this mission. But you had to try because if you didn’t, it would surely be the end of the Resistance. 

------

Along with BB-8, you waited anxiously in the ship while Poe and Finn headed out to the casinos to meet with your contact. You did your best to calm your already frayed nerves, but the longer the two men were gone, there more anxious you got.

Somehow you managed to fight off a panic attack. 

BB-8 stayed by your side, quietly beeping and engaging in off-topic conversation. You had a squeaky suspicion that Poe left his droid behind with you to help you manage your anxiety. Reaching down you gave the little droid some loving scratches on the top of his dome head.

Closing your eyes, you tried not focus on how long it was taking. Instead, you focused on the breathing techniques that Poe had tirelessly researched for you to help with your panic attacks. You were in such deep thought that you didn’t hear Poe’s voice over the comm calling for your help. It was BB-8′s pleas that pulled you back to reality.

“Poe?” you questioned, shakily into the comm link.

“Y/N! Get the ship ready!”

Without hesitation you started the ship up. BB-8 nervously beeped and rolled around the cock-pit. “Yes,” you said, as the engines fired up, “I’m very much aware that that was Poe’s I’m-in-trouble-voice. Are they in your sensor range, Bee?”

BB-8 confirmed that they were not, which meant that they were not near the ship. You cursed, silently. If only you knew how much time you had...

...blast bolts rocked the tiny little ship you were sitting in. Now you cursed loudly; BB-8 anxiously moved closer to you. 

“Poe! They’re firing on us!” you shouted into the comm link.

“Get out of there! We’ll join up outside of the city!”

“Join up? Where!”

“Just trust me, sweetheart!”

Trust him? Of course you trusted him, but in this moment, as you lifted the ship into the air and escaped the hanger--you were having a hard time trusting him. BB-8 was actively scanning for him, trying to help you find the two men as you headed out of the city. All you could see was one of those obnoxious party ships heading out over the pristine waterfalls. 

And then you saw them--Poe and Finn--at the edge of the waterfalls. “Bee! I see them!” You shouted at the droid, pointing them out. “Go open the cargo door! I get as low to the ground as I can so they can climb on board.”

You waited until you heard Poe shouting to punch it that you pushed the ship’s thrusters to its limits to climb into the atmosphere and back into space. It slightly startled you when Poe’s hand gripped your shoulder and guided you out of the pilot’s seat. There was no arguing from you--he was after all the better pilot. 

Poe effortlessly took over, flying the ship quickly away from the planet. “Hold on, I’m gonna have to make the jump to lighspeed quickly--before planetary defenses launch and come after us.”

“What did you two do down there?” you asked.

“Long story,” Finn mumbled. 

“They weren’t happy we might have cheated...”

“Poe... really?”

“Hey! They have plenty of money! We needed to blend in!”

Finn threw you a look just as Poe made the jump to lightspead. The two of you stumbled a bit, but quickly regained your balance. “He almost talked his way out of it. Almost. And then we were being chased by security...you know the rest.”

Poe swiveled the pilot seat around and smiled at you both. “We got out of there, didn’t we? And we stuck it to some of those rich guys. Now, I’m going to go get out of this ridiculous suit.” As he passed you, he pressed a kiss to your temple. “Forty minutes until we get to Snoke’s ship. You got this, sweetheart.”

You took a deep breath; you didn’t want fail Poe or the Resistance. Which meant you had to get your anxiety in check.  Otherwise, everything was going to fall to pieces and you would be the one to blame.

[summahsunlight]

Perhaps It’s Fate, Part 17

Rating: T, to be safe

Word Count: 2013

Summary: After joining the Resistance as a mechanic, you were happy to keep to yourself, until a little orange and white bb unit and his master wander into your workshop one day.

Pairings: Poe Dameron/Reader

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Sorry that this part took a long time to get up. Hope you enjoy it. I’m loosely following The Last Jedi. Finn and reader’s friendship will really be formed throughout the next few parts and Rose will be introduced. Remember if you want to be added to the taglist, just let me know!

Most of the Resistance had evacuated and headed off to your next base location by the time the First Order showed up at D’Qar. The last of the transport were not on the Raddus and Leia had to make the difficult decision to leave much of the remaining supplies behind in order to get the rest of her people safely off planet.

And of course Poe came up with some crazy scheme to distract General Hux for them to accomplish this. You had no idea about that though; you were blissfully unaware in your quarters that your boyfriend was staring down a dreadnaught. He had crafted it this way; the plan had been designed before the evacuation of D’Qar had even started and Poe had purposefully kept you I the dark because he did not want you to panic.

Poe just wanted to make that dreadnaught disappear; he wouldn’t allow the First Order to hurt you again. 

His recklessness was going to do just that. Even when the dreadnaught burst into flames, a costly yet triumphant victory for the Resistance,Poe had set forth a chain of events that not even he could control.

----

News of the destruction of the dreadnaught travelled fast on the Raddus. 

Everyone was talking about how crazy Poe was for leading that attack, how he had flown out there at first by himself and faced down both a Star Destroyer and then the dreadnaught. You felt sick to your stomach when you heard that; Poe was continually putting himself in reckless, dangerous situations--and this time he had kept it from you.

Furious, you found Poe on the bridge, gazing at star charts with the location of the Resistance’s new base. “Why didn’t you tell me?” you accused him, your voice unusually harsh.

Poe glanced up from the star charts. “Why didn’t I tell you what?”

You crossed your arms over your chest. “That you were going to be stupid.”

“Darling, I’m gonna need more than that.”

“Going up against a dreadnaught! Those are fleet killers, Poe!”

His eyes flickered towards Leia, who gave him a silent nod. Poe gently took your arm and led you off the bridge, to a quiet, private spot on the ship. “We knew it was coming. And yes, I’m aware that they’re fleet killers. It’s why we took it out.”

Your hands were shaking, either from anger or from an oncoming panic attack--at this point you weren’t sure. “You could have... you could have died, Poe! And you didn’t even tell me! I could have...I could have lost you...without ever getting to say good-bye!” 

Now your breaths were coming in ragged, and you knew--it was panic attack.

Poe grabbed onto your upper arms, gently, and coaxed you to take deep breaths, helping you work through the anxiety. This is what he’d been afraid of when he decided not to tell you about the attack on the dreadnaught. Once the panic attack had ceased, he let go of you arms and drew you to his chest. His fingers slipped through your hair. “I’m sorry I didn’t tell you. I thought...I thought I was protecting you.”

“From what?” you mumbled against his flight suit.

“Well, from a panic attack,” Poe answered, honestly. 

“You can’t protect me from those, Poe. They happen without warning.”

“I wish I could.”

You pulled back and looked up at him. His eyes were filled with guilt--maybe because he had not told you about the plan to attack the dreadnaught--maybe it was because he couldn’t stop your panic attacks from happening. You didn’t think they were ever going to stop. They were probably always going to be a part of your life now. This made you incredibly thankful that Poe wasn’t scared off by them, that he was willing to do what it took to prevent you from having them. Even if his goal was a little short-sighted.

Poe lifted one of his hands and gently placed it against your cheek. His thumb stroked softly over your skin. He might not be able to stop your panic attacks, but he could protect you from the First Order. Pulling you in for a kiss, Poe pressed his lips to yours, moving them against you and drawing you in to a passionate embrace. 

Maker his kiss made you forget how mad you were at him. 

His comm going off ended the intimate moment. Poe tugged on your lower lip before reaching into the pocket of his flight suit and pulling out his comm. You ran your tongue over your lips, tasting him there while he spoke to Connix. When he finished the conversation, he put the comm back into his pocket and kissed your cheek. “I have to go.”

“What’s going on?” you asked, anxiously.

“Sweetheart,” Poe sighed.

“Poe. I don’t want to find out through gossip the next reckless thing you did.”

“Leia wants to meet with me. We’re dropping out of light speed.”

“Are we at the base yet?”

“No. But we’re running low on fuel.”

There was worry in his voice; the rest of the fleet had made it to their next base, having evacuated D’Qar a few days prior than the Raddus leaving with the last remaining members of the Resistance. Poe knew that dropping out of light speed to find fuel was risky. They risked being caught with very little protection and there was no way of knowing if the rest of the fleet would be able to help them if they required it. 

You bit down on your lower lip, anxiously. You wanted to ask to go with him, but you had work to do in the hanger--and you were pretty sure he’d tell you no anyways. Poe gave you one more kiss and then headed back to the bridge, leaving you standing there, slightly shaken.

Go work in the hanger, it will get your mind off of things, you told yourself, forcing your legs to move. Not for the first time since boarding the Raddus you found yourself wishing for your little shop where you could retreat to and work without anyone bothering you--or staring at you. 

Not that anyone was actually staring at you as you began to work on a fighter engine. You were just paranoid that they were--that they knew you had panic attacks and they were just waiting for you to have another mental breakdown to make fun of you.

“Y/N, the med bay has been looking for Commander Dameron.”

“Why?”

“Finn’s awake. He’s been asking some questions...”

You dropped your hydrospanner into your toolbox and quickly fled the hanger. Poe had wanted to be there when Finn woke up, but since he was in a meeting with Leia you were certain that he had shut his comm off. 

When you arrived at the med bay Finn was seated on a cot, wearing the jacket that Poe had given him. After things had settled down a little bit Poe had done his best to sew the jacket so Finn would have.  As you got closer to the former stormtrooper, you realized that he was wearing one of Poe’s shirt and pants. The commander had left clean clothes for Finn incase he woke up and Poe wasn’t there. 

Finn glanced up at you when you entered but his face didn’t hint at any emotion. “Poe busy?”

“He’s in a meeting with the General.”

“Where’s Rey?”

“She went to find Master Skywalker. His droid had the rest of the map.”

Concern etched into his features and you were reminded of his worry about Rey when he’d arrived on D’Qar. “How is she gonna find us if we left the base?”

You recalled Leia giving something to Rey just before she left D’Qar. “Not sure, but General Organa figured something out before she left. Don’t worry, Finn, she’ll find us.”

Finn nodded and looked a little lost. You shifted on you heels. “Do you want to come help me work on some engines in the hanger?”

“Ah, I don’t know much about mechanics.”

“That’s okay. I can teach you.”

“Uh... sure...”

Offering him a smile, you led him through the corridors of the ship back towards the hanger. Poe wanted you to be friends, and the least you could do was try and be nice to Finn even if you still had your reservations. Your eased mood changed immediately when alarms started wailing, followed by several heavy rocks of the ship, and then finishing with a loud explosion.

You were thrown several feet into the air, landing hard against the bulkhead, your head slamming against the cold metal. You landed on your stomach in the corridor and you were sure that you could hear Finn calling your name between the ringing in your ears. As you laid there and managed to push yourself up on all fours.

“Y/N!” Finn shouted, falling to his knees next to you. “Are you okay?”

“I...I think so,” you muttered, bringing your fingers to your temple.

They came away covered in blood. Maybe you were not fine. You did feel incredibly dizzy. Finn helped you into a sitting position. “Do you think you can stand?”

Blinking, you tried to focus on what was in front of you, but it was incredibly blurry. “No, I don’t think...I’m really dizzy, Finn.”

Finn helped you to your feet and supported you against him. You were light enough, he would be able to part drag you-part carry you to the med bay. 

----

Rage. That’s what he felt, sitting there watching the hanger burn, watching his x-wing burn; watching as people he called friends died. Poe had been thrown from the blast, having not been in the hanger when it happened, and before the blast doors closed, he’d caught a glimpse of the hanger in flames.

Shock quickly wore off to rage. You had been in the hanger. The First Order had taken you away from him and all he could do was sit there. He didn’t have a fighter to go out and make Kylo Ren pay for killing you. 

You had always worried about him being killed by the First Order, but in a cruel twist of fate, you were the one that was dead and Poe was the one left grieving; a pain so deep that all he wanted to do was kill every last member of the First Order himself.

Grief was not a new emotion for Poe.

He’d felt terrible grief when his mother died, when Muran had been killed--but those losses didn’t compare to losing you. Poe had lost more than just someone he loved, he’d lost the other half of himself. 

BB-8 brushed against his hand when he didn’t move for the longest time. Poe shakily got to his feet and shuffled back to bridge. The Raddus had moved out of range of the Star Destroyers, forcing the fighters to fall back, but they still had a big problem on their hands--the First Order was able to track their ship, and if they were able to track their ship they wouldn't be able to join the rest of the fleet at their new base. 

“Poe?” Leia softly caught him by the arm. “I’m sorry.”

“They didn’t have a chance,” Poe mumbled, tears forming in his eyes.

“We’ll have to mourn later.”

“Yes...yes ma’am.”

Leia moved her hand from his arm and took his in her own, giving it a gentle squeeze. This was the most distraught she had ever seen Poe and she was thankful that there wasn’t a ship for him to fly off in and try to extract revenge on the First Order. She needed him. He was the best pilot she had and he was shaping up to be a fine leader. “We need to figure out a plan before we run out of fuel.”

Poe simply nodded. He would be lying if he said he cared--the truth was--he didn’t, not anymore. You were gone. What was the point of living anymore?