#i dont like it when ppl confuse me. if you want to explain smth you need to explain it in a clear coherent way to me that makes me
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btw i now understand the achievement by, you know. getting it myself and reading the description instead of having someone in my inbox blabber abt it and confuse me to no end so please dont do that again, thanku
#i dont like it when ppl confuse me. if you want to explain smth you need to explain it in a clear coherent way to me that makes me#understand it and not leave me getting upset at myself for being too stupid to understand#so yea just let me experience stuff by myself at least i understand this. better to ask me if i know abt smth first before dumping me w too#much info and confusing me with weird phrasings#own#tbd
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HII ur aesthetic is just so pretty and the way you write is so shekehsjjdkd fell in love when I read the first sentence, I'm not even jokingđ
BUT ANYWAYY could I req diasomnia, heartslabyul, and/or octavinelle with a gn!reader who has a habit of squishing peoples cheeks whenever they hold eye contact 4 too long? /*flutters eyelashes cutely*/
THANKYOU PO IF YOY ACTUALLY DO THIS HOPE U DONT DROWN IN REQS OR SMTH HAVE A GREAT DAY MWAMWAA also i don't even know which characters are good with this kinda prompt so honestly im dependin on u 2 choose whoevee u want đââď¸ bye sissymars đĽşđĽşđ¤đ¤đ¤đ¤
ăăăăăăTWST x gn reader
ăăăăăămalleus ,, sebek ,, riddle ,, cater ,, floyd ,, gender neutral reader��  ă
ăă-> reader who squishes cheeks when ppl stare too much
ăăâ fluff ,, sfw ,, crack
ăăâ TYSM đâĽď¸âĽď¸ this made my day omg ,, so glad you like my writing ,, i kinda did a few from each dorm you asked for except for octavinelle bc character limit is 5 for me đđ but youre more than welcome to request for others ! :D hope you enjoy this đâ¤ď¸
  - malleus
| ⢠he usually doesnt mean to stare for too long ,, always knowing it was rude and how it feels to be stared at by others
| ⢠though he was focused on talking about the gargoyles at the gates and hadnt tore his gaze away for a moment
| ⢠he shut up immediately the moment you reached out and squished his cheeks ,, eyes wide in astonishment
| ⢠how fearless you are ,, child of man
| ⢠he does ask about it ,, wondering what the reason was for ,, and when he learns why he apologizes and promises not to do it again
  - sebek
| ⢠bro was on another rant abt his master ,, how courageous and how kind he is for putting up with these stupid humans everyday
| ⢠oh how he adored his master ,, how pure and wonderful he was
| ⢠it got to the point he was shaking your shoulders and making direct ,, intense ,, eye contact
| ⢠annoyed with how long he was staring ,, you reached up and squeezed his cheeks
| ⢠he jumps back ,, so confused and offended
| ⢠why would you do that !?? explain now human !!
| ⢠he huffs and puffs about the reasoning ,, but listens and respects your boundaries
  - riddle
| ⢠he was probably ranting about another reckless first year making a mess of the kitchen or some students ignoring the queenâs rules
| ⢠he didnt mean to stare for too long ,, most likely already knowing about how you get about it
| ⢠when you squish his cheeks ,, he may or may not have let out an embarrassing squeak
| ⢠heâll puff his cheeks and apologize ,, telling you not to talk abt the squeak to anyone
| ⢠his face is so red by the end ,, embarrassed he let himself stare too long and let out a squeak
  - cater
| ⢠knowing how observant he is ,, heâd know about it immediately when he sees you do it to ace and deuce
| ⢠heâll be quick to discard his eyes when he realizes hes been looking too long
| ⢠though he sort of stared a little too long once ,, trying to take a selfie with you
| ⢠when you squish his cheeks outta nowhere ,, heâll jump back a little and almost drop his phone
| ⢠he apologizes and says he was adoring you for the moment ,, before taking the selfie and moving on to focus on that
  - floyd
| ⢠he probably stares on purpose when he gets ahold of this information
| ⢠its only so you can squish his cheeks ,, hes a bit weird abt it ,, craving your touch and if staring at you long enough grants him that then he will gladly do so
| ⢠but if you get rlly bothered by it than he will stop
| ⢠this time he just happened to do it accidentally ,, trying to memorize your smile as much as he could while it was there
| ⢠he didnt realize what he was doing until you squeezed his cheeks with a huff
| ⢠he blinked a few times before giggling and pulling you into his lap ,, wrapping his arms around you
| ⢠â ahhh sorry shrimpy ~ i didnt mean to stare too much ,,â he purred before pressing a kiss to your head
#twisted wonderland x reader#twst x reader#twisted wonderland#đ.octavinelle#floyd leech#floyd x reader#đ.floyd#âĽď¸.heartslabyul#riddle x reader#riddle rosehearts#âĽď¸.riddle#cater x reader#cater diamond#âĽď¸.cater#âď¸.diasomnia#malleus x reader#malleus draconia#âď¸.malleus#sebek x reader#sebek zigvolt#âď¸.sebek#âď¸.twst
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Hnnnghhdhdh thoughts of the sillies forever haunts me. Someone please worsen my brainrot I need to write something. The words wont word right but im trying.
The best I have right now is thinking about how the skelebois would react to someone with tourette-syndrome (because I have it and self indulgence in creative works is great.)
Please let me know your ideas and stuff about this and if you want more guys with other stuff or more reacting to this!
Sans
Very patient with you and honestly would probably not care unless something is timed funny / a silly response. I personally wouldn't be offended and would probably laugh at myself too. Like something happens - maybe he made a comment about something like the price of a ketchup bottle and you reply with a tic like "yippee" and you both end up snorting. Maybe it even becomes an inside joke. "How cheap is it?" / "dont worry its yippee certified."
Wouldn't ever antagonize your tics. He may joke (after a convo about boundaries and if youre genuinely okay with jokes) but he doesnt echo you / encourage you to tic for humors sake or anything else.
He doesn't personally understand tics and how it feels to do it but he understands pain and would 100% be there to help you out when / if you have painful tics. If you allow it he'll get you soothing items and distract you if it will help. Just let him know and he's got you.
If you develop a tic related to him he'll lowkey find it endearing. Like he isn't sure if its because you like him or if it's just a coincidence but he smiles a bit wider when you do it. (Stars help him if you develop a pun related tic like repeating his or saying one)
I usually have happy tics (probs something tied to stimming but it feels like a tic.) So i can imagine if you tell him the related tic is because youre happy he would melt on the inside. Especially when he realizes you echo him because you think hes funny. He has buried his face in a pillow to hide his blush after you leave. Papyrus has teased him for this.
Has on occasion made people uncomfortable for antagonizing you. Like glaring or making pointed jokes to rude people. He'll try to call them out first just in case they don't realize they're being harmful but if they don't care then He'll make them.
Papyrus
"ARE YOU OKAY?"
"Yeah, its just -" *explains tourettes*
"OH! OKAY! :] "
Literally as simple as that. He doesn't draw anymore attention to it or really notice it unless you bring it up. Like he just writes it off as a thing that happens and adjusts quick.
If you're okay with it he'll inform people you have it when they get confused. He figures it must be tiring constantly explaining yourself, but worry not! He loves sharing information and explaining things! Especially when its helpful! Not to mention when the topic can educate others on how to be more respectful and informed on others disabilities. So he sees it as an all around good thing and wouldnt be bothered at all to help. (Also he isnt going to just announce this about you, only saying things in convo if ppl ask)
Also, even if you prefer he not say anything, he will educate himself on the subject so he can be a better help and have a better understanding just in case the subject ever comes up later or he meets someone else with tics. It also doesn't hurt to be aware and conscious of these types of things!
I feel like he's respectful enough to let you finish your sentences but if you struggle really hard he might try to help. He'd gently ask a question about what youre trying to say and suggest words to help. He wont do it again if you ask him to stop - hes not doing it maliciously after all. He just doesn't want you to feel frustrated with yourself.
Is a tiny bit (actually very much) hyped when you echo him or have a tic related to him. He asks if its a good thing (like not a stress tic or smth) and if you say yes then he kinda taps his feet / jogs in place and squeals like an exited fan. Says soemthing along the lines of "I AM HONORED TO BE A PART OF SOMETHING YOU DO TO EXPRESS POSITIVE EMOTIONS!"
Awe and if you copy his laugh? Like echoing it when you're happy or smth he is beaming with pride like he's the sun itself. Because!! His laugh!!! It makes you happy and you want to do it with him!!! Kcjdjsns
Actually surprisingly (or not so surprisingly) helpful with painful tics and tic attacks. He is very good at getting you what you need to soothe you / make things less painful and stressful.
Would lecture someone for antagonizing you.
Red
Unusually patient with you finishing sentences and stuff. He kinda just sees any stutters or interruptions as part of the sentence. Like if someone were to get sidetracked or mutter something - he sees it like that. Sometimes he gets frustrated if you struggle to say something for a bit but its not at you. Its at the fact that he isn't getting what you mean when you try to explain without the troublesome word or if you continue to try to say it and it doesn't click in his head.
His immediate reaction is to side eye you but he doesn't make a big deal out of it. He'll probably comment on it like "you gettin' possessed?" But after you explain hes like "oh." And backs off. Might make some jokes before even processing that it could be offensive. Like not jokes about you being broken or negative stuff (hes trying not to be so rough around the edges lol) but just puns about the tics and jokes about glitches or something.
Probably would be the most ... "normal" about it. Wouldn't really ignore them or treat it like its a sensitive topic. Will point out when its funny (in a non harmful way), asks about them sometimes, and makes small comments here and there. For example if you make a weird gesture he'll tease you about it saying stuff like "castin' spells?" Or "I agree" to something you said that makes no sense.
Never thinks to antagonize your tics. Like yeah, he jokes, but he just doesnt think about it or think to avoid it. He just doesnt.
Gives mean looks and snaps at people who do it. He'll be nonchalant about it at first like "hey man, fuck off with that." But if they keep on he'll get more aggressive.
Kinda awkward with the painful ones at first. He thinks you probably just want to get through it and move on because pain isn't something normally expressed for him so he kinda just subtly goes easy on you without really drawing attention to it. If you express it more openly and/or he gets more comfortable he will try to help you out. He understands having aches and pains from things you can't really help (like wounds and scars) so he'll try to apply what he knows and what you tell him helps.
Grim
A little impatient but tries his best to be polite. He understand its not your fault, and he doesnt blame you for any irritation he has, he just gets antsy when things arent efficient. (Hes working on it.) At least he doesnt rush you or anything... yay?
Other than that he has a "i don't care" attitude about it. Yes yes, its a part of you, so what? He doesn't mean anything by it, he just doesn't see it as something worth acknowledging, really. It's like noticing someone has curly hair. Its there, it might be something worth noting at first, but then you just forget about it until its relevant.
Doesnt care if something is funnily timed either. You can have fun with it but he isnt bothered. But if you have a response to something he says, tic or otherwise, he instinctively takes it as a genuine response lmao.
"HM, THESE NOODLES HAVE BETTER INGREDIENTS BUT THESE ONES HAVE THE PERFECT SHAPE FOR WHAT I WANT TO DO."
*tic: " mac n cheese"
"NO, MACARONI NOODLES WOULD NOT SUFFICE."
Like he doesn't process it entirely that its a tic and kinda just responds seriously. Its kinda funny tbh. You'll probably end up giving up on explaining its a tic anyways if you try so itd be easier to go along with it. (He argues that it is rude not to respond and he is taking his manners seriously now that he is out the underground.)
Will rock someones shit for being disrespectful and antagonizing you. Like maybe not physically but he will verbally rip someone to shreds. Like its pathetic to antagonize someone for something so basic for no reason. Is this person serious? Being rude over something so minor. No, its not funny. What is funny is how this person thinks they can just start shit and be a nuisance with no consequences. People like them would've gotten their teeth knocked in for behaving that way. People at least knew not to be assholes for no reason. (They had a system of 'i leave you alone you leave me alone' unless someone was after something like power or money or whatever. You always had a reason to do violent things. It was normalized, but it wasn't barbaric. )
#undertale aus#fell sans#undertale imagines#undertale headcanons#undertale hc#underfell x reader#fell papyrus#Ghostly's headcanons#undertale sans#undertale papyrus#undertale x reader#x you#x you fluff#fluff#tourettes#tourette syndrome#actually diagnosed#asks open#undertale au
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i had ANOTHER dream abt miraculous ladybug and this ones a LONG one. it didnt have your artstyle but time paris DID have lovely architecture such as: the bigass hollow tree stumps in breath of the wild, u know the ones big enough to fit a shrine and a half. anyway, the final battle is Happening, people get to wonder if hawkmoth is gonna bite the dust in real time bc its being televised. this is all taking place smth like 3 yrs in the future from season 4 of the show. so theyre like uhhhh Older Teens and certifiably Tired Of All This Shit. so! at the bottom of one of those tree stumps, cat noirâs identity is going to be revealed! oh no!! hes in a #crisis of the soul mostly bc getting revealed would be Bad but also he doesnt feel like hes helping ladybug anymore. he doesnt feel trusted. a classic tale of the villain manipulating a traumatized teen. and ladybug (looking out over a roof and yelling at the top of her lungs) is like âABSOLUTELY NOT YOU LEAVE MY PARTNER ALONE.â and bribes hawkmoth away by dangling her own secret identity in front of him like a worm on a hook. it works a little too well. her identity gets revealed! cat noir is safe but in the shuffle hes lost his miraculous and marinette picks it up. shes got both and puts them on. tikki and plagg are like âMARINETTE ITS SO DANGEROUS TO WEAR BOTH AT THE SAME TIMEâ and shes like âim going to punch hawkmoth in the faceâ and off she goes.
cat noir is nowhere to be found bc now hes adrian! and she doesnt know that! but he knows shes marinette! drama! so now ladybug is re transformed (without activating the black cat miraculous) and is whaling on hawkmoth. she crashes thru my house which is definitely not in paris and tells me and my sibs we have to get out NOW so we book it and its at this point the dream reveals to me that myleneâs mom is chinese and i sit there like Now Hold On A Minute and my mom says âi told u so!â and i tell her âyou dont even watch the show???â mylene was wearing a green cheongsam. i donât tend to ask questions. also by this point i made a mental note to tell u abt this bc it only gets more batshit.
ladybug told us (and everyone that was running away which was a lot of ppl) that if they find cat noir they shld tell him that ladybug loves him. then she has this Stellar idea. she finds nadja chamack and her camera (bc theres only two newspeople in all of paris and one of them runs reality tv) and is like âhi i need to get a message out to cat noir.â when the camera is situated on her (mind u ms chamack is VERY aware that this is her daughters babysitter and is currently holding hawkmoth in a chokehold) she says âim sorry cat noir. you believed in me and trusted me since day one and i couldnt extend you the same courtesy. i was wrong. there is no one else who can wield the black cat miraculous, no one else i would trust with the power of destruction. meet me at our normal rendezvous point so i can give back what is yours.â its all very heartfelt but undercut by the fact that hawkmothâs bitch ass is shouting explicatives next to her. the fight resumes. she gets slammed into a wall ĂĄ la every anime fight ever and manages to hide before getting to the roof where sheâs waiting for cat noir. shes in a right amount of pain and tikki is running her mouth abt danger and injuries etc. marinette Will Not Move until cat noir shows up. and he does! adrian arrives! when marinette sees him she starts laughing and crying. adrian is rightfully confused. is this a good thing? is this a bad thing? did she hit her head? (yes to all 3.) marinette says âi have been in love with you since 10th grade.â (were they in 10th grade? i do not know.) adrian says âand ive been busy being in love with ladybug.â and then she apologizes again, gives him the ring back, they hug, kick ass and meet up in her room.
if it feels like weâre going rlly fast now its bc we are. the dream was pretty much a montage at this point. hawkmoth is arrested, the world knows who ladybug is, adrian is an orphan, nathalie is still sick, and marinettes parents r thinking that their kid has nearly died MULTIPLE TIMES and they never knew. also luka is under that bridge going âoh fuck.â marinette is in her room trying to explain what will happen next to alya and nino. alya says âi had to tell ninoâand marinette says âi am beyond the point of anger. but whatever.â cat noir falls thru her sunroof and they hug (again, there was so much hugging in this dream to make up for the complete lack of hugging in the actual show) and alya + nino are like âuhhh awkward.â the last convo i donât have quotes for bc at this point my alarm was ringing but it was something abt how marinette cant be ladybug or hold the miracle box and she wld want alya to be the holder but NINO knows and nino Cant Know. but cat noir doesnt want marinette to lose her memories! but People Know. the conclusion was they have to talk to chloe abt how to navigate paparazzi. this is my chloe-and-marinette-could-be-friends agenda. ok i think thats EVERYTHING. if u read all that godspeed, drink water. OH. FINAL THOUGHT. ADRIAN HAD LONG BEAUTIFUL HAIR WHICH IS VERY IMPORTANT TO ALL OF THIS. he had model-brand stubble and sharper teeth than he should.
sometimes Iâm peeved that tumblr increased the character limit for asks to be higher than 500 characters, and other times I get
1k word asks about miraculous ladybug dreams, and I think thatâs beautiful
I do unironically love the part about Chloe helping Marinette navigate paparazzi, rip to her canon character development
#also I love âmeet me on the roof at our usual spotâ#but he DOESNT HAVE HIS MIRACULOUS#NCBDBSHDHGJG#HOW DID HE GET UP THERE#miraculous ladybug
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Part 4! Of rereading Lore Olympus. Ep 31-40
Gotta be real I keep forgetting to post these even tho I'm reading them but it's fine. Obviously I won't finish before the end of the 2 week break (this Saturday) but after this I may start reviewing episodes as they come out, who knows. Last part:
Ep 31
Theres so many other reasons you shouldnt work together but ok
Also shes literally so smart right like thats canon
Artemis is cool hera,,,sometimes
Which two sons i wish i knew the lo family tree as opposed to the real one yknow
How do heras powers work she felt her pain but doesnt know who??
I would kill for a comprehensive list of family tree and powers, dont even have to spoil powers just please i get so confused
Ep 32
Train ur fuckin dogs hades i think ive said that before
He changed skin color again but like not just light vs dark thats a whole diff shade of blue
Hehe threaten low class workers so cute and quirky hades
Why is uh psyche/whatever her nymph name is wearing more traditional clothes while not in the mortal realm
Love the dog
Hades has a point, even tho it makes no sense for him to have said that
Ok also point out in the like future episode he wants persephone to call him Aidoneus but doesnt like when others do it why
Thats my same thing with him calling her Kore like i know in the future its like explained or whatever but idk
Aphrodite has a point it was a favor in a way
A dumb way but yknow
I remember everyone losing it over the âim only interested in the dead onesâ panel but looking at it its so lame LMAO changed his entire face shape for a panel
Ep 33
HECATE HECATE WOOOO
Im but a simple man
Hades texts like an old man i know he is one but
Also i am dying to know how his business works including as the god of the underworld like. Give me something
Then again, maybe i am a lil dumb when it comes to this
I always thought he was giving the little elevator friend a sugarcube lmao
I like how minthes ears react to her emotions
Stop fighting at work omg this would be the worst place to work at
âHey can u do ur jobâ
Ep 34
Why this subplot ugh
The crown floats yet is sideways after she hits him
Also haha hitting
Also their relationship does confuse me just a tad bit yknow
All the clues were there hades you dumbass
âCancel all my meetingsâ DO YOUR JOB
âThis doesnt affect you in the same wayâ cause hes a man or a king or both but also kings seemed to get treated the same by their subjects until they are dicks and excute their power
From what ive seen
Then again we havent seen poseidon do that but that brings me to the point of I wanna see poseidon realm
thats . so creepy hades ew
âSmth must be done about thisâ like fair legal action right?....right?
Who reads newspapers these days anyways wait a second
Ep 35
See the laptop having news makes more sense like sure we make newspapers but ppl dont use em as often
âBiochemistry Theoryâ fun fact I switched majors to specifically avoid taking chemistry
What are they typing he just started speaking
What type of nymph is thetis bc i know minthe is a river nymph but thetis has fancy ears
They are so mean to each other lmao
The financial situation and the fact that they both are like sleeping with the kings confuse me why do both of them do it.
Like retrospectively i understand it but when i first read it i was like âare nymphs supposed to be like hookers??â so i was lost for a bit
âHades micromanages computer usageâ oh what a shit boss
Also the meal ticket she has a job sure hades gave it to her but
Idk maybe im slow
What an awful way to do a heart shape i just tried it wtf
âCrying is for wivesâ damn
Yes body issues that dont get brought up again right? Like she all of a sudden gets bigger boobs and i dont think hades pays ppl enough for cosmetic surgery
You guys know this is a work setting
Has rachel ever had a job bc this feels like a comical trope seen on tv the workplace drama yknow
LMAO IN THE LAST PANEL RACHEL FORGOT TO GIVE HER NYMPH EARS
Like fully normal ears i know its a mistake but its funny
Ep 36
âNot my circus not my monkeysâ queen
Hades is it not your circus how dont involve hecate in this
âStop starin at me with them big ol eyesâ
Oof that does not look good on you, i mean why didnt you give her the coat
âI thought you didnt get jealousâ ok she may have said that but literally everything about her contradicts that
And i love this part bc he doesnt call her crazy and they talk, i mean he hides some of the truth which like fuck him, and then they try to talk about the party and
Ugh i know minthe is supposed to be an antagonist but rachel does this weird thing where she tries to flesh her out, then realizes it would be an easy set up for a redemption arc and screws her over again
I know the ppl in the mortal realm are generally frightened of hades but why are ppl in olympus
âI wouldnt expect anything less from a goddessâ so we are going to bring in the racism/speciesism that occurs in this story right
Its the middle of the day isnt he supposed to be in the mortal realm moving the sun or some shit
Ep 37
âLast nightâ Rachel its ok to space things out sweetie
Ok ok so one thing i hate about her characterization of apollo is he goes from being delusional to knowing what he did was at least slightly wrong and i hate both are fine stories but pick one he either is so infatuated with persephone that he thinks that they had a great time or he wants her for her power
And! A transition from one to the other would be fine, but she goes back in forth in his characterization
Little red vines look cool
Hehe cerberus
How did he escape tho
I love that dog
Ep 38
Oh its the greenhouse again
But this time it represents the evil feeling?
Idk but i like eye symbolism im lame lol
Why was she sleeping in the chair
When did she get those clothes i dunno if eros would buy her business casual
Artemis really sees all the signs and then goes âmehâ
Like points out the possible crush on persephone just connect the dots they are so close
Why is there not more than one door
Why is no one getting off
How does rachel think train stops work
Ep 39
Also not thatanos with an undercut lmao
Ope its thanatos i mixed it up
Also minthe you just actively arent doing a good job like lmao how are you not getting fired
Hades smoking a cigar is so old and gross tbh
What an awful boss
That man has a point dont stand infront of the door
She gave her a little flower nice
Minthe i know ur being spiteful, weird bc hades explained shes just the daughter of a friend( i know its a lie but still) but just do your job
âIt says restricted access but that lady says it was fineâ i would just wait until someone came out theres no reason to go inside
Ep 40
Why would they not have a lock on this place actually
Why wouldnt she just leave the way she came
When did hades put on his glasses
How is it hades fault what
So many questions yknow for such a short episode
Also does this place not have security cameras in places that are tartarus
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danny phantom episode 4-7 Thoughts: (under a readmore because, these got kinda long!)
-the outfit danny had to buy for dash's party. CLASSIC 2000S i cannot stop laughing. And also showing up to the party and everyone is dressed like the trio is hilarious. and further proof that everyone looks good dressed goth.
-dash has a closet full of cute lil bear plushies?? LOVE that. adorable. also his response to danny trashing his room fighting a ghost was SO valid if somone BROKE MY BED IN HALF ID BE PISSED TOO.
-technus being like 'oh smart, u should be a tutor!' then later being like 'forget tutor, be a teacher!' :) supportive king <3 I also really like his upgraded suit/design. AND SPOCK CAMEO??? HELLO??
-the music in this show is super. its so funky. I looked it up and the guy who does it, guy moon (awesome name) also did music for other cartoons like fairly odd parents, barnyard, chalkzone, billy & mandy, AND some actual movies like FIGHT CLUB??? the whiplash I got from reading that)
-sam being rich explains a lot about her, actually.
-I know the moral of the episode was supposed to be 'dont ditch your friends for popular people/spend a lot of money on clothes that arent You to Fit In'. but tbh. it wouldve been easy for danny to have been like 'well, okay, ill come but only if my friends can!' but I get. that hes 14. so. not a lot to say there.
-BOX GHOST IS BACK!!!!! also, danny sitting up and wearing the dress/wig/makeup. umm thats how I dress everyday LMFAO. unironically me. (hate the jokes that boil down to 'haha funney man in dress' tho. but this is a look)
-jazz being protective of her brother once again being like NOOO YOU GUYS BETTER NOT STAKE OUT HIS (actually haunted) LOCKER!! shes aware of how people perceive him and she wants to help :( which is also probably why she told dash to invite him to that party even tho she had no interest in going!! she wants to help him out :(
-gotta say im with tucker on the whole 'should danny use his powers to get back at bullies' debate. 100% yes. let him teach kids to fight back. making dash throw his food at paulina out of the blue? no. but when hes actually about to pick on someone? yeah! for self defense? YEAH! if dash and his friends just threw food at him, I think rather than. idk doing sneaky shit with frogs he couldve just threw it back and not pulled punches if they tried to fight. I kNOOWWW its a kids show so they are like 'if u fight back ur just as bad!! violence bad!!' but. theyre HIS POWERS. WHO CARES.
-like my only gripe is that dash really isnt LEARNING ANYTHING WHEN DANNY GETS BACK AT HIM IN THE MOST PETTY INDIRECT WAYS. whatever they had to add a bully psa episode I guess. I hate it and I hate the way cartoons usually handle it because these methods simply Do Not Work. 'aND YouRE USinG YOur poWErs FOR EVill???!' this is Not Evil. even when poindexter takes dannys body, theyre only being 'nice' bc hes stealing soda for them!! bitches deserve what they get (nothing too brutal bc theyre high schoolers but damn, if they pick on danny he doesnt need to be the 'bigger person' he needs to start biting people)
-SAM TRYING TO SMUGGLE FROGS OUT OF THE BIO LAB?? girl in middle school when we had to dissect frogs we could opt out, also, they came to us already dead and preserved...
-sidney's lingo and the fact hes in black and white is sending me. also, danny is a ghost celebrity apparently for being a halfa?? ok. thats interesting to know
-the DENTIST BEING EXCITED ABOUT THE COTTON CANDY FLOOD IS THE FUNNIEST THING SO FAR.
-I LOOOVE the trope of 'wishes gone wrong'. not crazy about the stereotypical genie, or the use of the dreamcatcher looking design. (also, I KNOW theyre scientists but the way theyre handling a cold...are the fentons ANTIVAX)
-the genie. she. whitewished paulina. JKASDFHKJ. (the ghost literally just being hello kitty???? im dying) 'why do i feel that im special and wonderful? because I AM! <3' paulina ilu self worth queen. felt bad for her also getting possessed by (2) boys later who were arguing INSIDE HER. WTF.
-imagine being the guy trapped in his now flying car. he thought danny and tucker were HALUCINATIONS. imagine being trapped in a flying car with two, what you think are imaginary arguing 14 year olds convinced ur gonna die. i WOULD say this dude is gonna need so much therapy, but he seemed totally fine and excited when they landed (I would be happy too if a chicken was on my head. chickens rule) stoner rights
-sam's bat slippers??? iconic. SO cute.
-I think desiree's backstory is so :( do all ghosts have messed up sad backstories?? poindexter's was sad too...cannot imagine box ghost has any kind of fucked up backstory. but what if. his mom got pushed off cliffs by boxes...........a la cruella... anyway her 'no man may lay a hand on me' iconic. ilu
-I know danny has no concept of how much bras cost but my god dont attack tucker with some girls bra. those are so expensive.
-its really. well its not a GOOD THING he went into the portal and got fucked up, but its good danny was the one to do it rather than sam or tucker. because even tho he was being influenced by desiree and kept getting more malicious and it prob wasnt 100% him...he sucked as a ghost like most the people he 'pranked' were innocent ppl just Chillin and he didnt want to help anyone at all. I think danny is the most responsible out of them but also, hes 14 and shouldnt HAVE to feel obligated to fight every ghost. hes a good kid and wants to, but I also feel like he feels like...responsible for the portal turning on?? because his parents did give it up,, but it was an accident and not his fault (if anything, why was the on switch on the inside. why was it that easy. why was there no safety measures. that seems like smth OSHA needs to hear about). like thats my son. hes a good boy. and hes never done anything wrong in his life, ever. if anyone hurts him im killing everyone in this room and then myself. etc.
-danny's curfew is 10PM????? DUDE. when I was 14...shit I couldn't be out that late, I had to be back at like, 8 at the latest, and my parents had to know exactly where and who I was going with, AND i had to call/text them regularly...is this a case of my parents being overbearing, or the fentons sucking??? the only time i could EVER be out that late was if I was at an overnight sleepover or smth...
-the vultures have lil fezes. why do they have fezes...theyre so fuckin funny 'ask him for directions' 'I KNOW WHERE IM GOING' these ghost vultures are my new grandpas. pick them up, put them in the adopt box.
-'I wonder why those guys were trying to waste dad!' THEYRE GHOSTS. YOUR DAD HUNTS GHOSTS. why is that not a conclusion you'd immediately jump to??
-*jazz voice, clearly disgusted* WISCONSIN???
-mrs fenton with the lab coat and leg warmers and PERM. YESSS STYLISH.
-was going to say 'ew billionaire' @vlad but. super valid he used his powers to assumedly steal and cheat to get that money, thats how all billionaires do it! but ew hes a SIMP. and spending your billions on FOOTBALL STUFF?? you are Not Valid overall. I DO respect the fact you have a castle instead of a mansion. in wisconsin. if youre going to be stupidly rich might as well go all out, torches on the wall and all. I DO like his ghost form's little kitty ears. catman. and his cape! every design can benefit from a cape. and how different his forms look, like danny looks the EXACT SAME IN BOTH FORMS ASIDE FROM COLOR CHANGES. vlad's is like,, I could believe they were different people!! also I love the drama. but dude you are fighting a 14 year old. lame. also he was like, telling danny he wanted his mom and him and like, wanted him to renounce his dad?? WHAT ABOUT JAZZ?? bitch. those r MY kids and they are both important and special. I do agree they need better parents but thats not u sir <3
-I thought vlad's 'little badger' nickname for danny came from the football mascot of the packers, but google says they have NO MASCOT?? so now I'm like?? is it because his hair is sometimes black and sometimes white?? I hate to give him props but thats a PERFECT NICKNAME. theyre also tiny and vicious!
-why did I get so excited that Skulker is back!! its been like. 2-3 eps LMAO. AND THE DAIRY KING. ICONIC I LOVE HIM. hes the nicest guy ever :) more nice ghosts please. danny cannot be fighting alone everytime with no ghost buds like every ghost being hostile sucks :(
-mr. fenton knew vlad was controlling him, but a few episodes ago he had no clue danny was doing the same thing...is it something about how malicious the ghost is?? he just seemed to think his memory had gaps the first time, this time he was INSTANTLY LIKE 'GHOST'. then again in this ep when danny did it again he was just slightly confused but not immediately freaking out like he did with vlad possessing him!!
-'my parents will accept ME NO MATTER WHAT' so. so why haven't you come out to them yet, danny?? if you really think that?? if theres no harm, and you're sure??? if vlad is a real problem, wouldnt that make dealing with him easier, to expose him???? SO WHY HAVENT YOU COME OUT YET?? COULD IT BE,, MAYBE YOU HAVE DOUBTS ABOUT WHETHER YOUR PARENTS ACTUALLY WILL ACCEPT YOU??? đ¤ ... đłâđ I get why people say He Is Trans. I totally totally get u danny.
-sorta unrelated, but it just occurred to me in one of these eps they go to casper HIGH not casper middle school??? theyre 14?? dont highschools usually do ages 15-18? (I didnt go to hs so I might be wrong, if I am ignore this...) freshmen are usually 14-15, could just be a case of them not turning 15 yet but they will sometime in the school year (I say they because tucker said he was 14 too)? I know the show has 3 seasons, so by the end of it will they be older? thatd be neat but usually cartoon characters stay the same age...I love shows where you can see the characters age and grow up, though...three seasons seems like a long time to spend on like, 1 year...
#sanchoyorambles#danny phantom#me on the first post:#its not a liveblog!#me this time: it kinda is. but not in the same format as my tmm one#i like doing one post for a handful of eps bc it saves time#and crowds my blog less#and also i just like talking abt what im watching lol#dp thoughts
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Hey! I would like an Encanto matchup if it's possible, I saw your post (I don't see it anymore tho) that you had a block, feel free to ignore or delete this if you want :)
My name is LorĂŠna, i'm 16, 5'2, i'm scorpio, INFP, and i'm peruvian and french!
I use any pronouns (even tho i tell people to use she/her to make it easier for them), i'm queer and i don't really have a gender preference.
In appareance, i have straight black medium hair, brown eyes, light skin and i wear glasses!
My friends say i'm kind and funny- I think I try to be nice and polite with everyone as possible.
i like being sarcastic sometimes but not in a bad way at all, just teasing.
I'm introvert, shy and very discret or even invisible to some ppl- I struggle with communication a lot (i'm neurodivergent), I still quiet most of time
But when i'm finally comfortable, I become very random
I love drawing and animating! Listening to music on repeat and being super comfortable and loud with my friends.
I forget A LOT of things, you could repeat me something important 100 times, I could tell you never did. Really depends on what i want to remember but in general... i forget-
I dislike a lot of food in general, I have eating issues (i don't eat a lot) and i'm very picky- đ
tho I like sweet things! Like milk chocolate, I adore it, it's conforting.
I love cats!
I think i've finish... I'm sorry if some things are confusing, I don't describe myself correctly at all-
Like I said, feel free to ignore, take time for yourself <3 Thank you very much!
hii im sorry this took so long! i feel like it's short but i hope you like this :D
anyways, i match you with... đĽđĽđĽ
camilo madrigal !
he loves the fact that you use any pronouns. camilo does his best to switch it up from time to time and often asks u if youre comfy with certain prns (could never be too sure yk!)
i think one of his fav things to do around you is shapeshift as you. cant explain why, he just does it out of love <3
ok i lied, i can explain why! previous bullet is an inside joke in your relationship. one time you approached camilo while he was practicing how heâd ask you out :]
a lot of your conversations with camilo are laced with sarcasm but it always ends up with you two giggling because why not! once u got comfortable around camilo, you two are just balls of energy bouncing off each other â
you two and camilo draw stuff together ! although camilo doesnt draw too much, since heâs busy admiring you (heâd say youâre the only art heâd look at)
camilo makes sure to take notes abt even the smallest things to help u in case u forget smth !
ohhh whenever camilo steals food from the kitchen @ casita, he makes you stand guard in case any of his family (esp. his parents & tia julieta)
^ once he gets back with one plateful of arepas & other snacks on one hand, he has a plate of sweet treats for you on the other!
AH i headcanon that cats dont like camilo but . u two are lovers who love cats !!!!!! camilo asks antonio to introduce them to any cat thats around. all the cat does when camilo approaches it is hiss at him, you & antonio just laugh at him đđ
thatâs all !!! feel free to send in match-up requests in my inbox (encanto & maybe genshin IDK!)
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hello u dont have to answer this if u dont want, but ur situation with gender is scarily similar to where im at except im in the mindset that im nb wlw and dont rlly kno whats going on. I guess if u kno how to explain it, I wanted to ask how u made that jump or how u could tell it isnt just a "womanhood is like that" kind of thing and is actually "i am a guy"
oh man i wish i had smth that would make it Click for u easier cuz i def understand being rly confused abt this kinda thing.. i got a few Thoughts, idk if they will help u out but hopefully they give u some more thoughts to chew on that will maybe help anyway. this got so long oh hell sorry gbfhg
i think like the main thing as like a tip b4 we get in2 the Meat of it is it is good to relax and b open to thinking abt bein a guy as a possibility, i dont know if this will make sense bc i do not know how to explain it rly but when i was struggling 2 figure stuff out what i had rly needed 2 know was that being a dif gender can just feel like You (but as u become more comfortable w it, you but happier!) for some reason i thought u had to meet certain criteria to b âallowedâ to make what seemed 2 me at the time a Leap but thats not how it works lol. u as u r right now can b a guy if u want to or r considering it. u dont have to feel different and u dont have to think abt ur body a different way or anything. sry if this part doesnt make sense its difficult for me to verbalize lol
it was hard for me personally bc ppl would b like âif u Want to b a dif gender than b oneâ but like i said in those last posts, for a long time i genuinely did not know i Wanted to be a guy/was a guy, or whatever. i had no conscious longing about it or anything, that came later once i was more comfortable w accepting it. i didnt have âi want to be a boy/am a boy�� moments i can rly consciously remember putting into those words as a kid, cuz i just did not care about gender on that level till i was a teenager. like i cannot stress this enough, ur life and feelings abt gender n whatever do not have to match up with what u have commonly heard the trans experience is about. once u figure stuff out and r more comfortable w urself u may look back and notice things that may b like that common trans experience, but remembering this stuff or having these childhood experiences or whatever in the first place is not a ârequirementâ. like i said, no requirements for bein a dif gender
for me like.. knowing it for sure... making the Jump as it were. like its kinda embarrassing but literally the way i Found Out was i was feeling all sorts of things whenever i watched promare and i just felt this INTENSE longing whenever i saw galo that i later realized was just me rly feeling the Gender w him and being envious of that.. it had happened w other chars b4 growing up, but i had never rly noticed to that extent till now. and one night i was thinking my usual âi wish i looked like galo i wish i could be a guyâ maybe for the first time in like a Conscious thought, when i had never rly heard it in words b4, and i kinda stopped and was like. what? i WHAT? and then it clicked and it was like a euphoric moment for me. easily top 5 best 2 ams of my life. it is kind of a hyperspecific experience but it is also not UNCOMMON rly lol
also figuring out my sexuality was intertwined in that bc i was iding as a butch nonbinary lesbian and i had tossed the idea of âmaybe id b more comfortable as a manâ around a bit but the idea of being a straight man didnt feel right 2 me, but luckily i kind of made the connection of wait im a man and im attracted to men at like the exact same time, it had to b both at once for me personally to figure it out and b happy about it. idk if thats smth going thru ur head at all but it was for me and was part of my Journey i guess and may help to think abt it a bit lol
and while yes its absolutely about what makes u more comfortable at the end of the day, i think it wouldve helped for me to hear ppl say that just bc the idea of being a dif gender (in this case Man) might make u feel confused and maybe even uncomfortable rn, that doesnt necessarily mean u r not one if youve been struggling w this and wondering, it might just mean u havent had that clicky moment and r ready to rly think abt it yet. i have grown much more comfortable w myself over time as ive figured this stuff out and i am still open to figuring out more abt myself and i think thats a good place to b at! just b open to stuff like this that u maybe had never thought would have a positive effect on you or make you happier.
speaking from experience i think if ur confused and maybe even miserable telling urself that womanhood is just like that and u gotta suck it up and get used to feeling uncomfortable and bad, u dont have to live like that! im not saying that âoh im actually a guyâ is gonna b what everyone who is struggling w thats answer is cuz obviously thats not true- and im not saying how i just described it is even how u feel- but like. as someone who thought that same thing but less consciously. womanhood does not have to be a confusing sad experience, its not an inherently miserable experience, it is possible it just isnt for you and trying smth else might make u feel better. and that can b rly hard to figure out in the moment, cuz ur Used to feeling like this and even if youve heard it can b different it might b hard to have that âoh theyre talking to ME, it can be different for ME not just everyone elseâ moment lol
also i dont know if this is relevant to u but im saying it in general 2 anyone who needs it i guess; being a man isnt a bad thing and it doesnt make u an inherently bad person, manhood and masculinity r not inherently or naturally toxic or something. thats a harmful mindset to have for multiple reasons and a whole nother post so im not gonna b like and now a word about transphobic red flags but like, worth mentioning that that can b harmful or dangerous to trans ppl, transmascs and transfems.
my god this got rly long... if anyone else has went thru a similar thing and has anything 2 add, feel free to :0 hope i somehow got around to answering ur question w all the rambling! i am just one guy and my experience may or may not b helpful to hear about, especially bc my memory is not the best lol <3 hope it helped at all tho!
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ive been thinking abt this for a little while & have been needing to ask someone abt it. i am nb & have always considered myself trans but recently ive not been vibing with the trans label bc i am so sick of seeing ppl exclude & invalidate nb ppl. ik that i shouldnt stop doing smth just bc other ppl r being assholes but its so tiring to see ppl constantly say how u dont belong or arent valid. srry this is long & kinda rambly i just dont really know how to feel abt it
I will directly address your ask, but Iâm going to start by telling you a story about my journey with identifying as asexual and queer.
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When I was about 11, my friends suddenly started drooling over magazines and calling people hot, and I didnât know what it was, but I knew I did not feel whatever it is my friends were feeling.
Until I was about 16/17, this part of me remained a mystery to me and to my friends. I never had crushes, I never found people hot, I never liked complimenting people physically, I was uncomfortable with sex on TV, and I didnât even like platonic touch. Now my group of friends were all repressed and closeted queer folk, so I didnât have to deal with âbeing left behindâ as my friends dated. But the later we got into high school, the more my friends began discovering and exploring their sexualities. A freshman became a part of our friend group and was openly trans and gay. One friend came out as gay. Another as bi. They started commenting more and more about otherâs looks and having crushes.
Still, there was nothing on my end. My friends used to think I was just being vague and secretive because this is what I tended to be like. I donât think theyâve ever realized how much of it was that I truly didnât know or understand what my lack of sexual feelings meant or that it could even mean anything. I used to just consider it a ���nothingnessâ of myself. Until, by complete chance, I came across the term asexual. I immediately connected with it. It explained so much that I didnât even know I needed explained.
I came out quickly after that and I was really excited and happy and proud to know who I was and what how I felt meant. My friends were great and supportive. My mom was a little ignorant but overall supportive. AVEN was great and a community for me. But if I tried to talk about it anywhere else onlineâŚ
Well, the effects of how people treated me would fester for years. See, I came out as asexual before exclusionism (the specific movement of anti-aro and anti-ace erasure and gatekeeping from lgbt+ spaces) was a movement or a named thing. Yet exclusionist attitudes were exactly what I faced. My queer friends all completely accepted me as one of them and I helped co-run our schoolâs new GSA with the rest of them. But online, as a teen, I was facing 30+ year olds telling me I wasnât queer and that I was just trying to seem special and that I needed to shut up about my asexuality and my experiences and that I wasnât valid and that asexuality wasnât a real thing and that even if asexuality was a real thing it wasnât valid and it certainly didnât matter.
I graduated high school and went to college and was no longer really in touch with my group of friends. I therefore completely cut myself off from any lgbt+/queer community, even though a friend invited me to join the collegeâs queer association. I stopped participating so much in online asexual spaces. I become wrapped up in other things.
A couple of years went by and a lot of things in my life changed. By chance, mod applications for a blog about aro and ace headcanons for a fandom I enjoyed came across my dash. I had extra time on my hands and thought I could help, so I applied and was accepted. This increased my exposure to the aspec community again and thrust me back in⌠just around the time exclusionism was becoming a specific and named movement of bigotry.
At the same time I resisted these ideals, I was also still hurt and unhealed from what Iâd gone through as a teen. I internalized a lot of the hatred and gatekeeping. I was so hurt and so tired. I just wanted to be able to exist in peace. And people I considered myself one of were harassing me and dismissing even my biromanticism. So I struggled with my identity and my asexuality. I did not specifically become an exclusionist, but I turned my back on the lgbt+ community and spaces. I did not consider myself lgbt+ because I learned that doing so only brought pain and upset and made me feel alone and isolated. I didnât speak a lot on exclusionism or inclusionism, but at some point I did make a plea to my fellow aspecs to just let the larger community go and be our own community and accept that maybe we could be straight. I did it out of desperation and hurt, wanting to stop feeling targeted and attacked and to stop seeing the fighting on my dash and in the tags. I just wanted us all to be happy and feel accepted and supported.
On that post, one wonderfully kind and patient person opened up a discussion with me, explaining their own hurts over exclusionism and being so damn exhausted of them and fellow aspecs being targeted and excluded and written out and not supported and feeling like they had to split their asexuality from their other queer identities and how being asexual was a part of them and how it had strongly shaped their experiences, especially with realizing and coming to terms with the other parts of their queer identity. And through their raw honesty I came to realize⌠I had never stopped to process the harassment I had faced and the pain and hurt that cut me so deeply.
It was a changing point for me. I realized that I had handled my pain in a bad way and had ended up lashing out at other aspecs instead of the people who were actually hurting me. I realized how much I had hurt myself and held myself back and cut myself down and dismissed parts of myself trying to fit into the box exclusionists had laid out for me, as if I could ever made them happy enough to stop harassing me and just let me exist. I cut myself down for them, but the truth is that exclusionists donât just want aspecs âoutâ of the community. They want to hurt us. They want us to hurt. They want us to doubt ourselves. They want to feel strong and powerful, and they feel they can achieve this through bullying us. Perhaps some, like myself, are trying to appeal to their oppressors by pointing out another vulnerable group they could target more/instead. They are passing on hurt instead of standing up to it and so they are actually festering in hurt instead of changing anything.
Today, I am a staunch inclusionist. I understand myself and the issues aspecs face much better. I am a more compassionate person regarding the confusion and upset aros and aces have over their identity and their place in the world. I feel more stable and confident regarding my identity as an asexual - and now as an aromantic - queer person who is lgbt+.
But it was a long, hard, difficult journey to get here. It was full of a lot of turmoil. I wish I would have had a happier journey where I felt more supported and accepted, and I hope I can help provide more stability and support for future generations to not have to go through what I did.
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My point (or one among a few, anyway) is that I deeply and personally understand how you are feeling and the decision facing you now. As someone who went through a very similar experience, my advice to you is to take care of yourself and to prioritize your mental health.
Itâs okay if you canât handle identifying as trans right now. Maybe you do need some space from the label (and definitely from the hatred and gatekeeping). Maybe you need to pull back from certain communities or blogs or discussions.
However, I will say that not identifying as trans may not bring the peace you desire. It may end up making you feel even more isolated. Not identifying as LGBT+ certainly didnât help me. It was reactionary and it only made me feel like there were less spaces for me. That said, you may find peace in this. But I think the bigger action to take is to separate yourself from those who are saying harmful things more than to separate yourself from a label you feel really suits you. Use your block button liberally. Donât force yourself to partake in spaces where gatekeeping is allowed or encouraged. Follow and listen to more people who are inclusive.
I think burnout like this is unfortunately pretty common. You do not have to force yourself to face this hatred or exhaustion because you think itâs the right thing to do. Itâs okay to pull back and just take care of yourself. Just work on some self-care. Work on building up a community of people around you who donât resort to bigotry and hatred and exorsexism and gatekeeping and identity policing. Engage only with what you can actually, honestly handle.
We will confront and move past this bigotry only by acting as a united front. The responsibility for improving things isnât on any one personâs shoulders. And no one needs to be on the front lines 100% of the time, especially at the cost of their own wellbeing. Take care of yourself and rest now before you completely burn out and break down.
You do not have anything to prove, okay? I have both hope and faith that there is a lot more to your journey - a lot more good things and a lot more happiness and belonging. Take whatever time it is you need to help heal yourself and recover from the hurt and harassment thatâs been plaguing you. You are important and you matter, much moreso than whatever label you use at whatever point in time. It will be okay.
I am here for you.
~Pluto
#mod pluto#validation#exorsexism#gatekeeping#exclusionism#long post#identity policing#self care#identity#coping#queer#lgbt#mod tera#anonymous#ask#answered#asked#nonbinary
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What is ur experience wif gender identity up until this point? And ur sexuality? Can you explain your journey for others discovering themselves?
Oh boy!! Well,,,
When i was a child i would dream of waking up as a boy or as somthing completely ungendered
When going through puberty i Hated my chest so so much. It was so uncomfortable. Im still not fucking comfortable w it
In 2018 i started questioning whether or not i was straight. Started iding as pansexual
In 2019 i discovered asexuality and upon looking into it i realized. Wait. That me.
Around the same time i was heavily heavily questioning my gender becuase. Being seen and referred to as a girl just. Felt really weird, and being online where ppl dont instantly know my gender felt. Comfortable. I liked when ppl wouldnt know what I was.
Eventually i stumbled onto enby Tumblr and. Holy shit smth just Clicked. I was still really unsure about myself but. The term Genderqueer felt really comfy to me and so i started using it, as well as she/her and they/them pronouns.
I also started going by Shrimp more in this time
As 2019 went on I started slowly shifting I feel to a less fem leaning identity towards unaligned and slowly into masc aligned. I also started using the term Nonbinary at this time, and started playing with he/him pronouns
That actually came about bc at the time i was mostly using they/them and felt uncomfortable using she/her but. Didnt know any common gender-neutral pronouns in french, so i defaulted to he/him (or il) and. Ooouuuuu that felt nice
I actually made Shrimp my name at this point
At the beginning of this year i kinda slowly realized that. I dont feel romantic attraction in an allo way
Like at all
So now i id as demiro
Started wondering as well if i was actually a binary trans man, vs nonbinary, and tried it out for a bit. I also started officially going by the name Oliver, or Ollie for short :3
I also realized that having a deep respect and adoration for women isnt the same as romantic attraction towards them and yea I really just am really fucking gay
Like yea girls are pretty but boys đđđ
Ive also started kinda question where i am on the ace spectrum bc. I know im on it but hhhhhhhhhh confusing couple weeks đ
A couple days ago i decided "yknow what now that i think about it, i feel like the term nonbinary man fits me better" and yea here i am lol
As of right now i identify as an asexual demiro gay nonbinary guy, and use he/they pronouns
Its a lot of looking at yourself and trying to find the root cause of things. Like ive always liked boys, but I was jealous of gay men bc i wanted to like boys like that too. (How tf did i ever think i was cishet)(oh wait i was raised conservative lmao)
I always hated dressing "girly" but why was that? It wasnt bc i didnt like the clothes, i just thought that wearing a skirt meant i was undeniably a girl (plot twist: nope lol)
Its thinking about things like that a lot and just. Tossing a word at it. Maybe itll stick, maybe it wont, and whats important is that youre comfortable
#vaguely masc blob#shrimp answers#its a lot bc im indecisive#trans stuff#lgbtq stuff#i reduced my gender down to#long post
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Talk about yesterdays episode.. tell me everything you enjoyed in detail lol.
first of all lemme just say iâm SO SORRY this took me so long to get to i know i said iâd answer this like last sunday but sometimes shit happens!!! but you asked for me to go into detail so i very much went into detail so!!! buckle in!!!
iâm doing this in bulletpoints for clarity otherwise it will just be an incoherent mess lmao
(also for reference this is abt the 8th nov ep aka the âyouâre my boyfriendâ ep!)
ok so let me preface by saying i fuckin adored this ep itâs like god tier for me rn i love ben and pamâs relationship so mf much i hope she comes back soon
like the fact that she just knew!! she knew smth was going on w callum and ben more or less straight away and ok granted those two were not exactly being subtle what with the domestic they were having in the middle of the albert but u know... for all she knew callum was straight and had just broken up w whitney so the fact that she knows ben well enough to just be able to Know smth was goin on despite all of that?? i love that it says so much abt their relationship!!
and then her being the nan that she is and taking it upon herself to fish for information with jay like âcallum seems nice.... shame abt whitney đâ and then jay covering for their asses by not saying anything but pam is Not Stupid and jay was also tellingly vague so she was instantly like i see đđ
and then ben entering the parlour shouting about âbring out your deadâ or w/e it is he says like the little shit he is and pam rolling her eyes and just the easy affection of that whole interaction like her gently slapping his face and calling him a little devil like ur damn right he is!! almost literally!! but thereâs sm overt affection and love there and itâs so nice to see bc ben doesnât really get that from anyone else (he does from callum now, and jay in certain situations, but itâs just different u know?? like u dont even see that energy from his own mum v often so itâs just... nice to see idk)
like i just love her she has such nan energy and itâs so comforting and warm and she needs to be around forever not just for ben but for jay and lola and also callum like ? pls come back forever pam
ben innocently trying to help callum out by getting him promoted to manager when he hears jay is gonna take a step back like!! he was really just tryna help bc he knew callum was struggling w money... and alright, he probably shouldnât have meddled and i get why callum wasnât happy abt it (iâll get to that) but i also truly believe that that wasnât him tryna control the situation or interfere or whatever but him genuinely trying to help out his bf and jay was gonna take a step back anyway so it wasnât even like he was the one to suggest it or anything idk i just thought as misguided as it might have been it was very sweet and thoughtful
also the fact that benâs reaction to jay being like âi suppose callum could be ready to be a managerâ was basically âyeah man have you seen him in that suit!!! he makes my dick hard!!!â like !!!!!!! he was so sincere and enthusiastic as well like heâs fucking diabolical i love him sm ..... pair that with jayâs reaction basically just being like â........................ anywaysâ sdkfjsdkfsl iconic scene
and then later!!!! youâve got ben practically chasing callum into the parlour when he sees him go in there!! heâs so excited to see callum and tell him the good news abt the promotion!! bc heâs done good!!! heâs helping!!! bc he knows damn well heâs in the doghouse bc of what had happened with pam and like the energy he radiated when he walked into that parlour was very much âi am coming to u w my tail between my legs bc i know i fucked up but instead of saying sorry iâm going to give u the sad eyes and hope u relentâ and like u can see he was practically buzzing out of his skin as he waited for jay to tell him abt the promotion and heâs looking at callum like âlook! look at what i did!! iâm fixing it! iâm making up for my mistake!â bc this is obviously how he thinks he can fix things instead of idk having a conversation and talking abt things but!!! i love it benâs so cute
but ofc it backfires bc callum doesnât want ben to fix things!! he doesnât need ben fixing things!! he can look after himself! and we the audience know it wasnât like ben went to jay and was like âyou need to promote callum bc heâs struggling with moneyâ, it was more of a two birds one stone situation. but ofc callum doesnât know that, and it comes across very much as ben meddling and also - as callum says - very hot and cold. like ben canât tell pam abt their relationship and will ignore him for hours but will (seemingly) wade in like some kind of knight in shining armour bc callum said heâs having money troubles? nah. i said it at the time but i completely agree w callumâs reaction, i would have reacted the same way if i were him. and maybe on any other day callum wouldnât have reacted so strongly, but after what had happened that morning w pam itâs completely understandable why he goes off on one.
and like poor ben is so confused like he obviously really thought this would be good news and put him back in callumâs good graces but ofc it doesnât bc what callum needed was an explanation and apology. and you can see how confused and crestfallen he is bc he doesnât want to fight w callum and he really didnât want to make things worse but he evidently has and not only that but jay is there witnessing his massive fuck up in action. and u can just tell from the body language that he straight up doesnât know what to do or say so heâs just kinda floundering bc he really thought he could fix what had happened with pam bc what? he half talked jay into giving callum a promotion? bless him lmao
then he goes full grovel mode - even if he is still very ben about it - and is leaving him voicemails (meaning heâs tried to call him multiple times, he probably tried texting too lmao) and moping abt in the cafe looking all sad and stressed and itâs just so good bc he knows he fucked up and heâs trying not to let it fester which is a v good and v adult thing to do. plus the juxtaposition of ben being like âu know ur gonna forgive me so stop being a diva and call me backâ and then that soft little âplease đĽşâ tacked on the end??? delicious
and then pam walking up to him and standing there and just sighing. like not a word, she just stands there and sighs like dkjfkjsdkfjlsdkf mood !!
no but ok that whole scene of ben and pam in the cafe really had me welling up like just. everything about it. the layers to it all. and i wonât sit here and dissect every little thing even tho i probably could bc weâd be here all day but like just. all of it.
like pamâs exasperation at ben not telling her about him and callum (bc obviously sheâs found out from someone - probably honey, who wouldnât think to lie abt it if pam asked outright), ben not even being marginally surprised that she knows bc even he must know how obvious heâs been, and she was bound to find out from someone. the fact that he jumped when she raised her voice and pointed at him - i could make a whole separate post about that honestly that just. says so much about ben. but yh.... the fact that she knew without him even having to open his mouth that ben was gonna say it was to spare her feelings (like thatâs essentially what he says to callum later in the ep). the fact that he didnât really have a good excuse to offer her and he knew that. his sad little face and the fact that he made himself smaller and ducked his head like just his body language in general (max bowden is SO good at playing on that shit, he has a way of making ben seem physically smaller in certain situations and i love it sm). ben being like âidk i thought itâd be easierâ and pam immediately being like âyeah for u not callum!!!â like the âu silly boy!!â was so heavily implied throughout this whole scene u can practically taste it.
and pam! pam manages to effectively have a go at ben and call him out on his shit without belittling him or being cruel or nasty (and no naming names but like. certain mothers could learn a thing or two đ) and actually have ben listen to her. because she listens to him and hears him and respects and loves him and he respects and loves her so she can have a go at him and his back wonât go up and he wonât lash out because he knows sheâs not going to try and hurt him or be unnecessarily harsh. and thatâs why their relationship is so special. also iâm still v bitter abt the way kathy handled calling out benâs shit as opposed to how pam handled it but đ¤ˇđťââď¸
like itâs such a little thing but itâs the way she waited for ben to speak. ben said âi didnât-â and then cut himself off, obviously either struggling to find the right words or struggling to say them out loud, and she just waited for him. waited for him to find the words, to figure out how to say it. she didnât rush him or try and put words in his mouth or anything, she just sat there quietly, patiently waiting for ben to explain himself in his own time. that is the difference between her and everyone else, and thatâs why ben listens to her. because she listens to him - and i mean really, actually listens rather than just hearing the sound of his voice ygm
and then they get too the root of it all: paul. he says he didnât want pam thinking heâd forgotten paul - which is only half true, imo. i think he was (and maybe still is) just as scared that heâs going to forget paul. i think he has a lot of unaddressed issues when it comes to paul and what happened in general. and i think he definitely needed permission specifically from les and/or pam that it was ok for him to move on now - bc other ppl have tried to tell him that but u can tell from how heâs reacted in the past that he doesnât like ppl who didnât really know paul talking abt what he would or wouldnât want. but pam did know paul, probably better than anyone. and sheâs telling him that itâs ok. that she wants him to be happy, and thatâs exactly what paul would want too. and she would know - sheâs his nan. so ben can allow himself to listen to her. he trusts her, trusts that she would know what paul would want, how he would feel. and now he has permission to let go of the past a little bit and finally start moving on.
and thatâs hard!! like as much as he might like callum, thatâs still a hard thing to do for him!! you can see on his face that itâs hard for him to digest and accept what pamâs telling him - that maybe itâs finally time to let go. itâs just as hard for him to confess that yeah, he does care about callum - he gives her the tiniest nod of the head because he can hardly even bring himself to say it, but he canât deny it either. and itâs hard for pam too, is the thing. you can from the way her voice shakes as she tells him itâs time to start showing callum that he cares how hard sheâs trying not to cry. not because sheâs not being sincere, not bc she doesnât mean it or she doesnât want ben to move on and be happy, but itâs still a hard thing. the world has moved on without paul, and now ben - the last link to him in a lot of ways - is too, and as necessary and as good as that is for him, it doesnât make it any easier for them. grief is a weird and difficult thing and i think they both did a good job of portraying the struggle of it in this scene.
and then them having this moment right at the end at the end where theyâre just smiling at each other w their heads rested together and itâs not an easy thing and theyâre both obviously a bit upset and broken but itâs so sincere and warm and she just pulls him in and kisses his head and he just lets himself be comforted by her and by this point i had a big lump in my chest bc it was a very real and important and sweet moment and i was a lil overwhelmed
the tiny mick and callum scene!! i want more of them!!! we havenât had a proper mick and callum scene since before the wedding i think and i know realistically itâs bc danny dyer has been doin other stuff and hasnât been filming much and then when he has been filming obv the focus has been on the ollie/linda stuff but!! i miss them and it was so good to see them acknowledge that they havenât seen each other much and for mick to acknowledge callumâs relationship w ben (calling it âmatters of the heartâ đĽşď¸) it was just Good i love their relationship sm and i miss them and i need more!!
mick being so happy to see pam was just !!!!!!!!!! like everyone loves pam!!!!!!! please can she come back and stay forever pls
benâs face when he tried to approach callum only for callum to turn his back on him like that boy was CRUSHED and he didnât know what to do like he just stood there for a moment unsure what to do w himself and it was Gud
the shot of callum drinking his beer looking all mopey and dejected with ben staring at the back of his head obviously pining even if he wasnât in focus and then pam telling ben to basically get his shit together and fix this and practically shoving him towards callum while benâs lookin like heâs trying to psych himself up and mickâs just there looking between all of them trying to figure the whole thing out??? high art
ben approaching callum looking visibly nervous and out of his depth... and then callum seeming genuinely surprised that ben had come over... bye
the fact that the first thing ben said was âiâm sorryâ!!! ben saying he understands why callum flipped out the way he did!!! callum saying he understands that ben was just trying to help!!!! ben acknowledging that callum is hurt and upset and then explaining why he did what he did and how he felt but still acknowledging that he hurt callum!!! the fucking communication!!!!!!!! like honestly it hasnât been smooth sailing for these two so far but they always seem to be surprisingly good at communicating and talking when smth is going wrong, at least after the fact (esp ben) and i LOVE that itâs so healthy!!
callum doing the very callum thing and being like âitâs fine, i get itâ even tho heâs clearly still upset bc he doesnât wanna rock the boat but then ben being like âno, itâs not fine! what i did is not fine! you donât have the pretend that it is!â and callum seeming lowkey taken aback by that :-(
(pam and mick just watching on in the background of all of this like the pseudo parents they are like honestly??? maybe the best part of the scene LMAO)
that little bit of nervousness before ben says âyouâre my boyfriendâ like he said it in a very sure way but you could tell he was nervous bless him... and then the way callumâs face lit up but he tried to hide it and not smile and play it cool with his âyouâve never called me that beforeâ but then it cuts back to ben who has the biggest smile on his face but u can tell heâs tryna suppress it a lil too but failing miserably AND THEN shy ben makes an appearance w his little âwell you are, arenât ya?â like he just wants to be sure!! he wants to ask so callum has the opportunity to say no (though judging by both of their faces he knew callum wasnât gonna say no lmao) but heâs still ben so heâs gotta ask in this roundabout way... man itâs so cute
combine that with callumâs little pout and squint like he was pretending he really had to think abt it and the tone of his little âyeahâ like he was like âi suppose soâ.... the subtle banter of it all i love it.... but he canât keep it up for long bc then heâs the one with a massive smile on his face like bro... the sun doesnât even shine that bright
and then benâs little disbelieving âyeah?â like he had to make sure :-(
AND JUST PAM AND MICK BEING LIKE AWWW WHEN THEY KISSED AND MICK BEING LIKE âHOW LOVELYâ AND JUST STANDING THERE SMILING AT THEM IT TOOK ME OUT FR
ben asking callum if heâs happy and callum tapping benâs chin and telling him he is...................... the two of them looking at each other Like That....... talented brilliant incredible amazing etc
pam being like âmy work here is doneâ i love HER
ben making a point of being like âpam i want you to meet my boyfriendâ heâs so fuckin cute i love him
the whole pam and callum exchange from the hug to her holding his hand and telling him how lucky he is to have ben and then telling callum that ben has the biggest heart of anyone she knows but saying it to ben bc she knows he needs to hear that too bc like... when has anyone EVER said that about ben?? when has anyone ever thought that about ben?? but she sees through all the bullshit and sees him for the kind, soft-hearted, loving but equally damaged boy he really is and she wants callum to know and understand that but also for ben to know that too and iâm crying just thinking about it bc you can see benâs face change and how emotional he starts to get not only bc itâs pam and everything that must be going through his head abt paul, but also just?? someone being kind to him?? saying smth nice?? god iâm broken
like pam really almost had me in tears in this scene genuinely esp when she was clearly getting emotional (as was ben) and she took both of their hands and told them to look after each other, given everything that happened with paul, and them both saying âwe willâ.... like that really fucked me up.... it felt like a Moment.... and then follow that up w pam and ben resting their heads against each other and whispering âi love youâ and it was so warm and full of love and adoration .... the âi hate goodbyesâ.... the palm kiss.... the fact that ben looked like he was abt to cry as pam left... i was a broken woman truly
and then they just went on as if nothing happened and they didnât just have a very significant relationship moment with the âi am luckyâ âiâm glad you realize itâ banter lmao
ben being like âu have the support of ur boyfriend đĽ°ď¸â when callum was explaining he wanted to leave the parlour like he really couldnât keep that word out of his mouth huh đĽşď¸
and the way he grabbed callumâs hand but only managed to get 3 fingers and then callum putting his hand on top of benâs like for some reason that really fucked me up......... like gays and hands am i right
the journey benâs face went on when callum told him he wanted to join the police.... the way it went from âhaha good jokeâ to â..................... wait heâs being seriousâ to âoh god what the fuckâ was amazing lmao
and then him interrupting jay and lola w his massive dramatic freak out was so fucking funny like the way jay just shoved lola off his lap when ben come in KILLED me honestly and like benâs on the verge of a breakdown and his brother and the mother of his child are just taking the piss and laughing at his expense.......... i love family
yeah so perhaps i went a bit overboard w this one but i did make you wait like a week and a half so perhaps this will make up for it lmao ??? but rlly tho i loved this ep sm there was so much good abt it and i want to keep pam forever thank u for ur time đđ
#ballum#eastenders#i fully went overboard with this looking at it now but i have a lot of pam feelings allow me#anon#question
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when i hit 1am i start brainstorming, so prepare?? â Midoriyas dad. We dont know much about him, but here's something i thought of: whilst away, he, i don't know, decides they want to get surgery (or someone to use a quirk on him) to turn his DAD into his MUM (2). Its a weird thought, but I feel like it might explain why Midoriya never gets replies from his calls, Hizashi(?) Is scared of her new found voice, worried her son wont accept her, let alone wife. Thoughts/opinions on this hc, Mi-stan??
aww this makes me feel things
hizashi bein a trans woman is a rlly god-tier concept,,,like america is more talkative than most abt lgbt topics (in both good and bad ways but still the point is merica talks a lot abt it) so it makes sense that sheâd rlly hear abt it here even if shes not specifically lookin for info and when she makes the connection that âwait,,im transâ hooooohoho
she misses her wife and son sm but shes so scared they wont accept her and ohhh man
she only ever rlly writes letters nd sends money back but other than that shes just v disconnected and shes so lonely nd she misses them but hhhh fear and ahfngkdjk
but inko can tell smthâs up so eventually in one letter shes like âu can talk to me abt anything, ok love?â and its the reminder of inko nd her love so blatantly thro even written word that convinces hizashi to give inko a call for the first time in Years now
so its like inko picks up after a couple rings nd is like âhizashi? hello?â nd hizashi kinda holds her breath for a second before saying âhey, inkoâ
nd its clear her voice is different nd inko is quiet for a second before softly continuing w âhow have u been love?â nd hizashi just. melts.
so she has a long long looonnggg talk w inko. it starts w the pleasantries nd inko tells her the latest updates w midoriya nd his quirk âheâs getting so big, zashi, and so heroic,,,im so proud of himâ and hizashi is like âi wish i could be there im proud of him too,,â
nd eventually the conversation gets the Srs Stuff nd inko is like âso,,whats with,,the voice??â and hizashi just takes a deep breath to try nd calm herself nd is like âinko,,,um, while ive been away, ive,,come across smth known as,,transgender??â
âtransgender?â
âyea,,um. it;s. its basically. being born in the wrong body?â
âokay, followingâ
âum. so like. a boy being born in a girlâs body and a,,,girl being,,born in a boyâs,,,body,,â
nd inko starts to get where this is going nd hizashi goes forward like âum. and while ive been here ive realized i am. um. i am transâ
nd honestly out of all the pain nd confusion inkoâs gone thro with izuku, this is frankly the least of her stress and in a world full of quirks like this and ppl like that that there are in mha, inko has no trouble catching on
âi see. so,,r u my wife then, technically?â
âi,,yeah. is,,,is that okay?â
âofc it is. youre still you, right? i married u for you, not your genderâ hizashi cries on the phone and bro me too
anyway so hizashi nd inko start having regular phone calls after that nd inko helps her plan how to tell izuku nd also helps her to like mentally prep for heading back home and just ahh
eventually sheâs ready to talk to izuku but shes nervous outta her miiind inko is like âwe can do a three-way call??â âyes pleaseâ so they do that
izuku is kinda awkward himself cause like its been years so the conversation starts off kinda rocky but inko helps em along nd eventually hizashi and izuku get into a rhythm of speaking nd its less tense
so they just catch up for a long while but eventually hizashi is like âah so izuku,,,uhh i,,i should've told you and your mother this a while ago but i,,i was just so nervous,,uh,,i,,im trans. im a woman.â
nd izuku is in a class w like five trans* ppl so hes all good w it hes like âoh!! so i have two moms then??â its so sweet w love him. hes so hyped he loves nd supports his parents SO MUCH
anyway so then she and izuku r on speaking terms nd bros hizashi hasnt felt this light in years,,,we love her,,,
anyway so eventually she gets her affairs in order nd is ready to head back to japan and AHHh shes so excited but so nervous to see her family again and ah Ah
but then shes picked up at the airport nd she Knows she looks hella different but shes still got the fluffy hair and freckles and izuku and inko beam at her and wave her over nd once shes there, they give her the biggest hug and shes just
shes happy. shes home
#hnnnnnnnnnnn this is good#trans hizashi au#midoriya hizashi#midoriya izuku#midoriya inko#c makes a word#answer
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Thoughts on Hasbro Universe after Revolution
Im big fan of G.I. Joe/Transformers. But when I heard that there are more than 2 franhises in one universe, it blew my mind. So I decided to check out them. One of them I heard when I was kid.
Revolution was big. For some it was epic, other think it was mess. I understand why ppl love and hate it. Personally I love it. Thereâs conflict and how heroes unite against evil. It was the beggining of massive universe. So, how it turned out?
To be fair.... not so good.
Its my own opinion. You can disagree with me. If you love aftermath of Revolution, thats fine. I just want to tell about the conclusion of Hasbro Comic Book Universe.
Optimus Prime.
I think the writer put a lot of his view on life: disappointment on every religion. I really didnt like how he made that Optimus Prime is always wrong. Even when he listens and he does what he was asked to do, ppl still angry at him. âYou should listened to me!â and âYou shouldnât listen to me!â. I love that they put Joes, but hereâs the big issue: OOC of Mainframe and Flint with his daughter look similar the same age.
Remember when Trasnformers had the mystery of their religion and mythology? Mix of Sci-Fi and Cosmic Fantasy. Yeah, forget about that. It was all Shockwaveâs evil plan. Another big disappointment for me.
I like how they described the ghost of Bumblebee, but Shockwave being one of 13 Primes looks very... confusion to me.Â
Lost Light
Lost Light deserves to be called a weak sequel. Remember when in MTMTE was magic mystery, adventure, gore and development of characters and relationships? Here I found nothing. New characters for me are not interesting. And yes about them being âtransâ. Im not transphobic and sorry if my opion might hurt you or offend. I just dont see transgenders in Transformers. I dont see transformers suffering of gender dysphoria. Hell, I doubt they suffer of homophobia, bc they are totally fine with mlm and wlw. If you dont know, hetero relationships are for the population of Earth. And Transformers managed told that they can love each other, but their love is not like Earthâs bc they dont have to have sex to create life. They have strong emotion connection to each other.
Speaking about love. I love Chromedome/Rewind love story bc it was developed. We saw the birth of connection, loss, pain, reunion, fear and happiness. Same with Cyclonus and Tailgate. To be fair I dont ship the last two as romantic couple, but as platonic couple. For me they dont have that emotional connection like Chrome/Rewind but they care each other. In Lost Light nothing. You just accept that a lot characters are couple to each other. Why and how? Just accept it. This is why I dont feel emotional connection to Lug and Anode. To be fair I thought they are friend and Lug looks a lot like a boy. If theyâd develop her more better, I think Iâd like her. The whole Lost Light is just comics of couples. I was thinking when theyâre gonna do the Orgy like in Ancient Rome.
Also hereâs another disappointment in religion. Everything was lie. As I told earlier - I didnt like it. Iâd rather to rewatch TFP, Bayverse or G1. BC I felt emptiness. MTMTE is masterpiece.
G.I. Joe
Where do I begin? Was written by socialist who doesnt know anything about military, ruined Quick Kick who was nice and gentle, made Scarlett an idiot, turned charasmatic Shipwreck into fat vegan, new characters have no backstory or reasons why they joined to Joes. Also: huge hypocricy. Scarlett says that G.I. Joe is now international team, but they refuse to work with USA. I get it they tried to turn G.I. Joe into Overwatch, but OW was working with every country. Including USA, where they had one of their headquarters. American G.I. Joe was more progressive bc they were helping every country who had deal with Cobra or any threat. They even teamed up with Russian soldiers.
The huge disappointment was no explanation about Snake Eyes rebirth (and no love story of Snake/Scarlett) and Quick Kick being an ass. Just check G.I. Joe ARAH show. There Quick Kick was nice. I miss that one....
The only good stuff was about Rock nâ Roll nightmares and guilt for shooting Grand Slam, grumpy Grand Slam and Doc being half-alien. Thats alll.
Revolutionaries
It was a bit better bc its literally crossover with conflict and backstories. Here they at least tried to make story interesting. And brought a lot interesting references. Especially to 90s: KLAW, Slaugther and even to original Action Force.
M.A.S.K.: Mobile Armored Strike Kommand
At 1st they tried but then it all felt down. I wouldnt call it horrible. You can check out 1st issues. I can say that only villains were interesting. While main heroes... hereâs the problem.
Original Matt Trekker was an engineer, millionaire, helped ppl and white. Why the last important? BC in reboot he became boring black guy who seeks vengeance for his father death and the main bad guy is white man. Im not racist bc I like how it was done in Spawn, but it wasnt so obvious who is the bad guy who just wants to take over the world. I get it you hate Trump. He is a clown.
Also original Trekker raises his son alone. So he is widowed. It could play in reboot: lost all, but tries to keep his son safe. So much potential for drama of lonely father. But we got what we got. I just go to rewatch Spawn animated series.
If they wanted âdiverseâ why they didnt put more poc characters from MASK? You know there are actual canon black man and indian man? Even native american man?
ROM
It was boring. 1st issues were interesting and brutal bc of alien invansion. You wouldnt know who is the enemy and who is the friend. But drama...
Whole Româs drama was about losing his humanity. At 1st we see him as cold-hearted alien. Then they all forget about it. Original Rom from Marvel was losing his humanity until he met brave girl Brandy who made him to remember his loss of homeplanet and love of his life. He was afraid to be alone and to be complete machine. And yes, in reboot his old girlfriend is alive. But I felt nothing with this. I prefer to read original comics bc I felt sorry for Rom.
Micronauts: Wrath of Karza
It was boring. The only thing I can remember is Larissa being Baron Karzaâs daughter. I dont compare reboot with original series bc I havent read yet. I liked the new one bc of Baron Karza and his wife (and their fetish).
First Strike
Hoo- boy. It was bad. Preety bad. Not bc villains tried to destroy Cybertron. Not bc TF thought its gonna be war of humans and TF. No, it all was good. The main villain is Joe Colton who wants to destroy Cybertron to save Earth. And that he was bad from the beginning. His motivation sounds like Miles Mayhem from M.A.S.K.. That shock effect of surprise villain doesnt work here. It looks like disrespect to Joe fans. They managed to ruin Scarlettâs character who was turned into G.I. Joe not bc she was the best. She was in Joes bc she didnt do 50 push-ups. If you dont know, G.I. Joe is elite guard where they take the best men and women bc they do a lot dangerous work. So the whole story arc is full disrespect to Joe fan. I dont know about you, but I was offended by that.
Was there smth good? Team up of villains and the easter egg of Visionaries.
Rom vs. Transformers: Shining Armor
I almost forget about the plot bc it was boring. Rom was rude like every commander (yeah, for someone âlosing humanityâ). New character was boring. So everythng was boring. Even Autobots didint save the situation.
Rom & the Micronauts
Well, they at least tried with characters development. I really liked how characters interact with each other. But the whole story was âmehâ
Scarlett's Strike Force
It was very short and cancelled. BC that writer Sitterson wrote offensive tweet about Nine Eleven. I get it what he was trying to do: to make comics based on cartoon G.I. Joe. This is why Quick Kick and Spirit fight against Storm Shadow. Personally I thought it was racist bc âonly asian fight agains asianâ. And Storm Shadow has the worst redesign Iâve ever seen. Theres nothing to talk about the comics bc its unfinished and cancelled. So theres nothing.
Transformers vs. Visionaries
This comic had potential. But the ending ruined it. The story is about colonization to save living race. But it will kill another nation. Its interesting theme. And how they managed? Nothing. For some reason everyone in peace and safe. The ending is just weird. I think writer didint know how to end that conflict so she wrote âeveryone safe and in peace. Colonization is badâ. Not the ending is the problem. Main characters: Leoric and Virulina redesigned very strong. Leoric looks like total different character (why not to create new character? He looks good). And Virulina looks like student from art-school, not the villain. The redesigned I like are Cryotek and Arzon. And the art was very good.
The last 2 ones I havent finished yet. I can tell this: TAAO isnt look so bad, but Iâm ready for disapointing ending, like TF Unicron.
In conclusion:
I dont tell that it was done horrible. Its just explains why IDW decided to reboot TF and G.I. Joe. Low sales. BC Iâve noticed a lot easter eggs in those comics for future story plots. I think theyâd made it good if IDW would give them chance.
If you love them, thats fine. Iâll enjoy my own version of Hasbro Universe.
#review#opinion#transformers#g.i. joe#gijoe#mask#m.a.s.k.#rom#rom the spaceknight#micronauts#visionaries#comics#idw#hasbro#hasbro universe
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my platonic gf made me do this (even tho sheâs not on tumblr rn)
1. What is you middle name? - San Roque
2. How old are you? -Â 16
3. When is your birthday? - November 11, 2002
4. What is your zodiac sign? -Â Sun: Scorpio Moon: Aquarius
5. What is your favorite color? -Â Dark colors in general (mostly maroon, blue and monochrome)
6. Whatâs your lucky number? -Â 11 or 13
7. Do you have any pets? - 3 dogs (but i rlly take care of 1)
8. Where are you from? - Philippines, Metro ManilaÂ
9. How tall are you? - 5â5â and a half
10. What shoe size are you? -Â I think 9-10 (???)
11. How many pairs of shoes do you own? -Â 3 (4 if u include my school shoes)
12. What was your last dream about? -Â I was in school and we were peforming for a rlly big event (it was shitty)
13. What talents do you have? -Â I can play the guitar, barely sing, sorta dance, and some chineseÂ
14. Are you psychic in any way? -Â When it comes to my sister, and some romantic situations irl, and i can predict scenes from movies i havent seen
15. Favorite song? oh god thatâs hard, the soundtracks for both heathers and six, every song in my g a y playlist in spotify (king princess, joji, billie eilish, rizha, etc.)
16. Favorite movie? -Â The girl king (despite the annoying power dynamic0 and heathers (despite the cringe) and almost every marvel movie
17. Who would be your ideal partner? -Â @alexconfusion if u werenât such a fuqing baby (fyi, @alexgoestosleep i wont steal them from u, theyâre just sorta my ideal type)
18. Do you want children? -Â Like one or two (girls preferably)
19. Do you want a church wedding? -Â Hell nah (but ill be fine either way)
20. Are you religious? -Â Sorta (raised a catholic, but my faith waivers)
21. Have you ever been to the hospital? -Â Nope just visited folks
22. Have you ever got in trouble with the law? -Â nah
23. Have you ever met any celebrities? -Â Regine velasquez at snr once
24. Baths or showers? -Â showers
25. What color socks are you wearing? -Â Im not wearin socks rn, but if i were, grey
26. Have you ever been famous? -Â Does having 392 followers in tumblr consider being famous??
27. Would you like to be a big celebrity? -Â Yes and no
28. What type of music do you like? -Â Smth with guitars, maybe even synth-pop or smth. and some classical shit
29. Have you ever been skinny dipping? -Â Nope, and never will
30. How many pillows do you sleep with? -Â 2, 3 if im with my bro
31. What position do you usually sleep in? -Â On either side with a pillow to hug
32. How big is your house? -Â Just 1 floor, a small backyard, and a front porch (i think idk filipino houses are hard to explain)
33. What do you typically have for breakfast? -Â Coffee and bread, instant noodles if i feel like it
34. Have you ever fired a gun? -Â Do airsoft guns count?
35. Have you ever tried archery? -Â Nah, but id love to
36. Favorite clean word? -Â boop
37. Favorite swear word? -Â shit, fuck,cunt, bitch, faggot (i call my friend like that never as an offense its just our thing)Â
38. Whatâs the longest youâve ever gone without sleep? -Â 36 hours or maybe even 48
39. Do you have any scars? -A scar on my right arm cuz of a vaccine
40. Have you ever had a secret admirer? -Â Sorta, but he was a guy and a creep and a bitch so...
41. Are you a good liar? -Â sorta
42. Are you a good judge of character? -Â Maybe idk
43. Can you do any other accents other than your own? -Â I have a very bad butchered british accent that sounds like im crunching in some scottish or smth
44. Do you have a strong accent? -Â Not that i know of
45. What is your favorite accent? -Â British and australian
46. What is your personality type? -Â Resting bitch face, quiet but a rlly good friend (apparently) im sorta clingy and hyper sometimes
47. What is your most expensive piece of clothing? -Â I think my prom dress, other than that, my giordano long sleeves
48. Can you curl your tongue? -Â sorta
49. Are you an innie or an outie? -Â innie
50. Left or right handed? -Â left
51. Are you scared of spiders? -Â As long as theyâre small im good, i fear the big ones
52. Favorite food? -Â Japanese food, some korean food, pasta, ribs, and sisig
53. Favorite foreign food? -Â ^ (except for sisig)Â
54. Are you a clean or messy person? -Â An organized mess
55. Most used phrased? -Â Is it gay?
56. Most used word? -Â gay
57. How long does it take for you to get ready? -Â 20-30 mins, i try to prepare everything the day before
58. Do you have much of an ego? -Â Idk, i think not
59. Do you suck or bite lollipops? -Â suck
60. Do you talk to yourself? -Â Yes, too many fucking times
61. Do you sing to yourself? -Â In the shower its great 10/10 would recommend
62. Are you a good singer? - Sorta?? Depends on the style of the song
63. Biggest Fear? -Â Socializing online idk lmao
64. Are you a gossip? -Â Depends on who im gossiping with, but not too much lol
65. Best dramatic movie youâve seen? -Â Idk, none of them are rlly great
66. Do you like long or short hair? -Â short
67. Can you name all 50 states of America? -Â Binch no, i aint american
68. Favorite school subject? -Â Social studies
69. Extrovert or Introvert? -Â Introvert but im a bit of both sorta
70. Have you ever been scuba diving? -Â no
71. What makes you nervous? -Â people
72. Are you scared of the dark? -Â nope
73. Do you correct people when they make mistakes? -Â Yes, especially when it comes to talking in english, im a grammar nazi
74. Are you ticklish? -Â yes,Stomach, sides, neck, feet, and certain parts on my back
75. Have you ever started a rumor? -Â nope
76. Have you ever been in a position of authority? -Â I was the secretary of my class last year, and ive been the leader for our thesis
77. Have you ever drank underage? - Does wine count? (only during new year tho)
78. Have you ever done drugs? -Â nope
79. Who was your first real crush? -Â I honestly dont know, but i think it was this one girl named Renee (nuffsaid)
80. How many piercings do you have? -Â Before one for each ear, i lost them now so none
81. Can you roll your Rs? - If i need to, like if its a spanish name or smth
82. How fast can you type? -Â Idk,
83. How fast can you run? -Â Sorta fast thanks to my legs, but my stamina is hella short so not long
84. What color is your hair? -Â A mix of brown and sorta like bronze (this one particular part of my hair especially)
85. What color is your eyes? -Â brown
86. What are you allergic to? -Â none
87. Do you keep a journal? -Â Im starting to rn
88. What do your parents do? - Both of them have their own businesses
89. Do you like your age? - Yea i guess, unless my parents start comparing my maturity with my age
90. What makes you angry? --A lot of things (im moody), esp. When my sis starts judging what i like
91. Do you like your own name? -Sorta, i mean a lot of ppl mispronounce my name and make fun of it when u add my last name to it
92. Have you already thought of baby names, and if so what are they? -Â honestly idk, but i plan to name them with confusing names (or not idk)
93. Do you want a boy a girl for a child? -Â Both girls
94. What are you strengths? -Â Maybe that iâm honest esp when def needed, i have this motherly side (sorta), i know a lot of shit
95. What are your weaknesses? -Â Im clingy, im socially awkward, im easily demotivated, idk how emotions work
96. How did you get your name? - There was a joke that my mom thought i was gonna be a boy so they named me jonathan, but since i was a girl and jonathan tan was gonna be redundant, they added mae as my second name, removed the -than and now its J**** Mae Tan
97. Were your ancestors royalty? -Â Not that i know of, but one of my ancestors was an important figure in the revolution in my country so.... yea
98. Do you have any scars? -Â On my right arm cuz of a vaccine
99. Color of your bedspread? -Â I share a bed with my siblings (sadly) but rn its blue
100. Color of your room? -Â With my siblings, eggshell white or smth, but i wanted the color sky blue once i get my own room
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gonna talk about my spooky side account lore bc its unabashedly my favorite
sam and his sibling max lost their parents to to the bringer when they were really young. they were freed from terror mountain when the hannah thing went down. sam had trouble adjusting and stayed in terror mountain for awhile while max eagerly went out into world. the two kept in constant contact, until max suddenly stopped replying after he traveled to the haunted woods. sam decided to leave for the haunted woods to look for his sibling, and had a pretty terrifying time of it until he met lonnie
lonnie is a neâer-do-well grave robber squatting in an abandoned house in the middle of the haunted woods. he found a very afraid and confused sam stumbling around and took him in with the intention of using him to help in illegal activities. sam, being cut off form the world for 10000 yrs and being generally too trusting, enthusiastically goes along with him. the two run around causing trouble and eventually lonnie finds himself actually CARING about this sweet bori
paix was born to a terrestrial aisha and alien aisha couple and was raised exclusively on the virupets space station. her childhood had a backdrop of constant and oppressive paranoia of sloth. her family had several connections with the resistance and as a result knew several ppl who either disappeared or were seriously negatively effected by the sloth empire. she even lived through the sloth takeover of virtupets, which while thankfully was relatively uneventful on the part of the station her family lived in, it was still pretty terrifying for 10-or-smth yr old. while all this died down when paix grow up to adult, her parents were still very protective, not allowing paix or her little sister to travel unsupervised and helicoptered pretty bad. paix prided her self in being very level headed, but then one of her only friends disappeared while tracking down a sloth aligned organization and is presumed dead, paix is absolutely devastated, and in the months following his disappearance she quietly takes a small, former resistance ship from a family friend. she intended on flying it to neo central and parking it somewhere visible where the authorities would find it and return it with her apology note sitting in the seat of the cockpit, meanwhile shes in faerieland or mystery island, she doesnt know where just anywhere sheâll figure it out when she gets there.Â
what ACTUALLY happened was a little more dramatic than she intended
paix initially and rightfully doesnt trust lonnie much, but he IS nice enough to let her stay at his house after she crashed into his back yard (is this even his house? i looks like its been run down for a while). sam was amazed in meeting a real alien and paix liked him well enough, hes a very kind guy, but still the whole situation was suspect
she probably wouldnt have stayed for long if lonnie hadnt up and died on them
paix suspected murder, from what sam says lonnie wasnt the most liked person around, but its not like theres any laws this is the haunted woods. as far as sam knows lonnie doesnt have any family, he thinks once there was a sister mentioned but he didnt even get a first name. the only family sam had left was a missing sibling he had been trying to find for a year now. so paix helps sam bury him in the back yard
paix takes on a lot of the responsibilities, like get food and telling people that lonnie is in fact dead, he wont be bothering you anymore. she even starts helping sam in his attempts to track down his sibling (shes not super optimistic but its not like shes going to tell sam that).Â
at first paix thinks that sam is just very, VERY upset. he hasnt been very tired and acting a little strange, but his friend just died in front of him, its not like she has any room to judge. but as time goes on, things seem increasingly off. theres breif moments where sam seems to be his old self, but more and more he seems confused. paix finds him standing in the middle of the hall, staring at the wall. theres times where sam doesnt remember where hes been or what he was doing just moments ago. paix goes to the attic to get sam, finding no one, only to remember that sam is asleep in the in the living room, and when she goes back down staris of course hes still there, passed out on the couch like he has been all day, why was she so sure there was someone in the attic
when it becomes clear that lonnies been possessing sam, paix has a weird mix of terror and relief, though its drowned out by how PISSED she is at lonnie. she yells at him in portuguese for WHILE before he explains that he really wasnt trying to hurt sam or steal his body or anything else paix is accusing him of, hes been trapped in the ghost zone since he died and nothing he did could get their attention (he had gotten SO CLOSE with paix, she seemed to almost hear him. paix remembers all the times she felt she was being watch or heard someone screaming and just shrugged it off as a side effect of the haunted woods)Â
paix could absolutely kill him AGAIN when he goes on to explain that hes now stuck in sams body. she begrudgingly agrees to help lonnie not be stuck, using a ritual from one of the weird creepy books littered around the house. it works and paix is incredibly relieved to find that sam is alright, but then immediately un-relieved to feel someone standing behind her and turned around to find lonnies spooky ghost standing there, menacinglyÂ
the tension was immediately broken as sam scrambled up screaming YOURE ALIVE and attempting to tackle-hug lonnie only to go through him and crash into the wall
and after paix gives lonnie a peice of her mind and lonnie profusely apologizes to both her and sam, things fall back into normality. paix and sam have found ways to make a living without doing anything illegal. lonnie is somewhat weirder as a ghost, hes taken a liking to scaring the heck out of ppl and is back to being a menace, but he seems to be more sincere with sam and paix at leastÂ
zaf generally doesnt like photos, meko probably caught them by surpriseÂ
zaf was a unfortunate victim of one of the many sloth-aligned splinter groups, and while they have made an amazing recovery, they remember nothing before waking up in the hospital. they were told that they had been kidnapped and eventually were found and taken in by authorities before being treated and successfully reverted to the physiology of an average mutant kacheek. zaf knows theres more to the story that authorities and their friends arent telling them, and has vague memories, but zaf isnt sure if they want to remember them. they were told by their friends that they had been a zafara before, that they were kind and generous and everyone was devastated when they went missing. zaf, surrounded by people that they cant remember, felt incredibly guilty. they hear stories about themself that they cant remember or even relate to. they ask for descriptions of themself that dont feel like them, least not anymore. zaf looks at pictures of this person that doesnt even look like them, and they cant help but feel like that person isnt here anymore.
zaf distances themself and eventually leaves neo central, taking a job at a hotel in the haunted woods. they have trouble finding a place to stay, and on their way to look at yet another apartment, they mistakenly knock on the door of a spotted bori who has THE friendliest face theyve seen since they moved to the woods
the two talk until its dark out and sam insists they stay the night bc its not safe to be out are you kidding me its the haunted woods. paix, given her past, is suspicious before zaf mentions what happened to them and she straight up offers for them to stay indefinitely (good thing too bc sam was pretty confident the place they had been on their way to see was a scheme to murder people, which seemed way more alarming to zaf than it did sam)
it takes 3 days for zaf to meet lonnie bc hes busy being an ass, slamming doors and leaving creepy messages in the mirror, culminating into jump-scaring zaf in the hallway at 3 in the morning. paix had tried to warn them but its still a spooky ghost in your apartment. sam mentioned that lonnies body was buried in the back yard and zaf looked like they were about to cry. just two sweet kids living in a dilapidated old house thats haunted by their dead friend, whose body they had bury in the back
zaf seems to be the only one concerned about the skulls in the living room, and the strange books, all of which, at least the ones zaf can make sense of, contain what appears to be spells. they mentioned where they lived to their boss and some coworkers and all hell broke loose and zaf had to leave the premises. paix apologized and said that lonnie had a reputation with the hotel staff and it kind of extended to everyone esle in the house. lonnie zipped through the ceiling and stated that they had ALWAYS had it out for him even BEFORE he stole that golf cart and the two start up another argument and the initial point is lost.Â
but even months afterward, zaf cant forget the the moment of panic in their former bossâs eyes when they mentioned the house
mini is a witch living in the woods. sam and the gang think shes their neighbor, but no one is really sure where she lives. she comes by the house every now and then. sam, paix, and zaf have invited her in but always stated that she cant come in. has started to come around more frequently after zaf showed her one of the book they had found, wondering if she could make any sense of it. usually cryptic mini straight up said it was incredibly dangerous in the wrong hands. the two have since working through the books to see if any of more of them had spell theorems that could âpotentially warp the fabric of realityâ as mini had put it
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On tianshan relationship and their fandom, i guess ?
hello there @nightfayre !! Im the 5asks anon lol (the one abt the last chapter of tianshan). I wanted to thank you for your answer and continue to rant in your askbox but i figured it was so long that mb it would crash ur box lmao, so I... kind of created a blog..... hm. well theres no bad reasons to create an account is there lol ?? (also is there no way to send a long ask ?? why is it so limited :(( )
So once again thank you for anwser, and what an answer ! You raised many points i didnt think about and that was very interesting. I knew i would be glad to hear your thoughts ! the rest under a read more coz i think its going to be looong lol
(( To do a sort of disclaimer : I despise fandom discourse and im more of the mentality âlet ppl enjoy what they want as long as it dont hurt real life pplâ, and âdont like dont interactâ. So everything im going to say is not an attack against anyone, but just a way of prolonging a manhwa that i like. Most of all, i want to emphasize that at the end of the day, its just a manhwa : it doesnt justify being mean or aggressive towards other real life ppl. If you find yourself raging while reading fandom wank, just stop reading, block, and go outside a little. My way of enjoying the manhwa is to be analytical, to criticize (positively and negatively) and to look at the material source as well as the fandom in itself ; if its (understandably lol) not your definition of fun, this post may not be for you !))
Ur totally right in saying that the hardest thing is separate morality, reality and fiction. I hope my asks didn't come across as a 'u shouldnt like tianshan bc its not morally good'. There is a lot of puritan push back on tumblr lately, and im totally against it. Everyone is free to like/ship what they want ; reading only âmorally goodâ literature wont prevent you to become a nasty person - i would argue itd be the exact opposite, as your spirit wont be trained to think critically or to evaluate a situation (and every situations is always grey) by your own means. Also, its important to separate fantasies/what you like to read and who you are/what you do. To be embarrassingly honest, and like many people, one of my sexual fantasy is rape ; but in my real life, im in a queer anarchist collective that actively fights against rape culture and defends rape victims. That is why i dont have a problem with SheLI/Mo shippers (or even HeCheng/SheLi shippers) even if its not my cup of tea, but i would have a problem if in real life (irl) ppl would say to irl Mo that irl SL is good for him (or if they wouldnt find it wrong that a irl 30yo Cheng is involved wt an irl 15yo Li). I digress.
But then again this confusion about fiction/reality/morality is at the core of the tianshan fandom -and many fandoms. I dont know about you, but i grossly see 3 types of âtrendsâ depending on how ppl interact with the source material :
1.The ones who think you cant like something while being critical of it. I love 19 days but I think there are flaws in it, beyond tianshan dynamic (like how OX handles the transition between funny and dramatic moments âI think its badly done). It doesnât mean I personally hate OX and wish harm to their family oc. Worse than this, the ones who, because they dont like certain things in 19 days, feel free to harass OX on their social media. Here its a confusion between fiction and reality and a lack of critical thinking.
2. the ones that loves Tianshan because they think it fits the trope âDark, handsome, tortured violent boy who is violent towards fragile, sweet, pure cute boy because he loves himâ and the typically associated trope âthe pure boy will change the violent boy by the pureness of his heartâ. Aka the most common yaoi trope. Again, if it pleases people to see Tianshan like this, good for them and i hope they have a nice time reading 19 days. Lets face it, I love really bad yaoi and books. Its just not how i see tianshan at all, but to each their own. I just have a problem when these ppl insist that its an ok behavior to have in real life and say things like âpossessiveness is a proof of loveâ uncritically (hint : it isnt). For me, its the difference between enjoying fast food (thats okay), and wanting to force everyone to eat fast food and to find it pleasurable (not okay).
3. the ones that think what you like in literature defines who you are, and so in order to be a âgood personâ you have to only like âmorally good litteratureâ -there are the ones I personally find the more interesting bc they can ask good questions. But alas, in most cases its just puritanism badly disguised and currently they are in all fandoms. Lets not delve into the issue of this statement : what is âmorally goodâ ? who are in the authority to proclaim what is good ? how can you recognize what is âmorally goodâ if you dont see what is âmorally not goodâ ? is it literatureâs responsibility to educate its audience ? do literature have to point out âwatch out audience what just happened is not okayâ as if we were brainless children ? whats more important : what you like reading or what you do irl ? .... Okay i totally delve into this lmao. Here its a confusion between fiction and morality and a rejection of critical thinking : we could say its like when the Catholics prohibited women from reading bc it would pervert them and think of the children).
Returning to the specifics of what we've been talking about : so in this last case, you (generic âyouâ) think that you are a good person ; so you have to read morally good literature. So in this case, fandom isnt just a harmless hobby, but a proof of how you are morally good, imagine the stakes ! But alas, you happen to like 19 days and most specifically tianshan. You said (@nightfayreâ ) that you judge Tianshan unhealthy as they are now, and i wholeheartedly agree with you, so im not going to discuss why since you already explained it so well. So, what happens when you like a morally not good ship, but you think liking morally dubious things makes you a bad person ? You bent over backwards to explain that, in fact, this ship is morally good, to protect your integrity. And thats why, in 19days fandom since the last chapter (and its the same thing with every chapter where flaws of HT are revealed!), there are many posts going around âhm, in fact, what He Tian did is good ! i know it can seems like hes a violent asshole who dont respect MGS because he punches him, threatens him, and dont listen to him, but hm.... in fact its because heâs nice...â and then they do mental gymnastics to justify what is, obviously, not morally justifiable. And i find its a pity because, my guy, my buddy, nobody is going to throw you tomatoes if you like a morally dubious character, and also bc nothin is morally good ! everybody does what they think is the best in âproblematic situationsâ ! and thats what make life interesting ! and so, 19 days interesting ! The flaws of HT (and MGS) are what drawn ppl to his character, bc it makes him real, its makes him contradictory, we can project ourselves in him, and we can see a complicated character with awesome latent potential. And yes, treating someone like a territory bc you care about them is a flaw lol. (on this subject : i saw ppl saying that its protectiveness and not possession : if you protect someone like you would protect a territory, then its not a healthy protection. you deal with a human whose agency you must respect, contrary to a territory).
MGS and HT are the product of what happen to them in their early childhood and then their adolescence. Like you said, they grow up in a violent, twisted world, where being emotionally distant is the norm. I would even say that they are expected to conform to the standards of (toxic) masculinity : channel all your emotions into anger, caring is being weak and feminine, prove your worth by your physical strength, be in control in all ur relationship, etc. I would say thats why Mo is so hostile towards HT : HT challenges his masculinity, by seducing him (everyone know that the biggest fear of macho men like HT and Mo is being considered gay -_-) and being stronger than him. Lets face it, Mo has kind of a homophobic issue, like all the boys. Between JY who tells HT its disgusting being told hes handsome by a man (at the beginning of the manhwa, i hope by now he had grown out of it), or Mo who tells HT he isnt happy that a guy is on his bed or who desperately wants to prove his heterosexuality by saying he likes all cute girls to his baldy friend... HT is more nuanced, but at the end, when he âseducesâ Mo, its always predatory. He doesnt let himself being vulnerable and he aggressively touches Mo even without his consent. For me, its a way of proving his domination, not his interest (and when i say that, i dont mean that HT is not genuinely interested in Mo -just that his actions dont translate this). ZZX is the only one who seems to have a healthy relationship with his masculinity lol, but then hes the healthy one in all aspects (thats why i dont like his character and am not invested in zhanyi, even if irl i would love to be his friend).
With all that being said, oc HT wont know how to adequately express genuine concern and interest in Mo ! This sort of social interactions is not something you just know, its smth you learn. And in HT and Moâs cases, nobody was there to teach them -we could even say that ppl in their life made them unlearn caring behaviors. So HT does what he does best : he fights and forces, and is surprised when Mo thinks (obviously) HT is evil. And also, like you said, Mo will never be (at least how he is now) a driving force in their relationships bc he will always run away from bonding with ppl. So here we are, HT being the only driving force in their relationship, the same HT who only knows violence. No wonder that their relationship is like this...
As it is, i feel like tianshan is kind of in an impasse right now. One or the other is going to have to evolve if we want to see their relationships changing. Either HT learns how to care without being violent (seems complicated if Mo doesnt challenges him, bc HT isnt going to realize this without feedback since its how he has always functioned), or, more likely, Mo is going to be honest with him and tell him that his behavior is hurting him. Though more probable, I dont see it happening anytime soon : for one, Mo isnt capable of seeing when he is hurting emotionally and what is hurting him ; and also, bc Mo doesnt know any other language than violence, not unlike HT. I think its smth most of the fandom ignore, how violence is smth that HT and MGS both have in common, and how if HT wasnt violent, MGS certainly wouldnt consider him at all.
Anw im excited to see where OX is going with all this ! Like you said, the forced kiss was pivotal to their relationship, so im kind of hoping it would be the same here ! I just hope they wont... do like usual and just put a funny chapter and ignore this latest development.....
OMG i wrote soo much and there is so much i still want to say.... i think im going to do a second post... sorry about the spam lmao
( @nightfayre : i dont know how this site works yet, is @ you alright ? will it show you my post in your notif or should i send an ask ? bc i want you to see my answer, but i dont want you to feel pressurized to respond or interact or anything !! above all dont feel pressurized, i was sad last night when you wrote âim sorry to not answer more quiclyâ bc you should answer at your own rhythm or not answer ! your blog is a hobby, not an obligation, so dont feel bad to not do more when yo already do much !! )
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