#i dont know. ive jus been thinking this for a few months now and ughhh i so g lnow im sick and spilling my guts | Explore Tumblr posts and blogs

spinecurlingmice · 2 months ago

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being autistic in fandom spaces is like really miserable because iiiiiii miss social cues a lot. and text cues i either miss frequently or interpret differently than intended. which makes me analyze characters different and need things explained of what was like. Actually meant. but sometimes people are assholes and that always sticks with me a lot more than anybody calmly explainging it to me ever will

#it's not something that's super often but it's gotten worse since rejoining danganronpa and i feel so upset #tw vent #but like its happened more often like 3 and ive only been back in here since like july guys.#and ive thought abt these instances for months.#im beinf talked down to because of a fictional character bc my disability makes me inept isnt thay insane?#isnt that insane how people think that its fine to do that? to be incredibly mean spirited over this?#and i get complaining damn it i complain all tje time but it. makes me feel like theres something inherently Wrong with me #i cant understand like everyone else and need some things explained to me #which must mean i have no place here right #this is wjy im so scared to share my works because somehow everything i do is a carnal evil for. whatever reason.#gahh just . maybe if people were nicer but thay wont happen i know that #i feel childish for beinf so uspet im 22 and cant handle how the internet is but.#fandom is my safe space #im being othered in a place i want to feel safe.#it makesme wanna fall off the grid and just leave it all alone amd enjoy in private #and id still see stuff so im not going to do thag since itd be the same scenario just now im talking to me exclusively #but ah it makes me really wanna just Leave . sucks 2 suck i guess #i dont know. ive jus been thinking this for a few months now and ughhh i so g lnow im sick and spilling my guts #micetalk #not tagging my organizational bc i fear this might start something and ugh i dont want that

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