#i dont know what triggers to really tag for this

[schizopositivity]

OSDD is so weird cause I will literally just black out while doing basic tasks that I'm used to doing, and just hope I actually did it.

For example, if I'm not listening to music or something while showering, I will probably just black out and have absolutely no memory of it. Like I'll remember stepping into the shower and then suddenly come back to consciousness out of the shower and soaking wet. And most times I did apparently actually wash my body in the shower, but it's such a muscle memory that I forgot. But recently this happened, I lost like 15 minutes of time, but assumed I showered and went to bed. The next day at work I could smell that I didn't actually scrub myself or use soap so now I'm wondering, what the hell happened in that 15 minutes? Did I just stand under the shower totally still? Did I scrub with no soap? Did I quickly step in and out of the shower and just stand outside? I'll never know and that's the weirdest thing to me. It's like the most confusing, most unhelpful form of time travel.

[gremzon]

I might have OCD actually

[bunnyboy-juice]

honestly. being able to be honest with my loved ones about when i am Mentally Unwell but also Dont Want To Talk About It has done wonders for my mental health

[solar--spectrum]

We got so high the only memories of a very long complex important conversation (one-sided entirely more of a rant) between CB and 🐙 look like... this

See more rant in the comments ☆ I lost control!

[boyswillbedogz]

mutuals tag your unreality. thanks.

[bunnyb34r]

Sometimes I really fucking envy the selfish assholes who just don't engage with the news/learn an current events. Like god it must be nice to live in your little bubble, only living in 'the moment' and the 'here and now' around you. It must be so peaceful to be able to see a YouTube short ab current events and say "hmm that's sad" and just scroll onto the next video without giving it a second thought. Must be so fucking peaceful being oblivious. Sometimes I want that. I want to be selfish and self centered, I mean I know I don't but... yknow??

[ace-apple]

every time someone talks about qcellbits relapse as "giving into his urges" or some shit in that vain an angel loses its wings a fairy dies etc etc

[impostorsshow]

Edit because I'm smarter now there's just general plotline Omori spoilers over the entirety of this thing if you don't know what Something represents don't even read the first sentence

Thinking about symbolism of Mari using her left eye to stare at Sunny and therefore creating Something and then Sunny losing his left eye, losing the control his grief had over him even if it will affect him and the way he sees and interacts with the world permanently. Even if the way he lost Something was violent and out of his control, he has to move on, even if it will be hard to learn to live without it. It isn't the good ending because every character ends happy in the end, it is an ending that allows life to go forward, and that is good despite the pain that has to be felt [everyone learning the truth, Basil and sunny dealing with the secret, sunny not locking himself in his house anymore, sunny moving just as everything looked like it would finally be able to settle in Faraway] to get there. Its not a happy ending or good in the slightest, only good when you compare it to the other endings-[many YouTubers I've seen have gone "oh, what ending is this? Chat, what do I do to get the best ending? Do I need to fail the fight?" Which in itself is worthy of analysation for how Omori wraps you into Sunny's mindset but thats been looked over already on YouTube like 5 times, so not in this post]

-but it's instead a promise of a good ending. Its equivalent to when your in a depressive rut and someone comes by and hugs you and tells you "it'll be alright, everything gets better, I promise, it's not okay right now but it will." Because it will, even if it sounds like a load of bullshit because we don't know how Aubrey and Hero and Kel react, but in order to get past it you need to believe it ends well. Because if you imagine anything else than it's the worst ending and killing yourself turned out to be the best way out, which is wrong on every account. Idk I just like this game and this type of symbolism that is so easy to grasp on a surface level but then you can just keep finding for for it

Edit 2 I'm putting the reblog I made on the same day here because if I reblog the og it's not gonna have the spoiled warning

I also keep thinking about how Omori is set right before Sunny moves, and most of the endings are Sunny killing himself the day of. As if Sunny couldn't bear the thought of leaving the last place Mari was, even if it meant giving up. As if he heard he was going to be moving and planned it. We don't know anything about Sunny, and as someone who used to daydream for 12+ hours a day even if I wasn't a shutin, it's an absolute tossup whether he really kept the same daydream going for 4 years or 2 years or anything in-between when we see him, especially with it seeming like he has repeated this dream of him fighting his fears over and over and over. But my personal thing is that it's an old daydream that Sunny picked up, refreshed a bit, and went through, as a way to remind him of why he has to end it before he leaves the house and to get as much out of his life as possible, back when he kept up with friends. But he just. No one really wants to die, they just want to stop dealing with whatever's fucking everything up so he waits until he can't wait anymore. Do you get what I mean does any of that make sense is that plausable

[mcybree]

that scott analysis post being passed around is making me really happy but simultaneously. a little nervous. i tag my fh shit so people can blacklist it easily but its so outside my circle at this point its like… should I start trigger tagging my traffic scott and fh analysis posts bc a couple of the responses to it are making me concerned

[qeyond]

Youtube | Spotify

CW abuse/trauma/ptsd. It's a pretty raw song (both in lyrics and the way Black Dresses preforms their songs) so listen at your own discretion.

This song really speaks so honestly to the deeply self-destructive spiralling for B, in my opinion. Speaking politeness through your gritted teeth with a lying softness, boiling over, letting it out, feeling it on your bared, snarling teeth, breathing out smoke, "is it me? am I the problem? am I the evil monster?", "its always been me", spitting up blood, biting the hand that feeds and ripping them the fuck to shreds to be left alone.

Lyrics under the cut.

Why thank you for your opinion What you think is so important So let's talk this out i love it You're so funny i hope you're doing well Thank god for the tongue in your mouth I'm so happy i'm so lucky I get to do whatever i can be myself But you know what? I have zero tolerance for Bad little shitheads Who only seem to fuck around

Same shit different day You need to fuck off you need to go away I don't wanna talk about it That's all that I came to say Get out of my space You worthless fucking fuckface

Who the fuck do you think you are? Who the fuck do you think you are? Who the fuck do you think you are? Who the fuck do you think you are?

Hey bitch, what the fuck's going on? Is this how you wanna spend the Last few years of your life? Of your life? The last few years your legacy Your legacy your legacy your

You can hide out in your tiny little lair You can be the fucking evil monster terror Scared you can be the evil monster It was always you it was always you It was always you it was always you It was always you

It was always something I couldn't be That was just outside reality It was always something I couldn't know That I didn't know that I shouldn't show Because everything around me Felt just like a bad dream It was all or nothing Be the kind of person you hate or be

Hated for the things that you Thought were common sense Just a little further One day it will make sense Hold yourself a little tighter Your innocence

Preyed upon and vilified by Your blood and friends

Who am I if I can't assign a Name and place to what this is? Everything that's mine feels rotten from The touch of it everything all the time is a Message that I shouldn't be Who the fuck are you? Stay the fuck away from me

I want to love myself but Memories are killing me I want to live but all the years That came before won't let me be I want to love myself but Memories are killing me I want to live but all the years That came before won't let me be I want to love myself but Memories are killing me I want to live but all the years That came before won't let me be I want to love myself but Memories are killing me Memories are killing me Memories are killing me it hurts

[fagdykefrank]

Christ alive. Im so mad

[hexiewrites]

god in addition to just tagging things in the first place, i wish people would be more consistent about how they tag. like i have “major character death” and “mcd” both filtered. but i‘ve run across fics that weren’t filtered for me because they were tagged things like “cw for major character death” or “character death tw”

this isn’t ao3 where there are tag wranglers who link up related tags, so just use the most basic form of a tag that the greatest number of people would probably have blocked

agreed!! it's such a tough thing to regulate on tumblr and obviously way too massive of a job for there to be a standard or tag wranglers but god are we spoiled on ao3! (sure, sometimes you get jumpscared over there, but it's much less common)

my dream would be that any of the major archive warnings get tagged in a consistent way, as well as major triggers. the big ones being major character death, graphic depictions of violence, and underage characters. and then I'd love tags at least for rape/noncon/dubcon content. I wish we could as a site or just as a fandom agree on a standard. whether thats just the tag "major character death" or if we're using TW or CW ("TW major character death") but as it is I just have every permutation I can think of blocked (my block list is.... massive). but if someone tags NOTHING, well... then I can't even block their usual tag.

the other thing is I wish people would just drop it in at the top of the fic. I think people think it ruins the "aesthetics" and they like tumblr ficlets that just START, but because theres no tag consistency, I do wish people would just throw in a line at the top with a basic rating and any tags (and a word count would be really nice). something like: [explicit, 5k, major character death] would be SO brilliant and helpful to the way I use the site.

as it is, I am now incredibly wary about reading tumblr fics and 90% of the time I scroll past. I know I'm missing good content but I just have been burned too many times. :(

[sollux-captor]

im feeling so many ways abt late a5a2 homestuck (i just finished it actually) but the sufferer hit way different.

homestuck late a5a2 spoilers incoming!!!

adding this after writing way too much shit that im not fucking deleting: vent cw too

ok so my main thing that made me feel something (a rarity, like almost unheard of /gen /srs) was the signless' story. something about it just envoked feelings within me, i dont even know how to describe them

something about this fucking frame just made me feel... idk what. dread? pity? genuinely idk. obviously its not the whole "ouuuu tied up so hawttt" bullshit, idk i think the story combined with the music and imagery just made it to the farthest pits of my soul, and this point was the breaking/overwhelming point.

i almost want to sit thru all of it again just to try and figure it out. i want to feel that again to understand it. obviously if i read it again i wont feel anything cuz thoughts, emotions, and feelings are a rare experience for me.

i feel like the story felt like a metaphor for my life, not to get all emo and dark and edgy or whatever about it, im being completely level-headed and genuine with this.

fuck thats what it feels like's happening inside of me. i feel my compassion and love for others depleting, as its been for years, with the cards ive been dealt (not getting into that right now). ive been conscious of an eternal rage slowly growing inside of me, and these past few years i feel like the ratio of compassion vs. rage within me is leaning in a way that im just barely able to see how bad and scary it is. ive been subjected to a life of suffering in almost every place i could imagine, yet i always tried to stay a loving, caring person for the few individuals who bring about some light in this darkness.

yet i can see it happening before my very eyes. i see i am no longer who i once was, im worse, im violent and enraged all the time and its getting worse and harder contain with every passing day. its scary being able to watch yourself rot away into a bottomless pot of boiling rage.

torture and execution has always been the metephor ive used when describing how i live and feel inside. i think to see something so deep within me and something so relatable in front of me, written and drawn out as a story, i think that broke me.

[krockat]

hey. Hey. person reading this right now. if you already feel bad about this, or are aware of this, and you for example have intrusive thoughts about dirt and stuff - don't feel so bad about this.

and i think the implication that 'everyone should feel after touching any public surface like they've touched dog poo'

and by extension that that should feel poison and by perhaps extension even perhaps Should make you feel dread, and perhaps even feel like a bad or shameful person for it?

i think, we should probably walk that back a little. i think it easily comes across as that, and could be triggering people's anxieties about this, in an unfair way.

absolutely - cleaning your hands good and keeping good hygiene is good, but the feeling bad about it part? you do not need to feel bad or anxious or dread about it during or about it.

you also do not have to Make yourself feel so bad about it.

and if you read this and realize maybe you haven't taken your hand hygiene seriously enough, you can always change and improve.

and that it will be okay. change, good change, can always start today. there are also many good handwashing tutorials that came into (re) creation after covid hit 2020.

also, for context - because I do not mean to be rude to op or previous commenter, i am specifically writing this as a person who has intrusive thoughts and dirt phobia, but am recovering,

and I just feel like this post has great points and perspectives that I don't often see shared - that I want to reblog! and also wanted to talk about that perhaps moral ocd/dirt ocd triggery thing, and not let that pass without that commentary.

and that also as a person with intrusive thoughts and dirt phobia, that YES oh my gosh THANK you,

it really is so scary sometimes and isolating how people do not even consider these things with hygiene, and I've also talked to people about it but they still don't see the point!

i know my fears and concerns about dirt are not Just irrational - and I feel like people often dismiss my knowledge about dirt and hygiene Because I have these diagnoses.

And i Guess it's easy to ignore my concerns and pleas if they can dismiss me because of them.

Washing my hands as I come home?? a given. also washing my hands before I touch my cat!

cats can also get covid (last I heard, that was mid early hit of the pandemic hitting though, science might have found more) and so like i do Not want to mess around - not for me Or for him!

also I've known so many people who don't wash their hands after using the bathroom.

tw for below: REALLY nasty hand hygiene

i had a parent (i disowned them) that used to sometimes skip out on washing his hands after he shat.

like I could hear him shitting and could also hear him flushing, not turning on the washbin, and immediately exiting the bathroom.

i tried to tell the rest of my family members and others but they just didn't believe me.

also if you touch your genitals (including dicks) or underwear in the bathroom, or touch the toilet, or the toilet roll that has been used, You should wash your hands! It's Not Cleannn

I Do Not get people who do not get that. at all.

in the vein of "how do you stay safe from getting sick", I wanna say that something I always noticed as a kid was that a lot of the time when I went to people's houses and we would leave at some point to the mall or the park or something and then come back home…I don't remember any of them washing their hands when we got back inside. they'd just immediately lead me back to their room or the living room or something, and then I'd feel incredibly self-conscious about going to their bathroom to wash my own hands. and I always thought it was absolutely bizarre because the way I was raised, the first thing you do when you come back home after taking your shoes and jacket off is go wash your hands. it's common sense. why on planet earth would you not wash your hands. you've just been touching a hundred public surfaces that could have anything on them and you think as soon as you set foot in your own house all the germs you've picked up just evaporate? it's absolutely insane to me to know that so many people don't bother washing their hands. WASH YOUR HANDS.

[omanu]

AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAH

[anyatomy]

if u dont like homestuck you are going to have to unfollow me bc i am rereading it and experiencing amounts of nostalgia previously unheard of. im going to rb fanart. its a good interesting comic that i like and i am going to be a fan of it. Sorry.