#i dont know what im going to do
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if you're trans, you have to live.
if you accomplish something else, then good.
if you accomplish nothing else, then good.
but you have to live.
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#the election has me riddled with emotion#this was a way of coping i guess#or processing#i dont know what im going to do#but what ever it is i will be okay#you will be too. you just have to live to see it.#your future self is already so proud of you#okay now tags..#transgender#trans#pride#lgbtq#lgbtqia#trans joy#trans anger#transgender pride#trans pride#trans artwork#trans artist#queer#queer artist#art therapy#i saw the tv glow#isttvg#there is still time#self portrait#self portrature#painting#digital art#digital painting
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FUCK ITS MY FRIENDS BIRTHDAY I FORGOT WHEN I HIT POST I WONT BE HOME TILL LIKE MIDNIGHT ND I'LL BE 2 BUZZED TO DRAW PROPERLY
#IM GOING TO#I DONT KNOW WHAT IM GOING TO DO#happy birthday bro lets party and smoke fancy cigars do u mind if i look a million miles away and like im absolutely miserable because both#those things will be true
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That's gotta be a nerve-racking kind of deja vu for Mrs. Imi'ike as she hears that familiar affection creep back into Janis' voice as she talks about Regina. Like, are we doing this again, Janis?? You're going to get a crush on this girl AGAIN? I like the way you described it, because I'm imagining this slow sinking feeling as it becomes more and more obvious.
Right?? I can't imagine being in Mrs. 'Imi’ike's position. I was talking to a friend about it, and we discussed the balance Mrs 'Imi’ike must have had to strike. Like Janis is her kid and she's very protective there, rightfully so. But she also knows Regina’s home life, and understands that she's a kid and has the capability to change. A lot of factors that she has to deal with and reconcile lol
Not easy being the mother of a gay disaster
#it was definitely a sinking feeling#this thought of like#if i have to pick up the pieces of my shattered child again#i dont know what im going to do#(and regina shpuld be scared lol)#uiw posting
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Oh also so many random opportunities are opening up for me. I don't talk about this here much but I'm in uni atm and I'm a huge insect lover, I'm friends with the head of the (tiny) entomology department at my uni, I'm taking entomology in the fall, etc, and the prof said he thinks I could possibly get some experience working in insect collections 👀 a lot of the class is collecting and pinning (and photographing ofc).. I'm super excited even though it is a 5 hour class at an inconvenient time of day lol
#broadly though my schedule in the fall IS inconvenient#unfortunately it probably means i have to quit my job. again#ugh#im so poor i really cant afford to be quitting my job a semester before i graduate but theres not much i can do#im in class all day every day EXCEPT for the days my workplace is conveniently (lol) closed#i dont know what im going to do#ideally i could do commissions to help me get through those months but i havent made any money from them so far so#i dont have high hopes#i have to keep on that grindset though lmfao i do want to be an illustrator#and i have started outlining my first article/video essay so keep an eye out for that?#im probably gonna try and get that done over the summer (with what time 🙄 idk)#anyway. sorry for rambling again#just putting my thoughts in order at 2200#i took my afternoon nap too late
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im running out of applicable scourge images. vent in tag
#i hate that im aware. of how ridiculous it is#that an entire hobby can be ruined so quickly by one person for me#and yet. the panic attacks are still back. the compulsions. the intrusive thoughts#and hes just been laughing about it#i dont know what im going to do#vent tw
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Local PHD student at wizard school HARRASSED!! FOR SHAME!!
#laios touden#falin touden#marcille donato#farcille#arts#dungeon meshi#hello Im back again! to tumblr#also Im pretty shamlessly using beebfreeb 's falin outfit. I like it a lot I think thats how she is#delicious in dungeon#obviously influenced by some other peoples designs of modern designs figured Id put that disclaimer i do love those#i have no idea what the canonicity of laios going to the library is. like. he knows a lot#but i dont know if thats from books necessarily? jsut thought it was funny just pretend its this particualr libraary if that bothers u I gu
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i dont think anyone will truly miss me when im gone.
maybe for a bit. Maybe the first few days. But after that, everyone will realize how much better it is to not deal with me.
im a spoiled brat who had a good life and just sits and complains about stupid little things that dont even matter. Im so fucking priveleged and ive had it good, i have no right to be the way i am, i dont deserve to be upset, not when others are suffering and im just a fucking thing with no real issues.
itd be better.
i shouldnt be here.
#i dont know what im going to do#i might do something i might not#It really depends on if im brave enough to try and sneak out#We’ll see#vent#tw suicide#tw sui#tw sui vent
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i wasnt built for this life
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I just got back from the vet. My brother took me. We had to put down Morris. He got worse, and we couldn't afford to do more to help him. I tried everything I could to help him. I tried every single fucking thing to help him and it still wasn't enough in the end. He was with me through the most traumatic events in my life. I had him since he was a kitten and I was 16. My baby is gone. I held him in my arms and he purred the whole time because we loved each other so much. He purred until he went limp. My baby is gone. And everything is worse.
#i loved him more than ive ever loved anyone#im so fucking sorry morris i tried everything to help you i tried everything i could#morris is gone and everything is just worse now#i dont know what im going to do#i had to sit there and hold him and watch him go limp#and watch the pink from his paws go pale and i just sobbed and held him for the fifteen minutes they let me#i just held him and kisses him and sobbed and he was just limp and im home now and hes not here and it feels so fucking empty
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spiraling
#my art#jujutsu kaisen#jjk#jjk fanart#jujutsu kaisen fanart#jjk art#megumi fushiguro#fushiguro megumi#gojo satoru#jjk spoilers#jjk manga spoilers#the minute i realized how tg coded the composition n colours were i decided to turn it up to 11#i was racking my brain trying 2 figure out how to get the layered tissue paper look tht i talked abt ishida's cover art having#cycled through all my usual layer modes n nothing ws Quite right#until wouldnt u know it . divide n subtract!!!!! i NEVER use divide or subtract bc theyre impossible#but fr this??? its like they were made for it oh my god#it makes the greys look translucent n all my textures pop in a way that makes them appear splotchy n Bruised#which ws the whole point thts the Look god i am so PLEASED#when the layer modes tht notoriously get No love finally find their niche <33 peace and love <333#filing this away fr later i am going 2 have a lot of fun with this new information i think#im very happy w how the colours look n i dont think anything else wld have kept the right Mood#but i am always so >:/ when i have to use a palette tht forces me into giving megumi blue eyes#had to set aside th green eyed megu agenda fr the Aesthetic unfortunately#anyway i knew from the minute i saw it that i wanted to do smth involving the opening panel of 268#bc that panel is S tier#i figured tht if nothing came 2 me i wld just redraw it as-is bc it's alr so good but as i ws sketching i was like#u know what u havent done in a while? art tht looks like u r going Insane#art tht makes ur family ask whether everything is ok#so i once again tucked megumi's knees up 2 his chest and apologized insincerely to him fr making the third megumi angst piece in a row#:)
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hey got some important news. the affordable connectivity program that helps poor and disabled people afford internet is going to run out of funding by april 2024 if we can't convince congress to renew it
i know emailing and calling politicians often seems like a waste of time, but this is gonna hurt alot of people (myself included) if this program is allowed to disappear. we really need to raise some awareness and get this program the funding that it needs. ACP is a game changer for literally millions of people. this is the only way many homes can even get internet, and in this day and age internet access is pretty much a necessity for almost everything. its gonna be a huge blow to have this vital program taken away from those who depend on it.
#id appreciate a signal boost on this post cause we really need to get this program secured#i literally dont know what im going to do without it#i really cant stress how big of a deal this is
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Why do I even exist..? What's the point anymore..? I don't understand... I can't function at all... I have nothing, either... Anytime I do it disappears slowly and painfully.
#is it me..?#im sorry#i should have listened to ny gut instinct not to come out#i wanted to try again... im really selfish#text#complaining#and ive fucked us over tonight#i cant sleep and we need to wake up in 5 hours#i dont even have a hobby to distract myself for that long#i dont know what im going to do
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i love normal guys doomed by the narrative
#either that or hilariously dysfunctional or both#tf one#orion pax#d 16#megop#megatron#optimus prime#my art#saw one post pointing out in the trailer that a like5 frame shot of megatrons cannon that was snuck between their mahoushoujo type transfor#mations and like.messed up deeply messed up u see how goofy best friends orion and megsy are theyre just silly guys but in every telling of#their story they always end up enemies ok like in a meta multiverse hopping way think about it.like oh my god prewar tfp megop was already j#juicy and earthspark divorced-remarried megop is like.RGHFH tf one is going to destroy me bc this is what they had Before do u get me#before the war before they fell apart before friends became enemies and hands were stained before the beginning of the end im so so normal#like ok.this silly tight goofy buddy dynamic thats shown in tf one so far is.is what they had before. its what they could have kept if only#if only things turned out differently. but in every world optimus prime and megatron end up leading opposite sides of the bloodiest war ever#ok.its a universal fact and everyone who knows any transformers knows this BUT THE CHARACTERS DONT THEYRE POWERLESS TO PREVENT IT#ill clean up these tags in the morning but like im so.so normal about fictional robot guys#anyway i was intending to draw a background for this but i got lazy and also spent too long on the hands!!!!so whatever
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i miss them a little if im gonna be honest
#mp100#mob psycho 100#kageyama shigeo#kageyama ritsu#hanazawa teruki#tome kurata#tsubomi takane#shou suzuki#deliart#i meant for the image to be like. after the end but i also didnt think about the hairstyle changes. sorry......#also i know i was like shou 100% has dwarf hamsters since he got 2 but u know what i dont care. golden hamster stan for life#im planning on getting one i've been checking out breeders near me so i can get a proper healthy one. there are so many good ones here too#i already am thinking on what color im gonna go for..getting picky even. something like offwhite.. silver pearl.. silver dove.. silver mink#jurys still out on wether im gonna get another female or not#i do love how big ladies get and their intense energy and work ethic. truly the most passionate creatures i've ever come across. inspiring.#but a lazy fluffy guy that just sits around and washes his balls all day does seem easier. less likely to climb my curtains.#i got distracted i love hamsters so much. look at my mop drawing now everyone
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horrible truth bomb dropped on my head 20 min ago
#I DIDNT KNOW I DIDNT KNOWWWWW#when i say damn thats crazy its bc i DO think its crazy i think a lot of things are crazy. like how birds have cloacas#or the way ppl draw a five pointed star in different ways and everyone assumes their way of doing it is how everyone does it#my brother is not letting me live this down btw he literally shouted at me like HOW DID YOU LIVE THIS LONG AND NOT PICK UP ON THAT#IDK!!! IDK I THOUGHT SOMETIMES IT COULD BE USED TO EXPRESS GENUINE SHOCK??????#he says its my delivery that makes it sound insincere bc i say it in a monotonous voice which when i think abt it YEAH....#THAT DOES MAKE IT LOOK KINDA BAD IN HINDSIGHT.....#and then i told him i keep a list of phrases that tickle my brain so i can remember to use them in conversation and apparently#most ppl dont do that bc he was like ???? stop doing that??? just let the conversation flow naturally it sounds fake>????#idk man i feel like if i did that and blurted out 'i forgot people find stuff like underwear arousing for some reason' instead of#smth like 'i wonder what kind of ppl find this kind of stuff the bees knees' like i normally do. it would. not go so well.#ALSO THE FLOW CHARTS ARENT NORMAL? i make flow charts before i call the bank or smth so i know what to say#its not just to blend in its also so i dont waste ppls time going uhhhhh as i think of how i put smth into words#its called stalling for time and i dont care if i have to say smth like thats just how the cookie crumbles if it gives me#5 more seconds to process whatever the fuck someone said without letting them think im not paying attention#doodles#diary#sona#puppysona#comics
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after jasons death bruce "accidentally" slips harvey a crowbar while hes in arkham and kisses his cheek and says, voice soft and colder than ice, "make him hurt for me honey"
it takes 6 guards to sedate and drag two face off the joker the next time two face sees him and for the rest of their lives as soon as harvey sees the joker he goes after him like a rabid dog.
#harvey voice: you know why im not killing you jokes? cause you can only die once and i want to hurt you so much more than i want to kill you#jason was harveys baby too after all#spent my entire boring work meeting thinking about how robin!jason bruharvey would end in the joker dying no matter what bc of two face#this is all bruciemilfs fault btw. theyve been making me insane about bruharvey#bruce wayne#harvey dent#two face#also bruce doesnt tell harvey to kill or not kill the joker bc he cant request someones death#but he also cant make himself ask for his sons murderer to be spared#i dont think any version of bruce would be comfortable with openly planning someones death let alone actually doing it#but after jasons death he gets so cold and numb to everything that he just turns away from it#he knows hes being too violent.knows hes hurting people too much but the only time hes not remembering how small jasons body was in his arms#is when his blood is roaring in his ears during a fight. maybe if he becomes the worst monster in gothams shadows#no more little boys will go cold and silent. no more fathers will stand in the doorway of rooms that will never be full again
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