#i dont know if i miss you or if i miss the joy. if i miss the fact that those were some of my happiest moments with someone i cared alot for
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Skincare night with Aventurine feat comfy pajamas but when they get ready for the whole thing and about to apply the things they look at each other and be like "you dont actually need that" at the same time
The soft glow of dimmed lights filled your shared space as you and Aventurine prepared for your skincare night. It was a rare, cozy evening where both of you could unwind together, trading his glittering world of high-stakes deals and calculated risks for simple comforts. Aventurine’s usual attire had been swapped for a relaxed, soft gray pajamas, his blond hair falling more casually around his face than usual. You had to admit, he looked almost boyish like this—a side of him rarely seen by anyone else.
The two of you set out your various skincare products on the vanity, each step carefully planned as though it were a negotiation or a deal to be perfected. Aventurine, with his ever-playful smirk, glanced over your selection and held up a small bottle with a raised brow.
"Ready for some rejuvenation?" he teased, unscrewing the lid and pretending to inspect the label with exaggerated concentration. "Because I’ll have you know, this claims to 'revitalize and transform.' Quite bold for a little bottle, don’t you think?"
You laughed, taking the bottle from him. "Yes, but only because someone keeps dragging me out to late-night dinners and gambling events." you teased right back, nudging him lightly.
"Can I help it if I’m surrounded by people who crave my charm and good fortune?" he shot back, winking as he reached for a soft facial brush. "Besides, I would argue that late nights are just more memorable with you around."
You both stood in front of the mirror, your skincare products ready, soft cotton headbands in place, and your cheeks already glowing from laughter. The moment felt calm, almost sacred in its simplicity. Aventurine held up a gentle cleanser, and you were just about to apply the serum when the two of you made eye contact in the mirror, pausing at the same time.
It was then that you both said it in perfect unison: "You don’t actually need that."
For a split second, surprise flickered across your faces, and then you both burst into laughter, the sound filling the room like music. Aventurine set his bottle down, his eyes sparkling with genuine joy as he turned to face you fully.
"You’re too perfect already," he murmured, his fingers brushing a stray strand of hair away from your face. "Why do we need all of this, really? I think we look fantastic."
Your heart warmed at his words, and you reached up, gently cupping his face. "Speak for yourself," you teased. "But… honestly, you’re right. We could do without this routine tonight."
Without missing a beat, Aventurine pulled you into a hug, wrapping his arms around you in that familiar way that made you feel protected, cherished. The two of you abandoned the skincare regimen for something far more enjoyable—just being close, savoring the quiet moments together.
"Maybe our next investment," he whispered softly, "should be in more evenings like this. I don’t need any glow-up routine… as long as I have you."
Nestled in his embrace, you felt as if the world outside didn’t matter. The two of you, in your cozy pajamas, sharing simple laughter and warmth, were everything.
Sick with a dry throat 😇👍
#honkai star rail#hsr#x reader#honkai star rail x reader#hsr x reader#hsr aventurine#aventurine x reader#aventurine x you#hsr aventurine x reader#fluff#soft moments#domestic bliss#comfort#cozy vibes#skincare routine#playful banter#mutual affection#comfy pajamas#self care#lighthearted romance#warmth#love#evening routine
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Babagril I adore clipped wings and you are feeding my insatiable hunger for heavy angst and impeccable writing but I am a littol concerned about how fast you're putting chapters out recently. I know they've been on the shorter side compared to the beginning but plase don't push yourself too hard okies? We can wait, I just don't want you getting burnt out or something :(
Also you are so meanies to us why must Donnie constantly go through the horrors its the fic ive always craved and I am sobbing, thank youuu
hey hey im fine!! i should probably clarify that im genuinely just a fast writer and im. yknow. an unemployed 18 year old who doesnt have much to do other than stuff like this, and im fed and moved along by all the praise and kindness. you dont have to worry about me!! honestly a HUGE thing im aiming for while writing CW is the joy of getting to complete something, i actually crank these chapters out in like a sitting if im in a good mood LOL (theyre kind of scrappy, but im trying to combat my perfectionism. pretty much every time ive said im gonna take a bit i find myself too excited to, ive got a big hyperfixation on CC at the moment and all of the good reception has gotten me even more hyped bghdghfh. you have NO idea how much i stare at the fanart you guys have made for me ily....). for my next project i plan on writing a lot in advance and pacing myself better (especially because i want to do longer chapters for it), but for CW im happy to just speed through!!
^^ helped along by the fact that im trying to avoid making chapters long for the sake of it now. i dont really have a goal in mind for wordcount with this next set, because i think i want to think in what progresses more than that
and thank you!! teehee the thing i want to move to next is so much sillier but i do enjoy taking a real good dip into The Horrors....... not sure where i'll be going after wwww but its planned to be a HUGE undertaking anyway. but i will probably be returning to the horrors. and maybe CVD ive missed her my love
#ask#i probably got so invested in donnie because i am an INSANE workaholic when it comes to my writing#its my one Thing. i was always considered prodigious in it and nothing else so i attach pretty much Everything to it#im the person who wrote a 11k word narrative essay in seventh grade. for funsies#just the kind of person i am. ive always been super go big or go home with it#i like the DAZZLE..... i live to impress. probably why i was mad CL couldnt be a oneshot#it was such a flex.... oh well#finally having actual praise for my work. like REAL praise#is what's making me go so fast and so hard. ive been starved!!#i relate a little too much to that fuckin purple guy sometimes and it makes me UNCOMFORTABLEEEEE#even then i feel like i could do better. i could go harder. YOU HAVENT SEEN MY PEAK#okay yes you have it was CL. BUT ONE DAY IM GONNA DO IT AGAIN
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Regarding Insane People Behavior, it is actually normal fandom culture to engage with posts in the way that myself and other bloggers did yesterday - that's why every other response to the branching threads was additive or enthusiastic. Notice that there was only a small, strange handful of sad people who had a problem with this typical social interaction. I may be small here in TES spaces but trust me, I've been around long enough in larger fandoms to know. The "How Dare You Engage With My Public Post" Incident is highly highly abnormal, and it is not the usual culture.
Please continue to reblog posts and share your thoughts respectfully! That's how we keep fandoms alive and healthy and how we've always done it on Tumblr. In fact, it's a load-bearing column of fandom culture. If someone starts being Aggressively Insane at you, that's on them.
#tesblr#i come from a place where we all got so excited about inspiring fanon that we made a whole zine about it for charity#and i look at this interaction like ... wow im sad for you#you will never have the joy of widespread collaborative community creation#i cant believe theyre making me reminisce about LoZ fandom of all places HAHAHAHA#you really dont know what you have until it's missing huh .... xD#the 'How Dare You Engage With My Public Post' Incident of 2024
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people who complain about people singing at concerts are so annoying if you only want to listen to the artists thats what listening at music at home is for. concerts are a social experience you go there to be with other people who like the music as much as you do, you dont get to stop them enjoying it because you dont know what a concert is
#i think people like want to pretend its just them and the artist but like thats not why you go to a concert youre missing the point#there is no greater joy than screaming song lyrics with a bunch of strangers#this seems to be more of an issue with like. those ~aesthetic~ types of people people who are into rock dont care#but like the mitski subreddit was so annoying when her tour was announced it was full of people saying to not sing along#which is just very sad u know#also because i was watching a boygenius concert video and the comments were full of people making fun of one girl in the audience#for singing loudly and not being able to carry a tune#like ok she paid a lot to be there and ur watching it for free on youtube you can keep those opinions to urself#if you dont want to hear other people judt STREAM THE SONG#anyway#im seeing mitski this month i hope everyones chill OSLSJ
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are we all out of mofftiss trauma yet? can we do dracula daily but sherlock holmes and be normal about it? can we all listen to sherlock & co together 👉👈
#sherlock & co#sherlock holmes#dracula daily#i miss the joy i had for sherlock stories when i was still new to them. before i realised how i was being queerbaited and lied to and used.#anyways i hate how the bbc show ruined these stories for me and i want to experience them anew and be insane about them again and just#i dont want to be queerbaited and lied to and used again. and i hope that by listening to sherlock & co or someone starting a sherlock daily#i can have that experience again#anyways fuck you mark gatiss & steven moffatt. know your fucking fanbases better & dont treat them like shit for not being who you expected.
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Could we maybe pretty please have some soft mumscarian? 👉👈
Im so sorry this took so long-
I really love this ship, i hope i can make something better of them in the near future
#i dont even like the finished product- i hope youll find joy in it though <3#i kinda forced myself to finish this maybe thats why#probably#my art#asks#Grem :D#i know it’s you grem 🫵#hermitshipping#hermitcraft#hermitcraft fanart#mumbo jumbo fanart#gtws fanart#grian fanart#goodtimeswithscar fanart#mumscarian#mumbscarian#mumscarian fanart#mumbscarian fanart#i miss my pixels#i should go back to my pixels#i miss my pixel s so mcuh#mumbo jumbo#grian#goodtimeswithscar#gtws#what else to tag#i feel like there should be more tags-#uhhh#oh yeah i was gonna queue this#queued
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if life is categorized by Before Loss and After Loss then I exist in the before but with a countdown to the after. and the countdown is always always present and debilitating. the loss will be debilitating too but i cant help myself. i will always suffer twice.
#i cant let go of it. i cant even enjoy good moments without thinking about how they'll just be memories one day#how they're already memories since moments pass so fast#everything is I'll Miss This and i already miss it and i cant believe once you're gone you're gone forever#and ill never ever see you again. and your shell is in the ground but where did the rest of you go?#should i look at your body one last time? on one hand itll be the last time i see you.#on the other hand it will be the last time i see you.#and the memory of you will die with me too. as if neither ever existed#it impacts me so much too bc i dont feel close to anybody really...and i dont make friends easily#so whats going to happen when the people who have always been there arent there anymore?#im going to be alone for so much of my life.#i will record your voice so im ready for when i cant hear it from the source while also knowing it wont be enough and one day#ill be wishing it lasted longer. it could be 12 hours long and ill want more.#how do you surpass this? it hasn't even happened. when it happens i don't know what ill do. considering my whole life has been#the timer. the countdown. hours and hours of anticipatory grief#and then ill be next. me. some of all thats left of you. it cant be true.#sorry. this gets worse every single year and its been going insane lately#id surprisingly been managing it well for months somehow ! it wouldnt cross my mind...and now its there again#like it accumulated and its all coming out right now. ive been crying for hrs tonight and last night#one day his things will just be things. things ive made and given him will be in my hands again.#talkys#i want to go hug my dad but then ill just cry over how one day i wont be able to....! how do i store it? how do i save it?#how do i preserve it forever....even as i take my own last breath....#i cant believe im the only one of me. and my dad is the only one of him.#i wouldnt want to be reborn as anyone else. i cant believe one day i wont get to draw or eat or be comfy in bed anymore.#i cant take it !! im so scared. ill be scared until the end. and you wont be there to hold my hand. im going to be alone.#and none of those years of grief and joy and memories will matter.#i wonder if it would help to tell him about this. i need something to hold onto for when it happens. anything. but i also know it'll make i#hurt more; obviously. just another piece of him that'll be gone one day
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in all honesty, im feeling a bit burned out on totk, the more i think about it the more i dislike its story and lore, i dont know what to make of it it being so loved by everyone else makes me feel like theres something wrong about me :/ gonna try and take a step back from it all
#ganondoodles talks#i also feel kinda dumb#bc i feel like im both not reading as much into everything as smarter people can#but also am trying to look into it all too deep#like i know nintendy made the game with lots of love and care but i#i cant help but sometiems even feel outright insulted by some of the choices they made#like the continuity problems with botw#man i loved botw so much and i feel kinda stepped on for caring so much about it#is this whats it always like when a new thing for your hyperfixation releases?#its happened with multiple of my past interests...#if i wrote an more about it i just feel like im being hateful - which im not trying to be#i just feel like -fuck me for caring this much-#part of why i was hyped about totk was bc i thought theres gonna be lore and design stuff i can use for my fanworks#but honestly i feel like i dont want to use anything of it#i know usually when you feel like you are the only one feeling like that you are not#but still i feel like im the only one that thinks this game is so .... weirdly disconnected#...almost like spinoff dare i say#nothing fits together#..... i miss koga#everytime i met him i was filled with joy#:(
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God i’m thinking about how easily and unknowingly strangers can grant you salvation like i found it in how my old classmate told me once that i was a kind person and it was the first time i’d ever believed it
in how a coworker once said that i always seem so happy and have a nice smile and i cried about it when i got home since i’d always been told i seem too serious or mean
in how someone once told me i was good at comforting them when i’d always thought i was bad at it
Just god they’re out there somewhere and i barely remember what they looked like and we’ll never cross paths again but they changed me so deeply, they’re out there but they’ll never know how often i revisit those memories and think of myself even just a little more kindly they’re out there and i don’t know them but they’re the most important people in the world to me somehow
#me?? having a Night™️?? more likely than you’d think#im missing the people i never really knew#and im stuck echoing their words to myself#it’s honestly so important to hear things from people who don’t have an agenda to hurt you#who didn’t form a perspective of you at 14 and never let it go#i dont know#it’s just insane how badly ive always felt about myself#how inherently true i thought it was that i was mean or cold or unlikeable#only to have so many people tell me differently the past few years#and i still feel so mean and cold and unlikeable so often because of the people close to me!!#and i probably will forever to some extent!!#and it’s such an awful feeling#but just knowing even one person saw me as kind or happy is such a balm to that pain#that even if every person i meet from here on out found me flawed#there was at least one that saw kindness and joy in me?? that’s healing#idk#idk im emotional and tired and just want to believe i can be a good person sometimes#and sometimes i feel like that one ‘you’re so nice’ i received three years ago is the only thing holding me together sometimes#god just ignore me
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The thing is, I desperately want to feel something about real life. At this point it's becoming a little bit absurd. I've been to concerts and to funerals. I've seen the Alaskan mountains and the Dead Sea. I've been thrown into scary situations and wildly cool ones. Why does my entire emotional range, no matter what I'm confronted with, fall somewhere between "mild interest" and "deep irritation"? Why can't I feel anything from looking at a beautiful sunset, or decorating my new apartment? Why doesn't coming home feel joyful, and leaving again feel sad? When I get promoted into a crazy position that I wanted so badly and is super exciting, why can't I feel proud and exhilarated? All I've got is varying levels of anxiety.
The strongest highs and lows I think I've ever felt in my life have been from reading or writing about pretend things happening to pretend people. Why can't I seem to eke even a drop of that investment out of something happening in MY OWN LIFE? I work out. I try to eat right. I do yoga. I try to invest in the people who live around me, and create connections. I spend time doing real-world things, even when I don't feel like it. I genuinely don't know what else I'm supposed to be doing at this juncture. And yet I suspect that Anne of Green Gables experienced a greater emotional range in any given 24 hours of her life than I have in decades.
#grace for ts#and its not that i cant be SAD#its just that it comes out weirdly#when i traded in my car i CRIED the entire 30 minute drive home in the new car#when i left philly and the people there i'm going to miss? nothing#but when it comes to joy or excitement. like real excitement like little kids have. i dont even know if im capable of that#this post is brought to you by the fact that i teared up over the moon landing in call the midwife lol#but would i have teared up if i was there for the moon landing in real life???#ALMOST CERTAINLY NOT. i would have been like huh. cool.
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Trying to keep myself from writing a snarky reply to a 2 year-old reddit comment claiming W101 only has “mild story elements”
#I’m sorry but so much of the wiz reddit community just doesn’t get it 😭#ik there are plenty of us who are also on reddit and you guys are all chill 🫶#it’s the spacebar mashers I gotta restrain myself around#like how you gonna sit there n tell me u DONT have a favorite character??#how do they not get super excited seeing lgbt and nd characters#HOW DO THEY NOT KNOW THE JOYS OF HAVING BLORBOS#i get it I get it u can play a game however u want. but ur just missing so much joy when u spacebar mash 😭
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to anyone who still remembers my unreality hank. like. when i drew him and pretended(roleplayed) as if He Real in Real Life,
ive always thought abt bringing him back but i stopped since it felt. stupid and Cringe of me to do. but knowing that cringe is dead and that ive gotten a smidgen of motivation,
would you guys want him back? like. me continue a lil storyline and continue drawing the wimble as if He Real.
#if you dont know what im talking abt. search w the Unreality tag in my posts#but yes i have always had this guy in the back of my mind#it was a silly little thing to do that brought me joy and i am starting to miss it. so i mention it#just idk how many people actively miss the guy and or want the Wimblet back#i have a funny lil storyline in mind but unsure really#^slimsqueaks#maintagging so this gets out there a little#madness combat#hank j wimbleton#madness combat hank#unreality#idk if people like my hank design. the Wimblet. but i hope#this would be good timing anyway since. senior year almost upon me
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Some covers make me think how much progress I've made in a (relatively) short time
#video#like woah its only been a year. insane#bonus points if you recognize the song btw. absolute banger im in fuckin love with it#you've Not heard the first two chromatics(?) btw#i dont think i ever made them public! not here at least#back then i wasnt sure if i was gonna stick to the whole fnf cover thing so theres a lot i havent shown of my early stuff#my very early covers dont sound that good anyway you arent missing much :v#listen. i had to learn how to make a chromatic while also learning how fl studio works AÑLDSFKMDS#(i still dont know that much tbh 💥)#but you have no idea how overjoyed back then. when she first starts Singing. it made me reminiscence when i started utau covers#the joy of starting something new and things actually working
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Fantastics x GIANNA, mini, and JELLY
#fantastics from exile tribe#fantastics#jr exile#jpop#fanta mgz#when i tell you i aM SCREAMINGGGG#KEITO ON THE JELLY COVER ARE YOU SEEING THIS?????#IDC IM GETTING THEM ALLLLLL#for those that dont know#i think everyone has their own fan vice. whether it be photocards posters etc. mine is MAGAZINES#we will not speak of the amt of money i spend on shipping tho ok :))))) they bring me great joy :)))))#AND these are three of my favorite publications so this is really a christmas gift to me#all thats missing from my faves is vivi and now i'll be getting yusereya hawaii vivi cover!!!!!! good time to be me#i should really have a tag for fanta magazine appearances lol ill work on that
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mild malding because i LIKE the idea of phee/tech but imo it's being poorly set up... like headscratch theres potential for a really great dynamic here that's just not being explored in their interactions because the interactions are kinda just flirting to the point that since we have so little of them interacting without that that it feels a little. forced? like i can seeeeeee the concept and i DO like it i just agh please take more time with it
#tbb#.txt#tbb spoilers#maybe im just a grouch because i dont flirt until im miles deep in a friendship like. argh#be better friends you could be better friends first#i know you have it in you to be better friends than what we see on screen aaaargh#also a note that i havent rewatched the other phee episodes so if im missing interactions that make you go Just Look At Them Sparks lmk#but off the top of my head i cant remember any that really solidified them as like. idkkk Actually Enjoying Each Others Company As People#and they COULD i KNOW THEY COULD THE POTENTIAL IS THERE JUST /SHOW IT TO US/ RATHER THAN#/TELLING/ US WITH THE FLIRTING DIALOGUE AND THE WRECKER BEING LIKE 'YOUVE GOT COMPETITION'#JUST SHOW USSSSS AGAGGAGAHAHAGHAGRGHGFGRGRHR#anyways. good morning.#no im gonna keep going actually because its like its Only phee whos invested in this relationship atm and its just like shallow flirting#like there was the lights thing and then...?#SORRY FOR BEING A KILLJOY i dont rank flirting very high on things that are important to a relationship its like#ok. she called him brown eyes. and?#SORRY#have i lost my joy and whimsy. flirting means nothing to me. sorrh#and at least from where im sitting its judt like. tech mildly reacting to her flirting. WHICH I GET BECAUSE HES NOT USED TO IT BUT LIKE#TJATS WHY WE NEED TO SEE THEM BE FRIENDS MORE TOO
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Do you guys wanna talk about Shadowpact. Do you guys please wanna talk about fucking Shadowpact. Please. Please.
#shadowpact#dc#dinu yells into the void#dinu yells in the void#temporary respite from like digimom mode because im thinking about shadowpact sooo much again#I MISS LAURA I MISS RORY I MISS ZAURIEL I MISS DANNY I MISS EVE I MISS JUNE I MISS JIM I MISS DEC!!!!#i am soooooo overdue a shadowpact reread but not only that i am so due to just like. reading the full chronologies of every member#its not like 2020 2021 anymore and my media analysis opinions taste etc has changed wildly so like. i wanna come to everybody in fresh eyes#i want to relearn the joy and what was so special about these characters. even if i get to the awful stuff i still want that magic#you know.#i dont think illl get to it anytime soon. im still in like digimon mode and i dont plan on leaving#but. slams the ground. CAN WE GIVE IT UP FOR SHADOWPACT!!! ONE OF THE BEST TEAMS DC EVER MADE#and can we kill bill willingham too whilst we're at it. please. thanks
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