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Hello! I shouldn't be awake cause it's 12:24 AM BUT very quick question: do you have any advice or questions you ask yourself that help with character building, storyline, or worldbuilding? Cause I'm making a TMNT iteration and the struggle bus is crashing into a brick wall repeatedly 😔
Oh gosh. OU-- OKAY HERE WE GO
CHARACTER BUILDING
If you're going for your own version of TMNT, you can basically do anything you want with the characters. They can have whatever personality you like! They can be whoever you want them to be, however you want them to be! When you've got a group of four main characters, though, you want to make sure they're distinct enough from one another where they don't overlap.
Something I usually do to figure this out is like, what's their worst fear, what would they feel a perfect life would be like, what are their short-term goals and long-term goals, etc. and move on to smaller stuff like quirks. How do they stand for a long period of time? Do they eat polite or messily?
Another thing about character building is thinking about where you want your character to be at the end of it. What is the Final Form of your character? Now smack them back down the mountain because they gotta climb that shit themselves. Think of it like this; if you want a character to have character development during the story, you've gotta think about how you want them to be by the end.
I'll use Rise Leo in the movie as an example here because it's obvious. By the end of the movie he's selfless; he's sacrificed himself to save his family and has made peace with dying alone because of it. At least the world is saved. At least his brothers are alive. We go back a little, and we have Leo realizing that his selfishness, his need to be right and making reckless decisions without relying on the people around him and trying to do everything on his own, has all put the people he loves in danger. We go back even further and find Leo overconfident and sloppy because he believes it's not a big deal. He's not taking things seriously, he's more interested in being the center spotlight, he wants to be the best.
The good thing about TMNT is that you can kind of pick and choose personality traits and character arcs from other canon iterations, or you can mesh them together. If you get stuck, look at the other "versions" of that character and decide which traits you want them to have, or which traits you don't.
STORY
Story isn't something I can exactly give a whole lot of help on, because it's your story. HOWEVER, I can explain the snowflake method, which I feel is a good way to figure out what you wanna do.
The snowflake method is a way of outlining a story. First you write a one-sentence synopsis of what your story is about. I'll use Mystic Forest for an example; "Four teenage mutant ninja turtles live in the forest and fight to protect two worlds from the Shredder".
Then you make it into three sentences. "Four TMNT live in a forest and discover that their world is connected to another; the Yokai Realm. A man named Oroku Saki, moonlighting as the Shredder, wants to make a deal with an ancient Yokai to open the worlds to each other once more. The turtles learn how to master magical yokai weapons in order to defeat him."
Then you can take each of those sentences and expand upon them. Break everything down further, in threes. Explain more and more each time.
Basically, figure out your concept, you can go more easily from there.
WORLDBUILDING
Ah the bane of my existence and yet my most beloved. You can get caught up in worldbuilding SO easily. Make sure you're working on the stuff that really matters to the story. So, if your turtles are living in the city, maybe write a paragraph or two about what the city is like. Is it grungy and rainy with lots of shadows and the distant glow of lights, or is it bright and bustling with neon everywhere with a seedy underbelly?
Is the vibe of the story fantasy, sci-fi, a mix, something else?
If the turtles have powers, how do they work? What are their weaknesses? What are their strengths? What does it cost to use the powers? What stops them from using them all the time?
What are the locations your characters will go to during the story? What are those places like? Are they buildings or the outdoors?
There's a lot of worldbuilding resources out there, you can really go ham on stuff just looking up "worldbuilding questions" and get a ton of prompts to think about. When building up a specific location I like to think about the five senses; what's it look like, what's it smell like, what's it sound like, what's the taste in the air, what's the feeling of the buildings or the plants or the barren wasteland? etc.
Figuring out how the turtles came to be is usually something most people do, but it's not something that's a requirement. Also, some people do stuff in a different order; they'll worldbuild first, then figure out story, then figure out characters. I end up doing that a lot of the time. Sometimes it's story, then characters, then worldbuilding. Just depends on what you feel most comfortable with.
If you find yourself hitting a wall, maybe stop and ask yourself why you're smashing into a wall and not going around it. Maybe something isn't clicking right. Back up. Look at what's around it. Character not quite feeling like you wanted them to? Look over what role you've given them, check the other characters, see if they have the relationships you want them to have. Back up even further. Are they in the correct place in the story?
And uh, when in down, throw spaghetti at the wall and see what sticks. :) thinking outside the box and being purposefully ridiculous can something help stretch that imagination muscle.
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Here's something with Kuroo and demon reader!! Sorry if it's long and winded I wrote it on a whim. If you wanna add on, feel free to
Kuroo x demon reader
Something Kuroo wasn't expecting was to see you next to his bed. He had gone to sleep the night before thinking about all the work that had to be done, but those work thoughts would have to be put on hold now with you, a cute demon from the depths of hell here to probably take his soul.
Well, it wasn't such a bad way to go.
"What are you?" He asked you, earning a bland response in return.
"A demon, duh." He waited for elaboration, but you had nothing to elaborate on. When he asked why you were here, you merely blinked and replied with a response Kuroo was certainly not expecting. "I'm here to tempt you humans into doing heinous actions!"
Everyday, you stuck by him, trying to dye his heart black by convincing him to give into sin. Keyword: trying. In reality, you'd be right at his side, looking at anything and everything that could possibly be used to do some bad things. However, you got side tracked on your mission real hard when you had to deal with his tired ass all the time.
At one point, you delegated yourself as his housedemon. You couldn't have your human tired all the time! If that happened, he wouldn't be able to do crime and damn himself to hell!
Kuroo flinched as you slammed your hands on the table, making the bowls of instant ramen clatter. "What's up?"
"Enough of this shit!" You scowl, glaring at the deliciously unhealthy food. Kuroo raised a brow and brought his chopsticks up to slurp some more noodles. "We've literally had this instant crap since the beginning of the fucking week!! I've probably eaten this more than real food staying in this sinkhole! Do you humans always eat this THIS often?!"
"Uh, well I mean I guess so," he sighed, exhaustion expressed in his eye bags. "Packaged instant food is just convenient and quick. Sometimes, it's all we have the time and patience to cook." Kuroo was going to continue before he saw your scowl deepen.
"HUMAN!" You bellowed, eyes glaring a red hue pointed directly at Kuroo. He straightened himself up and gulped. Your tail came lashing out, horns growing from your head while your wings expanded to make you look as intimidating as possible. He nearly toppled over in fear when you pointed a sharp finger at him. "From tomorrow on, you will receive three meals a day. And not instant meals!! You need to eat real food and worry about getting enough rest, you dumbass!"
"...huh?" Kuroo watched dumbfounded. You sat down and continued to angrily slurp your noodles. Your tail, horns, and wings slowly sink back.
In the moment he was confused on why you cared so much, but he's truly grateful that you spend so much time making sure he's okay. Even if your reason was to see him commit arson or something. And honestly, with you here with him, he can really see improvements in his life.
So while he was off doing work, you had grocery runs and laundry to do. But Kuroo did admit, you were very determined with whatever you did, just not successful all the time.
Kuroo liked having you around, and he knew you liked being around him. He enjoyed coming home to someone and being pampered. He enjoyed catering to you, flustering you, and, even though you're a hotheaded brat, spoiling you with affection the closer you two got. There were so many things he loved about you.
He especially enjoyed your adorable attempts to get him to do some crime. In your book, crime was something as petty as dropping trash on the floor and not picking it up. It made it even cuter when you'd catch yourself discouraging him from doing something unnecessary or reckless. The way you showed you cared for him when you didn't mean to always makes his heart flutter.
"THROW IT IN RECYCLING! Think before you go ahead and throw a whole fucking bag of trash into the goddamn waste bin! Now keep sorting."
"Do you wanna burn down this place? You have to put it to medium low! Don't keep it on high."
"Go feed these scraps to the alley cats. They've probably been eating dry food for days. Also, can you bring these to the fruit vendor while you're at it?"
"Oi, oi, careful! You're gonna get hurt if you do it like that. Go take a bath. I can handle it."
Who knew the demon would be so virtuous?
Oh how the turn tables.
There was something, though, that Kuroo was shying away from. He wanted to pursue a relationship with a demon, which was weird in itself. But he felt even weirder when he thought about him. Him being on top of you. With your clothes off—
"Welcome home, idiot rooster."
"I'm h... Where's your shirt?"
"Oh this? It got too hot and I didn't wanna turn on the AC so I just decided to take off my shirt. I mean, I still have my apron on so it's fine."
"..."
"Rooster, you're red all over."
"Not only are you dense, you have no decency."
"Hah?? Listen, us demons don't have such frivolous manners of dress!"
"THAT'S EVEN WORSE—"
He can't help but let his mind wander, especially since you two are pretty much close enough to the point you'll take baths together. Your gestures, the outfits you liked to wear out, heck even your smile and voice make his Kuroo Jr rage. He didn't know how to approach you with his fantasies. That was until one day.
"Honey, I'm HOOOOOOME!" Kuroo's obnoxious voice rang from the genkan. He took off his shoes, waiting for the sound of approaching footsteps and maybe an annoyed comment on his very extra greeting. But instead he got nothing. Kuroo frowned and went further into his home, placing his bag down before calling out softer again.
"Y/n?" He looked around. He went closer towards the bedrooms and couldn't help his furrowing brows when he heard some shifting, pants, and whimpers from inside his room. He knocked on the door before gently turning the knob. "Y/n? Are you oka—" His breath hitched as he slowly pushed the door open.
Inside was you, curled up into a ball with only one of his hoodies on you, a sex toy he didn't recognize covered in lube being weakly pushed in by trembling fingers. The hoodie was already a little big on him, but you looked like you were engulfed in it. He couldn't see your face, but he could see your bare ass on display, tail out and swishing rapidly. You were panting heavily, mewls and whines leaving you as you tried to push the toy in and out, so absorbed in your own world you failed to notice Kuroo's presence and massive erection.
"Mm...! T-Tetsu..." You moaned oh so sweetly.
Kuroo wanted nothing more than to torture you with that toy, pushing it in so roughly and suddenly that you'd cum immediately. He was jealous of a toy. Oh so envious that a piece of plastic had been used to fill your desires this whole time while he was suppressing his own. He wanted to play with your tail and cock until you were begging, sobbing to be filled. And the moment he would... Kuroo would be sure that he wouldn't stop till you couldn't cum any longer.
You've tempt him long enough.
Hope this was okay I tried hard to make it more spicy 😫
- kiss kiss fall in love anon
I FINALLY FINALLY GOT AROUND TO READING THIS AND OH MY- I am obsessed just. Imagine. Kuroo just actually taking those steps after he hears your pretty moans, grabbing onto your tail… He just goes "You called?" Before taking the toy from your hands, pushing it in himself, making you buck into it desperately. He'd get flustered once you ask him to fuck you, though. He's never had sex with a demon how was this supposed to work? Probably the same as with anyone… And oh the sounds you both make when he finally tips you over the edge on his cock… You were way more perfect for him than he ever could've imagined.
#kuroo smut#haikyuu smut#hq smut#haikyuu x reader#kuroo x reader#kiss kiss fall in love anon#answered#also demon reader taking care of kuroo? my heart#poor overworked kuro :(#love him sm#also just so u know anon i am kissing you and your galaxy brain rn#ily <3<3#felix thirsts
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Since I hit 200 fics posted to AO3, I thought I'd do the ABC's of fic meme, because I'm only four letters off from having the full set and I'm not entirely sure WHEN I might fill those letters. If I do, I'll just do another one with DIFFERENT FICS.
Fun facts: I have 15 fics that start with "and" and 9 that start with "this."
Given CR is my main fandom and makes up the bulk of my fics, I tried to make them all CR unless I couldn't (note: I could) and stuck to one-shots only (if I could- note: i could). If at all applicable, I chose the ones that I love that don't have as much attention because why not circulate them a bit?
I'm not apologizing for how many are Tombtakers-related. Those are my children and also have the least attention because... I'm fixated on minor characters.
OKAY LET'S DO THIS.
A: all the things we gave up for the things we could gain. (Creecien) I have been told that this fic actively punches you in the face and steals your lunch money.
B: born for the scythe and the thorn. (Jayne Merriweather) Most of my B fics broke the threshold of "a decent amount of attention." This one was written for Critmas last year and I can't even remember if I actually let it hit the main tag. It's just a little Jayne backstory fic.
C: cut my teeth on the bread of pure temptation. (Essek & Lucien) This is one of my only Essek POV fics. Just a random meeting between Essek and the Tombtakers in the style of the Last Temptation of Christ, because I'm a pretentious asshole.
D: don't be chosen- make the choice to choose. (Kingsley & Orly) Another fic I wrote for last year's Critmas. A little conversation between Orly and King.
E: every dream i dream is founded in what came before. (Lucien) I know I link this one a lot and I didn't want to do it again, but it's one of my favorite Lucien character studies.
F: for the laughter in her eyes, i'd be a madman to refuse. (Lucien & Jester) This one actually broke my kudos threshold but shhh. I love it.
G: give me black cat bones as the clock strikes thirteen. (Tombtakers) A Tombtakers caper-fic that I love dearly.
H: he'll never know how much you've done. (Creecien) This one is set in the same timeline as this church takes no conversions but it doesn't require you to have read it. It's just some weird Creecien h/c with the usual Lucien bastard shit.
I: it's all swords and spades so cut me slowly. (Kash & Zahra) a rare CR1 fic from me. I just love writing Kash POV.
J: just tell me i'm allowed to stay right where you are. (Creecien) LOOK THIS WAS THE ONLY J FIC. I'm not picking the Creecien fics on purpose. (mostly)
K: the king lies bleeding. This one is, admittedly, the ninth part of an overarching fic series so it means nothing to most people unless you just wanna read Lucien getting dom-bombed by Cree for being reckless while Caleb is just like "that's hot." It's my only K fic okay.
L: life is not a game that has a clear and present winner. (Beau & Molly) A little Beau and Molly friendship fic with Molly character development.
M: may your princes understand you (may your wolves get out alive). (Jester & Artagan) This one also beat my kudos threshold but it was the lowest of the CR M's. And I still love this fic- the villain of it was the OC that Ira replaced in OUADYA.
N: never trust the tenor of the skies. ANOTHER FIC FROM EARTHQUAKE WEATHER. IT WAS THE ONLY N. Whatever man. The combination redemption arc/corruption arc is great. You just probably don't want to come in on the middle. (also yes I know i got the god wrong from Caleb's backstory, but it's an AU)
O: once you see the midway, you've already lost. (Jester and Artagan) I think we're seeing a theme in what I write. This one is a cute little thing I wrote for Critmas. I love writing Artagan interacting with other fey.
P: prayed at your altar with a pilgrim's devotion. (Creecien) Yeah, look, shut up. This one is just MEAN. And a horror story.
Q: No fic.
R: remember me as something bigger than i was. (Yasha & Kingsley) Another Critmas story. I love writing stories about the Nein accepting Kingsley's decision to treat Molly like a brother and adopting him as THEIR baby brother too.
S: said the fool to his majesty dethroned. (Molly & Lucien) I was trying not to do super recent fics, but most of the S-fics were either multichapters or fics that had plenty of attention and this one was my favorite Mollymauk Week fic.
T: trapped in the walls of my skin. (Lucien) WHO WANTS TO READ A HORROR STORY ABOUT COMING BACK TO YOUR BODY USED AND VIOLATED. SURE YA DO.
U: No fic.
V: a victim that doesn't play fair. (Beau) This one was the only fic that started with v. Warnings for gladiator slavery, etc. It has a happy ending.
W: when the ice melts, will we still be skating circles?: (Creecien) This was my first Creecien fic, guys!! It's just as terrible as you'd expect of these assholes!
X: No fic.
Y: you will be the king no longer when we reach the glade. (Jester and Lucien) Every great Lucien redemption story starts with a panic attack. Also I love the reoccurring lines in this one. And also star Molly.
Z: No fic.
#critical role fic#critical role fanfic#lucien nonagon#cree deeproots#beauregard lionett#mollymauk tealeaf#jester lavorre#creecien#kingsley tealeaf#artagan
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There are a lot of fictional characters I absolutely adore, but if I met them in real life I would probably run for the hills lol.
I have the benefit of being able to dissect and understand them and why they act they do, which is not something I'd be able to do in real life.
I also just don't wanna get involved in anything dangerous.
Honestly Yuu is Saint for putting up with some of these boys, if it were me I would just hide away and avoid them. Maybe that sounds harsh, but I'm not a saint or a daredevil.
Do you have any characters you love but probably wouldn't like if you met them for real?
First of all: Mood.
I tend to like the shady, dangerous type of characters (most being villains), so I 100% know the feeling of "I'd run from this person if they actually existed". Also, to answer your question, yes of course! I would probably hate some of my faves if I had to meet them. Them there, me here. This is a zoo, I'm watching and analyzing, not interacting lololololol
I think Yuu's... Kinda reckless nature is in part because they canonically have no knowledge of Disney and Disney villains? They might have forgotten (probably via magic) or they might come from a Universe where Disney doesn't exist. I mean, how in the fuck did they not immediately recognize Mickey fuckin Mouse's silhouette?
But also, yes, a Saint.
And third of all: same.
If I got stuck there, knowledge of Disney or not, being magicless in a school of magic will immediately make me go on alert. I'd be afraid of every single person there until proven ok enough to approach.
At the same time, I do have a temper, so I might verbally fight some people. Riddle? I'd call him out. Leona? Absolutely not, nope, away from that one, I am. Azul? I wouldn't even talk to him, contract dealers are my worst nightmare. Like, Leona at least is direct to the point, he gets angry he kills you. Azul could pull some shit and take control over my life and I'd hate it so much I'd rather drink arsenic.
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I Don't Count
Word Count: 1,479 Warnings: Drinking. Mentions of a car accident (briefly). Soft caretaker baby Will Miller. It's just fluffy. Author's Note: Fully formed this out of my need for a hug and comfort and decided I wanted to write it for the only blonde haired, blue eyed man I'd ever let get in these guts.
MASTERLIST
The Millers still had a landline. Of course they did. Benny’s big brother was very staunch about his boundaries. If he wasn’t going out after work, his cellphone went off as soon as he walked across the threshold. If you needed to reach him for any reason after that, you could call the house phone.
“But it better be a goddamn emergency,” he’d always say.
She bit her thumbnail as it rang, leg bouncing to a nonsensical rhythm. A drumming only she could hear. Once, twice. It was her last ditch effort to reach her best friend, to hear his voice telling her everything is okay. Three times and,
“Hello?”
Not Benny.
She contemplates hanging up, her voice stuck somewhere in her chest. This was most certainly not an emergency no matter what the bottle she’d been nursing had to say about it. But she can’t. Can’t speak. Not to Will, not about this.
Can’t let the phone fall from her ears. Can’t even breathe.
“Shane,” he sounds concerned, “are you okay?”
“I uh—“ the breath releases, “I was looking for Benny.”
A small laugh on the other end, “it’s Tuesday, Sunshine, he’s at the gym.”
Sunshine, his nickname for her. It started out as Sunshane but he got pissed at the autocorrect of his own brain, stopped fighting it after a while.
A sharp sound rings through, a whistle to get her attention.
“You didn’t answer my question,” it’s warm, “are you okay?”
She sniffs, “yeah, Billy—“
Another laugh, both disbelieving and amused, “you can’t lie to me. What’s going on?”
“Just…” another swig, “have Benny call me when he gets home, okay?”
“Are you drinking?” Not amused.
“I’m an adult, Miller, I drink.” It’s harsh.
“Yeah,” another disbelieving laugh, this time at your boldness, “but you sound like shit. Why are you drinking?”
Because I’m forcing my feelings for you onto others and I have the gall to be shocked when it blows up in my face.
“Look,” she’s pacing the kitchen, “just have Benny give me a call when he gets home. I’m really sorry t—“
“Did that fucking boyfriend do something?”
There it is, the sob she’d been swallowing.
“Give me half an hour,” he whispers down the line, “I’ll have my cell if you need anything, okay?” —————
The bottle’s gone when there’s a knock at the door.
She jumps but settles back against the couch, believing it must be coming from somewhere deep within the wine soaked sponge of her brain.
But there it is again, “it’s me, Sunshine,” coming from the other side.
She stands too quickly, blood rushing to her head as her right foot struggles to come back to life. He knocks again, nothing if not persistent.
“Don’t make me bust down this door, you know I can do it.”
She fumbles with the chain lock with wildly inebriated fingers, scratching desperately with her nails to get it through that little fucking hole. It springs free and she’s working at the deadbolt, much simpler, before throwing the door wide to the man on the other side.
“Would you really have busted down my door, Miller?” She slurs out, ever the lightweight.
He shrugs, “yeah but… I would’ve built you a new one so…”
“What's that?” She notices the bags for the first time, swinging idly at his side.
“I figured you were about halfway through the bottle earlier when you called, based on how the swish of liquid sounded on the pho—“
She rolls her eyes, “it's fucking creepy how you do that.”
“—so I brought cheeseburgers.”
She launches unsteadily toward him, wrapping her arms around his midsection.
“May I come in?”
His scent fills her senses, fresh laundry and a hint of Tom Ford as she nods against his broad chest.
Letting go, she stumbles back into the tiny apartment, the couch taking over the entire wall of the living room, and plops back down with her feet tucked under her as she makes grabby hands for the bag in Will’s hand.
He catches her out of his peripheral while he refastens the lock on the door, “can you be patient?”
“Absolutely not,” she whines out, “I'm starving.”
He toes his shoes off at the door and pads to the front of the couch, in front of her, and kneels down. He reaches into the bag and hands her a burger, “I got you two singles because I know you feel self conscious when you try to eat a double. Even when you’re alone.”
“But I’m not alone,” she mumbles through a bite, wrapper torn in half as soon as it touched her hands.
“I don’t count, I’m just Will.”
She almost chokes at that, because he does count.
“I'm really not trying to deep throat a fucking Big Mac in front of my best friend’s older brother.”
“Oh,” he stands and kisses the top of her head, “Is that all I am?”
Absolutely not.
She watches him walk into the kitchen, the clinking of glass and the sound of the tap rushing back out to meet her.
Thoughts swim in her drunk mind, the events of the day—the phone call, the fight, the follow up text messages. Colin’s raised voice still ringing through her ears as he accused her, “I don’t know if it’s Will or Ben but you’re fucking one of them and I’m done!”
“You wanna tell me what happened?” He’s soft, pulling the wrapper from her hands and pushing a glass of water in place of it.
“Um, ya know,” she swallows hard around the lump building in her throat again, “just what typically happens with men in my life.”
He looks defeated, apologetic. Colin’s not the first to accuse her of being with a Miller. It’s been a theme of the last three—Ryan, John, Adam—and this makes four. Four men that William Miller wishes he could add to his confirmed kills list.
That’s not what she wants to hear right now though, no matter how safe his words of protection always make her feel. Because it doesn’t matter.
“I'm sorry,” his heavy hand falls on the bare skin of her calf, sending a bolt of electricity through her body.
She was relieved.
Colin wasn’t right but he wasn’t far off from the truth she’s been hiding.
She’s in love with William Miller.
“Hey, Sunshine” his rough thumb across the smooth skin guides her back, “where are you?”
The alcohol has her still, a looseness in the hurt of her heart that makes up her mind before she fully realizes the words are already coming out of her mouth.
“He’s not wrong, Billy. None of them have really been wrong.”
He laughs, fingers stilled on her leg and she is aching for the movement to return as his stare seeps through her pores.
“You and Benny got something you need to tell me?”
Her breath is shaky.
She trails her fingers along his wrist before placing her palm on the back of his. Now or never.
“I think it’s more like you and I have something to tell Benny.”
He pulls away, blue eyes piercing through her, “you're drunk, Shane.”
“Just enough to not give a shit anymore,” she whispers, lifting herself up to her knees and pressing closer to him, “I know how we look at each other, Will.”
“Benny will kill us.”
She giggles, “I’ve been to his fights, my money’s on you.”
His heart swells as his laughter jumps up to meet hers. This is the first time they’ve been alone together, properly alone, since he realized his love ran deeper than that of just a friend.
When he realized on the last mission that he just really missed the smell of her hair when she gives him a hug. Or the way she laughs the hardest out of everybody whenever he tells a dumb joke.
He came home and, to stop himself from being reckless, made sure that he was only ever around when Benny was. He didn’t want to fuck up Benny’s friendship, that was something his little brother could excel at on his own.
But now, with her full lips inches from his, he decides.
It’s a decision he made less than an hour ago when her name popped up on the caller ID—she’d only called the house phone one other time, a car accident, and that same worry seeped beneath his skin again.
Her fingers run through the soft hair on the side of his head, his lips heavy against hers as he pulls her in and pushes her down.
He breaks away, “Are you sure?”
A question that dies with a crash as she tugs him back to her and he melts against her warmth when—
Her phone vibrates.
Got a figure like a pin-up, got a figure like a doll…
Benny.
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Gwynriel Headcanon - The Summer Solstice
Alright this chapter is extra long so - COMPENSATION
Gwyn woke up to the sun literally shining in her face. Tarquin wasn't here this morning to wake her up as he usually did. She actually liked when he came to wake her up, mainly because she always got him to cover the windows.
Today he didn't come. Gwyn knew why. Last night was, well, the first time she'd ever been kissed and it was by her childhood friend. She used to have a crush on Tarquin but now all her feelings were mixed, because of Azriel.
Faerie wine was very powerful and when people drink it, they forget what happened the entire night. The only reason Gwyn didn't forget was that she had thrown out some of the wine and mixed a lot of water in it. But still, even mixed with water, faerie wine had messed with her actions.
She would never kiss anyone like that. But she was glad it was Tarquin, not anyone else. But she had wanted someone else to be her first kiss beside her mate, and it was not specifically Tarquin.
She finally got up to face the judging faces of everyone. As soon as she got up, her head started paining. Hangover. She mustered enough strength to take a bath and wear her usual leathers. Shit. Because Tarquin didn't wake her up, It was 1pm, she was 4 hours late for training. She ran running down the stairs and in the ground, but she saw no one there.
She then clutched her head which was paining like hell. Azriel then came up beside her and offered something. "What is it? " She asked, her head still paining. "Poison", "What!", "Relax, I'm kidding, it's gonna help with your hangover" Azriel replied.
She took the bottle right from his hand and drunk all of whatever was in it. It definitely wasn't poison but it definitely wasn't good either. Gwyn gave the bottle back to Azriel and wiped her lips with her hands. "Where is everyone? " She asked while sitting down on the grass and extended her legs. She then patted a place beside her.
"Summer Solstice" He replied and sat down beside her. "Oh" Was all she replied. That was why the weather was so much hotter today.
Azriel didn't know what to do next. He knew the effects of faerie wine. He wanted to talk to her, he'd searched the entire of the summer court for her that morning because she wasn't in the dining room for breakfast as usual. Then it hit him to actually check the place she might be in, her room.
When he had went in her room, she was sleeping soundly, her hair slightly on her cheeks. Azriel was relieved. He didn't know what would've happened to him if he hadn't found her. He didn't want to think about it either.
He sat down on his knees beside her bed, he then slightly took the hair out of her pretty face, so he could see it better. She moved to his side and his hand was under her face now. Azriel froze, not knowing what to do.
He just stayed there for hours, not wanting to wake her up, but secretly enjoying the feeling of her face in his hand. Only if he could share this moment, only if she was awake. His shadows were gently around her, playing with her hair but not waking her up.
When she finally shifted and his hand was free, he got up and left. He didn't have an excuse to stay with her anymore and didn't want to deal with his feelings if he did. His shadows were restless, begging him to go back but he didn't.
He then looked at Gwyn, her head tilted back and her hand slightly touching his. He came back to reality and asked, "Are you going to the ball?", "What ball?" She asked. "Tonight's ball, here, in the summer court. "
"Oh, I didn't know there was a ball but I'm probably not going" She was now facing him. "Why", "I don't have anything to wear" She said. "So what, you can go in your leathers" Azriel said jokingly and Gwyn laughed.
Gwyn's laugh was like freedom to Azriel, he loved it. "Yeah and then Quinn will kick us out of the court" She said jokingly but Azriel forced a smile, she still didn't call him Az but she called that pompous ass Quinn.
"You should go, the Nesta and Emerie are also coming" He said. He wanted Gwyn to come to the ball so that he had an excuse to see and talk to her. "Really! " Gwyn said was excited now. "Yeah, the whole inner circle is coming" He said. "Well, then I'm definitely going, I'll see if I have anything to wear" She said and got up and left. "Byee Az" She said and went inside the house, leaking of joy.
Oh god. He had waited a months to finally hear her mouth say his name. Even if it was just 2 letters.
Gwyn couldn't wait to meet Nesta and Emerie and Nyx. She missed them so much. She first went to the dining room to eat something. As soon as she finished her lunch she went to the ground to do some training. Azriel joined her when she was practicing her kicks.
It was and unspoken agreement between them. That whenever the other person approached while you were training, you will practice with them now. Gwyn was panting after two hours of training, they even used knives now, it was Gwyn's speciality but it was Azriel's too. So he always won but still Gwyn never yielded, never.
They were both panting and covered with sweat when Gwyn started running back to the house. "Where are you going" Azriel shouted at her. Gwyn turned back and ran to the house while facing Azriel, "I'm gonna see you at the ball" Was all Gwyn shouted before turning her back to him and running to her room.
When she entered her room, she saw many people a beautiful red dress, it looked like a ball gown and had a note attached to it,
Red always was your colour. ~Quinn
The dress was beautiful, it was around 5pm right now. "You are invited to the ball tonight, our high lord asked us to help you get dressed, please take a seat here" One of the girls said. "You may wanna take a bath first" The other one said.
"Yeah, yeah" Gwyn said and walked into the bathroom. It was just a friendly gesture, right? It meant nothing more, Quinn was just being friendly, wasn't he? At this point Gwyn was questioning all her life choices.
Gwyn didn't waste another moment thinking about it. She took a bath and went out in her room. All the girls were working on her all at once. Someone was putting on makeup, someone was doing her nails and her hair and whatnot. After 2 LOONG hours they were finally done.
Gwyn was looking like she'd always wanted to - beautiful. She wasn't just looking magnificent, she was feeling it too.
The girls then directed her out of the room and took her to the ballroom. The gate was opened and she entered. The people were dancing and singing and they were all so happy. From the corner of her eye she saw Nesta and Emerie. She literally ran towards them.
"I missed you both soo much" She said while hugging them tightly together. They hugged her back to. "Wow Gwyn, youu look beautiful" Nesta said, "She's right, you look hot as hell" Emerie said and Mor shot her a look.
"Thank you, you all look great too" She said to no one in particular. She then saw Nyx in Feyre's hands. She bowed in front of Rhys and Feyre. "High Lord, High Lady, How are you?" She asked them. "We're very good, Nyx missed you a lot" Feyre said and Rhys put a hand around her waist and kissed her temple. Gwyn admired the couple so much. She admired their happiness and hard work. She admired their child a lot too.
"Has he spoken anything yet? " She asked them, playing with Nyx a little bit. He caught her little finger and she smiled. "No, not yet, but I think he's close to it" Feyre said and smiled at her baby.
"Still don't want to talk to others" Someone whispered in her ears, their breath hot on her neck. It was Azriel. He looked great half naked during practice but right now in a suit he practically looked like a god.
When Gwyn turned around, Azriel stopped breathing for a moment. She was looking magnificent. He had never seen her in such a dress. He had never thought he would ever get the chance to do so anyway.
Azriel didn't speak anything for a moment. He couldn't, his voice was stuck in his throat. He was suddenly pushed a little from behind and he blurted out "You look beautiful".
Gwyn smiled, a rare smile which she only reserved for Azriel. Azriel was usually a very composed and cool person, right now, he wasn't. His shadows were playing with Gwyn. They were reckless. They were playing with her hair, her dress, her hands and whatnot. Gwyn started laughing. She enjoyed their company.
Oh god. Gwyn's smile, that smile. Her eyes, her laugh, her smile. God, what Azriel wouldn't do to see her this happy everyday. When Gwyn laughed, he was finally brought back to reality and he realized it wasn't a dream. He then finally got his shadows in a leash and stopped them. They were wrathful when he did that but still listened to him.
"Thank you, you don't look to bad yourself too" She said and walked away. Why didn't I ask her for a dance? It's not too late, I can still ask her.
When Azriel turned around to find Gwyn, he saw that she was with Tarquin, dancing and laughing and smiling. When Tarquin rolled her and dropped her low enough, with his hands on her waist, he whispered something in her ear and Gwyn laughed. He heard her say Thank You before he was interrupted.
"He's in love" Jack, one of the bastards from training said.
"What the hell are you doing here? " Azriel asked. "Tarquin invited all of us. And if you wanna get the girl, don't just brood and stand here, ask her to a dance" He replied.
"I don't need advice from a 16 year old who's barely lived" Azriel said, knowing how paranoid and annoying he sounded.
"Hey! I'm 18 and you might wanna stop being so rude to everyone. I gave you advice cause you desperately needed it, you can take it or leave it."
He started to walk away but "what did you mean by 'he's in love' " Azriel interrupted him.
"He looks at Gwyn just the way she looks at you" Was all he said before walking away.
What did he mean be 'she looks at you', that little shit didn't make anything easier, just more complicated. But one thing he was right about, he should ask Gwyn to dance.
He was just going towards Gwyn when he saw her dragging Tarquin out of the ballroom and into the ground. He followed them and saw Gwyn put a hand over Tarquin's mouth. What the hell was she doing?!?
"Tarquin, just a moment" Gwyn said to him. "But why are we here" Tarquin asked but didn't move her. "Tarquin just keep quiet", "But why-" He was cut off by Gwyn kissing him. Azriel started to walk towards them but he was pushed into the wall by Elain kissing him. His eyed widened. WHAT THE HELL WAS GOING ON!
Then Molly came out of the ball room, in tears. Gwyn stopped kissing Tarquin and again put her hand on his mouth. He didn't interrupt her this time. Gwyn's eyes met Azriel's and Azriel suddenly regretted everything in his entire life.
Then came Tom running after Molly. "Molly I-I'm so sorry" He said. "Why did you kiss her then, WHY?" She started hitting him on the chest now. Gwyn then got away from Tarquin and came in between Molly and Tom. "Molly listen to me" Molly still tried to reach Tom and probably kill him.
"MOLLY" She shouted and Molly finally stopped. "He wanted to kiss you, it's just that you and Samantha were wearing the same dress" "But", "No buts, Tom wanted you to be his first kiss, he told me", it was true. Tom had told Gwyn he wanted Molly to be his first kiss.
Gwyn then cautiously stepped aside. "Is it true?" Molly asked, her voice breaking. "Yes God ye-" Tom was cut off by Molly kissing him. Gwyn smiled at them seeing how happy they were.
Suddenly a black mist surrounded them. That mist which could mean only one thing.
Nightmare Suriels
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Chapter 11 spoilers for Sequels Suck
This review is so late 😭 all I gotta say is working at FedEx AIN'T SHIT. Working 5 days a week and having to get up at 5 in the morning HAS ME SICK. Anywayssss Chapter 11 had me at the beginning...Very peeved 🤐 Randy STILL DOESN'T BELIEVE US? EVEN THO WE WERE ATTACKED BY SOMEONE IN A GHOSTFACE COSTUME?! COME ON MAN. WAKE UP AND SMELL THE ROSES BUDDY CAUSE THIS IS REAL 😭😭😂
We immediately started blaming ourself at the hospital, which we all predicted would happen, but something that stuck out to me before Mickey got coffee was him questioning WHY Derek would go into the house without a weapon. Like I said before, I've been wary of Derek since day one lmaooo I DO NOT want this man near us 😭 however, last time I was like okayyy MAYBE he just wants to protect us, right? But that was a big MAYBE in my mind bc there was still stuff in previous chapters that always made me sus and once again, right after finishing ch 10 I was like maybeee he was just being reckless, but why would he sacrifice himself for someone he barely knows? UNLESS he's trying to play the hero to get us to trust him more and therefore allowing him to get closer just for the sake of his plan. Mickey being like "Why would he go back into that house anyways?" just got me more suspicious lmao However, Mickey saying that made me sus of HIM TOO bc who's to say Mickey isn't trying to use Derek as a scapegoat? Trying to plant a seed of doubt in our mind?
Either way, Derek is sketchy and altho he's super cute looking I just can't trust him 😭 Randy thinking it's weird he went back into the house makes sense since his jealousy could be clouding his judgement lmao but at the same time if Randy THE horror fanatic thinks Derek is sus, I think we should keep our guard up. I still can't believe he didn't believe us about Stu 🙃 we don't have physical proof and that's the problem. Maybe we should start carrying a camera everywhere just to, BY SOME MIRACLE, get a pic of at least one of them. The proof would be irrefutable unless the pic wasn't clear enough. Maybe try to get their voice on audio too 🤡
Atleast it was revealed in ch 11 that the boys survived their stab wounds bc of the hospital. But like Randy brought up, how the hell did they escape the hospital? Why are they killing random college students? How many people have they killed just to survive? There are too many questions for Randy to actually believe us. The scene with Derek was really sad even if I don't trust him 😫 Derek asking us if we wanted him to beat Billy's ass had me like plz do 😂 telling him he needed to stay away had me grateful and sad bc it's bc of our sociopathic boys we can't live a normal life 😭
The scene of the cafe had me like awww 😍 this story has me simping hard for Meeks 🥴 AND I'M NOT READY FOR US TO LOSE HIM. I'll always be Billy and Stu's girl but Randy's got me feeling things 😏😂😂 Even Dewey could see he liked us and the fact that Randy called us attractive? I SCREAMED. Dewey's like "Mhm. Attractive?" Randy - " I have eyes Dewey." I lost it 😫 likeee yesss ofc were hot asf. And when Randy admitted he didn't know what he'd do if he lost us? AHHHHH I'M DONE 🤣 and Billy calling us had me shaking. The fuck you want man 🙄 I might DEEP DOWN wanna skip the angst and just makeout with you while you pick my 5'0 ass up but that doesn't mean you're still not James 2.0 🤡 Idc what the stab movie says, I ain't moaning in your ear until you stop killing our besties 😂 You ain't SHIT and we deserve better even if deep down we still love you and Stu.
Sorry to hear about ur job being tiresome; I could imagine! Especially with the holidays and everyone ordering everything online rn 🥴🎁 My father gets up at 5 and freaking hates it I haven't had to do that crap in years and I'm glad cause I'm too much of a night owl 😴. Here's to hoping you get a great few days off soon to rest up for the Holidays! ❤
Ikr? YN is fed up with Ray acting like we're all just seeing shit. Come on! But if I was in Randy's shoes; I'd be leery too w/o proof (Denial.)
Fr Billy and Stu are selfish assholes that are like that little kid that doesn't know how to handle his crush and being hurt she rejected him so he's a lil mean shithead about it. 🙄
Lolol I'm glad you're guessing...You're warm on a few guesses but we'll see! I'm writing plot as we go bc I only know the ending and even that is changeable
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Memories // Matthew Gray Gubler x Reader
Sixth blurb request! For @paniconthepitch Requests are still open!
I know this was suppose to be a blurb, but I got carried away soooo :) enjoy that.
I really like this one guys
Summary - Readers boyfriend breaks up with her and she heads to Matthews house, where she recalls all the times she knew she was in love with Matthew.
Word Count - 2.7k
Prompts - "Just shut up and kiss me." & "I need a place to stay."
You know those days where you think they are going so well, and suddenly, the worst possible outcome of the day happens?
That was today for me.
After such a great date night, I didn't quite imagine myself walking down my boyfriends street crying.
Or should I say ex-boyfriend.
I trudged down the road, my fists clenched at my sides and head held as low as it could physically go without detaching from my body. I knew that moving in with him was a risky move, but I didn't have much choice. I had been kind of couch surfing for a while and he offered to let me stay at his house. A stable roof over my head.
Or so I thought.
Now here I was, heading in no particular direction with only a small suitcase dragging behind me, a wallet in my hand and a phone in my pocket. I had been walking for about 20 minutes. Turning down random streets, not really paying attention to what was happening. Here's another question for ya.
Have you ever heard of the saying, 'When it rains it pours.'?
Well I have. And I am currently experiencing it. Just as I turned onto what seemed to be the first familiar street I had seen in the past 20 minutes, it started *raining*. But not just sprinkling, no, I wasn't that lucky. It was a total downpour.
I looked up at the green sign above me.
*Oakland Street*
That was Matthew's street!
See, Matthew and I had been friends for a long time. I considered him family. His mom and my mom were great friends, and still are. She visits Marilyn still. But I rarely see him anymore, he's always busy filming which is completely understandable. And now your probably thinking.
*If he was such a good friend, why didn't you ask him for help when you were couch surfing?*
Well the short answer is that I was embarrassed of being basically homeless. I look up to him and I didn't want him thinking I was a lost cause or helpless little girl.
But I had no choice now.
I trudged up to his door in my now soaked clothes. I was still crying, despite me *really* trying to hold it together.
It was 9:38 and I was hoping he was still up. Chances are he was, judging by the many sleepovers we had in the past where he would stay up until 4 am. I knocked softly on the door, backing up a few steps from it. I wiped my face a little, trying to dry it from tears and raindrops, but miserably failing.
The door opened slowly to reveal Matthew in plaid pajama pants and a white tee. As expected, he was holding a cup of coffee, which he quickly set down on a table near the door.
"Y/n?" He tilted his head, not coming out of the doorway. I was sure I looked like quite the mess right now. Soaked clothes, flushed face, messy hair, exactly what I *didn't* want him to see.
"I need a place to stay." I was now looking down, tears welling up in my eyes again from sheer embarrassment. I could feel my fists clenching together, nails sure to leave bruises in my hand.
"Come in, come in." He waved me in. I kept my head down as I walked through his door. "Are you alright? What happened?" I had a problem with Matthew where I just couldn't lie to him, it had been like that all our lives. He was so hard to keep things from, whether it was because he was my best friend or because it was so hard to look into those soft brown eyes and tell a lie.
"I've been living with Ben for a while, because I haven't exactly had enough money to keep up with rent payments... But he just broke up with me." I looked up to see pity written across his face. "Please don't look at me like that. I know it's pitiful." I leaned my head all the way back on his couch, staring at the ceiling.
"I'm not trying to show pity y/n, I'm just worried about you. Why didn't you tell me you were having troubles?" He put his hand on my knee, shaking it for an answer.
"Because I knew you would look at me like that!" I waved my hands around his face.
"Whatever you say. Just tell me what happened." As soon as I got a few words out, I was tearing up again.
*"I just don't understand Ben! I want to understand! You never talk to me anymore." I was gesturing wildly with my hands, something I had picked up from Matthew at a young age. I was trying to get my point across.*
*"I feel like I'm taking care of you y/n! I don't need a child I need a girlfriend!" His eyes held so much hate, much different from the soft green ones I had fallen for a few months ago.*
*"What are you even talking about? I just got a job Ben. I clean the house every week. I cook dinner for you, and I'm paying part of the rent! What more do you want from me?" I felt so confused and defeated, the longer I talked the quieter my words became. "If you want me to leave I will. Is this some sick, twisted way to say you don't love me anymore?" He went silent for a moment.*
*"I don't love you anymore." His arms hung heavy at his side. Are you kidding me?*
*"Did I do something wrong?"*
*"You're just, you're hard to love y/n." What the fuck is that suppose to mean?*
*"Fuck you Ben! I did nothing to you." I ran to our shared room, packing my suitcase and grabbing my charger and wallett from the side table. "You are a real piece of work." I could feel my body aching from mental exhaustion. "I'll be back to get the rest of my stuff another day." I stood by the door, grabbing the handle. "Hopefully if I'm so hard to love, I won't be so hard to get over."*
"And that was the last thing I said to him." Matthews thumb wiped a tear from my cheek. "I'm sorry, I'm such a mess."
"You don't have to apoligize for having emotions y/n. I'm here for you, always." He had first said this to me when we were in middle school, I thought that was the sweetest thing a teenage boy could say. "You can stay here as long as you want, I miss seeing you around anyway." He smiled, pushing some hair behind my ear. I set my head on his shoulder. It was really hard talking to him about this stuff. I think the real reason it was so hard to lie to him, was because it's hard to lie to someone you are *so* in love with.
Matthew seemed to be out of reach my whole life. It wasn't that he was massively popular, or that we were part of different cliques. It was really just because I thought he could never see me as anything more than a friend.
When I was 13, that's when I fell in love with him. I just didn't know it at the time.
*"Y/n this is so great! I can't believe I got the lead!" Spencer was spinning in my swivel chair that sat at my desk.*
* "I've always told you that you we're good at acting. Maybe you'll be an actor?"*
*No way! I'm gonna be a lawyer or something." He nearly fell from the chair laughing, as if the proposition of being an actor was so out of this world. There was a sparkle in his eye that I had never seen before. It was so refreshingly different from the days he had come to me after school, telling me that some assholes were pushing him around.*
*"I'm so happy for you, you're gonna do amazing! You better not leave me when you're famous." I shoved his shoulder playfully. That was truly a joke, but I could feel, deep in my subconscious, I was afraid that maybe he would.*
*"I would never!" And he didn't.*
But I couldn't do anything about how I felt.
"I don't wanna be a burden on you." I had stopped crying, but I was still slumped on the couch like a wet rag, *literally*.
"You could never be a burden on me. Here." He handed me a picture frame from his side table. It was of me and him when were were 22, it was a surprise party I threw for him. "Do you remember this?"
"How could I forget the first time I got you drunk?" And the night I realized I was in love with you *for sure*.
*Matthew had refused to get drunk on his 21st birthday. He was so responsible that it was nearly infuriating. So when he texted me telling me that someone came up to him on the street and offered him a modelling job, I knew I had to throw a party. Just me him and some of our friends.*
*I led him into my house with 4 of our other friends there. There was a seemingly illegal amount of liquor on my dining room table.*
*"Oh no! Y/n no, you're not gonna get me drunk!" He looked down at me disapprovingly. I stuck my bottom lip out, and gave him puppy dog eyes.*
*"Please Matthew? Just one time? I wanna know what kind of drunk you are." My puppy face turned into a slightly mischievous one.*
*"What kind of drunk I am?"*
*"Yeah! Like sad drunk, funny drunk, angry drunk, sleepy, reckless, philosophical. I wanna know!" I giggled, dragging him over to the table and already pouring him a shot.*
*"Fine, just one time."*
*And I did find out what kind of drunk he was.*
*A lovey drunk.*
*"Brian. You are the coolest person I know!" Matthew slurred, leaning over to our mutual friend. "And Katie is the funniest." He pointed to Katie. "And you! You are my favorite person in the whole world, you know that?" He was now laying in my lap, his head looking up at me.*
*"You are a mess." I laughed, patting his cheek.*
*"I am not a mess! I'm totally coherent! I love you so much! Look at you!" He sat up, kissing my cheek. I'm glad he was drunk because I didn't want him to remember the dark shade of red my cheeks turned afterward.*
*I loved this man, and it was kicking me in the ass.*
"A lovey drunk you called me." He chuckled as I gripped the frame.
"Do you remember all the things you said that night?" I half smiled, remembering the kiss om my cheek.
"Not really, to this day I live in blissful ignorance."
"Well today is the day you know." I giggled, crossing my legs on the couch and facing him.
"Wait! Before you tell me of all the dumb things I did that night, let me get you some dry clothes." He stood from the couch, heading to his room.
"Thank you!"
He came back holding and NYU hoodie and some sweatpants. I snatched them from his arms with a big smile and headed to the bathroom to change.
The only time before that I had worn his clothes was freshman year after an asshole from school pushed me in the mud while we were on our way to study at Matthew's.
*Matthew and I were walking side by side on the walkway, talking about random things.*
*"If you do get a cat, what are you gonna name it?" Matthew asked, keeping his eyes forward.*
*"I think I would name it Leo. After Leonardo DiCaprio, he's a dreamboat." He looked at me with an eyebrow raised.*
*"Really? That dork?"*
*"Says you! You're a huge dork!" I nudged him into the road with a laugh.*
*Just then I heard loud and fast footsteps coming from behind us. Suddenly large hands were shoving me into the nearest mud puddle. I gasped at the cold liquid that was soaking through my jeans and yellow shirt.*
*"Nice outfit y/n!" The asshole laughed, running down the sidewalk.*
*"Fuck you Ricky!" Matthew threw up his middle finger and helped me out of the mud. "Come on, I'll give you some clothes at my house."*
*When we arrived he handed me sweatpants and a Nirvana shirt. I changed into it and Matthew probably laughed for 10 minutes straight. I was pretty short around that time, and Matthew had just had his growth spurt. To make a long story short, I was swimming in those clothes.*
I was now staring at myself in the mirror, wishing I had the chance to get use to the feeling of wearing his clothes.
"Okay! Time to remember an embarrassing night Gube!" I shouted, feeling far better now that I was in warm clothes. I plopped onto the seat, scooting next to Matthew. "Alright. Now what do you wanna know first?" I set my chin in the palm of my hand.
"So, what exactly is your definition of a lovey drunk?" He mimicked my position.
"A drunk who is very kind. They are constantly complimenting everyone around them and expressing their love and fondness. Can even turn a sad or angry drunk to a happy one." I shrugged.
"Okay, fair enough. What did I say that night?" I smiled evily.
"Ok, well, you told Brian that he was the coolest person ever. And Katie was labelled the funniest ever. You gave Mallory ten bucks for all the advice she had given you in the past. And you hugged Alex for around 5 minutes straight." The image of Matthew swaying with Alex was clear in my memory like it happened yesterday. He threw his head back him laughter, his face reddening with slight embarrassment.
"Did I say anything to you?" He stared into my eyes like he was going to find the words there before they came from my mouth. I rubbed my hands together.
"Uh, yeah. You told me that I was your favorite person in the whole world." He smiled at that. "And then I told you that you were a mess. But you informed me, so graciously, that you were *not a mess* and *totally coherent*. Then proceeded to say 'I love you so much! Look at you!' And you kissed my cheek." I could feel the blood rushing to my cheeks, I was now looking down at my hands.
"Well you are my favorite person in the world," He tilted my chin up with his hand. "still. Maybe I'm an honest drunk."
"What's that suppose to mean?" I cocked my head to the side.
"Maybe I'm an honest drunk who was just sober enough to be too nervous to kiss you on the lips?" It came out as a question, I wasn't sure if he was genuinly asking a question or he was saying that that is *exactly* what happened. I'm hoping for the latter.
"What do you-" I was interrupted by his hand grabbing my chin.
"Just shut up and kiss me." He brought my lips to his, and of course I didn't hesitate at all to kiss back.
I ran my hands through those curls that I loved so much. His hands gripped my hips as I leaned into him more, I was so afraid that this was going to be a dream.
Like it was so many other times.
As he pulled away I kept my eyes closed, still hoping that it actually happened.
"Hey, are you okay?" He patted the side of my face lightly.
"Yeah, more than okay. How long?"
"Since we were 20. You?"
"Sometime in middle school." I snickered.
"Well either way, far too long." He put his finger under my chin again, bringing me into another kiss.
*Thanks Ben*
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1) Reading that anon's meta on Sirius was an experience, honestly. But it made me realise that another thing people don't take into consideration with Sirius is that GoF and OotP aren't supposed to be "contrasts" to his character It's not him being a Good Godfather VS a Bad Godfather, or him being at his Best VS Worst the way so many think. His restlessness and mood swings in OotP are not, yk, regular personality traits for him to be judged/analyzed by, they're visible signs of his depression.
2) Because Sirius was an exceptional godfather in GoF, showing that he's got a functioning parental streak - that's what he's like on a day to day basis. Sirius in OotP is not the "Bad" side to his character, it's him struggling with depression. And yeah, his ability to be there for Harry in ootp was hindered by his own intense trauma, but apart from the ONE TIME he lashes out, he is always always there for Harry in OotP. Fans like to focus on that one bad line of his and ignore all the other
3) times that he has been there for Harry - which is 99.9% of the times (All the other adult characters have screwed up as well - usually far more than he has, tbh - and yet I rarely see fans harping on their screw ups - they're usually understood and forgiven). And it makes his death even more agonizing, because we see him at his lowest, and he's never given the chance to heal the way he deserved
Yes. It was his natural reaction to the stresses of war, being cooped up and unable to help (clever men don’t do well with being caged), and being trapped in his childhood home, a place of so much unhappiness. A toxic combination! It’s not just that he lashed out with the “you’re less like your father than I thought” line, it’s that his recklessness is borderline dangerous. He leaves #12 to take Harry to the train station, he lashes out at Snape more than once, his entire plan was to sneak out again and that’s what led to that line. When Harry asks him for advice in the ktichen pantry, he’s distracted at best and sort of gingerly brushes off Harry’s concerns. Sirius of a year ago would have written a six page disseration in response to Harry’s concerns. Sirius pushed back when Harry told him to be careful. Sirius was a mess in OotP, but he was depressed and restless, again, a bad combination.
I think we see Sirius best not on GoF, but at the end of POA when Sirius and Harry first meet. Within that meeting Sirius’s first instinct (after KILL THE RAT) is to shield Harry from the man who was complicit in his parents’ demise (how DARE you speak about James to Harry!). He had been a one man revenge band for almost a year and, upon Harry’s request to hear the story, Sirius calms down and relives the worst 24-48 hours of his life. And when, after Harry said (please don’t kill this dude, I know he’s scum but i don’t reckon my dad would want you t be a murderer) both Sirius and ready-to-kill-a-bitch Lupin actually listened and adjusted course. Do you remember being a kid? Do you ever remember when an enraged, determined adult actually paused, listened to you, and changed their course of action? Yes, Harry invoked his Dead dad, but Sirius and remus LISTENED to Harry. And THEN, as if that wasn’t enough, Sirius was all i-know-it’s-dumb-but-wanna-live-with-me???? He didn’t even make it out of the tunnel before asking or advising he was in if Harry was in.
We see in that scene how quickly Sirius transitions from his own feelings of revenge to caring about Harry, protecting Harry, listening to Harry, supporting Harry, and wanting to be in Harry’s life. He risked life and limb to go to Privet Drive just for a glimpse of Harry. He sent Harry the Firebolt. And he bought Ron a new owl and sent Harry the letter for Hogsmeade visits.
Sirius is Good People who was always doing the best with what he had.
I have been talking to my friend about wanting another baby. I don’t want another baby and I don’t want to have more kids, but the idea of a do-over as the person I am now is appealing. I was in so much trauma--an abusive husband--that I was a shell of the person I am today. And after I left that abusive situation, I had to deal with symptoms of PTSD and depression. I went through a long depressive state in which I did the bare minimum. It was ROUGH. My kids’ needs were met but none of us were thriving, you know? I’m a much better mom now, because I went to therapy and I have learned to ask for help and I have found hobbies and my life isn’t in constant jeopardy and I feel like I’m making a difference in the world. I am a well rounded person and that makes me a better mother.
And in Order of the Pheonix, he didn’t have much, mentally. All of the adrenaline from being on the run caught up to him. He was stuck in that house with Kreacher and his mom’s portrait. He wasnt able to help in the war. I think that was worse for him than Azkaban. And can you think about what it took in Order of the Phoenix for Sirius to go to that battle to protect Harry? What it could have cost him? He’d been on the run for almost 3 years and he was going to a place where he was Sure to be arrested. He was willing to face another lifetime in Azkaban to protect Harry.
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Tough Love
After what happened to Sammy's girlfriend we decided to pay our respects to her. I could hear the birds chirping as Sam, who is wearing a suit and tie, holds a bouquet of various flowers excluding roses. Me and Dean watched from afar as he walks through an otherwise deserted cemetery. From what I could see Sam sighs and stops next to a gravestone. It reads "Jessica Lee Moore, Beloved Daughter, January 24th 1984 - November 2nd 2005."
"How did she die?" I ask Dean, after a few minutes of silence.
"....She died in a fire."
"I know that...but what caused it?"
"A demon...the same one that killed our mother."
".....I'm sorry....." Dean glances over at me and puts an arm around my shoulder.
"You have nothing to be sorry about....besides, we'll get the son of a bitch." I give him a small smile, then focus back on Sam. I spot a small picture of Jessica grinning that's set into the stone above her name, then a black-and-white picture of her leaning against the stone between a white teddy bear and a wooden box with a crucifix leaning on the picture. Sam looks between the gravestone and the flowers. "I, uh..." I heard Sam laugh. "You always said roses were, were lame, so I brought you, uh..." Sam looks at the picture set into the gravestone, then looks away, choking back tears. He steps closer to the gravestone. "Jess...oh God..." Sam kneels to set down the flowers. "I should have protected you. I should have told you the truth."
I look over at Dean who is just staring at him. Pain was shown across his features, I could tell Dean did not wanna watch this. After Sam put flowers on his girlfriends grave, we went back on the road again. I was sitting in the back while the boys were in the front. Sam was asleep, at least until he jerked awake and sighs as he hears "Hot-Blooded" is playing. Sam rubs his eyes and Dean looks over, concerned.
"You okay?" I questioned, Sam glances back and then away.
"Yeah, I'm fine."
"Nightmare?" Dean chimes in, Sam clears his throat, signaling he doesn't wanna talk about it.
"You wanna drive for a while?" Sam laughs.
"Dean, your whole life you never once asked me that." I grin and lean forward.
"Hold on, so you've never driven the impala?"
"No, but it's ok. I'll be able to drive it one day." Dean glances over at Sam.
"Yea, still gonna kill you for that little stunt Sammy, letting her drive baby into a house. But uh....I just thought you might want to....Never mind."
"Look, guys, you're worried about me." Sam replies "I get it, and thank you, but I'm perfectly okay."
"Mm-hm." Dean agrees knowing Sams not okay, Sam grabs a map.
"All right, where are we?"
"We are just outside of Grand Junction I believe." I say. Sam folds down the map, which is of Colorado and has a large red X labeled 35-111.
"You know what? Maybe we shouldn't have left Stanford so soon." Sam admits.
"Sam, we dug around there for a week. We came up with nothing. If you wanna find the thing that killed Jessica-"
"We gotta find Dad first." Sam interrupted Dean.
"Not to be nosy but...you still didn't tell me how she died?" I ask.
"Y/n now's not the time." Dean says while looking at me through the mirror.
"....Jess, my girlfriend died stuck to the ceiling with a stab wound in her stomach while being burned.....She was killed by the demon that killed my mother."
"How can a monster be capable of something like that?"
"I don't know, but our mother's death was the whole reason dad started training us."
"Yea..which your dad kinda helped ours with the whole 'how to kill monsters' thing." Dean smiled. "If it wasn't for Y/D/N, Dad would've probably been dead by now." Sam nods in agreement.
"So..with your dad disappearing and this thing showing up again after so many years, it's no coincidence. That's for sure." I pointed out.
"Dad will have answers. He'll know what to do."
"It's weird, these coordinates he left us. This Blackwater Ridge." Sam replies.
"What about it?" Dean asked.
"There's nothing there. It's just woods." Sam puts down the map. "Why is he sending us to the middle of nowhere?"
"Sam it's not the place, it's the monster. Just like in Jericho there could be a monster we have to fight, right Dean?" However Dean stays silent and just keeps driving. For the next few hours no one says anything. I decided since it was quiet that I could get some shut eye and after a few minutes I fell asleep with my cheek planted against the window.
~
When I wake up, the Impala comes to a stop and is parked next to a sign that says "RANGER STATION Lost Creek Trail, Lost Creek National Forest". I follow the boys out of the car, still tired. Sam smiles at me "How did you sleep?" He asks.
"Fine, I guess."
"I think you slept more than the both of us combined." Dean jokes.
"Well see if someone would let me drive-."
"Nope never again!" Sam laughs at our little feud and we keep walking.
"So Blackwater Ridge is pretty remote." Sam says as he looks at a 3D map of the national forest, paying particular attention to the ridge labeled "BLACKWATER RIDGE" as Dean looks at the decorations. "It's cut off by these canyons here, rough terrain, dense forest, abandoned silver and gold mines all over the place."
"Dude, check out the size of this freaking bear." Dean fantasizes, me and Sam look over. Dean is looking at a framed photo of a man standing behind a much larger bear. Me and Sam go to stand next to Dean.
"Eh I've seen bigger bears." I say.
"There's no way." Dean says.
"My dad used to take me hunting, it was part of my training." I laugh. "I took down my first grizzly when I was nine."
"Well there's a dozen or more grizzlies in the area. It's no nature hike, that's for sure, at least we have an expert with us." Sam says, I just roll my eyes. A forest ranger, walks up to us when he speaks, the three of us whip around.
"Y'all aren't planning on going out near Blackwater Ridge by any chance?" The ranger wonders.
"Oh, no, sir, we're environmental study majors from UC Boulder, just working on a paper." Sam laughs a little. Dean grins and raises a fist.
"Recycle, man." Sam's eyes flick to Dean, who doesn't move.
"You're friends with that Haley girl, right?" The ranger asks, Dean considers.
"Yes. Yes, we are, Ranger-" Dean checks the ranger's nametag. "-Wilkinson."
"Well I will tell you exactly what we told her. Her brother filled out a backcountry permit saying he wouldn't be back from Blackwater until the twenty-fourth, so it's not exactly a missing persons now, is it?" Dean shakes his head. "You tell that girl to quit worrying, I'm sure her brother's just fine.".
"We will. Well that Haley girl's quite a pistol, huh?"
"That is putting it mildly."
"Actually you know what would help is if I could show her a copy of that backcountry permit. You know, so she could see her brother's return date." Dean suggests and Wilkinson eyes Dean as Dean raises his eyebrows. After we get the permit we leave the ranger station. Dean is holding a piece of paper and laughing.
"What, are you cruising for a hookup or something?" Sam jokes.
"What do you mean?"
"The coordinates point to Blackwater Ridge, so what are we waiting for? Let's just go find Dad. I mean, why even talk to this girl?" The boys stop on opposite sides of the Impala.
"Maybe we should know what we're walking into before we actually walk into it?" I suggest.
"Pretty smart." Dean agrees.
"Since when are you all shoot first ask questions later, anyway?" Sam wonders.
"Since now." I laugh as me and Sam get in the car
"Really?" I hear Dean say and he gets in as well.
"Could you guys drop me off at the metro store? I need a new phone." I ask.
"No need." Dean smirks at me, and goes through the glove box. Then he leans back and hands me a small flip phone. "There, so you can call us if you get in trouble."
"Thanks..." I take it from him but sigh in sadness, I miss my dad, I thought.
"What is it?" Sam worries.
"I just miss my dad...I mean I left him a letter telling him I was ok but..."
"Hey, cheer up, you'll get to see him soon. Besides everyday we get closer to dad, you'll see him before you know it." Dean smiles and begins to drive away.
Deans Pov-
After we got to the motel, I asked Y/n if she wanted her own room, she just shrugged and said she didn't care. So I originally planned on getting her own room but in all honesty...I don't want her to die like Jessica. So we got a two bed room, she'd have to sleep with one of us. I put my duffel bag on my bed and sigh, Sam does the same. Y/n was outside calling her dad, letting him know she was ok but she had a time limit so he wouldn't track us.
"We'll isn't this place homey." I comment.
"Yeah...so what do you think of Y/n?" Sam asks.
"I've gotta be honest..She's not suited for this."
"C'mon she isn't that bad."
"Are you kidding? Sure she's smart, and pretty, and helpful..." I smiled to myself, lately I've been having weird feelings around her. "She's...badass."
"Dean, kinda getting off topic."
"Right uh, sorry. Anyways, she's never done this before, I don't think she's ready for this."
"Her dad trained her for this, just like our dad trained us. She maybe haven't done this before but she's been a lot of help. When we were facing Constance, if it wasn't for her I would have probably died."
"She's reckless, she drove baby through the side of a house."
"It was the only way to stop her! I probably would've done the same thing."
"What about the dent that suddenly appeared while we were at the bridge?"
"That was Constance-"
"No, if it was Constance then Y/n would have gotten hit. That....That was something entirely different, and besides that she didn't even talk to us for an entire three hours."
"She was scared-"
"We don't have time to be scared!"
"Dean that was her first hunt, look she did pretty well in the end."
"Yeah well...."
"Well what?"
"We have to take her home...."
"Dean come on."
"No!" I stand up and point a finger at him. "You were the one who was angry at me for bringing her into this. Now that I want to take her out your upset?"
"...I-I...Why don't we let her stay a while longer?"
"Why?"
"Dean she was gonna learn about this sooner or later, might as well be now. And if she wasn't here we would still be stuck in Jericho. How bout this, if she gets hurt or acts immature we'll take her home but for now she stays." I stayed silent, thinking about my next move. Should I really let her stay? What if she gets hurt or even worse...dies. My thoughts were interrupted when I heard the door open and close, quickly I put a smile on my face and turned to Y/n. Although she wasn't smiling, she was....heartbroken.
"Y-Y/n?" I called out, and with those sad E/C eyes, she looks at me.
"....I'm no longer welcome home."
Y/n's Pov-
*10 minutes earlier*
This was it, the moment I would call my dad after almost a week. Slowly I pressed in the numbers and the phone began to ring as I put it up to my ear.
"Hello?" A gruff voice said, it was dad, my dad. He seemed sad, and instantly I was filled with regret.
"Hey dad...."
"Y/n!? Where are you?!"
"I'm safe dad....it's ok."
"No it's not ok, me and your mother have been worried sick! If I find you with Dean-"
"Dad please I'm just help-"
"No don't give me that bullshit, you are just being rebellious because I was strict on you."
"No I'm doing this because you wouldn't help Dean find John!"
"I only said no because I don't trust Winchesters! And neither should you! They only care about themselves, not anyone else. Everyone they know dies around them!"
"I haven't died-"
"Which is a miracle, but it's only a matter of time. You better come home this instance or I'm sending out a missing person's add. And when they find you with a twenty-six year old man-"
"Your bluffing, even if you did that they would escape."
"Your not safe Y/n-"
"I never was! No one is every safe in this world! Besides you were training me for hunting my entire life so what's the big deal?!"
"Your only seventeen that's the big deal!"
"Well I'm not going home unless they make me."
"They? Who-Please don't tell me John is there!"
"No it's not John, it's Sam."
"Sam? You mean Sam from Stanford? That's even worse! Y/n you have to get out of there! Something...Something is wrong with that boy!"
"There is nothing wrong with him or Dean, I'm staying here whether you like it or not."
"Then you better stay gone cause I'm tired of a disobedient brat like you! If you don't come home right now I-I'll disown you!" Those words, we're like knives, they went straight into my heart. Tears ran down my cheeks as I realized....I would never be able to go home...
".....Wow.." I say after a minute, "...you say you don't trust the Winchester's, more specifically John....but your just like him." And with that I hung up, what else was there to say? If dad wasn't gonna support me helping someone in need then...there's no point of going home. I have to finish what I started, silently I entered the motel room. I could feel the boy's staring at me.
"Y-Y/n?.." Dean called out, slowly I meet his gaze and say "....I'm no longer welcome home."
~
"What do you mean no longer welcome home?" Sam questioned, for the last ten minutes I had been crying my heart out in Dean's chest. I told him how the conversation played out, and by the end both of them were furious.
"I knew Y/D/N had a little anger issues, but to go that far?....That's just low." Dean said.
"Don't worry Y/n...you'll always have a home with us." Sam soothed, making me smile.
"Thanks guys....for the record, if I had to do it all over again, I wouldn't change my decision."
"Well I'm glad." Dean smiled and kissed me on the forehead, making me instantly blush. "Cause I wouldn't want you to change it either." No one said anything after that, we just continued with our mission. Later after we got settled in our motel, we drive to the girls house. We stand at the door and it opens to reveal Haley Collins.
"You must be Haley Collins. I'm Dean, this is Sam and Y/n, we're, ah, we're rangers with the Park Service. Ranger Wilkinson sent us over. He wanted us to ask a few questions about your brother Tommy." Haley hesitates.
"Lemme see some ID." She says. Sam pulls out his fake ID with the name 'Samuel Cole' and held it up against the screen. Haley looks at it, then at me and Dean, then opens the door.
"Come on in."
"Thanks." The door swings open as Haley catches sight of the Impala.
"That yours?" She asks.
"Yeah." Dean says proudly, Sam looks back at the Impala.
"Nice car." Haley leads us into the kitchen, where a boy is sitting at the table on a laptop. Dean turns his head to mouth something to Sam, who rolls his eyes. We show her the permit but she just scoffs and leaves the kitchen.
"So if Tommy's not due back for a while, how do you know something's wrong?" Sam asks. Haley comes back into the room with a bowl she places on the table. "He checks in every day by cell. He emails, photos, stupid little videos-we haven't heard anything in over three days now." She answers.
"Well, maybe he can't get cell reception."
"He's got a satellite phone, too."
"Could it be he's just having fun and forgot to check in? Maybe it dropped in the lake or something." I say.
"He wouldn't do that." The boy at the table says, I eye him, but he looks away. Haley comes back putting more food on the table and says. "Our parents are gone. It's just my two brothers and me. We all keep pretty close tabs on each other."
"Can I see the pictures he sent you?" Sam asks.
"Yeah." On the laptop, she pulls up pictures.
"That's Tommy." She clicks twice and another picture comes up, then the still frame opening the latest video.
"Hey Haley, day six, we're still out near Blackwater Ridge. We're fine, keeping safe, so don't worry, okay? Talk to you tomorrow." I spot something on the video however, it was like a shadow.
"Well, we'll find your brother. We're heading out to Blackwater Ridge first thing." Dean smiles.
"Then maybe I'll see you there. Look, I can't sit around here anymore. So I hired a guy. I'm heading out in the morning, and I'm gonna find Tommy myself." Hayley confessed.
"I think I know how you feel."
"Hey, do you mind forwarding these to me?" Sammy asks.
"Sure." We smile and leave, departing from them.
~
After the meeting with Haley, we decided to go to the bar, after I got a fake ID. Now I was Y/n Dixon, a twenty-five year old female. The three of us were sitting down at a table.
"So, Blackwater Ridge doesn't get a lot of traffic. Local campers, mostly. But still, this past April, two hikers went missing out there. They were never found." I mention as I was using Sam's laptop, he told me I'd probably get better luck if I'd try to find information. Sam was opening John's journal, searching it for clues.
"Any before that?" Dean asks.
"Yeah, in 1982, eight different people all vanished in the same year. Authorities said it was a grizzly attack. And again in 1959 and again before that in 1936. So every twenty-three years, this thing comes out. Okay so since Haley sent Sam the video, watch this." I put the laptop where both of the boys can see go through three frames of the video one at a time. A dark shadow, like the one I saw earlier crosses the screen.
"Do it again." Dean says. I repeat the frames.
"That's three frames, a fraction of a second. Whatever that thing is, it can move."
Dean hits Sam.
"Told you something weird was going on."
"Yeah you were right." Sam smiles.
"The only thing that I know that can move that fast is a werewolf." I state.
"That's what I thought to." Sam says. "However I got one more thing." Sam hands over a newspaper article. "In 'fifty-nine one camper survived this supposed grizzly attack. Just a kid. Barely crawled out of the woods alive." I nod and the hand it to Dean who looks at newspaper.
"Is there a name? Uh...Oh here, Mr. Shaw." Dean reads.
"So then we go talk to him now, right?' I ask.
"That should be the plan." Sammy says.
"Ok what's up with your hair?" Dean asks.
"What?.."
"It was just H/C now it's yellow, is it like some kind of special hair dye?" I grab a lock of my hair, and he was right, it was bright yellow.
"No I haven't dyed my hair since I was fifteen."
"Ok something is definitely going on with you. First dad mentions you, then you somehow put a dent in my car without touching it and now your hair is yellow." The moment he said that my hair changed to purple.
"See there it goes again!"
"I...I don't know." My heart starts beating faster by the second, what's happening to me me?
"Dean I think you scaring her. Maybe we should call Y/D/N.." Sam suggests but Dean shakes his head.
"No screw that guy, look we'll figure it out. For now try to...keep it one color."
"You think I have control over this?"
"Maybe it's connected to your emotions?" Sam says grabbing his laptop and starts typing.
"W-What are you doing?"
"Keeping notes. Maybe if we keep track of what's happening to you then we can figure out what's going on. So purple is fear, then that would mean yellow is joy and when your hair is H/C it means you are experiencing no emotions."
"Well, other than this magical weird...stuff. What now?"
"To the store, we need to get you a business suit, then to Mr. Shaw." Dean says.
"A business suit? What for?" I wonder, but Dean only smirks.
~
Finding the perfect suit was hard, it wasn't until I walked out of the dressing room for the 5th time. This time both of the boys smiled, and Dean looked away blushing a bit. It was like a coat that went halfway down my thigh, however you could see my cleavage a little bit.
"How bout this one?" I ask.
"Y-Yea yea, that's good. Nice and formal." Dean stutters.
"Good, now I guess we buy this and then we can be on our way."
After we bought the suit, we went to go see Mr. Shaw. He talks to the three of us while leading us inside his house. He has a cigarette in his mouth, I coughed a little from the smoke.
"Look, ranger, I don't know why you're asking me about this. It's public record. I was a kid. My parents got mauled by a-" Sam interrupts.
"Grizzly? That's what attacked them?" Shaw takes a puff of his cigarette, takes it out, and nods.
"The other people that went missing that year, those bear attacks too?" The room went quiet. "What about all the people that went missing this year? Same thing? If we knew what we were dealing with, we might be able to stop it." Dean says.
"I seriously doubt that. Anyways, I don't see what difference it would make." Mr. Shaw sits down with a sad look on his face. "You wouldn't believe me. Nobody ever did...."
"Try me."
"I said no and that's final." He huffed, I knew he wasn't gonna tell us. I hesitantly sit down across from him.
"Mr. Shaw, what did you see?...I know you think we won't believe you but your our last resort. If you help us, I promise you we will get revenge for your parents." He looks at me like I was lyin, but sighs in defeat.
"Nothing. It moved too fast to see. It hid too well. I heard it, though. A roar. Like...no man or animal I ever heard."
"It came at night?" Shaw nods. "Got inside your tent?"
"It got inside our cabin. I was sleeping in front of the fireplace when it came in. It didn't smash a window or break the door. It unlocked it. Do you know of a bear that could do something like that? I didn't even wake up till I heard my parents screaming."
"It killed them?"
"Dragged them off into the night." He shakes his head. "Why it left me alive...been asking myself that ever since." Shaw's hands go to his collar. "Did leave me this, though." He opens his collar to reveal three long scars. Claw marks. Sam and Dean look at them. "There's something evil in those woods. It was some sort of a demon."
~
The three of us walk the length of a corridor with rooms on either side. "Spirits and demons don't have to unlock doors. If they want inside, they just go through the walls." Dean says.
"So it's probably something else, something corporeal." I state.
"Corporeal? Excuse me, professor."
"So what do you think?" Sam chimes in.
"The claws, the speed that it moves...could be a skinwalker, maybe a black dog"
"No it looked more human...what about a Wendigo? I don't know. I can do some research when we get to where ever were goin next." I offered.
"Where were goin next is our motel." Dean says. We drove back to motel, and I get out of the car as Dean opens the trunk of the Impala, then the weapons box, and props it open with a shotgun. He puts some guns in a duffel bag as Sam leans in.
"We cannot let that Haley girl go out there."
"Oh yeah? What are we gonna tell her? That she can't go into the woods because of a big scary monster?"
"Yeah." Dean looks at Sam.
"I may not know much about monsters Sam but that is probably the most stupidest idea." I intervene. "Besides her brother's missing, Sam. She's not gonna just sit this out."
"Then we go with her, we protect her, and we keep our eyes peeled for our fuzzy predator friend." Dean says picking up the duffel.
"Finding Dad's not enough?" Sam slams the weapons box shut, then the trunk. "Now we gotta babysit too?" Dean stares at Sam in annoyance.
"What?"
"Nothing." He throws the duffel bag at Sam and walks off. I follow in pursuit, when I walk through the door Dean looks at me and Sam who is behind me.
"So Y/n, you have to sleep with one of us tonight since there's only two beds."
"She can sleep with me." Sam offered.
"Well I mean it's up to her."
"I don't care, you two do rock, paper, scissors shoe whoever wins gets the bed to themselves."
"Alright seems fair enough." Dean says and holds out his hand in the formation. Sam rolls his eyes and throws the duffel bag onto one of the bed then gets into formation.
"Ok one, two, three!" I count down and both of them go, Dean chose rock while Sam chose paper. Dean smiles but quickly hides it and enters the bathroom.
"Is it just me or is he happy that he lost?" I ask making Sam shake his head.
"That's a first, though if he tries anything let me know. I'll let you sleep with me."
"Eh if he tries anything I'll break his hand." Sam chuckles.
"That's our girl."
~
Later that night all three of us was in bed. I couldn't sleep though, I still kept hearing my dad's words over and over. "I'll disown you", how could he say something like that to me? Tears began to form, I cover my mouth trying to keep quiet but Dean heard me.
"Y/n?" He quietly calls out. "You ok?"
"Y-Yeah...."
"Is this about your dad?...." Slowly I nod and Dean pulls me closer.
"It's gonna be ok, ok? He didn't mean it, he probably just said that so you'd come home....if you ever wanna...don't hesitate."
"But you said once I'm in this-"
"And I was wrong, your just a kid, you don't deserve this life...." I could hear the sadness in his voice, I look up at him. Those big green eyes stare down at me, making me smile.
"Neither do you...."
"...It'll be ok, I promise." He gently puts a hand on my cheek and caresses it with his thumb. I felt that urge, I wanted to kiss him, it was the perfect moment. It was like a moment in a movie where everyone is waiting for that kiss, waiting for the love to blossom. I slowly lean in, while staring into those beautiful forest green eyes. He doesn't move, which makes me nervous and my hair turns purple.
"Why are you scared?" He asked. "Was it something I said?"
"No I just....No it wasn't you....well I guess I'll let you sleep. Goodnight Dean." Quickly I move so I'm facing away from him, my cheeks are burning. Did I really just try to kiss Dean?
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Whatever it takes - Part 1 (Steve Rogers imagine)
Pairing: Angel!Steve x Demon!Reader (also there will be a fair bit of Demon!Bucky! x Demon!Reader)
Warnings: Swearing, angst, mind games, smut in later parts (Fuckbuddy!Bucky lol)
Summary: Angels and Demons have been sworn enemies their whole lives, that’s just how it is. When Bucky decides to go against these unsaid rules, it brings a set of consequences into the lives of those who spend time with him. In Y/n’s case that consequence is an angel named Steve Rogers.
Teaser part
A/N: Hey guys!! So this is a new fic and will have probably like 10 parts to it, hope you like it!! Message me if you want to be tagged xxx
Masterlist
Angels and demons all live on earth. They're all around, mixed into the world living among humans. It's the best way to do their respective jobs. There was a whole under world community of them around; Not just angels and Demons but other mythical creatures; vampires, werewolves, warlocks, the list goes on.
Humans were almost fully unaware of the people who lived around them, very few knowing that these mythical creatures were real... They would never know if they encountered one; they looked the same as the everyday average person. Only mythical creatures could tell who was who, the only two creatures that were harder to identify were Angels and Demons. They were good at morphing into a personality that was not theirs.
Angels and demons were life long enemies, a burning hatred between them since the day they landed on the ground. Angels discarded demons as being reckless; disruptive and manipulative, it was true, they were. It was not clever to get involved with them.
Demons discarded Angels as prudish, naive and boring. They stuck to their rules acting as if they were gods gift... Looking down on demons, with their heads held high a radiant confidence of superiority.
Both Y/n and Bucky had been friends since demons first made their way into the human population. They loved to wreck havoc on the world. They were a troublesome pair, ‘partners in crime’ some would say. They were competitive with each other, always testing each other's limits. But they were demons... They didn't have limits which was why it was so fun.
The both of them were always playing life games. How many humans they could get with on a night out. How many humans could they be home wreckers too. It was a dangerous game, but it kept things exciting.
Several times an angel was sent to where they had caused trouble, being scolded and moved on so they wouldn't cause a scene, always laughing it off and frustrating the angels. Winding up an angel was almost as fun as destroying other peoples lives.
The both of them were at a small bar playing a game of how many shots they could handle, along with 2 humans they had coerced into joining them. Humans were always compelled by demons, there was a certain pull humans had towards them making it hard to resist.
Y/n and Bucky were smirking at each other across the table, watching the two humans down their 11th shot of vodka that night.
"Oh god, I think I'm going to throw up" one of them spoke, standing up hurriedly and running to the toilets.
"Don't think God will hear you" Bucky said smirking, his eyes meeting Y/n’s with a knowing look.
"Fuck, me too" the other spoke, slamming a hand over their mouth as they followed the person before them.
Y/n leaned back in her seat laughing loudly as Bucky stared unimpressed at the empty spaces.
"Weak" he spoke before throwing a shot back, Y/n doing the same.
She watched as his eyes flicked over to the bar briefly before landing back on Y/n.
"Humans just can't hold their alcohol" she spoke grinning, tracing her top lip with her index finger making sure her red lipstick was still in tact.
She caught Bucky's eyes flicking over to the bar again, turning around to see what was catching her attention.
Y/n's eyes widened at the brightness, squinting slightly. She could see the side profile of a woman who she assumed Bucky was staring at. She had long red hair but that wasn't what caught her attention.
What shocked her was the white glow surrounding her. An angel.
Y/n had always been able to identify Angels, even if they were strong Angels who could hide their auroras.
Y/n could always see them.
She wondered if Bucky could tell they were Angels. The red head with her head held high, her posture up right with the utter most elegance. The man she was with turned around, Y/n having to look away for a second.
This guy was hardly even trying to hide his aurora. It was blindingly bright creating a pain in her eyes momentarily as she blinked. But it soon died down as if the Angel had forgotten to hide it.
Now Y/n could clearly make out his face. He was tall and muscular for an angel. She barely saw many Angels around so wouldn't fully know what they stereo typically looked like anymore.
Angels didn't exactly come to places like this. A bar, where alcohol existed, a place where people came to dance and sin. Normally ending up having causal hook ups on the toilet cubicles.
This mans face was what really took her a back. He held a strong expression as if he didn't want to be here. His eyebrows furrowed into a deep frown as he crossed his arms in disapproval at his surroundings. His jaw clenched showing just how sharp his jaw line was, that in itself was sinful to her. A smirk tugging at her lips.
He was doing what every angel ever did. Looking down on others, whether he was meaning to or not was a question Y/n didn't really care about.
"You think shes pretty?" Y/n asked, nodding her head towards the woman at the bar. Bucky nodded. Maybe he hadn't noticed she was an Angel yet.
"You should go over and introduce yourself" she spoke, smirking and raising one eyebrow up at him. A look he knew very well.
"Maybe not" Bucky spoke.
"I bet you to do it" she spoke, eyes narrowing as she waited for him to accept her challenge. He had to, it's what they did.
"Fine" he spoke, shooting her a quick wink before heading in the direction of the woman. Y/n saw how Bucky approached the two angels at the bar.
She could see the mans gaze follow Bucky, a glare on his features as he went to move in front of the woman.
Y/n quickly jumped up from her position making her way towards them and sliding herself in between where Bucky had now reached the woman and the man. She caught the eye of the bar tender ordering herself a drink.
She could feel the stare of the man she had just cut off from helping his friend, his angel gaze burning into her skin; but she ignored him, pretending he wasn't there. Y/n could tell that he knew what she was.
After receiving and paying for her drink she finally turned to the side to meet his stare.
"Can I help you?" She asked rolling her eyes. She was a demon, she had to act like one.
"Tell your little demon friend to back off" he spoke glaring at her still.
"And here I was thinking Angels were meant to be nice" she spoke pouting sarcastically.
"I'm willing to bet this is all a game" he spoke "so get him to leave her alone before I force him too".
"Ooooh I didn't think Angels could bet" Y/n spoke, a mischievous look on her face, eyes darkening at the sense of excitement. Steve frowned at her. Demons were manipulative. He shook his head trying to calm himself down.
"Well... I'm willing to bet that your friend doesn't even know my friend is a demon" she spoke. "much like in going to bet that my friend doesn't know your friends an angel".
Steve cocked one eyebrow in confusion. This is what demons do, he reminded himself. They played with the mind.
"Stop it. I'm not betting anything." He stared at her, jaw clenching tightly.
"You're cute for an angel" she spoke smirking up at him. She watched as he turned flustered. His cheeks heating up, stuttering over his words.
"I know what you're trying to do" he said, gritting his teeth.
"What do you mean?" She asked softly, pouting.
"I- I - well you're- you-".
"Aww I've left you speechless, how cute. So... Your place or mine" she asked scanning him head to toe. Steve shuffled from foot to foot, trying to keep his balance as her words shocked him.
"What?" He coughed clearing his throat.
"I'm only messing, I don't even know your name... Not that that's ever stopped me before" she said flashing him an innocent smile, contradicting every word that left her mouth moments ago.
All that came out of his mouth was "Steve, my names- uh Steve".
"You don't sound too sure" she spoke smiling smugly.
"Well, yes, my names Steve, definitely Steve".he said more confidently.
"That’s cute... Fits the whole innocent vibe you've got going on." She said raising her brows suggestively.
"I've told you my name, it's only fair you tell me yours." Steve spoke, some of his original angel confidence coming back.
"Someone knows how to talk to demons" she spoke surprised at his bargaining. "but when has a demon ever been fair?" She questioned.
Steve frowned, watching as she took a sip of her drink, he watched as she licked her lips... It was sinful how he saw her bite her lip so seductively, in thought before turning back to give him attention. Steve had to look away and mentally talk himself out of finding her attractive. He knew that’s just what demons did, they played on other people using seduction and emotional games.
"Y/n" she spoke, meeting his eyes in confidence a knowing smirk on her face that made Steve frown.
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Hey! I was wondering if maybe you could throw me a post of all your trolls and a lil blurb abt them? I'm a wee bit new to your blog and friggin love your trolls already but I don't know they're names v well or too much abt them.
OOOO ok sure anon!! im trying to work on a new select page with lots of new info on each troll…but due to university its taking me. a long ass time bc i got No Free Tiiiime
anyway! ill go hemospectrum order, starting with lowest….and hopefully help u learn a little bit about em! ;v; [u can click their names to go to their character pages ;0 tags also included in case u wannna look em up on my blog!! i also have 2 dancestors so throw an ask if u wanna see them too]
veleno caudae [#vcaudae]
🐍 severely underloved and underrapreciated-she’s a tough vintage city lesbian with a penchant for illegal things and pushing her luck. she works part time as a lounge singer and cabaret dancer, but thats not where her money comes from.
🎲 she likes to gamble against highbloods in risky games of chance, and often cheats or rigs the game. she doesn’t care, she needs the money more than they do. she’s probably one of the city’s richest lowbloods-but no one knows that.
🐍 she’s pretty coldhearted and untrusting of people-being by herself has gotten her this far, and she’s not about to change her system now.
rest under the cut or this is gonna get LONG
florem viridi [#fviridi]
🐝 sweet lil jade gal just trying to breeze through life. [or..afterlife? it’s difficult to quantify when you’re a rainbow drinker.] life has kicked her down hard in the past, and she’s trying her best not to let it rule her in the present day, despite her anxieties about it.
🌱 she loves nature and all things that come with it-both the beautiful and the morbid. gardening is her main hobby, but it sits alongside hiking, outdoorsy sports, camping and tea making. not to mention a little dissection, taxidermy and carnivorous plant care to shake up her quads more than a little!
🐝 she’s the ultimate grandma friend–trying to feed up all of her friends and quads and help their lifestyle, but she’s not afraid to stand up for herself or tell you if you’re being ridiculous. she’s no pushover, and has a stubborn temper. she’s three ounces of whoop ass
sarkan sarky nerdal [#snerdal]
🐉 my blogs resident dumbass meme man & grubtuber. despite knowing how to build robots and being a pro at maths and science, he prefers to use his tech knowledge to run a pretty well known grubtube channel. he spends way too much time on the internet as a result.
🎮 has no sense of self preservation whatsoever, doing dumb stunts he passes off as “parkour”, never sleeping [being a shifter doesn’t help], and generally leading a stupidly unhealthy lifestyle. he consumes enough caffeine in one day to fuel a small family, which doesn’t help with his paranoia and jitters about the empire.
🐉 generally, he’s a pretty sweet dude, although he never knows when to stop joking or tone down the sarcasm. he’s trying his best.
harrel hierax [#harrel]
📰 stuck up birdboy. he works for the mafia, but not out of his own will, forced into it during his studies as a forensics student. he cleans up crime scenes for a price, and is one of the best in the business to cover up your tracks and stop you being chased down by the police. he’s incredibly professional and businesslike to his clients.
🎷 behind closed doors and away from…illegal business…he’s a total recluse. a huge hypchondriac and germaphobe, he tries to avoid the outside world-and the people in it-in order to try and gain some control of his life. he compulsively and obsessively cleans and reorganises his apartments, hoping it’ll help his anxieties some. it doesn’t.
📰 in the rare alone moments he manages to chill, he really enjoys music, especially jazz. singing, piano and saxophone is a secret passion of his, not that he gets enough calm moments to practise anymore.
faldur gemela [#fgemela]
🐠 a BASTARD MAN. a violet-fuchsia cusp who thinks he’s the hottest shit around, and could not be more wrong if he tried. awful temper, sour disposition, and generally unfriendly attitude make him possibly the worst person to be around this side of the planet. alternia’s portrayal of seadwellers has him believing he’s above the others and deserves everything he wants, and he gets it.
👑 getting everything handed to him on a silver platter has made him jaded and bored-he’s reckless and impulsive with little empathy, turning to other trolls for entertainment ( 😉 ), as well as alcohol, bars, and the occasional murder. spoiled rich kid levels of boredom leads you to extreme things.
🐠 his quads are trying to make him better, though-trying to make him focus on his less destructive hobbies like reading, writing, book restoration, astronomy and his 15 cats. it’s...a difficult process.
ans thats everyone!! feel free to ask more stuff abt anyone ur interested in! im aLWAYS open to it!!
#Anonymous#ask#fredmusings#fantroll#THIS TOOK SO LONG TO WRITE#SLAP THAT READ MORE BUTTON AND TAKE A LOOK AT EM ALL#hope this helps tho anon!!!!!
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The Craziest Thing
The weirdest thing happened to me Saturday night. I went to bed and I was happy. Not like that temporary happiness that you experience when you do something new and you're excited and you get that short burst of serotonin or dopamine or whatever neurotransmitters, this wasn’t from some novelty experience. I really felt content and happy. I went to bed alone, after a long hot bath, fell asleep watching a movie, with my puppy cuddled up on my feet with a smile on my face.
I saw my favorite band play, I met up with my favorite 3 concert buddies, but unlike other times we'd met up I hugged my boys and told them I missed them and split. I missed seeing them, but I was on a mission to get to the front and get Corey Taylor sweat on me, get spit on, a marriage proposal, something? I did NOT have time to hang out. I usually cling a bit to them like an injured bird. I'll wander off. I'll go pee, I'll get another drink, I'll look at the shirts, I'll sometimes start talking to a stranger but I always go find them or one of them always follows me, and we didn't really hang that night. In between bands I pushed my way as far forward as I could. I started talking to people around me, I was like 8 people from the front for Vol Beat. Then Slipknot came on. Everyone around me had become chatty in between bands, we made a pact not to let anyone through and we stuck to it. I had warned everyone I had come to fuck shit up and I was gonna incite some moshing. I think they thought I was joking. I'm like 5'2" on a good day, blonde, I was wearing my favorite rhinestone sandals like a total weirdo, I didn't look as rambunctious as I am. But I did. When Slipknot started I started pushing and got 4 from the front. I met up with my concert buddies, one in the pit and the other crowd surfed over my head. Broke my favorite sandals and my toe nail. Note to self: wear better mosh pit shoes for the next show. I got felt up by some random dude, at first I thought he was just being shoved into me, then he grabbed me hips and pulled me into him. Next thing I know he’s trying to shove his hand down my skirt and I couldn’t get away because we were packed in too tightly. I just kept pulling his hands off me and then the crowd would shove forward again. Finally there was space and I elbow that douche bag in the sternum about 4 times and while he was trying to catch his breath I shoved him into the pit that had just opened up, he was ill prepared. Because I’m not going to be anybody else’s play thing.
In the end I had to walk to my car barefoot and it had been raining so I was wet, and it was muddy and I think I stepped on glass. I ended up in some random shady neighborhood buying gas looking a little crazy because I had worn fishnets under my shorts, a ripped up tank top, and skeleton gloves that covered my forearms, and then I came home and cleaned up and climbed in bed happy.
What is so different? I've been considering this the past day.
I legitimately spent the last 2 years trying to make a man love me who was never going to love me. I'd like committed myself to this for some dumb reason, it's taken a long time to really clear my head and go what the fuck were you thinking? The last conversation we had he still couldn't be honest with me and I had to recognize and accept that this man was kind of a piece of shit and he really didn't care about other people and who needs someone like that in their life?
Prior to that I was married for 14 years trying to make some miserable man happy, when it was never going to happen and really it wasn't my job too make him happy in the first place. You can't make someone happy? Again wtf was I thinking? He put it in my head I couldn't make it on my own, that I was too dumb or too incompetent and I wasn't desirable as a women. More laughable moments.
Before being married, I went to slipknot shows and moshed. I did whatever fun and crazy reckless thing I wanted to, when I wanted to. It wasn't always my best decision making, but I was always 100% myself and I was almost always happy. I didn't think well if I do this or this thing this guy who I'm so desperate to make love me will disapprove. Because I didn't give a shit if a man loved me or not to be honest. The men who I loved let me be as free, wild and crazy as I was because they did spend the time getting to really know me, and they didn't ask for anything else, they loved me for me. Before I didn't have men in my life who were so insecure in themselves that they felt they needed to bring me down, they needed to insult me, or control me or hold me back. Those men are still very close friends. I still talk to my highschool sweet heart, and the guy I was with after him tells me he loves me once a week, or that he misses me. I never had to work that hard to earn their love, I just had to be me. That's all I've been the last few weeks, me. I've been doing some mixed media water colors, I've been writing poetry. I've hiked, I've went for walks in the rain, I've danced for no reason, I've obsessively researched things most people find strange. If it was a I wanna lay in bed and watch movies day, I did it. In essences I've been me with no concern about whose watching me or what would or wouldn't make someone else happy.
I posted a meme on my facebook that said "How to lose a man?? Just be a good woman, they hate that shit." I reposted it because I feel like this lately, but I've also put alot of effort into two miserable selfish men which was foolish of me. I said I'm only investing in myself and better toys from here on out. I don't know that that's a forever thing but it's definitely a for right now thing because I'm happy. Because this is how you’re supposed to feel. I look forward to more days like this one.
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Chef!Smalls: Coca Cola can remove rust from metal, imagine what it’s doing to your body.
Prieston: Pfff, getting rid of the rust, idiot.
Chef!Smalls: THAT'S NOT HOW IT WORKS!
Johnathan: Hmm... I've been drinking soda and my body's rust free... not sure where you're getting your facts from...
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Chef!Smalls: You’re a loose cannon, Prieston.
Prieston: No, I’m not. I’m a cannon, maybe, but a loose cannon? Is that what you think of me?
Johnathan: I think you play by your own rules.
Worshiper!tags: No way, they think rules were made to be broken.
Chef!Smalls: Those are all attributes of a loose cannon.
Prieston: No, I’m just a reckless renegade. Nun!JD is a loose cannon.
Nun!JD: *smashes a chair* Aah! You shut your trap, Prieston!
Worshiper!tags: I’d say Nun!JD’s more of a cop on the edge with nothing to lose. That’s an entirely different thing.
Johnathan, tied to a chair: Now I’m just confused. Is Prieston a loose cannon or not?
Chef!Smalls: All right, put on a pot of coffee. We’re gonna get to the bottom of this.
Prieston: *groans*
Nun!JD: Aw, man
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Johnathan: I know we’re not exactly friends, but-
Diety!Akuma: What do you want?
Johnathan: I've been stuck with tags for 2 weeks and they've been drinking all the soy sauce.
Johnathan: Help
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Nun!JD: No, I don't want to talk about physics! I don't know anything about the laws of physics because they are hard and boring. I simply would like them to behave in a way that is most convenient to ME and MY LIFE! Is that really asking too much?
Prieston: Yes, as a matter of fact, it is!
Nun!JD: Well, guess what? Science is stupid bullshit!!
Prieston: You take that back!!!
Nun!JD: No. Magic is awesome. Science blows. The end.
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Prieston: Why are you drinking?
Chef!Smalls: I drink when I'm depressed.
Prieston: But you're always drinking?
Chef!Smalls: *smug grin*
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Nun!JD: *walks to cabinet, removes oreo box, takes half a sleeve, throws empty box out* Hi!
Prieston: Hey- what are you doing-?
Nun!JD, shoving an oreo into their mouth: I am saving space :D
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*Chef!Smalls and Nun!JD are in Paris.*
Nun!JD: I'm...moved. I...I don't know what it is I'm feeling right now. I feel...destiny?
Chef!Smalls: But...
Nun!JD: I don't know what it is. I feel like... I just never thought I'd see it with my own two eyes. And here it is. It's just there. It's right in front of me, and...
Chef!Smalls: This is what you wanted to see? The bridge from Inception?
Nun!JD: Yeah.
Chef!Smalls: But the Eiffel Tower is behind us, babe.
Nun!JD: Yeah, but this is the bridge FROM INCEPTION.
Chef!Smalls: Okay, alright
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Worshiper!tags: Damn, the power went out.
Nun!JD: Don’t worry, I got this.
Nun!JD: *shakes rapidly and starts to light up*
Worshiper!tags: What-?
Nun!JD: I swallowed a glow stick!
Worshiper!tags, on the verge of tears: WHY WOULD YOU-
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Chef!Smalls: Bro-
Nun!JD: No, no, hold up, rewind.
Nun!JD: My tongue was down in your throat just a second ago and now you're calling me bro??
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Worshiper!tags: I’m not being weird. Am I being weird?
Nun!JD: Yes, and that’s coming from me.
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Nun!JD: Bonjour, Johnathan. Voulez–vous coucher avec moi?
Prieston: No, I don't want to sleep with you.
Nun!JD: Is that what that means?
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Prieston: When you said 'Magic in Bed', I wasn't expecting this...
Johnathan: *pulls out card from deck* Now, was this your card?
Prieston: Holy moly-
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Chef!Smalls: Hey, I’m getting in the shower. Wanna help me out?
Nun!JD: ...Have you never taken a shower before?
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Chef!Smalls, in the confessionals: I sort of did something and I need some advice, but I don't want a lot of judgment and criticism.
Prieston: And you came to me?
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Fearghal & Fraze
Fearghal: Your sister has had the baby, 10.30 ish this morning, both healthy, no complications Fraze: Cheers for letting me know Fraze: I'll have to give her a bell when she's home Fearghal: Yeah about that Fearghal: if you could give her a couple of days, it'd be greatly appreciated Fraze: What's the craic? Caleb being a twat again like or what? Fearghal: No, well, not exactly but there is some shit she needs to get in order Fearghal: on strict orders to tell you all as much as you need so you're not worried but she'll give you the rest in her own time Fearghal: thought I'd get to you sharpish, on the off chance Ro wants to talk to Bea about it Fearghal: Know they don't usually talk but, she might, I dunno Fraze: Fucking hell Fraze: The kid got two healthy heads? Fearghal: As good as, son Fearghal: that's how it feels Fearghal: The kid ain't Calebs Fearghal: obviously so, you understand Fraze: Jesus Christ Fraze: It's white, ain't it? Fraze: What's Ali doing about it Fearghal: Right Fearghal: Keeping it of course Fearghal: but that has everything else a bit up in the air, her and the lad, he's meant to be going off to Singapore with her Fraze: Does she know who the other lucky lad is? Maybe he'll take the plane seat Fearghal: Oi, enough of that Fearghal: She does and it isn't fucking likely Fraze: Calm down, da, you know I've got her back Fraze: You gonna go round there and sort him? You ain't getting any younger, gotta be careful Fearghal: Fucking cheek Fearghal: Don't think there's much point, no talking to some people and anyway, what do I do for the best? Fearghal: She doesn't want him, get nothing forcing a piece of shit Father on the poor little sod Fearghal: Might be better off with him out of it frankly Fraze: She knows how to pick 'em Fearghal: Sound like your Mother, boy Fearghal: can't say he doesn't love his kids Fraze: Poor cunt Fraze: I'd go mad Fearghal: Same Fearghal: its not all it sounds, she's not cheated or been reckless but Fearghal: I'll let her explain herself Fearghal: Poor kid, all she's been doing since Fraze: It's a head fuck all round Fraze: Fair play if she's got any words Fearghal: She needs all the support she can get right now Fearghal: that's all we need from you lot, got it? Fraze: yeah yeah old man I hear you Fraze: What you think, I'm gonna wet the baby's head and drown the poor fucker Fraze: Come on Fearghal: You're not exactly known for your tact, are ya son Fearghal: Hence the preparation so you don't say something really fucking stupid Fraze: She's still my sister even if she is making a holy show of it Fearghal: None of you are angels Fearghal: but we're family, its a life sentence, no parole Fraze: Too right Fraze: Who's telling Joe? Fearghal: You can, if you'd like Fearghal: no chance of me or your Ma getting a response really but Fearghal: know he feels he can to you lot, when the mood takes him Fraze: Putting it strong but I will for what it's worth Fraze: He's gotta be told Fearghal: Cheers Fearghal: and if you could forewarn Bea to be on her best behaviour should Ro come-a-knocking Fearghal: rather you than me Fraze: Cheers yourself then Fraze: Ali coming back to yours? Fearghal: For now, yeah Fearghal: got about a month 'til she goes Fearghal: if she does Fraze: Rather you than me Fraze: Don't miss the kids being that small Fearghal: Loving the terrible twos that much, are ya? Fraze: I love a row, yeah? Fraze: It's hilarious Fearghal: Any excuse for a tantrum eh Fraze: Buster clocked me the other day, I was well proud Fraze: Great jab on him Fearghal: 'Course he does, he's a McKenna Fearghal: know what to get him for their next birthday then, I'll tell Ma Fraze: Speaking of, does Hallmark do a 'sorry your kid came out white' card or we improvising that hard on the gift front? Fraze: Fucked us all up there Fearghal: Funny, keep it up and you'll be dealing with worse than your toddler's Fearghal: I'm not sure she's incredibly arsed but you know what you need, wasn't that long ago Fearghal: She's not going to start sobbing at the sight of a babygro Fraze: I was gonna get her and the lad shit for Singapore case they started missing the homeland Fraze: Awkward Fraze: I bet she's desperate to fuck off out of it now Fearghal: It'll still be appreciated Fearghal: Last I heard she's determined to still go Fearghal: I'll intercept the post if there's a change of plans, like Fraze: She'll go just to prove she can Fraze: Stubborn fuck Fraze: Good thing the real dad don't want a look in like Fearghal: Mother's daughter Fearghal: Yeah, no danger of that Fearghal: Maybe when they come back he'll have manned up Fraze: I can't imagine having to hop on a plane every time your kid's got a shitty nappy Fraze: Don't sound like he's bothered though Fraze: Not like she needs him Fearghal: Nah Fearghal: Not every cunt is lucky enough that the relationship with the Ma works out though Fearghal: can't have the kid or her all to yourself all the time if you've fucked it Fearghal: but co-parenting and sharing is better than nothing Fearghal: if you ask me but he disagrees Fraze: No cunt'd keep me from my kids Fraze: Nothing to do with luck Fraze: It's an excuse for him to be a pussy and cry off if he gets challenged later Fraze: Can't be that loved up with her if it's the first we've heard Fraze: He's a twat. End of Fearghal: You know what I mean Fearghal: Heaven forbid you two ever broke up, you'd do what you could and make the most of your time with them Fearghal: Not sulk like a soppy twat because its unfair Fearghal: The feeling certainly is not mutual, from what I understand, at any rate Fearghal: But I thought the same Fraze: You gonna say next that it was all bad luck Ronnie's da was a waster and bowed out? Fraze: Some cunts honestly Fraze: Too busy crying to wipe your kids eyes Fraze: Ali's well rid Fearghal: I've got no room to judge Fearghal: he was a kid, made my own mistakes at his age, arguably as bad Fearghal: S'too short to be angry about it, you just have to get on with it Fraze: You don't get to be a kid when you have one, simple as Fraze: Tell me who the cunt is of Ali's I'll write that on his head for him Fraze: Proper spell it out Fearghal: Nah, you don't Fearghal: but even if you don't raise the kid, your childhood's still gone Fearghal: I doubt Josh went on to do great things with his life, or he don't have regrets about how he handled it Fearghal: I don't think its my place, son Fraze: Ma had me though, don't get greater, yeah? Fraze: I reckoned on you saying that. Ah well. Had to give it a shot Fearghal: So you say, so you say, boy Fearghal: You know you'd never hear the end of it Fearghal: Wouldn't be appreciated, like Fraze: Yeah Fraze: Probably won't hear the end of Bea if I don't tell her who it is though Fearghal: She'll probably work it out Fearghal: They're brighter than us Fearghal: Your Ma didn't seem surprised but first I'd heard of it Fearghal: Naturally, or maybe coulda intervened before now Fraze: Sounds legit Fraze: Fuck's sake Fraze: Our family needs their heads banged together, us two excluded Fearghal: Preaching to the choir boy Fearghal: we do alright Fraze: You were never a choir boy Fraze: Might bring Joe out of his hole, I'd take that Fearghal: 'Course I was Fearghal: fucking angelic, mate Fearghal: Yeah Fearghal: as usual, keep us posted Fraze: Fuck off Fraze: The cat thinks you're dying when you let a tune out Fraze: 'Course Fearghal: Well, lots changed since those days Fearghal: Balls dropped for one Fearghal: Career over Fraze: Regrets, you've got a few, yeah? Fraze: On you go, lad Fearghal: Too right, take me back Fearghal: Miss those nuns Fraze: Bet they miss you too Fearghal: I wouldn't bet on it but you know Fearghal: Only got better with age, in all the ways Fraze: Don't fancy your odds? More for them Fearghal: Oh trust me, you don't wanna face them on anything Fearghal: There's a reason we spared you the Catholic Schools Fearghal: aside from being relapsed and your Ma a filthy heathen Fraze: That'd do it Fraze: Damned the lot of us Fearghal: Might've done Fearghal: Not what we had in mind but Fraze: You're alright da I've competed my fair share of sins Fraze: Heaven's not a place for me Fearghal: I reckon we're best off if I don't know Fraze: Pissed my own bed with no help from ya, either way Fearghal: Oh well, at least we'll all be in the same place on the otherside Fraze: Stuck with all of yous Fearghal: Looks like it Fearghal: Tried to lose you all back in Liverpool but Fearghal: ya followed Fraze: Shouldn't have had a pint in your hand constantly it'd be easier to get rid of me Fearghal: 🍀 Fearghal: What can I say? Fraze: Given up the cigs yet, mate? Fearghal: Have you? Fearghal: Cheeky git Fraze: That's a no Fraze: And with a newborn in the house! Shocking behavior like Fearghal: Well, might be able to get through a whole pack by myself without your thieving mitts about, eh? Fraze: Quick learner and I had a good teacher Fearghal: How did any of ya survive honestly Fearghal: God knows Fraze: 🍀 Fearghal: Must be Fraze: Unless the bloke from downstairs with the horns wants to take credit, like Fearghal: If so, you're slacking in spreading the evil about for him Fraze: Got the next generation to do it for me Fearghal: Started doing that Damien shit have they? You were a bugger for staring at us as we slept, creepy lil fucker Fraze: Those twins from the Shining have got nothing on my two Fraze: Thank Christ they weren't both girls Fearghal: Woulda been a cracking costume but not good for your nightmares Fearghal: Ahh, those were the days Fearghal: Appreciate 'em Fraze: I do Fraze: It's fucked up that lad is so keen to miss out Fearghal: Well, he hasn't got the experience to know what he's depriving himself of Fearghal: Hm, might've been a giveaway that Fraze: I swear not to break his legs Fraze: Not looking to get you in shit with the girls Fearghal: I understand Fearghal: Its very fucking tempting Fearghal: You've got three guesses, use your head, kid, given enough away like Fraze: I reckon he's the kind of cunt to shop us, wouldn't put it past him by the sounds Fraze: Last thing anyone needs Fearghal: No chance, which makes it all the more Fearghal: Type of lad who can't go running to garda for anything Fraze: Fuck Fearghal: Yeah Fearghal: Why else would Ro be in a fucking state too Fearghal: Bastard Fraze: She's always in a state about something Fraze: I can't blame her this time though in fairness Fearghal: Apparently, its been years in the making, you know the type, gets so many yes' Fearghal: A no don't sit right, it wasn't THAT though, before you really get angry Fearghal: the chase, whatever, we've all been there and its obvious he's a scumbag but her sister Fearghal: Didn't need to go there, did he? Fraze: Opportunistic cunt Fraze: I bet he got her drunk as well as Fraze: Biding his time 'til she was at any rate Fraze: She wouldn't go near him otherwise and he knows it Fearghal: She was, your Brother reluctantly told us, didn't wanna snitch but wanted us to have the full picture Fearghal: it was back when Caleb wasn't coping with the boy and they had their break Fearghal: Your Sister wasn't coping as well as she fronted either, apparently Fraze: Fair play to Tommo, this lad's a bigger rat Fraze: Glad he had her back when it was kicking off like Fearghal: Yeah, glad she had someone she could confide in Fearghal: 'cos obviously Ro was out of the question Fearghal: So much for loyalty from him to Caleb though...after all that family has done for him Fraze: Yeah Fraze: Great lad all round, ain't he Fraze: No surprise he isn't stepping up for his kid Fearghal: Yeah, not unless she stays with him Fearghal: Over my dead body, sunshine Fearghal: She won't, even if she has to leave without Caleb, she's not daft Fraze: Over his if he fucking tried it Fraze: Nobody's keeping her from going Fearghal: Its all she's wanted and worked for Fearghal: Though your mother isn't thrilled about the idea of her going out there alone with 3 babies in tow Fearghal: I'm not either but I know she can Fearghal: fucking how, I do NOT know Fraze: None of us want her over in wherever the fuck but it's where she's gotta be Fearghal: Right Fearghal: None of you can be normal and do one thing at a time, can you? Fraze: Who'd you think we got that off, you soft twat Fearghal: Fair, I never did the School thing and your Mum only went back inbetween you lot and Mr Oopsy-Baby himself Fearghal: Still proud of her Fearghal: and yous, glad you are but fucking hell Fearghal: gonna be in the ground 'fore the year is out, I tell ya Fraze: It'd be one hell of a party but there's plenty of shit to celebrate before you pop your clogs Fraze: If only Ali not being saddled with the local wannabe Fearghal: True Fearghal: I'll do my best to stick around then Fearghal: No promises Fraze: Try and earn a bit more before you're in the ground Fraze: Save us lot paying out Fearghal: Just fling me in the sea Fearghal: I'll write it in the will, no suspicions like Fraze: Trying to get the garda on me, are ya? Fraze: Unlucky Fraze: Gotta get up earlier than that, lad Fearghal: Oh well, had to try, ay? Fearghal: Reckon Rock's still young enough to fool Fearghal: Probably have me off the cliff whilst I'm still living like Fraze: He would Fraze: Watch yourself Fearghal: Got to Fearghal: Got Rio running 'round doing his bidding at the mo Fearghal: not needed tonight but might escape to the pub for the peace Fearghal: Irish Da style Fraze: 'course Fraze: Have one for me Fraze: Cambs can't compete Fearghal: I'll save it for the next time yous are over Fraze: Get yourself down here and save me from all these posh twats Fearghal: No chance, lucky you got a mongrel of an accent, catch a note of mine and I'll be banned with the dogs and blacks Fraze: Might get that burial sooner than you reckoned Fraze: Make your mind up Fearghal: Reckon I could take 'em but not in the courts like Fearghal: they'd have to fucking kill me, got no dosh to dole out Fraze: I'll let you off then Fraze: This once Fraze: Less good for us lot behind bars than you'd be in a box Fearghal: Know what I'd prefer Fearghal: Might bump into one of me brothers Fraze: Perfect time for a family reunion right now Fearghal: Fuck no Fearghal: Avoiding 'em in hell too like Fraze: Best of luck with that one Fraze: I'll raise a glass to it Fearghal: You can raise it again to the fact you never had to meet 'em Fraze: Any excuse for another drink, yeah Fearghal: If MY Da taught me anything worth remembering Fraze: A recycled lesson would be the only one I take to heart Fraze: fuck's sake Fearghal: What can I say? Fearghal: Not full of wisdom just full of shit Fraze: That makes one of us Fearghal: When yours can string a proper sentence together come back to me boy Fearghal: see how clever you feel when a kid's running rings round ya Fraze: Never gonna happen, I've got all the answers Fearghal: 😂 Fearghal: Well, best be off Fearghal: the kids are running riot and the baby is screaming along with your Ma so Fearghal: that's my cue to jump ship Fraze: yeah don't let me keep ya Fearghal: Catch you later mate Fraze: Look after yourself Fraze: And that lot Fearghal: Will do Fearghal: You and yours like
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