#i don't usually do these. but it was fun to think about some of my past works

[bunni-v1]

please I beg you,, some burning spice cookie x reader headcanons... 🥺💖

i love thinking about how the first time they met, burning spice tells reader that if they choose to follow him, they shouldn't expect him to save them if something bad happens.

but oh boy, what do you know! reader is caught in a bad situation and all they can think about is burning spice's words and they just... accept their fate.

... except... nothing bad happens to them. burning spice managed to block the danger with his axe and his arm protectively wrapped around reader 🤧💖✨️💕💕

🍓Hello Mutual. Ahodhwhdo, sorry that was so creepy, but I see you in my notes all the time and I've never actually interacted with you so lmaoooo. You're so right, btw, this is an exact situation that 100% happens. You can trust me, I was his left eyebrow. Only issue with this is we have like zero content to work off for him and Mystic Flower, like... devsis we can see who the favorite child is. Only sfw, because you didn't ask for nsfw and I don't wanna make anyone uncomfy <3

Tw: Aggressive affection; "Neglectful" behaviors; He's kinda toxic but it's hot (don't romanticize abuse irl please); a little suggestive like once or twice lol; grammar errors

Info: Buring Spice x Reader; Fluff & Angst; Sfw

-Burning Spice might be one of the most difficult cookies to be with, and this is coming from a Shadow Milk fan. He's just so impatient and so insatiable, it's not something a regular cookie could deal with easily.

-Before his corruption he was worshipped like a god, and he most certainly commanded respect from his followers. He likely didn't see any cookie worthy of his time, at least not romantically. Not to say he hasn't had flings or anything, cause I'm a firm believer that he did, but they weren't serious. If anything, they were all physical and for fun rather than anything serious.

-This attitude only gets worse post-corruption. Nothing is worth his attention, nothing is interesting enough, and he doesn't even try to engage anyone anymore they just won't do anything for him. All he wants is his souljam, and in the meantime, he'll destroy and crush whatever gets in his way.

-You are a member of the Wild Spices, a weak one at that. There was no reason for you to catch his eye, especially with how lackluster you were. No flashy moves, no impressive strength, actually you were bullied and picked on quite a bit by the others. No, there was nothing skin-deep special about you.

-What seemed to pique his interest was your spunk. No matter how many times you got knocked on your ass, you popped back up ready to go again. Not to mention that fiery determination and the mouth you had. In a sea of boring soldiers who worshiped the very ground he walked on, you were something special.

-Who else but you would mouth off to him, hm? You know better than anyone it's not a fight worth picking, but you still do. And in terms of wit and wordplay, you wipe the floor with his ass. He doesn't usually lose, but he did this time, because he can't keep up with that quick tongue of yours.

-What's really shocking to everyone is that he allows you to talk to him like that. He doesn't punish you for your disrespect, he just... allows you to do what you want. It would be so funny to see such a big guy be poked at if it weren't him.

-Your friends are worried for you because while they pick on you, they're not destruction incarnate. They can't crush you in one blow if they like, you can at least put up a fight with them. They advise you to stop while you're ahead, but you don't.

-You keep going, and Burning Spice just allows you to do whatever you like. It's increasingly obvious that he's got a soft spot for you, and it only makes your friends worry more. You don't want his attention on you, because once he grows bored, you're done for.

-It's likely that you're not even aware of what's going on. You probably find him mildly annoying because he's usually the one provoking reactions out of you. You do notice that you've been lifted in the ranks a lot since he started though. To the point that you went from never seeing him, to seeing him for hours at a time every day.

-He likes that sort of innocent naivety about you. You're funny, you're cute, you're his. Poor you, you have no idea the scariest guy alive has long since staked his claim on you.

-The other Wild Spices stop picking on you, any fights you might have to get significantly easier for you, and cookies seem to look at you with fear and respect. It's weird, and even you're aware that it's not earned at all.

-You're really oblivious as to why this is happening, but eventually, Burning Spice summons you to his presence. Alone. Really, you think he's going to finally crumble you for your mouth like your friends say... but he doesn't.

-"Shall we stop playing these games, they bore me."

"Games...? I wouldn't play games with a cookie like you."

"Just admit your feelings for me, I won't deny you."

"...what..."

-You kind of stand there like an idiot for a long while, just staring at him. You're going through the past few weeks, and suddenly it all makes sense. And like an idiot, you shout, "You like me?"

-Yes, he does, and he's not shy about that fact. Why are you so shy about it. However, he does like the way your dough heats at the realization.

-Things escalate rather quickly from that point on. You go from "higher rank" to practically glued to his side. He likes having you nearby, to make sure he can keep an eye on you. You are now a weakness of his, and he's not going to allow you to be used against him.

-He does give you personal training -- well... Nutmeg Tiger Cookie gives you personal training. Burning Spice may be a brute, but he's not stupid enough to pit you up against himself. He likes you believe it or not.

-Nutmeg Tiger Cookie also knows better than to go too hard on you. If you come back with a grievous injury, it's her head.

-She respects you, if only because Burning Spice commands it. Regardless, she listens to you, and she's a surprisingly good personal trainer. You can actually hold your own in a fight thanks to her.

-Burning Spice claims that you are on your own on the battlefield and that if something happens to you it's up to you to save yourself. He doesn't have the time to waste on rescuing you like a damsel in distress. That's why he makes you go through the training and the work.

-...Only to make Shadow Milk Cookie look like the holiest truth-teller to have ever been.

-The second you're in any real danger Burning Spice is there. The sheer heat from his anger is enough to singe the edges of your clothes. He cannot believe the audacity of this cookie, to even think of trying to destroy what's his? It's a death sentence.

-He's protective of you, it just manifests differently from other cookies. It's not an overbearing or obvious kind of protection, but it's there when it needs to be. When you need him, he'll be there, and that's all that matters in the end.

-While he isn't exactly a romantic, he finds the expression of love in the traditional sense to be boring, he is sweet in his own way. The protection is just one aspect of that.

-Another way he shows how much he cares about you is his tendency to listen. He is not a patient cookie, it's almost impossible to get him to sit still for longer than a few minutes. But if you're talking, he can sit and listen for as long as you like.

-He will complain that he's bored, but he listens and he stays put. I would not recommend making direct eye contact while he listens, it becomes increasingly obvious that he doesn't blink the longer you stare, and it's kind of terrifying.

-He's not faking listening either, he remembers whatever you say. Months later he'll bring it up, or he'll answer questions about it without thought. He takes the time to know you, even if it seems like he wouldn't.

-If anyone questions his devotion to you or your devotion to him, they will suffer serious consequences. Burning Spice Cookie does not enjoy his intentions being questioned, he's very straightforward, and he makes no move to hide his affection for you. If someone is questioning that, they can only have poor intentions. He will not have you torn away from him because of some spineless cookie.

-He carries you around a lot. Like most of the time, you're being carried around by him. He likes to have you in his arms, it's reassuring in a way, that nothing can happen to you if he literally has you on his person most times.

-It's a frequent sight for the Wild Spices to see him walking around with you on his shoulders, slung over his back, or being carried around under one arm.

-If he is sitting, you are on his lap. No arguments about it, he wants you on his lap and that's where you'll be.

-He just likes to hold you. You're much smaller than him, even if you're a larger cookie, so he enjoys holding you nice and close. Fuels his ego a bit.

-Sometimes he'll just gaze at you, and you have no idea what's going on in his head. He'll twirl your hair around his fingers, sometimes even pressing a kiss to its tip. He just thinks you're so stunning, the perfect cookie to keep at his side for eternity. His right hand, his whole world, right there in front of him. Call him sappy, but he can't control how his dough aches for you.

-After watching you for so long, he'll kiss you and then move on to whatever he needs to do next. It leaves you reeling and overwhelmed each time. He's just so intense and so impossible to read, but at least you can't doubt his devotion to you.

-Speaking of kisses, his are overwhelming much like everything else about him. He doesn't accept half-assed work, so no light or fleeting kisses. They're all deep and full of emotion, full of passion for you.

-It feels as though he's trying to swallow you whole. He pulls you close so there's no room between you. He smells warm, like spice, but it's not as overwhelming as you might think. What is overwhelming is how he pushes his tongue past your lips and feels around your own.

-His tongue is forked like a snake, and it always takes its sweet time tasting you like that. It's like he's trying to commit to memory what you feel like, obsessively swallowing up whatever you'll give him. It leaves you breathless and lightheaded when he pulls away, but he'll only give you a smirk while he lets you stumble around.

-Now, Burning Spice is not a jealous cookie, not remotely. he has no worries of losing you to any other cookie because there is no one else who would be worthy of your time. Not even the other beasts, though he will get angry if they try to take up your time.

-He is, instead, very possessive of your time. If he keeps you by his side, no one can really make him jealous. If someone does take up your time, he gets annoyed and antsy. It takes a while for him to cool down after the fact, so you'll have to smother him in affection to make him feel better.

-Speaking of, he loves to be worshipped by you. Not in the get on your knees and pray way, but literally worshiping him. Praise him for his strength, his looks, and how wonderful he makes you feel. How much you love him. It makes him purr like an oversized cat.

-Oh, and he loves it when you run your fingers through his hair, or if you play with it a little. You can put whatever style on him you like, and he'll wear it around with pride. He doesn't care about the looks he gets, you did it so it's something he's proud of.

-That's a good way to categorize your relationship, and pride in each other. He wants you to brag about being with him, you should be proud to be with him. You are worth his time, everyone should know that. If anyone questions that, he'll correct them, don't worry.

-He equally finds pride in being your partner. He chose you for a reason, there are many traits of yours that he finds admirable. He wants everyone to know what is so special about you, he wants everyone to know that he loves you. He's proud of loving you and being yours as much as you are his.

-So, yes, he'll wear his hair in silly styles. He'll carry you around and be affectionate to you around other cookies. He'll wear matching jewelry for you. He would happily do anything to show you off, and he loves to show you off.

[rocketbaby]

Heelloooo! I haven't ever really sent out a request of my own to any author so I'm not sure how it works wizhuejss but omgosh I love your writing so so much I cant help but atleast give it a chance yk :p

I was wondering if you could maybe write a bakugo x reader where the reader is an extremely girly girl and kinda like the total opposite of bakugo? Kinda like how his parents relationship is with mitski being all bash and loud and then theres masaru. I dont mind any scenario you have in mind whether its suggestive or not just have fun while you write it if you want to :p, that's all ty!

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I hope it meets your expectations<3 I dunno exactly what you meant by extremly girly girl but I wrote what i thought of when you said that :( . Also please keep in mind I don't write for Kats that much so this is ass. I would say these are mostly some head cannons. Please excuse any grammar mistakes

trigger warning - vulgar words/swearing

Katsuki Bakugo x girly reader

Katsuki never thought he'd end up falling for a girl like you. He actually didn't think he'd fall for anyone at all but here we were.

You were such a sweetheart compared to his rough and mean personality. He honestly has no idea why you'd even like in the first place..when you guys had met he didn't like you at all.

Your personality and just you overall were the exact opposite of him which he hated back then. He told himself that if he'd end up dating someone it would be a person similar to him, with a tough personality and strong character..and then he met you.

It didn't take long for you both to fall in love. He started finding you somewhat cute and he cringed at that thought at first. He couldn't lie though, katsuki kinda liked how you dressed. You would mostly only wear cute,fancy outfits, usually containing of white/pink thigh warmers with a pretty little Skirt and a cute top. You'd also wear lots of accessories like bows, jewelery and more.

Most of the times you wear your outfits in warm,cute colors like red white pink yellow and maybe even light blue/baby blue. Well surprisingly, Katsuki caught a liking for it,for your outfits.

Head cannon that this man becomes a lover boy when he meets the right person

You love him and his personality too even though he's sometimes embarrassing you in public. You'd go out with him on dates and he would randomly start a fight with one of the waitress's there because he thought the food wasn't cooked properly.

You being a sweetheart,tried to calm him down and assure him that it's not the waitress's fault. Of course Katsuki didn't really listen,he made a scene there while the whole restaurant was staring and whispering.

Obviously,you tried interfering.

"Not now,babe. I need to have a talk with the dude who cooked this shit right here. It doesn't even look edible"

You didn't know what to do anymore and you could just stand back and look at him being a dumbass. He was so fuckin embarrassing.

"You expect us to eat this bull crap?! Even a seven year old kid could do better than this!"

"I came out here with my girl so we could enjoy a good meal and this is what we get? They should hire me,for fucks sake! I'll do the cooking!"

He has absolutely no shame.

This took you by surprise but you found out Katsuki loves to watch you do your make up. He often compliments you on it, alongside with your outfits. That's one of the main reasons why he loves taking you out, because he adores seeing you get all pretty for him.

"The makeup really fits you,love. And that little shit you put on your lips,that glossy thingy,it makes your lips look so much more kissable"

Another thing that he really loves about you is your voice. God it sounds so sweet and nice,he definitely forces you to whisper or talk to him while he falls asleep.

You just sound so feminine and that attracts him. He never thought he'd be into that.

It was so calming to him because his voice is rough and sounds mean. He's loud and vulgar and you with your voice are exactly the opposite,that's what makes it so special to him.

Also because he is a fuckin dumbass and a rude bitch, people are never being kind to him and they also speak poorly to him and about him, he's not used to anyone talking so sweetly..so when you did,he immediately fell in love even harder.

He'd lay his head on your chest, getting comfortable and he would just tap your forearm to get your attention properly.

"Mmh..I wanna go to sleep..do your thing baby, please"

You giggle, knowing what he wants. You were confused on why he'd find this so pleasing but it's not like you mind.

He falls asleep the next second. He can't stay up late,never. Not when he hears your pretty voice.

[urinarythreatinfection]

About lil ol me!? If you say so.

Last Song: Disappearance Addiction by Kairiki bear (My fav vocaloid artist) The one on youtube specifically with the animation theres many versions of the song

Last Book: The Lost Hero by Rick Riordan. Id already read it but felt like rereading it since its in my campus library. Dropped it though. Not because its bad, its great, the humor aged pretty well too, just didnt want ti have to borrow it and possibly have it go overdue and the library is cold after a while. Maybe ill get back to it.

Last Movie: Sonic 3. Watched with some friends and family. Was pretty funny. But so cringe. I cant blame sonic for being cringe in the movie because it fit his character being cringe but that "Konichi-what" took actual life from my body. Also we were really late so we missed like 20 min of it and that was basically the part i first saw with no context.

Last Game: Cult of the Lamb. Its fun. Just so fucking glitchy. Its crashed multiple times and glitched so bad id had to quit it multiple times. Its such a shame considering how fun it is too.

Last TV Show: One piece, if not counting anime then Arcane. Though im on like episode.. 3.

Sweet/Spicy/Savory: Sweet. I love sweets. Sm. I love them. I feel like between a bad sweet and a bad savory or spicy its always the bad sweet thats usually gonna be better.

Relationship: Single. Im not really interested in relationships. I dont have crushes either. Ive never really been super in relationships especially seeing how miserable people will be just because they aren't in one. Not that i can't go in one, I just don't crave it.

Favorite Color: Yellow and Brown. Yes i know shit and piss but i do like the colors. Bananas, bees, sunflowers, its a good color combination. Brown is a very warm calm color and yellow a very bright happy color. Im not too picky about colors though.

Last Internet Search: Big five personality test. I heard from a psychology person online that Myer Briggs one actually is not good and that Big five one is better so i was doing it but got bored.

tags: @worstgenerationloser @kaivenom @hannahbarberra162 @silverinkbottle @worstscholar

I cant think of anyone else. You don't have to do this though. I won't go crazy.

TAG GAME - 10 People I'd Like to Know Better

thank you for tagging me @zorua-adorable !

Last Song: anna sun by WALK THE MOON

Last Book: junji ito's lovesickness collection

Last Movie: descendants 3 lmao

Last Game: fire emblem: path of radiance

Last TV Show: alice in borderland

Sweet/Spicy/Savory: sweet 100%. i have such a sweet tooth it's a bit of a problem

Relationship: single and not planning on changing that any time soon

Favorite Color: purple 💜

Last Internet Search: fahrenheit to celsius

no pressure tags: @ambeer6 @biblicallyaccurate-candylady @in-a-bucket @nerdofmanymediumsandfandoms @rencatuive @tophats-tea @biggestlen @bleuflowerfields @hqwthornes @asexual-shelly

[raven-odyssey]

⋆♱✮♱⋆ D is for dangerous (part 1)

Ni-ki Nishimura x fem!reader

wc. 2071

summary: after pairing up with a slytherin for a potion project, you somehow find yourself unable to tear away from him  

tw. fem!reader, reader is implied to be a gryffindor but I don't mention it alot, reader is kinda awkward & Ni-ki is a halfblood, enha mentioned and all implied to be Slytherins (ikik sorry). Harry and Malfoy are mentioned like 1 time, also voldy died so we dont worry about him :)

a/n. Hello! This is my first fic and english isnt my first language so pls be nice. Part 2 should be up pretty soon :) comment to be tagged or fill my taglist form! btw 10 galleons is like 73.5 usd.

part 2

Potions are fun, well usually it is. You see, Professor Slughorn has a way of making his classes fun and the hardest potions seem like lightwork as long as you have a functioning brain and some sense of what you’re doing. What isn't fun on the other hand are group projects. Sure pairing up with your friends is nice; you know them and you’re sure they'll do their work. But not with people you don't know. So when Slughorn announced at the end of class that the class would have to prepare amortentia in pairs of his choice, you were ready to beg your ancestors for a partner willing to do at least some of the work. But to your demise (and the whole class really) Slughorn announced the pairs would be from different houses in order to ‘improve inter house relationships’, sending a pointed look at Potter and Malfoy. A list was stuck to the board and that was that. 

Sighing as you pack your things, you make your way to the board where a couple of your classmates are crowinding up. You get on your tiptoes, trying to find your family name on the page. (l/n),  (l/n),  (l/n).... Ah it's there! And next to it… Nishimura. You press your lips together, turning your head to find the Slytherin. You're not quite sure how the boy even got in Slughorn advanced potion class but you still hope he’ll do his part. At least I could get him to freeze the Ashwinder eggs since it's a pain… As you try to spot him, you hear a loud “Who the fuck is (l/n)?” When you’re finally able to spot him, he’s sitting on a desk at the very back of the class, next to Sunghoon, somehow spotting his name a few meters away from the board. His eyes meet your unimpressed one, and he flashes you his signature smirk. You give him a once over, trying your best not to roll your eyes. He makes his way to you, stopping in front of you. 

“Looks like we’re partners huh?” He looks at you with a look you assume makes girls eat in the palm of his hand. Boys…. “I'm going to the library after class, let's meet up there to slip up the ingredient prep.” He surveys your face, nodding. You leave the classroom, hurrying up the stairs to your transfiguration class.

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“Ok we’re gonna need to ask Slughorn to give us some pearl dust, which we can only get from his personal collection, can you take care of that?” You glance up from your notebook to a seemingly uninterested Ni-ki. “Are you even listening?” He glances up “Yeah, you’re asking me to fetch the pearl dust.” Ok, maybe the project wouldn’t be so bad afterall… Well at least he does listen. Ni-ki straightened up, resting his elbow on the table, joining his hands together. “So tell me, how come I've never heard of you before?” You close your notebook, leaning back on your chair, unsure how to answer him. “We never talked before today.” He smirks “Actually- I dont think I’ve ever seen you talk to anyone before… Do you even have friends?” He asks almost tauntingly. You raise an eyebrow, unsure why he suddenly seemed so interested. “I do have friends…” you cross your arms over your chest, glaring at him. He raised his hands in defeat “Hey can't blame me for being curious”. Shaking your head, you open your potion book. “Let’s just get this over with…”

Fortunately for you, Ni-ki, while being mostly clueless about potions, was willing to both help and learn, taking some task of the amortentia making process upon himself. The month quickly passed, and the potion turned out to be a success. Slughorn was pleasantly surprised by your grade, especially when you confirmed that Ni-ki did play an active role in the process, which brings you to your current predicament; Ni-ki and you, standing in front of Slughorn’s desk, waiting for the last of your classmates to leave. “Miss. (l/n), I’d like for you to tutor Mr. Nishimura for a few months.” Your eyes widen, taken aback by the professor’s request. “Uhm, professor… may I ask why me?” Slughorn smiles, gathering some documents on his desk, which you assume is for his next class. “I know you are a talented student, Miss.(l/n), and you and Mr. Nishimura seem to be quite the team. The potion’s quality was excellent and if what you told me about Mr. Nishimura's contribution to it is indeed true… you might be able to help him raise his grades.” He gestures towards Ni-ki, continuing “Mr. Nishimura here is a talented quidditch player and while I know he doesn't play in your house’s team, it would truly be a shame if he couldn't play the upcoming seasons because of his grades…” You glance at Ni-ki, who sends you a sheepish look. You nod, it’s not a bad idea… teaching the material to someone else is another way of studying. Yeah! What's the worst that could happen? “I… I'll do it.” Ni-ki’s eyes widen. “Really?! You will?” You nod, and Slughorn claps his hands together, beaming. “Excellent, truly admirable Miss. (l/n), it seems the two of you are the only ones who truly grasped the point of this project!” Happy with the outcome, the professor continues to praise himself. You and Ni-ki share a look, and decide it might be best to leave. The walk back to the Great Hall is quiet. As you take the stairs to get to transfiguration class he stops you. “Hey-... uh I just wanted to say thank you for accepting to tutor me even though we aren't in the same house…” He rubs the back of his neck awkwardly. “It's nice- I appreciated it.” He stuff his hand in his pocket, smiling and you think that there’s simply no way all Slytherins are bad. You shake your head “No problem, don't mention it… tThe whole Gryffindor and Slytherin should be sworn enemies thing… it's kind of dumb so I don't mind… but just because I'm tutoring you doesn't mean I'll cheer for you out there.” You say with a smile, attempting to dissipate the weird tension in the air. He seems surprised but he simply returns your smile and nods, leaving for his next class. 

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In the first few days you spend tutoring Ni-ki you learn a few things. First, all Slytherins aren't stuck ups who believe in blood purity rank, Ni-ki and his half-blood status proved that. Secondly, if there was one thing Ni-ki did know, it was quidditch. He started playing in second year as a chaser, and he was good, really good. And thirdly, he had a knack to make you feel at ease, going as far as making your tutoring lessons enjoyable. Well maybe a little too much…..

Leaning back on his chair, Ni-ki looks at you.“You know, you aren’t as serious as I originally thought.” You look up from his notebook, red pen in hand as you correct his potion report. “What do you mean?” He smiles as he speaks. “When I first saw you, I assumed you were some super serious and reserved nerd… And you kind of look like you’ve got a stick up your ass.” He adds, shrugging. You blink at him. “I do not???” “Oh trust me you do darling.” Your eyes widen at the sudden pet name and in order to protect both your sanity and divide his attention from the growing blush on your cheeks, you said the first thing that comes to your mind. “Well that's rich coming from the guy who looks like he’s gonna marry his first cousin.” Ni-ki burst out laughing, earning a disapproving look from Mrs. Pince – the librarian. You shush him, glaring. “Be quiet!! We’re gonna get kicked out because you’re too loud-!” Ni-ki lowers his voice, trying to keep his laugh to a minimum. “I'm sorry, it's just… I did NOT expect you to say that.” 

You look at him, raising an eyebrow. “Oh come on- I cannot be the first person to make fun of how obsessed some of y’all are with blood purity-” Ni-ki takes a deep breath, trying to calm down his laughter. “It was unexpected okay?” You start laughing silently, his laughter contagious. “Okay but will you?” You ask teasingly but also a little curious. “What?” “Marry your cousin.” Ni-ki looks absolutely bewildered that you would honestly ask him that question. “No???? Why the fuck would I do that?” You shrug. “Dunno. But honestly… I can't believe it's actually a thing- it just doesn't sit right with me to marry your cousin. Why not just marry another pure blood?” “Uhh, preserving culture? And like… the family structure or some shit.” You blink at the very much… weird explanation and sigh. “Why are you people like this??” Ni-ki pretends to be offended by the jab. “How dare you bring my family into this?!” You roll your eyes. “Because your family and weird pureblood values are literally the reason we’re having this ridiculous conversation.” He snickers. “Fair point.” You huff, shaking your head. “I swear, you don’t take anything seriously.” “That’s not true!” He argues, though the grin on his face says otherwise. You give him a deadpan look. “Ni-ki you’re the most unserious person I’ve ever met, you would laugh at a piece of toast falling.” He raises his voice, trying to defend himself, a smile tugging his lips. “I do NOT find humor in a piece of toast falling!” He pauses for a moment, his smiles widening further, picturing it. “Ok maybe I do, but that's beside the point-!” 

The b0th of you continue cracking j0kes until Mrs. Pince, after a particularly loud laugh from you, has to – quite literally – ask you to leave. Ni-ki bites back his laugh, sending an apologetic look at Mrs. Pince. “Of course, we were just leaving.” Packing your bags, leaving the library in a hurry, crackling on the way out.

“I can't believe it, we actually got kicked out of the library” Ni-ki’s eyes find yours, an incredulous look on his face, as if the idea of being kicked out of a library – for disturbing everyone by breaking the number one rule of a library – was inconceivable. You put a hand over your chest, struggling to breathe. “Wait, I literally can't breathe right now-” Ni-ki continues with a smile on his face. “We got kicked out of the library….” His face fall, realising what happened “WAIT WE ACTUALLY GOT KICKED OUT OF THE FUCKING LIBRARY!!” “OH MY LORD SHUT UP!” He covers his mouth, realizing how loud he just was. He turns to you whispering. “If they tell Slughorn I’m totally getting detention.” You shake your head, “It's fine we were just a bit loud, they won't give you detention for that… right?” Ni-ki passes a hand through his hair, looking around the hallway. “Who knows, maybe Dumbeldore will decide to give me detention AND make us pay for a library pass..” He lowers his voice, seeing some very confused Ravenclaws nearby, staring skeptically. 

You sign “Man I'm too broke for library pass….” Ni-ki chuckles pitifully, the idea of yet another detention dimming his laughter a little. “You can't afford the 10 galleons?? Me neither.” You turn your head towards him. “Charging us 10 galleons for a library pass is crazy” Ni-ki shrugs, acting as if 10 galleons is pocket change. “Well if it's the price to pay to enter the forbidden lands of the library...” He glanced at you, cracking a smile. You shake your head smiling, as you start walking “Shut up Nishimura.” You miss the lovesick look he gives you before catching up to you. “I mean, it was kinda your fault we got kicked out…” “ME??? I did nothing! YOU are the trouble maker mister!” Ni-ki crosses his arm, offended. “Why am I the one being pinned as a troublemaker?! YOU were the one that kept laughing!” “Because you kept saying out of pocket shit-!” He rolls his eyes playfully, giving you a slight shove. “Dang and you also hit women huh?” Ni-ki looks at you horrified, almost tripping on air. “I do NOT hit women. And even if I did, THAT wasn't even a hit! It was a shove, a light one at that.”

©RAVEN-ODYSSEY

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[organic-bloodbath]

Hi Oona! I really enjoy your Teach Ddakji to me.

I wanna see Reader and Salesman playing ddakji (maybe a regular game night) and at some point Salesman forgets himself or sth and slaps Reader on reflex. Then tries to make it up to Reader. Wheather Reader knows about the fact he's a recruiter I'll let you decide. Tho it'd be fun if they didn't. I just want some hurt/comfort. Pls?

I already requested the same to someone else but I know I'll enjoy it far more in your writing style. Unless you don't like the idea.

Slap me, my love

The Salesman x Reader

Summary: As above.

A/N: I'm happy to hear you've enjoyed it ❤️ Hope this is okay too 💙

♡♡

You and your fiancé had a game night every Saturday, you'd had it ever since you first met. You played a variety of different games with each other, and you were so excited every time you tried a new game you hadn't played before.

Tonight, you were playing Ddakji. It wasn't a new game for you, the two of you had played it several times already. In the beginning, you had been quite bad at it but now you had become a lot better – though he still won more often than you did.

Whenever one of you lost, the other could decide a 'punishment' for the loser, although it couldn't really be called an actual punishment. Usually it was a kiss on some part of your body or something else slightly sexual, but it varied a lot, and you never knew what he had in his mind.

Now, it was his turn and, with no surprise, he succeeded at turning your blue square around.

"Could you lose atleast once to make me feel better?" you rolled your eyes but smiled.

"You told me you didn't want me to hold back and let you win on purpose," he reminded you, a smile on his lips as well.

"Alright, what do you want as your reward?" You bit your lip.

"Hm, let me think," he said, stepping right in front of you. "Maybe... this."

He moved your hair out of the way to expose your neck to him. He leaned down to kiss your neck, making more marks on your skin. You let out a sigh of pleasure, cupping his face in your hands when he pulled his head away.

"Would you mind to continue the game later and, perhaps, start another game in the bedroom, hm?" you asked, playing with his tie.

"Tempting," he whispered. "But let's have a few more rounds before that, hm?"

"You're such a tease."

Then, it was your turn to hit your blue square on his red one, but unfortunately you missed and didn't manage to turn it around like he had done. As you lost and was waiting for your punishment, it was something you hadn't been prepared to at all. You didn't feel a kiss on your cheek or anything else what would bring butterflies in your stomach, no. You felt a hard and painful slap on your left cheek which stinged your skin a lot.

You held your cheek in horror as you looked at your fiancé. His eyes widened, and he could see the terrified look on your face.

"Darling, i'm so sorry," he apologised, voice trembling. He took a step towards you, but you took two steps back, instinctly needing to take distance to him.

You had been together for the past four years and never, absolutely never, had he layed his hand on you. He had never hit or slapped you, and you couldn't even imagine he would do that at all.

"I promise, i didn't mean to do that," he said desperately, speaking much faster than normally. "I swear it was an accident, i would never hurt you intentionally."

You had told him that your ex-boyfriend had hit you a few times before you had been able to leave him. Your ex had started abusing you two years into your relationship, completely out of nowhere, and he had manipulated you to trust him not to hit you ever again after that, but still new bruises had appeared on your skin.

You had trusted your current fiancé to never hurt you but here you were, holding your cheek which surely would turn red and leave a bruise.

You had promised yourself that if any man hit you again, you'd instantly walk out of the door and never turn back. But looking at him right now, regret clear on his face, you weren't able to do that.

If he does it once, he'll do it again, your mother's voice reminded you inside your head.

"Just, stay back," you mumbled, eyes starting to water.

"Darling, i-"

"How could you possibly do that accidentally?" you asked, ready to start tearing up.

He rubbed his eyes and shook his head, then locking his eyes with you. "I just. When i play Ddakji with other people, the punishment of losing is a slap on the face." He took a careful step towards you, trying to see if you'd take more distance to him. "I, i played it a little earlier today with a guy, so i think it just stuck with me now."

When he noticed that you didn't flinch back anymore, he dared to take your hands in his, gently brushing your knuckles with his thumbs. He looked directly into your eyes.

"I'm really, really sorry," he said, genuine regret and sadness in his eyes. "You have every right to leave but please, please don't."

He brought his hand on your cheek, slowly to see if you'd flinch away – he didn't want to make any fast movements right now, making sure you knew what he was about to do. You stood still, feeling his gentle touch on your sore skin.

"I would never, ever want to hurt you on purpose," he whispered.

You were unsure what to do. You had promised yourself you'd leave from the first slap and never go through that again, but you couldn't. He looked so sorry for his actions and during your entire relationship of four years, he had shown no sign of violence towards you.

"One more slap and i'll walk out the door and return my ring to you," you stated seriously.

"Of course," he immediately agreed. "It'll never happen again, i promise you."

He pulled you in a gentle hug, rubbing your back with his hand and resting his chin on top of your head. You closed your eyes and relaxed in his embrace.

Leave, Y/N, your mom's voice insisted. Walk away when you still can. He will do it again.

"I love you so much, Y/N," he whispered.

He wouldn't slap you a second time, right? Four years he had been so gentle with you, surely this had to be only a one time accident.

You loved this man more than life itself.

"Let's go get some ice for that, okay?" He took your hand in his to start leading you towards the kitchen.

You sat on a chair at the table while he got an ice pack from the freezer. He sat down next to you, pressing it against your cheek. You didn't say anything and avoided eye contact with him for a while. Him making you this uncomfortable and afraid absolutely broke his heart. You took the ice pack in your own hand and kept pressing it against your skin. He kneeled down on the floor in front of you, holding your free hand in his.

"Tell me what i can do to make this better," he pleaded softly. "I don't want to lose you or make you scared of me."

"Do you really slap other people?" you asked, narrowing your eyes.

"I do, yes," he admitted, a smile spreading on his face afterwards. "You're the only person who i kiss."

Your cheeks warmed a little bit, a small smile finding its way on your lips. He brushed a strand of your hair behind your ear.

"But why?" you asked.

He furrowed his eyebrows, looking confused. "Because you're the only person i truly love, i don't want to kiss anyone else."

"No, i mean," you chuckled, "why do you slap people? Is it a guy thing or something?"

He couldn't help but smile at your assumption. "Something like that."

You fell silent for a moment, until he stood up, pulling you up as well to stand in front of him. He put the ice pack on the table and made direct eye contact with you.

"Slap me," he commanded.

"Excuse me?" you asked, raising your brows.

"You heard me," he said seriously. "Slap me. As hard as you can, don't hold back."

You rolled your eyes. "I'm not going to slap you."

"Come on, do it. Then we're even," he insisted.

"I won't-" you started, but he interrupted you.

"Just slap me. One slap."

He was completely serious and clearly wouldn't give up until you did as he told you.

So, you lifted your hand and slapped him on his left cheek as hard as you could, making his head turn to the side a little bit. Your hand hurt from the hit, making you whimper a little bit.

He looked back at you and only smiled, as if it didn't hurt at all.

"Did it not hurt?" you scoffed.

"Oh, it definitely hurt," he stated. "My face is just used to pain."

"Oh yeah? You want me to do it again until it hurts?" you asked, crossing your arms.

"Feel free," he agreed, even leaning his face towards you a little bit.

"Nah, i'll pass," you smiled. "I wouldn't want to intentionally hurt you."

"And neither would i."

He stepped closer and rubbed your arms with his hands.

"Are we okay?" he asked softly, looking at you with furrowed brows, still genuinely worried.

You nodded. "We're okay."

He wrapped his arms around you, squeezing you into a tight and comforting hug.

"I think we should do something else, if you still want my company," he said softly.

"What would we do then?"

"I could read for you," he suggested.

He lead you to your bed, laying down on his back and pulling you against him, his arm around your shoulder. You rested your head on his chest, hand against his ribs.

He grabbed a novel and started reading it for you, continuing the chapter you had been left off. You liked to listen to his voice, it was soothing and comforting. It had become a habit that he read you once in a while before bed. Sometimes he'd read you much longer than needed, since it didn't take you long to fall asleep, and he didn't immediately realise that.

He brushed your hair and figured you had fallen asleep after couple of chapters. He looked at your sleeping figure, hating himself for having such a fast reflex to hit you like all the other people he played with.

He didn't know what he would do if you left him and he'd lose you. You were everything to him, he wasn't able to live without you anymore. You were the only light in his darkness.

He pressed a kiss on your hair. "I love you."

[girlfriendsofthegalaxy]

tuesday again 2/25/2025

interview today please send good vibes if you have any to spare AND

calloo callay o frabjous day finally a fun lesbian romance!! faith in lesbian romances restored

listening: i always get what i want by findlay off their new 2025 album stay kinky

reading: hunter's pursuit by kim baldwin (2005)

watching: hombre (1967, dir ritt)

playing: pokemon (still)

making: pants maintenance, tumbling blocks blanket update

sorry about the emoji but no feet for free

listening

Findlay are indie/alt pop and the titular artist Findlay has a voice that you expect to be raspy or a little gravelly and it isn't. it's like a very matte powdercoated metal? i was about to describe this song as "could be on killing eve s1" but this song is the version of tswift's look what you made me do for someone who thrifts a lot of sixties vintage and is really into making their own bitters.

Baby won't you be my in flight movie Keep me amused when I get bored Give me a squeezе when I feel juicy Don't come begging likе the boys before

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reading

we did not have to resort to Fried Green Tomatoes At The Whistle Stop Cafe bc while i was pants shopping at the local Out Of The Closet gay thrift store, i picked up a couple more gay and/or lesbian romance and/or erotica books. i meant to read one by author Kim Baldwin this week and switched to one of her other books bc this premise is WILD. one of the most fun debut novels ive ever read. a really effective thriller!

When the hunter becomes the hunted...do you trust your instincts or your heart? A killer for hire, Katarzyna Demetrious has grown weary of her violent and solitary life. Contemplating retirement, she has gone into hiding in her remote bunker home as a blizzard rages outside. But her seclusion is shattered by the appearance of a mysterious stranger, and, with a price tag on her head, Kat is thrust into the most perilous situation she has ever faced. Can she outwit the assassins on her trail? And could the woman she rescues...and is unexpectedly attracted to...be the deadliest of them all?

this is a 315p softcover published in 2005 by our friends at Bold Strokes Books, and the author thanks previous tuesdaypost author Radclyffe for her help on this, her first novel. she has an incredibly charming website with a visitor counter at the bottom.

one major caveat i have with this book is that the amnesiac lead goes by Jake for most of the book due to a silly joke. i wish they didn't. i wish romance authors were better at picking names. i am going to email the author when i am not resisting a migraine thanking her so much for such a fun debut novel and also hey hi how did you name this character?

i think my problem with so many of the books i have read for this project is that there isn't enough going on. i think i need an additional genre other than pure contemporary romance to be confident that it can fill a whole book with interesting words. SO many things happen in Hunter's Pursuit. we cover a lot of ground. this would be a very respectable b-movie action/thriller/intrigue. i wish i was in charge of gay movie rights.

so many romances are so so bad at getting you to care about the characters and why they would want to be together. not so here! they’re very smart very competent people but this book is very interested in: what are the extreme circumstances that make someone fuck up and forgo their usual precautions? there’s some real home alone shit!!!

my quibbles with this mostly not structural or wondering if the author knows what words mean, but more minor things i wish the book did even though it more than delivered on its premise. eg Kat is a surprisingly caring and gentle and protective person for being a trained assassin, and i would have loved to see that played up a little bit more or seen that veer off into possessiveness a little bit more. the beginning of the book had me SO excited, bc Kat has to undress Jake and patch up her extensive wounds and gets super turned on and thinks uh-oh! and then Jake finds out she had to be undressed while unconscious and gets super turned on about being so completely vulnerable and thinks uh-oh! GOOD SHIT!!! WISH THERE WAS MORE OF THAT!!!! THE REST OF IT WAS SURPRISINGLY VANILLA!!!

they don't fuck until the last three pages of the book (they are both Very Injured, makes sense, they do a lot of kissing and pining instead) they’re both extremely weird about fairly tame early relationship steps which at least makes sense here bc they’re assassins. they’re not normal. i would have liked for Kat to be a more unapologetic baddie or more morally gray, bc when we find out about her freelance jobs they are more about serving justice than getting paid. nothing particularly outstanding about the sex scene but it did not make me want to curl up into a ball and roll away.

this was just Fun. it has a really fun structural thing surrounding the twist i wish i could talk about without spoiling the whole thing. it is not a perfect slam dunk and i would have loved to see a darker draft, but it is very good at getting me to care about both halves of the couple and at maintaining tension. does what it says on the tin which is more than i can say for most of the other books in this project

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watching

Hombre (1967, dir. Ritt) a response to Stagecoach (1939, dir. Ford) that i liked much more than Stagecoach. i was trying to find something to watch on letterboxd, decided on this one, figured out it was on poob, and when i fired up poob it was the first recommended movie lmao. how could poob have possibly deduced that from my viewing pattern of only watching one western on their niche platform every quarter

John Russell (Paul Newman) finds that the world is not so welcoming when he returns to his Arizona home town to collect his inheritance. A white man raised by American Indians, Russell is subjected to numerous instances of racism when people discover his background. When the stagecoach Russell is riding in is held up by a gang run by one of the scheming passengers, Cicero Grimes (Richard Boone), it falls to Russell to defend the passengers -- the very people who have dismissed and insulted him.

this is based on an Elmore Leonard novel and was, tbqh, a fucking downer of a movie, more so than most revisionist westerns. this movie has a lot of things to say about race, humanity, and justice and doesn't get in its own way about it. i liked the flip from "white man saving white woman from indians" to "white man raised as indian saving a white woman from white men". i am woefully behind in watching all known american westerns and this makes me really excited to watch more of director ritt's work, bc this was so beautifully shot. even the night scenes looked good!

do NOT worry they ditch that fuckass wig early on. VERY sharp, noir-ish dialogue. infinitely quotable. i think Newman is my favorite of the taciturn leading men trend in westerns that Eastwood popularized, partly bc i think Newman deepens a character in a lot of subtle ways in scenes without a lot of dialogue, instead of just Performing Cowboy Actions. i also really loved the leading lady, Diane Cilento, who more than holds her own in scenes with Newman.

i have added it to the "westerns i would let other people watch" list with some caveats: attempted sexual assault, pretty good discussion of race that may not always perfectly match 2025 sensibilities, and i don't think this should be someone's first or fifth western. unfortunately i think you gotta wade through a bunch of racist dreck first in order to understand why this was such a marked contrast to other westerns of the time. oh i didn't know that's what the preview would be. hi sabata.

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playing

maybe this will be the Whatever Cool Pokemon Card I've Just Pulled space instead of the halfhearted sentence about genshin impact space for a while

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making

baby blanket progress: sorry i was in the middle of a row. just about done with the tenth repeat, on track to finish this by the child's second birthday. i have extended it a bit to twelve repeats instead of ten, i may be playing a bit of yarn chicken but she's unfortunately a little bit bigger than a newborn these days and needs an appropriately blanket cape.

also: pants. a faster way to feel bad about your body than pants shopping has not yet been devised. however i hunted and gathered three pairs of office-appropriate pants, did a lot of thread trimming and de-pilling and opening up pockets and reinforcing lower hems and buttonholes and buttons etc. Nice (TM) pants in plus sizes do not really exist in the local thrift ecosystem so i am holding my nose. all of these are really awful poly/ramie/rayon blends, but thrifting enough work-appropriate dresses would send a more conservative message than i want to at whatever fucking job i end up at, and i refuse to shave my legs every day, so awful plasticky pants it is. i wish popular plus-size retailer torrid knew how to clip a fucking thread. i also wish aforementioned torrid knew how to find a normal print instead of the loudest most fucked up prints available. the green plaid is basically thick leggings/ponte pants but they're loud enough that it probably won't be too noticeable.

i went to five different rich bitch consignment shops and thrifts downtown before giving up and going to the local Out Of The Closet thrift, where i almost immediately found two pairs of pants and a dress. i put back two more pairs bc tailoring them myself would have been extremely annoying. they are pricier than most thrifts in the area (these pants were $10 each) but it's still cheaper than department store or torrid clearance prices and now i don't have to think about pants for a little bit.

this brings me up to four real pairs of pants plus one pair of jeans, so even if i shit myself every day for a week i should be all right.

[digiblueslush]

I'm horrible at this in person but maybe I'll be good at this online lolz

also answering and yapping under the cut :3

The lie is the first one! But its not a full lie..... I'll talk about the other 2 first for the *suspension*

I do in fact have 3 kidneys, it's been my fun fact for years now haha. Though it isn't fun sometimes, I'm more prone to UTI's and they last much longer than normal, as well as occasional back pain where my extra kidney is. basically my right kidney has a smaller kidney attached but still mostly separated (like compartmentalized i guess) from it. They also both have their own ureter (the tube that connects your kidneys to your bladder) so I have 3 of those as well, and it's even less fun! because people don't usually have 3 ureters, the extra one attaches to my bladder wrong and has a blockage. over the years that extra kidney has kinda caught wind of that and has increasing gifted it's labor to my full right kidney, but it still gets used occasionally. This is usually a condition that's treated when your really young because the older you get, the more risk there is removing the extra kidney, or it isn't treated at all because majority of the time its asymptomatic. I am not looking forward to having to see a pediatric urologist at the ripe age of almost 20 haha

I was also in a menhera idol group for a period of time. it was uhhhhh. yikes. basically I posted a thing about wanted to make a menhera idol group on tiktok, and it got a decent amount of traction (used to have a cosplay account with a decent following). none of these people lived near me and half of them lived in a different country, but i had just downloaded project sekai and i had that idol spirit in me. We almost released a song, but thank god we didn't because the only good part was the instrumental. we all had shitty mics and nobody could write lyrics around the instrumental. they were all the same notes as the instrumental. It was a fun concept tho, and if it was better planned out and with actual people i think it would've been fun for a while

Now, the moment you've all been waiting for (unlikely). The lie is that I met Dan and Phil. I did meet someone from an airbnb cancellation, and it was GERARD FUCKING WAY. Basically my friend invited me to go with her to WWWYF, and our airbnb cancelled on us the week before we flew out. The only hotel in vegas that would let people under 21 check in was the 4 seasons, and we somehow managed to get a room there. The day of the festival (we only went to day 1) we went to their breakfast resturant and got seated. we were there for a bit when i started looking around and mister micheal romance was literally 2 tables away eating a bowl of fruit. I actually didn't want to approach at first, but my friend did so we waited until he was getting up to leave to not interrupt their meal (he was also there with one other person, I'm assuming either security or a stage person but he did look somewhat familiar) to say hi. we got a picture but its nothing id want to post, mans was just eating breakfast and i couldn't feel my hands. I think all i said to them was "thank you for existing" and then I cried at me and my friends table for 10 minutes from overstimulation lmao

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[letstalkaboutfandomsbaby]

hii oh my god I can't get ur chubby reader x naoya fic out of my head,,,, pls could you make more headcanons for like anything they do omfggg 😭 😭 😭 incel naoya that turns into a complete freak for a chubby reader is SUCH A GOOD idea like I genuinely can't get enough for it. it's so 🤤 🤤 THANK YOU

imagine he stumbled on a camgirl reader tho...

Oh my GOD

CW: chubby fem reader x Naoya Zenin, camgirl au, Naoya is a podcaster/streamer, Naoya is an ASSHOLE but what else is new?, misogyny, smut, paid sexual content, masturbation

You got me thinkin with this one sksksk

Okok so this is how i imagine it

You're a fairly popular camgirl, you have several thousand followers on twitter and about a thousand on onlyfans. You get some decent money but not enough that you could make it your full time job, yk? So you do onlyfans on the side of whatever job you're doing

You do a wide variety of content, but your most popular content is where you're just a sweet innocent chubby girl who is being corrupted by the viewer—THAT gets you big bucks

You also do personalized content for extra money where viewers request certain content and you provide as long as they pay

It's a pretty good gig! And you get to cum so that's all that matters sksksk

Naoya is a podcaster and streamer and he's GROSS 🤢🤮

He's one of those misogynistic streamers who criticizes women for everything and has "tRaDiTiOnAl VaLuEs" or whatever bullshit excuse he makes for being an asshole

And one segment he has on his show is rating onlyfans content

He rates content that his fans send in and he usually degrades the women for being slutty or whatever 🙄😒😮‍💨

"These girls have no respect for themselves. They're only good for a little bit of fun but then you should find a good traditional woman to marry."

He does his usual spiel with the content he's sent, but then during one stream, one of his viewers shares your content

They leak one of your videos where you're on your knees sucking a dildo and staring into the camera, wearing a white babydoll and little bunny ears

Naoya gets quiet when your video plays, making small comments here and there about how your technique isn't that bad and the eye contact is good

He gives you the highest rating he's ever given on his channel! Your content is sweet and innocent and since you don't collab with anyone then you're not that much of a slut

He secretly saves your username and continues with his stream

You wake up the next day to an influx of new followers and subscribers, wondering where all these new people came from

You also get some more paid requests for content, a lot of it misogynistic in nature

You deny a lot of the content, having too much respect for yourself, but you notice one request that stands out

thestrongest#1: i want a video where you fuck yourself with your biggest dildo and praise me for how awesome i am

What baloney 🙄😮‍💨

But money is money and he's offering a pretty large amount for this video, so you accept

The video is pretty standard: you prep yourself off camera so you're wet and ready to go when the camera starts

You praise him, like he asks, telling him how cool he is, how handsome and strong, how you wish he was fucking you instead of your toy

You say his name when you cum and blow a kiss to the camera before ending the video

You think nothing of it and go about your life

But then another request comes in. And another. And another until you have a mountain of requests all from the same guy

He's willing to pay a pretty penny for your content, so you always accept his requests and make bank

thestrongest#1: i want you to deepthroat a dildo while touching yourself and looking at the camera

thestrongest#1: i want you to wear a cute dress with no underwear and bend over for the camera and there's a butt plug in your ass

thestrongest#1: i want you to bake cookies in nothing but an apron

You keep doing the requests bc he pays good and the requests aren't too far fetched or weird

You get a lot of money from this user, so you decide to have a little fun

You go on a shopping spree, buying a couple of cute outfits with accessories, and you decide to do something nice so you make a personalized video for free where you show thestrongest#1 all the stuff you got bc of him

You send him the video and go about your day

Later that night you get another request from him

thestrongest#1: i want to do a video call where we masturbate together

You're a little taken aback. You've never done a video call before, although others have asked for it. But he's been so good to you so far, giving you so much money for your videos, so you accept

You set up for your video call, doing your usual prep before he ends up calling you at the arranged time

You answer the phone to see a muscular body and a big, hard cock, but his face is out of view

"Hey baby," his voice is pretty hot, "you all ready for me?"

"Of course," you coo. "I've been thinking about this all day."

"You have?" he asks, sounding excited

"Yeah," you spread your legs, holding open your pussy lips, "see how wet I am?"

"Holy shit," he mutters, scooting his chair closer to his computer. "Fuck, you look so good. Start touching yourself for me."

So you do. You start with your fingers, rubbing your wet clit in circles and moaning his name. He grabs his cock and starts playing with it, pumping it slow and languid

"Fuck yourself with your fingers, princess. I wanna see you stretch yourself out for me."

You lean forward, moving your fingers to your entrance and pushing two inside

You finger yourself while stimulating your clit, moaning

"Does it feel good, baby?"

"Yeah... but it's not enough. I want more."

"You want a nice fat cock inside you, don't you?"

"Uh-huh."

"Fuck, get your dildo baby. And your vibrator. Wanna watch you fuck yourself."

You grab your supplies beside you and start fucking yourself with the dildo, pressing the vibrator to your clit

You continue dirty talking and moaning with each other, making yourself cum a couple times before he starts getting close

"Fuck, I wanna cum in you. Wanna fill you up and get you pregnant. You want that, baby? Want me to make you a mommy?"

Ew, no, you're a stranger

But you're getting paid so 😮‍💨

"Yes!" you moan. "Please, cum in me! I want it so bad!"

He groans, moving his hand faster before he finally cums all over his abs, moaning your name.

You both calm down, you relaxing on your bed and him sliding down his chair, unintentionally revealing his face

He's handsome 😳

And he knows it too 🙄

"You like what you see?" he asks, smirking at you.

"Yeah, you're pretty hot."

"Hottest one there is, baby. Bet I look a hell of a lot better than the betas who you do this with."

"Actually, you're the first guy I've ever done this with."

"Shit, really?!" he asks, sitting up in his chair, shocked. "You haven't done this with anyone else?"

"Nope, just you."

He smirks. "Damn, I'm really special then. I'll pay you extra if you promise not to do this with anyone else."

"Well, you are my best paying customer."

"Hell yeah I am. Nobody's better than me, baby."

Oh my god, he's insufferable

"Well, I gotta go. Gotta get some sleep for work tomorrow."

"This isn't your full time job?"

"No, this is just a side gig."

"Damn, we'll have to fix that."

You don't know what he means, but you say your goodbyes and end the call

You're exhausted from having to work so much, but you're finally done and you take a shower to relax.

You start getting more donations after that, more frequent and larger amounts

You also start getting gifts in your P.O. box, pretty dresses and lingerie and sex toys

YOU EVEN GET A SEX MACHINE WTF

You know who's sending all of this bc he always makes it known to you 🙄

He's so smug about it too

Think of me when you use this

He's a pain lol

But you appreciate the gifts and make him more videos as thanks

You also do more requested video calls with him, wearing the clothes and using the toys he got you

He makes you praise him most of the time, telling him how handsome and muscular he is, how his cock is so big, all that junk

You eventually find his main account on twitter and realize what a misogynistic piece of shit he is

He hasn't changed since he met you, always criticizing women and what they do, telling others how to be alpha men, stupid bullshit

But behind the scenes he's just a simp for you, giving you a big part of his paycheck every month

You still keep your job but pretend that onlyfans is now your fulltime job, just to get him off your back

He gets so smug thinking that he's supporting your entire lifestyle 😒

And then one day you get another request, this one being the highest amount he's offered you so far

thestrongest#1: i want to collab irl

So... what do you do?

[thebardbullseye]

for wbn/www, most of the time, i try to untangle my gut reaction and do my best to assemble coherent, well-articulated thoughts usually accounting for nuance (and evidence) in an essay. If I feel strongly about something.

but i do have a couple absolutely batshit theories that I feel strongly (enough) about that have minimal to no evidence, that could also border on woeful misinterpretation of the narrative, especially if I missed something or am omitting something obvious. but they are fun, so:

• Soft is actually the Man in Black/King of Night or is possessed by him (This would make Suvi an actual true Princess of the Sky)

This one is entirely because of the pun. I'm not sorry. Minimal to no (and absolutely contradictory) evidence that this is the case, only that MiB (maybe) showed up at the cottage in the Children's Adventure, and Soft probably died around then. He was doing something with a sorcerer in Gaothmei (MiB is Rhuv-affiliated) to do with a sun guy and MiB is Night focused. Idk where this was going, probably just sun + night = stars = Suvi. It's just the pun or maybe there's something there.

• The language Yewola was speaking to Hakea is the ProtoIndoEuropean equivalent of the Lingua Arcana. On top of that, the reflexive indicative/axiom of proliferation is Tower of Babel-ing this language to the point of having detrimental effects on magic itself/spirits.

This one maybe holds some water but is mostly on vibes because there's a lot we don't know/ I can't confidently infer this (as of ep 43), except by walking through the logic. Yewola is the binding/connection between the Spirit and the Real. The lingua arcana is described as the language the universe uses to describe itself. Magic comes from the "greater binding," and wizards use the lingua arcana to cast magic. Suvi can't understand Yewola, but Eursulon can, so the languages aren't the same. You're telling me there's TWO languages involving magic and they're not related? C'mon. AND MiB/Mirara/Stone were all up in arms about something bad about wizard magic. I think it's the reflexive indicative and the axiom of proliferation Tower of Babel-ing the true nature of magic that is harming the Spirit and the greater binding, beyond just the compartmentalized nefarious actions of Citadel/Empire/Wizard Hubris.

[marticoresims]

My Rotational Gameplay System

Hi! There's a video on my channel about how I play rotationally, but some info there is outdated. I figured a post can always be edited, so it's a better way to share how I play The Sims 2.

What is rotational gameplay?

Playing rotationally means that you play multiple households for the same number of days, jumping from one to the other in rounds. This way, you keep the households even, have story progression in all of them, and then you can make them interact, intertwine and merge into new families, not leaving any playable Sim behind.

If you play two-three households and leave the rest unplayed, that's also rotational gameplay. There's no right or wrong way to play The Sims 2!

Setting up the neighborhood

First of all, stealth hoods. I don't want all the same Sims appearing in my family bin over and over, so I made the stealth hoods empty. This tutorial shows how to do it, but it's actually more simple than that – just go into those folders and delete all files in 'Characters'. DO NOT do it in the Documents directory!

Second, I think of which subhoods make sense for this neighborhood. I hardly ever add Downtown. Vacation destinations depend on what I need, I usually add one during gameplay if I'm planning a vacation (which is rare). I like to have one, max two university hoods, especially if they include pre-made Sims. And Bluewater Village is completely redundant, but I sometimes make my own shopping district as an extra area. For example, in my Pleasantview 2.0 I made "Goth Square" that is kind of like a downtown district with apartment buildings, restaurants, clubs etc.

Sometimes I'll tinker with seasons, e.g. Strangetown seems like warm climate, so I might turn off winter in it. Riverblossom Hills must stay default, though.

Basics and keeping track

One round is 4 days for most of my neighborhoods. Some people do it by days of the week or seasons in-game, but I can't be bothered synchronizing my neighborhood after someone moves out and it's again a summer Monday for them. If it's Thursday in the middle of winter in another household at the same time, I really don't mind.

I'm an old school gal when it comes to taking notes to keep track of played days. I have a paper notebook with the grid pattern and mark rounds as squares – each line is one day. I have a whole list of families named by last names mostly, but if a last name repeats (which is often), I either sign them with one of the Sims' first name or their last name + initials. For example, in Riverblossom Hills I have families named Roth (for the "main" Roth family still living in the original house) and Roth LF (Roth – Larch & Fiona).

These days, I use erasable pens in my notes, so no crossing out if a family merges with another or changes its name. For marking days, I still like to use a simple pencil. For side notes (such as planning someone's career or matchmaking) I either use sticky notes or draw a special square and use the erasable pens again to take easily erasable notes. If there's no space on the page anymore, I move onto another. I always keep the old pages, though! I have them pinned in the back of the notebook. Also, I only use notebooks that have tabs of different colors and each neighborhood has its color. Blue for Pleasantview, green for Strangetown, purple for Veronaville, orange for Riverblossom Hills etc. I like to match pen colors to it as well. Yes, I do have ideasthaesia.

For more "serious" neighborhoods I have an additional document on my PC in table form where I plan out the storytelling. I pretty much only have it for my Youtube let's play neighborhoods like Townieville. Fun fact: I have two separate notebooks for "work neighborhoods" and "private neighborhoods". The work one is in smaller format 😂

Here's a fragment of my Townieville notes (the Bendett-LeTourneau family takes too much space when spelled out lol):

As for aging, I made my own custom lifespan that mimics real life years (1 day = 1 year). However, I only age up Sims at "1 day away" (aka the orthodox way) when they're babies and teenagers. Babies because I want them to be 1 year old as toddlers (only Nopke somehow figured out a way to make the baby stage actually 1 day), and teenagers to give them time to attend college. In all the other stages, I wait until the last minute for them to age up on their own. I would never remember to age them up manually or throw parties, also the 1 extra day would make it difficult for me to count their age. That results in the elder stage starting at "57 days old", but I count it as 60 years old. I like to know how old my Sims are for context, that's all.

Population

My limit for one neighborhood is 16 families. If there's more, one round takes forever and I lose interest. In my old Pleasantview, I finally managed to lower the number of families from 24 to 18 and still going. It feels great! So, as you see, I can't do an uberhood/megahood.

To stop my neighborhood from expanding too much, I simply don't make too many kids. I have pretty strict rules that are based on aspirations: Family+Family is 3 kids, Family+Other is 2 kids, Other+Other is 1 kid. If both Sims have family as a secondary aspiration (and I remember that they do), I'll make them have two. It has been working pretty well, but I'm open to changes in the future. Sometimes I would even impregnate a Sim with InSimenator instead of naturally to make sure it's not twins.

I mark every birth on a certain day as a dot and letter (B/G – boy/girl) and plan newborns in advance to have babies be born at a similar time and with balanced genders, so I can match them later. Of course I do have same-sex couples and big-age-difference couples as well. It all comes out when the babies get older, but synchronizing births creates a solid basis. Usually there are no more than 4 kids born in one round.

I love townies, but I avoid bringing them into the neighborhood as much as I can (it expands the population). If two playables are not related and have the potential to be together, I'll tinker with their chemistry to make it happen. I have this mod to help me avoid marrying second-cousins, even if it's not really that big a deal in real life. I do follow chemistry very much in matchmaking though, so if there's any decision to be made between two Sims, I'll always go for the one with the higher chemistry (sort by chemistry and choose the one that appears first – even if the bolts are the same, they are sorted by points).

Wants & Fears

I like to say that I play half-wants-based. I especially like to use wants to avoid having only wealthy families. How? Only if they roll a want of getting a skill point, I'll prioritize career skill points and let them get promoted. Otherwise, they might stay at the same level for years and do other things instead such as hobbies. Even if their lifetime want is the top of a career – the Sims are responsible for progressing in their careers. I don't lock the skill wants either, only the promotion ones if a promotion is guaranteed. But keep in mind that I use mods for no friends needed for careers and less often promotions (I changed it to 85%). That way, some Sims struggle financially, some just have enough to pay the bills, some accumulate money very slowly, and some become rich fast. It's true that it's fortune Sims that usually reach the top of their careers, knowledge Sims are second place, but isn't that actually realistic? If a Sim's lifetime want is anything other than a career, I realize they won't get everyday wants regarding that LTW (unless it's a knowledge Sim with "Max out 7 skills"), so I will push them towards it, but still, not every Sim completes their lifetime want. Also, I use 50 New LTWs and Slower LTA Gain.

I do like to listen to what my Sims want to do, but if the want is ridiculous (like wanting to get married to 3 Sims at once for Romance Sims on dates), I'll ignore it. I only use wants or lack thereof for more variety and less decision-making. I use a lot of mods that change wants as well, such as Fewer Hobby Wants.

Decisions

Deciding makes me anxious. I want gameplay to be fun and the Sims to be their own people. That's why I have certain rules for choosing aspirations and careers. Here's my entire calculator that saves me in choosing careers. For aspirations, I only use the calculator sometimes if I'm not sure, but usually I look at the Sim's personality and can easily see their aspiration based on traits. Obviously I make exceptions to that rule, I WILL have a grouchy Family Sim from time to time. But I do that only if I feel a certain vibe, so no decision is needed either, I just know this Sim will be the exception. Sometimes, I make exceptions to also differentiate Sims from their parents, as personality is genetic for the most part, so it's likely for two Knowledge Sims to “produce” another Knowledge Sim and I'd like to avoid repetition. Especially with Family Sims, as with my population system it might lead to one family dominating the neighborhood. Family+Family having 3 kids and all of them with the Family aspiration? Not on my watch!

In families of more than one child, how do I decide who moves out and who stays home as an adult? If there are no other factors influencing it, the youngest child stays because the older ones moving out will create the space for the next generation. But it varies based on what housing situation the potential partner has. Oh, yeah, I don't play with elders only, that's boring.

How do I decide who changes their name at marriage? These days, I like to keep the OG last names, so if there's a townie marrying into a pre-made family, I'll keep the pre-made family's name. Gender doesn't matter. If it's two pre-mades getting married, I decide based on how many other Sims there are with that last name (do the Sims have siblings?). It's real tactical work sometimes. If I want to keep both, a hyphenated name is always an option too.

Random events

Not a lot of random events happen in my game. Mostly it's just Sims cheating. I have ACR's risky woohoo set to zero most of the time. I do have some mods that make Sims' lives more risky like more dangerous fires (this version is edited to work with the fire safety skill) or death by childbirth. But if someone dies untimely, they die. Especially if they've already had kids (which sounds cruel lol, but my gameplay is based on legacy and genetic continuity).

University

One round is 4 days, that means 4 years, so I guess it would make sense to play the "empty nest" once the offspring is in college. But I don't do that. College is frozen time. In my game, the teenager stage is 9 days – from 13 to 22. It would be too short if I treated university as passing time, as 22 is when US college students graduate. So, I mark a dot with the letter C whenever someone is "1 day away" and ready for college. It's often for the future more than the past, as I like to send a few Sims at once (you know, the babies marked 22 days earlier), so I plan ahead and need to know how many days left. I also send them to college according to their age (even if I don't have to do that with frozen time, it's fun to do), so if there's 2 years difference between Sims, one of them will be a Freshman when the other one is already a Sophomore. Also, not everyone goes to college! It's wants-based, again. If the teen has the want to go to college the very last morning of their teen stage, they go immediately. And again, exceptions. Sometimes I'll lock in the college want because I just can't imagine that Sim not going to college. I have the No Memory Uneducated mod to stop Sims who didn't want to go to college from crying about it. My university gameplay is the most strictly wants-based, to avoid having all Sims graduate with honors. Don't have a want to gain skill points, but fears academic probation? We're doing bare minimum. That kinda thing. The only want I lock in is "Make Dean's List" because it's pretty rare, and without it I was ending up with 3.2 GPA for every single Sim. This want means we're doing everything to get the highest grade possible.

Supernatural Sims

I'm not a fan of supernatural in The Sims (unless it's Planet Alades). The only occult I absolutely LOVE is ALIEN. I will have aliens in nearly every neighborhood. No Multi PT mod needed. PlantSims are cool too, but only in neighborhoods where they appear from the start. Very rarely do I let my Sims become werewolves, or especially vampires and zombies. If a Sim doesn't age, I don't see a point in playing them. Best regards to all the 'aging off' Simmers out there 😆

That's all! Now I can stop rambling about it in my let's plays and just send you guys to this post if you have questions. Phew!

[ent-is-indecisive]

Because im back with half a brain instead of no brain, some 'fun' facts (will write the id once im at 2/3 brain sorry)

- to the people saying they look like they're at the renfaire : yep! That's the idea, i'm just plopping down bits and bobs to get the vibes but given that i've only been at larp training and medieval fairs my mental representations of where to put them are limited. Also hopefully if i do some medieval stuff again i'll take the time to actually reserach it lol.

- charles outfit is almost entirely modelled after a guy in my larp training group

- hewever if you can't tell what's going on with the leather pieces over his chest? Me neither, didnt have photos from a lot of angles

- definitely think charles is the most enthusiastic about the event and once niko got into the fun stuff (outfit? Trinkets? Cute stuff? Guys fighting? Big fun potentially sparkly foam weapons??) There was no hope for edwin and crystal. Niko is imo absolutely incredible at putting outfits together so i tried to get on her level, and obviously crystal as an art kid couldnt be left behind. I figure edwin might need a bit of needling but a solid+simple mage outfit is a good start (and i hope he doesnt feel too self conscious)

- edwin is a low res mage atm but in the future he will get a rapier. I just don't think we're at this point of the timeline yet.

- Crystal got a mace, bc they're fun, stylish and less common than swords.

- from the other drawings of this series, charles' main weapon is a zweihander, however to me that means he's proficient at basically any two handed swords and can handle his own with one handed swords (like the one he's using to show niko the forms)

- in this drawing they have bad forms, bc it's vibes based

- similarly, i couldnt give niko long trailing sleeves for sword reasons but she probably would have to forgo long jewellry and tie her hair if she wanted to try training for real.

- the sword niko is using is the one i used for most of training, it's a bastard (1.5 hands) sword and was usually known as "elven sword", light and good for beginners, plus it matches her quite well.

so i spent 10hrs on this (didnt mean to) and i didnt like the colours, so i did some bullshit and voilà. the gang all having fun. i realise this is not ideal for viewing on a small screen. however tumblr lets you zoom into images so i don't feel too bad about it. shout at me if it's still inconvenient and i'll post some closeups or something. artist out (past my bedtime)

putting the og colours and some alternatives under the cut as usual.

also dont question me on the bg.

[theislandoflosttoys]

Finally, my shaylahh!! TT^TT Shadow

So...I'm really excited to share this one specifically, and it's been hard, because Shadow's hcs in particular contain more information about the sort-of plot for this AU. As well as why it is called the Porcelain AU in the first place. So i'm so glad it's finally time to post this. ^^

I will say that there sort of is some need for warning for this one since it does have some heavy/sad/darker themes compared to the other, which...sorry? To be fair it might not be that bad, but I'd rather warn, just in case. I'll try to add the CW in bold in front of the specific parts that applies to the warning.

Anyway, as always....HCs/Trivia below the line~!

CW: Dark themes, death (canonical Shadow death ofc), kind of suicidal ideation? (sorry in advance?).

And remember this... "All things come with a price."

To start off! Our boy Shadow is a Taurus! On the cusp, so he was almost an Aries. April 20th ^^

He is the second shortest of the bunch at 5'5". Like Blue, it doesn't bother him, plus I mean...he can float? He can be at eye-level anytime.

Living with him is like living with a cat almost, *cough*black cat*cough*, he is mostly chill but he has bouts of sudden zoomies and mischievous behaviour. But for the most part his personality is a bit more relaxed than before.

He is very loyal, and though he is mischievous and sometimes taunts others, he is kind and well meaning. He does have some insecurity about himself and his ability to be good but is making good progress with the help of the others and is quickly gaining his confidence back, which is great to see.

Shadow doesn't really weigh too much at all, like Green, but it's more to do with his species/race than his abilities. Shadow doesn't really have all the internal organs, etc that hylians or humans have, because he is made of magic essentially. Sort of a magic construct in a way? He is a "Living shadow" afterall. Plus it makes sense for the others when they connect the things they've seen him do with his body before, i.e. like spinning his head/body round full circle, etc.

It's worth noting, because it will come up, I like to generally keep relationships sort of ambiguous or open to interpretation, mainly because I actually don't mind any of the ships between any or multiple of the gang, but I will say that Vidow is an established/endgame ship in this AU. I have a soft spot for the ship as it was one of my first ships when I was younger that I was in love with basically lol. Anyway.

Shadow tends to steal or run off with items belonging to the others, can sometimes devolve into a keep away game of chase he finds so fun lol. He can get pouty if there's no chase and they give up too easily, but will return the items, especially if the person is genuinely upset and wants it back. This has happened a few times, but he has been reassured that as long as he gives it back when they're serious that it's ok and to not feel guilty.

Stealing Vio's reading glasses to wear is one of his favourites though! No chase needed. Vio thinks it's adorable.

Shadow is very like ethereally beautiful, Link was pretty but Shadow is like unnaturally pretty. When I say them I mean like beyond human ability, kind of like the fae if that makes sense? I can elaborate on that if needed lol.

He is naturally curious but due to the trauma of dying, being separated from the boys, etc, he is kind of clingy. Doesn't really like to be alone for too long. Usually hangs around Vio and Blue the most though, but he doesn't avoid any of them, he just tends to go to Vio and Blue more often than the others.

Also worth noting in case it wasn't noticed, but I've decided to change the age they were on their adventure from 12 to 15. Mainly because I kind of wanted it so that they were at an age where falling in love would be more reasonable? If this makes sense. Like not really puppy dog eyes but more like I am in love and want to marry this person possibly in the future. It's mainly because I wanted it to be more believable that it was a factor in Vio wanting to bring him back. A strong motivation basically, and I didn't really think being in love was super realistic at like 12, sorry just my experience lol.

I think Shadow likely has major abandonment issues so that is something he struggles with, as well as some social and general anxiety. Depression too, to complete the trifecta lol. Am I projection? No you are lol. But has some self-worth issues, he's working through it though with the other's help! ^^

Shadow's feelings are pretty complicated when it comes to Vio mainly, at least definitely in the beginning of this AU. I mean, he made his first friends and fell in what he determined was love (though it wasn't confessed), then got betrayed by the only person he let in, then got killed by the gang via sword blasts.

He was at a low point when he crawled back through the mirror before Zelda confronted and comforted him. He thought 'fuck what everyone believes I am...I want to be good...someone worth staying for." (sad I know, sorry it's gonna get kind of worse ^^;).

CW - Suicide Ideation (sort of). When he met up with the others, he never really got the chance to speak with Vio so many things were left unsaid. And then his sacrifice....I feel like with his mental state at the time he might have been desperate to prove himself and maybe even a part of him thought it was inevitable? The gang was losing, they needed to shatter the mirror to actually end Vaati. So Shadow shattered the mirror himself, partly because he wanted those idiots to live, partly because he wanted to prove to them and himself that he was good, but also something he wouldn't admit easily is that he felt that they were going to shatter it themselves so he just beat them to the punch. He would rather it was himself who did it basically.

CW - Death. Shadow's last memory of this moment after shattering to moment was pain, then slowly fading away while the others surrounded him. In the moment he couldn't really hear them, which later is brought up sort of. Basically they were all saying some stuff, Vio may have confessed, but ofc Shadow's basically in overwhelming pain and his hearing is cut out so when he gets brought back and doesn't mention it at all, Vio sort of assumes that his feeling aren't returned for a bit.

His memories of being dead are kind of blank, at best he can describe it as being in an endless black void where time was uncertain. Somehow feeling like it took eternity and yet like no time at all.

CW - Dark themes. His resurrection was messy to put it simply. Everything has a price. Vio had been too confident. They were all there (the gang plus Zelda) when he had to be dragged from the newly constructed dark mirror. Death and the void are not simple things, and they don't like when others try to take away what is theirs. So it was basically tug of war almost, he was being dragged back to the mirror, and it took three of them to drag him from it enough to get him out. Zelda and Vio were preforming the binding spell that would keep him in the living realm, using Vio as the anchor. Unfortunately, while they were ultimately successful in the end and were able to shatter the mirror to stop it from reclaiming Shadow...he didn't come out of it unscathed. He lost one of his eyes (Left one in the picture above), as well as his feet/legs (left one slightly above the ankle, and right at mid-calf).

He has scars that resemble the shattered mirror, they glow in the dark lol. But most importantly you'll notice the starburst shaped scar in the middle of his torso/chest. It along with the shatter scars aren't textured like real skin or scar tissue, more like ceramic or something similar. Especially the one at his chest, that one is incredibly sensitive and also feels a bit fragile even though it is as tough at the rest of him. This was Zelda's doing, it is crystalized light force basically. He has a heart (which he didn't have before) constructed of light force.

Due to this, his powers aren't as powerful and he doesn't have the endless well of magic he used to. He can do all the things he could before, though he doesn't have endless energy so he needs to take breaks and consume magic energy & items to refill. It can be refilled with rest but eating magic makes it refill faster.

Example, floating/flying takes barely and energy but he cannot be doing it constantly without pause. They tested it, he was able to go without a break for almost 2 days. but this was without him using any other abilities, just floating/flying.

Another major example is his shapeshifting ability. He still can but the shape has to be of equal mass as him or smaller. When he used to shift to something bigger than him he would gather more darkness around him to pack onto himself kind of like playdough. But due to his new lightforce in him, he cannot take on additional darkness so he is stuck with the darkness he already has (himself).

The no feet thing doesn't bother him too much now, granted it did in the beginning when he was getting used to being alive and he was wary of the others. But he gets by fine usually by floating like he originally did. He does have some prosthetics that were made for him but he only really uses them when he doesn't have any other choice, he doesn't like how they feel and are a bit of a reminder of what he lost.

On that note. He doesn't like being picked up. Especially without permission, he finds it a bit insulting/demeaning. Sometimes when he's feeling especially clingy and doesn't have the energy to float and doesn't want to wear the prosthetics (Or has forgotten them. Which he does sometimes, somewhat purposefully because he struggles with his inability to walk on his on now. Don't worry Vio always has a set on him, man is prepared for everything), he'll let Vio or Blue carry him. Mainly those too, leaning more towards Vio when their relationship progresses. Definite sign of trust.

If this happens and no one is around that he trusts, he tends to just sit for a bit, snack on some magic, or if he needs to really like escape he can shapeshift into something small. This is a good option for him because it will allow him to refill him magic while not using much because his body is now smaller so his wellspring seems bigger because of it. I can explain this more in detail at a later date if anyone wishes. ^^

His left eye is gone entirely (which is why his eyes in the picture look different lol). He wears a false eye. His first was actually made by Vio! ^^ This was the moment he really started to reconcile and open up to Vio again after his betrayal. The others will make some and paint them themselves and he cherishes every one of them.

He's definitely helped Red sneak animals into the house before, he thinks it's hilarious.

Design wise, I gave him wider eyes with mad eyelash game, mainly to show that while he is a spicy little gremlin, he is surprisingly innocent since he doesn't really have a lot of experience in the outside world. I gave him a lip piercing because projection lmao, also because I think he'd really enjoy the ability to express himself however he wants too, freedom basically. ^^

His hair is more wavy-curly, hairstyle being somewhat similar to Red's (Red helped him cut it and they share hair tips), but while Red's ends a little past his shoulders, Shadow's hair goes a bit past his butt. He can change the look and style of course with his shapeshifting ofc but this is the look he likes most as of now. Still purple, but I went for the more grey toned purple I prefer to use for like all versions of shadow I draw, mainly so it won't be overwhelming and it makes his eyes stand out a bit more. I went for a pale skin tone with more of a brown toned grey undertone so he didn't look too much like a vampire lol. And freckles! love to add freckles to Shadow. Adds flavour.

I gave him more downturned ears, somewhat to display his uncertain nature and latent anxiety/guilt, but also to differentiate with the others. Also his shatter-scars are pretty pronounced and obvious to the general public, he can't easily hide it, takes up too much energy. You can see where it goes over his missing eye, which somewhat is where the path of destruction way. Basically the lightforce filled in the cracks like kintsugi. You'll see in future drawings and sketches, but Shadow's legs/feet weren't clean cut, think more of Wisp from Warframe, it looks more like hers do, and the stump/inside part it the same gold-white of the scars. Kind of reminds me of geodes now that I think of it, huh.

He tends to wear tops that are more loose fitting or are open chest, he likes to fluster the others, but it's actually because the scar at the centre of his chest/torso is sensitive and tends to sting and hurt more when rough fabric is rubbing against it. He doesn't like to touch it and doesn't let the others, bar Vio. (I'll explain why in Vio's post ^^).

[bosskie]

Stormy Gluk

Man, what's this Molluck hate I'm seeing here... It just baffles me, I cannot wrap my head around it... Maybe some folks have the same feelings toward my Molluck love, but there's no need to understand everything, and it's more like fun to see this contrast in Molluck content here. I just love contrasts, and I'm only saying this stuff since it's interesting and amusing to me; not being all serious here. I just cannot find Molluck nasty or disgusting... Maybe there's something "wrong" with me, or I'm just being different, yet again... I mean, I'm tired of being constantly different than the others... I feel like I haven't seen anyone like-minded, so I feel lonely in this sense... But welp, we all can see in our own way and that's totally okay, even richness.

But yeah, this is just some random Molluck thing that was supposed to look a lot different than this, so this piece is a failure in that sense, but otherwise it's alright. This was supposed to be something simple, but I'm unable to draw simple stuff, which makes me feel like I cannot really draw... Though, sketching is a lot easier on paper... But there is no point in crying over this, I gotta just keep drawing, even I feel like I probably should quit art right now... I just keep feeling like my art looks bad, even I see that I improve constantly, it's still bad. But well, I just like to create stuff, no matter how awful my creations look. I more like feel like I give up when I decide that my artwork is done, since I still see flaws here, but I wanna move on and do better next time... (Edit: I know that the background would be more fitting for the Soulstorm Molluck, scarred one, but this kinda refers to his personality, but it could be seen referring to that event too, as a forecast or something. Sometimes, I just draw and only after its finished I start to think about what my drawing means...)

Yeah, my good mood doesn't last long and I'm back to my usual self-hatred... I have been thinking that it's even "evil" that I keep posting my stuff since I don't feel like it's worth seeing, but I still post it. Maybe I should had ended this blog after all, but welp, if I'm "evil" for continuing this blog, then it's what I am and that's it. I feel like I shouldn't even waste my time for feeling bad because my art sucks, because I feel like it's just a fact that I gotta accept, since I feel like I'm not actually artistically talented. Yet again, I'm the only person who has ever told me this, but I see it as the truth. I don't think that I will ever even be pleased with my art, but eh, maybe I just shouldn't even care if my art is good or bad. I just like to create stuff, even I tend to hate the outcome... Yeah, it's gonna take a while before I restore the rest of my posts, if that day ever comes, because I feel like that stuff ain't worth seeing again.

I'm sorry but this is just how I feel... I don't know what I really think of continuing this blog because on the other hand, I hate my own content and feel like it's not worth seeing, but then I also wanna just keep creating stuff and posting this crap... But it matters more to me that I create my Molluck pieces with love and care than the actual outcome, because I just have a hard time standing my art... I also keep feeling like I should be hated, so I shouldn't even care if I bother people after all. I just think that it would be "right", for no reason though. I don't even think that I'm strong for still being here, more like a coward because I haven't ended my life after so many suicidal thoughts... But if it's what I am, I gotta just accept it, since why to proof that I'm strong by kms. Maybe my ill mind has twisted my thoughts even more, but this is how I feel. Maybe I'm actually strong, but I don't know.

I keep feeling like my existence brings no joy, so that I'm still here is only "evil". I cannot help it, but I have just felt for so many years that the best thing that I could do this world is to end my life... I'm serious. I have felt like a parasite... I just cannot see me bringing anything positive to this world... Even it's been told me that I do bring joy, I cannot see it, so it's hard to believe it... It's been also told me that I'm talented/skilled, even that people wanna draw like me, but I don't see it, and there are lots of more talented/skilled people than I am, so I kinda see no point in admiring my stuff... It still makes me sad to say this, but I just think that it's the truth... I don't even know why it's making me sad...

Well, if I'm "evil" for keeping this blog, then it's what I am. I don't feel like I'm a good person anyway, even I have been told that I'm a good person... I just cannot really see a single positive thing about me... It's like I see myself in the opposite way than the others do, and in this case, I hate this contrast... It makes me feel like an idiot, broken, stupid... What's wrong with me... I cannot see a way to fix this situation, but well, death... I'm not even important, or that's what I at least think, so my life doesn't matter.

I have also been so stressed out that I didn't basically sleep for two days, but then my body did take the rest it needed, so I went to sleep very early yesterday... It's nice to start your day at midnight actually. But yeah, I haven't felt rested for over a decade, so it also affects my suicidal thoughts... Like, when it's finally my time to actually rest... I don't feel actually rested after taking some rest, and it tends to make me feel bad, especially when I feel like I have no time for rest, even I need it... It just feels like resting costs me too much, meaning that I'm only busier after it... Man, I'm getting so tired of life...

I do not like to be this negative, but my stupid mind makes me think all this shit. I wanted to be positive here, but after getting that piece almost finished, I started to hate myself more again, because I felt like I cannot really draw... Just because it didn't look anything like I planned... If that fact ain't considered, it looks alright, otherwise this piece is like a disaster to me... Molluck is still difficult to draw to me, and I rarely draw full body stuff (having suit on), so this was a good practice, even it made me feel like I still cannot draw Molluck...

I just do not know what to think of me keeping posting my stuff still... I'm doing this mainly for myself still, but you can look, maybe touch too. I know that what I post is not what people would like to see, but my art is for me, but it doesn't prevent me from sharing it. I'm not denying people from interacting with me or enjoying my content, but I just cannot see a single positive thing about me or my content... Like, is my love for Molluck a "good" thing? For me, yes, but in general, I dunno and don't care really, but I feel like it's not, though I feel like Molluck does deserve to be loved, kissed, hugged... I just tend to laugh if people think that what I do is weird. So, um, I can have a healthy way to react to other people's feedback, but still have such an unhealthy way to see myself... But really, I do not mind if people do not like my Molluck stuff, since I'm doing Molluck content I would like to see, and people do not need to like everything. I have just recently found final peace with this, just stopped caring completely about me being unpopular, because what the odd I even do with popularity (but moolah), especially when I don't wanna be popular. Popularity of my content does not define the quality of my art; that's the lesson I learned to quit feeling bad about it. There is no way to even predict what people will like, and frankly, it feels like my pieces that I hate the most are the most liked, and vice versa...

Man, I really don't know to what direction I wish my stuff to go... I don't know about posting that more personal stuff, at least right now, since even people did say that they would like to see my self-insert stuff, I still need some time... Especially when it would also basically be a face reveal here... Yeah, all my self-insert Molluck content do is about me being, well, me with Molluck, because my self-insert me has only some slight changes and different history. This is also one reason why I do not post my NSFW Molluck content, because I'm not interested in being a porn star... Yeah, even if you could barely see me there, like some parts of me being transparent, you know, it would still be about me fucking Molluck... I feel like that content would also lose it's beauty to me if I posted it to the public... And just saying that, I do have posted sexual content before, but it has never really felt right, more like me trying to figure out stuff and messing around, maybe trying to be something that I wasn't. But last time I did it was about a decade ago, and I did it with my face too, so um, me posting my sexual Molluck content wouldn't be that big step really, though I never posted anything that explicit stuff, just suggestive... But the stuff I create is quite rough, not polished I mean, so I don't feel like posting them for this reason too... I don't really create polished NSFW stuff, and one reason is that, um, it's challenging to focus on working on it when it makes you so horny, even you can do the both actions with one hand... Just, my oddness how hot Molluck is to me... This also is the main reason why I haven't yet finished my 3D Molluck model... I will get back to it after I have time, since now I'm too busy, because I would like to really focus on it in peace.

Yeah, just saying that my NSFW content is quite personal stuff because it is about me and Molluck... Maybe I post it one day, at least after I get something proper done, since they all are like sketches now and I do not like to post sketches, even yeah, I feel like almost all my works look like sketches... But I mean unpolished stuff. I just wanna do like my own self-insert short movies, after I get the models done. I can voice act them too, so I have everything I need. (Y) Yes, I do realize that I can do a lot of things, but I'm not saying that I was good at doing them. But I mean, posting my NSFW Molluck content would feel like posting some self-filmed porn... So, it's about my private life, because I see Molluck as my actual partner. I don't know why I'm talking abou this so much... Maybe it's because I crave for him so much every single day, and I have started creating that stuff more this year, and I see people talking about it here... But yeah, just wanna have some privacy, and sex is a private thing for me anyway, but I can talk about it. I also don't think that Molluck would like to have his ass posted that way, so I do wanna respect him. But, posting naked Molluck is fine otherwise, for me. He has just such a beautiful body... I love especially his back, hands, and legs...

But yeah, people can create the content they want, unless it is illegal and so on... I know that I'm a boring person who creates boring content, but there's nothing wrong with that. This is how I feel, even I know that there are people into seeing my stuff... I probably don't talk about these things in a right tone to be understood like I mean, and some of my thoughts are just some junk my condition makes me think, not my real opinions... (I'm also probably trying to normalize my self-hatred and my unhealthy thoughts...) I do appreciate people's interest and liking toward my stuff, but my point has been that I do not wanna take it personally in a way that I use it as a meter to define if my art is good or not. But well, I also constantly tend to say that my content is not worth any attention, but I only don't wanna waste your time. Though, I shouldn't even care about it, because people probably do not think that way. But well, it's also me saying that I'm not important... It's just a fact to me.

I'm sorry but I do not really understand what people see in my content, how this can be enjoyable... This is one reason why I'm being this harsh here... I do not understand what people see in me... It goes beyond my comprehension... Like, I tend to think like daily that the best thing I could do would be to kms... So, it feels like I see a totally different reality than the others do... But what's the "actual" truth? I don't know...

I didn't wanna vent this much, but I'm just feeling this awful again... I hate that I hate myself... But well, my main goal here is just so spread my Molluck love, so my art being bad isn't even a problem, but it sucks to hate my own content for being poor quality stuff... My standards for my own content are, well, like extremely high... So, I do not think that my art is good enough because of that. Even if I was popular, I would still think this way since yeah, I see that others liking my stuff seems to have no actual effect on my self-esteem... I have no idea how to start feeling better about myself... I just hate myself... I cannot see the things the others see in me... I don't even know what the others really see in me... Should I even know? I don't know.

I hate that this looks like I wanna have some show here, but this is just my mental health issues... It's just this radical, and I'm looking for "radical" solutions as well, since nothing has helped me to actually start feeling better about myself... Molluck helps me to cope, but that's it. But I also like to have some peace because of this turmoil... So, therefore I also like my self-insert stuff to be some "boring" love stuff, though I do love Molluck passionately... I need some kindness and love toward myself with all this harsh critic and hate I tell myself... If I said the same things toward someone else, it would even be a crime!

Yeah, I should quit this post, as I don't really have anything good to say, just the shit my mind tells me... Sometimes, I think that I should stop writing and just post my stuff without saying a word. I don't know if it would be any better still. But I just keep feeling like my existence brings nothing positive to this world, no matter what I did, and I'm getting tired of life... It's boring and useless. I feel like giving my life for Molluck, but he is fictional and not even my "property"... My life cannot be wasted ending it early since I feel like it's already wasted, and I cannot "fix" it... Maybe I just try to keep living for a few years still, since I feel like I don't wish to live longer than that right now... I just see no light for my future... And I don't really wish to achieve anything in life, just do some stuff while waiting for, yeah, the end. If Molluck was a real living thing, maybe then I would feel like living longer, but I don't know... I just feel like I'm not worth spending time with or anything... I only feel like I'm doing a favor when I tell people in advance that I'm not worth their time... But maybe I should be more "evil" and bother people more with my existence, but I kinda cannot stand people caring about me for suicidal reasons... Yes, only for suicidal reasons, since I don't even wanna have a funeral for myself, just be gone and forgotten, "no one cares". I know that what I say is not healthy, but I'm not healthy.

Man, why I'm still writing... I should distract myself to feel better since thinking about myself only makes me feel worse... I just hate myself so much... It feels like some part of my mind also hates me when I don't consciously do it, because of all the intrusive thoughts I get... I have thought that I'm cursed, evil, or something over a decade ago because of them... I hate them, but thankfully I know now what they are and that they do not mean that I was evil... But my self-esteem ain't any better since that thinking damaged it so badly... My mind can basically tell me to go embarrass myself to death, get in some serious trouble, and other awful stuff... It can even tell me to hurt Molluck, even kill him, which I do not want, at all... It's so awful... I can be feeling good and enjoying Molluck's love, but then my mind tells me to rip his brain out... It has happened more than once... I really hate it... Why my mind cannot let me have peace... This is one reason why I feel this suicidal too... I have never told you this stuff before. Those thoughts are probably the main reason why I feel like I'm not a good person, even they are intrusive thoughts, not what I wanna actually do... Yeah, that's the reason why I have felt even like a monster... Just fuck my brain. That's a good way to end this post, since I feel like saying that gave me some strength to push its shit farther. This is like some cat-and-mouse game... Though, I feel like adding that those intrusive thoughts are also one reason why I identify with Molluck, even mine stay only as thoughts...

I'm sorry for this blog being like a dumpster for my negative thoughts, but well, this is my blog and this helps me to clear my mind. It wouldn't be the same if I did this offline, though I leave out some personal details and stuff, but it doesn't change the main stuff here. I also hope that maybe I can bring some peer support, and I do not wish that mental health issues are a taboo topic. But yeah, I feel like I should be more like a Gluk, even if I would still be like "look at this shit I just took" whenever I post my art... It can be good shit in that case, that took a long sitting... Yeah, maybe I should shut up for now.

[necrotic-nephilim]

i personally have very complicated feelings on the Gotham Knights video game and the routes it takes with characterization. i think it has a charm to it and it goes in an interesting direction with everyone (especially within the confides of the plot of the game) but it does have certain moments that veer painfully fanon for me. (such as: the dialogue where Tim drinks too much coffee) it's an interesting story for what it is but i don't view it comics-based for characterization and therefore don't care to interact with it much for like. fanfic purposes.

that *said* though. i do have to give the game some kind of credit for giving one of the top five JayTim moments that lives rent free in my mind. every since i played the game, the cutscene lives in my mind daily. it's the specific cutscene where Jason and Tim are arguing about whether or not Jason's non-lethal bullets are too dangerous for the field, and the argument leads to TIm *standing in front of the target* Jason is shooting and telling Jason to shoot him. it lives rent free for me. i never stop thinking about this.

the absolute certainty Tim has that he is in no danger standing in front of Jason, who has a loaded gun pointed at his face. the way Jason *hesitates* for just a moment before lowering the gun. he thinks about it for just a second. Gotham Knights JayTim seem to get along very well and can rely on each other, but Jason still clearly holds a bitterness about his death and Tim that flickers through in some lines of dialogue under the guise of jokes. especially since this game deals *heavily* with concepts of Pit Madness causing an altered state of consciousness, i think it's believable that occasionally, Jason fights the urge to fight and hurt Tim for the feeling of being replaced.

i like their tension so much in this canon. they get along but you can *tell* Tim is afraid of addressing Jason's trauma or even addressing Jason head-on, and Jason leans into spooking Tim about it. which isn't very comics feeling in their dynamic, but it is an interesting way to place their dynamic if you're playing with a more timid Tim who's newer to the role of Robin. (which he seems to be in-game) he really doesn't want to offend Jason, or worse, piss him off. but he'll still face Jason head on for things like this, while completely aware of what Jason could be capable of.

and Jason seems very protective of Tim and respecting Tim as a Robin in typical Jason fashion. if Tim pushes, Jason *will* relent. he knows this is a kid who's proved himself and should be treated with equal respect, sometimes even more than Dick and Babs do in-game.

so for all that to culminate in Tim stepping in front of Jason's loaded gun that he *knows* is on the edge of being too dangerous, just to force Jason to listen? it's the most unhinged way Tim could've gotten his point across in this scene. he was literally daring Jason to hurt him and playing with a very dangerous fire. but he did it anyway bc he believed he could make Jason heel just at the thought of hurting Tim. and he was *right*. they're gay and i'm feral ty.

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do you trust her

[tookishcombeferre]

Thanks so much!

I'm just glad it all made sense! I was/am copying and pasting from what is effectively my notebook Google Doc.

This thing is full of like a bunch of headers, sub headers, half-written parts of the fic. So, it's amazing to me my notes made any kind of coherent sense because sometimes they don't even to me.

And, thank you! He's a fun character to build from because I have a really nice base to work from in canon.

When I make characters in my writing, I usually start from a lot of questions that are stacked on top of other characters they remind me of.

One of the first things I asked was:

Given all of the things I know occured in canon, what is a logical and realistic response to those events? Psychologically? Emotionally? etc.

Then, I expand.

Next, I think about time period.

What are things that were common occurrences in someone's childhood at that time?

Then, I expand again.

What are the known relationships? What are the unknown relationships? Where is there room for growth? What do I want to foreshadow about the show and future relationships?

Then, I expand again.

How do those relationships shape a person?

So, it's all about asking questions and then answering those questions. The writing itself just fills in the gaps.

I joke that for someone who never pursued science much past the basics I approach art like a scientist. Writing is really just a series of hypothesis that I test and, if/when they don't work, I rewrite. XD

But, yeah. A lot of your prompts help flush out some of these ideas more. They're fun! I always love reading a good head canon.

I've learned whether it's a children's show or one for adults. Shows and books will always, ALWAYS have plot holes and room for additional complexity. So, head cannons will always live! LOL.

Amulet of Avalor questions and plotholes

Cedric grew up with Tilly and Roland, soooo...

...Did Cedric know that Tilly had the amulet before Sofia?

In the pilot, when he saw Sofia had the amulet and learned from her that Roland gave it to her, he was genuinely shocked that the amulet had been in the palace all those years after he'd been studying and obsessing over it for so long.

Maybe Tilly acquired it after she left the castle to become an adventurer (I can't remember if it said). Or if she had it as a youth and Cedric knew she had it, maybe he thought she'd taken the amulet with her?

...Come to think of it, why did Tilly leave the amulet behind? And why didn't Elena choose Tilly as the one to save her, especially since Tilly was also a Storykeeper? I hc Elena didn't send Sofia the dream/visions that led her to Avalor to set Elena free- which happened in s3- until she was absolutely sure Sofia was the right one, and Sofia had obviously proven herself by then... so, how did Tilly presumably fail to prove herself?

And the decades Elena was in the amulet, it fell into many other princesses' hands. Why were none of them chosen to be the one to save Elena? And how did the amulet even get acquired by so many other princesses?

Also, the amulet was in the castle's jewel room when Sofia arrived at the palace. Roland had gone in there to look for a something special to gift Sofia as a welcome gift. Elena got Roland's attention by letting the amulet sparkle or light up, or whatever, so he could see it. But how did Elena even know about Sofia's arrival and that Roland was looking for a welcome gift for her... unless he was talking to himself/thinking out about it while trying to decide?

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