#i don't trust that preview lol

[coladaminx]

I'm telling yall if Episode 7 comes out and we had noting to worry about I'm sueing P.A.WORKS for my emotional health

[yrlocalghost]

okay Screw It i am posting my chara playlist here. it is very much subject to change, but i realized if i keep waiting until it is done i may never share it. it has been an ongoing little thing i have tinkered with for a good several years! (essentially since 8tracks went down)

[daman19942]

TSR CC Recommendations: TS2 Lot Builders

Nobody asked for this but I have a little time on my hands and I said I might do it, so here is a list of some TSR lot builders who I recommend checking out. A few notes under the cut before we get started (all details under the cut, as well, in case you aren't interested in my preamble):

This is not meant to be paid promotion for TSR. I believe TSR asking users to pay for their CC is ridiculous, especially for a 19 year old game they haven't supported in 7 years. But I spent many years uploading there during the peak-TS2 / pre-TS3 era and know there is great CC in their archives that newer players may not know about. And unlike TheSims2.com, which has sadly shuffled off this mortal coil, TSR's content is still available to freely download (assuming you can stomach the pop-ups and wait times)

This post will only be about lot builders because that was what I was primarily uploading and downloading in this era. I was friendly with some of the creators I am about to list, but none of them are still active members of the TS2 community.

The preview pics might be a little rough and the architecture styles will likely feel very dated compared to the most popular styles these days, which are more colorful, cluttered, and use 3t2 and 4t2 conversions. Re: the previews: too many of us were using free trials of PaintShopPro back then, and TSR limited us to 2 previews, so we did our best. Re: the styles: unlike pre-2010's CAS CC, which was full of hand painted and "realistic" textures (LOL), these are the same objects you can find in the game today, just being used in different ways! Sometimes for the first time! And, yes, while some of these creators used CC, it was mostly Homecrafter walls and floors, as you'll see below.

This was also the hey-day of CFE lot building, which has certainly fallen out of favor to more traditional builds (in part because graphics cards have improved and these types of builds don't look as good in 2024, and also because the great CFE experimenters, builders, and tutorial writers are no longer part of the community and their original discoveries are gone as well - I am happy to go down a massive rabbit hole on this piece of TS2 history if anyone else cares, but trust me, you don't have to care).

Alright that is enough caveating, here are some recs! (Links are in the creator's names and they take you to their Lots, though many of them have other creations, too).

Lord Tiko Speaking of great CFE builders! Lord Tiko built spaceships, boats, pagodas, domes, windmills and bridges, oh so many bridges before retiring mid-TS2 because of health issues. He was one of the first builders to take Daihtnaoz7's single and double bridge tutorials and apply them to really big lots. I'm still not sure how he built the Venice Rialto Bridge, or his other European water lots. Overall, a massive inspiration to me when I was prioritizing CFE builds.

Hatshepsut My favorite "traditional" home builder, and someone I considered a friend. She specialized in English and American builds, and I had many of Hat's houses in my old saves and was impressed by her range and decorating style which was (for the time) more varied than many of her peers. Knew how to take great preview pics of her houses, too.

Tigerblue Another builder I corresponded with, Tigerblue was probably the least prolific uploader on this list for sheer number of uploads, but she also crossed a range of styles. Her builds leaned way into specific styles (see the previews, these were all part of consistent sets of 3,4, or even 10 lots), but this was also what happened when a new EP dropped and everyone raced to uploaded builds using as many of the new objects and styles as possible. Tigerblue just happened to be better at it than most of us.

Cyclonesue Do current TS2 players know Cyclonesue? Because it's hard to think of someone who had a bigger impact on building and decorating of the era, first with her English and Tudor builds and later with her extremely distinct grunge creations. Seriously, check out her Urban Renewal series and the corresponding objects. Iconic stuff that surely now feels frozen in time. I probably only played 20% of her lots that I downloaded, but they still make for great hood decor. Like Tiko, someone who happily experimented with CFE.

Illiana The creator who inspired me to make this list is, ironically, the one on it who I know the least about (she is a Featured Artist but not in the Hall of Fame, whatever that means). I just started playing her Tri-Annyas fraternity house and have a few other lots floating around my game. She built in a range of styles, from classical to modern to Twikki Island to grunge. Revisiting some of them in-game, the TSR previews do not do them justice.

*EXHALES* If you made it to this point, kudos to you. I'm sure there are creators I've forgotten, and houses I haven't linked to, but this is a good starting point for digging into some of the eclectic builds the TSR(chives) have to offer (I just coined that, is it clever? It is not). Maybe I'll do a Part 2 if people like this.

If you have any favorites of your own, let me know what I missed! And as I do with my old Exchange re-uploads, I am tagging @sims2packrat and @oldasscustomcontent for general TS2 history awareness!

[gretavanmoon]

an omnipresent force•

hey friends, so in recent days I've realized that Tumblr is nothing but an open place to dump our wild, running thoughts, right? a place to express our art and let creativity flow in its rawest form, whether or not the work is unfinished or tied up with a big red bow. my docs is littered with unfinished ideas and half-written junk, and they're just sitting there. why? they're collecting dust, and I don't like dust.

ive consulted with my nearest and dearests on if this thought process is wack or not, and they don't think it's TOO wack, I hope. but anyways, here's a little preview of something I started a long time ago. It's got a couple chapters complete, a couple outlined, but it has no end in sight. and I don't really care. I wanna share it, because I love it, and completing multi-book works is a feat I'm familiar with from writing the Vigilance & Valor worlds, and without @gretavangroupie encouraging me to write like the wind, those things would STILL be sitting in our docs COLLECTING DUST (with absolutely no fault to her stamina, but by fault of mine lol)

so I'm gonna post this, it's messy and unfinished and kind of unedited, because who cares? we read for indulgence and escapism, and we write for the same reasons.

maybe I'll finish this one day, maybe I won't. nevertheless, enjoy it my loves ;)

also ily so much @builtbybrokenbells & @farfromthehomelands for the encouragements

Warnings: Mentions of Death & Dying, Pain, Loss, Crying

•

“Do you remember it, Y/N? Do you? Are all of your memories still alive? Do not ever let your mind be one to settle, my love. You know that. That is essential.”

His voice is strangled and pained as he tries to speak quietly in the shadows that have fallen across the large room, pushing his words out with haste as his eyes scan behind me. Waiting, anticipating someone to come unnoticed into the room with us. I take sight of his rigid and shaking body laid out across the cot, the white sheet wrapped around his freezing self.

"What did they give you, Paps? What did they drop into your eyes?" I beg. His pupils are dilated and the whites of them are now a deep red, swollen and blotchy as he struggles to focus in on me.

"My memories, my love... they've tried to take them. But the rash, it's taking me faster..." he moans.

His calloused hands desperately grab at mine, the beds of his fingernails torn and caked with dirt. “Promise me you’ll never forget… the things we thought we’d have forever are long gone, now, and we’re never getting them back. Keep your memories, Y/N, think about everything that you can, often. Speak them, share them- but only when you know you’re surrounded by those you can trust. Otherwise, keep them within yourself, and use them to keep going. Keep pushing through to the next sunrise…” His wrinkled and bruised palm then rests gently across my chest as it heaves with sorrow and exhaustion. I can’t stop this… There’s nothing more I can do for him…

“I won’t, I won’t ever forget…” My promise feels futile in the moment as I croak the words out, but I know that I will take charge of myself and bring it to fruition when the time is right. When I don’t feel as though I’m going to drown in my own tears as they feel like puddles around me. When my chest isn’t weighed down with the guilt of leaving him behind without a proper burial. When my body isn’t begging me to run as fast as I can. 

I squeeze his hand. 

“We’ve never seen times this dark, my love, and I fear that you will be the one to see them even darker. But don’t fret, darkness is only the absence of light. And where there is light, there is love. Never let yourself forget.” A quick and tight smile ghosts my lips as I remember his favorite song. “The photos, the books, the songs… sing them all the time. Keep the melodies alive, and don’t ever let yourself forget the words.”

His fingers drift down the line of ink that paints my forearm, each tattoo a memory of times that we will never get back, sounds that we will never hear again unless we sing them out loud, hoping that our memories serve us right. His sullen eyes snap to me again as we both hear a crash in the room behind us. I rip my sleeve back down to cover my arm. Nothing to show my identity.

My body urges itself to prepare to run, and though he knows that I must, he pulls me back down to speak to me again, his voice still hushed and dry as his body wracks with pain.

“Remember when you were a child, no bigger than a grasshopper, and I’d sit you on my knee, teaching you how to put the needle on the record so you’d always have the ability? And how we’d sing the songs together, and I’d play the melodies on the piano… you’d dance, oh my love, you’d dance!”

“I remember, of course I do!” I cry through a weakened smile, the memory of standing on his feet as he twirled me across the firelit living room now feeling like it was a thousand years ago. 

“Never cease your movements, my sweet.” His eyes scan behind us again, his weak hands squeezing mine in return. “Move until your muscles are sore, move until your feet are tough and hardened. Keep your body in good health, because in turn your mind will act along with it. Remember the trees, remember the clouds. The grass, the streams, the way the air smells before a rain, keep it all…memorize it. Categorize, record, and repeat. Your grandmother’s recipes, they’re still in the book. Her plant descriptions, her foraging tools, her gardening plans… study them, Y/N. Memorize. I’ve taught you well, we all have, you must seek and find what’s on the other side of this, my love. You’re prepared, it’s up to you. Find your clan, sweetheart. This isn’t the end. Many have forgotten what the emotion feels like, by now. But you know what love is. Track it down, and hold onto it with everything you’ve got left. Do you hear me? Love, honey. There are more of us. The good ones, they're still left. Find them. Find them!”

I nod harshly as the noise behind us crashes again, likely pulling down my makeshift barrier of tables and chairs. His breathing is weakened, and his chest rattles with a sound no man should ever make.

“They can take our things, but they can’t take our memories. Ever.” He taps the side of his temple with one finger. He knows just as well as I do that they can take our memories, and they have. They've already begun to take his. But his immunity to their drugs and schemes still proves itself strong, just like mine does.

“Share them, please… pass them along, and remember the memories that others share with you, too. You’ve always had the biggest heart of all of us, don’t try and argue with me. You’ve got more wit in your little finger than we all had from our heads to our toes. And any of us would have willingly admitted that, my sweet. Go- get out of here, while you still can. Remember my words, my love. Our history can’t be unwritten if you keep it here, in your heart.” His frail, bruised fingers tap my chest again as if to remind me where my heart sits, still beating with strength as his struggles to pump his blood supply. “Run, love, go! And don’t even think about turning back for me. I’ll have taken my last breath before you even cross the threshold. 

I love you, you love me.”

As I bring his hands up to my trembling lips, I feel the coldness of them like I’ve never felt before, as if they had been sitting in a bowl of ice water. The sound behind me crashes again, this time louder, and I know they are getting closer to us, now. I kiss his digits and smooth his silver hair back, whispering out a choked ‘I love you back’ before I turn and let my feet carry me toward the light peeking from under the towering double metal doors.

I hear his voice in the distance, crackled but still just as powerful as the man that made it.

“Remember, your memories are your own. Go and find the good ones, Y/N! Find them!"

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[chefkids]

I'm confused by "no implications" -- maybe he was saying they just weren't going to talk about it on that interview? Like no one is talking about the subject publicly so don't ask? That was my first reading. Or he is just saying that the show runners are still refusing to engage the idea at all. If that's what it means, I believe it. Is there a longer quote for additional context?

He said "There are no talks about any romantic implications [between Carmy and Sydney]”

I think he meant there are no talks with him and the other actors and the writers/creators about creating romantic implications. So basically he's saying that no one on the show has ever tried to create anything romantic between them and people are just reading into things that were never meant to have romantic implications. But that's just so categorically false given everything that has already happened and that we know will be happening from the previews. So basically what he's saying is that he's full of shit and a liar lol

I'm telling you guys, do not listen to any of these people. They're liars. Scammers. Frauds. Duplicitous. Deceitful. Untrustworthy.

At the end of the day, what they put on screen matters more and says more than anything they say in an interview. They have been so dead set on saying absolutely nothing about this season, the most they say is Carmy got out of the fridge. They're not gonna sit there and say "yeah we carefully laid the groundwork for a slow burn relationship since season 1 and have used Claire and Marcus to create drama and tension between them but there's definitely romantic undertones and we'll see Syd and Carmy address them on screen."

Trust the process. Hang tight. You're not the only ship adrift on this ocean.

[what0smart]

Absolute Power:Superson thoughts!!!

Spoilers!!!!!!

As much as I would love to make an essay on this I don't think there's any way I could organize my thoughts enough for it to be good so I'm just gonna list out my thoughts on my favorite parts!

You can find my thoughts on the first 8 pages we got as previews here (page posting limit lol)

Nia understanding that while Jon often fights alone or for people, he desperately wants to fight alongside others or for them to fight for him.

This whole page is so great, I love the direct acknowledgement that Jon has been constantly fighting and all the times he had to fight alone. I will take the volcano and Ultraman where and whenever lol

Jon clearly has been suppressing his trauma and his constant fighting to make sure he doesn't lose anything like when he lost everything as a kid is clearly taking it's toll. Nia telling Jon he doesn't need to fight for everyone else constantly and it's okay to choose himself at times. This will come back in a conversation with Jay.

I am holding out having any feelings on this cause a large part of me refuses to believe DC would actually kill her, but if she is actually dead I'm gonna come back later and stare at this page in the saddest way possible.

He's so petty it kills me lmao

While it stresses me out to see them fight I love seeing them work through it, and it really shows the differences between them especially as this whole event has probably had a major impact on Jay in a negative way.

Jon realizing that he was trying to save the idea or memory of Nia over his Boyfriend after everything that's happened and deciding to prioritize what he wants, which is Jay. (more thoughts on this page at the end lol)

I think the Amazonians asking Jon for help was kind of a reminder to Jay of who Jon is at his core. Similarly to how Jon understood he probably can't dissuade Jay from hating Nia, I think Jay was reminded that Jon is just a forgiving and loving person, it is what drew Jay to Jon in the first place and that he shouldn't expect him to have the same reaction he has to Nia's death. I think Jay was going to say yes no matter what after this realization but I feel he normally would have thought about it more but decided to take that risk and give Jon a yes so he wouldn't be worried about it while in battle, you can see Jon flies away with a much more ready attitude.

Jon's "new place" is in his dreams, I had a worry Jon was just offering to live together with Jay because he thought it's what Jay would want but the fact that this is here means he has been dreaming of living in San Francisco for a while now, and the fact that Jay not being there destroying the dream really hits it home that being with Jay is what he wants. This is not Jon trying to make sure everyone in his life is happy at the cost of his own, this is Jon listening to what Nia told him to do and is choosing himself by following his dreams.

Final thoughts

Overall I really loved this issue and it really hit my expectations. It was very tough to follow at times but that's typical of dream sequences and this issue did it well, can't wait to see how Absolute Power ends and if Amanda will FINALLY face the consequences for her actions. I'll be holding out my comments on Nia until we know for certain she's dead, Nicole loves tormenting her characters so I wouldn't be surprised but I think she would also love to continue the beef between her and Jay. I'm extremely interested and hope Nicole or Sina do something in the future for Jay and Jon because right now they are probably the people at DC who I trust the most with the boys!!!

[hwangism143]

off - limits (preview)

synopsis: hwang hyunjin was multiple things to you: incredible. god-like. everything. but most of all, he was off-limits. that is, until, you both are forced to share a room at a beach getaway. sounds perfectly romantic, right? except for your fear of the ocean and his recent break-up.

pairing: non-idol!hyunjin x fem!reader

genre: best friends brother trope, one room trope, angst, fluff

warnings: mentions of alcohol, swearing, mentions of death, nightmares, graphic description of nearly drowning (more warnings will be added to the main fic)

word count (preview): 968 words

release date: 03/05/24

a/n: finally! my first over 10k word fic lol. this was requested to me by @scarlet789 and i immediately started working on it. you can send in an ask or reply below if you wish to be added to the taglist for this fic, coming out nest friday!

preview down below

"Hmm," Hyunjin hummed in contemplation to something you had said, "You know, I always liked your company more then Hyun-jee's. Don't tell her though." He had mischievous look in his eyes and a smirk on his lips, eliciting a laugh from within you and bringing back a memory you had forgotten.

You were still slightly awed by the fact that the Hwang Hyun-jee invited you to spend summer with her. At a ski lodge. A fricking ski lodge! The shocking revelation that you could be considered cool enough to hang out with her and her brother were the thoughts in your head as you stared at the copy of Emma in your hands, pretending to read the text.

Beside you, you could hear the steady scratching of pencil against paper, interrupted only by the symphony of an eraser rubbing against the sheet. This little orchestra playing next to you was evidence of Hyunjin's existence, an art in itself if anyone asked you.

"You should teach me French," he asks you out of the blue, "For when if leave to go to Paris."

You look at him inquisitively. He told you that he got accepted into art school in Paris a few days ago. You did feel sad about the fact that he was going, but deep down you knew very well that practically, after this summer your interactions with Hyunjin would be few and far in between.

"You have Hyun-jee, she can teach you. If, that is, you can put up with her," you retort teasingly.

Hyunjin gives you a sly smirk, "That's exactly why I was asking you. I think I'll like your style of teaching better. And so, I want you to please, please, please teach me French."

You had no idea where this sudden newfound confidence to flirt with Hyunjin had bloomed within you but, oh well, you only live once. "Do you want me teaching you, or just me in general?"

"Ah," he said shaking his head regretfully with a smile, "Even though you have only known me for a few weeks, you already know me too well."

Butterflies ignite in your stomach, although you're pretty sure he was just playing along with you. You wonder what he's sketching, his bottom lip caught between his teeth and his eyes set in concentration. Even though you have a feeling it isn't, you sincerely hope it's you.

You don't know that your hopeful assumption was true.

A tightening in you chest starts to grow when the topic shifts to love. Earlier, talking to Hyunjin about love used to come as easy walking on your two feet. Now, it just hurts. He asked you if you were seeing someone. You promptly replied in the negative. You asked him if he was seeing someone. He reflected your answer back onto you.

But what did it really mean? You were always going to be bound in this life by that unspoken oath you made to Hyun-jee all those years ago. It wasn't even about love anymore, it was about not breaking another person's trust, a person who you held closer to your heart than most of your family.

You started thinking though. What was the point of hiding your feelings, old or not, from Hyunjin any longer? It wasn't like you could act on it, but you may as well have told him. Maybe then a huge weight from your chest would be released and you wouldn't be shackled by commitments, things you felt you owed to both of them.

"I don't think you know this but," your expression suddenly changed, "I used to have the biggest crush on you that summer."

"Used to?" At this point, Hyunjin is sitting up straight, eyeing you curiously. You roll your eyes and give him a playful slap on his arm. His expression, however, turns into one of regret. You begin to feel remorseful about telling him, paranoia settling in and molding itself into the fabric of who you were.

"That's a shame," he says quietly.

The air changes, charged with something you can't quite place. Hyunjin hols eye contact with you, unsaid words coursing through them. You never really believed in the phrase 'the eye is the window to the soul', but right now, you were terrified of whatever the hell your eyes were revealing to him right now. Hyunjin then proceeds to utter something, something so capable of infusing you with poisoned hope, that it takes your breath away.

"I think I would have loved loving you."

Time has stopped. Feelings of desperation, annihilation and most importantly, temptation, cascade in a whirlpool inside you. It had been years. This was wrong. This was the universe dangling temptation in front of you, urging you to just take a bite. Rebelliously, you wondered, what if you were selfish for one? Why were you feeling this way now?

"I think I would have loved being loved by you," you choke out. Hyunjin's hand laces through yours and gives it a little squeeze in response.

That is when it dawns on you that Hyunjin is as confined in this matter as you, if not more. Hyun-jee is his sister for God's sake; whatever guilt you felt in wanting him, he must have felt tenfold in wanting you. You know exactly what the little squeeze he gave you signifies: It will pass. If it cannot be, it will cease.

And you know it's true because you and Hyunjin can never be 'us' or 'we' as long as you were present in this reality. You wished there was a universe somewhere, a parallel reality when Hyunjin and you were considered of one breath because to breath you would need him like oxygen.

Judging by his expression, he must have been drifting in thought about that too.

[vanmarkus]

Hi friend!! I haven’t been on as much thanks to life (that almost 10 days without power at the beginning of the month wasn’t fun…) so you kinda threw me with the new name again! 😅😅

Anywho, I wanted to ask your opinion on Brilliant Minds? My mom asked if I saw the previews before it came out and I kinda did but didn’t. And before I invest in another new show (got High Potential and Doctor Odyssey on the roster now lol) I was wanting some feedback from people I trust. I mean, I liked Zachary Quinto as Spock and Teddy Sears KILLED it as Zoom on The Flash so I kinda wanna watch just for them anyway, but.. do I *really* need another new show to try and watch? 🤣🤣🤣🤣🤣

hiii and welcome back~

well if you choose to watch something new, it should definitely be Brilliant Minds imho

first of all, you have the above mentioned great cast at your hand and some new young faces who have been doing an amazing job playing the interns, like seriously, everyone is great!

second of all, yeah it's a bit corny, but the show itself is very interesting for unexpected reasons. like, it's a procedural, but it doesn't necessarily feel like one? normally on medical dramas, especially the ones centered around diagnostics the mystery of whatever's going on with this week's patient is the rush, but on BM it's almost secondary compared to the human experience of the patients and their doctors.

they don't just magically fix them up at the end of the episode, they figure out what's wrong, admit that sometimes there is no way of knowing what's causing something and then they come up with ways for the patients to adapt to their conditions. i frankly couldn't name another show that does that.

the way they give us small nuggets about the characters' backgrounds without giving away too much is done to a perfection and every single character is interesting and loveable in their own way (i'm not saying you're gonna love everyone but they all have the potential) and the dynamics are chef's kiss between all of them, seriously.

and then ofc there is the fact that the show has openly queer and/or neurodivergent characters and actors on the cast.

the only thing i could say "against" it is that it sucks you in shockingly fast and you get attached without realising it

in conclusion:

[r0w0fie]

Update on the CK situation:

I'm shocked I'm saying this but, instead of Carnivorekitty giving it some time to settle down & to use that time to grow . . He just deleted/deactivated his art accounts???

His Tumblr has been deactivated & his Ck twitter account has been seemingly deleted. The Lurking for Love twitter account is still up.

Edit 2: his art twitter is still up but the tag have been changed & the account privated. Any use of the direct link to the old tag doesn't work, hence why I thought it was possibly deleted.

He has changed his now deactivated Tumblr name to "don't make your fanbase on here" which says alot . . .

His Carrd has also been cleared out, including the Toyhouse account. Although his Ko-fi & Itchio are still up. You can see a preview to the old links in the second screenshot below.

Edit 1: his carrd has also been deleted now

He has renamed his previous Carnivorekitty twitter account to yeehawcrow and has privated it.

The background image was changed after the situation. This is just another jab at his fanbase, same as all his other account name changes.

His Niwi account, the one with the transphøbia & -ism interactions, is still up but has been privated.

The name change is still up which shows that he still stands by his views. Do with that info as you will, just no harassment towards said account please & thanks.

I hope this is the last time I have to say anything or update people on the issue.

Some personal thoughts & feelings under the cut ⬇️

I am now further disappointed with Tom. I do not know if he said anything before deactivating, like a farewell or a "will be back eventually".

If he had of simply given it some time, let the dust settle, realign his mental state and then try to figure out why this was so hurtful to his fanbase. He could of had a chance to return & continue on; if he wanted too.

Of course, not everyone would be happy to see him return. Not everyone would even interact with his accounts or be willing to be in the fandom again. But it was still an option, especially if he uses this as a learning opportunity, not just for past fans or present fans, but for himself.

I personally won't be supporting Tom unless some serious growth & acknowledgment is shown. Unfortunately, I don't think thats going to happen any time soon due to the examples & links above. It might never happen or it might take months/years.

I hope Tom is safe & I hope everyone else is safe aswell. Make sure to look after yourselves & reach out to those you trust if you're not doing too hot xx

For now I will change my hyperfocus from Jacob & co onto other games & characters. It hurts to do so but there are so many good peeps out there & we shouldn't be afraid to trust them. I hug anyone who now is because of this situation 🫂

I will forever be into Milo (@/solarchaotica's oc) & will be getting back into LoveLock so I can bully my fave character Walter even tho Seb is the fan fave lol

My personal feelings on all of this? It's shitty.

People defending all of the horrible evidence, without saying they don't agree with aspects of these "questionable" simply because they want to defend CK; is shitty.

People putting things in other people's mouths, is shitty.

People burying their heads in the sand because they want to ignore it all; is shitty.

People giving excuses, even excuses as to why they are ignoring this issue or ignoring certain parts of this issue, is shitty.

People who genuinely support these types of beliefs, only joined in because they're genuinely phobic & aren't even in the L4L/murdersim community; is shitty. (& Yes I've seen it happen)

People who harrass anyone involved, Tom himself, is shitty.

People who use this as evidence to defend other past users actions, is shitty.

People who lash out their hurt through nasty words & ill wishes upon others, is shitty.

People who say anything about Tom or others ky$-ing themselves, are super mega shitty like wtf??? Don't do that???? I only saw one person but still????

It's all just super mega shitty and I hate it so much and it hurts so much to see other people be so so hurt and just aaahshsgskxbdjfb. I cried the first day, not because of my personal feelings, but because of others talking openly about how hurt this made them. Seeing my friends be hurt. Strangers be hurt. Mutuals be hurt. I could still cry if I let myself dwell on it for too long.

I wish things could of ended up better. When I posted on the situation I tried to tell peeps to keep an open mind & to look after themselves. I just hope this is a learning experience for alot of people.

[omghallucinations]

Hey I really like your aspect observations of Ateez's birth chart. The way you explain it is so real and hilarious. Now I have stick to the status quo stuck in my head haha. Could you see what kind of life long partner they will potentially end up with based on their chart? It's really fun to see accurate the birth chart is hehe I feel like you got them down to a t

haha thank you! but wrt any life long partner, not really! i don't think the astrology chart shows the future. i think the chart shows potential. it can show what you may value or fear in romantic relationships, patterns you may have in relationships and like. past-life or subconscious or just childhood issues type things you might have about romance. it can't tell the future though. it's like how the transit of a planet theoretically could mean divorce, or it could mean pressure in a relationship, or it could mean, like, issues with a work or financial partner. it shows energy, but not the outcome.

my sister has been married twice to two totally different people and both times i could have read her chart to be like ohh yes, THIS is who you will marry. there's no exact correlation. like, a partnership isn't a destination for an individual, you know what i mean? you make choices to stay with that person or you make choices to leave. plus, you're not always attracted to the same things throughout your life. that changes too.

i can check out what romantic love patterns or issues look relevant to each of them though! important to note in advance that venus isn't just romance--it's also just relationships with others, aesthetics, anything that brings pleasure, etc, so that's not the only thing at work here.

before going into the full analysis i'm gonna put my basic takeaways for each of them, as a lol or a preview

hongjoong: married to his work and The Aesthetic seonghwa: (meme voice) i don't want somebody in my house yunho: bros before hos yeosang: who the fuck betrayed him in a past life??? wth. san: probably thinks romeo & juliet is totally logical mingi: can this kid catch a fucking break??? at least his sex appeal is off the charts wooyoung: manic pixie dream boys a protective shell for his heart, profits (?) jongho: can't relate, unlike my teammates i am an adult

hongjoong: i think he's more interested in romance as aesthetics than actual romantic relationships most of the time. he admires passion, depth and intensity (venus in scorpio) but values his independence too much to tie himself down early, plus he's fairly picky and often predicts disappointment before it happens (venus and juno in the 9th house, scorpio ruled by mars in virgo in the 8th). he's way more focused on making money and his career and self-expression (mars in the 8th, capricorn energy, saturn, SN in aquarius 1st house). his career and power tend to trump any romantic relationships (venus and juno in scorpio co-ruled by pluto in sagittarius in the 10th/career house). when he does get into a relationship, he can be fairly intense at least sexually and he's loyal (mars in the 8th, scorpio venus and juno).

the questions and themes of his life are pretty focused on him as an individual (the nature of work, dreams, creativity, capitalism??? workaholism, who am i if i do not Produce Work--Capricorn Neptune at the anoretic degree 29 (bfd degree) in the 1st, chart ruler Saturn at 29 Aries) so partnerships are not really foundational--however he needs to build a strong partnership/partnerships and learn to trust other people for his soul to evolve (nn in the 7th house). it's gonna be hard for him to learn that work is not the most important thing in life, and he has to learn to prioritize his partner or partners. he has the potential to really be in a power couple or at least become ride-or-die for his person--again, he needs to learn that he can't just feel this way, he has to also make decisions this way. he does not trust people easily (sn in aquarius in the 1st) so this will probably be later in life.

key words: workaholic, commitment, power, vulnerability, sexuality, critical

seonghwa: ah, seonghwa definitely tends to be single and focused on his career (venus in aquarius, uranus in the 7th, fuckin everything in his 10th house. honestly his intense vulnerability is so hidden and he is so affected by the emotions of other people that he may just feel better being single. his chart ruler is his moon in cancer in the 12th house--would not be surprised if he had psychic abilities lmao. he feels the need to retreat often and doesn't allow himself to lean on others easily.

he may nitpick his way out of any potential partnerships (juno in virgo) and it gives very somebody in my HOUSE???? energy. like he likes things the way he likes things and he's not wiiiiild about compromising. saturn is wilding out in the 10th house, so he truly puts work first and his commitment to some societal conditioning or expectations can really hold him back from acting (conjunct mars) and from self expression (square ascendant)

his venus in aquarius has almost no major aspects--it is essentially unaspected, which gives a planet a special flavor. i like this description--imagine all the planets as a play. you are the play. with the aspects between them they are all working together to do the dialogue, etc. then there is the unaspected planet, just chillin'. very much not part of the play but very much on the stage anyway. this can be at the back of the stage, so his aquarius venus energy is underused, or at the front of the stage stealing all the attention, so his aquarius venus energy asserts itself more than anybody else. tbh i think for seonghwa it is the latter. he feels different from other people and a little detached or abstracted and that colors his relationships.

an unaspected planet is like, insanely obvious to everyone else as a clear like. preoccupation and fascination for the person and pure expression of energy, but the person can't see it. everyone looks at seonghwa and is like, ah yes, someone who is clearly fascinated by unconventional (aquarius) expressions of aesthetics and being (venus) but he's like what?? me?? but i'm so normal and regular! i love normal gender and normal things like that!!! even while we all kind of go... uh... huh... uh-huh...

anyway he wants a perfect partner (neptune in the 7th, juno in virgo) who will somehow never disrupt seonghwa's like. things and life that are arranged exactly how he wants them. but a perfect person does not exist so he ends up single a lot of the time! he's an odd duck for sure and he'll want an odd duck to date, but saturn is really telling him that it's important to be Normal which unfortunately inhibits him a lot (saturn in its fall in aries conjunct mars at home in aries).

yunho: he fears commitment and likes to be in control in relationships, which is honestly a way to protect himself (juno conjunct pluto) and he may build in restrictions or limits to the relationship himself (venus conjunct saturn) probably around work (venus in the 6th house). he fears betrayal subconsciously (venus opposite mars in scorpio in the 12th). he values stability and practicality and probably doesn't talk about any negative feelings he has with his partner, so he will break up very quickly when he starts to get nervy.

his moon is in his seventh house in gemini, so this is a lot of contradictory energy. the moon in the seventh house of relationships usually would indicate the domination of romance over his emotional life, a deep desire for a relationship, sometimes getting married young, but it's all in gemini which really doesn't want the entree, it wants the sample plate. he wants to have fun and chat and flirt and explore and having too many feelings is yucky and boring. in some ways he really wants the stable relationship, but it's in conflict with his subconscious security blanket of individual liberty and freedom and being single basically (pluto in the 1st house). he admires freedom in his partners but also fears it.

hate to say it but there's the potential for toxic relationships here, in whatever form that takes. he has real control issues and the ability to manipulate others--likely unconsciously. luckily he's incredibly personable and friendly (sun conjunct jupiter) and most of the time he is more focused on his friendships and the group in general. in other areas of his life he's fun and fancy free and more of a peace-keeper and practical, sensible, chill person who doesn't sweat the small stuff. it's likely his intense feelings in relationships freak him out so he's likely to keep people at a distance.

yeosang: oh boy he has a real protective coating for his emotions to hide them from others (moon in cancer conjunct IC) and some real intense pain--possible past life issues here--around intimacy and/or betrayal (scorpio chiron at 29 in the 8th house). he has a really hard time saying no to people and this can be difficult in intimate relationships because he's constantly trying to gauge what is better for the group (mars in virgo in the 7th house, south node in aquarius in the 11th). he probably idealizes his partner a little bit too much (venus in leo in the 5th) and can live in a fantasy world (venus opposite neptune) that detaches him from the world in a way (neptune in aquarius in the 11th).

he can get into not very good relationships that have some restrictions and judgment and power struggles (venus square saturn in taurus in the 2nd and trine pluto), possibly that he meets through work (quincunx MC) and his insecurity does not help (venus semisquare sun). he can be a bit passy aggy. still, forming close relationships is the whole Thing of his personal soul journey (venus conjunct NN)--but it's also about learning to assert himself and have balanced relationships.

honestly though i think yeosang is more of the dipping-his-toe in type, probably has a lot of fleeting crushes he never acts on. he can be very flirtatious and tbh people may read him incorrectly and think he's more into them than he is. he's more comfortable single, even if he does have romance in his soul (sn conjunct uranus in aquarius in the 11th, leo venus). that past life baggage is heavy (chiron conjunct juno in scorpio at 29 in the 8th) and keeps him more comfy flitting on a surface level (sun in gemini, chart ruler mars in libra).

key words: idealizing, passy aggy, hesitant, past life betrayals

san: i think it's likely he has many short, intense relationships that he ends up self-sabotaging (south node in the 5th house, leo venus in the 12th house, chiron square venus). serial monogamist vibe. he is romantic, a little ego-centric but passionate and extroverted, in a secretive, deep-feeling and spiritual way (leo venus in the 12th house). this deep spiritual flashy love for romance and kind of love-bombing vibe (although he genuinely means it lmao it's not a tactic) runs into trouble because he has deep pain and past life baggage around romance, partnership, communication, as well as feeling misunderstood (venus square chiron in scorpio in the 3rd house).

he's gonna wanna talk and deeply communicate to get through that (scorpio, 3rd house) but his trust issues both in others and in himself (chiron, south node in aquarius) means he often bails too fast or subconsciously causes unnecessary arguments to get out (jupiter opposition scorpio mars in the 2nd). still he is optimistic and exuberant about love, sex and intimacy and is always ready to jump into something new (venus trine taurus jupiter in the 8th). he wants intense, all-consuming, romantic and passionate love--but once he's in it he doesn't always trust himself or the other person--sometimes rightfully so, as san likely lets himself be blinded by romantic possibility and others may take advantage of him, or simply not be down with the kind of intensity san brings to the table. (juno in scorpio conjunct chiron).

mingi: mingi's big life thing is a lot about struggling to communicate about his emotions (mercury in cancer at 29 degrees) so this is gonna gum up the works with relationships here. i hate not knowing houses because that can really change everything, but just knowing generally we can still do some work--he is practical but also kind of critical in relationships (venus in virgo) and can overthink everything because of his ideals or dreams of the "perfect" relationship (venus quincunx neptune in aquarius) or him thinking about what else may be out there. venus is ruled by mercury in cancer, so his trouble with communication really affects his relationships.

venus is also in its fall in virgo. when a planet is in its fall, it's like it's in another country where it doesn't know where it is, can't speak the language, doesn't have any currency, that kind of vibe. he'll struggle with this for sure but like anything you struggle with it can become your greatest strength. mingi really has a hard time with interpersonal relationships--romantic and platonic-- and finds it hard to navigate them. he can be critical of other people because he is so critical of himself. he makes judgements of other people quickly and has a hard time letting go of them. his venus is also retrograde--jesus can this kid catch a break??? i also have this--it's not that bad all by itself, mostly just means that you're gonna get things wrong a few times before you get it right and often you'll find your partner when you're a little older--but with everything else, jeez.

he probably has past life trust baggage like yeosang (venus square chiron and pluto), and some early life struggles with rejection and pain. if he's not careful he can become a bit manipulative (venus square pluto) because he usually thinks he's right (pluto in sagittarius) and honestly things often turn out in his favor (pluto trine north node) so that enforces the belief.

on the flip side of the manipulation, there's the potential for mingi to get into toxic relationships with people who treat him badly (juno conjunct chiron) or he may hurt them in return--though with both chiron and juno trining mercury in cancer i would assume it would be vulnerability to believing and empathizing with someone who may not deserve it because they nurture him and he wants badly to be nurtured. like with everything, there's the potential for either. pluto and lilith exactly conjunct at 7 degrees, very loosely conjunct chiron and juno and square venus -- there is a ton of sexual energy and the potential for power and pain, also seen with mars at home in scorpio.

every time i look at mingi's chart i'm like "oh jesus chriistttttttt bro give him a break" but hard charts often mean you turn out to have wayyy more depth and wisdom as you get older and tbh i prefer someone with a difficult chart to someone with a quote unquote easy chart.

wooyoung: ahh. oh boy. people like him and he likes people (venus at home in libra in the 1st) but how deep does he allow it to be? honestly he has a lot of fears and hangups around intimacy. he tends to jump into relationships and then keep the person at a distance either because of his career or his large friendship group/multiple romantic relationships (jupiter in aries in the 7th house square mars exalted in capricorn, juno in the 3rd). tbh he has a tendency to play manic pixie dream girl subconsciously as a way to keep himself safe from Being Perceived And Therefore Getting Hurt (venus in libra in the first trine uranus in aquarius in the 5th, uranus square mercury and saturn). relationships are a huge part of wooyoung's journey (libra rising, venus in the 1st, SN in the 5th) although he has to learn not to rely on them so much. true intimacy is tricky for wooyoung because he's actually pretty insecure (venus semisquare sun) and fears exposure.

he does genuinely need independence and honestly probably an open and/or polyamorous relationship (uranus trine venus, juno in sagittarius in the 3rd house) but he needs to learn to feel safe at at home and feel safe being Observed and learn to trust others with his very vulnerable and sensitive heart (moon in cancer, moon quincunx mercury). this is all honestly very tricky for him. he does really enjoy the push-and-pull, and also he can suddenly go cold on someone in a way that can stop progress in its tracks (mars at 29 in capricorn 4th house).

a partner is going to have to be smarter than wooyoung to keep his interest--wooyoung clocks it when he's smarter than someone or has someone in his pocket very easily and that will automatically make a person less appealing (mercury in the 2nd square uranus in aquarius in the 5th, mars exalted in capricorn). it's almost like he thinks that if someone is too into him wooyoung actually tricked them into liking him, therefore they don't like wooyoung they like the manic pixie dream boy and/or they like how wooyoung makes them feel, and the person believed wooyoung's trick so that makes the relationship not real and also makes the person too gullible so it's like ugh, never mind, ew. ugh. wooyoung has to learn to accept love. subconsciously he doesn't believe he deserves it (8th house saturn opposite mercury, square uranus, quincunx pluto, square lunar nodes). it makes him look callous or flighty or whatever but the root of the issue is his own feelings of unworthiness.

jongho: hahahaha another #same from me, he has saturn at 0 degrees, which basically is like. when a planet is at zero it is SO EXCITED to ACT OUT THE VIBE that it often overreaches. he probably has the ability to act insanely practically in a way that someone would be like oh my god, so COLD, so HARSH, but it's not meant that way at all. although he truly can dispassionately make a choice. he can go cold on people though. his venus is in scorpio (he's passionate, loyal, intense) which is ruled by his mars in virgo (can be critical, picky, discerning). venus in scorpio is also venus in detriment so like, he definitely can be passionate but he's gonna express love in sort of a sideways way sometimes.

his venus is trine his north node and sextile his south node which means that relationships with other people are essential to his soul's growth and journey--which is moving from capricorn to cancer, from sort of ruthless practicality, career, workaholic, anxiety, to accepting his deeper emotions, sort of like moving from society to home.

he likes people who are doing their own thing (juno in aquarius conjunct uranus) and are just as independent as he is (venus square uranus). he doesn't want someone who is clingy. tbh he's not like. the most nurturing individual, surprise surprise (juno conjunct uranus). however relationship things often work out well for him (venus exactly trine nn) and even though he can be pretty logical at all costs, it's not a tyrannical thing really. he has pretty good judgment (saturn trine neptune), if a little attached to societal conditioning.

lmao truly hate to say this but it's possible he has a sort of madonna whore thing with partners (juno opposite lilith) he'll have to get over. it can be a madonna whore thing within himself also--like he can be in a relationship with someone or he can be a freak in the sheets, but not both at the same time. sex and intimacy can be separated.

overall jongho seems like the one who fears true intimacy the least (except for san, a freak in the sheets and streets) although he also genuinely isn't a super emotional person (MOON AND ASCENDANT AFFECT THIS SO IDK FOR SURE)--just kind of an anxious or tense one at times.

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don't judge me but

I'm making a Stein x Spirit fan fic haha <3 I don't know which artist did this or if I hallucinated the whole thing but somewhere out there is a piece of fanart of Stein giving Spirit a T shot. I've been giggling about this idea with a couple friends but I actually did it lol.

Got down a few paragraphs for a top surgery fic ehehehe. I don't know if anyone's intrested in this but I'd defiantly post it online when I'm finished ehuew :3c. Here's a lil preview. Lemme know if it's a juicy read or not.

TW: mentions of operations / surgery / clinical environments (pushing through my own medical trauma just to write this ദ്ദി ༎ຶ‿༎ຶ ) ) and dysphoria

Also not rly a tw but if you don't like playful bulling or grown men being pathetic, maybe don't read this haha.

It's all sfw and consensual dw (more consent in yoai/shipping fics please (ᴗ͈ˬᴗ͈) 🙏🏼)

Basically this is about Spirit asking Stein to give him top surgery and ends up being taken care of by him during is recovery. Very wholesome gay trans stuff ദ്ദി(ᵔᗜᵔ)

Stein was enjoying a quiet evening to himself in his lab, polishing and sorting through his surgical tools. He’d gotten the table already to go, making it comfortable for a special patent he was meeting up with. Though it was supposed to be more of an appointment than anything else, he couldn’t help being a little giddy about it. He even made an effort to make his dingy home a little more inviting with some décor he’d been gifted by Marie  (which he normally wouldn’t do but was expecting this special someone to spend a few nights with him and needed advice on how to be a decent host.) He heard a ring at the door and went over to answer, trying to play it cool so as to not scare his patient off. 

Spirit stood there hunched over, arms crossed, looking up at Stein who loomed over him,” this is humiliating… I can’t believe I’d have to trust you of all people-”

“Nice to see you too Spirit,” Stein cut him off in an icy tone. He sighed heavily, twisting the screw in his head then cleared his throat,” Well I guess if you don’t want my help, we’ll have to call off our little ordeal”

“Wait no Stein please! You can’t do this to me! I know I’ve been brushing off your experiments but I actually need this!” Spirit groveled on his knees, crying out.

Amused by this display, Stein burst into laughter,” Calm down, I was only joking around with you. ”He held out his hand to the other, pulling him up,” Didn’t expect you to agree to this either but here we are ~” He led him into the lab humming quietly.

“You’re cruel,” Spirit muttered under his breath, looking off to the side. Though once he noticed how much effort  his former partner put into changing the atmosphere for the moment, he eased up a bit...

THE REST IS WORK IN PROGRESS ᕙ( ˵ •̀ ᴗ - ˵ )ᕗ ✧

[ageless-aislynn]

The initial previews of the Dead Rising Deluxe Remaster are out and I just had to take some screencaps from Ruba's playthrough of the first 30 minutes!

Frank did get aged up a bit for some reason but at least my man is still thicker than a Snickers! Look at those brawny shoulders! 🥰

2006!Frank is one of the pre-order bonus looks if you want him aged more appropriately. I don't even care, though. I don't mind him looking a little seasoned, lol! *chef's kiss* (I can even get used to him not being voiced by TJ Rotolo but I still really wish they'd cast him again. His voice is so iconic as Frank to me, what can I say?)

Did we NEED a close up shot of Carlito's hairy chest as he walked towards the camera? Yes. Yes, we did. *nodnods* 😜

The remaster was kind to both of the Keyes siblings, lol! Carlito and Isabela are both looking pretty darn beautiful! 💖💖

And speaking of beautiful...

Jessie, my beloved, is looking gorgeous! 😍😍😍

Zombie hugs, lol! Seriously, though, the fact that your options when you're grabbed are now buttons instead of "every move is the same two buttons but it depends on which direction you move the stick, which order you do them in AND which direction the zombie is facing to decide which move you actually DO" is just... Oh man, if nothing else, I'd love to play this game just for this improvement! 😎😎😎

But you know what I'm here for, of course...

Leah, my sweet angel! Only one quick shot of her in this video but I'm really hoping to find somebody else who shows the full scene where we meet her because I'm BEYOND excited now that all of the NPCs are voiced instead of their dialogue just being text! In the 2006 version, the couple of things that Leah says aloud are the exact same thing that about 4 other female survivors all say (and they all share the same voice actor), so it's going to be fantastic for Leah to finally have her own voice! 😇😇😇

Mannn, I have to say, as much as I'm too scared to try the Denuvo Anti-tamper on Georgette (it might be fine or it might irrevocably wreck her and I couldn't get her back to how she's blessedly not crashing anymore), I'm so super sad at missing all of the pre-order and digital deluxe bonus stuff. 😭😭😭

I'm trying to be chill about it but, man, I hope they'll offer at least the 2006!Frank and Frank in Chuck Greene's outfit for purchase down the line. 🤞😖🤞The 17 other costumes say they'll be sold individually, but the 3 pre-order bonuses only say they "may" eventually be available for purchase. OHHHHH, I WANT THEM, FRIENDS. I WANT THEM SO MUCH, I CAN'T EVEN.

Anyway, just had to share my excitement at seeing some of the actual gameplay, cutscenes and the like!

*shakes fist at Denuvo* WHYYYYYYYYY MUST YOU SCARE ME AWAY? I had this in my cart to pre-order, you meanie, then I start seeing all of these horror stories about BSoD and system instabilities and now I can't trust that you won't wreck Georgette! 🤬🤬🤬

(I should mention that many, many people have reported that Denuvo works fine on their computers. But, if you've been reading my blog since last December, you'll know that, sadly, Georgette is not normal. She spent the first 5 months of her life in endless Blue Screens of Death, freezing, crashing up to 8 times an hours, etc. She has finally stabilized and is working correctly but if Denuvo DID cause a problem and I had to reset her, I don't know that I can replicate all of the things that caused her to stop crashing/freezing/etc. That's a BIG, MONSTER WORRY, friends. I don't want to go back to having a barely functioning, unfixable computer again. Ugh. 😭😭😭)

[if-only-angels-could-prevail]

hey! i recently moved to chicago and i'm interested in seeing some local theater. you've posted a bunch about the chicago theater scene, so i wanted to see if you had any recommendations for theaters/currently running shows/etc. thank you!!

ooh i get this question every once in a while, maybe one day my answer will be comprehensive

the two biggest titans of regional theatre in chicago are the goodman and steppenwolf, and your timing sending this ask couldn't be better:

tomorrow, the goodman has its first preview of midnight in the garden of good and evil, the new musical by taylor mac and jason robert brown. also the goodman has a lot of great discounts (including $10 student tickets the day of), check out their website

yesterday, steppenwolf opened little bear ridge road, which is a world premiere play by samuel d hunter, starring laurie metcalf. i saw it, i really loved it, i found it patient and moving. (i also admit that i bartend there, so, bias? but i did love it)

some of the other Big theaters in chicago include: chicago shakespeare theatre (i WILL be seated for the lord of the rings musical) and court theatre (i've seen two shows at court and adored them both).

and if you're willing to go to the burbs, there's the paramount in aurora, writers theatre in glencoe (they're doing natasha pierre soon!), and then drury lane and marriott (they both specialize in musicals--sadly, i don't get to those two often because i don't have a car and it's a hellish commute).

but those are just the big ones, and chicago is more famous for its storefront scene, which is just as exciting. for musicals, look into blank theatre (hi danny lol), theo ubique, porchlight, and kokandy. for plays, check out invictus (i'm seeing their three sisters tonight), factory, raven, a red orchid theatre, lifeline, theater wit (i saw their production of mr burns five times lol), and remy bumppo. just to name a few. there are many, many more.

i know this list is already long, but trust me when i say i'm just scratching the surface. it is literally impossible to see all the theatre that happens in chicago--but if you start going to shows and talking to people, you'll get a sense of the Must Sees! (also feel free to DM me with more specific questions in the future, and I will--privately--give you my unfiltered opinions.)

Finally, under the cut, I've shared a list of *some* of the specific shows i'm interested in seeing throughout the end of the year. they're organized by closing date.

6/20 - 7/21: The Hot Wing King, Writers Theatre

6/13 - 8/4: Little Bear Ridge Road, Steppenwolf

6/25 - 8/4: Midnight In The Garden, Goodman

7/12 - 8/11: The Mad Ones, Blank Theatre

7/21-8/25: The Normal Heart, Redtwist

7/17 - 9/1: The Lord of the Rings, Chicago Shakespeare Theatre

8/2 - 9/29: Alice By Heart, Kokandy

9/6 - 9/29: East Texas Hot Links, Court Theatre

10/4: Patti LuPone, Lyric Opera

10/1 - 10/6: Leonora, Chicago Opera Theatre

9/6 - 10/6: Henry V, Chicago Shakespeare Theatre

9/14 - 10/6: Rigoletto, Lyric Opera

9/26 - 10/10: Fidelio, Lyric Opera

9/14 - 10/13: Inherit the Wind, Goodman

9/19 - 10/13: Never Better, Theo Ubique

9/5 - 10/27: Great Comet, Writers Theatre

9/12 - 10/27: Noises Off, Steppenwolf

10/5 - 11/3: Primary Trust, Goodman

10/22 - 11/3: Some Like It Hot, Broadway In Chicago

10/17 - 11/17: Dear Elizabeth, Remy Bumppo 

11/9 - 11/30: The Marriage of Figaro, Lyric Opera

10/18 - 12/1: Seven Guitars, City Lit

11/16 - 12/1: Blue, Lyric Opera

11/8 - 12/8: Falsettos, Court Theatre

10/20 - 12/8: Pericles, Chicago Shakespeare Theatre

10/24 - 12/15: Leroy and Lucy, Steppenwolf

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Jane a little remodeled

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Hello guys, I don't know if you missed it lol (I probably wouldn't miss it myself 😅)

☆ I came to post some Jane's Headcanons here because I decided to draw her and I came up with some really good ideas. Creepypasta, even if I left for a while, always comes back and doesn't move forward lol! I hope that if you stay to read until the end, and like it, comment something to help me improve or correct mistakes! If you want to share yours or things like that, that would be perfect too ^^3 I'm not a big account, I just like to share kkakaka. ☆

JANE VAUGHN

☆ Well, in my Jane headcanons, she originally ended up being one of Jeff's victims, but she was always very "vigilante" and it turns out that after everything that happened she ended up hating Jeff (I promise to write more in depth about it sometime, it's still very shallow)

☆ Jane started working for the police as a kind of "help" for the local police, she searched for criminals that the police couldn't find or who hadn't left any traces. She was extremely good at what she did, she was totally cautious about everything she had planned, together with her wife Mary Vaughn she looked for them to be able to arrest them or in some cases kill them!

☆ Somehow one of the cases followed by the FBI reached Jane's ears, an "unpredictable" killer who had never been found, there were no clues and no victims who survived his attacks. Most died the same way, but a few specific ones died in grotesque ways, Jane did not fail to spurn her superiors who somehow managed to contact the FBI. After a long time of conversation Jane managed to get an entry into the case so she could enter as a "detective" she already knew who was committing the murders but just wanted to confirm.

☆ After a few months, Jane had already realized that Jeff was really the one they were looking for, and it was no surprise to her that they were making slow progress, so she tried to help them in a way that would not hinder her own investigation. She was not very socially active, she only spoke a lot when necessary, and was extremely formal with the others. She communicated more directly with her wife.

☆ Jane manages to have a lot of contact with those she trusts. I would say that apart from Mary, perhaps her closest relatives are her in-laws or her sister.

☆ Jane keeps in touch with Liu because they are both looking for Jeffrey, she will definitely need Liu and he will need her, they both have agreements, nothing personal, just work.

•Well, it was super short, but I hope you liked it. It was kind of a preview in case I write the full story of my headcanon! I really base it a lot on the version where she met Jeff as a teenager, but they were neighbors, not close friends. Jane was really affected. If I have the courage, I can post my hand-drawn version of her on Thursday! (I'll do it traditionally and then I'll transfer it to digital, with a lot of effort, lol)

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Babylon 5 S03E16 War Without End: Part One previous episode - table of contents

From the preview image that Tubi chose for the episode I see that Sinclair's back?? My old friend!! As well as our first glimpse at Minbar outside the Grey Council chambers, I believe! It's beautiful: very sculpted in a sort of sci-fi Rivendell way which fits the Minbari's space elf vibe. 

Entil'Zha is being presented with a sacred box, which has waited for over 900 years..in which there is a letter for Jeffrey David Sinclair! Dun dun dun. Prophecy is real, Babylon 5 is a high fantasy as much as it is sci-fi. 

Another prophecy, this one of the sci-fi variety: Babylon 5 gets a transmission of Ivanova calling for help, saying "they're killing us." 

This show gives me so many fanfic ideas and I haven't looked to see if anyone else has done them yet, because I'm avoiding spoilers. So I really don't go looking for info on B5 or interact with fandom works much. But this episode reminds me that I keep toying with the idea of an AU where Sinclair never leaves at the end of s01 and the whole plot plays out with him. I miss him, he got into my heart so fast and I had no inkling he was leaving the show till well after I was attached. 

It's nice to see Sinclair has had Minbari friends in his time running/recruiting/training the Rangers from Minbar. 

Partner just asked me what my predictions were for Sinclair and then when I went on a ramble just stared at me and told me to write it down. So here: my prediction of Sinclair's fate. In a separate post, because it's a bit too much of a tangent.

I've paused for long enough for only being six minutes into, so we're going to move on now, but if you wanna hear meta thoughts on what I think might happen with other characters end games, I could ramble about it.

Ivanova: this recording is fake. my analysis is based on logic: I didn't do it, ergo it is fake. Garibaldi, living for some sci-fi shenanigans: what if it's time travel.

They have Garibaldi positioned poorly before a dark path in the backdrop and it looks like he has one, huge pouf of hair sticking out one side of his head, lol.

Sinclair's back on Babylon 5! Zack Allen is in plainclothes, so perhaps all staff have the option? Or Zack wasn't invited to their special senior staff matching uniforms? 

Delenn being a drama queen. It's one of the qualities they hire for on the Grey Council. 

Lennier: "It must be done or the dream will die, and countless others will die."

o m in o u s

Eight days since the last Vorlon attack, per Marcus. 

Sinclair looks so good in Sci-Fi Rivendell clothes. Eeeek, I missed him, I love it. 

Oh it's Zak? Zap? Zathras? Yes! Zathras! Wow, I wasn't sre he'd be back, let alone that he'd be in shenanigans with DraalPlanet, OR that DraalPlanet would be doing something with time travel! 

And Sheridan! Is also wearing Minbari fashion! Some very snazzy robes over his uniform. 

Ivanova's message from the future is so grim. The captain is dead. "They" are coming in all over the place. External cams: Shadows. The Shadows have weapons lock. Explosions. Seems pretty straightforward and I bet it'll play out exactly like that with no twists. :P /hah

As Sheridan is doubtlessly about to find out, it's always going to be a normal evening when you are asked to swear you trust someone with your life before events can commence. 

Delenn has a powerpoint presentation about the Shadows. And a battle where the shadows were driven from their home, Zha'Dum. But the Minbari were losing at the time. Until Babylon 4 appeared! Delenn says without Babylon 4, they would have lost the war. 

Even while Babylon 4 was in construction, the Shadows attacked to destroy it. And the White Star was there! Delenn says they must go through the temporal rift that Draal is widening, protect B4, steal B4, and send B4 around in time. End Presentation! Everyone agrees with her flawless logic. And because she brought receipts in the form of video archival footage from DraalPlanet's surveillance system: Epsilon 3. 

That I didn't see coming, either. But like Garibaldi, I am so on board for the sci-fi hijinks. 

Oh, Delenn's plan goes farther! She and Sheridan will take B4 on the entire time travel trip and personally fight in the historical fight against the Shadows. Ten thousand years ago, right??? Damn, Sheridan and Delenn are going to stride through time and strike titanic, decisive blows in a war that felled entire species of sci-fi space gods!! That's so fucking epic. 

Ivanova is floating the idea that she was calling for help from an alternate timeline. But Garibaldi thinks it's the timeline they're planning now, where they take B4. 

I'm sure that SInclair's quippy references to Sheridan are super funny, but sadly I do not get the references. 

Zathras is here again. I...don't get Zathras. He's ehh funny. But extremely plot useful! Sinclair is meeting Zathras for the second time, but for Zathras it's the first time. But Zathras is well-informed, because he's very super honored to meet Sinclair and Sheridan, but also that's on the list of things Draal told him not to mention. 

Ahh, this Sinclair has already lived through the destruction of Babylon 5! He's already experiencing the world nonlinearly and is trying to do differently on this loop - damn! Or he's having visions from an alternate timeline but at some point you gotta agreee those are almost the sme thing, structurally, experientially, and thematically.

Time travel requires the use of devices that act as anchors. Zathras is handing them out and they're all being clipped visibly on a belt or sash, thus guaranteeing that someone will lose theirs. Sinclair? 

Aww, Sinclair sees Delenn and Sheridan holding hands and smiled. That makes me wistful for the Sinclair/Delenn endgame that exists in my personal, unwritten AU. 

Garibaldi is due an arc of making good, upstanding decisions and not doing police brutality so it hits extra hard when he blows up with Babylon 5. Or he makes it two more seasons, idk. I wouldn't mind if they lost a few characters and he was one of them.

Especially not if we could swap him for Talia back. I can't decide if I think she (or her personality that got overwritten) will be back or not. 

The White Star has been ugraded with Vorlon skin, so it deflects attacks better, which Sheridan affects to be unimpressed by.

Garibaldi guesses "Hello, old friend," as the password which Sinclair used to lock a goodbye/sorry video Sinclair left for him. Which makes me softer for Garibaldi. That's what I think of when I think of Sinclair, too! 

Oooo, Sheridan's time stabilizer got hit and now he's unstuck in time. Space is big. Hope he lands on something with an atmosphere. Delenn can pick him up later, I'm sure.

Sheridan always automatically turns to Delenn for backup, but Sinclair automatically turns to Ivanova, and I love that. 

Sheridan just time traveled to the future where Londo is the Emperor of Centaur! And it's "just in time to die."

Are they currently losing a war in the future? Perhaps Centaur is now a holdout in the war for existence against the Shadows in an alternate future and Sheridan will be meant to save the future as well as the past? 

So funny how taken aback Delenn is that Sinclair speaks Minbari now. He lived there! Marcus, who was being trained as a Ranger there learned Minbari as what he implied was a necessity. But Delenn is so surprised. Their heart to heart is so sweet. *shipping intensifies*

Back to the future! Sheridan and Londo seems like he's blaming other people for his own support of the Shadows' agenda coming back to bite Londo and Centaur in the ass. "Ohhh if only you'd joined me in collaborating I wouldn't have had to face any consequences!" He'll get everything he ever thought he wanted and learned that being Emperor lost him everything he'd ever cared loved.

That's a pretty good hook and a cliffhanger. And a ton of interesting information was revealed! It's too late for Part Two tonight but I pinky-promise I will watch it tomorrow. I wrote up some predictions after I did a Sinclair one and an other-characters one before I watched...

War Without End: Part Two

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Friendship moments between sprens and Radiants

*Wind and Truth spoilers*

Some of the friendship moments I'm enjoying the most from these previews are the radiant bonding scenes between Kaladin and Syl, and Shallan with Pattern and Testament, and also both of them with their little armor-sprens.

Leaving shipping stuff aside and focusing on the friendship bond, I loved seeing Kaladin and Syl flying together, smiling at each other, and Kal defending Syl and holding her hand. I also loved seeing Shallan holding Testament's hand in previous episodes, and in this episode Shallan missing her because she can't interact with her the same way she does with Pattern. Oh, and Pattern being funny and wonderful here, admitting that he's been watching Shallan and Adolin in the shower and he gives them his approval! XD (bonus points to Shallan for not minding being watched, lol).

On one hand I'm scared because I think Sanderson is doing this so that we'll grow more attached to the sprens and then fear for them if they have the chance to suffer or die (as we already know is possible, as happened in the 4th book), but on the other hand I want to see many more moments like this between radiants and sprens, and for the sprens to have a more individualistic role, making their own decisions and being more accepted by the society. I'm especially looking forward to seeing Maya again with Adolin, or Szeth with his spren whose name we don't know yet, and seeing Syl interacting more with Kal and other characters like Szeth, Nightblood, etc.

And speaking of friendship, I've also really enjoyed a lot reading Kaladin's scenes with Bridge 4 in previous chapters, and Shallan's with the Unseen Court in these recent chapters. I'm glad to see how Kal and Shallan have grown, and learned about their mental health, to see how Kal has matured and accepted that his soldiers and friends can take care of themselves, and how Shallan tries to help her team members and now trust them completely.

Oh my babies, they grow up so fast cries