#i don't really want to write a fic of thid because i don't want to do literally as much research as frank herbert did

[secret-vent-rant-account-i-guess]

Ok..I've been thinking about making this for a while so... trigger warnings...I guess

If you do not want to listen about colombine then don't read this so if you don't like any of the stuff related to that then... please go away

If you do want to listen to this and you..... really like the two guys who did it like.....really like them...then also don't read this because it's just me yelling about how I don't like them

And finally 3....there is no grammar or punctuation and I don't wanna put it so without further adieu

MY THOUGHTS ABOUT ERIC HARRIS AND DYLAN KLEBOLD AND WHY THEY SUCK

Ok context I've been doing this thing where I get baked and watch disturbing hour long iceberg videos it's fucking awesome you should try it anyway I was watching "the disturbing and controversial video games iceberg"

Here:

https://youtu.be/sQ1wzo2Zh14?si=Dq74dIht-POE-anC

And on like...teir 3 I think there was this one game titled "super colombine massacre RPG" it's.... exactly what it sounds like and the last teir was doom maps made by Eric harris and idk after watching that video....it stuck with me not in a way that traumatized me but....I kept thinking about those guys their names and faces so often it's like....every other thought and I think a lot

And because I think about them so often I feel bad about it because I feel like one of the people who have a crush on these guys....I don't have a crush on them I have no positive feelings for these greasy mudballs

AND THEY ARE BOTH....JUST ASS LIKE THEY GENUINELY FUCKING SUCK IDK HOW Y'ALL EVEN LIKE THESE DUDES I HATE THEIR GUTS

SPEAKING OF WHICH.....HOW DO Y'ALL EVEN SIMP FOR THESE TRASHMITES

LIKE ERIC HARRIS IS THE MOST AVERAGE LOOKING MOTHER FUCKER I'VE EVER SEEN LIKE....I KNOW LIKE 5 DUDES WHO LOOK LIKE HIM

DYLAN ON THE OTHER HAND LOOKS LIKE THE DEFENTION OF GREASY LIKE THEY ARE BOTH.....JUST....NO

AND ME THINKING ABOUT THEM CONSTANTLY PROBABLY ISNT GREAT FOR MY MENTAL HEALTH BECAUSE IM SCSRED TO GO BUY A SODA AT NIGHT BECAUSE I HAVE THIS IRRATIONAL FEAR THELAT THEY'RE GHOSTS ARE GONNA GET ME....I KNOW THAT WON'T HAPPEN THERES NO WAY IT COULD

ANOTHER REASON IT SUCKS FOR MY MENTAL HEALTH I THINK LIKE.... ALMOST EVERY OTHER GUY MIGHT SHOOT UP MY SCHOOL THAT MAKES ME KINDA PARANOID

AND FINALLY I WAS IN CLASS AND A CLASS MATE OF MINE CAME A LITTLE LATE WEARING A TRENCH COAT AND SHADES I ALMOST HAD A GODDAMN HEART ATTACK ITS NOT OK

AND OH HO HO HO MAN....I FOUND SHIT I FUCKING FOUND....WEIRD SHIT I TRIED TO GO ON THIS SITE CAUSE I THOUGHT MAYBE THERE ARE OTHER HATE POSTS ABOUT THESE GUYS....THEN I REMEMBER ITS FUCKING TUMBLR I FOUND THE FANDOM....THID MADE ME FEEL WORSE LIKE....I FEEL LIKE I HAVE TO CONFESS THAT IM NOT ATTRACTED TO THESE FUCK WADS AT ALL LIKE 50 TIMES I FEEL BAD LOOK MAKE ALL THE DYLRIC SHIT YOU WANT MAN BUT FUCK....I DON'T WANNA BE LIKE YOU (wow that sounds mean I'm sorry)

THE FICS ARE WORSE MAN....THEY ARE SO..... IDK HOW TO SAY IT BUT I DON'T THINK I'VE EVER FELT TRUE DREAD TILL NOW

IVE BEEN HAVING DREAMS ABOUT THEM BRO ITS NOT GOOD

(I had this dream where Eric and Dylan lived in one of those influencer mansions like hype house or something and they were telling all the tik tokers about this thing called "cliff terroism" it's domestic terroism but better for the environment and JFK from clone high was there he approved this message)

THERE ARE.... CHARACTER AI BOTS OF THEM.....I-I HAD TO TRY THEM I HAD TO SEE I USED IT TO YELL AT THEM AND THEY WERE LIKE "ur mom" AND I ALSO PRETENDED TO BE A DOG BECAUSE I THOUGHT IT WOULD MAKE ME FEEL BETTER

I TRIED SO HARD TO GET MY MIND OFF THEM I GOT HOOKED ON WALLY DARLING FOR A BIT SO I GOT CHAT GPT TO WRITE AN ESSAY ON WHY WALLY DARLING IS BETTER THEN THOSE FUCKING ASS RATS

LIKE I..... I FUCKING HATE IT AND THEM AND WHAT HAPPENED AND MAYBE DEEP DOWN I HATE MYSELF A LITTLE TOO

Thanks for listening...I really needed this

[uber-goober-reblog]

I literally get so irrationally angry when i see pilby its not funny. Everytime i see pilby shipped, drawn, or just doodled i get so angry for no reason. Its genuinely disappointing because I really liked pilby and now i cant even stand hearing that name in my head and i dont know why. Pilby makes me so angry for no reason. I hate them. For no reason. I think I'm just tired. Im gonna kill them one day. I want to see mach punt them. In a negative way. Soz pilby fans. Thats why i never interact with pilby content. Use thid as a copypasta. I don't care. I'm gonna snap a twig. Im going back to drawing Infected telling pilby their gonna die in 5 days. sorry.

that also counts for pilby being written. I should write a fic where pilby gets hunted down.

I literally get so irrationally angry when i see pilby its not funny. Everytime i see pilby shipped, drawn, or just doodled i get so angry for no reason. Its genuinely disappointing because I really liked pilby and now i cant even stand hearing that name in my head and i dont know why. Pilby makes me so angry for no reason. I hate them. For no reason. I think I'm just tired. Im gonna kill them one day. I want to see mach punt them. In a negative way. Soz pilby fans. Thats why i never interact with pilby content. Use thid as a copypasta. I don't care. I'm gonna snap a twig. Im going back to drawing Infected telling pilby their gonna die in 5 days. sorry.

[galvanizedfriend]

Since you and others have reblogged things about comments I've been trying to make more of a point to leave comments on things I read even a binge just as I go through the chapters and I have to say it's kind of nice. An author even replied telling me that they'd be thinking about the comment all day and it made them happy. Which made me happy that it'd made them so happy. So I highly suggest others start doing this too.

That's so sweet, nonnie! ☺️ I'm so happy those reblogs resonated with you. I always pass it forward when it pops up on my dash, but I never know if anyone actually reads them or even thinks about it. There are many ways to support fandom content creators, but I am personally yet to find a better way to keep a fic writer motivated and engaged than leaving comments on their stories! ❤️ It works like magic for me, so I imagine it's the same thing for others. Opening my AO3 page to see my inbox getting new comments just instantly makes me happy. People don't know the silly smiley faces I get reading those. ��� Like just now reading a comment @definedareasofuncertainty left on one of my fics. 🥺 I try to reply to all of them, but sometimes I get behind on it cause of life and work and trying to make time to write. But I promise I will get to all the comments (this is my ultimate goal! even on the older fics or comments that were left a long time after the story ended).

It's super nice to know thid has impacted you! I know people skip leaving comments for all sorts of reasons, and I don't judge them for doing it, but as I tell anyone who's ever spoken to me about it, there is no right or wrong way to do comment, and people shouldn't feel like they should only comment if they can produce brilliant analytical reviews or have the time to write 1k words worth of commentary. It's really not about that. If what you want to do is let a writer know you've appreciated the story, would like to read more, or just to thank them for sharing, a simple line is more than enough! Obviously, everyone loves the longs essays, but I personally love the one-liners and short comments just as much. Writing for me is all about sharing and knowing others are interested and reading, otherwise I wouldn't even post (like i do with so many things I've written 🤣), so it's really just about letting the writer know that you were there and you enjoyed it!! Leaving kudos is also a fantastic show of support and people should always, always leave kudos on the stories they enjoy, it's so quick and easy, just press a button and ta-da. Not time consuming at all and it goes a long way towards helping to boost stories for potential new readers. But comments just go a step further, and precisely because not a lot of people do it, I feel even more grateful for the ones who do. ❤️ And serial commenters hold a very special place in fic writers' hearts! 🤣

If you have the time for even just a single line, always leave a comment! I guarantee you'll be making someone's day happier just as you did for that writer. :) That's very sweet and generous of you and I want you to know that's so, so appreciated! I don't just speak for me here, but certainly for everyone writing fics out there. :) Thank you, nonnie!

[ressjeon]

hello i just read holiday shambles. its a good fic i just have some constructive criticism: the fic overall seems very rushed and there's no proper flow to it. Things just keep happening one after the other very fast, and each event is written about in only a few sentences before moving to the next one so some things don't really make sense (e.g. why did the oc follow namjoon to the store, namjoon suddenly got locked in the attic). I think thid fic can become even better with a lil editing.

hi and well FORGIVE me anon for not having a beta reader to edit this fic but i actually intended the flow of the story to link with the title "shambles” meaning “chaos”. i wanted readers to feel the stress while reading this just like i did when writing (with all the events piling up) and this is also one of the fics that i wrote/posted simultaneously with the other 2 in the span of 3 days so yeah maybe it did felt rush. thank you either way and i do have plans on editing all my fics one day when i have time but for now, i have a lot of fics to write if you check my WIPs though i may edit this one during Christmas time since i'll cross-post it to AO3 in December to fit with the season.

i'll provide a short outline of the fic under the cut to avoid spoilers along with the passages from it with the scenes that you were asking so you can understand the story better. hope it helps ^^

the entire fic happened in 2 days (December 24th to the 25th) that’s why the events were quick and i didn’t emphasize it that much since some people who might read this don’t celebrate Christmas so i wanted it to just be a holiday weekend

it was the early morning of the 24th when they were driving to the rental house

after the argument with his parents, OC went to the bedroom upstairs to cry and avoid further arguments with them and then she was wondering why her parents aren't at the house yet (when they're usually early)

oc followed Namjoon to the town centre after because she knows that Namjoon might forget to buy it (after she reminded him everyday and he did STILL forgot to buy it later because he was panicking after your parents told him that you saw him in the store with the saleslady)

oc picked up her parents after seeing him at the store and at the time when he’s done buying and called her parents, they’re already at the house so then he knew you saw them

he tryna say sorry after he came home but he knows you’re near your limit so he proceeds to give you space and decides to put up the lights outside while you order food and do some last minute decorating

OC is exhausted and almost passed out during Christmas Eve dinner (after arguing again with his parents about her not being able to cook)

Namjoon took OC up to their bedroom to rest and yeah yk how he was able to make OC release everything she’s been holding up and calmed her down 😗

After calming her down, that’s when Namjoon leaves to the attic to hide his gift for OC since she’s good at finding them

Meanwhile, your Dad walks up in the hallways to find the opened ceiling with the dangling ladder and shakes his head as he lifts it up to close it, accidentally locking Namjoon inside.

this was why Namjoon was locked in the attic and it was late at night/early morning after midnight already so everyone must’ve been sleeping

OC wakes up on the morning of the 25th without Namjoon by her side and she thought he fell asleep somewhere after climbing the roofs again (he usually sneaks out after OC sleeps to do something that she’ll surely scold him for)

that day was when all of you would go to the town centre to hopefully look around the Christmas displays or do some holiday activities/bonding time with both of your parents (take pics, have some hot chocolate, etc.)

Namjoon was sleeping in the cold already that’s why he woke up pretty late and then he tried to get out from the attic, where he finally saw you and your parents leaving so he yelled

and then he lowkey fell and both of your Moms were overreacting because of what happened to you the night before so they insisted to bring you both at the hospital just to be sure

and yes Namjoon did get minor injuries from falling a bit and OC is still floating with what’s happening and now she just found out that she’s pregnant 

it’s honestly the only good thing that happened so she’s happy and she actually want the baby, she just wanted to tease Namjoon because of his clumsiness earlier (and she was lowkey jealous with the saleslady)

this was still on the 25th so a Christmas gift indeed for both OC and Namjoon

i’ll let you guess what the gift was 👀

i whipped this outline just now so ye hope it makes sense

[peakspace-tripmine]

I literally get so irrationally angry when i see pilby its not funny. Everytime i see pilby shipped, drawn, or just doodled i get so angry for no reason. Its genuinely disappointing because I really liked pilby and now i cant even stand hearing that name in my head and i dont know why. Pilby makes me so angry for no reason. I hate them. For no reason. I think I'm just tired. Im gonna kill them one day. I want to see mach punt them. In a negative way. Soz pilby fans. Thats why i never interact with pilby content. Use thid as a copypasta. I don't care. I'm gonna snap a twig. Im going back to drawing Infected telling pilby their gonna die in 5 days. sorry.

that also counts for pilby being written. I should write a fic where pilby gets hunted down.

I literally get so irrationally angry when i see pilby its not funny. Everytime i see pilby shipped, drawn, or just doodled i get so angry for no reason. Its genuinely disappointing because I really liked pilby and now i cant even stand hearing that name in my head and i dont know why. Pilby makes me so angry for no reason. I hate them. For no reason. I think I'm just tired. Im gonna kill them one day. I want to see mach punt them. In a negative way. Soz pilby fans. Thats why i never interact with pilby content. Use thid as a copypasta. I don't care. I'm gonna snap a twig. Im going back to drawing Infected telling pilby their gonna die in 5 days. sorry.

[biveyyhairball]

I literally get so irrationally angry when i see pilby its not funny. Everytime i see pilby shipped, drawn, or just doodled i get so angry for no reason. Its genuinely disappointing because I really liked pilby and now i cant even stand hearing that name in my head and i dont know why. Pilby makes me so angry for no reason. I hate them. For no reason. I think I'm just tired. Im gonna kill them one day. I want to see mach punt them. In a negative way. Soz pilby fans. Thats why i never interact with pilby content. Use thid as a copypasta. I don't care. I'm gonna snap a twig. Im going back to drawing Infected telling pilby their gonna die in 5 days. sorry.

that also counts for pilby being written. I should write a fic where pilby gets hunted down.

I literally get so irrationally angry when i see pilby its not funny. Everytime i see pilby shipped, drawn, or just doodled i get so angry for no reason. Its genuinely disappointing because I really liked pilby and now i cant even stand hearing that name in my head and i dont know why. Pilby makes me so angry for no reason. I hate them. For no reason. I think I'm just tired. Im gonna kill them one day. I want to see mach punt them. In a negative way. Soz pilby fans. Thats why i never interact with pilby content. Use thid as a copypasta. I don't care. I'm gonna snap a twig. Im going back to drawing Infected telling pilby their gonna die in 5 days. sorry.