#i don't really want to tell him i passed my exam because I'm pretty sure the reaction will be mediocre anyways

[starpros-sunshine]

People will literally prefer not telling someone a problem they've been complaining about has been fixed like three weeks ago simply out of spite.

[slasherx]

Hello again 👋🏽, Congratulations on passing your exam 🎉!!!, and I don't mind you calling me Diablo

Gurl your write Thomas so well like I can't help but ask for more 😌

Can you do just general Sfw or NSFW (or both 👀) head cannon for my man Tommy, I just love that man to much 😍

Look at this man right here and tell me he isn't a full meal right there

Ah, hello again! Thank you Diablo! I did write some SFW headcanons for Thomas here, but so many people asked for a part two, so I suppose I'll indulge and give the people what they want <3

Content: Thomas Hewitt x gn!Reader

Warnings: This post contains NSFW, so 18+. Minors DNI

Notes: I'm thinking about doing this with Jason...hmm...

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❥SFW

Piggybacking off of this, I feel like Thomas is a huge family man

He would expect kids from you or some form of offspring, like a pet if you can't have or don't want children

Doesn't really care if you don't get along with Katherine (tea lady), or Henrietta. He's not particularly close with either of them, though he was close with Henrietta as kids since they're close in age

I feel like everybody but Thomas knows he's adopted, just nobody says anything. And when they let you in on that secret, don't you dare tell him either

He's definitely the big spoon while cuddling

He also takes his shirt off for bed and just wears old basketball shorts. The heat gets to him during the day and he can't wait to strip for bedtime

Definitely listens to metal music when it becomes a thing, he's a huge metal head. It allows him to vent all of his frustrations in one sitting

I feel like he would take more care of himself once you two get into a relationship. More showers, more brushing of his teeth, etc.

He wants to be squeaky clean for you

Below is for if you can have/want kids

Once you two have children, Henrietta is going to be super jealous. Not because she wants your man (ew, thats her cousin), but because SHE wants kids

She'd offer to help watch them if you and Thomas ever need some time alone, but you often entrust your children to Luda Mae

Tommy is SUPER excited to be a dad. He thought for a long time that he would never become a father, and that saddened him. He needed to continue the Hewitt bloodline, since Hoyt and Monty pretty much had no interest doing so

He would also be afraid that they would come out looking like him

He'd sew them all kinds of clothing, especially as they grow older

Let's say you have one boy and one girl - he would sew shirts and pants for the boy and dresses for the girl

But once they grow older and develop themselves a little more, he can sew clothes to their liking, no matter what Hoyt or Monty say

I don't see him using physical discipline like his family did growing up. He would probably consider it since it's all he knows, but once you start buying parenting books and he reads through a few of them, he realizes there's more ways to parent

When the actual babies are born/adopted, he has no idea what to do, and admittedly neither do you. All those parenting books did not prepare you in the slightest

But he knows one thing is for sure, he loves you and he loves the babies you created/adopted together, so he's going to try his hardest to be the best husband and father out there

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❥NSFW

Definitely a dom at first, but the more comfortable he gets with sex the more he'll become a switch

LOOOOVES when you suck him off

Will fuck your throat all day if he had the chance, just be careful of your teeth if he ever takes over. He likes to move a lot

He loves having his hand in your hair, it makes him feel in control, and when he's not in control? Your hand in his hair. He will grab your hand and move it to his hair for you to grab

The sexiest thing he can do (if you like his hands) is when he grips surfaces hard, and you can see his veins pop out. Oh how you wish they were around your throat, or on your chest, or anywhere else you like them on you

Doesn't like giving oral as much as he likes receiving. But make no mistake, that doesn't mean he's a selfish lover. No, it's the opposite

Thomas always makes sure you cum at least once before he cums, or at least cum with him. He doesn't like it if you edge yourself but make him cum, or just make him cum first in general

Which was why he didn't understand in the beginning, how you were lasting so much longer than him. But soon he built stamina and could match you

I feel like Tommy would have a pregnancy kink, and a breeding kink. He loves stuffing you full of his cum at any chance he gets, even going so far as to go multiple rounds in a night

There was even a time where he went on and on before you finally cried and begged for him to stop, your hole was so raw

His favorite positions are one where he can see your face, but he's not opposed to fucking you hard in doggy

Speaking of hard, he's going to be gentle with you in the beginning of your sex life. But once he gets more accustomed to it, he'll go harder for you, if you wish

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[scrubbinn]

Slime HRT Day 1: First Pages

I was told I should write down my experiences in this journal. I'm only really doing this because I was told I didn't have to share my writings with anyone except for emergencies, whatever that means. Today is the first day of my new life, and becoming something not human anymore.

I've seen a lot of social media about species HRT. I think it’s supposed to be “Human Removal Therapy”. There’s a lot of people online bashing it, and I'm sure someone is going to try and ban it eventually, but for right now it's pretty unrestricted. To be honest, I am fascinated by it. Becoming something inhuman seemed so, I don't know, cool I guess, but it felt distant, like it would never happen to me, or I'd be labeled a freak by my friends. It was only until my girlfriend brought it up in a passing conversation that I gained the courage to admit I was curious about it. She said I should go for it. The amount of joy I felt then and there was like a 20 ton weight had just exploded out of my chest, but in a good way! We spent the rest of the night talking about treatments and articles, I never felt so happy except then and there, to be seen like that.

My legs were shaking when I met with that doctor. I was told it was normal to be nervous, but it really felt like I was going to just have a breakdown the entire time we talked. There was a lot of psychological exams and way, WAY too much paperwork that basically said I was sure I would be happy and cool with going through with this process. The doctor was patient at least, though he was rude with how little he tried to hide the boredom of his job. Besides that, there was something about him that just made him feel like this was the last thing he wanted to do, the kind of man who’s a total pushover. We eventually got to the question I was dreading “what was I here for, what am I looking to be?” My voice just suddenly stop working right there. It's so funny how I saw an actual dragon on my way here and somehow my request seemed so much more ridiculous. That stupid doctor kept prying me to just tell him until my frustration surpassed my anxiety, and I was able to blurt out that I wanted to be a slime.

I don't know when or why, but I've always liked the idea of slimes. It's their fluidity I think. Being able to morph myself the way I want whenever I want. I mean, how can I trust I'll be happy with my body shape everyday when I can't even pick a favorite color. I spent so much time writing out my own ideas of how their biology worked, or creating a bunch of slime girls for stories I never finished writing. It took me a while to realize I wanted to be just like them, like how it took me a while to realize I wanted to be a girl too.

I thought I'd get laughed out of his office, I mean I've seen the photos and stories of people on slime HRT but it just felt different, like I was going one step too far, I was probably just super anxious, I felt so relieved when he just showed me a list of slime variants instead of laughing. There were so many different options on the list, slimes made of just gel, sap, wax, and there were so many different colors, but that was the problem, they all felt right, I wanted to be any of them.

It was so selfish to ask, but I needed to know if a slime that could change color was possible, or something that could truly transform into any kind of slime. He asked what I meant, if I was looking into becoming a shapeshifter. I shook my head no and said I wanted something like a chameleon. He took off his glasses and pinched his nose, like the weight of every request he ever had just hit him. We, kind of, argued for a while. Well it was him telling me all the different reasons it wouldn’t work or how some people had set up safe LED strips to become a slime strobe globe of different colors, but for some reason it was the one thing I didn’t want to budge on. The one thing I was certain I wanted was that I wouldn’t be certain about my final choice. I was actually ready to just punch this old man until he suddenly folded to my demands and told me he'd need time to make a new variant for something like that. Something about a membrane and chromatophores I think. He also stated, bluntly, that I still needed to pick the type of slime. Being able to switch from red to blue is one thing but there needs to be a base. 

There were a lot of good options, to the point it took me an hour to go through everything and just think about it. I was probably pushing him a bit too close to his next appointment with how long I was searching through options. It certainly makes me wonder how anyone can just know the answer right away. Eventually I had to settle on one and chose the soap variant. I was told it wasn’t actual soap, but it smelled nice and helped deal with germs. I’m not a germaphobe but I like the idea of smelling nice all the time.

After that, I was told I would be contacted eventually when my medication was ready. The wait could be best be described as brutal. There were a lot of calls I made only for me to be told it wasn’t ready yet. I thought I got scammed, like I went to the wrong place and that quack doctor was just faking everything and I wouldn't ever get to be the real me. The most I got was a message once a month saying the research was going well, if I was lucky. 

It was about a year when I got a call back from him, explaining that my medication was ready. I'll be honest, I thought he wouldn't have ever completed it and just stole $600 out of my bank account for a single appointment. I have it now though, a bottle of gel capsules. They taste awful, like shoving soap into my mouth, which makes sense thinking about it. Apparently I won't need to take my normal hormone medication after a bit. Which is good because it's really expensive to pay for both. I guess that concludes my thoughts on the first day. The doc wants me to keep writing down my physical changes but also that I write down my emotional state as well. I don't really get why that’s so important, but whatever, it’s the least I can do if I finally get to be the slime girl I always wanted to be. I can't wait to see how I turn out.

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Thank you for reading through this story. While I’m sure it’s obvious, this is a story inspired by @ayviedoesthings own Dragon HRT as well as @welldrawnfish Fish HRT. I’ve loved these stories ever since they first came out. But I never felt like I had a story of my own to write until I read @sandyca5tle own slime HRT. Please check out all these people’s stories if you haven’t already, and thank you to sandyca5tle for really lighting the fire in me that made me want to try my hand at this sort of thing. I have plans to continue this for a while, not sure how long it’ll be but I want to be able to write a new segment at least one post every one to two weeks. I hope you enjoyed this, and please let me know if you have any advice on how to improve my writing. Thank you so much for reading all this, seriously, it means the world to me. 

[am-i-the-asshole-official]

Am I the asshole for how my previous 'situationship' ended? (I genuinely do not know what to call this situation so that's gonna have to do).

Okay so I (20F) met a guy that we will call Chris (21M) on tinder in Oct 2022. We were at the same uni, and we had good rapport over text, so we decided to meet up. He was pretty awkward but once we actually got talking he was a good chat. Nothing romantic or sexual was discussed/acted upon.

We hung out a few times after that. I kissed him once after a night out, which he didn't reciprocate or ever mention again. Given the complete lack of romance/sexuality coming from him, and the fact that he is a very socially awkward person, I took the hint that he wasn't interested and didn't know how to tell me. I felt that i made the fact I was interested clear and he hadn't taken me up on it, so I just dropped the subject. We continued talking as friends, and I genuinely thought that's all it was.

Come Feb 2023, I went on a night out with a different group of friends, during which a friend of mine, we'll call Tom, kissed me. I nearly had a one night stand with Tom, but I ended up not sleeping with him and just going home because I was too drunk. Being drunk and cringe, I made a pretty crude post to my tumblr before I passed out which was something like "someone is actually attracted to me? Nail me to a wall!" (Long deleted because drunk me is an embarrassment lol).

I woke up to texts from Chris, who had seen my tumblr post and was upset. I was pretty confused because 1. He doesn't even use tumblr, 2. I don't remember ever giving him my account name but it must have been in a screenshot at some point, and 3. I was not under the impression that we were dating... I let all that slide like an idiot because I was really hungover. Chris and I then had a chill discussion about what we were, and agreed to be friends. Cool! I thought that was the end of the drama. We chatted and hung out afterwards with 0 difference to how it had been before.

Cut to May, and I sent him good luck wishes before an exam. He says thanks and I just didn't think about it again, normal exchange.

Over three weeks after I'd wished him good luck, I woke up to a wall of text he'd sent me at 3am where he went into detail about how i had strung him along and wasted his time; that he thought I was manipulative and playing "mind games" with him for that good luck text, which he took as me trying to psyche him out before the exam and make him fail the module; that he didn't want to 'just be friends anymore' because the knowlege that i strung him along hurt too much; that I "ignored him as he walked past" (I still have no idea where or when this happened, I straight up did not see him wherever it was). He also went into detail about physical and mental health issues he'd been going through (that I wasn't aware of before the wall of text) saying that I'd been a great help with them during first term, then "ruined his second term". He went off that my lack of communication skills is a detriment to everyone around me.

I was completely blindsided by all of that, and honestly really hurt that he'd accuse me of trying to make him fail his exams, but I'm not sure that he's not got a point? Looking back, yeah maybe I should have straight up asked him if he was interested back in Nov. But idk I'd say kissing someone is a pretty fucking clear communication that i was interested, and he made 0 reaction to it, what was i supposed to think? I'm not in the habit of pushing people when they do nothing in the way of reciprocation. But, one of the issues he disclosed to me was that he had gotten an autism diagnosis in April and I can see how not being 100% clear and verbal in my communication may have been the root of the issues here, given that he was undiagnosed autistic for most of the time I knew him.

Anyway, was my lack of communication an asshole move?

What are these acronyms?

[diefxrguns]

𝐓𝐄𝐀𝐂𝐇𝐄𝐑'𝐒 𝐏𝐄𝐓

✯pairings- erwin smith x afab!reader

✯a/n- might be some mistakes, apologies. Do not share on tiktok without my permission. not glamourising pedophilia, Y/N is 18

✯synopsis- your teacher develops strong feelings for a specific girl in his classroom

✯ c/w- smut, teacher x student relationship. choking, spanking, and more- not comfortable? dont read.

"teacher's pet, if I'm so "special. Why am I a secret?" ✧

Your eyes couldn't concentrate on the board infront of you, never in your life have you felt this way for somebody.

Despite all the love letters from boys in your class and offers to go out on dates, boys your age-just didn't do it for you. Ya know.

There was always something about older fellows, but not to old. Maybe 25-35 since you were 18. It was appropriate after all- well for some people atleast.

Your mother would die if she saw the things that kept you up at night, on your laptop a stash of porn videos. All in the same category of porn. You had a thing for manthers, not the creepy pedophilic one's. The men who are like 30 with 20 year old girlfriends. Sounds normal right.

So when your new teacher entered the classroom, you almost fell out of your seat. His arms, his hair, everything about this man was just so fucking sexy.

He wore a blue button up shirt, that was long sleeved, but the sleeves were rolled up a bit- revealing his toned forearms. His pants were black and his blonde hair was combed back.

He had to be in his early 30's, but my God did he look so delicious.

He's an English, History and Biology teacher so he would be teaching you English and History, since those are the classes you had.

He started off by introducing himself, and went straight to work. Instructing the class to open their books on page 116. He got down to business, you could tell he was one- track minded.

His voice was so deep and demanding, but somewhat calm and smooth. He explained the work diligently. Making sure everyone understood the English lesson- before dismissing the class and closing the whiteboard marker.

As the days passed you did nothing but gawk at him, in classes you barley even payed attention. And oh- he knew you weren't listening. How your pretty eyes just stared into space, he knew exactly what you were looking at. He's way smarter then he looks.

There was one particular day, after class. You were looking at him the whole time, and he knew- but it bugged him because exams were coming up and you never took notes once. He knew your grades were sky high, and he didn't want you to fail your examinations. So he called you after class.

" Miss Y/N, please stay behind and take a seat" he said, as you were on your way out the classroom.

" Yes" you said in timid voice because of how shy and slightly intimidated you were

The older man sat on a chair opposite you, his back hunched and his elbows on his knees, he removed his glasses and looked you directly in the eye

" You're not paying attention, you think I don't know, you think I don't see how much you're looking into space during my lessons"

" Mr Smith, I'm really sorry " you said with fake sympathy, in all honesty you didn't give a fuck about his lessons. He's eye candy- who wouldn't look at him.

"Your results went from 93 to 50, your practice test results where lower then I expected. A five star student, became mediocre over night. I advise you tell me what's on your mind Y/N" he said straightening his posture and leaning back, never breaking eye contact with you

" Mr Smith, I've just been distracted lately, ya know, Like something is really troubling me". What you just said was true, something was bugging you. Everytime this fine ass man opens his mouth, breathes or even looks your way you cream your pants, leaving a stain on your lacey panties. That's the real problem.

" Ah, I see. Well, as your teacher I suppose you need to trust me with whatever it is you're going through. You need to get it out of your system so we can work through this" he said

" Well, I...um, i- I got dumped by my ex boyfriend and.. well he, he really hurt me. Its bothered me alot" you lied through your teeth, you never had a boyfriend. You just said that so that Erwin could feel sorry for you.

Immediately Erwin stood up and knelt down to your level, holding your hand gently. In this moment your heart was racing, you didn't know how to react.

What the fuck was actually going on here? Your teacher( crush) was kneeling down holding your hand, this was to much to handle.

" Y/N, I need you to not focus on other boys ok- they're a waste of time, I need you to think about bigger things. Like college and a husband maybe? You need a man that's going to take care of you, love you..."

Your chest was rising up and down as you took intense breathes, he was so close to you. His warmth was radiating off his big body onto your smaller one.

" After school I'll take you to my place, so that I can prepare you for upcoming examinations... Sound ok?" He asked as he stood up fixing his tie and getting his things

" ye-yes, it sounds awesome" you said standing up in a hurry and giving your teacher a big smile.

Everyday afterschool Erwin took you to his home.

He lived in a very spacious house, it was small but modern and fancy. A two story home with two bedrooms and two bathrooms.

He had two cats aswell, a grey one and a white one. Grey one named Oscar and the white one named Bunny.

His home smelled like vanilla and sandalwood, it was clean with grey and white accents. He obviously lived alone, but damn how can such a handsome and astound man be single.

He sat you at the dining room table with your books and tutored you, and helped you make notes for your exams.

He spent three hours after school tutoring you.

You were beyond grateful for this opportunity, because it made you and Erwin closer.

Even though you never really spoke about personal things, subconsciously your souls were somewhat aligned. Almost like you had a connection that you couldn't explain or describe, you just felt comfortable around each other.

A little to comfortable

After examinations, you stopped going to Erwin's home. There was no need afterall, I mean he stopped tutoring you because exams were over.

In all honesty you missed it, you missed him. So one afternoon you went to his house to give him some treats, just to say thank you.

You knocked on his door, patiently waiting for him to open it

And in that very moment your heart shattered, the pain you felt when the door opened, only to be greeted by an older women, her late 20's to be precise. Her ginger/ strawberry blonde hair was wavy and shiny. And her body was curvaceous and slim

Her nails painted red, she wore a tight black dress and heels, with pearls around her neck- and the cherry on top of the cake, was the 24K diamond ring she wore on her ring finger, indicating she is married.

Your face went red, not with anger. But with sadness, you felt like a fucking idiot. Falling for you teacher.

" Oh hello dear, you must be Erwin's student, please come inside. He must be thrilled to see you" she said, in a nice tone of voice as she let you inside

" Erwin! Honey, your student is here to see you" she yelled for her " husband" as she told you to sit and offered you a cup of tea

" Oh my, Y/N. This is rather unexpected. Why have you come?" Erwin asked as he dried his hair, obviously he just came out the shower.

You tried to swallow the lump in your throat, your eyes were visibly watery indicating you were about to burst into tears.

But you had to suck it up, and pretend like nothing was wrong

" I..I um- I brought you some gifts, just to say thank you for helping me with studying" you said handing him the gift bag

A smile appeared on Erwin's face as he opened the bag filled with chocolates, and sweets . But at the bottom of the gift bag was a letter, expressing your feelings to Erwin- and how you really felt about him.

He opened the letter silently, and reading it rather quickly before clenching his jaw, his smile faded into a puzzling expression. And he looked at you for a mere second before sitting on the barstool next to you.

His wife still making tea for the both of you including herself.

" So Y/N isn't it? How is school treating you?" She asked sitting across from you and Erwin.

" Well... Its, it's, it's great actually. Thanks to Mr Smith, your husband." You said, in a fake- nice tone of voice.

She didn't catch on to your obvious sarcasm but Erwin knew exactly how you felt about her, as said before he's smarter then he looks.

" Oh well, Erwin here isn't my husband, not yet. He's actually my fiance, we're getting married...soon I suppose" she said giving you a smile and sipping on her tea.

" That's wonderful news" you said sipping the tea.

Erwin sat in silence, drinking his tea and staring elsewhere, not daring to make eye contact with you or his fiance.

" Oh my, I haven't even introduced myself. I'm Mari Dawk" she said flashing you another smile.

" You see Smith and I met in our military days, he just caught my eye, he was one with the ladies too. She said waffling on about how her and Erwin met and how they got together. But in all honesty you weren't listening, frankly you didn't care, you were to hurt to listen to these stories.

She talked to much, but she was extremely friendly. You could see why Erwin was engaged to her, Mari would make a wonderful mother.

A few minutes passed and it was time for you to leave. You couldn't spend more time in this house, with Erwin and this woman.

So you said your goodbyes and offered to clean up.

"Can I help with anything, washing my mug?" You asked Mari

" No that won't be necessary Y/N, go home and get some rest it's late " said Erwin in a monotone voice.

You shut the door behind you and made your way home...

A few days passed and your behaviour changed drastically, you barely ate and you no longer enjoyed your usual habits.

You were on a break so you never saw Erwin.

When school was back on, you payed attention in class and actually wrote notes. He noticed your change in attitude towards him.

You no longer smiled at him when you entered to classroom, you no longer greeted him or said goodbye.

It was like you changed...

When the history lesson was over, you were the last student to pack your bag. Getting ready to leave, when Erwin closed the classroom door, locking it

" Why did you lock the door? I need to go home it's afterschool" you said in a cold tone of voice, not looking at him once, packing your textbooks into your backpack.

" Y/N, please stop this little act you're doing. You think I don't what you're up to? " Erwin said standing with his hands in his pockets, a few steps away from you.

" I don't care, if you don't mind I'd like to leave Mr Smith. I don't have time for this. If it isn't about schoolwork I'm not interested" you said

" The letter you wrote to me, well... It made me emotional Y/N" he said stepping closer and closer to you, only inches away

At this point you felt so broken and drained, it wasn't exactly his fault. How was he supposed to know you liked him and besides it's his life, he can't just dump his fiance for you.

" Mr Smith, I appreciate everything you've done. I'm sorry for that letter, I wasn't in the right head space. I just had a small crush, it was nothing serious. Please go back home to your wife and forget everything. " You said tears threatening to spill from your eyes as those words were so hard to say.

You couldn't lie anymore, you loved Erwin Smith. His smile, the way he comforted you and motivated you. His kindness, his leadership, his empathy. Everything about him lured you in. You still had feelings for him, you tried ignoring them and ignoring him. But truthfully you were hooked like a worm on a fishing rod.

As you were about to walk past him, he grabbed your arm. Forcing you back to him, his arm was strong. At this point you couldn't break free from his hold, even if you tried.

He held your waist, and placed a hand on your back rubbing it gently.

Things were getting out of hand, luckily there were no surveillance in his classroom.

" Y/N, I know I hurt you. I'm sorry, I'm sorry for leading you on. Truthfully I knew you liked me, I knew from day one. And I liked you too. Not in a daughter way, I like you romantically, I don't have feelings for Mari anymore. She cheated on me with one of my friends, and she came back. The only reason I let her back into my life was because my morals were telling me, that loving you is wrong. " The blonde man said with pain in his voice, he was being serious, he was genuine.

A passionate kiss was placed upon your pink lips as Erwin held you tightly in his arms.

Your hands made their way to his neck, rubbing the back of his neck slowly. Enjoying the kiss.

Erwin began to move his hands from your waist to your ass, lifting up your skirt as he squeezed your cheeks.

He broke away from the kiss

" Do I have your consent Y/N?" He asked as he looked you dead in the eye waiting for you to respond

" Yes, yes you have my consent" you said.

He kissed you even more, before bending you over his desk. Only to pull your panties down

" hmm, won't you look at that hey. All wet for me already, I haven't even touched this pussy yet"

He began rubbing your folds gently, making you whimper from every touch.

Erwin flipped you over, you sat on his large desk with you legs spread for him to see.

He unbuttoned your school shirt and threw it elsewhere.

And unclipped your bra, letting your pretty breasts drop.

He couldn't believe it, the sight of your pretty body, made him so fucking hard.

He gave you a kiss before flipping you back over again and kneeling down to your pussy. His tongue flicked across your already- wet folds, earning moans from you everytime.

He eventually inserted his cock into your pussy, fucking you slowly at first. Gradually he fucked you even faster, causing you to moan loudly.

Echo's could be heard throughout the empty classroom, as well as moans and pants.

The both of you came a few times, before deciding it'll be best to leave the school, before you both got caught doing your lewd activities.

And after cleaning up the classroom and getting dressed, Erwin grabbed you and kissed you once again

The words " I love you" falling from his lips

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[tearsofcalamity]

wriofucker's fine by me lol unless u have another nickname that'd be both as accurate & funny!

i wasn't too clear earlier; i think our mandatory education goes up to 9th grade, and then it's like a minimum of 4(ish) years for a uni degree. so it's not all that different lol

nahh im telling you i had one macroeconomics class once and it fried my fuckin brain. only reason i could stand it was because the professor was too right-brained for his own good (he'd start his lectures with a song he liked. i wrote a bunch of barely-relevant shit abt environmental pollution on the exam—he was super passionate abt it—and he just let me pass<3 loved that guy). ik i said it before but good luck on ur studies!! im sure you'll absolutely kill it out there. and, thank sm! i actually finished the short story assignment last night but im too scared to submit it jdhdj

im so glad you've got more kaveh brewing omg he's so<33 bit of a shame you're not into kavetham (they make me bite & scream) but that's just fine; more kaveh/reader for the world! except the world is me and nobody else<3 can u imagine teasing kaveh in public, maybe he's even all nice & plugged up, and you're warning him not to let a single person figure out what's going on bc he's for your eyes only<3 but it's so difficult and you're relentless and it feels so, so good... he doesn't even care about people finding out anymore, but he wants to be a good boy for you... phew. lord have mercy

HAHA WRIOFUCKER IT IS THEN!! happy to have a named anon :D

ohhhh I see I see! okay yeah so it's pretty similar just a few differences! I think the only reason I'm surviving my business/econ work is cause I've got a math-wired brain lmfao. I've got autism ("high functioning" but I don't really like that term for it, I think the more acceptable one is "low support needs") and I got the "math autism" as my friends put it so that's probably a bigger part of it. I like making spreadsheets and working out equations HAHA, also thank you for the well wishes I actually just found out I passed calc 2 with an 82% so I'm very happy about that!! I'm glad to hear you got your short story done as well, sounds like you're moving through it all good <3!!

HONESTLY I don't hate the ships (like either kavetham or haikaveh I think they're different? like some shippers put the top's name first or something?? I'm not 100% sure) like I TOTALLY see the chemistry don't get me wrong, I think it's mainly just that I get so sad seeing like nearly 0 kaveh content without alhaitham included. I love both of them but kaveh's got such a unique and deep story too, yet people often just kinda treat him like an accessory to alhaitham likely cause he's 4 star and haitham is 5 star so it turns me off of the ships a bit </3 still though that's so true MORE KAVEH/READER!!!!

oh don't even get me started on teasing kaveh in public there's so many ways you could do it and each one would make him squirm more than the last... shove a nice little vibrator deep inside of him, remote controlled of course, and enjoy watching his knees practically buckle every time you up the intensity. ooh, maybe he's giving a one-time academic seminar for some kshahrewar students and you just stand in the corner, grinning at him all the while while he shakes and tries his best to keep his voice level, praying his face isn't as red as it feels...

or play around with him in the tavern, sit right next to him and brush your hand along his inner thigh while he squirms, not sure whether he wants to move closer or further way from you... this one's easier to hide since his flushed cheeks could easily be attributed to a bit too much to drink, but once he's grabbing at your wrist to push your hand into his bulge at last, he knows by your stare that he's messed up. I mean, he hadn't kept his promise to be good, had he? guess you'll just have to rail him over his workbench back at home when he least expects it! (totally ignore his needs/pretend he's not acting super horny when you get back at first, though, he'll be so good for you when you finally do bend him over)

[chuurroez]

the letters

↳ ... pairing: bestfriend!kim gyuvin x bestfriend!gn!reader

↳ ... genre: fluff w a tiny bit of angst? (happens in university au!)

↳ ... warnings: none ! :D

↳ ... sypnosis: ever since you met gyuvin a few years ago, you couldn't help but fall in love with him more and more as each day passes, but what happens when love letters from a secret admirer shows up in your locker?

↳ ... notes: hi!!! this is my first time making this so there might be a few mistakes? this fic includes new jeans' hanni & minji and other zb1 members like gunwook and ricky! english isn't my first language. thanks for reading this in advance!!!!

↳ ... word count: 1.4k

-you, hanni, and minji's conversation-

"why does he have to be like that!!!" you say, "who y/n??? why do you keep your crush a secret from us??" hanni replies with minji agreeing after her. "it's because you guys might make fun of me if i tell you who it is!!" you say, "we won't y/n, we SWEAR!" minji responded, "yeah! we're your friends along with gyuvin! you can tell the three of us you know?" hanni adding to what minji said with you quickly blushing hearing his name. "ahh..I know now" hanni and minji both say at the same time. "shh!! don't be so loud! he's here too you know?" you say trying to cover your very much red face with a book. "i am officially ignoring him from now on!! i can't even talk properly with him without looking so flustered and weird!" "hey hey y/n, it's okay, we'll help you, but you know...you guys are a pretty good pair if i do say so myself hehe" hanni quickly says with you hitting her lightly, "ow!" hanni states to your action. "okay okay, let's settle down now, class is about to start!" minji tells the both of you and listen to her as the teacher comes inside the room.

-gyuvin, gunwook, and ricky's conversation-

"hey um, do you guys mind helping me with something?" gyuvin asks gunwook and ricky, "what is it this time? this better not be the both of us letting you copy our homework'' ricky scoffs. "it's not like that this time, i swear!" gyuvin pleaded, "that's what you said last time but we'll help you out just because we're good friends." gunwook states and rolls his eyes after with gyuvin thanking the both of them. "okay now what do you need help with?" gunwook asks, "i need you guys to help me deliver these letters to y/n's locker." gyuvin replies with ricky spitting out the water in his mouth because of utter shock, "us? deliver these letters to y/n's locker?!" ricky says with shock, "i can't say i'm surprised actually, you don't notice how gyuvin slowly starts getting red whenever he talks with them?" gunwook states, "not really, i'm shocked..and i thought i knew everything about him" ricky answers the question, "okay but are you guys gonna help me out now?" gyuvin asks, sounding annoyed. "of course, we'll try our best, do you know their schedule? one of can sneak out to go to the bathroom and put it in their locker." gunwook asks gyuvin to which gyuvin nods and sends them both your schedule for the day.

-a day later-

''hey minji, hanni! come here, i have something to show you guys!'' you tell hanni & minji with them quickly coming to your side, you show them the love letters that was left inside your locker by your secret admirer. "do you guys see this?? i wonder who gave this to me.." you tell them, the both of them in utter shock. ''hey, what if this is from gyuvin" hanni says with you almost immediately blushing at the thought of him liking you back. "stop, i don't want to overthink, exams are so close! what if i get distracted!'' you state worrying, ''hey, dont worry much! what if we investigate? become detectives!'' minji asks with hanni agreeing with her, "i'm not sure..i do wanna know where these letters come from but if it's not from him, then i don't wanna know because what if i hurt their feelings!" you tell them. ''that won't happen!! we promise you, right minji?'' hanni states, "yeah! we'll make sure that investigation: find y/n's secret admirer won't become chaotic!" minji says enthusiastically. "fine, but promise me you guys won't mess up?" you ask the both of them, "we promise you we won't!'' hanni assures you and with that you guys walk to the cafeteria to eat lunch but little did you know that there were 3 people listening to your conversation with your friends, ricky, gunwook, and most importantly, gyuvin, "oh my god, y/n likes me back! oh my god, i'mnot dreaming, right?" gyuvin happily asks with ricky and gunwook assuring him that he wasn't. ''but what if they think it's not from me and think it's either one of you because you guys slipped the letter in their locker?'' gyuvin sadly asks, "bro, if the three of them think that way and find out, we'll tell them the truth!" ricky reassures his friend with gunwook agreeing with what he said, "but for now, let's eat lunch? i'm really hungry, i didn't eat breakfast" gunwook asks with the other two nodding and all of them go to the cafeteria.

-a week later-

''guys, do you guys know why y/n has been ignoring me? i tried talking with them multiple times but they keep ignoring me or saying they have other things to do! what if they lost feelings for me?" gyuvin says with a sad tone, ''bro, i can assure you that y/n like likes you a lot! i keep accidentally hearing their conversations with hanni and minji and they keep talking about you!'' ricky tells gyuvin to comfort him, ''really?? what'd they say?" gyuvin asks, his face lighting up again, ''well...that's the thing, i'm not sure, sorry man'' ricky sadly says to his friend who becomes sad again. ''what if you give them another letter? you know maybe telling them more about what you feel or maybe finally meeting up with them to actually tell them what you feel?" gunwook says as a way to cheer his friend up, ''yeah! i can do that!'' gyuvin happily states once again, ''but this time, you're gonna give them the letter.'' ricky says as a way to bring his friend's confidence. ''b-but i can't! not yet!'' gyuvin defends himself, ''do you really want your worst nightmares to come true?" ricky threatens gyuvin, ''n-no! but isn't it too fast? what if they're not ready yet for this?" the boy asks, thinking about the future, ''they've known you for 5 years now gyuvin! it's impossible for them to not like you back!'' gunwook reassures gyuvin to boost his confidence into confessing properly to you. ''fine! i'll make a letter to them asking to meet up with me by that school garden, i hope everything will go well, i've never been THIS nervous before.." gyuvin says nervously, ''good luck man, if you need help, we're always here'' ricky assures gyuvin. ''thanks guys, i don't know what i could've done without your help.'' gyuvin thanks the two.

-a few hours later-

"guys, guys, guys, guys!!! i got another letter!'' you shout at hanni and minji, the three of you both excited and nervous at the same time. ''i wonder what it says! come on tell us!'' minji enthusiastically tells you with hanni happily agreeing. ''okay, okay, so it says 'dear y/n, hi! it's me again, i wanted to tell you this time that i'm finally showing you who i am, meet me at the back garden at 4:00? from, your dearest admirer' omg!!! i'm finally going to know who it is!!'' you excitedly say, ''OMG!! i''m so happy for you! but...what if it isn't who you expect..?'' hanni asks you, ''i..i don't want to think about that right now..'' you sadly tell her, ''but whatever happens y/n, we're here by your side! we'll help you no matter what'' minji says as a way to comfort you. ''yeah! we'll never leave your side no matter what because that's what friends are for, right?'' hanni tells you, ''thank you guys, i really am,i don't what or where i could be right now if it weren't for the both of you''

-time skip to 4:00-

''wow, it's 4:00 already? i haven't been this nervous in a long time..'' you said to yourself, walking to the back garden, once you were getting a bit closer to garden, you start to see a familiar face, kim gyuvin, were you right after all? was he the one writing you the letters? was he your secret admirer? ''gyuvin! what are you doing here? i thought you went home already?" you nervously asked him, ''I..i was your secret admirer y/n! I was the one writing you these love letters, I've liked you for 2 years now!'' gyuvin confessed, you couldn't help but blush at him knowing he liked you back. ''I..i like you too gyuvin..!'' you shyly told him, his face lit up, knowing that his worst nightmares didnt come true! ''so..does that mean were together now..?'' gyuvin asked you, you gave him a quick peck on the cheek and told him "yes, yes we are kim gyuvin"

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[dorothygale123]

Dragons.

Big, scaly, powerful and can eat you up, they're not exactly the kinds of beings you want to piss off, yet in the tale we're looking at today some idiots managed to do that in the worst way possible.

The story today has a few different names and versions, even appearing twice in my book. When I came upon the second instance, I literally had to do a double take because hadn't I read this before???? There are some differences, but the major plot beats are the same so we'll go over those first before looking at specifics.

A young man named Liu Yi is walking home from the capital after an exam when he spots a very pretty and very distressed young lady herding sheep by the road. Being a decent person, he goes over and asks her what's wrong at which point she reveals that she's actually a princess, the daughter of the dragon king, who'd recently moved in with her in laws after she got married. Unfortunately, her husband and his family are huge jerks and also idiots, because they thought it would be a good idea to abuse and mistreat the beloved child of the dragon king.

The girl says she has no way of telling her father what's happening to her and asks the man to pass on a letter for her to her family in Lake Dongting. Liu Yi of course agrees and delivers the letter. The dragon king let's him in, reads it, and is understandably furious. Though as mad as he is, he makes sure to tell everyone to keep quiet or else his brother Chiantang would hear and freak out.

Chiantang immediately hears about it and freaks out. Good work team.

See, Chiantang is basically on parol after causing some massive flooding due to his temper so he's supposed to keep his head down, but he also dotes on his niece like crazy and learning about her abuse sends him into a rage where he forgets that he's he's still on Heaven's sh*t list and just flies over to the house of idiots and kills everyone he can find, earning each of them a Darwin Award. Thankfully, the current emperor decides this outburst was justified and also he doesn't feel like dealing with it, so all Chiantang gets is a stern 'don't do that again.' He then takes his niece and goes home.

At said home, Liu Yi is still there because Chiantang decimated that entire clan in a few hours. They throw a party, and during the drinking Chiantang says it would be a great idea for the young man to marry the princess, but he declines and goes back to his village to eventually marry someone else.....

OR SO HE THINKS! For you see, his bride was actually the dragon princess in disguise because she really did want to marry him for saving her. It takes a while for her to come clean about this, but once she does they get over it, move into her parents' house and live happy immortal lives together.

There are a few small differences, for example one story had the man going back after passing his exam while the other had him failing, and one of them actually gets widowed twice before the dragon princess sneaks off to marry him. This indicates that this is a very popular story with a lot of regional variants, though I can't say I think the stories I read were different enough to have separate entries in the same book. Like, at least Shen I and Hou Yi had major differences, but here? The biggest differences are in the spelling, and I'm not getting on that soapbox again. What do you think?

Sh*tpost Masterlist

[feathers-little-nest]

Hey!!!! Can I tell you some trivia about Hua Cheng that I figured out a few years ago but no one really took notice when I said it before? I feel like you might appreciate this more since you're learning Chinese :D

Obviously HOB/TGCF spoilers ahead!

Hua Cheng's title is "Xue Yu Tan Hua" right? Well, We all know xue yu is blood rain but everyone looks over the Tan Hua part just by saying "searching for flower" which is a cool thematic little bit for him, I'm sure. But I figured out another layer of genius in his name. Historically, 探花 is someone who came third in imperial examinations in the olden times!

I figured this out while I was looking up how titles from Chinese imperial examinations worked. I already think it's pretty cool that Hua Cheng's San Lang 三朗 shtick had a double meaning but this made me think that it had even more layers to that then I realize.

(Side note: also of my conspiration theory is that Hua Cheng chose San Lang because lang jun 朗君 meant husband in the olden times. My guess is he was being a bit coy about it by making Xie Lian call him something similar to husband but also hinting at the fact that he was the third calamity)

OMG that is so interesting!! I love those titles they were giving people based on your place in the list of people who passed the imperial exams. I need to read about the imperial exams more krkanfiwnfueirb my ass stuck in Warring States is being tempted...

He DEFINITELY knew what he was doing with that 郎, I love that headcanon

PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE if you ever feel like you want to share something about Chinese or Chinese history (or hanfu >:3) DON'T HESITATE TO TELL ME either by ask or dm, both are fine

[archivalofsins]

Bout to be on some real shit today I bet I could make it sound more reasonable for there to be a third alter in Mikoto's case more successfully than anyone pushing for it could in less time and with more concrete evidence.

Now sure I might be overstimulated and cocky due to having my eyes dilated but hear me the fuck out I really could.

And I wouldn't have to lean on any aesthetic choices to do it. I wouldn't mention one fucking color or change in inflection. I would legit give substantial concrete proof this could be fucking occurring. Even though I don't fucking believe it is.

I wouldn't even delegitamize a subsection of individuals that also have Dissociative Identity Disorder by implying their experiences are more rare and, therefore, less worthy of representation. I would do it without mentioning any of that.

Okay just do that then- Bet strawman hold my vision because my eyes are on fire right now.

It's implied in Mikoto's second voice drama that Mikoto (John) is the one who went to college.

You've turned out to be much more rational than I expected... I'm surprised.

I'm a university graduate, after all.

This statement contradicts Mikoto's (John) own claim that he was born at the time of the crime that took place after he was in college, but I digress. It also calls the times Mikoto himself has discussed college in the timeline and his first interrogation into scrutiny at least,

20/06/11

Mikoto: Kazu-san, do you have any hobbies? I kinda want to get into something that’s a bit more mature. The sort of thing I could still be doing 10 years from now.

Kazui: Ahh, hobbies, huh. I wonder…… Hm, I guess trawling? I have a friend with a boat, so we went out on it a lot. Other than that, I guess when I go out drinking sometimes I play darts…… On that note, do you drink?

Mikoto: Ahh, I’ve tried darts before too. Drinking, huh. I guess I can probably hold my alcohol a bit better than the average person. Back when I was a uni student I drank a lot. But…… you look like you drink a lot too, Kazu-san.

Kazui: ……can you tell? That’s probably my biggest hobby of all of them. I like drinking anything. Beer, wine, shōchū, the lot.

20/07/15

Amane: Eh, my studies? I enjoy it. To me, studying is something I do for fun. Do you not think the same, Mikoto-san?

Mikoto: Not at all! It’s just a means to an end…… I just did the bare minimum needed to get into a good company. I actually went to an arts uni that had a pretty low subject requirement to enroll, and from there, I studied curation and……

Uhh, you don’t really know what that is huh. Hmm. Since your way of speaking is so mature, I keep forgetting I need to explain myself properly……

Amane: It’s fine. If there are any words I don’t understand, I can look them up later. An arts university, though…… Does that mean you’re good at drawing, then? It may be a bit rude to say, but that’s rather unexpected.

Mikoto: No, not really…? I mean, I could do the bare minimum needed to pass the entrance exam though. Even though it’s called an arts uni, there’s still subjects where you don’t need to draw at all. I’m the sort of person who tries to be efficient, so I worked backwards from the job I wanted to get into and chose to study subjects like direction and management~ ……ah, I’ve done it again……

Q.05 Do you like drawing?

Mikoto: I like it, but I’m not especially good at it. It was one of the main areas of study at the arts uni I went to so I could just do the bare minimum for that, I guess. Don’t expect all designers are gonna be good at drawing~

Okay, yeah, when we go that into it...it can be considered a bit weird that they'd have Mikoto (John) specify that in the second voice drama. Though, maybe this was just Mikoto (John) talking in those timelines and answering interrogation questions as far back as trial one. Which would contradict the whole narrative of MeMe where a repeated thing is not knowing where the fuck this dude is.

Outside of that it doesn't seem to be him just because it showcases Mikoto's tone indicators and mannerisms throughout the timeline. This has nothing to do with inflection or tone one can hear but Mikoto's consistent characterization which extends to how his dialogue is written in the timeline. Even if one wants to ignore that because anyone can change their verbal mannerisms then we'd still know from the text that Mikoto (John) spent all of the intermission being standoffish, isolating himself, and being difficult to approach from the admission of multiple prisoners.

So why would he make casual conversations with either of these people here? That'd be kind of weird and out of the norm that was presented to us. Especially if he is rightfully wary of the others being murderers similarly to how Kotoko was. Even if Mikoto himself doesn't want to believe it. Then we can go further their handwriting changes depending on who's answering something displayed in Double and the written interrogation.

Now just because Mikoto (John) said he had a college degree doesn't mean they're on some Dr.Jekyll and Mr.Hyde shit where Mikoto (John) is like put some respect on my name I have a diploma. It doesn't mean that, but it is weird that they choose to specify this in second voice drama. Considering the number of times the author has deliberately written things pertaining to Mikoto and school.

We know Mikoto (John) got a degree we know Mikoto drunk a lot during uni, picked up his nicknaming habit there, and to his own admission does not like studying but instead views it as a means to an end. That is what all these statements together can tell us. We even know when things get stressful that Mikoto leaves it to Mikoto (John) as seen through trial two.

This could imply that Mikoto (John) is legitimately the person that does all the work.

Something supported through Double showing us him commuting to and from work something we do not see Mikoto do in MeMe. Despite him telling us how the fuck he commutes in his first trial interrogation,

Q.12 How do you travel to work?

Mikoto: Road cycling. It’s one of my hobbies, and it’s good exercise too. The fact I don’t have to worry about making the last train can be both a blessing and a curse.

Ah, ha, ha- Oh my god, could you imagine this guy taking a train that'd be ridiculous. It'd be like if he smoked cigarettes,

Q.17 Do you smoke?

Mikoto: Only electric. I used to smoke real cigarettes in the past, but since I started my job I’ve stopped.

Along with Mikoto's blatant admission in his trial one interrogation that,

Q.20 Are you more of a morning person or a night person?

Mikoto: I used to be basically nocturnal. Recently though I’ve been falling asleep pretty early.

Something again supported by Mikoto's first music video where this man never sees sunlight unlike in Double. This serves to allude towards the dynamic within their system. Where Mikoto (John) does more technical and time intesive work while Mikoto focuses on communication.

Something that Milgram highlights here,

Q.09 Why do you give everyone nicknames?

Mikoto: I guess it became a habit when I was at university. Having a nickname for someone that only you call them comes with a lot of advantages, do recommend.

Everything that Mikoto remembers from college involves communication skills and social habits. He's highlighted in the minigram stating he's good at debate but not math. So, he can not help Amane.

Amane: Could you please teach me how to study?

Mikoto: Oh...

Kazui: It would be pretty tough for an old guy like me.

Mikoto: Simultaneous equations wow!

Mikoto: They start them at around Amane's age, I see. (Sir, what do you mean you see?!)

Kazui: Do you think you could teach her? (Kazui he didn't even know she would be learning this what makes you think-)

Mikoto: Well...

Mikoto: The only thing I can teach with confidence are tips for debate and discussion.

Amane: Right now.

Amane: English? No, I need to learn about math. *taking memo*

What the fuck does that have to do with-

I actually went to an arts uni that had a pretty low subject requirement to enroll, and from there, I studied curation and……

Curation the thing you went to college for- Fuck, even the thing you're doing now actually?!

Q.08  What’s the most rewarding part of your current job?

Mikoto: I mean, it’s the top advertising agency in the industry? Anyone would be proud to be a part of it I put a lot of work in just to get here, too

This is more than likely why Double features more advertising tactics than MeMe. While MeMe showcases more of Mikoto's artistic abilities such as his paintings, the tarot cards, and hell, even some great directing angles. Dude knows how to frame a shot. I wonder how he learned that-

Things tied to the hobbies he tells us he has,

Q.05 Do you like drawing?

Mikoto: I like it, but I’m not especially good at it. It was one of the main areas of study at the arts uni I went to, so I could just do the bare minimum for that, I guess

Don’t expect all designers are gonna be good at drawing~

Q.07 What are your hobbies?

Mikoto: shopping / darts / photography / cycling

So you're saying the third one is the one that went to college. Hell, no, absolutely not. All them technically went to college and have very different skill sets. What I was going to say is we've never seem either of these bastards cook. Fucking clean outside of hiding evidence even order food. We couldn't even see Mikoto (John) get the fuck home in Double. Why the fuck does Mikoto (John) need to be reduced from a well rounded character just to give this other hypothetical guy more plot importance than is needed.

Like real talk, Mikoto (John) isn't even supposed to be here. Half of Mikoto's second interrogation was him begging Es to believe he did it, and Milgram was wrong. Yet no one wants to talk about how awkward it is for this dude to wake up in jail years of his life gone, to be told he's murderer and blamed for everything. Oh, and the caviot, if you don't take the blame for everything, you die. Dude woke up with shoes he can't fucking tie around a bunch of people he doesn't know then was told if you don't convince me you did this than depending on the number of bodies you'll be executed.

To the point that he has no choice but to be a scoundrel, it's what he's been made out to be, and being that is the only way to save their life. If all these differences in their mannerisms can exist and not conflict with each other to cause any suspicion to Mikoto, then yeah, it is possible that their could be more than two. Something neither of them may even be aware of. Am I interested in this being the case no. Not all am I interested in the way it's discussed changing absolutely.

[matenrou-fan]

Hi can I request reader trying to study and ichiro,hitoya,kuko helping them pls

Ichiro, Hitoya, Kuko helping their GN! s/o study

here...! <3

GNreader, fluff, just wholesome stuff;;

-Well, despite not getting into any college or university due to the way his life turns out, he values education very much, always checking his brothers' grades at school and their homework. (especially Jiro's one…)

-So of course Ichiro's willing to help you too..! Don't be shy to tell him if you have some problems or don't understand some material, your boyfriend will try to help you with it as much as he can.

"Come here, s/o.." - he pushed two chairs to his table. - "Get your notebooks and wait a second please, I will go make some tea for us, okay..?"

-He will also take some small snacks just to give you it as a little reward from time to time, when you will read some chapters you need to learn or finish part of your homework.

-Or just when you two would have a break, drinking sweet tea along with these snacks as Ichiro tells you about a new anime he wants to watch with you. He understands that some little timeouts like that are really important, helping your mind to not get overstressed.

-Really soft teacher, ready to repeat some topics several times if you still don't understand. Ichiro has great patience due to endless hours of tormenting Jiro with some simple algebraic conversions.

-Also.. Despite your boyfriend really wanting to help you with your studies, at the same time he wishes this moment would never end. You sit together, so close, and sometimes he 'accidentally' touches your hand with his one, or leaning closer to show some mistakes in your notebook.

-"Wait, pay attention to that one again.." - Ichiro moved closer and looked over your shoulder, tapping on papers. Soft breath tickles your skin and even when he is literally pointing at your mistakes with his finger you can't see it, too overwhelmed with warmth and closeness of his body. - "S/o? Are you here?"

-If there is some topic that you both don't really understand, then he would call Saburo. It's funny to see the youngest one teaching the big bro and his partner something. Also, remember, he's doing it only because Ichiro asked, and he will constantly remind you about that, more explaining things to him. So Ichiro will then explain it to you in a more calm atmosphere when Saburo walks away.

-Of course your boyfriend will tease you a little bit too, but more like something light and playful than naughty. You're just so cute with this concentrated expression, these furrowed brows so adorable, how can he not? Honestly, it's pretty hard to concentrate on all these books for him too when his eyes keep wandering on your face.

-So most of the time your studies sessions ended up with you two cuddling together on his bed, relaxing and repeating the passed material between kisses and hugs. Well, why not? It's like the main reward for all you learn today..!

-"You did a great job, s/o.. I'm sure you will get a good result in your next exam! " - Ichiro whispered, gladden you with his bright smile and soft kiss on your forehead, his hands caressing your back. - "So.. Wouldn't you mind visiting my house more often? I promise I will provide more useful lessons like that for you.."

-This old man has no kids and always acts kinda annoyed with Kuko and Jyushi yet values them both very much. It's just his grumpy way to show his care.

-So when you ask him to help with your studies (cause there's no way he would offer his help himself in such a thing), Hitoya will sigh tiredly yet agree. Well, he's quite erudite and intellectual, so it's not a problem, it's just.. He does want to spend some quality time with you, yet actually admits it? No way.

-"You're not in school anymore, don't you think you should do this yourself?" - he scoffs and sits next to you, looking at all these books. - "Fine, but don't fool around.. I'm a strict teacher, understand?"

-And he means it. Hitoya is almost always drained after his work, that's why in the evenings he just wants to have some calm peaceful relaxation, and will not tolerate it if you would slack off during your studies.

-Low yet soft voice of your boyfriend makes you relax too as he reads some questions from your books and explains them to you. And no he wouldn't repeat himself too much, thinking that if you're actually listening you will understand after one or two times.

-But with the way he talks, maybe in some cold yet pleasing manner, describing in detail your mistakes, you actually learn everything much better. Well, maybe because it's the voice of your boyfriend, after all, and you wish you could sit like that for hours, just enjoying this deep tone..

-"And the last one.." - Hitoya mumble, flipping the pages. So close to you, without his jacket, just in his shirt with rolled up sleeves and elegant small glasses on his face.. Such a view was just mesmerizing, his appearance and voice makes you concentrate and start wondering at the same time. - "Oi, s/o, don't look at me with such a dreaming face..! Or I will make you rewrite the whole textbook."

-Small breaks between different topics, as he says he just wants to go smoke a little. It's also true, but honestly most of the time he wants to give you some time to process his lecture and catch your breath without showing any care. Such an old man yet still hiding his feelings like that, how cute.

-But deep in his heart he enjoys this no less than you, as Hitoya actually loves to pamper you or just take care. Also, there was something in these small talks between you two as he scolded you without rancor for messing up something or getting fixed on his face instead of textbook again.

-You clearly can tell that closer to the end of the session he becomes more warm and tender to you, listening to your questions more carefully and explaining it with less annoyance. Is it your imagination or is he even starting bragging about his knowledge in different things?

-"Mm, that reminds me of one of my disputes with one of the professors back in my university days.. I was right in the end, actually." - Hitoya chuckled with a small smile then looked at you. - "You know, we pay so much attention to your books.. Maybe it's time to give some attention to each other too?"

-He's 19 years old yet there's no information if he's in some sort of college or university. Yet I'm sure Kuko loves to learn new things, actually paying careful attention to new information.

-We know that he's working as a monk, so he has his trainings and meditations here. That means he can concentrate and be very serious when it's needed. And of course, as a monk, he would be glad to show you the right way and be your teacher for a day.

-"Come on, bring it on! There's nothing that will break my spirit to teach you." - he smirks, jumping on your bed with a sly grin. - "This humble priest will show you a great lesson today..!"

-Despite he's literally laying in your bed now, Kuko would make you sit on the table, telling you that if you actually want to focus on your studies, then you need some discipline and the right atmosphere around you.

-Of course he would in his playful unruly attitude in the beginning, teasing you for actually wanting some help from him and everything. But as soon as you start talking about things you don't understand, your boyfriend suddenly gets more attentive.

-If you put aside his silly behavior, then you can see that Kuko is actually educated really well, explaining some of the things with a mischievous smirk, like 'do you actually need help with this sort of stuff?' way.

-"You don't understand again? Oh, didn't know this pretty head was made out of wood." - he scoffed then his casual bratty look appeared on his face as he pinched your cheek. But does he really think he's the one who can be unruly? Yet when you hit his own wood head with your notebook as a response he just giggled, trying to apologize through laughter. - "Okay, okay..! I'm actually glad you don't mind repeating some stuff. The greatest people always look at their mistakes and find ways to fix them, and not try to hide their weaknesses.."

-..that's why you both keep getting distracted by each other with small harmless fights and teases?

-But when you show interest in his words and start concentrating, he gets easier, even his voice changing into a more low and calm one, without his casual shouts and giggles. Cause how can he be like that when you look so cute and actually trying to understand your homework?

-Kuko does many things that go against his training, yet he is always trying to be a better version of himself. And he wants you to shine bright too and be a diligent student, at least more obedient than he is.

-So when evening turns into night, you both find yourself lying on your stomach together, hugging tightly and reading the last paragraph that you need to learn.

-"That's it, we did it, s/o..!" - Kuko smirks, throwing away your book and suddenly his hands grasp your waist, tickling. - "Now it's time for something more fun, isn't it? Come on, we need to blow off some steam now, or your head will explode, hehe!..!

[idontwanttowhy]

Review: Crash Course in Romance (2023)

Cute, nothing groundbreaking

Synopsis

Choi Chi-yeol is a celebrity...math instructor at The Pride Academy, where only the best of the best get first-class tutoring. Nam Hae-e has been studying on her own, but wants to join her top classmates at this hagwon/after school program, so her banchan restaurant-owning aunt and adoptive mother, Nam Haeng-seon, signs Hae-e up for Mr. Choi's uber-popular class. The Nams become further entangled with Chi-yeol when he discovers that the only food he can stomach is the banchan from Haeng-seon's shop.

In the midst of all this are the mothers of the top students, pulling strings and conniving to get their children the best possible preparation for their future college admissions processes.

MZ Overall: 7/10, definitely enjoyable but my heart wasn't in it

This drama aims to give you the same warm and fuzzy feelings you may get watching Crash Landing on You (2019), but something was just.... missing for me. I can't quite put my finger on it; the chemistry between the main leads was there, the lovable side characters, the thrilling side story, all of it. And the setup is just delicious: Haeng Seon's food is the only thing Chi Yeol can eat. He literally needs her to live! So all in all it's a solid drama. It's heartwarming and strikes a perfect balance of funny and dramatic moments. Definitely worth a watch!

MZ Review (spoilers)

Choi Chi Yeol opens his eyes, blurred by the combination of his fever and encroaching hangover. His dream girl, the one he can never have, looks upon him lying on the bed with concern that turns to surprise as Chi Yeol casually utters "Oh, you're in my dreams again." There is a pause as Chi Yeol decides how his dream would proceed. He reaches out to the specter of Haeng Seon, and as he caresses her arm he pulls her closer to him on the bed. He speaks again to his vision: "Let's be together, just this time." Slowly, with intention, he lifts himself to steal a kiss.

SWOON!

Now you have read the singular most romantic part of this drama, so do you really need to watch it? Maybe, actually. This scene is so good to watch. But they really make you work for it in this drama, let me tell you!

With chemistry like this, I'm really not sure why I didn't like it more. If I had to guess, I'd say that while all the major elements are there, some of the characters just aren't. I will admit that it's at least partially since I'm coming off of Love to Hate You, but I couldn't stand the way that the moms were all made pretty one-dimensional, to the point where you would think they have never had another thought in life beyond what seat their child was going to get in their academy. I understand that they are trying to portray a lot of complicated dynamics in a short amount of time, but you would really think that the moms are the villains in this story, not the broader society that creates the need to stress over exams like they are life or death. If this weren't enough, they are constantly criticized for their attempts, even to the point where it is suggested that it's their fault if their husband cheated on them, that they deserve it for some reason.

To this point as well, I couldn't stand the scene where Sun Jae asked his mom if she was happy with her life, since she wanted it for her sons so bad. You would literally think she had never thought of this question. UGH. Don't get me started on the other moms. If there was a Bechdel test for tests (instead of men) this show would barely pass. If it included tests and banchan, well, lets just say Hae-e did better on her reading midterm, and she turned in a blank test.

Anyway, the other thing that bothered me was how Jae Woo's character was barely more than a plot device the entire time. We are laughing at him, not with him. And we feel bad for Haeng Seon when she has to pick him up from jail because he was beaten up by someone while trying to get a waffle. He was primarily someone everyone else acted on, which is a pretty stereotypical way to portray someone with autism/Asperger's. While he is included in many of the touching moments of the show, I can't help but feel like he wasn't written as an actual person.

I guess beyond these two critiques, the show was pretty good. The main leads have incredible chemistry, but even they are sometimes upstaged by the drama going on with Sun Jae and Hae-e. Frankly, this show could have been about them and I would not have been mad.

Alls well that ends well, and the endings for each of the characters were more or less satisfactory, despite the lack of character development. I'd say I was really sad about Mr. Ji, but when I considered that he like, murdered people, I got over it. I also didn't like how things ended with Hae-e's mom, but that storyline was going nowhere fast anyway.

AC Overall: 7/10, meh--got boring at the end

I started off liking the show; characters were likable, and the plot development began beautifully, kept you guessing enough to keep you watching. But once everything was resolved two-thirds of the way in, the show really started to drag for me and I was no longer as interested in the characters or the new little plot developments they brought in for shits and giggles (I, for one, was not laughing). Honestly, I almost didn't even watch the last episode because I. just. stopped. caring. So, Crash Course had a promising start, but like too many dramas, ended flat. Crashed, if you will. Should've been a 12-episode series.

And, it's really not a crash course in romance, but in Korean high school student life? The romance took a backseat most of the time. Might as well have been about the students, with the main romance as a side plot.

AC Review (spoilers)

Let's start with the romances: the main was fine; Chi-yeol and Haeng-seon had good chemistry and a good romantic arc. Enemies to forbidden lovers to actual lovers--I enjoyed the I'm-the-single-aunt-not-the-married-mom secret and Chi-yeol's pining because of it. I was so here for the melodrama between those two! And then, it ran it's course with me right as Hae-e confessed the truth--didn't drag too much imo. But once they actually got together, I checked out. Fair to say I wasn't really there to see lovey-dovey-ness between those too. And to be fair, there wasn't tooo much of it anyway. The romance I was more invested in was Hae-e's; I really liked both Sun-jae or Seo Geon-hu for her, especially since a little friendly competition never hurt anyone (wink). Although...she really kept both guys waiting until the bitter end! And then we have Jae-woo and Haeng-seon's friend/employee Kim Young-joo, which I have mixed feelings about. On the one had, I guess it's good that someone with autism/Asperger's was depicted with a little romance, but it felt like it was thrown in carelessly. Left me wanting to have seen that development a little more? Idk.

The suspenseful plot was what really kept me watching. I knew something was up with the assistant Ji Dong-hui/Jeong Seong-hyeong early on, and was satisfied with how it played out, but once everyone knew he was the culprit behind the (successful and attempted) murders, I also checked out. Actually, even before everyone knew. Once I knew he was the culprit I was just kind of...waiting for everyone else to figure it out. And when they did, it marked the end of the drama for me. Sorry to say, but I didn't even really care for Hae-e to wake up once they didn't actually neeeed her to implicate him. Yikes.

Furthermore I do not understand why they had Hae-e's mom Nam Haeng-ja show up! It was from then that I knew for sure...it's time to give up bc where was that going??

But the students! The stars of the show; the pressure that they faced in preparation for college admissions was heartbreaking to watch and also a reminder of the realities of competitive students vying for the limited spots meant to "guarantee" a "good" life. Me, I appreciated the warning: pressure does not always make diamonds. And maybe diamonds are not worth the risk. Sun-jae's brother Hui-jae becoming a shut-in, Su-a having hallucinations, one of the kids fainting in the hagwon--hell, committing s*****e after having realized your parent went so far as to cheat to force your success...all very real and should be taken as a cautionary tale.

All in all, Crash Course was okay, pretty good even--until all the questions were answered. But hey, that's the point of a crash course? Everything after was a little unnecessary.

[yangsrose]

I'm here to respond to my flurry of asks LMAOOOO condensed into one ask for your viewing pleasure lol

Part 1: Let's finish off this semester well! I have two finals on saturday and my last one on wednesday. We can do it! Alexa play the "I will pass my exams. I know what's going on" audio! AND YES yes omg we're just talking rn but ugh I'm kicking my legs fr

Part 2: IT WON'T BE CUTE BECAUSE HE LIKE MAJORLY KICKED MY ASS IN PCHEM DSFHJFDH he will never know sdjf but FR ME TOO we're already all losing it I almost cut my hair MYSELF last night oh my god and nO HE DIDN'T IT'S KILLING ME JHFJ

Part 3: I GOT HIM IN PCHEM LMFAOOOO ugh omg he's just ugh he's amazing I'm scared that I'm going to be the red flag in this relationship sdfjhsfd bUT I KNOW I KNOW I'M BAD AT FLIRTING OKAY What I lack in in-person game I make up for in my writing, okay? LMAOO

Part 4: i KNOW RIGHT AND HE KNOWS HE COULD'VE TIMED IT BETTER TOO but fr since I have you here update I confessed to him too a couple of days ago AHHHH omg so now we fr in the talking stages but uhhhhhhh I'm kind of scared I really want this to work out! We're studying together rn actually I'm really trying to hide this screen from him lolol ugh Rose what the hell am I doing? I have finals to worry about and rn all I can think of is how he got me a cookie from starbucks earlier :(

YES WE AREEEEE AND AHHHHH you know you're whipped when you're giggling and kicking your feet in the air at the thought of him

SHUSH IT'S STILL CUTE AND A STORY TO TELL YOUR KIDS :D NOT THE HAIR CUTTING please my bangs got long and i'm considering just chopping them off again akbdjfn HE'S KEEPING THE ELEMENT OF SURPRISE AHHHH

pchem i 🤢 mayhaps i might have to suffer or something to get myself someone like that AND PLEASE AKJBDFN you make it up well in your writing 😭

AHHHHHHHHH YOU CONFESSED???? don't worry!! i'm sure it'll work out in the end :D and yeah i totally understand it's a pretty stressful time rn and finals should be the only thing in your mind not really your health should be the most important thing BUT THE COOKIE FROM STARBUCKSSSSSS he truly cares for you and that's so cute 🥺 i'm glad you found someone like him akjbdfn

[etherealyoungk]

hi anon! wishing you all the best for your finals <3 and everyone else too having midterms (also sorry for the weird format i posted this by accident when i wasn't done writing)

you were breaking your head over this chapter for the past two hours and you still didn't get it, and at this point you were so frustrated, annoyed and on the verge of tears. but you didn't have the time to shed tears right now, you had to study for finals which were right around the corner.

you threw your pen in frustration and it rolled off the table, falling to the floor. you fold your hands on the table, burying your face in your hands as you feel overwhelmed. your phone rings but you don't bother to lift your head up to see who's calling, let alone answer the phone. you just let it ring, too tired and mentally exhausted to deal with anything at the moment. you ignore the vibrations of your phone and pick up your pen that fell to the ground as you try to get back to studying because you really needed to be done with this chapter and move on to the next.

you continue to study, writing notes, and highlight the important points but the truth is you're so tired none of the information you're reading is making any sense to you.

a few hours pass by and you're so focused on reading that you don't hear your apartment door open. "y/n", wonwoo calls out, and there's a sense of urgency in his voice. "y/n are you-", he starts as he peeks in your room to see you at the table. you turn around, surprised to see him hear.

"wonwoo? what are you doing here?", you ask, surprised as you turn your body to get a better look at him. "are you okay?", he asks. "yeah did something happen?", you ask.

"you didn't reply to my texts or calls, i dont know, i just got worried", he says, stepping closer to you. he looks at you, observing your face, making out the tiredness and exhaustion in your eyes and body.

"ohh...i was just studying for finals", you say as you pick up your phone and see three missed calls from wonwoo and a string of texts from him.

'hey'

'are you okay?'

'call me back'

'is something wrong?'

'are you at home?'

'please call or text me back love'

you'd always usually pick up his call or at least text him you'd call him back if you were busy. but you're sudden silence must've got him worked up.

"have you eaten yet?", he asks, knowing that you wouldn't have. "no", you whisper. "come, let's eat dinner together, i got some takeout", he says. you sit across him and just nibble on your food, your mind occupied with your upcoming exam.

"what going on in that pretty mind of yours hm", he asks, making you look up at him. "nothing really...just...about finals you know", you start and he nods carefully as he listens to you.

"i just want to do well, but i feel like it won't be good enough, that sometimes i'm not good enough, and it's so hard. i've been studying since afternoon but im so tired", you tell him softly, tears starting to well up in your eyes. "it's so stressful", you tell a tear rolls down your cheek.

wonwoo get's up swiftly, sitting down in the empty chair next to you, wrapping his arm around you. he'll gently wipe away your tears. "you're doing amazing okay", he says, looking at you. "and im so proud of you and you'll do well in finals okay", he assures, leaving a lingering kiss on your cheek.

if he saw you going back to study, he'll carry you to bed, telling you to call it a day and get some rest and will not have it any other way. "you're tired baby, get some rest hm, you need a good nights sleep", he'll say as he tucks you in bed. but just as he's about to leave, you grab the corner of his shirt, making him turn back to look at you. "can you stay the night if that's okay?", you ask shyly and watch as a small smile blooms on his face. "sure. i'll just clear the table and join you hm", he says. "oh let me help you!", you say, starting to get up but he stops you. "get some rest, you've worked hard enough today".

and because you're so tired and mentally exhausted from the say, you fall asleep, you're eyes drooping with the sleepiness. you faintly make out the bed dipping as wonwoo joins you in bed and you automatically sense his presence, rolling over to him as he embraces you, pecking your temple.

"take care of yourself hm. you really had me worried today", he whispers to himself.

and over the next few days, wonwoo would become your study buddy, helping you study and making sure you took enough breaks and didn't overwork or tire yourself out.

[byuntrash101]

Incubus: Coming of Age (Part 2)

Pairing: Incubus!Baekhyun x You

Genre: fantasy, smut 🖤

Tags: plot (typical me), demon boy (incubus), monstrous cock (like ya ain't ready), breeding kink, oral (f & m), overstimulation, breath play, dirrrty talk and more~

Raiting: 18+ (21+ it's even steamier than the 1st one 🙈)

Word count: 5.7k (the bock got me inspired haha)

Summary: Baekhyun left an indelible mark on you that one night. But the thing is it was a year ago! and that damn demon never came back... Maybe you should just forget about him... Well only maybe of course ;)

Part 1

General Masterlist

Hey guys this is the final part of this very steamy two shot ^^ I hope you guys will also like it. Please tell me what you think ^^

Tag list @lovebuginlove @ohh-baekhyun @bobohumyonlyboo @smolbeanmika @making-me-blush @wooya1224 @yixing-jaehyun @baekklove @lalalala-lav @deligxt @xofanfics @byunsugar @dixnysustae @to-all-the-stories-i-love @artisticcgroove

...To a Man

How am I supposed to go back to a normal life after that?

Well in fact... you didn't. It was over a year later and Baekhyun never came back. Every night you were hoping that somehow, he would come visit you again. But every night you laid in your bed disappointed, actually, even worse: frustrated.

Because after that fateful night you never touched yourself to your handsome boss Doctor Park Chanyeol again. Actually, you completely lost interest in him. Sure, he was still very handsome and gentlemanly but you just... didn't care anymore.

To be completely exact you didn't touch yourself to Chanyeol, but you still did have intimate sessions with yourself... Well, you tried at least. Because nothing, NOTHING... came close to what you felt when Baekhyun took care of you that night. Actually, you knew no human being, no simple mortal could possibly fuck you that way. It's not something a being of flesh and blood can do... It's something only an unholy creature could do, something only a demon could make you feel.

So, every time you succumbed to the urge of relieving yourself by letting your fingers play with your folds it ended in either, a complete failure where you couldn't even drive yourself to your peak or a lukewarm, disappointing and frustrating orgasm...

A whole year...

A whole year spent fantasizing about a teenage demon that only used you to pass a stupid exam then vanished from your reality without failing to completely shatter your whole world...

So yeah... it sucked...

You sighed to yourself, staring at the same old ceiling of your room. It was one of those nights where the tension was just too much, but you didn't feel like going through the hassle of actually pleasuring yourself knowing damn well it was going to be temporary and frankly dissatisfying.

You turned to your side, determined to chase off the frustration by getting some good sleep. Exhausted you drifted pretty quickly into a deep slumber.

But the sleep was anything but good... You found yourself covered in sweat, wrestling in your sheets, engrossed in a fever dream. Not much of it made sense but you felt like hands were roaming your body, like an usually warm embrace was enveloping your form, you felt like rugged flesh was lapping at your ear. You heard like jerky breaths, lowly grunts, like an unnaturally deep voice talking to you...

Missed me... Kitten?

"Baekhyun?!" you shouted as you sat up in your bed, eyes snapping open.

You looked around in a slight panic, your night gown clamped to your sweaty skin and your chest heaving up and down.

"Fuck" you cursed yourself under your breath, disappointed when you realized your mind played tricks on you again... You're just here alone in your room, soaked in frustration... and arousal.

"God damn it" your curse again as you slip your night gown over your head and kick the covers off your heated skin. You are left naked on top of your bed. Immediately the cold air sends goosebumps on your humid skin, hardening your nipples.

You let you fingers slip to the crux of the problem. You know there's only one way to finally be able to chase away the memory of Baekhyun, even if it's only for tonight.

The cold fingers on your drenched heat draw a sharp breath off your lips. You're so excited about this stupid fever dream, so excited about him that only a few rubs already have you with your toes curled up in pleasure. You fist your sheets tightly.

"Aaaah... Baekhyun" you softly moan his name. With eyes closed shut, you try to recall the way he felt inside you, the way his eyes glowed red, the way his low voice sent shivers down your spine...

Oh... Kittennn~...

It was like you could hear him... you gave no rest to your sensitive and throbbing nub...

"Baekhyun I'm gonna cum" you whisper to yourself. Pleasure slowly taking over your entire body. You slip a finger inside your drenched heat to aid yourself to your peak a little quicker. Then another one. You aim directly for your sensitive spot and you feel yourself tightly clenching around your fingers. You're so close... so soclose.

"Aren't you going to wait for me?"

This time...There's no doubt.

Your eyes snap open again as you stop what you were doing and you are met with Baekhyun staring you down at the foot of the bed, licking his lips, eyes already wavering with a tint of red.

But for a second you doubt. Is it really him? You can't help but to ask yourself. He looks so different. Sure, the spare shaped black tail still loosely dangles behind him but other than that his whole aura changed. The boyish features are completely gone. Instead, he looks broader, like more muscular. His plain black tee is tightly hugging his fit and toned body, making it easy for you to see abs peaking from underneath the constrictive fabric, abs you can't recall from the previous visit. His matching jeans let you see through their rips his smooth silky skin and generous thighs... But the most noticeable change is definitely his horns. The cute 10 cm (4in) tall skin-colored horns were replaced by huge 30cm (1ft) long ones. They were directly sprouting in a spiral from his forehead and stood proud on top of his head. Their base was black but as they went up it faded to a dark and deep blood red.

Overall, he looks so much more mature...

He isn't a boy anymore... he's a man.

"Baekhyun?" you start hesitantly as the demon already slips beside you in bed. "Is that really you?" you can't help but to ask.

"Yes... Kitten... It's me" he whispers in the low voice you missed so much. Bringing his lips close to your ear and you feel his rough tongue lap at your sweet spot, the familiar sensation draws a shaky breath out of you. For a minute you don't say anything you're just there, under his spell as he plays with you. In the midst of all this you didn't even notice you were stark naked, or maybe you just didn't care. You don't want to protest quite frankly, you let him do, you let him gently nibble at your bare collarbones and plant gentle kisses on your neck. You let him because... that's what you've been waiting for... For a whole fuckingyear.

But then you shake your head, snapping out of it... You leave his side taking the sheets to wrap around your naked body and get up, knowing that his soft kisses keep you from thinking rationally.

"Baekhyun..." you turned your eyes back to him "you changed so much". He chuckled and the red glow faded to slowly disappear as he gets up.

"Yes... I know, a lot can change in 12 years..." he casually says while stepping closer to you.

Wait... What?!?!

"What 12 years? No, it was just last year" you correct him, and he takes your hands in his slender black stained fingers.

"Maybe to you... but not to me" You suddenly recall the demonic blood moon years... Maybe that's what he meant... "I'll be turning 30 this May."

Your jaw drops... how was that even possible?! But then again, here you are questioning the passing of time for an.... Incubus... so what's crazier really?

"You remember what I told you about breeding?" Baekhyun's voice pulls you out of your thoughts.

"Yes... that it is an incubus sole purpose, right?" you say absent mindedly, still dazed at the situation. But you're brought back to the present moment when Baekhyun squeezes your hands tightly and dives in your gaze with his piercing dark brown orbs.

"Yes, I came back for that..." he leans in and you instinctively lean your head back giving him unconditional access to your neck. Baekhyun's voice goes down an octave again, lips only millimeters away from your ear. "I came back for you..." he whispers before he licks around your sweet spot, making your heart loudly thump in your chest and your toes curls on the cold wooden floor of your bedroom. You bite your lip trying to restrain your voice.

"I'm going to breed you" his voice is hypnotizing, "You will bare my children and bring them into the world" You can't even wrap your mind around what he's saying, "I chose you, y/n. I only want you" His voice his putting a spell on you. "I can fuck any women I want but..." his hand is now wrapped around your nape, and the other one gently pulls on the sheets that you let fall to the ground without resistance.

"Baekhyun what do you mean?" you ask in a jerky whisper, only focusing on his hot breath on your ear. He ignores your question.

"I need your approval to breed you, y/n..." His blunt nails grazed against the naked skin of your lower back, you start to softly moan, you're completely wrapped around his fingers. "So, say yes, y/n... Say yes Kitten" he says before his large palms grope your butt cheeks closing in the last centimeters that were left between his clothed body and your naked one, sending radiating heat from your core to your entire body.

What are you supposed to reply? Are you supposed to say no? How could you do such a thing after waiting for him for a whole year, everyday growing a little more desperate, a little more frustrated... How could you possibly say no, when his hands were roam your body like they have always known you. When he whispers with that voice in your ear. When minutes ago, you would have given anything to have another night with him...

You... just...

Can't.

"Okay..." you whispered ever so quietly, barely audible even for your own ears.

You feel Baekhyun's cheek lift against yours as he smiles. When he pulls back, you can see his pointy teeth glistening under the full moon, like they did a year ago, he's wearing the same evil smirk that you know so well, or maybe this time he's even more devious...

Fuck...

Right there something snaps, something changes. When Baekhyun looks back the red glow in his eyes is more intense than ever, his expression is wicked. Lust dancing in his dark orbs as he licks his lips with appetite.

You don't even notice the red glow around your naked form before you feel your feet being lifted from the ground. Baekhyun smirks at the confusion plastered on your face. His magic makes you levitate and harshly throws you on the bed, almost smashing your heard on the headboard. You should be stunned but the scene taking place right before your eyes keeps you conscious and focused.

The red glow now circles Baekhyun and in a fraction of second his clothes are gone. Not dropped to the floor, just gone. They completely vanished. And he stands right before you in all his glory. You can't help but to let your eyes trail his body.

His sharp jawline, long narrow neck, his collarbones. The muscles of his pecs and arms moving and mesmerizing you. The dangling black tail. The toned abs already lightly sparkling with sweat.

Then your eyes finally go below the waist band.

You do remember the enormous… thingBaekhyun fucked you with last time. How could you forget? You could never. That's why you know for a fact that this thing right there in front of you, rock hard, lightly twitching and oozing precum at the slit, is actually bigger.

Your jaw drops to the floor. The veiny and pulsing monstrous cock is as lengthy as your thigh and as thick as a soda can. When you look closely it seems like the sides are beaded. Your heart jumps in your chest. Because you know that huge ass cock is made for pleasure. Tingles start to bubble in the pit of your stomach, and you unconsciously press your thighs together.

Baekhyun can't help but to smirk when he notices fear and anticipation swim in your confused eyes.

He steps closer to you.

"Oh Kitten" he starts as he crawls in bed to you. The wicked smirk still dancing on his lips, red glowing eyes fixed on you. "We're going to have so much fun."

Then with the familiar flick of his wrist your legs fly open at his will. You gasp in surprise. And Baekhyun's smirk goes wider when he notices how your folds glisten with juices.

"Kitten look at you..." He says gesturing his chin towards your most private part. "You're always so wet for me" his low voice send shivers down your spine as embarrassment rush to your cheeks. But the spell maintains your legs nice and spread out for him.

Baekhyun leans in closer to your drenched heat teeth and tongue out.

You gasp loudly arching your back when you feel his rugged tongue aiming directly for your clit. Still very sensitive from almost cumming a few minutes ago.

"Mmmmh... Kitten you taste even better than last time" he purrs, lips pressed to your core, the vibrations sending electricity in your body.

Baekhyun takes his sweet time gently lapping at and around your nub to tease you, while cascades of juices flow out of your impatient center. You can't endure the teasing anymore, not after all this time, not after a whole year. You unconsciously buck your hips up, grinding your pussy on his tongue while a tiny pleading whimper escapes your lips.

Baekhyun stops in his track. You're taken aback when glowing red eyes look back up at you and he shakes his head fainting disappointment. But the smirk is quick to comeback.

"Baby" his warm breath fans your delicate parts. "Don't be so fucking greedy" he says before sinking his pointy white teeth in the sensitive little bud. The sting pulls a scream out of you while you grip the sheets. Immediately after Baekhyun's tongue plunges inside your hungry little hole, reaching the deepest part right away. At an alluring speed, his long tongue comes in and out of you, each time poking your sweet spot. Your loud moans echo through the empty night, the familiar knot, quick to tighten again after this much teasing.

"Baekhyun don't stop" you plead, feeling your release coming. Baekhyun's red orbs sill fixed in yours while his tail lazily dangles behind him.

The incessant stimulation of your g-spot got you clenching around his long and rugged tongue while you finally cum, letting go of the knot. You scream in absolute bliss.

That's it... this feeling... The sensation you've been craving.

"Fuckkkk" You cry out.

Baekhyun parts himself from your throbbing center for a moment, allowing you to ride out your high at your own pace. Your chest is heaving up and down, sweat is pearling between your breasts.

"Baby, don't think it's over just yet" he says smirking again. "I have so much more in store for you..."

Right then, you still haven't fully recovered and Baekhyun dives down to your soaked folds again, but this time his hot and wet tongue only focusses on you swollen nub. You scream out in surprise and pleasure. Immediately your back arches again.

His tongue somehow feels like vibrations, the feeling is intense and suffocating, and you know you won't be slow be thrown into another strong orgasm again. Your hand instinctively flies to Baekhyun's hair, resting in between his two horns, fingers harshly pulling at his luscious raven black locks.

"Is Kitten cumming again?" he says with a mouthful.

You can't even process an answer as the crushing orgasm washes over you again, excessive amounts of your arousal coating your tights and linking your center to the sheets. You moan out with no restrain, making no effort whatsoever to keep your voice down.

When he's done Baekhyun sits back up on the bed. You don't even notice how he strokes his huge monstrous pole in his fist.

"Kitten, I hope you're not tired yet..." you jumped when you felt is unnaturally hot tip glide against your folds. "Because it’s my turn now"

He shimmied his way to your parted thighs. Like last time he rested his cock on your stomach to measure it up to you. Now there's no doubt the thing is much much bigger than last time. A year ago, it reached to your midriff, now the red tip is comfortably placed between your boobs. In a sort of trance, you wrap your hands around it, the both of them can barely circle the girth of his dick. It's huge... Abnormally long and terrifyingly thick... but you can't wait to feel the thing inside you.

Baekhyun smirks when he notices you eyeing his member with burning desire. He pulls his hips back and aligns himself at your entrance. His tip teases you as you bite your lip, gathering your wetness for a smooth crossing.

"Look at me Kitten" your eyes shoot back to Baekhyun's glowing orbs. "Look at me while I make you take my cock" You let a tiny whimper out when you feel him pushing himself inside you. The tip gently and slowly parting you. Baekhyun grunts in your ear.

"Fuck Kitten, you're so tight for me baby" he breaths out in his low voice.

With every centimeter it gets better and better, you feel no pain at all only divine pleasure. You feel each one of the beads along his shaft, each one more pleasing than the last. Last time just that one slow stroke made you cum. And you know, history won't fail to repeat itself.

"I'm gonna cum" you whisper in a strangled breath, your eyes still locked with Baekhyun's. His smirk goes wider at your frowned brows and trembling lip. But he keeps on steadily pushing his cock inside you, spreading you further and further.

"I know" he whispers before violently pushing the last few centimeters in. The unexpected and overwhelming pleasure washes over you as you sink your head back in the pillows, a long string of moan falling of your lips while your cunt twitches uncontrollably around Baekhyun, a satisfied grin playing on his lips.

"Kitten" he says while pulling back slowly as you are still high from your climax. "I don't think you're ready for me" You difficulty open one eye to look at him and nod to contradict him. Baekhyun chuckles. "You think?" he asks popping his dick out of you while your walls desperately clench around nothing.

"Yes" you whisper, squirming, craving for him to fill you up again. "Yes, I missed you so much" the words roll of your tongue before you even realize it. Baekhyun lifts an eyebrow.

"Really Kitten? You missed me?" you nod again. "Well... you only waited for a year" you gasp as his hot tip circles your aching little nub before going back to your entrance. "I waited for 12 years" he says in an unnaturally low grunt.

He slams his hips into yours in one powerful and shattering thrust which sends you right back to screaming again. His movements are fast and precise each time he sends his big cock smashing against your g-spot. The pleasurable feeling is unbearable.

"Baekhyun... Aaaahh..." you moan his name, as you get dangerously close to the edge again.

"Yes, moan for me Kitten" he says through greeted teeth. "Aren't I a lot better than last time?" he pants out.

You can't believe it but it's true. You didn't think it was possible but yes. He got incredibly better at fucking you to the point that you're ready to pledge your pussy to him for eternity. For him only. You'd do anything to be fucked like this every day until your body eventually gives out from exhaustion.

"Yesss.... Aaaaah... fuck" You shout closing your eyes under the pleasure. Your loud and unrestrained moans make Baekhyun smirk.

"You're mine" he growls continuing to fuck you deep and hard. "Fucking look at me I told you" He plants his nails at the side of your face, making you wince and also open your eyes. The red glow is brighter than ever. "Say that you're mine" he commands.

"I'm yours" you whine locking eyes with him as the clenching of your cunt warns Baekhyun of how close you are.

"Kitten, are you gonna cum again?" he chuckles eyes locked into yours, furiously pumping his abnormally large cock inside your now shapeless hole.

"I'm gonna make you mine Kitten. I'm gonna pump you full of cum. Do you want that Kitten?"

"Yes please" You beg in a short breath, your release getting dangerously close.

"Good girl" He grunts getting close to your ear, his rugged tongued licking the shell of it. "Now cum. Cum around my big cock while I fill you up to the brink with hot cum."

The low whispers are enough to rocket you over the edge. You scream in absolute bliss, twitching around his huge cock as you feel the hot sticky liquid rushing into you and overflowing out. Just like last time the quantity is insane, testifying of Baekhyun’s demonic nature.

When Baekhyun finally slips out of you, you feel your heat meekly clench around nothing, already missing Baekhyun's monstrous cock.

You are left completely dazed, lying on the bed, eyes still rolled back in your head, focusing on the fading sensation of your peak.

You don't even notice when Baekhyun stands by the bed and you also don't notice how, contrary to last time, cumming has not calm him down. The "thing" is still alive and lively. In other words... he's far from done with you.

"Kitten I'm gonna fuck your face now"

You don't have time to process the meaning of those words that you are pulled by your arm. Your body is lying across the bed while your head is resting upside down on the edge of the mattress.

"Open wide Kitten" Baekhyun's hot and wet tip brushes against your lips. Almost out of instinct you open your mouth.

Baekhyun presses himself inside your narrow mouth. The stretch is excruciating, the thing is too big. Way too big for your tiny mouth and you barely manage to take the head of his dick inside your crowded mouth. Baekhyun grunts loudly, indulging in the feeling of stretching your cute little mouth to his convenience.

"Fuckkkk... y/n"

When he reaches the back of your throat he starts to slowly pull out, taking his cock completely out. You cease the opportunity to take a deep breath. Good call! Because the next second, Baekhyun goes back inside you but with much less care. He places both of his hands on your cheeks gripping your face tightly to facilitate the penetration.

He has no mercy for your poor sore throat, his powerful thrust silencing you except for the wet and sloppy sounds that your mouth makes.

"How does your cum and mine taste Kitten?" he grunts again.

His voice sends shivers across your skin, your eyes roll back as your pained pried open jaw gradually goes numb. You want to scream yes but you can't. You want more, more of this intoxicating taste taking over your mouth and clouding your mind.

"Fuckkkk... Kitten... You're gonna make me cum" He whispers, his voice conveys the feeling of his high getting closer. "I'm gonna cum in your mouth baby. You want that Kitten?" You only produce a gargled moan but Baekhyun knows how eager you are to taste more of him.

He fucks your face a little more before whispering

"Such a good girl for me"

Only instants after you feel the stream shoot to the back of your throat, instantly filling your mouth. So many squirts crash on the inside of your cheeks and on your tongue, some even go through your nose. The bitter taste invades you and your entire body, making your head dizzy.

When Baekhyun pulls out you hurriedly swallow a big mouthful of thick and hot cum before drawing a sharp -and much needed- breath.

Baekhyun gently strokes your cheeks.

"You're such a good girl for me Kitten" he says before laying back on the bed. His back is settled against the headboard. And your eyes go wide with stupor when you notice that...Still... The monster has not... calmed down.

You feel exhausted and drained out by all the orgasms you failed to count. You can't even move a muscle... even if you tried.

But you don't have to because once again your body is enveloped by a red glowing light. With that you are lifted in the air. Baekhyun's magic spread your legs into an impressive split, suspended above him while he patiently waits for you with his hands behind his head.

Beads of sweat formed on his chest and rolled down his toned abs. Sweat also sticking his bangs to his forehead and his horns. He's absolutely gorgeous, he has the kind of looks that nobody would ever be able to turn down... and especially not you.

But he looks everything but tired.

Slowly his magic lowers you down. You gasp when his hot tip brushes against your drenched folds.

"I just need more of you Kitten. Can you handle me?"

You want to respond but already the steady descent as you stretched out around his girthy cock. Making you whimper as a response. Slowly but surely Baekhyun makes you go down, cunt perfectly angled with his huge dick. Each centimeter, each bead going inside you, feeling like agonizing pleasure.

When you are halfway through the red light around your body goes off and he drops you to take the rest of him in one go. And it’s too much for you. The way his cock smashes into your sensitive sweet spot while Baekhyun has his glowing red orbs fixed on the place your bodies meet sends you into the abyss again. This time the pleasure is so intense that not only your needy cunt absolutely crushes Baekhyun's cock with uncontrollable spams but also gushes of your juices come out of you in powerful streams, drenching Baekhyun's muscular torso. Baekhyun smirks as he clicks his tongue and shake his head.

"Kitten... You came again with the very first stroke" he says fainting disappointment, taking pleasure in seeing you struggling, shaking uncontrollably, eyes rolled back, jaw hanging open and toes curled up.

Then you feel yourself getting lifted again the red glow comes back around your figure. You whimper as you feel Baekhyun slide out of you. But right before the tip pops out, he smashes you back onto him. You arch your back as a delighted long string of moans escape your lips.

"Damn Kitten you're so tight" Baekhyun says through greeted teeth.

You can't even reply anything as he's already lifting you up with his magic. Each time he increases the pace until he has you jumping up and down his girthy length. The familiar knot tightens again.

"How good does my cock feel baby?" Baekhyun asks his red eyes fixed on you as he makes your boobs bounce.

"It's the best.... Baekhyun it's the best thing ever. I wanna be fucked like this every day" you answer in a delighted scream. It's visibly what Baekhyun wanted to hear as the evil twinkle in his eye intensifies.

"Yeah Kitten? You want that?" he grunts in the low voice you love so much, sending swarms of butterflies fly in your stomach. He goes faster again. The wet sounds of skin clashing bounce off the walls punctually interrupted by Baekhyun's grunts and your moans.

"I'm gonna c-" You want to announce but Baekhyun interrupts you.

"Not yet Kitten, this time you'll cum with me and when I tell you to" He makes you hover over his dick. Still, just above him. You squirm only wanting to be filled again.

"Say what you want Kitten"

"I want your cock Baekhyun" he raises in eyebrow. "Please" your pleads make Baekhyun smirk again.

"Yeah baby? Is that what you want?" he says as he slips the tip inside, the beaded shaft make you scream in bliss as Baekhyun slowly lowers you on his cock, legs spread wide, offering him the best view on your swollen and twitching cunt.

"Yes!!!" you scream while tears well up in the corner of your eyes.

But then Baekhyun's spade shaped tail swiftly wraps around your neck, the slick scales gliding on your skin send goosebumps in the nape of your neck. When the tail has made a full circle around your neck, Baekhyun suddenly tightens the grip.

"Then fucking take it" he smashes you onto his huge cock.

You open your mouth to scream but not a sound comes out. You are completely silenced. Only the wet and lewd sounds of your pussy can be heard as Baekhyun's tip touches the deepest part of you, forming a visible bulge inside your stomach. Tears of pure joy roll down your heated cheeks.

Baekhyun then goes back to his insane rhythm. Every time angling you just right to smash your sensitive spot. Gradually your mind goes blank as he fucks you furiously, your jaw hangs open and your eyes rolls back into their orbit.

"Look at me" Baekhyun whispers in his demonic low voice. Your eyes snap to him. "I'm gonna cum inside you" he continuous to whisper. You nod vigorously, cause you know it means he'll finally let you cum too. "With this one I'll make you mine. I'll impregnate you. I'll make your belly swell with my children" You nod again, streams of tears wetting your cheeks. The restriction of blood to your brain makes you see stars as the pleasure rises again to an unbearable level.

"Now cum. Cum for me Kitten" Baekhyun grunts.

You feel his cum flow into you, this last thing sends you over the edge into the most intense orgasm you ever felt, that's including the ones Baekhyun gave you in the past. This one is different. This one is too much. His big fat cock smashing into you, his drenched chest glistening, the dirty talk, the pet name, the commanding tone, the demonic voice, the tail around your neck, the thick and hot cum filling you up.

Your spread-out legs shake uncontrollably as Baekhyun leads you to completion. Just as you are on the verge of losing consciousness due to the air restriction but also the heavenly stimulation of your orgasm, Baekhyun loosens his tail around your narrow neck. A strangled scream escapes free of your sore throat as you are finally able to vocally express the immense pleasure you feel.

"Yes, that's it baby" Baekhyun purrs as he keeps you going up and down his length.

You cry out a long moan as your head is thrown back and your tongue hangs lose out of your mouth. Baekhyun slowly decreases the pace until it comes to a stop. He lifts you out one last time, as soon as his big member pops out of you, gallons of his cum flow out of you. Baekhyun lays you down gently next to him. Before linking his lips with yours and shoving his long and rugged tongue inside your mouth and you don't even notice the red glow marking you in the lower stomach region.

You lay there for you don't know how long, trying to gather your thoughts. You are completely drained, fucked beyond repair...

After a while Baekhyun stands back up.

"In three weeks, the children will be born" you difficulty open your eyes back to look at him. "I'll be back to take them... and you."

What?!?

"Wait... me? Also babies??? Plural?" so many questions shoot through your mind.

"Yes" Baekhyun says as he wipes himself with a piece of cloth he found. "I marked you as mine" It's only now that you notice the small drawing Baekhyun tattooed on you with his demonic magic. It's a language you can't comprehend.

"What is this?" you asked pointing to the tattoo.

"It means you are to be my wife". Your eyes nearly bulge out of their sockets.

"WHAT?" You yell, flabbergasted.

"Yes, you know what a succubus is right, female incubus? " you nod unable to speak one more word.

"Well, no succubus are born. Succubus are only made. They are human women chosen by incubus to become their wife and bring their heirs to the world."

You want to say something, but you only stutter nonsense.

"Over the next three weeks you will kiss your humanity goodbye. Horns will sprout out your forehead and you will grow a tail. Your magic energy will increase, and you will slowly be able to use different magic spells. In three weeks, I'll bring you to the magic realm where you will live with me. And serve me with your body..." Baekhyun marks a silence "and heart."

"But... you... I-" Baekhyun sits next to you on the bed and cups your cheeks to make your troubled eyes meet his.

"Wasn't that what you asked for?" He asked in the most honey toned voice, his darks orbs fixed into your unsure gaze. He brushes his thumb over your bottom lip "Right Kitten?"

"Yes..." you whisper, hypnotized by his intense stare.

"Over the past year, your feelings for me bloomed, didn't they?" You felt blood rushing to your cheeks as Baekhyun's eyes were unwavering.

You didn't answer anything, but you didn't have to... Baekhyun knew exactly how to read you. Maybe because he felt the same way...

He got back up and with magic popped his clothes back on. Red smoke started to appear at his feet, gradually growing around him.

"I'll be back in three weeks... Wait for me Kitten, okay?" He said with that adorable boyish smile you haven't seen in a year, he winked at you before disappearing in the red smoke.

You rubbed your belly, where life had taken its domain. This time, you wouldn't have to try to go back to a normal life.

It was impossible anyway... and frankly you didn't want to.

[chanandlersstuff]

The seasons pass and the heartbreak too

Pairing: Charles Leclerc x Reader.

Summary: Life its a funny thing or maybe whats meant to be will find his way back together.

Word count: 1.927

Author’s note: This is the second part from this one and I was thinking that those two deserve some closure, so it will be one more part and that's it. Hope you like it. English is my second language so sorry for the misspellings. The song that inspired this part is "Nineteen" from Dylan, it's really good and some parts of it are on the story.

After leaving Charles at the airport that day, you didn't hear from him anymore until maybe the next year because having almost the same group of friends it was pretty hard not to know about him. One day while you were on a long call with Pierre he told you that he was dating a beautiful girl and that he seemed happy. That instead of breaking your heart completely made you happy because he was happy again. The love you had for him prevented you from being sad about it. Pierre also told you that Charles was having a great season and that also made you happy. Months passed and you didn't hear from him. You were getting better and better at your dream job, becoming more important in the business. The F1 life was little forgotten in your life but always alive in the back of your mind.

Summers, birthdays and seasons passed and Charles was achieving all his F1 goals. One night while having dinner with Pierre in some part of the world talking about life he told him that you were dating some guy and that you were happy. Charles’ fork stopped mid air when he heard the news and to Pierre surprise a smile appeared in his face, a genuine smile. He was happy for you, after all the last time he saw you was nearly three years ago and he didn't hate you, he had incredible affection towards you but that was it. Charles had no love interest in his life anymore but none of that had nothing to do with you.

Sometimes he wondered what were you doing with your life, if you achieved all your dream goals, if you were fine, all that kind of stuff. Even one time he almost dialled your number only to see if you had the same number and if you would answer him but that idea turn into a stupid one the second he almost tuch your contac name. You, on the other hand, while exploring new places or when you saw something that you thought would be fun for him, you couldn’t contain your brain from thinking about him and smiling. His name always on your phone but never used. Happy memories from the time you spend together, while being friends and lovers, no hold grudges.

One day while you were crossing the street, coffee in hand and sunglasses in your eyes, your mind deep down in work, someone shouting your name brought you back to reality and the voice was so familiar. You lowered your sunglasses to see better and when the window car next to you lowered too your heart seems to beat a little slower or everything happens in slow motion. He was there in his matt black Ferrari with the Monaco flag across the car and the 16 on one side. Charles Leclerc in the flesh, shouting your name in the red light of a street. With a smile on your face you walked to the passenger side of the car and you crouched a little to see him better.

-I wasn't entirely sure it was you.- Charles said smiling.

-So you took your chances shouting at me I see.- He nodded and you laughed. -How are you?

-Fine, fine. What about you?- The two of you were smiling like little kids on Christmas night.

-I’m fine too.- Looking at his face you notice that he hasn't changed that much. His face was more mature and his beard from a couple of days the same as you remembered. The honk of other cars brought you back to reality -It was fantastic to see you again but I'm going late to a meeting and those drivers are getting pissed.

He frowned a little and moved his head to see the cars behind him. -Oh. Yes, it was great seeing you again.- He smiled and you smiled back. You straightened and took two steps back. -WAIT.

-¿Yes?- Your voice was sweet.

-You ....eh....we….- You giggle because he was the same nervous Charles you remember when you were little.

-¿Yes Charles?.- He laughed and cleared his throat.

-I was thinking if you could give me your number.- You raised your eyebrows. -To stay in touch I mean, if you want of course.

You smile and from one of the pockets of your bag you pulled out your card. -Gimme a call whenever you want.- Your fingers touch and a familiar, not so forgotten, feeling travels through your bodys. -Bye Charles.

A week later you were walking towards him in whiteh trousers and shoes, a black tank top, sunglasses and hat. The “friendly lunch”, as he said, was in a restaurant in front of the water and the summer in the air made the day perfect. It wasn't a date at all, it was two friends who hadn't seen each other in a while catching up.

With a bottle of water in the middle, because he had to drive and you weren’t going to drink wine alone, the conversation flowed as easy as all those years ago. Laughs that made the stomach hurt and tears appeared in the corner of your eyes while the two of you remembered long time memories and funny histories.

The way he kept switching languages as easy as breathing and the sun that was coming down, illuminated your skin making you glow in his eyes and your smile, gosh it was the brightest smile he'd ever seen. Everything was so easy going and funny, like a picture perfect. As if the two of you have never walked away from your lives, as if you have talked every day for the past few years.

-Do you remember that night when we went to that awful party and we ended up drinking coffee in that spot we used to like so much?- He said when you came down from the laughter.

-It was the same day that your mum almost kill us because we were minor and we stunk at cigarettes?- The scene coming to your brain as it was yesterday and he nodded. -Oh yes, I remember. Some dude spilled his drink in my dress and it had a huge stain on it.

-Yes, that blue dress looked so beautiful on you.- You didn’t remember the color, but apparently Charles did.

-I was a mess Charles.- You tried to argue with him.

-A hot mess.- He said in a low tone hoping, praying that you didn’t hear him but you did and didn't say anything about it trying to not ruin the nice day you were having.

-Do you remember that day you called me late at night to pick you up at that random bar?- You said and he burst into laughter at the memory.

-Oh god yes. I almost came out of that bar crawling and you were there waiting for me in that empty street.- Charles said, scratching his head.

-Were only one streetlight worked properly.- You add in a funny tone.

-You were there with my jacket and two blankets and a worried face.

-Because it was freaking cold, like freezing.- You said laughing and he did too. -I don't remember why you were there and I could bet you don't remember either because you were so drunk that you forgot the reason.

-I remember that the next day I had the worst hangover of my life and I swore that I would never drink that way ever again.- Charles grabbed the glass from the table and drank.

-I remember that you were insufferable the next day, like I couldn't even look your way and you were already whining like a baby.- You said and he laughed.

-And the night you were so stressed about that exam and I told you to run away with me?- You frowned. -That I “kidnapped you” and took you to that little dinner and we stayed there for like 5 hours.- You were smiling but didn't say anything or move an inch. -The dinner that was like from the 70s or 80s, with neon signs and rock music.

You nodded with your head. -Can I be honest with you?- He nodded. -All I saw that night was you and how your eyes seem to change color with the neon lights. He didn't say anything but smiled brightly at you and blushed a little.

If you were honest you remember all too well the things you did together. The little lies to your friends telling you didn't like him when you clearly did, the big fights in those summer days where everything complicated and all the mistakes were made and how he always said “You and I, that’s all the matter. No one else, just you and I” and how he told you “You are the only one I want” when you were agreeing to that strange summer deal.

-Do you remember the day we spent in your granny’s garden looking at the stars in that white old sheet?- You said looking at water.

-Yes, we spent hours talking about our big dreams and desires.- A little silence fell between you two. -I really hope you achieve everything you told me that night.- The fact that he seemed to remember what you told him that night told everything that you needed to know.

-I did, most of them I did. I hope the same for you.

-I achieved some of them and I’m doing others this year.-

But the truth was that both of you made promises and dream things together, thinking that you would stay friends or lovers forever. Always by the other side, cheering their wins and being there when they lost but life wanted other things.

-It seems that we both remember a lot of things from years ago.- You said in a nervous tone trying to cover the inexistent awkward silence.

-Of course I remember. How could I ever forget it.- You tilted your head. -How quickly and hard I fell for you.- His tone was so tender and the smile he was giving you was something from another planet.

-Charles…- You played with the napkin in front of you.

-What? It's true, I was never capable of lying to you and you weren't capable either so tell me what's on your mind.- You stayed in silence for a couple of minutes trying to find sense about them.

-Loving you wasn't a waste. Yes hearts were bruised and mistakes were made but I will do it all the same.- You said and smiled at him.

-I don't.- The look on your face must be a hurt one because he rushed his next words. -Because at the end I lost you, everything we were. Friends, lovers, partners, everything lost for years.

-But we are here now.- You said in a slow tone.

-But for how long?- You opened your mouth to talk but he interrupted you. -A week? Ten days? You are going to get back to your job and I have to get back to race, it's the summer deal all over again. And I do not say this because I want to be your boyfriend again or whatever we have been years ago, I say it because I want my friend back. You know how many times I almost called you to tell you everything that was going on with my life, to tell you that I needed you when shit hit the fan? A thousand times. I do not want you in my life if you are going to be entering or leaving it as if it were a candy store. I want you permanently in it and I want to be in your life in the same way. Be there for you when your work is going well and when you cry from stress like all those years ago but this time physically. I want you here.- At this point he was moving his hands freneticaly and raising his voice a little but the only you could do was looked at him speechless absorving his statement and your stupid heart racing as fast as he drives his car in the weekends.