#i don't really have a point

[starlit-meloncholia]

one thing i never thought i'd get into was fashion. i used to buy just whatever clothes fit me at Walmart, but ever since i committed to only wear clothes that make me happy i've come to realize how deeply enjoyable clothing can be. (putting it below for politeness)

when i was still working in homeless services, i worked with a veteran client who always dressed like a cowboy. i once asked him why, and he told me it was because when he left the army, he didn't know who he was any more without it. The routine, training, and combat he saw made it so when he got out, he wasn't the same person he was when he went in. So, he decided if he didn't know who he was, then he'd just be who he liked, and he liked cowboys.

one day a few years ago, sick of boymoding at work after a scolding from my boss about painting my nails, i decided to pack up all my men's clothing and donate it. i kept a few shirts with sentimental value and boxed the rest up to drop off at goodwill. now having pretty much no clothes i had no choice but to buy an entire new wardrobe, and i had no idea what i was doing. i was sick of wearing clothes i didn't like, but i had also never liked any clothes i'd ever worn. so i asked myself: what did i like?

i just got an order of clothes i got with a christmas gift card and i'm so happy just looking at these cute moon leggings i got to wear today. i'm excited for another order to come, because i bought my favorite dress again so i can wear it more. i have a distinct aesthetic that i'm now known for, and i feel more confident and happy than ever. every time i step out of the door in a cute outfit i feel like the baddest bitch on the block.

[lowdowndandy]

I wonder how many Americans realize Palestine is about the size of New Hampshire with the population of NYC

It's real small

[zahai]

Is this a sideblog by chance?

Indeed it is. It used to be used as a primary blog, and I did intend to use it with at least some purpose even after I shifted my attention, but now it's just kinda mindless spam/things I find cool but don't have the spoons or words to give more attention to.

[bethanydelleman]

Jane Austen is funny because while almost no one dies in her novels, she's happy to slaughter people off-page to create a family situation.

In Mansfield Park, Mrs. Grant being the half-sister to Mary and Henry Crawford, all of them orphaned, and then Mary coming to live with her cost so many lives:

Mrs. Grant's father Mrs. Grant's stepfather (Mr. Crawford Sr.) Their mother (Mrs. Crawford) Mrs. Admiral Crawford (Mary's aunt)

And then we have the extraordinarily bloody history of Colonel Brandon in Sense & Sensibility, which had nothing to do with war. In order for him to have both an estate and be a second son caring for his cousin's daughter Austen killed:

Mr. Brandon Sr. Eliza Brandon Mr. Brandon (brother)

And while unwilling to have an orphan as the main character, Austen loves slaughtering all the parents of her heroes, (because what is more attractive than a young man in full control of his fortune), Darcy, Bingley, Wentworth, Knightley, and Brandon are all orphans.

So many characters in Austen have such miserable histories but it's hardly mentioned or explained in passing. Every heir must have a lost a parent.

[emileesaurus]

MORE AMC RAMBLING some positive, mostly negative, I'd cut this for length but I'm on mobile and I don't know how to do that 🤡

I have to admit to being charmed by the cast in interviews almost entirely against my will, and particularly the enthusiasm with which they talk about the books. I still think all three of them are way too old for the parts, but their passion for the roles absolutely shows through. I think they'll do a great job with whatever they're given.

I'll be really interested to see them talk about the changes to Louis's character in particular, because the Louis in the leaks I've seen couldn't be more different from the Louis in the book, like, all the way down to his motivation for becoming a vampire (grief and religious despair vs the desire to escape the restrictions of life as a Black man in the '20s, apparently). There's the scene of him in the confessional in the trailer, and that's sort of on the right track, but that's the closest I've seen to canon Louis, and it's a wholly made up scenario... idk! I mostly get the sense that they didn't like his character in the books, and wanted him to be less sensitive/philosophical/sad and more assertive/confident/combative (the "more of a spine" comment pisses me off, lol). We'll see when there's actual clips out whether or not they kept any of his book personality intact -- I hope so! I'd like to see Jacob's take on Louis's gentler more sensitive side, if it makes it into the show.

I'm skeptical about the approach they're taking to the relationship, even if it is explicitly queer, because I think taking too much of Lestat's word for how the relationship happened plays into real life patterns of taking the abuser's side and downplaying the victim's. Again, we'll see. They've said some cute/promising stuff, though, and I'd love to believe that it'll look like the relationship I enjoy, but I'm worried they've changed the setup and personalities and backstories (oof, 100+ year old Lestat) too much for me to see it as the ship instead of just a ship.

I just wish I got any sense of the same reverence for the books from the showrunners! The cast seems so sincerely passionate, but RJ and MJ are talking up the show like it'll replace the movie and maybe even the original book, lol. I feel like I'm being gaslit every time I see them say it'll be more accurate to the books than the movie was, because so far we've seen literally nothing from the books whatsoever. I'd honestly be more confident if they went into what they changed and why, and how they expect it to effect the story... but all I'm hearing right now is "it's no big deal, just trust me bro." And I don't, because I've seen Rolin's last reboot, and it was exactly the same as this one looks so far, but less gay.

Anyway every time I see one of the actors saying something, I'm like "maybe it will be good???" But then I remember how little control actors have over the finished product, and I look at the sweeping structural and narrative changes and how nothing about Louis's life or personality is the same and how Claudia is eternally mid puberty and how Lestat apparently spent the entire 19th century just fucking around by himself and how they meet 120 years after the book is supposed to be set and how the setup for Louis and Lestat meeting is wildly different and how they can be awake during the day and how they have retractable fangs and get blood everywhere when they eat and how Daniel fucked up the first interview so bad he never became a vampire and has to do a second interview in 2022 in Louis's Dubai penthouse while he's dying of cancer or something and how the showrunner says this is more accurate than the movie script Anne wrote even though there's nothing from the books actually in it as far as we've seen and I just don't know, man.

I also desperately wish there were uhhhhh literally any women on the writing/directing/producing team 💀💀💀 my dudes it is 2022 and you've chosen to set this in a Storyville brothel and make one of your characters a teenage girl experiencing forever-puberty and also the book was written by a woman and idk, it just makes me feel reeeeeally really skeptical, all things considered.

[kirkwall-age]

I don't think many players exhaust the Ostagar conversation tree with Alistair anymore these days, simply because... it's an infodump for new players, and it's all things we know like the back of our hand. basic stuff about the Wardens and Duncan and the Joining

but I often think about this particular line of conversation:

Alistair: You want to ask me about something else? The Warden: This upcoming battle. Alistair: The one tomorrow? I'll tell you, it's Teyrn Loghain we should be looking to win it, not the king. Cailan just wants his place in history. The teyrn is planning the strategy. ...Errrr, that's my opinion, anyway. I guess I should be thankful the king favors us Grey Wardens, but I know who's keeping the lid on the pot. The Warden: What are the chances of success? Alistair: I'm sure Teyrn Loghain has the battle planned to the last detail. Still... no Blight has ever been defeated with so little cost.

Alistair respects Loghain at the beginning of the game. the emotional Face Heel Turn that he does about him following Ostagar is... so much more interesting if you know that he doesn't just see Loghain as a faceless villain, a general he saw from afar, but that he clearly understood the lay of the land well enough to know he was the brains of the operation. a respected strategist.

I wonder if in World States where Alistair and Anora marry, and Loghain lives, if this ever... comes up again. or influences anything. like, I personally doubt that Alistair holds on to the anger he feels as a 20-year-old forever. and beneath the layer of all the fury and the vitriol, there was a sheen of admiration there once. and it's just so interesting to me to think that if any semblance of cordiality is ever restored between the two of them, there's actually some other pre-existing emotions and preconceptions that Alistair held about Loghain, other than straight-up enmity.

[ginkovskij]

when dmitrij karamazov said “i'm not drunk at all. cognac is cognac, but i need two bottles to get drunk—” and when grantaire said “thou alone art ingenuous. two bottles never yet astonished a man.” and when -

[taperwolf]

Just thinking about how most of the idols in the Love Live franchise don't really have anime hair colors. Sure, Umi and Kanan have blue hair, and Nozomi purple, but that's a common stylistic dodge for particular shades of what the West would view as black. A number of the girls probably lighten their hair, but to within human norms; even Lanzhu's hair is probably meant to be a light strawberry blonde.

And then there's Rina with her bubblegum pink hair.

[gazelledoe]

I couldn't check in to a hotel yesterday because the booking was under a man's name (the landlord's), despite being able to give the booking reference number, the dates of the stay and the name of the insurance company that made the booking.

In all previous bookings (half-a-dozenish), I've just had a funny look but the person at reception has not challenged me.

[blowjob-horseguy]

The thing about growing up gnc is that everybody knows you're queer before you do

And where I'm from in the Bible belt that mean you have to experience homophobia before you even understand what it is

You get that self loathing before you even really know what it is you're supposed to hate, you know?

And thats why, I think, platitudes like "love wins" and "don't hate someone for who they love" feel so fucking empty to me.

I can understand relating to them if the first time you experienced homophobia was, like, when you were holding hands with your partner or you expressed a same sex attraction,,,

But I was 4,,, They couldn't have hated me for something I couldn't do yet!

Things like "don't hate my love" and "love has no labels" It feels like taking your queerness and making it a seperate thing from yourself; they don't hate you they hate who you love.

But my queerness has shaped so much of my life and is such a big part of my identity that I can't seperate it from myself.

When I say "I'm bi" or "I'm queer" or "I'm gay" I'm not telling people who I *love*; I'm telling them who I *am*.

And for all the homophobia, and the biphobia, and the queerphobia that I have experienced, very little of it involved me loving anyone at all,

Usually I am literally just existing and someone decides to take it upon themselves to ruin my day.

Anyway that's just my thoughts on that.

[shortace]

The Ever Given is owned by a Japanese company, and leased by a Taiwanese one. She’s registered in Panama. The company that “manages the running of the vessel” (I’m not entirely sure what that means) is German. While traveling between Malaysia and the Netherlands, she ran aground in Egypt.

[pinkpuffballdude]

I don’t know how it is for neurotypical people, but for me concentration is like trying to spin thread. whenever I am interrupted, no matter how small or short the interruption, it is as if that thread I am spinning has been cut, and I have to start all over again, wind the wool and thread it through. I don’t care that it only takes two minutes, or that I don’t even have to move, you coming over and talking to me is akin to jumping past my arms with a pair of scissors, which is why it’s so frustrating

[apleasurableillusion]

It’s funny how people are opposed to monopolies but also opposed to all the new streaming sites because they’re “inconvenient”

[hook-line-and-anarchy]

Feeling some dissonance about sitting here creating a D&D character and watching youtube vids while knowing so much horrible vile shit is happening in the world. There’s a part of my mind telling me that I’m wrong for not spending every waking moment doing something to make things better. But I don’t know what that something would even be. And even though I know I’m in a relatively privileged position, I can only stand to focus on the bullshit for so long. It doesn’t take much to put me in such a rage that I can’t even concentrate on anything. But on the other hand I don’t want to be making excuses for myself.

[nyxocity]

So someone who stopped talking to me and vanished from my life over a year ago and who actually OWES ME A FUCKING APOLOGY (the list of people in my life who I have ever felt owe me an apology is VERY SHORT) for various things, actually messaged me out of the blue with a FUCKING APOLOGY and a friend request last Friday night. I just saw it tonight.

You saw my name on your recommended list and got to thinking that you owed me an apology for disappearing on me? You’re sorry and you hope all is going well for me? You couldn’t message me so sending me a friend request was the only way to contact me (and you actually thought that far into it and made that effort?). You understand if I don’t accept your friend request and if I don’t you wish me all the best and take care of myself? YOU? YOU do all of this? The person who redefined asshole for me?

I am SO curious.

[singersalvageshop]

armie hammer is very handsome and he has the coolest name ever