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Anyways, Lonnie very much abused Will and Jonathan just you know in case you forgot
#or didn't pick it up when Joyce said Lonnie called Will a f*g or when Jonathan said Will was good at hiding#or when Lonnie told Jonathan he'd gotten stronger or when Jonathan told Nancy that he was forced to kill a rabbit at 10#OR WHEN JONATHAN CHECKED THE TRUNK OR LONNIE'S CAR FOR WILL#y'all get so wrapped in fanon you forget our just ignore canon#i don't know why i bother#fandom snark#tw abuse#stranger things#byers family#jonathan byers#will byers#lonnie byers
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Forgive me for being a bitch for a second but
My mom knows that I don't always have the ability or funds to have a good meal. Sometimes I have food but just can't cook, and/or can't afford to order in, or just straight up don't have enough food in the house to make it to payday
She has said many times, "if you ever don't have dinner, come to me, I always have something" because she always has both her pantry and freezer stocked full
But I just tried to go to her. I told her I don't have the energy to get food. I asked what her and Duck are doing. Don't know. No plans.
Ok, can we order something? No, she says, we just ordered in yesterday.
So I need food but they're not planning to eat anytime soon and we can't order in. No offer of leftovers or for me to join them when they do decide to eat. So no food for me.
So what fucking use is it to say I can come to you when I need food if this is going to be the result
#jon won't be home from work for another 6+ hours#shall i just sit here and starve#she says she wants to help and support me but any time i actually ask for help she blows me off#i don't know why i bother#mod post#family stuff#negative#i have some turkey bites and almonds so i guess that will have to do#food#food insecurity
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Just a warning the next comic for my fnaf au will look ugly, I'm sorry about that. The pages just look ugly no matter how much I try to fix it.
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Just gonna pre-emptively put this here
For those who don't know:
Rape is generally about power/control and not about attraction
The majority of people who rape children do so because children are easier to rape, not because they are attracted to kids
If you hate child molestors (as you should) just fucking say that. Don't paint people from two different groups as exactly the same.
Don't ignore people who have commited a heinous crime in your crusade against people who didn't do anything wrong other than be born different.
#retard ramblings#I don't know why I bother#this is just going to get misinterpreted like everything else I say on the topic#christ sometimes I wish I was dead#inb4 an “anti-MAP” says that I deserved to be raped as a child#again
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Nobody should be on this website actually
ok fine maybe community notes was a good idea
#I don't know why I bother#nearly everyone here is unsalvageable#please unblock twitter in Brazil I miss it
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what is with men being mad any time a woman raises her voice where did that even come from. someone posted a video of a small electrical explosion, and the top comment was of course the woman screams. the second comment is women try not to scream challenge, level impossible. i had to go back and watch the video again. there is, somewhat fainty, a little gasp emitted off-camera, more of a yelp than a scream. it is mostly lost in the crack of the explosion. afterwards, you hear her voice, shaken, say, are you okay?
i am helping one of my friends train her voice pitch lower, because she wants to be taken seriously at work. she and i do each other's nails and talk about gender roles; and how - due to our appearance - neither of us have ever been able to be "hysterical" in public. we both appear young and sweet and feminine. she is cisgender, and cannot use her natural voice in her profession because people keep saying she appears to be "vapid". we both try to figure out if our purposeful voice lowering is technically sexist. is it promoting something when you are a victim to it?
a storm almost sends a pole through a car window. in the dashcam, you can hear the woman passenger say her partner's name twice, crying out in alarm. she sounds terrified. in the comments, she is lambasted for her lack of calm. how is that even fucking helping?
in high school, i taught myself to have a lower voice. i had been recorded when i was genuinely (and righteously) upset; and i hated how my voice sounded on the phone speakers when it was played back. i was defending my mom, and my voice cracked with emotion. it meant i was no longer winning the argument: i was just shrieking about it.
girls meet each other after a long summer and let out a little joyful scream. this usually stops around 12-14, because people will not tolerate this display of affection (as it has the effect of being passingly annoying). something about the fact that little girls can't ever even be annoying. we are trained to examine each part of our lives (even joy) for anything that could make us upsetting and disgusting. they act like teenage girls are breaking into houses and shrieking you awake at 3 in the morning. speaking as a public school educator: trust me, it's not that bad, you can just roll your eyes and move on. it does not compare to the ways boys end up being annoying: slurs in graffiti, purposefully mocking your body, following you after you said no. you know, just boy things.
there's another video of a man who is not allowed to yell in the house, so he snaps his fingers when he's excited about soccer. the comments are full of angry men, talking about how their brother is unfairly caged. let him express himself and this is terrible to do to someone. eventually the couple has to address it in a second video: they are married with a newborn baby. he was trying not to wake the infant up. there is no comment on the fact women are not allowed to yell indoors. or the fact that it could have been really alarming or triggering for his wife. sometimes i wonder if straight men even like women, if they even enjoy being in relationships with them.
for the longest time, i hated roller coasters because it always felt inappropriate and uncomfortable for me to scream. one of my friends called me on it, said it was unusual i'm so unwilling. i had to go to my therapist about it. i don't like to scream because i was not raised in a safe situation, and raising my voice would have brought unsafe attention towards me. even when i am supposed to scream, it feels shameful, guilty. i was not treated kindly, so i lack a basic form of self-protection. this is not a natural response. it is not good that in a situation of high adrenaline - i shut up about it.
something very bad is happening, i think. in between all the beauty standards and the stuff i've already discussed - this one feels new and cruel in a way i can't quite express. yes, it's scary and silencing. but there's something about how direct it is - that so many men agree with the sentiment that women should never yell, even in an emergency - it feels different.
is the word shriek gendered automatically? how about shrill or screech? in self defense class, one of the first things they tell you is to yell, as loud and as shrilly as you can. they say it will feel rude. most women will not do this. you need to practice overcoming the social pressure and just scream.
most women do not cry out, even when it's bad. we do not report it. we walk faster. we do not make a scene. what would be the point of doing anything else? no matter what we do, we don't get taken seriously. it is a joke to them. an instagram caption punchline. we have to present ourselves as silent, beautiful, captivating - "valuable."
a woman is outside watching her kids when someone throws a firecracker at them. she screams and runs towards her children. in the comments, grown men flock together in the thousands: god. women are so annoying.
#warm up#writeblr#this one has bothered me for a bit#any time a woman does something even passingly annoying we treat it like a fucking crime#hey man. women are allowed to be annoying. everyone forever is allowed to be passingly annoying#as long as they aren't hurting anyone/thing#like u wanna know something? i find it super annoying that men don't wear seatbelts#why arent there thousands of comments on driving videos thats just like : men try not to die in a car crash challenge#''this briefly annoyed me''. okay??????? AND????????????????? go get ur self a cookie and calm down about it#ur not entitled to control other ppl's experiences and emotions just so u can maintain ur own peace#if being briefly annoyed ruins ur whole day! you! need! therapy!!!!#men try not to become immediately angry about nothing challenge: level impossible#ps author is nonbinary. we didn't even get into the gender presentation thing#the fact men think it's SEXY that my voice is on the lower end....
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i'm so tired of being made to feel like my boundaries and my requests are unreasonable and just because someone else finds it funny or because they don't want to adhere to it that i'm the asshole when i snap and get frustrated.
all day, practically every day i have my boundaries violated whether it's at work or at home and i try to hold onto the tattered ends of my patience but i'm not fucking perfect. sometimes i snap. sometimes i say something harsher than i mean to. that's on me, i know that but it's not fair that anytime i say anything i just get brushed off
i tried to apologize for my tone, for the harshness of it, and i get told off for that too. i get told that that's not good enough. that i don't get to lose my temper, ever, because....? and now i'm being made to feel bad despite trying to apologize and take responsibility. i get brushed off and dismissed anyways. i get told that it doesn't matter because i'm not worth the time
#i don't know why i bother#nobody listens to me or cares what i think or how i feel#i'm just supposed to be disrespected and violated and bear it with a smile on my face and say thank you afterwards too
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I feel so scattered
Like I’m floating apart
Dust sifting off my bones
Eyes lost in outer space
Like nothings truly real anymore
Everything observed through a veil
It’s been so long since I felt my body
I think I’m wasting away
Falling inward to this cave of a heart
Drowning somewhere in the ether
And I don’t know how to hold anything tight enough to keep, don’t know how to cherish it
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watching gravity falls for the first time at the request of my little sister and i just watched a tale of two stans and CRIED
#gravity falls#gravity falls fanart#mabel pines#dipper pines#dipper and mabel#grunkle stan#stan pines#i LOVE grunkle stan sm#it's a great show!#i can feel it inscribing itself on my brain lol#art#illustration#digital art#fanart#artists on tumblr#clip studio paint#csp#bill cipher#i literally was like why is this triangle guy bothering the children?? and my sister was like uhhh he's the main villain lol#NO SPOILERS PLEASE I BEG i know the show came out like 10 yrs ago but i don't know how it ends#i viscerally remember my sister walking around going the author of the journals...my BROTHER and i was like what are you TALKING about
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Archery Nemesis.
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#poorly drawn mdzs#mdzs#jin zixuan#wei wuxian#(Trying to not break my own continuity by showing WWX changing outfits in the middle of a comic...I'm doing my best...)#The original line for the third panel was just 'fuck you' which admittedly is a funnier line.#Wei Wuxian really does call JZX a little pretty boy (not in those words but close enough) and then dramatically one-ups him...#Not only that; he tries to use Lan Wangji's headband as a blindfold. Which I think we need to take a moment to analyze.#It's probably easiest to look at this as ship-tease but I think it's far more in line with how WWX's mask is slipping.#He knows full well how poorly touching LWJ's headband went in the past.#But somehow - in this moment of his anger being targeted at JZX - that crucial information is forgotten.#He's got tunnel vision over something so small...and what do we know about emotions that don't suit the supposed cause?#Why that would be displacement. Something is bothering him and it sure is *not* just Jin Zixuan's fancy ass.#WWX came back but he didn't come back the same. It's rather unsettling how it feels like he's putting on a performance of himself here.
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Apparently much-needed reminder that reposting artists' art (by saving the images or screenshotting them and reuploading them yourself) on other platforms without the artists' expressed permission and without credit is theft and an insult to their passion and craft. You are profiting (in views, in attention, in feedback) from someone else's work and ideas, who do not get that feedback for sharing their creation.
If you are an art reposter, you are a thief and I have no respect for you.
#learn basic internet etiquette i am begging but also holding a knife. yes i'm mad. more about others than myself.#do you know how many artists i have seen leave social media because their art started being reposted all over?#tip: way too fucking many#i've had many people tell me about people reposting my art on tiktok#no one ever asked to repost my art on tiktok. ever. they just save super fried bad crunchy jpegs of my art and repost them#they get 20k likes and don't even bother naming me#also a reason i started signing my name more legibly and why my blog web address is always there but apparently no one can even read that#a few people got an ok for translations on other platforms though#i'm going to be annoying with this post and reblog it a few times to try to catch the people who apparently need to be told#tiny skk adventures#nawy's comics#nawy's doodles#apparently those are reposters' favourites so here look at this
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Triple Identity Crisis
Danny had a problem. If it was a big one, he couldn't tell yet but he was partially sure Clockwork was at fault for this. Or at least he wanted to blame his ghostly godparent who most likely just wanted to cause some chaos for entertainment with the pretext of helping Danny. Which was a very likely reason for why Danny had a problem right now.
As it was the former Fenton now Fenton-Wayne boy was pacing his room in the Manor trying to think what is next step should be, because as it was his 'new' family –Did new still apply if he was living with them for a little more than a year now? – knew him under three different Identities now. And to top it all off they were not aware that the three identities were all pretty much connected as one.
For one. His family, knew him as Danny, the space obsessed kid, who became a meta because of his ectobiology science obsessed parents and his teenager recklessness. A kid that was actually a genius if you gave him enough time for school and could make you anything out of a ancients be damed toaster. That was the Danny they mainly knew. The Kid they took in, let in on the family business and then chose, to the happiness of Alfred and dismay of some of his 'new' siblings, normal life over vigilante life.
Then they knew Phantom. A dead ghost hero that was helping the Justice League and Young Justice to help them deal with the aftermath of the huge fallout caused by the GIW, Guys in White or rather Ghost Investigation Ward. And while Danny didn't know he had apparently worked with nearly his entire family and that time he knew it now. Which was awkward because he had pretty much pestered one of his elder brothers about his condition until Red Hood, aka Jason, let Phantom help him. Ancient, things might get awkward if that secret is lifted. He had done a lot of things Batman, Nightwing, Red Hood, Red Robin, Orphan and Robin had scowled him for. Thankfully they only thought of him as a dead teen hero and didn't know what a Halfa was. So they didn't make the connection, and he had yet to meet Signal, aka Duke as Phantom.
Now came the third identity, which totally did not happen by his choice. After all officially he hadn't accepted the throne yet and would only get it once he was dead dead not half dead. To bad ancient texts don't care about formalities. So when trouble hit the fan really hard the Justice League Dark had the bright Idea of getting some other worldly help. Which in other words was summoning the Ghost King. Oh boy, was it fun to learn that way that Danny could get summoned against his will. Clockwork did not give him that warning when he told him about the future of his afterlife. But best of all? Oh he doesn't get summoned as Phantom which would have made things maybe a bit easier, oh no. Life wasn't easy. He got someone's in some as a super weird black-green mass of a formless eltrich body with sharp teeth, claws and glowing green eyes with no pupils or irises. Hell Danny even scared himself when he saw his own reflection in a window and he didn't have a single idea how to change his form.
Let it be known that Danny acted then on purpose like he didn't know a single person in that room he had been summoned in right out of his bed and that he wasn't staring at his adoptive father like he needed help who interpreted his stare as the ghost king sizing him up. And Danny knows this because Dick had a good laugh about that at the dinner table with the rest of his siblings.
Now a smart person would probably come clean to his family and explain to them the three identities they knew him under and how they are connected.
To bad Danny wasn't 'smart' when it came to things like that. No in his panic and newfound awkwardness of the situation of what he had done on separate occasions with his identity as Phantom AND Ghost King, he decided to keep acting like he didn't knew them personally like the truely does. Really how hard could that be? Besides he liked the way his family treated him now. He didn't want to get treated differently because he was half dead, or a Ghost King. He liked that his family was treating him as plain old Danny who had an obsession with space and was their quirkily little brother with powers.
So that gave him even more incentive to keep the act up. Even if it was hard at times, especially if he got summoned out of nowhere. It would be easier if he could get a hang of the duplication power. He even had played with the thought of getting one of his ghost rogues to help but his family was perceptive. Maybe not perceptive enough to realise that all three identities were one and the same person but they would notice if Danny acted just slightly different or if Phantom was more of then usually. But somehow he still managed to keep it up.
But it was the hard way that he learned, Danny was bad at doing the 'talking' and realized that maybe Jazz was right and he was going to slip up one day causing huge misunderstandings like right now.
He stared down at Batman and Nightwing in his Ghost King form. Red Hood had his guns pulled on him, Wonder Woman and Superman looked like they where going to try to pull back Batman any second now while Nightwing, maybe at first was going to try to calm down the bat but Danny was pretty sure the eldest bat kid was now fiercely glaring at him too. He was also pretty sure the only reason he didn't see Red Robin or Robin threaten him too was because their super friends were somehow holding them back. For their own or his safety he doesn't know at the moment.
Because apparently the Bats did not fear fighting otherworldly beings to protect one of their own.
"What did you just say about Danny Fentons death?!" Batman grunted out and Danny just knew his adoptive father was glaring at him. Ancients Danny cursed his brain to mouth filter right now. As he had the collective hero scene before him staring at his Ghost King form. Would this be a good or bad moment to come completely clean or maybe he should find some kind of philosophical bullshit of 'All things death belong to him'....
#danny fenton#danny phantom#dp x dc#dpxdc#dcxdp#crossover#bruce wayne#dick grayson#jason todd#tim drake#damian wayne#batpham#Danny was adopted by the Waynes#Why and when I didn't bother to specify#let your imagination choose#Ghost King Danny#Officially once he kicked the bucket#Ancient texts don't care#Ghost king is ghost king official or not#The bat family doens't know Danny's three identities are all the same person#after all a dead hero can't be their living little brother#or the ancient being known as the ghost king#Danny in his initial panic kept the act up#now he his scared of the grounding that awaits him#he has done a lot of reckless things as Phantom his family will have his head for#q#queue#cause i wrote that late at night in a bout of insomnia....#no beta we die like danny#unedited
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The bear trying to gaslight me into believing Claire and Carmy’s relationship was all sunshine by putting some never seen before flashbacks where he is suddenly smiling all the time… when the only thing we see season 2 is him miserable and worried and bathed in blue light everytime he is with or thinks about Claire, to the point he even had a panic attack about it????
#the bear spoilers#the bear#sydcarmy#i just don't get it. why if that was the goal they didn't framed it like that season 2??#like I might have believed their relationship more if u have gave me 1 of those scenes!! but u didn't!!#and now u want to erase history with new memories that happen… who knows when? because the timeline doesn't even fit??#im still in episode 5. but these bothered me so much… like it surprised me. because it was all flashbacks. but like am I crazy??
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decided to update models of my characters so they look more akin to my drawings of them. devil first very proud of these hands. it was so difficult but i love to win at blender
#art#oc#yourenotsupposedtobehere#ynstbh#blender#blender3d#i don't plan to use them anywhere but renders maybe so idk why i'm doing this#it just bothered me that they don't look like i draw them you know
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cas would not kiss dean first. dean would also not kiss cas first. this is their tragedy. but a shapeshifter or some kind of monster clone or djinn dream would initiate the first kiss and they would 100% return it. or the real dean and cas would've just simply fallen together somehow like tripped and fell and gravity would bring their mouths together whoops anyway they'd both take it from there - and that's not fate pulling strings it's just dumb luck for these two dumbasses (affectionate)
#destiel#thoughts#and btw: i don't know why everyone thinks i'm trying to woobify cas by saying he wouldn't kiss dean first.#fact: dude literally waited for death's door to confess his love so he wouldn't burden dean with his feels - but at least he could#use them to save dean. and he thought he couldn't have dean (the one thing he wanted..) which is why he didn't make the first move#bc he thought there would be no further moves. i don't understand what's not clicking. anyway they're both dumbasses#don't bother fighting me i know i'm right
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Current mood.
#Out of Rider#I feel like nobody cares anymore about my writing despite me trying to be open with people#And often feel like I'm being left on read or ignored entirely because I don't scratch their particular itch#Doesn't help that I'm fucking depressed as hell and alone#Add onto the fact that I'm poor and borderline destitute and I wonder why I keep even trying#hell#I don't know why I bother
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