In my dream I made a post about the undertones and symbolism of Sam wearing the Hellhound glasses versus Dean. How Dean’s got knocked off and while he meant to kill the Hellhound and bear the weight of taking on the trials, Sam’s the one who managed to kill the Hellhound. Taking on that burden for Dean. Similar to the first apocalypse it was supposed to be Dean’s burden but Sam ended up being the one who closed the chapter Dean opened. I had pictures and everything, not doing all that, just summarizing it lol. But the reason I remember it is because Dean fans got upset with me because I wasn’t taking his pain into account. And because it was another example of Sam trying to make himself the hero. It’s not that far-fetched that I didn’t realize immediately I don’t have a post comparing the two lol.
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my medication: take with a full glass of water first thing in the morning a full 1/2 hour before eating :)
me, dry swallowing my pill in between mouthfuls of granola bar on my way to work: interesting suggestion. however,
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I literally feel like I'm dying and I need to see a doctor, but I can't worry about that right now because
My bank account is literally in the negatives because I'm too disabled to work and can't make money but I can't worry about that right now because
I'm months overdue on getting my car new tags, but it won't even start if I could drive it so I need to jump the battery and get gas which I don't have money for, but I can't worry about that right now because
People are still expecting me to be social across numerous friend groups and it's pulling me in so many directions that I'm stretched so thin I'm running on no social battery for the last month, but I can't worry about that right now because
I still need to actually clean the house, do the dishes, clean the cat litter boxes, vacuum, and do my laundry... but I can't worry about that right now because
I still need to actually set up my new desk so I can stream since I haven't been able to do that for weeks and streaming is unfortunately my only source of income for how little I make every month, but I can't worry about that right now because
My partner is going through a really hard time right now and I need to be there for her and do what I can to make sure she's okay.
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having online friends is great but it also fucking sucks ass because the moment you find one in your timezone you realize you have nothing to talk to them about, and the ones who you can talk to stuff about aren't in your FUCKING. TIMEZONE.
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i wonder, if i ever met a dropout watcher irl and somehow managed to not drop a reference anywhere in my time around them and so they wouldn't know i watched anything from it, how fast they would catch onto me from my speech patterns, or how fast they would realize in retrospect where all these things come from upon finding out. or like, alternatively, someone getting to know me irl and then being introduced to dropout, and suddenly having a frame of reference for like. what a lot of my speaking habits are probably modeled after. does it show that i watch dropout? do i talk like a good percentage of the audible conversation i am exposed to in my daily life comes from one streaming platform? would love to know. would truly love to know
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Me last night at 3am: I'm gonna wake up early tomorrow. Or at least earlier. I'm gonna get this sleep schedule somewhat under control!
Me at 10am: *Wakes up. Snoozes my alarm for 2 hours*
Me at 12pm: Well. Getting out of bed at 12 is better than 2 like yesterday.
Me from 5pm to about 7pm: *takes a nap in an armchair*
Me right now at 4am: God why am I not sleepy yet?
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the saga of my newly fucked up sleep schedule is apparently not over!! even tho i did get a normal 8 hours last night i was in a show today and when that wrapped and i got back to my dorm at like 4:30-ish i decided to take a quick nap which turned into me waking up at almost NINE PM
on the plus side i'm fairly sure i lucid dreamed a couple of times during the nap so that's a plus
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Me: Hey parents, my sibling stayed up until around 4 in the morning.
Dad: *Enraged noises* That's unacceptable!!!
Me: *Visible confusion* They're 17. What do you expect?????
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