#i don't care if i dont have a life

[fairycosmos]

i ❤️ doing nothing i ❤️ staring into the middle distance i ❤️ sitting and laying around i ❤️ not talking

[butchviking]

if you dont believe in homosexuality as a natural, innate, morally neutral sexual orientation that cannot be changed then you! are! a! fucking! homophobe!!!!!!!!

[lunarharp]

if i just told you i love you would this world change

[theredcuyo]

"Why would you do all of this for me even after all i did to you?!"

"Because i love you, the you that it's really behind all of it, the you that you fight not to show to the world but that i've seen before anyway"

Is such a raw line that i asure you, if it's present in a fic, not necessary letter by letter, but in sentiment, then that's a good fucking fic

Wheter platonic or romantic

[lover-of-mine]

#poker night has been enlightening

[bluewlnteroses]

i just keep thinking about harley getting to know the truth about why peter is alone and finding out why people don't remember him and for a moment thinking he's glad he got to meet him after everything went down and immediately feel guilt and shame because its not fair peter went through so much pain and had to leave everyone he knew behind but,,,, just thinking about meeting each other before and getting to know peter and then completely forget him makes his feel sick

[crackwhorism]

you know as a neurodivergent person I only have two fucking requests of anyone I consider a friend: 1) do not cold shoulder or get aggressively angry with me for something you didn't bother to communicate you had a problem with and 2) do not fucking infantalize me and treat me like a naive fragile broken child who is a burden on everyone in my life. shouldn't be too hard right??? insane how many neurotypicals are fucking incapable of doing the bare fucking minimum

[lupins-hehim-pussy]

I wanna know ur Fontaine msq criticisms 👁️👁️👂I’m all ears

I'm not sure if you wanted me to talk about this secretly or publicly but! Here I go!

The TLDR: Fontaine MSQ aestheticised prison, poverty, child abuse, the justice system/court and didn't properly address any of it.

More:

Focalors/Furina has way too much of a sympathetic angle for a dictator who's lets people drown with her inaction.

Neuvillette feels Bad for sentencing some people to death/prison, but that's it. He's one of the most powerful people in Fontaine. If he felt like there are systemic injustices, I.E sending an abused Child to prison, he should be the first person to DO something about it, not just cry and be sad so the audience can be like aw, that's complex character writing isn't it? No it's not! And guilt doesn't absolve you!!!!!!! (These are stuff we deal with in OTCOJ read my fic now /j)

Meropide has children in it, both Sentenced there (Wriothesley) and BORN THERE (Lanoire), and this is just a quirk of the place. Not only that, Meropide accepts prisoners of all genders and crimes. There are abusers and abuse victims in one place. Do you know how bad that is? How much potential for crimes to happen in a place like that— oh wait, Meropide isn't under Fontaine's jurisdiction. If you are assaulted as an inmate it literally means nothing to the court.

Wriothesley had no qualifications when he took over. Depending on how long he lived on the streets, how old he was when he killed his parents, how old he was when he was first taken in by the orphanage, etc, the man might never have more than 4–5 years of formal education. Sigewinne probably had to teach him how to write reports. And do Meropide's spreadsheets. Edit because I forgot to elaborate on this one: This isn't a point brought up anywhere, which is bad, because when poverty and incarceration robs you of a proper education (and the rights to vote in many places too, too, by the way), it reduces your prospects for jobs, reduces many people's ability to get a home etc etc. Wriothesley was just, narratively, Given his position.

Meropide is an industrialized prison, and they portray this as a good thing. Prisoners are paid in coupons for their labour, and this is also portrayed as a good thing.

The One-Meal-A-Day reform was something Paimon gushed about being so great of a perk, that people might want to go to jail for food (could be interesting and reflective of systemic poverty if MHY had brains, but they don't, so I was just Pissed because essentially all Paimon wanted to say was "Prison isn't so bad, but still don't go to prison guys! Prison labour is really hard!"). By the way, in most real-world prisons they are obligated to feed you three meals a day. Because that's how much food a human needs. MHY went with one meal just so they can say "if you want to eat more, you have to work." And then the welfare meal is a goddamn gacha. So imagine you're a starving child who's too weak to work in the fucking robot assembly line, and you wander up for your first meal in 24 hours, only to luck in with a shit one. I'd kill myself.

They wrote Wriothesley, who's a victim of the system, into a guy who's say shit like "I'm the Duke I can do whatever I want" for a cool moment where he choke-slams an inmate (I know he was a bad guy. But also, in copaganda when cops are violent/disregarding protocols, they are always only portrayed to do that against bad guys, so what does our critical thinking tells us about this one?) They wrote Wriothesley, who was an inmate of a prison so bad, so notorious that it is the literal boogeyman of Fontaine, that has a legal (???) fighting pit, with an administrator who abuses his position to be unreasonable, to willingly stay in the place and become an Administrator who would choke-slam an inmate while saying a cool line about how he has the power to do whatever he wants. They wrote him, the guy who had to be fed on the streets by melusines, to think one-meal-a-day was a good enough reform (while he spends god-knows how much on his boat). This wasn't a victim-turns-into-abuser narrative either, they want all this to be seen as positive character growth.

And then, the final kicker is, they gloss over his entire abuse. You can only read about these shit in his profile, which most people don't because they don't Have Him or doesn't care to unlock it/read it online, and they jammed his entire backstory into a flaccid info-dump at the end of his character story quest. This man isn't Allowed to feel abused and neglected and show any reaction to it within the narrative of Fontaine itself, because if they actually Gave Weight to what happened to him, they'd have to confront THE FUCKING JUSTICE SYSTEM they had NO PLANS on criticising. I don't think they ever explicitly said the fucking Crime-Theatre nonsense was Bad either.

I could go on, but this is already so long. But yeah, I hope this gave you an idea.

[rolandkaros]

The thing with Sincaraz is even tho Jannik has seemed cold to Carlos on occasion, I don’t think they disliked each other( unlike how some make it seem) with igaryna I do think Aryna was genuinely tripping balls with how Iga became a multi slam champion so quickly in comparison to her. Idk if it ever got to the point of disliking each other, but you could tell the relationship took a hit after Iga’s success. Which makes them so much more interesting to analyze.

ok i do have to pull away slightly from my own projections...i actually want to talk about this more objectively because it is really really interesting to me

tbh yeah i don't think jannik or carlos have ever disliked each other. jannik maybe has been more indifferent or distant at points but it was always very clear (to me at least) that they had a good relationship on and off the court, even if it seemed one-sided at points. i mean the whole thing started with jannik being the one to say "i hope we play some more," so that sort of dispels any uncertainty that they're both actively participating in this rivalry/relationship.

the complicated(?) thing with igaryna is i think in part that yes, iga experienced so much success (including being a multi-slam champion) early on, but also specifically that this happened when aryna was experiencing literally the worst year of her career.

i honestly don't think prior to 2022 that aryna even cared that much about iga. 2021 was a good year for her, and you could clearly track the progress she was making from season to season. she was 22, turning 23, #2 in the world at the end of the 2021, with ash barty at #1 and iga down at #9. she even said that at the beginning of 2022, her goal was to end the year as #1 and to win a grand slam. so sure, iga had success, iga had a grand slam, but i don't think aryna had any reason to actually be primarily focused on iga over anyone else on tour.

and then 2022 happened and iga świątek happened and yeah. i do think it kinda drove aryna a bit crazy to see someone younger be that much better when, at the same time, she was completely devolving. it wasn't just the fact that she was losing but the way she was losing, and the way that iga was winning. she went 1-4 that year against iga (only win was at the finals), including the devastating uso semi loss. and yeah, if someone beat me four times in a row while i'm also going through the yips and have completely lost the ability to execute my most important shot...i would also be pissed!

quick interlude for some direct quotes from break point (which covered the 2022 season):

"this year, iga, she won everything. it was so annoying."

"yeah iga is the target for me. this season, she beat me like four times. i was really pissed off...so i really need this revenge for myself. i have to be physically, mentally ready for her."

"i have to be stronger than her. i have to be better than her. and with iga, if you lose your mind, then there is like, really zero chance to win."

won the semi against iga in fort worth and then lost against garcia in the final. so after thinking at the beginning of the year that she might have a chance at a grand slam and YE#1, instead she ends 2022 without a single title and at #5. meanwhile iga is #1 and broke like a gazillion records and had a crazy match winning streak and won two grand slams and also beat aryna four times in a row. so yeah, i think aryna's, as you said, "tripping balls."

in 2023 i think she's was still riding this wave, even after winning AO. you can definitely it see in their match-ups at stuttgart and madrid. ultimately i think the thing that changed their relationship most was aryna reaching #1, because a) i think for her that was a really important achievement and helped to ease the "performance gap" between her and iga and b) iga said that she felt like others were "chasing" her for #1 and that losing actually kinda helped to take the pressure off. so i think both of them "mellowed out" a bit. and additionally that their next match-up was cancún where the weather took precedent over everything else lmfao.

fast-forward to now, and they're at the point where iga is still ahead in terms of achievement but, as aryna herself said, they're keeping it interesting with the match-ups, and aryna is catching up (particularly in terms of consistency). 3 grand slams to 5 is wayyy different from 1 grand slam to 4.

but i think aryna still sees iga as this target in her head for what she's chasing, which is why you hear her talk about iga in such a way, like she's surprised when iga doesn't win and that she's always putting pressure on herself to make the match-up interesting/to make sure they get the chance to play or make sure the matches they play are good. conversely iga is very matter-of-fact about the rivalry and her respect for aryna, and i think talks about them more as equals. "thank you, aryna, for sharing the court with me...thanks for forcing me to be a better player" in madrid and "i think we're both players that deserve to be in semifinals and finals...she's a great tennis player, what can i say?" in cincinnati.

i dont even know how to wrap this up. i think i know too much. sorry. but my point is i get you. i think sincaraz was founded on this general respect and admiration, which then developed into a rivalry, whereas igaryna was so one-sided/unbalanced in terms of rivalries from the start that there had to be some proverbial bloodshed before they could start liking each other.

[acourtofquestions]

"You'll come back," Manon said.

It sounded like more of a threat than anything

Dorian smirked. "Would you miss me if I didn't?"

Manon didn't reply. He didn't know why he expected her to.

He'd taken all of a step, when Asterin clasped his shoulder. "In and out, quick as you can," she warned him. "Take care of Narene." Worry indeed shone in the Second's gold-flecked black eyes. Dorian bowed his head. "With my life," he promised as he approached her mount and grasped the dangling reins. He didn't fail to miss the gratitude that softened Asterin's features. Or that Manon had already turned away from him.

A fool to start down this path with her. He should have known better.

The hours that passed were some of the longest of Manon's existence.

From anticipation, she told herself. Of what she had to do.

Abraxos, unsurprisingly, found them within an hour, his reins sliced from the struggle he'd no doubt waged and won with Sorrel. He waited, however, beside Manon in silence, wholly focused upon the gate where Dorian and Narene had vanished.

Time dripped by. The king's sword was constant weight at her side. She cursed herself for needing to prove-to him, to herself-that she refused to let him go into Morath for practical, ordinary reasons. Erawan wasn't at the Ferian Gap. It'd be safer. Somewhat. But if the Matrons were there … That was why he'd gone. To learn if they were. To see if Petrah truly commanded the host there, and how many Ironteeth were present. He had not been trained as a spy, but he'd grown up in a court where people wielded smiles and clothes like weapons. He knew how to blend in, how to listen. How to make people see what they wished to see. She'd sent Elide into the dungeons of Morath, Darkness damn her. Sending the King of Adarlan into the Ferian Gap was no different.

It didn't stop her breath from escaping when Abraxos stiffened, scanning the sky. As if he heard something they couldn't.

And it was the joy that sparked in her mount's eyes that told her.

Moments later, Narene sailed toward them, making a lazy path over the mountains, a dark-haired, pale-skinned rider atop her. He'd truly been able to change parts of himself. Had made his face nearly unrecognizable. And kept it that way.

Asterin rushed toward the mare, and even Manon blinked as her Second threw her arms around Narene's neck. Holding her tight. The mare only leaned her head against Asterin's back and huffed.

Manon hadn't dwelled long on what she'd say.

And as the three hundred Ironteeth witches filed into the hall, some coming off their patrols, Manon half wondered if she should have. They watched her, watched the Thirteen, with a wary disdain.

Their disgraced Wing Leader; their fallen Heir.

When all were gathered, Petrah, still standing in the doorway where she'd appeared, merely said, "My life debt for an audience, Blackbeak."

Manon swallowed, her tongue as dry as paper. Seated atop Abraxos, she could see every shifting movement in the crowd, the wide eyes or hands gripping swords.

"I will not tell you the particulars of who I am," Manon said at last. "For I think you have already heard them."

"Crochan bitch," someone spat.

Manon set her eyes on the Blackbeaks, stone-faced where the others bristled with hatred. It was for them she spoke, for them she had come here.

jacket, then hoisting up her white shirt. Rising in the stirrups to bare her scarred, brutalized abdomen. "She does not lie."

UNCLEAN

There, the word remained stamped. Would always be stamped.

"How many of you," Asterin called out, "have been similarly branded? By your Matron, by your coven leader? How many of you have had your stillborn witchlings burned before you might hold them?"

The silence that fell now was different from before. Shaking shuddering.

Manon glanced at the Thirteen to find tears in Ghislaine's eyes as she took in the brand on Asterin's womb. Tears in the eyes of all of them, who had not known. And it was for those tears, which Manon had never seen, that she faced the host again.

"You will be killed in this war, or after it. And you will never see our homeland again."

"What is it that you want, Blackbeak?" Petrah asked from the archway.

"Ride with us," Manon breathed. "Fly with us.

Against Morath. Against the people who would keep you from your homeland, your future." Murmuring broke out again. Manon pushed ahead, "An Ironteeth-Crochan alliance. Perhaps one to break our curse at last."

Again, that shuddering silence. Like a storm about to break Asterin sat back in the saddle, but kept her shirt open.

"The choice of how our people's future shall be shaped is yours," Manon told each of the witches assembled, all the Blackbeaks who might fly to war and never return. "But I will tell you this." Her hands shook, and she fisted them on her thighs. "There is a better world out there. And I have seen it."

Even the Thirteen looked toward her now.

"I have seen witch and human and Fae dwell together in peace. And it is not weakness to do so, but a strength. I have met kings and queens whose love for their kingdoms, their peoples, is so great that the self is secondary. Whose love for their people is so strong that even in the face of unthinkable odds, they do the impossible."

Manon lifted her chin. "You are my people. Whether my grandmother decrees it so or not, you are my people, and always will be. But I will fly against you, if need be, to ensure that there is a future for those who cannot fight for it themselves. Too long have we preyed on the weak, relished doing so. It is time that we became better than our foremothers." The words she had given the Thirteen months ago. "There is a better world out there," she said again. "And I will fight for it." She turned Abraxos away, toward the plunge behind them. "Will you?"

Manon nodded to Petrah. Eyes bright, the Heir only nodded back. They would be permitted to leave as they had arrived: unharmed.

So Manon nudged Abraxos, and he leaped into the sky, the Thirteen following suit.

Not a child of war. But of peace.

[izzy-b-hands]

one minor breakdown abt election fears, and then onto chores and playing some gta. you know. as you do

[rabbithaver]

every so often i will see a post from a leftist on this website that is so egregiously ableist that i remember that like. oh yeah the userbase of leftists on this website is violently anti-disabled people and will jump at any chance to demonize any of us for any reason. i just forget that fact because i'm extremely dedicated to curating my space

i'm paraphrasing here but i saw a post that said, "every time i see an American [disabled person] mention being scared about the election because they're afraid of losing their benefits i have to laugh. anybody who wants blood-soaked money from the US government deserves to starve" which. like. goodness that's a lot to unpack. i think we should burn the whole suitcase instead !

[shivroy]

the world before covid is not coming back, we can't turn back time, we can't live the way we did before, and just because the media on both left-wing and right-wing platforms is acting like it can doesn't make that untruth into reality. if you live the way you lived before, you are killing people. that's not an exaggeration, it is the reality that's being ignored in service of american apathy

[ilikecarsandlike4people]

.....well, that "testing" was a huge waste of time.

The doctor didn't even do the test I asked for, because it was "unnecessary" and "outdated" so instead he did a heart ultrasound that surprise surprise came back completely normal (the problem is nerve based) and when I told him that, he said that he believed it was purely because of my autonomic nervous system (like I said), however he said that he wouldn't write me a diagnosis and I shouldn't try to get one because "it's pointless, since there's no treatment plan anyway".

Basically: We won't diagnose you because we don't have a treatment plan, go home and deal with it.

I am getting so frustrated with this whole medical system, like what do you mean??? I need the diagnosis to get help with my studies? (Told him this as well but got completely dismissed).

argh

[eparvierr]

i'll never understand how people think they have any kind of romantic feelings for each other in canon 😭

[a-crawling-chaos]

found the thing that would ACTUALLY make me stop listening to malevolent (arthur and john having a father/son relationship)