#i don’t wanna fall in love and then move tho 🥺🥺

[of-mutts-and-men]

How does one acquire a person that will dress me in pup gear and take me to a gay bar. Asking for me.

[ofmermaidstories]

you saying you’d write an au for stardew is the equivalent of getting a rabbits foot and multiple prismatic shards in one day omg. even if u don’t do it the idea popping in ur head is already fantastic! i’m so happy you love the game i think it’s the perfect distraction for life !!! if only we could all just pack our things and move to our inherited farms and become the richest in town… it’s nepotism at work lol

please tae, i literally daydream about someone giving me a deed to a farm or a plot of land somewhere. 😭 and the thing is!!! like!!! farming’s not an easy job, it’s so dependant on the earth/weather, and even before climate change was a tangible threat it was a hard, hard living. 🥺 i get stressed out with my video game, lmao, 10pm and im still out in the fields hoeing or planting seeds, like. 💀 imagining doing that for like, 40+ plus to make a living……. you’d have to have a good team around you. 😩 farmhands, or family. a good spouse LOL. even a little hobby farm would be stressful………. and yet i still want that life. 😔 an orchard by the sea. 🥹 still stressful, but maybe slightly more manageable lmao.

i am trying so, so hard not to give into the temptation (not yet) to fulfil this wish via a fic LMAO. 🥹🙏🏽 i’m trying to feed it by doing like, small things: naming it (from the valley), making a playlist for it. god, i’ve gotten to the stage where i actively pause the game to write down little notes (things in our backpack: pink cake. a orange poppy flower. goat’s cheese. four cups of banana pudding. a totem with a weathered, deeply carved face. the pock-marked head of a mushroom). i am fighting for my life!!! the only thing that’s actually, properly stopping me from the follow through is that i don’t have a romantic end-game in mind. because in my head i’ve already given Reader three potential boyfies: izuku, katsuki, and maybe shouto (maybe shinsou instead). like, i can picture how friendships/relationships would form among them (izuku the kind, helpful guy. katsuki in the background, wary. shouto the son of the man who founded the company we worked for, back in the city; our work husband, who we joked to about following us out to the valley and who does). the one thing i’d want to do is have Reader find their way to Skull Caverns, and realise that all the magic they thought was whispering to just them has been whispering to other people, too—Izuku, sword in hand, staring at us in horror when he finds us cradling a large, spotted egg. Katsuki, rounding the corner after him, swearing black and blue about ghosts—sdhjfgklsdjflsfgkjsflkgj. i wanna write it so badly, just to get to that moment, LMAO. the mutual horror when all three of you are face-to-face in this giant, deadly, underground maze. the boys making you swear to secrecy; Izuku tearing into you for being so stupid, how did you even find this place, how did you know, do you understand what could’ve happened? you should’ve told them, you should’ve told him. your relief in finally having someone to talk to about all the weird shit you keep stumbling across. the way this would give Izuku an excuse to drop in to you, on the farm. Katsuki turning up to help with the tilling or seasonal planting, the harvest. i want to write about it!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! all of it!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! being on the dock in the middle of winter as the snow is falling, all those festive, jewel-like boats bobbing gently before you, waiting with their… winter star trees, or their paintings. the sea salt and the charred warmth of coffee beans. the mermaid show with all it’s tawdry secrecy…… the worn carpet under your feet, the mismatched planks that hold steady despite the creaking. i just think!!!!!!!!!!!!!! it would be neat to do. 🥹 i just!! it’s such a good world to play in LMAO. and if i could come up with a ending for it—a true, stops-me-in-my-tracks kind of ending—not even my attempts at nail-digging self-discipline would stop me from writing it.

for now tho it’s just my yapping, lmao. my yapping and my threats. 🥹

[gently-decaying-flowers]

do you wanna hear about my plans for my story 🥺 TOO LATE BAM BAM POW💥💥💥

TFOTR plot, characters, etc……

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hi welcome to hell :3

aka the planning for The Fall of the Raven (tfotr)

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Revon Lyre (Ray-ven Leer): MC

- they/them

- 22 years old

- lives in a small (shit) town in new jersey

- has been at the “rehab house” for about three years

- infamous in the town- well known for their crimes (killed their dad, robbed stores, vandalism)

- dissociative disorder and depression

- has been good friends with Lukas* since childhood and more recently Lindsay*

- genuinely trying to create a better life, but feels like there’s no end to it all

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*Lukas Carle: MC’s childhood friend

- he/him

- 23 years old

- has known Revon since elementary school

- has a shit home life

- used to steal, went to juvie for a while and fixed himself up there

- caring and protective of Revon (even tho they claim they don’t need his help)

- struggles with PTSD but he tries not to let it affect helping his friend

- lives in his own apartment but sleeps over with Revon whenever Susan* allows

- optimistic on the surface, a little broken inside

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*Lindsay Webster: MC’s neighbor and friend(?)

- she/her

- 22 years old

- has been living at the rehab house for four years (just before revon got there)

- struggles with alcoholism and got arrested for drinking and driving

- deeply depressed, fucks around, doesn’t give a shit about her own life but she’s a good friend

- she likes listening, but talks a lot to fill the silence

- doesn’t see a point in trying to fix herself, thinks she’s too far gone- she only stays at the house so she’s not a danger to others

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Aster Larson: MC’s neighbor, friend (?) (LATER IN THE STORY)

- he/him

- 21 years old

- moves to the house after getting kicked out

- they’re one of the few people there who aren’t there on behalf of crime, Susan* just took him in

- very weary of revon (mostly because they’re an asshole to him) but bonds with lukas pretty quickly

- later on cares a lot for Diphylleia*

- struggles with OCD and anxiety

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Diphylleia Marne (Di-feel-ee-yah Mah-rn): MC’s neighbor, friend (?) (LATER IN THE STORY)

- xe/xem/xyr

- 21 years old

- moved to the house for arson and psychosis issues

- quickly bonds to Aster, wishes to be closer to Revon

- very quiet at first but kind and a little sarcastic one you get to know xem

- struggles with hallucinations and paranoia (so they’ve been stigmatized their whole life as “crazy”)

- trying to get better, but knows it’s unlikely they’ll ever get to live a normal life.

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✨half assed summary~✨

A slightly angsty (very sad) found family story about broken teens turned broken adults, finding their way to each other and helping each other find themselves.

*NOTE I FORGOT!!!!!: Susan is a sweet, older woman who’s a retired psychologist. she bought an apartment complex, where she takes in younger troubled people and provides a safe home, and counseling for them. Susan is an icon and we love her

[seiwas]

this is a bit random (and admittedly and understandably weird?), but im trying to be consistent about waking up early and having a morning routine (lmao is this tmi); im writing/asking you because ur the first person that pops in my head when it comes to mornings (u shared before, if im not mistaken(?), that ur very fond of mornings), SO im talking too much lol, BUT im just really curious (and asking for advice honestly 😔👉🏻👈🏻) on how to stay consistent about waking up early… and loving mornings… 🥹

(u dont have to answer if this is weird! i understand, truly!!) (thank u very much 😭)

hi nonie!! not weird at all omg i find it so sweet that you’ve come to me for advice!! 🥹 i’m so touched!

i love that you’re trying to form a morning a routine—i’m a morning person and a lot of the success of my day hinges on how i start it!

i’ll put this under the cut in case it gets too long!! but these are the things that have personally worked for me!

the night before

get enough sleep! (sleep earlier bit by bit, you don’t have to do it all at once! making it manageable and sustainable is key 🥹)

drinking tea helps too (as long as it isn’t caffeinated)—anything to relax your body and mind!

things around you that can help

alarms help at training your body to wake up at a specific time, you can also adjust this 10 minutes earlier day by day so your wake time pushes back! (over time you’ll find that you’ll be able to do it on your own!)

getting natural sunlight in (personally helps me wake up the most. if you don’t have a window, maybe smth like a timed ac might help too!)

leave your phone far away from you, to the point that you have to stand up to get it! (so you don’t reach for it in bed and stay there and fall asleep again 😭)

the morning of

as soon as you wake up, get up. (this is really tough but it’s a mental battle 😭 you’ll def be sleepy 😭 but i can assure you, the sleepiness will almost always go away around 10 minutes after you get up and move around 😭)

fix your bed! (it can trick your mind into thinking that you don’t wanna get into it and mess it up again)

get some natural sunlight (it’s good for you and i think also helps w your circadian rhythm for later on at night! you can do this by either going out for a walk or if you want to stay in, some yoga by the window is nice too!)

go along your day as planned!

*naps in the afternoon may or may not be helpful, but as a general rule i try to avoid it! but if you really need to get some sleep in, a nice 20 minute nap works wonders for me!

consistency takes time so don’t shock yourself into waking up from 10am one day to suddenly 6am the next—it’s okay to take it gradually! if you want to love the mornings, you’re going to have to make it an enjoyable process for you 🥹

i personally love it because i like seeing the early morning light (not necessarily the sunrise but it’s a softer light right before it becomes really sunny!) (sunrises are also pretty great tho)

i also look forward to mornings a lot because i love breakfast and breakfast food, and i love making my matcha latte! little things like these push me to get up from bed immediately so i can start the day 🥹

i’ve found that it also really helps if i start my day with a workout, but i know this really depends on the person! i prefer it because i have the most energy in the morning and it keeps me awake the more i’m moving!

i hope this was helpful!! let me know if you have any other questions/update me on your progress!! this is so exciting 🥺 a fellow morning lover!!! good luck!! ☀️💗

[frecklenog]

finally watching house of wax 1953 ,, thots under tha cut

YAYYY WAX WOMAN W KNIFE

HI MR PRICE HIII HIIIII

the subtitles dont work o no :(

“that should be they now” pronoun user ..

soo curios whether these r real wax sculptures.. some of them are. obvious. but others i straight up expect to move. the craftsmanship is incredible

HI JOANIE !!!!!!!!

also curious about the clothes. are they real cloth or are there sculpted parts too. is it just a full body underneath or is it just the skin that’s visible. tho admittedly i don’t know much abt wax sculptures despite having the ‘05 movie as a longstanding hyperfixation 🥴

HIS NAME IS FUCKING JARED????

oh okay he just turned booth’s head. so that’s probably not connected to like. more wax skin.

if jared is the one doing the killing i support him. jared did nothing wrong this mf is setting his art on fire for insurance fraud. he should murder

marie :(

ok the burning clothes r answering my questions LMAO

JARED GET UPPPP

JARED

jared you fucking suck at fighting. knock it off w the water bucket and KILL THIS FOOL

ono. explodegeon.

OLD TIMEY FIRE DEPARTMENT YAYYYYYYYY HORSES YAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAY 🐴🐴🐴

OH THIS BITCH.

“had i been there i might have saved him” kys you fuck

“they always want a corpse :)” i love this strange woman

ohhhh all these mary poppins ass dresses J’ADORE

i hope jared is waiting in this fucker’s house with a club

OH MY GOD YAYYYYYYYY

he’s got a little bit of a “freddy kreuger cosplaying nosferatu” thing goin on. tbh

hiding..

someone get this man a cane or smth. my god. SOMETHING

LMFAOOOOO GOODBYE BITCH

“yes. but he hung himself instead 🥰” SHE IS SO BIZZARE

“you got all the brains and all i got is the boobs!”

CATHY’S SO SWEET 🥺🥺🥺

her laugh is. a little much. cute here and there but with the amount she does it it gets grating. but it’s very much of the time ain’t it. cinderella and snow white and alice in wonderland ass giggle

oh hey jared i almost forgot this was house of wax

SUE ???????

i mean tbf. what on EARTH is jared doing here. but maybe he would explain if he could get some dialogue

not that i don’t love silly chase scenes. i just wanna know Why yfeel

jared please leave sue alone

SUE YOUR SHOES?

oh weaponshoes. punch shoes.

ok i was here for killing matt or whatever his name was but cathy didn’t deserve that :/// cmon jared

I DIDNT THINK THOSE AUTOMOBILES WENT FAST ENOUGH TO HURT ANYBODY AHSJSGSJGXJAGSJSBAN

dont call dead women “honey” like that that’s weird.

I DONT THINK EMBALMING FLUID MAKES PEOPLE SIT UP LIKE THAT.

someone sit up again that was funny

YAYYYYY HI JARED

he is just scrimbling around……..

boy what on earth are you doing

is he going to defenestrate her bo- HE IS OH MY GODDDD

who is helping him. what

JARED DONT STEAL BODIES?????

“no human being can look like that” you wouldn’t say that about a scarred vet you chunk of shit i oughta kick you in the both of your balls

who is this very attractive man in the apron……….

JARED OH MY GOD. HI JARED !!!!!!!! how.

igor is so pretty and so fucking talented. would. in a heartbeat i would.

jared’s wheelchair fucking rules. vincent should’ve used a wheelchair i think.

i wonder if this is really how any of this process goes. it makes more sense than vinnie’s godawful shower

MATT FALLING OUT OF THE BOX AJSHSJHSNZHSJSB

daaamn this movie has an intermission. not even an hour in

HELLO PADDLEBALL MAN

OH MY GOD IT MOOOOOOOOVESSSSSSSSS

the 3d nonsense is so funny omg

THE LADIES PEEKING THE WAX DICK SKDHJDBSNDB

WAX CHOPPPPP

oh millie :(

WHY DO YOU CARRY SMELLING SALTS. JARED. IS THAT TYPICAL 50S BEHAVIOR. (genuinely unsure)

just a dead ass body on display lmao get fucked matt

the chamber of what.

OH MY GOD CATHY.

jared this is why we don’t just put wax on human bodies. you get found out by the friends of the deceased. also the rotting

jared please dont kill sue i like sue. i liked cathy :((

jared seems like a chill dude. aside from the.

waves my hand vaguely. You Know

please got JUST SCULPT HER. JARED. JUST SCULPT HER. STOP CHEATING

something is deeply wrong w the paddleball man. sir this is post-hayes code why do you have balls in your mouth

JARED. JUST ASK HER TO MODEL. CHRIST.

honestly tho WHAT is the explanation for his face. please. pl

THOSE DRESSES LOOK SOOOOO FUN TO SPIN AROUND IN !!!!!!!! 🥰🕯️

“you never saw a show like this in provincetown” MASSACHUSETTS MENTIONED 🐞🐞🐞🐞🐞 (there r no chickadee/elm/mass flag emojis)

PTOWN ALSO MENTIONED 🏳️‍🌈🏳️‍🌈🏳️‍🌈🏳️‍🌈🏳️‍🌈

girl put your ass away i’m here to watch vincent price be Odd and Peculiar

“cathy had the habit of wearing an earring in her right ear. she had the lobe of her right ear only pierced for that” cathy was out there in 1953 using flags for gay men to spot each other not established for another two decades

sometimes i watch dancers in old movies like this and i try to spot my grandma maggiepat. that’s not really related to the movie but i do wonder. i know she was in the red shoes…

“why should joan of arc have her right ear pierced?” “why not? they wore them then.” “two, not one.” WHY DID CATHY ONLY WEAR ONE THEN !!!!!! someone who knows about 50s culture help me

ohh his name is henry jared. whatever.

the long highwaisted skirts….. :)) 🕯️

sue. sue get down from there

igor is SOOO HANDSOME god okay i’ll be normal sorry 😔

jared. no. bad. knock that off. spraying him with a squirt bottle

god he’s INCREDIBLY charming tho. mad props to mr price

oh my god LEON..

sue should Not be in here alone at night. girl this is a horror movie and you are TRESPASSING

oh hello skeleton

unidentified fucking thing just drifting creepily around the room 🆗🆒

WIG…………….

hiiii mr price

ok jared can walk like. fine. who ACTUALLY fucking killed cathy whose physicality was that

HE WOULD NOT BE ABLE TO MOVE A WAX FACE …….

JARED SHES STILL ALIVE. JARED. JARED.

why was leon convinced by that guy pouring liquor djgsjdbs

idc what happens i could fix igor. me and him and vincent sinclair. fuck timelines

hdkdhjdgd THIS FUCKING GUYY

i’d let igor do this to me. who said that.

HES SO RESOURCEFUL AND INTELLIGENT

girl what is scratching the wax gonna do. be serious

LET IGOR BEHEAD THIS GUY

HE IS DEAF AND MUTE LEAVE HIM ALONE STOP SLAPPING HIM I WILL BECOME VIOLENCE

why are you using the pointy end of that thing to bust thru this door. surely there are more effective ways to go about this

goodbye pig

“every time i shave i can still feel that guillotine blade” it never made contact with you. or you would be dead. dont try to be funny

why did shane sneeze.

NOOOOOOO IGOR :((((((((

[twinstarlovers]

You know… I’m wondering if I’m meant to 100% like disconnect from you not literally but like from here & shit like not post. In a way I refuse to but I wonder if it’s like an attachment thing. I don’t want to stop posting here. I think part of it is me people pleasing cus I’m caring about your feelings & I don’t want you to feel like I don’t care or whatever or I’m just moving on. It feels as if I’m doing you dirty basically. Plus my libra ass doesn’t feel like risking getting my ass beat from the universe but also I don’t want to leave because I like it here but I’m literally talking to a ghost but still. You a cute ghost 🥹👻. Anyways, since I have attachment issues.. I think this is like the final lesson (not like ever but for rn) like to fully detach from you but still loving myself outside of here. I’m still loving you.. just not showing you by living my life in peace & shit & not self sabotaging. I’m kinda sad cus I don’t want to leave. I think it’s lowkey lack of trust in the universe too because I feel like if I detach then I won’t have you. I don’t have you but this account is what I have that’s close enough to you. I wanna cry rn omg. This is so sad. I know the universe will bring us back & shit but it’s more scary not posting because it’s like I’m forgetting about you & if I’m forgetting about you then you won’t come back. I had this similar experience when I first had to let go of your ghost, I still remember that day. You were gone but I was still living w your ghost & that was the only thing keeping me somewhat sane. I didn’t want to let go even tho you were already gone. 321 but why am I lowkey crying. It feels like a goodbye or sum. I know my ass is gonna have to delete the tumblr app to stay away. Im doing well tho. Did womb healing today. Very intense, lots of tears. This situationship is good too. He’s great but he’s not you so it makes me feel detached. I feel like I could fall in love if you didn’t exist. I’m working on my trust issues w this guy. He’s great but I think that’s what triggers me. Especially because all I’ve ever attracted was shitty people, it’s confusing energy like for someone to be genuine. Even tho there’s a lot of ‘firsts’ w him, it’s better this way because the ‘firsts’ are not the best because of my wounded self & the universe & I wouldn’t want to put you through that. I wish I could feel more but I do not but I think that’s my sacral chakra which is the reason for me doing womb healing. I feel like shit tho posting on here & talking to him cus I feel like I’m cheating lol. I ain’t cheating cus I’m talking to me ☝🏼🙄. Anyways I am pretty sad now. I like to come on this account & just re read shit or see the videos that I posted as a form of comfort but as you can see it’s also some sort of attachment. My friend be like “let him goooo” & in my head I’m like… I’m not meant to but she’s right like I gotta let you go by not posting you & stuff like I can’t actuallyyyyy let go if I wanted to. In a way I’m being delusional cus I’m not actually talking to you but then I always feel like I am because I lowkey am so that doesn’t necessarily make me delusional, it makes me intuitive? Idkkkk but yeah I have to say goodbye now.

I hope to talk/see you very soon. Ima always miss you & want you forever & don’t let me not posting or me detaching make you think otherwise. You gotta remember our purpose Lamo ☝🏼🪐. Lamo gotta be a strong boy 💪🏼🧸. I’ll be a strong girl for you too 💪🏼💓. It us FOREVER ❤️‍🔥. You know I promise to do the work cus I wanna be w you. These situationships have NUN on you 🫵🏻🙄🤚🏼, they ain’t mamo & they never will be ☝🏼😒 but this account ain’t gonna die. I’ll come back when the time is right. This account for da books 📚💞🎞️ soooo hell yeah I’m coming back. Take care of our account for me tho 🥺🙏🏻. I’ll take care of Goresi, Mamosi, Chickira & the bunny. Maybe not Goresi 🙄. I’ll keep her alive tho 🤷🏻‍♀️. Stay safe 🫵🏻🥺💖. Kissies & huggies for dovey always ♥️. I love you forever ❤️‍🔥 my lovely twin.

Bye bye Lamo Mamo 👋🏼🥺🧸💗.

[love-and-books320]

cringe vent post ig? Like literally pointless ranting to the void stuff

this really has nothing to do with anything but that’s the majority of what I post anyway. So I went on this school trip with about 25-ish kids. I’m pretty much friends with all of them but closer with some than others. It was great trip and I honestly had so much fun.

the plane ride back was open seating, But we were a late boarding group and there weren’t that many options. I sat in the very back row next to this guy, let’s call him A. He’s super nice and a good friend but I’m not at all interested in him.

then, this other guy, let’s call him L, asked if he could sit with us and obviously we said yes. L was going on the school trip with us and I’ve known him for years. I, like most girls who know him, used to have a very embarrassing and obvious crush on him. He’s one of those guys. I’m pretty sure he knew that I liked him lmao. I’m way over it now bc I’m not about to be a groupie for any boy. And also, he’s nice but he’s not very smart or considerate. Like, he’s not mean, ever, but he’s one of those guys that’s popular and careless ig. And he’s kinda a player. Or tries to be

anyway bc we were in the back row of the plane he had some trouble getting to his seat(I was in the aisle and A was in the window seat) so I offered to move to the middle seat. I would honestly do this for anyone bc I don’t rlly care about my own discomfort as long as other people are happy lmao. Also, both A and L are superrrrr tall and I’m pretty short so it just made sense.

then L was like “oh I didn’t know you meant that 🥺” when he realized I took the middle seat for him which was sweet. Then I just kinda settled in and ignore them.

it was a really late flight so I was exhausted and trying not to fall asleep. But I was like fuck it so I realaxed and closed my eyes.

and then my dumb fucking brain was like “oooh what if you fell asleep and your head was on L’s shoulder” and even tho I didn’t and still don’t like him I was like oooh cute. I don’t like L but I can admit he’s a lot cuter than A and just more preferable for cute moments idkkkk

and I so kinda completely aware of my actions subconsciously started leaning my head toward him. And I turned my head the other way a few times too so I wasn’t obvious lol. I wasn’t totally asleep, I was aware, but I was very sleepy and pretty much seemed alseep to everyone else. anyway my head never fully hit his shoulder but it was like lightly resting on it for a bit and it was nice. Honestly idk if he even noticed. He was playing some game on his phone and leaned forward a few time to lock in ig but then leaned back and seemed to like it be fine with it idk.

I still don’t like him and looking back on this I cringe so bad but he was just warm and I just wanna be loved and held and cherished not by him ugh but like by someone I wanna feel safe with someone and not be embarrassed I wanna be lovedddd

[moonchildstyles]

She’d be cuddling into him :( her back pressed into him his lips on her shoulder leaving tiny kisses and he was truly just being innocent loving on his angel his hands around her waist maybe fingers running through the skin that is showing :( but she feels so needy yet her eyes are closing by themselves she can’t even turn around to face him and out of nowhere h hears her whines his eyes shoot wide open looking at her “you okay angel?” And it’s getting too much she whines out a “no help please” as she lowers his hand to where she needs him most his hand holding her needy parts firmly “feeling needy baby?” she’s falling in and out of sleep but he’s wide awake now she hums as he pulls her closer “just need daddy to fix you right up?” Turning her body around to face her. Her whines get louder at the name he called himself that gets her off so well she pushes his hand closer grinding on it “no no come on baby be good for me don’t you wanna be good?” he taunts here everything is too much sleep is taking over her his hand feeling her feels too good she want to connect their lips wants to kiss him so bad but he feels so far away and she’s too tired to move she whispers “good wanna be good” his fingers slowly slip under her underwear just teasing her “yeah? Gonna be good? For who? Tell me” her eyes close his other hand feeling her cheek “look at me angel” her eyes opening up looking at his eyes as if she’s begging him to feel her “you, wanna be good for you Harry please I-” his fingers finally slip into her giving her exactly what she needed. “So needy even when you are sleeping just want me to take care of you hmm” her arms around his neck eyes closed feeling so warm and fulfilled a smile on her face and he’s just looking at her that’s his angel his needy little angel she is humming right into his ear shivers are going up his body moans are leaving her soft lips he knows he’s getting hard he can’t help it with her noises and her wetness the way she is grinding on his hand but he’s focusing on her and it’s not hard he loves giving her all his attention and she is so sweet and needy and sleepy he is not sure she’ll remember this in the morning (and he hopes she does he wants to tease her about it) but it’s worth it making her happy and less needy right now is worth it and how could he ever say no to her? With the way she’s holding on to him leaving kisses in his neck whining and moaning hips moving with his hand he’s getting weaker by the minute

I’ve literally read this like 9 times since u sent it:( like I can see this being like she had a Dream🥸 ab him and woke up v needy and h is just being his cute self touching and holding her in the sheets and at first she’s just too sleepy to really like try to make anything happen but then it’s just too much and that’s when she does the “h please🥺” and he’s surprised bc he didn’t even know she was awake he was just ab to fall asleep too but as soon as he hears her little voice he knows that’s not happening anytime soon and “you okay baby?” Bc he can’t tell what she needs from him she’s so sleepy smushy:( and she’s wiggly squirmy and “no:( need you🥺” and she moves his hand that’s on her tummy down between her legs and h can already tell she had to have had a good dream if she’s already so warm and needy for him and ohhhhhh baby he’s all Cooey to her:( need daddy already? You were just sleeping what’s that about? And ughhhhh she’s still never getting over hearing him all himself daddy like that it never gets old and even tho she’s still sleepy eyes are closed her body feels so awake as she’s grinding into his hand and whining for him bc yes yes yes she needs him so bad already:( she wants to kiss him but he’s so far away and she’s in her warm sleepy spot she doesn’t want to leave it and that would mean moving his hand away and that’s not what she wants at all:( and he’s kissing over her neck and “cmon baby gotta talk to me remember? Wanna be good right?” And it’s like instinct the way she’s nodding her head and yes yes yes:( wanna be good :( and he loves seeing her so sweet and sleepy ofc but before he goes anyt further he needs to see her needs to know that she’s not so sleepy that she’s not There to tell him she wants him so “look at me darling come here” and he’s rolling her around in his arms even tho she’s whining and she’s looking up at him sleepy blinks and bleary eyes and he stops to hold her face and hey baby:) you with me? Awake enough to love me or should we wait until morning? And he can see the way she blinks that she’s trying to show him she’s awake that she’s just being his sleepy girl and no no I’m awake daddy please🥺 and he’s all yeah? Who are u gonna be good for then hm? And he’s already slipping his hand back down between their bodies and pushing at the waist of her panties but he’s not going further until she tells him and it’s all sleepy she’s and pouts w you wanna be good for you h :( and that’s all he wants to head before hand in her panties and finger sinking inside with his palm on her clit and it’s the way her eyes close again and her mouth drops open and she’s so pliant and looks like she could cum so fast already and oooh baby:( you’re so needy aren’t u? Even when ur dreaming u need me huh? And she’s not even embarrassed when she tells him yes daddy always thinking about you and she wraps her arms around his neck and cuddles so close to him and he can feel her smiling against his neck bc she’s so happy and blissed out w him taking care of her and she’s moaning and gasping and just making her little noises right into his ear and h feels his whole body tighten just listening to her and he has to stop himself from moaning out bc she just sounds so pretty like this but his whole focus is only on her and the way she’s grinding into his hand and she’s so wet and right on his fingers and god if she wasn’t so sleepy he’d probably slip himself inside but he knows that’s not the point right now and just it’s enough right now to feel her breath going down his neck and little gasps and making her feel good like that’s enough for him right now and hs can’t wait to do this again in the morning when she’s still sleepy and soft for him 🥸

[bchanslvr]

ok i’m sorry for this, i’m in a hurt/comfort mood but what about a blurb or headcanon about comforting harry after sirius dies. i’m prepared to cry 🥺💖

𝐈 𝐰𝐚𝐧𝐧𝐚 𝐛𝐞 𝐲𝐨𝐮𝐫𝐬

pairing - harry potter x fem!reader

words - 1, 194

warnings - sooooo much angst, fluff, hurt/comfort, character death, please let me know if i missed any tw!!

a/n - the title is inspired by the song itself 'I wanna be yours' by Arctic Monkeys. and i hope i made you cry like you requested! <3 Also I went wayy past a small blurb, I couldn’t help myself.

─── ･ ｡ﾟ☆: *.☽ .* :☆ﾟ. ───

Oh how you wished everything could change. How you wished the world wasn’t so cruel. If not for you. For your boyfriend.

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"EXPELLIARMUS!," the shout echoed through the hollow room, the sound now deflated by other curses, shouts, the sound of wind whipping through the air as people fought for their lives.

"NICE ONE JAMES!," yelled an old but gentle voice through the crowd. You couldn’t see from where you were, blocking yet another spell from one of the death-eaters as you shielded yourself from further hexes. But you knew things were getting quiet dark and gruesome up above near the veil. The hundred year old arch, crumbling from years of damage and ageing, a soft blanket of cold nothingness floating in the middle. A beautiful but dangerous fate. "AVADA KEDAVARA!," a shrilly, pyshco voice of a female broke through the tender walls of a heart. At the note of a unforgivable, everyone’s gaze altered. No. No. This-this can’t be happening. NO! Everyone seemed to freeze in utter horror and shock as they watched Sirius Black fall through the veil. A hand they saw, reaching out for the last time, as if to feel the world one last time before he vanished. Gone. Completely gone like a speck of dust on a windy day. Your gaped at the scene for no longer a second before switching to him. Oh how you wanted to run to him, and hold him in your arms as you whispered everything will be okay. But your feet apparently were content being glued to the floor as you watched the next few minutes pass by. Remus rushed over to Harry as he held him back, his body struggling to hold the teenage boy in his arms as he screamed in frustration and pain. It was the most heart-breaking thing you’ve witnessed in your life, your heart clenching even more tightly as your mind kept shouting like a broken record that he was your boyfriend, your lover that was suffering, what the hell are you doing? get up there and help him! But yet you stayed there, dumb-folded as you tried to process what happened. Your mind too slow to comprehend the last few minutes of Dumbledore and Voldemort’s fight, that your Harry, your sweet, loving, Harry, tried to crucio Bellatrix, the hands of your best friend Hermione Granger wrapping around your shoulders as she clung onto Tonks as you three apparated away. - A soft knocking filled the empty hallway of Grimrauld Place, the emptiness getting to you as you knocked again but the thought of what was inside making you whisper a: "Can I come in?" Silence. A soft yet broken voice replied with a gentle, "Yes". The ancient door creaked open loudly as you entered, the room inside filled with a blank kind of sadness. You eyes gently washed over the room as you took in the sight of what was on the bed.

Harry...You thought sympathetically as you saw him wrapped in an old black hoodie, curled up in a ball, holding onto something with tears in his eyes as he shivered on the old bed. "Do you want me to stay or leave?," you asked, wise enough to think about Harry’s tender emotions. "No don’t leave! Please stay...," he blurted. Your heart stung more as you watched his eyes glaze over at you, tears starting to prickle again. But you will be having none of that as you walked towards the bed. You motioned your hands towards him to move over a bit so you can adjust yourself against the headboard. He got up immediately(tho with a clumsy grip)as you gently reached out your hand to him, knowing more than ever to be precise and gentle with your movements at a time like this. He crawled over to you, dropping what seemed to be a letter as he moved closer to you. You spread your legs widely, motioning for him to get in between, which he did, gently resting his head on your breasts, his arms hanging onto your shirt tightly as his legs curved into you. Due to the close proximity of each other’s body, you got to hear his stuttered breathing and gentle beat of his heart. Tears spilled down his red cheeks like a fountain as he tried to get closer to you, as if he wanted to be inside you. Your own e/c eyes starting to prickle with hushed tears at seeing your lover in just a depressing stage. But you had to be the strong one here. Harry needed you right now, he’s depending on you to make him feel better. So you softly wrapped your arms around his shaking figure, your chin resting atop his hair, one of your arms coming up to comb gently through his soft locks. He broke down completely after that, such a small gesture bringing him so much comfort and love. He sobbed silently, clutching onto you like a lifeline as he released his pent-up emotions. Your heart ached for the fragile boy on you, damning whoever was listening for doing something so mean and cruel. Hasn’t he had enough already?!? You reasoned in your head as you held him tighter. You made out some words through his heart-wrecking sobs, such as "I-I’m so sorry-", "Why?", "Hurts so much-". After those lines, you made it your goal to protect him from now on. Who cares what other things? He was your Harry after all, and if you wanted to protect him and take care of him because no one gives a damn about his feeling, then you will. His sobs lowered a spectacular amount as you kept cooing soft words in his ear, a gentle reassurance that he was not alone, that he needent be sorry for something he didn’t even do, just those 3 words, I love you, soothing those rips in his heart, your words stitching the large gash inside inside him back together. You could tell he was becoming tired, he must of been mourning the loss of his godfather all day, the darkness of a pitch black sky taking over the shining blue, the moon creeping up slowly, replacing the hot-blazing warmth of the sun with a gentle, cool shine. His eyelids drooped slowly after fighting so long to keep them open, your fingers tugging on his hair gently till you heard the quieted, soft snores of the man you love. You let a small smile of love graze your lips as your own eyelids fluttered. Your mind taking you away to a dreamland where everything was perfect and filled with only love, happiness and Harry. Both your bodies warming against each other as you rested in peace. And if Remus and Tonks came in the middle of the night to check up on you both, and if they smiled with watery eyes at the beautiful image you and Harry created because you both reminded them so much of Lilly and James.

Then they did. And so did you, as your arms instinctively tightened against the delicate sleeping body on you because it was your world tonight. And it was filled with only love, happiness and Harry.

At least if only for tonight...

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taglist - @dearseungie @hey-there-angels [just send an ask or a comment to be added or removed :]

[noona96n]

Hey off topic maybe a bit weird questions but do you have favourite beyond evil fics?

Or fics in general for any fandom tbh I'm interested in your tastes but beyond evil is where I'm at rn and you like that show, so..

my absolute fav Beyond Evil fics that i implore u to read it 🥺👉👈

here is the deepest secret (everyone knows) WIP, NOT RATED

like pressing buttons E

consign me not to darkness G

a cherry-petal eye G

in my breath again T

prison visit M

devotion as a blood sport T

on the hook of your splendor E

other Beyond Evil fics that i also love

reeled in E

i don’t know much about gentleness, but i will protect you from now on. T

in the fields that day M (TAGS)

cat whisperer T

and i watch you breath as i stood bleeding T

i'll wait by the stairs for you, wrapped up in smoke T

my own soul's warning T

i carry my love for you like my teeth T

tempest. T

the social network

wend and repeat (until true) E

in the details M

read 73 between 76 the 85 lines T

doing it right E

MCU

blóð ok Íss: a Fairy Tale E (PAIRING)

eidolon M (PAIRING)

the act of creation will be your salvation M

she is not a terra-cotta warrior T

the supersoldier's amnesiac groom E

tin soldier T

every shade of you T

nirvana in fire

provenance M

catharsis G

no grave can hold my body down NOT RATED

a rose by any other name would smell as sweet M

you've got mail T

the origin of pearl T

your hair is time E

a suitable man T

bleach

seed E (TAGS)

always leaving NOT RATED

star wars

an inevitability E (TAGS)

mission reports G

perceptions G

currents E (PAIRING)

waking up besides you im a loaded gun E (TAGS)

eleven stars G

handpicked G

minute E (PAIRING+TAGS)

dreamfield E

even as E (PAIRING+TAGS)

to have and to hold E (TAGS)

naruto

anchor up to me love M

blessed T

change fills my time M

rest with me until a brighter day M

everyday is exactly the same T

fate & circumstances T

fill your mouth with berries E

shadows in the sand E

touch-starved T (PAIRING)

sunburned T (PAIRING)

got7

dear desperado, i dont wanna be alone T

coming home G

spades two E

we best love

ten, twenty, infinity (hold me) T

querencia E

bungou stray dogs

of days past T

o children (give my gun away when it's loaded) M

the mourning after M

brute E

the king eternal monarch

the stars are filming us for no one E

the oppa trap E

figure skating (RPF)

tête-à-tête G

ur shadow on the back of my hand G

sherlock

the imaginary friend G

misdialed T

reigen seliger geister NOT RATED (TAGS)

jujutsu kaisen

u hear the day beckoning T

countdown to success T

the care & feeding of T

instructions for self destruction T

the old guard

shoreline T

hannibal

phillia E (TAGS)

wolf & i E (TAGS)

the fault in my code E (TAGS)

my roommate is a detective

domesticity is intimacy earned G

star trek

into dust E

gravity falls

imprinting M (PAIRING)

mad maxy fury road

the allmother of the citadel T

howl's moving castle (ghibli movie)

hearts & their consumption T

the lord of the rings

the long road T

the gap between us NOT RATED

and miles to go before i sleep T

chernobyl (hbo)

they that do not deserve the light E

stray kids

kim & bang T

harry potter

and we mend our broken wings T

and in their triumph die, like fire & powder T

2 moons

doubt ur intentions T

eagle of the ninth

what is begotten T

haikyuu

on stranger tides T

brunch friends M

shining stars T

i have like 600 fics bookmarked as 'favorite', so, uh, sorry if there are too many, i just couldn't decide which one to rec esp when there's no specific fandom 😭✋

also, im fully aware that some fics are v disturbing but they're written so beautifully despite the subject matter but also my tolerance is fckn high as fck i read dead dove do not eat fics w/o batting an eyelash lmao

also also i was forced to wrap up here bcs i reached 100 links limit rip sorry about that... hope u enjoy this long and draw out list tho 😅 and if u want more, im happy to continue the list lol

[illumiiiz]

how they hold you — atla hcs

↳ feat. Aang, Zuko, & Sokka

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A/N:  So I had actually planned on posting these like,, five months ago or something but then I kinda forgot about them? Somehow?? And then I randomly got incentive to finish them after classes today?? Idk lol but anyhow here they are and I hope y’all enjoy!!

(P.S. If you want me to do a pt. 2 or have some cute hcs of your own, drop me an ask!! I’d love to hear any feedback!)

Summary: How these ATLA boys give hugs and cuddles! I think about those three things a lot. Mainly self-indulgent but I hope you enjoy them too!! :)

Warnings: much cute and softness hehe; ‘x reader’ implications ofc

Streaming: Heat Waves (slowed + reverb) - Glass Animals

[MASTERLIST]

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AANG

oh you guys, Aang... Aang is a gem

Pretty much down for hugs whenever and wherever

Had a bad day? A disappointment of some sort? Meeting up again after a long time (or even just a few hours but want one anyway)? Boy’s gotchu!!

He gives great hugs too btw

Def the type to run to you and throw his arms around your neck as a greeting

ESPECIALLY if he particularly missed you. “Y/N!! You’re back!! Hi!!”

However,, any other time he’ll let you put your arms over his shoulders and he’ll tuck his arms snugly underneath yours and around your waist, and lean his head against yours

I imagine Aang’s hugs to be like, really soft and comfy, but he also hugs you just tight enough so you’ll smile? Y’know??

Probably won't be the one to let go first unless he’s been wanting to show you a thing he found or learned. “Oh yeah! C’mere, I wanna show you this!”

He will let go as soon as you start to tho bc he doesn’t wanna make you uncomfortable in any way

Also will rub circles on your back to calm you down if you’re upset or sad 🥺

Probably also the kind of person to slide his hands down your arms and grab your hands after hugging you, like he just doesn't really wanna let go yet

As for cuddles? :D

Honestly I think he’d be super giggly about cuddling for the first like. long while.

maybe even all the time sjfnvjgkkb

Like it takes him a while to get used to it even tho he literally hugs you all the time?? So like nervous giggles at first for sure

After that tho when he knows that you’re totally comfortable w him being close with you and he’s used to it, it’s more like happy giggles

Like he’ll just tuck his chin over your shoulder and do his lil laugh quietly dhcbhcbvhb he’s so cUTE

Likes big spoon and little spoon both

Likes to cuddling facing you the best tho so he can see your cute face and your pretty smile

BLANKET BURRITOS OMG 

if y’all have a blanket on you better be ready bc he WILL hold onto you and grab that blanket and roll over and over til you’re both cocooned in it and he will not let you go bc he loves it when you laugh like that and loves having you so close that he can feel your heartbeat

Will 100% let you fall asleep on him if you want

He’ll either gently move you to the bed after a while so you’re more comfortable, or he’ll do his very best to stay awake so he can keep an eye out for things that could potentially disturb you so he can get rid of them, but he’ll end up falling asleep too dhfbvhgh

Highly recommend Aang hugs/cuddles. Perfect for comfort or literally any other time ever

ZUKO

listen I’m sure we all know and agree on this, but lemme just say it again: Zuko is warm

Like if you’re gonna fall asleep cuddling him you better kick off those blankets

You don’t need them. Not with your human space heater around.

And listen here’s the thing: Zuko can regulate his body temperature right?? Which means he makes himself warm on purpose so he’ll get hugs

Right??? Perfect strategy!!

Honestly tho, super awkward about it at first

Like you’ll probably have to tell him you want a hug and he’ll be like oh- sure??

Very stiff the first several times. It’s more of like ‘you’re hugging him and he’s standing there awkwardly and he’s not really sure what to do with his arms so he gingerly pats you on the shoulder’ fhfnjgfjjb my poor boi

It doesn’t take him long tho. He figures out pretty quickly that he actually really likes it when you hug him

So he starts hugging you back

And THATS when he gets smart and is like oh, maybe it’s because I'm warm?

bc he’s not ignorant y’know; he’s noticed your ‘aa you’re so warm’ comments 😌

Anyways he’ll actually offer you hugs once he’s more used to them

He likes it when you wrap your arms around his waist, from the front or back

Hugging Zuko from the back dhcvnnvnb — PLS the first time you do that he’ll get so flustered shfbch and he’ll just freeze up

ANYWAYS

He likes you putting your arms around his waist but also really likes your arms over his shoulders, bc then his arms can be around your waist and he can hold you better that way

Also please ruffle his hair. Or just slide your fingers through it right before the hug ends, PLEASE. 🥺🥺🥺

he will melt I promise

If you two are alone and you're hugging him and you mess with his hair a little he will physically relax and probably will drop his face to your neck

Don’t even try to apologize either. “No, it’s fine.... It’s it’s nice.”

When you’re not alone and you wanna hug him he’ll try to act all nonchalant about it, like it’s no big deal. Like sure, you can hug him. He doesn’t really care.

But he does lol internally he’s kinda freaking out

Speaking of internally freaking out, that brings me to ✨CUDDLING✨

Like I said before, he is so. warm.

And like he normally gets butterflies being around you and cuddling with you is no exception, but if you’re cuddling and you get super relaxed and tell him he’s super warm and that you’re comfortable?

He’ll get even warmer dnhfjdf boi doesn’t know what to say to that and he kinda combusts a little inside

But he’s very very happy

Usually he’s the big spoon, but he also really likes being the little spoon, even tho he’ll never say it or ask

Also really enjoys it when you lay on top of him, either chest to chest or chest to back

He’ll rest his cheek against your head and breathe in the scent of your shampoo, rubbing your back/tummy softly (depending on how you’re laying)

If you fall asleep laying with him, at first he’s gonna panic and wouldn’t really know what to do

But he’ll keep you there and press a kiss to your forehead

SOKKA

I WANT TO HUG HIM SO BAD !!! >:| UGH SILLY BOY COME HERE I WANT TO LOVE YOU

sigh. anyways-

Sokka, he’s not too sure about the whole hugs thing at first

You’ll hug him and he’ll just try and blow it off, “yeah yeah yeah, okay, thanks.” pats your shoulder a couple times and releases you

He’ll get used to it, don’t worry.

He’ll get used to it quickly.

Once he realizes you’re not gonna quit hugging him, he’ll suddenly be all for it

Honesltyy he went from 0 to 100 dcnhkjhdfks he’ll want to hug you all the time

“C’monnn y/n where’s my hug? Huh?”

He’ll come up behind you while you're doing something, slip his arms around you, put his chin on your shoulder, and he will not be leaving

“Sokka I need to move my arm—” “No you don't. Not til you say hello properly.”

PLS once he gets used to you he will be so touchy

not only with hugs but like,, with everything

Grabs your hand to go run and show you something or out of excitement, uses your shoulder as an armrest (or your head if you’re way shorter than him hfvbfjhdb), puts a hand on your shoulder to steer you in another direction... et cetera

I dunno I feel like physical touch would be one of his primary love languages but maybe that’s just me projecting

anyways

Sokka is also warm; not as warm as Zuko, but warm!

Hugs you any and all ways: arms over, arms under, behind hugs, hugs where he traps your arms against your sides and squeezes you unnecessarily hard

He’ll scoop you up and throw you over his shoulder too djfnfhv

Sometimes just to show off that he can pick you up and spin you around without dropping you, but usually when he’s taking you somewhere you two can be alone

Then he’ll throw you onto the bed jdhchvh

Big spoon and little spoon, doesn’t really have a preference

When he’s big spooning he’ll bury his face in the crook of your neck and just,, immerse himself in your comforting presence

really likes chest to chest cuddles because then he can kiss your nose and steal kisses from you

also he seems like he’d kiss the back of your hand and your knuckles-

anyways

loves it when you gently press your forehead against his and tell him how much you love him

Definitely will be the one to fall asleep while cuddling lol tired boi 🥺

if, though, you happen to fall asleep before him, he’s not complaining

or moving

He might adjust himself so that you’re in a more comfortable position, but then he’ll settle right in and go to sleep too dkjhdgkj

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@bluebellhairpin​ I think we may have discussed me tagging you in this way back when I was originally gonna post it? Maybe? Either way here you go uwu

[gone-to-oregone]

FINALLY getting to watch Yellow Jacket

SPOILERS AHEAD

-the intro, iconic

-I LOVE the Yellow Jacket music video, Mariah and Angela did a hell of a job

-I like Lauren as Hannah!

-oh fuck this, I hate saws

-JOEY IS ETHAN IM LIVING

-THE MEAN GIRLS REFERENCE LANGS YOURE ICONIC

-Lauren continuing to be iconic, making herself cry on commend

-Eddie is EVERYTHING I hate him and I love that I hate him

-Lauren in the WIG for the test lady, I

-I do a stupid voice for my sister, and I named him Pizza Pete after the series. I love that Curt’s Eddie voice is similar, albeit mine sounds more like a mix of him and Wiley during the Wiggly jingle

-Jeff in a suit!! Looks great!! 🥰

-JON 😆 “small hooded figure” he says about the tallest Starkid actor

-good GOD Bryce looks hot

-Curt did the fire effects! Don’t they look great?? Everyone say thank you, Curt

- “a matter of time”

-the fact that I own her sunglasses-

-also the fact that I know that this is going to go so bad-

-HOLY FUCK ANGELA

-we caught you a Poke-mans!

-oh no she’s gonna feel bad that “it’s her fault” again 😭

-Daniel beloved 🥺

-NOT A BENJI REFERENCE

- “that was the first time any kid said it was nice to meet her” 🥺

-oh no, I hate this already-

-Chiplucky… not “chip lucky”… “chi- plucky”

-Nevermind I hate Eddie, promoting underaged drinking /hj

- “killer sting”… oh no

-Say it with me, darling, Lauren has the range

-Hannah is Carrie confirmed. This scene is just reverse Carrie

-“I’m dead, I’m dead, I’m dead”

-OKAY FUCK THAT POKEY MASK. FUCK THE POKEY MASK, FUCK THE POKEY MASK

-“sorry. I need to hit you now.”

- “the room shook, and I peed everywhere!”

-oh god, Use It or Lose It is a threat from Pokey, huh? Making these kids live with so much “fun” with their powers, then like “if you don’t come back, you’ll lose them and then we’ll kill you”

-this video is FIRE tho, JLB in the black light??? Hello???

- “Gotta go sell those drugs”

-SHERMAN BELOVED

-MATT IS THAT FOOT ON THE GAS-

-the fuckin STONKS

-oh god a water bed, is she gonna have a dream she’s drowning

- “are you happy, Lexi?” 🥺🥺🥺

-MISS ALEXANDRA PLS

- “you make me smile” 🥺

-BECAUSE WEBBY USED TO BE- LEX WITCH CONFIRMED-

-god DAMN Angela in this light looks sick

-FUCK THE EYES FOR POKEY, FUCK THE EYES FOR POKEY

-Charlie did NOT just call Pokey “kiddo”

-I know he’s not getting her- me remembering that this ends up sad-

-“what about a skull and crossbones” Ethan, I-

-SO BACK IT UP, BITCH

-Angela in this lighting FUCKS

-I KNOW Lex isn’t completely falling for the stonks bit-

-“we’ll talk about it later” probably not, not if you’re dead-

-I! Hate! The Pokey mask!

-OOF I like the callback to “I’m going to eat you, Han-nah!”

-“get your nose out of my ass, it’s uncomfortable”

-Hannah nooooo not a hundred million, you’re gonna die bb

- “if he’s let out…” just let it out…

-rip Webby

-I wanna know how Charles got CONTROL over Pokey

-the Guy theme, Matt you genius

-yep, Hannah’s totally safe :))

-“one singular voice” and I know it’s a singular voice, Paul

- “Lexi” 🥺

-oh god, Pokey dolls- he won-

-Well, Pokey’s doing better than Wiggly. The Wiggly dolls didn’t move

-your apotheosis will be upon you at any moment

-Webby went to Lex 🥺

-I would like to punch Charles in the face

- “the bloody nosed boy” give him a NAME

-rip to Hannah-

-fuck yeah, Lex!

-FUCK YEAH ETHAN

-me remembering Curt promised this was sad, and me knowing that there’s still 15 minutes-

-Awee, Ethan 🥺

-yep, there it is, oh look, there’s tears in my eyes

-not the faucet 🥺

-“all the pieces are connected” Where’s Tazzy, they need to figure this out

-me feeling like the Miss Holloway making her new identity the year Hannah was born is confirmed

-fuck Curt was right this is fucking s a d. He mentioned he and Kim both cried about this episode a few times

The closeups of the smiles I fucking can’t, I love these nerds so much, look at this incredible thing they did, you guys. I’m not sobbing at 3 am you are.

Also! VHSCC ad!!

[moon-ursidae]

GAME SESSION 4 RECAP

i’ve had a very emotionally draining day even before playing this so we’ll see what awaits me beyond the start screen this time HAHA

as always, spoilers for both games and the hbo series below!! (this one is L O N G)

i want to play today but i’m also going through it so we’ll see how this plays out lmao

hours played: 8 or 9 hours?? somewhere around there idk when i started

KICKIN IT OFF:

so i’m kinda scared bc joel and ellie are in the same clothes that they’re in during the winter section which i’ve seen some clips of. which means hurt/sick joel soon? and uhhh DAVID. so yknow. kinda nervous about that.

excited to see nolan and troy in another project together tho. a dynamic duo in the gaming industry truly.

omg this section is called go big horns. CUTE

i don’t remember what i did last haha but i’m in a dorm hall? we’ll see what happens

OH i’m supposed to get a gate open. slay

i love when joel gets on the horse he says “scoot.” LIKE HE DID W SARAH ON THE COUCH🥲😭

god i wish fall would fucking GET HERE

sorry the jacket on joel looks so cozy

i’m so on edge rn it’s too quiet

uh ooohhhh muthafuckin spores

i knew it was too quiet i’m so scared bro

if there’s a bloater here i will exit the game LMAO

okay in this one room there’s a melee weapon, a bomb, and arrows. not liking the looks of this so far

do i really have to drop down tho?? do i??

FUCKIN HELL I DON’T LIKE THIS AT ALL

i’m gonna try to coax my dog to sit in here w me HAHAHA

okay well they’re both not having it

ANYWAY

I FUCKING HEAR A BLOATER UR JOKING

i threw a bottle down the hall and was SPAMMING square to open this door holy fuck

that was so close i was literally like “pleasepleasepleasepleaseplease” holy fuck dude

i feel like every infected known to man is gonna seep through the walls of this campus when i turn this generator on

i was wondering if joel went to college

him being more open w ellie🥺

“ok.” “too much?” “too much.” i’m gonna fucking cry again. i love seeing the more sensitive side of joel, because he clearly is quite sensitive. he doesn’t like bringing up sarah that often, he doesn’t want to talk about what happened with his wife. he’s clearly still affected by these things. he’s just had to shove those feelings down and become hardened by the apocalypse. he still cares under his grizzled and weathered surface.🥺

i also love the development of how ellie respects his boundaries and doesn’t push too much further into his past after the ranch house conversation. after he says it’s too much, she doesn’t say anything else. GOD the writing is so so good

OMG WAIT i forgot to mention the duct tape on joel’s boots like forever ago. i like that they added that detail in the show too :)

if anything happens to callus while i’m in here, i will simply cry

“c’mon kiddo, give me your hand” 🥺

dude bros i’m so scared for when joel is gonna get hurt bc i most definitely remember it being near brick buildings? and all of these buildings fall into that category? and joel is in the same clothes? i am uhh how you say…SCARED

max health let’s gooooooo

so whoever is here has definitely been watching us. they made a sound RIGHT upstairs and they cleared out that fast?? they’ve absolutely been watching us and i’m scared that they heard ellie say that we have the cure to mankind🫠

sure are a lot of bottles and bricks up here 👀

dog break bc they needed to get some energy out

BACK TO THE GAME

BRO THAT’S SO SCARY THAT PEOPLE CAN MOVE THIS FAST

so we’re not gonna investigate that??

just pushin’ on?? this is not looking good bros

yoooooo this xray looks DOPE

i really don’t wanna open this door

IT WAS MONKEYS THE TIME

THE MONKEYS ARE A FALSE ALARM I KNOW IT DEEP IN MY BONES WHY ELSE WOULD THERE BE 500 BRICKS AND BOTTLES

THEY INJECTED THE MONKEYS????

broooooo

uh oh cutscene i am scared

to utah!! right?

why did he stop? joel please not now

uh oh spaghetti-o’s!

do i have to go back the way i came???? that was SO FAR BRO

fuuuuck

OH NO JOEL PLZ NOT OVER THE RAILS PLEASE

ELLIE??? NO HELP??? WH-?????

oh fuck goddamnit the railing BROKE

IMPALED????????? WHAT????????

FUCKING IMPALED?????

I’M GONNA START CRYING NO

THE STRUGGLED BREATHS??

HIM REACHING OUT TO ELLIE??????

STILL PROTECTING HER AS HE’S LITERALLY IMPALED STOP

THE TEARING SOUNDS???

JOEL YELLING???

I’M GONNA CRY BRO

STOP I HATE THIS

ELLIE IS SO SCARED

UUUUGH DUDE

SAYING HE’S FINE?? TO NOT SCARE HER?? OR TO TRICK HIS OWN BRAIN?? PROBABLY BOTH?

i know he’s gonna be okay but i am still very much in distress

his hands are COVERED in blood :(

this hurts my soul

oh my god she’s covered in blood too :((

ELLIE’S BEING SUCH A HELP ASSURING HIM I-

he doesn’t wanna put his weight on her and slow them down further :(

“then fucking walk” LMAO

the trail of blood 🥲

HER HELPING HIM I CAN’T DO THIS

HEY FUCKER LET GO OF THE HORSE

omg ellie is badass bro

i mean i knew that already but goddamn she’s really steppin up

oh my god please don’t fall of the horse joel

…he fell off the fucking horse

HE LOOKS SO PALE :(

I’M GETTING FLASHBACKS TO HER SAYING GET UP TO HIM 😭

WINTER?? we must’ve been in mid-late november just now then

THE ICONIC RABBIT

SLAY ELLIE

this feels so fucking weird playing ellie

i bet anyone playing this without spoilers for the first time was panicking thinking joel was dead

oh it takes her a hot minute to climb

DETAILS

gotta take that into account tho i’m so used to big grumpy texas man

“what is this place?” GIRL DON’T GO

NOLAN NORTH IS IN THERE

talking to herself in reassurance :(

took a food break

OH MY GOD OKAY UHHHH WAS NOT EXPECTING DAVID THIS EARLY

YES ELLIE

ellie i don’t think they have antibiotics

i fucking love ellie dude

“i’ve had some practice” i love how even when it’s ellie’s there’s essences of joel here

like he literally taught her how to use the rifle🥲

bro am i playing COD zombies or??

i do not trust david at all. i know he’s helping me to build trust but he’ll totally fuck me over later

i only trust joel to boost me bro

BLOATER??

i just started nailing that motherfucker with molotovs and bombs. that seems to work well :)

DO NOT touch ellie bro

“we make a pretty good team” don’t get ahead of yourself here dAvId. i’ve known you for like 10 minutes

I REMEMBER SEEING MOCAP VIDEO OF THIS SCENE

crazy man traveling with a little girl? uh sir, i don’t know if you’ve noticed, but there is no man with ellie. and she covered up saying she has a group as well.

what man? ellie is alone. LEAVE HER ALONE DAVID.

“you’re just a kid.” with YOUR RIFLE pointed at YOUR FACE bro shut the hell up

oh well… now that’s not fair james can fuck off

are we sure this is medicine??? this could be fucking poison dawg

“i can protect you” nah i’m good there’s a grumpy texas man waiting for me

bro they’re gonna follow ellie and she’s gonna lead them right to joel and shit’s gonna go down i feel it in my bones

JOELLLLLLL

he’s looking worse for wear

my heart w this music UGH

STOP. HIM SHIVERING AND HER CHECKING HIS TEMP ON HIS HEAD

AND THEN LAYING NEXT TO HIM

AND HE’S LOOKING OVER AT HER

😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭

THEY’VE COME SO FARRRRRRR

what THE FUCK did i say

GODDAMNIT

YEA THEY TRACKED YOU

KINDA EASY TO DO THAT IN THE SNOW

ELLIE I’M NOT MAD AT YOU I’M JUST STRESSED

HER KEEPING HIM UPDATED EVEN THOUGH HE MIGHT BE SO OUT OF IT I CANNOT

THE WAY HE STIRRED WHEN SHE SAID SHE WAS GONNA DRAW THEM AWAY HE WANTS TO GET UP AND FIGHT FOR HERRRRRRRR AAAHHHHHHH

NOOO CALLUS NO BRO NOOOOOOO

I’M HAVING RDR2 FLASHBACKS

NOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO

WHY DO I STILL GET ATTACHED WHEN I KNOW WHAT’S GONNA HAPPEN EVERY. FUCKING. TIME

okay stealth with ellie is kinda fun

the bow is the way to go apparently lmao

i’m so pissed i missed possible loot bc i decided to go the way that looked like it had loot. FUCK

SECRET TUNNELLLLLLL! SECRET TUNNEL! THROUGH THE MOUNTAIN! haha

she’s so worried about joel🥺

me too tho i get it

the way that i’m naming every voice actor of these npc’s the whole time i’ve been playing this game💀

i’m like “oh my god yuri! laur! travis! nolan!” i do this with every game tho LMAO

the fucking music in the background is hauntingly beautiful

this lodge goes hard dude i wanna live here

ELLIE

FUUUUCK DAVID DUDE

EEEEEEWWWWWWWWWWWW

THE SOUND EFFECTS OF THE CUTTING BLEH

“it’s deer” BULLSHIT GUY I JUST SAW A MOTHERFUCKER CHOPPING UP A WHOLE P E R S O N

“you’re a fucking animal” *continues to eat like an animal*

this is something that i do think about when it comes to apocalypse situations like how fast would some people resort to… other forms of sustenance…

dude nolan killed it being creepy as fuck haha

how long until he snaps dude i’m scared. he’s too calm

“and you’re special” NOOOOOOOOOOooooooooOOOOOOOPE

YA’LL HAVE FUN

I’M NOT GONNA DO THAT HAHA

why tf is she letting him touch her hand bro i would’ve broken his goddamn fingers by now

wait she has to be acting so they’ll let her go nvm she’s clever lmao

OH MY GOD I SWEAR I DIDN’T KNOW SHE FUCKING BREAKS HIS FINGER

HOLY SHIT YEEES

“tell them that ellie is the little girl that broke your fucking finger.” OH MY GOD?? F E R A L

“how did you put it? hmm? tiny pieces?” IT’S THE LINE!! AH

also G R O S S

JOOOEEEELLLLLL

joel ur gonna rip those fuckin stitches man

woooaaah the controller light went from green to yellow? OHHHHH IT’S BASED ON MY HEALTH

why did that take me so long to notice? LMAOOOOO

the way that i’m walking slow as if that’ll put him through less pain💀

i take back what i said before about being able to hear him breathe bc this is so fucking sad hearing him grunting and struggling and shivering

i audibly shushed joel when he yelled for ellie like it was gonna do anything HAHA

having an injury in the cold fucking suuuuucks dude ur so sensitive to the weather

JESUS TAPDANCING CHRIST. even when joel is in extreme pain he’s taking not one, but TWO hostages. and they’re not overpowering him. jesus

HOLY FUCK JOEL. HE IS IN SO MUCH PAIN. AND JUST WAILIN ON THESE GUYS

jesus fucking christ

“focus right here.”

i- this is doing something to me🫢

ANYWAYYYY

PUTTING THE KNIFE IN HIS MOUTH AND MAKING HIM MARK THE MAP IN HIS OWN BLOOD IS C O L D AS HELL

“and it better be the same spot your buddy points to” OH MY GOD JOEL

“that’s alright. i believe him.”

i’m sittin here like 😳🫢😮

bro do not FUCK with joel miller goddamn

ellie you better wake the fuck up the terminator is coming to pick you up

oh shit oh fuck oh shit

YEA FUCK YOU DAVID LOOK AT HER ARM FUCKER

SLAAYYYYY ELLIE

oh this is a blizzard alright

sorry my midwesterner came out there for a sec

dude nolan is scary in this role he’s doin great

i’m waiting to hear joel absolutely fucking shit up in the distance

hearing ellie shiver :(

DUDE BURNING BUILDING BOSS FIGHT? slay

DAVID IS SO SCARY

JOOOOOEEEELLLLLL

i’m the one that will be fucking shit up? EXCELLENT👹

THERE’S LIKE 12 GUYS FOR ME TO HANDLE?? I HAD LIKE 5 or 6 FOR ELLIE TOTAL GODDAMN

ellie’s bag!!

when he walks into the butcher and sees what’s hanging then is like “i gotta find her. i gotta find her” in a slightly panicked tone? NO ONE TALK TO ME

oh shit indeed joel

ELLIE WAKE UUUUP I DON’T LIKE THIS ELLIE WAKE UUUUUUPPPP

i’m waiting for joel to come in and fuck shit up part 2 electric boogaloo

david is pathetic bro fighting a 14 yr old. watching her crawl for a weapon desperately, only to laugh and kick her when she gets close

holy fuck dude. no one talk to me. no one perceive me rn.

the first time he’s called her babygirl😭

oh my god. i’m fucking C R Y I N G rn

super traumatic things happen right before the seasons change i should know this by now

we’re in spring now oh boy

AHH THE OUTFITS!!! THE ONES THAT PEDRO AND BELLA WERE WEARING ON SET!!! AHHH

“let’s go kiddo” i- i need a minute after what just went down dude

i feel like i should stop now but i know i’m close to the ending

we’ve made it to utah!

“i’m gonna teach you how to play guitar” 😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭

ellie’s spacing out bc she’s scared :(

this is so crazy bc this literally looks like pedro and bella from behind

i love the fits that are goin on these might be my favorite so far

the rv :(

i’m literally crying just thinking about how full circle it is that joel lost his daughter, but has now gained a daughter. he tried so hard to fight it off. he even told her straight to her face that he’s not her father. now jump to him calling her babygirl and kiddo, and how they’re just chatting away about ellie’s dreams. how joel’s voice sounds warmer and softer, and so does ellie’s. i can’t fuckin do this bro

also not only the evolution from the beginning where he was like ugh a child🙄, but just from wyoming to now is so fucking wholesome. “i sure as hell ain’t your dad.” to now??? FUCK dude. i’m emotional

i’m not jazzed about being back in a city

if he calls her kiddo or babygirl one more time it will be my undoing

WAIT GIRAFFE SOON??? I FUCKIN HOPE SO

joel checking on her and not wanting to push her so he’s just like “it’s fine” so she doesn’t feel like she needs to be as talkative as she usually is🥲

my heart… HURTS bro

BZKSBSKDVSKSVDLWVDOEGSKSV THIS HURTS BRO HE WAS READY TO BOOST HER AND HE JUST SAW THAT SHE WAS STILL THERE AND SPACED OUT AGAIN AND I-😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭

I AM A GLASS CASE OF EMOTION RIGHT NOW

STOP HE GOT SO SCARED

GIRAFFE TIME???

“what in the sam hell?” ASDFGHKLBDKS

GIRAFFE TIME!!!!!🥳🥳🥳🕺🏻🕺🏻🕺🏻

THERE’S TWO???

THE MUSIC? STOP IT

THERE’S THREE?!!

“don’t scare it” “i won’t, i won’t” IN THE SOFTEST VOICE I- MMMMMMMMM

WHY AM I CRYING ABOUT 2 PEOPLE PETTING A GIRAFFE

WAIT I KNOW THIS SONG

VANISHING GRACE!

ellie instantly perked up. it’s like a father and daughter at the zoo🥹 she’s like “hurry up! come on!” I CANNOT TAKE THIS

EIGHT GIRAFFES???

is a heart to heart about to happen bc i can’t take it rn i’m a mess

“is it everything you were hopin’ for?” “it’s got it’s ups and downs. can’t deny the view though”😭

i hope the game knows that i will literally fucking stand here for eternity. and this is what joel and ellie are gonna do for the rest of their lives. giraffe watch. no more trauma. just giraffes bein dudes.

and this is all before the ending??? CURSE YOU NAUGHTY DOG

i don’t want to progress bc they’re both so content and peaceful rn. UGH i’m sorry ya’ll we have to continue. JOEL. ELLIE. I’M SORRY

oh god i wasn’t expecting a cutscene am i about to get my heart broken? again?

“we don’t have to do this” ONE LINE IN AND I’M ALREADY UUUGH

they don’t want to let go of each other… bc they need each other at this point.

“it can’t be for nothing” THERE IT IS

uh ooohhhhh joel’s feeling differently mefinks

i want to hug both of them so fucking tight dudebros. so fucking tight.

i think i am gonna stop here bc i am tired and in pain from this fucking chair haha

yea this one was super ultra mega long. i’m sorry. i just got a lot to say and analyze sometimes yknow?? lots of story this time! maybe that’s why it’s longer haha

i just know that i am literally never going to be the same after playing this game. i’m so fucking happy that i finally did.

we finish(?) tomorrow! and i’ll probably do a seperate post from the next recap about what i thought of the game as a whole, and oh boy is that gonna be long too haha

but yea i’m so fucking excited but also scared to finish this!! until tomorrow!!🤎

[biaswreckingfics]

I watch an anime called Food Wars and could only imagine Sunwoo’s moaning while eating sounding like one of the characters on there having a foodgasm lol

He needed a break from Minjee, so his eardrums could recover lol. I’m heartless and don’t feel the slightest bit sorry for her. Doesn’t she know?!!!…

…actually! I think can. She just doesn’t possess the qualities needed to make Sunwoo wanna change, his hoe ways.

Sunwoo was honest from the start. Can’t be mad at him

and can’t really blame her for catching “feelings” either.

I feel her wanting Sunwoo to move in with her, is partially down to dickmatization. But! Mostly not wanting y/n anywhere near Sunwoo, she doesn’t want them becoming closer.

For future reference Sunwoo needs to remember

He needs to be more careful where he puts that thing 😏

‘You have a hard time picturing Sunwoo being lonely when his bedroom is practically a hotel, but you stay quiet.’

I couldn’t help but chuckle when I read that 🤣🤣 Y/n is failing to realise that it’s still possible to feel lonely, while surrounded by people.

He’s opening up pretty easily with y/n. He takes every opportunity that arises to spend time with her. She could actually be the one making him feel less lonely. She’s spending time with him, and not looking for or wanting anything in return. He’s a source of “entertainment” for a lot of people… well.. for women at least lol. So, getting to be with someone who doesn’t want anything from him must be freeing.

"Will you just be quiet and accept help for once?"

It’s hard to accept help when you’ve come out of a toxic relationship. Asking for and accepting help requires a level of trust and vulnerability that may be difficult to do for y/n, without thinking the person offering help has some sort of hidden agenda. Trust is hard to give and build when you’ve been hurt.

For him to notice this about her, he needs to have been paying her attention for way longer than they’ve been living together.

Glad to see I’m not the only one thinking the “wrong number” person is y/n’s toxic ex

As a black woman with very uncooperative, rebellious hair, having flour thrown at me. It would have literally been Sunwoo’s last day on earth! After murdering him, I would sit there a crying mess, thinking about having to deal with my hair again. I’ll deal with his body later… Priorities!!! 🤣🤣🤣

It was an insanely cute scene tho.

My dramatic, angst loving a** can’t wait part 5

Your reward for an awesome update. Enjoy 😉

I always look forward to your messages lol 😂😂 they're so fun and chaotic. I've never seen Food Wars, but now I suddenly feel the need to look into it lol

You really can't be mad at Sunwoo, bc he told her from the start that he didn't want a relationship 🤷‍♀️🤷‍♀️. Of course, she couldn't help falling for him, but she knew what she was getting into. She got dickmatized 😭😭 we lost another one ✊✊

How wild if she really did offer her place to him just to keep him away from oc!! That's such a horrible reason to have someone move in with you 😭😭

I'm glad you picked up on that hotel part!! Maybe the reason Sunwoo has countless girls over is bc he's lonely and is trying to fill that void 🥴🥴, and maybe now he doesn't need those girls bc oc is helping fill that void just fine 👀👀. She doesn't expect anything from him and that must feel super nice

Interesting point to bring up about Sunwoo watching her for longer than she realizes. How else would he know that she doesn't accept help a lot? That she'd rather do everything on her own, bc she feels she can only rely on herself?

I tried to keep the hair and the flour/water as generic as I could, but it was a little hard haha. I know everyone has different hair types and I almost scrapped the whole idea together, but it ended up kinda cute so I was like 🥺🥺... I like your priorities, though lol. His body can lay there for a few hours. There's more important things at hand 👏👏

The random Junho attack?? Please 😭😭