#i don’t understand but i luv q

[kiestrokes]

Gifting y'all two festive recs today, because this fic took me OUT. It's everything I ideally look for in fanfic; humorous, banter, well written smut, authentic to the idol's personalities. The ending to this made me scream in laughter. One of the best Halloween themed k-pop fanfics I have ever read.

Read it here!

[snallavanta]

part 2 of my answers to the seventeen asks!

36. what’s your favourite hairstyle of your bias?

honestly, anything that's vernon's natural hair colour/ dark brown is my favourite

37. which is the best era for hair?

fml era was so good. jeonghan's wavy mid length that's in a half up-half down style. woozi's wavy hair & bangs combo. idk they all looked superb hair-wise in that era

38. what’s your favourite tour era?

be the sun

39. what’s your favourite lyric?

how am i supposed to just pick ONE?

ash - metamorphosis born in fire, then i fly away

god of music - we can't communicate with words but with music, we can be best friends

don quixote - my hands up, i keep 'em high. the thing i fear is me within myself

fml - don't wanna be an embarrassment for the me i knew yesterday

40. what’s your favourite fan chant?

honestly they all have great vibes, but i love it when they make us say all 13 of their full names 😍 what a tongue twister

41. what’s your favourite unreleased song?

how was this 9 years ago...

42. what’s your comfort song?

i can't just pick one so it's super, shadow, sos

43. what’s a song you can’t listen to without having a breakdown?

44. what’s your favourite member symbol/ mascot?

🍒🍊🦦

they are such cute symbols & somehow describes these members perfectly?

45. what’s your favourite going seventeen episode?

i feel like i haven't watched enough (or any?) gose episode to give this a proper answer 😵‍💫 so no, i don't have a favourite

46. what’s your favourite dance choreography?

i don’t understand but i luv u. it changed the trajectory of my life. the removing of the tie, the folding of the sleeves, the gracefulness of the movements. i have never been the same since.

cheers is a close second though

47. what’s your favourite solo song?

black eye by vernon or wait by dino (i am simply incapable of choosing)

48. what’s your favourite cover?

a crime that this is not on spotify >:(

49. what’s your favourite song from the performance team?

50. what’s your favourite song from the vocal team?

51. what’s your favourite song from the hiphop team?

52. a member from the performance team you feel is underrated

jun

53. a member from the vocal team you feel is underrated

woozi

54. a member from the hiphop team you feel is underrated

wonwoo

55. if you were a part of seventeen, which sub-unit do you want to be a part of & why?

hiphop!!! i know they're also my favourite sub-unit but they look so fun to be with.

also performance unit highkey scares me. wdym i'm stuck with captain hoshi, anti-delulu minghao, jun and dino who takes no shit. you would not catch me in a room with just the four of them; i will wait outside, thank you.

56. a member you want to be best friends with

dk

57. a member you feel should release more solo music

vernon. i am obsessed with the way he enunciates his words

58. a member you would easily get along with

seungkwan

59. what’s your favourite collab?

also want to mention their song with new kids on the block, dk's vocals in that is insane

60. what’s a song you wish to hear live?

61. what’s your favourite seventeen interview?

idk i don't feel like i've watched any that really left an impact on me? no interview is really at the top of my head rn to give you an answer

62. what language do you prefer svt songs in?

korean + english or 100% korean. i love their 100% english songs too but the way the phrases are broken up always feels so awkward to me 😭

63. who do you think would give the best hugs?

mingyu

64. who do you think would smell the best?

joshua

65. who has the most contagious laugh?

vernon. his goose-like laughter is everything

66. who’s the funniest member?

minghao. i think most of them are hilarious when the situation calls for it though

67. have you read any books recommended by any member(s)?

yes! i read me before you (wonwoo rec) and i was reading i want to die but i want to eat tteokbokki (s.coups rec) but stopped because it was kinda boring

68. what’s your favourite thing about seventeen?

how much they care for each other & how gentle they are with one another

69. share the svt photos that bring you comfort

everyday i find a new photo of them so any pics where they're radiating with happiness makes me happy :")

70. share an svt video that brings you comfort

the whole nana tour series. it feels like a warm hug on a rainy day

[mobagehelllocal]

Lemme help silver out, boo needs luv, e,g,q,r,s,t,u, and y for silver please.

A/N: :) YOU KNOW WHAT SILVER IS WAY TOO PRETTY. SIMPING NOISES FOR SILVER AND HIS AURORA-COLOURED EYES AND HIS ARMS THAT CAN PICK US UP AND HOLD--

all characters featured are depicted as 18+

warning: explicit content below cut!

Silver

Experience

Rather than being experienced, I can see him as being knowledgeable about it. A part of being a knight is being able to please his partner in all manners. Most especially when it comes to the bed.

He’s someone who would patiently wait for the right person to do it with, you know? Despite that, he’s such an attentive lover that his lack of experience is barely noticeable. He does his best to ensure that you will never be left wanting—whether underneath him or above him. “Mhm… does this feel good, my love…? … Good.”

Goofy

He’s not going to be the type of person who will tell jokes during sex. It’s not something I think he’ll associate with sex—nor something that he thinks is something that has to happen during sex.

That being said, I feel like if you tell him jokes—he’ll blink at you really slowly before a soft little laugh will slip out of his pretty lips. He’ll find it funny and he won’t really be mad if you joke around during it. On your end—you just found another thing that Silver does that gets your heart fluttering.

Quickie

Not really his thing—he thinks sex is something that should be left in the bedroom and done during the appropriate times too. He wouldn’t want to exhaust you in the afternoon and keep you away from any possible errands you might have for that day.

That being said, what he does enjoy is pulling you close for a very deep kiss. His tongue cheekily darting into your mouth, coaxing your tongue into a short but sweet dance before he pulled away. Your breaths will always be heavy and there’s that little spark of mischief in his eyes as he promises to pick you up later when you’re done for the day, for more.

Risk

The only risks he’s not willing to take is the chance of others seeing you during such an intimate act and you getting hurt in any way. Those are his primary conditions. If he discovers anymore, he’ll sit you down and discuss everything with you as level-headed as possible. He wants you to keep enjoying yourself after all.

Other than that, he’ll be the type to listen to all of your suggestions without once laughing or teasing you over it. He’ll listen carefully, thoughtfully and will likely never criticize you about any kinks you might be interested in testing out. He’s a very sweet and generous lover.

Unfair

I don’t think he’s intentionally unfair. If anything, he just… is so honest with you it’s unfair how he never feels embarrassed about being frank with you. He’ll tell you how much he loves you with the most serene and understanding expression that you almost want to cry.

He has no problem being vulnerable with his feelings to you. He loves you so much, why would he have any need to hide or not tell you exactly the depth of the feelings that dwell deep in his heart? He also praises you an insane amount—enough that you get even more flustered. “I love you so much… You’re so beautiful, my love.”

Stamina

He’s been training to be a knight all his life. He’s incredibly physically active so I’m pretty sure his stamina is insane as well. He doesn’t really think too deeply about his own stamina either… but he does become a little more grateful when he finds you staring at him in awe as he gets you to come again.

I also think that when he’s in the mood to really fuck you, then he can get a little insatiable and needy. He’ll patiently wait for you to recover, his cock still hard inside of you before he’ll continue thrusting—chasing a second, then a third orgasm. “Are you ready…? I want to go again, my love.”

Toy

Not something he’ll suggest himself, I think. I don’t think he thinks it’s necessary though if it’s something that truly interests you then he’ll keep an open mind and try it out for you.

He doesn’t mind giving or receiving toys either. If you want to peg him, he’ll probably just make it clear that you have to schedule it because he wants to make sure that it won’t interfere with training if ever. He would let you dom him, no questions asked.

Yearning

He certainly has a high sex drive but it’s something that manifests rather differently for Silver—namely his absolute obsession with your kisses. He just loves kissing you every hour of every day. He can sate his thirst for you with some heavy make-out sessions honestly. “Can I kiss you, my love?”

He leaves you completely breathless with how much he chases after your lips with his own. When you need to breathe, his lips immediately move to your neck, suckling gently against your skin—nipping just enough to make you moan but not so hard that it might leave too dark of a mark.

[h2bakugou]

Can I req how hawks, bakugou, denki, kiri and dabi would react to seeing their s/o performing an imaginary concert in the shower? Like singing and doing a lil jig?? (And if you want a/o sees them but isn’t embarrassed they just start singing to them instead) And nothing nsfw just wholesome fluff and they’re like “🥺 wow I luv dem” ok sorry this weirdly specific but it’s been in my head for weeks and only your writing could do it justice. And feel free to make changes if it doesn’t fit your requirements ok bYE

a/n: YESSS PLEASE DFHDJG THIS IS THE ONE THIS IS THE HEADCANON- please this is so amazing thank you for this i love you smooches

headcanon: them reacting to their s/o singing in the shower

aged up 18+ au!!

key: (y/n) - your name / (f/n) - first name / (l/n) - last name / (e/c) - eye color / (h/c) - hair color / (y/q) - your quirk

warnings: fluff, swearing, mentions of nudity, showering together

;cut for length;

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keigo takami/hawks

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Let’s be honest, Hawks is a bit of a perv, but in like a good way? Is there a good way? idk n e way-

He hears the water running and he’s like ‘yes cool bro go talk to them while they shower like you don’t have anything else to be doing’

He loves just talking to you while you’re in the shower. He doesn’t have any dirty intentions unless you instigate but this isn’t that kind of headcanon so let’s proceed with the fluff.

He hears the water running when he steps into your shared home and he’s immediately like tearing off his hero costume until he’s shirtless and in his boxers. The steam is just gonna make him sweat even more, he’ll get dressed after a convo about what’s for dinner.

But then he hears you singing. 

Cute

He can’t help but giggle as he quietly pushes the door open, now making it his goal to see how long he can watch you sing and dance for.

Watching you move and dance around as you massage shampoo into your hair, singing to the music playing over your phone speaker, you were having some sort of concert.

You finally glance over and notice your boyfriend, standing and admiring you in only his underwear.

“My little songbird.” Hawks teases as he walked over toward the shower. You just smile and reach out a hand for him to join you.

Tugging him under the running water you continue to sing and dance, just enjoying yourself.

“Is this what you do while I’m gone all day at work?” Hawks laughed, allowing you to wash his hair.

“Mhm!” You laugh, snapping the waistband of his now soggy underwear against his stomach.

“I love you.” Hawks coos, pressing a kiss to your cheek.

You return to singing, this time directing your words to him, trying not to laugh as Hawks joins in, horribly singing off keep just to spite you.

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katsuki bakugou

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He hears you singing from your shared bedroom. He’s just scrolling on his phone when he finally hears you, his ears perking up as your voice sings along to the song playing on your phone.

He’s curious. 

Pushing the bathroom door open, he’s just staring as you dance and sing all while washing your hair. Bakugou can’t help but laugh a little, finding your concert rather amusing.

You hear his snickering and turn to face him. He stops and just stares at you.

You waste no time aiming your lyrics at him as you continue to sing, ushering him into the bathroom.

He’s fully dressed when you yank him into the shower, letting the water soak his clothes.

“You havin’ some sorta concert in here?” Bakugou kisses your forehead.

“Of course! Anyone who doesn’t sing in the shower is a liar.” You nudge him.

“Dumbass.” Bakugou just tugs his soaking wet shirt off, tossing it into the sink so it didn’t create a puddle on the floor.

“Sing with me!” You rub some soap over his chest, still humming along to the lyrics of the song.

“Tch.”

“I know you want to, this song is on your gym playlist.” You smirk, returning back to singing along. Bakugou just sighs and mumbles along to the words, his big hands massaging the conditioner into your hair while your hands washed his chest.

When the song ended, you gave him a hug and looked up at him.

“We should make a song together.” You tease him.

“Yeah right.”

“I love you.” You lean up and kiss his lips.

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denki kaminari

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He hears you singing and is like ‘bro tis angel is singing? in the shower? my heart is theirs <3′

He’s not even gonna be subtle, he wants to hear you sing so he’s opening the bathroom door and coming in, sitting on the closed toilet, and just admiring you until you notice.

“Jeez! Kami!” You flinch when you finally notice him, your singing coming to an abrupt stop.

“You didn’t tell me you could sing!” Kaminari has wide eyes as he smiles at you, completely mesmerized at how well you were singing and dancing.

“I- It didn’t seem all that important, but thank you.” You try to hide your embarrassment by turning away, washing the shampoo out of your hair.

“Keep singing!” Kaminari stands and moves so he can see your face.

“Kami!” You cover yourself for a brief second before he pulls off his shirt and strips down, joining you in the shower.

“I’ll sing with you.” He adds, preparing to sing along to the song playing.

He’s off-key as he begins to sing, trying to impress you. You can’t help but laugh and finally ease up, lowering your hands as you bring them up to wash his yellow hair.

“Try to harmonize with me.” You offer a bit of advice as you being to sing again, trying to have him follow along. He just watches you for the first few seconds before he finally gets the hang of it, still a little off-key.

Even while he was singing, he couldn’t help but slowly stop, just admiring you. He really loved you.

He cut you off by pressing his lips to yours, apologizing after saying he got carried away.

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eijiro kirishima

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Kirishima is like lowkey confused as to why he hears singing at first. He deadass thinks you’ve got a speaker in the bathroom with you. He doesn’t register it’s actually you singing at first.

When he realizes it’s you singing, his heart is racing, he’s blown away. And even more so, he thinks it’s so cute that you’re like performing in the shower.

Like he’s head over heels in love with you already, but this just adds to it. 

“Beautiful.” He mumbles, just gazing at you, not even really registering you were showering.

“Eiji!” You blurt out, throwing your arms over yourself.

“Sorry!” He looks away and shakes his head.

“I heard singing and I didn’t realize it was you but it was and it sounded really beautiful because I’d never heard you sing before!” Kirishima apologizes before slowly turning his head back around.

“Keep singing?” He questions, going to tug his shirt off.

“Fine but you have to wash my back.” You smile, listening to the song to find your place.

Kirishima joins you in the shower, washing your back and listening to you sing. It’s so beautiful, Kirishima begins to think you really are an angel.

“I love you.” Kirishima spins you around to kiss you, pulling you into his arms.

“I love you too.” You rest your arms around his shoulders.

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dabi

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You singing is the only surefire way to get this man close to a shower-

He’s intrigued by the angelic singing coming from his bathroom, so of course he goes to investigate.

Pushes the door open a tad just to peek inside, and he’s surprised when he sees you dancing and singing, performing a little imaginary concert while you wash your body.

He’s smiling and he doesn’t realize it.

Dabi lives life in the fast lane and personally, I don’t think he really gets to see and understand the simple things that make life fun and sweet.

So seeing the love of his life singing in the shower, just for a few minutes, Dabi can’t help but fall even more and love. 

It’s so normal, he feels like he’s not a wanted criminal and instead he’s just watching his love do something so simple.

When you notice his spying eyes, you usher him into the bathroom, still singing, this time directing the lyrics to you.

Dabi smirks and quickly strips, jumping into the shower with you.

The song fades out and a slower song comes on. 

You place your arms around his waist and essentially hug him, allowing him to do the same. The two of you sway in an embrace while the song plays, the warm water washing over the two of you.

“I love you.” Dabi mumbles. This moment feels so surreal. The words kinda slip out. He does love you, but he rarely says it.

“I love you too.” You reply, looking up, sliding an arm around his neck, pulling him down into a warm kiss.

It’s sweet and loving. Dabi knows that in this moment, there’s nothing else he could’ve ever asked for.

“You should sing more often.” Dabi comments after pulling away.

Congrats, you’ve unlocked Dabi showering normally because he’ll do it to hear you sing.

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[mirakeul]

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her shoes scratched through the hardwood floor of the cafe she was meeting her partner in. the employees greeted her as she settled on a booth just near the entrance. she opted to sketch for a bit, waiting. her fingers drummed on the paper, drawing her partner for the nth time that day. 

"y/n," she looked up, seeing kuroo tetsurou, her partner. "have you been waiting long? practice just finished."

"oh, no." she said. "i just got here. let's order?"

they went and ordered some coffee and a few pastries. their cafe dates have become a regular occurrence after kuroo's volleyball practices and y/n's after school activities just so they could talk and catch up on their day and honestly, kuroo loves it.

"how was your day?" he asked. "you had that art presentation, right? tell me about it."

y/n beamed, immediately talking about her day. kuroo's eyes focused on her, occasionally offering some quips if y/n asked. he smirked as his eyes traveled to y/n's sketchbook to which she noticed. she quickly closed it, out of the prying eyes of her partner.

"why can't i see it?" his eyes were teasing as he held his hand out. 

"it's not finished, i'll let you see then." she huffed. he laughed, then nodded in defeat.

then, he looked at his phone, it was almost 7 p.m. "y/n, come on. i'll walk you home."

she smiled, tucking the notebook in her bag as she sipped on the last of her coffee. his hand found hers, interlacing their fingers as they walked, the echoes of their voices leaving a gentle lull in the night.

reblogs are greatly appreciated ! keep reading for a personal letter !

letter from you ;

Biancs !!! May I join your event? Also, cheers to us for finally feeling better! ;D

Okay, so ummm I'm Hikbi c: I go by she/her, I'm a Sagittarius and ISTP. I consider myself an introvert and an extrovert with the right people. I like art, anime, any shades of pink, and animals. I dislike tight spaces and complete darkness.

I guess it's important for me to have an s/o who is funny and who understands my humor. And also someone who is confident? To compensate with my shyness. Please run wild on which school they come from and such (and you don't have to be biased w my husbandos).

I do not have an ideal date in mind but one thing I like to do with people I love is to talk to them for hours (be it after school, at the mall, or at the ride home, etc.). Idk if this helps but I don't like arcade dates because I easily get bored and I also don't like adventure/out of town trips for a date because I easily get tired.

Thank you, Biancs ! And if I wrote something wrong, do not hesitate to dm me.

letter from me ; 

hi hikbi! thank you for always supporting me huhu ily always! hope you like this and sana nabigyan ko nang hustisya to HAHAHJKHASDJKHA LUV U MWA also, gusto q sabihin na nahirapan aq slight dito HAHAHJAJLKDHKAJS FEEL Q NGA DI SOBRANG OKAY NITO HUHU PERO AYON FEEL KO BAGAY KAYO NI KUROO dahil na rin sa mga hinahanap mo sa isang s/o and yon wala ako masyado naisingit about humor kasi wala rin akong ano ngayon HAHAHAHAH [also,,,,, im sorry for writing this in filipino HAHAHKAJHDKA it kinda just happened and im lazy to translate] i love you always, salamat! I RLY HOPE U LIKE THIS HUHU AKJSFHKJAH

[wendy130]

Okay so I have some kind of Royal AU with karlnapity- and because I got scolded for not rambling last time I will just ramble now- (also Ik Royal AU tropes are overused but i don’t care lol)

BASICALLY-

In this AU there’s a kingdom ruled by the royal Family with Skeppy and Bad as the Kings and Sapnap as their son and Prince. The royal family has these typos of genes (idk lmao) which makes them be giants. So a country ruled by giant royalty’s. The towns people have a great amount of respect for the royal family (some fear them because of their size).

When Sapnap was a child tho, none of the towns people wanted their child to play with him in fear of him hurting them. It was actually really sad for Sapnap because,

he didn’t understand, He did nothing wrong did he? He was always gentle. So why wont anyone play with him? :( . One day when Sapnap was yet again ‚scolded‘ for wanting to play with the kids in town he sat down on a field, sulking, and started to cry silently. That is until he felt the presence of eyes watching him. „Heya! U okay?“ came from his right. He quickly turned his head and locked eyes with a boy that seemed his age. „Oh, are u crying? Why are u sad ? :(‘‘ the boy asked, childish concern lacing his voice. „No one wants to play with me and i don’t know why..“ he answered truthfully, his voice cracking in between and a sniffle escaping him. „WhaAT? They r probably just Jerks >:( I can’t see reason not to play with chu >:(“ the other boy exclaimed while stomping his foot on the ground to further get his point across. „B-But I’m big a-and scary a-and-“ Sapnap tried explaining but immediately got cut off-„NOnseNSe! >:(. And to show you I’m right I‘ll play with chu >:(“ the boy said while strutting towards Sapnap. „Y-You wanna play with me..?“ „COURSE :D“

And that’s how he met Q. Later on he declared Q his personal knight that always stays by his side ( he just wanted Q with him- And Q was also banned from entering HIS village so it was a win, win :D )

The two slowly fell in love in secret of the towns people knowing blah blah-

Then one day the two were taking a walk in the rOYaL woods (they belong to sap and his family so no humans are allowed in there AND they down have to worry about hurting someone), Q sitting on Saps shoulder (they are like nearly their normal age like 17-18). The two were just talking when they suddenly hear a scream coming from below them. Sapnap stopped, not moving a single muscle and slowly turned his head downwards,Q copying him. When they both realized what, or rather who, made that sound they were beyond relieved that Sapnap didn’t finish his step. There on the ground sat a boy, covering his head with his arms, eyes shut tight and if you look really close you could see small tears running down his cheeks. He looked like he hadn’t eaten in days. Sapnap lifted his foot and sat his boot down a distance away from the cowering boy. He was about to snap at him for being in the royal woods (and interrupting their date oOp-), when he finally noticed what the boy looked like ( Q had already but Sapnap didn’t really look that close). Suddenly the boys eyes shut open locking his gaze onto Sapnap and frantically scrambling backwards stuttering out apologies and trembling while attempting to wipe his never ending flow of tears away. Sap looked at Q who just nodded. He slowly kneeled down and cupped both his hands around the boy, lifting him up. He could se the boy flinch and hold his breath, which slightly broke his heart to see. He held the boy to his chest, looked at Q with worry in his eyes, and began to hurriedly make his way back to the castle.

That’s how they met Karl. They all ended up falling in love with each other and the couple Shenanigans began >:D

// Sorry for typos etc. Im brain dead atm-

And- Oh wow this ended up long uhm, ye-LMAO_ luv ya wendz :>

ahglkdsflsdfj yusssssssssss, I absolutely love royal au tropes! And this is super frigging cute:D

Karl ends up getting checked up on by the royal medical team and he gets to spend more time with the royal boy and his knight. Karl, who is an adept mage left for dead by his teacher :), was just passing by and got lost among the woodlands when they met. Karl would have left as soon as they were done with the checkup but Sapnap had asked if he wanted to stay for a bit longer. Quackity- being the overprotective lover that he is- sternly turns towards Sapnap and tries to argue with that decision, still very suspicious of Karl. Karl ends up taking that offer since he has nowhere else to go. He ends up staying longer than expected and slowly but surely they bond together. :]

[starlight-writes-stuff]

hi again omg! im getting into the feral boys and i was hoping you could do some headcanons for them with a reader that has their period (but could you make it gender neutral if possible?) - ⚙️ anon

⚙️ anon ! hi ! i can absolutely do this , im sorry it took a long time . i genuinely ended up LOVING these , and i hope you do too ! 

AYO LOOK AT THESE : reader who gets a period , mentions of cramps , usage of tylenol / painkillers of that sort , very very very fluffy feral boys content . i luv them .

reblogs are always appreciated ! <3

dream : 

would be incredibly worried :(

and unbelievably empathetic

he’s such a good fkn person in general ugh

“i don't know how it feels but i would imagine its … not good”

he would just want to keep you comfortable

“stay in bed, baby, i’ll bring [whatever] to you”

would go on pad/tampon runs for you

and wouldn’t be a pussy about it

“what size ? how heavy is your flow ?”

would call you while he was in the aisle to double check

and would get more than one box

“i know it fluctuates”

while he was out he would pick up some little gifts for you

just things to keep you comfortable

a blanket because “it looked soft”

some of your favorite chocolate

“did you know that chocolate produces endorphins ? which can help with cramps ?”

a little teddy bear

and would pick up some junk food for you

he’d move his stream to comfort you all night

“can i hold you ? will you still be comfortable ?”

would end up laying your head in his lap and running his hands through your hair

he’d do small , soothing actions until you fell asleep

and would be so still while you napped on him

clay would die if he woke you up

you’re his number one priority , and you need your rest

george :

sweet gogs would be . so concerned .

“... are you alright , my love ?”

would get pouty because you were irritated 

but would understand

he tries his best to help you in anyway possible

brings you water and tylenol

and would make you a snack to go with it

“you have to take it with food so your body can process it , darling .”

purchases a heating pack to keep at his house

and genuinely just tries to keep you as comfortable as possible

picks you up bridal style

to transfer you from couch to bed

and would be SO upset when you whimpered in pain

“did i hurt you , baby ? are you okay ?”

you’d try to explain that it wasn’t him at all

just your body working against you

but would insist on nursing you 

going as far to lift your water cup to your lips for you

“wanna make sure you’re taken care of , sweet thing .”

would bring you desserts and comfort foods

and would eat half

gogy would try to get you to nap

“your body is working so hard ! you need rest !”

and would be elATED when you fell asleep tucked against him

he’d run a hand up and down your back while you slept

trying to comfort you even in unconsciousness

sapnap :

trying his best

bless his little heart

would be incredibly concerned but very scared

not necessarily of you

but of you

wouldn't want to make you mad in any way , shape , or form

is worried that you’ll rip him to shreds

but is also v soft for you

doesn’t like seeing his s/o in pain :(

so he’d be very careful with you

won't give up his cuddles tho

would jump 10 feet into the air when you said “ow!” after he wrapped an arm around your lower tummy

apologizes incessantly

feels bad for the next week

would make you tea and warm drinks to help

and would diy a heat pack out of rice and a sock 😭

nick would NOT want to leave you alone

so he’d try to cook

and would do pretty well !!

would make you mac and cheese from the box

but it was so good

and would feed you oreos

he’d make you both milkshakes, too

karl : 

nurse karl™ is on the case

he would be the BEST at taking care of you

would have an entire period kit at his place

and would carry tampons/pads in a bag in his backpack just in case

karl knows you inside and out 

and has taken notes on what to do while you're on your cycle

stocks up on all your comfort foods the week before

makes sure you have plenty of supplies

he would make a movie lineup for the two of you to watch together

all cheesy rom coms and disney flicks

he’d sing all the songs to you

would make jokes about being your prince charming

karl would try to make you smile in any way he could

he would make you a comfy spot on the couch

with lots of pillows and blankets

“is it okay if i hold you ?”

would be s o gentle

barely touching you

“baby , i'm not made of glass”

“but i don't want to hurt you !”

would end up spooning

and karl would smother you with kisses

“gotta kiss it better >:(“

he’d keep you clothed in his big hoodies and sweatpants

and would make sure that you always had a warm towel when you got out of the shower

karl would run all the errands you usually did

and would bring flowers back from the store

quackity :

loml big q

god he would be so so so tender with u

he would go completley soft

because seeing you in pain just rips his heart to shreds

has the whole phantom pain thing

because yall are so fkn close w each other

wouldn’t leave you alone like ,,, ever

is so worried that you’re going to lose too much blood

you’ve tried to explain that your body regulates it to an extent

but he doesn’t care

he’d call your mom to ask for tips

and would follow all of them to a t , PLUS everything that he’d picked up on already

would make sure to keep you hydrated

gets gatorade “because you need electrolytes !”

he’d run you warm showers

and get you clean , soft clothes

would give you back and neck rubs to help with your muscles

alex would lay in bed with you all day 

he’d love when you napped on his chest

would set timers on his phone for giving you ibuprofen

“every six hours , my love .”

alex would 100% get midol and be so proud that he found it

finally makes a trip to the store on like ,,,,,, day 3/4

would take a picture the pads/tampons you use so he gets the correct ones

and would buy multiple boxes so you’d never run out

is incredibly comforting

does small tasks for you

brushes your hair and tries his best to braid it back

would make you foods that are high in iron

“you need it , baby , it’s for your blood”

but would follow it up with hot chocolates for the both of you

he’d sing softly to you until you fell asleep in his arms

and would press little kisses to your head

[sakurology]

Alphabet Headcanons- Fluff/SFW ver.

So I was super inspired by the NSFW Alphabet hc series, originally made by @fairy-tail-babes, and I wanted to make one but with fluff? Idk how to explain it but anyway. Just some fun ideas to challenge your writing! 💕

A is for Adventure: something they haven’t done but have always wanted to

B is for Butterflies: How they act when they’re nervous

C is for Crush: what is it like when they have a crush? How do they know/act?

D is for Date: describe an ideal date for them

E is for Essential: what is one thing they could NEVER go without

F is for Favorite: a favorite anything- food, place, smell, book, etc.

G is for Giggle: how they laugh/what makes them laugh

H is for Holding Hands: Do they like holding hands? Are their hands warm or cold? Pinky promises?

I is for Inside Joke: something they do that everyone thinks is funny but they don’t understand

J is for Jinx: Are they Superstitious?

K is for Kiss: how do they kiss?

L is for Love Languge: what is their love language? How do they give and how would they like to receive love?

M is for Meant to be: how/when they know someone is “the one”

N is for Nickname: a nickname they would have or their favorite thing to be called

O is for Organization: are they clean or messy?

P is for Pet Peeve: What’s something they absolutely CAN’T stand?

Q is for Quiet: What do they do for peace of mind

R is for Rainy Day: Do they like rain? What about storms? How would they spend a rainy day?

S is for Soft: Describe their softest feature

T is for Telephone: are they a talker or a texter? How often do they use their phone?

U is for Unique: a random quirk they have

V is for Valentine: Are they the type to celebrate or not?

W is for Wholesome: something extremely pure about them that makes you just *uwu*

X is for Xenia: How they would entertain a guest/show hospitality

Y is for Youth: A fond childhood memory they have

Z is for Zzz: Sleep habits. Do they cuddle in their sleep? Talk? What do they dream about?

Special thanks to @sugawarasimp @lydzisanerd @super-noya @nonexistent-social-life for helping come up with some of the ideas their brains are so big I luv them 💕🥺

Feel free to use!

[positivelypositive]

This term has been hard for me, my anxiety/depression symptoms started this year. I luv my mom sm, but she often gives well-meaning but harmful advice. I want to trust her advice and be able to talk to her, so, after taking WEEKS to muster the courage, I touched the surface of my anxiety sx if at least we could talk to my primary care doc. she told me to not let anxiety spiral out of control. Q: how would you suggest bringing up counseling as she isn't supportive? how do i not get injured again?

hey anon,

i always feel like our parents even with best intentions have high chances of misunderstanding us and not understanding us at all only because the times have changed so much. it's not really their fault per se but it can cause damage to parent-child relationships in some cases for sure.

anon if you think your mother is capable of understanding you even a little bit, i want you to try telling her slowly and like you would explain something to a child. don't coddle her but be gentle. start slow.

tell her you haven't been feeling so good about your life. tell her you tried to help yourself but it's not working. tell her how kuch you'd appreciate if she would help you reach out to a therapist and get the help you think you need.

lay out the facts. be soft. don't go in with the mindset to argue or fight. even if your mother loses her cool, be prepared to remain calm yourself. i think this can really help her show that you're serious about it and have thought about it in detail.

hope this helps you. sending you love and positive vibes ✨

[mogaikinscourse]

warriors discourse time (tw: animal death, q word, patriarchy, sexism, caps, bad language)

hey anon!! i completely, completely agree with you. 

the number of lgbtq+/mogai-coded cats, both she-cats and toms, is mindblowing. there are so many! there is so much potential! and yet those identities are reserved for either villains or for cats who are killed off, as you mentioned. 

your mention of Tigerstar makes me think of Scourge, who was always described as having a ‘high-pitched’ voice and having gone through a literal lifetime of bullying & abuse. i do not sympathize with him in any way, but! but. the “high pitched” voice thing has long been theorized among lgbtq+ circles to be a way of stereotyping and othering gay folx. so you’re right about non cishet-coded cats being kind of pushed aside. 

when it comes to gender roles, even the names tend to be gendered. and there’s no reason for gendered names in this universe! at all! she-cat/molly names like Daisy, or Hollyleaf (luv her btw), or Leafpool, or Goldenflower, are much more common than tougher sounding +  gender neutral ones, ie Bluestar/Sandstorm/Cinderheart/Yellowfang. 

meanwhile, toms get names like Firestar, Brambleclaw, Tigerstar/claw, Lionblaze, and on and on. they get names that sound tough or neutral. which speaks to how the Erins actually view the she-cats/mollies in their universe. a she-cat is not as good a fighter, or a hunter, or a clan member, apparently, because they’re not as tough. 

i also don’t like how they treat disability. of course living in the wild, it can’t really make much sense for, say, a cat who’s lost their back leg function to still be a warrior. physically they are not able to do fight like an able bodied warrior, but are they useless? No! can they provide insight into what they’re dealing with? yeah! can they be medicine cats? yeah! can they be advisors to their leaders? yeah! can they be mediators? yeah, probably! there is so much disabled cats can do, and yet... look at what happened to Briarlight. Blossomfall was a massive ableist for being mad that Millie was upset about her sister’s disability... and the Erins showed Big Ableism by not having Blossomfall confront & unlearn her own ableism. 

and the sexism! omfg, the sexism! oof eek yikes! the names thing is a sexism issue, of course. yet. sexism was the driving force behind Bluestar’s Prophecy! why couldn’t she still go for the deputy position while being pregnant or raising her kits? the gestation period for cats is not that long, so would it really be a massive deal for someone to help her during that time... and then for her to take over as full deputy? i mean???? 

that and we see the she-cats suffer more, in general, than toms do when they get into half-clan relationships, with one exception being Graystripe. and even in that example, we see his suffering more than we see Silverstream’s. almost as if his pain matters more  because he’s a tom. hmm. 

i really was bothered that they didn’t let Ivypool be lesbian or aroace. i was bothered that, despite her initial discomfort with the idea of having kits (and even outright repulsion), they had her “get over it” and get a mate. that reminds me uncomfortably of the “oh she just needs some pp” thing that men do when women are in bad moods/upset. 

ahhh, there’s also the casual kitty xenophobia! the kittypet blood thing. i can understand why kittypets wouldn’t be allowed in clans that have to be as physically strong, fit, and used to nature as possible to survive outside. but .i don’t get why the clans have to despise kittypets’ very existence. live and let live. i guess that’s too much of a difficult concept for these authors to grasp. 

i shall also be pirating or borrowing my warriors books from now on, because i still enjoy the stories overall. but it really is nasty how much minority-coded cats are pushed aside and not allowed to be actual characters. 

i don’t think i need to say a single word  on the exclusion of nonbinary folx... the erins know animals can be born intersex, right? and if these cats are humanized, fantasy cats... then they can have gender identity, they know that, right???

let’s all just remember that we need to consume our media critically. and, as anon said, no work is ever going to be 100% free of problematic content. 

just because someone enjoys a work that has problems... doesn’t mean the person thinks those problems are good things. 

but! steer clear of people who like a ton of problematic sources, because that is a sign of their refusal to recognize the problems.

“ashfur just loved too much” -- shut.

[exosmutfactory]

sad chefs kiss anon here^^ im actually currently a color theory student HAHA how youre sprinkling some context regarding color really makes me excited!! altho my q wont be about colors lol i actually wanted to ask if theres a chapter you think we should look closer at or havent really dived into when understanding your lil hints? id love to re-read everything but idk i wanna work smart dissecting your characters rather than hard... would that be alright? 🥺 much luv to u and your readers - 💀👌

Hi dear ~ and omg really!?!! That's so cool! 🥺 I hope I do an okay job with how I use the colors then 😅

Of course! I really really really recommend reading chapter 4 again. It's the first time you see Baekhyun being vulnerable - and it has significance to the color/gif teaser. Pay attention to what he and the other characters say (yes it is 20k words <.< but focus on the tears. The road of tears is the way to go).

I hope this helps 💞 even if you don't understand it now, you will later 😄 Speaking of which, the finale is going to drop a major clue that will take months for you to figure out... 😇 because I'm mischievous like that hehe 😈 Thank you lovely 💖💝💖💝💖

[gukooky]

🏷 rules: answer the ten questions, write your own, and tag ten people

🏷 tagged by the cutie who shares the same braincell as me, @nakyngs. luv ya bb!!

1. what was your first kpop bias, and who in that group is your bias now?

mark tuan from got7!!! bruh when i first got into kpop, he became my mf life 👀 but now...it’s jaebum oopsies. i went through a bambam phase in early 2019 but it’s changed again since and now its jaebum haha

2. what member of your ult group would fight / bicker with the most and why?

idk but jisung (skz) bc i just feel like i could take him ??? also idk i feel like i could bicker with him ab the stupidest shit all the time... (hyunjin too bc he’s a dramatic bih but i’ll stick with jisung)

3. what popular kpop song do you not like that everyone else seems to love?

oooof i had to think hard about this one. but i think it has to be kill this love by bp. don’t get me wrong, bp is great and all but that song ain’t it for me. you’ll see me do the dance if it comes on but only bc after having to listen to it millions of times, i’ve gotten used to it.

4. tell the story of how you got into kpop!

ahh! okay so on jan 1st, 2017, i was bored in my room and i just had a thought “yo i’m gonna do something strange...i’m gonna get into kpop.” it honestly came out of nowhere and to this day i don’t remember what drove me to think that. anyway, stepping into a whole new world is difficult bc like, where do you start y’know? so i was like ‘i think yters have reacted to kpop on that react channel (i always ignored those) so let’s watch those’ and i saw got7′s just right for the first time and went “THIS. THIS IS IT!” i became obsessed with got7 for a good three weeks until...i just stopped aksjas. i lowkey forgot about kpop but then i remembered i also liked bts’ song dope/fire and 4minute’s song hate/crazy so i kept listening to those (yes i listened to the same 5-6 kpop songs for the whole month of march) until i decided, no if im going to get into kpop, i gotta go all in and devote myself to a group. so on the iconic weekend of april 11-13, i decided to get into bts and spring break was coming up (omg thank god) and i spent the WHOLE WEEK watching bts videos, learning everything there was to know about bts (cue the cringing at “jimin you got no jams” and “excuse me”) and there were getting bigger as i became a fan so that kind immersed me further in the fandom? and yeah that’s it...

5. if you were a fictional character, what character archetype would you fall into? also, elaborate you lazy shit <3

omg um if we’re going by the common archetypes, i’d probs be a mix of the lover, and joker. if you ask my friends, i’m definitely a hopeless romantic who wants a bf (i’m that bitch oops) but then i’m also that friend who’s just optimistic and tries to lighten the mood a whole bunch askldj

6. you can only eat one food and drink one beverage (not counting water) for the rest of your life. what food and drink do you choose?

elena, i fr hate this question omg how can i choose >:( umm i’d probably choose this chicken and rice dish my grandma makes bc it’s my absolute favorite food. and for a beverage, probablyyy passionfruit juice!!

7. if you could instantly be fluent in any one language (in addition to your native and/or already spoken languages), which language would you choose?

ok so i’m half latina and i understand most spanish but i wish i could speak it more fluently bc some of my fam don’t speak english and the language barrier sucks. but if i were to be fluent in a language i’ve not been exposed to it’d prob be korean or japanese bc i’m lazy at reading subs whoops.

8. along the line of 3 wishes, you get to permanently remove any 3 things from the world forever (for example, a certain kind of bug etc. broad ideas such as world hunger or oppression aren’t allowed bc humans gonna keep doing that shit~). what 3 things do you make disappear?

oooo i like this q!!! i’d probs get rid of mosquitos bc those lil shits are annoying as hell (i hate bugs (utterly terrified of them) in general) also let’s get rid of my procrastination and laziness ajdjsk👀

9. what is one song you think everyone should hear?

never gonna give you up - rick astley 🤪 (it’s deadass my favorite song)

10. list 3 5 (did i edit your question? maybe i did) of your tumblr crushes and you MUST tag them!

my tumblr crushes? hm there’s way more than this but i wuv @scriptaed​ @kinktae​ and @junqkook​ @joonary​ and @gukyi​ !!

my questions!!! 1. if there’s an idol you feel the most connected/similar to, who is it and why? 2. when did you get into kpop and who was your first group? 3. tea or coffee?  4. what’s a song you have on repeat at the moment? 5. what’s your fav album from your ult group and why? 6. what’s your all time favorite movie? 7. if you could go back in time and change something in your life (without worrying about changing the future) what would you change and why? 8. write five words to describe your personality! 9. at an amusement park, what ride are you drawn to first?  10. what are the top five fandoms you’re a part of?

im tagging anyone who wants to do it! just tag me so I can see all your answers!

[h2bakugou]

Hiya there! May i request a scenario with Kaminari Denki (aged up!^^)of where he has a crush on reader who’s alot like Bakugou in terms of personality- just alot more stoic and keeps to themselves. Maybe where he sees them vulnerable for the first time when theyre drunk and they accidentally confess but dont really realize it until Denki. Just lots fluff actually and maybe a bit of angst subce reader is insecure bout their personality 👀👉👈. Also congrats on 4k followers luv! ^^💕💕💕💕💕💕💕💕

a/n: hey hun! of course!! soft denki is something we need more of, he’s such a great character and he’s one of my favorites. thank you love <3!!

all characters aged up 18+ au!!

summary: kaminari’s had a crush on you since he laid eyes on you back at u.a. and now that you’re older, he gets to know you more. he sees you at your most vulnerable when you get drunk at a party and it leads to a confession

key: (y/n) - your name / (f/n) - first name / (l/n) - last name / (e/c) - eye color / (h/c) - hair color / (y/q) - your quirk

warnings: swearing, fluff, angst, alcohol

wordcount: 1.4k

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Back at U.A., you were known for your more stoic personality. Rivaling Bakugou in terms of tough exterior and little to no expression outside of your determination to succeed, you caught the eye of Denki rather easily.

Since he’d been friends with Bakugou, he was used to the rather cold-shoulder you gave him. You weren’t deliberately trying to be mean to him, you just had your walls up, and for good reasons.

But all that was in the past. Being well out of your teen years, blossoming into young adults, and young heroes, Denki was a bit surprised to see you at Deku’s party. He didn’t think you’d still be in contact with anyone else from U.A.

You’d connected over the years, much to Denki’s surprise. And after a while of getting used to one another, you were able to open up over time, but no matter how much Denki got to see you on off days, or hang out and watch movies, he still felt miles away from ever getting to know you behind the sparkling (e/c) eyes you had.

“(Y/n)! I didn’t think I’d see you here.” Kaminari gives you a brief hug before taking a swig of his drink. It was strong, and it burned his throat as it went down.

“I thought it’d be nice to show up.” You reply, taking a sip of your own drink. It was notably tangy.

“Are we still on for Wednesday’s movie night?” Kaminari asked. You’d marked Wednesday’s as movie nights unless one of you was working. It became a trend after your third year in U.A., the two of you had bonded over the shared love for classic movies.

“Yup.” You glance and notice Bakugou approaching you with alongside Kirishima.

“Bakugou! Kirishima! Great seeing you guys here.” Kaminari exchanged a hug with Kirishima and a head nod toward Bakugou.

“What are you doing here?” Bakugou asked you. He’d grown up for sure. If his muscles were any bigger you doubted if the button-up shirt he was wearing would be able to contain him.

“I figured it might be nice to show up. Deku invited me, so why not?” You didn’t quite understand if Bakugou was happy or upset that you had shown up, but Kirishima seemed to see the unnerving tension that had been created between the two of you.

“It’s great to see you, and you look great.” Kirishima complimented, giving you a quick hug before pulling Bakugou along to go mingle with his other peers.

“Pour me another.” You glance at Kaminari and hand him your now empty cup. Kaminari does what you ask and pours you another cup full of alcohol.

And soon after another, and another, and another.

You’re drunk now, and time seems to blur together. As you moved around, you could see things spin around you. You were off a good buzz, and you’d regret it later, but for now, you felt good.

“Alright, I think you’ve had a bit too much, let’s get you to a bathroom.” Kaminari noticed your unstable stature.

Guiding you along, he eventually found a bathroom and ushered you inside.

“I don’t have to throw up-”

“Yet. And I don’t plan on getting it on the seats of my new car. I haven’t seen you this drunk since the graduation party.” Kaminari laughed as he took a seat on the edge of the tub.

You sat down on the floor and pulled your legs to your chest.

“Why are you friends with me? I was such an asshole to you in school.” You mumbled, glancing over at him as your slurred words poured out.

“You weren’t deliberately mean, actually you weren’t really mean at all. You had your boundaries, and I respect that.” Kaminari smiled. He was buzzing too, but he hadn’t had nearly as much as you had. He’d only had two drinks and they were already wearing off.

By the time he planned on leaving, he’d be more than okay to drive.

“B-but...” You rubbed your eyes and let out a whine.

“It’s not fair.” You groaned, covering your face with your hands.

“You don’t have to tell me if you don’t want too. You’re drunk, I can go if you need me to-”

“No. Please stay.” You reached a hand out to grab him, his hand reaching out to take yours.

“Alright. Do you want me to sit next to you?” Denki asked. You nodded and Kaminari quickly sat down beside you. You scooted closer and placed your head on his shoulder.

Kaminari’s heartbeat began to race. He’d sat like this with you before. But this felt different.

“What movie do you wanna watch Wednesday?” Kaminari asked, holding your hand up, admiring the way it looked intertwined with his own.

“I don’t know.” You mumbled, your slurred words hard to comprehend.

“Something scary?” Kaminari suggested, his thumb rubbing the back of your hand. You shook your head and looked over at him.

“Something funny.” You smiled. 

“Alright. I love comedy.” Kaminari was happy the movie wasn’t actually going to be scary. He’d brought up the genre but he hid during most of those movies anyway.

It had gone quiet for a while, and Kaminari thought you had fallen asleep. Until he heard soft whimpers and felt you shaking. You were crying.

“Hey, hey, what’s wrong?” Kaminari went into a panic as he quickly moved to be able to see you better, sitting at an angle to look at you.

“It’s just...” You cried, looking up at him with watery, red eyes. Tears rolled down your cheeks as you cried, all your walls crumbling down around you.

“Deep breaths.” Kaminari tried to soothe you.

“I tried so hard. I had these stupid walls up...the keep me from getting hurt, and all they ever did was hurt me.” You sobbed, rubbing your eyes to wipe the tears but that only created more.

“It’s okay to have walls up, they made you strong, look at you-”

“No, they didn’t! Bakugou hates me because all he knows is that I’m some stone-cold bitch.” You shook your head, beginning to yank your hands away from him.

Kaminari let your hands go, but pressed his forehead to yours.

“You are so fucking strong, and talented, and beautiful, you hear me?” Kaminari spoke sternly.

“And you, I’ve loved you for so fucking long, it’s not fair. You deserve so much better than me-”

“Don’t say that! That’s not true.” Kaminari cupped your face with his hands. You were so vulnerable. Who knew you’d be the sad drunk.

Looking into your eyes, Kaminari stared long and hard at the tear-covered face he’d been in love with ever since you stepped foot into Class 1-A.

“I love you so fucking much.” Kaminari swore, a few tears sliding down your cheeks.

“I’m not going to kiss you right now, but when you’re sober, I will.” Kaminari pressed his forehead against yours again and smiled.

“Kami-”

“Shh...it’s okay, just focus on breathing, you’re okay, I’m here if you need anything. Do you want some water?” Kaminari asked, reaching for a disposable cup sitting on the bathroom sink.

“Yeah.” You whisper. Denki filled the cup up by the faucet and handed it back to you.

“Thank you.” You begin to smile again.

- - -

Eventually, it’s time for you to leave. You didn’t throw up but you don’t feel super good either. Denki helps you back to his car and smiles.

“You okay to stay at my place or do you want me to drop you off at home?” Denki asks, getting into the drive side, buckling in.

“Can I stay with you?” You ask, glancing out the window at your other friends as they leave.

“Of course.” 

When you arrive back at Denki’s he leaves you his bed and takes the couch. He tucks you in and makes sure you’re all settled with some pain meds on the nightstand for when you wake up along with some water.

And when morning rolls around, he’s greeted with a sleepy and hungover you nudging his shoulder.

“Can we Postmates some breakfast?” You smile and lay on top of him on the couch.

“We certainly can angel. How are you feeling?” Kaminari smiles up at you, his golden eyes lit up in the sunlight.

“Much better, sorry you had to see me like that last night.” You apologize for how you had acted but Kaminari shook his head.

“It’s alright. Besides, do you remember what I said?”

And before you even responded, you leaned down and kissed him, locking your lips onto his. It’s slow but rhythmic. Your lips move against his so smoothly, and it’s perfect.

When you pull away you can see how red Kaminari’s cheeks are.

“Are we official now?” Kaminari asks, a goofy grin on his lips.

“Yes.” You kiss him again, missing the feeling of his lips on your own.

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masterlist

[floraisann]

« about me »

no one asked, but hey, might as well leave this here :)

❅♩♬♩❅―― 

❅ name: my birth name is elizabeth, but occasionally i forget that since i usually go by: emmie! 💕

❅ signs: taurus sun, pisces moon, sagittarius rising (basically i’m tired and emotional, yet wild)

❅ nationality: filipino-american (except i can only do the accent when imitating my grandpa or mom lmfao 😔 never learned tagalog man)

❅ languages spoken: i’m only fluent in english, but can sometimes understand tagalog and korean, then i’m studying french in school!! 

❅ ateez/tbz bias: who am i but an overly aggressive san stan who uses every possible opportunity to promote him? i wouldn’t know 😳 also mr Q SHOT UP to ub status w mr san lately and it’s kind of terrifying how much love i now have for this man 😰

❅ ateez/tbz bias wreckers: oh god don’t even get me STARTED on mingi and sunwoo like 😳 if i wasn’t so whipped for my chaotic water sign ub duo listed above both of them would be in EXTREME DANGER because mingi and sunwoo are CONSTANTLY COMING FOR MY NECK goddamn

❅ other bias groups: i’ve been an exo-l since the very day i got into kpop, but seventeen has also been one of my ult groups since the aju nice era, and i’ve seen them live a few times!! i also love nct (all units), twice, (g)i-dle and dreamcatcher!! also she’s not a group, but i love iu, she has such a pretty voice and personality (̶◉͛‿◉̶)

❅ biases in groups listed above: d.o. and sehun (exo); woozi and dino (seventeen); haechan and jisung (nct); mina (twice); minnie ((g)i-dle); sua and gahyeon (dreamcatcher)

❅ favorite ateez song: desire is just THAT bitch man i luv her so much 🥺 also utopia? iconic. if you wanna know my favorite title track though, uh it’s either treasure or hala hala!!

❅ favorite the boyz song: yo the way salty just SLAPS THAT HARD omfg i’ve been obsessed w her lately ☠️☠️☠️  title track wise i really do vibe with reveal, but DDD just has THAT power to get me out of bed at 4am to headbang to mr jacob’s part yk?

❅ talents/hobbies: well um, besides writing i do take seven hours of dance lessons a week (the focus is on hiphop, but i also take ballet, jazz, lyrical, modern, musical theater, and tap) so i like to think i’m good at that,,,, also i sing! i’m one of way too many sopranos in my school choir and more specifically am a soprano 1 (my voice is very high)

❅ fun fact: i literally got into ateez four days after telling my atiny friend their music wasn’t my taste. what am i but a clown influenced by the power of the hala hala dance practice 😔✊

[bantan]

190622 CanCam - Member Interview

Raws by @takejun20522_ at Twitter

RM

“I get really nervous on large stages, but the feeling of “I have to do it” makes me that much stronger.”

When it comes to memories of America, it has to be the BBMAs. It was our first live performance with Halsey, so it really left an impression on me. I also met Drake, who I’ve always admired, and he said “You guys are the most famous in America right now”. I found it funny to have the person who I consider to be the best in America say that to us.

Being on an incredibly big stage makes me nervous, but when we’re in America my feelings of “I have to do this” grow even stronger to make up for the members. It can’t be helped, since the others can’t say that much. I think I’m cooler than usual when I’m in America. (laughs)

Speaking of cool, personally I find JK to be really cool recently. He’s pretty much always working out. I haven’t been able to exercise much lately, but JK is always building his muscles. There’s something mesmerising about his body, even from a man’s perspective. (laughs)

The other thing that left an impression in America was the second concert in LA, when I looked at the audience during the encore. There’s a performance where they illuminate us with their phone flashlights, and it was just so beautiful. The Japanese original song “Lights” this time is exactly that. In a dark space or dark time, look at that light and keep walking. In a way, it’s the light that ARMY have shown us, and also ARMY themselves… I made the song with those kinds of feelings. That’s why, when I close my eyes now, what comes to mind is… Huh? It’s V. Because I saw him sleeping over there just now. (laughs)

Q. Was your legendary Rose Bowl comment an adlib?

I prepared a comment for the encore, but the audience’s lights were so pretty they blew it all away. It was so beautiful, some words about the galaxy just came out.

Q. What’s your recommended point of the new song?

Boy with Luv’s dance that looks like hitchhiking. I want to try it for real, but I don’t think anyone would stop for me because I’m scary. (laughs)

Q. How do you refresh yourself lately?

I like looking at art. In terms of Japan, I like Senju Hiroshi’s “Taki”. I’ve heard Senju-sensei has an art gallery, so I’d like to visit one day.

Q. Do you have any plans to write a book in the future?

It was my dream to be an author when I was in primary school. But after meeting music and having my dreams fulfilled as BTS right now, I’d like to continue working hard with BTS. (laughs) Once I’m 40-50 years old, it’d be nice to write novels and essays.

JIN

“Even in the smallest moments of our daily lives, we show consideration for each other. That’s part of what makes us BTS.”

I’m the eldest of our team, but I’m the type to approach others with no regard for age hierarchies. I’ve never really been overly conscious about those things, but recently I’ve started to believe that “the culture of changing attitudes or the way you treat others based on an older or younger age isn’t good”, and it also makes the relationship seem lifeless. The fact that not only me, but the other members also think this way is part of what makes BTS BTS. Showing consideration for each other over everything, no matter how small, can be felt in the smallest moments of our daily lives. If there’s something that another member wouldn’t like, another member would speak up and say “You should probably stop that” first.

Apart from that, the members charms that only I know… I think ARMY would know better than me. Since I’m not watching the others that closely… (laughs) Ah, but it’s funny if you pay attention to RM during the American interviews. He’s fluent in English and leads the interviews with his answers, but he also makes sure to direct some questions to us. Whenever he does that, he makes sure to give us the chance to answer with one or two easy words instead of a difficult sentence, so that we’re able to answer them too. Like how RM excels in language, and the others excel in dance and singing… Our team’s strength is in how we each have our own speciality, which I think is very cool.

Q. What’s a “small happiness” you felt yesterday or today?

I’ve been into the TV show “Walking Dead” recently. There was a character I didn’t really like that I would have preferred to be gone. Then a zombie solved the issue for me. (laughs)

Q. What do you see when you close your eyes right now?

(While closing eyes) A zombie. (laughs) They keep appearing when I close my eyes.

Q. What’s something cute about the members?

When they meet celebrities they’ve always wanted to meet at Billboard, they get really happy.

Q. What choreography do you like from BTS songs?

The part where we hit the table in Dionysus.

Q. How do you refresh yourself lately?

…Zombies. (laughs) I’ve only talked about zombies today, is that okay?!

JUNGKOOK

“Personally I wish I had a single talent that I excelled in”

There’s a lyric in the new song “Lights” that goes like “Nobody’s perfect”. I really love this part. It’s like I’m being consoled that it’s fine not to be perfect. People often praise me saying that my dance and singing is perfect, but that’s not true at all. I wish I had a single talent that I excelled in. I’ve tried many things in search of that, but right now I’m focusing on doing my best in the things I need to do. While doing that, listening to this song makes me realise I don’t have to be perfect, which is comforting. Ah, I don’t have anything I’m particularly good at, but there is something that I’m bad at. Using my head! I’m really bad at that. (laughs) Speaking of new songs, Boy with Luv is also a really good song. After all, its choreography is rather simple out of all of BTS’ songs. That’s a happy point for me. (laughs)

It’s really difficult to completely recover your stamina while standing on the stage. Even I unconsciously try to squeeze out the last of my energy as the concert nears its end. There have been times where I’ve been unable to move from muscle pain the day after a concert. That’s why right now my top priority is to not get hurt. I want to be able to build myself up and manage my body more… Huh, what part of myself am I most confident in? Ah… (shy smile) Hmm, I wonder. I don’t know myself. I’ll do my best to build my body up more!

Q. What’s your honest opinion of the current world tour?

There’s a song called Mikrokosmos on our album, but it’s like seeing that for real. It’s so inspiring and makes my heart burn sharply. I really think of it as a happy moment to me.

Q. What do you see when you close your eyes right now?

Lots of things come to mind, but none are very clear. They’re all a vague blur… Like I can nearly see it, but can’t. (laughs)

Q. What part of the members do you think is adorable?

Jimin. You can tell he really loves the stage from the bottom of his heart. We really understand each other in that way.

Q. What’s a method of relaxing that you’re into?

Recently I went to Ariana Grande’s concert and had a lot of fun. I was encouraged as an artist and I was able to enjoy the music a lot, so it was great.

Q. What are the conditions for you to think that someone is wonderful?

Someone who has a lot to teach others, someone I can understand. And someone who is cool!

SUGA

“The nerves at Billboard, the choreography of a new song. I always enjoy doing new things.”

We barely have the chance to do these sorts of interviews anymore, so being able to send our words to the readers and ARMY like this makes me happy.

When we make original songs in Japanese, we take a lot of things into consideration when creating it. What I noticed in doing that is that there’s a certain sensitivity that can be found only in the original Japanese songs. Like with the song’s melody and style, the lyrics are just as sensitive. With all the emotional parts, I think the new song “Lights” has especially brought out those emotions well.

I’d also like you to pay attention to the choreography of Boy with Luv! There’s something new about it compared to our style until now. I always enjoy doing new things. Even at Billboard, that feeling of elation seeing our group name during the Top Duo/Group award. The feeling of tension entering the Rose Bowl like we’re participating in the finals of the World Cup... They’re all memories I’ll have forever, and it was all so much fun.

When I want to switch over from that exciting space and relax, I often listen to lo-fi hip-hop. It’s mentally comforting. My favourite is Nujabes. I’ve always liked him in the past, but I’ve been listening to him more again lately. As for recent changes, I’ve gotten into a game. I wasn’t a person who played games, but now I’m really into a certain game. As long as I have the chance, I’ll be playing it. I’m the type to continuously do something once I become obsessed with it—and not only with music. Everyone says I’ve become more talkative since I started playing games? That’s not true. They just feel that way because we’re together 24 hours a day, surely. (laughs)

Q. What’s a small happiness you felt yesterday/today?

Yesterday… I didn’t do anything… The time I spent lying in the hotel bed was my happiness. (laughs)

Q. What comes to mind when you close your eyes right now?

(Closes eyes) The feeling of being in the stadium and looking at roughly 70,000 people in the audience from the stage. It was really like looking at a galaxy of stars.

Q. Did you buy anything during this American tour?

Every time I come to America I buy another piece of music equipment. This time I bought a mic.

Q. What’s your recommended song for when you feel down?

Dionysus. It’s Latin, so it energises you.

Q. What kind of person do you think is “wonderful”?

Someone who can do their job well. No matter their employment or gender, people who do things properly are cool.

V

“ARMY’s cheers are my reward. It feels like everything paid off!”

We’re right in the middle of our world tour right now, but I really felt that the fans are a huge source of energy to us once more. Every time we have a concert and so many people send us their cheers, it feels like I’ve been rewarded for all my efforts until now. The scenery at America’s Rose Bowl was truly beautiful. When I saw that picturesque scenery, it felt like everything had paid off. At the same time, because every member individually stands out, the whole group can stand out. I really thought everyone looked so cool.

In the free time during our tour, I’ve been into visiting art galleries and finding new works of art. Recently I’ve really been liking the works of Fernando Botero and Edward Hopper. Of course there’s a charm with famous works, but there are lots of less famous works that are just as lovely. That’s why I’ve been having a lot of fun recently looking for works that aren’t really well known by other people but shine in my eyes when I look at them. As for other ways to relax… I feel happy when I look at clothes and furniture that I like. I can understand why clothes, but I’m not sure why I feel calm when I look at nice furniture. (laughs) Speaking of clothes, I splurged on a brand I love the other day! I bought a dress shirt and jacket and knitwear and T-shirts, and that made me really happy. As for other things I got excited about recently, the Korean catering just now was really good. I never imagined I’d be able to eat that in America, so I was really happy. <3

Q. What do you see when you close your eyes?

Birds. I don’t know if they’re beautiful or not, but they’re flying in a flock. (laughs)

Q. V seems to have a lot of friends, what are some tricks to making friends?

If I think someone matches me in personality, I’ll approach them as myself and talk to them. When I think we think the same way, I’ll often get closer to them myself.

Q. Which BTS song would you recommend to cheer someone up?

Mikrokosmos. I listen to this song a lot myself recently.

Q. What makes you think someone is wonderful?

Someone who has a clear mind and can express themselves clearly. Someone who makes you think “I want to follow this person” just by hearing them talk. Don’t you think that’s wonderful too? Someone exactly like RM.

J-HOPE

“I don’t need to worry about the other members when we’re on the stage anymore.”

The members have been together for such a long time, we understand each other as easily as breathing when we’re on the stage. After spending over 7-8 years with each other, we can tell what each other is thinking just by meeting eyes. Because we all know what our role is and what we need to do, we don’t need to worry as much about what the others are doing on the stage anymore--in a good way. But in our hearts, we’re constantly making sure no one gets hurt or sick. Since every member is a precious, irreplaceable piece of a whole.

In order to make the stage a better place, I personally endeavor in image training. I’m always thinking about how I can make the same concert contents into something fresh every time. As for things I do for my own sake... let’s see. Lately, I've been drinking onion juice (玉ねぎ汁) every morning. I also take a variety of healthy things, like herbal medicine and vitamins. (laughs) I believe that a healthy heart is not only connected to food and drink, but also to maintaining a clean state of mind. When I’m in a good mood, I think I naturally feel better, and smiling more also leads to having a better condition. The secret to my smiling face? Thank you for the praise! (laughs) This is how I am every day! When I live every moment in gratitude, I naturally end up expressing my feelings on my face. Even in this moment, when I think about how we’re appearing on the front cover of CanCam, I end up smiling out of gratitude.

Q. What was a small happiness you felt yesterday or today?

It really is a small thing, but breathing the air here in LA. Being able to work outside in locations like this both yesterday and today and feel the atmosphere of the area makes me happy.

Q. What comes to mind when you close your eyes right now?

I wonder what... “If only I could fall asleep like this”, I guess? I’m a little sleepy right now. (laughs)

Q. What part do you like from the new song?

I love my part in “Lights”. Though I’m sure everyone loves their own part! (laughs)

Q. What makes you think someone is wonderful?

Someone who does their work properly, a person who can clearly tell the difference between public and private, someone with high professional sense. And someone who smiles a lot! Yes, I’m talking about me! (laughs)

Q. What made your heart skip a beat recently?

When I bought something I liked. I did a lot of shopping in LA... like art and things.

JIMIN

“Seeing all the members’ sincere selves made me want to change too.”

I’ve been with the members every day for 8 years, so I really can’t find anything unexpected about them. Despite that, during the current world tour I felt once again that each and every member treats their job with a sincere sense of responsibility. In the rehearsal the day before the concert, each member checks every detail of their solo songs so it takes roughly 13 hours. It made me realise how much they treasured the stage. Even being beside them made me think about many things.

Since coming to America, I’ve started sleeping and waking up early. I’ve started to get up early and listen to songs, open my computer and click around with my mouse. (laughs) The fact I can wake up by myself instead of having a manager wake me up for the first time in a while makes me want to be praised. (laughs)

What I look for in a wonderful person? Let’s see, I’ve made a new friend recently, but when I see that person I think “How wonderful”. They’re responsible and treasure what they’re doing with gratitude. I think attitudes like that are cool. Also, people who know what makes them happy are cool too. A recent moment where I’ve felt gratitude and happiness is when we sang Mikrokosmos at the stadium. The audience all held their lights and illuminated us. That situation and the lyrics really resonated within my chest. By the way, the lyric was “It might even be that the expression of this night is again so beautiful” [lyric credit: wisha]. They’re the words that RM wrote for me. (laugh)

Q. What’s a small happiness you felt yesterday or today?

The scenery here (the studio of a house in LA) is very pretty, so just looking outside makes me happy.

Q. What moment comes to mind when you close your eyes?

(With eyes closed) Hmm... I haven’t eaten yet today. So I’m thinking of going to eat after this.

Q. What song do you recommend for when you’re feeling down?

Boy with Luv and Jamais Vu. Jamais Vu is a song between J-Hope, Jin, and Jungkook. It’s healing to me too.

Q. What made your heart skip a beat recently?

The biggest moment was when we received an award at Billboard! Also, my heart beats faster when I look at Cancam. (laughs)

Q. Is there anything you fuss over with hair care?

I’ve been struggling with hair care lately, so my hair’s getting shorter even if I don’t cut it. I wanted to be a little kinder to my hair, so I’m making it black for a while.

[quarantinebreakup412081121]

Day 58: I Love You

It took him 19 months to say "I love you." It was 9 months after I said it to him. After we broke up, one evening we had a q&a with a list of questions I found online- Quarantine Questions. One of the questions was "When did you first know you loved me?" His answer corresponded with a time a couple months before I had said it. He waited nearly a year to say it. He felt it, but he didn't say it. I said it, and he would not reciprocate. Who does that? I thought I was doing something wrong. I thought I needed to work harder for his affection. I had even questioned it multiple times during our relationship, but he thought it was a good idea to hold those words hostage. During our 5 years together, he said/wrote "I love you" less than 20 times. That includes the "love ya" or the "luv u" or any variety of watered down "I love yous" typically reserved for friends. I only got them when I was leaving him after a weekend together or when I was being distant and not responding with my usual frequent enthusiasm. It was almost like a tool he could use to get my attention. I don't know why he wouldn't just say it to me when he knew I needed to hear it. Maybe it was a power play? To maintain control in our relationship? To make me feel worthless? To keep me on my toes? Why? This is something I know I'll never truly understand. I'm disappointed in myself for putting up with that for so long.