#i do to im just to scared to admit it

[lokh]

having to paint leggings while they're on ur body is so. -_-

[entering--hyperspace]

Cannot imagine whatever is going on through Mr Leonard Echowatcher's head. You spend your life yearning for a world where you lived differently, where the day wasnt soaked in war, blood, and battle. Where you could envision a future where you have a partner and a family with friends to live gracefully with. But then you are given such opportunities only to find you were never taught to be gentle, you have a gentle, empathetic nature and yet the physicality of it is a stranger to you. You are expected to raise a child with gentle hands so that she saves the world, What does that even mean? How can you accept your growing love for your friend when you were never taught how to love, that intimate love is a luxury best left forgotten, there are no need for such things in war. He has to learn to become the things he wanted bc he grew too old to develop it naturally. He becomes a father to taimi fumbling his way into learning how to care and parent, he is defensive of Aurene bc he is from a culture where they arent expected to raise their own young and yet has to do so with a dragon. It feels like a test, He has to prove both to others and to himself he is capable of being a father, of nuturing, that calloused, stained hands can still be gentle. He has to accept that love is a terrifying leap of faith in vulnerability in order to gain a partnership that is considered a rarity. I love the idea that he spent 30 years yearning for things he thought he would never have and when he is actually given those opportunities (albeit admittedly through unusual circumstances) he has to learn how to actually live in them, becuase they were always just Concepts until now. Ohhhh my god Mr. Leo you are my everything

[linabirb]

update post or somethingggg im feeling a lil bit better. antidepressants are WORKING 🔥🔥🔥🔥🔥 (i still don't think i'll be active anytime soon tho. ssorry guys i promise i love you but being online is very overwhelming for me rn)

anyway why is he so pretty. gives him a kith

[jils-things]

i miss being excited about him actually :c

[schizononagesimus]

🎶 they tried to make me go to rehab and i said PLEASE PLEASE HOLY FUCK I FEEL SO BAD WILL NOBODY HELP ME I CANT STOP WHY DOESNT ANYBODY NOTICE HOW BAD IT IS PLEASE HELP

[how-the-feathers-have-fallen]

Me, fighting tooth and nail against my irl friends who are sw*fties: yeah well, maybe I want my sad girl music to have a 3 minute guitar solo and distorted audio after the second verse of vaguely gay lyrics have you considered that ?!

[skitskatdacat63]

2023 Miami Grand Prix - Qualifying - Fernando Alonso(ft. Sergio Perez & Carlos Sainz)

[lottieurl]

controversial but like ill say like oh im aware things are subjective like humor and taste and such and i "believe" that but to be honest i just think what i find funny is funny and what i don't find funny isn't funny. like we just say all that out of politeness and the kindness in our hearts right? cause like no i don't believe you heard this song thought it sounds like dog farts and went oh so lovely how we are all so different and thus can find beauty in so many different things like you fucking did not you think it's objectively bad and you are baffled. be honest. and then on the other end of the spectrum are those posts that are like i love some bad music sometimes like is it the self consciousness and an attempt at not admitting what you enjoy to avoid being the subject of mockery cause no i don't believe you think it's bad that's your most listened to song of the month clearly you're enjoying it

[my-thoughts-and-junk]

i have to think about chilchuck and laios forever

[iwakuraz]

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[grntaire]

am i a gay dude? am i a lesbian? am i genderfluid + pansexual? the world may never know!

[thatsuncleharrytoyouyoungman]

scared to get everything ive ever wanted bc what is a human without a burning desire fr

[cs-oc-blank-random-posts]

there's a message for someone in the tags

(aimed/tw)

[princekirijo]

Finally graduated haha let's go 🥹

[psychoticwillgraham]

i’m supposed to be happy down here rn, but I’m not. I feel so homesick. not for my hometown, no. but for Rich and the boys at the shop. Rich especially needs me rn bc he just got outed and lost of all his business contacts so now he has absolutely no money coming in except for his disability payments. he didn’t even call me once during this ordeal. when I asked him why last night, he said that he didn’t wanna bother me bc I’m supposed to be on vacation and chilling and didn’t want me to worry about him. I can’t be mad bc I’d do the same thing honestly.

down here, everything seems so foreign to me. like I just stick out like a sore thumb. but nobody here knows me and I can truly be myself without judgement or preconceived notions ppl have about me. well, not really bc it’s dangerous for trans ppl down here. despite my life being shit back home, I miss it. I rlly do. and I’ve nearly drank about five different times and the rally (the big stressor) isn’t until Thursday. i’m terrified that I’ll relapse soon if I stay here, and if I do, mom and sis will scream and scream at me saying that I’ve disappointed grandma and am spitting on her memory by going back to the very thing that she fought so hard to help me beat back.

i’m just. Sad. and I feel empty inside. so very empty.

[dahldahlbills]

I really need to get serious about personal projects again