#i do not seek peace

[evilwrongdoer]

i can never wean myself off this shit. i will be an addict forever, because it's all i have.

[inkskinned]

they want to talk about mental illness and acceptance and how everyone is a little ocd it's cute and quirky and their "intrusive thoughts" are about cutting their hair off and you say yours are about taking a razorblade to your eye and they say ew can you not and everyone is a little adhd sometimes! except if you're late it's a personality flaw and it's because you are careless and cruel (and someone else with adhd mentions they can be on time, so why can't you?) and it's not an eating disorder if it's girl dinner! it's not mania if it's girl math! what do you mean you blew all of your savings on nonrefundable plane tickets for a plane you didn't even end up taking. what do you mean that you are afraid of eating. get over it. they roll their little lips up into a sneer. can you not, like, trauma dump?

they love it on them they like to wear pieces of your suffering like jewels so that it hangs off their tongue in rapiers. they are allowed to arm-chair diagnose and cherrypick their poisons but you can't ever miss too many showers because that's, like, "fuckken gross?" so anyone mean is a narcissist. so anyone with visual tics is clearly faking it and is so cringe. but they get to scream and hit customer service employees because well, i got overwhelmed.

you keep seeing these posts about how people pleasers are "inherently manipulative" and how it's totally unfair behavior. but you are a people pleaser, you have an ingrained fawn response. in the comments, you have typed and deleted the words just because it is technically true does not make it an empathetic or kind reading of the reaction about one million times. it is technically accurate, after all. you think of catholic guilt, how sometimes you feel bad when doing a good deed because the sense of pride you get from acting kind - that pride is a sin. the word "manipulation" is not without bias or stigma attached to it. many people with the fawn response are direct victims of someone who was malignantly manipulative. calling the victims manipulative too is an unfair and unkind reading of the situation. it would be better and more empathetic to say it is safety-seeking or connection-seeking behavior. yes, it can be toxic. no, in general it is not intended to be toxic. there is no reason to make mentally ill people feel worse for what we undergo.

you type why is everyone so quick to turn on someone showing clear signs of trauma but you already know the fucking answer, so what's the point of bothering. you kind of hate those this is what anxiety looks like! infographics because at this point you're so good at white-knuckling through a severe panic attack that people just think you're stoic. even people who know the situation sometimes comment you just don't seem depressed. and you're not a 9 year old white kid so there's no way you're on the spectrum, you're not obsessed with trains and you were never a good mathematician. okay then.

mental illness is trending. in 2012 tumblr said don't romanticize our symptoms but to be fair tiktok didn't exist yet. there's these series of videos where someone pretends to be "the most boring person on earth" and is just being a normal fucking person, which makes your skin crawl, because that probably means you are boring. your friend reads aloud a profile from tinder - no depressed bitches i fucking hate that mental illness crap. your father says that medication never actually works.

you still haven't told your grandmother that you're in therapy. despite everything (and the fact it's helping): you just don't want her to see you differently.

[sol-consort]

Easy to forget that Jaal IS living his fantasy of "hot aliens come knocking at your door to whisk you away on space adventures in their technologically advanced alien ship"

Like we're the aliens this time around, coming to his home planet, getting him on a spaceship with a variety of hot aliens. In a single day, Jaal's life took a turn for the harem anime protagonist road.

This is a full on monsterfucking fetish to him, we are the monsters he wants to fuck.

And he's an alien enthusiast. He was writing "alien x reader" on angaran Wattpad since he was a teen.

[stil-lindigo]

" Is it alright to cling to you? To invent meaning where it is absent? I fear my words won’t grow up with me, still scuffing their knees on cement. I can welcome a lie when it's blinding, But I can’t write like a poet while blinking. I can’t draw like an artist without hiding. I can’t live right now without thinking. "

-words, by me.

[bbbrianjones]

HAPPY BIRTHDAY BRIAN JONES [28TH FEB 1942]

"I can talk about almost any subject. Lots of reporters say I’m an interviewer’s dream. But it’s on travel that I like to talk about. There are hundreds of places all over the world that I’ve always wanted to see. Egypt’s Pyramids, Sydney Harbour, Honolulu, the North Pole. I could name lots more. If I ever get the time and the money I’d like to seek out every corner of the earth." - Brian Jones

[mc-critical]

Bonus:

2.22 (46) / 2.24 (48) / 2.25 (49) / 2.35 (59) / 2.39 (63)

[herbofgraceandpeace]

Thoughts on season two of the bear so far: Carmy needs to bloom where he’s been planted.

[wexhappyxfew]

kennedy being transfixed on the idea of bucky being at peace is by far one of my favorite attributes of her character + her arc through the story. never before had she really actively searched for peace. her life’s been nothing but chaos and having to put on an act. be someone she isn’t. and then there’s bucky - a little loud, passionate, someone who fights for what’s right, whether aggressively or not. and despite all that, she finds that when he’s peaceful it’s when she is drawn to him most. aspects of one another that they don’t like to show. but show in front of the other. when they can put down their guards and be vulnerable? quiet, and soft in front of each other. and i think that’s the beauty of their entire togetherness truly.

and more than anything - she wants that peace for HIM. she wants to see him at peace in the rooming, sitting on their front porch together, sipping coffee, hands intertwined together between them as they sit in chairs, watching the sun glistening on the golden fields around their home in the mornings. moments where they’re sat at in the living room, each in their own headspace’s with books or newspapers, but still living in the presence of one another and loving that. or sitting at the table at dinner, talking about their days, what they should do this upcoming friday night, when they should meet up with her family for lunch. and then there's the moments when they're curled in bed, side by side in each other's embrace, breathing in the warmth, silence and love.

they constantly search for peace where they don't have it - and they finally get that 😭 with each other 😭

[the-obnoxious-sibling]

No but like the fact that Mihawk KNEW about Luffy and how he is tied to Shanks! And the fact that he decided to personally go and talk about him to Shanks is just… they’re so interesting (in love)

you know, a lot of characters see that hat on luffy’s head and think hey, didn’t red-haired shanks used to wear something like that? it’s practically cliche.

as is characters who knew shanks before and after he gave it away asking shanks what happened to the hat. whether they get details, like rayleigh did, or just that cryptic “i bet it on the next generation” line, depends on who shanks is talking to. given his longstanding rivalry with mihawk, it’s not hard to imagine the next time they were meant to have a duel they ended up discussing luffy instead.

[novadreii]

If your life circumstances have always required from you an abnormal amount of strength and resilience, I see you. If your inner child lets out a small sob anytime someone compliments you on that strength, I see you. If that strength translates to you being some form of domineering/abrasive because you learned early on that your lot in life was to take care of yourself because nobody else ever did, I see you. If you are so fucking angry all the time and can't pinpoint why, I see you. If you've had to watch as people you care about continue to abandon you in adulthood because you grew up to be type A, controlling and assertive, I see the fuck out of you. It's not your fault that nobody ever gave you a soft place to land so that you could be your true self. And I won't inundate you with condescending platitudes about how you'll find your person/people one day.

Some of us are lucky, but to depend on external sources for your well being is a crap shoot. I won't tell you to keep looking for your home in other people. Home is where you are. Take that strength you've painstakingly cultivated since you were a child, and quadruple it. Become bulletproof, unbreakable. Don't let anyone else find a fault line in you to exploit ever again.

[moonaive]

life gets rlly busy when u have 2+ friends 🥲

[lampadions-pickle]

I don't know how I want to move in the direction I want to go

[aeternalight]

The witchcraft community is literally so mean to people with OCD. I will not elaborate but I will say, there is no right way to be into witchcraft. You can do literally whatever practice with no consequence. And the people that act like others will be smited by some all-knowing god is fucking ludicrous.

I'm literally sick and tired of people acting like witchcraft and beliefs exist in a perfect bubble/vacuum, no you dumb bitch, you're affected by other beliefs, especially the world that you grew up with. There will be no such thing as a pure belief or thoughts on spirituality. Everything becomes affected by one another.

I'm also fucking tired of people assuming that we have to dredge up things or evaluate things to be a perfect little witch. Why don't you stop putting people up to insane standards and mind your damn business. How other people's practices go is no concern of yours, its not your place to judge it.

And as far as misinformation goes, just don't get yourself hurt. If its bad for you, don't do it. But most things are on the table. Just don't do something illegal.

The witch community has a severe purity problem and most are influenced by christian beliefs without realizing it. Maybe you need to evaluate your own beliefs before you judge others.

[katy-books]

My first conversation of the morning -

Mum - I've got bad news.

Me - Is the world over?

Mum - Yeah, pretty much.

Me - We're all going to die.

I wasn't kidding. You guys could have made history with the first female president (who has a long political career and knows how things work - like her of hate her you can't deny she'd be competent) - instead you go for a guy who loves Putin and once blackmailed Zelensky in order to try and gain an advantage over a political opponent - REALLY!? What the fuck America!? (Obviously that doesn't count for everyone who voted Harris)

I'm going to start considering becoming a prepper and anyone who voted Trump can go fuck themselves 😡

*edit*

Could have sworn I posted this around 10am but it's fine to out now - I'm no longer yelling but my sentiments are exactly the same - I've felt a little dizzy all day - this is honestly terrifying

For the record - I don't care if you don't like Harris - neither do I - it's not about whether you like her - it's about how she's not very likely to cause WW3 compared to the guy who thinks bombs are cool (like a fucking 6 year old)

[wellthatsclever]

Not Tumblr creating art of the catholic anime girl getting her face mauled by a tiger

[bedforddanes75]

kinda funny the way it takes me so long to write because when other people do it they spit out some 30k masterpiece that could outrank above shakespeare and mary shelley and charles dickens but when i do it its just regular and maybe less than the usual quality. i love words