#i do not know how that happened XD

[barlowstreet]

the last of us text posts - part sixteen - Oops All Joel Volume 2 edition

(part fifteen) (part fourteen) (part thirteen) (part twelve) (part eleven) (part ten) (part nine) (part eight) (part seven) (part six and a half) (part six) (part five) (part four) (part three) (part two) (part one)

+ My bonus headcanon

[7goodangel]

Me, several years ago: "I'll never try digital 3D art... just have no interest to learn it. Already have learned other art forms that I barely use anyway... so why add to that ?..."

Me, currently: [Is attempting to model a donut in Blender] "... uh... I can explain..."

[front-facing-pokemon]

[skyloftian-nutcase]

I'm looking at the Zora May prompts and wanna write stuff, and now my brain's just giggling with ideas LOL like--

Imagine, after Age of Calamity, that Link and Mipha get together. That has its whole set of fun and drama - a Hylian/Zora marriage would mean a lot anyway, but particularly when it's the Zora princess and the Hero of Hyrule. Link and Mipha start to have a family, Zelda is settling into being queen, and they all have their own set of stressors and joys and the three are still besties and it would be just so funny to see y'all. Like... Link takes his oath as a knight seriously, so he still assists Hyrule often, and just this scenario in my head came and--

Zelda, sighing: I hardly slept last night. I was up late researching the latest Zonai discoveries and almost forgot I had a meeting with the Rito delegation this morning. I'm so tired.

Link, hair a mess, on his third cup of coffee after dealing with one of his kids having a meltdown while the other kept everyone up crying all night, dealing with Mipha also trying to do royal duties, having just teleported over here via Sheikah towers: .....That sounds rough.

[wigglebox]

actually, there is something jackles could do that would really piss me off*:

and that's if we spend 4-5 years waiting for this continuation – what are they doing to do and what are they gonna say how are they gonna do this – and the anticipation is [and has been] building and we're just so excited to finally watch on screen how they'll really finish this show, posts have been made, servers have been made, speculation is running rampant and the energy is pitching up again–

and then he gets on stage before it airs and just says what's gonna happen bc someone asked.

That would really piss me off bc it would feel like this

we waited 4-5 years and he just, says it on a random convention stage bc someone asked.

*i'm saying this knowing he'd never do this lol

[frameconfessions]

What if the devs or just someone who works for Digital Extremes finds this blog and sends in a confession?

[blackjackkent]

Final kiddo conversation with Rion, who is waiting outside of the bedroom door when they emerge from talking with Tate:

"No arguing," she says firmly, without preamble. Without the other children watching, her strained tone is less theatrically angry. She just sounds terribly tired, and her eyes lock on Jaheira's face and stay there with desperate intensity. "Just tell me you're well."

"I--" Jaheira opens her mouth to brush off the question, and then stops. "... am well," she finishes. Again that quiet tone that Rakha has never heard before, the same one she used with Tate.

Rion relaxes. "And Minsc?" Her eyes flick to the berserker, whose broadshouldered form is taking up most of the bedroom doorway.

"Boo is also very well!" Minsc says brightly. "And happy to see *you*, Rion."

Rion smiles faintly. "And I him. Enough that I'll let him keep his lumbering, sweaty steed inside."

She leaves Minsc and Rakha both puzzling over the meaning of this joke and turns her attention matter-of-factly back to Jaheira. "So. This cult. What's our plan?"

Jaheira grimaces. "I'm not fool enough to think I can change your mind. But if you're staying, I don't want you taking up arms. There are other ways to fight.

"Really," Rion says skeptically. "Like what?"

(A/N: This one's a bit interesting because I'm not sure Rakha has a good answer. :P She is not well-equipped to consider solutions to problems other than violence, and Jaheira really has no particular practical reason to let her answer the question at all.

This leads me to wonder if, in Rakha's case, Jaheira hesitates long enough to let her answer as a Teaching Moment in her ongoing efforts to guide Rakha towards the path of light.)

Jaheira shoots Rakha an expectant look, and Rakha blinks, for a moment uncertain what to say. She's immediately conscious that her instinctive response - ignore her, be ready for violence - is not the correct answer, but she isn't sure what is, and she thinks for a long moment with deep concentration.

"Healers," she finally says cautiously, just shy of an upturned question at the end of the word. She sees Jaheira give a subtle nod. "This place could serve as a hospital," she goes on, a little more confidently.

Rion narrows her eyes thoughtfully. "A fair point," she says, which sends a strange little flicker of gratification through Rakha's mind. "Though I'll leave the herb-lore to Jord. I was always better at breaking bones than mending them."

Jaheira smiles ruefully. "I remember. The very reason Jord had so many patients to hone his craft on."

There's a long, strained pause. Rion opens her mouth to say something, seems to think better of it, closes her mouth again, and sighs. "If I have to stay home and babysit," she says gruffly, in place of whatever she was going to say, "then it's *your* job to make sure there's still a home to look after. Take what you need and we'll do the grand reunion when you come back for good."

She straightens - a motion Rakha has seen from Jaheira when she is shoving aside her own emotions in favor of the work that needs to be done. "So - lovely as it is to have you back, mother--" she says, a little too curtly, "go away. You have work to do."

Jaheira mimics the motion, her shoulders drawing back, her head inclining in a slight nod. "Aye, aye, commander," she says gravely.

A pause. Rion starts to turn away, and then Jaheira bursts out, "Wait."

Rion hesitates, looks back over her shoulder expectantly.

Jaheira's jaw works for a moment. "One more thing. There are doppelgangers on our trail. One even went so far as to steal my face."

Rion looks at her thoughtfully for a moment, then smiles faintly. "Hm. All right, then. If you turn up looking for hugs and kisses, I'll make sure to shoot first."

A slightly sad smile touches Jaheira's lips as well. "That's my girl," she murmurs.

[tskinva]

hello, ra'stils. i will probably be a little active here tomorrow evening, but then i’m going out of town friday, saturday, and sunday—so activity will be scarce during those days, if i manage to be here at all. but i will be more active here starting monday, i just couldn’t wait to get this up and running lol.

CONSIDER THIS A FRESH ASS STARTER CALL !!

[amethystina]

Hi, I hope you're doing better! I was wondering what your take would be on Yohan's reaction to Ga On if he slipped into a coma after a serious attack or something. Because obviously there would be some abyss shenanigans, but do you think he'd be split into wanting to hover and protect Ga On while he's asleep or just getting revenge? Which do you think he'd prioritise and what do you think he'd be thinking?

I also just wanted to let you know that I find your work amazing, especially Who Holds the Devil and The Gentle Light. You mention how you're worried about letting us down with it, but I think you forget how much you've already given. It's not that we're expecting something and that you could disappoint us, but it is what you do that makes us love it more. The way you think and write are incredible, as is your perspective on the characters and their interactions. Thank you so much for all your hard work and effort!

Oooooh! That's a really interesting question! I think my answer, at least when it comes to the finer nuances, would depend on a) when this happens (i.e. during or post canon), b) if they know who might be behind it (because during canon it would be easy to assume it's Jung Sun Ah or the like) and c) what their relationship is at the time (i.e. are they still just coworkers or are they in a romantic relationship).

But, in broad strokes, I think Yo Han would prioritise getting revenge. Not because he doesn't feel a need to hover — he definitely would — but because he's a pragmatic, efficient, and goal-oriented person down to his core. Meaning that as soon as it's established that Ga On is in a coma and that there's nothing Yo Han can do to help him, Yo Han will admit that his time is best spent elsewhere.

After making sure that Ga On has the best care money can buy and bodyguards to protect him, of course.

The thing about Yo Han is that he can look past his own emotions and focus on what needs to be done in a way — and on a level — that few are capable of. Which at times makes him look rather unsympathetic, sure, but is honestly one of the ways he shows concern. Like, to him, just sitting there waiting for Ga On to wake up would probably feel like an insult to Ga On and Yo Han's devotion to him. Yo Han's instincts would tell him to DO something about it instead but, since he's not a doctor, his presence in Ga On's hospital room makes no difference whatsoever. Which means he'd decide it's better for him to focus on trying to catch and punish those who hurt Ga On.

That's not to say that he also won't spend as much time as possible hovering — especially if they're in a romantic relationship. This also depends a little on where Elijah is, but I wouldn't put it past Yo Han to — after a long day of chasing the culprit — make a habit of sleeping in Ga On's hospital room instead of going back to the house. Because Yo Han HAS to sleep eventually and so he might as well do it where he has Ga On close by.

What little time he doesn't spend chasing leads and making plans, he'd spend with Ga On.

And yes, this definitely means Yo Han wouldn't really be taking all that good care of himself, neither physically nor mentally. Like, if this is post-canon and he and Ga On are in some kind of relationship? Just IMAGINE how lost Yo Han would feel. It's clear, even in the drama, that Ga On's presence reminds Yo Han to be kinder and gentler, not just to those around him but also himself. Ga On often mentions how much Yo Han grounds him in Who Holds the Devil, but he doesn't seem to realise that it's the same for Yo Han. The only difference is the way they need to be grounded and what behaviour that grounding is preventing.

And a post-canon, lovestruck Yo Han who suddenly finds himself without Ga On's gentleness and kindness to soothe and calm him?

Yeah, that won't go well.

Not in a way that Yo Han would necessarily care about, though. Or, maybe more accurately, he'd decide it's worth the sacrifice to find whoever hurt Ga On. Even if he, deep down, would know that, no, Ga On would NOT agree with that. Ga On wouldn't want him to put himself or his humanity at risk. But that's not the same as actually having Ga On there to tell him to stop.

Like, to be honest with you, I think Yo Han might even end up being extra reckless and violent because some part of him hopes that means Ga On will come back to him sooner. As if he can force Ga On to wake up simply by doing the thing he knows Ga On hates. Maybe he's even punishing Ga On a little?

"Look at what you made me do, Ga On-ah, when you're not here to stop me."

"If you don't wake up soon, I'll do something even worse."

"This is what happens when you leave me."

Which isn't reasonable (or healthy) by any means — especially for such a calm and collected person as Yo Han — but he's also a frightened, abused child who never got to develop his emotions and social skills in a good way.

He's never been in love before.

He'd be so scared.

And desperation makes us unreasonable, especially when we're afraid we might lose someone we love. He'd grasp for whatever stability he can, especially since his usual anchor isn't there anymore. He'd look fine on the outside but, on the inside, he'd be a mess. There would be fear and pain and anger and helplessness and sorrow and hope and longing. And he wouldn't really know how to deal with all of that since, at that point, he's probably gotten used to processing most of his feelings with Ga On's — knowing and unknowing — help.

Yo Han, like many children with his history, is very adept at regulating his own emotions, mainly because he had to as a survival tactic. He probably learned from a young age which ones he was allowed to show and all the other ones were suppressed until he was out of his father's reach. He's also good at reading a room since that, too, is necessary for survival in a violent household. Granted that Yo Han now mostly uses those skills to manipulate and intimidate people, but he is well aware of emotions, how to curb them, how to influence them, and how to use them to his advantage.

What he doesn't know is how to process them in a normal and healthy way. But, in the drama, we see him begin to test the waters when it comes to using Ga On as a sounding board. He says things, sees how Ga On reacts, and gets clues on how a more well-adjusted person would process that information. And I think that's something Yo Han would continue doing, bouncing his emotions off of Ga On to see what's actually a reasonable reaction.

But, more importantly, to get validation. To see, with his own eyes, that his fear, hurt, anger, pain etc. is valid. Ga On feels it too, just from hearing of Yo Han's trauma so, clearly, it mustn't be wrong for Yo Han to feel that, too. It doesn't make him weak. He's allowed to feel that way.

I think that Ga On would become Yo Han's emotional lodestar. Which I wouldn't call healthy, exactly, but what about their relationship is? x'D

ANYWAY. The delicious consequence of this is, of course, that Yo Han is left directionless and adrift, with no way to properly handle all the very intense emotions he's feeling. And that probably means that when Ga On finally wakes up again (be it weeks or months later) Yo Han will be in such a state that the moment Ga On hugs him, he'll break.

Or, well, as close to breaking as you can get when you're Kang Yo Han.

All the emotions will come rushing to the surface since his brain just recognised that the person who usually helps him deal with all of that is back and so now it's safe to let it out, right?

Yo Han vehemently disagrees, I'm sure, because he's got a reputation to uphold! And he can't just suddenly break down in his sugar baby's arms! Especially since said sugar baby just woke from a coma and is still weak! This is so inconvenient!

Unfortunately, he doesn't have much of a choice.

Sucks to be you, Yo Han.

But at least he has Ga On there to hold him, kiss him, and make it better?

SO YEAH. Something like that, I guess? I think Yo Han would be HELLA worried but is also too goal-oriented not to choose to focus on revenge. He'd probably become incredibly restless if he didn't.

Thank you so much for your kind words 💜 To be honest with you, I often forget what I've already written. Not literally (I remember it with surprising accuracy a lot of the time) but it's sometimes difficult to remember that I've already written 400k when I always have to focus on posting the next chapter and then the next chapter and then the next chapter. I rarely get the time to sit down and just revel in what I've already written? Especially since I want the story to continue just as much as the rest of you.

And while the majority of the comments are absolutely lovely, I do sometimes get ones demanding new chapters or ones questioning the choices I make in the story (especially the length). They're definitely in a minority so far, but that doesn't stop the fear that, sooner or later, they'll become the majority.

And, more than anything, I fear the moment when I'll write a bad chapter. I don't even know what would constitute a bad chapter or what I would have to do for it to become one, but I'm still afraid of it.

Which probably isn't reasonable, but since when are our anxiety brains reasonable?

So I try my best not to think about it, and receiving such kind messages as yours definitely helps. Thank you 💜 I'm so very glad to hear that you like my works, especially my takes on the characters since that is (perhaps not so surprisingly) something I put a lot of effort into and take a lot of pride in, too. I LOVE these characters and want to do them justice by writing them as best I can, even if that means the fic ends up being the behemoth it now is because they cannot move faster than a glacier x'D

So yeah. Thank you so, so much. Both for the fun question and the encouragement. It means a lot to me :)

[longagoitwastuesday]

I have learnt things about Geto that I wish I could unlearn

[seraph-sar]

A short and sweet comic that takes place in the universe of my fanfic "Homecoming"

Merry Christmas, everyone!

[moisette]

I'm not sure how to feel about Windows of Opportunity. I know it can be annoying to chase someone that has it but I also like using it as Survivor. I know you can memorize spawns - I see Otz talk about it a lot and I try to remember where stuff is but...I struggle a lot with my memory. I used Small Game for totems for a long time and it actually helped me memorize locations ._. I wasn't trying to memorize them - it was a side effect, I guess. I'm hoping maybe Windows will do the same.

[sunshinenextdoor]

Letter Prompts! Give me the [ Mistake ] letter! :> That one sounds like it can be fun!

((Tried to make it open so that anyone can join in if they would want to:> ))

Someone woke up to find a mysterious letter in their mailbox. It's soft to the touch and ornated with green leave stickers, sealed with a beautiful light teal wax seal that has a wind chime flower stamped into it. They find it a bit strange at first, as they have never gotten any kind of mail like this before, but went on to opening it nonetheless. Since it could only be meant for them, right?

As their hands go on to open the neatly decorated case, they get slapped by an intense smell of lotus honey and probably some kind of hibiscus and lavender scented perfume, just oozing out of the slightly crampled paper inside. "Wow, okay, this is getting *really* weird" they probably think to themselves.

A few minutes later, after the intense aroma wears off, it may be possible to read it afterall! The letter reads as followed:

"Oh my Dearest, Only Love, my heart aches to be with you again. I miss every little breath, every warming glimpse you give to me. It's only been a day, but I already feel the urge to feel the touch of your fingers, the imprint they make on my skin as they burn, and how they get hotter as your blush grows on your body when I embrace you. I know I act coy, and I'm a jerk sometimes, but in reality, you are the only one who ever saw me this way, and the thought of it makes me drunk. No one can know of our relationship, for they don't understand, but I still want to pursue your love, for it is sweeter than honey, and truer than any word Nivara could say in a thousand years. (Please don't tell her I said that..) Ahem, I wish to meet up in secret again, unknown from the world. I'll be waiting for you by night. I need to feel your warmth again.

- Wesley"

Well. Seems like someone's in big trouble at the Nel'Vari post office! Maybe try to find the person who this could be addressed to?

[dragoninahumancostume]

My favorite part of being alive is that I've never felt welcome in any space except for that one year when I thought I was a non-binary bisexual asexual girl when I was 13 :)

[hauntingblue]

Jinbe not even on the crew yet and already talking about sacrificing himself for his captain... insane

[brown-little-robin]

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