#i didnt want the script right away i kind of need to do my research omg wait i said prozac no she wants to prescribe me zoloft
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12thgirl · 5 years ago
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Mmmm yesterday
#i just gotta talk for a minute#i like. properly got diagnosed with depression yesterday and that was really scary#to hear it out loud from a professional and realize its real and not just the way i am#for years i have been like...not unconfortavle with the d-word but just very conscious of it and tried to not use it for myself becahse#because i always felt like i was appropriating something and mever wanted to claim i was depressed#but i AM#it was like. incredibly validating to have someone hear all my problems and tell me it doesnt just have to be like that#i always avoided calling things my depression meals or saying something had cured my depression as a joke because it felt unfair to the#the people who were actually dealing with it#and after the appointment i went and cried in the bathroom for twenty minutes just because the realization really hit me#ISK LIKE i always knew i had issues w mental health i just never thought it was actually depression i thought it was something else idk i j#i just never let myself think about mysef WITH depression and yesterday and also this morning it just keeps hitting me#ill be doing whatever and my brain just goes ‘i cant believe im depressed’ like not to sound gross but i never thought that would be me#dont get me wrong god it feels so good to not think that its just my fault for not being able to cope with life#but god it really was so hard to answer all those questions we talked for almost an hour and i was choked up by the time i sat down in the c#in the chair and i cried for probably half the session#she wanted to prescribe me prozac which was. wow. im not afraif of medication ive been aware of and around mental health issues all my life#i just never thought it would HAPPEN to me like i never thought i was bad enough because i could always function#but holy shit having someone tell me it isnt supposed to be like this and it can be FIXED (maybe). wow.#i didnt want the script right away i kind of need to do my research omg wait i said prozac no she wants to prescribe me zoloft#yeah i m gonna do my research and i have to book a counselling session and get blood work done and then in three weeks i have a follow up ap#appointment to see how the sessions helped and if i still want to try medication#because like. thats an option for me now?? its still crazy to me even though it shouldnt be because it makes SENSE god i have been dealing w#with this for SO LONG imagine if i had forced myself to get help sooner holy shit#its been one experience talking to a doctor and i feel hopeful u know#anyway ive lost track of what i said and what i wanted to say so im done but pls like if u read thnx#screams#oh i just want to add that i have no idea how to breach this subject with my parents. they have so much going on and i KNOW they are going t#to blame themselvesand i cant deal with that u know ive spent years carrying their emotional burdens for them#and i need them to just let this be about me
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laissezferre · 6 years ago
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the terror (2018), last 3 eps
this is primarily for @corinthes, whom i’ve been yelling at for the past few days bc of this show. it got a bit lengthy and and i doubt you’d enjoy reading this from the chat box. spoilers beware for anyone curious enough.
i feel like episode 8 is the calm before the shitstorm that is ep 9-10 and it certainly has the feel of a filler episode, but i love it nonetheless. people talk! people have lines and are given the time to deliver them! francis and james have this important conversation even before the credits roll and that makes it all the more important. i love this scene; i see what you mean about how it belongs to a stage. it's just two guys having a heartfelt convo, beautifully acted. when the camera goes further and shows them standing apart, right in the middle of the frame, in this vast wasteland, looking at each other and having an understanding--gaawwd.
tobias's delivery of "i would like that very much" was so good! so vulnerable and open and hopeful. even now, he needs validation and it's important that he gets it from francis. and francis--having labeled the ship as a confessor--fills the ships' gap and becomes the confessor for everyone apparently. and at this point, he's reached god-like zen bc seriously he looks so put together after everyone's spilled their guts out to him. til the end, he dispenses "i forgive you" and "you did your best" and "you're a good lad" like pancakes. and he starts calling people by their first name too. and this, coming from a francis crozier who has known to be miserable and disagreeable, is called d e v e l o p m e n t. further on, when tells his lieutenants that if they got sick, he wouldn't leave them either, i thought "yes, i would die for you, i would follow you to hell and back". thank you, jared, for this performance.
i loved the almost-hanging scene too. it's a very looong scene and it's sad how so few shows actually take the time to have their characters talk! i can easily imagine this on a stage, complete with atmospheric smoke and sepia lighting. i knew that letter was gonna bite francis in the ass. i was waiting for it and hickey put down that card in the best time possible. hickey, you are a murdering, mutinous son of a bitch, but i also can't help but admire you.
ep 9 is like one sucker punch after another. god wants you to live, can we sleep, bridal carry, what can i do for you sir--this is... too much. special props tho to goodsir bc he has been through some shit. this show has added so many actors to my watch-for-next-projects list and that includes paul ready. he goes through such a transformation, so filled with hope and optimism and empathy and by the time they ask him to butcher gibson, he just looks so fucking done. we know he's going to die and it won't be by anyone else's hand. i love the part where hickey stabs gibson and they get into a struggle, but it’s less a physical struggle and more a battle of wills. can't believe they brought out the bits of glass from episode xX. his death was so beautifully shot. first, from where he sits still and looks in the direction of the camera while the tent canvass behind him thrashes wildly. that was hauntingly beautiful. then when he cuts his wrists but we can't see his face, only his spasms. and then when he pictures the flowers and shells. that broke me. he was a science man to the death.
i have words for jopson but i will reserve them for ep 10.
francis gave a service for james but they did it alone. ok then! fuck me up some more! this, plus blankly's revelation that he's gonna die soon, chips at francis' state of zen and we see him break a bit. i love how his voice breaks in "why didnt you say aything?!" and then they're laughing and crying at the same time and yeah, there is no toxic masculity in this murderland, just a whole lot of love.
this show like oprah giving out prizes. "you get a monologue! and you get a monologue! and you get a monologue!" and i love it! hodgson and tover are relatively minor characters but they are given time to speak up, and despite their shitty actions, you can't help but empathize. and their breakdowns aren't the same either. goodsir breathes heavily, hodgson is still and haunted, tover hugs himself and shudders, and they all do it so well! how is everyone in this show so good?? jared did mention that most of the cast was theater-trained so i guess that played a part.
i have to tell you that before bingeing the last 3 eps i watched almost all the terror crack videos on youtube, so these last eps were, though still heartbreaking, were also a bit funny for me, in an absurd kind of way. when james fires the rocket, i can hear "rocketman" in the background. when goodsir mixes the poison, i almost yelled "chemistry time!". it's just... i needed to make fun of it or i wouldn't surive the heartbreak. which leads me to:
jopsoooooonnn! the best boi! the goodest boi! the most loyal boi who did no wrong! apart from his death, what's more heartbreaking is that he thought crozier left him. he didn't know that the captain was abducted so he thought he's been deliberately abandoned. his hallucination reduced me to tears. he was probably starving to death and here was all this food but no, he! just! wanted! his! captain! he sees the captain in his best form--well kempt, alert, emphatic--and at the end of it, his captain is turned away from him. fuck me up seven ways to sunday. i desperately want bts pics from this scene bc the eeriness of having a full dining table in the wastes must be jarring.
little doesn't get enough credit, because while he did mess up, his loyalty is also something to be admired. they were hungry and sick and dying--they could very well have just kept on south but he was still insistent to save francis. "you would leave our captain with that devil of a man?" yes, little, you did your best. you deserved to die last.
if tunbaaq is meant to be a metaphor for nature and balance, it's absolutely fitting how it's defeated by lead and chemical poison. ultimately, how we've used technology and industrialization kills the environment--or at least that's how i read it.
i really have to applaud adam nagaitis for his performance here and i do think he deserves top billing as much as the lead cast. by the end of it, he draws as much screen time as crozier and you can even say that he holds the last 2-3 eps together. and you genuinely fucking hate his character. were those really james' boots he was wearing? does that mean they dug him up and looted him? that unforgiveable swine, may he rot in hell, but gawwd adam pulled it off well.
i've been debating with myself if it was kinder and more poetic to have crozier die at the end so that he wouldn't have to grieve or go through survivor's guilt, but for my own mental health, i'm glad he survived. it's a small mercy but i'm glad he got to live. i'm glad he got to see what happened to his men, that he saw jopson one final time, and little too. his survival also sends the message that the one most willing to adapt (and respect the culture) will survive. he tries to follow silna but stops when the chief says "it's just how we do things". he understands and he lets it go. he learns the language and the way of life--and he lives.
i've watched featurettes and interviews for this series and from there you can really see that this show was a labor of love. it was a product of collaboration, research, open-mindedness, and a solid cast and crew. you can have all the special effects, all the expensive costumes, but at the core of it, what makes a good story is Dialogue. i can honestly say that it's one of the best scripts this decade has ever produced. the showrunners set out to tell a story and they did it to the best of their ability. i'll be coming back to this series for the next few months and rewatching it many times over.
thank u, thank u, thank u for introducing this to me. now come yell at me back
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fallbahediusjournal-blog · 6 years ago
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July 15th. 2013
Morning. 6am
I have not made an entry in so long, and i am safe to say that everything is going well. So well in fact that i dont know who i am anymore, to anyone else this would seem a bad thing, it would mean they are losing touch and all else. Yet for me it is a very good thing, i am losing the sides to me that held the devestation of rage and all that bares with it. It seems to be slipping away and i can only find one cause for that being true and that is the human. How could i possibly call him that after everything, Yeti, my love, my one and only escape. It seems strange to read the entries of so long ago of how filled i was with hatred to all as well as the boy. But now i find light in some things, this isnt a time i say i am a changed man however. I still have hard times, i still get upset. Yeti has done everything for me in order to change, yet he is doing it all so understandably, as if he knows. I feel more connected with him than i ever had. We are in love, he is now my fledgeling after mishaps in the twon Krul resided in and i turned him purely because i cannot trust him enough human to look after himself. He is sweet, innocent, child like, if it came to life or death i doubt he would know how to fight it. So i hope with my given vampirism to him he will use it as a blessing in its curse to get stronger in any way he can.
We, yeti and i, have gone reasonably well. There were upsets at first in that town and once things were settled enough for krul i left with the boy to some place better. I wokt jot down where however, but it is peaceful here, its just us up in a snow cabin perfectly snug and sound considering. And i say considering because there are small things i havent told him, things such as this journal. My other abilities, my work, my family, my dreams. Hell. Thats about everyhing, its as though yeti is living with a stranger. And he is to innocent to pry with questions since the moment i sound angered he begins to cry or close too, which i have come to not mind. In a way i am thankful that he cries so i can hold him and care. Care. Thats why i dont mind it, because i feel a strong gut urge to care for him and i know part to the reason is he is my fledgeling. So here we are and everything is perfectly well, so perfect in fact that i will not make another entry for the time, i need to spend it with him. So i wil make this last entry /for now/ somewhat decent enough to everything.
The urges to kill have subsided and work has been dull enough to not be heavily reminded as to who i am. I can now safely say that i do not have to worry for some demonic entity to arrive at the doorstep in order to drag me back for another shift. I havent explained wholey what i do and i believe this is the time for it since i will not regret it later due to yetis company. By the way he is asleep by the bed. I am merely an armchair away and using my ability in order to be as quiet as possible. It is quite hilarious seeing his reaction every time i appear with no noise or quick to get to other places.... but any who. I have a lot of business lines that i attend, i like to jumble it up. Nowadays they call me something of a workaholic, i dont think i remember a time before now that i hadnt spent a day without a business paper in hand. First i will start with more human of jobs, i own three fashion outlets, yes i know, how odd for an assasin. You may think so until you look to the stock markets and just how rising the fashion is becoming these days. Of course i dont sit home coming to designs each day tiresomely. I have many, many peoplein order to look after things without me. I simply own them and grow profits. This is the same case for four other lines to work, i manage military exports and imports for almoat every country, the ones that side to french and america, britian. In simpler terms i handle a lot of 'who gets what?' In human military reources. Yes, they are quite away i am a very old vampire, we have an agreement in contract that is beyond a simple paper script to lawyers and such. I cannot say exactly what i do, but that is a good general basis for you. Yes, i also do this with the aid of other very trusted and secreted members so i do not have to rarely lift a finger. How can i do that? Its the military. Governments are well aware of the higher authority to the devil and the fact i am his right hand man, so they also understand i am busy doing business of more importance. In honesty i do not want to handle their play things yet i do. Money.
Now for my last jobs, in total i have 13 organisations to run and mess about in. But the alst are my personal favourites hence to the reason why i left them to last and why the ones i have now explained i don't participate fully in. See i am an assassin of sorts although i dislike that title greatly. I am a mix of species that many people, wonce they find out i am murderous... well lets say they want my help also. So therefore i go about as a hit man, i am given a folder of heads with their location and i go and knock those heads off one by one. This is where i get most of my money since i enjoy it. Who wouldmt? ... mixed breed yes. My father is the king of Alfheimr and that means he is a white elf, the higher classed elves of pure royalty. Not my scene one bit. My mother however is a vampiric empress of pure blood. Not only that but she is a dark necromancer of the highest levels, even though ahe is petty as all hell. So that leaves me carrying all three traits unlike my brothers who stuck to the two. With this being said it meant childhood was nonexistent, i was paraded a rare species, one to be studied and concealed. My father was sure on it and was the reason for a lot of dark days in my past. Since he did not let me study my magic as mother pleaded because it would bring burdens to Alfheimrs pure elven crown. I was left to feel.. detached in a way. I have never once classed them as a family only by the relation to blood. Nothing more. It was because of my mixed kind that my father lay many tests onto me, i cannot count how many soecialists came to see me, to study me and research how on earth one of the genes didnt die off. It was pointless of course since they never came to a conclusion.
Ah, yeti is turning in hia sleep. I must retire back to his side for now. Until the next entry
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comicteaparty · 6 years ago
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June 7th, 2018 CTP Archive
The archive for the Comic Tea Party chat that occurred on June 7th, 2018, from 5PM - 7PM PDT.  The chat focused on The Pale by Jay Fabares & Sanders Fabares.
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✨🐱 RebelVampire 🐱✨
COMIC TEA PARTY START!
Good day everyone~! This week’s Comic Tea Party is now officially beginning~! Today we are discussing The Pale by Jay Fabares & Sanders Fabares~! (https://tapas.io/series/The-Pale) For those new or in need of a reminder, discussions about the comic are freeform, so please feel free to bring up whatever you wish. However, every 30 minutes I will be dropping in a discussion question to help those who would like a prompt. These questions are totally OPTIONAL to answer, and you can pay them no mind if you wish. If you miss out on any though, they’ll be pinned for the duration of the chat once they’re posted~! Remember, constructive criticism is allowed, but the primary focus here is to have fun and appreciate the amazing comics that the community makes~! As a bonus, each chat a top comment will be picked and featured in the archives and on an ad for CTP! All that being said, let’s get started and have a great discussion!
QUESTION 1. What is your favorite scene in the comic so far and why?
snuffysam
I won’t be able to be around much this week, but I’ll just say that I loved the speed dating scene. Really set up Fink’s personality, skill, and face blindness well.
✨🐱 RebelVampire 🐱✨
yeah the speed dating scene was pretty interesting. i really like in general how the face blindness is portrayed with the comical same faces. like something about that makes face blindness both understandable but subtly horrifying
MathTans the Pun 👑Prince👑
I'll echo that. I liked when the different art style on the faces was revealed to be character related.
Also, Fink was all "this is not how I expected her to react... smokebomb!" vanishes
And he's had bad luck ever since.
Superjustingo of ✨Time🕑&Space☄✨
Hi there!
✨🐱 RebelVampire 🐱✨
tbh i did not expect his speed date partner to react that way either XD
hey super
Agent Jay (The Pale)
Hello!
Superjustingo of ✨Time🕑&Space☄✨
Hey there Jay!
Great to see ya~(edited)
Agent Jay (The Pale)
haha likewise
MathTans the Pun 👑Prince👑
Gotta expect the unexpected.
Superjustingo of ✨Time🕑&Space☄✨
Yes
MathTans the Pun 👑Prince👑
Hi artist/author/writer (one or all of the preceding...)!
✨🐱 RebelVampire 🐱✨
glad you could make it jay~!
Agent Jay (The Pale)
I'm the artist and Co writer
totally! glad to see y'all like the speed dating part
MathTans the Pun 👑Prince👑
Very clever way to set up characters, don't think I've seen it before.
Agent Jay (The Pale)
when I read my husbands first draft of that scene-- I was all smiles
Superjustingo of ✨Time🕑&Space☄✨
That's nice~
MathTans the Pun 👑Prince👑
I also kind of liked the knife throwing scene. I knew pretty much what was going to happen when I saw Fink out front, but it was still entertaining and set the tone of their interactions going forwards.
Superjustingo of ✨Time🕑&Space☄✨
You two make for a good team, I enjoy how realistic (for the most part) and lifelike the comic is.(edited)
Agent Jay (The Pale)
yeah, the knife scene was fun. The ending went through a lot of changes.
and thanks Super!
Superjustingo of ✨Time🕑&Space☄✨
You're welcome.
MathTans the Pun 👑Prince👑
Aiming for a different balloon? I noticed some of those slogans... speaking as someone over 40...
✨🐱 RebelVampire 🐱✨
i really liked how the knife scene kind of characterized the town. only in a small town would it not be considered a safety hazard to just throw knives at the wall
MathTans the Pun 👑Prince👑
Impressive background detail, actually. I caught myself trying to read the chalkboard in the sherriff's office right off the start.
Superjustingo of ✨Time🕑&Space☄✨
lol
And yeah the backgrounds have lots and I do mean lots of details(edited)
dylandrawsdraws
the comic is awesome - I still love the wolf with the hand as a great intro and tone setter
Superjustingo of ✨Time🕑&Space☄✨
Anything to help make it pop.
Agent Jay (The Pale)
haha, I'm 36. the ending was hard bc we didnt know who was going to say the last line for the longest time it was Fink.... but then suddenly we had the idea for Joseph Yazzie (Logan's friend) say something. and it worked out well we think.
little title drop-- sorta there--
MathTans the Pun 👑Prince👑
Right, yeah, well played there. Other ideas paled in comparison.
dylandrawsdraws
Am i allowed to ask questions?
Agent Jay (The Pale)
ah coyote scene you mean!
dylandrawsdraws
(yeah coyote!)
MathTans the Pun 👑Prince👑
Right, the wolf and the hand bit. Effectively creepy.
Superjustingo of ✨Time🕑&Space☄✨
#PraiseCoyote
dylandrawsdraws
I think @MathTans the Pun 👑Prince👑 will always think it's a wolf
#teamwolf
Agent Jay (The Pale)
... so funny.
And um, I guess you can ask Q's
dylandrawsdraws
Can you tell us about your process
MathTans the Pun 👑Prince👑
Call the wolf Virginia. To go with Dawn Knotts.
dylandrawsdraws
script and thumbnails, etc - the collaboration between you and this mysterious writer you work with
MathTans the Pun 👑Prince👑
(That was a clever name, by the way. I didn't catch on.)
Agent Jay (The Pale)
really? SHAME
Agent Jay (The Pale)
1. We start with a general outline of what we want to see happen 2. eventually that goes down to what is really needed and my husband Sanders writes a 1st draft 3. I then read the draft and make changes-- rewrite scenes, take away, change dialog 4. we argue 5. and repeat till we are happy with it! 6. I start rough layouts/lettering/edit some more 7. (see step 4) 8. eventually everything falls into place and then we have a final edit pass 9. BOOM done.(edited)
dylandrawsdraws
oh very cool
sounds like a mini pixar
Superjustingo of ✨Time🕑&Space☄✨
That's nice.
Cool seeing what goes on behind the scenes
Agent Jay (The Pale)
and @MathTans the Pun 👑Prince👑 Dawn Knotts was the only character that didnt go a name changes.
even Fink was Franklin INKS
MathTans the Pun 👑Prince👑
Oh? Were they all puns originally?
Ahhh.
Agent Jay (The Pale)
sorta... Logan originally was Sam Addams
then it went to Scott Logan (xmen joke)(edited)
MathTans the Pun 👑Prince👑
Yeah, it's an interesting name juxtaposition there. F. Ink. Whereas some people might call FBI types using slang.
Agent Jay (The Pale)
now it's Terrence Logan. I took the Terrence from a discarded character-- I loved the name too much to waste it.(edited)
✨🐱 RebelVampire 🐱✨
ah yes always a good use of discarded characters. when in doubt steal their stuff O_O
Superjustingo of ✨Time🕑&Space☄✨
Yea
Agent Jay (The Pale)
haha-- right?!
MathTans the Pun 👑Prince👑
I gather that the story takes place in... New Mexico? Texas? Nevada? That area...
Agent Jay (The Pale)
It's a made up town south of the Navajo Reservation, so it is Arizona (I hope I'm not derailing your chat)(edited)
MathTans the Pun 👑Prince👑
Gotcha. My US geography is poor. (Well, my geography in general is poor.)
Agent Jay (The Pale)
between Flagstaff and north of Winslow...
MathTans the Pun 👑Prince👑
The bit of Navajo on the radio was clever.
✨🐱 RebelVampire 🐱✨
how much research did you put into the location out of curiosity?
MathTans the Pun 👑Prince👑
Eh, we just chat about whatever anyway. Rebel will have a random question again in about 5 minutes.
✨🐱 RebelVampire 🐱✨
i mean generalized location since its a made up town
Agent Jay (The Pale)
We spent a lot of time considering where the location would be in real terms
The inspiration of the town is a mix of our experiences of small towns in Arizona and on the Navajo Rez. But also-- bc we like small towns
I based the town layout off of Holbrook Arizona more or less.
MathTans the Pun 👑Prince👑
Holy cats. That's impressive.
Agent Jay (The Pale)
haha
MathTans the Pun 👑Prince👑
I think the small town atmosphere is well captured. The deputy who hangs around the game instead of being on radio and all.
Agent Jay (The Pale)
Dewey! haha yes... I love him.
MathTans the Pun 👑Prince👑
Actually they've got a pretty large police force.
Relatively speaking.
Agent Jay (The Pale)
there's 4 with badges and luca at the station, Logan, Dewey, Russ and Dawn
✨🐱 RebelVampire 🐱✨
tbf to dewey it seemed like the whole town was at the game so like...who is actually gonna call
QUESTION 2. Not long after the mysterious body is found in the story, Agent Fink enters the scene and gets involved “off the books.” However, his motivations remain elusive. Why do you think Agent Fink is so intent on everything staying off the record? Is it personal or is this a professional risk? What do you think is the significance of the rock found with the body, and why does Agent Fink seemingly have more rocks? Do you think this mystery has something to do with Isaac? If so, how does Isaac factor in to both the mystery and Fink’s motivations? Lastly, what do you make of the dreams Fink has been having?
Agent Jay (The Pale)
haha, I guess this is when I don't talk... heh
MathTans the Pun 👑Prince👑
I'd lay dollars to donuts that it relates somehow to those dreams. And presumably to the dreams that the woman in the tapestry place had been having too.
(It being his involvement.)
The rocks, of course, is all a red herring. Fink just likes collecting rocks along with bird watching.
✨🐱 RebelVampire 🐱✨
he should pick better rocks to collect then
invest in geodes
and he can expand his horizons. go get some petrified wood since hes in az
snuffysam
He just showed up to get his hands on that rock
wishjacked
AHHH, good evening, guys!! I've been looking forward to this chat for a while, I'm glad I could make it (albeit late)
MathTans the Pun 👑Prince👑
Or just scare a bunch of normal wood...
Fink has plans to become a rock musician.
snuffysam
I don’t think that’s how they get petrified wood math
MathTans the Pun 👑Prince👑
No?
dylandrawsdraws
can I ask about character design and how you do the settings and prep work
for settings?
snuffysam
It’s his DREAM to become a rock musician
That’s what the dreams mean!
wishjacked
Catching up: I love so very many of the scenes, but the one that really hooked me was the coyote scene-- such a classic, beautifully executed mystery setup. And I loooved all that wildlife
✨🐱 RebelVampire 🐱✨
as someone who lives in az, no i confirm. thats how we get our petrified wood.
MathTans the Pun 👑Prince👑
That was Fink's drummer showing up at the end of Part 3.
Agent Jay (The Pale)
sure Dylan! which character do you wanna know about?
(and HI CHLOE)(edited)
MathTans the Pun 👑Prince👑
More seriously, birds are definitely going to factor in too, methinks.
wishjacked
Still catching up: One thing I think really works with the comic is the balance between quiet, slow images and faster moving dialogue: I love when the comic slows down to linger on images. One part that I kinda liked for that reason was with Yazzie visiting Nathaniel's house and looking at the rug on the wall, the lingering look at the rug really slowed the scene in the best way. Also when Fink is wandering through empty Rocket Ridge. Such a good way to build tension, improve pacing, and draw attention to the art. So good
Superjustingo of ✨Time🕑&Space☄✨
Hey there Wish
MathTans the Pun 👑Prince👑
Related, I liked the bit in the plane where the pilot was all "I have binoculars somewhere" and Fink's like "I'm good". There's lots of little fun things in the comic too.
wishjacked
(and HI JAY!!! :D)
Agent Jay (The Pale)
y'all might get a kick outta this-- some early sketches of Fink and Logan
Superjustingo of ✨Time🕑&Space☄✨
OMG those look nice
wishjacked
(And hi to SuperJustin, too!!)
MathTans the Pun 👑Prince👑
Neat! Hm, Fink was shorter.
Agent Jay (The Pale)
haha the thing was very cartoony and different in tone at first.
the THING=-- THE COMIC...
der
wishjacked
Ahhhh, that art is so good hahaha. Look at these good guys! XD
Superjustingo of ✨Time🕑&Space☄✨
Personally I think the final/current style fits the comic a lot more than something cartoony IMO
MathTans the Pun 👑Prince👑
wishjacked: Agreed. One of those things that I didn't really notice, but to have it pointed out, yeah. And like the woman just turning at the bottom of the page during that rug scene. Vaguely ominous but you don't know why. Probably attribute some of that to pacing.
Agent Jay (The Pale)
funny bc they changed-- but also remained the same?
Superjustingo of ✨Time🕑&Space☄✨
And yeah wishjacked made a good point about the slow and fast moments.
omg that hairstyle
Agent Jay (The Pale)
oh totally Super... we changed the look really bc the tones are much darker. The story helped determine the style
Superjustingo of ✨Time🕑&Space☄✨
Seems liek younger/older comparisons
Agent Jay (The Pale)
ha
Superjustingo of ✨Time🕑&Space☄✨
Yus
MathTans the Pun 👑Prince👑
You could include the early drawing of Fink as a picture on his desk. Or maybe as his ID badge.
Superjustingo of ✨Time🕑&Space☄✨
The art style can give you lots of insight on a comic's tone so you want to make sure it's just right
Agent Jay (The Pale)
We work hard on the pacing. glad that shows!
Superjustingo of ✨Time🕑&Space☄✨
That would be a cute little nod IMO
MathTans the Pun 👑Prince👑
We never look our best on IDs/driver's licenses.
Superjustingo of ✨Time🕑&Space☄✨
^^^
Amen
MathTans the Pun 👑Prince👑
I'm also vaguely waiting for someone to call Fink "Mulder".
wishjacked
and regarding question #2, I always get a feeling from this comic that things aren't quite what they seem in this story, so I'm very hesitant to barf up ideas about Fink's motives. Whatever they are, I think they'll be unexpected. I wonder if he has some inklings of the supernatural (???) elements of the story he's in
✨🐱 RebelVampire 🐱✨
maybe they will someday. when theyre less busy putting him up in a hotel and more busy investigating things
Superjustingo of ✨Time🕑&Space☄✨
but the hotels are super comfy
✨🐱 RebelVampire 🐱✨
well given the dreams i think hed have to have an inkling
MathTans the Pun 👑Prince👑
Fink being good with dialects probably means he'll know if anyone he runs into is from out of town. Or... out of this world?
✨🐱 RebelVampire 🐱✨
unless he just thinks hes the weirdest dreamer in all the land
snuffysam
He acts on rock mysteries though. You wouldn't do that if you thought your dreams were just dreams
wishjacked
and yes, Math!! Ohh, going off on another tangent about that scene, it was so well lighted too. The lighting in this comic also really helps the tone. That was a very ominous scene.
MathTans the Pun 👑Prince👑
Maybe he thinks everyone has those sorts of dreams. Could be normal for him.
"My face blindness thing is an unusual quirk, but at least I have nightmares like normal people!"
Agent Jay (The Pale)
lol
✨🐱 RebelVampire 🐱✨
possible but i doubt it O_O
until proven otherwise im assuming that isaac was murdered while investigating something and fink is trying to solve the murder but no one can know cause supernatural stuff and everyone will think hes crazy
Superjustingo of ✨Time🕑&Space☄✨
Also I just wanna say the inn rooms look awesome for something out in the wilderness (from what vibe the comic is giving me)
How old is the inn anyways?
MathTans the Pun 👑Prince👑
Actually, I wonder when Fink was diagnosed.
dylandrawsdraws
@Agent Jay (The Pale) hmmm which character? fink and logan -
MathTans the Pun 👑Prince👑
Crazy theory: Someone is killing people by dropping huge rocks on them, followed by shrinking the rocks down real small.
Superjustingo of ✨Time🕑&Space☄✨
dat crack theory(edited)
dylandrawsdraws
and the yazzie?
the native american?
Agent Jay (The Pale)
the inn... around the 1950's(edited)
Superjustingo of ✨Time🕑&Space☄✨
Oh wow
Agent Jay (The Pale)
I went through several sketches with Fink. I knew he was tall, slender, and had a dog... much like Tin Tin and that's sorta why he looks cartoony in the beginning I think... but as the story evolved, again, I just kept pushing he design to reflect that. He is supposed to resemble a bird with his hair a bit. Sort of like a crest.
MathTans the Pun 👑Prince👑
Ahh, Tintin, that would explain the early hairstyle a bit. Though the bird connection is interesting too.
Agent Jay (The Pale)
when I drew the HAIR.. I knew I had something I think...
from 2013
Superjustingo of ✨Time🕑&Space☄✨
Oh christ
That's quite a prototype
Agent Jay (The Pale)
Logan was a typical big guy on campus type deal.
MathTans the Pun 👑Prince👑
Clever not starting the story with Fink, in a sense. It makes it more about this particular mystery and the town itself rather than one FBI case among many.
Agent Jay (The Pale)
stoic, middle aged, seen stuff, understanding, father figure type(edited)
Superjustingo of ✨Time🕑&Space☄✨
I see what you're sayin
Agent Jay (The Pale)
thanks Math!
snuffysam
and fink is a young, fresh face
but when they get together
the shipping begins
Superjustingo of ✨Time🕑&Space☄✨
Did someone say
ships
dylandrawsdraws
oh these early drawings are great
✨🐱 RebelVampire 🐱✨
QUESTION 3. Despite Rocket Ridge being a small town, the discovery of a body jumpstarts a lot of strange things. Do you think someone in the town had something to do with the body that was found? If so, who do you suspect (or have we not met them yet)? If not, do you think it has to do with the town supposedly having run-ins with the supernatural? In the most recent page we do see the supernatural, so do you think it has something to do with the body? In the background there is also Sheriff Logan, the man who discovered the body. Do you think Sheriff Logan will help or hinder Fink’s investigation into the situation? At the very least, do you think Logan will discover the real reason Fink is there? Of a last note, how do you think the comic’s events will affect Logan in general?
dylandrawsdraws
can you talk about your inspirations - other media, comics, whatever?
Agent Jay (The Pale)
i watch a lot of crime dramas(edited)
Superjustingo of ✨Time🕑&Space☄✨
Any crime dramas in particular?
MathTans the Pun 👑Prince👑
Things between Fink and Logan are definitely off to a "rocky" start. I think Logan will work out that this isn't an authorized case though, starting by looking into how Fink flew in in the first place.
Superjustingo of ✨Time🕑&Space☄✨
(This is a really interesting question to ask a creator IMO)
Agent Jay (The Pale)
Recent favs The Killing, MindHunter, DARK, Twin Peaks (haha), Longmire
snuffysam
i think fink having to walk into town will have piqued logan's interest, absolutely
MathTans the Pun 👑Prince👑
I get why Fink wouldn't want to come clean, suspecting supernatural elements (and wanting to avoid being labelled a Mulder) but Logan doesn't seem like the type who enjoys other people trying to barge in on his territory. I mean, he was stubborn about that coffee machine for how long?
Superjustingo of ✨Time🕑&Space☄✨
Ooh nice
✨🐱 RebelVampire 🐱✨
well and nobody likes the fbi
Superjustingo of ✨Time🕑&Space☄✨
Pretty much
✨🐱 RebelVampire 🐱✨
cause they throw their federal weight around
MathTans the Pun 👑Prince👑
The dog does, apparently.
✨🐱 RebelVampire 🐱✨
the dog is a spirit guide clearly
MathTans the Pun 👑Prince👑
And actually that counsellor seemed to get on well enough with him.
Agent Jay (The Pale)
Emma
MathTans the Pun 👑Prince👑
Yes. I'm abysmal with names.
Ask anyone.
Agent Jay (The Pale)
yeah her and Fink got off to a okay... start sorta
yknow.. hotdogs and stuff
✨🐱 RebelVampire 🐱✨
i do think its inevitable logan is gonna find out about fink tho. cause fink is gonna order him and logan is gonna be like "let me talk to your superior" and then fink is gonna be like "oh shit."
MathTans the Pun 👑Prince👑
She musterded up the courage to speak to him.
Agent Jay (The Pale)
omg
slow clap well done
Superjustingo of ✨Time🕑&Space☄✨
It's beautiful
MathTans the Pun 👑Prince👑
I wonder what Fink would get out of hearing me speak.
Superjustingo of ✨Time🕑&Space☄✨
I wonder that too
MathTans the Pun 👑Prince👑
Aside from an excuse to be elsewhere.
snuffysam
i wonder what fink's determined about the officers he's met from their voices
MathTans the Pun 👑Prince👑
Maybe he can exposit to the dog.
✨🐱 RebelVampire 🐱✨
hes probably determined that dang is he sure in a small town
although he probably learned that from the knife
MathTans the Pun 👑Prince👑
Or his tiny alien friend.
(It's actually Logan in a suit.)
✨🐱 RebelVampire 🐱✨
i hope fink's linguist thing comes up with logan. cause i feel like hes just gonna reveal all these personal things about logan at some point. and logan will be frowny face
Superjustingo of ✨Time🕑&Space☄✨
That would be hilarious @MathTans the Pun 👑Prince👑
MathTans the Pun 👑Prince👑
"You thought it was extra terrestrial, but it was I, Dewey!"
Agent Jay (The Pale)
or Russ...
MathTans the Pun 👑Prince👑
So, back to crazy theories, do you think the Tapestry Woman is committing the crimes? Because she's possessed by her tapestry, it exited her dreams and into real life?
✨🐱 RebelVampire 🐱✨
if i had to pick someone who was magically involved with the body and mystery, itd be dewey. O_O his radio wasnt off cause lazy. it was off cause he was busy committing more murders.
snuffysam
nah i think she's forseeing them
MathTans the Pun 👑Prince👑
Ooooh, nice one Rebel.
Superjustingo of ✨Time🕑&Space☄✨
Yeah Rebel, good pick.
MathTans the Pun 👑Prince👑
Also a nice take, snuffy. I wonder if she's trying to weave warnings into her work.
snuffysam
yeah that's what i think is going on. and at some point, fink will find out.
MathTans the Pun 👑Prince👑
By spying with his binoculars.
snuffysam
i was thinking by like... someone mentioning it
say someone who lives with her
✨🐱 RebelVampire 🐱✨
maybe tapestry lady was abducted by aliens and thats why she had nightmares. and she makes tapestries cause she knows one of them is still out there.
snuffysam
or maybe she's just psychic for unrelated reasons
Superjustingo of ✨Time🕑&Space☄✨
Perhaps
MathTans the Pun 👑Prince👑
She knows they'll want to buy a tapestry as a souvenir gift before returning to their home planet.
She's saving that dark one for them.
snuffysam
she's preparing to open a tourist trap for aliens?
Superjustingo of ✨Time🕑&Space☄✨
That would be a clever way of capturing the aliens
Or not, if they're armed
MathTans the Pun 👑Prince👑
Gotta trap 'em somehow.
Superjustingo of ✨Time🕑&Space☄✨
Yes
✨🐱 RebelVampire 🐱✨
wait what if by weaving the tapestry she set the creature from her nightmares free. and the reason she keeps it is out of guilt and the belief that one day she has to destroy it to destroy the creature.
MathTans the Pun 👑Prince👑
Actually, what if Fink is psychic? Maybe that dream he had in the plane was prophetic.
✨🐱 RebelVampire 🐱✨
maybe. i tend to view his dreams as more symbolic. like im really interested in the fact he has faceblindness and isaac in his dreams had no face
snuffysam
maybe that's not isaac. how would fink know?
✨🐱 RebelVampire 🐱✨
that is also a good point
MathTans the Pun 👑Prince👑
By the voice, possibly.
snuffysam
fair
MathTans the Pun 👑Prince👑
Only we don't know.
✨🐱 RebelVampire 🐱✨
to be fair it might not have been isaac for the fact "isaac" was wearing a shirt that says "This is you"
which lends credit to the dream being prophetic
cause theyre warning him
actually yeah even tho "isaac" is talking the text is written as intelligible. so we cant gurantee he recognized isaac by voice
snuffysam
so yeah i may be right then
Superjustingo of ✨Time🕑&Space☄✨
Yea
MathTans the Pun 👑Prince👑
So it was Fink himself!
snuffysam
the shirt did say as much
✨🐱 RebelVampire 🐱✨
QUESTION 4. Besides the bigger mysteries, there is a lot of small town drama going on. At the game, we meet Emma Bloom who Dawn clearly doesn’t care for. What do you think the history is between them? Does it have something to do with Logan, or is it just between them? What significance might Emma have further along? Another noteworthy character when it comes to drama is Nathaniel. Why is Nathaniel trying to obtain a gun? Is it just for protection, due to his angst, or is something else going on? Do you think this will get him in trouble with Joseph who is keen on watching him? In respects to the larger plot, what does Nathaniel’s end of the story have to do with any of the other events going on? Are there any other dramas or characters you thought were intriguing?
snuffysam
i think emma v dawn is definitely something relationship related
not sure as to what though
MathTans the Pun 👑Prince👑
I'll ship Emma and Dawn.
✨🐱 RebelVampire 🐱✨
maybe emma was supposed to marry logan but then she noped out of there. and dawn knows and is like "how dare"
snuffysam
that's not entirely implausible, math. one dumped the other at some point, and there's been bad blood ever since
MathTans the Pun 👑Prince👑
I feel like it's more of a professional issue than a personal one. Based on their professions.
Snuffy: True 'nuff!
snuffysam
what could the professional issue be, then? because in a small town, dawn's probably had to yell at everybody at least once
✨🐱 RebelVampire 🐱✨
maybe its nothing relationships wise and the two are just rivals. like dawn always feels like emma is one-upping her
MathTans the Pun 👑Prince👑
I figure maybe the counsellor gave bad advice to a kid, who maybe then had a run-in with the law or something.
✨🐱 RebelVampire 🐱✨
but only dawn feels this and emma is like "wait what"
MathTans the Pun 👑Prince👑
Or maybe it was just a very bad "take your kid to work" day.
Dawn seems reasonably laid back though.
Superjustingo of ✨Time🕑&Space☄✨
Lol
✨🐱 RebelVampire 🐱✨
maybe dawn just doesnt like other women in general usually
snuffysam
like she's just always catty? i guess we haven't seen her around that many other woman.
she seems friendly enough with luca though
✨🐱 RebelVampire 🐱✨
it could be more...defensive shyness? like make dawn was bullied in school by other girls and thus takes a while to open up
alternatively, emma was the bully
MathTans the Pun 👑Prince👑
Maybe Emma was arrested once.
Also, yeah, I have no idea where that gun angle is going. Nowhere good, I presume.
Given the attitude of the guy with the bullets.
✨🐱 RebelVampire 🐱✨
im just curious how this is gonna tie into fink. unless they decide nathaniel will be their tapestry expert for some reason.
or maybe nathaniel is after that alien creature thing we see haunting fink
and thats why he wants a gun
snuffysam
i think he'll reveal the tapestries to fink, but i don't know how or why
MathTans the Pun 👑Prince👑
Maybe he has a bird interest too.
✨🐱 RebelVampire 🐱✨
maybe its just a casual thing that gets brought up. like logan and fink will catch nathaniel getting the gun and have him in the car. and hell just offhandedly mention something about the tapestries
snuffysam
maybe he has a bird "interest" and that's what the gun is for
but yeah i think rebel's right
Superjustingo of ✨Time🕑&Space☄✨
Perhaps
✨🐱 RebelVampire 🐱✨
and then theyll get joseph yazzie involved and itll be ultimate cop trio
MathTans the Pun 👑Prince👑
Meanwhile the ladies solve everything back at the station.
✨🐱 RebelVampire 🐱✨
on a different note, i cant wait till fink is boiling in the az sun
snuffysam
ooh yeah, he hasn't seen the sun up yet
✨🐱 RebelVampire 🐱✨
not to mention his suit is dark colored so its gonna absorb more heat.
Superjustingo of ✨Time🕑&Space☄✨
Yea looknig forward to all that sun
✨🐱 RebelVampire 🐱✨
and then all the cops are gonna snicker at his unpreparedness
Superjustingo of ✨Time🕑&Space☄✨
ye
MathTans the Pun 👑Prince👑
He never seems to get the breaks to go his way.
Superjustingo of ✨Time🕑&Space☄✨
pretty much.
✨🐱 RebelVampire 🐱✨
on another different note, i like that fink just accepted the dog into his life
MathTans the Pun 👑Prince👑
I'm a cat person sooooooo.... sure. ^.^
Superjustingo of ✨Time🕑&Space☄✨
lol
✨🐱 RebelVampire 🐱✨
im also a cat person. but i can appreciate someone getting a pet after being followed, shrugging, and going i guess this my life now
MathTans the Pun 👑Prince👑
I get the feeling Fink has to do that a lot.
Superjustingo of ✨Time🕑&Space☄✨
Yea
MathTans the Pun 👑Prince👑
One other thing I want to mention before we wrap, that "favourite panel" contest I saw partway through. I thought that was really clever, I don't think I've seen that anywhere before.
Superjustingo of ✨Time🕑&Space☄✨
Before time's up, If you see this, Jay, keep it up, this comic is a really great read and I love every bit of it.
snuffysam
yeah the contest was cool
as was the rest of the comic. keep it up, agent!
Agent Jay (The Pale)
ty ty
glad you guys enjoyed it
Superjustingo of ✨Time🕑&Space☄✨
My pleasure
MathTans the Pun 👑Prince👑
Ah, you're still here. Yes, very well done.
Agent Jay (The Pale)
i've been working on some touch ups to ch4 ... and reading in here.
very fun
Superjustingo of ✨Time🕑&Space☄✨
Yea
MathTans the Pun 👑Prince👑
In a final twist at the end... we learn that this was all about "The Pal, E".
snuffysam
maybe the real pale was all of us
Agent Jay (The Pale)
hahaha
Superjustingo of ✨Time🕑&Space☄✨
Lul
MathTans the Pun 👑Prince👑
Knife throwing can spark many emotions.
Superjustingo of ✨Time🕑&Space☄✨
Yus
✨🐱 RebelVampire 🐱✨
well i am really pale so it works O_O
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‘Feud’ star says President Trump has created ‘great unity amongst women’
Alison Wright as Pauline Jameson, a fictional 'Feud' character who is all too real.
Image: Kurt Iswarienko/FX
Shes the one Feud: Bette and Joan character whos largely fictitious but what she represents is truthful today as it was in the 1960s.
Pauline Jameson the capable assistant to What Ever Happened to Baby Jane? director Robert Aldrich who harbors ambitions to become a screenwriter and filmmaker herself is not to be confused with a British actress whose career was in full flourish around the same time as the series was set: they share only a name.
But as actress Alison Wright (The Americans, Sneaky Pete) reveals to Mashable, the character a composite of many smart, creative women working in Hollywood at the time represents an untold number of ladies hoping to shatter its many glass ceilings. Pauline herself may not be real, but the creative struggles depicted in her story were and in many ways still are as genuine as it gets.
Aside from what was on the page for you with this character, what did you need to know about her about women in similar positions as her, from that time period to wrap your head around what you wanted to do with your performance?
Wright: I had the good fortunate of Pauline being a composite character. Obviously, Ryan had a couple of guiding lines that he wanted her to be: book smart and cool as a cucumber was the character description. And that he wanted her to have a little feel of Eve Arden, and the ladies of that era and that sort of quirky personality.
So what I did was I started researching Bob Aldrich. We came up with the idea that Pauline had worked with Bob for quite a few years, and that she had worked on the previous project that he had done with Joan Crawford, Autumn Leaves. I came across a really great quote that Bob mentioned, a story that he was interested in telling, and the kind of characters that he was drawn to were characters that prevailed: characters that were struggling against the odds for their self-determination, for what they wanted their life to be. But no matter what the prevailing odds were, they didnt really concern themselves with those odds or focus on them, they just fought through and fought against them.
SEE ALSO: ‘Feud’ star Jessica Lange on the ways Hollywood is still failing women
I thought that was a really great personality trait that would make sense for me to build Pauline around that. I obviously watched all of Joan and Bettes films, the ones that I hadnt seen yet. I read a couple of books about Bob Aldrich. I watched a ton of movies from a little bit earlier than that time, movies from more like the ’40s and ’50s, just because thats a time period that I really like, and something that I could take the opportunity to tip my hat to in my creation of Pauline, since I did have a little leeway.
That was probably where I started from and what my basis was for it. In terms of being a woman, I know how that goes.
Once you solidified your vision for her, what did she begin to mean to you as an individual character, and as a function in this bigger story thats being told?
I like the idea that its 1952 and she was somebody that had a broader scope for the picture of what she wanted her life to be than just being a mother and a wife. I like that shed somehow gotten the gumption in that time period to have those aspirations and dreams, and not really be bogged down with the difficulty of achieving them or how impossible it might seem or how the odds were all stacked against her. That is just what she wanted to do, and that she was going to try and do it.
Shes not in the victim corner, but she was quite proactive and had her head screwed on and sensible, and not living in a dream world. I think its very valuable for women to see characters like that on the screen reflected back at them. So I was very proud of that.
Jessica Lange as Joan Crawford, Alison Wright as Pauline Jameson.
Image: Suzanne Tenner/FX
Of course, the election actually happened right in the middle of shooting episode 4. Literally, the day before the election happened was the time I was shooting a scene with Fred Molina as Bob Aldrich, and I was asking him, Would he read it? Would he read my script? Would he even consider producing it? He said that he would, and kind of laughed and joked a little bit at me. He said, Why are you so surprised that Im going to help you? Shes very able and competent. I had some sort of line like, Well, some men just dont like the idea of a woman in charge.
There was a certain sense of irony in the place in the storytelling, and the time in history that this was set, that I imagined once this was shot and people were watching it, that there would be a little bit of a tongue-in-cheek look back to how things were for women 50, 60 years ago.
Then of course, it turns out that its resonating on a much deeper level, because things are really just exactly the same and really havent changed that much. So it is very timely and important and had something to say. Its great as an artist when you get to be part of something thats more than entertainment.
Is was poignant to see these female characters from all different levels of Hollywood, from Mamacita to Pauline on up to a star of Joan Crawfords caliber, having to conspire together to achieve their dreams and ambitions. Has it changed significantly in your experience in Hollywood? Or is there still sort of a sisterhood alliance thats needed to push things forward?
I think its still needed, and I think we still need to cultivate it more and work on it more. I do think that given the current situation that were now in, women are empowering each other more, and trying to lift each other up more, because a divide and conquer will do just that. Theres not just room for one woman. Theres enough of the pie for everybody. Even for actresses.
When we get that through our head that were not all competing for this one top spot, theres just not just one of these places, there is enough for everybody. Then if we can understand that more, and band together, and lift each other up to support each other more, everybody wins.
SEE ALSO: Meet the woman behind ‘Feud’s’ most fascinating character
I think its something that feels like its a movement thats happening now, in no small part thanks to the person that is the president now. I feel like weve had this great unity amongst women at the moment, in every walk of life. I hope it continues. We need more of it. We need more women to try and shake things up and make room for other women.
Were discriminated against as women for so many different things, in just the casual sexism and misogyny that we accept. Things like Throwing like a girl, all these expressions that we have. If we could all just take a second to actually point a finger at those things, and hold the mirror up, maybe they will change. I feel like were really at a moment in my lifetime where that stuff is very tangible, and hopefully pushing forward in changing things Im sure they said the same thing 40 years ago.
You clearly leaned into your research. What were the great takeaways of studying all those classic era films?
Theres no negative takeaway at all. Its fabulous entertainment. I dont know how many times I watched The Women, the original one the excellent one, not the dreadful remake. The one from 1939, I watched that over and over, just to get an idea. Even if it wasnt for Pauline, just the kind of women that Pauline would have to have been used to being around. Its very specific that she could hold her own against anybody, but she wasnt a wallflower. Shes got her own wit, and cheekiness about her.
I read a lot of their biographies too, I saw all of their interviews. I tried to read anything about any women that worked in the studio system and what it was like to have to shuttle between departments to try and work your way up. I read about what life was like in Hollywood in the ’20s, ’30s and ’40s.
Pauline obviously came from somewhere else. Shes not from Hollywood. And obviously Im foreigner, and I live in England. I got to read all about the development of California and Los Angeles, and the business itself as well. Theres no downside to any of that. Thats part of being an actor: the random pockets of knowledge that you get from all the stuff.
It came in really handy when Im doing it, because one day I was with Sarah Paulson and shooting her scene when shes Geraldine Page. She has a phone call with Joan Jessica couldnt be there she was away, so they asked me to step in and be Joan Crawford off camera for Sarah Paulson. So I got to do that, and luckily Ive been watching Joans movies nonstop. So I got to have fun, and sit on a toilet around the corner in the dark and do my best Joan Crawford impression to the bathroom walls all day long. So that was a really awesome moment too. Id like to think I was pretty good, but who knows?
Since Pauline is a composite character, if you could write her ending, what would you love to see happen for her in her ambitious Hollywood career?
As luck would have it, I by no means claim that I got to decide on anything about her, but since she was a composite character, there was a little discussion about what her story may end up being. Tim Minear had a few options, and we talked through them. We had the luxury of deciding what was going to be the most exciting for the end of her storyline.
I had my input, and they took it on board. They chose the ending that I wanted the most, Im sure because they wanted it the most too. But I did happen to have a little luxury to actually do that in this case, which is wild. So of course I want to be a great example for women, and of course wanted her to succeed, and not fail, and not be beaten.
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