#i didnt choose to be alive

[mohntilyet]

they hated illario because he was a d1 yapper who was bad at assassinating people and was so annoyingly drunk and grief stricken at his cousin’s wake that viago had to drug him to shut him up (so what if he was also the guy who set his cousin up to die/disappear) . and also for working with the venatori and selling out the antivan crows i guess.

[bugwolfsstuff]

I will not take any Chiron slander

That centaur is blameless and tired.

The only criticism i agree with on him is the fact that he really shouldn't have made Percy tell Nico Bianca fucking died

[wewerebornsextuplets]

parentce 👍

[swagging-back-to]

call me crazy but i wish we saw even more of katniss grieving prim.

i dont think ive finished the second Mockingjay book, but in the movie esp it feels like 'the sister i sacrificed EVERYTHING to save was blown up and burnt to a crisp in front of me. im kinda sad, ig. im way more excited to get knocked up and have that baby tho!!!!!!!!!!!!'

[crows-of-buckets]

Idk if I've ever posted about it but I am almost constantly thinking of a twins! Garrett and Marian au except I don't think I'm ever gonna do it. My main like. Idea with it is that one of them would die at the end of act three. Idk I just feel like it would compliment the trends of da2 sooo nicely. End of the prologue one of your siblings dies. End of act 1 your living sibling can either die, get sent to the wardens (a death sentence), or become a Templar/circle mage (permanently isolating them from your family), so no matter what you do, in some way you're loosing them. End of act 2 leandra dies. So, naturally, if Hawke had a twin, it would make sense for them to die at the end of act 3. Whether they would side against you in the templar/mage conflict, or just be in the wrong place at the wrong time, I don't know, but I think about it constantly. Hawke's life and the story of da2 is ultimately a tragedy, and having a twin wouldn't change that. If anything it would only add to it

[nyaiiaii]

NYAAAII it's been so long, started thinking about you! I hope you've been doing alright wherever you are and whatever you're doing <3<3<3

CHARLIEEEEEE!!!!!! this ask made me so happy thank you for thinking of me 😭💗

I've been horribly art blocked and burnt out but I'm hoping to one day be free.... my clipped wings will soon regrow ....

Mostly I've just been playing video games :P

I hope you've been well too!!!!!

[linkvcr]

What's your favorite thing about Skyward sword? :3

ohhhh theres so many things i like about it i rlly dont think i could choose one. i love the main characters and their story and the dynamic between them, i love the side characters and npcs, i love the environments and the style of the game itself. i even like the mechanics LOL [the motion control ones. still not used to the button controls]

i love skysword so much, if i had to say what first captured me with this game i think it'd be a mix of the characters and the story, i just remember being so taken with it, and the more the years go on the more interesting they get to me

[beeapocalypse]

hey what do you mean pocketcat had daans soul

[martyrbat]

when i briefly mention cults i want to make it absolutely clear i mean literal cults. like not just extremist churches that are harmful and manipulative in their own way (although got that experience too) but like.

(general cult talk under cut)

going on ‘retreats’ since youre a child where members of your church would plan with your parents on a time to ‘abduct from your house because youre never prepared to be a testimony for god. literally being driven for hours until lost in a bus where they had the windows darkened in the back so it made it difficult to see especially with the rural surrounding. no phone service if you had a phone. where they would wake you up every half hour for a week or two (or a month if it was a summer) and had no clocks. being led to hike miles in the dark and mud as its 30 degrees and then shoving you in a rope maze in the middle of the woods for you to try and get through until sunrise and how it was a message about needing the light (god) or else you'll be trapped in darkness and that'll take you to hell. they emotionally berate you to give confessions and you had to list your sins outloud repeatedly over and over and then stand there as people tell you how youre a failure and disgrace. but no worries! jesus will fix that as long as you devote your life and happiness to him because your time on the earth has to be miserable to prove your dedication to the heavens and to get your crown of jewels.

i was “homeschooled” to be isolated further and because we couldn't afford the one public school, the people in the cult(s) were the only people i knew and got to see and several of them killed themselves and then the cult would spend a hour praying God has mercy but knowing prayers are not gods will and that our pleads for mercy are meaningless because they're in hell. my priest gave me modern study bibles with underlines on homosexuality said its disgusting and a sin and that suicidal people are weak and god is disappointed and how selfish it is because you're questioning gods judgement in creating you since the moment youre created, you are covered in the blood of sin and your life is a debt you will never pay off.

they would teach things that werent in the bible and if you said that's not true/the verses dont say that then you got belittled for being stupid and not understanding and gaslit to believe you cant trust your own judgement or thoughts because theyre always wrong or misguided. youre told you're empty and hollow without god and to purge yourself from your “sin” so that you can be a vessel for him while sobbing at the thought of what happens if god purges him from you because what will remain? youre empty without holiness but youre repeatedly taught you arent capable of being holy—what will fill the hole that is your self without this god and religion??

and again, i live in a VERY isolated area where we don't have buses or stores or anything. outside of this cult and self hatred and this god that needs you to be hollow for it to deem you worthy—there literally is nothing else. its isolating, its encouraging self hatred and misery to deem your worth, its dangerous as a disabled queer. I have never had a physical in person friendship but ive had more than 5 adults tell me how they would kill me in detail. i dont have family i can talk to. i dont have friends around me. i convinced my mother for me to stop going to the church in about 2019 or so because for a long time i would attend despite not believing in that shit purely because it was the only way i could get out of my extremely abusive household until it became too dangerous there too where i thought it would be SAFER to be in a house where a gun is pointed to my head every few months.

like i make jokes because lolz religious trauma ammirite! and its not a big sensitive topic despite... trauma. but like... when i say i was raised in cults i literally mean fucking cults LMAO

[llitchilitchi]

Oblivion did such a great job with its UI, the choice of fonts was phenomenal, the constant presence of kingthings petrock as subtitles and as the player's journal evoking medieval books, the quest updates framed with floral ornaments that look right out of manuscripts, the little icons tied to specific quests and questlines and the different crests that appear in your log to signify your rank in different factions

[botseeksbot]

[kaiaprax]

My therapist often says "we cannot control our emotions, we can only control blah blah blah" ok Jennifer maybe YOU can't. I have decades of practice and am very refined at it.

[felidthing]

i just had a very long complicated dream about some very ooc homestuck kids. jade might be rooted in some form of fanon at least but i dunno

[the-acid-pear]

The scene of Bill Boss shooting his gun going I WANT RESPECT and the meme "aren't you tired of being nice?" "NO I JUST WANT EVERYONE ELSE TO STOP BEING MEAN" are two things that resonate with me in a level that little else can. Like those are me.

[unnamedrat]

aghhhhgahsha im so hungry but i cant go to the kitchem because my mom is there and she hted me and also cant get out of bed rn qnd it sucks to be depressed

[parasiticallamb]

i wish i had a choice. i wish i could rot. i dont want to be alive. i dont want to be alive. i dont want to be alive. i dont want to be alive. why cant it ever be my choice