#i didnt choose the fandom life

[coridallasmultipass]

Just wanna remind everyone that it's NEVER okay to tell someone to die.

You don't know how hard they're fighting to stay alive every day. Or if they don't even want to fight for that any more.

[kryaaas]

There was a post about how Harry is a perpetrator of violence due to him being as cop. I agree with a lot points and the fandom should definitely be aware of that

But there there was also a line of “Harry didnt give a shit about the violence he inflicted as a cop, he had a breakdown because of his dissolution of his relationship, its up to player whether or not Harry feels bad about it"

and I just....what. did we fucking forget about "I dont want to be this kind of animal anymore" ??? Him trying to fire himself?? Flushing the cop life in the toilet?? The fact that him holding a woman hostage and crippling a civilian is, in Harry's own mind, are one of the worst thing he has ever done? Player didn't choose this!!

The whole point of Harry's anguish is he literally can not quit his horribe job!! And the reason why he is so obsessed with his ex for 6 years is *because* Dora (who inspired him to be a cop in first place) had a mobility to leave him for a better life, while Harry had to stay in this "hell", and become a "monster" because of his job

It makes me really sad because YES we should acknowledge how Harry fucking sucks YES we should criticize his misogyny and racism and how he traumatized civilians. But.

People apparently really can not do that without completely missing the whole point of the character and ignore the source the material, just like the people who woobify him.

I really hate to be one to defend a cop character but replacing one's extreme (Harry is poor little innocent meow meow) with another (harry is an horrible l cop who doesnt feel bad about what he is done at all unless the player tells him to) is not actually helpful

[ninathekillerzblog]

MONOSHIN FIC RECS

A compiled fic rec list of the more longer monoshin fics. All fics can be found on ao3. You should be able to click the title of the fic and be directed there!

this is for @fraisaa and the very few other monoshin enjoyers in this fandom 🙂‍↕️🙏 pls write more fics.

My Cat's Name is Jalapeño! by Perkykitties - 100k wordcount & complete - SINGLE HANDEDLY THE BEST MONOSHIN FIC I'VE EVER READ. cough sorry, bias is showing, post cannon fic after they graduated U.A.

Golden Days by hanwritesstuff (hannahkannao) - 208k wordcount & complete - five years after graduation, two heroes are brought together by coincidence, work together by necessity, and stay together by choice, trust, and maybe just a little bit of love.

Welcome To The Better Class by orphan_account - 200k wordcount & incomplete, post-cannon monoshin fic that broke my heart and put it back together again and idek anymore.

I want to kiss (your dumb fucking face) by gingerbreadshinsou - 126k wordcount & incomplete - it irks my soul that this is incomplete, it really really does save yourself and dont read it because you will be hooked and you will cry. Monoma develops a big gay crush on Shinso and his life descends into absolute chaos.

once more, with feelings by orphan_account - 50k wordcount & incomplete, in which Shinso Hitoshi transfers into Class B.

Resilience by Lilac_Demetrius - 43k wordcount & ongoing! Neito Monoma just wanted to enjoy his summer. Falling in love with his roommate's obnoxious boyfriend was never his intention. (omegaverse fic, dont say i didnt warn you.)

Now you know by albanyN - 42k wordcount & complete, in which hitoshi shinsou and monoma neito have more in common than they think.

Get Ready to have a Bad Time by despurrito - 41k word count & complete, honestly i was very very very hesitant on reading this fic because its an alpha/beta/omega dynamics fic. not to yuck anyones yum though! i cannot deny its still a good fic and if thats your thing, read it!

Sore Loser by SmolPidge - 33k wordcount & complete, After Hitoshi's transfer to the hero course is formally approved, he finds himself at the mercy of one Neito Monoma, who will stop at nothing to get him to choose Class B. Unfortunately for Hitoshi, it's working.

Like Turning Against Traffic in a Crowded Intersection by yanderegiran - 31k wordcount & incomplete, In which Shinso's in a relationship and everyone knows but him.

Smoke Rises, Water Falls by KiroAngel - 31k wordcount & incomplete/abandoned, postcannon soulmate au fic where shinsou finds himself growing more attached to monoma than he ever thought he would, but in a world where soulmates mean everything, what is that really worth?

Pink Summer by chromochaotic - 27k wordcount & complete, tooth rotting fluff and honestly the summer camp counselor monoshin fic no one asked for but we all deserve. 💓

Empathy by AuspiciousWhiskers - 26k wordcount & complete, in which Monoma Neito puts the pieces back together, and for once, they aren't just the pieces of himself.

Of Kitties And Parrots by gingerbreadshinsou - 22k wordcount & complete, monoma meets shinsou on a dating website and it's all downhill from there

That's Not a Kitten! by Perkykitties - 20k wordcount & incomplete - sequel to my cats name is jalapeño! i recommend you read the first fic before this one though. takes place when monoma and shinso are married!

fics under 20k words

What Could Have Been by Madame_Hatter - 17k wordcount & complete, three years is enough to change a man, as well as his feelings for his best friend.

Monoma Neito's Foolproof Plan to Get an Awesome Boyfriend and Rule UA by truejoyofsorrow - 15k wordcount & complete, Monoma decides that he should ask out Shinsou, shenanigans ensue.

Becoming a Cat Person by yanderegiran - 14k wordcount & incomplete, aka the pokemon trainer monoshin fic we all needed in our lives.

i learnt to love for the first time when our fingers intertwined by blinding_metaphysics - 12k wordcount & complete, Monoma and Shinsou were invited to a class A and class B camping trip. What was going to be a nice relaxing day turned into a horrible event.

hope you enjoyed this list! i might make a list of the shorter fics but honestly, theres a lot of those and not a lot of longer fics. we need more monoshin content pls can a very cool long fic writer see this and make my wishes come true?

[ame-wa-ame-2]

es milgram is not a blank canvas protagonist. however, they are a self insert.

the way milgram works, es is destined to always feel guilty, always be at fault for the pains of the prisoners whom theyve seen, past the crimes and for what the prisoners are, as people. seeing criminals as people is the most dangerous thing you can do in this world, not because prisoners arent to be trusted, but because suddenly the gruesome fates that criminals meet are no longer just. they haunt you, the plague you, dont they?

es has made poor decisions, yes, but thats because we all voted for them, and also, theyre 15. the only way to truly end milgram is to refuse to even entertain the system in the first place, and yet, we all voted, right? we all voted in trial 1, so now the best we can do is damage control, and i think we can all see how well thats going.

and many milgram fans either blame es or the fandom in general for that. isnt it funny, how fiction mirrors reality? because neither es nor us fans should be blamed for this, for partaking in this system. for one, es is just a kid, which deserves its own analysis honestly. but even moreso, you simply cant blame someone forced into a system for not rebelling against it. es literally didnt have any life or personhood before this role forced upon them, and we were bewitched into voting thanks to the flashy videos. we didnt know. why should we be aggressive towards eachother when the truth of the matter is, the only people who are to blame for the suffering of these prisoners AND warden are the people who put them in milgram?

this is true for reality as well. infighting will only cause more divide. the people we should be fighting are those in power responsible for the suffering in the first place!

tl;dr es milgram is the perfect example of how the responsibility for the wellbeing of criminals is put in the hands of those incentivized to grow close to said criminals, yet they still cant refuse choosing the criminals fate, thus beginning a cycle of guilt and pain that only weakens those without power

[elytra404]

hey miraculous fandom...hey guys time to face something your not ready for

these two

are more similar than these two

and the same goes for these two being similar

(explanation below)

ladybug is a responsibility for marinette. this is why its so much more important for marinette to have someone (alya) who knows as support. marinette loves to design, to support her friends, and to be a creative and free person! marinettes ideal job would be a freelance comissioner!

guess what ladybug isnt. freedom. its a very public and high pressure and constantly interrupting. its not free, she didnt choose this.

chat noir hates being adrien. chat loves the freedom, the public loving him for the real him. he loves the adrenaline, the freedom, the unjudging life as himself!

adrien isn't freedom. hes trapped by modeling and his dad (or the memory of his dad), and the public image of Adrien Agreste.

Chat Noir and Marinette are their free selves. they need opposite arcs.

marinette has to learn to ask for help, that the difficult bits aren't everything and you can be happy even while dealing with like small business taxes

chat noir needs to learn to ask himself for anything. to be himself and not rely on a mask for freedom. learning that if your only happy when your working, theres an issue.

soo yeah uh i really like marichat (:

[jikooklove9795]

With the news just of JKs series, which seems to be the film split from the trailer, just with extras, am I wrong to pray that we don’t get a documentary for Muse?

I just have this really bad feeling that Jimin would say something more unhinged than he did during the Bangtan bombs we got and the interviews with p dogg, when he said he couldn’t remember the last time he had a crush, that he was alone, and he couldn’t relate to the love songs. That telling the producers what he wanted for Who was like them reading his diary, basically that whole segment is sus, and technically debunked Jikook. I can imagine him saying he’s never been in love etc. I just know he would do that. We’ve got Jimin choosing Who, about not having love, and JK chooses all songs about being with the one you love, so I wasn’t worried about him saying anything, just Jimin.

I am wrong to feel this way? I pray every night for it not to happen

Hi Anon!

First I need to tell you this before I go further on explaining why MUSE, the album as a whole does nothing to debunk Jikook:

As much as I love celebrating Jikook's bond and relationship I'm not someone who has any kind of expectations from both Jimin and Jungkook. I won't demand them to behave a certain way so that I get the confirmation my ship needs. Having such kind of expectations is not ony wrong but also unfair to them.

Anon, I hope I don't sound condescending which is not my intention at all. I'm just saying this in your best interest. I hope you'll take it in the right spirit.

Now I'll share my views on why MUSE does not debunk Jikook.

MUSE is a conceptual album as opposed to FACE which was autobiographical. As stated by Jimin and the producers they were following a storyline for MUSE. Also, when it came to MUSE Jimin had so much to share, ideas to give and discuss while for FACE we didnt get that, did we? Since FACE was about his own life and the struggles he went through, he was hesitant and holding back not letting us know much about it. Which was not surprising knowing how serious he is about his personal life.

And something which I think you're forgetting is that Jimin is an artist. An artist who will experiment with his work and explore diverse genres in order to bring to the table different stories for the fans. Stories which fans also can relate to. Stories which aren't about his personal life and experiences. His work is not always going to be solely focused on his personal life. So, try to separate his work life from his personal life.

Also, taking into consideration his situation (his country, the industry he works in) its highly unlikely for him to say "Hey! Jungkook is my bf. We have been in love for a long time now". That's not gonna happen anytime in the near future. So, what we will be getting instead is "I'm single for as long as I can remember. I don't even know how having a crush feels like".

This is the exact reason why "Letter" gets passed off as a fan song in the general fandom. Cause Jimin is not in a position to say "Letter" is for Jungkook. That's a sad reality. But its for their own safety and well being. Which provides them a cover, a protection. The same cover cause of which they were able to enlist together. Which in my opinion is the most important for them, I mean being able to stay together rather than risk everything and expose themselves.

However Jimin did provide a few hints here and there for those who are willing to listen.

And an even BIGGER HINT with this one here:

The billboard falling at the same time Jimin goes "Who's my heart waiting for". Someone whose facial structure is not that of a woman but of a man. A man with doe eyes. A man who stole his heart all those years ago. A man with whom he's happy and very obviously in love.

Have a nice day Anon!

Credits to the owner of the video

[fortemelody]

okay so like… imma say something maybe perhaps perchance controversial and hot-takey relating to sonic. and i’ve wanted to say this for awhile but didnt wanna get canceled becus it’s something that’s sorta difficult to convey through text…

i remember seeing a year or two ago that quite a few people thought shadamy was wrong simply becus amy reminded shadow of maria in SA2. so basically implying that like if amy is reminiscent of maria, this “inherently” means that shadow thinks of her also as his sibling of sorts.

but i honestly think this way of thinking isn’t correct. if you think about this in any context rather than this fandom then my point will be simpler to understand. for example, you can think to yourself “wow my partner has similar traits to {insert person here} in my family” WITHOUT thinking of them as the same person. acknowledging a parallel in personality should not be off limits when comparing someone you share romantic love with and someone you share platonic love with in my opinion, unless you’re the one constantly choosing to say/act upon that fact in an intentionally weird way.

we also don’t really know *exactly* what shadow was thinking in this exact moment, other than the fact that amy’s kind words changed his perspective and motives, which was the main point of that cutscene overall. it could very well be possible that shadow is experiencing some form of underdeveloped love for amy in that moment, but even he doesn’t know what kinda of love that may be becus he’s spent his whole life just traumatized and not exposed to relationship and friendship status quo of the outside world.

and may i remind you that shadamy is not the only ship to do this… so that argument really doesn’t even work?!? sonadow, probably the most popular ship ever in sonic, does this too. that official japanese art/story with shadow looking at the blue shoes references the parallels between sonic and maria i believe, along with MANY fan works i see regularly.

i’m glad the shift in shadamy has become apparent after TMOSTH and the twitter takeovers. i honestly change my opinion quite frequently between seeing this ship as more platonic or more romantic, but i wanted to still defend it nonetheless becus i find it quite ridiculous how much backlash it got for the stupidest things.

and in case this wasn’t clear- I DONT SUPPORT INCEST AND THIS POST IS NOT TRYING TO EXCUSE INCEST IN ANY WAY. i really just think that characters can be more complex than some people initially interpret them and so to quickly shame others based on these conclusions feels very odd to me.

[jakaro]

My problem with the Epic The Musical Fandom - A discussion on the ignorance of Calypsos character

Now that I’ve studied more on Epic, this is a rant that I need to have, and it’s that NONE of you seem to understand Calypsos character.

From age 5, she was trapped alone on an island for 100 years for a war that she didn’t even participate in just because her parentage participated. Jorge confirmed that in the time she spent on the island, she didn’t progress mentally, and was still emotionally a little girl. She didn’t know how to act around Odysseus at all, so she showered him with love in the most vulnerable time of his life.

THATS why she was apologising. Because she desperately needed to know why he wouldn’t love her, not because she sexually assaulted him. Keep in mind, she’s an oceanid and a minor goddess of beauty, so she has the ability to incite love. Not once did she use it on Odysseus.

Most importantly, something that nobody seems to understand is that CALYPSO DIDNT KEEP ODYSSEUS CAPTIVE. THEY SAID THE ONLY WAY TO BREAK THE SPELL WAS DIVINE INTERVENTION. CALYPSO IS A MINOR GODDESS, NOT AN OLYMPIAN. SHE DOESNT GET TO LET HUM GO AND SHE DIDNT CHOOSE FOR HIM TO COME.

most of my sources are on Jorge’s TikToks from like 5 months ago, check it out if you don’t believe me

anyways rant over, this fandom needs to read more

[g1deonthefirst]

i mean the tlt fandom is constantly doing the push and pull between "john is an evil mastermind" and "john is just a normal guy with normal flaws" and i think the truth is somewhere in between. john is a fascist who's destroyed countless planets and murdered countless people, but he's a complex three-dimensional fascist because tazmuir writes complex characters and because real-life fascists are complex and three-dimensional human beings. and i do think it's important when analyzing his character not to lose sight of the fact that john is a complex person who isn't at all omniscient, but it's equally important to remember that he did choose to nuke the earth and become the god of a fascist space empire and conquer planets. he didnt just stumble his way into it!

[stormblessed95]

Hello,

I hope you have recovered fully or are recovering well.

I only wanted to say this because I am an over thinker and someone needs to tell me to shut up. I don't have any Jikook fans in real life so these are the places I vent.

I think I am either the majority or.the minority depending on which space we are in that thinks and feels that Jikook are distant and have been for a while. I don't think like only because of the car scene. Even when they are taking photos, they aren't doing it like they used to do before. Before if one of them was taking a photo of the two, generally they would be attached at the hips and in each other's face. I didnt notice them doing that in the first two episodes but I also just saw a small clip from Sapporo and they are also taking a pic but they are but distant from each other. I know it might be some miniscule to you but these are few of the instances where I felt that their relationship was beyond friendship.

I know I am over thinking it but I don't know, I don't feel as good about it I suppose. What happened to the Jikook that would literally smooshed their faces together for a photo? What happened to Jikook that were always seen hanging out prior to the hiatus. I heard about them hanging out all the time.

Yes they were busy and I get that. Jimin specially seems to have been super duper busy but he seems to have built a deeper relationship with the Hyung like but kep.a distance from the Maknae line so I am a bit confused I suppose. Out of all the BTS members, I always assumed Jikook were it and nothing would come in between so I am surprised to see work coming in between them?

I still feel like shiiitttt lol but I had to start work today anyway. Thanks for checking in though 💜

Listen, I'm not here to tell you what to think or tell you what your opinion should be. Think whatever you want. I'm sorry to say, but I'm not ever going to be the one to talk you into shipping Jikook. You think they aren't together, that's totally good by me! I hope you still love and support them as BTS, and I hope you have a wonderful day and enjoy any part of the fandom you continue to participate in, including mine if you stick around anyway on my blog.

I'm just here to present facts and let you draw your own conclusions based off that. And sometimes share my opinions about them, but only with the caveat that no one steals MY opinion and must create their own 😉

So for the facts, babygirl (I use as a gender neutral terms), for as many selcas as Jikook took like this:

They took JUST as many like this, which are (edging into opinion territory just a bit here) just the same as the glimpses we've gotten of selcas taken from AYS

Close together for the selfie, but not smushed as close as they could possibly get without just going ahead and crawling inside each other. Just a normal cutesy photo

More facts! As for hanging out prior to the hiatus (where I guess now it's assumed they never saw each other not even once, which is opinion and assumption, not fact), I have a post already done about all the times Jikook were spotted hanging out outside of work (because BTS time is work).

Hint: it's less often than you think

Double hint: they were still glued at the hip, we just know they were because they say and act like they were, not because we got to see or hear about it

Triple hint: it's probably exactly the same now except we know that currently, at this moment, they choose to continue to be glued at the hip for the next 18 months at minimum

I have other posts about their dates too, but this is the one that covers the topic I mentioned above best I think

Work came between them? Is that what they said or is that what you took their words to mean based on your biases and previous assumptions?

Anywho! Thanks again for checking in on me love.

Just a bit of unsolicited advice that you are free to disregard. I think whatever you decide about how you feel about Jikook, you should consider taking an emotional step back from them, just a smidge. Nothing that is only supposed to bring you joy, BTS or any other hobby, should get you feeling so far in your head feeling so conflicted. Good luck, sending you purple hearts! 💜💜💜💜💜💜💜

[coridallasmultipass]

I was gonna put up ONE little poster on my poster wall, since it was lying on my desk for months and I needed to clear my desk. (It was one of the Machine56 ones on the very bottom left.) But my poster wall was very unbalanced and driving me nuts, so I just went and rearranged the whole thing to be grouped evenly, took down some excessive OW ones, brought out the band and Alice posters again, etc. Fucking miserable doing this on a slanted wall, but it looks so much more organized now!! Relief!

If you don't have slanted walls, count yourself a lucky nerd. But man, the colour groupings paired up nicely with the content groupings, so that was a neat discovery. My thumbs are killing me from pushing the pins in, since EVERY poster on the slanted wall had to be moved, and some had to go into the hard parts/posts of the wall. But it all looks intentional and cohesive now compared with how it looked before.

[tmf-confessions]

people really dont have a good understanding of hailey’s character.. its actually so painful to see

1. people ignore half of her character (whether it be big details or small ones). like genuinely i have not heard ANYONE talk about how she was dependant on michael as a child on stage and the fact that he wasnt with her in 7th grade and she was getting bullied like hell was what caused her stage fright. she felt like she couldnt do it because everyone seemed to be judging her AND her dad wasnt there!!!

2. her relationship with jake. hoooooooolyyyyyyy shittttttt i see people read it wrong all of the time. it feels like all people do is look at them romantically. i am a HUGE jailey shipper, it is my otp ship of all time, but people need to understand that their *friendship* is the biggest part of them. they have romantic udnertones, yes, but their friendship is what pushes them to be better. jake grows attached to hailey, and hailey depends on jake. also, i need to mention that people are always like “ohh hailey doesnt need a man to protect her!! jake didnt need to stand up for her in ep11!” …a man grabbed her arm. she was holding her arm in shock & probably a bit of pain for about 15 seconds. yall… she was getting harassed and froze.

3. her beliefs. i see people fuck this up so badly omg. hailey is a FORGIVING person. hailey wants to see the best in people. hailey is a kind soul. she considers jake family because nobody else made it into the club from auditions and proved such a change like he did. hailey was the first person jake was truly vulnerable with, she knows that. also, something that really gets on my nerves is the fact that the fandom is convinced she changed. hailey never went through some drastic change. everyone grieves gacha life hailey but she never went away. the show is from jake’s POV and hailey clearly had walls up around him, but they slowly went away. hailey is still sassy and has good comebacks. hailey in the first 4 episodes was also forgiving and sweet, that is a part of her character too. also her old VA was australian so her american accent was a lot sharper and stiff than her current va’s is. she wasnt more sassy, she was defending herself from her fuckinh bully, i dont get how people dont notice that

people can disagree with me, but hailey is genuinely the second best written character in this show and i will fight people on that. im tired of her mischaracterization, especially because people just choose to ignore her or it stems from misogyny (which is HUGE in this fandom)

love my girl hailey i will defend her with my LIFE

confession #931

anon i'm in love with ypu

[kayfey]

DUDE :(

i think its so sad that my hyperfixations are considered 'cringe' (there is no such thing as cringe hyperfixations)

like life series is such a cool idea! its gay, and so so so cool. basically hunger games but with cool ass mechanics. the lore is so deep, and there is more plot if you choose to see it and less if you dont and thats okay. THE WATCHERS ARE SUCH AN INTERESTING VILLIAN

the fandom is pretty fun and cool (but the shipping debates could kill) the fanart is gorgeous! SOME LINES ARE BADASS AS FUCK.

themes are really dark and cool, explores friendship even in dystopian settings. alsoalsoalso relationships both platonic and romantic that can be really angsty and toxic, and how people work when put in such situations.

IF I GO UP TO A RANDOM PERSON, TELL THEM ABOUT THE PLOT, ASK THEM IF THEY WOULD BE INTERESTED IN HEARING MORE (i hope) AT LEAST SOME OF THEM WOULD SAY YES

literally if it wasnt an mc rp i could actually ask people to watch it :( all the hunger games fans would be flocking to the fandom doors

also if mc rps didnt have a bad name (side eyeing dsmp so bad)

[sodiumpop]

i think i'd like to have a say on my langdon opinion as someone who has his name under my blocked tags ☝️ regarding the fact a lot of my less than positive posts about him are almost 90% of the time a gimmick i like to play into (if youre in the house fandom, think of the chase spite? its like that), but i cant help but notice that people who do happen to be open about it will get hate for it—and of course fandoms will be fandoms, you cant win them all—but this show isn't even 6 months old yet and yall are already having character wars 0_= !! if you DO like langdon then thats great!! you like what you like and thats perfectly fine!! i'm not telling you that you shouldnt like langdon, but you simply cant dismiss the things he's done and go ahead and turn it back around on a character who has only been in the pitt for a day (cough santos cough)

one thing i want to point out is no i am not hating on langdon because he is an addict—if anyone is then? get your morals checked i dunno—and i know that addiction effects people in a million ways whether it be social withdrawal or retaliation to whatever mediums within an environment, but that still doesnt give excuses for the things he has said and done; he has enforced favoritism between his subordinates, treating one like an acquaintance and the other like absolute newgen scum—he has stolen prescription drugs from his own hospital to provide for that addiction (once again, not hating on the fact he is an addict, but how he chooses to indulge himself—addictions are complex and should be cared for, but the actions in which someone obtains those drugs should not be watered down)—and let us not forget, "i wasn't the one talking to cartoon animals in pedes."

langdon is a morally grey character because he is realistic—they all are!!! from robby to collins to santos to mel, what little we've seen so far gives such insight into these characters that, despite us not having much look into their personal lives, showcase real life problems people have and how they deal with it; but once again we must remember that at the end of the day they are characters and you should not be getting your butt hurt boxers in a bunch because someone said they didnt like your blorbo … people have opinions and thats ok!!! let us all hold hands and skip up off that roof okay (down the stairs)

[somedayslater]

i didnt read the last chapters since i discovered it was the end (but i was spoiled by tumblr lol)... i didnt want to believe it... i want to still look forward to new chapters of No Home :(

For the last few years eunyung and haejoon have been my companions. I healed a little while following the story of eunyung, feeling like its ok to be angry and wanting revenge on your family and the society that continues to want to keep you in a "house" where you are mistreated. How the world isnt made for children at all, the absolute unfairness of it all. That you can choose to keep going, and if you do so its ok to keep your distance with what hurts you.

I healed too with haejoon, who came to terms with the fact that he will always be overcome with sadness and grief from time to time, and when that happens he can only let himself feel and wait for it to pass, and try to look forward to the next day.

Honestly this manwha was the best ever. I couldnt read this manhwa as a form of escapism because it was too real. It pulled strings in my heart i didnt know i had, made me question a lot of things about myself, about others, about my relationship with others. It made me have painful discussion with a few people. Following this manhwa, most of the time, was really unpleasant lol. I hated then loved eunyoung, I liked and then disliked haejoon (yeah sorry haejoon, i think you can be really cruel and stupid and i wanted to strangle you a few times in the last arcs (i would NOT be friend with that guy lol) -thats why this character is so amazing). But i felt so much while reading it i wouldnt trade it for anything. It was funny, it was dumb, it was deep, it was enraging and healing, but most of all it was sincere. The most sincere depiction of what being a person in a deeply flawed society is, and how there's happiness even while surviving.

It was so frustrating to see the manhwa go in a direction i didnt want it to go ! I wanted it to become my cozy refuge, where every problems are magically solved, where haejoon and eunyung ends up understanding and loving each other in a cliché way, where theres a new home with my *fave charas* and its a series of feel-good interactions. Instead the problems kept pilling up, most of them didnt have a satisfactory conclusion, eunyung and haejoon kept hurting each other and distancing themselves. Haejoon just cut contact with his father without knowing what were his nefarious motives or without this guy facing any consequences, we dont know if eunyung's parents will keep bothering eunyung unchecked, we dont know if they're going to be happy and rich, or if, realistically, as orphans without generational wealth and deep traumas, they're going to end up in a shitty life situation.

And i couldnt thank wanan enough for this. They didnt take the easy way, the feel-good way, the way that would have given them a probably bigger fandom so a bigger source of money. I'm amazed by how they managed to hold this whole story so perfectly. Not a single misstep. Everything they draw was where it should have been, every action from the characters were understandable (and frustrating lol), the fucking subtlety of the developing relationships, no deus ex machina and no miserabilism. I didnt always agree with wanan's ethic or what i perceived of it (i think stealing or being violent is ok depending on the context, i dont think working hard to earn money is a virtue) but i respect how they choose to present it. I didnt talk about the other characters because honestly they didnt move me as much (except marie), but i love them so much too. I felt sad that eunyung and haejoon didnt become best friend 5ever (or even lovers hehe) but honestly, understandable lol. If i was one of them i WOULDNT become close with the other at all, so its kinda amazing they could still find this level of mutual understanding.

In short, wanan is an amazing story teller.

And an amazing image-composist (have no idea how to say this in english). The artstyle doesnt look like much, but this gave wanan a wide graphic range to convey emotions that wouldnt have been possible with a more sophisticated style i think -how will i forget the red swirlings mixing with eunyung skin ? The expressions, the choice of colors, the choice in showing something in particular without giving a clear explanation on why (often haejoon's surprised or contemplative face, which made me re-read chapters a few times to try to understand what was happening in his big head). It didnt feel like wanan thought their readers were stupid, nor did they play the fake-deep style. It was perfectly balanced.

And so even if i didnt read it, i have no doubt the end will be the same. Im so sad they decided to end this manhwa, but i know prolonging it would have been greedy and that ultimately, the manhwa would have suffer for it. Some authors do that : they have a popular series going on, and for whatever reason they keep writing new chapters without a clear goal and so the story becomes diluted, messy, useless. I love when they do this, because i can say goodbye to a story progressively as my interest in it wans, without feeling sadness or loss. But it makes me not think of the story at all in the future, since everything that was good about it became buried in new shitty chapters. Because wanan didnt do that, i know that i would think of no home for a long while, maybe forever,

,like i really lost companions when no home ended actually. Because it really, really hurts, knowing i wont be seeing new faces of the no home characters anymore. I know it sounds probably stupid ; i feel genuine grief here lol. I want to know what will happen to them, if they are alright, if they found a place in the world... if there is something to look forward after all, and i really dread not having answers every monday anymore. and the fandom is so small i cant comfort myself by re-entering the no home world every week or whatever... does anyone else feel this way ToT ? maybe i should participate myself but well,, i wouldnt know where to begin...

And saying that ! I'm almost never on this blog, i dont really have socmed accounts, i dont participate in fandoms at all. But I spent a looot of time reading and watching people who does -without being connected or interacting with posts or fanfics at all. AND i really want to thank you all for giving me so much material to chew, posts that made me think, fics that made me smile, drawings that inspired me, witnessing interactions that made me laugh. I was and i probably will continue to be a ghost on socmed, but i really want you to know that you had an impact on me and i was looking forward to your new posts (and will continue to!).

the "every no home chapter is a test of my willingness to Not blow my own brains out" and explosion eunhae monday of @skiptoyuri

the regular nohome posters which makes me happy to check tumblr regularly @shimamitsulover @lesbianpegbar @luckyswamps @tomoyoo @cloudbends @t0a2ter @solcarow @dragon-of-timeless-blue

the awesome artists who keep producing bangers nohome art @gohaejoon @maxsolosur @jjd5426 @bnnuycafe @ct-bunny @lentl-soup @fartaycat @jjd5426 @prokkoli @moxymaxing @ginangtan

the nohome posters that i enjoyed running into @pleuvoire @homolobotomized @podoro-vines @fmet @welpuu @revertrate @obstinaterixatrix @kulluto

the artists that made me interested in checking no home @cienfll @craysmo @ant-eaters @idledee @fruiitlins @froqpi-art @201918b @tinfishmeal @ohrsoh @30mingirlfriend

thanks @ditherslam for the awesome fanfics, obviously i read them all and they're some of my favourites. youre an amazing writer and i cant wait for the next chap of "your atoms"!!

thanks @homeless202 for being an insatiable nohome poster for a while (and @grannykombucha !)

im forgetting a lot of others but i really wanted to thank you all for your time, energy, work. i never interacted with your posts or with you but i really want to convey how cool it is that you all contribute to make no home a more well-known manhwa and the fandom alive

thank youuuu (hope the @ are ok tell me if its bothersome ill delete it)

and really, really, thank you wanan ! waaaa i want to cry

[elainsgirl]

The most irritating part of ACOSF is when Nesta threw a pity party for herself because everyone chose Feyre over her. The IC (excluding Cassian) would always love Feyre more than her just like gwyn and Emerie would always love Nesta more than Feyre. But what really got me was how angry she was at elain getting close to Feyre.. as if she didn’t constantly push elain away.

Nesta is so weird about elain - and it’s not nearly talked about enough. She’s protective to the point of absurdity. I know Feyre and the rest of the IC coddles elain a little too much, but Nesta takes it to an extreme. It’s like she wants to isolate elain from the rest of the world to protect her - it’s bizarre. Elains a grown woman and Nesta still treats her like a little kid.

Nesta wanted elain to leave her alone. She pushed her away by being awful and then got mad at elain for leaving her alone. And not only was she mad at elain for finally leaving her be, she was mad at elain for getting close to Feyre. She felt that elain being close to Feyre was a betrayal - and it’s odd. Elain is a grown woman. She can decide who to spend her time with - and she wanted to spend her time with her sister who doesn’t blame her for her father’s death.

It’s crazy to me people still believe the Archeron sisters are normal. Being so possessive over one of your sisters that you see her getting close to someone else (especially your other sister) as a betrayal is not normal sibling behavior. I don’t care what anyone says - that’s weird. Worse part is people actually agree with Nesta.

“Elain is a traitor. She abandoned Nesta because Nesta can’t offer her anything. Now she latches onto feyre because Feyre provides for her.”

That’s absolutely not true. If it was, elain would’ve been closer to Feyre during their poverty because feyre was the one making the money - not Nesta.

And I don’t blame elain for “abandoning Nesta” - I would too. I don’t care that Nesta protected elain all her life, if Nesta was acting that way towards me I would’ve cut her off. And elain didnt even pick Feyre over her is the funny thing. Nesta pushed her away and Feyre didn’t - that’s the only reason elain was closer to Feyre than Nesta. And let’s not forget Feyre was pregnant with her first child - of course elain (who loves Feyre - as she should because that’s also her sister) would want to be there for her just like how Nesta/Feyre would want to be there for elain if she got pregnant. I don’t understand why that’s so controversial.

None of the Archeron sisters have mom. Feyre’s the youngest sister. It’s not surprising that a young, pregnant woman would want to get close to her older sister during her first pregnancy. Nesta obviously wasn’t able to give Feyre moral support, but elain was. How is the fandom (mostly Nesta stans) really villainizing elain for getting close to feyre during ACOSF? I just don’t get it.

Should elain have shoved Feyre away and threatened to slit her throat? Should she have asked Nesta for permission to be nice to feyre? What does the fandom really expect from elain? Should she show her unconditional love for Nesta by being mean to Feyre and miserable to everyone else?

idk what she wss expecting when she pushed everyone away 😭

people aren’t going to keep on trying and its not fair to expect them too. yes! It irked me so much when Nesta acted as though Elain abandoned her for feyre which we see isnt the case. Elain was pushed away - Nesta literally walked away from Elain when they saw each other at the markets. Despite Nesta’s coldness, Elain still got her a birthday gift yet elains the dog? Rlly?

there is nothing wrong with Elain wanting to get closer to Feyre or try healing her relationship with Feyre. After spending years defending Nesta and sticking by her, if for once Elain is choosing Feyre, that shouldn’t matter at all but it seemed like for Nesta it was always her or Feyre. Which is just sad.

The fact they justify Nesta blaming Elain for their fathers death is just sick. They say Elain deserves it, she’s manipulative, acts as a victim etc when all Elain did was care for both her sisters and minded her business. Yet she still got dragged through the mud because she stopped justifying Nesta’s actions and chose herself over dealing with Nesta.

I dont blame Elain either, she was traumatised too. Its not wrong of her to want to take a step back from the toxicity and focus on herself and healing. Elain deserved to do that. Elain was literally normal towards Feyre, protective over her pregnant sister as she should be. If Nesta was in Feyre’s place; Elain would have been there for her too because thats how caring Elain is as a person. It’s controversial because they want Elain to be at Nesta’s foot. They want her life to surrond Nesta. They can’t stand the fact Elain stuck up for herself and disagreed w Nesta.

they dont want to acknowledge that Nesta was mean and pushed Elain away. They think elain should have kept on trying and if she did - I guarantee you Nesta stans would complain about how Elain never respected Nesta’s boundaries and gave her space. Its a lose lose situation for Elain, she can’t win with those stans.

yep, yes and YEAH to that last paragraph anon. They rlly would want Elain to do that - to put queen Nesta first before anyone else which is obviously just ridiculous.