#i did this with a mouse on mspaint like ye olde times

[twistedtoms]

[luckyplushy]

A look back on my old art (and other doodles on Twitter.) - December 2020

This marks the FIRST post of many I will make detailing my old work. I'm gonna start posting these weekly as to make it easy others AND for me. And what better way to start it off by the month I finally got a tablet. (and turnt 18 too I guess)

I was not a smart 18 year old, I some how barely survived the last 2 years of high school, and this and the next would become the worse it ever got. Yet I still persisted and somehow stay sane. Kinda. Keep that in mind for the bulk of 2021's art in the following weeks.

December 4

As you can see from the first image, I was using a mouse at the time (and a combination of mspaint and firealpaca) That will change soon enough. Also homestuck =:3

Original descriptions:

I saw this and I thought I can use this as an excuse to actuallly draw homestuck

have this nepeta doodle as well

December 6

At the time I was really obsessed with making homestuck sprites of stuff (and I still kinda do) so I made this at a request of a friend at the time.

Original description:

@SpringingTraps made me draw metaware homestuck

December 8

Why did I even included this post in here? Well I used to be SUPER inconsistent how I draw myself, so thought this would be a good start.

Original description:

i found that pettting gif website...

December 11

I'll be honest, I wish I didn't post this back then. IDK it's kinda weird looking back on now.

Original Description:

It's #FlatFuckFriday AND my birthday??? Fuck yeah!!! 🥞

December 18

I'll be honest. I have no idea how I did THIS with a mouse of all things. Like how did I do it. In MSPAINT no less. Also I have no idea why I drew myself like this here.

Original Description:

fucking around with faking line weight, so glad I don't have to do this shit when I get a tablet

December 20

Oh look Cave Story, one my earliest obsessions. When this drawing came out, I already have long since moved on from it, but that doesn't mean I can't appreciate it.

Original Description:

16 years of #CaveStory =:]

December 22

Ah here we go, I finally got a drawing tablet. I got REALLY excited with the pen pressure that I kinda gone overboard with it, but it was nice to use one. (granted I forgot how to draw with a mouse now.) Oh yeah, if you notice a black line on the VERY top of some drawings, that was a bug with firealpaca. I kinda had to live with it for a while.

Original Description:

WOW HAVING PEN PRESURE MAKES A BIG DIFFFERENCE

This was the first real piece I did after getting a tablet. I'm quite proud of it. The context behind this image is kinda funny really. A server I was in was doing a collab where we drew UCN portraits of our OCs or Sona, and I drew something for it. Yes UCN, Ultimate Custom Night. I was in my second FNAF phase at the time.

Original Description:

Let the static flow.

December 23

At the time, I used to draw myself with sideburn thingies cause I thought it look cute, but I no longer do that. Also you might be noticing a large about drawing made in a short timeframe. Well I have an explanation for that. You see, I sometimes get hit by these bursts of productivity and I can draw super fast. Sometimes these bursts happen at random, but in this case it was because I gotten a new tablet and new ideas where flowing.

Original Description:

This was supposed to be a sketch...

I HAVE LOT TO SAY ABOUT THIS. I was super obsessed with TGWeaver's FNAF comics. It was why I gotten back into FNAF around 2019. But I was fascinated with Toy Bonnie at the time, to the point I started drawing her on the daily. I started using her as an avatar for myself online. It was when I saw a post on tumblr where something made a kinsona when it clicked for me. This rabbit holds sooooo much gender. 🏳️‍⚧️ Thus ended 5 years of denial over my gender.

Original Description:

some weaver buns

December 24

I tried drawing myself with my hair down here. I didn't like it then. I got better at drawing my hair down though. I was this file was named "cel test" for some reason.

Original Description:

It's me!

December 25

Remember when I said I was inconsistent, here an example. I dislike how this turned out then, I STILL do now. The only thing I do like? This was when I started to shade in this particular way. Also at the time I was worried about being too slow, which is funny when I was posting so many things at once. But also the filename was "the crunch" which is less funny and more worrying.

Original Description:

I need to learn how to do this faster

December 28

Oh look a Commission! There's nothing special to say about this.

Original Description:

Shaded commission for @Bunnydudee of Carmen from Animal Crossing!

December 29

THAT'S RIGHT I DREW SONIC.EXE BEFORE IT WAS COOL. Jokes aside, this post was more so for Tails Doll. I loved drawing that little bugger in the most pathetic and dorky way possible.

Original Description:

Tails Doll's roommate is a wacknut

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FINALLY we made it thru December. Goodness I posted alot more often back then huh. Kinda surprising. Anyways next week I'll post January!

[artsy-hobbitses]

Hi! Really big fan of your art. Really love the dynamism (I don't know if that's a word? Sorry ^^;) of your Humanformers and how their designs are all so different!

I'm trying to get back into drawing (I used to draw so much as a kid, really fell off the wagon when I went into college), and I was wondering... how do you deal with the frustration of pieces not turning out the way you picture them? I get so discouraged sometimes when my skills just aren't quite up to snuff for what my brain wants to do. How do you stay motivated to keep at it?

Hello hello and thank you very much for your kind words!

Honestly you’ve got to find a way to love the process, to just see something come to life in your hands even though it’s imperfect. Embrace that imperfection as a reflection of who you are and your development as an artist at that point—a lot of old art before you get to a point where you’re happy does mirror a part of you and your influences at that period, like a little time-back machine.

Keep drawing even though you’re not ‘there yet’. Give your art a little story and narrative so the technical aspects of it are not all you have to go on. I know a lot of local artist friends who just draw things without a story or narrative, and when they cannot get it ‘right’, it inevitably feels harsher because the critic in you will see it as ‘hollow’.

You not being able to 100% put the things in your head on paper is actually a good thing—you’re already able to visualise, your body naturally needs to play catch-up with your head.

So asides giving it a little story or narrative, look to people and IP which inspire you for reference. I keep telling people this—if you’re not at a point where you can freely draw without reference, use a reference—hell, trace if you have to (practice only) to build muscle memory.

Finding a core group of art friends who mutually support each other is also invaluable. I started out a 14-year-old with shitty but determined and lovingly-made MSPaint and Mouse Neopet doodles, I can’t imagine how my progress would have been if I didn’t have a little group on the site who were genuinely charmed at what I managed to accomplish with the roughest of tools and kept cheering me on (I was entering those damn Beauty Contests and I did not care that other pieces were prettier the mine).

Last of all, remember the audience you’re drawing for first and foremost—you. Draw what you love, draw self-indulgent shit, because the best way to motivate yourself is “I WANT IT THAT WAY” and actually clawing to get it that way. There’s a running joke that so many fan artists get good at anatomy because “I NEED to see X and Y DOING THIS THING”, it’s that simple/silly and that’s the energy you need to embrace.

My first year college lecturer told students about my portfolio project something along the lines of “She’s not technically sound, but you can see that she LOVES what she’s doing, and that’s the kind of passion you need”.

So keep drawing to build muscle memory and storytelling to give even rough art a soul, and embrace that imperfection as just a snapshot in time. Of course you can do better, everyone can, but use that as a motivator, more of a “HELL YES IM GONNA DO THAT” instead of a “Why can’t I do that”. It’s a matter of perspective too!

[arytha]

Hello!!!! For the ask game, I'd like to ask #2 and #22 👀

2. 5 favourites of your own work?

Oh wow thanks for enabling me! This is in no particular order and also not list of my absolute favs, and I also went back to get some older art as well bc i feel like it!

I drew this Without references about a year ago on mspaint! I adore these two (my OC on the left an old friend's OC on the right) and I had never drawn them together before this. I actually got back in touch with that friend because of this drawing! They quickly vanished tho rip. I still think about these two a lot.

This is Really Old art of Shurelia from Ar Tonelico! I drew this while I was still being forced to go to church so like in... 2011/2012. Her Linkage suit is so complicated I'll never have the balls to try to draw it again fhdjsk

This one is a streamer friend's OC! The details + pulling off the scythe make this one of my favs. Tryinf to figure out a design from Their really old art is a challenge and I think I came out on top. It was also fun. I had fun.

this is! art from 2014! that i drew with a mouse! and yes its the same oc from the first picture <3 This is actually after I resized her a bit to make her easier to look at, the original is teeny tiny so I could use her as a pagedoll on my DA profile. I dont remember if I ever did... I had a kick of making really small pixel art stuff back then.

but also here's an art you guys will recognize because i do like to open my gallery app and Stare at her my beloved uriel <333

22. When is your prime time to work on your art?

My prime time is Usually either on my days off or just later in the day in general. I tend to use it as a coping technique against my anxiety and it really helps!

[slimy-vore-bog]

I wonder if me being mad at Hooty in this post seemed like a cover up for me actually liking vore...

But I was and am actually really mad at Hooty for eating the mouse. I love the echo mouse so much! It’s so cute! But then Hooty tried to kill him!

Also in the post I reused the name, because I don’t really care if people guess that Finch is the author of An Odd Way of Protecting. They would have had to read my fic to know that the wyvern is the same Skullivan anyways. So unless they were hate reading; I’m not going to get discovered. Besides, I’ve always wanted to get into some drama.

Actually speaking of that, it’s been something I’ve wanted since the days of DA cringe. Not the channel, but the entire trend of reacting to bad or gross art. Mine would be pretty easy to get in the bad category, with examples like these:

(I love the yellow dogs face, that’s why I picked this one)

Yes they are all drawn in mspaint and, yes, I do actually love them a lot, despite them being so old and nothing like my art now. They actually make me really proud to think of how far I’ve come.

Also I never got my art submitted to one or found.

Anyways. The point is that I have always wanted to get into drama with people who dislike vore. And I still feel like that! I would LOVE to get into drama, but only if someone else involved me. So basically I wouldn’t purposefully seek it out, buuuuut if it came to ME I would love it.

Actually while we are here... I really want to talk about how much this blog has helped me improve... Like I went from this:

To this

(and this isn’t even my newest art, just a redraw I did a few months later)

and for internals from this:

To this:

then this:

then this:

(the problem with this one is the dryness and I don’t like the shape that much. Also how Amity’s body looks, but otherwise it’s really actually still pretty good)

and now this:

The newest here is a little rushed, because I was in pain, but I’m still so incredibly proud of myself. And that’s a rare thing. You can also tell I got a better grasp at the shows style as this went on.

Anyways, I’m just kinda rambling about stuff c: I’m just really proud of myself and I need to take a moment to enjoy that feeling, because as you all know I’m... really not the best with my self-esteem or self-worth.

Also I’m still mad at Hooty. The vore door (my favorite Hooty nickname, just a little above bird tube) actually did something bad, intentionally or not, and that makes me mad. Like before, it thought that it was kind of unnecessary to treat him so badly, but when he actually does something wrong AND he’s annoying... He kind of deserves the anger a little bit.

So to round my post down to be more understandable...

I’m genuinely mad at Hooty, because I really like the mouse and he tried to kill it. (I actually really love rodents a lot, if you didn’t know)

I named the mouse Skullivan like my wyvern, because even if I did get into drama, I would probably love it.

I’m proud of myself for once... and that makes me really happy to the point of tears. I don’t usually get this proud of myself.

But anyways... I think I can end this post now.

Thanks for taking your time to read this and have a fantastic day or night! <3

[thegirlfromoverthepond]

@white-dandelion-seeds “challenged” me to everlark this picture ... who am I to refuse a challenge ?

Here’s a little drabbly thing, I hope you like it. Unbeta-ed, all mistakes are these old French woman’s.

Why in the name of everything that’s pixely do I get stuck in this room, working on fucking MSPaint ? Everybody and their brothers know you can’t draw on MS fucking Paint.

it’s useless, unless you want to spend hours pixelling a white page.

I know I need the credit for my college application, I know the only space left was either a fashion one with Effie Trinket or the one I chose, intro to graphic design.

I am no way an artist, yet I can find my way around a picture, to make it fit whatever powerpoint presentation I have to take.

So I chose the graphic design.

And no, don’t get me started it’s because Peeta Mellark is in too.

I don’t give a damn about Mellark. I mean, he’s been in my class since forever, and sure enough he seems to be a genuinely good guy.

Yet I didn’t enroll in this class because of him. I needed the credit.

OKay ?

I had no clue we would be working on Paint, though.

That Mrs Portia would also ask us to draw something on MSPaint.

Have you ever tried painting something on MS Paint? If no, try, you’ll understand.

Got it ?

I sigh, maybe a little more loud than I should have, but whatever. On my screen there’s barely a stick-man with a ball. Yay. Give me the credits.

I sigh again, maybe a bit too loud this time, as Peeta Mellark, who is sitting right in front of me (yes, it’s PURE CHANCE okay?) turns.

“How can she expect us to draw something on MSPaint?” I ask him.

He just shrugs, checking out to find where Mrs Portia is, before he whispers.

“It’s like drawing, but with a mouth.”

With a wink, he turns towards his screen, leaving me speechless.

Draw.WIth.A.Mouth.

Is he flirting with me ?

I want to retort when my brain catches up with my ear. Mouth. Mouse.

He whispered so low I mixed everything.

I’m about to answer when he moves to his left, as if he wanted to look at his screen from another point of view, bending to the left.

That’s when I see his drawing.

He did a portrait of a beautiful woman with dark hair, looking straight at him, with a small smile on her mouth.

“Wow...” I can’t help but say at the picture in front of me.

I see Peeta nervously turn around.

“I’m sorry .. you shouldn’t ... I didn’t ...”

Peeta’s cheeks are blushing as he tries desperately to hide the screen from me.

But it’s too late.

“Peeta ? it’s beautiful .... but who is it?” I ask, wondering who the lucky girl is.

“You don’t know?”

I shake my head. I can’t tell him I’d like to be her, that I would like his hand to draw me on paper....

“It’s someone I care about.” He just says. He checks where our teacher is, before he adds. “I can teach you if you want?”

“Yeah, sure...” I tell him. I need the credits, after all, don’t I?

(Turns out with time, a lot of time, I realize the woman is me. And yes, I let him paint with his mouth.)

Here it is, hope it’s not too bad.

[eye-of-enigmatic-thought]

2019, a retrospective to this year and decade

Long post in-comin’

I’m gonna be honest, I’m not really sure how to describe this year and by extension, this decade, I guess that’s to be expected in a way, so many things can happen in 365 or more days to the point of a information overload, but I suppose the best way to describe this year was ‘complicated yet also stale’. Not much happened in the beginning aside from therapy and support group appointments, which were pleasant albeit I don’t remember much from them aside from drawings I’ve done that I showed to the other members, nothing of significance happened that I can recall during the middle of the year, and around near the end I took part in art therapy groups that I managed to make a few friends out of (though I sadly don’t chat with them often), at September I was beginning to try and get into college after being out of education for a year and managed to enrol (though court issues made me miss the first five weeks that I had to quickly catch up to), most of my memories of this year actually came from college.

College has been going good, so far! I have been learning a lot and my tutors are very kind, of course it can get stressful due to the long days I have and also due to some of my more rowdier peers, but I’ve managed to also befriend a few others that I am very happy to have met. Currently I’m in my break and I will use it to advantage as much as I can to post as much art as I can.

Also, I’ve just recently been exploring my gender, and well, I’m now transmasc rather than a demigirl, I still go by whatever pronoun and still see myself as nonbinary, but I am more masculine leaning now? I guess I might be a ‘demiboy’ but I still feel a bit more ‘fluid’ than that, sooo... masculine leaning demifluid? I dunno, but overall I’m not a girl anymore! :D

Rebirth is still being rewritten, admittedly I haven’t been focusing entirely on it due to some things in the way, but some of that is now gone so really my only enemy is my lack of motivation and poor time management, but even times where I’m not writing and/or editing the rewrite I’m still thinking of how I want certain scenes to go or what things I want the characters to say, so it’s still being worked on! I do feel incredibly bad that I haven’t been doing a lot of my Undertale-related stuff lately or even attempting to at least finish off the HS’ blog’s first arc (I at LEAST wanna finish that arc before I go on a official hiatus to fully know what to do with it), but you can rest assured that I have NOT forgotten about it and I do want to continue on with it, I guess that’s probably one of my goals for 2020, ‘more Undertale fanart’, yes, good, very good, mwahahahaha.

And now, a little something more personal, mostly in regards to this decade as a whole. Warning for mentions and discussions of pedophilia, bullying, suicide, and trauma for the next three or so paragraphs.

(Warning starts here)

My memories from around the beginning of this decade are hazy, but very notable, I’m not going to sugarcoat it by saying that from 2010-2013 were some of my worst years of my life, I was only 11-14 around this time, but when I wasn’t going through awful bullying at school that the teachers did nothing about, I would come back home to a toxic friend circle on DeviantArt that was filled with constant irrelevant drama and some REALLY creepy adults that would do smut rps with the minors in our group. Thankfully I never was a victim of this due to mostly staying in my corner and didn’t interact with others much, but I saw it happen to many of the other minors in said group, it left me disturbed but I rationalised it by thinking it was just some ‘teenager thing’ that I was too young for (because I was a little cretin that lied about my age and said I was 13 when I was really 11 when I first signed up haha), it was only when I was late into being 17 I realised ‘Oh my god the people who I called my friends and RP’d with were pedophiles and groomed the other minors what the fuck what the fuck what the fuck’. 

This whole shitty ordeal with that dA friend circle and the constant bullying I went through in secondary school were so bad that it literally led me to have a suicide attempt at the age of 13, I survived of course, and I’m really glad I did, because I wouldn’t have met friends that through them I would manage to get away and abandon the old dA group because ‘fuck you guys I have BETTER FRIENDS NOW!’ Unfortunately all of that dA friend circle are now deactivated or are no longer active with all the evidence deleted so there’s no use making a callout or name dropping any of them or even searching for the other minors in attempt to rekindle with them (and I don’t think my heart would be able to handle it in that regard...), but I did find out that one of them who was a pedophile apologist at one point commissioned a ton of Darkrai pregnancy porn with one of it being fucking mpreg, so I can at least get a laugh from that shit, doubt she’s reading this but if you are... 

You may be gone, but your darkrai mpreg porn will live on FOREVER... Forever for ME to laugh at!!! >8DDD  So anyway get rekt and suck my non-existent dick you fucking creep.

(Warning ends here)

Phew alright, all that nasty stuff out of the way...   2014 was where things began to improve, I had moved secondary schools and I switched from a mainstream to a specialist school for other autistic children and I found the people who would become my closest friends, through one of them I also got a tumblr blog, and when Undertale came around (so late 2015 to around 2016 when the fandom was most active), through it’s fandom I managed to gain really kind and lovely friends that I love dearly, it’s somewhat strange to me, in the beginning since childhood I never had any close friends and the only ‘close’ ones I had were ones that either kept me around out of pity (because I was a awkward autistic kid), kept me around to constantly bully and push my buttons, or (in this case with the dA friend circle) were potential predators that I thankfully was never THAT close to, and actual close ones I lost contact with too quickly, to this day I’m so thankful for these friends and I dunno if they’d be comfortable with me namedropping them here, but if you’re reading this, you know who you are <333.

I of course had rough patches throughout the years, recovery from my traumas wasn’t easy and I was constantly having issues with pretty much everything from my mental health problems to environmental factors that were out of my control, I’m not going to go into detail on this one because this post is long enough already, but I am much better now than how I was when I was younger, I still have a long way to go, but I have definitely improved and I hope I can still improve, hell, I’ve even improved my art! Wanna see an example?

I drew this back in 2011 on mspaint on a mouse! Yeah! Can you believe that? Whilst to me my art right now isn’t exactly ‘artist goals’ I have definitely improved a lot since!! And I’ll keep on improving forever because that’s what this decade was like anyway! I’m not sure what the future holds, but I want to set these goals for next year:

Create more digital art Finish my unfinished short comic ideas and parodies Continue to chip away at Rebirth’s rewrite and finish Hissterical Scientist’s first arc. Work on my original stuff Continue to improve my mental health Get proper time management skills Learn to do commissions (I be gettin munz lol) Thank you to all my friends and family who have helped support me and stuck by me throughout all these years, I am so happy I get to spend a life with you and I hope we’ll continue to go through the future together, you mean so much to me and I can’t say thank you enough. Thank you to any followers who have sticked by me for so long and if you’re new, I hope we’ll make memories together! 

Onward and upward, and leave behind the pain! <3

[rajlakshmihb]

A collection of my MS Paint Artworks

On a quiet Sunday evening, as I sat in my tiny hostel room, an odd feeling of homesickness was creeping in. I brushed away the tears that had slowly started forming near the corner of my eyes and tried to divert my mind from the unfamiliarity of my surroundings. I used to draw a lot of sketches in those days and had in fact decorated the walls of my room with lots of artwork. 

My computer was already running, playing the good old songs of the 90s. I opened Google Images to look for some inspiration. After clicking through scores of sites and jpegs, I came across an image that was painted in MS. I remember being stunned, amazed by the sheer talent of the artist. I wanted to be that artist. And that’s how began our affair, in the year of 2004.

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Since then MSPaint has been my 4 am friend.  It had seen me grow from an impatient student strangling the mouse, to a cautious artist, who carefully picked colors and chose brushes with correct width. I had drowned my heart-break in dark nights spent drawing ‘midnight blue sky’ and a ‘bright yellow moon’. Some very lonely weeks writing poetry after poetry in Times New Roman. On days when I felt fanciful, I used Verdana.  🙂

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Sunset

Shore

Blue

Skyline

Even my poetry had found shape in MSPaint.

Jubilantly dancing girls to flying dragons.

Most days, it loved throwing challenges at me.  The options weren’t enough and the brush size just won’t make Chibi look right. And yet we stuck together.  I don’t know why I never moved to any other software. Maybe I was too emotionally involved.

The announcement by Microsoft has brought back that odd feeling of homesickness again. It did feel like losing an old friend. A friend who knew the meaning behind all my paintings, and saw me through every ups and down.

I am one of those who is extremely jubilant by today’s news that MSPaint lives on even after 32 years. Yes, I AM too emotionally involved. 🙂

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Art: When #MSPaint was my 4am friend A collection of my MS Paint Artworks On a quiet Sunday evening, as I sat in my tiny hostel room, an odd feeling of homesickness was creeping in.